#WOULD it potentially be ok if i messaged you on discord sometime just to say hi

[le-agent-egg]

Ok to add a little more context, the guy (D) was yeah, going behind my back and deadnaming me, even to people who I was personally close with. Apparently what he would do was, when talking about someone who didn’t know me, drop my deadname. Which. They didn’t know me so just?? Refer to me as Zach??? Bro worst part is I’m not even surprised anymore lmao

Additionally there is one thing I completely forgot to mention in the first post, but I’ll put it under the cut since this is already piss long. Quickly: Tw for general weird behavior, mentions of sex and such, really fuckin weird text messages, and potential ableism

This is gonna be a lot shorter, but one thing I didn’t mention is how that group of people would treat me with the topic of having a crush. For starters let me say that I am most likely neurodivergent in some form, however the group of people I mentioned multiple times took and made a running gag about me being autistic. Which is really gross. This also included them sort of infantalizing me regarding relationships, and like I mentioned before, they were probably at least fetishizing me for being trans just a little.

ANYWAY. The first thing I wanna talk about regarding that is a discord conversation from a while back. That group of people would sometimes host get togethers where they would go to get fast food and then go to either a person’s place or Walmart. On one trip, I didn’t feel like going, can’t remember why. While the trip was happening, I get this string of texts.

These were sent on the same account. The black is the guy from before, D, texting, and the red is someone else, who was also the owner of the account. Obviously I do understand that having “edgy sex jokes” isn’t uncommon per say, especially in a group of high schoolers, but. These don’t really come off as jokes. Especially with this text message from D

Ignoring the random spam of emojis, the image he sent gives me a very good reason to believe the person texting in black was D. My friends also agree that this was really really weird, almost creepy to send.

To go a little further into this, I am completely unsure of how it happened, but a running gag also started of me having a crush on a guy who I’ll call C. I barely knew C, and honestly he. Wasn’t that cool of a person. “Bigotry is peak comedy” type guy. But even if you ignore that fact, D did something really weird on my birthday.

So my birthday was on the tenth of May, sixteenth, big deal you know? And it’s not uncommon, at least where I’m from, to decorate people’s lockers for their birthday. What D did was print a bunch of pictures of C and tape them to the inside of the locker. Really fucking weird. Additionally, very often he would make jokes about me making out/having sex with C. Gross and icky and ughhh. I have proof of the lockers but I won’t put them here, since I do have at least a bit of respect for C’s privacy regarding his face.

Honestly with all this shit about the running gags and trying to demonize me for being neurodivergent in some way and the really weird behavior with crushes and deadnaming me behind my back I’m. not even surprised anymore lmao. Should have known that a guy hanging out with people who thing being a bigot is the funniest thing ever wouldn’t be a good person. I am so fucking done.

Ok now that school for me is over I finally feel comfortable for talking about how this year went for me, because holy fuck it was horrible.

Now I in absolutely no way wish to overstep boundaries for anyone who sees this, so here we go: trigger warning for s**cide, s**cidal thoughts and tendencies, s*xual assault, mentions of r*pe, smaller mentions of homophobia/racism/transphobia, potential fetishization of trans people, and just general power abuse from schools. Please, for the love of god, if you do not feel comfortable with any of these topics, do not read this post.

I would like to preface by saying that I come from a very European bloodline, like everyone leading up to me is European, however I myself am Canadian, and I have a lot of North American influence in me. With that being said, one thing that is pretty common from what I know is for people, especially in the country my mom is from, to be people pleasers. I am a very heavy people pleaser, I don’t like talking about my feelings, all that fun stuff.

In the city I live in, there was a school that I wanted to go to for two reasons: most of my friends were there, and there was a specific program I wanted to be in, though it was mainly the former and not the latter. The only problem is that due to the amount of people going there, it is a closed school, meaning people from out of zone are unable to attend UNLESS you are in the program. You can see where this is going.

Even though I was ok with going to my designated school for a while, around of March 2023 I decided I did want to go to the school with my friends. I submitted my first application form, and around June, I got an email saying I would in fact be a candidate for the program.

Tenth grade starts, I start going to the school, and everything is fine for the first little while. Some details will be kept private, but some work related things happened to my family around early October. Now for the really fun part:

The thing about this program, and honestly school in general, is that it’s very focused on academics, and almost wearing people down. We were doing a novel study on the book The Chrysalids, a book that I personally relate to very much, when shit really went down.

To start things off, we had a pop quiz on the book, that I ended up only getting 40% on. I was completely freaking out, only thinking of how angry everyone was going to be. Then while we were reading the book, a lot of the religious references started getting to me, the ones regarding the “true image of man” if you’ve read the book. (For context, I am a trans man, and that stuff kinda made me feel. Not very good.)

So I end up going to a school counselor, talking about that, which eventually leads to me finally spiraling into talking about my own suicidal thoughts. For a bit more context I’ve been struggling with mental health since around the sixth grade after needing to go to the hospital for something with my eye, as well as my grandfather passing away. I started talking about just how bad I was feeling, and since it’s part of the safety rules, the counselor did have to call my parents. Let me tell you there is nothing more awkward than your parents finding out about the fact that you’re dealing with suicidal thoughts, especially over phone.

So. Long story short, we ended up going to my city’s children’s hospital for a risk assessment. We talked about some stuff, got some resources, all that fun stuff. Really awkward to explain to people why I wasn’t in class.

Fast forward a couple of weeks, I’m called down to the office again. Since this was around the time the people at my school were doing assessments for people for if they would get into the program or not, I got the news that based on the past week where I finally snapped, that they didn’t deem me fit for the stress of the program, despite the fact that for the previous month and a half, I had been doing fine. Additionally they said that I could stay with only one class instead of the required two, however this was the one I didn’t want as much. They kinda gave me a pity acceptance because they thought I would be too much to deal with haha. My dad kinda went off on them.

When I got home that day, I decided that after having my own mental health issues used against me, I wanted nothing to do with the school. Also, again, if you’ve read The Chrysalids, you’ll probably understand why I relate to much to the main character David (being in a society where you’re different from others, but in turn seen as a hassle)

Officially speaking, I denied the pity acceptance around December, meaning that in grade 11, I would be going back to my designated school. We were also getting help from a few counselors, so that really helped. I also ended up doing my oral final for English on being a part of a society that treats you bad because your different with David from The Chrysalids and Juliet from you can probably guess where. I cried during it lmao (because I said that I would end up like David in the sense of finally being somewhere that accepts me, rather than Juliet with… you can see the implication.)

You’re probably thinking “oh yay we’re at the happy ending!!” Nope nooooo haha we just finished semester one. Now moving onto semester two:

We need to go back in time to set the stage a little: Remember how I mentioned that one of the main reasons I originally wanted to apply was because most of my friends were going to that school? One of them, who I’ll call D, was included in that. D and I had met in eighth grade, since we were in the same French class and debate team. He introduced me to a larger group of friends, where I actually met a lot of cool people. He was someone who I considered my closest friend, and honestly, the main reason I wanted to go to the school.

Around the start of ninth grade is when my egg cracked so to speak, and I realized I was a trans guy. He ended up helping me choose the name Zach, which is what I’ve gone by for the past year or two. After everything else I say you’ll understand why I’m thinking of changing it, mostly because I feel like I didn’t really choose it. Anyway.

Ninth grade is when I probably should have realized that stuff was getting a biiiit weird. Obviously ninth graders are not known for being very mature. So one thing D would always do is hug me before I got to my next class. Seems innocent enough right? Well I’ve always been averse to physical touch - ask my parents, they can confirm that even when I was a toddler I hated being hugged. But I really liked D, platonically I should say, so I let him hug me, because I liked seeing him happy.

This evolved into him kissing me goodbye. For most of ninth grade he wore a mask, but around halfway he stopped, and often times our lips would make contact. People would always joke “haha you’re dating get a room” but I hated getting kissed, like genuinely hated it. Probably because, again, I am very averse to touch, and was never ready for a romantic relationship. I would just kinda dissociate whenever he would do that.

These jokes didn’t stop once we were in tenth grade, and neither did he. The kissing stopped, sure, but it evolved into constantly touching me and wrapping his arms around me. Again, I am very averse to physical touch, but even with feeling wildly uncomfortable I let him do it because I’m a people pleaser. I think what sucks for me is that so many people probably noticed how uncomfortable I was with all of this, and yet said nothing, like “hey are you ok with being touched”, or something. I understand I should advocate for myself, but I genuinely felt so trapped.

Whenever I would try to hide in the school, he would always somehow find me, and start the cycle over again. Sometimes he would hug me to tight that it physically hurt. But the worst thing is that, on multiple occasions, he would “accidentally” touch my ass, inner thigh, or upper chest. This is, as my friends describe both it and the kissing, borderline sexual assault, and under no circumstances will i EVER let myself be treated like that again. I felt like two years of a mutual trust build between us had been tossed in the trash, because even with a crush on me, he couldn’t keep his hands off me.

Not to go all conspiracy theorist mode, but I honestly feel like it might have something to do with the fact that I’m trans- none of this happened before I came out to our larger group, but after I did, all of this happened. Let me tell you that larger group has a lot of not very good people in it, like I’m talking thinking that racism/homophobia/transphobia/rape is the funniest thing ever. WHICH IT IS NOT. IT’S NOT VERY GOOD TO MAKE JOKES ABOUT RAPE WHEN SOMEONE IN THE GROUP IS BORDERLINE SAING SOMEONE ELSE.

So. Not very epic. But wait, there’s more!!

