#Which it also is but there are fucking layers and idk how to deal w/ it tbh

[dykekarkat]

hey I’ve seated myself on your couch PLEASE tell me more of your ghost andreil au it is beautiful and Oscar worthy to me

omg hi yes pls be seated im sorry this got slightly long and also took a bit!! also unsure if this even makes sense or is smth u will like but alas, i just kinda went wild. anyway thank you so much for the ask :)

i love getting a chance to talk about any and all of my aus. ghost andreil came about bcus im not a huge fan of the ghost x human relationship trope thing so i thought what if instead they were both ghosts...love beyond living is just so perfect for andreil...anyway long ramble ahead so ill put it under the cut <3

basic world building in my head is that ghosts are basically humans who are living on the Wrong Layer of the universe because they refuse to let go of their lives or have some unfinished business (normal ghost things). the supernatural isn't widely known about or believed in but there are ppl aware (like renee for instance). ghosts can touch other ghosts but not humans (duh) bcus i want andreil to fist fight and also to eventually have a physical relationship bcus it is important to me. too much interaction w physical objects depletes their energy, but the more will a ghost has the more energy they have (and by god are andreil willful little assholes).

renee and jean are both mediums! renee's been involved w the spiritual realm forever (gang related) while jean just thinks he's losing his mind slowly ^-^ renee is on a quest to help andrew move on (he hates this) but theyre still besties. meanwhile neil is desperately trying to prove that no he's not a hallucination (lol) and no jean should Not kill himself to join him. tbh idk if i want the moriyamas to be in the know or not, heavily debating over whether neil should be able to escape them through death or if he's forever cursed to be in debt to the mafia (depending on how angsty i want this to get).

NOW ON TO THE RELATIONSHIPS AKA THE FUN PART

- aaron is NOT having a good time in the beginning of this au. actively going through hell after losing a brother he just found and his mother. he's getting high most of the time, barely going to school, fully given up on himself, and Super Fucking Angry at Andrew. To Be Clear andrew didn't commit suicide but his normal canon i dont care about what happens to me attitude led to him dying while killing tilda. aaron DOES NOT KNOW that andrew killed her on purpose, but he's suspicious and angry as fuck anyway because andrew broke the deal (of staying together for high school). nicky still takes aaron in but nicky hadnt met andrew before his death so the tragedy for him is that andrew never rlly got a chance. andrew himself doesnt mind being dead (in his opinion its the same monotonous apathetic existence as he had living. which changes once he meets neil) but he's Pissed bcus he thinks aaron is throwing away his life. which in Andrew's opinion he did the hard part by getting rid of tilda (the problem). so andrew takes to haunting him by hiding his drugs and being a general nuisance to try and get him to school. i have not quite figured out how to get aaron to kick the drugs and get on palmetto w/o andrew ngl ^-^

- neil dies at the same time kevin broke his hand. riko snapped and neil pushed his buttons and refused to agree that riko was the best, so riko basically beats him to death and kevin gets his hand broken trying to stop it. a very tragic skiing accident indeed :(. kevin feels Extremely guilty over neil's death and jean practically forces him out of the nest, jean himself is basically resigned to joining his partner in death (smth neil is Not About). at this point andrew's been dead for two years? ish? and aaron is on the foxes as a freshman. neil splits his death time between trying to make things easier for jean and keep him from dying, and thwart kevin's attempts to go back to the nest in increasingly comical ways. meanwhile andrew is pissed about kevin bringing danger to aaron, so andreil are Fighting, i mean full on ghost fights where shit is levitating and lights are flickering and ppl are screaming because andrew wants kevon gone. eventually they do that line drawn across the center of the room to try and stay civil.

- eventually kevaaron start bonding and processing their grief over the loss of their brothers and fall in love at the same time, while andreil are also falling in love through asshole ghost mating rituals. major plot point would be renee using her séance powers to make kevaaron aware of their ghost protectors and a lot of drama unfolds from there (andrew reveals the murder stuff, aaron gets more pissed he died, aaron wants to banish him exorcise him in anger etc etc). the catalyst to andreils romantic relationship occurs bcus riko brings drake into the picture to hurt aaron(similar to canon), and neil basically almost ghost kills himself stopping him (expends too much energy in a short period of time) --> their relationship still doesnt start until a few months after this but it is the turning point for andrew being able to trust neil.

other small things:

lola is a contracted demon to nathan (unsure if moriyamas are aware).

nathan kills riko for killing neil (its a pride thing) and basically starts a war within the moriyamas. that neil Really does not know how to feel about, still terrified his father will be able to hurt him due to his knowledge of the occult (which may or may not be reasonable)

mary died trying to escape w neil so he went to the nest at 10 as planned. when he died and realized he was a ghost he looked for her immediately but she had moved on. it was probably more crushing to see that she could've stayed and watched over him and didnt than to witness her actual death.

tilda and mary moved on immediately after death (does heaven exist in this world??? hell?? dont ask me idk either)

pre andreil reveal nicky starts a channel to document their haunted college dorm. its one of the first things andreil bond over bcus they love starting shit nicky is so reactive. post andreil reveal nicky stops posting on it bcus it feels too weird to him, until neil is like hey i wanted to spell dick with the ouija board again :( and then nicky brings it back with gusto

[halfbaked00q]

thinking again abt the Bond goes to a bdsm club, in over his head, and engages in unsafe subbing, "I can make him worse" edition✨️

so Bond goes to a club & engages in unsafe subbing etc,. but ofc he knew part of the issue he's having is to do w his over-training and his hair trigger instincts. and so in his infinite wisdom, he decides to self-medicate before going, to try to like. dull his reaction time i guess? but wow who could have thought!!! this also fucks up his like pain perception & judgment, more than it already is!

so he goes & already negotiates something that is/should be Very Unsafe for him and his headspace, but ofc he's good at Acting All Right and a regular person can't be expected to see thru whatever lack of tells or micro-tells a 00 agent might have. So as far as the other guy is aware/can tell, he's just dealing with a guy who is kind of a pain slut and going into this with enthusiastic consent.

and ofc Q is there, etc etc, surprised to see Bond sure but clearly he's got something going on there so he's gonna be polite about it and etc. except ofc. later, at some point. make it gets a bit dicey or borderline and the Dom is like. *hesitant* do you need a break/should we end the session? And ofc Bond king of bad ideas and also currently Actively Impaired is like noo no it's all good keep going

and while the guy is still hesitating cuz. nothing is obviously wrong. but something still.... feels.. off... while that's happening, Q, who had been kind of keeping an eye on Bond, cuz he's a good friend and Quartermaster and even off the clock Bond is still his, notices and rushes over in alarm to intervene. Cuz he knows Bond well enough to know that Bond's body language is all wrong and his reactions aren't quite right and really this is not going well.

debating how this goes cuz I donot think Q uses Q or his real name in this club... maybe when he speed-walks over & catches the guy's attention the dude is like *surprised* "[Cover name]? Yeah what's up?"

and then Q has to like. figure out how to delicately assure this dude that he does indeed know Bond and that yes this session is over (idk.... maybe sth about sometimes he loses track and goes a bit longer than he rightly should? sth that won't get Bond banned from this place or make the other guy look bad, but also makes it clear that this is Enough), and most importantly yes it's okay to leave Bond in his hands to deal with the. whatever tf is going up with him.

But yes that's what the set-up above is for, Bond helpfully perks up and says the appropriate things and shows the appropriate enthusiasm to indicate that yes he does indeed know Q-by-his-cover-name and yes thank you, he does trust Q's judgment and if he's calling it and thinks it's better that he step in for the rest of this then he'll go along with it. And probably gets the guy to acquiesce by implying or outright stating that the alternative is he just leaves (cuz he knows his evening there is done, after what Q said, so like, that's not far off- if he's not going to go with Q then he's probably gonna crawl into a metaphoric den somewhere to lick his wounds (drink himself into a coma and not take care of his back :') )).

