#You know i started writing this fic as like... mindless smut

[manmuncher777]

Hiii it’s me again (split tongue fic ;) and I had another idea for Choso!? What about stoner!reader smoking with Cho and things get real steamy!?! 🫣🤭 -🪷

Hellooo gorg!!! You’re my first emoji anon omg!!! I feel so honoured, I hope you enjoy this. I absolutely lovvved writing this.

So High!

Choso Kamo x reader SMUT MDNI 18++

Getting high with your best friend for the first time gets hotter than expected…

It starts like nothing.

Just a casual hangout. Like always.

Choso’s sprawled on his couch in those stupid grey sweats that should be illegal, tattoos on full display under a loose black tank top, hair tied back, pierced lip glinting every time he grins. You’re perched beside him, a little nervous but trying not to show it—especially when he lights up.

“You ever smoked before?” he asks, already exhaling a lazy puff, voice deep and syrupy.

You shrug, lips glossed, lashes curled, outfit casual-cute in the way that says I didn’t try… but I did. “Not really. But I trust you.”

He raises a brow at that. “You shouldn’t.”

You laugh, taking the joint when he hands it over, fingers brushing.

His hand lingers.

You pretend not to notice. Kind of.

The first inhale burns. Makes your eyes water.

Choso’s already laughing low in his chest, watching you cough into your fist.

“Lightweight,” he teases, tugging the joint back.

But a little while later, when the world starts to hum and your body melts into his old couch, you’re not so worried. You’re warm. Loose. A little too aware of the way his thigh is pressed against yours, how good he smells—earthy, sharp, a little like smoke and something expensive.

You’re laughing about something stupid when it happens.

His hand rests on your bare thigh. Casually. No big deal.

Except it is.

You glance at him, your smile fading into something softer. Choso’s eyes are half-lidded, flushed from the high, jaw flexing as he watches the TV. But his hand doesn’t move.

And neither do you.

The air goes thick.

You shift slightly, your knee brushing his hand, and he looks at you.

Slowly.

Eyes heavy-lashed, pupils blown, mouth parted.

“You okay?” he murmurs, but his tone is low. Careful. Like he already knows the answer.

Your lips part to say something, anything—

But then his fingers slide up just a little higher on your thigh.

Just a test. A push.

Your breath catches.

And Choso smirks, lazy and hungry, like he’s just confirmed everything he suspected.

“Didn’t know getting high made you blush, pretty girl.”

You stretch your legs across his lap like it’s the most casual thing in the world. Like your skin’s not already buzzing where his hand still rests on your thigh, thumb brushing slow, mindless circles.

“So,” you say, voice a little hoarse from the smoke, “you always get this quiet when you’re high?”

Choso hums. “Nah. You’re just louder than usual.”

You scoff, nudging him with your toe. “Am not.”

He smirks down at your legs, those lazy eyes flicking up to meet yours. “Are too. You’re always giving me shit for being antisocial and brooding. Now you’re the one talking my ear off.”

Your face warms—not from embarrassment, but from how damn comfortable he looks with you draped over him, how soft that teasing edge in his voice is. You try not to focus too hard on the way his hand shifts, resting just a little higher now on your bare thigh. Not inappropriate… but close enough to make your stomach flutter.

You bite your lip and look away, suddenly very focused on the glowing TV screen. “You like when I talk too much anyway.”

He lets out a low laugh, the kind that rumbles from his chest and rolls into your spine. “Yeah. S’cute.”

Cute.

You try not to show how that lands. Your skin feels hotter suddenly, your breath catching just slightly in your chest.

You clear your throat and play it off. “So what’s this game you’re always obsessed with?”

He grabs the controller, shifting a little so his hand brushes your knee again. “Lemme show you.”

You’re barely paying attention. Not to the screen, not to the explanation.

You’re watching his hands. Long fingers, knuckles tattooed, veins prominent as they flex over the buttons. One of the rings he always wears glints under the dim light, and you wonder how it would feel dragging along your—nope.

You shut that thought down fast.

But then Choso leans in, murmuring something about the controls, his face close to yours, and that cologne hits you again—woodsy, sharp, him—and you swear your thighs twitch without permission.

He’s not even doing anything.

Just talking. Just sitting there. Just being Choso. And it’s driving you insane.

You grip a throw pillow against your stomach like it’ll somehow smother the ache building low in your belly. Your heart thuds heavy in your chest. And it’s so stupid, because he’s your best friend. Your tattooed, pierced, broad-shouldered, fuckable best friend.

And he has no idea.

…Does he?

Choso doesn’t say anything at first. Just watches you.

Your attention’s fixed on the screen, or at least you’re pretending it is, but your legs haven’t moved from his lap. In fact, you’ve somehow gotten even closer—your knee brushing his side, your arm lazily slung over the back of the couch behind him like you belong there.

And maybe you do. But the way you’re clinging now? Like his warmth is the only thing tethering you to reality?

Yeah. He notices.

“You good?” His voice is low, but there’s a teasing note woven in.

“Hm?” You blink at him like you weren’t zoning out thinking about how good his fingers would feel wrapped around your throat.

He raises a brow, letting his eyes drag slowly over you. “You’re just… all over me tonight.”

You scoff, cheeks going warm. “I am not.”

But your fingers are playing with the hem of his sleeve now. Fidgeting. Tucking your feet tighter against his thigh like you’re trying to curl into him. Your face is flushed, pupils wide and glassy. And your bottom lip is so red from where you’ve been nervously biting it.

Choso grins, all lazy and confident, like he knows exactly what’s going on.

“You’re clingy when you’re high,” he murmurs, shifting slightly so his thigh presses right up against your ass. “It’s cute.”

You freeze for a second—just long enough for him to feel the tension spike in your body—before you recover with a scoff and a roll of your eyes.

But it’s too late.

He’s seen it now. That flicker of panic. That guilty little hitch in your breath.

He leans in a bit closer, crowding your space just enough to make your pulse jump. His voice drops.

“You wanna sit in my lap or something?”

You look at him then. Really look.

And there’s a cocky little smile tugging at his pierced lip, like he knows exactly what he’s doing to you.

Your mouth opens—maybe to sass him, maybe to say fuck it and climb into his lap—but nothing comes out.

He watches your throat bob as you swallow.

“Just ask,” he says, voice like velvet and smoke. “I don’t bite unless you want me to.”

You inhale sharply, and his grin only deepens.

Yeah. He definitely knows now.

Your breath stutters as you stare at him, but god—you’re too high and too needy to fight the pull anymore.

You swing your leg over and lower yourself into his lap, trying to act casual. Like this is normal. Like your heart isn’t hammering in your chest and your skin isn’t burning with the heat of his body

But Choso’s not playing the pretend game anymore.

His hands are on your thighs the second you settle, big palms warm and slow as they slide up under your shorts, thumbs brushing over the soft inner skin like he’s testing just how far you’ll let him go.

“See?” he mutters, lips ghosting the edge of your jaw. “Knew you wanted to sit in my lap.”

You gasp softly, head tilting instinctively when he mouths at your throat. You can feel the sharp press of his piercings when he kisses your neck, a mix of softness and sting that has you whimpering already.

And Choso—fuck—he groans, low and dirty, the sound vibrating right through you.

“You’re so warm,” he mumbles, hand dragging higher until he brushes the curve of your ass. “Fuck—look at you. Already squirming, baby.”

You shift without thinking, hips rolling against him, and the pressure of his cock under you is unmistakable now—thick and hard, straining in his sweats.

You choke on a breath.

His hand slides around to grip your hip, forcing you to grind down on him slow.

“Feels good?” he asks, eyes locked on yours, half-lidded and hungry.

You nod, lips parting, breath shaky as your fingers grip his shoulders for balance. His other hand trails up your spine beneath your shirt, fingers splayed wide, hot and possessive.

“Fuck,” he murmurs, head falling back to stare at you, “I wanna ruin you so bad.”

You don’t even realize you’re grinding harder now, chasing friction, biting your lip so hard it aches.

And he notices. Of course he notices.

“Go on,” he breathes, cock twitching beneath you. “Use me.”

You shudder.

Then you move.

Grinding down slow and messy, gasping every time his cock drags right against your clit through your panties

He groans again, jaw clenched tight, hands everywhere—one tangled in your hair, the other guiding your hips just how he wants.

“Shit,” he growls, panting, “You’re so fuckin’ wet—bet you’d slide down my cock so easy, baby. Bet you’d take every inch like a good girl.”

Your head spins, his words pouring molten heat straight between your legs.

You’re so close and he knows it—he feels it. Your nails dig into his shoulders, your thighs trembling from the tension coiling tight in your belly.

And just when you think you’re about to fall apart, Choso grins up at you—dark and mean and starving.

“You gonna cum just from grinding on me?” he taunts, voice like silk-wrapped sin. “Didn’t even need my fingers. Fuck—you’re desperate, huh?”

You moan—broken and high and wrecked—and he groans right with you, burying his face in your neck.

“I’ll give you everything, baby,” he growls, voice ragged. “Wanna feel you cum on my cock. Wanna watch you fall apart.”

Your forehead’s pressed to his, hips grinding in lazy, needy circles, and your breaths are shared, shallow, desperate. The high fogs everything around you—except the heat between your thighs, and the thick press of his cock against your pussy through too-thin fabric.

Choso’s gripping your hips so tight it’s almost bruising, his eyes locked on your face like he needs to watch you fall apart.

“You’re close,” he breathes, voice barely a rasp, “you’re right there, huh?”

You nod frantically, eyes glassy, body trembling as you chase that high—rubbing yourself down on him with reckless need, soaking through your panties and his sweats. It’s obscene how wet you are, the slick, sticky drag of your clothed pussy over his cock making him groan.

“Fuck—look at you,” he grits, “fucking soaking me through—so messy, baby.”

You let out a whimper that turns into a gasp, thighs clenching tight around his waist. Your fingers tangle in his shirt, forehead pressed into the crook of his neck as your body jerks with every grind. So close. So high. So fucking needy.

He shifts beneath you, angling his hips, grinding up into you now—and that’s it.

You choke on a cry, thighs shaking, hips stuttering as you cum on him, still fully dressed, panties clinging to you like second skin from how wet they are.

“Fuck, baby,” he groans, head dropping back as he feels the warmth of your release soaking him. “That’s it. Ride it out. Just like that—fuck, you’re perfect.”

You’re still twitching, panting hard, when he grabs your face and pulls you into a messy kiss, all tongue and teeth and need. You melt into it, still dazed—until you feel him tug the crotch of your shorts and panties aside.

“Wait—” you gasp, but he’s already lining himself up, already hissing through his teeth as the thick head of his cock catches on your soaked entrance.

“You’re fuckin’ dripping, baby,” he growls, “can’t wait. Can’t—need to feel you.”

And then he’s pushing in.

No teasing. No warning. Just one long, slow thrust—filthy and deep—burying himself inside you with a broken groan.

Your head falls back, a choked sob in your throat as he stretches you open, too big, too good, hitting every spot like he’s meant to be there.

“God,” he groans, eyes fluttering shut, “you’re so tight—fuck—so wet for me already.”

Your hands clutch at his shoulders, back arching as he starts to thrust—slow, lazy, possessive. He never pulls all the way out, just rocks into you, dragging his cock against every aching spot inside.

And it’s messy. Your cum smeared all over his length, slick sounds filling the room as he ruts into you through soaked panties.

You’re gasping again, already trembling.

And Choso’s losing his goddamn mind.

“Fucking knew you’d feel this good,” he groans, biting at your jaw, “fuck—I could die right here, inside this pussy.”

His hand finds your throat, not squeezing, just holding. Possessive. Grounding. His.

“Ride me, baby. Make me cum inside you. Fuckin’ ruin me.”

You’re straddling him still, thighs sticky, breath ragged, his cock still buried deep inside you. Your panties are shoved to the side, your shorts pushed away also —just enough for him to slip in, because neither of you had the patience to get naked. And now?

Now you’re riding him in slow, lazy circles, your soaked pussy sucking him in again and again, making him throb inside you.

“You’re so fuckin’ warm,” Choso groans, head tipped back against the couch. “You hear that, baby? Listen to this fuckin’ pussy.”

And you can hear it. Wet and obscene, every drag of your hips making another filthy sound echo off the walls of his tiny apartment.

He reaches for the blunt from earlier, burned low in the ashtray on the coffee table. Flicks the lighter with one hand, the other still gripping your hip. You watch through hooded eyes as he lights it, inhales deep, exhales even deeper—cloud of smoke curling past his lips like a fucking sin.

Then he holds it out to you.

“Hit it,” he murmurs, voice thick with lust and smoke. “Don’t stop riding me, though.”

You lean forward, his cock grinding even deeper inside you at the angle, and wrap your lips around the end of the blunt. His fingers brush your mouth, steadying it, watching you like you’re his whole fucking religion. You take a slow drag, eyes locked on his, before pulling back and blowing the smoke into his mouth.

He catches it, kisses you through it, tongues tangling—you moan into his mouth.

“Fuck, you’re gonna kill me,” he rasps. “That pretty pussy and that fuckin’ mouth—goddamn, baby.”

You keep moving, keep grinding down, rolling your hips like you’re made for him. The high’s hitting again, warm and dreamy, blurring everything but the stretch inside you and the heat of his skin.

Choso passes the blunt again, and you take it with shaking fingers, barely able to hold steady as you fuck yourself on his cock.

“That’s it,” he coos, thumb rubbing lazy circles into your thigh. “Keep takin’ it. So fuckin’ good for me.”

Your head drops to his shoulder, and he tilts his chin to nuzzle your cheek, whispering filth right against your ear.

“You gonna cum for me again, huh? Gonna soak me while we’re fuckin’ blazed? Just sittin’ here like a good girl, milkin’ my cock?”

You whimper—tiny and broken—and his arms wrap around you tight, his hips finally starting to fuck up into you, slow but deep, so deep.

“Yeah. That’s it. Get high. Get full. Stay just like this, baby. My perfect fuckin’ girl.”

Your thighs are shaking, your hips barely moving anymore, and all you can do is cling to him—forehead pressed against his, hands gripping the collar of his tank top like a lifeline.

“Choso,” you breathe, voice trembling, too gone to say anything else. You’re not even riding him now—just grinding, slow and clumsy, pussy fluttering around his cock as you fall apart.

He knows. He can feel it.

“Aw, fuck, baby,” he grunts, holding you tighter. “You gonna cum again? That pretty lil’ pussy squeezing me so fuckin’ tight.”

You nod against his mouth, lips brushing his, your breath hitching as your orgasm crests again—hot and intense, ripping through you like fire. Your whole body trembles, thighs clenching around his waist, and you go soft, moaning into him like you’re breaking.

And that’s all it takes.

Choso groans—deep and ragged—and thrusts up once, twice, hard, and then stills, cock pulsing deep inside you.

“Fuckfuckfuck,” he hisses, head dropping back as he fills you, his arms locked around your waist to keep you in place. “Shit, baby—take it. Take all of it. Goddamn.”

