#Which was also me trying to initiate a casual conversation that we did not even end up having

[rosetta-stoned-bitch]

I feel like shit, too many straws on my back and one of them is def gonna break it

[theealbatross]

Sebastian x Reader: i love you, it's ruining my life (One Shot)

Plot | Sebastian has the worst insomnia known to man and you are not dating him. Tags | none, fluff, slytherin!reader, bad english accent attempt by me, repressed feelings, unhealthy attachment, codependency, teenagers trying to process trauma together, mentions of nightmares, they are both 17 years old [A/N : FUCK JK ROWLING!!!!!!! Also I just needed to write something and somehow a depressed Slytherin boy was just the one to cure my insane writer's block. Enjoy!]

I am not dating Sebastian Sallow, is what you kept saying yet no one seems to ever believe you. Even Natty, bless her kind soul, gave you a look so incredulous as the words went out of your mouth that you couldn’t help but be confused yourself -- were you dating Sebastian?

“I’m not trying to be nosy, my friend. I’m just concerned.”

“About what?” This has been the third person this month with that same irritating expression on their face. Pity.

“I thought … you were always together that I just assumed there was … something.”

You blinked, trying not to let your face slip, afraid that your ever observant friend would read too much into each emotion.

“Well, there’s nothing. So you and the others can –”

“There are others?!”

You widened her eyes, telling Natty to drop it and she wisely did. “The rest of you can stop reporting his rendezvous to me. Understood?”

“There you are!”

Merlin, will the cruel gods of fate ever give you a break?

The deep voice from the door cut through half of the conversations in your table as Sebastian jogged towards you. “Morning, pet.”

He casually grabbed your head gently, pressing a kiss on top of it, before settling down by straddling the chair so he was facing you. “Hey Natty, got lost?”

It wasn’t unheard of for students to not stick to the assigned tables on their houses but it was still odd, especially for someone like Natty who much preferred the company of like-minded people. Always said that the quiet and whispers in the Slytherin table made her uneasy.

Natty looked from you, to him, to the arms that was hidden under the table but was no doubt placed on your waist, subtly but insistently pulling you closer. You silently pleaded for her to ignore it which she thankfully did with a sigh.

“Not at all, Sebastian. Just trying to keep our friend company before you undoubtedly steal her away for the day.”

He didn’t even pretend to be offended by the accusation, only chuckling good-heartedly. “You can be welcome to tag along just for today.”

“Wouldn’t want to intrude. And with the trouble the two of you get into I’d be grounded by my mother for the rest of my life.”

The three of them laughed at that. The conversation thankfully flowing easier and away from the initial topic. Once Ominis arrived and Poppy was called over it was like fifth-year again. The initial circle you had formed has always been a source of comfort, no longer having to have your guard up all the time especially as easy conversation flowed between each other.

“I got some new books for you, just got delivered an hour ago. We should read it tonight.”

You fed him a piece of bread in your hands, knowing that his growing appetite has not been satiated by the plate he made for himself but he would be too lazy to make a new one and would just rather take bits and pieces from your own. “Just for me, huh?”

He grabbed a tuft of grapes before feeding you one as well before he demolished the entire thing. You couldn’t help but giggle when he spat out a small branch that managed to sneak into his mouth.

“It’s that new muggle series you love, paid off one of Ominis’ servant to line for it so you wouldn’t have to sneak out of Hogwarts like I know you had planned to tonight.”

You could feel your face heating up at the fact that he knew you too damn well. “You know I don’t like you spending money on me, Sebastian.”

“Well, you’re gonna be reading it to me so technically I’m spending money for me.”

You gave him a look but he quickly evaded it by feeding you another pair of grapes.

Sebastian had been haunted by nightmares after last year’s events. Ones so bad that the nurse feared he would be a bit too dependent on sleeping potions at such a young age. Thankfully, the two of you had found a solution together, after a late night studying in the Undercroft reading your notes aloud hoping it would stick into your head a bit better – you had turned to find your companion snoring away beside you.

At first, the two of you thought it was the history lesson that put him right to slumber so you borrowed tons of history books in the library for him to read before he slept but an enchanted note later and you were dragging your sleepy self and a blanket out of your chambers as you read about the History of Magic in his bed.

It was that night that you had been eternally grateful that he had no other roommate but Ominis. Especially when you found out that Sebastian was apparently a horrible koala when asleep.

“That’s just –”

“What are you two whispering about?”

You actually jumped, pushing Sebastian away as if the soft voice behind them reminded you of how they had actually drifted closer than what was appropriate.

“Arieta,” Sebastian greeted her with a raised brow, seemingly confused why the Ravenclaw was this far off the room not even all that affected that his new girlfriend just caught him being a bit too comfortable with another girl.

“Sebby!” she shrieked prettily, quickly recovering and pulling on his arm. “We have History of Magic together, remember? You know I can’t survive that class without your shoulder to sleep on.”

She can hear Ominis choke on a laugh yet Arieta shot you a look like it was your fault.

“I, uh,” Sebastian turned to your table, now fully aware that everyone was staring at him with various expression on their faces. “Right, let’s go.”

Ever the gentleman, Sebastian was quick to grab the books in Arieta’s arm as she held on to his hand and dragged him towards the doors.

“Arieta, huh, wouldn’t have pegged her as territorial one,” Natty chuckled, you chucked a grape at her. “What? I am only speaking my mind. Might have to watch out for that one or she might just drag poor Sebastian away from –”

Just before she finished her sentence Sebastian came bounding down the path once again stopping just beside you, catching his breath. “Hey, you’re mine tonight, okay? No adventures.”

His wording left so much to be misinterpreted that even Poppy’s eyes nearly popped out of her head, damn near resembling those mooncalfs she loves so much.

"I stand corrected," Natty muttered.

“Sebby!” Arieta screamed at the end of the hallway.

Merlin’s beard.

“I’m coming!” He threw her an impatient look before holding on to your chin so you were looking at him and forcing you to nod. “No adventures.”

This time the embarrassment of the absolute mess that was unfolding before your unfinished breakfast have overwhelmed your brain that you could only nod with him.

“No adventures.”

Sebastian smiled, one of those real, bright ones that makes your body malfunction and your heart to stop beating. Pressing one last kiss on the top of your head and managing to wave to your shared friends he was off and gone through the double doors.

The entire table was left in silence and you had hoped they would let this go but Natty couldn’t give you that mercy as she cleared her throat.

“Well, now I got even more questions.”

You’re not dating Sebastian Sallow you just think about him a lot.

You weren’t as daft as the rest of them have probably assumed. You did think there was a lot more than friendship between Sebastian and you. But with all the things that the two of you had been through it was difficult to pinpoint what it exactly was aside from their unusually intense loyalty to each other.

Was it a trauma bond? Was it just their kindred spirits refusing to let the one soul who understood them go? Did everything that they went through, the secrets they keep, the curses they threw to protect each other become the bloody ribbon that held the unhealthy attachment they had to each other? It could be love. But it could be a whole lot more complicated than that.

That’s what they were. They were complicated.

After the nightmare that was your fifth year the two of you had kept to yourselves with Ominis in tow, trying to keep as low as profile as possible and give your poor professors a break. With your newfound infamy as the ‘Hero of Hogwarts’ (blergh) and the dark secret you three were desperately keeping for Sebastian, the best you could hope for was to blend in with the rest of the nameless students in Hogwarts.

That agreement got shot into hell when your dear friend Sebastian Sallow proved to be one of the best beaters in Hogwarts’ long, long history. It was a dare that exploded in your own face to try out and irritate Imelda but when he had accidentally proven to be a bit too good at it their mutual friend clutched at him with her demanding claws and put him through the ringer until he got spat out decent enough to be one of the soldiers to secure the honor of their noble house and win the Quidditch cup this year.

Piled on top of that development was his connection to the Gaunt family, the Hero of Hogwarts, and the rumor of his hefty trust fund waiting for him the moment he turns 18 – Sebastian Sallow, just as the gods intended, became the most eligible bachelor of his age.

And thus your hell begun.

The silent charm he always had with him grew with his stature. He clearly enjoyed the attention after having hid his pretty bloody face behind dangerous books all year last year that it was almost like he was compensating for the hearts he could’ve broken. Every moon it was a different girl looped around his arms and every month it was a different friend reporting to you that your presumed ‘boyfriend’ was found snogging a goddamn Gryffindor in the Three Broomsticks.

It was annoying, confusing, and you were getting sick of it.

“Over here.”

Before you could find the source of the voice you knew all too well, a door had already opened and you were quickly pulled into an empty room – well, room was being generous as it was more of a storage space than anything.

“Sebastian!”

“Shh,” you gawked when his opened palm muffled your voice as he firmly presses it on your mouth. The unmistakable sounds of footsteps and a softer call of his name echoed the hallway outside the door. When the footsteps faded and disappeared, he had the nerve to give you a lopsided grin that turned your face red in irritation. Definitely in irritation.

Nothing quite like being forced to face the boy who had been running around your head all day.

“Sorry bout that, pet,” he chuckled, leaning on the wall an arms-length way from you. “I’m not too good with break-ups, especially when they say no.”

“Must be horrifying,” you sniped shortly, also pressing your back on the nearest wall to give you as much space as possible – it would just be absolutely mortifying to faint because your heart was beating too fast it was like it was trying to escape. “Are you gonna explain why you’ve kidnapped me in this dingy room?”

“Come on now, don’t be short with me. I just wanted to hang out with you ‘s all.”

“You want to hang out with me …. Inside a closet?”

He shrugged, “I never see you anymore these days.”

Ah, the nightmares must be back. She tries to swallow down the bitter taste in her mouth.

“That’s not my fault, Sebastian.”

At least he looked guilty. And absolutely miserable.

In the few weeks you had taken your eyes off him it would seem he had another growth spurt. Do boys just not stop growing ever? Looking up at him was starting to get painful. Plus, all those drills they run to prepare for every game had done nothing but well for his physique. You couldn’t help but run your eyes to his broad chest and shoulders before you caught yourself and nearly screamed in horror.

“Hey, I’m sorry,” Rough hands grabbed one of yours. He bent his knees so he could look in your eyes as you now outright refuse to meet his, in anger for the absolute shit friend he had been the past months or in embarrassment that you so casually checked him out you’re not quite sure. “I … I got distracted but I missed you. You know I prefer your company over any other.”

Those damned brown eyes, not even the poor light in the windowless room could dull its effect on you. “Flattery will get you nowhere.”

Your harsh words did not match with the growing smile on your face you failed to suppress. He mirrored your grin, “Do you still have classes?”

You shook your head.

He damn near vibrated in glee. Merlin, you did miss him.

“Let me steal you away.”

In a flash, Sebastian grabbed a hold of your hand to survey the hall one last time before dragging you out of the room and into the nearest Floo. You barely caught the surprise and anger in his ex-girlfriend’s eyes as she gawked by the stairs before you got swallowed up by a green flash of powder.

“Boathouse.”

You’re not dating Sebastian Sallow because this is definitely not a date.

You wouldn’t think the Boathouse would be a romantic place but with the lack of students, the dimming sun and a gorgeous boy leading you in the inside of it for privacy – you couldn’t help but think that anyone who would pass by would be well within their right to think you had become another notch in Sebastian Sallow’s belt.

You’re not sure how you feel about that. A greater witch would’ve been offended but maybe you’re no better than the knots in his belt.

“Sit here.”

Sebastian spread out a worn-out black robe on the ground, patting on it expectantly. Before you could do it yourself, he was already kneeling beside you and removing your shoes and socks. The intimate act forced you to hold your breath, making sure you controlled your face so your jaw doesn’t fall to the floor as he slowly pulled on your socks, gently plopping them on the edge and letting the Black Lake’s water tickle your feet as they dangled.

When you were settled, he nonchalantly laid his head down on your lap. Gods, help you.

“Comfortable, aren’t you?”

He made a dramatic noise of satisfaction, even wiggling in your lap to show his assent. A giggle slipped out of your mouth at the absolute gall of him, your hands naturally falling in his soft, thick, brown hair to play with it.

“What had you been up to, pet?” he mumbles, eyes never leaving your face although you find yourself unable to do the same as you opted to look around the architecture of the Boathouse you rarely visit.

“Nothing much,” you shrugged. “Although I did find that swimming in the Forbidden Forest’s Lake was surprisingly relaxing.”

He hummed, not even surprised at your little antics when you leave his line of sight. The boy had definitely pulled you out of worse situations than roaming around the Forbidden Forest. “You should take me some time. Merlin knows relaxing is what I need.”

A scoff escaped your mouth as you rolled your eyes.

“Yeah, right after I duel your newest girlfriend for the honor of getting to take you out.”

He poked your side at that, “As entertaining that would be you know all you have to do is send me an owl and I’d trek up to Maurenweem for you.”

Your face clearly showed you didn't believe him and he frowned. Carefully, you ran a finger in-between his brows where a frown formed to relax it.

At this angle you could see the toll the sleepless nights he must’ve been having had on him. If the bags on his eyes was any indication it must’ve been a few nights now. You ran your hands on his hair earning you a satisfied hum as he dangled his hand on the edge of the ledge to play with the water below.

“When was the last time you slept?”

He popped one eye open but your gentle touch proved too much as he closed it again with an even longer hum. “A few hours last night.”

“You should’ve woken me up.”

He gently shook his head, grabbing your free hand so he can hold it by his stomach.

“I didn’t wanna bother you.”

“Oh please, Sebastian.”

He chuckled at that, gripping on your hand tightly as he let out a heavy breath. “The nightmares … I thought it’s been better. Barely had any a few months ago. But now it’s just gotten worse.”

The confession broke your heart. Sebastian was not a vulnerable person; despite his usually easy and cheerful demeanor he was quick to wall himself in at the first sign of trouble. You would bet galleons of gold he still feels horrible of all the things he put you through and it was truly in desperation when he had called you over to help him through his insomnia. Which was also why you had welcomed the responsibility with open arms.

“Care to tell? Is it still about Anne?”

His estranged twin has been forefront of most of his darkest nightmares but he shook his head again and for that you were thankful he was spared that at least. “Solomon? Ominis?”

He opened his eyes; it was full of overflowing guilt and fear. And when it seemed he could no longer keep it to himself he sighed, “It’s about you. That’s the reason why I couldn’t …”

The revelation had your blood freezing. “What?”

He sat up, now facing you and taking both of your hands. “I’m only telling you this because you are my best friend and to remind you that none of this is ever your fault. You haven’t done a thing wrong, in fact, I can’t think how I would’ve gotten past any of this if it wasn’t for you.”

You held on to his hands tighter. “Sebastian, you’re scaring me.”

He shook his head, pulling you closer as if to comfort. Why was he comforting you when it was him who had been terrorized by this dream version of you. It was irrational to be mad but how could you not be when apparently you had become one of his problems while you were simultaneously desperately trying to fix it.

A palm on your cheeks pulled you out of your self-loathing.

“All of my dreams … it was of the people I love leaving me. Anne never forgiving me for the rest of my life, Ominis turning me in …”

“Oh, Sebastian,” you buried a sob on the crook of his neck, your hand roping around his back so you can rub on his back comfortingly while he lets everything out.

“And … and every time it happens my brain drives itself insane thinking of plans of what I would do if those nightmares came true. That’s the reason why I couldn’t sleep.” You looked up at him through your lashes but never leaving your spot even as he brings your legs out of the water and over his until you were in his lap.

“But then … they turned to you.” His voice dropped so low you almost shivered. “And for the life of me I just couldn’t … see an out of that. If I lost you – If you gave up on me I … I think I’d turn myself in Azkaban myself.”

