#aaaand i'm gonna love them forever too.

[preciouslikeacrystal]

"scott and allison love you forever" 🐺🏹❤️

[nikatyler]

Do we think she sees right through his bullshit but ends up falling for him anyway. Is this the story we're going with

off topic but having a green girlfriend would fix me probably

he was surprised by her freak and now wonders if he could match it. (aaaand i think she fell in love in this moment)

I am not gonna be normal about them I already know it I told you I'm weak

Yeah. Yeah this did not go well. Don't look at the left

Oh I was wondering when the girlies would fight, it's taken forever

(x)

she's so beautifully green in this light

baelen dead noblestalk ours mission complete

amogus you say?

I wonder if having a tadpole in your head is like evil asmr

She's got...interesting ways of flirting

i'm having far too many bisexual feelings right now

he just like me frrrrrr

pls I need this grown ass man he's so silly

(x)

[pancake-breakfast]

I've lost track of what migraine day I'm on, but Trigun Book Club persists and so shall I.

Stream-of-consciousness thoughts for TriMax Vol. 13, Chapters 4-6 below.

Chapter 4: Black

Voiceover Narration: Little did Livio know, but both the hat and the cape provided him with a +10 bonus to strength in addition to the moral boost. Someday, he would open up the stat screen for both and discover this, and then he would weep grateful tears that those who had so little gave him so much.

Oh, Elendira's got her own stat boost outfit, I guess.

I love how much tone she has in her voice. Between her body language and the translation, she's just a very easy character to hear in your head.

Ok, this panel is badass.

Ooh, she actually landed a hit on him. Hasn't done that in a bit.

Why's she sizzling? Is it because she's on fire right now?

(Also, she might be in full badass mode, but goshdarnit, she better not seriously injure my Livio. He's important to me and needs to live!)

Aaaand we're back to Legato's monstrosity.

Dude. He has to save some for fighting Knives, dummy. He's not Gojo utilizing Limitless and being able to just go forever. He's going through his Last Run. There's a hard stop to his power and it's coming up quick.

Hahahahaha, these poor guards. Space ships are, like, history bordering on mythology nowadays. They'd be more mythological if their bones weren't scattered across the planet. Seeing an actual functioning one that came from actual space would be quite something.

That's RIGHT, Luida's the one in charge!

Vance? As in advance? I mean, I know it's an actual name, but it's not a very common one and Nightow really seems to like just making names up, anyway....

Ok, so... Knives has always been a bit OP, but what I'm gathering from the Earth Fleet presentation is that this is a bit ridiculous even by the standards of a culture used to Plants.

Ok, I already have questions about how they know about any particular individual. I'm guessing they gleaned a lot of relevant information out of the remnants of Domina, but yeah.

Goshdarn, of course they were hoping to find Vash....

Dramatic Legato pose!

Man, why'd he get so sweaty all of a sudden? That can't be comfortable.

Awww, Legato's little toy got wrecked. TBH, that looks more like Knives' work than Vash's... but that's only because it's hard to tell the curvature of the cut. Knives tends to do straight cuts while Vash destroys things in orbs.

Ugh, Vash might look badass, but he does not look good. Someone get him a sports drink or something to perk him up. Do Plants love electrolytes in this world?

I wonder who the other two were. Knives and pre-bagworm Legato?

Uh, oh. Guess who's back. You done threatened Livio too much, Elendira.

Chapter 5: Battle of the Mystics

Yeah, Raz doesn't fuck around....

It's weird seeing Raz with short hair. Like, Livio with short hair? Not as cool as if he'd cleaned it up but kept it long, but it was so uneven I get it. Raz with long hair and that undercut? Good for his level of chaos. Short-haired Raz? Just feels too restrained for him.

"Some dumbasses," huh? That's a rude (but perhaps not inaccurate) way to refer to Wolfwood and Vash.

I do appreciate how much more intense and unhinged Raz is compared to Livio. Even Elendira seems a bit taken aback by the mood switch in her opponent.

Oh, that's right. He's used to wielding full-out punishers rather than the double-fangs.

He's gonna burn through ammo so fast using them like that. It's a good thing the guns in this series have ammo in plot amounts.

LOL, Elendira is already sick of Razlo's shit.

Uh. That's a lot of nails. I don't like this. She's being mean to my boy.

Oh, gods. I'm not sure even he can survive this.

OH GOOD IT WASN'T REAL. Dammit, Nightow. Don't scare me like that.

Oof, he's still not in good shape. :/

Chapter 6: Tag-In A Person

I feel like... Livo and Razlo are gonna tag-team this fight somehow....

Mmm, seems like Raz can't deal with Elendira's bloodlust.

Elendira! He needed that leg!

Oof, tiny Wolfwood memory....

The way Elendira says this makes me think she has some experience being on the receiving end of this herself.

Look at him. Pumped full of nails again, but still going. He's a freaking machine.

Ok, I love how Nightow has used the dialog bubble to let us know that Livio is back in control here. It's a small thing, but excellent use of the medium.

I love this conversation between Livio and Razlo. It's Livio making peace with himself, with him recognizing his alter and... sort of validating Razlo's existence, I guess? That Razlo is him and isn't him, and that's ok, and they are part of a tandem structure?

Oooh, are they both fronting? Or... like... Livio's fronting, but Razlo's kinda there, too. I'm not sure how much that works with DID, but it's interesting from a narrative perspective.

Again, wonderful bit of paneling here.

Hahahaha, he didn't even bother to remove the nails. I realize this is a way of telling us that someone is a badass, but... like... having holes in your muscles and/or tendons seriously mucks with your range of motion. If you have a healing factor, get that shit out of the way so it can kick in. Otherwise, you're limiting yourself pretty severely. Like, he shouldn't be able to stretch out to his full wingspan with stuff popping through his back like that. Ok, I'll stop. I know I shouldn't expect realistic anatomical consequences in this series.

Wait, where's Vash? I'm worried about babygirl....

Heheheheh, backwards-firing gun trick shot. Again.

Oh, this is lovely. He's fighting right now with a balance neither side of him generally displays.

Ooh, he got a solid hit on her.

Heheheheheh, mind Razlo still has the mohawk. As he should.

Elendira's got her priorities straight. Kill first, ask questions later.

There's something very satisfying (and maybe very important) about Livio praising Razlo. Not just leaning on him when he's afraid, but honoring Razlo's skill and technique and complimenting him on it. Raz wanted so bad to be needed and to be praised, and now he's getting the praise from probably the person he needed it from the most.

Wait. Wait, is Razlo going somewhere??

What's coming next that's so bad that Raz isn't sure he can keep up with it??

