#a thin line between all this love and hate || savannah & landon

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@wynterlanding sent: “is that all this is? a ploy? a game? is that what i am to you?” For dealers choice.

Oops all angst

“What are you talking about, Landon?” Exasperated is one way to explain how Savannah is feeling. Like the two of them have just been on one long carnival ride that won’t stop going in circles. Bickering over the littlest things anymore. “After all of this you think I’m just fucking messing with you? I take you to meet my father, I show you around the town I grew up in and you think-“ The woman stopped herself. They were going nowhere fast. Him getting booted from their team has taken more of a toll on things than she originally thought it seemed. Savannah could feel the heat of anger creeping under her skin. She's a hot head, she's knows this, and so does Landon. 'I'm not doing this with you for the umpteenth time.'

[bloodhxney]

tag drop: savannah jane forbes- main

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If I'm gonna learn how to choose you

I need to unlearn what I'm used to

Need to unlearn how to run when it feels right

Oh my God, I'm tryin'

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@wynterlanding said trace @ Savannah

Basking in the after glow of being with Landon for the first time since they agreed to try this thing out, after saying I love you? Savannah almost missed it. Almost. If she wasn't so hyper aware of that area he would have gotten away with it. Tracing soft finger tips along that still angry looking mark along her torso. Where bullet had met flesh and tore it. Forever changing her in more ways than one. Physically she's healed, not much to do but let the scar decided how it will eventually settle. Mentally, she's doing much better than she had been, but clearly not there just yet.

Even went as far to wrap a quick hand around his wrist to still the movement, ease the fingers away. Everything before had been heat of the moment, a need for each other that surpassed her paying attention to his hand placement, but now that she was aware... 'Landon,' she breathed it softly, almost pained. That was a mark of shame in her eyes. She should have done better, it should never have happened and-- a sigh left her, just as soft as his name had been, releasing his his wrist almost as fast as she'd grabbed it. It was just him, he hadn't crossed a line or anything like that and yet it still didn't make her feel like she was allowed to be damaged like this. A reminder to both of them that she wasn't always as tough as she thought she was.

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@wynterlanding sent 🚗 for our muses to take a car ride together @ Savannah

love language quality time starters

'It's gonna be fine Landon. I promise.' Savannah tried to reassure Landon with a quick glance away from the road. He was finally going to meet her dad. Her only real family and she could tell he was nervous. She was a little too, but she just happy to get to see her dad. It had been a little while since she'd been home. Meeting family was always a big deal, meant things between two people were pretty serious and Savannah had meant it when she told him she was all in. 'He's going to love you. He's big and scary looking but he truly is a teddy bear.' And maybe a little protective over his only child. She reaches a hand over to rest on his leg, giving it a gentle squeeze. 'Just be you, he wants to know more about you and you're writing so you could literally talk his ear off today.'

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😠 : an angry voicemail \\ Landon & Savannah - @wynterhxney

'Landon where the hell are you?! Dinner was supposed thirty minutes ago, and dad had everything laid out and ready! This is getting ridiculous. I thought we'd talked this through? '

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I've been tryna keep my distance But in an instant, you break me down I know better than to want you But I succumb to you without a doubt

Now the water is rising And I'm too tired to swim And my lungs just can't take it But I keep breathing you in, so

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tag drop: savannah jane forbes

[xwildheart]

@wynterlanding sent 💬 for Savannah

ever wonder what my muse thinks of yours?

{savannah >> dad}: i think i'm in love with him dad. and it scares the crap out of me. i don't want to lose him. what the hell am i supposed to do? {dad >> savannah}: you gotta tell him peach. take that chance. you know if never took it with your mom you wouldn't be here. stop thinking about if it doesn't work and start thinking about what could happen if it does.

{savannah >> dad}: you're right. as always. thanks dad. i'll let you know what happens. promise me you'll be nice to him if this all goes well.

{dad >> savannah} : course i am. and scouts honor. bring the boy for dinner. need to see who makes my girl smile.

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@wynterlanding

23 | Bright Lights and Cityscapes

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Savannah just smiles between the two men. The two most important men in her life now. Never really thought she'd have someone other than her dad since her job had truly -- consumed her life. But she'd liked it like that back then. Now she doesn't want to see a life without either of them. 'Hyping me up as usual.' Cedric replied with a chuckle, giving Landon the same sturdy gripped hand shake back before his hands go to his hips. Looking between his daughter and him. He couldn't deny, that they made a good looking pair, but he'd not say it out loud. Savannah would have a fit. 'She's told me you know a thing or two around the kitchen as well. At least I know she's eating more than frozen dinners every night now.'

'Dad,' Savannah groaned but had a smile on her face nonetheless. She loved being here, a weightless sense of freedom and peace this far away from the chaos of her professional life. 'We'll be right back.' Taking hold of Landon's hand again and starting to lead him back towards where her old room was. 'See? Wasn't so bad right?' Trying to reassure Landon that things were going just fine. Her dad wasn't all that judgmental. So long as Savannah was happy, he would be.

