#aaahhhhhhh im so sorry T^T

[varian-the-unstable-alchemist]

Varian's eyes had gone wide. He couldn't breathe, couldn't think. Even if the amber slowly creeping up his legs and arms wasn't there, every inch of him was frozen as his eyes were glued to what was happening in front of him. He wanted to scream, wanted to leap to his feet and run to Lav, but his mouth wouldn't open and his body refused to move. He was going into shock, his breathing rising to an extreme degree as he started to hyperventilate. No, no, no, no, no, nononononononononNoNoNoNoNONONONONONONONOT AGAIN- His brain was empty, the only thing he could hear was the sound of his own panic, his mind screaming as he shut down.

All the movement he could manage was his wide eyes flicking from the amber in front of him to Lav, unable to speak as he watched him in pure, abject, frozen terror.

Whoever Lav interacts with is suddenly put in danger by whatever situation Lav fears most.

It's felt... forced, recently. Lav doesn't go out as much as he used to. He's been getting worse and worse. Everything that got better just slowly crumbled in front of him. Andrew ruined everything. He got what he wanted, and it felt horrible. But... there's nothing to do but move on.

The only issue is that he can't. So many bad places in such a short span of time and he can't get his mind off of it. He hasn't even been using his journal nearly as much as he normally does in these scenarios. He wants to keep it to himself because it felt like too much. Too much to tell anyone, too much to handle.

Plus, he doesn't need the help at the moment. It's not like he deserved it anyways.

...He promised Crow it wasn't a case of "not deserving it", and he knows he does deserve help. Or, at the very least, people think he's deserving of it. But the more this goes on, the more he spirals, the worse it gets.

But he doesn't want to tell anyone. They're all going to grow tired of it. Grow weary. There'll be a point where they don't want to deal with you or your problems anymore. And - even if he hates to admit it - he doesn't even 100% know if he's safe. He doesn't know if they still care. He doesn't know if they want him here.

He knows this is because Ender keeps feeding him these insecurities. He knows it's because of his own stupid paranoia that he feels like this. But he can't stop it.

...that's enough talk about that. But he looked tired. Looked as if he's... been through a lot.

So nothing new, really.

He sat on a bench, just... hoping that today would be slightly more normal.

He's unaware of what's coming for him.

//open rp!! @varian-the-unstable-alchemist @bubble-steven @suicidal-steven @anyone! I don't remember many urls so feel free to reply :D

[wickedcriminal]

Infinity Train reaction: episode seven

OOOHHH MIRROR CAR

Oh SHIT her reflection is sentient that's kinda freaky

That was a WICKED world flip

Aaahhhhhhh I knew TinTin there was gonna be evil. That was a little obvious lmao

"I didn't come this far on the train just to get BAMBOOZLED by my own reflection! >:("

"I'm gonna explore the world on my own! Im gonna touch a tree or like, smell something!!" Okay that's actually kind of sad im sorry i called you evil TinTin.

I mean just look at her only three minutes into mirror car are chill and shes already babey

"Asphalt, gasoline, sulfur, other petroleum based products." SaDos what the fuck

There are MIRROR POLICE?? And they have a GRINDER??

Oh fuck man they're gonna fucking KILL TinTin Tulip?? What the FUCK??

Also I like how words are flipped on this side of the mirror, that's a nice touch

Ohhh my gals got some mad reflective bubblegum stuck to her shoe :( she's not going anywhere.

My girl's calling Tulip the fuck OUT with her repressing issues and ignoring other people. "I don't like asking people for help when I have a problem." Sounds like a sad pink bastard I know *cough Steven cough*

"Hello miss Tulip!! We're melting people!! :D" "Sooo what's new with yooou?"

OH DUDE HE JUST HACKED MY GIRL'S HAIR OFF WHAT

also, nice thinking-- using the multitool's mirror so that TinTin had her own reflection to climb out through!! Brilliant!!

Who you calling pinhead??

Also... B...babey...

I love her personality... shes so different but so similar to our Tulip. I wonder who she's going to turn out to be. I mean, I saw the trailer for book two already, so I know she's going to show up later-- i can't WAIT to explore her character more.