You feel it—all of it—thick and hot, spilling deep inside, leaking out the second his hips twitch again.

You’re both quiet for a beat, just the soft haze of weed smoke and your breath in his ear. He strokes your thigh absentmindedly, hand sliding up under your shirt.

“Y’did so good,” he murmurs, nuzzling your temple. “Fuckin’ milked it outta me.”

You hum, blissed-out and dazed, letting your fingers trace over the chain around his neck.

He taps the end of the blunt, reignites it, takes a lazy hit—and then offers it to you with the ghost of a cocky smile.

“Ready for round two, or you need a minute, baby?”

[gigiszn]

gwi-nam smut....😈

JUST A DREAM — gwinam x fem!reader

 ۫ ꣑ৎ ｡𖦹°‧⭑.ᐟ 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄! LADIES one at a time.. im only one sexy woman.. but since y'all asked so politely (and 10 times in my inbox) here is your GWINAM SMUT.. also i'm so sorry if i haven't gotten back to you but rn based on requests i'm also writing a gwi-nam fluff and a thg story! plus updating cheong-san fic tmrw prob idk whenever i feel like it okay?!?!?!

y'all know the smut gonna be good when you never even HEARD of the warnings (i didn't know the names of the kinks until i googled them)

tw: somnophilia, dom!gwinam, sub!reader, humiliation, dacryphilia, orgasm denial, begging, p in v, oral (f receiving), begging, hybristophilia, hair pulling, slapping, creampie, no use of y/n (though no name or features are described).

as always, you're responsible for the media you consume. read if u want, don't if you don't.

wc: 2.3k

 ۫ ꣑ৎ ｡𖦹°‧⭑.ᐟ

The hours had dragged on, each second thick with tension. One moment, you and On-Jo had been sitting close, sharing a quiet laugh as she nervously gushed about Bare-Su. Her voice had been light, teasing, but there was something raw in the way she spoke—something unspoken between you, an energy you couldn't quite place. Then, without warning, the world had shattered around you. The laughter faded into the harsh reality of your classmates turned monsters—feral, mindless creatures, chasing you down with a hunger you could feel deep in your bones.

The panic had set in quickly. The hallways had become a maze, the sound of shuffling footsteps and eerie growls echoing around you. You’d lost On-Jo, lost track of everything. Alone, terrified, you had found a classroom to hide in, slamming the door behind you, and for a brief moment, it had seemed like you were safe. But that security was short-lived.

The zombies had found the door, clawing at the wood, their nails scraping as they drew nearer. You knew you couldn’t stay here forever. The fear gripped you, cold and suffocating. You refused to let it end like this—not after you’d had to kill one of your own. You had to survive.

Taking a deep breath, you checked the door one last time. The sounds of the undead grew louder, and you knew it was only a matter of time before they broke through. Without thinking, you darted out of the classroom, running as fast as you could, the adrenaline coursing through your veins. Each step was desperate, each breath labored. Your heart pounded, not from exhaustion, but from the raw terror that fueled you forward.

You spotted the music room just ahead, a glimpse of hope in the chaos. You pushed open the door, slamming it behind you, your back pressed against it for a moment, trying to catch your breath. The quiet that enveloped you felt surreal after the chaos outside. The room was still, untouched, as if time had stopped. The air smelled of dust and old wood, but there was a certain calm to it, a strange peace you didn’t think you’d ever feel again.

You quickly scanned the room. It was empty, save for a broken piano and scattered instruments. In the corner, there was a closet—small, tucked away from view. You moved toward it with quick steps, but then froze. A body lay crushed under the piano, clawing at the air above you in a desperate attempt to eat your brain, a grotesque reminder of the horrors outside.

Shaking your head, you pushed the thought aside. You needed to focus. The last thing you wanted was to think about the things you’d just barely escaped. You moved to the farthest corner of the room, a chair in the corner catching your eye. With a tired sigh, you sank into it, your body aching, your mind still racing.

The room was silent again, and for a brief, fleeting moment, you allowed yourself to relax. Your muscles, tense from the fight and the fear, finally started to release. Your breathing slowed, but it was difficult to let go completely. You hadn’t let yourself rest in what felt like forever. The memories of the chaos—of your friends, of the ones you had lost—were fresh and raw in your mind.

You closed your eyes for just a moment, exhaustion overtaking you. The outside world felt far away, the sounds of the zombies muffled. Here, in this room, you were safe—for now.

And that was all that mattered.

 ۫ ꣑ৎ ｡𖦹°‧⭑.ᐟ

A growing sense of pleasure blooming in your cunt snapped you out of your slumber, each sense reawakening. Your eyes shot downwards, the sight of an all too familiar boy filling your vision as he looked up from his seeming frenzy against your now throbbing clit.

Every part of you screamed to run, to get the hell back in that supply closet. It wasn't normal to be awoken by a tongue fucking into your hole, yet something about the far-from-vanilla scene had you gripping the sides of the chair.

"G-Gwinam.. What the fuck are you do..doing?" You stammered out, chest heaving. Your question was left hung in the air, filling the silence surrounding you. The only sounds able to be heard were the sound of his tongue lapping against your clit. The sight was erotic, your hands scrambling to catch a grip on anything, finally settling for his hair. You tugged instinctively, Gwinam's mouth opening in a groan that reverberated against your pussy.

Your legs twitched, nose and brows scrunching as you felt your climax arriving. The coil in your stomach was tightening, like the feeling at the brink of a rollercoaster. "I-I'm gonna.." You muttered out, lips curling into a pleasure-filled frown.

"You better fucking hold it, you slut," He warned, stopping his abuse against your clit. You grimaced, staring down at him as your hips jutted upwards.

His tongue swirled and delved deeper into your hole, two fingers joining his mouth. Your legs shook, hands pulling tighter on his hair.

Gwinam could feel his hard-on rub against his pants, squeezing his eyes shut as he tried not to focus on the overwhelming pressure he felt as you tugged on the strands of his black hair.

Finally, you couldn't take it anymore.

"I-I can't.." You whined out as the coil inside you unleashed and broke. The rollercoaster had fallen, and your cum was now spilling out onto your thighs and his face.

He licked and slurped at your clit as you rode out your high, a post-nut clarity washing over you as your eyes widened. You were far too loud, and the zombies would surely come. Without thinking, you pushed him down, stumbling as your legs shook while you tried to make your way to the supply closet.

Suddenly, Gwinam's strong forced pushed you against the wall, forearm against your neck. You attempted to claw at him, but he simply used his free hand to pin them upward. "Where y'gonna run now, huh?" He teased, biting down on your neck, "You don't wanna listen? I'll show you how to fucking listen, whore."

A loud slap emitted, a pink stain echoing against your cheek.

Tears brimmed your eyes, slowly falling down your face as a choked sob escaped your throat. You struggled against him, watching the sadistic smirk plaster on his face, eyes widened as the pupils traced the line of your salty cries.

"Please, Gwinam. W-We'll die." You stammered out, eyes widened as you tried to search for any trace of humanity in his eyes.

You didn't find it.

"You're so fucking hot when you cry." He groaned, pushing his mouth against yours roughly. It seemed he didn't have a care whether you kissed back, shoving his tongue down your mouth.

You wanted to resist, really, you did.

But the way he rutted his hips against you knew that you didn't want anything more than for him to fuck your brains out.

A moan fell from your mouth and into his, Gwinam's grip on your neck finally releasing as he used that hand to pull up one of your thighs. In a synchronized daze of horniness, you both grinded against each other in a desperate attempt to chase your high once more.

He grabbed your arms, dragging you to the window. Your face was pressed against it, breasts smushing against the glass as his hands carelessly fondled your ass.

Gwinam stuck in two fingers, stretching your tight pussy for what was to come. "If you cum before I let you, I'll kill you."

You knew he was serious. You just didn't have it in you to care.

One hand snakes up your back, wrapping around your neck as if he was the serpent and you were the forbidden fruit.

Squeezing, you let out a broken sob, purple bruises forming in the shape of his fingertips. He pressed his hips against yours at your cries, eyes rolling to the back of his head. There was nothing more erotic to him than fucking you while there were zombies mere metres away from you.

Agonizingly slow, he pulled your skirt down. With a huff, you impatiently forced the fabric down, pooling at your ankles. With a raspy chuckle, he leaned in close and pulled your ear lobe, "You just really can't wait to have me cum in you, isn't that right?"

He had you at a loss of words, biting your lip until it bled. Gwinam pulled you back by your neck, back pressed against his hard chest, "Answer me when I talk to you, slut," He warned, squeezing tighter.

With all the might you had left in you, you breathed out, "Y-Yes.. I can't wait.." Hearing your tears behind your words had precum dripping and his cock practically begging to burst.

Knowing he wouldn't last much longer if you both kept up with the constant teasing, his hands finally let their grip off you and to his pants. Your hands now pressed against the glass, your head dropped to avoid the painstaking scene of dead and dying classmates on the field outside.

As Gwinam finally dropped his pants and boxers, he let out a freakish grin seeing your distaste toward the chaos outside. Grabbing your jaw, he forced you to stare ahead as his pink tip circled your soaked hole.

It was all too much. You felt your pussy throbbing as you tried to find any way to make the dominance Gwinam was exhibiting less arousing.

"Watch them as I fuck you, Mouse," He purred into your ear, pushing his hard cock in slowly. You felt him stretch your fleshy walls, a soft groan sounding from both your throats simultaneously, "You wanna be good for me, don't you?"

You nodded with a whine, turning back to look at him with round eyes. He ran a finger across your lips before turning your head back to the window, angling his dick at your entrance.

As per his usual style, he gave no time in letting you adjust, immediately setting his rough pace. Each thrust let out a loud slap that echoed, angering the zombie under the piano further.

Your senses were slowly diminishing until you were just as brain-dead as the zombies—minus the dead part. Your hair pulled back by his hand, the one on your jaw now letting go and squeezing your ass. Though he had now let go of your face, you still remained looking out the window.

You wanted to be good for Gwinam. You were good for Gwinam.

Your emotions built up in your chest. Every erotic and devastated emotion. You wept as you watched the few survivors that made a break for the schools gates get eaten alive, slowly cracking and turning.

"Fuck—I love it when you cry, baby," He moaned, throwing his head back as his pace quickened.

Your eyes squeezed shut, feeling the slight overstimulation only enhance the pleasure you were feeling. Gwinam reached down, thumb instantly finding your clit and rubbing fast circles, matching his perfect pace against your throbbing cunt.

Your hole squeezed against his dick, and he 'tsked', "Don't you think about cumming." You nodded, placing a hand on your stomach. You could feel his dick sliding in and out of you, each time stretching your hole so that it would only ever be the right size for him.

He was marking you as his, and you didn't want it any other way.

Gwinam's hips stuttered, pace growing sloppy and uneven, "I'm gonna cum in you, okay baby?" He growled in your ear, licking a stripe down your jaw and to your collarbone, "I'm gonna make you mine, and you're gonna take my cum."

You felt yourself reaching the edge at his words, soft cries releasing from your throat as all you wanted to do was squirt all over his veiny length.

"Please.. Please let me cum, Gwinam, I'll be good," You whined, rutting your hips backwards against his, meeting them in the middle and bringing you both so much closer to your edge.

He shook his head, pulling your hair and causing a shriek to emit from your throat. He wanted nothing more than to have you creaming all over him, but he knew the pleasure he felt from commanding you was even better.

Gwinam bent forward against you, and he groaned as you reached back and pulled his hair. He grabbed your neck as he felt his high approach, knowing he wouldn't be able to take it much longer.

Finally giving you permission, Gwinam bit his lip, nodding his head, "Yeah, baby. Cum with me. I want you to cum." He muttered almost incoherently, and his approval was enough to snap the coil once more.

Following after you seconds after, you both continued your desperate movements against each other until the ropes of his semen remained inside your vagina.

The floor underneath you was dampened by your shots of cum, legs faltering. You fell against the window, Gwinam grabbing you by your waist and carrying your half-naked body into the supply room.

You were practically asleep as your body fucked-dumb was weak. He lay you on a sofa in the closet, not bothering to cover you up.

He knelt down, licking a stripe in your pussy filled with his cum. He could taste himself, salty and warm, the overstimulation causing your hips to jut upwards as your half-asleep self muttered under your breath.

Gwinam stood up, staring at you for a moment, before turning and heading toward the broadcasting room.

Maybe when you woke up, you'd think it was all just a dream, and would go back to fearing for your life—But the cum spilling out of you made you know that whatever had happened was real—and you knew you would want more.

[ericscroptop]

Wet Dreams

✧ pairing: eric sohn x mid-size/chubby fem! reader

✦ genre: friends to lovers + smut

✧ warnings: 18+ (minors DNI) smut, kissing, cursing, slight angst, inexperienced reader, hand job, male receiving, lots of spit, fondling, praising/praise kink, pet names, talk of insecurities, body issues, internalized fat phobia, etc., pls be cautious because i know it can be a sensitive topic for some!

✦ word count: 9.3k words (LMAOOOO)

✧ synopsis: your friend eric invites you over to his house for a swim and it is then that you realize eric wants you in ways you would’ve never imagined for yourself.

✦ note: this fic is kinda self indulgent—written as someone who is mid-size/chubby and has insecurities. i just want people who have a chubbier/thicker/fat body to feel loved and be included explicitly in writings because we are all deserving of love and affection!

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You hated swimming.

Well— okay, so you didn’t actually hate swimming.

Your disinterest for the activity was not rooted in swimming itself, but for the fact that you’d have to wear some sort of bikini in order to swim.

Technically, there wasn’t a law that said you had to wear a bikini to the beach or the pool. There are plenty of people who happily choose to wear something like a t-shirt or cover-up that’s more generous while swimming for whatever reason.

There are also a plethora of bathing suits that exist, so there’s gotta be one that you feel comfortable in, right?

The thing is, you plainly felt insecure in showing skin. You were insecure of your arms that seemed to carry excess fat that was especially visible when you moved them. Your belly hung low and it honestly was more plump than your behind. You also had skin-colored stretch marks that decorated your lower back that never seemed to go away.

These were things about you that you constantly dwelled on no matter what. You couldn’t recall a day where the topic of your body didn’t flood your mind.

You had no problem in people showing skin at all. At the end of the day, the problem was simply your lack of confidence due to society’s beauty standards that have been shoved in your face, pressed into your mind, and flooded your ears for as long as you could remember.

Though today, you were attempting at conquering your insecurities and finally stepping out of your comfort zone.

It was scorching in L.A. today. It was too hot to go out but also too hot to just rot in your home all day. Even with air conditioning, you just felt nasty.

Your friend Eric invited you to come to his house for a nightly swim. A wave of anxiety hit you when you had read his text of the invitation. First of all, he was a guy— of which, you found insanely attractive.

He was a friend that you made in your Sociology course. You remembered how he randomly approached you one day to ask a question mid-semester about something that he could’ve easily found the answer to if he looked back at the syllabus.