Stepping into that old bedroom was like stepping back into a different time. Ceiling covered in those glow in the dark star stickers that probably barely worked anymore. The wall where her bed was pressed against was covered in hanging polaroid pictures of a younger version of herself, some with friends. Some of random places, a few candid's of her dad. Overall it was your standard teenage bedroom. A wave of nostalgia washed over her again just seeing all of these old things. 'Go on and say it by the way. Not like you missed Mrs. Adler calling me by my full name.' @wxnteroats / prev

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@wyntersecret said #28 for Savannah & Landon

#28- too good to be true- hanniou

spotify wrapped

I should have known the thought of us was way too good to be true.

That haunting thought filled her mind every day that Savannah had been gone. Not a word from him, but not a word TO him either. How the hell could she even face him, especially now. That positive test had sent her further into a spiral that thankfully her father was able to pull her out of temporarily. Savannah knew he'd be there for her no matter what but there still was the issue of having to tell Landon he was going to be a father. God, how had she fucked up that bad to let this happen? Not married, not even engaged. Deep down she knew there was never really a timeline with these kinds of things but she would have preferred for them to at least be on speaking terms. Maybe on the way to a house instead of a high rise apartment. Now she was back in town and back in her own home that felt more empty than it had before. Devoid of the presence of Landon at every turn. He wasn't there cooking dinner, he wasn't there hunched over a laptop typing away to hit a deadline. He was just-- gone. And she had been the one to push him. Her own anger issues clouding her better judgement on how to handle the accusations thrown her way. She'd been trained better than that. To not crack when someone got under her skin but that was for criminals. No one taught her how to deal with it when it was the person you loved most thinking you'd done something unspeakable.

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@wynterhxney Kid Meme- Savannah & Landon

Name: Genevieve Wynter

Gender: Girl

General Appearance: Curly black hair. brown eyes, needs glasses as a teenager.

Personality: Happy go lucky kid despite being born deaf. Temper like her mother when angry.

Special Talents: Has a way with animals. They gravitate towards her.

Who they like better: Landon.

Who they take after more: Savannah

Personal Head canon: It was clear rather quickly that their daughter couldn't hear, and sought the best care to get her on the right path to getting hearing aids and later cochlear implants. Sav and Landon pick up ASL easily.

Face Claim

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@wynterlanding

Love and Other Drugs, 2010.

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@wynterhxney

1oo﹕ sender has just died , receiver finds out . @ Savannah

She wasn't there.

Savannah had hoped and prayed. Had begged him to let this alone and maybe he had. Maybe Landon had never gone back after those cartel people after she asked him to back of the case, but it didn't seem to manner. The one night he'd gone out with friends without her? They went for him. She'd been stuck late in the office, getting back from a travel piece and finishing paperwork when she got a call from the hospital.

The worst part?

Was that it wasn't a call for her to rush over there. He wasn't in surgery, he wasn't resting in a bed. It was the curtsey call, being his emergency contact, that he'd been brought in, and had passed while trying to be resuscitated. It was the call that they needed someone to come confirm his identity. Breathing suddenly felt like she was inhaling fiberglass. Sharp tiny pin pricks of pain radiating through her chest. No matter how much she pressed, no matter how much she threw around her authority as a government official, the hospital refused to tell her more until she showed up. Hearing her distress from across the near empty bull pen, her partner Liam came rushing over.

Dead.

Landon had been killed. And Savannah wasn't there to have his back. Every argument, every stupid disagreement flooded her memory. Every time they bickered, all those wasted moments that could have been spent in his arms were what chose to occupy her mind. Next thing she knew Liam was grabbing her and trying to stop her from completely destroying her work space. Pinning arms to her sides to stop her lashing out. Trying to shush and calm her down. She didn't even know she'd started throwing things.

Savannah didn't want to believe it. This was some sick joke. It had to be. But her logical brain had already succumbed to the truth of it all. Landon was gone. Her worst nightmare, her deepest fear come to life. She'd lost another person to this fucking job, and she hadn't been there to even try and prevent it. To lessen the blow. Even if he'd gotten hurt she could have prevented his demise. The iron will to fight Liam off fell away very quickly the longer the thought set in. Giving in, but her partner still held on to her, at this point he was what was keeping her standing. The overwhelming pain of letting him down is the next thing that washes over her. She'd promised. She'd promised him she'd have his back always and she'd failed.

Is that what he thought in his final moments? That she'd let this happen to him? Putting all the blame on herself it to be expected when her job description is supposed to be serve and protect. A glorified cop. That's all she was. No better than a civilian with a gun at this point. He was the one. Landon was it and now he was fucking gone. Slipped through her fingers and not because of her being stubborn. Not because they butted heads and couldn't see eye to eye on most things.

'Savannah stop,' Liam spoke up. She had been speaking out loud, not in her head. 'it's not your fault. He'd never think that of you. It's not your fault.' The man's hold loosens only enough to make sure he isn't hurting her, but Liam still holds her up against him. Can feel how unstable she is on her feet. 'I've got you, it's not your fault.' A steady mantra from her right hand guy as the tears finally come, the heavy sobs that wrack her body.

It's the inevitable breakdown that she would never fully recover from.

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