#What do you mean it's all just my delusion

[ohnoitstbskyen]

asking sincerely. do you see a romance between jayce and viktor? do you think they ended up being something romantic at the end?

With apologies I am going to only half talk about the thing you are asking me, since I have something else on my mind and you happened to hit the button that makes me vomit it into words.

Coming at this from an aromantic perspective, I obviously don't experience the state of absurd obsessive delusion that you bizarre romantic freaks fetishize so feverishly*, but I am often annoyed by the idea that friendship and romance are either opposites or mutually exclusive. From my perspective, the boundary between the two is at best thin, and more realistically not actually a boundary at all except by cultural construction.

*i am taking an excessively hostile, crass tone for my own amusement i do not mean this seriously please be normal at me, weird allo freaks

I won't get into my full feelings about the end of Arcane, but it seems perfectly plain to me that the script, the imagery and the animation presents Jayce and Viktor as two halves of a whole, not opposing forces but alike to yin and yang: opposites which each contain the other. And at the climax of the show, the greatest peril to life and peace in the narrative is resolved by these two men literally joining their bodies and souls together, and going into eternity holding one another for comfort and strength. They are quite literally soulmates, quite literally the most important people in one another's lives.

I don't think that that kind of intimate emotional connection between men must necessarily be either romantic or sexual - I am aromantic, and plenty of ace people exist, and there is nothing in our natures excluding us from intense connections of love with other people of any gender.

I also think it is willfully ignorant (and genuinely homophobic) to act as though these deep connections are mutually exclusive with sex and romance. As though if Viktor and Jayce fucked nasty and made out sloppy style, suddenly their intimacy is less pure or valid, or tainted somehow.

"If these two men who are emotionally close to one another also fuck or get romantically involved, then friendship is dead, murdered on the floor by a dick-shaped knife; vile sexuality corrupts and debases the true, pure and virtuous love of ✨friendship✨" <- This shit is homophobic at a baseline, queerphobic in general, and frankly as an aromantic man I find it pretty fucking insulting as well.

What, are my friendships with other men just inherently more pure and divine, more meaningful and true than a gay man's can ever be, because I will never suffer the vile temptation of adding romance to my affection? Is that how I should think of myself? And is an aroace man more pure than me still, the only source of TRUE male friendship that a man can ever experience, free from the pustulant corruption of sexuality and romantic desire?

You get this pathetic defensiveness (especially from men, but other genders aren't immune) wherein sex and sexuality and romance between men is perceived as a threat to men's right and ability to experience deep connection to each other. But the emotional castration of men comes not from people imagining sex and romance as a component of our relationships - it comes from people who insist that our emotional lives must be ruled by strict binaries. Sex and romance, OR ELSE friendship. Deep romantic connection OR ELSE deep platonic connection. Pick one and do not dare to imagine both, nor act as though the boundary between them is something that we built by cultural fiat, and which can be dismantled just the same.

And yes, yes, yes, I know there are cultural forces literally illuminati-style conspiring to systemically erase the entire existence of explicitly romantic, sexual male love from media, and I know that homophobic puritanism is on the rise and there are material concerns and a real necessity for explicit representation in fiction, yes I know. Everything is more complicated than a tumblr post can cover, I am not trying to Solve Rainbow Capitalism™ over here, I am trying to express frustration as an aromantic man that this stupid fucking binary keeps getting culturally reinforced by both my enemies and my well-meaning allies, when I think the binary is what's fucking killing us in the first place.

So anyway. My position is that Viktor and Jayce can be entirely aromantic no-homo friends, and they can fuck nasty in the throes of mutual need and obsession, and I refuse to entertain the idea that there is an irresolvable contradiction between those things. Each of those can contain the other, or become the other given time and circumstance.

What the imagery, storytelling and script of Arcane makes clear is that Viktor and Jayce love each other more than life itself. To say that that love must be shoved into the box of either "platonic" or "romantic" is to miss out on almost everything that is beautiful about love. It can be both and neither! It can be a secret third, ninth or fifteenth thing that they haven't invented a tag for on Ao3 yet.

They are giving each other whatever the spiritual mind-ghost equivalent of sloppy backshots are on the ethereal plain forever, they are the most romantic lovers in the cosmos, and they are also the most chaste and platonic life-partner friends you have ever seen, effortlessly intimate and unashamedly tender. They are men who love one another, in every way that love matters.