Archive

Trigun Vol. 1: Covers + 1-3, 4, 5-6, 7-8, 9-10 || Vol. 2: Covers + Extras, 1, 2-4, 5-6, 7-8

TriMax Vol. 1: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5-6 || Vol. 2: Covers + 1, 2-4, 5, 6-7 || Vol. 3: Covers + 1-3, 4-5, 6-7 || Vol. 4: Covers + 1-2, 3-5, 6-7 || Vol. 5: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5-6 || Vol. 6: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5-6 || Vol. 7: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5-6 || Vol. 8: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5 + Bonus || Vol. 9: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5-6 || Vol. 10: Covers + 1-3, 4-5, 6-8 || Vol. 11: Covers + 1-2, 3-4, 5-6 || Vol. 12: Covers + 1-3, 4-6, 7-9 || Vol. 13: Covers + 1-3

Extra Credit: Trigun Vol. 1: Nebraska vs. Vash's Motivations, Vash's Loneliness, Vash's Depression (pt. 2 of post), Soupy Brains || Vol. 2: Coin Factoids || TriMax Vol. 1: Lina, Vash, and a Haircut || Meryl, Vash, and the Pursuit of Happiness || Vol. 5: Knives, Vash, and Hatred for Humanity || Vol. 6: Coping Series: Wolfwood, Meryl, Vash || Vol. 8: The Uncoordinated Counterattack || Vol. 9: Justice, Punishment, and Mercy, The Tolling of an Iron Bell || Vol. 10: Crucifixion Symbology (pt. 2 of post), Merging of Families, Being Childlike (And Why God Hates Chapel) || Vol. 11: New Hair, New Outlook

[melancholy-marionette]

Hi! Hope you are doing well ♡

Any funfacts about Blue and Orange Blythe that you couldn't show in the game?

-💌

Hey hey! Thank you :3 I was doing pretty badly pre-Christmas and kinda went into shutdown for a while because everything got too much, but I'm just starting to emerge into the light again x3

Hmm, that's a tough one because there's a lot, but some of it would be too spoilery to say since it might still end up being shown in the game, haha. Or it's already in-game and vague/open to interpretation.

Also, I don't know if what I think might be fun would necessarily be someone else's idea of fun x3

I guess one of the biggest facts that hasn't been fully shown yet is just how much of a perv Blue Blythe is xD There are little bits here and there, but they're mostly accusations by Orange (which are largely completely true x3)

How far that gets taken in-game will depend on how comfortable Blue's lovely VAs are with the content. I don't think I want to make it full-on 18+ nsfw, but there's been a kind of bondage scene with Blue haunting my brain for a while now, haha. I haven't started writing it, but I always keep little notes on my phone when things come to me so that one's probably gonna make the game when Blue's route is eventually finished!

Aaaand, speaking of pervs, Orange is kind of a closet perv x3 Orange may never admit that and be forever insulted by the mere suggestion of it, but it doesn't change the fact, haha. Orange would just be much more subtle than Blue when it comes to that sort of thing.

On the smaller side though, I guess there's stuff like the fact that Orange is actually a lot more dangerous than Blue even though it may not seem like it x3 The pair of them may fight over MC, and sometimes, it might even seem like Blue wins, but really, Orange will always be the victor because Orange will always find a way to outsmart Blue.

Also, not really related to the characters I guess, but a bonus fact is that Blue Blythe could potentially have been voiced by Philip Kraaijenhof (who voiced the captor in my game The Hostage & also Rhime in Tunnel Vision) instead of Dominic! Philip's audition for Blue Blythe was fantastic, and I knew I wanted to work with him on something from the moment I heard it. Ultimately, I went with Dominic because his voice fit the character just a tiiiiny bit better and had a slight edge on complementing Phonobabble's to complete the characters as twins :3 I hope you're doing well and that 2024 turns out to be an awesome year for you ^-^

[dre6ming]

The delicate beginning rush

Instagram photo dump VIII

Masterlist <chapters 1 -> 12 here>

Instagram photo dump masterlist <parts 1->7>

Pairing: Austin Butler x singer/actress fem reader

Warning: age gap(10 years)

Disclaimer: everything fake!!

𓃗𓃚𓃘𓃙𓃗𓃚𓃘𓃙𓃗

y/n4real.2002

Liked by austinbutler tchalamet and 3.494.300others

y/n4real.2002 huge thanks to variety for this opportunity and big thanks to the incredibly talented austinbutler for sitting down with me to talk. #actorsonactors #outnow

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austinbutler: 💜🧶 it was a pleasure so sit and talk to you

⤷y/n4real.2002: austinbutler 🫶

⤷fan39: omg I'm losing my absolute mind 😱

⤷abfan29: they look so good in the picture

bazluhrmann: what an incredible piece, congrats to the both of you

⤷y/n4real.2002: bazluhrmann my heart...skipped a beat, thank you so so much

⤷elvis2fan: did you guys see on deuxmoi that she's rumored to be in the Elvis Soundtrack? 👀👀

⤷ab.2.fan: elvis2fan I did holy, does this confirm it? Shit 😱

tchalamet: go go little star 🌟

⤷y/n4real: tchalamet 🥹

⤷tcfans: omg he's the sweetest best friend

⤷fan202: *alexa play Best-Friend by y/n*

roxanne.02_b1tch: girl you look so hot in orange

⤷y/n4real.2002: roxanne.02_b1tch thank teutamatoshi for the beautiful dress

⤷teutamatoshi: y/n4real.2002 a pleasure working with you

gossip.blog

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gossip.blog new deuxmoui story about Austin and Y/n, who knows, could be real. If we consider this dm real this might mean that the two are involved and she and Joshua are done.

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fan20: I don’t see why we need to discuss this

kaia29fans: how disappointing, both of them

⤷fan23: we don’t know that the dm is true

ab3fan: get it Austin, get it

joshua.b.fan: noooo she did our boy dirty

⤷fansofjoshua: she truly did

fan39: I don’t know what to believe, I don’t see them cheating

⤷fan65: but did you watch the variety actors on actors? My man was spellbound by her

⤷fan5: who wouldn’t be 😭

y/n4real.2002

Liked by austinbutler roxanne.02_b1tch and 2.939.573other

y/n4real.2002 snow on the BeAch

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roxanne.02_b1tch: I’m coming over next week, here’s to hoping it snows then too

⤷y/n4real.2002: roxanne.02_b1tch I’m gonna hope with you

fan299: who took the photo? 👀

⤷fansofy/n: good question 🤔

⤷fan.3: she’s telling us in the caption B.A in caps?

⤷ab.34.fan: wait you don’t think.

⤷austin.fan: oh oh hell 😱

austinbutler: weird but fucking beautiful 💜🧶

⤷y/n4real.2002: austinbutler I agree💜🧶

⤷ab.2.fan: again these emojis, what do these mean?

⤷fan2: could be a stretch, but she loves to crochet aaaand she only mentioned this once when asked about her crochet heart earrings

⤷austin.B.fan: omg imagine she taught him to crocet 🥹

spotted.2022

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spotted.2022 austinbutler spotted north of Quebec (where a certain girl is filming a movie rn👀) alone on a walk

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austin.butt.fan: oh my man really was there, this means…

⤷fan393: he took that photo of her on the beach 🥹 I’m sure of it

⤷aus.tin.fan: oh what I’d give to peak I his camera roll

kaia.lover: so he gets a few free days and runs to his mistress?

