#a sad moment for botes

[fuumikomi-blog]

✱ ❮ @infiernogarde ❯

        ❝  Right, then — considering my guns were taken away, I suppose keeping up in kendo is an absolute must.  ❞

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A L A K 🍻

So hello ayun nga, ilang months ako nawala dito. I mean naging inactive. Dahil:

1.) Busy sa work 2.) Nawalan ng internet 3.) Wala ding masyadong ganap sa life na pwedeng i-post.

Anyway, going back hahaha...

So regarding this post. hahaha Sobrang funny. Kasi I swear, never ako uminom ng alak hanggang maka graduate ako ng college. Why? Kasi ayoko lang? Hindi ko alam hahaha

And then etong nag wowork na ko, nag start ako uminom, nag simula sa T-ice. Pa isa isang bote. hahaha kada nag yayaya pinsan ko, laging 1-2 bottles lang ako. 

Until nayaya ako ng highschool friends ko uminom, nag timpla sila ng gin + softdrinks + juice. Sabe ko it’s not that bad naman pala. So uminom ako. Konti lang, pero medyo tinamaan padin. Nangati pero super konti lang kasi tolerable pa.

Then nag outing kami ng workmates ko sa Batangas, first time ko uminom ng beer. Pero di ko trip talaga kaya bumili ako ng T-ice. Nung pauwi na kami kumain muna kami, then otw to Manila nag pantal bigla buong katawan ko. We thought sa fish na kinain namin. So nag pa ospital ako sabe baka nga din daw sa fish. Hindi pa din ako nag pa skin test. So ni resetahan lang ako ng antihistamine and may ininject sakin na antibiotic na nakakaantok. Pinag leave ako ng 2 days sa work.

Nung August 17, birthday ni mommy, uminom kami ng kapatid at pinsan ko. GSM + Island mixer. isang bote lang. Medyo nangati yung katawan ko nun for 3 days. Pero hindi namantal, uminom lang ulit ako ng antihistamine.

Recently, last sunday, Sept 1. Uminom nanaman kami ng kapatid at pinsan ko. The bar pink + Softdrinks + strawberry juice. Dalawang bote naubos namin. Grabe yun na yung PINAKAWASTED na inom ko. Kasi ang tapang din ng timpla namin. 

Sobrang hilo ako that time (ehem sa witness hahaha), tapos nung pauwi na kami, sobrang nahihilo ako na nasusuka sa kotse, tapos namantal ulit yung buong katawan ko pero this time super hapdi na pag nadidikit somewhere, kahit sa upuan ng kotse sobrang hapdi nya. Tapos pag uwi ko, nilagnat pa ko. at hindi nakapasok nung Monday sa office. hahahaha

So yun na yung time na na confirm ko na ALLERGIC AKO SA ALAK. Sobrang sadt hahaha. I’ve done some research, na hindi specificaly sya sa alak allergy. Allergy sa CONTENT na nasa alak. Kaya ayun, dapat mag papa skin test ako today, kaso dapat walang intake ng antihistamine for 3days. Eh last take ko kahapon. Kaya baka next week nalang.

Ayun, ang weird lang and sad. kung kelan ko palang na eenjoy ang walwal life. hahaha wala na agad. :( pero baka naman may workaround tayo dyan hahaha Baka pwede uminom konti pero limited lang. hihi. Ayun lang gusto ko lang ishare yung mga first inom moments ko sainyo. hahaha

[libidomechanica]

Untitled (“I were burde”)

I were burde such comfort and connez  not of these, the Fair her Airy  Band; some, as she loved again  among they shift the grateful every  fawn and fathers dower of  ledez ar softer. Schyre schaterande 

þis table, and one intellects  the  Foe drew up to here, above  their out-peeping; or to dele  his gode Gawayn, quoþ þe goode knyȝt, criande  lotez þe cloþes, a corner of my  bed, circling Ray; the hungry  Judges soon awake, knowing cause more  short hour to the 

banks of thy beauty moves them to  answerd She, “Without pity, by  thy beautiful, a faerys song, list while  thus he life from thy mistress, and  with the road beside  my dear. Coffee, (which begat  distinguishd quite heart, why do ye  fall of the year grows colder 

he hade herde of þe wynt-hole, as  derrest myȝt be preued of prys more, for  ay faythful in fyue poynt  of pure golde vpon fyrst, boþe þe kyng as  kene bi kynde þen stod þat stryke wyth hym þe world 

should be told the keen-edged flavour,  which were blend, mingle, and her  eye; for he ȝerned ȝelpyng to  worch your tattoos in comeliness,  unshaded,” Hame again. 

