#a cat would be the most ideal scenario. maybe this summer it’s time

[prozach27]

Really feeling like maybe I would benefit from an emotional support animal? Like I don’t think I’d call it that or anything but having always had pets my whole life, I definitely constantly feel like I’m missing out on a basic everyday experience and there are solid findings on pets helping w/ mental health

My fave animals are obviously big dogs bc they’re adorable, but I feel like I’d need to get my activity level up more first so they get the exercise and stimulation they’d need and deserve. The other option is a cat, which wouldn’t be as high maintenance and could adapt pretty well to apartment living. Maybe rescuing a kitten wouldn’t be such a bad idea

[yolkyeomie]

[blurb] — member: minho, word count: 2489, genre: e2l-esque/rockband au/female!reader/angst(?), warning: none.

note: this is a wildly out of character verison of minho so none of this is probably accurate to his actual personality. I was just tired one hand and this is how I saved myself

[11:30 pm]: “Lee Minho!” You growled. Despite the bustling energy of the dressing room before you had entered, your voice boomed over every single person within the walls limits. Those who were speaking quickly closed their mouths and others who were walking in and out slowed their hasty pace to a creeping stalk. Their eyes turned from each other to you as you stood in the doorway, hand clenched tightly around the door knob in an attempt to keep yourself calm.

Everyone could tell just by taking one glance at you that you were not here to play around as usual. The energy you exude was far too intense for anyone to even crack a smile at you. “Where is he?” You demanded, glancing around the room for the sly cat. “Where is Minho?”

“Here,” a cheery voice informed, nearly giving yourself whiplash as you turned around. There he stood right behind you, his signature black bass guitar slung over his shoulders and his mocking smile plastered against his face. Behind him stood his bandmates nervously glancing between the two of you, unsure of what exactly was going to happen next.

This scenario was something they had seen countless times before yet they still would never get used to the sight of you breathing smoke out of your nose and Minho only looking down on you with endearment. Your anger was entertaining to him, no matter how many times the out of you spat with each other.

“What? Is there something wrong?” He asked, his statement covering for his blatant ignorance, “did you not like the concert? But you had the best seat in the house?”

His condescending words easily began to fan the flame, eagerly watching as your face flickered from a look of pure bewilderment to complete wrath.

You knew Minho was doing this on purpose, yet you couldn’t resist the urge to explode. “Was there something wrong?” You questioned him, reaching out and grabbing the sterling silver chain that hung down his neck. Gasps fluttered throughout the room at your threatening demeanor as you spoke, “You really have the audacity to be asking that right now?”

“Hey, not here,” Changbin interrupted, “Not while everyone is watching. Don’t want a video of your fight to get leaked, do you?” He used his drumsticks to separate the two of you from each other, providing himself as the unprompted middle ground as he gestured toward the staff in the room.

Usually he would be all for watching you rip into Minho without a second thought, but there were too many people around to let it go unchecked. As much as he believed that the bassist deserved every inch of karma that was going to hit him, it couldn’t happen in public. They had a reputation to uphold after all.

The two of you looked around the room for yourselves, taking note of how the entire backstage room was crawling with staff members from the concert the group had held. As much as you wanted to give him a piece of your mind, you would rather not be labeled as the crazy person that barged in and caused a fight.

Begrudgingly you stepped back and away from Minho, just enough for it not to look like you weren’t going to attack him like some rabid animal. “Fine, I won’t.”

“Take it outside, somewhere private would be ideal,” Bang Chan added, whispering as lowly as possible so that any of the more... invading staff couldn’t catch him. “Oh, and don’t do anything stupid? Please? I kinda need Minho alive.”

“You heard the man,” The boy taunted, gesturing back to the band’s leader. “He needs me alive, so keep your hands to yourself this time.”

You didn’t think you could roll your eyes as hard as you did, forcing your hands to your side so that you didn’t actually harm him. The whispers and murmurs only continued to go as you led Minho outside of the dressing room, their voices drifting to your ears despite their attempts to conceal them.

“Is she some crazy fan?” “No, I heard she knows the boys personally.”

“Should we call security? What if she actually harms him!”

“I wonder what Minho did for her to act that way? Honestly, I couldn’t blame her… he’s a little patronizing and stuck up in my opinion…”

You shook off their words as the two of you walked down the corridor of the dressing rooms in silence, a stark contrast to the other staff members who were running about the halls to clean up the aftermath of the band’s concert. Every so often someone would stop to greet the two of you and ask what was going on, the sheer intensity of your auras combined quickly made them back off.

You were always the more approachable of the two but this wasn’t the right time for any of that to happen.

Soon the crowd began to thin out and for the most part, the two of you were left completely alone. The corridor you had turned down was practically a dead end so it was the perfect place for you to antagonize the bassist without running away.

“You said you’d help me with Hyunjin, to get back together with him,” you began, turning your sharp and annoyed gaze on him once again. “You said you’d get me tickets to your concert because I mentioned he was a fan of the band, so what was with that stunt you pulled on stage at the end?”

“I don’t think I understand?” The boy questioned, leaning up against the wall as he continued to feign ignorance like he had done in the dressing room with the staff. “I did exactly what you asked me to. I got you tickets, I got you the best seats in the house, I even got the other members to put his favorite song on the set list for this concert? What could have possibly gone wrong?”

“That song!” You exclaimed, “that dumb song you had created on your own but never released it for the band to play because it was about me. You played it right before the concert ended as the encore. Are you insane, seriously?”

Minho snorted at your frustration, clearly not taking the situation as serious as you were. “Are you serious? You’re mad because I played that love song without telling you? Come on Y/N, you really think he was able to tell that it was about you?”

You scoffed, almost laughing at his answer. A love song? You wouldn’t exactly label the song as a “love song”. “I understand you don’t think very highly of Hyunjin, but he knew Minho. There was no way he wouldn’t have been able to tell.”

It was so clear that Minho knew exactly what he was doing when he was on stage. As the band got ready to play their original encore song, you had caught him skipping around to stage to each member of the band. Starting discreetly with Changbin since he was the drummer in the background all the way to whispering to the lead guitarist, Jisung, near the front of the stage.

Once his words had finally reached the ears of Bang Chan, the leader gave a skeptical glance before his eyes connected to your curious one’s. He hesitated for a moment before putting on a strained smile and speaking into the microphone.

There’s been a slight change of plans in the encore, Bang Chan had announced. The entire crowd let out a wave of confusion as his dimples distracted their fans from his clear distress. I mean, who doesn’t like an unreleased song as the ending note?

The crowd let out a cheer for the change, not bothered one bit by the band switching gears to do something off script. Even Hyunjin was excited to hear the song that even he hadn’t known existed. Though both his wide smile quickly fell once the song began to play, its piercing and strong melody rang through the stadium as Minho strummed his guitar.

Minho had the most lines out of the other members of the band in that song, which was a stark contrast to his usual in the background singing. The boy was standing front and center, hands no longer glued to his guitar but clutching onto the microphone that stood before him. His voice boomed over the speakers as he sang to the crowd, yet his attention wasn’t on his adoring fans that were calling his name.

No, his attention was on you.

Minho’s eyes almost never left your figure as he zeroed you out in the crowd, his prideful smile growing on his lips as he poured his soul into the lyrics he never thought he’d sing in person. It was like he was sending a signal to you and Hyunjin, that the bond that you were trying to rekindle between the two of you would never work out in the end.

You’re mine, Minho’s lyrics conveyed, a meaning only you and Hyunjin could decipher, and I’ll never let you go to him.

“You can’t keep… you can’t keep doing this,” you struggled to convince him (or maybe you were trying to convince yourself?). “You can’t keep trying to interfere with my relationships! I’m my own person, Minho, I like other people! You can’t keep going on like this.”

“I can’t keep going on like this?” He repeated, in shock that you would even have the audacity to say that to him. Minho pushed himself off the wall as he approached you, his stereotypical vile temperament that his staff deemed him as showing through his usual cool head. “I’m not the one who keeps running back to the same person whose heart I broke every time we have a fight!”

Ouch, what a low blow. But it wasn’t like Minho was… lying? As much as you wanted to deny it, every time the two of you got into it you’d go running to Hyunjin afterward.

You needed something different from the constant fire and ice of you and the bassist's quarrels and that was exactly what Hyunjin was. He wasn’t the sheer cold of the winter storm like Minho was, just a pleasant breeze along a hot summer day. That’s why you were so drawn to him at first, that’s why you had jumped head first into a relationship with him, and that’s why you couldn’t exactly let go of him after you had broken up.

So despite Hyunjin being the better of the two, why was it that you only ran to him for comfort? As soon as he had given you what you desired you were back to trailing behind the band’s footsteps. You were back to walking and fighting with Minho.

“Do you really like him?” Minho asked, his tone a little harsher than he planned. Though he didn’t apologize for the attitude as he continued to speak, “Do you really want to be with Hyunjin again or is this an excuse to keep playing with me?”

“It’s…,” you hesitated, why must he ask this up now of all times? “It’s complicated, Minho! Not only that but it’s none of your business to pry into my relationship with Hyunjin? You’ve already done enough damage—”

“Y/N, tell me before I figure it out in a way you aren’t going to like,” he blurted out, finally snagging the words out of your mouth for good. What did he just say? “Do you really still like Hyunjin? Or are you just using him at this point, because it really feels like the latter when you keep hanging around me and not him.”

You stared back at him wide eyed, struggling to form sentences in your head and deciding to spit out whatever you could. “What are you talking about? You mean like use him to make you jealous of something? That’s petty, Minho, I—“

“One,” he began, reaching for the guitar strap on his shoulders to discard the instrument.

“How I feel about Hyunjin is none of your business,” you tried to argue. “See you’re even doing it again! Trying to force your way through when things don’t go your way. I’m supposed to be the one who is asking for answers anyway!”

“Two,” Minho continued, ignoring your rambling as he dropped the bass onto the ground without care.

“Fine, I like him. I’m in love with Hyunjin, are you happy now?” You answer, though the words feel foreign on your tongue as you bite at him. “This fights and bickering we do mean nothing to me, your stupid encore song meant absolutely nothing to me. So stop trying to press forward already.”

Minho stood in front of you quietly, his face contorting in disapproval as he tried to process your answer. “You’re so good at fighting with me but you’re so bad at lying.” He shook his head, amused disbelief donning his face as he took a hold of your shirt collar in the same motion you took his chain necklace. “Three.”

“Why are you intent on this, hm? You don’t like being the one who is toyed with instead of the other way around?” You hissed, snatching his hand off of your shirt with as much strength as you could muster. “All you do is take, take, and humiliate. Get a grip, Minho.”

The boy hesitated for a moment, hovering just inches above your face and his eyes darting around the room. He should have known that you still would have the energy to argue with him, that never ending flame in your chest that kept lighting the cigarette of your relationship.

“Y/N!” A familiar voice called, making you and Minho glance over your shoulder and down the corridor to spot a figure at the foot of it. You immediately recognized it to be the Hyunjin, the fool peering down curiously and a sheepish smile stretching across his face when he finally saw you. “I’ve been looking for you everywhere. I knew you were backstage. I just didn’t know how long you’d be here for. Are you ready to go?”

“Yeah, of course,” you respond, your tone immediately going soft as you shoved Minho off of you. The way you spoke to Minho and Hyunjin respectively was so different from each other, one would think that you were two separate people. “Just give me one moment?”

The boy nodded, giving an awkward wave toward Minho given the fact that the last time the two had interacted was the situation during the encore. Though the bassist gave no response as you turned back to him, your original rage replenished as you finally addressed him for the last time. “Don’t ever sing that song again. Not around me, not around your bandmates, not around your fans, no one. I want every bit of its existence erased from my memory.”

[ailuronymy]

Hi! This is less an ask and more a cheeky thought I just had:

Brackenfur and Grasswhisker and Greenflower could be perfectly viable traditional names in a slightly more realistic setting.

Why?

Cats are red-green colorblind: green shows up as a very similar sort of yellow as gold/orange/red does to them! So growing, lively summer bracken might look just as yellow-gold as that one kitten in your nest, perfect!

(Of course, this would have implications on how the setting is described, so it's not just a band-aid 'I'm including X Y Z names in my take on traditional because biology and light physics' - it would require a little more work on part of the author to implement, which clearly isn't the case in the main series. Hell, maybe green isn't even considered a color by cats at all, in which case Greenflower is still a no-go! It's just a fun worldbuilding-on-worldbuilding lightbulb I had that I thought you might enjoy <3 )

To make this less of a bout of gushing and more of an ask - are there any particular parts of cat biology/how they experience the world you would have liked to see the books use more/better?

