#aaaaaa poor Alice!

[voices-of-ether]

Angel honestly was having a *great* evening. Absolutely fantastic!

For the past several months he'd been getting more and more antsy about being stuck in this plane of existence, being 'between jobs' so to speak. Normally he was in and out within a matter of days, and being THIS long around humans...ugh!!! Being forced into a corporeal form for very long was one of the bad things about being an entity like himself, after a while it started feeling like dirty clothes.

So feeling itchy and ill at ease in his human suit, he'd hit up a place that these bugs called a underground fight club, a grubby place full of delicious dark bloodthirsty vibes. And it had delivered. Granted he couldn't Reap the soul of any bug that wasn't specific orders handed down from the higher ups. But as a former angel of War he could freely inflict pain to the point it would certainly make them wish they were dead.

And all that pain and blood had the same effect on an angel of his sort as would a drinking marathon with hard liquor. He felt recklessly *wonderful* Euphoric, even.

So when this odd little redhead bug crossed his path, radiating curiously tinged vibes of fear well, she might as well have been a lazer pointer and he a very excitable cat!

" Hey HEY where do you think you're going!! " he shouted gleefully. He leaped into the air and zigzagged after her. " What's the matter? Do I look scaaaaarrry? Hahahaa!!! Hey come back! "

He quickly increased his speed to get ahead of her and then landed with a thump right in her path, crouched and ready to pounce.

" Hiya little bug! " he smirked and flashed her a very unsettling grin.

  🔄  🩸  to  find  my  muse  after  they've  been  in  a  fight (from voices-of-ether)

"!!!!" That buzz in Alice's head was so strong she did a full body shiver. Instead of trying to focus and sense where it was coming from, she just frantically used her eyes. This entity had to be extremely powerful. Even sensing would take too long before she needed to run.

In a fourth of a second, she saw a blue entity with black wings, covered in blood.

Oh FUCK no!!!!

She was running away, or at least make a head start before she had to defend herself.

[embodyingchaos]

DUDE DUDE DUDE I WAS LITERALLY GOING THROUGH MY PLAYLIST AND THIS SONG CAME UP AND I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD. I NEED TO SHOW ALICE. IM VERY HAPPY U LIKED IT I REALLY LIKE THIS ARTIST ( listen to valentine.)

LOVE U MORE BESTIE MWAH MWAH 💐💐 I got the flowers dw luv

oooooooo good taste 👀👀 for me it has to be national anthem demo

-⭐️

Ok fine it’s Paul dano *runs away giggling*

❥ HOLY SHIT I FUCKING KNEW IT WAS PAUL DANO, HE WAS IN PRISONERS AAAAAA when i saw him i was like "this poor man"

AND I WILL DEFINITELY LISTEN TO VALENTINE NO DOUBT

omg national anthem demo is so goooddddd, amazing choice!!!

[soap-stains]

Heyo! Spoilers from Parts 1 & 2 of Nightmare Time! Let me know what to tag this with if you don't want spoilers!!!

These are notes that I took during it 🥺

Nightmare Time (ep 1)

NINE MINUTES LATE WE ABOUT TO GOOOOO

OOOOOOOOOO IT'S HATCHETFIELD

THEY GONNA SING MAYBE?????

O.o

IT'S MARIAHHHHHHH

JONNNNNNNNNN

COREY!!!!!

ROB!!!!!!!

ALL OF THEM AAAAAA!!!

jfc joey/curt

Aaaaaa the song!!!!!

"The Nightmare Time already caught you" 👀

Yo it's Nick!!!!!!!!!

Holy- yo! it's one the radio people!! Donna!!

uhhhh... Wooly Foot. Ok.

Aaaa Joey

Nick is the butler aww

H- hidgens? HOH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD HIDGENS OH MT GOD

Black and White 👀

HAHA someone said PogChamp in chat

"Whatever you do, Lucy, don't fall in love with him." uuhhhhhhhh

Curt stop laughingbdndbidbd

Someone said it was gonna be Joey. Sounds about right. Yep.

I missed a minute because my mother

Did someone say,,, it's Grunt,,,??