⤷austin.29.fan: oh shut it, he was just with Kaia

⤷fan405: I don’t get the need to name call when you don’t know anything for sure

fan59: I’m actually losing it over how hot and silly he looks

⤷austin_b.: omg yes he’s so hot 🥵

y/n4real.2002

Liked by tchalamet austinbutler and 1.899.382other

y/n4real.2002 god I love snow so much, I think I’ll move here, forever.

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tchalamet: not forever, I don’t do cold

⤷y/n4real.2002: tchalamet that’s because you know I make better snow angels than you

⤷tchalamet: y/n4real.2002 take that back, now

⤷y/n4real.2002: tchalamet never 😈

⤷fan59: omg how I love these two

aB_fan: to think that Austin was probably there, to keep her warm🥹

⤷austin_fan: my heart

austinbutler: forever you say?

⤷y/n4real.2002: 👀

⤷fan00: nah cause I need these two to be a couple by now.

⤷austin.fans: my boy never misses a post, he’s her biggest fan

fan045: do you guys think she wrote dandelions for him 👀

⤷austi.n.B: oh I think I’d die to know she had him in mind

⤷fan55: I mean he did comment a flower on that post 🤔

y/n.fan.no1

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y/n.fan.no1: I can’t wait for this movie, apparently it’s a paranormal love story.

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fan07: where are they filming?

⤷y/n.fan.no1: fan07 in a town just north of Quebec

⤷ab-fan: Austin was just spotted there

fan305: how good does she look in the picture they picked 🥵

austin.fan: I’m starting to love her more and more, I’m so happy for her

fan4: I can’t wait to see this

fan_love: did they start filming? When is it coming out?

⤷y/n.fan.no1: fan_love they started a month ago I think, should be done soon, the movie will premiere at the Venice Film Festival in late august, early September

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[bonded-by-love-and-hatred]

Jeremiah x Thomas has SO MANY GOOD IDEAS. (Which like warning for the talk of incest and sexual abuse and the like?)

- The first one I was talking about of him holding back, Thomas dying, then it leads to Wayleska.

- Ya got cheating Thomas 👀

- Yandere Jeremiah who takes out Martha to have Thomas

- Martha dying somehow (not by Miah like the last one) and Jeremiah being there to comfort Thomas eventually, after a while, things could maayybe get a little spicy with them lol

- Jeremiah accepting Thomas' offer to join them for dinner, becoming part of the family, and Wayleska starts earlier after Thomas dies as they already know each other.

- Or Jeremiah saving Thomas that night in the alley as he's invited to the movie with them too. (Which can tie into the earlier one where he comforts Thomas through his grief of Martha dying.)

Aaaand continuing on that thought!! (This is where the fucked up shit is really gonna start lol)

Jeremiah saves Thomas, whether or not he's confessed his true feelings to Thomas is up for debate in my head. Probably not tho? But he can't save him forever and eventually Thomas is killed.

Now, Jeremiah and Bruce both feel like they can't protect those they love and want justice. Jeremiah is gonna take care of his little brother, of course, it's what Thomas would've wanted. And he reminds Jeremiah of him so much... And maybe he's been fantasizing too much for too long without relief. Get where I'm going with this? Jeremiah takes out his grief and sexual frustrations on Bruce. He corrupts Bruce and accidentally calls him Thomas on more than one occasion, but Bruce is a good, little brother and wants to make Jeremiah happy. So, if he sees him as Thomas sometimes and it makes him smile, then he'd be Thomas to him. Maybe that's the only time Jeremiah is even Jeremiah anymore. Maybe the rest of the time it's fucked him up so much that he just hurts Bruce physically or verbally (when Alfred isn't around) because the reminder hurts. But, also, protecting Bruce from everything is hard when he's running off getting into danger, so sometimes he has no choice. Tough love and all that, right?

Of course, I also like the idea of Valeyne being introduced into this thanks to someone on here. (If you see this, hi, idk if you wanted to be tagged and credited for this spiral of thought lol. Lemme know if you do 'cause I'll be happy to tag ya!)

Jerome treating Bruce as Bruce in his own, strange way, and Bruce likes it. He's already being abused, so he doesn't even take issue with that. He's just happy to have someone see him as himself and not his father anymore. And maybe he's really into the danger Jerome brings with him like it's his shadow. Jerome lets him get into dangerous situations, he is the dangerous situation most the time, and he just laughs about it. Miah certainly wouldn't have been laughing.

My brain can't handle this anymore lmao

Wait wait wait bring in Bruce's clone and the four of them can all fuck. Now I know that's been written somewhere lol

[joyful-soul-collector]

Ex Machina

Welcome to me reacting to Oscar Isaac Movies, which nobody asked for but I don't care! HERE WE GO:

Oh wow it is weird to hear Domhnall Gleeson with an American accent

So this Nathan guy is definitely weird

And not just because Oscar looks WAY too much like my father in this movie

A crack in the glass, that's not ominous at all

Ava is interesting??

Oop power cut. I'm sure that won't be important later

Her drawings are cool

Oof, poor Caleb, sounds like a pretty traumatic car crash

Ah another power cut, featuring Ava! Who DEFINITELY isn't the one causing those

Yeah I figured Nathan wasn't a chill dude haha

Oof yeah not a fan of this Nathan dude lol, he doesn't talk to his workers kindly

Also that woman is an AI, calling it right now

Weird to see Oscar playing a villain. Cool tho! He's doing well

This Caleb guy is a HORRIBLE liar lol

And. Kinda weird to be watching this robot while she's doing stuff. She's an AI, she's likely got feelings, it's weird to be watching her bro

"yeah I just hacked all the phones in the world and now her brain is the internet" sir you are insane

You're telling me that she has the entirety of reddit AND tumblr in her brain

She's going to be a serial killer

She drew the plants in her window! I'm sure that's not a metaphor for anything

Oh I like people watching too! Not the way Nathan does tho lol

Aw she wants to show off her pretty outfit! What she wants to look like! She looks so cute!

Yeah, love, analyzing people's expressions that closely tends to make them uncomfortable haha

Oh and of course we have the long scene where the guy is watching her undress while she's unaware (well, "unaware", she probably knows but it's not like she can stop him)

Pfft Nathan's like "why would a grey box interact with another grey box if they didn't have sexuality" as if asexuals and friendship didn't exist MY GUY YOU ARE STUPID

Aaaand of COURSE she has a robot pussy. Because Nathan is fuckin weird. This whole movie is just gonna be a creepier version of Her isn't it

"oh you CHOSE to be straight? No." the worst person ever is accidentally a gay ally, fuck

I knew she was the one causing the power cuts

Ok the relationship between Nathan and Kyoko is fuuuuuckin weird man

His ripping up her drawing!! What the hell Nathan!?