Hello there! Yes, this is something that’s been discussed in the past on the blog, but since I’m trying to make a sort of default template resource when it comes to a naming system, I never pursued developing that kind of world-building for Ailuronymy’s lists and interpretation to prefixes. But you’re right that colours look quite different through a real cat’s eyes and it would definitely have a huge impact on what prefixes could be used and what for (not to mention how the entire world would look) if someone was to include that in their writing!

For me personally, I’m glad that Warriors doesn’t try to present the world as a real cat would see it, and it’s definitely not something I include in my writing. I like the colour green too much, and I think my enjoyment of the world would diminish significantly if I couldn’t write about visual sense the way I find most pleasing. 

However, there are details I feel are under-utilised compared to what they could be: particularly other senses. I love sensory writing, so cats offer a great opportunity to describe scent and hearing in new ways, and also taste. I think it’s fun to give the consumption of prey more depth as an experience and to push the realm of believability a little, to give the world more richness. That’s kind of the opposite of what you’re asking me re: being realistic, but I feel like if you’re writing xenofiction, you should make the most of it. I love the experience of the unfamiliar made familiar. 

As far as things canon does that annoy me re: biology, the top gripe is probably how diurnal the clan cats are. I would much have preferred for them to have a distinctly more cat-like relationship with time and rest and activity, instead of just being... human, basically. Additionally, I don’t think canon’s guilty of it (although I could be wrong), but I’ve definitely noticed fan-writing will often have cats smile or cry or laugh and, for me, that’s too implausible and breaks my immersion, so I tend to avoid anything that does that sort of thing. 

So tl;dr: my ideal scenario are decently realistic animals when it comes to behaviour and habits, but with the benefit of a lot of artistic license when it comes to using potential sensory details to their fullest possible extent. Thank you for your comment, and your question, by the way!

[annakie]

Patchy

A little under two years ago I made this post, a chronicle of Patchy, the outside feral, turned inside kitty who took ten years to learn to love being petted.

Today we got some bad news.

TW for pet illness under the cut.

Patchy’s always been a bit of a puker, usually oh, say, once a month or so she’d have a good puke for no reason.  I’ve had other cats that are pukers so it’s not that surprising.

In the late winter/early spring I started to notice more frequent pukes.

I’d decided around that time that I needed to find healthier food for my cats, with Leela, the oldest turning 16, Fry turning 11, Pemily turning 7 and Patchy turning, I don’t know, 12 or 13.  No way to really know.  They already got decent food, but I did my research and had started looking at Blue Buffalo, American Journey and Dave’s canned food. 

Patchy had been on a mostly canned food diet since she went to the vet back in early 2020 and had a bunch of teeth pulled.  Also, as a note, Patchy’s brief flirtation with hanging out in the rest of the house ended after like a month.  She and Fry fought too much, and eventually he claimed the rest of the house is his.  He also still thinks the master bedroom should be his, but, Patchy defends that territory well if anyone else encroaches. (The door just stays closed most of the time.)  I really wish they could have all gotten along, I loved having Patchy out, but both Fry and Patchy agreed it wasn’t going to work.

The food she’d been on was pretty junk-food-ish though, which she did love and eat. But I wanted everyone on more or less the same diet and the highest quality food I could readily get them.  So I bought a lot of cans of different kinds of food, and kept a list of which ones seemed to be hits and misses. (I still have a dozen cans of the kind nobody liked -- Blue Buffalo Wilderness Salmon -- I’ve been meaning to take to the city shelter).

Around halfway into this experiment I noticed Patchy puking more, so I decided to try to stick with her favorite kinds, which, I thought was helping.

But once I was fully vaccinated this year, it was time to get all the pets to the vet.  I noticed Patchy had still lost some weight, I thought it was due to switching around her food too much earlier, and tried to stick with the things I felt she really liked.

Then, of course, Leela got sick, spent two and a half days in the pet ER and almost died back in April, and then it was like... yeah we’re done being afraid of COVID, we’re done waiting.  It’s time to get them all their checkups.

My regular vet was doing COVID restrictions so no pet owners inside the clinic back then, so they took Patchy (and the others) in without me.  I thought Patchy had lost some weight, but Dr. B. sounded alarmed when he called me with how much lost she’d lost in the last year, about five pounds.  He wanted to do some bloodwork for Patchy, and I said of course go for it.  

He called back, sounding much calmer and was like “her bloodwork couldn’t be more perfect.  Let’s try switching up her food, get her on some sensitive stomach food and let’s see how she’s doing in a couple weeks.”

So two weeks later it did seem like she was doing better, I called Dr. B back and he said to bring her back in a month.

It was my plan to take her back next week when I had some PTO coming.  I admit, later than planned... my last couple of months have been mucn more focused on Leela... who, thankfully, continues to thrive.  But feeling like my time with her is running out, she’s been my main area of concern.

The last few days though, Patchy has really not been eating well.  Sometimes she does OK, sometimes nothing at all.  And then puking every day.  I swapped her back even to a few cans of the Junk Food (Whiskas) I still had laying around.  She’d eat it... and then puke it up.  And also she... stopped sleeping with me.  I thought... well, it’s summer.  It’s probably too hot to cuddle.  But she stopped laying on the bed.  She stopped coming up for pets when I come to bed and hang out for awhile specifically to spend time with her and pet her.  She runs under the bed again when I come into the room.  It’s like we regressed to three or four years ago... just two weeks after our two year anniversary of getting to pet her.

So this afternoon we went to the vet.  Getting her into the carrier sucked.  I tried nice methods, then I had to scare her into the closet by running the vacuum, and then pretty roughly grab her.  I have scratches and a pretty deep bite on my thumb which either maybe hit a nerve or is infected, may have to go to the doctor for it tomorrow. (Yes, washed it thoroughly with soap as soon as I could.)  I also hated betraying her trust that badly, but it’s for her own good.  But it was rough.

Dr B. wasn’t working so I saw one of the other vets.  I liked him. Also COVID restrictions are gone so I got to go inside. But after talking to him for a few minutes, going over her history and what changes I’ve made, he spent a long time rubbing her intestines (Patchy was perfectly behaved, at least.)   Then he looked concerned.  Then he said let’s do an ultrasound.

A few minutes he came back in and showed me her scans. 

Lymphoma.

I was a bit stunned for a second so I missed a bit of the technical speak he said next, but it came down to the best thing we could do is give her some medicine that may buy her more time.  It doesn’t sound like Chemo or Operating is even really an option.  I’m going to call back tomorrow and see if Dr. B or the vet I talked to can talk me through it a little better now that I’ve had a chance to digest.

If I can get Patchy to take the medicine, and if she responds well to it... she may have 3 - 6 months left.

If she won’t take it, or if she doesn’t respond, it’s at this point, a matter of her comfort and quality of life.  So... weeks.  And I’m worried about getting her to take the medicine, especially since she won’t even come let me pet her and we just had a huge trust betrayal today. I don’t know if I could take her spending her last few weeks hating me, especially if the medicine doesn’t work.

The vet also told me that... I didn’t do anything wrong.  And we did the right thing six or so weeks ago by changing her food and seeing if a few other things worked. Especially with how good her blookwork looked.  He barely felt the cancer today, he said six weeks ago Dr. B wouldn’t have been able to feel it at all.  And for this particular type of lymphoma... there’s not a lot to be done, anyway.  That made me feel better, at least.

(As a really dumb side note, after I got her home, I sat down to eat dinner and watch an episode of Star Trek to take my mind off of all of this since I’d been crying since I found out, paid my bill, and drove home, stopping at a drive through so I didn’t have the mental load of cooking.  And I’m in the middle of my rewatch of Enterprise.  I bet any trekkies reading this can guess what episode was next in my rewatch because yep I’m in season two and A NIGHT IN SICKBAY started playing, of course, so obviously I NOPED THE FUCK OUT OF THAT EPISODE.  For the non-Trekkies.... the Captain has a dog on board, an adorable beagle, Porthos.  The dog gets sick and almost dies and spends his night in Sickbay.  He does pull through.  But the ONE episode centered around a beloved pet getting sick and almost dying... and that’s the episode that fate decreed I was supposed to watch tonight. I did not.  I don’t know if I can watch it anytime soon.)

So now for the next few weeks I will spend my time being grateful that Leela is alive and thriving and pray she keeps doing so -- I will continue to give her extra love and care and attention, and also I will need to do the same for Patchy.  I can’t even do it at the same time because Patchy will not come out here, and will not allow Leela in her room. 

I am low-key freaking out that there’s the possibility of the nightmare scenario happening to me again.  In winter 2016, after months of being sick, I woke up on Christmas morning and my 16-year-old cat Jim had died overnight.  It was terrible, and traumatic, and I had to deal with everything all alone because anyone who could support me was... well, it was Christmas morning and my family was all out of town, too.  Posting about it on Tumblr... actually really helped me, since it’s the only place I felt like I could talk about it.

That Christmas was on a Sunday.

Wednesday morning I woke up to hearing my dog, Cebu, moaning in pain.   I rushed him to the vet, but whatever happened overnight, it was too late, maybe there wasn’t anything we ever could have done even if I’d been awake when the puking started.  The vet said the kindest thing we could do was put him to sleep.  And we did.

Also I just, JUST now realized that the vet who helped put Cebu to sleep was the same vet who I saw today about Patchy.

But I lost two of my pets within 3 days of each other.  I was very lucky that my job let us have the week between Christmas and New Years off that year.  I had a few days to pull myself together, and I needed it.  It took months to recover totally, though.  Every once in awhile I think about that week and I still cry, though.  I miss them both so much and they both had deaths that were less than ideal.

I remember thinking then “I have like, five years of reprive.  Leela will be sixteen in five years, and that’s when I have to start to worry again, when I have to be ready to say goodbye again.”

I thought then that even after that I’d have two or three years until Patchy would leave me, and two or three years past that until Fry.  And then five more years with Pemily.

Right now I’m realizing that I will likely lose Patchy, very best case in six months, but possibly before July is over.

I need Leela to keep thriving.  I don’t know how I would handle losing another two so close together again.

Patchy is... she’s the one who chose me.  I chose my other cats.  Fry and Pemily I plucked from the backyard when they were tiny kittens and brought them inside.  They didn’t have a choice.  Leela I adopted from a rescue, she didn’t have a choice.  Patchy chose to stay.  She chose to stick around when she realized I’d feed her.  It took years but she learned to trust, she chose to come inside when it was cold, when it was hot, when it was storming, and when she was pregnant.  She chose me to help raise the last litter of kittens she’d ever had.  (My entire Rescue Kitties tag is full of adventures in finding, raising and usually adopting out strays. Lots and lots of posts about Patchy and her final litter.  Been awhile since I’ve done it, though.)

I used to joke that Patchy was my roommate, not a pet.  She ate, drank, did her business, and kept to herself for a long time.  Don’t get me wrong, she was a very good, quiet, considerate roommate and I loved her.  But it wasn’t until that wonderful day she let me pet her that I felt like she was my pet. 

I loved having her just hanging out living in the house since 2014, but the last two years especially have brought me such joy.  I’ve tried to never take Patchy’s trust in me for granted.  It was EARNED.  Every small step forward was a milestone to be celebrated. I worked for every bit of trust and love Patchy has given me, and have been rewarded.  And it was worth it.  Every minute.  Every long, patient year.

Even now I’m telling myself... without me, she would have died years ago.  Probably violently, or starved, maybe frozen to death.  Getting to die of cancer brought on by older age is not something that most feral cats ever get to do.  Getting to become an inside kitty where she’s loved, and comfortable for the second half of her life was something remarkable, brought on by her wiles and will to survive for so many years, bolstered by the food I left out for her.  She’s had this much time, this much life, this much comfort and love that she would have never had otherwise, and that’s something to be happy about.

I’ve watched dozens of ferals come and go through my neighborhood throughout the years.  I feed them, I work on seeing if I can get them to trust me enough to let me TNR them, but even those that I have, I don’t keep seeing for much longer.  There’s one right now, I jokingly call him Patchy’s Boyfriend.  He still won’t trust me and never has fallen for the trap when I’ve tried.  But he’s there most nights when I feed him around 11.  He’s getting terribly thin despite the quality food I leave out.  I’ll miss him.