His- his name is Conk? Konk? Idk

Gotta give Angela props for this tho

Hidgens seems sus

He's v in love with her, huh

This is horror Tho there's no way it's gonna go well

"Konk and Lucy have love!" awwww

...curt wh- oh. Fiancé, huh. Don't like him

JOHNATHAN IS A HECK

Konk protecc, Konk attac

Hidgens angy

TED. FREAKING. TED. OF COURSE IT'S FREAKING TED OH MY GOD. I HATE HIM SO MUCH RIGHT NOW. UGH.

"You can't fake an accent like that" *looks into the camera like it's office*

I can't believe this insinuates that Hidgens isn't even a professor

HE'S GOING TO KILL HIM OMG

Y'know, this is probably only going to fuel then Tedgens shippers and YES THAT EXISTS AND I HATE IT

"Basically 'go fuck yourself.'"

Ted didn't sign up for this, huh?

"You going soft on me, Ted?" "On the contrary-" *looks into the camera again*

"YOU ARE STUPID."

I can't tell whether or not Ted actually likes her for her or not because it seems more of a just "hot woman with issues so mine now"

Rob was about to take his shirt off, huh?

"Professor should go fuck himself!" -_-

"Ted's PornHub premium account" oh ok

Aw poor Lucy

Awe he took a bullet for her

Is Hidgens about to die again? I mean Ted is probably gonna die again I don't really care Tho

yeah yeah shut it, ted

OH SHE LOVES HIM

Eh he's dead now. That was kinda sad tho

Once again, Hidgens loses his mind and tries to get people killed

"I'm not greedy, I just want 30 million dollars"

UGGGHHHH WORKING BOYS AGAIN

Jeff. Ape Man Jeff. I had a feeling. I hate it here.

Of course his name is fucking Chumby

Jaime.

Watcher World starting off now

BILL?????? BILL????

A L I C E???????

Deb noooo

*inhale* bill. BILL.

Paul mention????

awe jon <3

That's ominous

Aw what a rebel

UHHHHH EXCUSE ME?? Creep.

Drowsy Town?

Awe that would be wholesome if their relationship wasn't,, bad

Ted has a brother? 👀

Bill stop with the doctor she would be a lovely playwright!!!!

A musical. Of course.

OH WAIT THAT MEANS A SONG-

"Ahoy there!" *intense flashbacks and I want to die*

SNIGGLES

NO. NO. STOP IT. NO.

NO PLEASE GOD NO

"DON'T YOU EVER FUCKING BLINK" UM OK

MY MAN DID NOT JUST DIS DEAR EVAN HANSEN. I mean I don't really care for DEH anymore, but. HEY.

Aw Angela is Snigglette <3

a ballad huh?

I don't even know what she's saying anymore

This is really just The Smurfs, huh?

"You're a liar, Sniglette!" She seems so put off, was this in the "script"

I'm really really concerned this is weird

OH UH OKAY THAT WAS OFF SCRIPT HUH

Snugglebugs hdndkhdjd

Oh god I hope Sniglette is ok

"Shut up, Jeff!"

Oh no oh god oh my god

"Mam, please stay seated during the performance" uh-

"You can (I can't remember what he said), Lauren!" Uhhhhhhhhh

Bill freaking slept through that? hhhok

Confusion????

Zigs uwu? OOOOO THEY'RE ENBY!! Who's playing them?

Jfc Bill shut up.

"It's your mother's fault" BILL. SHUT UP.

I despise Craig

Cinema teen!!!!

MAN IN A HURRY!!!!!

Bill, come on,,,

They're trying, but barely, I guess,,,

Oh god this isn't gonna go well, huh?

Oh no are they gonna die???? I don't want Alice to die againnnnn

🥺

🥺🥺🥺he asked her about her showww

"IT'S A COMEDY, DAD"

It's so nice to see them interacting positively

Aaaaand now it's ruined. Yikes.

BILL. I SWEAR.

"That's fine, because. I hate you." Y I K E S

uhhhhhh that's not good

Bill's about to die, huh?

Win a doll.... A Blinky doll.... This is just another Wiggly, isn't it. I already had a feeling, but....

"You got a girlfriend? Boyfriend?" oop

"Nothin' says 'sorry and I love you' like a Blinky doll!"

um ok?

Hm. Ok.

She really shooting out her anger, huh?

Lauren, no

"He's been a failure his whole fuckin' life." THAT HAD TO BE SAID RIGHT AS MY FAMILY WAS LISTENING.

"I think what she needs is a good, swift, kick in the ass, sir." um.

I am. Very not comfortable with this.