Ok this is weiiiiird

Why do they always make asian women in movies like. weirdly sexual and stupid at the same time. "uwu I can't speak english are you asking me to take all my clothes off?????" STOP IT. I GET THAT SHE'S PROBABLY A ROBOT THAT CREEPY NATHAN MADE BUT IT'S STILL REALLY FUCKIN WEIRD

Ah this is where everyone gets those gifs of Oscar dancing from lol

Aww, she drew him :C

Oop sneaky Caleb hacking things

Oh cool so this is uhh absolutely horrifying

Of course all the other AI women were people of color but the New Main Character one is white

Why do all of the AIs have to be women. And naked. I can't tell if this is a metaphor for women being objectified all the time or if they just really wanted to have a lot of naked women in this movie for some weird reason

Knew Kyoko was an AI I KNEW IT

Oop he is. Questioning his own humanity AAAND I'M NOT WATCHING THIS BIT I THINK NO THANKS

Of course this is the one day he decides not to drink

Damn. Nathan is a fucking mastermind.

And an absolute asshole

AND CALEB IS EVEN SMARTER GODDAMN FUCK YEAH

Oh damn knocked out in one punch lol

:O BUT WHAT IF THEY WERE LESBIAN ROBOTS

FUCK YEAH STAB HIM

Wow he is weirdly calm about being stabbed lol

So, no lesbian robots?

*breaks skateboard*

Oh good idea just grab a new arm, build yourself out of your previous lives

Once again, very weird that you're watching her do all this Caleb

Bruh is he gonna just be stuck in there forever

She really didn't love him huh. She just wanted to be free

She's outside!!

Damn, she really just. Left him to die huh. That's pretty fucked up tbh

Though I guess maybe that's what he gets for watching her like that and thinking of her as an object too

Aw she's people watching

That was fun and terrifying and very weird, in part because Nathan looks like my fucking DAD and my dad is a sweetheart so it's very weird to see someone who looks like my dad being an asshole lol. I feel like there were a number of problematic things about it but I'm not sure if they were problematic on purpose to make a point in the story or if they were just plain weird, but I also did not care for it enough to analyze it thoroughly to figure that out so if someone else wants to ramble about it feel free to do so lol.

Anyway let me know of any other movies with Oscar Isaac I should watch, ik I really wanna watch Sucker Punch so maybe I'll do that next haha.

[mommyashtoreth]

do you have any fic recs (besides your own, ik theyre good) because i know you surely have impeccable taste

GREAT question I've actually been hoping to get an ask like this recently lol. Uhh full disclosure most of the fic I read is porn, most of it being Weird Porn, mostly bc gomens is just So fucking popular that finding fic for it is kind of a slog and I can only find manageable amounts of fic to work through by looking for weird porn. I'm gonna try to NOT post just nsfw art also I can actually read I'll give you words

Okay this is SO basic I'm sure all of you are huge oopsieheads but like this was The First Fan Thing I actually got invested in which is a big deal for me because I got shit to do in my life. I have just, like, massive appreciation for how so much of the dialogue is carried over. Angelcrowley WOULD still say Well that went down like a lead balloon. And no one seems to realize this but this comic does. Big fan

Alright I've lulled you in far enough this one is porn. And it is REALLY good porn like mindblowingly good porn. I love when people work within the fantasy setting and actually do something interesting with it, and having them throw each other across the room for sex purposes is awesome I mean it. Also long live male pussy

Gotta log in for these sorry but this is a series I've become kind of obsessed with oops. I cannot get ENOUGH of "what if Aziraphale was also girlmoding at the Dowling residence" it's what we should've had all along I'm sorry. I love you women, I love you lesbians, I love you Nanny Ashtoreth always and forever. Also like these are FUNNY which is weirdly hard for me to find? Like lest you forget gomens is a comedy and these are comedy characters. There's just a lot of fun cute and yeah hot sexy stuff in these. I haven't finished the second part of the series yet but I Do think Crowley gets clocked which DOES suck and IS bad but also is extremely funny I'm sorry. Everyone hated her for being a clocky broad it's inescapable. I need to have straight-passing nonbinary sex with her so bad

HERE is the like "weirdest" porn I'll share in this post. It is, yet again, "what if Aziraphale was also in girlmode and then she and Crowley had a bunch of freaknasty sex." Every work in the series also comes with art, which contains, if I may be so blunt, some of the most lusciously rendered angel pussy I have ever come across in my travels. If you're into any of the kinks listed (mostly discipline stuff) it's good. It's really good. I'm sure no one knows this about me but vaguely "domestic," disciplinary dom girlcrowley? Very good. Huge fan

Aaaand that's my library for now unfortunately. Can't really think of anything else rn sorry </3 I am always open to fic recs btw, like I said it's hard for me to find stuff on my own. I'm especially partial to well-written girlmode stuff (not too much cisgender nonsense, basically) and stuff that's like actually funny. I love banter, I love jokes, I think that's like the number one way to show understanding of the source material. Also it's fun for me. So if anyone has any recs u know where to find me

[whats-rambled-rambled]

okay okay had to put this in an ask because tumblr limits the length of comments and I have a lot to say, I'm sorry, this is going to be a lot (I'm not that sorry)

first I would like to reiterate that I see what you're doing setting us up for canonical pain. I SEE IT. I'm ready but not ready. Oof.

second, I love soft Neil. I love Neil and drinks. I love that he brought her tea. I love that he's a little bit sassy. The your honor comment? Golden. "I rest my case"?? "I am in bed"?? I love him your honor (pun intended).

not gonna bother numbering anything anymore because just aklhslfkajhlkdfa I wasn't kidding when I said this chapter is already making my brain do crazy things (specifically dial up internet noises and incoherent screaming). You write angst SO. WELL. I have never been so ready to be put through more pain. You seriously make me feel like I'm experiencing each and every emotion. I feel a little fucked up that one of the agents died and I don't even know them. That's how well you wrote that

also, the reader nerding out over the timeline software? I love it. I love this soft, smart reader. I have a feeling they're way more capable than they seem, if that makes sense. Love the tiny details you add too, to make them more real, specifically the type of drink they like (fruity but kinda sour)

throwing in a "what's happened's happened" as part of Neil's argument to love and get to know people, even at the risk of losing them? Fuck me up shet just do it already (again, I see what you're doing here and I hate it but I love it)

Oh oh oh and "I might not have a hall pass"!! Naughty Neil! Neil was definitely a secretly naughty schoolboy, I just know it. He got up to some stuff (movie quote reference intended).

I'm very sorry that this is like super long and incoherent and that it seems like I'm a little obsessed with you and your writing but like....I am. I want more. I will read whatever you write, forever, even if I have no fucking clue what the source material is. You're just so good! And I always know how much I love getting long asks like this so I figured I would spread the love!

tl;dr I'm obsessed, please keep it up, you're amazing, Neil and this reader are amazing, posterity is amazing

P.S. I'm ready to get a little more fucked up when I listen to the song for this chapter on the way home

(I'm done now I swear)

Okay, I will try not to randomly burst into tears, so forgive me for rambling.

And I'm not surprised you see it, but you know -

-- and I did, too.