Though, you were happy to help anyone who needed it and answered him nicely. Or maybe it was merely because he was probably the prettiest boy you had ever laid eyes on that actually approached you, so you didn’t think twice to reply to him—but you would never let anyone know that. He was appreciative, and since then, he decided to cling onto you since you showed him courtesy.

You honestly thought he would’ve forgotten about your presence or only come to you when he needed help, but he actually started sitting with you and even distracting you with mindless but entertaining conversations during lectures.

While you started looking forward to coming into class and now having someone to talk to, your only interest in the class became the charming guy who was energetic and always made you smile from ear to ear. You eventually told Eric that you needed to prioritize your lectures and cut back on the excessive side conversations during class. He decided to take that as an opportunity to ask for your number, so you guys could hangout outside the classroom.

You were shocked that he wanted to be your friend. You didn’t feel as charming or alluring as he was, but he still found interest in you. You guys started hanging out and doing things like studying (or trying to at least) and doing miscellaneous activities at least once a week.

He became your best friend all of a sudden. You were super grateful that he came into your life, but you still felt nervous around him. He was such a good guy. You didn’t want to take your friendship for granted.

Eric was also super outgoing and friendly, while you were more reserved and it was rare for you to make new friends and be spontaneous. Sometimes, you still wonder why he decided to become your friend.

Maybe you felt this way due to your insecurities, or maybe it was because you had this lingering feeling of butterflies in your stomach every time you guys were together. Maybe it was a mixture of both.

Anyways, for whatever the reason, you just tried to be a good friend to the guy. You didn’t want to fuck anything up and so you tried your best to please Eric and not be a burden in any way.

Now, you find yourself looking at your reflection in the mirror of Eric’s guest bathroom. You tug on your favorite oversized Spongebob shirt that you own, pulling it to where it ends just below your bottom. You were getting ready to finally swim, and Eric was already out by the pool waiting while you freshen up and change.

You sighed at your reflection with both of your hands placed against your hips, wondering why the fuck you’re feeling so uneasy.

You actually surprised yourself by deciding to wear a bikini for tonight. You purchased one awhile back just for the heck of it, even if you never mustered up the courage to wear it. The bikini was high-waisted and red with a twist front on the bottoms. The bikini top was also red and a wireless bra. It was actually super comfortable against your skin and red was a striking color, but all you saw in the mirror was your plump stomach screaming at you to be covered, and your cleavage just wasn’t elevated enough to your liking. Your arms were also bothering you, as you could only focus on the excess fat that was noticeable as you moved them. You probably were gonna look like a whale next to Eric and the thought made you uncomfortable mixed with embarrassed.

So that’s why you brought a t-shirt to swim in just incase you chickened out. There’s nothing wrong with having a shirt on in the pool. I mean, it’s normal! Though, you couldn’t help but feel ashamed that you felt like shielding yourself and not letting yourself wear that bikini freely. It was only going to be you two together, so why were you making it so complicated?

“Fucking hell.” you sharply inhaled and let out a heavy sigh. You stared deeply into the mirror one last time, picking at your skin as you had no makeup on. Another thing you felt insecure about. You always had makeup on around Eric, but this time you didn’t for obvious reasons. “Ugh, whatever.” you groaned out before finally leaving the bathroom, fed up with all this negativity you felt towards yourself.

I mean, why did you care so fucking much? You knew deep down that Eric would never judge you. Any normal person wouldn’t think so hard about going for a swim. This is a casual activity, why were you overthinking it?

You walked through Eric’s massive house towards his patio. You already knew the ropes around his house, since this wasn’t your first time here. Though, you had only been here for things like baking brownies on Friday nights and playing Super Mario Party on the Nintendo Switch, not for using the pool.

You reached the glass sliding door that opened the patio and led yourself outside. His patio lights were on, illuminating his backyard so that it wasn’t completely dark out. You spotted Eric sitting on one of the pool chairs, mindlessly scrolling through Instagram reels obnoxiously loud on his phone. He seemed to be passing time while waiting for you before he got into the pool.

“Hey, you.” you made your way over to where he was sitting with a smile on your face.

Eric perked up at the sound of your voice and abandoned his phone, twisting his body towards you. “Finally! I was seriously about to call you to ask what’s taking so long.” Eric mimicked your smile and adjusted his arms to where they were now leaning back behind him.

You felt a flush of heat wave over your body, not due to the humid summer night, but due to Eric’s appearance. His hair has been permed for a while now and you just can’t help but admire how good he looks in curly hair. His dark brown curls complemented his naturally tanned-skin so well. He’s also already shirtless, in nothing but a pair of blue swim shorts and a chain adorning his neck. He also had a cute bracelet around his wrist and small hoops that dangled from his ears as they always did. Every detail of him just looked so beautiful to you.

You mentally slap yourself for gawking at your best friend. You scoffed in response, “I don’t doubt that you would’ve.”

He chuckles as he rises from his chair, brows furrowing in confusion as his eyes run down the length of your body. “I thought you were changing into your bathing suit?” he asked curiously.

The tips of your ears go hot as he questions. You stare at him like a deer in headlights, fingers going down to fidget with the tips of your hair.

“Oh yeah, I just didn’t like how it looked at me.” you shyly admitted. You couldn’t lie to Eric over small matters. Even if you were embarrassed, you still felt complied to always be honest when he asks you something. Though, it was hard to have deep conversations with Eric because he was a guy— of which, you possibly have a small crush on. This was all new to you and you were still learning on how to navigate your friendship.

“Why?” he simply asked, staring at you, eyes full of concern. You bit your lip as he looked at you, your body starting to get a little tense.

“I dunno, I just am not used to wearing a swimsuit,” you shrugged. “I actually don’t go swimming often so I’m not used to wearing one. I typically would just wear a shirt like I am now.” You rubbed your left foot against your right ankle as you spoke, starting to feel awkward in having this conversation.

“Oh,” was all Eric said, starting to frown a bit but quickly shook his head and crossed his arms. “You know, I don’t care what you wear as long as it makes you comfortable, but right now, it’s just you and me here,” he subtly smiles. “We’re gonna be in the water having fun and cooling off. I don’t want to pressure you or anything, but you’re safe around me.” Eric reassures you and you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.

You half smile while looking down at your feet. “I know.” you simply agreed.

You suddenly look up at the feeling of his dominant hand now on your left shoulder, patting it reassuringly. “Y/n, you don’t have to be shy in front of me. We’re good friends, let’s be comfortable with each other, yeah?” His eyes were full of tenderness as you met his gaze. You pouted your lips playfully in attempt to not get sappy at his words.

He was right though. You just want to have fun and you’re letting your insecurities get the best of you. You know Eric isn’t an asshole. He never judges anyone’s appearance and you know he’s a sweetheart.

You nod your head as you take in his words. “Thanks Eric, really.” your face flushed as he shook his head.

“You don’t need to thank me. I know people wear shirts in the pool but when I picked you up earlier, you said you brought a swimsuit, so I figured you wanted to wear it. You don’t have to feel shy.”

He licks his lips and pauses for a moment before continuing, “You always look good.” Eric rubbed the back of his neck and shyly looked to the side as his voice faltered uttering that last part. Your lips parted slightly as you processed that compliment. The corner of your lips then curled upwards and you let out a soft chuckle.

“Okay, I guess you’ve convinced me. It’s just us, right?” you said rhetorically, sighing deeply. I mean, you were mainly going to be in the water anyways, so why trip over this?

Eric smiles seeing you finally deciding to remove your t-shirt, allowing your bikini to be worn properly. You toss the shirt onto the chair he was sitting at, and adjust your bathing suit top’s straps. He timidly looks away as you do, grabbing his phone to connect it to his speaker to play some music while you guys swim.

You start moving towards the pool, ready to finally do what you came here to do and allow yourself to enjoy this time. Eric looks back up at you dancing to the song he put on while making way into the pool, your locks of hair twirling around your back with each step. His gaze then ‘accidentally’ wanders down to your red bottoms, his cheeks flushing once realizing he’s checking you out.

Oh wow. he thinks to himself as he squeezes his eyes shut for a moment to tame his thoughts, rubbing his lips against each other. He then hears you call out to him that the water feels good and to come join him.

Eric puts his phone down and looks at you, your form hidden underneath water, splashing and gleaming as your body felt more relaxed now.

“I’m coming!” He shouts before he starts running towards your direction. You start grinning at his words because you have a dirty ass mind, but it immediately falters once you realize he’s gonna cannonball. Your brows knitted as he made way closer, both hands shielding your face and eyes closed once he plunges into the pool, creating splashes of waves in your direction.

“Eric!” you playfully scold him for of course having to jump into the pool like a maniac. You rub your face after the splashes drenched your face and hair, tucking your hair back behind your ears, sucking in a breath. Eric emerges from beneath the water breathing heavily, laughing as he sticks his tongue out, grazing it over the corner of his lip.

“You’re such a guy.” you scoff at him, rolling your eyes. Eric raises a brow and then begins to splash more water your way. “I’m only having fun!” Eric raises both hands from his sides, gesturing to the pool and cheekily smiling at you as he shakes his head gently.

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You two swam for about an hour. You guys tossed a beach ball for awhile, chatted about old gossip you always brought up when together, and even played mermaids upon your request— to which created plenty of laughter on your part seeing Eric take his role very seriously for awhile.

He then pleaded for you guys to race— which you initially declined, having no interest. He pouted at your disinterest, but started racing anyways. Water splashed all over your face for the nth time as he swam to the opposite end of the pool, leaving you behind sulking and rolling your eyes.

“I’m getting out!” you yelled and lifted yourself out the pool. Eric continued racing himself as you walked away to grab some towels nearby for the both of you. Once he made it to the end, he let out a sigh at your lack of desire to race. He clearly wanted to spend more time together in the water, but you were all tired out.

He sees your figure loosely drying your hair, and makes his way out the pool towards you. You met his gaze and nodded your head towards a towel you laid out for him. He silently thanked you and began drying himself, then wrapping it around his waist.

You ditched the now-damp towel you used for your hair and wrapped a fresh one around your figure, almost like a blanket. You both sat down together on one of the long pool chairs, soaking in the night while letting the air dry you guys some more.

“Do you wanna order some food? I’m really hungry,” Eric turns to look at you, your eyes meeting his at the sound of his voice.

“Yeah, before my stomach starts growling.” you chuckle as Eric smiles.

“Does pizza sound good? The usual, right?” Eric asks even though he’s already looking through his contacts, searching for the number of a local pizza place that has become a regular for you guys.

“Yes, please.” You cuddle into your towel as Eric calls the number, the pizza place answering after two rings.

He began ordering you guy’s usual and you can’t help but stare at him while he talks on the phone. His curly hair is wettish from all the swimming, some of the curls falling past his forehead. Every so often he’d toss his head a little to shake the hanging curls away from his eyes.

You just couldn’t help but admire how fine your best friend was. It was a crime that he walked around looking like a god. The jawline he had could probably leave a cut on your skin if you brushed against it with how defined it was. His side profile was beyond alluring and would make you double take when passing a glance. His beautiful, bronzed skin made him look so godly.

And he even had such a nice body. Eric frequented the gym, and his abs and muscles were definitely proof of that. He was proud of his body, and did his best to keep his prominent muscles defined by working on himself consistently. He was dripping with good looks.

Eric ends the call eventually and you’re ripped away from your wandering thoughts, crushing hard over your best friend.

“Whatcha thinking about?” Eric speaks in a playful tone, meeting your gaze after putting his phone down.

You awkwardly begin to laugh. “Just about how hungry I am.” you obviously lie.

Eric cocks his head and shoots you a grin. “You were staring at me, though.”

Your teeth began to tug on your bottom lip, before letting out another nervous laugh as you looked to the side.

“Well… I guess I was just waiting for you to finish ordering.” you replied nonchalantly, making a weak attempt at putting on a poker face even though you’ve already failed.

“You love spending time with me, huh? Can’t get enough of me?” Eric playfully hits your arm with his elbow, causing an ‘ow’ to escape your lips even though it barely hurt.

“Why do you always have to be such a tease?” you wrinkled your nose in question.

“‘Cause I like you,” Eric casually admits like nothing, his eyes having been scanning over your face this whole time since having ended the call.

Your lips parted as you blinked harshly, eventually letting free a forced laugh and your face forms a lopsided grimace.

“Can you be serious right now?” you scratched your head as you looked at Eric.

“I am.” Eric spoke softly, losing the playful tone completely.

He felt like he was gonna explode at his random confession. What you thought was harmless teasing was him actually flirting and him having romantic interest in you. You guys started out as friends but as time went on, he fell for you. After all the conversations and hangouts, he got to know you better and even from the first day, he thought you were such a pretty girl.

Though, he didn’t know when the proper time to confess was or if he even wanted to. You guys have such a solid friendship, and it seemed like you were fine with your stance.

Then again, you were very timid, so you often held back any talk involving feelings— at least with him. You weren’t the type to open up first. He usually had to question you to get an answer out of you— as much as you were willing to say, anyways.

“Like… as friends, right?” Confusion flooded your face as you hadn’t a clue of where he was going with this.

“Yeah, but… what if I said I meant it as more than that?” Eric had this hope-filled look clouding his face. He looked at you anticipating that you felt the same. Even at his random confession, he hopes that you can see how serious he is. That he didn’t just fuck up your friendship by making things weird and that you get the hint that he wants to be more with you.

“Okay— this is not funny. Literally, what are you going on about?” you scoffed and shook your head. You honestly couldn’t believe what he was alluding to. It just can’t be. No way in hell is Eric Sohn admitting that he likes you in that way. No damn way.

“I would never in my life joke about something like this, Y/n. I know this is out of no where— hell, I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to tell you because I already appreciate what I have with you.” Eric sucked in a breath before continuing. “But I selfishly want to be more. After all this time together, I just can’t help but wanna be able to hold you and call you my girlfriend every time I am around you.”

“I… I honestly think i’ve fallen in love with you.” Eric breathed out and swallowed hard as he looked at your now-incredulous expression, his own eyes widening as he realized what he just said. Your mouth’s open in shock as you blinked excessively, trying to blink away at your now-moist eyes.

“With me?” you laughed harshly at him and Eric’s lips turned down. “I think you’re mistaken.” your gaze shifted towards your feet as you continued. “You cannot love me in that way. I’m just… not perfect.” You’re in utter disbelief. You were way too insecure for your own good.

Of course you fucking loved him back. You tried to ignore it for so long, your stupid little crush on someone you accepted you couldn’t have because you felt that he was way out of your league and your status remained as just friends. He only saw you as a friend, you thought.

You were you and he was Eric fucking Sohn. He was on the baseball team, athletic, a gym rat, popular, out going, a sweetheart, and hot.

While you in comparison, stayed home most days you had zero obligations, barely had any hobbies, and had like 3 friends.

You felt unloveable because of how insecure you were. You didn’t think someone like you was capable of having romantic feelings reciprocated. You felt unworthy. Eric could easily bag an L.A. model if he wanted to. So why the fuck is he here saying he wants to be with you?