You can pick whichever interpretation brings you joy, and resonates with what your heart needs, the text of the show is eminently and explicity open to it, and anyone who says otherwise either failed to pay attention, or refused to pay attention on purpose.

[amethystwrytes]

Also doing this unsolicited bc I want to lol

1. What’s your current bias line?

Lee Minho, Seo Changbin, Hwang Hyunjin - but honestly lbr, it’s whoever I’m looking at at the moment 🥴

2. Who’s the one that made you stan?

Changbin, no question, and it was the “I’m so sensitive because I’m so hungry” clip that got me because same sweetie, same.

3. What song was your first?

The first SKZ song I ever heard in full was Gods Menu. And yes, I just wanted to see that part with Felix cookin’ like a chef lmao.

4. What’s your current favorite song?

Man, they’ve been killing it lately, but I’m still not over my little Chk Chk Boom moment.

5. What members personality resembles yours the most?

Minho, I’m pretty sure anyway.

6. If you had to pick a specific racha, which would you choose?

Ugh. I feel like 3Racha is the correct answer but my heart says DanceRacha 💃🏻❤️

7. Which attribute of the members do you like the most?

I mean, Changbins biceps, duh.

8. What’s your favorite album?

I’m going to be honest here and admit that navigating KPop albums is not my strongest suit - it’s a lot lol - but ATE has bops on bops on bops and is currently my fav.

9. Do you own any albums?

Nope. Lmao. Sorry🙃

10. Have you been to a concert?

Also no. I just really hate spending so much money on concert tickets these days just to go get knocked around, not be able to see, and get lost in the screams just to breathe the same air as my favorite artists. It’s a sensory/me issue 🤷‍♀️

11. Who’s your favorite duo?

Hyun…ho? Minjin? Hyunjin and Minho lmao

12. Favorite cover/solo song?

It’s not a straight up solo - but I do really like the song Drive.

13. Favorite SKZOO?

Leebit 🩷

14. If you had a day with one member what would you want to do with them?

I would want to cook with Minho, and just eat and watch movies and veg out on the couch all day. He could cook us up a meal and I could bake something sweet 🥰

15. Who’s your favorite singing voice?

Seungmin and Minho but honestly Han has a beautiful voice, so does Chan…fuck it… all of them lmao

16. Who’s your favorite to watch dance?

Hwang Hyunjin. With my sweet Minho coming in a close 2nd.

17. Do you have a favorite SKZ Code?

I’ve not seen them all, but I laugh every single time I see the clip of Seungmin losing it during flying yoga. Every single time 😂

18. Favorite MV?

Hmm. I really couldn’t pick so I’ll say Gods Menu since that’s the first one I ever saw and a girls first time is special 😂

19. Who do you think you’d be best friends with?

Probably Minho or Hyunjin tbh

20. Let’s feed those delusions, who are you picking for a date and what are you doing?

I’m picking Lee Minho and we’re staying in on a chilly day and watching movies and cuddling.

.·:*¨ 𝑮𝒆𝒕 𝑻𝒐 𝑲𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒕𝒂𝒚 ¨*:·.

20 Questions for my fellow Stays!

Making a little tag game because I love them and I’m nosy tbh. I also just love interacting with yall!

1: What’s your current bias line?

2: Who’s the one that made you Stan?

3: What song was your first?

4: What’s your current favorite song?

5: What members personally resembles yours the most?

6: If you had to pick a specific racha which would you choose?

7: What’s one attribute of the members do you like the most? (Example: Chans dimples)

8: What’s your favorite album?

9: Do you have any albums?

10: Have you been to a concert?

11: Who’s your favorite duo?

12: Favorite cover/solo songs:

13: Favorite SKZOO?

14: If you had a day with one member what would you wanna do with them?

15: Who’s your favorite singing voice?

16: Who’s your favorite to watch dance?

17: Do you have a favorite SKZ Code?

18: Favorite MV?

19: Who do you think you’d be best friends with?

20: Let’s feed those delusions, Who are you picking for a date and what are you doing?

[emmawithtwoms]

The Quidditch Pitch

@wolfstarmicrofic day 27 -517 words

Remus followed the path leading him to the Quidditch pitch, all bundled up in his scarf, jacket and gloves. 

