#aaaaaa trying to get back into the groove of things

[starshapedspider]

when you get attached to the version of ur granddaughter that u were supposed to put in a loving and alive version of her family’s home

[snickiebear]

yo nadia <3333 i'm bored in my online classes and u reblogged the questions thingy at the right time lmao, so get ready: 1, 4, 5, 9, 10, 17, 23, 24, 28, 30!!!, 34, 38, 39, 40 (the intimacy of being understood) (imma stop here lol) (also i'm sorry u're not feeling well, ily and hope u'll feel better soon!! <33333)

ELE ILY. (and thank you, i’m stayin home today cause,,, yeah. i appreciate you sm.) you’re the literal best, i adore you. 

1. How long ago did you start reading fanfiction? Writing fanfiction?

The first fanfiction i read was for The Lunar Chronicles when I was like 11?? and it was 100% on accident and it scarred me because it was a hardcore porn one with a period kink and i was like WHAT IS THIS??? OH MY GOD???? LMAOOOOO i didn’t pick it back up until i was 13-14 and really got into the Fairy Tail fandom. I still reread my favorites on ff.net cause i love them. 

As for writing, I wrote a horrible, terrible x-men fanfiction when I was twelve. (my friend still brings it up and REFUSES to delete it so it still gets comments and views, that shit HAUNTS ME ELE.) then tried again for Fairy Tail, posted like two chapters before taking it down cause i wasn’t really feeling it. And then I posted The Intimacy Of Being Understood and here we are. 

4. Link your three favorite fics right now.

OMGG okok 

@murd3rm1ttens ‘s The Problem How Time Works IF YOU HAVENT READ THIS YOU GUYS NEED TO HOP ON IT ASAP. MITTEN’S WRITING SO SO SO SO GOOD. SAKURA AND INO ARE TOTAL BADASSES. KAKASHI IS A SIMPPPP. ITS SO FUCKING GOOD. 

@mouseymightymarvellous ‘s We Were Screaming In Color (Only A Possibility) yes, yes I KNOW. i always point into mousey’s direction but i WILL always advocate that everyone reads her fics, they’re literally so beautiful???? i just happen to be rereading WWSIN rn 

@safelycapricious ‘s Shaking Up And Breaking Down series. I found this like?? idfk but i’ve been raving about it ever since. ALSO CHECK OUT THEIR FICS IN GENERAL. 

fuck i have more than three but also check out @ambivalens999 ‘s Masks

i do wanna make a fic rec thing where i just rav about my favs,,, might do that later or sum

5. What are your fanfic pet peeves? Do they have a huge effect on whether or not you decide to read something?

Omniscient third person. I don’t like it. Like I can understand that it can be a little hard to stay in one person’s perspective but, in my opinion, if you can, it shows how disciplined you are as a writer. Plus, i just get so confused when I go from A’s thoughts to suddenly what B is thinking about A. 

When writers use ‘ ‘ instead of “ “. When writers put thoughts in ‘ ‘ instead of just italicizing them. It’s small things but like they just bother me sO MUCH. most of the time i can ignore it and try to enjoy but other times i just dip. 

9. Tag 3 fic writers you think are underrated/unknown in the fandom/fanfiction community.

@espoir-et-reves !!!!! THEIR SHISAKU FICS ARE SO SO SO SO SO GOOD. And they have a warring states one going on THAT I AM SO OBSESSED WITH. 

@writer168 idk if they’re really “underrated” but THEY HAVE SUCH GREAT FICS ON AO3. Like theres an AU with sakura, kiba, and shino that i reread constantly because it just. is. so. fucking. GOOD. and they posted a new one that i’m YELLING about. 

@eggtoasties okay they only have 2 in the naruto fandom (one shisaku which is still ongoing) BUT THEIR WRITING STYLE IS SO NICE?? I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT. I still go back and reread their shikasaku one cause UGH i can’t get enough. I love it. 