Eric blankly stares at you for a moment. His face has gone pale and he feels his throat getting tight. He’s trying to process what you have said. Where is all this coming from?

“You’re perfect to me.” Eric reaches out for your hand and you get goosebumps at the action. Your eyes shift to where your hand is now in his, his thumb stroking your skin gently.

“Eric…” you barely whisper before removing your hand from his hold, looking away and missing the sadness in his eyes at the loss of contact and rejection.

“You cannot be with someone like me… I mean, look at me and then look at you! You are fucking amazing, Eric!” you finally look at him to gesture your right hand at his figure. “You could have anyone in this world and you’re trying to tell me that you’re in love with me? Have you seen me?”

Tears well up in your eyes as you remove the towel you had draped around you from your body. Your fingers roam around your stomach and you harshly pull at your love handles. “This can’t be what you’re attracted to!” you swallow hard, feeling so vulnerable right now.

You felt ugly. Society has told you that you needed to lose weight to be loved. You needed to be slim or appear a certain way in order for everyone to be kind and pay any mind to you. Not many people bothered to get to know you. Even though Eric has been your friend for a while now, you still find it hard to believe someone as handsome as him wanted to be around someone like you.

No guy ever showed any desire in wanting to be with you romantically or physically, or even as a friend. All your friends with ease had people lining up to be with them and you felt so lonely. So unwanted.

Your whole existence, you’ve always felt unworthy and everyone’s last choice. You felt like something was wrong with you and you’ve sorted accepted it.

Eric sat in silence as he took in your words. He had no idea you felt this deeply about yourself, how you saw yourself in a negative light. He thinks back to when you came out in your shirt and said how you weren’t feeling yourself in your bikini which prompted you to come out covered. You were self conscious. He looked at you with distraught and teary eyes. He was heartbroken to hear you think so lowly of yourself when in his eyes, you were practically Aphrodite mixed with an angel.

“Y/n, I didn’t know you felt this way.” Eric’s eyes softened as you looked down to the concrete, feeling ashamed and embarrassed of yourself right now.

“I’m sorry if anyone has ever made you feel unworthy or uncomfortable to live as yourself. I’m sorry that you cannot see the beauty in yourself.” Eric choked out.

“But I promise you, that you are so beyond beautiful inside and out.” he licked his lips and shook his head. “You don’t understand how beautiful you are. How much I enjoy spending time with you. Why do you think I insist we hangout at least once a week?”

Eric lets out a chuckle which prompts you to look up at him. “After every hangout, or even after every class we had together, I was already longing for the next time we’d see each other. I’ve been desperate for you… you consume my thoughts, Y/n.”

Your face turns crimson as he says all this to you, processing his every word. It did begin to make sense. He’s the one who asked for your number first. He always invites you over to his home. He actually seems to care about you. You chew on your lip at the realization. You were so caught up in your own self consciousness.

You never have imagined that someone could love you in this way in reality.

Eric notices you begin to soften up a bit and his lips curl upwards. “I like that you can handle my silly antics and loudness, and always laugh instead of seriously being annoyed. I like that you have such a kind heart, and are always willing to make time for others— even if that means sacrificing your own obligations and time.” Eric looked at you in adoration, like a puppy in love. You have to admit, your heart swells at his words, and it brings a slight smile to your face.

“Oh come on, you’re so cheesy.” you playfully slap Eric’s hand as you sniffle.

He bites his lower lip and rubs his chin before continuing, “I also like when you have your hair up in a ponytail and leave two strands out on either side. I don’t see you with your hair up often, so I get excited when you do have it up.” You grab a piece of your hair and begin to play with it, face flushed as he keeps going.

“And,” he pauses for a brief moment, blushing as he whispers the next part. “I like it when I see you and I can tell you’re not wearing a bra.”

You drop the strand of hair and look at him with wide eyes, face full of sudden shock. Are you hearing correctly?

“Your nipples are always so hard, baby.” he chuckles as his gaze moves towards your chest.

“Even now, I can see them poking through,” he nods his head at your breasts. You look down and move your hands onto your chest, feeling your nipples through the top. You glance back up at Eric, a cheeky smile plastered on his face.

“Was that cheesy, too?” he questions, tilting his head to the side, shit eating grin smothering his face.

“Eric!” you scold the boy and mischievously hit his arm for suddenly admitting he stares at your breasts often. Though, your thighs instinctively press together at his lewd words, face still crimson.

Your best friend has admitted all these things to you. He sees you the way you see him, and it all feels like a hallucination. You usually feel so insecure, but he sees you like gold. You’re nothing but stunned right now.

Eric laughs as he wraps an arm around you, making you shiver at the sudden contact.

His hand reaches over your shoulder, accidentally brushing over close to your breast, resulting in you jolting at the sudden action as you felt sensitive to the touch.

Eric immediately removes his hand and leans back. “Shit, sorry!” he doesn’t hesitate to say. He’s embarrassed at his attempt in being smooth. He doesn’t want to scare you off.

“It’s fine.” you shyly speak. You have to admit, you were getting a bit turned on. After him showering you in compliments and confessions, you were now slowly accepting that he actually does want you in the same way you’ve fantasized over him.

Not only does he seem to like you for your personality, but also physically.

“No it’s not. I don’t know why I thought touching you like that without permission was okay. You’re still vulnerable.” Eric feels guilty and moves his eyes to look away from you in embarrassment. You haven’t even responded on whether or not you accept his feelings. I mean, you seem fine now.

Of course your insecurities won’t disappear overnight, but you looked more relaxed. He just hopes you don’t feel the need to shy away from him anymore.

“Eric…” you softly speak. He looks up at you curiously, humming as your eyes are already on him, looking at him softheartedly.

“I love you, too.” you murmur tenderly.

Eric’s heart suddenly starts beating fast. He adjusts his posture and a smile creeps up to his face as he registers your words for a moment.

“Are you serious?” he looks at you excitedly with flashing eyes.

“One thousand percent.” you gain the confidence to reach over to run your thumb along his cheek, taking your time to caress him. Eric feels the hair on his skin begin to stand up as you touch him intimately. His eyes shut as you take in his face, feeling it for the first time.

You smile at how cute he looks, softening under just the touch of your thumb.

“I’ll be yours if you’ll have me.” Eric states, his eyes opening to look at your own glistening ones. His face leans into your touch, feeling so good that you’re finally embracing him like this.

“Of course I’ll be your girlfriend.” you look up at him lovingly.

His heart swells at this moment. The moment he’s been longing for, where he can finally call you his.

Eric is going to make sure you feel loved every second of the day from now on.

He removes your hand from his face and holds it gently within his own. With his other hand, it is now his turn to stroke your face with his warm palm. You swallow as you feel yourself melting like ice at his hot touch.

Eric is so close to you, yet so far. You have him now, so that means you can do all the things you’ve longed for with him.

“I want you to k— kiss me.” you suddenly blurt out, gaining trust to do so.

Eric pauses his delicate strokes against your cheek, and looks at you in surprise.

“I’ve never kissed anyone before.” you shyly admitted. You fluttered your eyelashes at him and stared at him pleadingly. “Please teach me, Eric.”

Eric swears he feels his dick twitch at your eagerness. With a simple sentence, his brain feels like it’s on fire. Oh how he’s longed to kiss your pink lips for what seems like forever.

Your innocence is cute, he thinks. How you’re willing to open up to him like this. How you are allowing yourself to let him love you in this way.

“You’re so precious.” Eric breathes out as he begins caressing your cheek again. You look at his eyes that carry a sense of longing as he scans your face, soaking up your features.

“We can take it slow.” Eric murmurs and you nod.

Eric’s thumb moves to your bottom lip, tracing the lines and feeling how plump it is. Your palms began to sweat in anticipation, and your heart rate increases at the build up.

Your eyes are open still, watching him curiously as he grazes his thumb over your lower lip gently, which makes his own heart flood in an ocean of warmth.

Eric’s thumb drops and his dominant hand moves to gently cup your jaw. His other hand pulls you closer against his chest, hand now resting on your side. You slightly shiver at his touch, fingers dancing over your love handles.

“You can touch me too, baby.” Eric nods at you, seeing you’re a bit tense and don’t really know what to do even though you so desperately want to feel his lips on yours already.

You hesitantly place your hand over his chest, rubbing the area carefully. Your fingers graze over his nipple and his eyes immediately shut at the feeling. He inhales sharply at your movements, and you can’t help but chuckle seeing him affected like this just by your touch.

Your other hand rests on the back of his neck along the nape, beginning to tangle your fingers in his curls and it feels like home for the both of you.

You don’t know what to do next, so you just continue combing through his hair. Though, you finally close your eyes, signaling to him that you’re ready for a kiss.

Eric’s lips curl upwards at how cute this is— you waiting for him to take the lead. He finds you very endearing like this.

He caresses your side as he slowly pulls your jaw close. Your lips separate faintly while he does so, awaiting for your lips to meet.

His eyes shut as he captures your bottom lip within his lips. He tilts your head ever so slightly so that you don’t bump noses, and your fingers messily fidget with the nape of his neck as he gently sucked your balmy lip.

Eric’s lips against yours feels electric. You allow him to guide you and you slowly get the hang of it, you soon after kissing him back. The kiss feels so magical. The feeling of his lips against yours sends sparks all throughout your body. You feel as with every movement his lips make against yours, you’re bound to explode like a firework at the passionate sensation.

You lose yourself in his lips, his hands soothing your body in the process, and nothing else matters except for Eric Sohn kissing you.

He pulls back for a moment, and you both stare at each other in awe at what you’ve shared. Eric suddenly lifts his rear off the chair for a bit, removing the towel he had wrapped around his waist and tosses it on the ground. He then decides to pull you over his lap, seating you on top of him with your legs wrapped around him. Your mouth opens agape at the action, your hands moving to his shoulders to steady yourself.

“Am I not too heavy for this?” you cringe, feeling like you can’t even be in this position for a second before it gets uncomfortable for Eric’s hold.

“Nonsense— you fit perfectly, baby.” Eric says. He spreads his legs a bit to make it more comfortable for you.

His hand rests on your back, fingers rubbing it soothly. His fingers trace the valleys of your stretch marks that decorate your lower back, and he smiles at the feeling of your skin.

“S’ gorgeous.” he murmurs, your cheeks heat up in response. Eric’s lips lean in to press against your pink cheeks, leaving tender, wet kisses all over your face. “You’re such a pretty girl.” he announces as you giggle at his affection towards you.

You crave for his lips on you again, so you take the risk of moving to glide your tongue over his bottom lip, begging to be invited in his mouth for seconds. A groan of satisfaction vibrates through Eric’s chest and he lets you in. Your tongues greet each other as your lips enveloped. A moan escapes your throat at feeling the wetness of his tongue against your own. You’ve suddenly lost your inhibitions after hearing all of Eric’s praises and tasting his pillowy lips. This kiss was sensual, becoming all hot and breathy in desire for one another.

Eric’s teeth gently graze over your bottom lip and you can’t help but move your body from the pleasure, resulting in you grinding down on Eric’s lap.

You pull back for a breath and your heart misses a beat as you feel something hard press against the fabric of your bottoms. You gasp at the foreign feeling.

“Shit, I’m sorry.” Eric breathes out and goes to pet your hair. “We can stop if you want, just tell me.” Eric says, face turning red.

One of your hands moves to fiddle around his neck, admiring the chain that rested against his collarbones. You bat your eyelashes as you rub yourself against Eric’s crotch again, eliciting a deep groan out of him, his eyes drawn shut from your actions. You bite your lip at the stimulation it brought to your core. There’s a strange feeling growing in the pit of your stomach. This was all new to you, so it was very thrilling.

You lean over his neck and tenderly begin peppering kisses all over, his hips bucking up at the feeling of your mouth on his sweet spot.

“Mhm.” you whimper at the friction of his bulge against your core, which captivates Eric. The sound of your pretty moans and the way your body responds to him has blood rushing straight to his cock.

“What are you doing, princess?” Eric gently pulls you back from his neck, looking at your desperate eyes with his own, wetting his lips with his tongue.

You continue to rub your core against his crotch as he introduces that nickname. Your arms wrap around his neck and your fingers get lost in his curls once again.

“You like when I call you that, huh?” Eric nods his head at you, smirk prevalent on his face.

You whine at his teasing, hiding your face in his neck. “Eric…” you announce.

“Hm?” he hums, rubbing your back soothingly.

You pull back from his neck to look at him. He presses his lips together as you bashfully look at him. Your lips part in wanting to say something, but you hesitate in doing so, moving your gaze away from his own.

“What is it, baby?” Eric coos as he cups your jaw. “You can tell me.” he encourages you since you’ve suddenly gone shy.

“I— I want to taste you, Eric.” you practically whisper to him.

He chuckles, “You want more kisses?”

He sees you cutely furrow your brows with lips slightly pouted, gently shaking your head. “I don’t mean like that. I mean like… let me help you out.” with heavy lidded eyes, you gesture towards his manhood.

Eric’s lips gape slightly as it registers what you’re saying. He cannot believe what he’s hearing. You have no experience and yet you’re beyond eager. You’re so needy for him and it is fucking turning him on. He could probably cum right now in his swim shorts just from the kissing and grinding.

But, he doesn’t want you to rush into things so suddenly in the heat of the moment. He wants your firsts to be perfect. Even if you guys knew inside that you trust one another, he still wants to be sure.

“Y/n, let me take you on a date first at least, hm?” Eric rubs your thigh gingerly. “I don’t want you to do anything just because i’m hard right now. We can wait until you’re ready.” Eric softly smiles.

You’re still pouting, and let out a huff of frustration at his words. “I just want to taste it.” you whine out while your hips rut down into his, which draws a moan out of Eric, his fingers pressing deeply into your thigh in response. You sigh at the feeling.

“I’ve dreamed about giving you head since I met you.” you confess as you continue, drunk off the feeling of his cock through the thin pieces of fabric. “I promise I want to, Eric. It’s all I want to do tonight. We don’t have to go further than that— it’s what i’m comfortable with for now. We can save all the other stuff for another time. But right now, I just wanna please you if you’ll let me.” you babble, giving him pleading eyes and he see’s how bad you want it.

He wonders what happened to you being coy not that long ago— not that he’s complaining or anything, but you’re now feening over him. This feels like a dream. You wanted to please him so bad and he just could never say no to you, not in a million years.

He would be a fool to turn you down.

He lets out a deep sigh and tsks, his hands snaking around to grip your hips to keep you steady. “Okay, princess. I’d hate to ever say no to you.” Eric goes to chase your lips, sealing the deal. The kiss has you mewling into his mouth and he gulps hard at your noise.

You pull back from his lips and go to leave a tender kiss on the corner before he helps you get off his lap. You stand up as he stays seated, curiously watching your movements. You crouch down and your hands are on the towel Eric tossed earlier, starting to spread it neatly on the ground so your knees can rest over it.

“Here?” Eric questions as you get on your knees and your eyes lock. He bites back a groan as he has to now look down to meet your eyes, seeing you on the ground all submissive on your knees with your cleavage perfectly on display. It has him screaming internally.