“Sebastian I would never –”

“I know that,” he whispered. “But I still can’t – I can’t let it go. I can’t let go of these doubts and fear.”

This time he rubbed the back of his neck, embarrassed. “That’s why I keep hanging out with all those girls.”

You raised your head in confusion, taking a better look at him.

“I thought if I loved you less, my nightmares would be kinder.”

The breath got caught in your throat. What is he – does he mean –

“But I couldn’t do that either,” He sighed, rubbing a hand on his face, clearly frustrated. “So I’ve decided. I’d rather go insane, let the nightmares do their worst because I am done pretending I don’t love you. I’m done avoiding you, I’m done pretending you aren’t the only light in my life. I’m done. And I love you.”

A fully grown crying Mandrake could drop from the sky and you don’t think you would’ve heard it over your own heart. You could barely comprehend anything but that his grip on your waist was so tight it was almost painful and that his pleading, terrified eyes was in the perfect angle that the late dying sun made it look like it was in a golden fire.

And that Sebastian Sallow … is in love with you. Just as madly as you were with him.

“I’m not forcing you into anything. I needed to let it out. If you want, I fully intend to formally court you until –”

“I love you.” You could no longer bear to put him in such misery. As long as you were alive, he would not question the adoration you’ve felt for him that just kept growing since the first day he had taken you to Hogsmeade. “I love you, Sebastian.”

Just for a moment there was quiet then he burst out laughing. “Thank you, darling." His body visibly shuddered as he sighed in relief, burying his face in your chest. "I’ve already planned to throw myself off the highest cliff in Hogwarts if this had gone south.”

You wrapped your hands around his neck, accepting the gentlest kisses on your neck. “Don’t say that. I plan to be your girlfriend for a very long time.”

His body shook from laughing, this time a kiss under your jaw, “Not that long I hope?”

You frowned, pulling away from him, though his unrelenting hold prevented much space to be in between the two of you. “What do you mean?”

“Well,” his thumbs rubbed circles on your thigh, now seemingly shy. “If all goes well, I had hoped to be engaged by the time we graduate. You won’t be just my girlfriend then.”

"You bastard," You gawked, laughing at his proclamation. The happiness was overflowing in your chest that you couldn’t help but just squeeze him into you hoping maybe that your souls would fuse with each other.  “You haven’t even kissed me yet and you’re already pre-proposing?”

He licked his lips, his sleepless eyes now full of vigor. “Ah, we gotta fix that, don’t we, pet?”

“We’re dating.”

Natty sighed in relief.

Poppy clapped.

Garreth passed Imelda a silver coin.

"Excuse me," Ominis muttered, standing up. “I'm gonna request a room change to the Headmaster.”

[sharkorok]

heeseung w/ an inexperienced s/o

cw/genre: this is fluff!!! fluff!!, headcanon format, cursing, fboi au, campus au ig…(?), like one dirty joke or whatnot teeheehoohoo, informal writing, that should be it (I think)

requested: X

a/n: this grown man has me so delulu so take this 😋

•-•-•-•

-u are well known for being notoriously bad at expressing affection or being in relationships

-you can’t do casual relationships this man once said “hey baby” and you were like “so I think we should lowk end things cuz why u calling me bby…kinda weird dawg…”

-UR JUST SO AWKWARDDDD ITS EMBARRASSING (I’ll write ur character development soon dw)

-anyways so you go to a party and you see heeseung who is notorious for being the craziest charmer ever like he could see an acorn on the ground and seduce it

-he strikes up conversation with you to see what the fuss is all about, he saw a person once talk about how ur so hot w a cold heart but he immediately realized you’re just awkward skssksksks

-he realizes he literally fell in love with you the second he tried to flirt and you were just …? while laughing awkwardly

-so after a month of you flitting around his charming gestures, looking down shyly or avoiding eye contact when he tries to rizz u up, he gets the courage to just straight up ask, “do you like me?”

-and when you explain that u don’t rlly know and u don’t really get into relationships he’s like OKKK LETS TRY THEN!! because he’s so madly in lov w you cuz ur so cute to him

-ok so boom dating!

-he purposely pushes your buttons to see just how much you can squirm, watching you stammer when he has you pressed against a wall gives him a power trip he didn’t think anyone could be this adorable

-and also u as a person…he’s so in love (dreamily)

-no one understands your relationship like, “how does y/n survive heeseung they can’t even say the word baby without cringing”

-ur not innocent or anything ur just new to affection and stuff so it freaks u out a little!!

-he always asks about boundaries before hand or makes sure you’re comfortable when you two are hanging out. the first time you two were cuddling he would ask every now and then if you were alright

-“you just make me nervous, hee” “don’t be nervous baby, it’s just me.”

-you didn’t realize how nice it felt to be loved within your comfort zone, and how nice it was to have someone hold your hand when it was pushed a little

-he’s gonna tease u tho sorry “loser virgin s/o and popular fboi boyfriend what wattpad story are we coming from”

-defends you to death if anyone criticizes the way you two date, he’s happy with you and if anyone tries to say otherwise he’s all up for arguing with them in a parking lot (￣▽￣)

-he loves you so so much and he dgaf about how slow he has to take it!!

-he takes you on lots of different dates to see what you like and what you don’t like, slowly initiates PDA to see if you’re okay w it or what freaks you out, he’s okay w taking the lead

-got him proud when you explain yourself tho, it means he’s doing a good job as your boyfriend if you’re comfortable explaining your boundaries and understanding them!! (in the least patronizing way possible)

-one time you two were making out and you put your hands on his chest, looking up at him and shaking your head, “I don’t think I want to continue yet.”

-and like a good boyfriend he is he reassured you he dgaf and that you two can just cuddle on the couch for the rest of the night or he could sit five feet away from you and not speak!!! whatever you say he listens bae

-never pushes you for affection, it pisses him off when people say the relationship is one sided, he doesn’t get insecure about whether or not you love him dw

-you say “I love you” every now and again later in your relationship to reassure him just in case tho, which is always super special to him and makes him fly over the moon *bawls eyes out*

-I did not mean for this to be this long ok anyways he’s yours and he knows it and your his and he knows that too <3

[auroratumbles]

first of all, do NOT in any way harass nor send hate to anyone mentioned in this post. this is simply to raise awareness about it all!!

user @/ceneid (formerly) was a popular person in the genshin writing community who lied about their age, identity, faked an ed, and was just mainly a shitty person in general.

all the information on this post comes from an anonymous source

the blogs that were owned by elise are:

ceneid

hikoiaa

umiloa

ha-yami

scarasgfreal

symphxony

fionvancia

fixnaie

a quote from my source:

"for context, elise ran a total of 4-5 accounts, with her very first blog being ceneid that was also mutuals with you - they’re the same person. elise had multiple accounts where she claimed she was different ages and it was fairly obvious it was her due to the fact that she didn’t bother to change her typing style or themes, one of the blogs claimed she was 18, a few of my friends and i ended up noticing she had a terrible tendency to say things like “oh i haven’t eaten in 20 hours! should i eat? oh nvm” and such which led to everyone being concerned, these were EXTREMELY frequent, and she’d speak about self harm - randomly putting it in a casual conversation without warning.

she also asked for my location at some point, and overall i eventually grew tired of it and blocked her. later on, someone i know made a callout post on her and it ended in shambles, elise continued to try to get them to take the post down but to no avail until elise deactivated ceneid and started the hikoiaa blog. the person who made the post found out it was her and the cycle continued, until elise ended up admitting everyone and apologized to everyone per the person’s request.

after elise did that, the person deactivated their blog thinking elise had changed for the better - and i even interacted with her too because i thought the same thing. unfortunately, we were all wrong and found out elise owned the @/symphxony blog where she says she’s 17. multiple things have it away that it was her such as coincidentally posting the same things, following the exact same people, and elise also bypassed someone’s boundaries by interacting with them through the blog as a way to become friends with them despite the person telling her to not interact with her directly.

elise made excuses when i confronted her and told her to stop, and she played it off as coincidences like she did before when the owner of the call out post tried to talk things out with her. i have people who can vouch for everything im saying, as well as some screenshots that would unfortunately not fit into this ask because there’s too many of them, she also has this strange obsession with following and interacting with people that i follow and interact with in any shape or form, this has happened almost 7 times now as well. she’s constantly made blogs to follow me on despite me telling her to NEVER contact me again. this stopped a few days ago when she blocked me."

screenshots provided were

another quote:

"elise’s stories never made sense, they were always exaggerated and/or made her seem smarter than she actually was - this was a small bit of the proof that she was lying about her age at the end when she claimed to be 16. she linked a few tiktoks on her blog, revealing her account in the process that studied 7th grade science"

she was called out by someone else on tumblr initially, but that post was lost to the depths. she lied about having a joint blog with someone when it was really just her. to save her own skin, she dmed them.

when that blog blocked her, she made a 'burner account' to talk to them even more.

another blog named 'scarasgfreal' was made. they were 𝜗𝜚 anon and 🦢 anon. the blog was made a few days after the incident mentioned above.

the blog confronted elise.

part 2 of this post

[whimsicalhorss]

The Recent Nevermore Drama.

Red, I think it's quite sad that you decided to delete all the original comments going against you and reexplaining what went down within your 'apology', which was 95% calling out rather than talking about the cause of the whole uprising. Nonetheless, here was my original reply, just so everybody who stumbles across this post can see the reply from somebody who's viewed it from both sides. The original message was, as follows:

'Hey Red,

I hope you're managing amidst everything that's been going on. I know you've been through a lot recently, and I hate to add to the messages you've been receiving. However, there are some things that I really need to talk to you about.

Over the past few days — even years — I've noticed some things that really concern me. It feels like there's been a lot of blame unfairly placed on certain individuals within your community, which is incredibly damaging, especially when it unfairly paints others in a negative light. I understand you've been trying to address the situation with Crimson, but the approach taken hasn't been effective and has caused more harm than good.

In terms of the Crimson drama, I think it could have been handled more sensibly. Consulting with Laci and others involved would have been beneficial before making the decision to introduce Crimson back to the server. When you were writing your explanation, which I know was rushed, you should have stepped back and consulted for longer - I know you felt pressured, but.. you needed to give yourself time to handle it.

With the screenshots, too - they were only censored to the point of concealing most of the users involved to keep the MINORS safely out of the evidence, and yet you continued to banter on about how they were censored and unable to interpret what happened. As well, you tampered with evidence when you sent a screenshot, CUTTING OUT the part where Laci mentioned they could give you the evidence uncensored if you asked, yet you continued to complain.

On the topic of minors, you name dropped SEVERAL in your apology. Do you know how endangering or scary that can be? It's insane that you felt the need to name anybody involved to get people off your back.

There's also Sardonyx - I don't know if you'll share this with your patreons but, if you do, hello Sardonyx. They casually aggravate people, make NSFW conversation in YOUR SFW server, and you still allow them to pursue in such a way. They continued to temper people after the initial Crimson argument and started their own, which could have been avoided if you had muted both persons involved (rather than banning everybody against Sardonyx) and asked for them to calm down and explain their conflict in dms.

Also the Bunnybel issue - I know the topic was discussed by people banned, but there's also the factor that neither you, nor your mods stepped in to stop it. Matter of fact, you contributed to it, and everybody went along with it as a fun easter event of drawing your two main protagonists in these outfits that, when looked at closer, actually have a much more terrible implication. You should have handled this earlier, rather than blaming it on somebody and ranting about how it's all their fault and they're in the wrong.

Again with Laci, too - you outright blaming her for everything that has occurred is terrible. Whilst that may be what you see in this whole confrontation, in truth, it really isn't anything like that, Red. Saying that everybody else involved were her 'lackeys' and 'twisted around her finger' was an incompetent, foolish way of pinning all these hardships on her. Some people involved, including me, had barely spoken to Laci prior, because a lot of people cared about the fact that YOU had unbanned a potentially alleged pedophile back into your server full of minors. I know it doesn't seem like everybody cared, but we all did, otherwise we wouldn't have started this whole 'riot' thing or whatever to go against it. I surely cared, considering I have been at the face of two pedophiles sending me unsettling, inappropriate images, and I know that it is hard to reach out to somebody or stop them when they shrug it off so nonchalantly.

Lastly, I think it's hypocritical you spoke about how certain groups were stalker-ish and stealing messages from a patreon chat, despite you taking a chat from private servers and dms. The behaviour is equal, is it not? You used your influence to alter certain texts and take them out of context, and the other groups simply took what you said and proved that you, and unpunished, favourited people who have been held dearly, have done terrible things yourself.

I understand that this whole thing has been overwhelming for you, Red, but I believe that there was a real need for you to approach each situation differently, and not to compile everything into an 'apology' that is 5% apology, and 95% calling out people and altering the blame to be put on them. I think that the tactics you used were poor, and I hope that you do figure out something better in the future.

Take care, and I'm here if you'd like to discuss this any further.

Best regards,

A bystander.' And the second reply I made, aimed at one of her patreons (or moderators? who knows.) who put a whole lot of shit behind a paywall and then continued to support her. Aha, Debobble, if it wasn't illegal, I'd show the whole world you trying to make a fake screenshot of Laci 'configurating her hate schemes', and how terribly it was done. 'Hello!

I hope you're having a joyous, maybe even 'whimsical' day!

A lot of things that have occurred recently are the fault of both 'sides' (if we can call them that. Not 'Laci's lackeys' or 'Clique 1 and 2'.) and I think I should refer to the way that this has been dealt with again. 

Yes, the server was owned by somebody different who was capable of banning Crimson, and it was intended for less SFW purposes, but I think Crimson went outright too far in a predatory way. They put a teenage oc with an adult oc, which is pedophilic behaviour, and sent several overly NSFW images. I assume that this chat was intended for 'implied sexual circumstances', rather than overly perverse, but I could be wrong. I agree in the fact that something should have been done, and I approve of Laci's initial reaching out, but I don't approve of the way Red banned them for as little as they did.

As I like to say; 4 months, 4 minors. You afforded Crimson a month for each minor they influenced in such a predatory way, and I think the time should have been extended.

Might I also add, these screenshots were not 'heavily' censored. They were censored for the safety of the minors and other persons involved and, yet.. Red seems to be content with name dropping every minor who was involved. So much for the safety of her members!

AND I have more to add, which I trust you to hand over to Red for me since you seem content to do that quite often for her - do you mind reminding her and the entire patreon and mod chat that Crimson (and Red, I'm pretty sure) knew the age of one 12 year old, who we might call 'Green'. They continued to share NSFW things to them, including making jokes about what I assume was a 'vibrator in public'. How SFW for a child! Crimson is VERY innocent.

I agree that all of this has gotten out of hand, but both responses, from Red, the moderation team, and the patreon chat against the groups banned for involving themselves, but I wouldn't consider it a mob. Both sides had good intentions, it's just the way Red has gone about it - framing others for her mistakes and outright dismissing people for being concerned about the safety, that has made this come to such a volatile level.

And the whole, breaking several TOS, and a law? If thats what we're doing, what are you doing? Leaking private messages, encouraging predatory behaviour, endangering minors, leaking names which could result in a witch hunt from Red's expanse following? Oh dear..

How volatile.