Are- are they about to spar

OH MY GOD NICK HAS A BLINK DOLL

Billllllllllll noooo

Girl got it, huh?

I'm not ok with this

Of freaking course it's a fun house

"Only two bucks for a whack" umm

Oh god oh my god oh my GOD

B I L L L L L L AAAAAAAA

"You weak, weak man." No he's a strong boy!!!!!!

HELL YEAH ALICE

OOOO CALL BACK

oh thas,,,scary sounding

"Do you remember where we parked?" ...

Did this just... Not happen?

"I won't pry."

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

"We've got plans for Zigs" JRBDKHDJDB

JFBDKHDKDHDJFB NICK- YOU CAN'T JUST- AAAA

Jaime is gonna be there next week, but Angela & Mariah won't 👀

[flyingcookierambles]

i...finally did it.... i finished aa pandora hearts

aaaaaa guys ive been reading this manga since about 7th grade which was abt 2011? for me? and now its 2019 and im almost 22 and like aaa i’ve finally finished it.....im so glad my children are happy....

aaaa

i also remembered that gilbert is the best i like had a fictional crush on him when i was like 13 sksksksksksksksksksksksk 

mochi jun’s art is so good too i almost forgot about it ive actually forgotten half of the plot tho hahahaaaa

i have the physical volumes of 1 to 18 so i had to reread 18 at the library and also use the library to get volumes 19-24. i binge read them all earlier tonight and they were so good. i was honestly worried abt the ending being like tegami bachi where lag sacrificed himself but no, gil’s just like 125 i guess and oz and alice got reincarnated + oz has jack’s body which is stuck in a loop of growing up and then turning back into a baby so like he’s physically immortal i guess? like benjamin button? ok? as long as oz, gil, and alice are together, im ok. vince was kinda annoying the whole series for obsessing over his brother but like the last few books of him being like “i hate myself for being a child of ill omen and opening the door to the abyss bc miranda barma told me to” made me be like “oh no vincent you poor bby. u didnt deserve any of this aaaaaaaa” im a bit annoyed that he didnt get together w/ ada at the end tho. the end ship of sharon and reim felt like it came out of nowhere, but i guess when your friends are dead/in the reincarnation cycle and your brother/best friend is also dead, eh? ok? i guess? 

oof the happy tea party dream that oz had broke me!!! elliott, xai, and break being alive and happy there too was also really sad....

aaaa..

abyss/white alice/the intention of the abyss? said that maybe oz saw some alternate universe where everyone was happy and i was like I WANNA BELIEVE

aaaaa welp. i guess when i’ll get my next paycheck i’ll start to try to buy the remaining volumes for my collection + the cacus race light novel + importing mochizuki jun’s artbook at some point?

that’s the weird thing too. usually i wouldnt take 8 years to finish reading a thing that’s been out since like 2006, i’d just uhhh read scans. but like, there are just some series that i love so much i cant bring to pirate i guess lmao. i think that i’ll try to buy all the manga for blue exorcist, pandora hearts + the case study of vantas (mochijun’s new manga about vampires in uhh paris?? idk lol) and black butler bc like. i have almost 20 volumes of manga of each of these series, i might as well complete the collection (even tho only pandora hearts is over, the other 3 series are ongoing QAQ BYE WALLET IG??)

[pianoperson]

Omg these are good imagines.

I feel bad for everyone involved oof

Drunk Kyle just wanted to remind Lancelot of the yearly injection (or probably wanted to have fun, or thought it was his room... maybe the last one) when he sees you and Lancelot and suddenly that sobered him up and scarred him. Rip lmao

Seth made me laugh hahhaha that high pitched screech. “i’M TELLING SIRIUS” as if Sirius is gonna ground Fenrir lmao

That poor soldier who walked in on Jonah... I was beginning to feel bad and at the same time feel frustrated with him. Like boi omg he’s literally telling you to get out why tf are you still standing there i’D DRAG YOU OUT MAN JUST LET ME GET THE TOWEL— bless that one soldier that was passing by.

And Loki omg why you gotta interrupt a moment when Harr finally got the courage to touch Alice 😩

But aaaaaa these were fun to read!!

It's okay I dont mind requesting for ikerev! So! How do you think, Lancelot, Fenrir, Jonah and Harr would react to being walked in by someone when they're having sexy timezz with their female s!o? Thanks^^

Since my country is in complete quarantine at the moment, I’m stuck at home and I’m getting really anxious.