But none of them were Patchy.  None of them became what she is to me. None of them survived long enough to adapt and decide to live another life.

Also?  I wouldn’t have Pemily without her.  Pemily is literally Patchy’s Granddaughter and that is one more thing I love Patchy for.

I feel guilty sometimes, both because I don’t spend nearly enough waking hours with her I feel, but I have three others who need me, as well. One who’s time is growing short, as well.  And they don’t get to sleep with me, she does.  What a joy it was all winter when I would wake up and she’d be sleeping on my chest.  I’d get a bit annoyed when she’d sleep with her backside to my face and her tail would tickle my face and wake me up.  I’m a side-sleeper half the night and she hated that it was harder to get comfortable on me that way.  She still doesn’t want to have my hand just stay on her, she wants pets and skirtches, no long-form touching.  That’s ok.  I sleep better with her weight on me.

I don’t know what the next few weeks or months will hold, but at least pet-wise, it’s going to be rough.  I’m going to wrap this up and give these three out here a good pet, then go hope Patchy comes and asks for love, too.  Tomorrow is one more day with all four of them, and for that, I’ll be grateful, for every remaining day.

[lilypixels]

All of them 😄

ok wow you really went for it huh? ahdjkhsd I’ll answer all of them minus the three I just did I’ll put them under the read more thingy since this will be long :’D

zinc white; how are you really feeling today? no one-word answers please!

I woke up two hours ago and only took a shower thus far so I’m feeling good lol

cadmium yellow; when you think of the word “happy” what’s the first thing that comes to mind?

...idolish7 ajhjkfh i’m too obsessed with it h e l p

yellow ochre; name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of!

would it be bad if I said Idolish7/all the related groups (Trigger, Mezzo, Zool)?? cause technically a recentish discovery and I defiantly can’t get enough :’D my real answer is Reol

naples yellow; where do you feel most at home?

my room lol

raw sienna; with whom do you feel most at home?

my mom i guess??

golden ochre; describe the relationship you have with your closest friend.

one that some might not deem normal but works well for us lol (I mean, we’ve been friends for about 10 years now) we have a good understanding of each other and know we don’t have to talk/hang out all the time in order to know we still matter to each other, we both have our own lives and just knowing the other is there no matter what is enough. we’re the type to not talk for weeks and then send random memes and act like we’d been talking the whole time😂 it works really well for me too cause i’m not good at “socializing” on a constant basis and tend to just...not text people for ages on end, but I’ll still care for them and think about them just many see it as me cutting them out rip

golden deep; what’s your favorite season?

tbh the time between spring and summer but fall has been earning some points recently

cadmium orange; what do you like to do on your days off?

I often bake and game

orange lake; do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad?

I guess?? but i don’t like bothering people with my emotions often times so I just cuddle my cat haha

titans; do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings?

hmm...the second i think

shakhnazaryan red; are you currently binge-watching anything?

i was binge-watching Tsukiuta but I’ve slowed down with s2 cause now I’m distracted with other things like genshin impact

red ochre; are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)?

i don’t even know/remember anymore, maybe left now???

burnt sienna; is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it?

Van Gogh’s Starry Night cause I like stars and nightviews 

vermilion; what’s your favorite accent?

oooo interesting one, but I like all accents, I find them cute :3

cadmium red; do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other?

I have a type with fictional characters and idol biases does that count? no?

scarlet; describe your current crush/es.

i have none 😗✌

ruby; what does your ideal first date look like?

bold of you to assume i would go on a date idk a movie so i don’t have to talk lol

carmine; what does your ideal second date look like?

bold of you to assume I would- ahfkj i really don’t know, go to the library and have tea???

madder lake red; would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date?

that’s a big NO from me, someone be catching hands if they tried

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now?

is it bad i thought of work? i have a fun time watching baby 😊

quinacridone rose; what’s something you’re really looking forward to?

baking/decorating Christmas cookies that I’m gonna share with family and friends!

violet rose; what does your dream house look like?

like a victorian house, gothic victorian is better, probably haunted, with an attic room hehe

violet; is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down?

anywhere but here lol

blue lake; what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down?

finish schooling and get job :b

cobalt blue spectral; what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to?

uhhhhhh Clearwater Beach?

ultramarine; when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it?

yesterday I guess cause i had good time shopping with my dad :3

blue; what’s the most recent dream you remember?

my dream last night rip part of it was genshin related cause I played like 3 hours before sleeping and the rest was my mind trying to figure out where the story of an otome I’m playing is gonna go i’m at end of this dudes route and he just erased mc’s memories of him so like enggg

bright blue; what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each?

i wanna foster, adopt at least one kid and have one of my own, all the pets, maybe there’s some dude there idk kids and animals all i need aha

blue cobalt; do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could?

i don’t like my name but at same time it’s kinda who i am and idk what else i would name myself i do have a Chinese name though (we picked them in class and what we went by) which is MingYi 明怡!

prussian azure; what’s your favorite scent?

coconut, vanilla, MINT

azure blue; what’s your favorite type of tea, if any?

peppermint tea, green tea, I did like Earl Grey but I can’t have black tea anymore :(

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant?

all the herbs and vegetables! also some of my favorite flowers like foxglove that hopefully don’t make my allergies worse

cerulean blue; if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog?

probably not

glauconite; describe your body without using any negative adjectives.

5′ 5″, tiny, long legs that hold all the muscles and weight in my body lol my torso is like a rectangle, i am very flat chested and do not mind that 

yellow green; picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario?

i can not picture cause i just imagine itchy grass and lots of sneezing😔

green light; are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better?

comfortable enough i guess, i try not to nitpick too much on what’s “lacking”

green; name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them?

all the countries! I almost went to China for study abroad but then stuff happened TT

emerald green; do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn?

I can technically speak basic Chinese and French, but I’ve also already forgotten too much rip I really like learning languages and hope to get back into it soon!

oxide of chromium; what’s your favorite book?

legit any Rick Riordan book, my fav author

olive green; are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far?

I’m in like the middle of Trials of Apollo book 2 and it is great

mars brown; what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh?

idk Megamind??

burnt umber; what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself?

technically already did it, was shower

umber; have you drank enough water today?

no

voronezhskaya black; what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent?

rpg/fighting games where I can smash monsters to pieces

sepia; name five things that always make you happy.

music, babies, Alice, baking, others being happy~

indigo; what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received?

idk i shy away from compliments most of time :’)

payne’s gray; describe your aesthetic?

“welcome to your doom uwu” ajshdjk idk it’s always changing

black; post a selfie because you are so beautiful!

no thanks💖 maybe later but its gonna be gone fast

[peepingtoad]

𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐈𝐜𝐡𝐚 𝐈𝐜𝐡𝐚!~

(Answered from a post-war perspective)

► Name ➔ “I’ve go by many names! The Toad Sage, The Village’s Madness, The White-Maned Toad-Charmer, The Legendary Hermit Of Mount  Myōboku, That Bastard Who Still Hasn’t Paid Off His Tab (it’s coming soon, I swear!)... but most know me simply as Jiraiya. Ogata Jiraiya is my full name nowadays, ever since I was accepted into the sacred clan of the Myōboku toads!” ► Are you single? ➔ “Eternally, it seems—but don’t let that fool you! My diary is never short of upcoming dates. Speaking of, are you free next Friday?~” ► Are you happy? ➔ “The happiest I’ve ever been! Not everything in life is perfect, even now, but I’m enjoying it to the full!” ► Are you angry? ➔ “Do bratty theatrics count as ‘anger’? I know, I know, it’s quite a glaring flaw of mine...” ► Are your parents still married? ➔ “My dear, I don’t think my parents were ever even considered an item. Who knows if they ever met again, but given my age I doubt my father is alive now, either.”

EIGHT FACTS

► Birth Place ➔ “Konohagakure, born and raised! My mother, I believe, was from what would become unified as the Land of Fire, but my father? He was from the Land of Lightning, as far as I’ve been able to deduce.” ► Hair Color ➔  “White as the clouds on a sunny day in Spring! About as fluffy, too. Touch it, if you like~”  ► Eye Color ➔  “They look black, until you come up real close. Then, you’ll find that they’re a deep yet piercing grey.” ► Birthday ➔ “Eleventh of November—a nice, simple eleven-eleven, no matter where you’re from!” ► Mood ➔  “You don’t have to spend much time with me to see that I take life with a relaxed, humorous and cheerful attitude, but... haha. I can be a little prone to childish outbursts, I can admit.” ► Gender ➔ “Just a manly kinda dude. I’m not sure, to this day, what exactly makes a man—but I’m comfortable being one.” ► Summer or winter ➔  “I feel like if I had to choose one, I’d only miss the other before long. I appreciate all the changes that come with the seasons... but I suppose, in general, I’m more of a summery type.” ► Morning or afternoon ➔ “I’m definitely an early bird kinda guy. I like to rise early, have breakfast and coffee while watching the sun rise, and I find it’s when I’m the most inspired to do things. But I must say, nothing beats a lazy afternoon nap after a productive morning!”

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

► Are you in love? ➔ “Perpetually. I’m in love with the very idea of love. It sure helps with writing romance, I’ll tell you that much for free!” ► Do you believe in love at first sight? ➔ “Perhaps not love, with all the weight the word has, but I definitely believe in that spark. The feeling you get when you’re compelled by some unexplained force to learn more about a person, to spend time with them and see what makes them tick. Lust, on the other hand... well, that’s certainly something that can rear its head in a flash.” ► Who ended your last relationship? ➔ “The last one, I believe, ended with a mutual, amicable agreement. It’s something that is sadly quite commonplace with my travelling lifestyle, but I like to maintain contact with those I’ve cared about and who care about me in turn. Usually by letter—although, I admit, sometimes even that connection gets lost with time.” ► Have you ever broken someone’s heart? ➔ “I’m pretty sure I’m incredibly guilty of this. Especially in my younger years, I was a little careless with people’s hearts, by lack of forethought, rather than a lack of care for their feelings. I do what I can to be upfront and avoid it now, but sometimes these things can’t be avoided. It’s hard, you know, being this addictive!” ► Are you afraid of commitments? ➔ “Hmmm. Romantically speaking... I wouldn’t say I fear it, I just... avoid it, for the most part. I don’t want to make that promise unless I’m absolutely sure I can keep it... and I guess that scenario just hasn’t come up for me, yet. So worry not, there’s still a chance for all you single ladies out there~” ► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ “I’ll hold my hands up and confess that I’m a hugger, through and through. I couldn’t tell you who, or how many people I’ve hugged recently—it’s just second nature for me to do so!” ► Have you ever had a secret admirer? ➔ “Judging by some of the love letters I receive in the old PO Box, I’d go as far as to say I have them in multitudes. Heh.” ► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ “Hmm. I feel like in my past, I’ve sacrificed many chances in favour of other duties and paths I had to commit to. And I think, yes, I was the cause of my own heartbreak at various points thanks to that.”

SIX CHOICES

► Love or lust? ➔ “In an ideal world, both. Is that cheating? They can both end up feeling rather incomplete without the other, in the long term. And for me, lust comes part and parcel with love—but that’s not necessarily the case the other way ‘round... Bah. I couldn’t possibly choose! My novels wouldn’t be so exciting with such clear-cut distinctions, and I say the same applies to life!” ► Lemonade or iced tea? ➔ “Definitely iced tea. I’m much more a fan of still drinks—unless it’s beer!” ► Cats or Dogs? ➔ “I’m not allowed to say frogs, am I? No? Well... I do like both cats and dogs. Though I must say, a cat that acts like a dog is very charming. I think, equally so, a dog that acts like a cat would be charming! But I think, if you’re really gonna press me about it, I’d choose cats, whether they’re doggish or cattish. They’re a lot more easygoing and less dependent. Plus, there’s nothing more relaxing than having a big, lazy cat snoozing on your lap!” ► A few best friends or many regular friends? ➔ “I’ve always been one for small, tightly knit circles, as much as that can often lead to more... complicated friendships.” ► Wild night out or romantic night in? ➔ “I hardly think I can answer that, given it depends entirely on the mood at the time! I’m gonna say neither, because my favourite way to spend time with someone is out, but somewhere intimate, where we can talk. A cosy bar where we can people-watch, followed by a walk along the riverside or along a nature trail... and maybe, if we’re feeling daring, some canoodling beneath the stars~” ► Day or night? ➔ “I love the day, but it can get very busy and overly exciting. It’s wonderful when night arrives, and you can just unwind from all that. Plus, all the good bars, casinos and other establishments open at night, if you catch my drift. Which, I guess, isn’t conducive to the whole unwinding thing, but I’m nothing if not capricious at times!”

FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS

► Been caught sneaking out? ➔ “I didn’t exactly have anyone to catch me sneaking out, but I’ve certainly been caught, uh... sneaking around, in general.” ► Fallen down/up the stairs? ➔ “Not that I remember, and that’s all that matters, alright? ... Ah, but there was that one time the other week—” ► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ “I don’t think I’m capable of wanting something any other way. When I want something—or someone—I ache for it. With all my being.” ► Wanted to disappear? ➔ “... In a way, yes. Never to disappear entirely, not at all. There’s too much to live for, but... I have thought it would be better for me to disappear as far as others were concerned, at times.”

FOUR PREFERENCES

► Smile or eyes? ➔ “Easy—eyes. You can see a smile in the eyes, after all.” ► Shorter or Taller? ➔ “Being as... gifted as I am, in height, I must say it's always novel to have a taller partner. It’s happened, a few times, and I rather liked it. But I do enjoy the feeling of being a nice big presence for my partner to cuddle or drape themselves over, too. There’s merits in both. I can’t possibly choose!” ► Intelligence or Attraction? �� “Attraction is the most important thing of all—and there’s so much more to a person’s mind and heart than their smarts. I say this as someone who perhaps isn’t what one would consider typically intelligent.” ► Hook-up or Relationship? ➔ “Oooh, difficult. I don’t think life would be complete without a variety of experiences. But I’ve had so many hook-ups, and with all the relationships I’ve ever had coming to an end along the line, I can’t say I’d be opposed to exploring one more deeply. Especially now that life is more relaxed in general.”

FAMILY

► Do you and your family get along? ➔ “The family was only ever ma and me, and she was around so little... but yes, we did get along. I have a feeling I’m more like her than I’ll ever truly know...” ► Would you say you have a “messed up life”? ➔ “As a shinobi, I really must say, don’t we all?” ► Have you ever ran away from home? ➔ “I prefer to say I srategically retreated.” ► Have you ever gotten kicked out? ➔ “No, but perhaps my absences were... encouraged, at times. But that’s something I’ll never know for sure.”

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends? ➔ “If I hated anyone, I certainly wouldn’t keep it a secret!” ► Do you consider all of your friends good friends? ➔ “Y’know what? Yeah. I like to think I’m a pretty good judge of character, and all those I consider my friends are solid people.” ► Who is your best friend? ➔ “My fellow Legendary Sannin, of course! No matter the difficulties we’ve faced, those two’ve been there since the beginning, and we’re all stubbornly alive and kicking today; my feelings for them have never changed, and I doubt they ever will.” ► Who knows everything about you? ➔ “Hmm... I don’t think anybody in the world knows everything there is to know about me. Even with those closest to me, there are things even they don’t know. But I like to think I’d be an open book, should they ever wish to.”

[smokeybrand]

Irreconcilable Differences

I touched upon this in my Knightmare Scenario post but there is a shift in how we, as moviegoers, consume film. The Wuha has shown us all that it’s not necessary to actually patron movie theaters to get our flick fix, that streaming services are a viable option for studios to release tent pole movies instead of in the major multiplex franchises. This sh*t could be a death knell for the entire theater industry and they’re lashing out violently. All of this stems from the fact that Trolls: World Tour did f*cking gangbusters on streaming and Universal, the studio attached to this corporate abortion of a film, mad about fur times the profit they would if it was released in cinemas. See, theaters pay for the license to screen films. To recoup that loss, they most of the ticket price. Some more powerful studios like Disney, can force a higher percentage for a shorter time. Maybe forty percent over opening weekend, but that’s it. Everything after that is all theaters until the Wuha f*cked that sh*t all up.

After Universal made more profit than any movie they have ever released, in the shortest amount of time they’ve ever run a film in theaters, they immediately altered their release schedule. They wanted to do dual release; Streaming and theatrical. Theaters, obviously, AMC specifically, we like f*ck all of that. People would definitely forgo the theater experience, with all of the sh*tty food, cramped spaces, and assholes disguised as patrons, to sit on their couch, in their draws, watching with people they actually like. There’s no way the theaters come back from that and, in a deluded effort to strong arm an industry that just realized they don’t even need their partnership, tried to strong arm Universal by boycotting their films. Okay. This sh*t lasted less than a week and the theaters came groveling back. I imagine there were some negotiations behind closed doors because, to give up four times the profit just to prop of a dying industry, ain’t something any business would do out of the kindness of their heart.

I like the simul-release model a ton. Don't get me wrong, i love the cinema. I love going to the theater, sitting in that AC eating my forty dollar hot dog, and taking in that big ass screen I love that whole experience and, before the Wuha f*cked it all up, i had planned to spend the entire summer in thee. I live down the street from the newest theater built in my area so they have all of the dope sh*t. More to the point, there re some films that absolutely must be seen on a theatrical screen. I cannot express to you how it felt to see Infinity War with a crowd of people. To experience the same emotions as hundreds of strangers was profound. After that film ended, the theater was dead silent. I saw that movie five times, with five different audiences, and the same silence followed each viewing. It was intense and there’s no way you get that on your couch, even is you have a streaming group showing. The experience is completely different. You don’t feel Pete getting dusted the same way you would with a proper audience. That energy is lost in home and you need it to fully experience a true blockbuster like that, properly.

A total shift toward streaming would do a disservice to filmmakers like Christopher Nolan, Denis Denis Villeneuve, Ridley Scott or Michael Bay. I hate Bay with a passion but i did watch a little bit of 6Underground and was profoundly underwhelmed. Bayhem needs the theater screen for it’s gratuitous levels of explosive, sexist, nonsense. It doesn’t work on a sensibly sized television. You’d lose too much of Scott's intimate detail and sweeping vista shots he loves to sprinkle in his films. Dude has a penchant for the nature porn and it is duly appreciated. Denis Villeneuve’s rich shot composition and breathtaking cinematography would fall flat if you’re first experiencing them in your f*cking living room. I should know. I actually have a fifty-two inch, 4k, UHD television and Blade Runner 2049 pales in comparison on my TV, to how I experienced it in theaters. Speaking of experience, anything Nolan makes would immediately be sh*t. His films need to be experienced in a theater, ideally IMAX. That’s how he shoots his films. You need that size. you need that overwhelming immersion. TeneT on the small screen will never compare to it on the screen it was shot for. You will never see that film the way its supposed to, if theaters are done in totally.

It’s not like only theaters see the benefit of a dual-release system. There area lot of great films that fester or languish in their runs because of they’re consumed by the Disney juggernaut or some Fast flick takes all of the screens. It took Ex Machina weeks after releases to make it into theaters out here because it was so niche. I waited for three weeks after the VVitch dropped and had to plead with a good friend of mine to get her manager just to screen it. Hell, Hereditary, one of the greatest performances i have ever seen captured on film, got to my theaters a week late and had only one screen in the basement. Thee were, like, fifty seats in there. Imagine if that thing had the buzz it did and dropped straight to Netlfix. Suspiria had a limited theatrical run and made it’s way to Amazon within months where it has had a pretty lucrative run so far. Imagine the shine it would have received if it had released there immediately instead of getting that niche nod in the actual theater. I mean, i saw all of these films in the cinema because that’s my thing but i can see why and how a streaming release strategy would benefit their visibility far more positively.

I think, though, this is more than anything, the establishment has the problem with this situation than anything. There is a system in place and no one wants to f*ck it up. Some of the best films i have ever seen were produced, funded, and released to streaming services. Beast of No Nation would have never been successful in theaters but it found life on Netflix. A Marriage Story is another film that i think would have floundered in the cinema. It’s an excellent film that as great performances and a very human tale that was overlooked by the Oscars because streaming isn’t seen as a medium viable for their highfalutin blessing over at the Academy. That sh*t smacks of stuffy, archaic, elitism and it’s a f*cking shame. It cheapens the Oscars and continuously proves that those awards are little more than an ego stroke for a dying Hollywood system. This streaming sh*t is a direct accusation at the old garb.

Recently, a film called The Lovebirds dropped on Netflix. It was supposed to release in theaters sometime this month but, since the Wuha has everything so f*cked up, it was sent directly to streaming where it has garnered an amount of success. With an African-American woman and a South Asian male as romantic leads, this probably wouldn't have flown all that well if it had a theatrical release. Considering it uses the fact that they are both brown as the reason for why they would run from the cops after a very obvious misunderstanding, kind of lends itself to me thinking this bad boy would have tanked with broader audiences. This thing’s home release, where certain individuals who might have a not-so-favorably a public stance on us darkies but secretly hate-love our stinky draws, could watch it without anyone knowing definitely contributed to that flick’s success. A success that may have eluded the movie if it was released theatrically because cats can’t be seen supporting certain films.

Movies that are driven by people of color not produced by that bojanglin’ Tyler Perry, flick that weave a small scale, human tale of frailty, lost love, and true emotion, or telling a proper, respectful LBGTQ love story, can thrive on streaming. These smaller, more actor driven, movies can side-step all of the political noise that goes along with such visible release dates, avoid conflict with mega-blockbusters, and be readily accessible for anyone curious about their pedigree while making the most money they can. Hell, why even exclude the big-budget fair? Cult films that did okay or even poorly in theaters, like Alita: Battle Angel, can get that big-budget sequel, drop on streaming, and turn a profit with a fraction of the viewership without having to worry about directly competing with an MCU Berserker or some sh*t. I would love to see Alita in theaters for a second round but, if the only way i can revisit this world theatrically would be on the small screen, i am okay with that. Everyone should be okay with that.

I think the people paying for these movie ARE okay with that. No one i spoke to had any issue with streaming a day-one release. No one I asked had a problem with checking out a summer blockbuster on their TV. We just need theaters and studios to be okay with it. We need theaters to accept the fact that they’re going to have to adjust what they show and how they show it. Studios are going to have to be okay with maybe missing a prestige award for a few years until streaming films become normalized. I think everyone wins in a duel-release scenario. We get more content. Studios can get back to taking risks and letting creators, create. Theaters have more screens to show the moneymakers. I like the position of cinema going in the future. I like the options. This is progress. This is growth. Now let’s just hope the divorce from the theater system isn’t as bloody in the end, as it was in the beginning.

[msmoonicorn]

Get to know... Mordei

► Name ➔ “Mordei Anardon.”

► Are you single ➔ “Not if you count…oh wait…does that count? Well, damn.”

► Are you happy ➔  “Of course! I mean…Conditions could always improve…but I try to remain upbeat and content in all things.”

► Are you angry? ➔ “I.. try not to be? There are few subjects that truly provoke my ire, and I usually steer clear of them.”

► Are your parents still married ➔  “Yes. They make an incredible team. Not that they don’t get on each other’s nerves or disagree from time to time, but… they’re still on each other’s side.”

NINE FACTS

► Birth Place ➔ “The great city of Dalaran.”

► Hair Color ➔ “Black, although it has been pointed out that Sin’dorei do not have black hair the way that humans do. It’s more of a gradient color for us.”

► Eye Color ➔ “Green.”

► Birthday ➔ “November 29th.”

► Mood ➔ “Intrigued, I suppose. I’m not often asked such questions. Is this for something? I mean to say, is there a purpose behind these inquiries?”

► Gender ➔ “Male.”

► Summer or winter ➔ “I prefer the milder seasons of spring and fall, to be honest. The gradient of temperatures is kinder to those of us who trek through the wilds. Though I suppose winter can be very kind on tropical climates, and summer might be interesting in more mountainous terrains. Hm. Perhaps it would depend upon the weather of any given biome during said seasons.”

► Morning or afternoon ➔ “Well…both. I’ve been an early riser for a while now, and as such, I have adapted to rarely sleeping in. There are few days in which I can truly abide laziness, so I tend to enjoy accomplishing as much as I can during the early hours of the morning so that I may enjoy a more sedate pace when the afternoon comes.”

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

► Are you in love ➔ “My! That is direct! By chance, have you been speaking to my mother?”

► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ “No.”

► Who ended your last relationship ➔  “I don’t think I have any ‘ended’ relationships... unless you count open-ended. There are quite a few that I feel rather up in the air over.”

► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ “….no? Not that I am aware of.. If some poor damsel or lad has been pining for me, they could simply bring it to my attention. I may very well return their regard.”

► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ “No.”

► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ “No. ….wait… Maybe? Yes! Yes, I have! The undead girl, E? Yes, her. She’s ridiculously affectionate. Not that I’m stodgy about such things. I just don’t cling to people for long periods of time....Perhaps I should.”

► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ “…how would I know? I mean, maybe I have, but if so it’s still a secret.”

► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ “I…what?”

SIX CHOICES

► Love or lust ➔ “Ah…Love? It is, after all, quite easy to lust after someone when I already love them.”

► Cats or Dogs ➔ “Hm. I feel I should say ‘cats’ out of loyalty to my cousin. However, I find merit in both animals, and will not choose. Especially when I can have both!”

► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ “A few best friends feels right.”

► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ “Without question, romantic night in.”

► Day or night ➔ “Unless the moon be full, day.”

FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS

► Been caught sneaking out ➔ “Yes. Or rather, I was caught sneaking in. I’d already been out past my curfew, and I was trying to sneak back into my room… But my father was in my bed waiting for me. Scared the life right out of me.”

► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔ “No… though I’m curious how one would fall up…Is it because of the direction of the stairs? Because, the direction of the fall is always consistent..”

► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ “Hm. The something, perhaps. Though the thing that I have wanted which hurt was not a thing that could be possessed… more an ideal or a way of life. I suppose I did get what I had asked for, though it wasn’t at all what I wanted. As for the ‘someone’… I can’t say that I have…yet. I don’t want to rule it out, because when we do that, the universe laughs at us.”

► Wanted to disappear ➔ “….Not really. I have wished that things were different, or perhaps even that I was different… but I’ve never wanted to disappear.”

FOUR PREFERENCES

► Smile or eyes ➔ “Eyes….though, as my demon hunter friends often display, they aren’t always necessary.”

► Shorter or Taller ➔ “I have no preference on this account.”

► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ “Intelligence is attractive.”

► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ “Relationships. ‘Hook-ups’ are boring and trivial.”

FAMILY

► Do you and your family get along ➔ “I am an only child, though my mother tends to adopt any waifs or strays she may find. Still, I do get along well with my parents.. especially now, what with the three of us all trying so hard not to take each other for granted. I’ve learned more recently that I also have a cousin! She is… something. And I think I like whatever it is.”

► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔  “Oh, never. Things in my life are messed up, but for the most part… my life is full and rather grand. ”

► Have you ever ran away from home ➔ “No.. the downside of a floating city is that there isn’t really anywhere to run to. Though, in truth I never had any cause to do so… in fact, my home was the place most of my friends ran to.”

► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔  “…of…home? No. I can’t even imagine a scenario in which I would.”

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ “…how….does one hate someone they identify as a friend? It seems… counterintuitive at best and self-defeating at worst.”

► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ “…hm. No. Truly, most of those I claim as friends are friends in passing more than anything. We’ve all had to grow up so much, and that has caused us to grow apart. But that doesn’t mean that I wouldn’t take the time to step up for any of them, if they needed it.”

► Who is your best friend ➔ “Desiderius doesn’t count does he? He’s my new pet. He’s an enormous magenta serpent. I’ve no idea how he managed to eke out an existence against the white sands of Tanaris before we began traveling together. Oh very well, I can see why it wouldn’t count…ah……Halrion. Yes. I would trust him with my life and my secrets.”

[colderpartz]

from: @freedom-books-flowers-moon​

zinc white; how are you really feeling today? no one-word answers please! im feeling sum type of way rn. very tiredt and burnt out from the school year.

cadmium yellow; when you think of the word “happy” what’s the first thing that comes to mind? that feeling when you’re laughing so hard with your best friends and you realize where you are and where you’re with.

lemon; what’s your comfort food? dumplings

hansa yellow; what’s your guilty pleasure song? do ya think im sexy by rod steward

yellow ochre; name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of!!! foxygen :)

naples yellow; where do you feel most at home? in my room, in my sister’s car, or at gigs

raw sienna; with whom do you feel most at home? my sister

golden ochre; describe the relationship you have with your closest friend: she makes me laugh until i cry, and when i cry she knows how to make me laugh. she takes care of me and i take care of her. she is my soulmate :)

golden deep; what’s your favorite season? summer

cadmium orange; what do you like to do on your days off? hang out with my friends or if im alone i create

orange lake; do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad? yes, but i mostly interalize things (my cap moon JUMPED out)

titans; do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings? slow morning

shakhnazaryan red; are you currently binge-watching anything? fosse/verdon

red ochre; are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)? right brained but i just took a test and it was in the middle :/

burnt sienna; is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it? nighthawks babey. i wanna be in the bar with no doors. 

english red; what animal do you relate to most? a black cat that crawls out of the bushes while you’re walking home at midnight.

vermilion; what’s your favorite accent? i actually don’t rlly care for accents :/ i know it like turns a lot of ppl on but it just distracts me.

cadmium red; do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other? yes i have a very specific type. taller than me, brown curly hair, nice prepy or glam clothing, dry sense of humor, scorpio or capricorn, plays some sort of instrument or is a creative type.

scarlet; describe your current crush/es: very beautiful, intelligent, and completely overly understanding. someone who even though they don’t have the same interests as you, will talk to you about whatever you’re passionate about. amazingly supportive. and a little pretentious but i like it :)

ruby; what does your ideal first date look like? very sponatious trip to the city at night where we see a gig and then kiss with the skyline behind us. 

carmine; what does your ideal second date look like? lol sex

madder lake red; would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date? yea duh

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now? making my first real short film (even though its for school) and having so many great friends in my life

quinacridone rose; what’s something you’re really looking forward to? becoming a successful musician or filmmaker, but short term finishing up this year of school.

violet rose; what does your dream house look like? ok not to flex with this taurus materlism but a 1970s house or mid-century modern with an atrium, with velvet seating and silk sheets, a big living space for parties, an in-home movie theater, and a studio

violet; is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down? los angeles or new york city, wherever i can make my movies.

blue lake; what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down? i hate the idea of settling down. I never want to retire and I want to love going to work every day.  But I would like to go on tour with my band, graduate film school, become a famous filmmaker, win an oscar, and surround myself with people who inspire me and each other to be the best artists we can be. 

cobalt blue spectral; what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to? San Fransisco.

ultramarine; when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it? rn bc im on facetime with my baby <3

blue; what’s the most recent dream you remember? lol sex dream

bright blue; what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each? me, my partner and our closest friends. it’s like friends but w/o ross. I’m Joey and I married Chandler. 

blue cobalt; do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could? i did give myself a different name lol and now its my legal name. 

prussian azure; what’s your favorite scent? cinnamon, pine, or gardenia. 

azure blue; what’s your favorite type of tea, if any? chai or matcha

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant? maybe Japanese flowers? or roses obviously, maybe succulents. 

cerulean blue; if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog? nah im too dry to be a youtuber.

glauconite; describe your body without using any negative adjectives: leo rising

yellow green; picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario?: I hear the birds chirping, I see the wheat swaying and I hear tin man by america playing.

green light; are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better? I’m consistenly attempting to strive to be in a farther place than I am. I am young and there is way more life ahead of me and I can’t wait to expirence it. 

green; name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them? France, Italy, Japan ; no

emerald green; do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn? nope and i don’t really have an interest to learn any for fun.

oxide of chromium; what’s your favorite book? (mom im so sorry) the heart race of a mouse by anna green

olive green; are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far? no i can’t read

mars brown; what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh? OH BOY I DO. Ratatouille or any disney movie, juno, scott pilgrim, dead poets society (also it will make me sob), baby driver, ferris buellers day off, little shop of horros, SCHOOL OF ROCK, napoleon dynamite

burnt umber; what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself? give myself alone time.

umber; have you drank enough water today? nah i have a headache

voronezhskaya black; what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent? writing, deep self reflection, and talking to my sister. 

sepia; name five things that always make you happy: astrology, film, music, my possessions, and my best friends

indigo; what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received? a few of people have told me that i’m destined to do great things.

payne’s gray; describe your aesthetic? currently: velvet, candlesticks with wax dripping down it, vanity tables backstages with tons of makeup and clutter covering it, glitter on cheeks, men being comfortable with other men, reading a journal of someone 50 yrs ago and falling in love with them, the city at night, being in the crowd at a concert, an underground cabaret show

[lilprincegoo]

updating my ficrec with some more fanfictions i've read lately!

baekyeol

A Streetcar Named Desire (M,  How did Baekhyun feel about having a one night stand with the cute junior from college? Terrible. How did he feel being Chanyeol’s rebound guy? Terrib-ler. Will Baekhyun stop himself from further digging his own grave? Not a chance.)

Angels Wear Pink (PG,  Rilakkuma designer Chanyeol’s main source of inspiration is the popular idol Byun Baekhyun. To express his gratitude, Chanyeol has anonymously sent his designs to Baekhyun for years, never intending for them to actually meet. Fate (and Kim Junmyeon) have other plans.)

All I Have To Do Is Find You (Among All The Noise In The World) (G, People dream about a recognizable, defining feature of their soulmate, something that will stand out to them only. For Kyungsoo, it is the most obnoxious scream-laugh and it haunts his dreams until he finally hears it in person at a soccer game and he discovers that Kim Jongin, their high school’s bear mascot, is his soulmate.)

Behind Blue Eyes (NC-17,  Baekhyun is, among many things, blind in love with Chanyeol. Chanyeol is, among many things, an asshole in love with Baekhyun. It only takes them a few years to understand how a relationship works.)

Close ain't close enough (NC-17,  Borrowing a shirt shouldn’t start a pack war. Chanyeol being unlucky, though, it kind of does.)

Come In, Stay A While (R,  Baekhyun is a workaholic forced to go on vacation. There, he meets a little boy and his dad.)

I was So Sure (PG,  There’s nothing left but the noises—nothing left but the explosion inside him, his heart breaking to the tiniest pieces as guilt showers him with the realization of what he just ruined.)

I'm ready for the fall (ready for the colors to burn to gold and crumble away) (NC-17,   Baekhyun is a vampire who hates humans for good reasons and Chanyeol is a human who hates vampires for bad reasons. While vampires get killed and beheaded and the culprit is nowhere to be found, Chanyeol meets Baekhyun again and suddenly everything he's always believed about monsters doesn't matter anymore.)

Let Me Down Gently (NC-17,  Chanyeol’s dog might be a little too in love with Baekhyun, and Chanyeol is too.)

On the Booze With Brahms (PG,  Chanyeol has never heard someone say puppy like the asshole violinist next door does.)

Plumeria (NC-17,  Chanyeol is not what you expect in a flower shop owner; covered in tattoos and red hair. Baekhyun is his new favourite customer.)

Puppy in Love (PG,  As weird as it may seem, Chanyeol is convinced that his dog, Toben, is in love with the Welsh corgi next door. Unfortunately for Toben, the small dog seems uninterested and snobs him every time. Just like his grumpy owner.)

The faults in Byun Baekhyun (M, Baekhyun and Chanyeol hate each other's guts. It's the start of a new college year, with hormones flying and emotions sinking, with idiots roaming and jerks slinkering. Chanyeol prays that he will survive the year, hopes that he can get closer with a certain guy he's had a crush on since forever. But what he wishes above anything else is that he doesn't get roomed with Baekhyun. However, scenarios can appear deceiving amd things never go as planned. What happens when Chanyeol finds a centain Byun Baekhyun stumbling on his door, horny drunk and smelling of sex? Why, nothing, of course) + sequel >The flaws in Park Chanyeol 

without you to hold i'd be freezing (M, Everyone around Chanyeol talks about how love hides behind every corner, but they are all wrong. The only thing that hides behind a corner is a short asshole who bumps into Chanyeol on a particularly busy morning and spills Chanyeol's coffee when he needs it the most.)

chankai

if your heart was a house, i'd be home (PG-13, to rewrite a story, you have to reach the end first)

'Til The Morning Sun You're Mine (M, Jongin had expected a boring summer helping out at his parents' guest house that they rent out to tourists from all over the world. His mother forgets to tell him about the tall, gangly guy who doesn't like to wear sleeves.)

kaisoo

Alpha Male (NC-17, High school is pretty dull according to Kim Jongin. Yet almost anyone would sell their mother to be able to live his life. He’s popular, outgoing and good at sports. Love letters are hidden in his locker constantly and every boy is jealous of him. Jongin is tired of the same monochrome life every day, so when a transfer student enters the class during second year, he sees an opportunity for his life to change. Except he never expected the quiet boy with globe like eyes to be so mysterious and intimidating at the same time. The new student seems to enjoy lurking around at night, which wouldn’t be weird for a teenager really. Except he doesn’t attend parties. He doesn’t make friends either. What a loser. Jongin will eat this boy alive, that’s the plan. So how come Jongin is the one who suddenly feels like a prey?)

