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I was clearing out my phone storage a little and discovered some old stuff in the deep depths of my gallery that I don't even remember making, and this is. So weird.
You people need to understand, I don't usually have an accent when I speak, SO WHY DO I HAVE ONE IN THIS VIDEO
#I have absorbed my lovely friends' accents via osmosis... too many different accents... my accent is now a strange amalgam of MANY#Why can I not be consistent when I speak#Anyways BOO voice reveal but also not really ig because this isn't really a reveal#my post#sput chatters#Many many people have told me I sounded British and let me tell you. I can't even defend myself- it's true- I do sound British#video#You know what if this slides thing turns out to be AI that will be fully on me- I don't know why I expected better of google
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I don’t even fully know why but “what do I do when I miss you so much?” / “Just wait, and pray desperately” was a knife to my heart in the best way.
#crash landing on you#my grandma once said most of life was waiting and praying#and when he said it it just resonated so deeply#I think because. it’s not like a revelation or anything#but I think it’s just because she was suffering so much and had suffered so much#and so in that moment#he just takes care of her so completely and gives her hope. and not a false hope#a true one#and on deeper reflection the ending does work within the context of this (in my opinion) most powerful scene#/ apex of the show#it’s just the tone that’s a little wrong. that’s too aesthetic-y.#because the kind of steady way he keeps taking care of her from afar. and the slow build of her recovering but continuing to hope#couldn’t lead them anywhere except a happy ending. even if the final pieces of it couldn’t be unraveled (or put together)#by the show’s writing. so it just kind of has to fade to black so to speak#because the characters have been so steady and consistent a) in their personalities motivations and desires#and b) in their love for each other! that never falters or betrays a false note#and it’s the truest thing you’re left with. which is why—again—I actually think the problem might have been the tone#I would have gone for something more muted. I would have had them be talking and/or arguing a little more in their old way#to keep and sustain the idea that there is more work ahead for them that we’re just not going to see#but that is ultimately a kind of nitpick. and the take me to the lakes vibe of that final#scene is also not untrue.#also circling back for a second can I just SAY. that I love the balance of their vulnerabilities#there are such clear and distinct times where one of them is stronger and the other more vulnerable#and it’s sooooo perfect to watch and gives you many instant layers#anyway I’m crying in this Chili’s tonight (*my bed at 7:00 am)
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i don’t talk about bridgerton on here but just to clarify. i will not be having ANY eloise hate on this account. i will bite.
#eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you!!#addressing the normal talking points one by one to get them sorted:#- no i don’t care that eloise called pen some names after the discovery. she was devastated and furious.#she can apologise in the future but in the moment of course she said it#- yes pen did write about eloise as a way to save her but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t possibly ruined eloise’s life#- similarly: eloise isn’t (just) angry that she was written about. daphne also went through whistledown and it very much terrified her#so have many other women including marina#- eloise is betrayed because she told pen everything and is realising pen told her nothing#(and she’s probably thinking about any secrets she might have said to her best friend that could now be used against the ton and her family)#- as claudio said: being regency gossip girl isnt a moral girlboss thing its deeply harmful tbh#- pen did have reasons to become whistledown! that doesn’t mean that she’s innocent or right!#- eloise isnt now friends with cressida to spite pen lmao she’s alone and scared and cressida was the last person who offered her friendship#she has no idea how to manage society by herself#(and she needs someone to improve the reputation of her and her family)#- im also convinced she has other ulterior motives for befriending cressida. like she’s keeping an eye on her or smth#- eloise didn’t just ignore anything pen said and that’s why she only just figured it out. pen deliberately didn’t speak like lw to hide it#the moment she did eloise was like huh that’s weird she doesn’t normally talk like that. and THATS when she figured it out#- eloise just found out her best friend has betrayed her and been hiding this massive secret#but she hasn’t told anyone. not even her own family. im not hearing out any accusations of HER of being disloyal#- also pen clearly wasn’t that upset at writing about eloise bc the moment eloise and colin upset her she went straight back to it lmao#side note but no i don’t think the queen is going to name her the ‘emerald’ or anything because she’s suddenly in the spotlight#eloise is tbh the only debutante she actually consistently recognised (for good or bad)#a new dress is not going to be interesting for charlotte to change her whole tradition#tl;dr i love eloise and i will die on this hill#eloise bridgerton#bridgerton
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every day i have to hold my tongue when m-cd-nnis shippers start sounding like frat guys with the way they talk about dennis' Secret Feelings toward mac. hey man. i don't actually think you get it. i don't think you understand what's going on between them.
