#a certain song rewired my brain and caused me to choose this pain

[daemon-in-my-head]

Ever thought abt what Durge may feel when embracing Bhaal again in regards to Orin or others?

Not the badass durge I mean btw. The one that's just too beaten and bruised to keep up this charade of a rebellion and just willingly gives in because they tried but nothing worked and in the end they'd rather become a weapon to be wielded again than keep going and enduring the pain of a lost purpose.

You ever wonder if such a durge prays that no one watches? That Orin wherever she may be won't see them giving in and giving up again, that she won't see Bhaal break her blood kin the same way she was broken in her last moments, relieving such a fresh wound again? That their LI won't watch as they break again, discarding whatever it was they must've once adored? What if they just pray that no one has to see as they surrender and self slaughter all that's left of them to the being that caused this mess in the first place, that no one sees their ultimate shame?

Much to think about (I'm trying so hard not to start another wip rn u don't understand)