So nooooow we have all of the 'oh no Q has to take care of Bond after he's been improperly whipped (or whatever)' and the like it didn't give him whatever relief he was seeking & he's still in a fucked up headspace, or he was just doing it badly period and kind of tripped over into lowkey seeking to self-harm vs like properly sub and accidentally fucked it up,.

and ALSO he's under the influence of mystery drugs which Bond did admit to but maybe he played fast & loose with what he took/the dosages, or maybe he didn't but can't remember rn due to the everything, or maybe he does know & tells Q but the mix of going to a bdsm club & whipping is making his physiological reactions atypical for him.

so yeah we have all of the typical ingredience. and AAAALSO. this extra crunchy spicy layer of "new ways in which Bond somehow make it all worse" :3

[everythingwasnormalhere]

…don’t mind me :D

STYLE: 🌺🌷🌲🌳

BUNNY: 🌵🪴🌱🌻

SHIP OF YOUR CHOICE: 💮🍄

Please don’t feel pressured to answer these all, but have fun answering what you choose to!

Style:

🌺- Have they have any comforting or happy stories around their disabilities?

YES ACTUALLY<3 ok so, this is kinda spoilery but also really fucking cute so :3 when kyle got his feeding tube, it included a 1-2 weeks long hospital stay. He was super insecure about it, also worsening his already bad relationship with his scars, which made his mental state pretty fucking shitty... Stan stayed at his since he was let out because he's a codependent bastard, and at one point kyle broke down and told him about what was wrong, and our lovely staniel just. Told him he still found him beautiful and that he was glad Kyle was there and a bunch of super sweet stuff that made kyle feel so much better about himself<33 idk man they're so cute (also im writing the fic that includes this lmao)

🌷- How does being disabled imapct their love life? For example does it impact their date nights, activities they can and can't do as a couple, ect.

First, going to restaurants is a No. Unless they have been previously deemed Safe by Kyle, they will Not have dates there (because they can't know whether a restaurant's food will or not trigger an episode as they haven't made it themselves and all). Also Stan's whole depressive episodes make going out harder, because whenever it's a Bad episode he won't even leave the house so like... but they still manage :)

🌲- How do they accommodate eachother? Do they have a routine that helps with this? Do they do this consciously or subconsciously?

I WILL NEVER NOT TALK ABOUT STAN BEING THE FIRST PERSON WHO KNOWS KYLE'S SAFE FOODS !!! This is something he does almost subconsciously but he will not make anything Kyle has trouble eating, and even when they were younger he remembered to bring to school something Kyle could eat (orange juice usually) just in case his mom packed stuff he had trouble with. Kyle meanwhile knows all the signs Stan is falling back into an episode, and he's slowly learnt the ways to pull him out of it before it gets bad :)

🌳- What would happen if they were to break up and/or loose eachother for any reason? How would this impact any party involved, would this trigger their disability?

Stan is So codependent he'd probably not survive without Kyle. Ever. Like, he tries not to make it obvious because he doesn't wanna trap Kyle in an unhealthy relationship, but he's so bad at dealing with Kylelessness he literally couldn't survive by himself. Kyle too but Maybe not to that level because my boy has a permanent layer of mild dissociation that would maybe protect him from the breakup ;w; (but like, they're both codependent as fuck, they're not breaking up ever 😭)

Bunny:

🌵- If they were to have a date that incorporated their disability what would this be like?

When he's having a bad day, Kenny usually can't even leave his bed (and less home), so as stubborn he is he lets Butters pick their plans for the day because he's so much better at accomodating Kenny than Kenny himself 😭 Usually their dates those days will be cuddling in bed/the couch and watching a movie, playing videogames, reading comics... depends on what they wanna do tbh, but they both like those dates a lot :) Also, honestly all their dates incorporate Butters' sensory issues in some way, either him wearing his headphones when they go to loud places (arcade or the movies) or making the TV quieter and dimmer, they incorporate their disabilities in pretty much everything they do even though they never mention it XD <3

🪴- If they plan on having a family how does being disabled effect this and their decision? Alternatively do they plan on having pets, of so how does being disabled impact their collective decision?

First, SHADOW !!!! Well, she wasn't really in their plans originally... she was more like a "yup she's coming with us alright" kinda split decision, and Lemon and Kafka were just an extra XD But they would've gotten pets either way, Butters is the biggest animal lover and Kenny is close to that position too lmao<3 About having children, this was a harder thing because Kenny wanted to be a foster parent, but realistically they wouldnt be able to care for that many children :( in the end though, they adopted a girl and they aren't the best parents but they're pretty great<3 (this happens in their 30s tho XD)

🌱- If the ship were to get married how would their wedding accommodate their disabilities? Alternatively what would their house/appartment/whatever accommodate them?

"No Ken, we are Not getting a house with stairs" -Butters Stotch (he's learnt after their old appartment, Kenny+stairs aren't the best convo 😭) - Their wedding didn't have that many accomodations, quieter music and not that many people invited (Butters' parents had coming in Forbidden. btw.), not that much but they had a great time still :)

🌻- Do they ever have to deal with ableism in regards to their relationship? How do they deal with it?

Short answer: yes 😭

Sadly, they get ableism both ways ;-; Kenny is the one who's most visibly disabled out of them, so Butters gets a shit ton of "you are sooo inspirational for dealing with this, i could never" (insert confused Butters noises, he doesn't get tf they mean by that 😭) and "are you Sure you want to live with That your whole life?" (yes he does he loves kenny with his whole life fuck off 😔✨), and also obviously a bunch of assholes talking to Butters instead of Kenny whenever he's pushing his wheelchair (insert butters being nonverbal atm so Kenny's the one who gotta do the talking 💀). The opposite way too, mainly the times when Butters is having meltdowns - for example, once they were at a party and Butters got really overwhelmed, and instead of helping a lot of people told Kenny horrible things I'm not repeating, and even though Butters was mid-meltdown he still remembered all that stuff and Kenny had to reassure him so much as soon as they got home :(

Ship of my choice:

💮- If one of the characters in the ship are having a bad disability day how long does it take the other(s) to pick up on the fact that they're struggling? Are they good at picking up on the signs, if not, is there a point that they do notice without being told?

You're getting another bunny answer because they're my beautiful boys<33

Butters picks it up pretty soon, but whether he mentions it or not is another story. When they were in school, in case Kenny didn't skip Butters would not say anything until they got home or at least they were alone, instead sending Kenny disapproving looks every time he lied about why he looked so tired TwT then when Kenny started using aids, Butters (and pretty much anyone who knew him) could tell in what lvl of pain he was in depending on what he was using :3

Kenny has a bit more trouble telling, as a teen he usually had So Much stuff in his head so he couldn't catch the signs (as much as he cares, noticing your friend is having a bad day while you yourself are running on 5 energy drinks and 2 hours of sleep isn't the easiest task 😭), which meant Butters usually had to let him know in some way - tugging at his sleeve most times, as he struggles with speaking on bad days. If Butters didn't do that though, Kenny figured out by seeing how he looked much more anxious and was looking around all the time, and he'd make sure to keep him safe and stay with him till they could get home. As adults, Butters had the whole "being out of a dangerous environment means PTSD gets Bad" era, and it was a lot easier to tell as during bad days he didn't wanna leave their room at all, which most times caused Kenny to stay there too till Butters felt ready to go outside<3

🍄- Free question!: If one of the characters disabilities is a progressive disability how do they plan their future? Does this impact their relationship as a whole?