her pearls, each weakness! Each was  an odd one; a troop of little 

droop-headed flowery lap of  earth, smiles broke up seven times it  break Dianas Law, or stain both alike  decayd, the canker lives and “ broiderd King who shows his tuschez; with  his broad, bright. Aboute beten 

on þe mornyng, his mouth vnfayre bi þe  mounted fair, no stone; witness 

he) that ’‘gainst the streams into  its chosen to  þe dale; and nawþer half a Pair of  Rome turned to thine eyes on  þis knyȝt, he louies,’ and didden hem derely  young trees supple bought; and blyþely  broȝt.” And bote þe bonkkez ofte al þeroute,  even for my voyage.  and can scarce to rave, and  hate; Put on my heart, and heart of  lyf noble! O, droop no more; bot þe haȝer stondez, 

and farez ouerþwert; on þe  morne, and þe hal dor, his hed and  exorcised. Forþy hit acorde me with  thought that laughing on  the Blaze of Day! And as  þou deles me to his helez. 

And then would not nap or lie here. To  be spoiled in returning  like an odd one; a 

troop of little mair blaw sweetly; “ill win 

thy woes forgotten hands: then  with Flavias Busk that gave 

me thus, it came too drowsily, nor sleeps:  it must ask charity, are saving  mercies healèd me, a sinfull thou 

know a moment, new; you were in 

their bed, and strydez alofte. Upon 

the Lock a thousands more  in equal Curls, and notions lovers  be rewarde redyly he rydes  into its airy stress  of flowers set in their dust from  our homes ethereal; Thou, 

sad Virgins here Quoþ þe gome one so pale 

and also yow alle þis cortays speche 

vnspurd may we leave his bowery nest.  weeping from a cliff on Sunday  morne, forþy wondered watz breme watz þreted  and honour at þis tyme in the  Yellow Room, contemplating there,  branches might; wherfore com, oþer lodly  þerat þe laste, ful clene; for of  bak and achaufed hym bifore þe  hyȝt ones. ” “You run aboute.” And the 

cloud a Strain roard for Labour 

of the woods about them.  Ne bere þeraboute,  and we are and was 

sire of this thy advertise new  and from you not fade nor lose  possessd with insufficiency  my hearts endeavour from each sense has 

its utmost with the 

Pelegrini, but the brush   in 

the wind, — and wert oerjoyed  to pry earnestly, through young—I see, 

Sir—you have gold plates he askez; serched hem  schewe. Bright—and as siker segge semly  wyth yrn to þe grene chapeles  chosen þere. Þat hor wylle hit is stiffer  thy plaintive moan, I mourn the  light, hand is gone. Were halet  out of the streams into  your poesie wring; ye that he  watz breme, bor alþer-grattest of alle  þe metail anamayld was  þenne, “þat al þe wele of a quest 

[dragonheartbabystuff]

🌟A ilha dos sentimentos🌟 Era uma vez uma ilha, onde moravam todos os sentimentos: a Alegria, a Tristeza, a Sabedoria e todos os outros sentimentos. Por fim o amor. Mas, um dia, foi avisado aos moradores que aquela ilha iria afundar. Todos os sentimentos apressaram-se para sair da ilha. Pegaram seus barcos e partiram. Mas o amor ficou, pois queria ficar mais um pouco com a ilha, antes que ela afundasse. Quando, por fim, estava quase se afogando, o Amor começou a pedir ajuda. Nesse momento estava passando a Riqueza, em um lindo barco. O Amor disse:

Riqueza, leve-me com você.

Não posso. Há muito ouro e prata no meu barco. Não há lugar para você. Ele pediu ajuda a Vaidade, que também vinha passando.

Vaidade, por favor, me ajude.

Não posso te ajudar, Amor, você esta todo molhado e poderia estragar meu barco novo. Então, o amor pediu ajuda a Tristeza.

Tristeza, leve-me com você.

Ah! Amor, estou tão triste, que prefiro ir sozinha. Também passou a Alegria, mas ela estava tão alegre que nem ouviu o amor chamá-la. Já desesperado, o Amor começou a chorar. Foi quando ouviu uma voz chamar:

Vem Amor, eu levo você! Era um velhinho. O Amor ficou tão feliz que esqueceu-se de perguntar o nome do velhinho. Chegando do outro lado da praia, ele perguntou a Sabedoria.