10. What’s your favorite fandom, pairing, or character to read fic for?

Fandoms: Naruto, Soul Eater, The Old Guard, ATLA

Parings: KakaSaku/ShikaSaku/ShiSaku/MultiSaku, SoMa, Joe X Nicky, Zukka

Character: SAKURA. I will read anything with Sakura as the main character and her being a fuckin badass or becoming a badass. I love her.

17. How obsessively do you sit and stare at your fic after you’ve just posted and wait for feedback?

aha.. haha.. well. I check my email like three times an hour. its the first thing i check in the mornings too. I’m literally a whore for praise and literally eat up feedback like its going out of style. I also reread a lot of my stuff because i make so many mistakes and spelling errors, or the spacing is weird oR SOMETHING. plus, literally any and all comments make my day, i go back and reread them cause they just make me feel so tingly and warm like “wow. this person enjoyed the fic/my writing enough to tell me. thats HUGE!”

23. What’s your absolute favorite trope to write?

Angry, feral, bloodied, morally gray women. They aren’t bad guys, they’re probably the good guy, but that doesn’t mean they cant be fucking raging at the world with raw knuckles and blood on their teeth. I just love an angry woman who struggles with her emotions and just has so much inner conflict but that doesn’t take away from her character or badassery, it adds to it. 

24. What’s a trope that you’d like to never hear about as long as you live, let alone write?

The fake dating or miscommunication troupe. LIKE GUYS JUST TALK. AND TELL EACH OTHER OMFG. the entire like obliviousness of “nah they dont like me” while the They holds their hand and kisses their cheek. MOFO WHAT. it makes me so impatient and like mad HAAHHAHA. its probably because i’m a pretty confrontational person so seeing stuff like that just “cmon bro, USE YO HEAD.”

28. How do you deal with writing pressure (ie: pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc)?

I have yet to receive a negative comment! Which i was really surprised about tbh. As for deadlines or pressure to update, i just kind of do whatever. I do set goals, but i set them flexible enough that hey, if i can’t do it, that’s okay. 

I have a lot of mini goals, like “i want to write this chapter and get it done this week” and then the large goal is “FINISH BY END OF MAY” so i have time. 

Actually, now that I think on it, the entire pressure to update thing is probably why i’m waiting until I have all of OL&W written to post it weekly,, cause well. I wouldn’t wanna leave you guys waiting as I tried to write and work out the next chapters and stuff, you know?

30. Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.

AAAAAA YOU KNOW I LOVE THESE AHAHAHAH

Have you seen the way the dead dance, World Breaker? They roar, half mad and starving. Do you not wish, do you not hope to see them twist and bend and dance to your will?

Shikamaru snarls, looking behind his shoulders to where his Shadows lay. “Patience.” He spits. “Is of the essence, Things of Ancient. Know your place as the dark you are.”

34. How much of yourself and your life experiences do you put into your writing? What do you think your readers’ image of you is?

None of my experiences match up to anything I write tbh,,, probably the only thing that is me in my writing is maybe the emotional turmoil? I’m pretty emotionally and mentally mature because from a pretty young age i started forming my own opinions, started looking into the world around us and being like “dude what the fuck this is not what disney advertised”. Then i started talking (read: arguing and debating) with my dad about a lot of it. So, like emotions are kind of hard for me. Like i’m pretty good at controlling them or understanding them, but still. idk its hard to explain ig.

Like the weight of stress, the anger, the sadness. It’s kind of therapeutic to write. Cause i don’t know how to put those feelings to verbal words so writing them really helps. 

As for my readers’ image? Probably like some kind of hunched over figure typing away in the dark with a maniacal grin on their face. I honestly don’t know AHHAHAHA but it is fun to think about. I think they’d see me as someone with potential but a lot of room to grow and someone who is imperfect but in a charming way LMAOOOO

38. What does your writing process look like? How chaotic is it on a scale of 1 (very tame) to 10 (you can’t handle this kind of chaos)?

I’m gonna be real honest. Its probably like a 2. I’m a bit of a control freak so I almost always go in chronological order, my writing is pretty linear. Unless, i get bored and jump to one of my fav parts. It's pretty much i sit down, i open the doc, read over my notes and just start writing. 