Aaaand another one for bunny cuz I'm not shutting up about them ever (srsly i need help 💀)

This wasn't something they discussed much, Butters was aware Kenny was getting progressively worse because he's good at noticing that stuff, but it wasn't until they got older (40s-50s) that they had a "it Is getting That Bad" moment. Kenny hadn't been dying for a Long while, so he had no idea what was wrong with him this time till he (finally) went to the doctors - basically, huge spoiler ahead lmao, his deaths had just been speeding up an already existing chronic pain condition, so he probably wouldn't have had the whole dying pains thing if he hadn't had that condition in the first place. This whole thing Fucked Him Up, he hid it from Butters for as long as he could, he would lock himself in his room for days on end, he didn't know how to deal with knowing there was no way to stop it besides permadeath :( as soon as Butters knew, he comforted Kenny, because his worth didn't depend on the stuff he could or couldnt do and his love wasn't affected by Kenny's disability at all (🙌!!), and they did their best to get used to the whole thing and manage it, together<3

[feralkwe]

Character asks: for Thancred, 25 and 8. And 25 for Elidibus as well.

yay! i love doing these! you've poked the stick in the great places here! this got very long, lol, so under a cut it goes!

thancred. my pathetic wet cat. my try-hard disaster bab. my unexpected third leg of my ot3.

8. what's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

i can't think of any trend that i see that really irritates me, though part of that may be the corners of fandom i have tucked myself into. he has a lot of layers that i was too stubborn to acknowledge until well into the better part of shb, and i think sometimes fandom isn't forgiving enough after his growth arc, but honestly i'm really not too fussed because i think he skates through on hot white boy appeal in fandom at large. i think it's possible to appreciate where he started, where he wound up, and how he got there without excusing his many mistakes, but i also think it's important to talk about how he worked through it. so that's my answer: i think fandom is either too easy on him or too hard on him with no room for nuance. i keep saying i'm going to write an essay, but idk if thancred needs me to defend him. maybe someday i'll go feral and do it anyway.

25. what was your first impression of this character? how about now?

god i cannot stress enough how much i gave absolutely zero shits about him when i first met him. even given what happens with lahabrea, i wasn't really moved. he screamed 'bland white-haired jrpg protagonist' to me and i only cared because for some reason which wasn't clear to me until i read the short stories, minfilia gave a lot of shits about him, actually. and i adore her. i didn't care about his angst in hw, though he grew more personality and by the end of sb i at least went from indifferent to 'fine, i guess he's here, too'. then, like many people, i spent a good deal of shb utterly pissed off at him until it became obvious to me that he was, despite what i think a lot of people believe, trying his best while drowning in an ocean of trauma with almost no tools to handle it. by this time i'd read his short story content, and understood the context better. i was very ride or die for urianger from arr on, and yamisnuffles teased me that he 'comes with a husband' and i was determined to refuse. i couldn't tell you the exact moment, but sometime around going to the moon i suddenly gave a shit enough to select him as the scion who visits you in your suite at the baldesion annex. and, well, fuck off. i discovered i cared a lot, actually.

now i have a pathetic wet cat in my ot3. i affectionately call the eden raids 'kit's family camping trip'.

same question for elidibus. my ultimate angry murder and get murdered husband.

i have to start by saying that the ascians as villains compel me more than almost any villains in any media i've ever consumed. even accounting for recency bias, they utterly fascinate me, and i don't know if i've ever been so moved by villain motivations. the unsundered specifically strike me as so tragic that it makes me feral. even lahabrea, who i really find difficult to like. but that's retrospect after the entire arc of their part in ffxiv. after lahabrea and nabriales, elidibus came in with a different approach, and that intrigued me. of course i had no idea the larger role he'd play later, but the way he attempted to stand on a moral high ground really hit some buttons. again, i was really into urianger from the get-go, and their apparent partnership gave me a lot of OH NOES to latch onto. i think elidibus is the character that allowed me to really give emet-selch consideration beyond 'my bestie loves him' because he gave me an inclination that there was more to the ascians than had been revealed so far.

he piqued my interest, then enraged me because of ardbert, but the more i learned about his past along the way the more invested i became. the shb patches slowly killed me, and by the end of seat of sacrifice i was sobbing for him. he's just a little guy fighting for the all but forgotten souls of his people. he was pivotal in saving the world, driven to madness by it, and in the end, all alone as the last of the unsundered. yet there are characters within the narrative who lie about him and his motivations. i'm choking up a bit right now thinking about it.

suffice to say pandaemonium rewired my dna and entire brain. by the end of it i was devastated and so in love with him as a character it's almost embarrassing. he was kind, thoughtful, and gave of himself wholly to what he believed in. his connection to wol is so beautifully bookended by it, and the ways he winds himself with them throughout the entirety of the game just hits every character button i have. the very tragic wol/elidibus ship with kit wrote itself in my head from the moment you drop into elpis. i spent a lot of time wondering how he got from the careful man we meet to zodiark and beyond, which is what compelled me to write to the edge (and back again). now i kill him at least three times a week. it's fine. i'm fine. i'm very normal about the unsundered, and most normal about elidibus.

thanks for the asks! what a delight to get to talk about these guys!

[tordenvejr]

Hello Vic! How are you doing? 🫰🏼

I need a little help from you - I do not think I have ocd, but I do obsess over washing hands and keeping things hygenic. Tidy? No, my house is always messy, but I wash my hands toooooo often to the point where if strong hand creams didn’t exist I would have shed several skin layers by now 😀 My immediate problem rn is that i am on a vacation with my family - even worse, I am sharing a room w my parents - and let me tell you, their lack of hygiene just get on my nerves. My mom has definitely noticed I struggle w this and it’s kinda easier to voice my anxiety over hygiene with her. My dad on the other hand has no idea and isn’t the most open minded person, I doubt he has even heard that some people struggle w stuff like this. I can ignore some stuff but when after 3 days of being here I hear my dad ask my mom which one was the soap (my mom had lots of other products on counter) I knew I wanted to pass away ! My mom asked “you haven’t washed your hands yet?” Don’t think he even replied which I am afraid means that yeah he hasn’t. Sounds so comical and ridiculous but it is really bothering me.

Thing is, before, I lived w them for 18 years and nothing happened, never occurred to me they wouldn’t even wash hands considering I was tought basic hygiene. So I wish I could just switch my brain to that state but can I.

Idk how I do not lose my mind. I do not think that something bad will happen if I don’t follow these hand washing obsession BUT it just irks me to know somebody is so unhygienic let alone someone who doesn’t wash their hands for so long 🥲🥲🥲 even if I didn’t have this problem it’s natural to be upset about my dad being ultra white person. So idk how to 1. Deal with people I am sharing the room with not being as hygienic as me 2. One of them not even following basic hygiene (would have been better if I had spoken up the 1st time I found out abt this- but I hate confrontation, especially with family I guess)

Vacation ends in 10 days but knowing they have touched my phone and my belongings and that I cannot just exist in a sterile world or in a world aWay from them does not make me happy. I know I have to address the root cause of hand washing obsession but this is the situation I am dealing w atm. So idk how to remain calm, ignore this, because voicing my anxiety and asking them to follow basic hygiene just seems ridiculous. :(

Sorry for such a long text 🫠

hi 🌟 i'm doing good, but i've been sleeping so fucking shit the past days i feel like a little snail around the house zzz

assuming you don't have ocd (you can look into the pure o subtype and reflect a bit over the cycle of obsession > anxiety > compulsion > relief > obsession. sometimes it isn't the belief of something bad happening it can also be an intense discomfort or a "sense" of something being off/wrong/not right); if it's a general annoyance and discomfort of lack of hygiene, keep your belonging on you, get a mini hand sanitizer if you can from a kiosk or store, air out, store your food away from theirs in the fridge and try to handle it yourself. it's up to you if you want to/are ready to express this discomfort/boundary with them, but it isn't ridiculous or unfounded. it's quite a fair request of the people you're in near proximity to, to exercise regular hygiene, such as washing their hands - and you aren't responsible for their reactions, though i understand you will be around them. i hope the next days will be better for you!