#HEY MAN. I DONT THINK DENNIS ~SECRETLY WANTS IT~ AND TJAT ITS GOOD ACTUALLY WHEN HE ASSAULTS HIM. CAN YOU BE NORMAL.#ada speaks#guyssss dennis is just secretly gayyyy its fiiiine mac is making him come to terms with itttt#he actually really wants all this despite his verbal protests you guysssss#fuck taking him at his word obviously dennis doesn't know what he wants !!!#like my brother in christ. when dennis says. It's Never Gonna Happen. Not Willingly.#he means it. the willingly part IS the important part#when dennis HAS a choice and when mac is not actively REMOVING that choice#THEN he is like. fine with it#but you people don't seem to understand what it is that mac is doing that dennis is opposed to#is it rlly that hard to understand that mac putting dennis into these situations like in ddl and gets romantic is intentional on mac's part#dennis' issue is. Always. he doesn't like being TRAPPED. key word.#this is why he resists time and time again not just with mac but with everything else he fights against#he doesnt like being out of control. he doesn't like being controlled. its not even that he wants to be the one in control#it's for protection#so when mac traps him. intentionally. in a way that is premeditated. when he knows he cant trust mac#why in gods name would he WILLINGLY consent to literally anything#like you look at the implication and the obvious parallels there#where he is recreating how he was made to feel#and its specifically about being trapped. PHYSICALLY in this sense#and you look at the fucking scripts and you see how many goddamn times the word TRAPPED is used#[GESTURES BROADLY]#like for the last time. dennis is not resistant to mac bc he has these latent desires he is in denial about.#he's resistant to mac because he doesn't trust him and doesn't want to be assaulted.#its about power. but consistently we see that dennis Doesnt Want Real Power he just wants enough to protect himself#like for fucks sake. yes. if dennis consents then obviously he's going to be fine with it#the problem is that mac doesn't care enough to get consent#and very specifically circumvents it instead. den isn't like. overreacting. he's right djskdjfkkf
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I FORGOT TO POST THESE HERE!!! But please take the sillies that i did a while back while i work on other art stuff!
#i think they're really silly your honour#in MY hc/au they HATE EACHOTHER but they're also BESTIES!!!#olive oil capitalist vs mud cowboy anti-capitalist GO!#clodsire pastey wont hesitate to curbstomp arboliva joe given the chance...#...but at the same time hed give them a spare cigarette and listen to them rant about stuff that's on their mind while he fishes#speaking of which: Joe smokes on occasion but only when theyre alone. They're really good at hiding the smoke smell from others.#Unlike pastey who constantly smells like cigarettes gasoline and dirt (STANKY ASS!!!!)#also when they're pokemon joe is taller than pastey but in gijinka form pastey is significantly taller that's why the heights are different#bc in the au they can switch from gijinkas to pokemon at will#sorry for info dumping abt them they just make me kick my feet in the air like a little girl they're so goofy :]#more friendlocke gijinkas soon yall dw im just doing some other art stuff for now#maybe mmmm next month ill start working on the rest we'll see#friendlocke#friendlocke violet#violet gijinka au#saltydkdan#cherris canvas#also a lot of my saltydkdan related art consists of Joe being bullied I'm so sorry Joe I'll make it up to you
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every day i kick a rock and bash my head into the wall because i'll never get to go on a big space adventure and become tightly close-knit with my new found family up there <//3
#re lrb..........#i mean realistically if i was in the voltron/quintenary stars universe chances are i would probably NOT be one of the people#going on the space adventure.#i'd be roped into the plot when the aliens invade and earth almost gets destroyed. spoilers for arc 2 btw sorry#but man. child soldierism aside i wish that were me so so so bad#sadly kicks a rock when will EYE have a deep and mystical connection with a giant ancient cat :(#its not even that i want to interact with the main cast bc i dont really i just. wanna be in their position man#i think one of the reasons why voltron grabbed me so hard (among MANY) is how badly i wanted to do what the main characters did#i remember when i was first watching it while it was coming out i would CONSISTENTLY daydream about being launched into space#with a handful of other people and having to fight a war and grow up far away from home and all the suffocating stuff that came with it#and then coming back years later already solidly knowing who i am and being confident in that#so i'd actually be brave enough to be unapologetic about it. and i'd be found family with the people i went to space with also#that parts important#idk man just. i dont like saying i was abused when i was younger because i really dont think it was like that and it isnt even close to#what how people who have really been abused have had to go through#but sometimes i really do wonder. like now that im (mostly) out and able to review everything with an outside perspective#not even getting into the cult survivorism stuff this is JUST family dynamics im talking about here#bc that shit is a whole other can of worms#i think my parents were genuinely doing the best they could with the cards they were dealt but. jesus christ.