It’s a little boring to explain AHAHAHA but once i get into the groove of things its really fucking great, I can like feel myself in the world, I can feel what i want the characters to, i love it. I catch myself mouthing the words as i type too, which i find hilarious.

39. What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?

I rather like how raw my writing is sometimes. Which might sound really vain, but i do like the way i word things or describe things. I love juxtaposition and repetition, or making a good ole circle back to some minute detail that wouldn’t stand out until i repeat it at the end and you’re like “omg” AHAHAHAHA.

Like those little poetic snippets or certain wording i just sit back and go “damn thats kinda good nadia! go you!’ HAHAHA  

40. How did you come up with the idea for The Intimacy Of Being Understood?

AAAAA this fic is like my first child, my pride and joy LMAO

so the idea initially came when i was reading some fic, idk if it was even naruto, but i was like “i don't like this, but i do like the rain symbolism.” And I knew i wanted to write something kind of slow paced, something a little sad and angsty, but would show KakaSaku slowly but surely falling in love.

Idk if you’ve noticed but a lot of my fics, the pairings don’t change each other dramatically. They accept each other as they are and then they grow with together. Like that acceptance is something i just love writing, its so subtle, it isn’t something you declare. Its simply “I am going to love you. I am going to love you despite your flaws and faults. I am going to love you unconditionally because I know you, I understand you, and there is nothing you could do to drive me away.” 

The fic kind of wrote itself after that first scene. I kept going back to the rain, go being ghosts, and resurrection, and the small epiphanies one gets. I wanted to focus on each character’s growth with each other. They didn’t find light in life because of each other, but with each other. And i think that’s my favorite thing about that fic. 

I wanted something raw and real and just something beautiful. I’m actually really proud of it tbh. Would i go back and rewrite/edit it? Oh of course! I’d do that with every single one of my fics, but i’m not gonna cause i think its in its rawest form right now. :))))

ask me shit plz

[peachi-puff]

Hiiiii! I was wondering if you could please do a sev snape X Hufflepuff wife where she gets in a bit of an accident and when she wakes up she has temporary memory loss and when she sees sev, she starts telling him how nice his face and voice is and starts playing with his hair and then asks if he's got a gf or something and then is completely amazed when he tells her that he's her husband and it's just all cute and silly and fluffyyyyyy. Thanks!!! Xxxx

Aaaaaa I love snape so much!!! This is such a cute scenario. I hope you enjoy, I’m just now getting back into the groove of writing! Also, as the two are married, both of you are called Professor snape hahahaha

Fall was fast approaching at Hogwarts, and you and your husband sat together in the staff lounge planning your lessons. You were the head of hufflepuff and took turns teaching charms with Professor flitwick, while Severus was the head of Slytherin. An unlikely pairing, some might say, but nethertheless there was nothing but love between the two.

“Hmmm.. darling, do you remember that one Professor? The one who lied about all the things he did.. lockhart, wasn’t it?” You asked your husband, looking down at the lesson planning sheet in front of you. Severus scoffed, shooting a sideways glance at you. “Don’t remind me. Why are you thinking about that idiot?” He questioned. “Well, he did use the Forgetfulness charm and the more I think about it, maybe I should teach my fourth years that! I mean, it’d make for great practice! But maybe I should tweak it a bit? So it just erases small memories?”

Severus looked at you, this time with concern. “Y/N, no. I love you and all of your ideas, but not that one. Fourth years with a memory charm? And not to mention, you’ve never even tweaked a charm!” He said, becoming increasingly worried by the second. “Actually, sev, I have tweaked a charm.” You said proudly, raising your nose in the air. “It was my 6th year and I tweaked the light charm to give off green light with little sparkles!” Of course, you left out the part where it exploded soon afterwards and gave you second degree burns that took madam pomfrey 4 hours to completely heal. You weren’t a kid anymore though, and you were convinced you’d be able to succeed this time.