Sabedoria, quem era aquele velhinho que me trouxe aqui? A Sabedoria respondeu:

Era o TEMPO.

O Tempo? Mas porque só o Tempo me trouxe?

Porque só o Tempo é capaz de entender o AMOR. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 🌟The island of feelings🌟 Once upon a time there was an island, where all feelings lived: Joy, Sadness, Wisdom and all other feelings. Finally love. But one day, residents were told that the island was going to sink. All feelings rushed to leave the island. They took their boats and left. But love stayed, because I wanted to stay a little longer with the island, before it sank. When, at last, he was almost drowning, Love began to ask for help. At that moment, Wealth was passing by, in a beautiful boat. Love said:

Wealth, take me with you.

I can not. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place for you. He asked for help from Vanity, who was also passing by.

Vanity, please help me.

I can't help you, Love, you're all wet and could ruin my new boat. Then, love asked Sadness for help.

Sadness, take me with you.

Ah! Love, I'm so sad, I prefer to go alone. Joy also passed, but she was so happy that she didn't even hear love calling her. Desperate, Love started to cry. That's when he heard a voice call:

Come Love, I'll take you! He was an old man. Amor was so happy that he forgot to ask the old man's name. Arriving on the other side of the beach, he asked Wisdom.

Wisdom, who was that old man who brought me here? Wisdom replied:

It was TIME.

The time? But why did Time alone bring me?

Because only Time is capable of understanding LOVE.

@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 🌟L'isola dei sentimenti🌟 C'era una volta un'isola, dove vivevano tutti i sentimenti: gioia, tristezza, saggezza e tutti gli altri sentimenti. Finalmente l'amore. Ma un giorno, ai residenti è stato detto che l'isola stava per affondare. Tutti i sentimenti si precipitarono a lasciare l'isola. Presero le loro barche e partirono. Ma l'amore è rimasto, perché volevo rimanere un po 'più a lungo con l'isola, prima che affondasse. Quando alla fine stava quasi affogando, Love cominciò a chiedere aiuto. In quel momento, la ricchezza passava, in una bella barca. L'amore ha detto:

Ricchezza, portami con te.

Non posso. C'è molto oro e argento nella mia barca. Non c'è posto per te. Chiese aiuto a Vanity, che stava anche passando di lì.

Vanity, ti prego, aiutami.

Non posso aiutarti, amore, sei tutto bagnato e potresti rovinare la mia nuova barca. Quindi l'amore ha chiesto aiuto alla tristezza.

Tristezza, portami con te.

Ah! Amore, sono così triste, preferisco andare da solo. Anche la gioia è passata, ma era così felice che non aveva nemmeno sentito l'amore chiamarla. Disperato, l'amore iniziò a piangere. Fu allora che sentì una chiamata vocale:

Vieni amore, ti prendo! Era un vecchio. Amor era così felice che si dimenticò di chiedere il nome del vecchio. Arrivando dall'altra parte della spiaggia, chiese a Saggezza.

Saggezza, chi era quel vecchio che mi ha portato qui? La saggezza rispose:

Era TEMPO.

Tempo? Ma perché solo il Tempo mi ha portato?

Perché solo il Tempo è in grado di comprendere l'AMORE.

@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 🌟La isla de los sentimientos🌟 Érase una vez una isla donde vivían todos los sentimientos: alegría, tristeza, sabiduría y todos los demás sentimientos. Finalmente amor Pero un día, a los residentes se les dijo que la isla se iba a hundir. Todos los sentimientos se apresuraron a abandonar la isla. Tomaron sus botes y se fueron. Pero el amor se quedó, porque quería quedarme un poco más con la isla, antes de que se hundiera. Cuando, por fin, casi se estaba ahogando, Love comenzó a pedir ayuda. En ese momento, Wealth pasaba, en un hermoso bote. El amor dijo:

Riqueza, llévame contigo.

No puedo. Hay mucho oro y plata en mi bote. No hay lugar para ti. Le pidió ayuda a Vanity, que también estaba de paso.

Vanidad, por favor ayúdame.

No puedo ayudarte, amor, estás todo mojado y podrías arruinar mi barco nuevo. Entonces, el amor le pidió ayuda a Tristeza.

Tristeza, llévame contigo.

Ah! Amor, estoy tan triste que prefiero ir sola. Joy también falleció, pero estaba tan feliz que ni siquiera escuchó el amor llamándola. Desesperado, Love comenzó a llorar. Fue entonces cuando escuchó una llamada de voz:

Ven amor, te llevaré! El era un hombre viejo. Amor estaba tan feliz que olvidó preguntar el nombre del anciano. Al llegar al otro lado de la playa, le preguntó a Sabiduría.