Another person who went to the school was someone who I knew in ninth grade as well- lets call her A. A is known to have a very big princess complex- she’s never been told no in her life, she always thinks she’s the center of attention, and she loves making herself seem like a victim. Literally, in a team-based activity we had, when we said we work bad as a team, she took it as a personal insult.

Another thing A is really bad with is that she does not know how to keep her hands to herself. She would constantly poke at my waist, even when I told her to not touch me. When we were learning some basic CPR stuff, and I said “don’t touch me”, she was like “Oh ok I guess if you’re choking I’ll leave you to die since you don’t wanna be touched” ?????

She was one of the worst with the “get a room” jokes, even when I told her to stop. We had a martial arts unit, and at one point she was hitting me so hard and frequently that I was unable to recover. Where did having respect for your opponent go? We’re sparring, not trying to kill each other lmao (also she actually did end up hitting my wrist pretty weird, and it was so painful I ended up sitting out for the rest of class. yippee.) To top it off, on the last day of school when I was telling a close friend about why I wouldn’t be in the school next year, A decided to barge in saying that it was my fault for getting kicked out of the program because of my mental health issues. Not a very nice thing to say to someone.

ANYWAY. TL:DR, I ended up getting my mental health used against me to get denied from a program, was borderline assaulted by someone who I thought was a close friend, and had a generally bad experience with another student who ended up telling me that it was my fault for getting kicked out of the program, all in the span of less than ten months.

Thankfully I am doing better now that I’m leaving that school and the bad people in it for good, and I also have some really great friends as well. Honestly I’m just glad I survived this year, because as bad as it sounds, without everything happening, I don’t know if I would have made it to 16.

If you’re still reading this, have some sweets because fuck that was heavy. Thanks <3 🍫🍰🧁🍩🍪🍦

[albatris]

Hi Logan I see you reblogged some Scoob and Shag and I am here to say Yes I think you would very much enjoy it,,,,, it's such an off the walls comic but it's also a DELIGHT and really well done. It does get a bit intense with gore and body horror at times, but if those aren't serious concerns I think you'll be okay!!

I do request tho that if you do end up checking it out that you tell me a bit of what you think!! Definitely no pressure to regardless, of course, but if you do read it and have Thoughts I would love to read them <33

ALSO more importantly I wanted to say that I hope you're doing alright!! I hope today treats u gently and that you'll be able to have a good time and rest well.

And to round this off <3 a Bambi (harness edition) from last year when we stayed in a hotel for a li'l while

[Image Description: A picture of a small brown chihuahua standing on a red couch, peering up and wagging her tail furiously until it is a blur. End ID.]

hiiii sorry I'm late!!!

:D yes yes! I'd seen that comic before and heard you and your scoob n shag anon talking about some absolutely buckwild stuff, but never connected the two dots somehow that they were the same thing hahaha

but yeah omg I'll have to check it out properly, it sounds bonkers and ridiculous in the best way, absolutely right up my alley >:3c body horror and gore are not so much an issue for me these days, only in certain extremely graphic realistic films, even then it's not unmanageable for me...... but anyway, yeah, hey, thank you for the heads up anyway, I'll approach with the appropriate level of caution!

I'll be sure to share some Thoughts once I get started!! I'm sure I will have many!

and aaa, thank you, I'm doing okay, had a bit of a Spiral these past few days but that's not unexpected, I've been a bit too busy I think xD it'll be nice to sit down soon and do some writing and art!

y'know how if you don't get the Words and Pictures out of your brain they just start gettin all weird in there and going stircrazy and bonking into the walls and spawning demons. blah blah art is a cleansing experience something something. I have to take my brain for a walk, my brain has the zoomies

what was I talking about

uhhh

anyway!

I hope you're doing okay too!! I hope this week goes smoothly and is filled with nice things for you :D

and... hi bambi!!!!!!! always a pleasure to see your little face!!! your tail is going so so fast you look like a little cartoon and I love you so much <3

she looks so happy fhdjddjs

[personasintro]

idk who needs to hear/read this but if you're not enjoying where a story is going, or how long something is taking. to put it simply. just stop reading then. if its not for you, its not for you. thats ok. you can have your preference on things. but they're need to berate authors is questionable. sometimes i think anons just need other people to agree with them thinking it'll change something. or get the author to write what they want instead. which. idk. lol the world doesn't revolve around them (anons who demand, or give unsolicited writing advice).

tbf when they started sleeping together casually as two single people, i thought 'wow omg this is progressing faster than i thought. ' (this coming from a person who likes to read angsty shit for fun) lol so idk what people are expecting. i remember talking about it on your discord server how a bunch of us all thought there would be other things that would happen before they started sleeping together again, and then bam mimi delivered jk/yn hooking up on a silver platter. and people still have the audacity to.. complain??

i think the pace of everything is realistic. developing feelings for a friend you had no intention of ever having feelings for in the first place, is a difficult thing to navigate. i think the reason why mh has become one of my favourite series is the fact that it is realistic, to how yn holds back, how jk is navigating his attraction to yn. everything. sure they both found each other attractive when they first met, but i personally think if either of them was interested in each other in that way at the very beginning. one of them (jk, probably) would have made it a point to make a move. the fact that neither of them did, to my knowledge, and decided to be friends and become best friends without any intention of dating each other is kind of refreshing and nice. its not often where this is the case, most times when i've read best friends to lovers/fwb, someone has always had feelings and just suppressed them in order to just be friends. which im not saying is a bad thing, but thats clearly not the case for yn + jk.

being attracted to someone, and falling in love and developing feelings for someone are two very different things. to top it all off, they are best friends. they trust each other immensely, and care for one another on a whole different level. the fact that they managed to be that for each other without being in love with one another, is something so so so SO special. the thought of anything potentially ruining that. is terrifying. they already managed to have slept together (multiple times), and keep their friendship intact sans feelings. thats a difficult thing in and of itself.

then again, this is just my interpretation on mimi's story, and because of how mimi has written this story. she's made every character have this depth to each of them, every character (esp jk + yn) have so many different dimensions to them. nothing is predictable and thats what makes it so realistic to me. reading how yn + jk navigate this very new and scary thing, for me, is very rewarding. it also makes me feel a lot of strong feelings i didn't know i could still feel for fictional characters.

there's something building up, and i for one, cannot wait for whatever it is you have in store for us mimi. 💜

ps. sorry, i never can seem to write you a short + sweet message. always gotta be a damn novel.

Thank you for doing god's work!🙏 honestly, there are times when I simply just don't go into full depth when those kind of anons asks come, because I feel like there's no point of trying to explain things. At the end, this story is free for anyone to read and obviously, if somebody doesn't like it's storyline or whatever, they can stop reading and that's what I've been saying all the time with no hard feelings. If you don't like a movie, you stop watching it right? It's very similar with stories (if not totally the same). Even if I express my thoughts (which I think just irritates them more because I don't really care🤣) I always get attacked and they hide behind "constructive criticism", it's the same old story every time.

Which is why I appreciate every single nice message. Honestly, I don't think I can thank you enough for writing all of this (not because our opinions are the same or because you're kissing my ass like somebody would say🤪) you pretty much fully understand this story and I love your interpretation but most importantly, thank you for trusting me and loving this story to the point you've decided to share this with us. It really means a lot!

Don't apologize, I love novels😌💓 thank you again!

[shirophantomvox]

Chrollo, Hisoka, and Illumi Headcanons

Chrollo, Hisoka, Illumi, and Leorio headcanons

Hello, anon! I am so sorry for taking longer than usual to respond to this post. I have been so busy with A LOT lately but I have time now! I don’t know if you want N/SFW, romantic or non so I’ll go based on what comes to mind! I know many Tumblr users have made these types of assumptions for them a lot but I wanted to join in. I started writing this last night so forgive me if there are any unbearable grammar errors. I hope you like it anon, I tried my best. I have to work on my headcanons for them because I try to keep them in character. Since we don’t have much background info on ⅔, I have to keep it as realistic as possible. FYI N/SFW content is mentioned.

Discord for Voltron and HxH fans

Let’s start with Chrollo.

Chrollo (SFW)

I’ve seen on here that a lot of you headcanon Chrollo to be an understanding man when it comes to feelings for his significant other. Given his soft voice and calm demeanor, I’m sure that is somewhat true.

It seems like Chrollo isn’t on board with over-the-top PDA meaning he would agree to hand-holding and his arm around you but nothing more. He saves the...other stuff for when you two are alone. Because of Chrollo’s past, it seems like he wouldn’t want to be seen in public that much because that can cause him to get caught by the authorities.

He takes your safety very seriously. You understand that when he is with the Phantom Troupe that you are not to interrupt until the business is over. He doesn’t allow you to get involved with the missions because of how dangerous they can be (example: the auction). He knows you can handle it, he prefers for you not to be involved. Feelings and work can make things difficult.

Although Chrollo hides in the shadows, I imagine he lives in a penthouse with expensive furniture, white and black color pattern, and large windows that have an astonishing view of Yorknew.

After you both have worked long and hard, you open the door just to see the lights dimmed so dark that it matches the night atmosphere. There are rose petals leading to the bathroom where a bubble bath is waiting. As you enter the bathroom, your boyfriend is waiting there, submerged in bubbles sticking his arms out. Candles light up the tiny room casting a romantic shadow from your body. You grab his hand and gently sit in the tub. The warm water felt amazing; it helped your aching muscles (from exercising) feel better. Chrollo gently grabbed your arm and pulled you into a warm, loving embrace. He wrapped his toned arms around your body and rested his chin on your shoulder. He didn’t say a word but instead breathed heavily, kissed your shoulder, and leaned back against the wall. On days like this, he didn’t say much but his actions spoke louder than words.

