#a backround??? in my art??? that's mental

[koszmarnybudyn]

Idk what to say dudes. Please notice all the clothes details cause those were very nice to do :)

I finally drew hermie 2.0 and i decided he gets visible eyes cause he's not a joke anymore but more an algamation of all the teens memories and gets to be a vaguely normal teen now.

[possibly-pasta]

i have taken an indica and a sativa gummie. let’s see what happens folks. kind of worst and best case scenario is i fall sleep and get a nice nights rest.

[lorrainailurophile]

IMPORTANT

I know of the accusations against me, and I am here to speak up about the proof they showed and talk about each one.

1.

The expressions i put on my OC are just expressions and faces that fit her in the scenerio shes in. For example, in this context, she was talking creepily. This face is somewhat used a lot when talking creepily. So that's what I did...same goes to the ":<" face, i just draw what i think fits her.

2.

Its hard for me to explain this one, but still. I made Muri when i was at my lowest, I remember being super hyperfixtated on Ranfren to the point i was a little delusional, to save my own mental health i made a self insert, aka Muri. The main reason she looks similar to the other character without a costume, is because Muri is basically wearing what i wear (which is a style a lot of people wear). And the hair is very different from both Murderer and Carpet Kitty's. (If you want more explanation on this one please ask)

3.

Heavily inspired, not copied. I do not even think of copying people. But what i can admit is that yes, it is inspired.

4.

Its a standing pose, standing poses look similar when compared, but still, here is my speed paint. (Recording of my tablet since i cant download it)

And for the stray version, Muri is supposed to look messy, since when she was a stray, she lived in the woods. She had resources of her own. And she wasnt a catman.

5.

I already explained this one, the backround Daisensekai used is an offcial Ranfren art, and i just so happened to redraw it as a backround to my video.

6.

???? I dont know if i need to explain it but i still will. When i firstly thought of naming Muri, i thought or all kinds of names. I started thinking of the name Mary, but thought it was too basic, then i thought of Mari, but someone already had that. So i made my own name for her. Muri.

I hope i cleared up everything, if anyone is still curious or did not understand something, please do tell + for @sweetswirlybread you're a fucking weirdo for drawing what you have drawn and talking like that to good people who YOU DONT EVEN KNOW. Please get off of Tumblr and never come back

[that-dumbass-rabbit]

Was bored so I did this

Since my handwriting isn't perfect I'm putting just the handwritten parts here (also lore :0)

-----General

Name: Clover

Ethnicity: Bnuuy

Birthday/age: secrets

Gender: girl

Sun/moon/rising: I/D/K

Colors, associations, symbols: dresses, bows, bunny, necklace

-----Physique

Height: 5'3"

Weight: 110lbs

Misc: size 7 shoe

Markings: patches on L side

Conditions: Clumsy

-----Mental & Personality

Mbti: esfj-a

Type (Abcd): a or c

-----interpersonal

Sexual/romantic leanings: aro/ace spectrum

-----morals and beliefs

Spirituality: she doesn't know (she wasn't raised with any sort of beliefs so she never really thought about it)

-----interest and ambition

Creativity: visual art, inventing things to make her daily life easier

Entertainment: exploring and going into town

Athletics: exploring and farming

Occupation: existence and comfortable survival (she currently lives in nature, think Allegheny national forest in Pennsylvania or lynx prarie in Ohio. She lives off the land which is basically a full time job)

Ambitions: do everything, learn (explore and learn new skills, combine skills to make cool new stuff, have experiences and make memories)

-----Backround

Coming soon...

Lore drop real???

[vasiliquemort]

Heyo! How do you make all the jewlery so detailed??? Its absolutely amazing!!! With most art, zooming in seems to distort fine detailed but with yours I can see all the fine details no problem. Especially with beads and filigree. I also saw your new profile pic and I love the gold and the backround is FANTASTIC!! Your ability to make such finely detailed art is like nothing else I've seen. (The screenshots are what I'm talking about detail wise) Amazing art as always and those dragon age commissions are a godsend of cool. 😁

*Gasps loudly and runs towards*

Tis is you! It is so nice to see you again - how have you been? Was everything allright? o/////o

And thank you so much for your patience - I was still and lost for lots of days yet thought about this message day and night and lived pretty much in shame that has no ends<ззз

The jewelry! o////o Those arts, specifically for Secunda (as I made so much redone parts that still in my folders only as I felt deep unrest to post them as they could be redone in so much places again and again o/////o) are outdated to my heart and eye and I see so much missed opportunities, yet still thankful for experiencing them in my life, too<зз Tis is fullfilling at some moment - as doing art is frustrating and requires patiences of all wills, and it is mostly all about trusting your processes, doing in deep aching details part by part until, at some uncertain point, it start to bloom and you get satisfied - or start to redo them over again.

The shameful part of me is that sometimes I reuse same details in different drawings - the one that are for my heart yet require too much time and effort and mental health to create, and sometimes in colder times when colors are brief I just create separate assets to use when inspiration is too bright to last for long, as I do not really believe in inspiration as rather into pure and dark frustration of creation o////o

...Oh, and still I adored those arts for Dragon age, too, because they all were created for the most delightful and lovely people!озо

But do you know who else is delightful and lovely and just wonderful in every way?;зз You are, for the most certain!<ззз

[expiredcosmonaut]

Hi!! Im taking commissions!!

I recently lost my job and i cant pay my rent. I own rent next month!!