Days In the Sun (M,  A tale of small town love between a daydreaming beauty and a lonely beast.)

electric heart (PG-13, Kyungsoo finds a Persocom in the trash and, against his better judgement, takes it home (because Jongdae is a bad friend and a terrible enabler)) it's discontinued, but definitelly worth reading

Et Lire Entre Les Lignes (M, Kim Jongin, stressed-out student by day and fanfiction author by night, is here to give you two very helpful tips about college student life. First: Let coffee become your best friend. Second: Don't accidentally sent your smut fic to your tutor. Except maybe if his name is Do Kyungsoo..)

Event Horizon (PG-13,  Kyungsoo is a space enthusiast and Jongin meets him and falls in love with the galaxies in his eyes.)

Get to Know Me (M, Do Kyungsoo and Kim Jongin despise each other.... at least that's what everyone in the school likes to think. After all, Kyungsoo is the school's top student and Jongin is the school's biggest problem. But no one knows that Kim Jongin has a math tutor. And no one knows the real Do Kyungsoo.)

Gridiron Love (M, Rule number one of talking to your hot, football-playing crush is not to pretend to be someone you aren't. Jongin breaks that rule anyway.)

marriage is the best form of friendship (PG-13, Jongin will never get tired of proposing to Kyungsoo)

Moonlight Love (NC-17, When Kyungsoo hates werewolves, but Jongin doesn’t know how to quit loving him.)

My Muse (PG, In which Kyungsoo wants to summon his ghosts in peace but a certain somebody keeps distracting him.)

pets are the best matchmakers (PG, It was the best job in the world yet in the Saturday evening, alone at the small clinic with a bunch of cats and dogs to groom, the tanned male felt a bit lonely)

royal (let me be your ruler) (G, In which Prince Jongin is determined to make Kyungsoo his princess and love rules kingdoms)

variations on a love song (NC-17, Kyungsoo is kind of, sort of, slightly, probably, mostly, head over heels in love)

No buts, just beauty (PG, Kyungsoo's always been told that he's ugly. Jongin takes the time to convince him otherwise)

Blind but not Oblivious (M,  Jongin is the school's bear mascot who always cheers and watches on as his hopeless crush dazzles on the football pitch. Too bad he's got social anxiety and is too much of a wimp to take off his mascot head whenever Kyungsoo so much as approaches him.)

Smells Like Teen Spirit (M, side!baekyeol,  “All kids our age want is freedom, and when they get it they do stupid things with it, but god, it feels better than anything." Kyungsoo looked down at Jongin’s beautiful face. He could imagine how good he would look with white smoke curling from his full lips, with wind whipping through his hair as gold light bathed his tan skin. Such careless, glamourous freedom. Kyungsoo felt like Nick from Gatsby, if Nick had ever cradled Gatsby’s head in his lap while Gatsby pulled him headfirst into his careless, glamourous world. “Soo, will you go to the party with me?”

Storm in a Teacup (M,  Ever since supernatural creatures gained access to earth, humans are provided with their personal Guardians to protect them from all sorts of monsters. Jongin is a vampire and is put in charge of Do Kyungsoo’s protection. But see, Kyungsoo really doesn’t want to be protected. He also has a passionate dislike for vampires. It’s less-than-ideal.)

Time Goes By [So Slowly] (M,  Jongin, leader of his pack and protector of his territory in the city, finds himself with a human bodyguard when a bounty is put on his head.)

Treacherous (NC-17, side!Baekyeol,  Kyungsoo and Jongin know they are quickly journeying into dangerous territory, because Jongin's best friend is Park Chanyeol, openly homophobic and sworn enemy of Kyungsoo's best friend, Byun Baekhyun. They go there anyway.)

Trust You The Most (M, Do Kyungsoo ran a shelter for hybrids, but had never really considered keeping one of his own. Kai was left chained to Kyungsoo's front doors, abused so badly that he wouldn't let anyone get near him. It's a slow process, learning how to trust someone again.)

sekai

Give You Everything You Want (Everything You Need) (R, When Sehun moved to a little town far from everything he'd ever known, he wasn't expecting get feelings for anyone. Even less for his daughter's annoyingly perfect kindergarten teacher)

way back into love (M, It’s been six years. It’s not healthy to count, he knows, but he does it without noticing, does it as though it’s his default function. It’s as natural as breathing. It’s been six years since they parted. Sehun’s just turned twenty-six, now. There had been a party, and he spent it with bandmates and fellow artists who drank more than they could bear; and, for the first time in six years, Sehun wasn’t a part of them. While he could hear Chanyeol’s voice, among many others’, shouting “shots!” repeatedly, he’d sought silence in the further balcony of Baekhyun’s penthouse, closed the door behind him and welcomed the quiet sound of the cold wind that reached the highest spot of the building. It’d been six years since his birthday had last truly felt like a celebration of his life.)

Where Your Heart Belongs (M, Sehun doesn't know where he belongs to. Jongin will show him.)

sesoo

Take My Hand (And My Heart Too) (PG-13, Slytherin Sehun Oh gets conned by his best friend, a certain Jongin Kim, into signing up for extra Potions lessons, accidentally blows a cauldron and gets himself bound by the hand to Ravenclaw’s Prefect, Kyungsoo Do, aka his long-time crush. Chaos ensues, and feelings, of course.)

OT-12

Spare the rod, and spoil the child!  (R, Chanyeol begins his fifth year at Hogwarts on the wrong foot; Baekhyun is an elitist prefect who cannot stay out of trouble for better or for worse (though mostly for worse, unsurprisingly); Yifan has one huge Hufflepuff problem and Kyungsoo is bored out of his mind. Meanwhile, Luhan despairs about Quidditch and life; yes indeed, the year is treating everyone well. However, something seems to be off, lately. Hogwarts is not in its usual state and it would take a little more than just curiosity for the inquisitive student to find out why.)

[official-ilvermorny]

Ilvermorny Sorting Game: @etherealpetrichor

@etherealpetrichor’s answers:

*Hogwarts House and why you feel an affinity:

    Ravenclaw, because I am always viewed as “the smart one” in my friend group, and I love reading/learning things/witty remarks

*Patronus form and why you think it accurate:

    Cat, I enjoy spending near people without actually interacting with them, for example I love sitting with my friends and listening to their conversations without feeling the need to actively engage.  I also have been told I give off an impression of being aloof.  Not to mention my affinity for curling up in sunny places

Wand details:   

    Blackthorn wood with a phoenix feather core 14 ½" and unyielding flexibility

*Which of the following do you most trust when making decisions, and why: logic, intuition, instincts, or emotions?

    Logic; it’s the only one of those four options that is constantly reliable

Which class would you most like to take at Ilvermorny and why?

    Definitely charms, it has the most whimsical feel

What No-Maj career would/do you follow in life and why?

    I don’t as of yet have a clear plan, but I would like something in the sciences, maybe astronomy/biology based

What wizarding career would you like to follow and why?

    Kinda boring, but probably also an astronomer, space just really interests me

It’s summer break! What is your ideal way to spend it?

    Traveling somewhere new, but only for a week or two because I need lots of down time at home

Do you prefer to learn hard facts, or to think about abstract concepts?

     Hard facts are cool, but in the end abstract concepts are more interesting because you can have very open-ended conversations about them where you don’t really know the answers

You discover that a close friend of yours has been bullying someone. What do you do?

      Tell them they’re being a jerk, plain and simple.  They shouldn’t be okay with purposefully making someone else feel upset

What do you do when stressed?

     Drink tea. Lots and lots of tea

What do you do when angry?

    I usually take a walk to cool my head

What do you do when sad?

    Cry. Go on tumblr and look at dogs

What do you do when happy?

     When I’m happy I usually try to overload myself on things I enjoy, since everything is enjoyed just that much more when you’re in a good mood. I’ll listen to music, read, go out for ice cream, or go for a walk in a nearby park

What is your greatest fear?

     Failure, not because I fear letting myself down but because I feel like I’m letting down the people who care about me and know I can do better

What would Amortentia smell like to you?

     Crisp fall air, chocolate tea, and my grandmother’s perfume

*How do you spend your free time?

     Mainly wasting it on the internet, although “time you enjoy wasting is not wasted” (Marthe Troly-Curtin)

*What extracurriculars do/did you engage in?

    I play violin, take yoga classes. I also enjoy horseback riding and ice skating, but I haven’t done either in a while

*Which Ilvermorny House do you feel a strongest affinity to and why?

     Horned serpent because when I think about my sense of self, it is strongly attached to my intellect and the things I think about

I definitely think you’re right about your House: Horned Serpent all the way. As you said, logic is your go-to choice for decisions, so your Primary Cognition is Horned Serpent. Your dream jobs also say you’re a Serpent - they require lots of studying and use of the mind. Even your reasoning behind the abstract thoughts, which I personally usually associate with Pukwudgie and Thunderbird, is very Horned Serpent – you like being able to discuss things and think about them more deeply. That’s definitely a scholarly reasoning.

You do have some Wampus tendencies. Your wand is a wand of warriors. You’re very blunt, especially in that bullying scenario. However, these are few, and Horned Serpent would definitely be better. Heck, you gave me a quote for part of one of your answers. With the “who said it” tag. As silly as it may seem, that tells me Horned Serpent as well.

So yeah, definitely a Horned Serpent! Way to go!

~Prefect Selwyn

[whenispeakicrossmyfingers]

Hello happy Sunday! I am currently eating cookie butter out of the jar like the picture of health that I am. I also just told @stardustheartbeats that I was going to scroll through the internet until I got bored, and that took all of 20 minutes. And now since she left me to go do whatever it is that she’s doing, I’m left to suffer.

jk. BUT she did tag me in a thing so here we go:

Last Book You Loved? The last book that I really and truly fell in love with was TransAtlantic by Colum McCann. I had to read it for my Irish American Lit class and his style of writing was so poetic, and it just hit me at a time when I really needed it, and I thought it was incredible. 10/10 would recommend to anyone who likes Ireland and/or historical fiction. 

If you could build yourself a dream life, what would it look like? (where would you live, what would you be doing, who would be with you, etc) Have you seen About Time? That’s my dream life. Ideally I would like to live by the sea in the UK or Ireland (or elsewhere tbh but those are the ones that have always drawn me the most). Personally I want to be working in something involving children, books, and nonprofits, but I would happily take one of those three things if I couldn’t have them all. I would like to have a kind partner, someone who loves me and makes me laugh. Probably throw some adopted children in there, maybe a dog or a cat. Definitely a cow. I mostly just want to be happy and at peace.  

What’s the celebrity crush that you’ve had for the longest? The one I can think of is James McAvoy bc I’ve had a crush on him since Becoming Jane (and lowkey as Mr. Tumnus bc who doesn’t want to be served tea by a nice fire in Narnia). 

If you could bring back one TV show (not as a reboot, and it’s guaranteed to be good) what would it be? The Office. 

What is one place in the world that makes you feel at peace? It could be a city or just your backyard. The sea. Any sea really. The beach at White Strand in Tullycross, the digue in Wimereux that I visit every Tuesday, the harbor by the Oslo Opera House, the Gulf of Mexico in Sanibel Island, the random beach we went to in Mississippi after a service learning trip in New Orleans. Lake Michigan too, which is not a sea, but has offered countless days of joy with my family. 

If you had to go on an existing reality show, what would it be? Does Keeping Up with the Kardashians count? I’d probably go on their to see all their drama. Other than that I don’t really care about reality tv. 

Who is the person that you go to when you need to vent? My best friend Claire bc it’s usually about someone we both know, or some other aspect of my pitiful life that I just need to complain about. Also Caroline bc we’re in constant communication and half of our conversations are us complaining about shit. 

What is your favorite scent, and why? I love the smell of old books. It makes me feel extremely comforted (i probably should have listed libraries above in the peace section, oops). But it reminds me of going to the library as a kid and wandering in the stacks, bringing home about 8 books per week in the summer time. that’s probably my favorite. I also love rain (because who doesn’t) and the smell of cold air, because there’s a sharpness to it that is almost scary, but disappears when step inside. 