Chrollo NSFW

I think Chrollo is a passionate lover. This assumption comes from his calm demeanor. He seems to be incredibly patient so if you aren’t positioning yourself the right way or something, he’ll work with you to make sure you get it and you are comfortable.

He is touchy. That means during the nitty-gritty, he likes to touch your face, chin, lips, and your torso as a way to show more affection.

When he is in the mood, he moves slowly then very fast. He cannot resist the urges and feelings he has for you.

He loves to do this while the drapes are open although you have expressed that you like your privacy. It’s ironic. He doesn’t like extreme PDA but is ok with sleeping with you while the lights from the city shine near your penthouse window. Ah, guys are confusing.

After the climax, he lays flat on the bed and pulls you close. He leaves about an inch in between because heat is still radiating off your bodies and it’s summertime.

Hisoka (SFW) If his significant other was shy.

People have mixed feelings about Hisoka, feelings, and whether or not if he is gentle or not. I don’t think that Hisoka is gentle but begins to lay off the harsh jokes or pranks as he sees that you both have fought before and you’re not as weak as he thought.

Unlike Chrollo, he is all for PDA. This ranges from hand holding to playful kisses to passionate kisses. When I saw Hisoka for the first time, I immediately thought he was a fuck boy. A fuck boy is a boy that is only interested in sleeping with someone and doesn’t intend on pursuing a relationship.

He’d take the pleasure of appreciating your presence as well as testing your patience. If you are shy and are easily flustered, he will change that. He’ll do things like kissing you, calling you affectionate names, or anything that will cause you to respond. You hit him jokingly. Still not getting the message, he continues and you hit him harder. This is where he releases a medium moan which causes everyone to look in your direction. You freeze; face flushed and he’s laughing his ass off.

“What’s the matter,” he asks, covering his mouth. “You look flushed~♥.”

“You’re doing too much. Stop playing around! People are staring~💯.” You cover the side of your face. True enough you were a little mortified but in a good way. You knew he did this because he liked you but sometimes he played too much.

This is when he pulls you closer to his face, your ear next to his mouth, and whispers something in your ear that sent chills down your spine that made you blush more than before. He nearly puckered his lips as he spoke. He took his index finger and thumb to caress your cheek.

“Raising your voice at me? That simply won’t do. Aren’t you aware of the consequences~♥?”

You knew better than to not say anything because he would cup your cheeks and pull you into a deep kiss, and wouldn’t let go until he was sure that everyone was looking.

Both of you enjoy red, white, and rose wine. To him, wine equals classiness and sophistication. After fighting each other for hours (which he considers training for you and exercise for him) drinking wine and watching Lifetime (television for idiots) is a great way to end the night.

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As stated above, I originally thought that Hisoka was a fuck boy, so I am going to roll with that thought. This man has the potential of being rough and if he is too rough this is the time where you can speak up and say so. He’ll listen to you. Similar to Chrollo, he can be very romantic if he wants to. The rose petals gimmick was played out.

Instead, he hides in the darkest part of the living room waiting for you.

You turn on the lights and immediately head to the kitchen to drink a bottle of ice-cold water. Summer nights in Yorknew were hot and humid, almost unbearable. It felt like you were being suffocated. Becoming impatient, Hisoka clears his throat loudly causing you to nearly jump out of your skin; choking on the water you were drinking. He released a sexy chuckle. When you turned around, there stood your chiseled buff boyfriend bare with a ribbon tied in various directions around his body. Your birthday was two days ago and he was your gift. Although you have seen him like this before, for some reason you were too flustered to make a move. He already knew that you were tired from work, so he carried you in his arms to the Exercise Room and laid you gently on the floor. You smiled as a rush or passion took over your body resulting in you tearing off the ribbon tightly wrapped around his body. Since this was your birthday gift, he made it a night you’d remember forever! Surprisingly, no roughhousing, just soft and gentle. This proves that Hisoka has the capability of being humane. His strokes were to your liking and the gazes that you both exchanged were mind-blowing. Why couldn’t he be this way all the time? After it all, you fell asleep at her quickly. You were on the floor but now on top of your king-sized bed, with the message control on high. He stayed awake, watching TV, and thought about how he was going to pick a fight with you at the crack of dawn.

Hisoka’s ability to flirt and send the intended person swooning is a talent of itself. Lots of people do not possess this talent. Sometimes it's intentional and sometimes it's not. He speaks softly and smoothly, are he has to do is ask and it shall be done.

Illumi SFW

Illumi gives the impression that he is a “quiet” freak. This means that true enough he is focused on his job but if the moment comes along he will give in. He isn’t into PDA at all and if he does feel like showing some affection it will be done in private. Even though he appears to be a zombie, laying on or even cuddling with his significant other will help him relax for once. Imagine having to complete many missions in a day, exhausted, and have a wonderful person waiting to act as a human pillow for your weary head. Even Illumi can’t resist that.

If he likes you and plans to marry you, he will make that known to everyone to avoid confusion. Illumi represents the stereotypical shy boy; he is anti-social, prefers to only be around people he knows and trusts, and carries out the duties of his job.

After everything has been completed for the day, he wouldn’t mind ( and secretly begs) for silent cuddles with his significant other and to just fall asleep. At this point, you are used to it so this is all you want and you are satisfied. When he does talk, it’s usually about something he found out from work that he knows should be kept quiet but he tells you anyway. Late nights are the time of day where Illumi vents for a few hours. The details of these vent sessions could range anywhere from “I wish you were there to see it” to “No, it would be too much”. As quiet and reserve as he is, his love is shown in a unique way that you have grown accustomed to.

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When the urge slaps him across the face like a sack of rocks, he cannot resist. Usually, he fights off the urge by exercising (mainly because you are out of the house or sleep) but this time he couldn’t shake it.

Before he gets started with anything, he styles his long hair in the shape of a bun so it doesn’t get in the way of action.

Although he is portrayed to be an emotionless zombie, he has some feeling deep inside him that he unleashes just for you. This is shown by gentle moist kisses being placed along your neck and once he reaches your shoulder that is when you wake up. Halfway through your sleepy eyes, you see a man with a devilish smile painted across his face. Who is this man? This couldn’t be your boyfriend. No way, no how.

Once he sees your sleepy smile, he just releases so many kisses that you throw the blanket off and he pulls you in closer.

Illumi will allow you both to switch the roles meaning he is in charge one time and you are on another day. Since you were still asleep, he decided to take on the role. He is surprisingly gentle in the beginning but as soon as it takes off, your ride him like a donkey. It ironic; he releases more noises than you! You have to remind him that noise travels! Great, you’re doing your job well! While it is important to take your job seriously, you need to have time to release that stress.

He uses his large eyes to stare into yours; you always found yourself lost in his gaze.

After it all, you lay back down waiting for your boyfriend to return from the kitchen. Illumi craves food like crazy after a good session. What’s better than donuts at 3 AM? COMFORT FOOD!!

These urges also come when you two are training together. Several times he’s had to guide you from behind on how to aim his needles. This time you noticed the packing of his pants which surprised you.

“Any questions,” he asked in a monotone voice.

“Yes. Why did you wear jogging pants? You’re giving yourself away.”

It was at this moment, he knew he fucked up. But let’s be honest, ok? He is standing behind the most beautiful person in the world, nostrils full of perfume, hair tied up, and has his left hand placed loosely on your thigh?! What was he thinking by wearing jogging pants when he was with you? He acted as if he didn’t know what you were talking about.

“You really don’t know?”

You kicked your backside out against him causing him to fall to the ground.

“Wow! Your legs are like jelly!”

“Why tease me,” He asked breaking out a small smile.

“You’re the one denying it.”

“Just get to it. I can’t wait any longer or else I’ll explode.”

The quiet ones are always the freakiest.

[mysterious-dark-shadow]

In drafts, in hopes that I never have to post this

Ok, if you're reading this, it is because Rune has claimed that we called the cops on him in March of 2020 in order to...I don't know what excuse he will give, but anyways, I am writing out this timeline of events because I want to explain our point of view ahead of time, without reading or reacting to whatever he is claiming is the "real" set of events.

Felix came to me in late January of 2020 to talk about some concerns he had regarding Rune's living situation. He and Rune were supposed to have weekly "dates" via video chat on Sunday evenings, and Rune was often sitting in the complete dark. Rune had also been mentioning to Felix that "the boys" (the 3 other men he lived with and were in relationships with) were often late in getting him food. Felix was under the impression that he was going hours without eating, and did not have adequate food that he could eat while waiting for someone to prepare a meal for him.

I was immediately concerned as well, as Rune was my friend, and I had been in an abusive situation that was actually fairly similar to the one that Felix was describing. We decided to monitor his behavior and his speech via text and video/voice chat to see if he was actually dealing with an abusive living situation. I actually sat in on a couple of their weekly dates, with both Rune & Felix's permission, just to "hang out" so I could see for myself what the situation was.

He was indeed sitting in the absolute dark in the living room of his home at 7-8pm in the wintertime, and often would look off to the side of his screen like he was watching someone in another room. Sometimes he would stop his conversation mid-sentence and completely change the topic with no warning. My concern about his physical safety grew after witnessing this first-hand.