I have activly looking for a job but it is hard due to my mental and physical health.

Any little bit will help and any reshares are greatly appreciated!!! Thank you again!!!

Also if you wish to donate my Paypal is Dictatorram/thewhitehawk0128@gmail.com

And my Venmo is

Delusionalboar!! Thank you again!!!

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Dimitri’s Commission prices!!

Rough sketch

-Bust: $2

-Half body: $4

-Full Body: $6

Clean Sketch

-Bust: $4

-Half Body: $6

-Full Body: $8

Flat Colors

-Bust: $6

-Half Body: $8

-Full Body: $10

Full color + Shading

-Bust: $8

-Half Body: $10

-Full Body: $15

Character Sheets

-Half Body: $25

-Full Body: $30

Other

-Adding An Character:

$1-$5

-Basic backround: $2

-Softcore nsfw (depends ask pls)

Will NOT Draw!!

-Furries

-Hardcore Nsfw (Adults or minors)

-Mecha

-Complex Backrounds

-Hate art & racist Art

-Realism

Will Draw!!

-Softcore Nsfw

-Ships

-Real People

-Ocs

-Fanart

Art Examples Below!!!

[writingonesdreams]

Hello, hello, and happy wbw to you, Dreams ^^ I hope you're having a lovely one.

I know world building isn't your favorite part of the writing process, and I know you don't go into Tolkien levels of detail with it, so I was curious as to how you decided to go about fleshing out the world for Sky of Shards/Tears of Iron? What did you start with and how did you decide what needed to be known, what could be left up to the imagination, and what was touched on but not delved into particularly deeply? Did anything come up that you hadn't planned on building out? Or did you end up not needing to build out apart of the world that you had thought you would have to build? Do you think you'll have more world building to add in the future or do you feel like the setting itself is mostly complete?

I always flash out the parts of the world I'm interesting in and that play a role in the story itself. If I flash out things that aren't relevant, I tend to push myself into a corner and feel trapped and frustrated with the whole thing. Better not to develop and write out rules that I don't need and that feel limiting about that aspect, when I do end up needing it.

Aspects I focused on in Tears of Iron world:

Magic system

Culture around the magic system (something that's dying out, limited to the lucky and wealthy ones who can afford to pursue it even though it's such a common phenomenon among people)

The connection between magic and emotional state or more commonly the magical block that's usually connected to emotional/mental block

The consciousness and backstory of the Flying Islands

Dragons, their culture and emphasis on telepathy

Certain important settings like the Academy, Sea of Stars, The Moving Mountains etc

The scifi tech only to the degree to have available technology to grow plants and food independently of contact with earth underneath (my biggest unreasonable fear about worldbuilding is where do they get their food and how do I make it so they can do it on their own without spending too much time and effort doing it XD)

The animal and plant spirits, specters and fairies on the Islands (though I still need to flesh those out in that ask from you...but then again I don't really want to make out rules before I get to writing them and see what I need for the story)

Then again I'm also discovering more and more my appreciation for slice of life stories that don't bother with PLOT or WORLD at all (and that most writing guides and books I read don't teach you the kind of stories I want to read, but they actually do exist!) and how amazing and deeply satisfying for me it is. And that I need to train myself to write those scenes I crave more (but also talking about those cravings helped me realize what I want and that I can probably just...look for that actively irl too lol. I'm trying to fill a well with fantasy water, when the river is right around the corner, I just need to grit my teeth against the cold unknown stream).

I think at this point the fantasy is there only for the metaphorical meanings (what mind magic, Art, aural magic and all the culture stuff around it is for, the Islands), and for some of the cool stuff/imagineries like the Sea of Stars, planes, fairies. I could add more for the scifi feel I guess, the futurism and the comfort it promises fascinates me. And I think I take solace from fantasy and what differences it offers to real life, cause I still don't dare/feel uncomfortable writing about modern urban settings for unknown reasons. The magical element gives it the distance and the dissonance I need, so it doesn't get too personal but also let's me write directly from real life inspired emotions.

I also think fantasy settings give the author the opportunity to create all the context and backround cultural feelings and meanings that are otherwise set by the modern world and the backround of the reader. The suspension of disbelief in fantasy world allows for more openness for the reader and more freedom for the author to built it on their own terms. What do you think?

I would like to make the mundane things interesting, to show them in their full dramatic importance, to make it all about relationships and emotional responses. I think this actually requires more skill than writing the big dramatically deaths and world saving fight scenes and gory bloody killings and monster fights and whatnot. And I can't do it to satisfactory level for myself yet. XD I rely on the over dramatic and deadly stakes too much still, it comes easier, why only does it come easier?

So yeah I don't expect to be needing more worldbuilding. XD I just wish I could write realistic stories without the fear of someone I respect telling me it's not realistic and only shows how young and inexperienced I am. XD Which hits me more now, since I'm more aware of all the cultural webs and social relationships around me cause of my studies.

Anyway, thanks for the question Ren :D I really appreciate the effort you put into making them interesting for me. <3

[cumbercookiebatchs]

The ride home is silent, some pop song plays in the backround, but the volume is low enough that the lyrics are barely recognizable.

Grantaire has his sight fixed on the road, and Enjolras' pouting, looking through the window in the passenger seat.

They're coming home from a gallery Grantaire's art teacher put together with the best of his student's works. Enjolras was swelling with pride all the way to the gallery, "My boyfriend's a famous artist!" and Grantaire couldn't help but to kiss his boyfriend.