[odukora-lore]

For that character ask game, how about the newest blorbos on the block, Aeris and Barley :3

LMAO this is funnnnnnn

Anyways for Aeris... Very much her whole deal of being put on a pedestal and given a large role to fulfill before ultimately wanting to step down from it to have a life of her own (its somewhat like a wish fulfillment for me in a way LMAO) (and in some sense Sparklyn wanting that for herself is rlly funny cuz she was a self insert)

Also I've talked abt this but being aspec is what I slapped onto her too the same way I did for Jingle LMAO but I also rlly wanna go into detail abt the specific flavour of it, a lot of her dissonance comes w having gained that much attention in her life that has never came across as genuine, ppl know her for what she does but never rlly her as a person (this same trait is also reflected in Jingle) so when someone expresses genuine attention to her a part of her can't seem to reconcile w it in her head (alongside just not rlly being able to differentiate diff kinds of attraction rlly, like am I fond of someone because they're a friend or is there anything deeper beyond that) alas there's more layers to this rlly

Another would probs just be her being a workaholic that shoulders everything tbh LMAO give this woman a fucking break, she's very used to have a leader position and have ppl look up to her and thinking everything is her responsibility, like wow I have to do everything around here!!!!!!!!!! When can someone do something for me for once!!!!!!!!!! <- deranged but literally a while ago I was just thinking abt how her being used to lead a team also makes her have this sorta mild control freak behavior either in the funny way (like wanting everyone to participate in her lame frivolous hobbies) but also mf is also very *now get back to work* core lmao

Something not in common, probs her age rlly lmao but not just physically but in terms of her maturity tbh, I think in a way she's the old eccentric freak™ that I strive to become but aren't exactly *there* yet (which is why having Sparklyn have this role of wanting it for herself rlly funny), she's seen a lotta shit and has lived long enough to process and reconcile what she has gone through and is very content w her current life, mf is freely a freak rlly lmao

Another is probs her being the least cowardly of the entire organization rlly LMAO I'm too much of a lame ass to be like that, aside from that she's also just casually a journalist for the hero society in the bg and would just casually barge to a crime site w eldritch horrors and yap abt it as disaster happens (but this also has a lot to do w her having fought unimaginable horrors back in her magical girl days she's just unphased atp but to the average citizen who doesn't know shit fucks abt her previous identity they all think she's unhinged lmao)

And then her confidence probably, idk I'm just stretching atp cuz I'm running out of ideas lmao I won't say I'm not confident in my abilities (am I??? LMAO) mostly in regards to her being a social butterfly thou rlly, just a great conversationalist that gets along w pretty much anyone (I'm trying to get there too lmao), a bit of a tease too and very lil shit, she's so Jinglecore now that I think abt it lmao

Anyways Barley haha nerd, I think his timid personality and demeanor back in highschool more so resembled my own back then as opposed to the current more sociable persona I have rn, he's very softspoken in my head (but I won't say that I am either) it's the autism lmao

Idk I think personality wise I'm rlly more of an Aeris but Barley def has that overthinking doubting everything attitude that I more so relate to lmao (Aeris is a lot more reckless obviously) Barley is the same as me the same way Lio is the same as me w the cowardice (damn Aeris/Barley is just Jinglio in another font LMAO alas all my ships are just the same flavour.....)

Ig a fun thing abt Barley is also he can just work on a thing for hours on end when he's rlly passionate abt what he's working on (also a tism thing that I have lol) he's also a notorious rambler™ abt all his projects rlly, but most of the time he's a lot more reserved and gets stuck in his own head a lot the same way I do lol

Anyways mf is a math genius™ IN WHICH I AM NOT (haha never beating the I suck at math allegations I'm not even that bad I just hate doing it) he's just casually a living calculator though (this reminds me Aeris sucks ass at math she's more of a words lady) and is probably also very passionate abt it

I think he's also a lot more passive in personality rlly (as opposed to Aeris being a bit more assertive) alas I can't tell which one I am but I still think I'm more of an Aeris mf lmao, but also Barley just reeks of more of a calm attitude rlly... Which is ironic in hindsight given how much of a nervous wreck he usually is, but like when Aeris is a lil shit abt a thing he's the one that has to ground her lmao, also when she worries abt a thing he's the first to reassure her

Idk how to describe it rlly, its like Aeris being a leader workaholic leads to this ironic scenario where she is usually the assertive one but control freak enough that she can be unhinged abt it, whilst Barley more so having a follower attitude that is passive and cowardly but ironically more calm than she is cuz he doesn't have that grand responsibility like she does, he overthinks but also goes w the flow more than she does, she is reckless but also deranged when it doesn't go her way, wow they truly match each other's freak......

[coyoxxtl]

Link's character in BOTW and TOTK is interesting since he's honestly the first time we get much of a sense of Link's actual personality since Wind Waker and the implications in Twilight Princess, since he's never really been able to emote or communicate directly, but in this game, we can infer a LOT from both ludonarrative story (there are some actions Link CAN'T perform, which means that he is willing to do the things he CAN do, given context or motivation) and what the gameplay encourages him to do, and his lines.

So this presents us with a Link who is under a huge amount of stress, but when he's not stressed, he's just a delightfully horrendous goblin. He constantly messes with people, phrases things in odd ways in a whimsical way ("I am he"), deliberately screwing with people for no reason, entirely willing to set himself on fire in the middle of Death Mountain to see what happens when you use a potion this way, and can be very impatient and irritable, but also strangely savvy about the sort of gameplay he has to deal with and being annoyed about fetch quests or no one just helping him when asked.

i was actually surprised when it was stated in game that he is from a noble family and is an ACTUAL knight, because the gameplay, close relationship with the Zora, Gorons and Koroks gave me the assumption that he was actually raised by gorons, spent a lot of time among the koroks and was childhood friends with Mipha, and I think his backstory is vague enough so that this COULD still be true, he was simply adopted into a noble family once it was confirmed he was the incarnation of the Hero, which is one reason he's unhappy and uncomfortable in Hylian high society until Zelda warms up to him

fr i find this Link so fun. people harp on his “emotionlessness” and ig his stone face is only a little jarring in significant cutscenes but i always figured any Lack of reaction is because we’re meant to project onto him. that’s Link’s whole point as a playable protag anyway. so i never really thought abt it like that lol

in totk there was a convo with a girl in hateno and idk how it went exactly but she was like “i cant let you love me you must stay away” and he was like “but i cant stay away!” and u can make him say it like three times after she says no like, what a dork who is this guy. and we Know he’s fucking around because we’re fucking around, it’s fun i love him.

i was surprised by him being a knight bc i don’t recall a Link being a royal knight in other versions. like he’s mostly been a young man, or actual kid, from the backwoods who becomes the Hero as a call to fated action. this Link was like, almost always expected to be that, and w him being Zeldas personal knight it gave their relationship another layer. It’s more intimate than other versions.

Goron raised Link gives a great mental vision though, can explain why he can eat rocks.

[grim--the-end]

abt the demons now ‼️‼️‼️ they have colors assigned to them so I'll go in rainbow order. basically every part of a demon is their specific color(s), from their blood and guts to their hair and eyes

black & white: Ayin (she/her) is the leader and creator of Hell. she's the monarch, the queen, whatever you wanna call her. she's basically like a parental figure to the 7 princes, having brought them to hell and given them new forms (that's why they're all like. paper white when most fallen angels are at least a LITTLE tan)

red: Leviathan (he/him) has a Jirai Kei type personality. He acts sweet but has quite the explosive temper and is very bitter and possessive. His layer of hell is constantly under construction because he never thinks it's good enough and constantly changes his ideas. he has an eel tail, fins for ears, gills, and the inside of his mouth resembles a lamprey mouth with rows of sharp teeth

orange: Satan (he/him) is a mamas boy with a temper (think riddle rosehearts). hes got fox ears n antlers and like three tails that look like lion tails but he won't say what they actually are? bros got a grudge against humanity and angels so his layer is pretty empty. it looks like a warzone littered w broken spears n shit. oh yeah and his teeth r like cat teeth

yellow: Lucifer (he/him) my boy .. he's a fucking frat bro. I'm sorry chat but he's a frat bro. he egosurfs online and constantly bitches that he hasn't won the hell prince popularity poll a single time. he would use "ore-sama" as a personal pronoun if he spoke Japanese. he has shark teeth, horns that curve like uhh. a straight line then a curve then a straight line then a point . it's supposed to look vaguely like a halo. and that along with his multiple wings show that bro is actually very insecure abt the fact he's no longer an angel.