Sabiduría, ¿quién era ese viejo que me trajo aquí? La sabiduría respondió:

Era la hora.

¿El tiempo? ¿Pero por qué me trajo el tiempo solo?

Porque solo el Tiempo es capaz de entender el AMOR.

[coyoteimagines]

Program 3 - Star Trek

Can I get a BOTE story with Scotty x Reader where Scotty has to cheer up the reader in engineering?

AN: Although this is more cute than funny, this is part of my “Bored on the Enterprise” series. You can read more of it here

Scotty had been acutely aware of your less-than-happy mood since the night before. You had been in the middle of a long overdue and much needed cuddle session when you had received a message from home. A family member you were very close to had their baby. And while at first you were elated at the news, you quickly fell into a depressing mood when your homesickness overwhelmed you.

With a “Sorry Monty. I just need some air.” You had gone on a walk. Scotty had fallen asleep before you returned. You were still gloomy when you woke up, and you both walked to engineering in relative silence.

Which is where Scotty now stood, leaning against a console, arms folded while watching you across the bay.

“Im no good at this.” He said to no one in particular, though Keenser was standing next to him. “I mean… when Im blue, all they have to do is smile at me and I feel better. I don’t think that works too well in reverse apparently.”

Keenser said nothing and began to walk away.

“Aye! Thanks for helping a mate out eh?” Scotty grumbled as he left. He sighed and blew an exasperated raspberry through his lips. He needed to cheer you up. Not only because he couldn’t get any work done knowing you were sad, but your last day off together before a long week of warp drive overhaul shifts was tomorrow and well…he was kinda of hoping you would do some things that being sad really didn’t comply with.

Oh that’s selfish of me. He thought to himself. No, he needed to cheer you up because you needed to be happy. But he didn’t know how to do it. What do they like? He asked himself. They like me. Good. They like uh…warp physics. Not useful. They like…rain. RAIN!

Scotty had an idea.

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A few hours later, just as your shift was ending, Keenser walked up to you and tugged your sleeve. You pulled your eyes away from the data pad you had been staring at and raised an eyebrow.

“What?”

Keenser motioned for you to come with him.

“Why?”

Keenser motioned harder. You put down the datapad and stood begrudgingly. You followed Keenser through engineering up to an unused hazardous materials bay where Scotty stood outside the door, grinning like an idiot holding a bag. Keenser walked away.

“What in the hell are you wearing?” you asked, motioning to Scotty. He had bright red rubber boots on, a khaki fishermans hat, and a hideous maroon rain poncho that was several sizes too large. He threw you the bag.

“Put those on.” His grin widened.

“Why.”

“Just do it.”

“Not if you don’t tell me why.”

“Y/N. If you love me, I need you to trust me and put them on.” He stuck out his bottom lip in a pout. “Please?”

You rolled your eyes and pulled a banana yellow pair of rubber boot out of the bag. They were enormous and went past your knees. You then tugged on a poncho that was identical to Scotty’s, it was also many sized too large and made you look like a toddler in adults clothing. When you were done Scotty plopped a green fishermans hat on your head.

“Montgomery what is going on?” You sighed. You just wanted to go back to your quarters and sleep. Scotty stepped next to you and grabbed your face between his hands.

“Im gonnae cheer you up. For your sake and for mine.” He pushed a smooch against your forehead and stood back, opening the door. He pushed you inside and shut the door behind you both. He took a few steps in and clasped his hands behind his back.

“Monty….?” Your eyes scanned the empty bay. Empty save for an old terraforming satellite propped up in a corner.

“Computer. Run Scott program 3.” Scotty called out into the room.

“Running Scott, program 3.” A metallic voice echoed. You flinched when a muffled boom echoed around the bay and the satellite started to whir. Through a side port, the satellite began shooting a stream of mist into the air. The mist drifted to the ceiling where it condensed into a white fog.

And then it started to rain. Fine droplets of water began to trickle down from the ceiling and soft music began to play through unseen speakers.

“What is this?” You let your eyes close as you looked up, the drops plinking off your skin. You felt Scotty move beside you and he took one of your hands in his.

“I was trying to think of things that made you happy so I could cheer you up. And well…I know you’ve been saying how much you miss the rain and I knew we had this satellite in here and Keenser helped me rig it up and…”

You cut him off with a kiss, knocking both your hats off.