Of course, something had to happen. Enjolras knows that he doesn't own Grantaire, they're both their own person, that decided they fit better together. Yet Enjolras can't help but feeling sick of his stomach everytime his boyfriend gets a lot of attention from certain people.

They stop at a red light, and Enjolras checks his phone. They still have a good twenty something minutes until they get home, and as angry as he may feel, it's hard being mad when Grantaire is giving him small looks everytime can, too scared to say anything.

The lights are still red, and the silence grows heavier.

"Enjolras?" Grantaire sighs.

Silence.

"Enjolras, talk to me. Did something happen at the gallery?"

Enjolras chokes a sarcastic laugh, something did happen at the gallery, and half of him is ready to go mental on Grantaire, but his other half --more rational one-- is slightly embarassed of the reason he's so ticked off.

" 'M fine." He whispers.

"What?"

"I said I'm fine." Enjolras whines and finally looks at his concerned boyfriend. He feels bad.

Grantaire gives him an unconvinced look, and just then, the lights turn green. "Okay."

He doesn't push, and there's silence once again.

Enjolras doesn't stand the silence much longer. "People sure like you."

He regrets that sentence as soon as he says it outloud, he regrets the sour tone, and what he implies.

"Excuse me?"

He breathes now, thinking through how he's going to answer to Grantaire. "I--" and he whines again, "to hell with that. I'm jealous, very. And I don't like it."

"You're--"

"I'm not done, Grantaire!" And he knows he sound like he's throwing a temper tantrum --which he probably is--. "I trust you. This is not like a trust issue because I know you wouldn't-- ever... But I don't like it when people look at you like the girl with the green dress or the man with the suit. And I surely don't like it  when they start flirting with you and you laugh."

Enjolras cheeks are red with embarassment, and he had his sight set on his feet.

Grantaire doesn't say anything, but he reaches for Enjolras hand and after clasping them together, he kisses it. He pulls over into their apartment's parking lot, and they exit the car.

They enter their apartment, and Grantaire guides his boyfriend to the couch, then, he kisses Enjolras sweetly.

"You have nothing to be jealous about."

His boyfriend pouts. "I know, it's stupid, I'm stupid."

"No, you're not." Grantaire presses their foreheads together. "Here between us, I also get realy jealous."

Enjolras frowns. "Why?"

"Have you looked yourself in a mirror? Have you seen how other people look at you?"

"Right back at you." Enjolras chuckles.

Grantaire smiles. "It's hard, believe me. But everytime I feel like that I remember something a tiny yellow birdie told me."

Enjolras feels himself grow pink, he knows where this is going. "What?"

"That he chose me. And that he would choose again and again."

"That's true, I would."

"This also applies to you. Enjolras, I chose you, and would choose you again, and again, and again--"

"Okay, I get it!" Enjolras laughs, and the tight feeling on his chest is almost gone.

Grantaire closes the distance between them once again. "I am yours, and if you allow it, I'd want you to be mine."

Enjolras nods, looking at Grantaire with such adoration. He loves him so.

"I am so undeniably yours."

Grantaire's eyes darken, and he pulls Enjolras into his lap. "My, my, I would love a demonstration."

Enjolras smirks, "And how would that make that up to me?"

Grantaire pins Enjolras down on the couch and starts kissing down his neck, before suddenly stopping. "I can make dinner." He smiles mischievously and stands up, leaving Enjolras laying on the couch.

"Grantaire!" His boyfriend shouts before chasing him down the hall.

Ooooooooooh I love you 🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍😍😍

[cloudbxrry]

hello, and welcome to my blog! You can see some of my info in the blog description, but this is for rules and additional information. If you do not agree with the rules here, you can leave.

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A BIT ABOUT ME:

(most of this is in the blog description)

Name(s): Ari or Nova

Pronouns: She/They/He/Void

Hobbies: Reading, writing fanfic, sports, drawing, memeing, stalking tumblr /lh

I do Grit Ninja (look it up on google if your interested, it’s a gymnastic/parkour thing lmao idk how to describe things)

My favorite ship is Cremini/Alyssa (my and my friends OC’s, they are dryad cottagecore lesbians ❤️) I have adhd (undiagnosed), depression, anxiety (getting diagnosed), and am a Bisexual Agender person.

MY (CURRENT) FANDOMS:

• Dream SMP (only the fandom. I have never watched the streams and my attention span wouldn’t allow it. I have been lurking in the fandom for a while tho)

• Hermitcraft

• 3rd Life

• Evo SMP

• Percy Jackson (especially TOA)

• Warrior Cats (kinda)

OTHER TOPICS I WILL POST ABOUT:

• ADHD/Neurodivergant stuff

• Depression

• Anxiety

• Therapy

• Abuse/Child Abuse (and Ptsd/C-Ptsd)

• School

HOW THINGS WILL BE TAGGED ON THIS BLOG:

Answering questions will be tagged #Ari Q&A

My Art will be tagged #myart

Picrews will be tagged with #Aricrew

Things with my and my friends OC’s will be tagged #AriOCs

Updates on therapy (starting in 9 days!!!) will be tagged #Ari therapy

My rants (I rant A LOT) will be tagged #Ari rants

Serious content (s3lf h4rm, depression, anxiety, gender dysphoria, suicidal thoughts) will be tagged #Ari srs

Random, more lighthearted things will be tagged #Ari speaks

MumboJumbo angst things will be tagged #Mumbo Angst Society

(Will use tags to tag this post to demonstrate)

Backround info to the Mumbo Angst Society:

I had noticed there wasn’t a lot of mumbo angst, and I was confused because he has just so many angst options! So I posted abt that and @ mayflowers07 in the post, and they responded (small fanenby noises bc fanfic writers are awesome) and said “Well this is a pleasant surprise! Thank you op, I am honoured to be the sole provider of the Mumbo Angst Society.” So now im calling it the Mumbo Angst Society ok.

