#a bladeless knife with no handle

[stoppit-keepout]

[Image is a screenshot of text reading: The great Persian poet Hafez wrote, "Start seeing everything as God, but keep it a secret." I still have no idea what I mean when I say God, but I see it everywhere. I mean it intensely. I write poems and, yes, books about it. I read about it constantly, which seems, counterintuitively, to only deepen its secret. Close your eyes. Imagine in your head a bladeless knife with no handle. Do you see how the image recedes from view the more language I add to it? A bladeless knife. With no handle.]

written by kaveh akbar

[madmonksandmaenads]

Are you one of them horny gnostics what actually doctrinally love sex? the sarcophiles or whatever? sarcocrats? carco- look google is unhelpful I apologize.

The word you're looking for is Carpocratians the followers of Carpocrates, sometimes also called Libertine Gnostics. To answer the question....uuuuuuhhhh.... I am the kind of Gnostic who all the other Gnostics would be mad about being in the same poorly defined theological box as me. I think I could hang with the Hermetics though.

[polyphonetic]

I'm a Barbie bara

In Barbie Samara

With Ken in saunas

We practice Dhyanas

I'm covered in hair

most certainly a bear, oh

boy's love fusion, let go of illusions

[forlorngarden]

angel what are you doing on a drainpipe

[rustbeltbabey]

a bladeless knife with no handle. a bladeless knife!!!! with no handle!!!!!

[bakedbananners]

link to the full essay because I think about it constantly

start seeing everything as God, but keep it a secret

[ceratinus]

I'm like if a bladeless knife with no handle was a girl

[sunsetsover]

i wish i wasn't so exhausted because i want nothing more than to sit here and properly pick apart the inherent but unconventional ways their dom/sub dynamic presents itself between kant and bison. bc it's definitely always been there esp in these last few episodes but in episode 10 it was in everything. everything.

the pool scene was obvious. i already pulled that apart. but it was also in the way kant's reaction to being told off for being distracting during the mission was so different from the way bison reacted when kant told him off - bison basically looks like he's indulging a pouting child, while kant's face drops and he gets all sad looking. and it's in how different their reactions were to the being distracted too, how kant whined about how bison had promised not to distracted while bison firmly tells kant off for even trying.

and it's in how pissed and hurt kant when he finally saw bison in that car park - imo not so much because bison had told him they needed to stay away from each other, but because bison had been sneaking around watching kant when kant had no way of seeing bison or knowing he was alright at all, and that was so unfair to him, because that's not how it was supposed to work between them. they had just found their equilibrium and here bison was knocking it off kilter by giving and receiving while simultaneously withholding kant's ability to give and receive back. and that's not how they were supposed to work.

and it's in how silly kant was. how rambly and cute when he talked about the titanic experiment he saw or when he tried to get bison to reenact the king of the world scene. but also the way kant was just a brat the entire episode - going kinda rogue while on mission and mentioning the narc thing when he knows it pisses bison off and constantly pushing and pushing and pushing bison to find where the line is where bison will stop indulging him and start reprimanding him.

and it's the way bison does reprimand him and how kant listens. and it's in the way kant's eyes got all big and pleading when bison got all pissy and asked him if he wanted another scratch - and dare i say that and the pool scene were the first real little glimpses we see of what kant's like in actual subspace. and it's in the way you see bison notice that and realise kant's reacting positively, and how he reacts to that reaction with clear desire, but also decides to store that info away as opposed to acting on it bc it's not the time or place.

and most of all it's in kant asking bison to teach him to be like him. in kant handing himself over to bison the assassin and going 'use me. please please make use of me. mould me into a weapon you can wield.' and bison refusing to do that. refusing to make a killer of the boy he loves. in bison knowing kant's limit when kant doesn't and not crossing it. of protecting him from himself. but also making use of him anyway. knowing kant well enough to know that that's what he needed. to be used. because being used is being useful, and being useful is what kant has learned will have him kept around. and bc right now they don't have the time or spare energy to start unpicking that knot, bison meets it where it is: he finds uses for kant while also doing everything he possibly can to give kant agency and control: you don't have to do this. i can take it from here. will you help me with one more thing?

i know i've missed so much that i will kick myself for later. i also know this is incoherent. i've got maybe 10 hours of sleep in the past week. but i can't stop thinking about this fucking dynamic. it's so unique and yet so well defined in what it is. and i know the people that don't get that dynamic won't get what i'm trying to point at with this post. and tbh i get it! as obvious as it is there's also something elusive about it! it reminds me of that kaveh akbar quote where he's says trying to describe god is like trying to imagine a bladeless knife with no handle. the more language you try to put to kant and bison's dynamic, the more it recedes from view.

[owlyfisher]

do you see how the image recedes from view the more language i add to it...

Just saw a pigeon walking around with no head

[transgenderer]

i didnt know "a dickless cock with no balls" was a reference to "a bladeless knife with no handle". i thought it was jsut a beautiful idea

[sexhaver]

i think part of the reason im an atheist is that my aphantasia makes me completely immune to the metaphors and arguments religious/spiritual people sometimes make. jorge luis borges said that he believed in god because he could close his eyes and picture a flock of birds, and even though he obviously couldn't count them, their number was still finite, and God knows that number. cool logic but you lost me at the step where you close your eyes and see anything except black. or i just saw a post talking about how God is something secret that recedes as you define it: "close your eyes and envision a bladeless knife with no handle. notice how the image fades from existence as i describe it more?" nope, never saw an image to begin with, sorry

[welcometothewarren]

Tinnitus is a variety of sound that is heard when no corresponding external sound is present.

i hear something holy in the whining and whinnying of tinnitus. like god is tonguing my ear between the waves of a sound that isn't there, like the echo and the oscillation of an immaterial bell is calling me home, like like like like this repetitive nothing really is something, like this sound i found in the absence of sound is putting a knife in my hand, like the knife in my hand is a bladeless knife with no handle. like the closer i get to absence the closer i get to you you you you. like it is a common occurrence. like waking every morning to clear the blood from my ruptured ear is a fair price to pay for your whispering, too close, too close, and never enough. like the jaw dislocated in sleep is the natural consequence of trying to match your volume. my head is ringing. does it make sense? can you make it make sense?

clear as a bell.

[oysterie]

A bladeless knife with no handle friday give it up for a bladeless knife with no handle

[callistocity]

a bladeless knife with no handle

[xalatath]

I hate that tailless whip scorpion is the most common colloquial name for amblypygi, because it's litwrally like saying a bladeless knife with no handle. If it's a tailless whip scorpion then it's just a scorpion, which isn't true. And they don't even look like whip scorpions at all. We need to find something better.