Best regards,

A bystander.' Red, every little detail you have undergone is such a negative, unredeemable smidge to this massive whiteboard of what you could do. Instead of handling this like the adult, you undertake criticism harshly, which is detrimental considering you are somebody who has been writing for years, which means that you should have matured and adapted to take this kinds of things. You could have taken a month, maybe two, maybe three, to explain the whole Crimson thing - it would have been much less detrimental to yourself, and your community. You absolutely wrecked every second, third, fourth, fifth chance people were tempted to give you with every detail that went in to making sure that YOU felt like you had to be right - name dropping, which could lead to witch hunting with your massive following, especially since the people were minors and specifically requested you keep their names out of it. You allowed an alleged, potential predator back into your server without consulting it with victims - and don't get me started on the whole 'Crimson didn't know!', they knew at least one of them, and still continued. You pinned the blame on Laci, on another person (who has asked me not to say their name and, like the respectful person I am, will not be namedropping. That doesn't seem like a familiar concept to you, does it?) and you keep all these little dirty secrets behind a paywall. Red, in the most respectfully disrespectful way, grow up and learn to be better. You spout all this bull, every little detail and, when it backfires, you cower into a corner, guilt trip, manipulate, and eventually resort to the potential physical or mental harm of other people. It needs to stop. The icing on the cake, to all of this? YOU, as the 'mature adult that would never stand for pedophilic behaviour, that loves their audience, that has a server full of minors', that YOU would delete messages explaining the situation in a different point of view. You don't want your vast following to see these and think, 'huh, maybe Red isn't as good as I thought they were?', well they aren't. I don't know if people will see this but, sincerely, I hope Red, Flynn, DeBobble, the patreons, the moderators, and all of the discord and general following of Nevermore and RnF know that what Red spouts isn't necessarily all true.

Kind regards, A bystander.

[starlightshadowsworld]

So in Season 5 episode 2 when Fukuchi is at the UN there’s a dude fanboying over his adventures.

He lists several of them off and one of them is “the elimination of hundreds of thousands of subjects of the werecreature experiments in the republic of Kenia.”

Werecreature experiments

We know of one werecreature and we also know he was experimented on as a child. Granted Shibusawa seemed like he was doing his own thing for Fyodor.

So this could’ve been a separated thing or related but either way it has to have involved Atsushi, right?

You don’t just throw out the phrase ‘werecreature experiments’ and not have it be related to the only werecreature in the show.

Especially not the main character.

And while it was the orphanage, we know Atsushi has survived multiple attempts on his life as a child.

As for Fukuchi he was planning to kill him on that boat prior to Akutagawa showing up. And then tried to convince Akutagawa to kill Atsushi.

Perhaps to finish the job he started all those years ago.

If Atsushi was involved in these experiments his parents could’ve also been test subjects as other weretigers. But they could’ve also been scientists.

And that’s what the headmaster was referring to when he said by the ‘this doesn’t even count as abuse when compared to your parents.’

Like yeah im making you nail your own foot to the floor but at least I didn’t make you a monster. Because yeah these these experiments could’ve been what gave him his ability in the first place.

Maybe Atsushi was one of if not the only successful experiment. Fyodor wants him alive after all and him being the guide is because of his ability.

Atsushi was abandoned inside a rubbish bag in a bin by his parents. Perhaps the place was attacked by Fukuchi and they were trying to hide Atsushi.

Even if Atsushi wasn’t apart of these experiments, if there were any other weretigers it seems like Fukuchi killed them.

He’s the only werecreature and that’s why the police and the Agency (up until they met Atsushi) thought Atsushi was a normal tiger during his rampage. No one immediately considered he was a werecreature, an ability user because their aren’t any.

As for the location, they may have meant Kenya but it’s possible this place is made up for bsd. It wouldn’t be the first time so there’s also that.

Also that conversation said that many of Fyodor’s exploits were made into movies so just imagine Atsushi having movie night with the Agency and finding this all out.

If his parents were scientists and involved with this then it’s fair to assume Atsushi remembers what they did to him. Given his reaction to Fitzgerald talking about them.

But given his initial trust of Fukuchi i don’t think he knows about his involvement.

Fuck this man really decided he was going to take everyone away from Atsushi, didn’t he?

Shoutout to the wonderful @crowscadence for letting me know about this because I had no idea this was said.

This is now going to rot in my brain for the foreseeable future because what the fuck?! Not to mention the casualness of which this information was delivered.

[kangshxrtie]

ch. 5 ⤍ first meeting

you sat in the car on the way to the hangout your friends have planned. you nervously played with your phone on the way there.

you weren't the best at keeping conversations going with new people so you were thankful that friends would be there to make it easier. you had a fear of embarrassing yourself, especially because there wasn't a camera, and you couldn't call it content.

this is why you only had a few select friends that you were close with. all of which happened to be more of the social type, like right now for example.

you were cut out of your thoughts by yujin hitting your shoulder making you dramatically grab it and exclaim, "my arm?!" before giving her a 'why the fuck did you do that' look.

"are you done daydreaming? we're here" yujin responded.

"you could've tapped me" you said as you grabbed your things before getting out of the car.

"i did! you just ignored me"

"maybe because i don't respond to dumbasses like you"

"you're the dumbass" yujin retorted.

"i love how my two favorite people just get along so well" wonyoung said sarcastically coming in between the two of you and wrapping her arms around the both of you as y'all continued walking.

"she started it" yujin mumbled.

"you literally tried to attack me while i was distracted"

"your fault" she shrugged in response.

you all walked into the cafe and yujin called chaewon to figure out where they were.

you looked around the cafe trying to calm yourself down and also maybe find an escape route just in case.

wonyoung noticed your nerves and tried to comfort you by rubbing her hand up and down your arm, "don't be nervous"

"my heart is beating so fast right now" you told her.

"you can hold onto me if you need to" wonyoung grabbed your hand making you instantly calm down a little bit.

"thanks"

"they're almost here, they're like two stores down" yujin said as she put her phone into her pocket.

once they made it to the cafe you all greeted each other casually, well everyone except you and kazuha. as you finally let go of wonyoung's hand to go greet kazuha sakura stopped you.

"kazuha is really excited about meeting you" sakura whispered to you with a smile on her face.

everybody stood around in a small circle surrounding you and kazuha.

"why are y'all so dramatic" you chuckled before looking at kazuha.

you smiled at her with a hint of nervousness, "hey kazuha"

"hi y/n" she greeted back awkwardly playing with her hands.

"should we hug or something? or would shaking hands be better?" you asked.

"hugging should be fine" she shrugged.

kazuha stepped closer and wrapped her arms around your neck, and you reciprocated wrapping your arms around her waist and pulling her closer.

the hug didn't last as long as the two of you would have liked because eventually chaewon broke the two of you up, "okay, okay, stop flirting. let's find somewhere to sit"

once you were all settled and ordered drinks and a small dessert there was an awkward silence.

"why is nobody talking? most of us know each other" sakura said.

"so… how's the weather?" you asked awkwardly.

chaewon and yunjin immediately bust out laughing while wonyoung and sakura shook their heads.

"you two talk we'll just watch" yujin finally said once she stopped laughing.

"wouldn't that be even more awkward?" you turned to glare at her.

"we could play one of those get to know you games" wonyoung suggested.

"see an actual good suggestion, take notes yujin"

yujin rolled her eyes at you before taking the initiative to ask a question, "would you rather lose the ability to read or speak?"

"reading. i need to verbally express my displeasure" chaewon responded.

"speaking. i read too much to lose my ability to read"

"things are advanced nowadays. you could just have it read out" sakura added in.

"but it's not the same" wonyoung said.

"definitely reading as long as you can hear it'll be fine" kazuha said.

"you're right. i agree" you said after thinking about it.

wonyoung asked the next question, "would you rather lose all of your past memories or not be able to make new ones?"

"that's like very deep" chaewon said.

"lose the past. what's the point of living if you're not making new memories" sakura answered first.

"losing all the past memories would be hard though because there's nothing to look back on" yujin said.

"like even if you had it bad you have to have at least one happy moment that pushed you through it all" you said.

"but if you lose future memories then you'll be forever stuck in the past" kazuha said.

"maybe it is the future" you changed your answer after further consideration once again.

"would you rather be able to teleport anywhere or be able to read minds?" chaewon asked.

"oh read mines for sure. imagine how cool it would be knowing what everyone thinks about me" you answered first.

"i don't wanna know what everyone thinks about me" wonyoung said and sakura agreed.

"teleporting would save so much time, the days of being late will never happen again" kazuha said.

"that is true!" you agreed changing your opinion once again, "yeah i would teleport"

"please grow a backbone y/n. you can't just change your answer because of kazuha every time" yujin told you.

"she's a strong debater and keeps convincing me otherwise" you shrugged defending your switching up.

you all did some more would you rather questions and debated on them until everybody finished their drinks and desserts.

when everybody was getting ready to leave when you were pulled to the side by kazuha who played with her hands nervously, "you wanna play a game together tonight, just the two of us?"

"oh yeah. it'll be better without them" you told her making her visibly relax.

"can i have your number so we can text later?" kazuha asked as she pulled out her phone and handed it to you.

you put your number in and handed it back to her, "i'm better at interacting with people over the phone, so it won't be as awkward"

kazuha chuckled, "we'll both be better tonight"

after the conversation, you two made it back to your groups, and everybody said their goodbyes and you took your leave with yujin and wonyoung.

"i knew it was gonna be awkward but not that awkward" wonyoung said.

"we're gonna work on it" you covered your face remembering the events that happened earlier.

"i hope so because that'll make a very bad video" yujin said.

once you made it into the car you got a text from kazuha.

"why are you smiling at your phone so hard" yujin asked you trying to take a look at it.

you quickly closed and locked your phone, turning it away from her, "nobody. i was on twitter"

"ohh you're texting kazuha" yujin laughed.

"hmm?" you faked ignorance.

"we literally just left, what could you two even be talking about?"

"none of your business" you responded.

yujin playfully rolled her eyes at you, "i'll remember that"

this took me so long to write and for what! not my best work but hope you enjoyed it!

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[simping4villains]

As requested, here’s the fourth chapter of my latest Shiggy fic, Losing Streak. I update more regularly on Wattpad and ao3, so check there for more chapters! I’m also happy to take requests so dm me if you’ve got one <3

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Warning: Sexual content, non-con elements

   You decided to skip the rest of your classes that day. It wasn't like you could've actually focused anyway. You received a few concerned replies from your professors after your initial email letting them know you'd be absent. It wasn't like you to miss a lecture.

   You laid in bed for the rest of the afternoon. You didn't even bother getting up to turn a light on once the sun had set, instead letting your bedroom remain dimly lit by the blue light of your phone as you aimlessly scrolled through social media. It was a pathetic attempt to try and distract yourself from what you'd be doing later that night.

   No matter how many hair tutorials and life hack videos you watched, you still couldn't shake the questions that bounced around inside your head. How did those photos come into existence? How could you stop them from being spread? And, most importantly, was there a way to do it without having to fuck Shigaraki?

   You weren't sure what was worse: the thought of having sex with him or the very real possibility that you might've done it already. That was what the photos led you to believe, anyway.

   A knock sounded at your door. You didn't respond, but Hana let herself in anyway.

   "You're still in bed? You should be getting ready."

   She was right. You had to leave soon. Though it wasn't like Shigaraki struck you as the kind of guy who'd care if you put any effort into your appearance or not. He had demanded a blowjob from you while you were wearing a hoodie and sweatpants, after all.

   "The guys are going to be here soon."

   You looked up at her, confused. "The guys?"

   "Oh my god. Don't tell me you forgot?"

   "What?"

   "The party? The one we're hosting in like twenty minutes?"

   "Party? I thought it was just the two teams coming over."

   "It is, but you know how the guys can get."'

   You did, which is exactly why you hadn't wanted them in your home in the first place. At least this meant your time with Shigaraki would have a silver lining—that you would have an excuse to miss all the 'fun.'

   "I won't be around tonight," you told her.

   "What? But when I asked the other day you said you were free. What are you doing?"

   "I'm supposed to meet up with Shigaraki."

   You hoped you'd said it casually enough that she'd connect a different set of dots and think the two of you were just studying. She took the bait.

   "On a Friday night? Just cancel! We have so much time left for those stupid projects anyway."

   "I can't. It's important."

   "More important than bonding with your team? Don't you want to make captain next year?"

   You did. Hana was a year above you, and before she graduated she'd be giving the coach her recommendation for who she thought should take her place. You couldn't imagine she'd recommend anyone but you—she knew how strong your work ethic was—still, her frustration was palpable.

   You bit your cheek, wondering how lenient Shigaraki might be. "I mean, I can ask him if he's alright with rescheduling."

   "Let me know what he says," she called over her shoulder as she left, closing your door again.

   You pulled up your conversation with him on your phone.

You: "Hey, I forgot I have a team thing tonight. . ."

   His response was immediate.

Shigaraki: "Skip it."

You: "Can't we just reschedule?"

Shigaraki: "I don't like to be kept waiting."

You: "What's one more day?"

Shigaraki: "What's 5,000 people seeing your tits?"

You: "Fine."

Shigaraki: "Don't be late."

   You wanted to push back and write 'Or what?' but you worried he'd take it as a challenge to make your night hell. So instead, you rolled out of bed, grabbed your bag, and headed downstairs. Hana, Akiko, and your other roommate, Jin, were all in the living room, dressed in their usual party attire of ripped jeans and crop tops. They were pulling out packages of red solo cups and setting up a beer pong table.

   "That doesn't look like a party outfit," Jin joked as she saw you.

   You hadn't bothered changing or anything. You were still in the same hoodie and sweatpants you'd thrown on in a rush that morning.

   Hana looked up at you and frowned. "I'm guessing this means you couldn't get out of it?"

   You nodded.

   "Wait, what?" Akiko asked, looking between the two of you. "Are you skipping out on tonight?"

   "Yeah, sorry."

   Hana turned to her. "She's ditching us for a boy."

   Akiko gasped. "No way! Y/n never dates! Who is it?"

   You rolled your eyes. "It's not like that at all."

   "It's Shigaraki," Hana said.

   Akiko's expression fell, going from excited to horrified in seconds.

   "We're just doing homework," you assured her. "It's not like I want to hang out with him."

   Hana shrugged. "Then don't."

   "Come on, cut her some slack," Jin said. "You know how she is about grades. Besides, I'm sure she already feels bad enough just missing out on the party."

   Honestly, you were glad to miss the party, and you had a feeling that Jin could tell, but you appreciated her sticking up for you nonetheless.

   "Well, there's always the next one," Hana conceded. "Don't work too hard."

   "Thanks," you smiled. "Have fun tonight. Tell the team I said 'hey.'"

   "Will do," she smiled back.

   They waved you off and you began your funeral march across campus. You shrugged against the chill of the air, once again having forgotten to grab your jacket on your way out of the house. At least earlier the sun had been out to help a bit, but it had set hours ago. You hated how short the days were in the fall.

   The address Shigaraki had given you was for an apartment building kind of down the block from the pub you'd stopped at the night before. You were a bit worried you wouldn't make it in time, but you knocked on his door with seven minutes to spare. To your surprise, he wasn't the one to answer. It was another boy with acne-scarred skin and spiky pink hair that pointed every which way.

   "Oh, sorry. I think I must have the wrong address."

   He looked at you with disbelief. "Are you Y/n?"

   "Yes."

   "Shiggs, she's here!" He called over his shoulder before stepping aside and gesturing for you to come in. Hesitantly, you did. "He's gaming, but you can just go in. His room is down there on the right." He pointed toward the end of the hallway.

   "Thanks."

   You followed his directions to Shigaraki's door. No response came when you knocked. Feeling uncertain, you looked back at the other boy to find him nodding and gesturing for you to go in.

   Taking a deep breath to collect yourself, you turned the knob. Immediately, you were met with a distinct smell—it was that of a typical college boy's dorm, only ten times worse. The air in the room felt incredibly stale and almost muggy. Shigaraki didn't look up when you came in. Like the other boy had said, he was busy gaming.