(I might have just made this one on the spot, excuse the clunkiness)

Neil and drinks - I love this trope, and I know we already had some of it in the previous chapter, but I think he's exactly the person who would bring you something comforting to drink after a night like that. And he's a good listener so, of course, he made the right decision when it comes to the choice of the beverages. Aaaand he can be a little shit all the same, in the best way possible! In this house, we love a man who can do both 😌

Dial-up internet noises - Shelby, I CACKLED. And I'm glad you felt something during the KIA agent's part, however that may sound lol. I really wanted to capture those emotions and make you care about that poor guy even with so little time spent with him story-wise.

And it makes sense, yes! This Reader is capable of many things, I think they are a bit surprised that they show their vulnerable side so easily when it comes to Neil, but they can't help it and I don't blame them. And a drink of choice thing is such a great tool to tell a little bit about Reader without going into lengthy descriptions, I can't resist using it whenever I introduce a new reader.

Listen, the "what's happened's happened" - I swear it kinda...happened hah. These two are talking, I am nodding and typing it down, and then Neil drops this and I'm like - fuck me up, why don't you. 😂

I am all down for secretly naughty schoolboy Neil. Please, someone write 10k on that topic. Or 10 chapters, even better!

(You have no idea how much I appreciate random references like that)

Don't ever apologize for super long and/or incoherent comments, you said so yourself - that's every writer's dream made true, and I am tearing up again, damn you. Thank you so so much for taking the time to leave me one, and every kind word, I'm just-- 🥺

PS. Please let me know how you like the song, you can also throw in Old Stars by Fergus James and Dustin Tebutt, and Lullaby by Emmit Fenn while you're at it😏)

[thatgirlinskullz]

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HOLY FUCK THAT EPISODE WRECKED ME. HOLY SHIT 😭😭😭

UGH

i don't even know where to start....

this is gonna be a whole lot of random ramblings, so my apologies if i don't make sense sometimes...

holy shit

okay

the entire bit of Mando going to see Grogu... the planet, the beautiful scenery, the Japanese inspirations in both visuals and the music.. and the clothes, omg the clothes!!

the ant-droids building a Jedi temple?!!! that is likely the one where Luke taught Ben?! omg..

just R2 being R2. i love him. will forever love him. 💖

AHSOKA FKIN TANO SHOWING UP SO CASUALLY LOOKING GORGEOUS AS EVER HELLO?!! and um.. AHSOKA HAVING MET LUKE?!!! so are we actually gonna see her meet Luke and talk about Anakin in her own show? please and thank you. i need to be emotionally destroyed by Luke telling Ahsoka that Anakin came back to the light before he passed. I NEED TO SEE IT. I NEED TO HEAR IT. the fanart of it is not enough. i want to see that conversation.. i need to have my heart pulled out by it and chopped into a million pieces. please!! 😭😭😭

okay...

the whole Mando-Ahsoka dynamic is amazing. i love them.

I LOVE how Rosario Dawson is using so much of animated Ahsoka's mannerisms, like in her movements, and the way she talks. she really is live action Ahsoka 😭😭😭 (regardless of what you think of her)

Mando deciding he's being selfish and he needs to let Grogu be, and decide for himself. oh my heart 😭

Luke's training montage with Grogu!!! OH MY FKIN GOD!! it made me ugly sob so much. the montage. exactly like with Yoda. AND HE EVEN MENTIONS YODA. aaaaaaaaaaa i cannot take this. *edit: EVEN YODA'S LIGHTSABER?! OMG!!! i did not know Luke had it. i have no idea how he has it. didn't Yoda lose that in the fight against Palpatine?! did he make a new one on Dagobah? did he somehow recover the old saber? it does look like his old saber. omg my heart.. and now it may be Grogu's new saber?!!! (tho i was kinda looking forward to a live action saber-building-through-the-force scene but oh well)

Grogu being adorable and learning to jump, and focus, and takes out the training droid. aaaahhh.

and um.. FILONI NEVER MISSES A CHANCE TO TRAUMATIZE US WITH DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF ORDER 66 DOES HE?!!! ohmygod i wanted to see that but i sooo DID NOT want to see that. poor baby. the trauma. aaahhh.. no wonder he blocked it out.. 😭😭😭💔💔💔

i still kinda wanna know how Grogu actually got out. who got him out?!

i'm sorry but Luke giving Grogu THE CHOICE is just mean.. he just barely begun his training, why are you doing this to him?!!! he is but a babe. do not do this! also, Luke, you should know better. making people choose is not a good thing about the Jedi. aaahhh

but what really broke me?! WHAT DESTROYED ME?! 💔

AHSOKA TELLING LUKE HE'S SO MUCH LIKE HIS FATHER 😭😭😭 dead. destroyed. broken. shattered. emotionally completely done. i am not okay.

that single line "So much like your father" MADE ME CRYYYY it broke me 😭😭😭😭😭

okay okay. get a grip..

*sigh

Cobb Vanth is back. i love him. he is great.

Madam Garsa and the beautiful Twi'leks are.. well.. 😭😭😭 should have seen it coming. it was too good to be true. they were too beautiful.

aaaand of coursee. Cad fkin Bane. OF COURSE. i knew he would appear. just didn't know on which side.. honestly, love it. i have a love/hate thing for Bane, he is super cool and slick and just an amazing character, but i also hate him cuz he's an asshole most of the time.

also i am not super in love with his live action looks..? like he's just.. so pale? something is missing. i think he should be darker blue. but oh well. the voice was top notch. the movements and the eyes and the everything was great. it's just the color i think.

*edit: that standoff between Cobb and Bane?! the western-style standoff and shootout?! omg it IS a space western! i love it so much, and i am not even a fan of westerns xD

anyway.. i am still a wreck after that one..

i am hopeful for the final episode, hoping they don't rush it with the "all out war" thing. hope they take their time.

i'm also 99% certain we get another season so we might actually not see the war next episode. maybe some scheming and preparations and then a big cliffhanger? not sure.

also i feel like we'll only find out Grogu's decision in Mando S3. which i am fine with.

*sigh.. this episode was a rollercoaster of emotions for me. excitement and fun mixed with a lot of pain and just love for this show, this galaxy, these characters..

i love star wars so much. 💖💖💖

and i know it's a meme at this point to thank Filoni for everything, but like.. he IS a HUGE part of why it's the way it is. yes, Favreau is another HUGE part, along with a bunch of others who we don't give credit to, but like.

THANK YOU FILONI. 💖

THANK YOU FAVREAU. 💖

THANK YOU EVERYONE WORKING IN STAR WARS. 💖💖💖

thank you for making it what it is. for giving me more Star Wars to fangirl over.

i cannot wait for what's next. 💖

[iamknicole]

Well ...

Bloodline Family Series

When Algee got inside the house he shared with his girlfriend, he looked around the first floor for her then headed upstairs. He found her in their bedroom sitting in the middle of their bed Indian style with a pillow in her lap

"Your man is here, baby," he said with a smile pulling his hoodie from over his head. He kicked off his shoes then sat on the bed in front of her. "You said you needed me? Tell me what you need. I'm all ears."

Sighing, Summer reached for the store bag that was on her pillow behind her then passed it to Algee. "That's why I needed you. Didn't wanna be alone."