We discussed what options we had, and decided that unless Rune asked for help, we could not indicate that we thought he may be in an unsafe situation. Part of the reason for our hesitation is that he had mentioned previously that one of the men he lived with was much better with technology than he was, and often helped him with his computer & phone (which were both Apple products). As someone who has experience with someone monitoring my communications digitally as well as the knowledge of how to circumvent that, I was concerned that this person may potentially have access to all of his social media accounts and chat programs. It's not that hard to have discord on multiple devices (including your web browser) if you know the password for the account, for instance.

In late March of 2020, Felix grew increasingly more concerned for his safety, and then, on March 30th, Rune sent a message that he would be taking a shower, and then did not send another message for the rest of the day. After a long night of discussion (I don't believe we actually went to sleep at all), we decided to call the cops to request a welfare check if Rune had not sent anything by morning. The morning of March 31st came, and there was no message. So we called the local police to request that someone check on him as he had not been in contact with his long-distance boyfriend for over 12 hours. To our surprise, the police contacted us saying the location we had requested to be checked looked abandoned. Felix, now extremely upset, begged them to go back because there were people living there and he was even more concerned because of the apparent neglect of the outside of the home.

The police returned that afternoon, and afterwards told us that they spoke with a member of the home who said Rune was sleeping. Rune himself still had not messaged Felix, so we were actually discussing whether or not to try to go to Reno ourselves when MY PHONE rang, with Rune showing up on the caller ID. Side note: I actually forgot that he had my number, as I had given it to him in 2017 or 2018 and we never spoke on the phone or communicated via text message. I quickly handed the phone to Felix. He told Rune we were worried about him cause he'd been complaining about being hungry, and he was always sitting in the dark when they were video-chatting. Felix told me that Rune was acting confused and said that he was in the shower when the police showed up. He also said that Rune was repeating what he was saying loudly, i.e. "You called the cops because you were worried about me?!?!?", instead of answering any direct questions. The call suddenly cut off, and we waited anxiously for another phone call.

Soon afterwards, Rune started rapid-fire messaging Felix, and then Felix and myself in a group chat on Discord, telling us that he was fine, what we had done was completely inappropriate, and that he did not want us to communicate with him. Felix did not feel like he could handle personally communicating with Rune, so I replied on April 1st that we understood his feelings, but we felt strongly that he was in a similar abuse situation to the one I was in (which he knew about it and was in communication with me while I left the abusive relationship), that we had done everything we could on our end to help, and that if he wanted to reach out, to contact me.

He did reach out April 2nd to me on Discord, saying that he had processed his feelings to some degree and he was ready to hear our reasoning. I did not trust this communication (remember we were still under the impression that he was being monitored), so I did not reply to his message, and instead began posting music to my Facebook, since we were friends on there. He did not reply to any of the posts, and on April 7th, messaged us again in the group chat claiming that I had not responded to his messages. I told him that it was surprising that he was only focusing on Discord for a response, and we already presented our reasoning regarding our belief he was not in a good situation. I reiterated that we had done everything we could, and he would have to take the next step himself.

He said that his next step would be disconnecting from us, and that none of what we had done was compassionate. He then blocked us from Discord, Facebook, tumblr, Patreon, and probably a few other platforms that I haven't bothered to check.

And that's what went down.

[edit 3/19/2021] We've not been in direct communication since, so I don't know why Rune decided to talk about Felix in his Patreon discord earlier this week, and I'm not going to speculate. I do find it amusing that he called Felix paranoid, when I'm the one with this in my drafts, just in case...

[edit 2/16/2022]

Happy 2 year post-Rune anniversary to me. He's become the least of my concerns at this point because the people I had alluded to that had been monitoring my communications and made me fear for my life are again trying to fuck with me. I have not been able to even access this tumblr account until about 15-20 minutes ago, because my husband Felix wanted to show me a youtube video he posted on Bad Occult Advice and I noticed I wasn't logged in. I have at least 2 confirmed stalkers that can see exactly what I'm typing, plus 1-2 unconfirmed ones that know enough about me to try to call the police to report me as "mentally unstable." Paranoid does not even begin to describe how I feel when I think about the fact that I may have to see one of them again, even if it's just in a court room to testify to the abuse I have suffered at their hands. Rune had no idea who he was angering when he tried to imply that my husband was crazy and no one should listen to him in his Patreon discord (which, again, people have to pay at least $1 to even ACCESS). I helped him set up that discord server, and tried to warn him about backdoor access points and he ignored me. Suns, who had insisted at the time that Felix was taking her words out of context, was (i believe) trying to get him to post about her on BOA so she could get more followers. She made a point to reply to an ask that Felix sent BEFORE we posted the re-edited screenshots, then reblog it with further commentary in hopes that we'd be too distracted to notice. I check EVERYTHING. I check the notes of Bad Occult Advice when Felix doesn't want to. I document everything. I was the one originally sent the screenshots. I was the one who checked with Felix regarding how much he wanted edited out. I was the one who blacked out EVERYONE who did not directly confirm that they had seen the original messages Felix posted about.

And even now, someone is watching my screen. Someone has been logging me in and out of my accounts. Someone has been trying to get access to Felix's accounts. "Glitches" stop being glitches when I cycle through my phone, my iPad, my backup phone, my computer, and round again because I just want to check on my husband's tumblr blog. I stream under the BOA name because I tried streaming under an old username and got indicators that an ex that I FLED with only the clothes on my back and what I could carry may have gotten an alert regarding me going live. I have been constantly watching over my shoulder for people I don't recognize because someone wearing aviator sunglasses tried to intimidate me after leaving a courthouse because they didn't want me to testify against them. I have been afraid to look at my own reflection in the bathroom mirror, because I didn't know if I was the only one in the room. Felix had to call 911 last week because I had a mental breakdown due to this extreme anxiety and paranoia, which I found out afterwards was me just reacting to the extreme levels of TRAUMA i have dealt with my whole life. Forget threatening to kill me, I was threatened to be drugged, and locked away from the world in a mental institution for the rest of my life, because I tried to call 911 for my mother when I was 5.

When I said above that I was paranoid, I was trying to make light of my obsession with knowing who can and cannot access my accounts, my computer, my information. I have taken at least 3 pictures of my driver's license in the past 3 days alone. I have not been able to sleep longer than 4 hours without gasping awake in a cold sweat because I had yet another nightmare about waking up in a different house. Last week, I had to face my greatest fear: being held down by 4-5 police officers while being injected with something because no one in the psych ward would listen to me as I yelled no. I lost my voice and resorted to banging on the walls, the glass, while screaming at the cop right in front of me to at least give me his mask, and watching him roll his eyes and say, "No." Even in that dire situation, one that had haunted my nightmares since I was a child, I wasn't afraid for myself, but for Felix. I thought I heard his voice around the corner, and I just wanted to see him once more before I died alone. I was willing to be committed forever if it meant that he could visit me every once in a while. I just wanted to tell him I loved him one more time.

This happened last week. This is the amount of shit I have been through. And Rune fucking Emerson was too self absorbed and too lazy to listen to me when I tried to give him basic safety advice about his Patreon discord. I have watched as he closed his patreon to anyone new who wasn't willing to fork over at least $30 dollars to access the discord, stopped posting anything with a public preview since January, and still post on tumblr like he's some Big Name Tumblr Pagan. This isn't 2015 anymore. I had to look through old channels on discord that I had completely forgotten about because someone still has access to a THROWAWAY discord account that I created. I am not paranoid. That has been confirmed. And those who can read these words and know what I'm referencing, who are still on my computer, trying desperately to find enough information to make sure I don't talk? They should be trying to save themselves. I called out 4 people by name last night while chatting to my Alexa devices, and saw my playlist start over. I spelled one name, and watched as the song got skipped because they didn't want me to talk anymore. This is starting to feel like a really weird ARG at this point because I've become so numb about the whole thing. My husband and I have actually given some of them nicknames just to try to find some humor in this situation. This is the shit I had been through, this is the hard won experience I have. And Rune ignored me because he wanted to be "rescued" and set up in Portland, Oregon because he thought I had a cushy desk job and could afford to house both he and Felix. He didn't want to work. And I hope he learns how to work his hands to the bone, because that is how I had to start. And I hope he never posts anything without thinking about me, wondering what screenshots I'm going to get sent next by a concerned patron. I hope he learns paranoia. Because I am tired of being reminded of him when I try to access my discord account in order to talk with a family member that I haven't been able to communicate with in 8 years for their own safety. To see usernames that I thought I had lost or forgotten used to try to intimidate me. I am not scared. I am ANGRY. Only 2 people in my life have ever seen me truly angry, and they are both safe and loved. The rest of the world can burn for all I care.

[spxcemuses]

*    knowing  your  partner  well  can  potentially  make  writing  a  lot  easier,    repost,    do  not  reblog.

 meet the mun.

— basics

NAME:  Space

PRONOUNS:  She/Her

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: Discord, mutuals only, please. I’m also ok w/Tumblr messages but they’re wonky at times tbh

SINGLE / TAKEN: Single

— three facts

𝙞. I stand at a very tall height of 5′4″ (that was laced with sarcasm; i’m short)

𝙞𝙞.  getting a bachelor’s degree in studio art that hopefully will benefit me in the future!

𝙞𝙞𝙞. i am a night owl and tend to stay up late (unless i have to do something the next day that is early)

— experience

Earliest RP experience I’ve ever had was maybe... 2013/2014 on Deviantart. I didn’t formally start RPing until maybe 2015-ish. I’ve RPed since then with mainly canon characters (and occasionally OCs but that never ended well w/me honestly ;w; ).

I’ve RPed on Discord, Tumblr, Deviantart. and the occasional roleplaying site (Shamchat, Rolechat, etc.)