   "Hey," you greeted, shutting the door behind you.

   "Hey," he mumbled in response, not bothering to peel his eyes from the screen. "Gonna be a sec."

   You frowned. It pissed you off that he'd made such a fuss about you being on time, but here he was making you wait around. You threw your bag down and moved to stand next to him, crossing your arms over your chest. "You know you picked the time I was supposed to get here, right?"

   "I wasn't sure you'd actually show."

   You scoffed. "As if you gave me a choice."

   "Just have a seat. I'm almost done."

   You looked around the room for a spot to sit while you waited for him to finish. The only source of light was his computer screen, but even that was enough for you to be able to tell that his bedroom was an absolute mess. There were empty cans and piles of dirty clothes strewn about. Not only was his bed unmade, but it didn't even seem to have a sheet on it from what you could tell. Unless you felt like clearing a spot on the floor, there was nowhere to sit.

   "Uh, do you have an extra chair?"

   He didn't answer, just wrapped an arm around your waist and pulled you into his lap. You yelped as you crashed into him.

   "Relax. You're fine. No need to be so dramatic."

   "This isn't what I meant when I asked for a chair, you know."

   "Yeah, I know," He replied casually, resting his head on your shoulder so that he could see the screen. "But isn't this more comfortable?"

   "No, it's not," you insisted, shifting to keep his knees from jabbing into your thighs.

   His breath hitched. "Mm maybe don't move around too much."

   You froze, panicking as you realized that it you could feel his cock getting harder beneath you.

   He couldn't help but smirk when he felt you stiffen. He loved getting to watch you squirm when you were uncomfortable. It was cute seeing you all flustered. To add to it, he leaned in and whispered, "Unless you're trying to start something. Which, in that case. . ."

   Pausing his game, he snaked one of his hands underneath your sweatshirt. When he reached your chest he snorted. "No bra? Damn, you really did want this, huh?"

   "No, I didn't!" you snapped. "I was just in a rush."

   The first time. Why hadn't you put one on before leaving that night though? You'd had all day. Maybe you figured there was no point. Deep down, you knew where the night was headed.

   He started kneading your chest. "This whole time I thought you were some uptight bitch, but really you love being treated like a little slut."

   "No, I do—ah!"

   He pinched one of your nipples.

   "Oh, you liked that?"

   You did, but you would absolutely never admit that to him. You shook your head.

   "Really? I don't believe you."

   He started rolling the sensitive bud between the tips of his fingers. You bit your tongue, trying to choke back a moan.

   "Come on, no need to hold back for me."

   His other hand reached up to your jaw, gripping it in a way that forced it open. You couldn't help the breathy moan that escaped as his fingers kept working your chest.

   He snickered. "I knew it."

   You hated him so much, but not as much as you hated your own body for actually enjoying what he was doing to you. Despite how much you tried to fight it, heat was quickly building between your legs as if you really did want him to be touching you like that. You couldn't let him think he was right about you.

   He shifted his legs so that one of them was wedged between yours. You knew what he wanted you to do before he even said it. "Ride."

   "W-What? No!"

   He yanked your head back by your hair so that he spoke directly in your ear. "I'm sorry, did it sound like a request? Fucking do it."

   Timidly, you rocked your hips. You couldn't stand the way your body welcomed the friction, taking pleasure in it.

   "Don't stop until you come," he said.

   It was meant to be humiliating. He wanted to break you down and make you feel worthless. So then why were you enjoying it so much? Each time your clothed cunt dragged against him felt like ecstasy—like your body was being given exactly what it needed.

   "That's it," he encouraged as another moan escaped you.

   His mouth found its way to your neck. The rough friction of his lips caused you to shiver. Of course, it didn't go unnoticed by Shigaraki. You could feel him smirking against your skin before he latched onto you, sucking a bruise just above your collar bone. He let go with a 'pop' and pulled away to admire his work, humming in satisfaction.

   "I'm going to mark you up so that everyone knows you're mine."

   "I'm n-not," you protested weakly, barely able to get the words past another moan.

   He only laughed at you. "Are you joking? Look at the way you're falling apart on my thigh. Are you telling me that you act like this for just anyone?"

   The truth was, he was right. The sex you'd had in the past was pretty vanilla. You wouldn't normally be taking orders and humiliating yourself the way you were now, and you'd never been this close to coming with someone else—So. Fucking. Close.—but it's not like it was because of him. You were the one doing all of the work, after all.

   "I asked you a question," he growled, grabbing your hair in a threat to pull again.

   "I—ngh—" You were seconds away from coming undone. You squeezed your eyes shut, trying to pretend you were anywhere but in Shigaraki's bedroom, using him to get off.

   "Oh my god. Are you coming?" He asked, suddenly excited. "Are you actually fucking coming right now?"

   "Shut up."

   Even with your eyes closed, you could tell he didn't like that response. He grabbed your jaw, prying it open so he could shove his fingers in your mouth. You weren't sure if he wanted you to suck on them or if he just wanted to teach you a lesson for talking back, but either way, you bit them as you came. Surprisingly, he didn't complain.

   Before you had a chance to come back to earth, he told you to turn around. You didn't want to, but obeyed. He shifted so that you were straddling him. In this position, you could feel how hard he was. It made your stomach churn anxiously as you wondered how he'd make you deal with that.

   He moved his hand between the two of you, reaching to slide it under the waistband of your sweatpants. Your immediate reaction was to try to stop him. You grabbed his wrist, which only earned you a warning glare.

   You had to play by his rules if you wanted to save your reputation.

   You let go, feeling even more nauseous than before as his spindly fingers dipped under your panties, coming into contact with your clit. You drew in a sharp breath. You were still so sensitive.

   You hated the grin that spread across his face. "You really are a slut after all, huh? You're fucking soaked."

   You couldn't even respond because you were too busy proving his point, moaning as his fingers explored your folds, curling inside of you. Your hands found their way to his hair, lightly tugging as if begging for more. God, you'd never hated yourself so much in your life.

   His eyes watched your every reaction as his fingers explored deeper, dragging over that spot that made your brows knit together each time he pulled them out. He'd never really thought about kissing anyone until he met you—until you fell so perfectly into his lap. And here you were now, practically writhing from his every touch, not daring to refuse him. So why was he so nervous?

   You tugged at his hair again—god, he loved when you did that—and he decided that it meant you were trying to pull him closer. It meant that you wanted him. So, he closed his eyes and leaned in to kiss you.

   It was sloppy. He didn't really know what he was doing and you didn't seem particularly interested in kissing back. He decided you were probably too distracted by what his hands were doing to actually try. He'd started hitting that spot your liked more aggressively. He wanted to be the one to make you come, to watch as you unraveled at his touch, and he could tell it was working. He kissed you deeper as he felt your walls starting to clench, happily swallowing your moans as they entered his mouth. For a moment it felt like maybe you had kissed him back, but he could have been imagining it.

   He pulled away so he could look at you. Your eyes were still closed and your breathing was heavy. A sense of pride bubbled in his chest knowing he'd actually managed to make you feel good.

   Maybe he wasn't such a hopeless virgin after all.

   You opened your eyes again to find him staring at you with wonder, like you were the most incredible thing he'd ever seen. Like you were something to be had. You were worried he was going to try to kiss you again, but instead he opened his mouth, tugged at your waistband, and said the last thing you wanted to hear.

   "Take these off so I can fuck you already."

[shanmthebrave]

“Are you ready, Leo~?”

“I’m always ready, Azucena.”

“Hehe, great!”

The literal definition of Yapper x Listener - An Leo x Azucena (AzuLeo appreciation/persuasive post) -TEKKEN 8-

~TW - HE/HIM LEO~

Like, Azucena would yap about coffee and Leo wouldn’t mind :)

His laugh and the way he casually answers Azucena that he’s from Germany WHILE IGNORING THE FACT THEY’RE IN A WAR-ZONE BECAUSE THAT DON’T MATTER WHEN YOUR FAV COFFEE CELEBRITY IS IN FRONT OF YOU

Bro she’s gonna send you coffee for being a fan, like a good celebrity doessss

Also he’s ignoring the fact for a moment that she’s with G-Corp…and also also asking at the end what her true purpose was…

Tbh to me Azu’s purpose with this sudden conversation was either:

She really wants to promote her coffee ☕️

Or she finds Leo interesting (Whether Platonic or Romantic)

Either way, we can leave it to imagination :) but I’d always pick red or both

CAN WE ALSO NOT IGNORE THE FACT THAT SHE GAVE LEO A WINK AND BLEW A KISSSSS?! ACKKKKKK

Their only interaction in the story has implied that Leo already knew Azucena before their canonical encounter. Their lines during chapter 10 are proof contributing to this:

Observation from their Chapter 10 interaction:

An instant recognition, Leo’s got good observation skills. He’s kinda shocked that she’s with G-Corp. Understandable, since the people in G-Corp are pretty bad people, and seeing Azu, a person who he knows well for her coffee (only revealed after the fight), working for them, his shock becomes understandable.

Azucena’s motives confuse Leo, as she’s promoting her coffee by working with G-Corp, the company that well, 💀 his mom. Ouch.

Despite that, after their fight, Leo reveals that he’s a a fan of her coffee. AND AZUCENA FINDS HER FELLOW COFFEE DRINKER!

She offers to make a special order for him, and LEAVES THE FIGHT WITHOUT CONSIDERING ITS A WAR-ZONE, IS SHE EVEN OKAY?!

Well she is seen in the good ending so we can assume that yes she did make it

Leo is just standing there, confused as to what her real purpose was (which I covered in the point above)

Now, let’s talk about their lines during their fight and their meaning behind it, and compare this interaction to Leo’s fight with Jin:

When Leo successfully lands a hit, he says lines to try and diffuse the fight, rather then try to continue the counter offensive, unlike what he did with Jin, where his distrust in him is evident.

He says: “Open your eyes!” And “There’s no reason for us to fight!” Clearly showing that he doesn’t wanna fight Azucena. Rather, to convince her to stop siding with G-Corp.

Unlike his fight with Azucena, his interaction with Jin is a tad more hostile, as we know Jin did some pretty messed up stuff, which provoked Leo to initiate a spar with him. However, Azucena chose to fight Leo instead, when he clearly didn’t want to.

Now, let’s chat abt Azucena’s POV. She really just wants to promote her coffee, but also broaden her horizons for new blends, perhaps. Maybe find a fellow coffee enthusiast or a strong opponent (latter is the most likely motive).

When Azucena lands a hit, she only has one line: “Come on, let’s have some fun!” AS IF THIS ISNT A WAR ZONE AND ITS A FRIENDLY SPAR.

She seems to enjoy fighting Leo. This is especially shown when she gets defeated and flips back, exclaiming “You’re pretty good!” As if acknowledging his skill.

This pretty much shows that the entire time, she was fighting for fun, forgetting that she got herself into a war. It makes me laugh inside tbh. Haha.

Oh you think we’re done? Nope cuz we’re covering a lil bit about their character episodes too!

Leo meets Azucena in the final stage. Huh. What a coincidence.

There’s not much to say in this, other than the fact that both of them fight Yoshimitsu in the first stage. lol.

✨Special Interactions!!!!✨

Is there really any points we can make?! It’s so cute! And random…but funny and quite welcoming.

It’s not everyday someone encounters you and declares themself the coffee queen and tries to KICK you while you try to process everything (lol)

The pure surprise in Leo’s face never fails to make me laugh. Bro looks so perplexed and afraid 😭

And Azucena kicking him without warning is so random and even more silly, like give this man some time to process you woman 😂

When Azucena wins, she tells Leo that a good coffee takes time to brew, as if encouraging him that he’s doing great and he will get better, like a sparring partner that gives him feedback.

On Leo’s end, he’s awfully happy he won and says it’s time for a coffee break, something he says ONLY when he wins against Azucena. It’s as if fighting her reminds him of his liking for coffee.

Now, I will give my reasons why I love shipping Azucena and Leo together.

They have cute/canon interactions

The relationship has potential

Special intro pass

They relate over the one thing that got them together: COFFEE

Leo likes her products and is a big fan of her.

Azucena seems to enjoy his presence and wants to encourage him to get stronger.

Even tho Azucena sided (formerly) with G-Corp (not confirmed if she stopped working with them), Leo’s pretty chill and is willing to forgive her (Seeing as he forgave Jin, a literal war criminal)

It’s just cute. It’s so random, it’s adorable

It also just works in a way. They’re the literal definition of Yapper x Listener

She would yap to Leo about coffee and whatnot and he’d be so chill with her.

A cute, energetic girl with a shy, gentle boy trope, dominant girlies with gentle boys are just so funny and adorable to watch.

Welp, I can’t add any more photos and I’m running out of ideas, so in conclusion, the points I want to make is:

- AzuLeo is a very cute ship

- It’s hella under appreciated

- It may be random, but who says we can’t ship what we want and promote them?

- I love these two coffee lovers

- BANDAI NAMCO, GIVE THEM MORE SCENES TOGETGER, AND I WILL BE HAPPY. PLEASE!

- Azucena is overhated. Period.

- The creators of Tekken said we can call Leo any gender we want cuz Leo is…Leo. So I’ll call him a male.

I don’t rlly expect people to like the ship after this post. And that’s okay with me. As long as I’m happy and passionate posting what I like. ❤️

If you made it here, thanks for reading through my entire ship post haha. I hope you will start to like this ship or perhaps tolerate it if you hate it. Whatever happens, or if your opinion doesn’t change, at least I’ll be happy, cuz I spoke my mind on something I like :)

[pixiu0]

Part 1- Neuvillete: Hold me

Warnings! : Rushed writing, not proofread

Characters - Neuvillete

Theme : Fluff

★.・゜゜・.・゜゜・★

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For someone who is the class president, his personality is quite unexpected to say the least. Neuvillete is perceived as a cold, apathetic yet strong person by many, most of them would expect him to be not one to shed tears even during the toughest times yet here he was, curled up with his hands around himself and the uncountable amounts of soft plushies around him while he quietly sobs. His eyes were red and puffy with his hair all messed up. It would be an understatement to say that he looked pitiful and as to why he cried, you did not talk to him today and ignored his soft glances during class. He fell onto his bed, imagining the worst scenarios of what possibly led to you not talking to him? Were you mad at him? Did he do something to make you mad? Why?

Well, whatever the answer is, he will still cry and make the effort to apologize for whatever misdeed he possibly committed.

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The sun was out and the warm sunlight fell on Neuvillete's face. His eyes were red and puffy, quite expected after he cried the whole night. "What time is it.." He grumbled and picked up the clock on the nightstand. Neuvillete has always had a problem with expressing his feelings and processing them, he doesn't know what to do when he feels sad, happy or angry. It has always been a hassle, since he can't understand what others are feeling and their reasonings for many actions as well.

He got up from his bed and headed straight to the bathroom, after washing his face and going along with his usual routine Neuvillete was ready to head to school. His heart was racing, he doesn't know why exactly it's racing, perhaps the thought of you being angry at him and ignoring him again? The reason is unknown but he still wishes to apologize.

Time passed quickly and it was time for school, he arrived shortly after you did. No, he obviously did not wait for an hour just so that he could be in the same train as you and also coincidentally walk behind you while the other students also walks by. Obviously not, he just happened to do this because well, he just wanted to. That's the excuse he makes for himself everyday despite the fact that Neuvillete knows very well that he just likes being around you. Your presence is like a warm light to him, refreshing and calming.

"Ah, good morning [Name]" His eyes darted to his sight after he saw you enter the class, there weren't many students but that just meant he had more time to talk to you.

"Oh? Good morning! There aren't many students at the moment." You looked over at him and smiled.