green: Mammon (he/him), the most normal out of them (that's not saying much). he's a businessman who has actually made a deal with god that his sin won't tempt any angels because he doesn't want any fallen in his domain (which is run like a business). bro calls the shots for most of hell's business stuff like building and such. he has ferret ears and a snow leopard tail and short horns that barely poke out of his hair. he has cute little fangs 💖

blue: Asmodeus (he/him) is actually the nicest of the princes but. don't trust him bro. don't. don't do it. he used to date Raphael when he was an angel and never got over him and now he's. hes really fucked up idk how to explain it. he has a scorpion tail (his venom is an aphrodisiac. don't touch him) and a single horn. he has cute fangs too but they're very dull.

purple: Belphegor (he/him), the one who keeps winning the popularity poll by "Luigi wins by doing nothing" rules. he doesn't even rule his own layer it's a democracy. he is chronically fatigued and his muscles are atrophied so he's very weak and can't walk very far. good thing bro prefers playing video games over doing anything else ‼️‼️ yes he's a gamer. he has ram horns and ears but a snake tail and sharp fangs. and venom sacs. his venom is like the boomslang's (look it up please it's so silly)

pink: Beelzebub (he/him) is um. he's. he's eaten other demons before and he will do it again. he's simultaneously manipulative and completely delusional AND childish and brutal . he wants to eat Lucifer's wings. he has goat ears, horns, n eyes and a pig tail, and he also has shark teeth. he gets bored of stuff really quickly and just tosses it aside, but if you decide to try and take what he's gotten rid of even if it's in perfect condition he will get PISSY.

i wanna infodump abt some of my ideas on how angels and god exist and stuff so . this will be expanded on later w the tag "hell of a heaven" or "Luce's bible lore" so wahoo

God uses They/Them pronouns, and We/Us as personal pronouns. They are, of course, the creator of mankind, but They mostly take a backseat. They always intended for mankind to learn of "sin" and "guilt", but Their reasoning as to why is unknown.

angels, having bathed in God's light, are all brown or black. melanin havers even 💖 they can have non-bird traits, but that's uncommon. an angel's halo is white, but a sign of Falling is if the halo is dimming.

fallen angels have paler skin than angels, and it gets paler the longer a fallen spends in hell. they typically have broken, dark halos.

[gayness-and-mayhem]

Just so you all know I am now in love with Kate Duchêne and I regret nothing.

[shiningclown69]

Also replying to @winxdclub about that post

Its v fun to read and reply but also IM SO SORRY that this has led to so much spam 💀😭 Hopefully you don't feel obligated to respond to everything. Ok, now i can respond

Yeah, I am begging for the writers to let Riven NOT be the cause of every single problem. Helia is totally prone to make mistakes on his own, pushing most of the blame to Riven is such a cop-out. Esp when the lesson should be that mistakes don't define Helia's worth as a person at all. If Riven does screw up, let him be apologetic!!! He has shown he has the capability to apologise!!!

Also yessss it would make more sense that the rumour be that Helia was a prodigy who screwed up and left RF. It adds to that layer of mystery Helia has and makes it more rewarding when the rest of the guys grow to trust him

Helia: Maybe Brandon should be leader since he's the ONLY one who hasn't tried to put Riven in a chokehold at least once.

Timmy: But I haven't?

Helia: You would if you could.

I'm sorry to make you hopeful for S6, it WILL be disappointing. But hey, new characters mean new reworks from Rus haha wink wink

Oooo the idea that Brandon's struggle is not rly seen bc of the subtlety of is interesting, tho I wonder abt the logistics of it working in a episodic setting. Istg all these sound v prime for a specialists fanfic or rewrite haha

Yeah Brandon is probably an outlier when it comes to reacting to fuck ups. Tho, I don't think there's much opportunities we see that if i rmb correctly. Only times I can think abt is S4 when mitzi kissed him and he just awkwardly walked away from the argument, some moments from S6 when he confronts Stella, and him apologising solemnly when he breaks up w stella in the comics. And maybe the funniest moment: Him washing dishes when he hasn't resolved things with Stella yet, and there is an unecessary amt of awkward tension. For DISHES.

Brandon bias <3 <3 How he ends up being sexy haha funny man with this kind of backstory + the most serious way of dealing with conflict is a mystery to me.

Hmm I did consider that Erendor prob wouldn't like Sky being friends with Brandon. The only justification I came up with is that (if this info i saw from the magazine canon) Brandon's parents are close to Erendor/Samara, as their advisor/handmaiden respectively. I don't think they respect their courtesans much, but that connection might have given Brandon some leeway to be friends with Sky.

My hc before I knew his family info was q similar to your idea I think? That Brandon was the son of Erendor's longtime bodyguard. The fact that his father could easily train him + similar age + accessible and "acceptable" to let near Sky would prob make Brandon a good candidate

ALSO YES we need to acknowledge more than Nabu was prob left alone with his servants and guards!!! I feel he defo snuck out alot, which is why he learnt invisibility spells and changed his name. Might also explain why he has a tendency to babble sometimes abt things he's interested in (getting trapped in a cage is NOT a good time to talk abt music my man), mans prob happy to be around ppl his age who are willing to hold a conversation with him.

Ok i should have elaborated more. Brandon IS a child soldier, but I was imagining the duration that he's been put under this job. 15 is a good range but I hc he might have started younger at around 10-12? Idk maybe this has smth to do with the S6 thing i mentioned Brandon keeps mentioning "since we were kids" as if it feels rly long ago

Also I didn't know where to put this but I looked back at the S2E14. Brandon going "I've been here before" when the gang are inside Yoshinoya's prison cell?? Brandon what??? Are you ok????? I don't like that implication!!

I think Sky should defend Brandon more. Yknow, as a treat, for both of them.

[nebulaleaf]

day six of playing royal... or more like the 6th time i’ve opened the game lol.

madarame broke down yadda yadda makoto’s following us who cares about plot im just gonna list out the random things i took note of

-MEMENTOS HAS DIFFERENT MUSIC? I HEARD THIS WAS A THING BUT WOW. IT’S... WEIRD. the new track is nice but it doesn’t feel... fitting. it feels kinda unfinished. maybe it’s one of those tracks that get more layers as you go on? idk. the vibes feel way more aggressive and ominious than the regular mementos track -DARTS. BILLARDS. YES YES YES YES. KICHIOJI IS SO COOL AND FUN I LOVE ALL THE SHOPS AND NEW SHIT. AND JAZZ JIN! LET ME SEE . AKECHI. IM SO CLOSE TO MEETING HIM AUAUAUAUUGUHUH -makoto follows you way more in royal. i like that it’s funny -falling in love w/ ryuji again. he’s so sweet and excited to hang around akira it makes me so [various squishy custom emotes i use on discord] -the clean up event. i love the mini scenes with the thieves... ann impressing other students with her know-how; ryuji trying to do the right thing, akira getting vagued right in front of his salad, haru and mishima interacting. super cute! maruki’s little stint was also amusing. -s so we met kasumi in full finally. and i am......... so upset genuinely kasumi seems like a cool character with mildly interesting traits and vibes. she’s sweet about apologizing and thanking akira, kinda funny, excited to teach about gymnastics and other things, but GOOD LORD ITS SO HARD TO LIKE HER WITH THE GAMES WRITING / PUSHING HER IN YOUR FACE CONSTANTLY. JUST PICK ONE THING TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD ABOUT HER . OR FIND IMPRESSIVE. YOU JUST NEED ONE. EVERY TIME YOU ADD ANOTHER I GET LESS HOOKED. like. my jaw hit the floor when she FUCKING SUMMERSAULTED OFF OF A BENCH AND LEAPED IN THE AIR TO CATCH A. BALLOON??????????????????????? I KNOW YOU NEED TO PUT FRONT AND CENTER THAT SHE’S A GOOD GYMNAST BUT . JESUS CHRIST. THAT WAS NOT NECESSARY. i love all the p5 girls but kasumi is so unbearable with all the shilling around her. She’s So Quirky UwU. sharing your umbrella... hiding behind akira’s back... not wanting to be treated specially....all the rumors about how ooooh she’s so perfect and so cool and how the game at that moment wants you to feel bad like she has it rough. being put on a pedestal and outcasted like that does suck i won’t lie. but ohhh the scene just feels so tasteless for her to complain about it while akira, ceo of bad rumors, is just sitting there. and like, none of these scenes are Her fault, it’s just the bad writing regarding trying to shove her into a story that HAS NO ROOM FOR HER !! its just. she feels so cookie cutter. quirky athletic girl who’s different. i bet she has a comically large appetite too. i bet we’re gonna take her out somewhere and shes gonna eat like triple the amount that akira does and the game is gonna make a big deal out of it and i’m gonna hate it. i swear to god i’m trying to keep an open mind and like her but every time i start to think “you know? she’s not so bad!” the game pulls something that makes me want to punt her into a game that has room for her to breathe. and it’s only going to get worse! on the cusp of the kaneshiro arc is when the thieves character arcs start to get cramped and . idk when kasumi becomes a thief but i assume its closer to endgame (probably sae’s palace i bet. im gonna bet on that because it’s the worst fucking palace for her to join in on so ofc that’s the one she’ll join on) which is going to muddle it even worse. at least she has 3rd sem to get her development since... i assume that’s going to relate to her heavily due to both being royal’s poster child. but it just puts a bad taste in my mouth. im sure the other thieves will get some development in 3rd sem also but i just man i don’t trust this shit at least strikers adds onto the arcs nicely.