Just before your husband could reply, Professor flitwick entered the room. “Oho! Well if it isn’t Professor snape and Professor snape!” You giggled, still getting excited over the fact that the two of you shared the same last name. “Hello, Filius! Is the classroom ready for me to use now?” You asked. “Yes, indeed!” You leaned over and gave your husband a kiss on the cheek. “I’ll see you soon, love!” You said, right before talking with flitwick about possibly taking over one more class for him as he was getting older.

It took you half a class period to attempt to tweak the charm before you realized that the students were still waiting for you to begin. You stood up and began to explain your charm, even though it still wasn’t finished. “Umm... you! Come to the front please!” You pointed at one of your students. “As an example, this boy here... what’s your name? Hootyhoo? Got it. Hootyhoo will perform this charm on me to show you the effects.” You sat down in front of him, trying to ignore a growing panic as he slowly lifted his arm, pointed it at your head, and said the magic words.

Everything went black.

“Uuugh...” you groaned, rubbing your head. You slowly sat up, taking in the sight around you. “Where am I..?” You asked, slightly nervous. Just then, a tall man with shoulder length black hair walked into the room. You felt heat rise to your cheeks. You had never seen such a handsome man before.

“Are you alright?” He asked. “I-I yeah” you stuttered. The man took a seat next to you. “What happened? Poppy told me you were in here. I told you it was a bad ide-“ you immediately cut him off. “I’m sorry, but can I please have your name??” You whispered, almost choking on air. “Y-you have a really nice voice...” this time it was severus’s turn to choke on air. He stood up and tried to find the nurse. “Why can’t she/he remember me?” He said sternly. Madame Pomfrey gave an agitated sigh. “Professor, it was the work of some terribly put together charm. Her/his memories will be restored in 12 hours as long as she/he drinks this tea.” She handed him a steaming cup filled with a strange teal colored liquid.

He returned, disappointment etched on his face. “Your name?” You asked again. “Severus.” He replied shorty, feeling a bit sorry for his wife/husband. “Handsome name for a handsome man,” you winked, becoming more flirty. Severus gave a small smile and tried to make you take a sip of your drink. As he bent over, you just couldn’t help it. You quickly ruffled his hair. “It’s soooooo softttt oh my goodness!” You gushed, not noticing he was slightly blushing. You did this in the privacy of your own home of course, but there was something really sweet about not remembering him at all and still falling for him.

“Also, Severus,” you turned slowly to him. “Tell me, do you have a... you know... significant other?” He saw the glint of hope in your eyes and almost let out a chuckle. “I’m afraid I do.” He said. “Oh.. that’s a shame..” you whispered, disappointment in your face. “But you do too.” He said. “Oh.. really? Now I feel terrible.. why can’t I remember?” You asked. “Well, you tried to change up the forgetfulness charm. Your husband tried to warn you but...” he crossed his arms and leaned back in his chair, trying not to smirk. “Oh... well I suppose I better talk to him. Severus, can you do me a favor and fetch my husband?” Still pretty disappointed that this beautiful man wasn’t yours. “Sure thing.” He said, amused, not moving an inch. It took you about 3 minutes to realize. “Oh. OH!” You gasped, feeling overjoyed. “YOU!!! YOURE MY HUSBAND?? OH GOODNESS!!!!! I AM THE LUCKIEST PERSON ALIVE!!!”

Severus actually began to laugh now and gently hug you. “No, no. That would be me.”

(Sorry for naming a random kid hootyhoo lmao)

[deet-doot-diz]

Soooooo I heard you're gonna write a thing! I'm so excited! Your writing is amazing. Are you gonna upload it?

Aaaaaa thank you so much!!!!  Yes I definitely will once it’s finished!  I don’t expect it to be more than a little one-shot thing.  I’m trying to give myself a simple idea to go with just to help me get back in the writing groove. Heh, but then again who knows. I didn’t think Hospital would be more than a quick little one shot thing either.  I’m not very good at staying super short.  Anyway though, I hope it’s enjoyable to read.  I’m working on it right now so if I’m lucky, it’ll be done today too.