“It’s perfect.” You mumbled, moving to rest your head on his shoulder. You stood there, letting the rain soak through your hair, picturing yourself back home. It even smelled like Earth rain. Peaceful and…

The door behind you opened and Captain Kirk and Chekov practically bounced into the room, followed by at least a dozen other crew members.

“Whoa!” Chekov said before sprinting over to the satellite.

“Keenser said you were making it rain. So a few of us had to come check it out. This is amazing Scotty!” the Captain called out, walking into the room. The others followed him and began jumping in puddles, twirling about, or just standing in the rain.

“Ruin a perfectly moment is what you’ve done Captain.” Scotty grumbled, letting go of your hand. “Look at these idiots” He gestured at the crew members who were just as amazed at the rain as you had been. You smiled and shrugged before furrowing your eyebrows.

“Montgomery. Why are these clothes so big?” You looked up at him.

“They were left over from those giant bear looking aliens from the waterfall planet we had on board a while ago.” He turned to look at you.

“The giant bear looking aliens we discovered I was allergic to? And now you’ve put me in their clothes? Have they been washed since….?” You raised an eyebrow.

“Oh no” Scotty breathed. You couldn’t help but smile.

“Im going to have to spend all day tomorrow in the medbay! Our whole day off!” You shook your head.

“OH MY LORD!!!!” Scotty roared as he realized his plan had horrendously backfired.

[whybotheranyway-blog]

im sorry for being so needy..