Now...

FUCKING T H R E E???

[sunnysidewrites]

Husband!Seokmin

Requested by anon: Can you do a married!au with Seokmin where he asks you to dance with him after a long day? Like super romantic and stuff? Thank you! 

AAAAAA HERE IT IS MY LIL BBY!!! I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE REQUESTED THIS IM 100% CONVINCED YOU WERE PERSONALLY OUT TO GET ME!!!! JUST LIKE FOR WONWOO, I CANT CONTAIN MY FEELS FOR SEOKMIN EITHER LJSFDLJ THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN U DOUBLE BIAS AAA also im sorry its been sO long since i did a request!! HAPPY READING MY CHILDREN!!!! <3333

warnings: super romantic, super cheesy, super fLUFF THAT I ACTUALLY HAD TO TAKE A BREAK FROM WRITING BC IT WAS SUPER SWEET!!!!

CAN WE JUST APPRECIATE THIS CONCEPT

MY SUNSHINE, A HUSBAND

I CAN TBEL IE V E

I LUV SEOKMIN SO MUCH AND IM SAD HES SO OVERLOOKED :((((

i hope yall enjoy this piece as much as i loved writing it <33333333

The sizzling of the stove and soft BTOB melodies crackled from your speakers, the only sounds that drifted from the kitchen

You were humming along to the harmonies, the cute pastel pink apron Seokmin bought for you last month wrapped securely around your waist as you twirled with a spatula in one hand but u didnt twirl that much ok pls dont burn the house down

You were about to reach the peak of the song when the familiar bell rang

You glanced at the clock and smiled to yourself

“7, just as expected”

You quickly wiped your hands on a nearby towel and scurried off to the front door

“Welcome home, honey!!!” you chirped

He had a slightly worn out smile but the second he laid eyes on you, his eyes lit up and the tired grin became the embodiment of the sun and blinded you lmao i luv death!!!

“AaAhHhHhHH, who’s this cutie pie??!!??!” he says with his pearly whites displaying and bear hugs you, rocking you back and forth can he just be a model for all toothpaste commercials

Im dead do u hEAR ME IM DEAD

Your face is squished into his chest and he keeps cooing at you like

“SEOKMIN P L S WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR YEARS ALREADY!!!!” you laugh, wrapping your arms around him awwwwwww :’)))))))))))))))))))))))

“YOU’RE JUST TOO CUTE <333333333333”

Gives you quick but a lOT of pecks on the head, cheeks, literally scattered every inch of your face

“Omg seokmin,,,, pls you are too much!!! But i like it” you say but you’re also pouting bc he kissed everywhere but your lips

He’s more than aware of that

“Oh? You want me to stop though?” he cheekily grins at your frown

You’re about to lean in when you smell something a little burnt

“oH CRAP MY BURGERS!!!!” gotta go fast

As you’re running towards the stove he follows shortly and he’s like oooo burgers omg????

And you’re like o ok its just slightly burnt nothing too serious phew

You’re in front of the pan doing your thing when he comes fROM BEHIND AND BACK HUGS YOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

“You cooked burgers today??? What’s the special occasion?” you feel his chest vibrating as he gently rests his chin on your shoulder

Ok im sorry i need a breather wow ok im crying omg this is real husband material pls someone hOLD ME

He turns his neck to the left and gives you another cheek kiss and you’re trying to decipher whether your cheeks are flaming from him or the proximity between you and the heat emitting from the stove

Maybe its both maybe its maybelline im sorry i rlly gotta stop bUT I LOVE THAT JOKE LOL

He giggles at the wide grin on your face and he just gives you aNOTHER ONE :’)))) PLS DATE OR MARRY ME SEOK

“Omg ok seokmin i love you but pls im about to finish w these burgers!!! Have a seat!! It should be ready in a few more minutes”

He pouts and puLLS YOUR WAIST CLOSER TO HIM LSJDFDLJFSDJSFDFJS

“:(((( but i missed you aaaallll daayyyyyy”

“We’ll have more time to ourselves after dinner hun!!!” you briefly kiss him on the cheek and turn back to the pan