— sub-genres

FLUFF:  I don’t write a lot of it but lemme tell ya that I love  fluff,, I actually don’t put my muses in these scenarios enough aUUGH 😩. I like it, though!

SMUT: I’m ok with writing smut (even though I say I’m not very good at it;;), but I’d like muses to know each other at least once or twice first (unless we specifically plot out a one-night-stand type thing) & am mutual-leaning in that aspect. I am over 18 and would prefer those to write with me to be the same, both character and mun.

ANGST: Eh, I’m 50/50 on it. I don’t write it a lot but I can if needed. I don’t mind a bit of angst that leads to fluff or just outright angst haha-

— plots versus memes

I’m okay with both, but I prefer plotting sometimes. It doesn’t have to be too serious/in-depth, but some light plotting so I have a reference/guideline as to *where* the RP will go when we both write things out. I also use memes as either ice-breakers or if I don’t have a lot of creativity on the brain.

— long or short replies

I try to match my partner’s length, if possible. I write a few sentences to 1 paragraph minimum, and usually go for 2-3 paragraphs. My sentences are wordy/lengthy, though.

— best time to write

Whenever I have free time, I suppose? Usually at night (cause creative juices flow then) but any time except morning works out!

𝙩𝙖𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙙: by @droppingdonkeys ​(nO I DON’T WANNA BE IT, PLEASE!! /j)

𝙩𝙖𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜: you lovely person reading this <3

[tenthemonstertruckfairy]

Rules

There are 3 sections to this: Art, Fics/Drabble, RP.

Please read each section as it corresponds to our potential interactions. Thank you.

☆ART☆

- Don’t take any of the art/icons I've created.

▪︎ Unless it was something I specifically made for you, if you want to use something, please ask.

- I am open to art requests/suggestions.

▪︎My initial intention for creating this blog was to get in more practice with anatomy and poses, as even before I stopped drawing for over a year oops I had difficulty with those areas. I am open to constructive criticism, and pointers are appreciated. Demands and rude comments are not.

▪︎ I reserve the right to refuse any art request. All NSFW art requests made to this blog will be ignored. I'm not comfortable enough with where my skill level is at to even consider drawing such things.

☆FANFICS AND DRABBLE☆

- I will make a post when I am open to suggestions for these. It's been a very long time since I've written one, so I'm nervous about being rusty.

- I will not post NSFW fics on this blog. In the highly unlikely event that I were to create an NSFW, it would be posted to a sideblog.

☆ROLEPLAY☆

- It's perfectly fine to nudge me about an rp I haven’t responded to yet. I do have a tendency to take longer than I should sometimes, as I'm a bit busy taking care of my grandmother, so please be patient with me.

- The Mun is 29, but normally does shy away from doing much NSFW stuff. You shouldn’t expect any actual smut to show up here. If things get to being NSFW during a roleplay at any point, they will either be moved to dms or to a sideblog.

- I’m fine with having Sun/Moon/Ten enter into relationships, but there needs to be chemistry before hand. No suddenly saying your character is dating any of them out of the blue. Unless it’s part of an askmeme, and previously agreed upon.

- Multishipping is a-ok. I will make a page to keep track of them if it happens. All ships will occur as AUs unless previously agreed upon by all parties within them.

- No adult x minor ships. If you or your muse is a minor there will be no romantic relationship interactions. You will be blocked if this is attempted.

- Godmodding is a no-no.

- Feel free to jump into the askbox, I don’t bite.

- Open to m!a's but I am somewhat selective. Will sometimes save them for a later date when I've received multiple.

- There will be cursing, please be aware of this. Mostly from Moon, but he isn't the only one.

- If there’s something you’re not sure about then feel free to ask.

- If you want to send me a message over DM to plot, ask something ooc, or even just to say hi, then I’m fine with it.

- My discord is available to mutuals, but I normally don’t get into calls. As long as tumblr notifications aren't broken though, I'm just as likely to answer at the same speed if messaged through here. If you want my discord then feel free to ask, however if we haven’t spoken before then I may not give it to you.

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!!!! These rules are subject to change and may be updated accordingly. !!!!

- Please tag blog as TenTheMonstertruckFairy ▪︎Other tags will be listed later for side-blogs and related content.

This blog is not affiliated with the game franchise.

[figula]

ben just DMed me (he is at work lol) like ‘we should probably have more conversations about this kind of thing’ (referring to antipsychiatry, which was the topic of the day in the #serious channel of my discord server lol 

so i took the opportunity to tell him ive been secretly off my meds (prozac) for months :| there has been no drop in mood or really any deleterious effects at all 

i feel like a real idiot for keeping this secret tho!! idk why my first reaction is still to just close ranks with myself and not share things that are important to me. like literally i have no idea. ben has never ever made me feel bad about anything ive ever done as long as ive fully explained myself beforehand (i mean - not in the sense that he tests me, but in the sense that he would prefer his partner of 8y to be doing things logically and rationally) 

i think i was so afraid to hear him say ‘no’ to something that was important to me that i just elected not to tell him, and he was like ‘but cham why would i even say no, im not your nurse??’ which like... fair :| i was also afraid to tell him bc i didn’t want to expose a potential gulf in ideology, which is also like - WAY preemptive! my reasoning for this is bc he sometimes asks ‘cham are you still on your meds?’ and i interpreted this as like - ‘hi im ben and im super pro meds! :)’ whereas what he actually meant (it transpires) was ‘did you go cold turkey on your meds again bc that does seem have a bad effect on you sometimes’ lol ffs. genuinely annoyed w/ myself for just not conversing at all. wtf!  just quickly ETA: i do think as someone in and out of psych systems for 10+ years, you do get very used to giving up your bodily autonomy - you forget that you do have a choice wrt treatment, you can actually say no, and i think i internalised the ‘my body belongs to doctors’ message a bit too hard

cham:

i am sorry i didnt tell you i am wondering why my first reaction is just to be very duplicitous im a snake in the grass 😔

ben:

yeah sneky and you dont think im your cruel psychiatric jailer? ok im coming home now to whoop your ass

[joyful-soul-collector]

Questions about me

Thank you to @nazezdha321 for “tagging” me (more of a “if you see this and wanna play you should situation but shshshssssshhhhh it looked fun ok)

1. what is the color of your hairbrush?

Blue, like my hair

2. name a food you never eat

Brussel sprouts and tomatoes. Just, no. 

3. are you typical too warm or too cold?

Too cold, always and all the time, I need like 3 blankts on me at all times to make it through winter and two the rest of the year. All of this is while wearing pants and a sweater.

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago?

Talking to a friend online, still doing that haha

5. what’s your favorite candy bar?

I love chocolate tbh, probably something like kit kats? Plain chocolate is great too though

6. have you ever been to professional sports event?

Nope

7. what is the last thing you said out loud?

“Ok I’m gonna head to my room, have fun guys!” My sister’s boyfriend is here, they’re watching a movie together in the livingroom. 

8. what is your favorite ice cream?

Hmmm, I really love chocolate. There’s a place in my town that has a kind with brownie bits and fudge swirled in, it’s amazing, I love that one

9. what was the last thing you had to drink?

Some water, it’s in a cup next to me haha

10. do you like your wallet?

Eh it’s alright, I mean it works. It’s a bit too big, I gotta get a smaller one, but it’s alright!

11. what is the last thing you ate?

Some tortilla soup for dinner

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

Nope, I haven’t bought new clothes since summer, and even then it was like two shirts. 

13. what’s the last sporting event you watched?

I don’t even remember, I haven’t watched sports in years. I don’t care for them and neither does my family, so we don’t watch them

14. what is your favorite flavor of popcorn?

I love super buttery popcorn. And this isn’t really a flavor, but I love it with chocolate drizzled on top

15. who is the last person you send text message to?

Uhhh I sent a message to @baloobird on discord? But I haven’t texted using like, my phone number in a looong time

16. ever been camping?

Nope, unless you count out in the backyard

17. do you take vitamins?

No, I haven’t for a while, we haven’t bought any since like YEARS ago

18. do you regularly attend a place of worship?

Nope

19. do you have a tan?

Not anymore, haven’t been outside very often at all. 

20. do you prefer chinese or pizza?

Pizzaaaaaaa

21. do you drink your soda through a straw?

Yeah but just because we only buy it when we go out to eat, and they always give you soda in a cup with a straw. I haven’t drank from a can in forever, we never buy them. 

22. what color socks you usually wear?

Black. I have some fluffy socks that are red and white, but I only wear them in Christmas time

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit?

Yeah but only by a few miles at most

24. what terrifies you?

The idea of old bullies coming back somehow, the idea of my family being hurt somehow, and never being able to make and keep good friends for longer than a couple years. Those are a few that I know off the top of my head. 

25. look to your left, what do you see?

My teddy bear I keep on my bed for my bad anxiety days. He’s very huggable

26. what chore do you hate the most?

Hmm. I don’t like doing the dishes for sure, I have to do that every day, or sometimes every other day if there’s not many to do. Don’t like laundry or shoveling the driveway when it snows either

27. what do you think when you hear australian accent?

The movie Rescuers Down Under

28. what’s your favorite soda?

Sprite. I don’t drink soda very much, i can’t remember the last time I had something OTHER than Sprite

29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit drive through?

Usually drive thru, we don’t like eating in places, even before the pandemic haha

30. what’s your favorite number?

24. No idea why, I’ve just been attached ever since I was little. When I was like 3-4 I would answer all math questions, mainly grown-ups asking me “what’s 2+2?” with 24. No clue why. 