And since writing usually helps in calming me down, I decided to look at my poor neglected inbox and respond to some asks that are long overdue! *sweats nervously* 

My dear, I hope you forgive the long wait and enjoy this! ༼ つ ಥ_ಥ ༽つ

Some NSFW hints, so under the cut just to be safe (✿´‿`)

Lancelot, Fenrir, Jonah and Harr’s reactions to being walked in during intimate moments HCs:

Keep reading

[rayne-the-neutrois-nerd]

10 Facts about me!

I was tagged by @fleur-de-jinki thank you babe!

1- I started playing the flute in 4th grade and have been playing it ever since. I was also in my high school’s marching band, and was the Senior Drum Major in my last year. (That’s like, the member with the most authority, it was kinda cool to command people but ur arms hurt a lot)

2- I have a cat names wakala (we call her wakka for short, but the ass only responds to “pretty girl”) and she’s a tortoise shell calico and is such a beautiful kitty I love her even tho she’s a lil shit

3- My favorite video game is Kingdom Hearts. That shit is my childhood (and I”m fucking stoked for KH3 I’ve been keeping up with the news and everything just aaAAA I CAN’T WAIT)

4- I am not a big fan of horror. I mean, I like dark and grotesque things, just not when they depend on jumpscares... A good example of a thing I love that I find really freaky is the game Alice: Madness Returns. Just the tone of it is creepy and the world is freaky and just.... that’s what I like... There’s never a jumpscare-shock factor in it. 

5- I’m a crystal witch, which means I do witchcraft involving and based around crystals. I’m kinda bad though because I suck at remembering moon stuff and I literally only own quartz.... a lot of quartz...

6- I fucking love languages. I speak some basic French, and am trying to brush up and learn more because I want to be fluent one day, and I am also studying Korean. (I’m just procrastinating big time bc... mental illnesses... are fun....)

7- I have a large passion for food and I dream about having an actual fuctioning kitchen and enough money to buy loads of spices and different kinds of meats and vegetables and stuff and just;;; play with flavors and techniques and aaaAAA..... I’m too poor tho pfft

8- I love the Autumn, it’s not too cold, not too hot, and usually rains a lot. The only time in California where the weather is actually forgiving. Then winter hits and in comes the ball freezing cold weather that makes me feel like an icicle. Nothing a good cup of coco won’t fix tho. (I kinda like the cold tho, the hot makes me all sweaty and gross and like how do u fix that? u can fix being cold by warm drinks and blankets and sweaters but??? being hot??? do i rip off my skin??)

9- I want to be a writer, but I’ve been in this funk ever since I flopped Nanowrimo last year. My friend finally got me writing again yesterday and.... I might be able to get going in time for Nano this year... I just have so many ideas

10- And lastly, I’ve been a fan of Kpop since November 2015, and my first bias group was Super Junior, and my ultimate bias was Kyuhyun. Then I went to SHINee World V in LA and.... never went back pffft. 

I have no clue who’s been tagged and who hasn’t already so. Ur a friend? Go ahead if u wanna.

[tumblunni]

OK BUNNI GONNA MAKE A PERSONASONA

Right so my civilian design would probably just be like <------ my icon thats my dumb attempt at drawing cartoon me

Tho that’s cartoon me as of right now, so it’d have to be like a personaverse where its about people at college rather than high school i mean I could design a ‘sona based on how i looked back then, but i wasn’t out about my gender identity during highschool, so it’d be kinda Uncomfortable drawing that old fake self of mine But yeah uhh.. if anyone wants to know what ‘thought I was a cis woman’ bunni looked like, basically just futaba with brown hair + overweight. And without a budget for the sort of cool clothes futaba has, and also walking around squinting without glasses cos my dad never let me see the doctor. Aaaand now current me is pretty much futaba in personality and Relateable Social Anxiety Moments so i guess i am futaba in all of the ways a futaba can ever be. i love futaba