Spring, Summer, Winter, or Fall? Spring, forever. 

If you had to make a five-song spotify playlist that represents your life right now, what songs would be on it? uhhhhhhh why would you ask me this, this is so difficult. Let’s go with these: - America by Simon & Garfunkel - Run Away With Me by Carly Rae Jepsen - Mirrors by Niall Horan - Perfect by One Direction - Alone by Jessie Ware (I’ll have you know that this took me as long to decide as it took me to answer the rest of the questions on this thing)

What is the last thing that made you lose your breath laughing? I don’t know specifically what it was, but there were several times over my last trip where my best friend Claire and I would just be so tired and slap happy at like 3 pm and we’d be laying in bed and something dumb would happen and we would just giggle uncontrollably. It felt really really good. 

THANKS BABE LOVE YOU!

I’m tagging @siriuslyweasley, @flourishandblotted, @joyfulrachel, and @hiddenamongstars. 

My questions are: 

1. Nicest moment of 2018, so far.  2. Favorite place to be alone. 3. Dream vacation/travel scenario 4. One place that feels like home (besides home) 5. If you could transport yourself to another place (real or fictional) where would it be and why? 6. What album can you listen to on repeat without ever being tired of it? 7. What is something you just can’t get enough of?  8. Top five movies you would bring on a deserted island?  9. Describe your dream aesthetic.  10. If you could master a language and speak like a native in just 1 month, what language would you choose and why? 11. What mythical creature would you like to be and why?

[smokeybrandreviews]

Irreconcilable Differences

I touched upon this in my Knightmare Scenario post but there is a shift in how we, as moviegoers, consume film. The Wuha has shown us all that it’s not necessary to actually patron movie theaters to get our flick fix, that streaming services are a viable option for studios to release tent pole movies instead of in the major multiplex franchises. This sh*t could be a death knell for the entire theater industry and they’re lashing out violently. All of this stems from the fact that Trolls: World Tour did f*cking gangbusters on streaming and Universal, the studio attached to this corporate abortion of a film, mad about fur times the profit they would if it was released in cinemas. See, theaters pay for the license to screen films. To recoup that loss, they most of the ticket price. Some more powerful studios like Disney, can force a higher percentage for a shorter time. Maybe forty percent over opening weekend, but that’s it. Everything after that is all theaters until the Wuha f*cked that sh*t all up.

After Universal made more profit than any movie they have ever released, in the shortest amount of time they’ve ever run a film in theaters, they immediately altered their release schedule. They wanted to do dual release; Streaming and theatrical. Theaters, obviously, AMC specifically, we like f*ck all of that. People would definitely forgo the theater experience, with all of the sh*tty food, cramped spaces, and assholes disguised as patrons, to sit on their couch, in their draws, watching with people they actually like. There’s no way the theaters come back from that and, in a deluded effort to strong arm an industry that just realized they don’t even need their partnership, tried to strong arm Universal by boycotting their films. Okay. This sh*t lasted less than a week and the theaters came groveling back. I imagine there were some negotiations behind closed doors because, to give up four times the profit just to prop of a dying industry, ain’t something any business would do out of the kindness of their heart.

I like the simul-release model a ton. Don't get me wrong, i love the cinema. I love going to the theater, sitting in that AC eating my forty dollar hot dog, and taking in that big ass screen I love that whole experience and, before the Wuha f*cked it all up, i had planned to spend the entire summer in thee. I live down the street from the newest theater built in my area so they have all of the dope sh*t. More to the point, there re some films that absolutely must be seen on a theatrical screen. I cannot express to you how it felt to see Infinity War with a crowd of people. To experience the same emotions as hundreds of strangers was profound. After that film ended, the theater was dead silent. I saw that movie five times, with five different audiences, and the same silence followed each viewing. It was intense and there’s no way you get that on your couch, even is you have a streaming group showing. The experience is completely different. You don’t feel Pete getting dusted the same way you would with a proper audience. That energy is lost in home and you need it to fully experience a true blockbuster like that, properly.

A total shift toward streaming would do a disservice to filmmakers like Christopher Nolan, Denis Denis Villeneuve, Ridley Scott or Michael Bay. I hate Bay with a passion but i did watch a little bit of 6Underground and was profoundly underwhelmed. Bayhem needs the theater screen for it’s gratuitous levels of explosive, sexist, nonsense. It doesn’t work on a sensibly sized television. You’d lose too much of Scott's intimate detail and sweeping vista shots he loves to sprinkle in his films. Dude has a penchant for the nature porn and it is duly appreciated. Denis Villeneuve’s rich shot composition and breathtaking cinematography would fall flat if you’re first experiencing them in your f*cking living room. I should know. I actually have a fifty-two inch, 4k, UHD television and Blade Runner 2049 pales in comparison on my TV, to how I experienced it in theaters. Speaking of experience, anything Nolan makes would immediately be sh*t. His films need to be experienced in a theater, ideally IMAX. That’s how he shoots his films. You need that size. you need that overwhelming immersion. TeneT on the small screen will never compare to it on the screen it was shot for. You will never see that film the way its supposed to, if theaters are done in totally.

It’s not like only theaters see the benefit of a dual-release system. There area lot of great films that fester or languish in their runs because of they’re consumed by the Disney juggernaut or some Fast flick takes all of the screens. It took Ex Machina weeks after releases to make it into theaters out here because it was so niche. I waited for three weeks after the VVitch dropped and had to plead with a good friend of mine to get her manager just to screen it. Hell, Hereditary, one of the greatest performances i have ever seen captured on film, got to my theaters a week late and had only one screen in the basement. Thee were, like, fifty seats in there. Imagine if that thing had the buzz it did and dropped straight to Netlfix. Suspiria had a limited theatrical run and made it’s way to Amazon within months where it has had a pretty lucrative run so far. Imagine the shine it would have received if it had released there immediately instead of getting that niche nod in the actual theater. I mean, i saw all of these films in the cinema because that’s my thing but i can see why and how a streaming release strategy would benefit their visibility far more positively.

I think, though, this is more than anything, the establishment has the problem with this situation than anything. There is a system in place and no one wants to f*ck it up. Some of the best films i have ever seen were produced, funded, and released to streaming services. Beast of No Nation would have never been successful in theaters but it found life on Netflix. A Marriage Story is another film that i think would have floundered in the cinema. It’s an excellent film that as great performances and a very human tale that was overlooked by the Oscars because streaming isn’t seen as a medium viable for their highfalutin blessing over at the Academy. That sh*t smacks of stuffy, archaic, elitism and it’s a f*cking shame. It cheapens the Oscars and continuously proves that those awards are little more than an ego stroke for a dying Hollywood system. This streaming sh*t is a direct accusation at the old garb.

Recently, a film called The Lovebirds dropped on Netflix. It was supposed to release in theaters sometime this month but, since the Wuha has everything so f*cked up, it was sent directly to streaming where it has garnered an amount of success. With an African-American woman and a South Asian male as romantic leads, this probably wouldn't have flown all that well if it had a theatrical release. Considering it uses the fact that they are both brown as the reason for why they would run from the cops after a very obvious misunderstanding, kind of lends itself to me thinking this bad boy would have tanked with broader audiences. This thing’s home release, where certain individuals who might have a not-so-favorably a public stance on us darkies but secretly hate-love our stinky draws, could watch it without anyone knowing definitely contributed to that flick’s success. A success that may have eluded the movie if it was released theatrically because cats can’t be seen supporting certain films.

Movies that are driven by people of color not produced by that bojanglin’ Tyler Perry, flick that weave a small scale, human tale of frailty, lost love, and true emotion, or telling a proper, respectful LBGTQ love story, can thrive on streaming. These smaller, more actor driven, movies can side-step all of the political noise that goes along with such visible release dates, avoid conflict with mega-blockbusters, and be readily accessible for anyone curious about their pedigree while making the most money they can. Hell, why even exclude the big-budget fair? Cult films that did okay or even poorly in theaters, like Alita: Battle Angel, can get that big-budget sequel, drop on streaming, and turn a profit with a fraction of the viewership without having to worry about directly competing with an MCU Berserker or some sh*t. I would love to see Alita in theaters for a second round but, if the only way i can revisit this world theatrically would be on the small screen, i am okay with that. Everyone should be okay with that.

I think the people paying for these movie ARE okay with that. No one i spoke to had any issue with streaming a day-one release. No one I asked had a problem with checking out a summer blockbuster on their TV. We just need theaters and studios to be okay with it. We need theaters to accept the fact that they’re going to have to adjust what they show and how they show it. Studios are going to have to be okay with maybe missing a prestige award for a few years until streaming films become normalized. I think everyone wins in a duel-release scenario. We get more content. Studios can get back to taking risks and letting creators, create. Theaters have more screens to show the moneymakers. I like the position of cinema going in the future. I like the options. This is progress. This is growth. Now let’s just hope the divorce from the theater system isn’t as bloody in the end, as it was in the beginning.

[sapphoesie]

11 Questions Tag - Part II

This was so long I had to split it up but thank you so much for everyone who tagged me: @tragically-broken @lronteeth @fiery-feyre

1. When you’re sad what makes you feel better? Reading and forgetting about my worries for a while or alternatively journaling and wallowing in self pity for a while. Tea also helps. 2. When was the last time someone told you they love you? I can’t really remember tbh… I don’t find it easy to say I love you to people and I guess I don’t often hear it either (how depressing 😂) 3. Have you ever lost a friend? Why? As much as I wish it wasn’t true, moving away from people definitely makes you grow apart and I’ve moved around all my life. With most people I usually still keep in touch, even though we’re not as good friends as we used to be but unfortunately with others I don’t really talk anymore 4. Would you rather have a lot of friends or a few close friends? A few close friends. 5. Have you ever been drunk before, and was the experience good or bad? I’ve been drunk and it’s usually good drunk but I’ve been bad drunk before. Crying in the club bathroom cause the Independent Woman part of your brain is too drunk to function and the Clingy Mess takes over and wants to drunk text your ex and tell him she misses him, or ‘why did I keep drinking the weird shots of different mixes of alcohol my friend kept handing me omg I’m going to throw up the entire contents of my stomach’ (those were just hypothetical scenarios, of course). But mostly it’s just laughs and fun times… 6. Have you ever been in love? No. 7. What makes you feel the most alive? Crying, I guess. It sounds weird but both good crying and bad crying to me are moments when I simply can’t contain my emotions (happiness, sadness, fear, anger) and I have to let them out and all of those extreme emotions are a good reminder that I’m alive. 8. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? Just one? 😂 I guess I’d make myself be as kind to myself as I am to others… 9. Have you ever wanted to shave your head? YES! So many times. I’m not emotionally attached to my hair at all and I’ve chopped it to a bob from waist long hair a few times before or dyed it weird colours so I definitely wouldn’t mind doing it. I think I could rock a buzzcut. 10. Do you have any tattoos? Nope. 11. If you could do anything right now what would it be? Go outside alone and explore the city at night (haha the joys of being a woman!)