His heart was suddenly racing, there was no air left and all that came out of his mouth was a single hum. "Yes.'' There it was, he was messing up his chances to talk you once again.

"So? How are you?"

The more you talked the more his heart was racing, this was very unlike him, he thought. Neuvillete was watching you as if you were his childhood love, and the star of his eyes which you were. He just won't say it out loud in fear, the fear of what? Rejection? He doesn't know.

"Neuvillete? You look pale. Are you okay? I can get you some water-"

"No, it's alright. Please, don't worry." His voice was a bit different than what you hear usually. "I hope so, anyways. It seems like we arrived very early today didn't we?"

Neuvillete just nodded as with whatever you said, he didn't expect you to talk with him. Was he just misunderstanding everything yesterday? Or are you just pretending?

"I'm going to the garden downstairs. Do you want to come? I would appreciate some company." You smiled at him warmly and opened the door.

"Oh? ofcourse." He quickly replied and walked behind you. To be quite frank, you knew how awkward Neuvillete could be while holding casual conversations. That's exactly why you were trying to initiate the conversation even though you, yourself weren't the greatest conversationalist. He just seemed like someone who would be a great friend, you don't know what made you talk to him so often yet here you were.

Yesterday was an unusual day, the teachers kept asking you for help and you barely got to eat and were tired overall. You didn't see Neuvillete even once the entirety of the day. He usually hangs out around the campus alone so you just thought he was absent.

The walk downstairs was silent, a question popped up in your head. "Were you absent yesterday?"

He tilted his head and looked at you in silence before finally speaking. "No I wasn't. Why?"

[allthefujoshiunite]

Can I ask your top 5 favorite moments from "Love for Sale"?

Thanks, Nora, because of you I found this manhwa, and it became one of my top fav BL ever.

Oh, have you read, "Dear Gene" by Azuma Kaya? It's also one of my favorite BL ever.... (Sorry if you already know it and don't really love them).

I can't put into words how happy it makes me that you liked Love for Sale... I don't think even Dal Hyeonji would feel this happy about someone liking their work SHFKUS but it's just SOO dear to me! Thank you for giving it a chance.

Obviously, there will be spoilers for Love for Sale below.

As for my top 5 moments.

The moment Namwoo finally realizes that he's the horndog in the relationship lol. From the moment they met, he's fixated on what he can provide for the money he's taking from Sieon, and since he's so rich and can literally buy anything he wants, there must be one thing and one thing only he wants from Namwoo: sex. Namwoo thinks Sieon must be a pervert for spending so much money on him (thus expecting a lot of sex in return) but it's actuallly him that constantly initiates sex. I kept waiting for the moment of realization!

The night Sieon went up to Namwoo's apartment to try his "toys". This is another favorite of mine because of how casual, funny and sexy at the same time. Still giggle whenever I remember Namwoo's middle finger action xD

Namwoo's realization that his sunbae was actually in love with him as well. I honestly didn't see this coming?! Probably because we never get to see his side of the story, and his "advances" could only be read as friendly invites. I should've been suspicious because I knew he picked up the nature of Namwoo and Sieon's relationship when they've first seen each other at the mall.

Namwoo and his sister Eunjung having a Love Declaration Olympics in the middle of a crowd. I mentioned in another answer that I love Eunjung for several reasons, and that scene is both so hilarious and emotional, I couldn't help but add it to the list. I love all of their interactions but this one probably takes the cake.

Sieon's blush. You know which chapter I'm talking about, right? xD I wouldn't believe you if you were to tell me that seeing a character blush after 70+ chapters would make me cry but here we are. This is top grade story-telling. Building everything up until such a "minor" point AND having a cathartic pay off, I can only bow down.

WHEW. Thank you for giving me another chance to gush about Love for Sale, because I feel self-conscious lol. I keep inserting the series whenever I get an ask or start blabbing unprovoked... Anyways. There were a lot more I liked about it, like our redhead with anger management issues looking back on his relationship with Sieon, or Namwoo's heartfelt convo with the female friend in his friend circle, OR Sieon reuniting with his mother. It's so hard to pick. But anyways, I'll stop here before I list anything and everything that transcribed in the series.

As for Dear Gene. I did read the parent manga, The Scene of My Rumspringa and liked it a lot! You can feel the weight and importance of the theme to the author, because only then you get a delicate story packed with emotions. Dear Gene was recommended to me as well, but I want to wait for the official English release because my Japanese is not at a level where I can comfortably read manga. I can get by with dictionaries and apps when the BL has your run of the mill story, I usually guess what's gonna happen from the very first chapter anyway. But BLs with deeper conversations and topics are hard to get through. I'll leave it to the translators and enjoy when I can. I'm looking forward to it!

[starlightandetherealshadows]

Howdy, it’s the fun fact not anon, I’m going to fully keep it a buck fifty, I sent a fun fact last night but my tumblr is being weird as hell and something was going on with the Wi-Fi i was using? So I’m just gonna say the same stuff again and if it went through this is sadly not a new fun facts.

Last night I was ridiculously eppy after spending the day with friends, so my initial fun fact as literally something I had just found out about and had no relevance whatsoever, which was that apparently glasses that can make subtitles are supposed to be coming out sometime in the near future, so if that works it’s pretty cool.

Then I got derailed(or re railed? Since it was a semi relevant fun fact. Either way I was very excited it came to mind,) because I did have a fun fact: It’s the classic we casually have more computing power in our phones than it took to send people to the moon in 1969. When I was trying to look up specific numbers, I found out that nowadays some fancy USBs have more computing power than the guidance computer on Apollo 11.

Then I ended it off with an ask: How do aliens react to humanity’s ability to do buck wild shit with relatively limited resources or technology? I.e using limited computational power to send someone to the moon, building gigantic pyramids, being a general nuisance to any invader, etc.

Then I proceeded to get absolutely 0 sleep until like 5:30 am.

Hi my friend!!!

So happy to get another fun fact from you!!!

As spooky as the direction of technology is going, I also think it's super cool that we've done so much with so "little?" Even the thought of the moon landing is kinda crazy to me like omg we DID that!

Or airplanes! or being able to call people all over the world! or being able to have fully translated conversations with people using your phone. it's all very cool.

I think the aliens would be just as impressed! Not because the tech is more advanced, but because it can actually keep up with some of their own. They would be ticked by the cell phone, for sure. The concept of "apps" makes them giggle a bit.

"You got games on your phone" headasses!!!

Always great to hear from you!!! Hope you're having a great day!

All my love,

Cheye

[shoes--off]

Misplaced Targets

Let me preface this little review/commentary by saying, I am in 'carpe diem' mode. I don't know what the future will bring, and it's increasingly clear that trying to imagine it is futile based on partial information. So. Lucy was in episode 2x13 - and I very much enjoyed that she was in it. Let's discuss that. And some parallels. 😄

AJ & Kai I was not a big fan of this storyline initially. It didn't really explore the ties between AJ and Kai or the past friendship, and it looked like Kai was pretty fast at turning his back on his former friend and thinking the worst of him. AJ, with his particular brand of charming casualness and flippancy, was growing from annoying to irritating as a character. So, I definitely did not see that plot twist coming, and even though it left me a little confused regarding what AJ did and did not do, I really liked it. AJ went from irritating to oddly sympathetic, and it was impossible not to feel something as he went off the rails after his wife got arrested, and more so as he denied trying to kill anyone.

Kai & Jane The Jane/Kai relationship/bond was a big part of the first half of season 1. I didn't miss it, exactly, but I was very happy to see it back. Jane, as a boss, remains a boss - and by that I mean, her mix of firmness and warmth and care is endlessly impressive to me, and I really enjoyed all the different notes we got in this episode. I think you can tell a good episode when it sparks conversation - and this episode did that. I went from a little annoyed in my first seeing the episode at Kai not heeding Jane's instructions to a realization in my second, more careful watch, that he just kept getting stuck in the wrong place at the wrong time through no fault of his own. I feel like everyone was very true to their characters and this contributing to everything going wrong until it went right is not something I want to unpack as meta right this moment 😆 As for parallels, Jane offering a drink to Kai at the end and checking up on him was reminiscent of 1x11 and also 2x11 when did did the same with Lucy, then Kate. In all cases, the person had had a brush with death/injury. I love, love that this is something she picked up from Maggie, and that she's able to keep the good from Maggie without letting it be soured by the bad. I feel like that's a really hard thing to do, but what a great thing to highlight.

Jesse & Ernie This is another one of those scenes that I wasn't expecting, and made me feel like I didn't know to wish for it. I very much enjoyed it. I love what they've done with Ernie this season - maybe starting back to mid-S1, actually. Where they are using him less as comedic relief and adding layers and depth to his character, taking advantage of what a fantastic actor Jason Antoon is. I'm not sure what's in store for Ernie, but that felt like maybe the beginning of something, and if so, I am excited about it.

Hina I love her. Please, more of her. She was hilarious throughout this episode, and I just generally love her nonsense vibe very much. I don't know if there's any way they can make her feature in the show more, but I very much would love that.

Dalia Also love Dalia. Really hope she comes back as a guest star. I'm really glad to get closure regarding her relationship with Ernie as well, which felt like a ball they dropped in S1 a little bit, or rather, left unresolved.

Lucy & Ernie This is one of my favorite dynamics in the show, I'm sure I've mentioned that before. I loved that scene. I assume Yasmine and Jason were both talking to a screen but the rapport felt exactly the same as when they're actually acting off of each other in person. Jesse being jealous that Lucy doesn't video chat with him was a cute moment as well.

Lucy & Kate I'll admit, having Lucy video chat Ernie but only interact with Kate on the phone feels like a bit of an odd choice. This coming after months (in air time) of no Kacy, I'm loathe to criticize it, but it felt slightly off to me (though I can't pinpoint what, exactly). It's hard to have the same energy in a scene when not being physically in the same space, and I feel like Tori maybe did slightly better at that than Yasmine (but Tori had had practice with the second-hand updates). It was still very cute, and I still get a bit of a thrill every time Lucy calls Kate, 'Kate'.

Kate Kate looked incredibly good and confident both on the field and off. I didn't know I needed her to arrest someone, but she's definitely grown as an FBI agent, hasn't she? Love to see it. That said, that's the second time a member of the NCIS team yells at her because they're freaking out (after Jane in 1x13) and while I can appreciate the parallel, and where the characters are coming from, I don't like it. Wish there was some apology though realistically there's probably not enough time for it. I know I've said it before, but I'm so, so impressed by Tori as Kate this season.

Lucy I have missed Lucy so very much. Agent Afloat Lucy Tara was seriously impressive once she actually had something to investigate (I did head-canon that Lucy would complain nonstop if bored, so definitely laughed in glee at her complaining to Kate). And it's been my wish for S2 to see Lucy grow. And, I have to admit, I both saw her grow and didn't, and got the same feeling you get when you haven't seen someone in a while and you start noticing the differences. Confidence is sexy, but so is competence, and Agent Afloat Lucy Tara had both in spades. She aced this investigation, and did so, imo, in a completely believable way. She's clearly picked up a lot from Jane, and her asking to talk to XO Ramirez outside felt like a throwback to Jane doing the same with Milius in 1x01. I also love that she remembered everything Petty Officer Gattman had told her, even though it looked like she was only half paying attention to what he was saying. As for her picking up clues and figuring out the patterns, we've seen her do the same in 2x04, then in 2x07. I miss Lucy kicking butt, but would lie if I said Lucy's intelligence is not my absolute favorite thing about her. She's a hell of an investigator, and that's all I'm going to say about it. 😊

Special mentions Shedunit: This is the second time in the scope of 5 episodes that a black lady turns out to be a villain. What is up with that? The directing: Loved all the close ups, and the close ups of Yasmine/Lucy especially. This one may be my favorite shot:

(That's saying a lot in an episode where absolutely everyone looked stunning.)

[thegeminisage]

tng night the second: naked now and code of honor. verdict: oh man.

really excited initially about a sequel to naked time, easily among the best ever tos episodes. but this is too early! even in tos we'd gotten a short time to know them as they are normally before they did All Of That

also this episode was. uh. not great. for starters, the inhibitions being lowered in meant different things to everyone...except the women. ALL THREE major female characters instantly turned into boy crazy sex fiends, which is particularly tragic for tasha bc she has major lesbian swag.

wesley continued to be annoying in this episode. i want to like him because he seems like a nice and eager kid (even if it is still fucking bonkers to me that kids are allowed on a starship), but the problem is he'll do some stupid bullshit that kids are wont to do and instead of like mothering him at all crusher IMMEDIATELY begins making excuses for him and getting defensive if anybody says anything to him. so also i realized i do kind of like crusher, especially when she gives picard shit, except every time she starts to grow on me she just lets wesley do whatever he wants and the i'm like :| again

also, what is UP with tasha yar. RAPE GANGS??? she just drops that into casual conversation while trying to fuck an android?? hello?????

lmao that data fucks also. i'm so glad actually. love and light it's so hard when people make androids asexual. i'm never opposed to any ace headcanon ever they're all fundamentally correct every fictional character IS ace so true but cmon. a robot??? it's better this way. good for him.

also, why did crusher get infected AFTER riker but succumb before him?? like are women just that weak lmao

perhaps the most interesting character in naked now was geordi, who got absolutely no resolution to the interesting setup they gave him, which is pretending he's satisfied with the way things are re: his vision and the prosthetic he uses, and then revealing that perhaps he's actually secretly not. that was neat. every time he's onscreen i'm like "i'd like to know more about that guy" and every time they're like "no <3"

code of honor was somehow even WORSE. apart from like. the obvious sexism and racism. we also had tasha yar once again being like "oooh i would love this big savage black man to ravish me that did make me feel so sexy" which. what the FUCK

AND ALSO a scene with crusher that annoyed me, because she went from "oh why can't i as a doctor show professionalism" (she's a woman) and then also in the middle of the crisis "can i bother you to let my son on the bridge even though he's a child i speak As A Mother (woman)" like girl...ik you love your son but he doesn't need free roam of a fucking starship. he is a baby. he needs to be in class. this was crusher's only scene in the entire episode btw she quite literally had 8 lines and they were all about how much of a woman she was.

i just feel like if we are going to do this to women we should go back to not having them. like shadowhunters. if you can't treat those ladies properly you have to put them back on the shelf until you're a grown-up.

we looked up a few skip/watch lists but none of them agree with each other. i'm too paranoid about missing vital info/context and i wanna see them all anyway even the bad ones but like...this is ROUGH. i know i know i KNOW it is going to get so, so much better. but good god.

[sleepyowlwrites]

Hi sleepy! Here for story teller Sunday

Tell me more about R Blakesley in the Youth Story. What’s their power, and *tucks hair behind ear* do tell their favorite ways to self-destruct.

hooooooooooookay.

Roland Everett Blakesley is seventeen, and a middle child. he's six years younger than his older brother, but only two years older than his younger brother, Callum (Cal). R and Cal are very close, since their parents are often both away on business trips and their brother Leander is in university.

R doesn't like his name, which is why he goes by a single initial. it's dumb, just like he is. R is a flirtatious, dramatic boi, prone to saying things he only halfway means just to distract from a subject he doesn't want to talk about, or to stir up conversation on a subject he wants to focus on. he's very affectionate, very casually so, but he still puts a lot of weight and meaning into how he affections his friends. he tries to tailor his care to everyone's specific tastes, but often gets lazy and reverts back to his default: hugs and flirting. Evie and Savannah call him out on it the most. Evie does because she's blunt and doesn't hold back when she wants to say something, and Savannah because she feels everybody's emotions and doesn't appreciate when anyone is clouding up the air with colors (of emotions) because they're not very straight about something.