“Yeah.” you say as you begin to stroke Eric’s knee. “I’m too impatient to go inside.”

Eric laughs and bends forward to press a kiss on your forehead, your nose scrunching cutely as his lips make contact against your skin. His hands then goes to cup your cheeks. “I’ll be as gentle as possible and guide you if you need it. Just tap my thighs or tell me if you want to stop. Okay, baby?”

“Okay.” you say and nod your head. Eric’s lips give you one last kiss on the corner of your mouth, and he lets you go.

You swallow hard, mentally questioning yourself on how you want to go about this. Eric watches you, smirking as he can practically see the wheels turn on your head. He’ll guide you, but only if he sees you struggling or if you ask for it. He wants to see what you can do, since you seem to be so eager for his cock.

You begin by inching a bit closer to his crotch, just between his knees. Your hands move to touch his abdomen, running your fingers along the defined lines of his abs. Your lips pucker up as you press hot kisses along his stomach, appreciating how beautiful Eric’s build was. Eric’s dominant hand goes to rest in your locks, massaging your scalp as you kiss his tummy.

“You like my body, baby?” a smug look is present on Eric’s face as he says so.

“You’re beautiful,” you breathe out shamelessly, pausing when you’ve gotten closer to the skin just below his belly button.

You soon remove yourself and he lets his hand fall while your hands move to the waistband of his swim shorts. You play with the fabric a bit in nervousness, still figuring out how you’re going to approach this sensual act and wondering if Eric will be satisfied with your performance.

You finally tug his shorts down and fully off. His cock then immediately flops up against his abdomen, slapping the skin.

You gasp at first sight of his cock. It’s pretty lengthy and fat, erect with precum residing on his tip. You gulped as Eric’s right hand moves over to his shaft, beginning to stroke himself as he nibbles on his bottom lip. With pursed lips you look at him, feeling tingly and flushed all over as he makes eye contact with you while he touches himself.

“You wanna touch it?” Eric raises a brow as he slicks his cock in his wetness. You’re salivating at the sight of his naked form playing with himself. He looks so pretty on display like this for you.

He lets go of himself and you finally start to test the waters, hesitantly grabbing the base of his cock and stroking the skin. Eric hisses once he feels your small hand over his base. “Fuck, baby.”

You bite back a smile at his reaction and you start to give the tip kitten licks while rubbing the underside of his cock with your thumb. The taste of his precum lands on your tongue, causing Eric to purr in pleasure.

“Starting off as such a tease.” he mumbles while his legs instinctively spread to give you more room and his left arm goes behind the back of his neck and head, giving you a perfect view of the little sailboat and paw print tattoos that decorate his bicep. So fucking hot, you think to yourself.

You experimentally press your tongue along the underside of his cock, gliding it over a vein all the way up towards his tip, then deciding to take the head of it in your mouth.

A hearty groan rips from Eric’s throat as he feels all these sensations, and you begin to bob your head over a bit of his length, your hand jerking off the rest of his shaft.

“Breathe through your nose, baby, and hollow your cheeks.” he advises you between breathy moans.

You slowly challenge yourself to go deeper, coating his cock with your saliva. Eric is entranced by the slurping sounds that start to escape your lips and becomes drunk off the feeling of your warm mouth encompassing his cock.

His eyes shut while his hips can’t help but buck into your mouth at the feeling. You choke at the sudden movement, removing your mouth and gasping for air, sobbing out a moan as his length pops out your mouth.

“Fuck, princess. Mhm— sorry, can’t help myself.” Eric chuckles, licking his lips as his hand falls into your hair, caressing it gently and keeps it from falling around your face.

Your eyes meet and you hold contact, both of your eyes each going dark with lust while you take him in your mouth again, your left hand running up and down on what you can’t fit while your right decides to rest on his balls, beginning to massage and fondle them.

“That’s it, baby! What a good girl, playing with my balls without being asked. Hmm— you’re an angel.”

Eric praises you and your moans vibrate around his length in response. Your sucking starts to become more enthusiastic at his praises. You remember to curl your lips over your top teeth so they don’t touch him when you start to feel confident to take him deeper.

Eric’s gaze is fixated down on you as you bob your head, being such a brave girl and taking as much of him as you can. Your head rotates from side to side while sucking him, and your right hand is still rubbing circles along his balls, groping them and loving how heavy they feel in your hold.

Eric can’t help but grip your hair a bit tight as your mouth is driving his body insane. You gag around him as you take a bit more than you’re able and he carefully pulls you off. You cry out as you breathe in the fresh air, a string of saliva still connecting your lips with his cock. Eric growls seeing his cock coated in your saliva and his precum, and then moves his vision towards your mouth, your own spit now raining down your chin.

You inhale sharply as you give your mouth a short break and your right hand starts to jerk him off, feeling the wetness of his shaft glaze your hand.

“You’re s’ so big, Eric.” you whine and your lips stay parted, running your tongue along the inside of your mouth. “Jaw is starting to hurt.” you whimper as you look up and flutter your lashes at him, throwing your head back, thighs squeezed together as you tighten your hold around his cock.

“Just a little longer, baby. Getting close.” Eric coos and guides your lips back to his cock again. You run his tip all over your lips like a lipstick, humming in satisfaction at the wetness. You want nothing more than to drown in his essence.

Although your jaw is growing tired, you’re desperate to make him cum. You force your mouth to open wider and bob up and down as far as you can, sucking more of him as much as your mouth can handle.

The suction and slurping noises start to become more frequent from you as you pick up the pace. Eric’s breathing becomes more ragged at your rhythms and pretty sounds.

“Mhm, fuck! Getting close princess— where do you want my cum?” his brows furrow as he peers down at you, tears beginning to form in your eyes when you bring his head far back enough to trigger your gag reflex.

You start to get sloppy with your movements and meet his gaze with your own pleading eyes as he attempts to pull you back by your hair, though, your left hand finds purchase on his base and your right hand’s fingers dig deep onto the skin of his leg.

He laughs in seeing you not having any desire to come off him, “So this is what you meant when you said you were hungry earlier, hm? Can’t believe my pretty, perfect girl wants me to cum in her mouth for her first time. So fucking hot.” Eric’s cock twitches and balls tighten up once he’s approaching his release, brows knitting together and mouth agape, beginning to whimper in overstimulation.

“Mhm— Eric!” you muffle around his cock while your pussy throbs from listening to his pretty sounds leaving his lips as a result of you and from his fat length twitching in your mouth.

You continue to suck and jack off sloppily what you can’t fit, and before you know it, his hot, creamy load coats your tongue and paints your mouth white.

Eric’s head is thrown back, abs and jaw clenching as his release creates spasms throughout his entire body, sighing your name over and over weakly like a mantra.

His cum feels hot, thick, and sticky in your mouth. His release tastes slightly sweet, and you swirl and swish it around your mouth before swallowing as much as you can.

Your eyes are heavy lidded as you gently suck the head of his cock like a lollipop in attempt to drink up every last drop of his cum. You bring your lips to the tip and kiss it a few times, rubbing his balls tenderly to soothe him.

“Atta’ girl. Good fucking girl.” Eric praises you, groaning with a raspy voice.

You huff out a breath as you remove yourself entirely from his length. Wetness from tears decorates your eyelashes and stains your cheeks, vision somewhat blurred from all the work you put on his cock. Drool mixed with Eric’s cum is dripping down your lips and chin, and you continue to let spit fall, your mouth open with eyes closed as you try to calm yourself.

Looking at you, Eric feels numb in the head seeing you all fucked in the face from his cock. What a gorgeous sight.

After a few seconds, you both slowly start to calm down your uneven breathing. Your hand goes to wipe off whatever is left on your face, but not before Eric tuts at you and carefully hoists you up against him, his lips attaching against your own in a beat of his heart. Both of your lips move hungrily in sync and you moan into the kiss.

“You did so well, princess. You were such a good girl for me. The most perfect girl, and all mine.” he growls in between kisses as he tastes your saliva mixed with his own cum, and places you on his lap. Your hands go to wrap around his neck and one of his hands smooths over the fat of your middle, massaging it lovingly while his other hand rests on your neck. You shift a bit as he does so, gasping once you become aware of how damp and creamy your bottoms are. Eric seems to feel your wetness over his dick, grinning as the tip of your ears turn red and your cheeks flush pink in embarrassment.

“Aw, my pretty girl is all soaked ‘cause of me?” his hand goes to play with the flesh of your ass and you whine at his words. He kisses your cheeks sweetly and nuzzles his nose against your own. His heart feels so full to be so close to you like this. To have you in his arms and sharing intimate moments is a dream come true. You feel the same as he embraces you and is so gentle to you, feeling so loved by your best friend turned boyfriend.

“Can’t wait to take you on a date and treat you like the princess you are.” he whispers. “Then, when you’re ready, i’ll be sure to make you cum as hard as you made me. Sound’s good, baby?” Eric murmurs and you grab a hold of his chin, ready to plant another kiss on his lips before the sound of a ring causes you both to jolt up.

Eric groans, eyes rolling back in annoyance as he twists his head to see that it’s his phone ringing. You press a quick kiss to his jawline as he answers it, massaging his scalp while he talks on the phone.

“Hello… Oh, you’re here?— I’ll be right out!… Sorry to keep you waiting… Okay thanks, bye!”

“Shit, the pizza’s here.” Your eyes go wide as you register the call and his words and you quickly get off Eric. He rushes to put on his swim shorts and immediately bolts inside to get the food at the front door, leaving you outside by yourself.

You laugh at how fast he scurries off and then you sigh at the feeling of your bottoms sticking to your core within all the wetness. “I hope he lets me borrow a pair of boxers or something.” you say out loud to yourself as you make your way inside, ready to dig into some real food.

As much as Eric’s meat filled your mouth up nicely, you could use a couple slices of pizza to now fill up your empty stomach.

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[smutoperator]

Is there any idol or idols that you particularly enjoy writing? If so, what's the reason?

Excellent question, Elysia. Before I give an specific answer I'll give a generic one: I really enjoy writing idols that are over 30 years old, because they allow for more mature stories and idols from 2nd generation groups, to introduce them to new audiences. It's the whole reason I created my Legends series: to pay homage to them.

Now on to specific idols

Karina leads all idols in appearances in my fics. I really liked creating a character development that matches her own evolution as an idol, slowly growing into a more mature personality. It also helps she's quite popular and got really big tits.

Sana is a very fun idol to write because you can combine her duality of being a cute girl and an alluring vixen at the same time and create very volcanic stories.

Yuna fits perfectly with stories where you just let her loose and do her thing to create an unstoppable force of sexiness.

Chaewon was the subject of my first fic here and I love to highlight her transformation since joining Le Sserafim, going from the cute pie in Izone to the sexy killer of today.

Yeji is a perfect fit for stories where she's the dominant alpha woman and pushses everybody around her to the maximum. Love write about her.

Momo just fits perfectly for any mindless hardcore scene where you just use her hot body for your pleasure until you get completely drained

Eunbi is obviously my ult and the personification of a mommy. She hasn't even turned 30 yet but I already have placed her in my mommy pedestal and love writing any scene where she showcases her strong personality and big assets

I know it's very stereotypical to write Somi as bratty blonde bimbo but she fits the role perfectly and that makes writing any smut of her quite hot.

Last but not least is an idol that I think following the evolution of her will lead to some very enjoyable stuff to write about. Obviously talking about Wonyoung. I have done 3 fics with her already but I feel we're just starting to see her full potential. She's already a legend but is only going to grow bigger and I'm ready to register it.

[ppixienous]

YOUR BIGGEST FAN, joe burrow

pairings ➸ onlyfans!joe burrow x roommate!reader

warnings ➸ au, sex working, mentions of twitter, light smut, joe being a bit of a perv (?), roommate!reader's nickname is angel, joe with another woman (spookyyy).

a/n ➸ pleaseeee realize and understand that this a AU (alternative universe) where joe is a OF star, this fictional work has nothing to do with how joe acts and/or does irl. so please don’t start 😭 i just thought this would be cute and fun to write (which it was !) bon appetit! let me know if you would like to be tagged on future works! (ohh and much love to @raveszn for fueling my writing juices! MUAH!)

tags ➸ @raveszn

✮ onlyfans!joe who just happened to be bored and curious one day, and wondered what it was like to have an active onlyfans. 

✮ onlyfans!joe got a rush from the attention his first video received, quickly blowing up to a trending topic on of.

✮ onlyfans!joe who never once showed his face in that (or any) video(s), but people couldn’t get enough of him. besides maybe 2 or 3 videos, he was normally by himself. his fans love how intimate his videos are, how desperate he sounds asking “can i cum?”, and how gorgeous his sweat-soaked body looked underneath the warm pink lights.

✮ onlyfans!joe who can’t help but to imagine his pretty roommate everytime he pleases himself on and off camera.  

✮ onlyfans!joe whose mind is his greatest enemy (and biggest supporter) when it came to his roommate. “good morning, joey,” angel says sweetly with a smiling painting her face. 

“good morning, angel,” his eyes lazily ran along her body. the curve of her ass going into the dip of her legs. the things he would do to have those legs wrapped around his head. the cold air surrounding the kitchen causing her nipples to poke through her already thin shirt met his eyes. 

✮ onlyfans!joe who imagined what it would be like if his tongue ran against her nipples. what it would be like when he sucked against them, his lips wrapping on top of her skin. what it would be like having her sweet moans captured on his camera. 

✮ onlyfans!joe who slipped up one night during a shoot and muttered angel’s name as one hand slid over his tip and the other occupied his mouth, his teeth biting down on his finger, so he wouldn’t wake her. 

✮ onlyfans!joe who smiled down at his phone seeing the love and praise he got from his biggest supporter, swxxtangel. there was something quite familiar and warm about this supporter. they’ve only conversed through chats and comments, though never seeing each other over the phone, joe enjoyed every little interaction he had with her. 

✮ onlyfans!joe who didn’t know his favorite supporter was the same exact person that lived 10 steps down from his door. 

weeks ago, angel tossed and turned in her bed, unable to get her usual midday nap. her mind kept replaying her memory of joe earlier in the day. fresh out the shower, damp hair clinging to the bottom of his forehead, a white linen towel hanging dangerously low off of his hips. that same towel hugging the silhouette of his dick. the more he walked, the more his towel shifted down, she felt. 

she’s scrolled on tiktok, watched mindless reality tv, attempted to do push ups (with no athletic bone in her body), even reading a toji fic on tumblr (that was useless, it just made her hornier). 

angel whined as her clit throbbed against her pink cotton panties. her fingers found a their way to twitter, an app she swore to give up for good. scrolling and scrolling, she felt like she couldn’t find any good videos. irksome moaning, painful looking sex, and just downright sloppy (and not in the good way). starting to feel like her attempts were futile, one last swipe she stumbled upon a video of a couple.

their room looks so familiar. odd…

their bodies meshed together almost perfectly, almost. the man kept his palms on the cusp of the woman’s ass as he brought her up and slowly brought her down. you could hear small noises of them kissing, him humming against her lips as her moans bounced off the walls of the room. “i feel you baby. give it all to me, cum on my dick.”

her body shook against his body as he slid his hands around her waist, holding her close, “i got you baby, i got you.” as the same time as the woman, angel came undone. her breathing uneven as she pulled her hand out of her panties, softly grazing the wet spot she left in them. the way the man spoke to and fucked the woman had angel imaging that it was her. the couple kissed once more in the video, content with what they created. angel’s eyes fluttering, she wished that it was her lips and body against his own. there was something about him…

✮ onlyfans!joe who heard angel’s soft moans from the living room. he felt like such a perv stroking his cock to it, but to him it was like music to his ears. he couldn’t help but imagine what she was doing to herself. he didn’t hear a soft buzz come from her room, so he knew it wasn’t her rose toy she kept tucked away in her bottom drawer. oh how he wished it was his fingers circling her clit instead of hers.