"Let's see what we got here." Algee opened the bag then dumped the contents out and looked at his girlfriend. "Baby, hold your head up and look at me."

Slowly, she looked up and over at him biting her lip to keep from crying. He gave her a reassuring smile before leaning in to kiss her head then her lips.

"First, I'm happy you asked me to be with you. Second, cry if you need to but don't cry because you think I'm upset or don't want this ... neither of those are true. And third, whether we're pregnant or not I love you. Aight?"

Summer nodded wiping the tears that fell. "Okay, Gee. I'm scared. What am I gonna do about school? I'm in the middle of my residency. And my parents," she cried.

"Hey, hey, hey," he called out pulling her into his chest, "No need of working yourself up about this when we don't even know for sure yet. Let's just take the tests and go from there."

After she cried another half hour Algee was able to get her into the bathroom. He helped her wash her face then stepped out so she could take them. Upon her request, he left it cracked and waited right by the door.

"Gee?" She called out.

"I'm right here. I didn't go anywhere."

"Oh okay," she sighed in relief, "Thank you."

"Don't gotta thank me, baby. Can I ask you something?"

Summer paused for a second to grab the second test. "Yeah. What's up?"

"What made you think that you might be pregnant?"

"Uuuuuh," she paused to sit the test back on the counter, "I'm almost a month late, fatigue and when I tried to eat my eggs this morning my stomach turned."

"Oh yeah, that makes sense." He shrugged. "Is it wrong to be excited?"

Summer laughed softly doing the third test, "No, it's not wrong. I'm actually glad you are, I was worried that you wouldn't be."

"Why?"

"Cause we've only been back together for like almost six months and our careers. Thought you would think it was the wrong time."

Algee waited for her to flush and wash her hands before going in the bathroom. He stood behind her at the sink wrapping his arms around her and smiled at her through the mirror. She smiled back leaning her weight against him.

"I don't care about none of that. We gon be together forever so six months don't matter and our careers will still be there regardless. I promise."

"Okay ... I believe you, Gee," she said softly then leaned up to kiss his cheek. "I think you'd make a great daddy."

"And you, Ella," he paused to kiss her neck, "Would make a great mommy. In five minutes, we'll know if we'll be parents now or in the future. You ready?"

She shrugged still smiling at him through the mirror. "I'm so nervous but I'm ready."

He nodded rocking them slightly and sung softly to her.

"I hate to break up the moment but you know what I thought about."

"What, Ella?"

"Whether we're pregnant or not, you gotta sit down with your mom and clear it up. You don't have to have a relationship but have a talk and get your feelings out like I did with my mom." She explained watching his reaction. "I don't want to bring a baby into that. I want you to be healed completely so that you can be the amazing dad I know you can be. Aaaand....your dad too. My baby don't need a hoe for a grandpa."

Algee chuckled and kissed the side of her face. "You can tell him that part, he's proud of it but you're right. It ain't from lack of trying on my part but I'll figure it out. I promise I will."

"I can see him now taking my baby to pick up women. Uhn uhn," she laughed.

"And you know he would. Damn, he would be proud too," Algee laughed. "I can't wait to marry you one day."

Summer poked her lip out. "Gee, you know you don't have to marry me just because I may or may not be pregnant. It's okay."

"Oh nah," he shook his head, "I always wanted to marry you. This just made me think about it again. You gon be Mrs. Smith one day."

"Dr. Smith," she corrected playfully.

Algee laughed, "My bad excuse me ... Dr. Smith. Let me put some respect on it."

She laughed. "That's right, you better. I worked hard for that title."

When Algee started to talk the alarm on her phone went off and they fell into silence. He kissed her cheek before releasing her from his hold so she could turn it off. The couple stared at each other.

"Well," Algee chuckled, "You gonna look?"

Summer shook her head playing with her fingers. "Uhn uhn, you look. I can't...I can't do it."

Nodding, Algee went to turn them over stopping when he heard his girlfriend squeal. He laughed and looked over at her.

"Baby, what? You wanted me to look... I'm looking."

"Don't you wanna talk some more?"

"No," he said reaching again, "We can talk afterwards."

Summer shifted her weight from foot to foot. "But ... okay. Okay... go ahead."

Before she could change her mind again Algee flipped the three tests that sat on the counter right side up. He stared at each one so he didn't make any mistakes then looked over at his girlfriend with an unreadable expression making her even more antsy.

"Come on ... come on," she panicked a little laughing nervously, "What does it say?"

"You really wanna know?" He asked keeping the same expression.

"Oh my gosh, yes! Are we having a baby or not?"

"It's says we're...."

[fonulyn]

For the Character ask thingy the most obvious: Leon! (I'll leave Piers for Theo to ask lmao bc i'm sure he will xD)

give me a character and I’ll break their ass down:

How I feel about this character

gUESS :’D the love of my life the best boy the light in this world lmao. i love him so much there are no words for it. i love how he’s always willing to help, how he puts everyone else before himself, he’s such a good nugget. i love the dumb jokes oh my god his sense of humor is great. i also feel so bad for him ansdjgkn boy’s had such a hard life :( he deserves all the love and rainbows and puppies. 

(also i suppose i need to mention he’s also drop dead gorgeous and boy do i thirst over him as well :’D)

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Piiieeeeeeeeers. 

lol but seriously: Piers and Chris (or all three of them together), Krauser (nnghh), aaaand that’s about it lmao. 

I mean I can see the potential in some others too? I’m pretty fond of pairing him up with Claire, too, for example, but it’s not something i tend to write or read or actively think about a lot? same with like Luis or Sasha from Damnation. I can like it but I don’t actively seek it.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

lmao depending on who i’m pairing him with at that moment :’D if i’m writing nivannedy then Leon’s bff is gonna be both Chris and Claire. if I’m writing chreon then Leon’s bff is gonna be Claire. 

My unpopular opinion about this character

he can drive. you people are just mean :’D

also he’s a dog person.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

that he’d married piers and retired with him and bought a nice quaint little house where they can grow their own herbs and have seven dogs and two cats and a rabbit and never fear for their lives ever again

no, seriously, I wish he’d get a break sometimes. he deserves a happy ending. 

okay i wish that he would’ve been able to save at least some of the civilians in re6 tho it’s forever a missed opportunity imo that they didn’t make it a possibility. does this count? lol i’m so bad at this.

thank you for the ask! :D 💖 theo didn’t he failed you xD

[nikatyler]

list 5 facts about a favorite sim of yours, and send this to 10 simblrs whose sims you adore ♥♥♥

Thank you! I'm gonna do this for my other vampire blorbo from my brain, Callias.