#i would have given ANYTHING to be able to run away from all that. and throw magic cats into the equation? brother im GONE#anyway this tags ramble has derailed in a MAJOR way. tldr i wanted to be a paladin sooooo fuckign bad bro#like it actually makes me SICK how much i want a lion. red you are my forever girl even if only in my heart <///3#i still do want to do all that out of principle but its not as desperate now i just really love space and really want a big kitty friend#winter speaks
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i keep saying i need to make some zhaoryu shit but i'm back on my y5 kazusaeji bullshit again they are just so. m
#ada speaks#there NEEDS to be more zhaoryu shit. but kazusaeji still holds my ass hostage so#if i am to write a comprehensive timeline of kiryu's sexuality and him coming to realizations about himself that lead to the way he's#changed in gaiden to be more. uh.#then i have got to start at 5 because its literally when he first begins to realize he's fr into men. and then gaiden & 8 he's like Out#i need his first time to be with saejima when he's at his lowest it just makes sense#theres so fucking much in 5 that feels like its really coming to a head#mayumi. why did they fucking do that. like also nakajima and his coworkers being like U Are Gay but.#mayumi. and hinata. why are you having him refuse sex with women TWICE in one game#i hc him as acespec but i also think he should get to fool around w saejima for narrative reasons#and by that i mean i think it would be absolutely devastating and tragic and also they would both legitimately be so normal about it#saejima knows he's going back to jail anyway so there's that#but god help kiryu he's absolutely trying to fill the loneliness void with People all the damn time#lowkey doing what he did with kaoru to saejima 😭#you're grieving the loss of your family? time to latch onto the woman going through the same thing just a year later#lost your emotional support daughter? allow a woman to live with you while you continuously rebuff her advances#lonely and directionless and feeling guilty for having dragged your loved ones into conflict again and again?#have sex with probably the Only guy who can understand exactly what you're going through but is consistently in a Way healthier mindset#it also makes the conversation they have on the rooftop of new serena so much more deranged if it happened before that#im normal btw thanks for asking
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The closest character to Kokomi in terms of similarities is Alhaitham. They both want to essentially do what interests them the most (read) and be left alone. Both are quite intuitive about understanding and predicting situations and people. The difference is that Kokomi feels a higher level of responsibility over her environment then Alhaitham. She feels more obligated to do what she doesn’t want to do while Alhaitham just cannot be bothered.
#character analysis#where they differ in typology is that alhaitham is an istp while kokomi is…. i think an xntj#perceivers seek control over their inner environment while judgers seek control out of their outer environment#i.e. perceivers are constantly working and reworking their internal logic/values so they remain consistent and harmonious#on the other hand judgers are constantly arranging their outer environments so that they run the most (socially/logically) efficient#also the difference in temperament is bc alhaitham is a 9w8 while kokomi is a 5w6#the former’s emotional driving force is anger while the latter’s is fear#what i can’t tell is if she’s soc-blind or not#she can go either way#the hard thing abt typing judgers is because they are primarily concerned with their outer environment they are forced to interact with it#so they can unintentionally look soc when they are really not#the primary concern with the soc(ial) variant is to upkeep their place in society#speaking from an evolutionary standpoint this is how they ensure their survival#they share their resources with others and they treat them in kind. that’s why they upkeep their place in society#realistically tho these people are the types that remember everyone they meet. they always know what’s going on with everyone etc#people that fall mainly in this category are yoimiya amber bennett thoma#people that are like this but less strong are kazuha chongyun lisa ayaka shinobu#people that don’t fall into that category at all are tighnari alhaitham keqing yelan ayato#so hmmm
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been playing way too much slime rancher recently, and am now getting The Urges to make some kind of rtc slime rancher au