R's power is projected thermography, which means he can print pictures onto objects from his mind. he uses it mostly to create pictures for the photo albums Cal makes - mostly for Nyks, but for all of them since Nyks shares - and also because he has a terrible memory and making pictures is the only good way to make sure he remembers things.

R's favorite way to self-destruct is to create trouble with someone, ignore that it's hurting both him and the other person, and then feel guilty about it and hurt and sulk while struggling to apologize and potentially receive forgiveness. he wants to be the hero that he think Cal needs him to be, but is very bad at being responsible for his own words and feelings and being accountable for them, either. he's responsible for others, just not himself.

at the start of Youth Story, R is engaged in a mutual dislike and fight-on-sight arrangement with Mark, so they can postpone dealing with their teenage angst by punching each other a few times and then never talking about it, despite having the same friend group. everyone is trying to get them to stop doing that, and they gradually do, even behaving passively around each other until they work up the courage to apologize. and then they're really awkward for a bit while Mark is unsure of how to act around R and R is just acting like he and Mark were never "enemies" to begin with, which means flirting, drama, and affection. it's delightful, they're both so dumb. their friends literally tell them this.

receipts:

“You guys are so stupid,” Evie grumbled. “R, apologize, too.”

R tugged Nyks toward him and wrapped his arm around the less than solid boy*. “I’m sorry. I’m stupid.”

“You’re not stupid,” Nyks mumbled. “You’re just dumb.”

and

Then Cal turned to him, a bright spark**, and Mark noticed that there were no lamps turned on, only this sweet boy's smile, and clarified, "R texted me. He said he might have offended you."

"Which we took to mean that he definitely offended you, because he's R and if his mouth is open he's offending someone." Irina stuck her chin out at Cal. "What?"

Cal dimmed only slightly. "Don't be rude. What did my idiot brother say, Mark?"

*Nyks' power is phasing and he doesn't have the best control after he was struck by lightning that one time.

**Cal's power is light manipulation, and he glows when he's happy.

and a bonus, after R and Mark are sort of friends now:

Mark squints off the to side before looking back at R’s grin with not nearly the hardest glare, hands rustling in his jacket pockets. “Can we go inside now? It’s cold out here.”

“Yeah, it is.” R rubs his own hands together.

“Why’d we have to meet outside to begin with?”

“I thought it might help defuse our tempers.” R is eyeing his shoes with disinterest.

Mark exhales a bigger breath and it lingers in the air for a couple of extra seconds. “You’re so stupid.”

R’s face lights up as their eyes meet. “I am! Therefore I should not be held accountable for my actions.”

“Don’t even try.” Mark moves past him and nudges his arm with an elbow. It feels oddly natural, but he isn’t going to analyze it just now. “You wanna freeze? Come on.”

it's been a while since I revisited Youth Story. I was gonna try and write the first draft this year. I still can. I have no idea what I'll be doing for April camp nano, which has been my best writing month for the past two years. hmm.

thanks for asking, Inkspell!

[punkscowardschampions]

Ruster pt.2

Buster: [do call and see, I really hope she’s at the shops like Johnny asked for peak inappropriate phone call timing]

Rio: [just in big tesco, nbd, you assumedly are and you should really remember that conversation and not pick up but is that who you are, no, to a fault, so we are answering but not saying anything, which is something I guess lol]

Buster: [Winnie says how many rings though sis, did she make him sweat even a lil before she picked up or were we blatant lol lol, also tell me why you can hear his smugness down this phone because she did answer even though he’s likewise not saying anything for a sec, I love y’all and your initial silences/ just breathing, the way his breathing is too steady so you know it’s a deliberate effort to be and not at all actually casual]

Rio: [Win says give me details gdi and he is right for that honestly, my apologies, idk how long phones ring if you just let them and the person doesn’t hang up, like can a mobile just ring indefinitely now? Who can say but we know you aren’t leaving it THAT long, it’s giving three rings or something like peeps do when they’re like lemme know you got in safe vibes; me like thank god you have shopping to be doing so you aren’t just staring at this phone with the !! you want to and would be if you were home because you need to at least sound indignant about and/or unaffected by his air of smugness that is palpable]

Buster: [eventually asking, after that BEAT of neither of them speaking has STRETCHED, ‘where are you?’ because he can clearly hear the supermarket background noise and hence is even more smug she answered if it’s possible for him to be any more rn haha]

Rio: [you love/hate a silence that says so much honeys, hence we out here holding out longer than necessary before we say ‘Johnny asked me to get [the thing(s) he did]’ to tell you where we are, likewise doing the most to sound so casual here like this is just a random call whilst you’re perusing the aisles and you aren’t admitting to a lot with answering]

Buster: [a sound that’s meant to be like mhmm/oh okay yeah that tracks but is forever less casual than that because he’s making it for her and giving daddy vibes always ‘you are on your best behaviour this morning’ like ofc that’s what you’re doing rn despite us having a serious convo prior to this phonecall but he didn’t have to phase it like that, except yes he did]

Rio: [doing a little omg choke back because ‘yeah he said that too’ and you didn’t need the reminder then and you don’t need it now, although you can see the funny side still you’re mostly 😳 of course ‘did you make sure you were alone first?’ because you took a while to respond]

Buster: [‘taking his daddy role seriously’ phrased like that because do you mean Johnny or do you mean you, heathen, shameless excuse to put the d word out into the world, we see you, but as if this is a casual convo letting her hear your (obvs quieter than a supermarket tannoy) background noise more clearly cos I imagine you’re likewise out and about whether you’ve been to boxing or football or whatever because he’s always busy with stuff and why not have the parallel of him being out and about and we haven’t specified whether this is a weekday or a weekend that St Paddy’s fell on so I can do what I want]

Rio: [‘baby will be a breeze compared to me’ said like it’s bants and what am I like but you are a little embarrassed how vulnerable you were with him, accidentally with the crying and then again this AM ‘but he must not hate me ‘cos he’s getting me a job’ because clinging to this job as something to distract you is all you have at the minute and you’re attempting to show Buster you are in fact trying even though you truly don’t want to because you still want him and you can’t tell yourself otherwise soz not soz]

Buster: [the way he was gonna say SHE’S a baby because he was literally still drunk (because such was the STATE he got in) until he did whatever exercise he’s just finished and sweated/vommed it out in a very undignified manner so being sober is a new concept but he is enough that he can stop himself but it was obvious he was gonna say something and it doesn’t take a genius so you might as well have just said it tbh sir, hear him running a hand through his curls instead as he shakes his head like no I must not, finally, asking ‘what job?’ because of the awkwardness and because he’s always failing the pretending not to care challenge]

Rio: [the expectant pause you do when you think you heard someone try to say something but didn’t hear what was said like oop sorry, go ahead but of course he is not going to go ahead and you can work out why if not exactly what he was going to say, eventually doing a little sigh like okay then and forging ahead like that moment didn’t just occur ‘don’t know yet, I just want to work’ because you aren’t opposed to anything truly, even if this wasn’t mainly an attempt to stay busy, you are a hard worker ‘maybe he’ll take me on his jobs’ with a lil lol because you know he absolutely will not and it is an amusing mental image]

Buster: [when it’s such an adorable mental image that when he joins the lol it’s so affectionate and so with her and not meanly at her that you’d forget he’s been an absolute dick this entire previous convo and know that it’s the audio equivalent of doing heart eyes so big at her rn, no notes]

Rio: [me and this girl here like why can’t it be like this always, as if we don’t know the answer because we don’t accept it thank you, doing the thing of not wanting to say anything because you don’t want this moment to pass]

Buster: [literally, the way it’s so effortlessly good when they let it be is what really fucks his head up because simply can’t let it be all the time and the injustice of that because they have the audacity to be related, catch him here eventually doing a sigh (after another pause for some more breathing post their shared lol) because of all the above and because he should hang up but as per he doesn’t want to]

Rio: [mhmm, oh lads, we really did you like that I’m so sorry, catch this girl always giving you an out because don’t have it in us to be cruel even when we could be ‘I know I shouldn’t have answered’ like I’m SORRY but there was likewise no way she was not going to]

Buster: [‘you wanted to’ not in an accusatory tone of yes hun it is all your fault bye but because she said he wanted to before he rang so it’s instead a way to acknowledge this is mutual without being like yep I/we wanted you to outright, the softness in his tone actually and the way it’s quieter will be the death of me, all traces of his earlier smugness totally gone]

Rio: [‘yeah’ using the exact same soft and quiet tone because we did, we do and we would again ‘you’re big on the truth’ because love to repeat someone’s words back to them always, and in this instance it isn’t in a sassy manner, just letting you know we were being honest]

Buster: [‘yeah’ to repeat her word back to her but also because he genuinely is and we hate so much that we have to lie to everyone rn, trying to lie to himself included, he wanted to tell his mum so hardcore and so many times nearly did, being even softer and quieter as a result]

Rio: [‘I know’ because you do know that about him and you know he’s only lying to try and make this possible in a way you should also be helping with but you find it so difficult ‘I’ll miss it’ in an almost wobbly small voice because you hate that you can’t even give each other honesty]

Buster: [‘I know’ in ref to how hard she finds it to be an arsehole unlike him, had to say it like that though so he could get another echo of her words in ‘I’ll miss you’ we all know there would’ve been a lil pause where he could have stopped himself from saying that but he did not because he wanted to give her that honesty, that tiny bit at least]

Rio: [trying not to immediately start crying again, because you don’t need to make this harder than it already is also you are in a supermarket but that’s far less relevant to you tbh but you can tell she is GATHERING herself by the way she’s doing dramatic swallows and nodding like okay, it’s okay, we’re okay ‘I’ll miss you too’ as a rush of words, as if you are being hurried but really you know if you try to think about it any more you’ll either be able to say nothing or say too much so you just gotta]

Buster: [‘don’t’ still softly but with a firmness that comes with daddy energy to genuinely try and stop her from crying because obvs you know she almost is, a daddy who cares if you will, speaking of, there’s nothing I’d like more than for her to cause a scene in big tesco and her new dad have to come and pick her up but alas he’s busy so we must find some chill, when you likewise wanna say a million things back but cannot so you just say her name with as much feeling as you’ll let yourself, pretending as if we’re remotely saying it like stop/enough of that/any kind of warning at all]

Rio: [very much doing sounds that are giving I’m sorry, I won’t as we continue to get it together because the kind of energy you appreciate, as well as appreciating the effort he’s going to to keep it together for himself as well as you ‘I’ll be better’ like I am so sorry for failing at being good right now, so sincerely too and the ‘really’ when he says her name like no I PROMISE]

Buster: [doing comforting sounds of his own which are lowkey unnecessary because she can and already is getting herself together but they feel very necessary to him in this moment, anything to focus on her so he doesn’t fall apart himself rn ‘you’re the best’ shamelessly blurted out as sincerely before he could stop himself even if he was going to which atm he clearly isn’t but we can’t care about saying too much cos we care more about saying what she needs to hear and giving her something to keep hold of because we all know that no matter what she is the best to ever do it and nobody does like her as far as he’s concerned so there’s no taking that back whatever else he may try to gaslight her or himself into thinking he never said/thought/felt]

Rio: [is clearly shaking her head ‘I make everything harder for you’ and scoffing so hard at yourself when you realise the double entendre because you did not mean it in this serious moment and are mad it just happened ‘it’s not your job’ softer, after this scathing energy directed towards her own self, because we know from what has been said that he feels like it is and you’ve said he has to, in saucier moments, look after you but you need to tell him he doesn’t because that’s the best you can do as far as letting him go for now]

Buster: [unable to resist doing his own noise like true because despite the seriousness of the situation there’s no lie detected in that double entendre ever ‘I’ve had more than enough shit handed to me’ with some scathing energy directed his own way because baze have made everything too easy and he doesn’t blame them but he also doesn’t want that for himself and his future cos he simply isn’t Nancy ‘and I haven’t got another lined up yet’ because no part-time jobs for him but also a way to tell her that he’s always going to, despite everything]

Rio: [‘you didn’t ask for it’ because literally, you were just born into the family you were born into, none of us ask for those cards and how they’re dealt, we believe that and aren’t about to drag you for your privilege here and now ‘you’ve got America in [however many days ‘til that first excursion]’ to be like you can keep busy too but also like I remembered that detail because I care so much about you don’t forget]

Buster: [‘neither did you’ because likewise not just the incest though ofc that but everything else ‘we’re dealt our cards blind, the only thing up to us is how we play the hand’ because literally what he believes too, hence I must, a noise that’s giving omg you remember, that kind of not at all casual intake of breath and we all know he’s thinking about when they talked about her going with him and he wants to say it but doesn’t, it’s HANGING there in the air regardless girls, eventually after such a dramatic pause as a result ‘I’ll have a phone’ because they have done so many phonecalls, not you saying you’re around still if she needs you]

Rio: [doing noises of agreement because you do fundamentally agree with this because you two are compatible and on the same page, soz to say except I am not, these noises turning into your own noise that I could capitalise but you’re trying to not do all that even though it was involuntary so you can’t help the !! fully ‘can I have your new account?’ shamelessly even though you said you did not want to see because we know you in fact do because you need to know what he’s doing and how he is]

Buster: [the way he stops breathing when he hears her noise cos he feels it in his bones and he’s so !! ‘Give me yours, I’ll give you mine’ as shamelessly because not over the fact she has one and we don’t know how long it has existed for or what might be on there, the possibilities are absolutely thrilling and he couldn’t be more turned on by them]

Rio: [‘I will’ as excitedly because however much you should do the ‘right’ thing and are attempting to, you will always be thrilled at having connection to him, you can’t help it; we also all know this account is you testing the waters of what you eventually want to do so it will be exactly the sort of content this boy will want to see]

Buster: [doing such a big lip bite about this that it’s almost audible because the prospect of being dropped new bae content of any sort when he’s absolutely rinsed every second of her other insta/all her socials has him ready to make a NOISE that he’s barely able to stop himself from, hence ‘hang up and send it to me’ because he needs access to this rn IMMEDIATELY before he can talk himself out of it]

Rio: [doing it with your own hot lol because can’t give any time for this to become a no or a regret either, not to mention you avoid the goodbye neither of you ever wants to say this way so hang that call up and send him your sneaky 2nd account, on however many platforms you have one because it’s probably a few]

Buster: [add her and immediately post insta story content of you sweaty and flustered from your exercise (and her) and looking so indecent as a result so she knows it’s you]

Rio: [react in a private way whether through sending emojis or a DM, just shamelessly thirsting and heart eyes however we go about it because we can]

Buster: [catch him as shamelessly reacting to everything she’s posted, the same kinda way, however long it takes or how far he has to scroll back, we can’t and won’t stop, no fucks given to where he is, who might be around or anything else at first, but hopefully he’ll find some privacy somewhere because we all know he’s gonna and gotta be touching himself as this escalates and be blatantly letting her know it too with what he’s then saying in his comments/with his emojis]

Rio: [messaging him via DMs here for the foreseeable because feels like a loophole to say what you want at this moment in time]

Rio: Now I have to somehow checkout and get home without dying 

Buster: [likewise unless we otherwise specify because we can kinda pretend we’re different people/this is acceptable doing it here like this]

Buster: Or die at checkout because you can’t wait to get home

Rio: 🥺

Rio: Even at a self-checkout, that’s pushing it

Buster: You love pushing it, that’s what this account is

Rio: True

Rio: you aren’t going to judge me for it though, are you

Buster: Are you going to go as far as you can with me?