As he got closer to the entrance, he could hear the clear noise of a bulger being hit with incredible force, again and again. 

Finally he reached the green field, where he could make out, right in the middle, the shape of his boyfriend in his Quidditch gear, holding the bat and looking at the sky, waiting for the bulger to come back. 

“I knew I would have found you here.”

“What do you want, Remus?”

Sirius punctuated the end of the sentence by hitting the ball with his bat.

“I was just looking for you.”

“Mh, well you found me, good job.”

Another hit

“Come on Pads, you can’t be that mad at me…” 

Actually, if Sirius was out here hitting bulgers to calm his nerves, that meant he was that mad, but Remus liked delusion.

“Oh, I’m sorry, am I overreacting by actively not fighting with you?”

Another hit, this time the ball went well over the rings

“Well I wouldn’t say we are not fighting, we are passive-aggressively dancing around the subject.”

“Remus Lupin, that bulger is gonna hit your head next. Don’t challenge my aim.”

“Ok ok, no need to threaten me, Love. I’m sorry, alright?”

Another hit

“Sorry for what, exactly?”

“I’m sorry for not telling my mum that you were my boyfriend… I promise you I’ll tell her.”

“Remus, this is not what I’m mad about.”

“It isn’t”

“No.”

Sirius huffed, dropped his bat and charmed the bulger to go back in its trunk.

“I am mad because you treat me like I’m your dirty secret, like I’m something you are ashamed about. I will not force you to come out to your mum, or anybody for that matter, but I cannot stay a whole week at your house pretendinhìg to be just your friend. I will not tiptoe around and hide behind dark corners. I have been doing that my whole life, Remus, I’m tired of hiding and feeling dirty.”

“Sirius… I.I didn’t mean to make you feel like that, I’m-”

“I know, don’t worry. Let’s just go.”

“No. I will worry, because that’s something that makes you suffer. You are not something I am ashamed about, Sirius, I do not want you to feel like I don’t want to show you off to everybody, I just… I need time to break the news to my mum, to everybody, because I’m scared. But I will, I swear that I will, just give me some time, please Sirius.” 

They were standing close to each other now, Remus was staring at the ground and fiddling his fingers, so Sirius lifted his chin with his hand and softly kissed him. 

“I know, Moony, I know you will. I don’t want you to feel forced to do it, though. Just… don’t run away from me, don’t hide so much, please. We can go slow, I can give you all the time you need, love.”

“Thank you, Sirius. I love you.”

“I love you too”

[vup]

to be fair, the 9 years old is the future pro gamer.

[valyrfia]

I'm so sad the only Charles blogs left is people with schizophrenia like you, they keep posting your shit on twitter and laughing are you insane? Drivers are not allowed in board meetings. Because board meetings are for board members. You sound 12. *ourrrrrrhhhh I know Charles raised hell in there* Ferrari would lynch him. Ferrari dealt with 7x champ Schumacher who actually had half of Ferrari in his pocket, you think Charles who has less wins than Schumacher had championships is going to be mouthing off to BOARD MEMBERS? OF FERRARI? THE BOARD MEMBERS WHO HAVE A HIGHER NETWORTH THAN MULTIPLE COUNTRIES? THEY'D LITERALLY DUMP HIS BODY IN A SHALLOW DITCH YOU PEOPLE ARE MENTALLY UNDERDEVELOPED

can i use “you people are mentally undeveloped” as a chapter quote in my thesis thanks xx

[bullet-prooflove]

@noxytopy I spent four years working/baby sitting a guy who had the illness. His family owned the company I worked for and because I was good with people and a calming influence they'd leave him with me to 'keep an eye on him' and they would never tell me when he was off his meds. I would realise because of his behaviour and notify them and they'd be like oh yea we know. I was put in a lot of unsafe situations because of this.

He had massive substance abuse issues and was highly erratic. When he did coke, which was often it would negate the effects of the court mandated medication he was supposed to have so he'd go into a spiral.

The other problem was, he was extremely clever so when they did get him sectioned and I mean lock down sectioned, he would escape because he would fashion tools out of stuff like the interior railing of a sliding drawer and use it to jimmy the window panel and leave through the window.