31. who’s the last person you talked to?

Online would be @baloobird, irl would be my family at dinner a little while ago

32. favorite meal?

Fettucine Alfredo... god my stomach’s rumbling just thinking about it haha, I haven’t eaten in a couple hours

33. last song you listed to?

Crumbs by Belaganas. It’s the only song by them I have on my playlist because @tracle0 recommended it to me. It reminds us of my OC Tatum. 

34. last book you read?

Reread a bit of my favorite comic called Saga

35. favorite day of the week?

Saturdays, i usually get some time to myself then. I didn’t get that this Saturday though, too much work it spilled out into the weekend, but I did get a little today. 

36. can you say alphabet backwards?

Nope haha

37. how do you like your coffee?

So sweet it barely even tastes like coffee. 

38. favorite pair of shoes?

My mismatching red and blue converse with black laces. 

39. time you normally get up?

7:30am

40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunset?

Sunrise. Everything is quiet and you’re still a little sleepy and it’s probably a bit cold if you’re on the beach, and that’s perfect. 

41. how many blankets on your bed?

Three because I’m a touch-starved bag of twigs that’s constantly cold.

42. describe your kitchen plates.

Some are blue and are made of plastic, some are white and made of ceramic or glass or whatever cheap plates are made of. 

43. describe your kitchen at the moment.

Lots of cabinets, an old toaster oven and a stand up mixer in the corner, window over a deep sink, next to that a dishwasher. Counters are a brown marbley kind that make it impossible to tell if it’s dirty or not. 

44. do you have a favorite alcoholic drink?

Not old enough to drink, nope

45. do you play cards?

Eh? My family likes 3-13 and Egyptian war, but board games are our favorite. 

46. what color is your car?

We have two, both every very old. One is a red little one, the other is a tan minivan. 

47. can you change a tire?

Nope, should probably learn to do that at some point

48. your favorite state or province?

I... don’t know. I’ve moved around quite a bit, live in different parts of CA, lived up in WA, now I live in PA. I’d say WA because it feels like I can relate to a lot of people there, like WA people are my kinda people ya know? And it’s so beautiful and has just so many things I love in it... But that’s also where most of my bullies were. So every time I think about it it always has that shadow because I was miserable half the time. But PA isn’t my favorite because the people here are so different from me, and CA isn’t my favorite because my extended family lives there and they’re Very Not Cool. I’ve had bullies in both those places as well too, but not as bad as WA. So uh... I don’t know, I suppose. 

49. favorite job you’ve had?

Never had a job unfortunately, my parents said I couldn’t get one till after High School cuz they wanted me to focus on school, and then, halfway through my senior year, a pandemic happened. Yay Class Of 2020! Anyway, I haven’t gotten a job because if I don’t need it, I don’t want to get one and potentially but myself, my family, and other people at risk, even though having the extra money would be nice. 

Tagging: @tracle0 @baloobird @jelly-pies @silver-bubbles @mysterycheerio @shadedrose01 and everyone else who wants to do it! Feel free to tag me and say I tagged you haha

[oofjaemin]

⌠ NAM JOO-HYUK, 25, CISMALE, HE/HIM ⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, JAEMIN ‘ JAE ’ WOO! according to their records, they’re a SECOND year, specializing in DRIVER’S ED + COVERT OPS; and they DID go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of ( lipstick stains on shirt collars, sweaty sprints at dawn to start the day, being shirtless for no apparent reason, soft smirks when he’s up to no good ). when it’s the ( cancer )’s birthday on 7/17/1995, they always request their HAEJANGGUK from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation.

i’ll do a proper graphic / maybe add to this when it’s not 7am buuuut.... here’s jae — i just wanna say i now have four muses on the torres floor so that’s automatically the best floor x

some of his character parallels: 

stirling archer | archer - 96 %

samantha jones | sex and the city - 96 %

lucifer morningstar | lucifer - 95 %

barney stinson | how i met your mother - 95 %

maeby funke | arrested development - 93 %

chuck bass | gossip girl - 92 %

EL PINTERESTO

anyways. he a massive Hoe. i feel it had to be done after 3 of my muses coupled up 

his fam are part of The Spy Life, actually used to be very good friends with a certain mr steven park’s family until jae kinda... was jae and they split the bond, rip xx

he didn’t do anything major but the parks really didn’t want him around their sons, but jae doesn’t listen to rules or authority and said fuck that, i do what i want ?? plus he was hella close to both steve n andrew so he legit didn’t care what their parent’s wishes were and that kinda forced their hand to put a stop to it

he’s just very very impulsive, chooses fun and pleasure above all else and isn’t the most mature, a chaotic neutral.... jeez wonder why the parks wanted better for their kids JHSBJHBS

anywhoooo he actually gets on well with his own family !! has a sister who is very obedient, hard working and polite ( maybe i’ll do a wc ?? ) and while his parents do want him to succeed and focus in life.... they’ve known jae all his life and frankly they’re tired of repeating themselves and have found it’s better to just let him be as he’s much worse when he rebels

you’d think a twenty five year old would be less childish but ???? fuck age norms

he is actually very intelligent ?? sometimes 

his family have a tradition of attending university before a spy academy, to sort of prove your worth, intelligence, hard work, determination etc and it’s a bit of security to fall back on if anything were to happen to the family, their ties in the spy world, or themselves as individuals — plus it can be used as a something of a cover too ! plus... if you don’t do this step, the family consider you inadequate and you won’t get any money !!! 

it was a big incentive for jae who likes expensive cars and jetting round the world without a care so he studied law at cambridge and part of him thinks about ditching the spy world all together and becoming a lawyer but he’s dissuaded by the difference in potential money jhbjshbjs

his dad wanted him in weapons training but he said ‘ no x ’ and chose driver’s ed instead bc he likes to skrr skrrrrrr but don’t let him in ur car bc he might wreck it... not bc he can’t drive but he’s just a bloody idiot and will try and see if he can flip it or something

he’s a massive dick to his hook ups, tho not so much intentionally, but defo the type to be less than interested in you as soon as he’s finished jsbjhbjhbthe classic ‘ you’re still here ? ’ if he’s woken up and you’re beside him — but he can be quite a gentleman beforehand to ensure he sleeps with you, so i’ll apologise now for him xxx

has a lot of ‘ friends ’ but probs only a small few of people he’d actually put before himself ( imma say steve exclusively ) 

he’s just a bit of a mess about, likes to play and doesn’t really care who’s expense it comes at as long as it’s not his but he’s not like a full on dick or outwardly mean for the sake of it, he just does what he wants and what he wants can change quite quickly so he’s not one to be sentimental or put the effort in to ensure you’re not offended or hurt

drinks a lot, smokes a bit, other drugs occasionally 

pansexual but defo Het Energy bc he’s probs only slept w girls im p sure

was in the chess club at cambridge like a loser

he 6′2 : ) 

brain kinda empty but i think i covered everything ??? 

some connections i’d love 

defo hook ups plssssssssss, even if it’s ex ones or a one night stand kind of thing, i feel if he continuously hooks up w someone they defo know he’s not keeping up the act of being polite n courteous so ??? can either be mutual or a thing they clash on — i’d say he probs has a preference for feminine peeps but only bc he’s never explored the other side of things but he’d be down to, for sure, i just do not think he’s a bottom so JHBHSJHB

some fitness friends, he really loves going for runs and jogs and wouldn’t mind a buddy to do it alongside him, same with just general gym buds or sparring partners !! 

family friends / enemies / neutral ? the woos are fairly known in korea, obvs they’ve cut ties w the parks so it could have some collateral w other families !!

someone he annoys the hell out of, bickering 24/7 ???? sign me tf up !! maybe they’re just as immature as he is or literally can’t stand him at all !! 

ok i think thats it but may add to when i wake up : ) pls either like dis, react when i post it in discord, or simply message me for plots n ideas !!! i will probs post an open tho if u wud rather see the vibe n chemistry !!! 

@gallagherintro

[scorpiosanssexy]

Haikyuu Birthday Butler Cafe

Kristen ( @super-noya​), firstly i hope you have a wonderful birthday. I have loved chatting to you in the discord chat and also when i said i needed help with some “free!” headcanons, that was a lie it was for this. 

Somebody has told me you are into short kings especially a man named Yaku Morisuke.

So strap yourself in, and let this handsome young man charm you today as you have the number one reservation of the haikyuu butler cafe. Think of this as your early birthday present (if you would call my writing a birthday present)

Yaku Morisuke despite his charming appearance is not one of our most popular requests

Perhaps it is his brashness and need for perfection that drives away potential customers of his services

however he wants everything right for you, no grand gesture out of place 

poor lev has had to suffer his wrath even more today, ever since he heard you were coming he has been working non stop in order to make sure everything is in ship shape 

Unlike most of the traditional butlers here, Yaku wears a brown tan three piece suit, black shirt and a red tie. He also sports aviators to complete the look 

It is more of a richboy look but he spoils you by taking you to fancy places 

anyway, when you enter the room wearing your extremely glamourous outfit (curtsey of hostess carla) Yaku eyes have already began to start wondering, 

of course he is a polite boy, so if you were in any discomfort with him so blantatly checking you out, he would softly smile at you

he takes you by the waist and pulls you to a secluded table

the table itself is on the top floor of a skyscraper with the cityscape surrounding the pair of you 

Yaku orders the table a bottle of pink champagne which he opens as the offical start to Kristen’s birthday. 

he is an aboslute gentleman and he will pay, no questions asked, anything for his girl (sugar daddy alert) 

Yaku is a wine addict, he know exactly which wines go with what food and want’s you to have the best experience 

so he makes you drink after drink, all being paid on his tab of course

he loves that when you get a little tipsy because you become absolutely savage (thank Virgo in 12th house for that) 

you will say exactly what is on your mind whilst Yaku just smirks over at you (carla is drooling)

when you say that the song playing right now is rubbish, Yaku will ask for it to be changed (dj carla trying her best)

can’t have his girl unhappy, but yeah he laughs very loudly when you get tipsy as you start to notice all the little details but it is very random 

Mori why are the table clothes cream not white? 