I've said this before, but he started off as a "what if I took nsb!Caleb's personality and backstory and everything and pasted it onto a new character so that I can be more comfortable coming up with headcanons for him because he’ll be completely mine" experiment. Few days in and he's actually starting to differ from my nsb!Caleb a lot. So, not everything I say about Callias is applicable to nsb!Caleb, but I'm not gonna pinpoint that what's the same and what's different. Just treat them as two very similar but separate characters who have the same role in different universes. IT MAKES SENSE (TO ME) I SWEAR. I’m just really bad at explaining, but trust me, I know what I’m doing 😅

His full name is Callias Luna Benoni Astor. He chose all these names himself and he will bite you if you say he's being a pretentious little shit 😤 (shhh, yes he is a little pretentious, but don't tell him I said that)

He was born in late 1700s, then he was turned into a vampire in early 1800s, probably 1810s, I haven't really decided on the exact years yet...and then just around when the 20th century was beginning, he said goodbye to his old identity that wasn't serving him anymore and became Callias...if you know what I mean. Boy's trans but it took him about a century to figure it out. (different times, so. And anyway there's nothing wrong with figuring it out later in life. It's never too late.)

He has two siblings, an older sister Magdalene who is also a vampire (they actually got turned together; Magdalene wanted to be turned, Callias had no choice but that's a story for another time), and an older brother...who's dead. He was a human. Who lived a normal human life. Okay and he spent his entire human life wondering what happened to his younger siblings. Aaaand he doesn't have a name yet. Listen, I've only had Callias for like three or four weeks, I can't have everything fully figured out yet 😂

He's got a huge collection of jewelry, he especially loves gold. He may have stolen some from his sister...and not just his sister, to be fair 😅 He likes pretty shiny things, okay. Not that stealing is okay but. Yeah.

Bonus fact because I can't stop talking: Callias would say there are exactly three people in his life whom he was desperately, deeply in love with (everyone else was great but they never had such a grip on his soul, if that makes sense)...little does he know those three people were technically just one person. I love me some tragic soulmates who find each other again and again across time and space. One died trying to warn Callias and protect him from a vampire hunter, one could've been with him forever (it would’ve been so easy) but Callias made the wrong decision and she died shortly afterwards (not related to him leaving her), and one...well we know how that went 🤭👀☀ tragic soulmates, man. Can you believe I nearly convinced myself at one point that I wasn’t into the idea of tragic soulmates

[pancake-breakfast]

Ok! Time to finish off the last third-ish of Road to El Dorado! This time, I'll keep it all in one post, ok? Ok.

(Here's part 1, btw)

Aaaand we're starting with THAT scene. Yeah, Chel's definitely not level with Tulio's face here.

Are you guys connecting? I mean, doesn't Tulio seem a bit cowardly for a god? And Miguel a bit too friendly? Something something that fancy thing you just said about humans. Also, oh, look. You can see his little I'm-a-Bad-Guy horns....

Speaking of bad guys, Mr. Not Governor Ratcliffe from Disney's Pocahontas, come back to Totally Not Be A Bad Guy, I'm sure.

Hey! The armadillo's* back! I wonder where he's been all this time.... *Yes, I realize I called it an aardvark in my last posts. Something something to err is human?

Actually, "Hey! Who did you say was the authority here? That's right. Me." is a pretty good technique for getting out of this stuff.

I'll be genuinely surprised if they score at all. It would truly take an act of god for them to win.

Oh. No. No no no. This is animal abuse! Also, you'd think none of these people had ever seen an armadillo before.

Wait, doesn't the losing team in this game get sacrificed or some such?

Yeah, there it is. Also, Horse for MVP.

I'm sure kicking out the one person who can do actual magic's gonna work out well.

Oh, hmm. Do gods bleed in this culture? For some reason, I'm thinking they do not.

Ah, yeah. There's the answer there.

I feel like this sidekick/assistant guy to Mr. Evil Magician isn't getting enough character development.

Miguel really seems to like hanging upside down. Maybe that's the only way he can get enough blood flow to his brain for it to kind of work a bit.

Good job, Mr. Chel-is-Definitely-Off-Limits

Hahahaha, Miguel really doesn't really want to leave.

Ohhhhhh, the chief's got them figured out. But I guess that always would have worked in his favor since that lines up better with not having the gods show up and usher in the Age of the Jaguar.

And now Miguel's found his Good Friend Tulio being Good Friends with Chel. You know, there's an easy way out of this now (provided Not-Ratcliffe doesn't mess it up, which he will). Miguel can just say he's transferring his godhood to Chel and then stay there with the people forever while the "happy couple" departs.

Genuinely impressed at that horse's ability to go down those steep-ass steps head-first. Pretty sure most horses would just die.

Gotta have the little umbrella.

Awww, he's gonna kill off my favorite underdeveloped henchmen, isn't he? Yep, there he goes. Freaking rude.

Horse for MVP. Again.

Oh, they're gonna throw this set of bad guys into Chekov's Whirlpool of Doom. Can't introduce a Whirlpool of Doom in Act 1 and not have someone not get shoved in it in Act 3. Or something.

Huh, for some reason, this particular version of their "we're not actually allies because one of us was lying to the other" seems to have more malice in it. I wonder whyever that could be....

Ah, they still pulled through at the end.

Aaaand there the bad guy set goes into Chekov's whirlpool.

Who would have guessed that would come out there??

Ah, the true gods of blood have arrived: the Spanish government.

Seems Miguel's still hurt. I get it, man. Your boy toy ran off with someone else. I'm sorry.

Womp womp. Time for Tulio to learn a lesson in broken trust. A hard lesson for a professional con man.

Oh, look at this. They've got a whole-ass love song where they try to con each other into thinking they don't love each other still.

LOL, horse licks. Get slobbered on, idiot.

Yeah, good fucking luck crossing the Atlantic in that. Especially given how heavy gold is.

Horse being MVP. AGAIN.

I like the part where they gold on the boat is just drawn as a single mass. That's all it's worth. Being a lump. Oh, EXCEPT WHEN IT'S A BUNCH OF RANDOM CGI. Ew, that CG did not age well.

Who knew Tulio had skills as a sailor?

And now everyone must do their best not to drown. I wish them luck. Hey, if Evil Sorcerer guy could do it, they can, too.

Oh, it didn't occur to me before, but they got Not-Ratcliffe a new horse.

LOL, the horse hiding his golden shoes. Gods, that's a terrible idea. Gold is a week-ass metal for horseshoes.

That's a tough horse, though. Able to carry three adults.

They are all going to die out there. The End.

Ok, that movie was fun. I admit, it's not going on my favorites list, but I definitely don't regret watching it.

I have a few additional thoughts, but in the interest of space, I'm moving them here. Lord knows I make enough long posts already.