✮ onlyfans!joe who quickly got himself together after hearing her door slowly creak open. he didn’t get to finish before she opened her door, he was left with a hard dick that painfully poked against his sweats, a pillow on top of it and his heart beating outside of his chest. angel, with the smile that drove joe insane, walked out and decided to sit next to him, unbeknownst to what was underneath the decorative pillow. “i thought you would be taking a nap by now,” joe breathed out, the heaviness of his balls and her tight tank top leaving nothing to the imagination driving him insane.

angel shrugged and looked at him, “guess i’m not tired anymore, joey. let’s watch a movie, hmm?”

✮ onlyfans!joe who knew that one day or the other angel was going to be his.

[feyhunter78]

I just found your page and I totally didn’t read all of your Miguel O’Hara fics. One I love how you write kissing you caught that spark off a kiss with someone you love in a way most books don’t get right.

I can’t sit here and sing your praise all day but I do have a question. Fully up to you and if it’s just a Drabble that ok but will you ever being writing something else for Side walk kisses? It’s so cute and I can see more moments with Miguel and Y/N just being silly cute mindless college students so helplessly in love. Fluff smut angst whatever you decide to Drabble in I will be fully ok with

(This is the first time I’ve done an ask so sorry I I seem a little over excited)

AHHH I love when I'm people's first asks, it always makes me feel so special!!! I thought I'd try my hand at a bit of angst for you anon!

Insecurities

You know you shouldn’t be jealous. Shouldn’t feel bad about yourself, shouldn’t be debating making up some excuse and dashing off to the humanities building to rid yourself of this pit in your stomach like a snake sheds its skin.

But that would require leaving Miguel alone with Xina, and you think you’d rather die than do that. So, you’re stuck in the courtyard right outside the library, holding onto Miguel’s bicep possessively as you struggle to keep up with the flow of conversation.

Now you wouldn’t say you’re an insecure person, sure you have your insecurities like everyone else, but they don’t plague your mind, or weigh heavily on you as you go about your day-to-day business. Right now, though? As you take in Xina, her long thick dark hair, her stunning almond eyes that sparkle with intelligence, the flawlessness of her skin, the way she so easily keeps up with Miguel as they discuss the intersection between genetics and robotics, you’re feeling pretty insecure.

“That’s exactly what I was thinking, when making your calculations you have to factor in the deficiencies in the code, just as you have to factor in potential genetic flaws.” Xina says, a smile tugging at the edge of her lips, excitement clear on her face.

“Of course, with genetics it’s harder to eradicate flaws than in code, but I could see it following a similar pattern.” Miguel responds, nodding at her words.

You’re so lost. If they wanted to discuss the intricacies of the English language or the way philosophers can so heavily affect the development of a nation’s culture you would be there, front row and ready, but science? Science is not your forte.

Xina laughs and smacks Miguel’s arm, pulling you out of your thoughts, Miguel is laughing too so you do the same which draws her attention to you.

“Oh, y/n, I’m so sorry, we’ve been so rude, what do you think?” She asks, and you can’t tell if she’s genuinely curious, or just hates you.

You stumble for a moment, then say, “I agree with Miguel.”

She laughs again. “You think Charles Darwin would be a good computer programmer?”

Miguel joins in, and for the first time ever his laughter sounds sour to your ears.

“Oh, um, no, I just—”

Xina smiles sympathetically at you, but it feels a bit patronizing. “It’s okay, not everyone can keep up with us.”

Okay, maybe running and hiding was a good idea.

“Y/N is actually top of her sorority for GPA, she’s read more books than anyone else I know, and she helps me write all my lab reports.” Miguel jumps in.

“That’s so cute.” Xina coos, looking at you as if you were a kindergartener presenting her with a crayon scribbled drawing.

You give her a tight smile, then squeeze Miguel’s bicep. “Hey, I’m gonna head to class, but I’ll see you later?”

He nods, and lets you go, reabsorbed in his conversation with Xina.

You toy with the bracelet Miguel got you as you sit at your desk, waiting for class to start. It’s a pretty thing, a birthday present, simple and elegant, highlighting your birthstone, the words, mi dulce, engraved on the inside in a small, flowy script. It jingles pleasantly as you mess with it, and glints under the florescent lights.

“The professor isn’t here yet, right?” Kelsey slides into her desk next to you and starts unpacking her bag.

“No, he’s running a little late.” You say, absentmindedly shading one corner of the blank page in your notebook with your pencil.

“Okay, good because I have something kinda fucked up to show you.” She says, pulling out her phone and scrolling until she finds what she’s looking for.

You lean towards her, the thought of gossip perking you up a bit.

“So, you know that Ava girl, the bitch who used to date your man?”

“I wish I didn’t, but yes.” You grumble, feeling that familiar gloom settle back over you.

“Okay well she’s been trying to get with this Kappa Sig, and you know how the brothers are like obsessed with me because my brother is their president and an absolute legend as they always remind me.”

“Yeah, it’s the reason we got into their parties freshman year.”

Kelsey’s brother was a decent guy, all things considered. Older than you two by a year or so, with the charisma of a cult leader but lacking the desire to start a cult. Throughly satisfied with his fraternity and the Fortune 500 company he’ll go on to work at once he graduates. He was nice enough, extending his protection to you and anyone else close to his sister while in the Kappa Sig house.

“So, one of them texted me about her trying to sleep her way through the frat, but then, my brother sent me this video. I gotta warn you, it’s not school appropriate.” She says as she slowly turns the screen towards you.

At first, you recoil. It’s Ava, half naked, and some guy, on a bed that looks vaguely familiar. The guy’s face is out of the frame, but he’s shirtless, his pants pushed down exposing his dick to the camera, Ava’s hand wrapped around it pumping furiously. “Um, what the fuck is this?”

“Just wait.” Kelsey says quietly, glancing around the room to make sure no one else is watching. They’re not, they’re too busy with their own phones or side conversations.

You half watch the video, feeling weird about watching, your idea of a good time isn’t watching your boyfriend’s psycho ex jack some guy off.

The guy finishes, his hips bucking and Ava saying something you can’t hear since Kelsey’s sound is off.

The camera shakes as Ava picks it up and shows off the face of the man. Dark hair, glazed brown eyes with hints of crimson, perfectly formed lips parted. You know that face, but you don’t want to accept it.

“Is that Miguel?” You’re horrified, sick to your stomach, head spinning, every unpleasant feeling and sensation you could feel erupting all at once.

You can see Ava go to grab his face, guide him lower, moving to take off her underwear, and you turn your head, unable to watch any longer.

“I’m sorry, I don’t know when it was filmed, but Darren said he had one of the brothers send it to him yesterday then made all of them delete the video from their phones. He knows Miguel’s your boyfriend, said he was just looking out for you.” Kelsey puts away her phone and looks at you, eyes searching your face, before giving you a one-armed hug. “I’m so sorry y/n, I can ask him to see if he can find out when it was filmed?”

You want to cry, you really, really want to cry. “It looks recent, that’s Miguel’s bed, I’ve been there, I’ve slept on that bed, I—I can’t think about this right now. Thank you for telling me, and tell your brother I said thanks too.”

Kelsey nods and squeezes you tighter before letting go and giving you a sad smile.

The professor finally shows up, and you throw yourself into your notetaking, graphite digging into the pristine white paper as you try to drown out the images in your head with the sound of your professor droning on.

Part 2 here!!!

TL: @bat-bae, @nyctophilic0vitnir, @smokeywhalee, @obi-mom-kenobi, @prowlingforfood, @penggion, @crystal-crax, @oharasfilipinawife, @generalkenobitrash, @melsimps, @chrishy973, @farrowroyale, @palesatan, @scaryplanetdestroyer, @denzmallows, @36namey, @scoobysnakz, @ihateuguys, @idkbros-world @smartyren, @deputy-videogamer, @blackrose8425, @amberpanda99, @marshhbs, @queerponcho

[solar-wing]

okay, just so you guys know...

I'm still working on Shadowing Nightwing. Just making edits and doing my best to tone down the length because it's well over 40k words and I–... I just can't.

Also, I'm trying to make sure that it's good and spicy enough for what y'all are expecting, but also something that won't get taken down on patreon, tumblr, etc. the literal second it's up—because again, it's spicy. Honestly, what I might end up doing is posting the first part of it, and then doing what I did with 'One Kent Was Enough,' linking the rest of the story to AO3 cause I'm tired of having to jump through hoops and loops with these platforms.

like Patreon is taking forever to "review" and put back one of my stories for "violating" community guidelines. And don't even get me started with Tumblr and their nonsense because I just saw one of my mutuals get his post hidden on here due to "explicit sexual content" that was "outside" of user guidelines.

and the crazy part is, his fic was under 1,500 words and was nowhere near as bad as some of the fem!reader content I've seen on here. Like I know I keep ranting about this (and I'll damn sure continue to), but I'm so sick of the bias against m!reader content, especially when it's explicit.

We already get a bunch of fem readers getting mad at us for not wanting to write content that includes them even when we explicitly state that we are m!reader authors and only write for male or gen!neutral readers. Then, the content we do write for our audience always ends up getting flagged or taken down for being outside of user guidelines, when it's barely anything bad.

Like the amount of abduction, non-con/CNC that could be considered borderline grape without the g, coercion, manipulation, Stockholm Syndrome, YANDERE, etc. f!reader fics I've read on this platform and others that have no warnings, flags, or shadowbans from what I can tell is truly something ridiculous. Matter of fact, they'll literally have the most likes, reblogs, and engagement I've ever seen. But, our male reader fics get flagged for using the word bussy instead of pussy...I'm not even joking.

but, I digress.

ANYWAY, with all that being said, once Shadowing Nightwing is posted, I'm gonna take a break away from smut and Omegaverse fics for a minute only because trying to do that specific stuff has started to feel more like a job than something I enjoy and have fun with, and I don't want to burn myself out or give y'all content that I'm not proud of or feel like it's half-assed.

Plus, I'll be honest, this past week has been really hard mentally, emotionally, and creatively for me given the results of this election, I can't even say I'm surprised, but I can damn well say I'm pissed off. Like, I can barely write without sitting there thinking about the fact that this orange peel of a FELON AND THUG—yeah I said it for you sibling and cousin fucking, buck-tooth, bobblehead, ding-dong, dropped ON your heads, mindless little minions—ahem—I mean, conservatives (if conservative means conversing brain cells that is) and his adult sid phillips looking ass v.p. cheated like someone trapped in a room with all their favorite foods while being on a diet, or more than half this country is really that stupid.

keep in mind, we're talking about a country with a lacking education system paired with a population of *checks note* sibling and cousin fucking, buck-tooth, bobblehead, DING-DONG, SLAMMED on their heads, mindless little minion bitches—AHEM—conservatives so that last part really wouldn't be surprising.

but again, I digress.

Shadowing Nightwing will be out soon, and we'll be returning to some PG-13 content for some time until I can wrap my head around this—or find the cheapest and quickest flight to Saturn—whichever comes first.

anyways, pls stay safe out there guys in these next four years, especially my minorities out there WHO VOTED FOR KAMALA AND TIM. If you voted third-party, didn't vote, or voted for the felon and adult sid phillips, I PRAY you get everything you voted for 😉. no seriously, I'm really rooting for you 😊

MWAH 😘 kisses, bitches 💛

to the rest of my lovelies, I love you all, stay safe and shine bright, and I'll be here soon with Shadowing Nightwing (that is if I haven't found a direct flight to Saturn first...fingers crossed🤞🏽)

[sundrop-writes]

Okay, I knooow I said that I was gonna work on The Jaws of Life next, and it is still one of my utmost top priorities - but between holiday chronic illness burnout and my period causing a really bad flare up, I have been stuck laying in bed for like two weeks straight (and because I have a doctor's appointment coming up, I am still trying to 'take it easy') - but I am really, really starting to go stir crazy.

I need a little fictional character running around on the hamster wheel inside my brain or my brain goes to very anxious places. So when I return and get back to working on fanfiction, I want to work on something new. Because I need it for my mental health. (I literally cannot imagine sitting through 50 pages of editing right now, but I will do it later I promise.)

So these are the two ideas that I am bouncing back and forth between. These are both longer fics, but they won't be multi-chapter - they will be presented in a series of longer oneshots so that it doesn't matter if I go for months between 'updates'. (Basically, to me, a multichapter fic is a TV show with episodes and a oneshot is a film, and these fics are planned film series where each film is important and matters and can be watched on it's own.)

Working on The Jaws of Life has taught me that I can work on a oneshot with a sequel and a longer arc in mind, and still have it be a satisfying oneshot. I fucking suck at updating multichap fics, but I am very good at writing oneshots, even if they end up being 40k or 50k each, I am way better at completing them.

So please help me choose between these two ideas because I am really excited about them and I want to start ironing out and writing down the details so I can start writing out the first part when I get back to work.

Untitled aka The Longer Daryl Fic - Daryl Dixon x Fem!Reader. Strangers to Lovers (to Marriage). Emotional Angst, Hurt and Comfort, Relationship Journey, Eventual Smut. Set during S1, S2, S4, S5, and S7. You and Daryl likely wouldn’t have met if not for the world crawling with dead-alive corpses, and even when you did meet - it wasn’t perfect. But somehow, the two of you became entwined, and now - you will always find your way back to him. Will be an arc in 3 Parts, will be posted in 3 long oneshots. 

Untitled aka ‘The One That Came To Me In A Dream’ - Surgical Intern Alex Karev x Surgical Intern Fem!Reader. Strangers to Friends With Benefits to Lovers. Smut, Emotional Angst. Set during Season 3. Partway through the MAGIC intern year, you are ‘transferred’ to Seattle Grace from another hospital in another state, and nobody seems to know anything about your background. Because Bailey is your resident, her other interns are incredibly curious about where you’re from and why you’re transferring so suddenly - Alex is the only one who doesn’t seem to care, especially when the two of you start having mindless crazy animal sex with absolutely no strings attached. However, he starts to care very much when a bomb is discovered in the hospital, and somehow - you know how to defuse it. (10,000 words est, or more. Will be a multi-part arc.)