[wishful-soda]

OKAY GIRL I REEMPHASISE: THE CHAPTER WAS PERFECT

Obviously don’t answer this too soon re: spoilers

my overall thought is that it PERFECTLY showed the progression in how they feel/think about each other without being too explicit like you just subtly showed it in actions/words and that’s what made it SO chefs kiss my GOD

my quick summary is to share the 3 moments where i went from smiling so wide while reading to jaw dropped on the floor:

1. you’re harder to hate than you think you are- DID HE RLY JUST ADMIT THAT TO HER imo that’s one step from him admitting to himself he loves her like my GOD

2. CHRISTIAN HORNER. TEAM PRINCIPAL. Ma’am i CACKLED i cannot BELIEVE u did this it’s the best thing to ever happen to me i SWEAR

3. Alright there’s a new purpose now…. THEY WAY HE JUST CHANGED THE TONE SUCCESSFULLY AND MADE IT SIGNIFICANT I DIED. how did you successfully craft this transition it was too perfect

THOSE ARE MY ABSOLUTE FAVE MOMENTS

Other thoughts are:

THE FACT CHARLES WAS LIKE OH I KNOW WHO WILL MAKE HER FEEL BETTER like. 6 months ago people would have made them avoid each other to not get more pissed off but NOW they’re so damn OBVIOUS (i mean charles knows they’re fucking but to know they will bring each other a better MOOD is just SO MUCH SKSKSKS)

I know we saw the ~more obsessed with her than i am~ line in the WIP game but it still hit. SO. hard.

i laughed out loud at “that they’re a shit couple and no one thinks they’re good together” and max’s response was so max like i could HEAR it in his voice

i also snorted at daniel “it’s pretty big” at the hickey…. cocky son of a bitch… actually just that whole scene is cocky son of a bitch… and i LOVED IT esp w the whole backwards hat image going on

daniel is literally INCAPABLE of paying attention to anything but charles hands and movements like this is a NEW level of jealousy…. i wish him good luck in the coming chapters sksksks. But it hurts my physically the way he just loses all anger when she smiles at him like JESUS he is in so deep he’s gotta admit that to himself (more on this later but he pretty much has admitted it he just hasn’t SAID it to himself he is SO close to figuring it out and i for one can’t wait)

AND MAX FINALLY USED HIS EYES AND FINALLY REALISED DANIEL IS ATTRACTED TO HER!!! good on ya max :)

trying not to over comment here but i love every bit of it jsyk why i can’t stop

ok we carry on:

“you don’t need to remind me that you hate me” :(((((((((((( i cry

the WAY they’re just. chatting in the alleyway just HOLDING each other. and they’re gonna tell me they’re not in love? IDIOTS I HATE THEM I LOVE THEM

THEY TRUST EACH OTHER. that’s a HUGE deal maam i love that u included that 😭😭😭😭😭

using the blow job idea for a reassurance thing…… absolute GENIUS my GOD it was perfection

“angry rough and manly revenge fyck” IS THE FUNNIEST LINE EVER daniel laughing and giving up is so in character i love them.

THE INTERLACING FINGERS MOTIF STRIKES AGAIN AND IT HITS EVERY TIME

and lastly he ADMITTED he is trying to get her to like him…. which is admitting basically that he already likes her (not just doesn’t hate her) ITS RLY HAPPENING HERE!!! and i DIED my heart was POUNDING at this moment

ANYWAYS, final thoughts:

the way she was using their enemy start as a barrier and now he took down the first layer (their meeting) there are LESS REASONS TO NOT BE IN LOVE NOW!!!! you are perfectly stripping down the layers of the walls between them until it will be undeniable for them and that’s why you’re the best fic author on this site! i said what i said!


thanks for another AMAZING chapter i cannot WAIT for more!!!!! you are BEYOND appreciated i hope you know that 🥹😭🤘🏼

GIRL.

Okay listen; I fucked around with the moment where he pivots the purpose of the moment for SO LONG and I literally was so anxious about it, like I felt it was too...idk meh. So when you tell me that I pulled it off? STOP I'LL CRY 😭

Also I love that you mentioned Max's response to Daniel's "They're a shit couple" comment because I stg I HEARD Max's voice in my head as I wrote that, like his laugh and the way he says 'mate', it was literally just an audio in my brain so so I'm so glad that it came across the way I was hearing it.

AND YES. Max finally opened his damn eyes. I feel like Daniel doesn't even realize how obvious he's being now, he thinks he's still playing it lowkey and that he's got everyone fooled and in reality the only person he's got fooled is himself 😏

Listen I've come to grips that girly pop just expresses lots of her emotions with blowjobs ok? She's all about that 🙇‍♀️

ALSO; when he breaks and starts laughing and gives up, omg I felt like it was so Daniel so I love that you caught that too!

Y'all are gonna get tired and fed up with the hold holding I swear because I'm obsessed with it.

"the way she was using their enemy start as a barrier and now he took down the first layer (their meeting) there are LESS REASONS TO NOT BE IN LOVE NOW!!!!" BESTIE YOU'VE GOT IT NAILED. Homegirl knows that as soon as there's no more reasons to hate him she's going to fall HARD and she's flipping the fuck out.

THANK YOU SO MUCH BBY!!! I seriously look forward to your thoughts and comments every time I post and get super stoked when I see you in my notifications. I LOVE YOU AND APPRECIATE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW 😭😘😘🥰🥰

[maschotch]

in that case, favorite emily eps (including the ones where shes in red :p) that dont have to deal with racism/homophobia? im on minimal loss rn - i think she really shines in cases with kids and the way she reacts to people getting physical with her makes so much more sense with her lauren backstory instead of having been in the midwest bureau offices.

hmm its kinda hard to list fav fav emily eps… you’ve already seen a lot of them lol (including minimal loss what a fucking iconic episode). i just think every episode is a good emily episode aksjdhfgl idk i’ll just try to list the ones to avoid and the ones to definitely watch bc idk how many eps you were planning on watching

4x09 is a great emily episode—i love her relationship w jordan and this ep (and the one before it) definitely delivers

4x10 don’t watch lmao its just cop stuff and nothing funny even happens :/

4x13 one of the more problematic cm episodes but with a great hotch/emily interrogation scene that i love

4x14 another problematic ep. idek what to tell you to avoid specifically bc i don’t ever watch it

4x17 a blessing and a curse because it is a good emily episode but also a lot of the things you mentioned not liking about her become very relevant. and religion episodes are always annoying it does add another layer to her backstory tho which sorta shifts ur perspective a little

4x20 i mean its criminal minds the whole fucking thing is ableist but this one especially

4x21 definitely some copaganda moments but they’re so dramatically overdone it feels like a parody. worth the watch but be warned

5x01/5x02 very very fun emily moments in these episodes like ik they’re supposed to be ab hotch but she really just takes the spotlight for me

5x07 ugh. i guess this is technically a good emily episode i just dont like it personally

5x11 great emily episode. hit by a truck

5x16, 5x17, 5x18 aren’t technically emily centric episode but they’re good eps and i like emily in them lol so its an emily ep for me

5x19 avoid this one.

ah.. it really is hard to figure out what to suggest/avoid. it’d help if you gave specific things you don’t want to see, especially for s6 bc there are a lot of amazing emily centric episodes but they all have to do with her past.