Rio: I really want to

Buster: Tell me

Rio: I want to take it as far as possible with you

Buster: [the number of miles from Dublin to London to Harvard not at all casually, love that you know that even in this state of !!]

Rio: [adding the miles to New York like I’m going to be there with you too]

Rio: That far

Buster: A little further, you need to add [a number of miles he hasn’t specified the meaning of and she wouldn’t necessarily be able to as easily guess teehee cos I can]

Rio: Where are you taking me?

Buster: To [insert somewhere where she’s said she wanted to go when she was a child and he’s not clearly remembered but keeps good enough tabs to know she hasn’t been yet, whether that’s her namesake place or wherever else we want, the point is he knows and wants to take her] and back

Rio: [ain’t no way Caleb is taking you in this lifetime so it’s definitely Rio]

Rio: You could leave me there and I’d only be mad at you for the one reason 😍

Buster: You know I couldn’t leave you

Rio: Promise

Rio: don’t ever leave me long, I need you to feel like me

Buster: I promise

Buster: tether me, I want you to

Rio: I’ll tie you to me, happily, always 

Rio: I’m tiny, I won’t ever drag you down 

Rio: and you won’t ever get tired, holding me close

Buster: Like a baby

Buster: I remember

Rio: You remember everything important

Rio: don’t you 

Buster: No amount of [whatever drugs and drink combo he was on to get blackout, using Dublin slang as per how he does when he talks to her] could make me forget 

Rio: but you’ll have some fun trying

Buster: But we have more fun together, don’t we?

Rio: And we could have so much more fun still, me and you

Buster: Are you buying yourself [something that’s giving an even more realistic replica of him because we all remember when, get yourself down the fruit and veg aisle lol]??

Rio: I would be if you told me to

Rio: *dared, sorry

Buster: I dare you to press them against you until you find one that’s [giving PRECISE details about his dick here to give her as vivid a mental image as possible and so she can get this right, whether that’s about thickness or a slight curve or both, we know the vibes] and makes you need to bite the inside of your mouth

Rio: Jesus fucking Christ, okay

Rio: how is LITERALLY every inch of you perfect, please?

Buster: Next time you’re in church, ask the question

Rio: You want me to think of you wherever I am

Buster: You will be whether I tell you to or not, you’re always thinking about me

Rio: How can I not

Rio: even if I’m trying not to, I’m concentrating all my energy on that

Buster: Like now, I can feel how hard you’re concentrating on avoiding detection, but you still have a dare to complete

Rio: [take a picture of your 😳 flustered face and have the background of where you are to show him you’re going through with it]

Buster: Good girl

Rio: If one has the [one of those PRECISE details] then it doesn’t have [another]

Rio: this is so hard

Buster: What are you going to do?

Rio: Keep looking

Rio: you’re perfect, nothing less is acceptable

Buster: Try until you succeed, exactly

Buster: which is why you’re perfect for me

Rio: You want me too

Buster: Truth, you can still dare me though, as you already knew it

Rio: You’re already touching yourself, which is all I really want you to do if I can’t

Rio: I’ll dare you not to block or unfollow this account though, no matter what

Buster: Keep looking and you’ll be able to touch me, however you want

Rio: Oh I’m looking, I feel like I’m about to be arrested for how I’m looking

Buster: I’ll bail you out, don’t worry

Buster: defend your honour, no matter what

Rio: Did I prepare you for your career?

Buster: You’re an angel, even now

Rio: Not right now

Buster: Especially right now

Buster: it would be criminal of me to deny you anything when you’re just doing what you’re told and behaving so well

Rio: You know what I want from you, it’s all I’d ask of you

Buster: And you know I’d only offer you what you deserve

Rio: You’re so good to me

Buster: We’re on the same level

Rio: We’ve never been like the others

Rio: you know I was bullshitting when I said you’d do this with anyone else, or that I would

Buster: I’ve always known we were more alike than different, deep down, where and when it’s most important

Rio: More twins than you and her, you said that

Buster: Yeah, you understand me better than anyone else

Rio: That’s why I worry about you

Rio: not because I think I’m incredible, but you need me

Buster: I think you’re incredible and I’m rarely wrong

Rio: [not you blushing more in the middle of this supermarket than when you were full-on shopping for replacement dick but of course you are]

Buster: Tell me you agree with my correct opinion

Rio: Only because you’re so sexy when you’re all demanding

Buster: Say it, I’m waiting to hear you

Rio: [you should be really damn embarrassed now but we know you’re also the most turned on so will do this regardless, enjoy that !! voice note] 

Buster: I bet the entire aisle agrees with us after listening to you

Rio: The entire aisle is going to know way too much if I don’t get to somewhere with some privacy immediately

Buster: I should demand you stay there, knowing you like that so much

Rio: Do you think I can touch you how I want to here?

Rio: [a pic of the thing you have eventually chosen up to your lips like you’re winnie pondering but you’re just showing that they are bitten, ofc]

Buster: I have faith in you

Rio: Hm, you know I would if it was really you, anywhere

Rio: I suppose it’s only right

Buster: You need to start somewhere

Rio: [now this becomes a game of you being progressively but stealthily inappropriate with this as you walk around the shop, which you can prove to him to a point because hand and mouth stuff is only suggestive but he’s just going to have to trust you or y’all are going to cross that line once more for the rest]

Buster: You really love pushing it

Rio: So do you

Buster: I told you, we’re perfect for each other

Rio: I know 

Rio: you push me

Buster: I want to, against every single shelf

Rio: You’re going to

Rio: it’s laughable how easy it will be to be alone

Buster: The world won’t end if I touch you, it’s ours

Rio: There’s so little difference in you telling me to fuck myself for you and you doing it yourself, to everyone else

Rio: it only matters to us

Buster: I’ll show you how much difference there is, babe

Rio: This doesn’t end here, at hypotheticals 

Rio: show me

Buster: It’s too real

Rio: We belong together, I won’t deny it

Buster: Letting anyone or anything else call the shots is bullshit

Rio: I only want you telling me what to do

Buster: You make me proud and happy and feel a lot of things only you can

Rio: I can’t picture my life with anyone else, not how I can with you

Buster: Don’t, you’re mine, no-one else can have you

Rio: I’ve never belonged to anyone else

Buster: You never will

Rio: I’ve never been without you, you were waiting for me

Buster: I saw you first

Rio: You put your lips on mine first

Buster: It’s my turn again

Rio: I don’t need any other friends if you’ll play with me again

Buster: I promise not to spin any more bottles, you’re who I want to kiss

Rio: I’ve never been able to kiss anyone and not think about the time it was you

Rio: and I wouldn’t want it any different, I love how stuck my brain and body is to that moment

Buster: I close my eyes and they’re all you

Rio: Open them and it will be me, it has to be me

Buster: If I say your name any louder I’ll be the one getting arrested

Rio: No, it’s only natural you want me, I am so needy and obsessed with you

Buster: It’s meant to be intense, remember

Rio: You’re so bright and hot, literally but in all my memories, compared to everyone else

Buster: Vivid, that’s what you are too, in every room, actual and metaphorical

Rio: God, we’d be perfect together

Rio: actually the perfect couple

Buster: I’m not interested in having a girlfriend unless she’s you, the first

Rio: When are you going to ask me?

Buster: When I can ask you in person

Rio: I don’t even need to tell you that any of my boyfriends have meant as little as your hookups, you know

Rio: but I’ll tell you anything you want to know

Buster: All I ask is you don’t ever lie to me

Rio: I won’t, not even to do the right thing anymore

Buster: Promise

Rio: I promise I won’t lie to you, Buster

Buster: Your lip is almost bleeding, you know what to do

Rio: Am I ready?

Buster: You tell me, are you?

Rio: [simply show him the evidence that yes, you are]

Buster: You need everyone to see what I do to you, what I always have

Buster: you were born ready for me

Rio: I’ll go insane if no one else ever acknowledges it, it’s so obvious, it’s just a fact to me

Rio: I was literally made for you

Buster: Your eyes get so fucking big when they look at me, ever since you first opened them

Rio: You’re a lot to take in

Rio: can say that with near certainty but I mean, look at you

Buster: Yeah, look at me

Buster: [and sending her the most indecent images rn because why not when you’ve already described yourself in all the possible detail]

Rio: OH

Rio: [when there’s no need to exaggerate how huge your eyes are rn]

Buster: Don’t blink

Rio: I haven’t taken my eyes off you since I first saw you, now is no exception 

Buster: I’m not letting you out of my sight when I see you again

Rio: I’m not letting you out of me

Rio: you’ll just have to live with me constantly attached to you I’m afraid

Buster: No further than [however many inches] apart

Rio: You deserve me at your disposal

Buster: And you deserve to be mine in plain sight, claimed in front of everyone

Rio: Why shouldn’t you get me, you’re the golden boy, it’s not just me that’s so proud of you

Buster: You’re a goddess and everyone but me is only human

Rio: They’d be happy for us, if they stopped and thought about it

Rio: how could they not, if you take me like that

Buster: If it wasn’t a family trait to prioritise your own happiness above all else neither of us would be here

Rio: Why break from tradition, what for

Buster: I don’t regret this

Rio: I never will

Buster: Neither will I, despite any bullshit protests I end up making to the contrary, you know that

Rio: This is the truth, whatever happens

Buster: Hold me to it

Rio: I’ll try my best

Buster: My eyes can’t lie either, try looking there

Rio: Your eyes are holy

Rio: there’s nowhere to hide when they meet mine

Buster: [show her that you’ve made her giant eyes your phone pic so that you can keep staring at it]

Rio: You really like me

Buster: You remember what I said

Rio: If I think about it now

Rio: I can’t

Buster: Find somewhere to hide and think about it

Rio: Can I have a picture too?

Buster: You can have anything you want

Rio: I need to be able to look at you too, whenever I need to remember

Buster: [send her one obvs]

Rio: [show him you’ve set it as your pic too because couldn’t be more in love]

Buster: When are you going to say it back?

Rio: I have, haven’t I?

Buster: Say it again, even if you have

Rio: [after you have clearly taken the time to get somewhere private like he suggested, sending him the audio of you saying he’s the love of your life because you have not said it exactly like that I don’t believe and you couldn’t sound more !! rn for all the reasons]

Buster: [send her your extra ass audio response because you will be absolutely sent by that and you need her to know it killed you despite the stop and start touching yourself you’ve been doing because she couldn’t and so you were clearly trying not to die many a time in solidarity and succeeded until this]

Rio: I barely made it into this cubicle

Rio: Damn

Buster: I’ll need a minute before I can leave this one

Rio: Understatement

Rio: but I’m glad I’ve got you alone

Buster: I’m glad you’re here too

Rio: I’ve hijacked your day

Buster: I’m the opposite of angry about that

Buster: not to mention, you often do, the difference was you didn’t know how much time or attention I devoted to you before

Rio: I’ll remind you how un-angry you are when you let me look after you

Buster: And I’ll remind you, regardless of what you’re planning, you can’t move more than [the length or his tongue] or [the length of his longest finger]

Rio: 🥴 no moving

Rio: Unless security comes but I’ll take you with me

Buster: If they show up I’ll protect you

Rio: It is only right you take all the blame for the state I’m in

Buster: Full responsibility is the least I can do considering what I expect you to take

Rio: You’re the opposite of scared of responsibility 

Rio: that’s how I feel about your expectations too

Buster: I know, it’s why you don’t let me down

Rio: If I don’t get [whatever you were getting for Ali/baby Maggie] home sooner rather than later I’ll be in everyone else’s bad books so I appreciate that

Buster: I appreciate you staying with me

Rio: I don’t want to be anywhere else

Buster: Commit this to memory, I want you to commit to me in every possible way there is

Rio: There are no substances to hide behind or muddy any of it

Rio: This will be vivid too

Buster: The high’s all you

Rio: How are you real?

Rio: how has this happened?

Buster: Because I’m sick of forcing it not to

Rio: It’s exhausting

Buster: Yeah

Buster: I’d rather put my energy to better use

Rio: You need to, to get where you want to be, if nothing else

Buster: I need to when where I want to be is with you

Rio: You can’t leave it ‘til August now

Buster: Tell me when I should come back

Rio: Assuming right now is out of the question?

Buster: You’re already late home, so for you it is, arguably

Rio: The sensible and serious answer is whenever your parents next plan to come over then

Buster: What happened to your happy medium?

Rio: When do you think you can come over?

Buster: [something sporty that you can pretend you really need to be in Dublin for as a spectator which will blow your mum’s mind because you were just basically telling her you hate Dublin, but needs must, I shan’t commit us to an exact date but it’s clearly closer than the next big fam function] 

Rio: You are so smart

Buster: Dad would typically come too but [insert some baze work nonsense which just means you know he’s busy then]

Rio: So

Rio: you can come alone then, no obstacles at all?

Buster: If my parents object I’ll launch a superior counter-argument

Rio: Nerd 😍

Buster: You’re welcome, babe

Rio: You’re serious

Rio: this can happen 

Buster: Trust that I’m capable of making everything happen, nothing’s impossible

Rio: I already knew that about you, no proving it necessary but I’m not going to be upset when you do

Buster: [send her the confirmation that you’ve already booked this flight despite not asking baze cos that’s how confident you always are]

Rio: Are you excited?

Buster: [call her so she can once again hear you breathing because yes you are and that’s therefore the only acceptable response to that question]

Rio: [just listening to him for ages, having moved your face away from the phone clearly so your own !! reaction isn’t interrupting, finally hitting him with the most intense ‘me too’ like you just said ILY you said it with so much feeling behind it]

Buster: [catch him doing the exact same thing when that me too hits with all it’s intensity so he isn’t even more extra fully down the phone because she’ll know damn well the impact it has anyway and it’ll take him a sec to ask ‘Where are you meeting me?’ cos we wanna hear if she’s !! enough to say immediately at the airport or if she’s gonna have more chill about this, cos he clearly has his own plan to take Fearghal to see this sporting event, which is presumably a boxing match as those are expensive and something he’d be the most into, to be his alibi but also as he is genuinely soz he missed st paddys and disappointed him, haven’t yet verbalised any of this plan to this gal though lol]

Rio: [‘when does your flight get in again?’ said in a casual jokey kind of way, with a little laugh like you’re not being serious about how you want to see him immediately at the airport but we all know you absolutely are but you just don’t want to risk anything because it still feels precarious ‘I can meet you wherever, I’ll make it work’ because we too are confident we can make this happen]

Buster: [tell her seriously because you’ve memorised these flight times already and you’re not about to pretend you don’t wanna see her ASAP when it’s this obvious cos you’ve literally engineered this trip so you don’t have to wait for the next fam function, he simply cannot do casual I fear, hence also tell her all your plans re taking Fearghal and the times for the boxing match starting and ending and the venue etc so she also knows exactly what you’re doing and can genuinely decide where and when she’ll be able to meet him because y’all both want it to feel like a real plan and not just a fantasy, despite his tone giving this is a convo you’d have with friends or fam discussing what you’ve been up to nbd because can’t be too !! when she isn’t]

Rio: [making aww sort of noises about his plans, but in a genuine fashion not a patronising one because you see the vision here and think it’s a sweet idea to make it up to Fearghal and thus you are not planning to get in the way of this and invite yourself along or anything like that ‘will your parents let you stay at yours alone?’ as a next move because you can meet him there/stay there, is your thought here]

Buster: [making your own dismissive kinda noises back like no no I’m not being sweet at all ever I’m just using him as a means to get what I want because he is used to his being a dick persona and that just comes naturally in this era I’m afraid, even though we already know this gal sees through it and always has ‘I don’t see why not’ because you genuinely don’t, as far as y’all are concerned you’re grown af lol and in fairness you’re not little kids, again with the unspoken confidence that if baze are for any reason unconvinced he’ll convince them because he’s 1000% that bitch]