He had major issues with authority figures so he had multiple arrests for smacking police men. There's a shit load of other dangerious shit he did too but he always a avoided a prison sentence because his family really played up the mentally ill card (which he was) but they also enabled some of his behaviour too. By the end of my tenure there, they were completely at their wits end and just let him get on with it. When he was medicated he used to spend all day gambling, smoking and drinking fizzy drinks because he was in withdrawl from the coke. Noone really knew what to do with him because he didn't help himself even when he was in a more lucid mindset.

Because we spent alot of time together and I was a reasurring presence he came to trust me, so even when he was at the height of some of his delusions he'd be like I'm gonna give all this secret government info to you incase I go missing. The info was literally him typing on a message board he'd made to himself but he thought he was hacking the govementment and controlling the banks.

In a way it was endearing, but at the same time he presented a very real danger because he wasn't in control of himself, he'd come back from the bathroom high and I'd be like guys he's just done a line in the bathroom, his pupils are huge and he's telling me how he's travelling through a portal to kill Hitler do you wanna do something about that, like take him home? And they'd be like 'nah he's cool with you, we need to work on this proposal' - that I was completing anyway.

Wow typing this back is nuts to me back I didn't even realise the madness of some of the situations I was in at the time, it became so normalised. This isn't even half the insane shit he got up to.

Eddie Diaz - pumpkin 🎃 snake 🐍 heart ❤️

Tagging: @kmc1989 @gatefleet @tigolebittiez @mckinleysbones @totalstitchlover19

Companion piece to:

Box Breathing - Eddie's been struggling since Christopher left.

Always - You make a promise to Eddie.

Real - Eddie tells you he wants something real.

A Future With You - Eddie makes a realisation during a one on one game of basketball.

Cash - Eddie discovers your secret Instagram profile.

You have a thing about snakes, you always have. It’s an innate, bone deep, primal fear that alleviates all of your irrationally. Eddie discovers this when you open up an orange and black gift box with pumpkins on and you let out the most ungodly scream he’s ever heard. It echoes through the entire fire station as you hurl the box over the balcony and Eddie watches it hurtle through the air, the snake sailing out of the box before it completely disappears from view.

The look on your face in that moment, he’ll never forget it.

It takes them over two hours to find that snake nestled up against the hot pipe in the bathroom. You spend that entire time bundled up on the roof, refusing to come down until it’s been removed from the premises.

It’s Eddie that finally approaches you, Eddie that brings you his quilted jacket because the temperature is starting to drop and he doesn’t want you to freeze to death. You’re trembling when he drapes it around your shoulders and he knows that it has nothing to do with the cold.

“I had my ex sectioned last Halloween.” You tell him as you sit on a lawn chair, your hands wrapped around a fresh mug of tea that Buck had deposited by the door. “He was schizophrenic and when he was on his meds it was great but when he wasn’t…”

You trail off because you don’t want to go into all of that, the hallucinations, the erratic behaviour, the violence…

It was never intentional, always in the throes of a break, but the bruises the next day, the fear for your safety it was very real.

“One of his things was symbols, he used to see them in everything, clouds, puddles, oil stains. He also used them a lot, sometimes as love notes, sometimes as threats.”

“Is that what that was tonight?” Eddie asks you gently as he leans forward in his chair, studying you. “A threat?”

“No.” You say quietly, your thumbs tracing lightly over the glazed pattern on the mug. “Snakes, they mean eternal love. It’s his way of saying that he’s still in love with me, that he wants me to come home.”

“Is that what you want?” Eddie asks you, his voice a little rough. “To go back home, to be with him?”

“No.” You tell Eddie, your gaze flickering up to meet his. “You’re the only one that has my heart Eddie, you should know that by now.”

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[deus-ex-mona]

ngl i want to see an entire dramatic chapter dedicated to chizuchan’s “oshi break up” with aizo, flashback sequence and all

[i-appear-misssing]

I just had the horrible thought that I need to fall in love because having devastating crushes on beautiful, competent, authoritative women that I desperately want to please is exhausting and I need it to stop

[imhoser]

One of the most important life lessons you could learn from this moment is that people will not uphold social rules when to them, you’ve already disobeyed the rule in principle. And by principle I mean in the way you’ve structured your argument.