Will add more to this over time :) have a good day!

[journeyanddream]

My First Day on Placement - Episode 2

Continuing...

As I walked into the consultation room, I nervously introduced myself and greeted my doctor, who I would shadow for the rest of my placements. I was instructed to sit down and have a chat before we begin the cases.

“Have a seat first, tell me a bit about yourself” the Dr. W said 

“My name is X, I am a second year student, I came from a backround of medical science for undergrad and this is my first clinical attachment.” I replied, she then proceeded to tell me a bit about herself, her training and her background. 

She had a gentle vibe and a calming nature, and she portrayed a sense of genuineness that cannot be faked. Her demeanor is professional but at the same time makes you feel right at home and very approachable...I can definitely see why her patients loved her so much. I had feeling I was in good hands for the next four week.  

She later explained to me this week would mainly focus on getting me used to the environment and pace of the clinic and in future weeks I would be progressively given more responsibilities and things to do (eg. take a history or complete an examination by myself).

“Just get comfortable first, I will let you sink your teeth into it as we go; if you don’t understand anything just ask” She said with a smile. 

Without delay we proceeded to our first case of the day. She walked up to the door to “grab the patient” and proceeded with a warm greeting; I stood up reflexively and stayed behind the doors, just enough to block my view of the doctor and patient. “OMG, my first patient, CRAP!” i thought to myself while looking to the mirror to my far left, checking for any untucked shirt egdes or loose strands of hair poking out; followed by a deep breath...phewwwww.

Before I could gather myself together, the patient walked in...”We have a medical student today, are you okay if he sits in with us today?”...”Yeah no problem” the patient replied as they walked in....”ohhh...Good morning, nice to meet you, my name is P” I responded quickly and sat down in my corner chair.

Before I could realise, they already sat down and the consultation was right under way...”So, how may I help today?”

I opened my small note book and my hands moving at the speed of light, taking down each and every detail the patient has mentioned, in an almost automatic fashion (like how we’ve been trained to do) with series of small headings: presenting illness > history of presenting issue > past medical history > medication / allergies > family history > social history > assessment and investigations etc. 

There were also a couple treatments that I got to either observe or assist in which was pretty cool, although they were minor...they were my firsts (eg. ear canal syringing, IV cannulation for iron infusion, urinalysis etc.)

Whenever there is an abnormal sign on physical examination, Dr. W would always be really considerate and ask the patient “Can our medical student have a go at this?”..which 10/10 times on that day, the patient was kind enough to let a noobie med student get some hands on experience. I got to hear crackles, palpate enlarged lymph nodes, listen to abnormal heart sounds and using an otoscope to look at ear canals and pharynx. I am truly thankful for these opportunities, because your clinical experience differs dramatically depending on who you are shadowing, some get to do sutures and injection while other sat there the entire day without seeing or doing anything; and I think i got the good end of the stick. 

At the end of the day, I got to see 18~20 cases, with a wide spectrum of presentations: Ear wax extraction, Vaccination injection, Iron Infusion, URTIs, Back pain, Wound review, Atrial flutter, Eczema, UTIs, BPH, Antenatal review, STI screening, COCP refill, mental health assessment, mastitis, skin problem, viral illness and more! 

General practice has turned out to be different from what i initially expected, you really do get to see a wide spectrum of conditions, not just fevers and coughs...as a GP you need good knowledge across many different body systems, knowing not only the symptoms, risk factors and treatments but also being able to pick up the ‘red-flags’ and have the bravery to say “I’m not sure and I will get a second opinion on this”. It amazed me, wowed me and opened my eyes to the world of general practice and the true value of building a long lasting relationship with your patients and their family. Seeing a good GP at work, weaving between different patients is all you need to be convinced and awed...their ability to interact with people on a meaningful basis is simply artful. 

- To be continued 

[roseamongroses]

Antithesis: “what do you have? “ I have a kNIFE” “NO”

[Specific-Summary]: They should expect growing pains. For not everything to feel right or make sense. That doesn't mean it'll always hurt, nor does it mean they can't have fun along the way. It's senior year. Everything may be different. It won't be senior year for long. Everything will be okay.

[General Warnings]: Implied Emotional Abuse, Implied Physical Abuse, Bad Parents are Bad Parents, Mild Sexual Content/jokes,Mentioned Homophobia, Mentions of underage drinking (backround), Some Catcalling,Cursing , Self Hate,implied pregnancy talk/inability to become pregnant, adults arguing where the “kid” can hear it, adults drinking,

[Tags/mood:] highschool au,  fluff and angst but its all good, chat fic, teen stress, its flordia no snow we die like men [Pairing:] Roceit (Roman Sanders/ Deceit Sanders), hinted future/possible logince/roloceit/loceit [Characters]Roman Sanders/Deceit (Dmitri) Sanders, Virgil Sanders, Logan Sanders, Patton Sanders, Remy (Sleep) Sanders, Nate Sanders, Dragon Witch (Diana) Remus “The Duke” Sanders (minor/brief)

(Ao3) (Previously)

(8) (9) (10) (11) (12) (13) (14) (15)

(16) (17) (18) 

L: I May Have Lost Roman

V: nice

P: not nice :)

V: i feel vaguely threatened

Rem:@L how the fuck did you manage that Rem: nvm i know how just give me details

L:I don’t know ? One second we were at check out L: Next minute he was Gone and Nieve is looking suspicious

L:Hold on lemme ask Dmitri

V: why is he there

L: I mean he’s actually pretty chill L: But he dropped Roman off and Nieve got attached L:I’m...not sure if she’s planning on letting him go?