#i don't even know how it would work#or what it would consist of#my brain just wants to combine all my interests constantly#ricky would turn all the slimes into tabby largos#misha would like rad slimes because “they're rad yo”#ocean would probably try to make hunter largos and then get bitten. the idea of her being bitten by a slime amuses me#does any of this make sense#am i still speaking english#i have accumulated nearly 24 hours of playtime in 4 days#i love slime rancher so much#btw if anyone is for some reason reading this and is yet to play the game but wants to#if you have a jetpack you can hop the wall into the moss blanket without opening the gate with a key#save yourself a slime key#i discovered that years ago when the game was in early access. it has never been patched#life tips with disorganised-bagel#help this has gotten so off-track#i think noel would connect with mosaic slimes on a deep fundamental level. idk why. i just get the vibe#constance would like pink slimes i think#like everyone else always overlooks the pink slimes because they're so common but constance has a whole corral of them#don't ask me about penny headcanons for this hypothetical au that i'm making up on the spot as i write this at 11:32pm#because i have no clue#she'd probably actually know what she was doing i guess. she'd probably laugh at ocean for getting bitten by a slime#this post is so unhinged i'm so sorry i'm gonna go sleep now i think lol#bagel thoughts
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fuck fuck rvb watchthrough is quickly nearing the end (and i am already past the point my partner is telling me to just stop watching), but oh my god the relationship between the reds and blues is enough to keep me going. Just the promise of seeing these guys have one slightly genuine moment together would be enough for me to watch 15 more seasons. Just theyre friends, no more than friends- best friends. And the slow and difficult journey to get to that place where they trust/love eachother like that. Theyve come so far from blood gulch, and theyve come all this way together !! Theyve faced insurmountable odds together, fought in a war together, nearly died together. Its like- the person who knows you best used to be your sworn enemy, but youve changed since then, and thsi person has known you through all of it.
Rvb is about learning to let others into your life and trusting them to not let you down (and forgiving them when they do).
#Its like rvb is a story about love and how it can come from the most unlikeliest of places if given a chance#sparrow speaks#sorry i dont have anyone to ramble to so every single one of my thoughts about them goes here#it was like in s13 when they were all trapped together about decided to fight I just said to my gf#“They love eachother” because its so obvious they do#and this ^^^ is about s15 because oh my god#the way they all instinctively lean on eachother and thats why the grif thing was soososo perfect#and oh my god the way tucker naturally took the lead but simmons was like his second in command ??? They trust eachother so much i need#to be put down#rvb#Its like i get why people say the show “ends” at like s9 or 13 of whatever#but i cant view the show but as a whole because of the consistent growth theyve had throughout it#ive heard s19 goes against that but who cares#ill decide that seasons not canon when i get to it
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Get yourself some soup and blankets girl!
a) any soap thats got a thick consistency actually hates me personally and b) i have another fever lmfaooooo
#sophie speaks#sophie answers#moots#cyb3rd0g#my beloved cyb3rd0g#for you are the only one who cares for poor me#but geniunely i love seeing you in my askbox thank you for being so consistent!!! you are very appreciated!!!#anyways me being sick doesnt usually affect my appetite#actually thinking about it never does im never NOT hungry. even when I'm really really sick (like hospital sick) i still get hungry#just any food options make me feel gross#also fun fact when i get super duper ultra mode sick i get really really stupid beyond my normal level#and always end up asking for the sorts of food i should NOT be eating#'greetings mother i know i just had a shivering fit so violent i almost bit my tongue off but id like dominos hawaiin pizza pls'#and they just go along with it because whenever they offer me something healthier i just don't eat it#can not tell you why im built like this yes it makes me feel much much worse#i think like at a certain point something gets disconnected in my brain towards pain and i start acting real odd#living in chronic pain has made me even weirder than i was before
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knee still hurt yday after work when i bent it so today i foolishly opted not to wear the knee support thinking maybe it wasnt doing shit & haaa guess what has already started to hurt on my walk to work
#yelling at clouds#i wld love to know if there was any rhyme or reason to when a joint decides to hate me#it isn't use. i was fine after the christmas hell week.#n i dont think it's the weather either cuz it's Just my knee#i can accept it getting worse now i spend so much more time on my feet n walking#just. why isnt it consistent. why does it come n go. what is the PATTERN#shld i just be wearing the support every day now. is there smth else im doing that i shldnt be#why wont my knee. speak.