[gaycavilltheorists-blog]

Former Henry fan here, former as in since 2020 his roles have been 🤷‍♀️ to me. Anyway, I want to tell you a story. This is long...

Before Natalie, his fans were full of nasty mean girls. Mainly the ones who are now MIA and haven't said a peep since 2021. They were ruthless! I am talking grown women trying to convince other grown women to bully others because they hadn't watched his entire catalog. Or they didn't know the name of his hairdresser's aunt's mailmans dog walker.

If you wrote fanfics (some of them were very talented writers! I think one lady had a novel professionally published later on) and didn't write exclusively BDSM, Rough, Dirty AF smut the same group of mean girls would bully for that.

They would gang up on each other, ostracizeing anyone who didn't idolize Henry or worship his dirty stinky ass. They literally caused several people to leave the internet. I am serious! Some vanished. No social media left. Nada! I know because one woman and I are in touch via other communication after they bullied her to the point they were calling her job!

Then along came Natalie. Suddenly these ladies went quiet. They all took some time off, pretending that they never truly wanted to suck Henry's dick and whatever dirty things they fantasized about a few years earlier.

Along with this were the casual fans. They enjoyed his movies, knew his dog's name, and admired him for the fact he was British and seemed to love Animals and his family. These people are still around, but wisely so hiding in the shadows.

I guess I am telling you this because I see so many new mean girls. Coming around, sniffing, accusing new and old fans of not supporting Henry or hiding their identity etc. I think people are staying away, because they got it so bad before he had a baby mama that they don't want a repeat of the bullshit.

But at the same time, his fandom has always been absolute bullshit. However this is a new level and I am like....... WTF?! People used to tell one another to k*!! Themself because they didn't like a certain fic author or because they liked Man of Steel better than Night Hunter.

I see a pattern and I want to say thanks for being fun! Thanks for mindless Gossip and laughs. Thanks for not taking this seriously and just being a nice read when someone needs a laugh.

Shugs, you're welcome on my tumblr anytime

With the way the world is going to shit, this celebrity shit is a good laugh.

Especially when the stans run to Famous Fix and start with their bullshit over there, it's savage and full of yummy drama.

I'm living for the drama and them going for each other's throats 😂

It's literally like watching RuPaul's Drag Race😂

It's even more hilarious when the stans play the name blame game and go off their bi polar meds 😂

So I welcome anyone who knows that cavill's relationship is bullshit and wants a good, hardy laugh

I like to consider my tumblr a refuge for those who have been bullied by the stans

[violet-moonstone]

fanfic tag

I was tagged by @thedragon-and-hisboy

How many works do you have on Ao3?

20

What's your Ao3 word count?

338,073

What fandoms do you write for?

Mostly HTTYD, but I've also written for My Chemical Romance, RossterTeeth/Achievement Hunter, and I have an Arcane fic in the works.

What are your top five fics by kudos?

Terms of Agreement

Fire at Will

Tell Me What I Want to Hear

HTTYD Relationship Headcanons

Love and War

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes, as much as I have the energy/ideas for. I like responding because I like interacting with people who enjoy the fandoms as me and who enjoy my writing. Also it makes me happy when writers respond to my comments, so I like to do the same.

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

"Fire At Will," an MCR fic I wrote in high school in which (spoiler alert) literally everyone dies at the end.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Honest answer: "A Reminder of Home," a very short fic about Snotlout giving Eret a gift for Snoggletog.

Nasty answer: all my smut fics...they all have happy endings if you know what I mean...

Do you get hate on fics?

Not so far. Hopefully I won't but if it happens, I'll probably just delete the comment.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Oh boy, do I. To date I've only written gay smut, mostly between men. I've got one F/F smut chapter in the longfic I'm working on. Hoping to write more of a variety of pairings. My smut ranges from wholesome to freaky. Depends on my mood.

Do you write cross overs? What's the craziest one you've written?

I've written crossover headcanons, but I've yet to write any full fics. Unless my MCR fanfic counts, because it did include members of Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, and Mindless Self Indulgence...oh and they were all in magic covens and doing blood magic, so I get that's pretty crazy.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of and I hope it never happens.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Again, not that I know of. It would be cool though. I can read and understand French but my writing is terrible. Maybe one day I could get good enough to translate my fics to French though.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I tried co-writing a ROTG fic with my best friend in middle school. Never panned out.

What's your all time favorite ship?

I don't have an all-time OTP but at the moment I'm pretty in love with the following:

Dagur/Hiccup (HTTYD)

Viggo/Hiccup

Sevika/Mel (Arcane)

Jasper/Lapis (Steven Universe)

Morgana/Gwen (Merlin)

Any canon ship from Interview with the Vampire

In the past I was pretty obsessed with Hiccup/Jack Frost, although I'm much more into shipping Hiccup with other HTTYD characters these days.

Honestly though, my biggest ships often involve my (self-insert) OCs, and I don't talk as much about them, but I tend to think about them much more than I think about ships between canon characters. And a common thread with my canon-character ships tends to be shipping a character that reminds me of myself with a character I think is attractive.

A couple characters I like self-shipping with:

Dagur

Sevika

Brienne of Tarth (ASOIAF)

Karlach (BG3)

What's a WIP you'd like to finish but doubt you ever wilI?

I had an idea for a Criston Cole/Alicent Hightower fic that I never got around to writing, mostly because of my soured opinions of House of the Dragon. I may get around to it though simply because I think the fic would be really good.

I also never finished my HTTYD vampire AU "Maces and Talons," mostly because I realized that I hadn't thought through the plot structure or the themes of the story very well, and I was losing interest in fleshing out my rough drafts. The vibes were immaculate but the storytelling was not.

I also started writing a tragic fanfic about Loki several years ago that combined MCU, Marvel comic, and Norse mythology lore. Never finished it, but I think it would have been interesting if I did.

What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm really good at eliciting strong emotional reactions from readers and wording impactful passages eloquently. Oh and I love world building!

What are your writing weaknesses?

Describing combat, action, and scenes that take place outside. I also struggle to determine which small details to leave out to avoid passages sounding clunky or plot points getting bloated.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I'd love to if I get fluent enough.

First fandom you wrote for?

First fandom I wrote for: ROTG

First fandom I posted for: RoosterTeeth/Achievement Hunter

Favorite fic you've ever written?

My favourite completed fanfic is probably either "Alone Together" or "Terms of Agreement," however the longfic I'm working on now "The Wings of War" is my all time favourite. I can't wait for it to be complete. It's going to be the longest thing I've written when it's done, and I'm really proud of the character development and theme exploration I have planned.

Tags-In a new post answer all of these questions, then tag whoever else you want.

Tagging: @evilwriter37 and @thereweredragonshere

[mrswhozeewhatsis]

Hey :) does anyone have a lpmg spn series fic to binge that you recommend?

Could be a Sam or Dean or Cas fic I don't mind

That could happen in the world of spn but it isn't a show rewrite

Thanks <3

I'm gonna make some assumptions, and if I'm wrong, you're gonna have to send me another ask to clarify. First, I'm guessing that lmpg is a typo and is meant to be long. Second, I'm assuming you're looking for reader inserts and not ship fics. Third, I'm going to assume that you are okay with poly fics, because I hate to choose just one member of TFW, and poly fics are all the bee's erogenous zones, not just the bee's knees. Finally, I'm pretty sure you want canon-compliant fics, not AUs. If any of these assumptions are wrong, send me another ask and I'll change my answers!

Looking for canon-compliant (or at least, world-compliant) epic tales with awesome reader-insert characters who fall in bed (and sometimes in love) with various members of Team Free Will, sometimes all of them. I'll start with my own masterlist because it's what I'm most familiar with. 🤣

Cracker Jack Prize - 87k words - My first ever piece of fiction, and it shows. Not a reader insert, but it reads like one (2nd person POV). Myka gets with everyone in this one! It's very Mary Sue, and it's formatted poorly on AO3, but it has my favorite Cas smut scene I ever wrote.

Oasis - 46k words - My answer to the question, "After Cas freaks out the hooker at the den of iniquity, how would YOU get him to relax and seduce him?" No Sam lovin' in this one, but some super hot Dean, and a threesome scene! (A little dubcon in one scene.)

A Woman of Letters (Getting a Feel For Sam Winchester) - 70k words - After Oasis, I needed some Sam lovin'. And some angst, apparently.

Third Wheel - 64k words - This comes closest to a series rewrite, as it closely follows season 6. I challenged myself to write a fuck ton of fucking. Soulless Sam helped. And then Dean got involved.

Those are all of my epic TFW fics. If you also like John, I've got two more epic tales involving him. Except for one AU fic (Priest!Cas with some Sam on the side - another long fic)), everything else in my masterlist is also canon-compliant, just shorter. 🤣

I tried to search my blog for fics, but discovered that I don't have a tag for series, sadly. So, I went through my AO3 bookmarks. Here are a couple fics from other folks:

Toil and Trouble by @littlegreenplasticsoldier - 70k words - Dean x Reader - It's Cat!Dean and a psychic connection. Need I say more? So much angst and pining and silly Dean as a cat. He knows how to weaponize his ability to lick his own butt. 🤣 (Honestly, just binge-read all of Ally's stuff. It's SO WORTH IT!!)

From The Wreckage by @sp-oops - 22k words - Destiel x reader - I love all of Sp-oops's Destiel x Reader stuff, and I wish there was more of it!!! Set in episode 12x01, with flashbacks to 11x23 and Dean going off to kill Amara.

Collared by @spnexploration - 40 chapters, so it's a long one - Dean x reader - A witch turned you into a mindless slave. Dean and Sam save you.

Tattered by @stusbunker - 11 chapters - Dean x reader, Sam x reader, A/B/O - So much angst!!! Adding the A/B/O world to canon stuff just makes it all so angsty!! And smutty!

I just went looking for Not Unless Sam Says by @spectaculacularsammy and discovered that both the writer and the fic are completely gone and I'm crushed. I'm off to go cry about how the world is a much worse place because of this loss. 😭😭😭

If I think of any others, I'll come back and add them, In the meantime, maybe someone else can add some? I know I'm forgetting some that are here on Tumblr because my brain is Swiss cheese.

[dgknightblue]

Note:

First off, I just want everyone to know the wolf ABO structure was a made up concept that spread before damage control could work affectively.

Secondly, Wolves actually work as an extended family with several generations making up the whole pack.

Thirdly, I don’t ship Deku with Angry Explosion; victim x BULLY THAT TOLD HIM TO KILLHIMSELF IS HORSE SHXT. But you can ship them all you want, I won’t give you grief over it.

Lastly, why do I have to play by everyone else’s ABO rules? I don’t. That’s why I have my own that makes humans stand differently from animals.

Under this line is a ZERO ship ABO Social Commentary BNHA fic idea. No smut. No ships. Just a regular, serious fic idea.

Brain came up with ABO social commentary BNHA fic. Not shipping or mindless smut but a play on how society is even more messed up due to ABO being a part of society. (I was coming out of sleep and I’m not even in the fandom only read a few rottmnt crossover fics and watch analysis videos)

(Wanted to write with the actual names but I can’t spell fxxxxxxxxck)

Deku is having an inner monologue about what’s happen so far (I don’t remember much) and how ABO isn’t a great thing and how hero - not even just hero society- but humanity is set back completely by it.

There is a visual for the audience with deku and kaa-Chan (?? Angry explosion guy??) in beds as a side by side. Deku starts out with out friends and gains them once he was declared Alph and he’s swarmed with people while Kaa -Chan starts out with a few but doesn’t have any until the last panel is a single child being petted on the head by kaa-Chan (likely a younger sibling).

Also to note is All Might was sent to jail or was seen captured and probably killed??? It looked like he was in some kind of suit with the helmet off as he smiled and made a speech (it’s a flashback as Deku is thinking).

Things don’t go 100% beat by beat in canon and are drastically changed. For one Deku is a full hero with a license and is working solo while everyone is in agencies that’s either first responders type or teams.

Hmmm the tags in my head showed no ship tags and this is a purely a story fic of a serious au. No missed characterization or bashing, just people acting like people in a messed up under the surface world of over powered individuals.

Deku… wants to get rid of the ABO gene. It’s hurt so many people in his life. Kaa-Chan was so angry and lonely that he just wanted an outlet. He had a good quirk but no one wanted to take him seriously anymore.

Because Deku had gained so many friends despite being Quirkless yet an Alph that none of them were genuine until JHA and he had All Might’s One for All.

…… note there was some bull of Kaa-Chan not participating in the past hero v villain arc because he wanted a pup with his “girlfriend” but that was a fxcking lie. He is on the villain side and didn’t want anyone to see him kill Sero (who got married and had a pup) to get an important item from him. Sero worked as a security at a highly guarded tech place.

Pup=baby

So Deku was shocked when he encountered him near an abandoned tunnel. He escaped.

Toga had already died as a sad teenager but it was a direct action by (gravity girl) and it fxcked her up. She killed a girl her own age. A crying girl that screamed with so much pain in her heart. They were both betas but one was seen as a monster and the other didn’t understand until after she was gone and she became the “monster”.

Whose died in the past arcs until now:

Grape boy

Laser boy

Midnight lady

Jet legs

Alien girl

Tail boy

Idk but this has affected everyone and changed them and how they see things. They all now see there is a problem. These quirks divide people and ABO dehumanizes them.

There was another thing to factor in. All Mutant type quirked individuals did not have the ABO genes.

This is kept quiet and they are told they are betas with weaker scent glands.

But also…. The heat cycle is not some all encompassing thing, it’s just a longer period with less blood more hormones that affect your mood swings. You’re angrier and more territorial that can drop into a deep depressive state if it’s really bad.

They are humans not animals. We are working with human bodies. Biology of the human shows how we reproduce.

That doesn’t change. Regular human reproduction including the alternatives if someone is infertile.

With how humans are, it’s up to the person if they want to say Heat or Rut, but there is a difference.

Ruts are bouts of hormonal imbalances that can be curbed with medication.

Heats are basically longer periods that last the entire week instead just a few days within the week. It can be debilitating.

Some fics have this Omega obey command thing but no thank you. That goes against the human will and dehumanizes them more. It’s now a fxcking lie in universe to justify mistreatment that was disproven long ago but people love having an excuse to blame their actions.

Humans have sentience. Free will to make decisions for our selves. We have social structures but we aren’t stuck in hierarchies. We have the ability to rebel against mistreatment. All lively beings can act for their own survival and the survival of others.

Is a cat going to let you kick it without fighting back? No. You will bleed if it’s the last thing the cat will do.

Crows are smart enough to REMEMBER grievances and will act accordingly.

Tigers and Elephants with kill you if you wrong them.

Monkeys are vicious in prolonging suffering as a retaliation.

Humans can stab each other out of revenge.

Anyways the fics progresses from senior year of middle school to JHA to Adult hood.

