#a mural to my selfhatred
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dreamsofanoldgod · 5 days ago
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i feel like a rabid or scared stray trying to hard to not get close to you again
you get close to try to comfort snd calm me but in going to bark and growl and bite
why are you letting me
why wont you save yourself
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dreamsofanoldgod · 6 days ago
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i think im done reaching out first
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dreamsofanoldgod · 7 days ago
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Thoughts
i think ive been extra sensitive (in a literal and emotional way) because i havent been having sex
i was doing fine when we both were
i should get out and do that but like
no one wants me often
Bunny will on occasion but not often
and
Dog asks sometimes but ive been declining
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dreamsofanoldgod · 22 days ago
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if you dont hear from me again im sorry
i dont know how long it will be
im so sorry
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dreamsofanoldgod · 28 days ago
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i am weak and wish to talk
the only thing keeping me from reaching out is possibly never hearing from you again after
do you feel the same
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 month ago
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proud of myself
just caught myself getting obsessive snd very upset for not receiving attention,
im not entitled to that
its perfectly normal to not be receiving attention for more than 15 minutes (yes its literally that bad)
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dreamsofanoldgod · 3 hours ago
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i hope you understood,
i hope i said it all right
i will always hold on to yhe hope of being Yours again l
but to be a friend first,
to nurture and grow That flower until it blossoms
thatd be more ideal,
the flower from hookups->partners was good and we learned so much about eachother
but it was also covered in thorns
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 day ago
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i should make another blog for all my mean and shitty (and selfharm) thoughts
thats what this one was ginna be fore but youre looking
and sometimes i iust want to get that vile stuff out
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 day ago
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why yes i am feeling a little crazy how could you tell? ~Muscles very clenched, jaw tight as hell, pacing, and obsessing~
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dreamsofanoldgod · 1 day ago
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gods this was so much easier on my brain when i was trying to push you away
at least then i had to suffer in silence
why does talking to you make me feel even more insane
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dreamsofanoldgod · 2 days ago
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we take deep breaths and realize not everything is a personal attack instead of spite posting
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dreamsofanoldgod · 3 days ago
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what about the silent mornings makes me feel like this
it’s prolly a combination of no meds and the Everything tbh
i wonder just how much time of not taking it will take
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dreamsofanoldgod · 3 days ago
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dreamsofanoldgod · 3 days ago
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love when im purposefully pushing away and distancing snd snapchat memories decides “no, take a look at this, werent you so happy 2 years ago, isnt this such a cute picture you want to remember” like thanks now i wanna kill myself again
itll pass
ive been having a couple incredibly great days
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dreamsofanoldgod · 4 days ago
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dreamsofanoldgod · 4 days ago
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why is the side effect of not eating all day for multiple days in a row “haha now you CANT eat a lot” and not “”YOU HAVE TO CONSUME EVERYTHING”
like bitch my tummy hurts cuz i keep forgetting to eat, AND it hurts for eating loterally half a cheeseburger snd like 5 fries??
whatever, liquids go down real easy ill just drink soda and more
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