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How long does a show have to be bad before y'all stop saying we "just need to give it time" and accept that it sucks? Serious question
#like. after the first season erased Inej's trauma and established the characters in ways that completely fucked up the trajectory of their#arcs you couldn't scroll more than 2 seconds without seeing someone chastizing any naysayer with 'im sure they'll include/fix/make that#work in the next season stop complaining its not fair to judge it'. and now that season 2 is out and Inej's trauma was ignored even more#than before and they've shuffled all the plot beats and character moments in ways that rob them of their impact and make half of them v#virtually meaningless because they haven't been built to i STILL see people mocking and chastizing anyone who speaks against it with#'oh my gosh just give them time to tell the story they clearly changed things for a reason and obviously they must have a very good idea#that they just haven't gotten to yet and if you stop complaining and stream the show nonstop we'll get season 3/the spinoff and itll be#so great' and like. where is your faith coming from? what have they done that makes you think they're good at this? why do you trust them?#how long does something have to consistently suck before you accept that it sucks?#when are you finally 'allowed' to point out that just isnt very good? how many seasons need pass before you can pass judgement?#shadow and bone
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#ive lost like all fear of dogs at this point. i realized that earlier today when a massive rottie started a fight with my boy#and my first instinct on seeing flying teeth was to sprint towards them and shove my body in between#its very possible it was also just all self preservation leaving my body because i am absolutely going to protect my pup#i would probably fight a bear for him there is no question that i would forcibly shove another dog off with my forearm#but fuck. despite the fact that i /know/ better sometimes i have a real real bad fatigue week and i use dog parks. i have like.#a selective list of ones that i will go to categorized by 'least likely to become a boxing ring'. tons of space. multiple separate areas.#i go only at off times when its not busy! i watch dog body language and keep an eye on him at all times.#ill rotate areas if i spot a potential problem. i have him under verbal control and wouldnt even be there if i didnt. but! like!#despite all that. just fucking anyone can go there. 'oh your dogs a puppy thats why my dog attacked him!' idgaf.#speaking as someone who has raised a reactive dog. if your dog is reactive why in the absolute hell would you take them to a dog park.#why!!! lif your dog is consistently fighting other dogs why would you do that! it does not matter if he 'only attacks dogs that arent fixed'#he is still obviously not having a good fucking time and is not going to enjoy this environment holy shit#just. gggHHGGH. i avoid off leash parks as much as i can already but. fuck. idek the point of this im just.#still a bit riled over having to physically throw myself in the middle of a dog fight while the other owner did absolutely nothing.#like just hovered! while his dog was pinning mine and teeth flying attacking and was actively fighting me trying to keep him off#when i can afford it im gonna find some sort of dog group walk/hike thing instead i do not want to socialize my boy like this#i am tired and very very upset because my boy looked so scared and i swear to god if you arent grabbing your dog i will fight it myself#fuck dude. fuck dog parks and fuck me for knowing better and still using em anyways.
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society if the manager would put the fucking schedule out on time literally ever
#‘we’re so understaffed!’ i fucking wonder why#maybe it’s the consistently late schedule#firing people for being sick without a doctors note even when they have witnesses to the fact they’ve been throwing up for 24 hours#clocking people out for going in the office#the only ‘benefits’ being free food so what makes you think anyone can afford to go to the doctor#when literally every other food service job in town offers better pay#the first aid kit being in fucking shambles and ‘in case anyone gets sick at work :)’ and it includes things like anti diarrheal#we haven’t had any sanitizer for the dishes OR mopping in literal months#getting told that being on ur phone EVEN WHEN THERE IS LITERALLY NOTHING TO DO BECAUSE YOURE GOOD AT YOUR JOB is ‘stealing’#not being allowed to sit down like. ever.#not firing the people who never do their job right like the guy that never cleans the grills#or the guy that literally never does his job and always leaves early#telling the guy that comes in SEVEN DAYS A WEEK that he has to work harder to be paid $12/hr#when fucking MCDONALDS starts you at FIFTEEN dont fucking treat TWELVE like a privilege#rzr speaks
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for a bitch who claims to hate basic (2003) with a mad inescapable passion, I sure do seem to have GIFS of it on my COMPUTER taking up SPACE in my FILES
#doin some spring cleaning of ye olde laptop and u wanna tell me why I have GIFS of BASIC (2003) on here shdfjhjdsfhjfd#when did a bitch make these???? criminally fuckin insane#he is v bbygirl here. I can see why I did this. but @ the same time. I cannot see WHY I did this jvhjdhjhfds#consistently incarcerating myself for crimes against good taste#sam speaks
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