Error: Lee Seokmin has combusted

He’s sitting back at the dinner table while admiring your back view and he’s literally the heart eyes emoji

The look on his face with the soft stare and the corners of his lips slightly lifted upwards aaaAAAWWWW

You present him with the final product on a plate, one in each hand of yours for the both of you

“Bon appetite!!!” you say as you place it front of him and place his utensils with it

His heart eyes are almost as intense as they were when he looked at you but he’s stuffing his face so it’s kinda hard to tell LOL

“Mmghglg so good!!!” he says in between huge mouthfuls

And you’re like :’))))) i luv my hubby also u have something on your face lmao

He starts venting about his day at work and how rehearsal was just insANE

“We practiced for 5 hours without a break,,, and then we took half an hour ish break,,, and went back to dancing for 4 more and repeated this cycle since 7am”

“Soonyoung told me this really lame joke”

“Why do you always laugh tho”

“That’s what friends do!!! Laugh at your bad jokes bc of how bad they are!!!”

“We also went in the studio to record more of the new songs”

“Jihoon kept wanting me to redo it,,,, i think we all did at least 15 takes. Individually.”

And his lil chatter mouth kept going on and on but you’re just happy listening to his voice

In the midst of ranting about how complicated the footwork is, he notices you just sitting there and staring at him

“You’re not gonna finish your burger?”

And you’re like oH RIGHT LOL

“I just always get so captivated when you talk,,,, it’s so soothing”

And at first he’s like “huh?” with a little confused look and then when he finally registers he breaks out into the bIGGEST SMILE EVER AND HE’S EMBARRASSED

“aaAAAHHH YOU’RE SO CHEESY HONEY”

“UM DID YOU NOT PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT YOU WERE DOING HALF AN HOUR AGO”

As you and seokmin are finishing up your meal, he’s like aaa that was the best meal ever bless ur soul

You’re like alright time to clear the table and you get up and start gathering the dishes when he’s like wait!! and grabs your wrist

“Let’s dance” he says with a gleam in his eyes

“Seokmin we gotta do the dishes first ok? And aren’t you tired of doing your choreo for practically the entire day??”

“I’ll never get tired of you though :))” uM MY HEART I HAVE CHEST PAINS

“Ok,,, since you asked so nicely,,,,,,,,,” you reluctantly agree while you place the dishes in the sink

When you meet him in the living room he’s already at the speakers and scrolling through his phone to find a song

“Ah perfect!” he taps on the song and turns back to you

You’re both getting in position to slow dance and you’re just like

“This is the cheesiest you have ever been today,,,, are you sick?”

The familiar first guitar strings of “Photograph” start playing and he softly smiles at you

Wait can u guys actually play it rn

Like. right now. Now. at this instance.

Just pause reading and play it

You can continue now

“No,,, i just need you to know i appreciate you,,, whether you’re doing chores that i can’t do at the moment or just plainly lending me an ear,,,,, I love everything you do”

You’re so mesmerized by him that you can only gape back with your mouth slightly parted open

“Seokmin…”

He shakes his head and chuckles, “you don’t have to say anything. Just relax”

As the song progresses you rest your head on his chest, your bodies comfortably pressed against each other as you slowly sway

He gives you another kiss on the top of your head and murmurs, “i’m so lucky to have someone like you” lsjddfsjdfjl my HEART MY H E AR T

“The person who has the luck is me, being able to find a catch like you” you respond, a small smile creeping on your face

He twirls you around, the both of you laughing without a care in the world

The song is about to come to an end when he dips you low and stares into your eyes LJSFDJDFJDFDF IM EMBARRASED AND THIS ISNT EVEN HAPPENING TO ME BYE

You’re both looking at each other so fondly and you barely notice how he lifts you back up bc you’re both leaning in

One arm is holding your waist up, and the other is caressing your cheek as your lips meet

His soft kiss has you weak in the knees despite how you should be used to them by now but he always takes away your breath every time

You break away, your foreheads touching

“,,,,,,,oH RIGHT THE DISHES you’re helping me wash” you say and drag him to the sink

All he can do is laugh and silently pray that he will always come home to this :’))))))))))))))))