Yaku in his head: Lev was supposed to get the white table cloth not the cream one dammit 

so i know for a fact that you are very into embroidery and you are extremely good at it 

over the years Yaku has kept many of your amazing trinkets but he always see’s you using some (in his opinion) cheap equipment 

so this year he decides to gift you a state of the art embroidery machine and some new threads to get you started 

i can imagine he goes really extra with the present wrapping and all too, so he has this extensive purple wrapping which has like a lavender scented card with his birthday message to you 

“Dear Kristen, thank you for being the most wonderful girlfriend, I hope you have a wonderful day my darling. See you soon, Yours Mori”

he also gifts you with very over the top sunflowers (seeing as there your favourite)

now once dinner actually starts and you begin to play footsies under the table, yeah Yaku is blushing 

you see risque things do not bother him but do something cute and innocent and this man is a goner 

he will try and act all dominant, but yeah his voice breaks when trying to get you to stop your “inappropiate behaviour” 

like you haven’t been staring all night Yaku jeez

he loves hearing you laugh and smile at him when he tries to gain control of the situation at hand

now later in the evening when the sun has setted but it is a warm enough temperature to be outside 

Yaku will grab you by the waist and lead you to the balcony where you have the perfect view of the city ( with fairy lights and all)

the two of you sit in this comfortable silence where yaku has wrapped his arms around your body and your leaning into his broad chest (carla takes some lovely photos) 

his heartbeat is so steady and the evening is so perfect

Yaku then get’s a joint from his pocket and offers you one 

you take the joint and the pair of you smoke together, Yaku pops on a lofi beat in the background and you too are just vibing rn 

He get’s you a custom lighter too (like rose gold)

{carla has never smoked a joint in her life ok i do not know what goes down} 

by the time you are both off your heads you are just swaying softly in each other arms 

like yaku is humming a gentle beat and sometimes he plants a long passionate kiss to your lips, then you will both giggle together like a bunch of high school girls

can i just say the shirt is undone and the tie has been loosened 

when it was 2am in the morning Yaku carla called a cab to pick the both of you up

To end your amazing night with Yaku, he offered for you to stay the night at his swanky penthouse. 

You both ended up spooning one another (yaku being the big spoon) and you had never felt so warm in your life 

You also woke up to the sweet smell of waffles coming from the kitchen thanks to Yaku’s amazing cooking (he was still a bit groggy from the weed tho) 

I hope you had a wonderful birthday and enjoyed Yaku’s company 

be sure to come back again soon 

Lots of Love from the Cast of Haikyuu and the amazing Hostess Carla 

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I realised that it kinda turned into Sugardaddy! Yaku headcanons but honestly who doesn’t want to be spoiled by this man on your birthday

Kristen I hope you like this and I wish you well for the future year ahead. 

Take care and enjoy your day, 

Carla

[tickle-her-senseless]

Important

Hey all. Just wanted to respond to questions from members of a couple of Discord servers run by the same person following a chaotic couple of days. I’m putting all the info and screenshots (minus names, pics and locations) here, so I can just direct people to this post if they have questions.

I had been intending to just head back here to Tumblr and let the situation lie, but unfortunately the reason given by the automated bot for my ban mentioned “crossing consent multiple times”. Today, friends have been sending me worried questions relating to this, so I’m concerned that the server owner may have made a similar claim in public. Now I pretty much have to say something as that’s such a serious thing to say about someone, particularly on any kind of kink scene.

The mention of consent actually relates to the server owner. Near the beginning of the lockdown, she and I were speaking a lot, she began to tease me in DMs, I responded with a piece of writing dedicated to her, we exchanged pictures - and eventually confessed a mutual attraction. We made plans for the end of lockdown, she talked about driving through Europe and showing me her favourite places. Although her English is perfect, I began learning her language through an app as I wanted to make the effort (Brits are renowned for being lazy with languages), and kept it up every day for months, amusing her with my clumsy pronunciation on calls. Sometimes she would send me explicit comments/thoughts, although I was always nervous to initiate that kind of thing.

One day she sent a message saying that she was still coming to terms with the end of her last relationship and would need to take things more slowly, as she was finding romantic sentiments (as opposed to kinky ones) hard to deal with. Naturally I replied “Of course, in that case I’ll wait for you to initiate that stuff once you’re ready”. At some point afterwards, she sent me a message out of the blue saying “I want cuddles ❤️” and I thought “oh, this is a level she’s OK with” and responded. I think it was the following day when I tried to pick up where we’d left off (without going any further, just cuddling in bed type stuff). She reciprocated and we continued. I also (in an attempt to consider her feelings) asked her if the idea of me posting an old session video on my blog for an American friend would upset her at all. Intending to reassure her about my intentions, I mentioned ”...not wanting to tickle anyone except you and saying no to all of the other UK people on the servers who are asking about post-lockdown sessions”. I also said “I do feel a commitment to you”, which (with hindsight) was probably a foolish or misleading word to use in a purely ler/lee sense.

A week later she sent a message I didn’t immediately understand along the lines of “I thought you were going to let me initiate romantic stuff, you don’t seem to have understood me at all”. I wasn’t sure what she was referring to - the recent story I’d written for her? Use of the word “commitment”? Something else? I tried to talk with her on the phone as some wires had clearly become crossed via text, but she refused for five weeks (citing not being in the right headspace), before finally calling when I sent a message explaining that anxiously waiting to mend the friendship in lockdown by myself for over a month was having a terrible effect on me mentally, and I was going to have to “throw in the towel”, wishing her luck and every happiness.

During our phone call, she claimed that the main issue had been the fluffy cuddle messages which she took to be a serious and repeated boundary/consent violation (citing her wish to avoid romantic talk). This was the last thing I expected and really shocked me. Of course I apologised frantically, repeatedly and profusely. I also said I hoped she could see how I’d made the mistake innocently and honestly when:

- she initiated it the first time, so I assumed it was something she was happy to talk about.

- when I picked up where we left off, she didn’t say “Actually, d’you mind if we don’t today?” and continued the cuddle talk instead.

She said that because she initiated it one day didn’t mean that she wanted to continue the day after - fair enough. The difficult thing to accept was the idea that she felt so violated by the attempt to carry on the next day that she found herself frozen to the point of not being able to say “actually I’m not in the mood just now” and carried on with it, and that I was at fault regardless. She even used the word “harassing” to describe it, which I found very harsh considering my inability to read minds over hundreds of miles. Especially when I couldn’t see or hear her to pick up on body language, tone of voice etc to guess that she was saying one thing but feeling a different way. She said, word for word, “It’s like when someone’s choking you and you can’t speak, you’re literally choking me!” As someone who, as a teenager, was once choked on the ground by my own father until I blacked out and lost bladder control, I did see that as a stretch at best, but chose not to challenge it as she was upset.

I also suggested that, looking back, we probably should’ve clarified exactly what was meant by “romantic stuff” when we almost certainly had different takes on it eg. I’ve cuddled after every 1:1 session I’ve ever had, even platonic ones, purely from the angle of aftercare and a sense of having shared an experience. I was told that despite our different ages and experiences of romantic love, there was only one objectively correct definition of “romantic” - hers.

We went around in circles for over four hours - I apologised over and over while explaining how I got the wrong idea and asking her to understand and forgive, while she tearfully called me a gaslighter, a consent violator, an excuse-maker, a harasser ... eventually I collapsed into tears myself (I’m ashamed to admit), totally worn down, and she softened a bit. She finally said she didn’t believe I’d done anything intentionally, and she still wanted to spend time together in the real world. We made up, spoke warmly as friends for an hour, and I left the call exhausted but relieved. After a few days’ reflection, though, I decided against ever travelling to meet her for real, as the experience had shaken me considerably - and I figured it’d be risky to meet someone in real life when I didn’t trust her completely not to accuse me over either nothing or an innocent misunderstanding. I was still wondering how to explain this to her when things got wild on the server.

A few days ago, a Tumblr user with a stated age of 18 contacted me to say nice things about my blog, which (I hope this doesn’t sound conceited) isn’t out of the ordinary. When she told me she was English and totally new to the scene, I suggested the Discord server as a place where she might make some friends (given the large UK membership) and sent her an invite link. The rest is set out in the mega screenshot saga below, which begins in the staff chat. I’m “SwiftX”, my real name is in teal, the server owner is in blue and her friend and co-moderator is in purple. All other names and locations are in black:

Before sending the last message, I actually typed out five different versions of a counter-argument before eventually deciding to step back. Being totally dismissed and lectured by two people about British labour laws and pub ID measures by two non-Brits nearly a decade my junior was irritating, yes, but the baseless suggestion that maybe I’d done something in private with the new member and was somehow “arguing against” ensuring she wasn’t a child because of that horrified me. As if I’d allow a child access to explicit content to cover my own discomfort - and anyway, I’d done no more than exchange greetings with the girl and point her towards the server, where she was actually verified and granted access to all channels by the guy in purple, not me! After a couple of hours’ contemplation, I politely asked to be removed from the moderator staff, but a disdainful response to my request prompted me to explain it, and why I was upset. Not all of what I said was necessary to say, but all of it was true:

She immediately muted me for 48 hours - “staff disrespect and degrading comments”. Not a problem, I had work to be getting on with. Late that evening, however, her friend arrived in my DMs:

Him: ...it’s creepy that a 32 year old man is potentially teasing a minor

Me: Well I can prove I haven’t teased her, her profile says she’s 18, and the person who exposed her to explicit content was you when you verified her - despite admitting to having had doubts about her age.