[fcntasmas-archive]

(1)alright okay I am a little late buuut here I am with my personal highlights of 'oh no'-moments and moments that made me squeal into my pillow in chapter 4 <3 I guess my first oh no moment today is just how much I love kai and how sad I am going to be over very likely seeing him be sad sometimes soon ._. xD aaaand I am sad about eddie again!!! the way you put all these subtle hints to his inner turmoil is reaaaally messing me up in the best ways <3 kai wants to meet chris, oh no I am crying

(2)"...but I know he wouldn’t introduce me to Kehlani yet, and I don’t feel like I’d be comfortable introducing him to Chris…yet…” JFC Buck what the hell? god this man is making me want to tear out my hair! (I love him so much tho) and once again you are devastating me with eddie feels! (god I am not even a quarter into the chapter yet and already a mess, I guess as the story amps up my message count per chapter is also going up proportional to how much each chapter makes me feel, good job xD)

(3)buck loves christopher so much and ALWAYS puts him first without hesitation and like eddie it also completely takes me out every time *heart eyes* NOT A LEMONADE-FRUIT-PUNCH-SWAP noooo! "She’s got you. I doubt she’d be looking elsewhere.” asldjfdjgdjs 'Buck wants to scream.' me too buddy, me too xDD THANK YOU ALBERT, amazing xD "Maybe if you tell him you think he’s charming, he could remember he liked us first.” ooooh christopher is not playing fair, huh? I like it xDDD but also charming?!!!!

(4)family tamales? 👀 is abuela just being abuela or did christopher bring her in on the sheme? xD oh man I love that kid so much, he really is the best <3 oh that scene with bobby and athena was pretty amazing “I feel like you know something I don’t.” hfshhh xD noo not eddie being sorry for everything ._. my heart ._. “It’s gonna hurt like a bitch forever,” ????!!!!! this made me gasp out loud OH NO why would you do this to me? oh man oh man no you know what that acutally made me cry holy shit!

(5)'It’s his space, he realizes.' well I am now literally sitting here with tears on my face, not a lot of fanfic can do that! 'He falls asleep forgetting.' nooo .__. but heck yeah baby time *heart eyes* oh man oh man with how much this chapter is hurting me I am pretty sure I'm not ready for the actual angst-chapter (but like, I still can't wait, I am so excited for the angst xD) god I am sorry for the slightly unhinged amount of messages, but as you can see this chapter made me feel a lot <333

fjdsaklfj i'm putting the reply under a read more because this is already so lONG (ily though)

listen all i'm saying is that eddie has been The Hardest to write throughout all of this because i am aware of everything that's happening with him outside of buck's limited pov and at some point the guy's bound to explode fdasjkl

AND HE DOES (and that's why eddie made him his legal guardian in canon can you believe that that is CANON it's canon wow sometimes i'm still in shock) also listen,,, buck high-key flirting with eddie and not realizing it sometimes makes ME want to pull my hair out fdsajkljf

honestly i think christopher doesn't think eddie's abuela would understand but i also think abuela is Not Oblivious to what's happening heheh also I'M SORRY eddie is just Confused right now ok he's just a confused bub

also stop <333 i just really love the idea of buck having to fight for space on his fridge growing up, and then realizing he's had it all along with his favorite people without ever having known/asked for it. i love their little family so much.

i hope you enjoy the next chapter ok it should be out some time today since i ended up rewriting some scenes yesterday instead of just editing them like a normal person

ily thank you so much for your messages as always you're so wonderful ;-; <33

[tamiddyinyourcity]

3:12am.

A lot of events are happening and still happening.

Friday, June 5th of 2020.

ITS A FUCKING FRIDAY? I THOUGHT IT WAS A TUESDAY OR SOMETHING. FUCKING HELL. A FRIDAY? A FRIDAY. WOW. WOW.

What's up, sluts and whores, best friends, love ones? I am feeling.... chaotic.

So, let's mood dump some stuff.

Here's a song for this, also.

Life updates:

I got bored and nihilistic at some point during the week. Hit up an old chat room from 2013 I abandoned. Lo and behold, everyone else was doing the same. Its fucking surreal, learning that the buddies who were out here just being edgy, depressed, and overly kawaii are 1) in college, 2) working jobs, and 3) still have not changed at all, but with a few extra years of memes and mild maturity tossed in there. It's been hysterical seeing everyone again. I swear to god, I woke up genuinely happy for the first time in months, maybe even years. Sat up straight and bed and everything. Good feeling.

Then my mom very quickly brought back the suicidal thoughts that I specifically wanted to avoid, thus resulting in me ignoring her, because I do not like being around sloppy ass bitches.

Might also cut off a few other people in life. Since yes, Alphonse, or whatever his fucking name is, I noticed you saw me openly suicidal and chugging that wine and in extreme hysterics while doing absolutely nothing. I don't think too many people saw my story around that point in time, so I don't remember all of them. But those who saw, are actually close to me and of age, and just openly chose not to? Can go fuck themselves. Suck my cock, Alphonse, Zoey, and whoever else. (Did Audrey see? I don't think she saw the full thing. Idk. But I still like her, so, shes not getting swore at on a blog I suppose.)

Instagram made a wise choice not....

Oh, hold on, this song is my jam.

Must pause scorn. Ive gotta vibe.

......

This is such a good band. I found them right before my Junior Year of high school. (I recall jamming to their music in the bathroom as I did my hair, makeup, and outfit extra nice, just to be ignored by everyone anyways. Coolness! Haha, high school is gonna stay in the very far pits of my memory and stay there until it ever benefits me.)

......

Such a good song. I love all the noises. Idk, music like this evokes very specific moods, so its hard to pinpoint what I like. The unique vocals. The images that come into my mind when I listen to it. The lyric relatability. Lots of things.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

3:27am.

Alright, let's never reflect on high school again. Some of those bitches had problems, and they were not mine to solve, genuinely.

Anyways, back to some life updates:

If someone were to tell 12 year old me, "Hey, that annoying 11 year old that has too many accounts online and always weirded you out is going to go through a huge identity change six years from now and also want to fuck you IF you were chubby?", I'd believe they were having a stroke..... But nope, its true. I'm pretty happy for them honestly, I think they're nonbinary but they slayed their makeup and HRT, so, they're serving mad looks. Very cool. Aaaaaand as for the whole second half of that sentence............. Well, a squish kink is valid, buuuuut if I had a thing for plump women, (which I sorta do,) then I'd not.... go to insanely thin women..... aaaand keep telling them how hot they'd be if they had a bigger stomach or rack. (True, but shut up a little bit fam.)

Also, I got boob pics. Platonic boob pics. I'm still gonna be forever confused by the concept of platonic nudes, with my gay ass, especially if of course its followed up with pervy extra comments...... Yeah, I don't respond well to confusing signals.... It was awkward.... But they're still pretty nice.

Shout out to that time my old friend Sophie sent me platonic tiddy pics and I had no idea how to respond. "Yasss queen ur nips slay hard" is the new phrase I guess.

Hmm..............what else to say?

Feeling odd.

OH.

I MADE ENERGY DRINK JUNGLE JUICE AND DIDNT GET A SINGLE LICK OF SLEEP ALL OF YESTERDAY NIGHT OR MORNING UNTIL I CRASHED AT NOON AND WOKE UP AT LIKE 7PM AFTER FAINTING IN AND OUT OF SLEEP FROM EXHAUSTION AND HEAT STROKE

It feels odd

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Slut

:)

My mind just instantly thinks of the word "slut" when I think of my ex. Since he is.

Im gonna fai t any second now.

Bitch yes im tired fuck yeah

3:40am.

Hmmm....

I csnt feel my hand.

Radiatio. From my phone battery is making it feel super weird.

Peace out later yalls.