#YAPFEST PART 600

[coffee-leaves]

Honestly doomerism fucked up my life big time

Like the mentality of "no don't try cause there's no point cause you Already know you're gonna fail so it's just a waste of time and effort and investment making yourself Care about something that's already fucked from the get go"

Idk I always have it but sometimes now I'm just like whatever bro who gaf and do the thing and it turns out well!! And I'm like damn. Why'd I not do that before. Is she stupid?

(more yapping under the cut 💀)

Like I should just Do The Thing more. I used to always say (to my irl friend, when I have to do Human Interaction) "OK but what if they tell me to kms" and then cited the 600 ways I could fuck up the conversation and random imagined person would be like "lol idiot kys" and I was like what if that happens and at some point he was like "ok well that's not going to happen, but even if it does so what. Like you're not gonna kys because random person told you to." And I was like oh. You kind of right.

Like shit!!! He kind of right!!! So What fr!!!

I should really just Do The Thing more huh. Like it hasn't turned out bad yet and one day it probably inevitably will at some point but then that's also whatever. That's a problem for Tomorrow me.

Back when I was a chronic lurker and hadn't gotten over my shit yet I was Terrified to send a chat message like I was convinced if I sent a gl or a pats at the wrong time or my question was Just annoying enough I was gonna get permabanned and all my appeals would get rejected because the streamer would hate Me Personally

And I wanted to make friends in the community for so long and I'd see everyone hi ing each other in chats and I'd be like damn I wish I could do that too. And then I didn't for like months and months cause I'm lame asf and the first time I hii d someone (I think fynn? Probably lol) and I got a hii back I was so happy like I was giggling type shit

And then when I first started doing art (shoutout lem lemoniedrops for being the final push that made me start lol) I never fucking tagged shit (I still don't) and I censored every single searchable term in all my posts to hell and back because being Perceived by literally anyone terrified me and I still remember when beefsalad first liked a post and followed I was DEADASS stunlocked for at least 5 minutes. Like I was just staring at the notif like shit fuck shit fuck how did he find this

AND YOU KNOW WHAT ITS AWESOME like fuck bro that's my streamer 👉👉 that's him. 🥩🥗. Like holy shit

Like I was so ultrascared of. Random bs?? Like no bro you're not special everyone chats Everyday and have you ever seen a single !drops chatter get banned no so you're Not Going To Be Banned either bro

Anyway life is Awesome. Always do the thing. I love doing the thing. I remember when I started like having mutuals. Like I could actually point at someone and be like that's oomf and it really is oomf like fuck I was soo happy I was like I HAVE FRIENDS THAT SHARE MY INTERESTS IN SILLY BLOCK MEN!!!!! yay!!!

I love mcsr so much genuinely the community is so beautiful and awesome and nice and actually I still have this one doomer tweet on my priv where I was like (blah blah blah I'm never gonna be part of the community unless I try and I can't because blah blah blah) and yknow what THABK GOD I TRIED

Like hey. Me from 13 March? Yeah you're Gonna try. And it's gonna fucking work. Stop being a pussy GET YO HEAD IN THE GAMEE

Shoutout all my irls for keeping it real lowkey... I talked to my other guy friend about a similar thing with a more irl context and he was like "oh no I have to do the bare minimum?? Inconceivable; you're telling me I have to put in Effort?" Or something along those lines and I was like ok well when you put it that way. It does seem quite silly.

Because it was quite silly in retrospect like yeaa putting yourself out there's scary but maybe you'll find other people and isn't that fucking awesome enough to negate it lowkey

Holy yappatron Erm