#a genius repelled by the suffering of the weak would want the ordinary to thrive

[morsking]

"why did pepe kill the myourenji?" it's simple. he was a killer, through and through. a kind, beautiful, dazzling killer. he had no illusions of what kind of end a killer would meet, so to him the cloth his life was cut from was something that could never change. from the moment he was born, he was cursed with the loneliness things could only turn out one way, being woefully unfit to be what others wanted him to be, much like arjuna was expected to be the perfect prince to the extent he overcompensated by becoming the perfect god. but on the flipside, that's why he was the perfect master for ashwatthama, who never stopped raging against his fate. no matter how much of a dirty killer ashwatthama may have been, he still fought to reclaim his pride as a warrior. he still believed in becoming someone better, even after having wrought the worst dishonor, because people counted on him. that's why if killing was the only thing myourenji arou could do, at least the last murder that would stain his hands would be one that would help someone he wanted to cheer for.

at the very least, he'd send off his treasured kouhai with all the tenderness he could give. a person who seldom received it would know how precious it is.