V:logan, my friend, my buddy, V:the only person in this chat with basic reading comprehension

Rem: that’s pretty fair

P: it really is tbh

V: Send. Pictures.

L: Okay L: Slight Issue

V: you lost the snake too

L: I lost Dmitri too and Nieve is not spilling

Rem: oh they’re defeinately fucking

L:...Where? The bathroom?

Rem: Don’t knock it till you try it ;)

V: not to be that guy but im vetoing this discussion V: cause thats a Yikes even for you Remy

L: Alright time to find them

Rem: check ;))) the;))) bathrooms ;;))))

L: Remy.

Rem: alrighlright too far ill stop

L: Thank you.

V: keep me updated V: i only have silence and physics homework as company

L:Huh L:Found them

L: Roman….found a katanna…

V: im sorry WHAT V: Why The Fuck Does He Have A Sword

Rem: drop the location of that store man

L: 1) It’s a Katanna L: 2)I will certainly Not. L: 3) He’s trying to convince Dmitri why he should have it

L…..and Dmitri looks more amused then concerned

V: if I can't have a tarantula he sure as hell cant have a sword

L:I told him it was probably fake/ poorly made and that he should take the time to invest the proper skill in money in a real one

V: goddamit logan you cant logic roman.

L: It worked. He put it back. L: So I say I can do what I want with roman

Rem: some spicy takes from the chats only brain cell ;)

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“So you’re turning eighteen, in a few months. ” His aunt said, dabbing her cheeks with a napkin. She still managed to hold an air of prestige despite getting utterly shitfaced the night before. Her appointments have been going well.

Dmitri looked up, masking his surprise and holding his tongue.

Dr. Montag looked over, quieting the running water and placing the dish was he was cleaning down, “Really?” he said, brushing his hands, “You got any plans?” he asked, Dmitri.

“Oh we usually do something small,” His aunt interjected, “But seeing as he’s my father’s favorite grandchild,” Only grandchild, “He’s is flying from Paris to join us. And he was never a man of modesty so I’ve been thinking about doing something special for the occasion.”

Oh.

Dmitri fought the smile creeping on his face, ducking his head. He shouldn’t be surprised that she remembered after all if his grandfather was visiting. It’s how he got his phone, laptop, his car.

It’s probably why she puts up with him, to begin with. Cause it wasn’t guilt.

“--We should get your hair cut,” She continued, and Dmitri snapped out of his thoughts, “Maybe invite Diana--he’d like her,” she murmured.

“Diana and I a-” He closed his mouth, and his aunt’s eyes shot over.

“You broke up?” She narrowed her eyes, examining her nails, “Huh, makes sense seeing as...” she gestured at him vaguely, “So who have you been sneaking around with?”

“I’m not sneaking around with anyone,” Dmitri said, meeting her gaze. And technically he was right, it’s not sneaking if she just hasn’t been asking. And he’s given up on telling.

Dr. Montag’s eyebrows knitted together confused,” Well that isn’t true,”

Dmitri’s eyes went wide, stomach sinking.

His Aunt’s grin spread, “Oh really?”

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck--

“He’s been helping me out, hon,” Dr. Montag set down a glass of water and pills beside her plate, “You’ve been so stressed lately,” he looked guilty and produced some tickets, “I thought I’d surprise you.”

Her face softened and like that the tension left the room. Those two got to linger in whatever lovey-dovey spell had taken hold of them in the last few months, but Dmitri was still on edge.

She still kept him on edge, but he could get her back. Even the playing field. Anytime he could leave this—Anytime he could flip this switch and put her on edge and make her—

He stopped eating, setting his plate aside.

He felt sick.

---

R:helllloooo R:anyone up R: sigh R: allll by mySELLLLF

L: Roman?

R: the one and lonely yes hello human contact???

L: Are you alright? It’s 3 am why are you still awake?

R: why are YOU up mm????

L: My parents have newborn twins. What’s your excuse?

R: well fuck got me there

R: i was texting dee but he was rlly tired and i stILL can’t sleep

L: Any particular reason?

R: u m

L: Private chat?

R: please

- [TheTruthAboutTheMoon]

TheWalkingMouth: Okay shoot

Cowboy:it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: I’ll tell you if it's stupid or not just say it

Cowboy: i just….like Cowboy: it's all kinda….hitting me a ll at once and i Really don’t like thinking about it but i cant bottle shit up either like you bastards so i feel like the human equivelent og a washing machine with too much laundry in it

TheWalkingMouth: Then don’t? TheWalkingMouth: Even if it's too ‘stupid’ for me I’m sure Dmitri wouldn’t mind

Cowboy: yeah but i feel like im going to say something shitty to him i Cowboy: like we should talk about it Cowboy: and i will Cowboy: but not now--later when it's not too stressful for either of us

TheWalkingMouth: Why would you say something shitty?