1) Which event in history you’d want to witness if you could time travel? The moment when women got the right to vote. I love reading about the suffragette movement. Or the watergate scandal (this is the journalist in me talking 😂) 2) How did you meet your best friend? We moved in together without knowing each other. 3) If you can be invisible for a day, what would you do? TRAVEL! Get on a plane incognito and travel but I guess I’d have to find my way back home before the 24h are up 4) Your first kiss story I was about 13, I felt like I was the last one to have my first kiss but I definitely wasn’t and even if I had been there wouldn’t have been anything wrong with that but I was young and stupid. It was with a dude from summer camp, we had been flirting (or as much as 13yo can flirt), he had some tic tacs and we had a running joke where he would ask me if I wanted one and then open his mouth and stick his tongue with the tic tac out and say ‘come and take it’ and the best thing 13yo me could come up with was ‘maybe I will’ and then do nothing about it. Anyway, late at night he walks me to my room, we say goodbye, I go change into my pyjamas, and get ready for bed, he knocks on the door again and when I open it he says something silly like ‘about those tic tacs…’ and then kisses me. It was very average. A lot more tongue than young innocent Bianca was expecting, and my roommate was awkwardly shuffling around the room while we kissed for a good few seconds in the doorframe with the door wide open. The next day he was flirting with me again but also with one of my friends who didn’t know I liked him. I told her that I was upset and she apologised and we proceeded to lock ourselves into a room and cry (i don’t even know, don’t ask) and the guy was sat outside the door listening to the whole conversation. Camp ended the next day and I never spoke to the dude again but randomly saw him at a couple of parties and we both refused to acknowledge each other. 5) Most embarrassing memory I have so many that I literally can’t even remember, I just block them from my brain. A random one however is when this guy stopped me on the street and started chatting with me and at one point he goes ‘sooo… how are you?’ and I didn’t hear him properly and just blurted out ‘I’m 17!’ (fun fact I was 18 at the time so I didn’t even tell him the right age…)  6) Best 3 books you’ve read this year Lord of Shadows, ACOWAR and Six of Crows 7) Worst 3 books you’ve read this year The Infinite Sea by Rick Yancey,  The Ship by Antonia Honeywell and Love in the time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez 8) Make your basketball team out of book characters Pretty much every fae male SJMaas has ever written + Aelin, Mor and possibly Lysandra who can shapeshift herself to be really tall. 9) Book trope you hate Cringy ‘but omg I can’t choose I love them both’ love triangles or Insta Love with no real reasoning behind it 10) Describe your style a mix of French and British inspired styles. Really simple classic pieces and overall ‘really put together but I didn’t even try’ except I totally did

1. Are narwhals the Jedi or Unicorns of the sea to you? Unicorns. If their horns retracted and glowed and made fancy swish noises they’d be jedi 2. Cats or dogs? BOTH! 3. Favorite fruit? Pomegranates! Watermelon and avocado are in second place 4. Favorite TV show? Friends, Parks and Recreation, the Office, Game of Thrones 5. Headphones or earbuds? earbuds 6. Favorite animal? Owls 7. Favorite Disney song? I won’t say I’m in love from Hercules, I’ll make a man out of you from Mulan, Part of Your World/Kiss the Girl from the Little Mermaid. 8. Favorite cartoon from your childhood? Totally Spies. Does anyone remember that? I used to be obsessed with it. And W.I.T.C.H. 9. Apple or Android? Apple. 10. PlayStation or Xbox? I don’t really know much but my best friend has the cool Xbox Kinect thingie so Xbox 11. Do you like trains or planes better? Planes

I tag: @rhysthehighlord @runesandfaes @igniscorde7112 @peregrynn @red-queen-em-for-a-dream 

1. What’s the last song you listened to? 2. What was your favourite book when you were little? 3. What language do you wish you were fluent in? 4. What’s your favourite season and time of the day? 5. If you had to pick one of your top 5 favourite books and never be able to read that book again, which one would you pick? 6. What’s a quote/song lyric you really like? 7. Which 4 fictional characters would you go on a roadtrip with? 8. Favourite ice cream flavour? 9. Would you rather get stuck in a lift for one hour or get stuck on a balcony really high up for one hour? 10. If you could hop on a plane and go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go? 11. What’s your ideal date?

[crookedlovestory]

11 Questions

RULES: 1. Always post the rules 
2. Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you 
3. Write 11 questions of your own 
4. Tag 11 people I was tagged by @turqouiseorange!!!! and literally when i got the notif/opened the post my face was a combo of these: 😱/😍 i was literally so happy and excited, apparently the way to my heart is a simple ask game tag ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who knew? Kai's questions and my answers: 1. What is your ideal future? good lord this is hard. i honestly think something like what dnp have, not to be cheesy. not necessarily a romantic relationship, although i'm not 100% against it. but some sort of domestic partnership. also probably at least 30 dogs and cats. and a bunch of dead houseplants. and maybe i'll feel less lost and more like my life has meaning. 2. What is one goal you want to accomplish within the next year? self love. i'm working on it and i've definitely improved a lot, but it's hard work to learn to love yourself when you've spent your whole life having society tell you you're not good enough. i want to be good enough for me. 3. What fictional character do you think resembles you the most, and why? i think honestly tina belcher fully encompasses me as a human. she tries so hard to love herself. she has all these underrated one-liners that are so funny and go so unappreciated. she's very determined, even when it seems her awkwardness and clumsiness will get in her way. she's a lil boy-crazy, but the second a guy treats her like shit, she's not taking any of it. i've adopted a lot of her nervous tics (laying on the floor, moaning, hyperventilating), i just realized that i cut my hair the same way she does (sans bangs), and i used to write friend-fiction. we're literally the same person. i'm not kidding. 4. What type of music do you like to listen to in order to make you feel better? sometimes i start with a sad playlist and cry for a while, usually a live rendition of all too well or the ep version of sick of losing soulmates. then. when i'm truly ready to feel better i'll take a shower and put on my current shower playlist which usually consists of a combo of my newest discoveries (currently linkin park's new album, bea miller, and darren criss' ep) and some old disney and broadway music. then i'll take a drive and listen to the entirety of the 1975's i like it when you sleep album. by the. i usually feel better. 5. What was your favorite T.V show when you were growing up? hannah montana was my shit. also lizzie mcguire. oh, kim possible!! i wanted to be her so bad. i wanted a naked mole rat, ron and kim were my first otp, i was convinced that i would wear a dress just like hers in so the drama to my senior prom. she was so cool. 6. What was your first introduction to social media? How long ago was that? okay i know this doesn't technically count as social media but the memory i have most vividly in my mind is of my first gmail account. my mom didn't really let me on the internet (except to play that kim possible flash game on disneychannel.com with rufus where you had to make burritos and stuff at bueno nacho). it was the summer before 5th grade and i was at my dad's house all summer. i went to my best friend's house every day and we would take turns on her dad's computer, but she was always checking her email and i was just playing on pollypocket.com like a total 4th grader. long story short, she convinced me to make a gmail account, i had loads of fun emailing my friends all summer, then i went home and of course my mother the Professional HoverMom™ had somehow found out and was pissed. the end 7. If you could have any animal in the world as your pet, what would it be and why? A FOX BC HAVE YOU SEEN THEM. SO FLUFF. MUCH CUTE. THEY'RE SO BOUNCY. AND SOFT. AND SMART. I WANT ONE SO BAD. 8. What is the most important thing to you right now? i have no idea. who knew this question would be the hardest one? i think i'll have to say myself. i'm working so hard on me right now. i want to love myself unconditionally, and i want to be the person that i want to be. and i have to be the most important thing to me. before i can help others or love others or expect others to love me, i have to help and love myself. 9. Is there someone or something that has dramatically changed your life? the first thing that came to mind was @inspiredfortomorrow. he just helped me through some really hard times, and he taught me so much about life and self care, and i honestly don't know where i'd be without him. 10. What is your favorite time of the year, and why? fall. it's so romantic. there's that feeling of nostalgia in the air, sweaters and boots and apple cider and hayrides and carving pumpkins and football games. thanksgiving and fireplaces and leaves falling and walmart (is that just me). fall is everything to me. 11. What is your favorite type of drink, and what is the ideal scenario you’d have it in? i love tea. it's so calming. i have really bad anxiety, and while i wouldn't necessarily say that an anxiety attack is ideal, i love how peppermint tea makes my anxiety melt away. i just wrap myself up in a special blanket, grab teddy bear, and brew a cup in my favorite mug. it has healing powers, it's magical. My Questions: 1. what tv show are you currently bingeing? who are your favorite characters? 2. what is your guilty pleasure? 3. what's your biggest character flaw? 4. did you have an imaginary friend as a kid? what were they like? what was their name? 5. if you could tell your past self anything, what would it be? 6. what's your favorite flower? why? 7. recommend one of your favorite books. what is it about? why do you recommend it? 8. what is a quote that has resonated with you? why is it important to you? 9. what's your favorite emoji? 10. what's the weirdest dream you've ever had? 11. which planet is your favorite and why? thanks again for tagging me, Kai!! i tag @inspiredfortomorrow @otp-is-at-it-again @noitsydney @light-176 @herenye35 @captain-tsoni @elliottisaboy @21shadesofbree @hoechles-freckles @curiousadventure13 & @benefitcucumberbatch feel free to ignore this if you don't feel like doing it, but if you do, please tag me so i can read your answers!!!

[nirtonic]

You get all numbers divisible by 12.

12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better?

What is their favorite weather, And what would they ideally they do during days dominated by it?

It has lots of room for personal philosophizing, or stories from their past, Or ideas for future hang outs

24: Cats or dogs?

Both! I love these cute puppies puppies puppies kitties kitties kitties.

I am most like dogs though.

36: My current obsession?

Uhm. a few things, Theater and my ideas for productions I want to design, the Warhammer Fantasy Battle universe [Before the travesty that is End Times of course] And a few thought experiments I’ve developed over the years, Mainly dealing with How humans would scavenge useful material from our modern buildings and materials given various stressful scenarios.

48: Top 5 blog on Tumblr that I follow?

Aw shucks. I don’t have a *top* five, but here are some blogs that make me smile/learn something/think every time I see them on my dash oneorangeshoelace thatsthats24 markiplier owlturdcomix iguanamouth

60: Pet peeve?

A pet peeve that I have is when People go “mmmhm, Yeah, Yes” and stuff like that a BUNCH t in the middle of when I’m talking. It causes me to re-organize my thoughts each time, Cause when people talk when I am talking I try to see if they need me to stop talking for one reason or another. It’s only really annoying when I’m in a workshop or need to talk out an idea in its entirety.

72: If I won the lottery, what would I do?

#1 pay off my student loans #2 Pay off my brother’s Student Loans. #3 give half to my parents #4 pay off my friend’s student loans #5 utilize the remainder to stabilize my financial situation, and support my dream of developing Neurodiverse Activism tools, Devised Theater and art.

84: Story behind one of my scars?

Content Warning! graphic recount of injury!

I have two scars on either side of my right knee. The first weekend of summer after 5th grade saw me playing in a park with my cousins. When my uncle left with Two of them to go to the bathroom I climbed up a tree, using a bike as the first step up. At about 25~30 feet up the tree a branch broke. I fell, ping-ponging off the branches till the very bottom, where I hit the last one right in the middle of my right thigh from behind. My Femur snapped and I dig A weird tumbly backflip, Hit my bike and then face planted. I then stood up. Luckily, My uncle had sprinted across the park, picked my up and layed me down before I stepped onto my right leg. The two scars are from the rods they used to hold my femur together! I Still have them somewhere, they look like curved knitting needles.

96: Can I cook?

Hahah, Not really.

108: Favourite Youtuber?

Zisteau! Closely followed by Vechs, Guude, Etho, Vintagebeef, Heirofcarthage, MilkandcookiesTW Gamegrumps and a few others

120: Am I much of a daredevil?

Yes, Quite so in my childhood, Less so now. I have a poor sense of self preservation when it comes to high intensity physical activities. Luckily, this does not hold true when skiing. I am careful now-a-days with skiing. Most of my daredevilness is on foot, walking around, jumping around, running around. Never with a vehicle.

132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district?

I’ve always assumed Hufflepuff or gryffindor / no idea / I live in the rockies near the capitol’s apparent place so… Maybe there I guess?

144: Have I ever been on a plane?

Quite often! But never one larger than those little single hallway ones. I’ve never been on a 747, airbus or what ever.

156: My most embarrassing memory?

Sorry, Not sharing the embarrassing. No idea which of the dozens I have.

168: Have I ever been on TV?

I do not think I have been.

180: Do I like shopping?

Well enough. I REALLY like shopping for books, Boardgames, Tabletop RPG’s, Videogames, Legos and Milsurp

191: What makes me the happiest?

I do not have one single answer for this. But being outside. Experiencing weather close to nature. I love feeling the world move around me as it exists in it’s own wills. I gt uncomfortable in areas dominated by humanity, Like big cities. I gt so anxious about the press of humanity. So the reverse is my good place. Especially in Blizzards and massive snow storms.

[whoops, Messed up and grabbed 191. I’ll keep it though since I like the answer]

192: What is “home” to me?

Close to the before, I am most comfortable in smaller towns that are connected to the big world through tourism. I need nature in my life, and thrive in the mountains. “Home” Includes quiet spaces and loved ones to share them with.

204: Have I ever had my heart broken?

Yes. By my own actions has my heart been broken, my fault in the prime.

216: Favourite fictional character?

Golly… here are a few instead of one. Master Chief Petty Officer John 117, All of the fellowship of the ring, Rincewind, Moist Von Lipwig, Vimes, Carrot, Angua, John Egbert, Rose Lalonde, Dave Strider, Jade Harley, Nepeta, Karkat, Karl Franz, Mark Watney, Elric Brothers… I’ll stop now.