#a mural to my selfhatred
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dreamsofanoldgod · 18 days ago
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i feel like a rabid or scared stray trying to hard to not get close to you again
you get close to try to comfort snd calm me but in going to bark and growl and bite
why are you letting me
why wont you save yourself
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dreamsofanoldgod · 19 days ago
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i think im done reaching out first
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dreamsofanoldgod · 20 days ago
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Thoughts
i think ive been extra sensitive (in a literal and emotional way) because i havent been having sex
i was doing fine when we both were
i should get out and do that but like
no one wants me often
Bunny will on occasion but not often
and
Dog asks sometimes but ive been declining
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 month ago
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if you dont hear from me again im sorry
i dont know how long it will be
im so sorry
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 month ago
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i am weak and wish to talk
the only thing keeping me from reaching out is possibly never hearing from you again after
do you feel the same
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dreamsofanoldgod · 2 months ago
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proud of myself
just caught myself getting obsessive snd very upset for not receiving attention,
im not entitled to that
its perfectly normal to not be receiving attention for more than 15 minutes (yes its literally that bad)
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dreamsofanoldgod · 11 minutes ago
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sometimes i wish you could comment on what i say here
othertimes i appreciate that i can never tell if you’re looking or not
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dreamsofanoldgod · 19 hours ago
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i did it to myself
but i do just feel like another person you sext when your bored now
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dreamsofanoldgod · 20 hours ago
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i know i dont say it as often as i think it
but i promise your chats would be spammed with “I love you”s
i just dont want to keep reseting the Obsession Meter
and every time we get so very close,
or Something happens
it resets
i know keeping you at arms length sucks, and i honestly hate doing it
but i cannot heal and change in the ways i need to for you if im still obsessing like i am..
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 day ago
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it feels like i’m sticking needles between my ribs
all in an attempt to numb my insane feelings
all so you can go out and do whatever without worrying about how ill react or if i find out
i truly do love you
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dreamsofanoldgod · 3 days ago
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playing cyberpunk i thought of how romantic it would be to have someone else help with your cyberware (just like basic upkeep or slight tinkering)
then i remembered a comic, then the artist, then what happened
and now theres a knot in my stomach
why did that happen like, what was rhe point in my brain doing that?
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dreamsofanoldgod · 3 days ago
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wonder what i did
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dreamsofanoldgod · 4 days ago
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if i could rn i would shoot myself in the fucking face
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dreamsofanoldgod · 7 days ago
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casually stupidly worrying you hate me for some reason
itll pass
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dreamsofanoldgod · 8 days ago
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i wonder if these constant moodswings and swaths of apathy are fucking up my brain worse,
like are the symptoms slowly making the issue more unbearable?
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dreamsofanoldgod · 9 days ago
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you took a shower and brought a toy (and prolly your vibe) to meet me not cuz of me but cuz if someone else after; way ti make a god feel special.
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