Cowboy: idk id jst get frustrated trying to explain it Cowboy: like hes smart as hell and probbaly get it without me saying anything but like Cowboy: I have neither the patience nor articulation right now to explain like a civil person and he doesnt need me being shitty about it

Cowboy:like,,,,,for example,,,,, if he fucks up in school, he’ll get recommended a tutor and teachers would assume hes doing his best and hes such a sweet and quiet boy

Cowboy: like he is sweet!!but hes a little shit too!! And gets away with it!!! Half those pranks he pulled on virgil, as Iconic as they were he never got in trouble for them!!!

Cowboy: when i fuck up i

Cowboy: god it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: Might not get a second chance? Yeah I get it.

TheWalkingMouth:Remember when I first transferred here? None of the teachers would take me seriously bc of my accent and if they did, they were afraid of me. I could repeat something another kid said word for word and still be told I had an attitude.

Cowboy: god i remembered that Cowboy: you answered his yes or no questions in a fuckin montone, quiet ass voice and he legit called in the office cause he got scared of a goddamn freshman

Cowboy: But ye when i fuck up Cowboy: im suddenly the lazy ass brown kid who should spend less time corrupting youth with my feminine hips and curls Cowboy: like it's not like a lot of them say it outright but it feels like if im not perfect im fufilling all the stereotypes

TheWalkingMouth: Ah okay, rant away

Cowboy: OK like like like im not like virgil right?? in a lot of ways and it fuckin shows

Cowboy: he’s been planning on going into engineering since sixth grade meanwhile i only got my shit together in highschool

Cowboy: and like now that im here/???what now??? My mother expects me to have my shit together meanwhile im over here freaking the fuck out over whether not it's worth it to even try Cowboy: like yes mother i want to go to an art/or librel arts school that may or may not accept me that we may or may not afford to find a career in who the hell knows because if i have to sit in a healthcare class or a applied mathmatics class like you did i miight actually shank the professor????

Cowboy: that i dread the thought of not trying to explore my options outside of this fucking state but i dread the thought of going bc i cant stand the thought of being away from home but i cant fucking find a reason to stay cause everyone i love is leaving or planning their own life anyway???

Cowboy: like remys gunna fuck off to who knows where regardless of whether or not he has a plans or money, pattons gunna take care of his grandmother whereever the fuck a canada ,moms moving in with tia, virgils already mentally flipping me off ready to fuck nasa , and i only fucking hope dmitri even getss the chance to choose where he goes but hes g o n e and i die from yearning behind a screen like the gay victorian i am , and you….i actually dont know

TheWalkingMouth: Teaching for either biology or physics

Cowboy: huh it fits but what about chemistry??

TheWalkingMouth: Fuck chemistry.

Cowboy: oh thank god we’re on the same page

TheWalkingMouth: Anyway, I assume you’re more worried about whether you should apply rather then if you could get in?

Cowboy: i think so

TheWalkingMouth: Well if my opinion means anything to you

Cowboy: more than you’re assuming but yeah continue

TheWalkinMouth: Wait

Cowboy: nothing nothing continue

TheWalkingMouth: Okay-- I think you should go for it but you don’t need to dive head first into it and commit to everything 100% like virgil did.

TheWalkingMouth: You’re allowed to keep your options open, to have backup plans for back up plans

TheWalkingMouth: It doesn’t mean you’re not passionate about your art. Doesn’t mean you’re inevitably going to get a office job and abandon all your dreams. It means you’re being smart and not backing yourself into a corner

TheWalkingMouth:It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay not to have it all figured out

TheWalkingMouth: Nobody does.

TheWalkingMouth: Even if no one else gives you a second chance at least give yourself a second chance.

TheWalkingMouth: It’s perfectly normal to be afraid to fuck up and get fucked over TheWalkingMouth: That doesn’t mean you will everytime TheWalkingMouth: And it certainly doesn’t mean it's the end

Cowboy:

Cowboy:

Cowboy:

[...Cowboy is typing…]

---

@daflangstlairde

@ace-anx

@cataclysm-al

[amethystw0nder]

Sorry for the lack of art these past 2 months. I’ve been really busy with my mental health and exams. Decided to give therapy a try and it’s great :D So here is a post about my art progress. The first one is from March, the second one from June and the last one from November. I don’t have anything from December yet because i haven’t touched my tablet in about 2 weeks, but i’ll be back next week! I sure have improved a lot! i really wanna try more full-body pieces and i wanna practice backrounds more often. so yee :D see you soon

[octocookies]

Thing I want to get off my chest before the New Year:

This probably gonna be a bit long, so just read if you want and have a bit time.

Im not at my best mental stage at the moment but theres always time to change!

Now i dont want to Sound too negative, but i want to Say some positive and negative Things about this Year and then what i want to reach in the Future!

Good Things:

I got into the undertale fandom! I discoverd the Game and searched for fanart., THEN i found Tumblr and started a bit after that Digital Art!

It was always a little dream of Mine to Draw digitally. I thought that i get better when i can draw with the Computer (wich isnt really true). But i also started to Work on my drawing skills , by learning all the basics of how Things Work Like clothes, Body and random stuff.

I Made a bunch of new friends here wich im grateful for! You Guys are always so sweet to me! You helped me a Lot with my Motivation!

I also finished Something actually for once Like the inktober Challenge! It was really important to me, because i wanted to really Finish Something for once, No Matter how hard it was Sometimes!