ANYWAY BACK ON TOPIC! I think probably I’d be best at being a support type like Futaba, though honestly I want to be a fighter. Makoto is the other super relateable one to me, cos i was also a shy-as-fuck super teacher’s pet nerd whose frustrations with life led to ‘I WANT TO RIDE A GIANT POPE MOTORCYCLE AND PUNCH DEMONS WITH MY FISTS’. Its a relateable feeling! A common emotion! Also I’m kinda the sort of person who cares the most about protecting my friends, yes, but its hard for me to access any of my Nerd Skills when i’m in that emotion. I am like LET ME FUCKIN BEAT UP ANYONE WHO’S HURTING YOU, LET ME TAKE ALL THE BULLETS, LET ME CARRY YOU ALL ON MY BACK TO SAFETY AAAAAA So if I was a support type, I think my special abilities would revolve around taking damage for the other characters rather than futaba’s buffing skillz. Like, have the support persona’s stats actually matter. Have an actual HP bar that shows the limit of how much damage i can divert from the others, and like.. maybe also have other support spells that cost HP to cast? And then my recklessness can mean that i can be taken out and everyone loses the support until i’m revived. OR I could just be a regular fighter who gains the whole ‘can take a fatal attack for protagonist’ skill very early in my social link. And probably have a bunch of other more supporty skills, and/or a lot of stuff that costs HP. I’m thinking maybe like a primarily physical attackher with a small amount of MP, but the spells I actually gain are pretty useful. Also i totally wanna be Curse element! I always pick dark/ghost/whatever in videogames, I gravitate towards whatever is the ‘always born bad’ underdog monster character, cos i can relate to that. Tho I dunno what my weapon would be, tbh! I tend to just go thru periods of being obsessed with whatever weapon a fave character uses, like I kept googling all about Chakrams back when I liked Axel, and I really wanted to buy a giant 5 foot tall spoon when i first played FF9 and Quina captured my heart. And now lol I wanna have makoto’s cool brass knuckles or haru’s axe!

I DO NOT KNOW what persona I would have, cos Loki is already taken by an important plot role in P5 I can relate a lot to Loki, and I had a huge Special Interest obsession with norse myth during my teenage years I dunno if there’s any other deities that like.. have LGBTQ themes? I don’t know a huge amount about mythology in general, just a splattering of facts from various mythologies i obsessed about as a kid. If there’s any actual nonbinary deities out there, I wanna obsess about them too! Oh, but in P5 everyone is folk heroes of literature instead of strictly deities. And lol i know EVEN LESS about classic novels! I only know the ones we were taught during school, and the only one I genuinely enjoyed was Hard Times by Charles Dickens. Hmm.. to be honest I could make a cool persona out of poor Louisa Gradgrind! And Bounderby is already like a cartoonish cariacature, he could be inserted as an enemy shadow without any changes needed XD He’s pretty much kamoshida?? Or Haru’s fiancee. Or both combined. Also my love of Louisa is probably why i love Haru, tbh. Also, my copy of Hard Times is still sitting here on my desk, taunting me, drawing me into obsession agaaaain! Its been my monitor stand for like five years, I can never stop falling back into dickensian quicksand until i find an equally sized book as a substitute!~!

Hmm, or maybe.. try looking for rabbit-based mythological figures? I’ve already seen someone else make a perfect Brer Rabbit persona-sona, and the moon rabbit deity was already done in P4 Arena apparantly? (haven’t played that one) Maybe just like a Jackalope persona? i do like the idea of having a very small and harmless looking persona that kicks ass, none of the supporting characters have ever really had one of those, only the protagonist can fuse a few but theyre never really lategame viable. Tho I dunno if I’d rather have a tiny cutie who’s ferocious, or a tiny cutie that turns into something huge during battle? i do like the weird idea of everyone having chibi versions of their persona during downtime. I really liked that in P5 everyone gets one scene of their persona talking to them when they first make the contract, and Arsene gets like.. two scenes. I was so dissappointed after that that you dont actually get to talk to your persona all the time and have them as like a social link! I like whenever everyone is shown hanging out with their personas in the 4-koma mangas and stuff. I WOULD HUG ARSENE AND FEED HIM SNACKS! Anyway, whether Jackalope is an actual small rabbit or some sort of badass humanoid warrior type, I think it would be good cos it would have a built-in good idea for a mask:

Even if I picked a different persona, I do like the idea of a one-eyed mask! Or maybe some sort of jester or stage magician type costume? A top hat could work if my persona was the white rabbit or march hare from alice in wonderland... i mean you cant really categorise those as the ‘hero’ of the story tho. But cool clockwork designs!! And/or teacup stuff!! A giant teacup weapon!!