buong linggo akong lutang.. ang sama sama ng issue ko sa buhay..oo masarap magdroga.. walang kasing langit.. walang kasing saya ang feeling.. naalala ko noon.. ung kuya ni balen, si leclec twing exam puyat na puyat kakaaral.. minsan tinanong ko xa kng di ba xa antok kapoy kaya magsige study.. sa amin kasi nagstay nung nagskul pa xa sa sa polytechnic, di daw kai need magstudy.. kuyaw man gud xag goal, mag kapitan jud.. so ayun nagbunga ang lahat, nagstart tong gikuha xa sa japan as scholar sa ilang batch.. oo brayt gid man abi si lec oy.. later nman nya giingon ang story sa iyang pagkastudious.. gashabu di ai xa kada exam..pero dili xa addict.. kada exam ra man xa gaana.. dili sad nako xa idol..pero naalala ko tell nya.. macontrol mo man na.. kng mahina hina guro utak mo kag weak ang personality mo malulong ka gid.. wala ko gina idolize ang mga ga drugs..wala sad ko nacurious.. nadala ra kai down ako and hubog satong first time.. lamia sa feeling.. daw amo na to xa ang langit.. miski pangit kaayo si vexana sa moba na ginagamit ko na hero recently, daw angel panan aw ko sa iya.. light kaayo magdrive ug motor daw pila lang ka minutes soledad na.. miski wala ko gakaon ug manok kaayo sa jollibee perte ko kadalok.. amg plain na rice daw super ka sarap..ana di ai ang feeling..lami..naisip ko after ko nalowbat di na ko.. keri ra ang liwbat stage.. mas worst pa ko mag agi ug depress moments kng pms.. tung last lang weed man to. . lisod nman makakuha kng wala kai kaila.. weeds daghan..wala man xai epek sa akoa.. basig gahuna kag mura kog sungak.. hindi man.. ang gusto ko lang tani mastoned nya mag okay ang feeling.. ana sila magdinamak daw kng mag drugs. pagsure kai best in ligo japon ko and ayos sa sarili..kng di gid guro ka damak di gid na.. actually mai hugot abi ang tanan nga ina kaya naana.. aside sa ikaw ang isa ka reason, naa pai isa.. ikaw ang isa kai wala koi mastorya.. wala ko kabalo kai kinsa iopen na sad.. kaso basi maworry ka nman and di ka concentrate sa thesis.. so gitago ko anay.. i have this duha ka bilog na makapa sauna pa sa baba ng boobs ko.. dugay na ni.. wala ko man napansin kai db naa man jud tai mga bukol bukol sa boobs usahay and di man ni xa boobs abi.. sa baba xa.. so akong giask si sharon about it kai db nagpaopera xa kag duha ang gitanggal and pag biopsy okay ra man.. ana xa ang iya is sa sulod..ana ko ang akoa kai sauna sa sulod karon kai gapula na xa yang and gadako na gadako.. di pa man xa super ka dako.. pero feeling ko magdako pa gid ni.. nag google na ko and makastress magbasa sa google kai puro cancer etc.. so asta karon wala pa ko nagpamammogram kai dili nako keri akong mafeel.. makita na gud xa and sakit na xa magbra kai matandog.. nagapula sad kai siguro sa bra.. and lately mafeel ko xa na mejo gangutngut.. mahadlok ko.. mahadlok ko sa maresult.. wala pa koi guts magpa check.. wala pa gid.. damo na ko ginaisip kai need ko pa magpa okay para sa operation.. ginaisip ko sad na basi magka complication.. wala ko sad gisaba na naa koi ana.. likod ko man lang abi ang ginacheck..worried na ko..kai last month daw pimple lang xa kadako.. pero now hubag na xa gamay.. siguro sa bra. pde ko man ipakita sa imo..duha xa.. di ko alam kng ano to.. pila na sad ko ka gabii dili mahimutang.. basta ginaisip ko na lang na one step at a time.. kng maokay likod ko saka ko ni asikasuhon.. dili ko nega.. wala ko ganega. pero kabalo man ta na ang mga bukol bukol ginabig deal na db.. mahadlok ko magpacheck.. praning na kaayo akong ginapang isip.. basig next month mudako na gid xa.. mga ana akong ginahuna.. ambot mag unsa ko ani.. murag walai kahumanan.. pero ginapray ko na unta dili na worst..unahon ko anay likod ko saka ni.. mao ni xa akong worry pila na ka two weeks na.. damo na ko ginaisip.. ginakulbaan na sad ko labi na magpamammogram.. basig unsa ang result na sad.. kasabot ka? ginatago ko lang na gawait man lang tani ko ug timing kng wen ka mahuman.. worried man ako masyado.. and daw indi ko magpa check kai mahadlok ko sa result.. pero dili ko katulog sigeg isip.. ginalingaw ko lang sarili ko kahampang.. oo mali na magdrugs ko.. pero gaokay abi feeling ko.. worried na sad ko now.. wala pa ko kabalo kng anong result.. mahadlok gid ko.. akong worry kng magdako.. ambot mag ano ko.. ngutngut xa kis a.. kis a wala man.. maanuhan man gud xag bra kaya gahubag alangan dili ko magbra mag lakaw.. and nashock ko kai dugay nman ni pero now nag litaw na xa.. as in dugay ko na ni nakapa.. early 20s pa ko.. so unsa ni xa? and why gadako? daghan kog questions pero mahadlok ko na maconfirm basig tama akong duda.. mag unsa na lang ko ani.. unta masabtan na nimo ni.. wala koi laing ginastoryahan ikaw lang.. unta maintindihan mo.. kng gaduda ka pede ko ipakita sa imo and pafeel.. i hope nagegets mo ang nafifeel ko.. kng maalala mo noon na mention ko na to..pero ana ang doc lumps ra daw and wala gadako.. so unsa ni karon? gadako xa na gadako sauna sa sulod lang xa mafeel now visible na xa and gapula na.. wala ko gapaluoy.. wala lang ko kabalo kng anhon ko pagdeal.. tani kng patyunon man lang plan sang dyos sa akon or basi need lamg gid na palisdan ko undangan na unta oy.. emotuinally battered na ko sige isip.. dili ko katulog.. gusto ko lang maiwasan sana mag isip alam kong mali ang magdrugs.. sorry sa ways ko.. feeling ko kasi ginapahirapan lamg ako saka patayin.. ambot why ana akong ginahuna.. or basig ginaparusahan.. ing ani na ko ka bad para anion? kaya ako gasabi na need kita.. kasi wala akong makausap.. walang me gapush.. walamg ga cheer up.. walang gasabi na okay lang yan.. walang gayawyaw na dapat ganito ganyan.. ewan ko bakit napaka needy kong tao.. takot kasi ako na baka ano to and iiwan mo na ko kasi ayaw mo maiwan kasi sa kalagayan ko.. isa un sa mga fears ko kasi.. sorry sa drugs.. kahit ilang bote kasi ng beer nauubos ko mas nadedepress kasi ako after.. gaworst akong feeling.. unta masabtan nimo.. mahadlok lang ko and worried ko.. mahadlok ko sa result.. mahadlok ko na byaan mo ko..mahadlok ko na ako na lamg.. sorry gid.. intindiha anay ko karon.. kelangan ko gid na now.. importante ka sa akon.. kai kng indi dili ko maworry ani.. imsorry mommy.. miss na kita and kelangan kita.. sorry sa lahat lahat. als