Im also blessed to have a few people i Look Up to recognize me! This Just Made my days! I was smiling all the day! Thanks! ( I could continue, but lets move on!)

Things i want to apologyze / Feel guilty for:

My freaking Lack of Communication. Im not Kidding, i CANT Talk to anyone properly without letting me Look Like an Idiot. The only conversation Starter i know here, is to conpliment people( wich is of course a good Thing) but thats all. After that, i dont know what to say anymore and Just make Things akward. There are a Lot of Things i could Talk about, but i try to be careful to what i say, to Not embarrase me or make the other Persons Mad.

If i actually manage to Talk to someone i dont want them to think im annoying or Tiring to Talk to so i dont say much afterwards. If i See someone is alone, i can build Up the Courage to Talk to them, but if they Friends Show Up and they start a conversation, im going Back to the backround unless they keep talking to me.

Another Thing i want to apologyze for is, how often i embarass myself.

Even the silly little Things. Sometimes i cant even sleep of embarrasement, because it Just was too much for me. Even here :´D

I also wanted to say sorry for the Constant Change of Styles you face on my Blog. Im Just still learning and always want to try Out new Things!

Now the Things i want to do in the future! :

I want to be more confident and positive about me!

I want to get better at Communication! Also I want to give more people the Love they deserve! I want to compliment more!

I definetly want to get better at drawing! I want to improve a whoooole Lot! And also start learning Animations !

I want to continue my Comic and get way more far in the Future!

Stop Beeing so cringey. ( A Bit)

If i ever did you wrong , i want to apologyze Here, it wasnt my Intention. If i do Something wrong , always Tell me, because Sometimes i Just get nothing XD

Also I want to thank you Guys for sticking with me until now and ( Hopefully) also in the Future!

Also If i hit the next Milestone i will definetly do a Raffle this time!

Thank you guys for beeing so nice and encouraging all the time, i really really apreacheate it! 

So yeah… I probably forgot something, but damn.

I want to Stay positive and never give up trying!

A wonderful New year to everyone! Never give up trying! 

[ghostsonabiketonowhere]

Ghostman: The council calamity retrospective

Well christ, it’s been a while, hasn’t it? I know literally nobody follows this blog, but as of this writing, i’m waiting on the steam direct fee i paid to be fully processed (Basically, in a week i’ll be able to publish the game)

I’d like to take a second and stroll down memory lane for a little bit, and why it took so fucking long to make this game, this is basically going to be a list of every time i tried and failed to make a game, so strap in, these aren’t in chronological order either, and i’ve kinda forgotten the proper order.

Bill’s excellent adventure:

There’s incredibly little to say on this one, after reading a 4chan thread on games development i downloaded GM:S, tried making a platformer, saw my art, didn’t see any progress after trying a little bit, and gave up.

Mugman:

Mugman was the first time i tried making an adventure game, other than the main character, i had no ideas for the game and dropped it like a rock.

Radiation Seat:

Radiation Seat, for the more dedicated gamers in the audience, is just a synonym for nuclear throne, i tried messing around with random generation in GM:S, realised i’m not very good at coding and gave up, the game actually kinda works though, so theoretically if i’m a moron/psychopath i could try working on it again.

Asterodis:

First real game i ever made, it’s an asteroids clone, but with a bunch of the stuff i saw in Vlambeer’s game feel talks crammed in, it’s essentially idenitcal to a tutorial on youtube except shooting takes away points and there’s a limit to the number of bullets on screen.

Poltergeist (Aka: Ghostman when he was a person)

I posted a lot about Poltergeist (the version of ghostman with good art and a completely different setting), the secret to this was having a good artist, Robert Thomas helping me out, we never finished it, and Bobby got caught up in school work, but that’s almost over so if he’s willing to pick up the pen again, i’m willing to do the coding and fix the reall weird bugs (randomly the game would massively lag for a reason i never figured out, i assume it had something to do with the way AGS handles characters over non walkable areas)

Grall and Foegart goto whitecastle:

I’d had the idea of wanting to make a high fantasy adventure game after reading a couple of discworld novels, these games didn’t get far, but it did have an interesting character switching mechnic similar to DOTT, this also appeared in a couple of other half finished games i’d made, why i thought it’d be funny to make a game based on it when i’d never seen Harold and Kumar go to whitecastle? Iunno.

H.E.L.L:

H.E.L.L (Hyper Energetive Love Lab) was a shot at making a VN, i’m probably going to still do this, so i don’t know if putting here’s sensible but eh, fuck it, i’d had the idea of a reality show crossed with a death game for ages, and tried writing a short story about it, which went nowhere.

Gender Girl:

Gender Girl was the first video game i ever made, it was a scratch program with the cat repainted to be pink, moving left killed you by a spike, moving right displayed a message that gender girl had liberated herself (Hohoho, very ludonarratively insync, 12 year old me), i uploaded it to the scratch website, and it, containing swear words(such a rebel was i) it was deleted 5 seconds after publication, truly, a light gone from the world, what did it have to do with gender? If i remember literally nothing, or you were supposed to cut your dick off with the spikes.

Yeah.

PAGAN:

Pagan was a pokemon rip off i was making, i didn’t get far beyond changing sprites and types, world design is hard, as of writing it’s still on my site, i ought to take it down buti just don’t have the heart, poor Pagan.