Oooh, or maybe I could have Arachne or Anansi? Just cos I love spiders as well as rabbits. Man I love a lot of animals aaaaaa....

Or if I could pick one of the personas that wild card protags can fuse in other games, I’d probably go for Choronzon or Nidhogg. I tend to like the underloved super monsterous types, I find them weirdly cute from what little personality you see in demon negotiation! I just imagine having a tiny pet floating orb of screaming skulls, and feeding him snacks. I WANT TO FEED EVERY MONSTER SNACKS every monster deserves a friennnnnnddddd aaaaaaaaa man probably that could be my social link rewards, i’d be all helping with demon negotiation n stuff PROTAGONIST HERE FEED A SNACKS TO ARSENE YO except i dont know how to cook so i mean i’d just be buying conveinience store stuff MAN I WISH I COULD COOK ARSENE BETTER SNACKS thank u for always protect protagonist, sir i hope he at least gets to sneak some of sojiro’s curry while no-one’s looking

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Replies, some long overdue.  Many in all caps, as it turns out.

@pj-gingernuts@

replied to your photoset “TOASTYSTATS: Sherlock fanworks on AO3, S1-S4  Date of post: February...”

I really enjoy these comparisons. I have only begun to reap the rewards of fan fiction post-S4, as I am desperate for MORE Sherlock and there is no guarantee of future series. Fascinating to see how A03 has trended over time. Thanks.

Thank you!!  I missed this reply at first, but really appreciate the feedback.  And may all of (y)our fanfic and canon desires be fulfilled!  <3

redbuttonhole replied to your photoset “TOASTYSTATS: Top fandoms on AO3 As of February 26, 2017 I’m doing some...”

obviously the "top" fandom is the one that penetrates the "bottom" fandom during anal sex. ;)

AHAHAHA, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. XD

@teaforlupin replied to your photo “kedgeree11: devilduck: “I always like toast in a crisis” –James...”

Those are the best goddamn toasters I've ever seen

AREN’T THEY, THO 

@anonsally replied to your photo “Brave Bennet bravely kneading the soft blanket, between my knee and my...”

Look at brAVE LITTLE BENNET ACTING ALL TAME AND CUTE AND FUUUUUZZZZZZZZYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

i knOOOOOOWWWWWW  ASDFL;KAJSDF;LADFSFSAL;KJFASD;

@recentlyfolded replied to your post “Someone just bluetooth paired with my TV speakers, changed the volume,...”

Ooh, ugh. Thanks for reminding me why I like hard-wired things. The IOT isn't all it's cracked up to be; sometimes it seems it's just cracked.

Ugh, yeah. I still haven’t figiured out what happened or how to definitively turn off access to the damn things.  At least bluetooth has a very short range...  Thanks also for the sympathy, @anonsally @goblinhorde @mugenmine !

@anonsally replied to your post “Bennet sometimes meows, seemingly unhappily, when looking in the...”

awww. Poor Bennet. Mirrors are very confusing.

They are!  Especially when there are multiple of them at angles to one another, as in my bathroom.  Though she also gets confused by empty corners in ways I don’t understand...

@shinythedragon replied to your post “Bennet sometimes meows, seemingly unhappily, when looking in the...”

Perhaps she sees something we do not. Perhaps rename her Alice? :P

Hee!  New nickname!!

@tiltedsyllogism replied to your post “Meme!”

aaaaaa I love girlyman

ZOMG LET ME HUG YOU <3  I think I’ve seen them in concert more than any other musical act, and I’m very sad that the opportunity has passed.

[mailoveforu]

Whelp

There’s goes my feels, that’s okay though I didn’t need them anyway ;;-;;

Let’s go through this in order-

What makes Lancelot’s super sad is that tHE POOR DUDE ALREADY WENT THROUGH SO MUCH, LIKE DANG first his mother died because of an illness then his father got killed and then hIS LOVER HAD TO GO SACRIFICE HERSELF TOO?? LEMME GIVE THE POOR GUY A HUG And then he of course has to continue ruling bUT NOW HE’S MORE BROKEN THAN EVER AND EVEN MORE OF A DEATH SEEKER so that just makes it depressing ;-; He already blames himself for so many things... ‘he was never the same, for the little part of himself that was still human had died with Alice.’ Ow. Ow, my heart. My h E A R T-

J O N A H, OH MY F L I P- The fact that he starts getting violent, even killing people, tells you just how badly Alice’s death affected him; yet after her death, he even resigned and took over her surname, like tHAT’S DEDICATION RIGHT THERE BUT IT ALSO PROVES THAT HE CAN’T GET OVER HER DEATH ANSLSVUYSVSVI ‘Jonah had decided to go beyond Cradle’s borders’ b O I THAT JUST MAKES ME THINK THAT JONAH DECIDED TO BE WITH MC IN HEAVEN ;;;;-;;;; Not only that, but think about how Luka must’ve felt too...