[grousebrood]

wip wednesday

tagged by @optiwashere, i honestly don't really know anyone else on here but if you're one of the four people who follow me you can consider this a tag!

the first real fic i ever tried writing was far too big of a bite for me to chew, and i wrote about 90% of it and haven't touched it since. at this point i'm not sure i'll ever actually finish it, but it was actually weirdly very instrumental in me learning and understanding some very fundamental things about myself post/mid-transition. so even if it's never done it'll probably always be kind of important to me.

anyway my writing process is very messy and modular so there are very few sections that don't have weird little gaps. so i tried to put together a coherent little thing from it to post — not the explicit smut parts tho, bc i'm still too embarrassed to post here haha.

starring drow paladin of selune and shadowheart mid-Act 2, so vague SPOILERS ACT 2 ahead. important context is also that i wrote this mid-Act 2, so it very well may be a complete mess canonically but whaddya gonna do. starts mid fic.

CW: whipping, blood, hurt but we don't get to the comfort, sadomasochism (?), penis referenced

(sincere and deep apologies if i missed something, i'm new to this so idk all of em, but if something you'd like to avoid is adjacent to the above concepts it's probably better to just skip this!)

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"Go forth and sow doubt, but do not compel it — only the willing may know the Lady’s embrace."

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Still, the horrific, repulsive display festered within Helena. She had tried to push the images from her thoughts but they twisted their way inside. The rending of flesh. The grotesque cruelty of the wretched and inhuman dogma. 

Most of what she felt was a revolted nausea, her weathered soul recoiling at having witnessed the unholy mania. 

However, something flickered deep within her. It drew her close and quickened her heart. 

The mindless rapture. The oblivion. The end to all her aching hope. 

Loss.

Helena was infuriated by the thought. Shar’s embrace was a vile parasite that tormented the weak, and she was not weak. She steadied her mind, slowed her heart. Eyes closed, focusing, she uttered a soft prayer. The words offered a small balm, and her doubts and fears briefly scuttled to parts unknown as thoughts of something not too dissimilar flooded into the cavity the disturbing temptation had left behind. 

Rolling to her side, she gazed at the fading fire, and, beyond it, Shadowheart’s sleeping form. The deep, soft breaths of her slumber soothed Helena as she watched her chest slowly rise and fall. 

Since they’d begun traveling together, Helena and Shadowheart had been poking and prodding one another about their respective, incompatible faiths. And yet despite all this, or maybe even because of it, they had grown closer. They both understood the depths of devotion. What it meant. What it takes from you, what it gives in return. 

But even more, they came to understand each other, sharing things about themselves perhaps no other person had ever heard. Their memories, no matter how filamentous. Their thoughts, their fears. Their doubts. 

As they and the others traveled across [Faerun] together, desperately seeking a way to save all their lives, Helena pieced together the fragments of Shadowheart’s story within her heart and found herself increasingly drawn to the half-elf. After they shared a kiss in the small hours of the morning, just before the goblins had assaulted the Emerald Grove, Helena had even begun to naively wonder about what kind of a future a cleric of Shar and paladin of Selune could share.

------time jump-----

"If you were capable of feeling even an ounce of what I’ve felt, what I’ve been feeling, you wouldn’t be so quick to recite your ignorant drivel. I thought I might come here to offer you some comfort to help you sleep, but you clearly have little intention of letting me be close to you.” Shadowheart got to her feet, turning to leave. 

Even as the words stung her, a delirious thought slipped into Helena’s mind, small at first, then all-consuming. 

What better way to prove her worth to her Moonmaiden, her dedication to her righteous calling than to walk through the darkest corridors of the soul and come out the other side more devoted than ever? Yes, she would allow her blasphemous feelings to flourish — only to lull them into a false sense of security so they could be exterminated with a holy beam of radiant light. 

She would be stripped bare, clean and naked, and then moon’s love would once again envelop her, the proudest daughter of Selune. 

“Show me,” she said quietly.  

Shadowheart, mid-exit, became still. She turned back to look at the drow sitting in the dark, almost invisible if not for her pale white hair.

“Excuse me?” 

“I want you to show me,” Helena said, rising to her feet as anger and panic roiled inside her. “Prove your point. Make me feel Shar’s truth. She’d love it if you were to turn me, no? You’ve said so yourself. Imagine it. The woman who recovered the githyanki artifact, succeeding where all others failed, and on top of that, serving her Lady a new cleric of Loss. She would have no choice but to elevate such a loyal and powerful servant.”

“That’s nonsensical,” Shadowheart said, standing still as Helena came close enough that she could feel the heat of her body in the cold night. Helena reached a hand up to cup the side of Shadowheart’s cheek. The same way she held her the night they kissed. 

“Unless you haven’t really believed anything you’ve said since I met you.” 

Shadowheart’s eyes sparked with darkness as her hand shot up to grab Helena’s wrist and she abruptly pushed forward, catching her off guard and off-balance. Shadowheart’s grip secure on her arm, Helena stumbled backward, lightly tripping over the rocks and roots of the forgotten homestead’s pathways. Carried by the momentum of their bodies, Helena slammed hard into the aged wood of the shack as her breath left her chest. 

The two holy warriors pressed into each other against the wall as Shadowheart held Helena in place, her quarry struggling to suck in air after the impact, incapable of doing anything much at all despite being the stronger woman. 

“How dare you question my commitment to Lady Shar?” Shadowheart said venomously. “After all I’ve been through — all you’ve seen?”

“By your own admission I know nothing of the true worth of your Mistress of the Night,” Helena said, petulant, catching her breath and ignoring the wrenching lurch in her stomach as she felt Shadowheart push against her. “But from what I see it doesn’t seem like you know much more than a few silly phrases and petty excuses, pounded into your head by years of obedient listening. So show me, if you’re so devout.” 

Shadowheart’s anger flared and her grip tightened on Helena. She pondered for a moment, resolve hardening as she, too, tried to ignore a wellspring of warmth that had begun to flow through her body.

“Inside,” she finally hissed. 

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“Fuck you.” 

Helena’s vision blurred as the room warped and spun around her. She again felt Shadowheart’s breath on her ear, though she struggled to listen. The sharp pain from her back extended outward, throbbing, as a hot pressure began to build in her body. The chair, already uncomfortable, seemed to become even smaller as she buckled over in agony, feeling something begin to press against her abdomen. Was that… Was she…?

Was she getting hard? 

Another lash of the whip. Helena jerked in pain and fell to the side, crashing to the floor, tears and spit dripping from her face as she concentrated on regaining some composure. 

Shadowheart crouched in front of Helena, using the whip’s grip first to lift the blindfold and then to tilt her chin upward, forcing her to focus on her tormentor’s face. The face of a woman she had thought she might love, whose unexpected softness had sustained Helena even as she thought her trials might break her.

Now, however, it seemed cruel and hard, Shadowheart’s preternatural derision directed entirely on her and her pathetic, drooling failure to understand the Sharran’s faith. Even still, as the pain continued to throb within her, so did her building animal lust, lust that made her feel all the more ashamed. Not only had she failed to prove herself, but she was hopelessly enthralled to this woman, desperate for more and yet physically unable to withstand it. 

“Shall I stop?” 

The flame was a fading ember. She stared into Shadowheart’s eyes, hoping to see a flicker of concern that showed that the cleric still cared for her. Helena saw none, and the hope died — but seemingly with it so too did her need to either please her companion or preserve herself. Spite boiled in her throat. 

No. 

She would not fail. 

She could not let the smug Sharran win. Helena spat. 

“Keep going.”

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and there ya have it

[virginreprise]

i discovered your writing this yesterday and i am so taken by your words. you’re truly very gifted, i hope you know that and nurture it! junky pride gave me all sorts of feelings… big sigh! i was curious to know, where do you draw your inspiration from when it comes to fics and just storytelling more generally, apart from the man himself of course? i know you have only shared a few things with us but they are so immersive and i can only imagine how boundless your imagination must be. also… i saw you study english lit, so wondering what are your fave books?! Xoxo 💋

thank you so much, sweetheart!! i really do appreciate it all the kind messages; they're such a huge motivator ♡

to answer your question though, i mainly draw inspiration from song lyrics if i'm being honest. obviously, i love lana del rey - her lyricism is truly poetry. i also draw a lot from the dark, morbid lyricism of nicole dollanganger too and various other artists. i guess i just build from the things that feel special to me. certain imagery can evoke certain feelings as well. i'll see an edit of fucking red dead redemption and suddenly get the urge to write because it pulls a specific idea that i can only ever express through words. i'm not an artist, give me a pencil and paper and tell me to draw something i will give you an awful rendition but words, i can do. i play the piano and the guitar yet even then, when i write music, my faith is not in the melody, it's all in the lyrics.

either way, when it comes to prose i kinda just...make it up as i go along?? i don't really know what i'm doing. i've never been clasically trained - creative writing has never really been taught to me on a detailed level either, i just have a basic knowledge of grammar and turn the thoughts in my own head into something that makes some sense. i'm glad that you find it immersive enough to evoke emotion!! its all i really wish to do because i know how many feelings that i get when i read certain fanfiction because i am a firm believer that fanfiction is writing. there's so many stereotypes surrounding it to lead those less informed to believe that it's all just mindless smut and thirsting but it's so much more than that for me. so many writers get their start in fanfiction! it's a great place to construct your personal writing style and build a more solid knowledge of writing in general.

alsoooo, my favourite books!! my favourite of all time is blood meridian by cormac mccarthy!! i love old west themed stuff (my fave film is the good the bad and the ugly lol) and i read a lot of louis l'amour, especially when i want something that i can read in a few days. i'm really drawn to the history of america, espcially the expansion of the american west so anything outlaw and cowboy related is my fave!! i like pride and predjudice too which i feel is such a basic answer but it was the first classic i ever read!! and as someone who doesn't really like reading the classics because studying them to death at school kinda takes the fun out of it, i really like austens work. there is definitely an element of nostalgia in there, but isn't there in everything?

[tidbitsandbats]

(pt.2) Chapter two is just smut. It's the core of the fic and what I really came here to write.

I wanted to explore the differences between how Dick and Jason feel about their dynamics. Dick, who is comfortable with his body and uses his senses and instincts to his advantage, versus Jason who presented into a strange, unfamiliar body after the lazarus pit had changed him and put everything that wasn't his anger onto the back burner to figure out how to cope with later.

What difference did it make that Dick had his alpha present? the additional pull of his instincts that said that Tim would keep him safe and he should just relax and trust him?

How was it different for Jason who doesn't have a dominant partner?

I really wanted to play with the descent from clear-headedness into the clutches of a mindless heat, the visceral fear of losing yourself while knowing that there was no way to stop it, only able to slow it down.

I forgot to tag the predicament bondage, but it was one of my favorite bits, I adore that kind of thing. An impossible choice between what kind of pain/discomfort is most tolerable, the stress of it. It was, however, a pain in the ass to write and remember to work with. I'm pretty sure I wrote variations of the same sentence like five times and prayed that it wouldn't bother the readers (crying.jpg)

Jason needed the additional "help" to tip into that subdrop, the stress and pain to trip him out of his head. Dick was working with the deck stacked against him from the get-go, he didn't wake up until the heat was fully underway, he was dropped before he even fully regained consciousness. Jason could cling to the edge of control by his fingernails right up until he couldn't.

The panic attacks weren't part of the original outline, but once they started creeping in there then I couldn't stop it from becoming an integral part of the experience, and I'm glad that I let it. It adds a really nice flavor that makes it stand out from the first fic in ways that I wasn't sure I was going to achieve.

I also wanted to further explain the concept I had alluded to in the first fic about the different kinds of heat that exist in this universe I've been building. I've seen "dry heat" be used to describe unpleasant experiences in other fics but I really couldn't come up with a better term.

So we wound up with "dry" pack heats, that are mostly overloads of instinct, it's a bonding experience either way, but dry heats are for familial bonding time. They let an omega feel closer to their pack, it lets the other pack members show that they care by taking care of the omega, offering items for their nest and stuff.

"Wet" heats are the typical sort that you see in omegaverse fiction. It's the horny, slick dripping heats meant for bonding with partners. It's a heat with a reproductive aim, focused on expanding the pack rather than connecting with the members already in the pack.

I also realized after I had finished it that I'd managed to sneak ace-spec Jason in there LMAO it isn't stated outright but damn the poor lad is REALLY having a rough go of it.

It doesn't help that Ra's so obviously does NOT care about him. He doesn't care about Jason's comfort, he doesn't care if he damages him, all he cares about is his goal.

I also adore the "victim forced to enjoy it" trope, and the options provided by the "coming helps conception" idea, because it opens up so many possibilities for casual cruelty and helplessness.

I originally was going to have Dick be the one to rescue him. Or Dick and Bruce. I started to write that out before realizing that there was no fucking way that anyone would let Dick go anywhere near anything League and fighting him about it would slow down how quickly they could get to Jason. But you can imagine the epic showdown between Dick and Bruce when he got grounded from this.

So then I realized that the potential was there to make things So Much Worse, with the mindless heat and the alpha Bruce and -- then I wasn't wholly sure how to finish that thought and it was just so funny to imagine him panicking and just. knocking Jason out so he doesn't have to cope with all of that. My man absolutely got shitfaced later to try and forget that he ever had to see that. RIP Bruce

[mothandpidgeon]

This is a great question and I'm loving seeing everyone's answers.

Unless I'm writing pwp, I start with character. It's not often that I write something with the smut at the forefront. I love writing meet cutes, I love plot so generally it's more like [and then they have sex] and then I have to figure it out. So character and plot really guide the dynamics of the smut. It's more likely that I want to use smut to explore something. (how pretentious does that sound?) Like with Stiff, I wanted to get into anxiety around ED. I also think about power dynamics too much so I keep that in mind. Who's giving, who's receiving.

Sometimes I come up with something I know the girlies (gn) will go wild for that I've later decided to cut because it isn't working to further the narrative or doesn't fit with the dynamics of the relationship. That really sucks.

I do come from a film background so I like to think about my fics having some sort of "set piece." A "trailer moment" if you will. Something that is unique that I imagine would stick with readers. For example, The Outlaws is the one where they're chained together.

When it comes to hashing it out, I usually put on some music and do a mindless task. I bounce A LOT of ideas off of my friends. I really wish they'd tell me to stfu. Also, the juices really start flowing after my nightly gummy so I guess there's that, too.

Question for Fic Writers

So I'm curious about something. If you write smut, how do you come up with the scene/scenario?

For me it just sort of comes to me when I'm thinking about my characters. Like especially for my chaptered series, I'll be thinking about the characters and their progression and then a smut idea for them will just pop into my head like a movie scene. I rarely feel like I'm struggling to come up with a scene bc my brain just sort of fills in the blanks if that makes sense?

But I wanna know about other writers. Do you have a kink/trope you want to write and just fit it in wherever? Are you writing from irl experiences? Do you just have a specific type of smut you want and then write for it? Do you see something on Bellesa House and want to recreate it (LMAO)? Do you have people requesting a certain fantasy/kink/trope and write based off that?

Please share bc I'm super curious!

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