[rigelmejo]

Also. I think dmbj is faster for me to read in chinese. Yes, even when I look every fucking word up.

You have no idea how godawfully slow I read the official English translation, when I don't like writing/etc choices it's like pulling my feet thru steel trying to continue. I remember that like 150 page English translation took me a month. And I was reading it daily. -.-;

Book 2 in official English translation took me like 2 weeks and I did nothing but Try to read it when I wasn't working :/

Shout out to Merebear Translations, who's done the later untranslated books, and who's translations are such a smoother easier read, and is now translating the old books 1-6 and again... merebears translations are just much easier to read.

The Chinese I think partly reads faster for me than the official English translation, because the work done of changing phrases/words/casual speech to an English equivalent I don't need. I know what these basic things are when I read them in chinese already. So reading them in rhe official translation was like an extra step that gave room for awkwardness in reading maybe. I know that's bound to be an issue in any translation. But with dmbjs really simple direct writing style, the more that changes the more layers get Added. (Versus lets say modu where edanglarstranslarions is translating already very complex descriptive language so it feels equivalent to read as far as sentence pacing/complexity of phrasing in descriptions etc). Idk... I haven't read the English versions in forever. They just did not vibe w me. I only got thru 2 ;-; only part I remember was xiaoge as old man Zhang gushing over wu xie in book 2 and proving to me he is a sociable sweetie pie who wanted to compiment wu xie and try to make a friend/connection (and apparently has some alternate identities he uses) which was just lol such a fun scene showing his less cool quiet mysterious side and showing wu xies judgy side as he shit talked old man Zhang mentally nonstop lol. Other than that I remember... very little of the English versions, safe maybe wu xie waxing poetic on Zhang qilings fingers. But now with my current chinese read it... doesnr seem as Intense of a deal as it felt in English send.

Tldr thank fuck these are easier to read now

My phones almost dead I could just. Go read my chinese print copies. -.-;

Also maybe? It's because the novels are wu xies pov??? In chinese his pov feels to the point and like the wu xie I expect. In English he feels just a bit to the left of himself... just like he does in some of the dramas where they sort of goody-too-shoes-ify him into a bit more than he acts/thinks. Idk those English translations are Not fresh in my head. I do think from the first 2 chapters I read of dmbj book 1 that merebear has translated tho, merebears version reads much closer to how I pictured these chapters when reading in chinese.

[rosewinelonging]

mm thinkin bout projohn. i know its not ur cup of tea but its just fun to think about, sburb is the thing that matures john- much too fast and when he wasnt at an age ready for it. it was a force of nature, something he could not at all understand or ask questions about beyond what he was told.

bro gives him the same maturity, but with a layer of humanity. john is a lot more like jane than anyone recognizes, he puts a wall between himself and what greatly effects him- he just doesnt break it like jane does.

with bro, john gets that humanity- though also cruel and harsh john knows its a purrson, and can accept what is given much easier,

bro is a systematic purrson, he keeps everything in a specific corner of his mind and refuses to let it down- like dirk. but john as a breath player, changes the flow of things. bro never wants to settle down, he wants to keep going and with someone who both goes with and changes the flow at will- it puts that control in jeopardy- possibly relating to a... ehem "dominance issue" that puts him both in control and out of it. johns no pushover, he wants what's right and he will scheme to get it. bro- even as a aplinter of dirk- misjudges such action.

anyeewayz sorry for the ramble and thanks 4 ur thyme, '^u^

mannn i like brojohn i think ive made a few posts abt them but yea i dont talk as much since i wasnt sure if my followers liked it lol

BUT YES!!! holy shit anon i loveeee thinking abt things like this and doin all analysis like with dynamics and god u hit every mark

honestly ive been thinkin abt john a lot these past couple days. hes a passive player who causes so much change even to those who dont realize it. he goes alongs with things bc he doesnt have the time to think abt stuff and bc of this his outward expression to ppl is. hes easy! hes simple and he listens bc thats whats expected of him, he doesnt have the chance to say no to anything though thats not the reality

as an heir of breath, freedom is his whole deal. he naturally falls into the into the inability to be tied down and in the future as things progress AFTER he begins to process things is when he starts doing things his way, a surprise to people around him who thought him simply passive [ie. refusing to give vriska the ring, beating caliborn up, etc etc]

and combined with the fact of, as you said, the wall of forced repression it very much leads a lot of people, specifically people who pride themselves on 'manipulation' or just crave dominance by understanding others, to misunderstand him severely. which is very VERY good. its such a thing i love with characters and the dynamic possibilities are endless

which is why i rlly like john paired with characters like bro [or even vriska, condy, etc THOSE types of characters] cause you get that misunderstanding and struggle of power. and yes he would misjudge johns actions or intentions which honestly can be funny as fuck

im less confident abt my uhhh perception? i guess of. all striders really i have a version in my mind but idk how close to canon it really is but for me i see bro as a more extreme version of dirk. he would set everything up in his head and it WILL go the way he thinks it will. views the world as more um i guess the best way to explain is in boxes. everything has a set purpose and he compartmentalizes things so it all works in a well oiled machine

so when it comes to john- they would meet, forces him into maturity in anyway you can imagine, and of course this isnt some mystical force from the universe. its a person which WOULD make things easier to understand leading to less passivity once he gets his thoughts together. OR you could say bro had already formed an opinion on john by observing his actions with say like dave! or possibly even rose since she the one he listens to most w/o question

either way it comes to a point that john is likely to fight back or act in a way that goes against the predetermined expectations. john would let him do whatever he wants before suddenly turning around and deciding. he doesnt want to do something and so he simply will not. its a complete toss up that will leave bro stumbling

of course at this point i want to point out that this is what makes dirkjohn fundamentally different from brojohn. dirk and john are on pretty equal footing bc of age which makes the expected power struggle an either-or situation where it could go both ways

while bro has a much larger advantage bc of age [assuming john is 13 - 16] and general appearance [sorry. short john propaganda i cant see him as anything over 5'5 lol]

so naturally bro would still get that control but it means nothing with the fundamental misunderstanding of john. its like he would take simple actions to the extreme [believing he has planned things out when it was really spur of the moment] or any scheming he does as not planned bc he wouldnt get WHY he would that and bc he doesnt understand why he would do something it means he wouldnt have done it

but yea anon you managed to hit exactly why i like thinking abt them. i love love love the idea of their relationship being built on bro just. not understanding how john works. which i explore a lot in royalty au's lol its fun to do court scheming and political drama

bros playing 3d chess while johns playing checkers

ummmm so yea! i like john a whole lot hes one of my favorites to think abt an brojohn less bc of the ship an more bc of that specific flavor i get from it

WAIT! ok before i forget. the only thing ive really been thinking abt these past couple days is john with women vs john with men. essentially boils down to if a woman asked he would be on his knees in an instant. you say jump he asks how high etc etc hed act out enough to get attention but not really to destablize the power dynamic

but he just absolutely refuses to willingly sub for a man. or if he does it doesnt end like he wants it to. so the only way to get him to submit is by harsh force and even then hes a brat till the end. takes pleasure in making bros life just that much harder

ok anyway back to ending notes. yea i like them! i like pretty much any m/m ship as long as johns in it LOL like if youre worried abt me not bein into something remember this:

any girl with any other girl? yes. im literally in the middle of making a doc of every dynamic between all human and troll girls whether they have a canon one or not

any girl with any guy? this is a toss up. if i like / post a lot abt the girl in the ship then yea id prob like it. i dont mind any of the human guys. i dont care for any of the troll guys. well. i like eridan most times, hes fun and im an aquarius and tavros in certain moods.