EDGAR NOOOO AAAAAAA I like how all of the officers are trying their best to be there for him and reassure him; they’re not judging or belittling him for showing so much emotion, sadness/mourning, or breaking down but F R I C K M A N He had to be carried and held and everything, I’m- ‘He refused to carry on, because it would mean leaving her, transforming his time with Alice into memories’ THAT HURT ME IN THE FEELS MORE THAN IT SHOULD HAVE ANSKNOIANAOI and no, Edgar, MC’s death was not your punishment, please stop saying/thinking that ;;;-;;;

ZERO

HONEY

MY BABY

SSSCCCRRREEE

‘everyone stood still when they heard Zero scream.’ yEAH I CAN DEFINITELY HEAR IT AND IT’S HEARTBREAKING- ‘In his mind, he was having a picnic in a flower field with Alice and everything was alright. “Everything is alright~” he would dreamingly whisper before bursting into tears.’ And this is the part where I started to bAWL- ASLMSKMOA everything is always better or worse when it’s in your imagination, no in between. zERO IF YOU CRY THEN I CRY WITH YOU 。・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。

AAAAAA KYLE Poor guy probably hates/blames himself cause he knows he could’ve saved or convinced MC to not sacrifice herself if he had been there aikjsoinsoina aND THE FACT THAT HE KEEPS TRYING TO DENY HER DEATH HURTS MY HEART SO BAD (T_T) Actually, his and Lancelot’s reactions are probably the most realistic ones out of everyone here,,, ‘He talked to her all night long, confiding in her, crying, begging her to wake up.’ s T O P- KYLE, I CAN HEAR YOU CRYING AND BEGGING, IT’S NOT GOOD FOR MY HEART, AAAAAAA ;;;-;;;

So anyway, in conclusion:

I absolutely loved this. This is the angst I live for ✨^✨

And lastly, Saphy honey, considering the things that you said at the beginning of the post, I deeply apologize, and am sorry, if my request made you remember about the loss of your loved one. That was not, and will never be, my intention. And this includes everybody else who reads this and has been through a loss as well.

This reblog took longer to write than I thought- And I’m also sorry for all the caps lock. Now my mind is wandering off and thinking about how’d they react if Cinnabun MC got reincarnated but she doesn’t remember them and so she falls in love with someone from the Black Army instead oH GOD THE ANGST- Mind, why do you do this to me

Hi yes, local fangirl here still screaming about the fluffy Red Army x Cinnabun MC headcanons- And because I’m in an angst mood, how would the red army react if she died? :D Maybe the Magic Tower killed her, or she sacrificed herself to save her lover...

It is always very difficult to predict how one would react if a loved one died. It would of course hurt, but everyone has their own way to hurt, mourn and express themselves. I lost a loved one a few years ago, you never really are ready for such incidents. My mom used a beautiful metaphor. She explained me that life was like a train you are on with other passengers with whom you share the whole or only part of the trip. The best way to appreciate this trip is to appreciate the people you have shared it with be it for a short or a long time.

Lancelot

It was late night or maybe early morning; Lance had already forgotten.

He was lost in time, lost in an ocean of sorrow, he felt terribly empty.

Alice was gone and all he could remember was his helplessness. His outstretched hand trying to grab her away, while she just innocently smiled at him while she sacrificied herself for Cradle, for him.

He had screamed, shouted and cried until he had none to spare, no voice to call out her name.

Life felt so dull and cold.

He thought it would go back to his usual life without her, but that was even worse.

How was he supposed to carry on, after he had tasted such happiness with her?

Lancelot felt unable to carry on and he spent most of his days in his room, starring at the ceiling.

He refused to sleep or eat, Kyle was running out of ways to keep his King going.