Rio: [affectionately and unthinkingly hushing you here like boy I know who you are you don’t need to play but we don’t need to labour the point as far as actually saying this in words because not really where we’re focused, ngl ‘there we are then’ casual and breezy words like oh that’s sorted then but the pause that is filled with everything we’re not saying and the way we feel about being alone with you is palpable and unignorable, clearing our throat like that’s going to continue to stop the words or make them come, either way, the !! is real]

Buster: [likewise not where his focus is rn so he’s not gonna stage a hardcore protest to the fact he’s actually a dickhead, we all know he isn’t and the entire point is always that he isn’t trying v hard because he’d love someone to see through it but she’s the only one who is ‘there we’ll be, yeah’ letting it really hang there that y’all will not only be alone but completely so, in his house for as long as you literally decide to be, because UNHEARD of, you’re used to getting a snatched moment of tension at most so far in your lives, couldn’t be more thrilled about the possibility or the reaction it’s obvious she’s having to it, so you can hear the smug grin again in his tone even as he’s matching her casual tone]

Rio: [doing a laugh that is the audible equivalent of blushing down the phone at him because you are hardcore, as if the prospect of what him coming over alone means has only just hit you because honestly, it has and all at once too ‘I’m not scared’ as if he just accused you of being scared, very playfully combative like how dare you, crossing your arms which he’ll hear even if the pout is only heavily implied in your sassy tone]

Buster: [doing his own laugh at her pout he can basically hear too because it’s so apparent and we love to see it because ofc he doesn’t want her to freak out about this even though it’s a massive deal and they both know that on a million different levels, not just because of being related but because she’s told him she hasn’t done this with anyone else unlike him being a big slag ‘So what are you?’ giving big tell me energy because he always wants to be knowing how she feels]

Rio: [when you’re just beaming down the phone like he can see you because love when he’s laughing, love when he’s happy, don’t mind us, shaking your head like focus, try actually saying something and not just being heart eyes lol, doing a hmm like you’re considering what you are just to keep him waiting for a second before you reply ‘excited, like you, remember’ because y’all are in this together]

Buster: [when you know that because you know her and you’re shamelessly doing your own heart eyes as if she can see them in response, don’t mind them just falling deeper in love here and now ‘I remember everything’ because he does and we don’t need to pretend otherwise anymore when we can reaffirm that as being the truth instead ‘like you’ didn’t need to add that but yes he did because they are in this together and she hasn’t forgotten anything either] 

Rio: [mhmm, oh lads, we do put you through it but right now you are having a lovely time and as you should, we’ll be here smiling even harder somehow because of course you knew he remembered but he’s admitted it and that’s HUGE ‘I’m not going to forget’ said like that’s an impossibility because it is, even if we wanted to which right now we absolutely do not]

Buster: [enjoy it while it lasts guys because with y’all in this era there’s no telling how long it will, once again so aware exactly how happy this girl is because of what he admitted and living for it ‘it’s impossible’ being vocalised by him because it is and they couldn’t be more on the same page or connected than they are rn so shamelessly the easiest way to show that and I’m not above taking it lol]

Rio: [making dramatic noises of agreement because yes, exactly boo ‘good’ because never want to forget really and truly and we’re not about to wish that you could and let you off like that, no thank you ‘you’re mine’ quieter than how you are naturally speaking the rest of this convo but still, so assured and so confident]

Buster: [doing another lol like oh okay that’s me told as if it’s a diva demand that he can’t ever forget either and that she’s never letting him off anything but we all know that’s exactly how he wants things to be too, hence he’s not laughing when she says that next bit, doing his own DRAMATIC noise of agreement because yes he is hers and couldn’t be more into the confident way she said so]

Rio: [‘yeah’ with your own smug vibe like you’ve been told tehe but you are way too about his agreeing with you for your next ‘yeah’ not to be closer to a moan than an actual word, clearing your throat again because damn, trying to hold on to some composure here ‘will you say it when we’re together?’ a pause between when and the last part of your sentence as you clearly take time to think how to word the fact you are going to be alone, together and together in a way you have never nor never thought you would be]

Buster: [his own ‘yeah’ which does manage to be an actual word but is said so indecently and with so much !! because likewise thinking about them being alone together and all the things he could therefore say and do, having to do so more BREATHING down the phone about this, bringing us full circle because the excitement is at an all time high]

Rio: [matching his breathing because you really do have to take a minute here and you don’t want to hang up to do so because you never want to stop talking to him ‘[the date/time of his flight landing] can’t come soon enough’ because sure wish you were here already, need I remind you that she’s still in the tescos toilets and that is just not the vibe for how romantic you are feeling lmao]

Buster: [god knows where this boy still is too, it’s giving as unglamorous and unsuitable because it’s probably changing rooms at football or something if not also a toilet, god bless the juxtaposition lads it’s very amusing, tell her the time of an earlier flight you’re suggesting you could get even though you know damn well that isn’t what she means and also that if you meet her before you won’t wanna leave to go to this sporting event at all but he simply can’t help but be more extra ‘I could come on the [whatever earlier time]’ as if it’s casual when it is nothing of the sort]

Rio: [‘you don’t have to do that’ said in the way that makes it clear you’d not at all be mad if he did because of course you wouldn’t be but you’re not going to ask him to do it either ‘how long are you staying?’ because now just thinking how long you will have together, how much time this sporting event is going to take up etc]

Buster: [‘don’t you dare me?’ because he absolutely will despite the money it would waste to change a flight he’s already booked without asking, always gotta make her ask for things he’s already gonna do haha, a noise like hmm which she did earlier as if how long he stays depends on her and not on actual other real factors, we’re also likewise enjoying thinking about time they could have]

Rio: [‘it’s not a dare if you want to do it’ but catching yourself like I know, I know, ‘cos that’s all y’alls dares are lol can’t pretend otherwise ‘okay, I do, come on [this earlier flight]’ doing a hmm noise back at him as if you’re now considering how well you plan on behaving]

Buster: [‘Okay, what if I leave on [the latest possible flight he could on Sunday without taking the piss about school on Monday because I’m imagining this boxing match is saturday night plausibly and so he was coming some time saturday day, because can’t push it coming friday night he’s not THAT grown, which is now even earlier lol cos he’s about to change that flight as soon they are off the phone and he can]’? Like hmmm? Imagine that sis]

Rio: [‘I’ll make sure you getting home in time for school is a pointless exercise’ like you might be there Monday morning but you aren’t going to be able to concentrate on your work AT ALL honey and again we mean it so seriously]

Buster: [‘If it’s truly pointless, I might as well make you return home with me’ said as seriously as if he’s gonna bring her to London and she’ll just never go to school or home again because it’s how we feel in this moment]

Rio: [making a noise that is part excitement part agreement like okay, yes, do it as if y’all can because in this moment you want nothing more ‘I could find plenty of reason to visit London’ because it’s true, at least you both live in/near these capitals because it’s not out of the question that you’d want to spend time in either place]

Buster: [‘there are a lot of sights you haven’t yet’ because true of London but more importantly he’s thinking of everything they haven’t done together yet that her visits would let them, entirely in a saucy context atm because that’s the mood y’all are in and his tone is making that blatant, so much emphasis on A LOT, as if we needed it]

Rio: [‘you gonna be my tour guide?’ and making the awh cute noises again but sounding so indecent with it this time because we know there is nothing wholesome about such an offer because we all know what is being said and THOUGHT about here]

Buster: [‘I’ll show you absolutely all of it’ because we’re not gonna pretend otherwise, everything is always the vibe, no less, letting that sink in for the both of you for a sec because he so sincerely means it about not holding back ever]

Rio: [doing a soft yet unhinged ‘oh’ because you are so 🥺 thinking about this and you don’t even know what to do with yourself rn ‘I need to be with you’ do we mean now in this moment, or perhaps, always, who can say but we know we MEAN it]

Buster: [‘I know’ as if she’s doing the 🥺 at his face rn because that’s how it feels with how blatant it is and how in sync they are, soft, but we can’t lie, unhinged comforting noises as the only thing he knows to do atm ‘we’re soulmates’ as if that’s a fact and something he’s said before to the point of being casual and not just a really intense thing to drop here because he’s clearly felt it for so long that it doesn’t come across as something he’s telling her for the first time]

Rio: [making your own unhinged baby noises back because what are words but then he drops that bombshell so off-handedly that the stunned silence that comes after is in dramatic contrast completely accidentally but unavoidably so, doing very shaky breaths as the first audible response he will hear ‘we are’ not as a question but as if you can’t believe you’re able to finally be saying it out loud]

Buster: [has never focused on anything as hard as he is this silence and waiting her to fill it either with breathing or words because despite things feeling the least precarious they ever have here and now, you know that was an extra ass thing to say, however true you also know it is ‘we’re meant to be’ because however hard you fight it you cannot]

Rio: [‘I’ll do anything to be with you’ with your whole chest, blurting this out because you can’t keep it in, it has never felt truer than in this moment ‘you’re the only one who gets me’]

Buster: [‘I did everything I could think of to try and keep you away from me’ because years of that nonsense and nevertheless here we are, it hasn’t worked and he’s out of ideas for going down that road, which is HUGE of him to actually admit when he’s never that boy who can’t think of another idea ‘you’re closer than ever’ because true in every sense, they are gonna be alone together so soon but also they’ve talked more lately and had more phone calls recently than all their other awks convos before combined]

Rio: [making a noise of apology but not being able to say the words I’m sorry because even if you are it’s so deeply uncomfortable to admit that you could have made it easier for him than you did because you’re meant to be good and give a shit and it is undeniably selfish of you in many ways and there’s no hiding from that fact ‘we can’t help it’ realising this sounds too much like just an excuse for your liking and correcting ‘we don’t want to’ because you do have agency here and there’s a reason y’all are talking this much]

Buster: [a noise that fully interrupts her noise of apology as the - stopping it dead equivalent of him saying don’t without needing to say it, because they’ve both been selfish in their own ways and he isn’t hiding from all the wrong he’s done with his flawed approach, changing to a noise of agreement though at her correction because this isn’t accidental anymore if we could’ve ever called it that, he’s literally booked a flight, y’all are being deliberate now ‘I don’t want any regrets’ because his mum doesn’t have any according to her (Ro doesn’t count not soz) and baze are his role models, Bea especially no offense Fraze, not calling you a flop but when Nancy basically called him a mummy’s boy she was so right lol]

Rio: [‘life’s too short for them’ because who does, truly, no one we know and that includes us ‘you’re sure?’ like let’s just check in and avoid this getting messy if you think this is going to be the regret, not that that’s where you think his head is but you’re giving space for the possibility]

Buster: [‘the years I’ve already spent without you were too fucking long’ because truly how we feel rn and that’s without taking into account the rest of his life he was trying to avoid her for ‘I’m sure I can’t keep this bullshit up indefinitely’]

Rio: [the noise like that actually physically pained you to even contemplate it for a second there is all the ‘I know’ you need but you’re still saying the actual words too ‘you don’t need to, whatever happens’ with the confidence of being able to work SOMETHING out even though you have no clue beyond what you want to and hope will happen lbr]

Buster: [stopping breathing v dramatically when that noise escapes because it pains him to hear her make it and know why and what it means never mind the rest ‘I need to be with you’ throwing back her words from earlier before he dropped the s word because we love to do that and also it’s just true so he has the same confidence in that being what’s going to happen now that he’s decided to change tact and commit to this instead of being a bastard, me like oh hun little do you know, prepare to flip flop again v soon]

Rio: [‘you’re with me’ like he is the one that needs soothing right now but also just to say it and to feel as if it is true because in this moment it is and soon it’ll be true in every way it could be meant, so soz for what we’re about to do lads but y’all have no idea]

Buster: [‘do the maths’ because she’s good at it and you’re both nerds so obvs he’s gonna tell her to now they know which flight he’s getting and leaving on and it’s easy enough to minus out the fight stuff to work out exactly how long they think they’re gonna get to spend together, they cruelly are not but jemily can take a lil comfort in him ordering her to do that as if he ordering her to do something way more indecent lol]

Rio: [do do that maths like an excited little nerd, whatever it works out to, it’s the most time you’ve ever spent ALONE ALONE because you’ve never and at most it would’ve been a few pretty unsupervised hours in a day as children, not since you’ve developed these intense feelings as you aged so this is a moment]

Buster: [do a countdown so you get to be an excited little nerd too because it clearly isn’t a far away visit way in the future when the point was being extra and meeting up before the next fam function, so it adds to the moment how soon this is actually going to happen]

Rio: [‘I can’t wait’ again, in the sincerest way possible, spoken like a wistful lil sigh almost because not just a platitude to get you off the phone here]

Buster: [‘neither can I’ as sincerely meant because he wouldn’t have put a rush on immediately organising this if he didn’t, however much we know he does also wanna make things up to his gdad he would’ve waited until his bday to do that lbr ‘hang up and I’ll change my flight’ because absolutely must make that earlier like he said before he even gets home and discusses it with anyone ‘book the return too’ like lest you forget I’ve decided exactly how much time we’ve gonna have and it’s the max possible, even though jemily (and mainly Winnie) have decided otherwise and I just know he’ll end up getting the earliest one he can in the AM after kicking her out as soon as he gets rid of mcvickers/fearghal that PM but y’all aren’t aware of the incoming cockblock so]

Rio: [excitable noises like okay, okay because you want him to do both those things too and you need a reason to hang up that isn’t sad so you’re gonna take it but first the ‘I love you’ flying out like he is one of your loved ones and you’ve always been able to talk to him like this and not even think about it, the slight pause after when you realise that you just did that and that was not actually the case]

Buster: [when you never want her to hang up after saying that but also immediately want her to because !! there is so much you could and want to say in response that the pause is just stretching because it’s overwhelming and also you know her so you know how she said it and that she didn’t exactly mean to so then it’s like do I ACKNOWLEDGE this or not, so much just being expressed by this boy once again breathing down the phone for a second having a tiny debate with himself which is only lasting seconds but feels SO long ‘say that again’ eventually, not in a tone of I’m pretending I didn’t hear you and giving you and out if you want one but v much like say it like you mean it if you 100% do]

Rio: [likewise the silent internal struggle between wanting to immediately press end call so neither of you need to address it to wanting to address it so badly and make a thing of it NOW but you’re doing neither, just living in this silence fully !! until he decides for you, of course you’re not going to back down and deny it when you do so taking your time and saying it with as much intention as possible]

Buster: [when he’s clenching his jaw SO hard not to make even the slightest sound that could interrupt her saying this a second time that she’d be able to feel as well as hear it because despite telling her to repeat herself he could not be less prepared for the effect it has on his entire body because they are sober and this couldn’t be more intentional and it hits different and so deeply]

Rio: [when y’all are both sober in the cold light of day for all of this, can’t just turn around and say otherwise now, we’re way too far gone hence you weren’t going to not say it, even if the way your heart is beating in your ears right now means you feel like you literally cannot and would not be able to hear him reply so you do hang up in pure AHHHHHH vibes]

Buster: [the way he’d immediately want to and almost does call straight her back knowing she’d pick up again as fast but hence he must resist because she was mid running errands and he has to go home eventually and face real life too however much neither of y’all want to and this way at least it is on that high of her ILY being the last thing said rather than a goodbye or anything so that feels too perfect for rn for him to risk changing, however much we all know he wants to say and how much we all know he LOVES having the last word, fight it sir, you must so it’s cinematic and peak romance lol]

Rio: [my boo says dare y’all to stfu challenge and that’s so real honestly lmao]