any guy with any guy? if one of them is john the answer is probably yes. hes my little darling and he surpasses gender. my Only issue with june is that i dont like the name change bc i cant get used to it lol but basically theres no difference in my mind with them when it comes to gender fuckery. an also i switch genitals based on mood so i guess thats something but yea i love him lots esp when it comes to stuff like this where u analyze his character <3

despite my content. i Would say that john is my unanimous favorite character

ALSO im literally writing a long fic where brojohn is the main focus lol well that and davejohn but he literally only gets sex scenes w bro sooooo

but yea go ahead an ramble in my askbox i rlly enjoy it cause i get to ramble back <33

[happikattwuzheere]

was gonna try and do multiple characters in one post but nope! i have too much to say. also the pictures are all different sizes so its rly hard to get the photoset to look appealing, so we’re starting w/ blue. and also a colored pic of what adam looks like when he’s not a deer. boy’s tryin not to stand out. which goes great up for him right up until it doesn’t. lmao. i’ll talk a bit about him too w/ stuff that didnt get mentioned in the starter post about him and gansey, but this is mostly gonna be about blue. 

SO. 

there’s this fey entity, right? i don’t have a name for them, but they’re not...they didnt START the fey/human conflict, but they are benefiting from it, politically speaking? and when maura was younger, despite other witches being like “girl dont choose sides, we’re witches, we guard boundaries but we don’t choose sides,” was hotheaded and brash and went “ok but fuck that though” and one thing led to another and she ended up getting a curse on her firstborn. Oops. that’s where the kissing curse comes from, here; i’ll get into that much later in a text post probably but gansey’s survivor’s guilt thing doesnt come from him actually dying in this au it’s from something Else, but blue will still kill him if she kisses him, just, for different reasons, it’s an actual curse this time and not something to do with the nature of who they both are. 

her father’s still a tree light, but like, she actually knows that from the outset? because. they live in cabeswater. the tree lights are all around and accept her as one of their own even if she can’t turn into a tree, and as a result of that, she’s got some cool perks. 

a) extremely resistant and/or outright immune to a Lot of fey bullshit 

b) still boosts psychic energies and magical powers like in canon

c) the absolute safest person to be traveling in cabeswater ever, because the forest itself loves her, and also if you mess with her within the borders of cabeswater a bunch of tree lights will physically manifest and be like “hey buddy wanna think twice about that”

but she can’t use magic herself, still, which actually works in the favor of herself and the coven--witchcraft is in a sort of weird spot, culturally, where it’s both feared and often hated, but also understood to at times be necessary, especially by rural peoples like those of the village. im taking a very discworld spin on the witchcraft, because i love discworld and you can’t stop me, and so the attitude is, like. its frightening ancient magic and the church hates it but when there’s an emergency and someone’s on the border between life and death, or something is trying to pass into this world from another, etc etc etc, then you gotta suck it up and call on a witch because they’re the only ones who can deal with those things. so. the coven is tolerated, both because it’s too big and powerful to actually fight but also because it’s extremely needed when you live in a village right next door to fey lands. you NEED someone watching the border. however that doesn’t mean anyone wants to be seen publicly talking to a witch--but blue’s not a witch. she’s a witch’s daughter, but she’s not a witch herself, which is a step removed enough that she can go into town and run errands and also people will maybe pull her discretely aside and tell her if something’s coming up that the coven should know about, and it all works very neatly with her acting as a sort of liaison. very important role she plays, which is why gansey tries talking to her after his initial attempt to speak with the coven directly fails. 

speaking of the coven itself: i’ve been calling it the fox way coven, even tho it probably wouldn’t be called that because there’s no road called fox way that the coven is built on, it’s a big magic house out in the fairy forest, BUT they do have a fox theme because i love foxes and this is a gift i have been given. if people have familiars in this coven, they’re foxes rather than cats, because as wonderful as cats are u cant have them and foxes in the same house that will go bad. but also there’s a v small number of them, like maybe three or four total out of the much higher number of women living there, who are fey blooded like adam, but who become foxes rather than adam’s deer. persephone is one of these! (it’s worth noting the reason why they become the same animal is because of a combination of coincidence, intentional theming, and mostly just because like, virtually all of the residents there aside from persephone are related to either maura or calla) 

anyway the point is, because of this, blue’d seen enough feyblood transformations that when, one day when she was 9 or 10, on a visit to town, she saw the most distressed, disoriented fawn wobbling around frantically and was able to very quickly recognize that that was, in fact, a person who had probably turned into a deer for the first time, and responded by very calmly informing him that she knew who could help and leading him home. this is where those last two pictures come from, and how adam’s apprenticeship started. 

like, there was a lot of arguing from the witches immediately--of course we’re going to teach him how to become human again but we aren’t really going to take him on in the coven are we? he’s a boy, he’s some local kid we know nothing about, what happened to keeping it in the family, he’s the wrong animal and we’ve got a whole thing going on--at which point persephone parted everyone like the red sea, took one look at adam, went “mine now” and despite a lot of grumbling that was the end of it. she took him on a bit of a tour of cabeswater a few days later, after he’d had time to think it over, and he felt so drawn to the forest that he agreed to the apprenticeship.

so he’s technically persephone’s apprentice but like in actual practice he’s being taught by the entire coven lmao, ANYWAY

adam being adam also had a backup plan for trying to get out of the village--even at ten he figured witchcraft might be a first way out of there, he was already thinking about it, but by thirteen when the good ole abuse started (and at which point the last whispers of dissent died out very quickly amongst the coven, nope, adam is one of us now, do you want us to very threateningly hang out in your front yard sometime because we can do that--what do you mean no, let us do this,) he was also like. i dont think this is a guarantee of getting out of here i need a second job. and the thing is, as was mentioned in the original post, the fey blood also means adam’s got issues with iron; it’ll poison him if he’s stabbed with it but it also reacts to his skin touching it like a hot stove. he’s fine if there’s a layer between his skin and the iron, but if he touches it directly, it’s Bad. so ofc this headstrong idiot takes an open spot a t a metalworker’s in the village because adam is the king of making bad decisions. the witches have a betting pool on how long it’ll take him to out himself. “its fine i’ll wear gloves,” he says. “it’s the perfect disguise no one will expect someone with fey connections to work near so much iron,” he says. “i have everything perfectly under control,” he says.

anyway he totally forgets to wear gloves before grabbing an iron tool while his dad and his boss are both in the store and in clear view of him and that’s why he was getting chased by hunters when gansey rescued him 

also he and blue tried dating when they were like 13-14 and it ended about as badly as in canon and they made up later and by the time the story starts they’ve settled into very much being weird siblings. adam starts hanging out with gansey initially to try and basically spy on him, figure out why he’s here, but ends up rly liking the guy and deciding his reasons are sincerely to try and help people, and he tells this to blue who starts immediately accusing him of having a crush on the lordling and being a class traitor, because she does NOT like gansey at this point and really the nobility all prefer wizards to witches which is a stupid idiot decision and frankly the fact that this lordling is apparently enamored by some random deer is hilarious to her, but even moreso is the fact that adam actually defends the lordling to her, like, “wow adam its hilarious that the lordling’s friend thinks that you have charmed the lordling because from my perspective it looks the other way around” “shut uuuup you’re not listening im serious, like, yeah ok he put his foot in his mouth really hard when he talked to you but im telling you i dont think the whole i-wanna-understand thing is an act” “idk if i can trust you through those rose tinted glasses buddy. tell me again about that time he called you princely?” “oh my god” 

this is turning into rambling but. thats the gist of the witches and blue esp thank u for coming if u made it this far here’s a bonus persephone fox