Everyone in Cradle was mourning, no one blamed Lance for neglecting his duties.

When after what felt an eternity, Lancelot decided to step back into the light, he was never the same, for the little part of himself that was still human had died with Alice.

Jonah

Jonah cursed himself a thousand times, hated himself more than anything.

How could his plan to save Alice fail so miserably?

He had thought through every possible outcome and in none of them Alice was to be dead already when he stormed into the Magic Tower.

He killed off so many people that day.

He was half crazy when he saw her lifeless and frail body, already so cold.

He begged Kyle to bring her back, punched him when he said it was far too late.

Jonah stayed at the Headquarters until her funerals and then resigned.

Before leaving, he asked Lancelot one last favour.

When it was full moon again Lancelot met up with Jonah at Alice’s grave.

There in the moonlight Jonah Clemence gave up his last name and took over Alice’s last name.

He then left Cradle for good, no one really knew where he was going. But one day Luka received a letter from his brother.

Jonah had decided to go beyond Cradle’s borders, because Alice had always wished to discover this magical world.

Edgar

When Edgar opened his eyes, everything moved so slow.

Alice had thrown herself in front of him.

Amon’s blow had thrown them both on the ground.

Alice’s head rested on his chest, just where his heart was, still pumping.

When he brought his hand to her cheek, he noticed that something was off.

Edgar carried her in his arms and ran, trying to find Kyle.

He cried so many times for help, even when Kyle was trying to bring back Alice.

Lancelot rested his hand on Edgar’s shoulder, Jonah held his hand and Zero even hugged him.

They all knew what Kyle was about to tell him.

Edgar snapped; he broke down. He was unable to get up, the wave sorrows were drowning him.

They had to carry him back.

They had to hold him even at her funeral.

Edgar did not know what to do with his life. He refused to carry on, because it would mean leaving her, transforming his time with Alice into memories.

Edgar never got over her death.

But he managed to put into another life. Her death was his punishment and he had to live to atone for it.

So he did, even when everyone at the Headquarters tried to convince him otherwise.

It was Edgar’s only way of surviving, atoning for her life, that was all he knew he was able to do.

Even if that would make him grow into a cold-hearted being.

Zero

The atmosphere was so festive, when Amon was defeated.

But everyone stood still when they heard Zero scream. He was hitting the floor with his fists until they bled.

“We were too late. Hours late~”

Cradle mourned Alice for months and Zero mourned her for his entire life.

She had been such a ray of sunshine, helping him to see how valuable his existence was.

Edgar’s teasing, his daily trainings and interactions had become little gifts he had learned to enjoy thanks to her and now even hearing people’s voice from afar hurt him.

He felt so lonely and little.

He was unable to love himself, unable to forgive himself for failing to protect the source of happiness.

His ray of sunshine was gone and he was lost.

Since her death, he dissociated himself from everything.

Zero fulfilled his duties like he should, he almost seemed like a machine if it were not for his sorrowful expression that never left him.

Every single moment he had for himself, he would spend it to reminisce.

Keep her alive in his mind.

In his mind, he was having a picnic in a flower field with Alice and everything was alright.

“Everything is alright~” he would dreamingly whisper before bursting into tears.

Kyle

“No, she did not!”

Those were his first words, when Lancelot announced him that Alice had sacrificed herself to save Cradle.

“This is a big joke!”

Kyle poured himself a drink.

When they brought Alice’s body back, he asked to bring her in the infirmary.

He locked himself with Alice in the infirmary.

He drank so much that night. However, no matter how much he drank, the sorrow would keep him sober.

This was the only thing he could not drown.

He thought he had managed to toughen up, but he was wrong.

He talked to her all night long, confiding in her, crying, begging her to wake up.

Kyle was at loss, he could not throw himself into his work.

The funeral did not give him closure.

He would spend half his time at the infirmary and the other at the cemetery.

Still, he would talk to her as if she was alive.

He thought these visits would help him keep sane, but it was quite the opposite.

His only reason to continue forward, to be happy was now a six feet under.

He would ever go out drinking, the cheerful mood would irritate him.

With each day, week and month, Kyle would distance himself from the others, shutting everyone out.

It was only him, the cemetery and the infirmary now.

Good news despite the angsty HC, my hiatus should not be that long in the end. So, feel free to drop in request or questions, so that when i come back I can spam you all with my answers. Love you all!