BORB (Ghostman 1)

Borb, as it’s affectionatly called in the files, is ghostman 1, it’s the source of the Alien King sprite, and the Ghostman sprite used in Ghostman: The council calamity, and was distributed amongst my friends for like, 5 seconds, it’s 4 screens and one “Puzzle”, which doesn’t actually work because the last time i did work on it, it’s fun to see how my humour changed, in GM1 we’ve got the classic line “It’s locked up tighter than a jewish bank” and a character named Snil, whose ribbing snarky asshole persona was basically every persona i used to write until i started playing dnd with my friends, and had to make more than 1 character, i don’t really like anything about GM1, but i find it oddly charming, it’s terrible perspective and total lack of story or theme (You’re kidnapped by bandits and the game ends in leaving on a spaceship having never seen a single bandit.) just makes it like lenny from of mice and men, it probably should die, but i can’t help shooting a game that thought the way to add taste was to remove the words “Fuck off” from a wall.

Rebet:

Rebet’s the first time we see the actual character “Rebut” appear, in some weird tron like backround, i remember wanting to make something that looked like tron, and failing, other than that Rebet remains a total mystery, even to me, andi made the fucking thing, looking at the code, i remember a little bit more about the game, the main gimmick was having a variety of ray guns that could effect peoples emotion, the example in the tutorial was a “calming ray” to prevent a drill seargeant from screaming at you, this didn’t go anywhere.

Wing Wang:

This is literally an empty ags game, there’s nothing in it, i don’t know why i haven’t deleted it.

Ye Men of Valour:

Ye Men of Valour was a weird idea, i’d read a book called “The decline and fall of the British Empire” (Based upon the work, the decline and fall of the roman empire) and decided to make a game based upon a variety of British figures from across time entering into a house they must escape, only to be killed by Aliens, the goal of the game was to get players to reload the game with the knowledge that following the puzzles as they were laid out would kill them, and use a different method to escape, Ye Men of Valour really ended up going nowhere because i was in a pretty dark place and wasn’t motivated, like at all, i’m gonna put this in the “Might come back to it” pile.

Ghostman 2:

Ghostman 2, like Grall and Foegart, had a character switching thing, this ended up breaking the game, so i scrapped it, Ghostman 2 was when the idea of Ghostman being a space adventure comes from, following from Ghostman 1, where you leave on a ufo with an alien, it’s what i thought would happen next, if i remember there was literally no story, just the characters, and switching gimmick.

I.A.C.M

I.A.C.M was a project i worked on with Bobby very breifly, the idea was to make an adventure game set inside a mentally disturbed girls mind, this basically didn’t pan out due to AGS engine limitations, the sprites sent in were too big and ended up looking kind of lame squashed down.

You cannot name this file, insect.:

This wasn’t a game, this was shit poetry at a time in my life where i knew my poetry was godawful, there was no story here, just a Shodan like figure who’d insult me, like personally, i’d write insults about myself into a script and then play it.

Robot Initation:

Adventure game, starring “some random guy named mike”, drew the first character sprites, hated them, didn’t want to improve them, gave up.

Assault and Battery/BatteryMan:

This was a go at 3d platformers made in unity, fell apart because the models i’d made in blender weren’t done properly at all, breaking practically everything.

PirateTextAdventure(ActualTitle):

Sounds exactly like what it is, never got a single line down for this.

Shield Slide:

A rip off of free ski based on the idea of riding a shield i think i saw i a lotr movie? Never got to prototype.

AAAH!

AAAH (Aimless aeronautical adveture, huzzah!) was an experiment i wanted to make, an adventure game that was procedudrely generated, every game would involve a one minute timer, which upon reaching zero, would result in the player dying, the story was the player had just survived a plane colliding with another plane in midair, and had to find a way to live without a parachute just using debris, lessons learned: Random generation is hard, i also ripped off the title from AAAAAAAAAAAAh for the awesome.

Sweet Goodnight:

Sweet goodnight was an rpg i planned to make about dying alone in a spaceship, it never got far beyond idle doodles and some game design docs that i’ve since lost, may go back to this in future.

Spaceman and Woodboy:

A mario and luigi superstar saga ripoff, never got to properly playable state, GM:S is hard.

Quest of Halden:

Shit rpg.

Ghostman: CNC :

Ghostman: CNC (Caverns and creatures) was a weird idea, i wanted to make an Rpg based on my dnd campaign, but for some reason i felt the need to justify it with a weird ghostman shell, may go back to this one.

Legend of Negro:

I don’t know why the fuck this is on my computer, i tried pissing around with a legend of zelda game maker thing.

Generic Units:

Supposed to be an xcom like, fell apart.

Airman/Pacifist run:

Something i still want to do, an fps with non violent weapons and stage hazards that you have to use to defeat enemies, got as far as modeling a single gun.

Sepsis man:

A 3d platformer starring a drinks machine, modeled main character, gave up.

Slime Game (actual title, again.)

Slime game (Or Slime Quest) was going to be an incredibly clever subversive take on the Rpg genre by having the grand villain actually be a low level mook, think cave rats and dungeon bosses, that kind of thing, stopped making it because i thought “Woah, that’s dumb, and lame, and i really don’t like making art for ideas that are dumb and lame!”

Zug’s Glorious road trip for the glory of the party and wealth of the nation:

ZGRTFTGOTPAWOTN for short, this was a text adventure based on wormhole shenanigans and Soviet propaganda films, never really got that far, fun little fact, Zug’s the name of the alien in my twitter profile pic.

Ghostman: The council calamity:

I didn’t quit, i made the game.

THANK GOD FOR THAT.