Saying cis women are the equivalent to cis men is wrong in principle, not by argument structure, but in regard to logical reasoning. It’s especially indicative of the tunnel vision you’ve acquired when to the cis women you’re trying to critique here…you are one as well. There is no “trans” or “cis” to me. You saying “well I don’t believe this” doesn’t change the fact that I do believe this.

For example, someone saying they believe in the flat earth is useless if that person is trying to prove that the earth isn’t spherical. It serves no purpose. You stating what you believe is true will not convince me. You have to go beneath the argument and try to argue your point through logical principles, aka logical rules. My logical rule is simple: what is done to a human body does not negate the fact that was not who they were originally. Plastic surgery doesn’t change chromosomes, its results are not heritable.

There’s another term for misogyny, it’s called sexism. The prefix “sex” wasn’t just added in for fun. It was a word meant to describe the categorization and subjugation of females on the basis of their sex. You believing that it isn’t real doesn’t mean anything to me. And yes, you cannot believe sexism is real while saying that women are not oppressed based on their sex. You can’t have it both ways. Misogyny is sex based. This is exactly how all transwomen benefit from privilege until, supposedly, they transition. But to me I define it with a different term, the word is homophobia. The hatred of effeminate men is innately tied to homophobia and that is a better explanation.

After all, the murder of transwomen often occurs when their murderer feels angst about him apparently being gay for having sex with them. How could transphobia be the problem in that scenario when it was the possibility of him being gay is what set him off? Because apparently, in your world, if that transwoman is truly a woman, then the murder only occurs out of a delusion, where the murderer denies reality. But nobody frames it in that way…because the argument doesn’t work, because we all subconsciously recognize what transwomen are despite all the moral flagellation that people partake in to deny reality.

This is why you will fail to convince me. It’s because one, I already know your arguments, and two, I have alternate explanations for the things that you believe will contradict my belief system. But it doesn’t. I just believe in different methods of reasoning.

You should be happy that someone is telling you this now. This is something that would’ve made my life much easier if I heard it when I was a teenager. Being able to understand why someone believes so and so is the first step in countering their arguments. But TRAs fail in this because their movement works by isolating themselves from their critics, saying that any critique is bigotry, but that is not a law of physics. The fact that people adhere to that principle, isolating themselves from people who disagree with them as if it’s a law of reality that those people are just “bigoted,” should be enough to raise some red flags.

And final thing, moralizing doesn’t work on me. You won’t make me feel bad. I feel no guilt.

A cis woman is not any better or worse than a cis man,

stop pretending otherwise.

Stop trying to convince me that I'm somehow in community with you because your a vaginagirl or a fucking bleeder,

I don't care--whatever silly thing you use to define your womanhood.

I am not a part of your 'sex class',

we are not a community.

I am not your sister.

[francy-sketches]

People complaining that jon and dany didn't have kids in s8 is so silly to me bc the idea of a reanimated corpse being able to reproduce is just. if it happens in the books I'm gonna piss myself

[forcebookish]

has anyone else noticed that almost all, if not all, my meta/"fighting" with other people is just me describing what happens in any given scene

i barely even embellish or speculate. i'll mention recurring themes every once in a while, but for the most part i'm just writing out a play-by-play summary of what the characters actually do, because some people cannot be trusted to use their eyes let alone their brains

[machinedramon]

legit wondering if when I start going to the doc for all my physical shit I should ask abt who I should see abt maybe getting mood stabilizers

i'm sick of this unending cycle of getting eight million ideas and scrambling from one to the next before burning myself out on all of them and falling into a depression and hating myself for not doing any of the eight million things I was excited about

[asgardian--angels]

hoo boy the number of baaaad takes on twitter since that con o'neill interview came out lmao

[dragonowlie]

The more I get to know about totk's english localisation the more grateful I become that I did not play it in english

[prodkeiji]

ep 9 is a lot to process uhm

[leolaroot]

this is something I've been trying to put in words since literally my first watch of farscape and I am still unsteady on it so whatever I'll just post and see if anyone else can explain it better than me.

farscape is a show that cares a LOT about perception of reality. it's a show that spends a lot of time and stories exploring the way that events are perceived, interpreted, and understood. but I don't know what it has to SAY about that or if it has anything to say at all.