Him: ...I’ll drop that subject

Moderator of the year, ladies and gentlemen 🙄 Anyhoo, later that day I received a ban notification from both servers run by this owner, citing “crossing consent multiple times, guilting and being degrading along with causing several conflicts”. I was surprised to feel a flood of relief, but the consent mention really disturbed and worried me, as I’d been under the impression that the server owner had fully accepted that the earlier stuff had been an innocent misunderstanding. Later that day, good friends of mine began sending me worried DMs questioning my record and asking if I’d been inappropriate with a bunch of people, so I’m concerned that the staff may have said something that (deliberately or not) has encouraged speculation. This post is intended to be a landing page to which I can direct anyone concerned about my character so that they they can form their own opinions.

When my follower count began to take off, I became determined to avoid any kind of rift with another prominent member of the community. It’s so frustrating to watch an already niche subculture splinter into factions over needless disputes. This is why I’ve kept names etc. out of this post. If anyone suspects they might know who the server owner is, or actually knows who she is because they’re here from Discord, I would implore them not to out or target her in any way. There are two reasons:

- I don’t want to start a flaming war, I’m desperate to move on and begin improving my mental health after an awful couple of months ... I just need to protect my reputation first.

- I don’t actually think she wanted drama ... I think her genuine perception is that I’ve said something horrible to her. That’s more upsetting than the idea of her trying to smear me, to be honest. I suspect she feels like crap too, and I don’t want to add to her mental load. I honestly hope she’s OK.

Hopefully this will reassure my friends and anyone else questioning my character because of whatever’s been said in that server. I’d also hope that my history of positive interaction here, including being on great terms with everyone I’ve ever had a session with, supports what I’m saying further. It’s a shame this had to happen, but I’m trying to think positively about what lies ahead and trust in my real friends. I’d also like to thank the other members of the server staff who’ve privately sent me messages of support and sympathy having already seen the entire exchange.

[ninafms]

            *  𝐩𝐡𝐞𝐰  ,  𝐢'𝐦  𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲  𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠  around  to  posting  nina’s  introduction  ,  but  my  theme  made  me  upset  so  this  will  be  viewed  on  dashboard  only  for  now  !  my  name’s  𝐛𝐚𝐲  ,  i  prefer  either  she / her  or  they / them  pronouns  ,  and  i  reside  in  the  est  timezone  .  i’m  in  my  final  year  of  college  so  sometimes  i  won’t  be  around  all  day  ,  but  since  i  only  work  two  days  and  all  of  my  classes  are  online  ,  chances  are  i’m  around  !  i’m  starting  this  little  introduction  at  exactly  2:30am  ,  so  chances  are  this  will  be  posted  at  like  ...  4am  (  lol  )  ,  but  i’m  super  excited  to  write  her  out  as  this  will  be  my  first  group  in  about  a  month  or  so  !  i’m  comfortable  with  messaging  through  the  im’s  if  that’s  better  for  you  ,  but  we  could  also  plot  on  discord  if  you’d  like  !  also  ,  don’t  forget  to  stream  blackpink’s  new  single  ‘  ice  cream  ’  with  selena  gomez  !

💀  *  [  jennie  kim  +  cis  female  +  she / her  ]  ——  have  you  met  na-young  “nina”  min  ?  they  are  a  twenty - three  year  old  senior  currently  studying  business  economics  with  a  political  science  minor  .  they  live  on  farrow  house  ,  and  word  around  campus  is  that  this  gemini  is  spellbinding  +  perspicacious  ,  as  well  as  combative  +  malevolent  .  i  wonder  if  they’ll  make  it  out  alive  .  biting  the  corner  of  her  thumbnail  when  focusing  ,  never  being  ashamed  of  back - to - back  walks  of  shame  ,  the  infectious  sound  of  her  laughter  traveling  the  hall  .

NAME  :  na-young  ‘  nina  ’  min  .

NICKNAME(S)  :  nini  ,  neens  ,  and  nana  (  by  her  parents  )  .

AGE  +  DATE  OF  BIRTH  :  23  +  june  2nd  ,  1997  .

ZODIAC  :  gemini  sun  ,  taurus  moon  ,  gemini  ascendant  .

MYERS - BRIGGS  PERSONALITY  TYPE  :  istp  .

MORAL  ALIGNMENT  :  neutral  evil  .

ENNEAGRAM  TYPE  :  the  achiever  .

GENDER  +  PRONOUNS  :  cis  female  +  she  /  her  /  hers  .

PLACE  OF  BIRTH  :  gangnam  ,  seoul  ,  south  korea  .

PLACE  OF  RESIDENCE  :  ivory  falls  ,  maine  .

SEXUAL  ORIENTATION  :  bisexual  .

ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION  :  biromantic  .

OCCUPATION  :  senior  at  holloway  university  .

NATIONALITY  :  korean - american  .

ETHNICITY  :  korean  .

LANGUAGES  SPOKEN  :  english  ,  korean  ,  and  japanese  .

i  .  prosopography  .

nina’s  story  begins  during  the  chance  meeting  of  her  parents  ,  ara  kim  and  hyun-woo  min  ,  when  they  were  in  their  early  twenties  .  most  would  assume  that  they  weren’t  compatible  for  one  another  as  ara  was  the  spoiled  child  of  the  kim  family  ,  who  were  known  around  south  korea  for  owning  various  luxury  buildings  and  apartment  complexes  in  the  gangnam  area  .  hyun-woo  on  the  other  hand  was  your  regular  college  student  who  worked  a  job  he  hated  to  pay  his  tuition  ,  but  he  had  big  dreams  as  he  wanted  to  someday  own  his  own  architecture  firm  .  when  the  mindless  ara  wrecked  her  fancy  car  into  hyun-woo’s  beat  up  toyota  ,  it  was  love  at  first  sight  .

it  was  a  whirlwind  relationship  as  the  couple  was  engaged  within  six  months  of  their  meeting  ,  and  married  within  eight  .  with  their  access  to  unlimited  funds  ,  the  couple  had  a  lavish  wedding  ,  and  hyun-woo  no  longer  had  to  worry  about  his  tuition  payments  .  now  focused  on  his  degree  without  having  to  worry  about  money  ,  he  found  himself  on  the  development  team  at  his  new  family’s  company  shortly  thereafter  his  graduation  .

with  hyun-woo  having  his  dream  job  and  ara  having  her  dream  husband  ,  the  couple  was  thriving  .  they  lived  in  a  beautiful  apartment  that  overlooked  gangnam  ,  and  they  had  gone  on  vacation  to  bali  when  ara  revealed  that  she  was  pregnant  .  the  couple  was  overjoyed  to  be  welcoming  their  baby  into  the  world  ,  and  to  say  that  they  were  obsessed  with  her  from  the  moment  they  saw  her  in  the  first  ultrasound  and  she  was  the  size  of  a  lime  .  the  couple  welcomed  their  little  baby  nine  months  later  ,  and  they  loved  every  inch  of  her  the  moment  she  was  placed  on  ara’s  chest  .

growing  up  ,  nina  enjoyed  the  spoils  that  her  family  provided  for  her  .  she  went  on  amazing  trips  ,  wore  the  best  clothes  ,  and  even  got  pushed  around  in  a  six  hundred  dollar  stroller  .  despite  that  ,  though  ,  nina  was  a  very  precocious  child  ,  picking  up  on  her   developments  quickly  .  as  she  grew  older  ,  nina’s  parents  saw  that  their  daughter  was  interested  in  a  variety  of  things  ,  so  when  she  was  five  ,  she  began  taking  piano  lessons  ,  and  it  was  evident  that  she  had  a  natural  gift  .

as  the  years  passed  ,  nina  continuously  excelled  in  her  academics  and  the  extracurriculars  that  she  tried  out  for  .  as  she  attended  the  best  schools  in  seoul  ,  nina  was  the  one  who  answered  questions  first  ,  she  was  the  first  to  sign  up  ,  and  the  first  to  complete  tests  .  nina  was  the  one  who  constantly  won  awards  from  her  school  ,  and  she  was  definitely  the  one  who  never  allowed  for  someone  else  to  take  her  place  .  

it  was  something  of  a  shock  to  her  parents  that  she  wanted  to  attend  college  in  the  states  ,  but  her  parents  were  not  the  ones  to  tell  her  no  .  so  ,  nina  went  on  to  be  accepted  into  holloway  ,  and  she  majors  in  business  economics  with  a  political  science  minor  !  i’d  say  that  she’s  involved  in  a  lot  of  student  organizations  like  student  government  ,  and  she’s  a  member  of  the  tennis  team  !  as  nuts  as  it  sounds  ,  she’s  on  the  tennis  team  for  the  cute  outfits  ,  but  she  loves  the  sport  as  well  . 

ii  .  temperament  .

alexa  ,  play  ‘  i  don’t  care  ’  by  ariana  grande  !  she  doesn’t  care  about  what  other  people  have  to  say  or  how  people  feel  about  her  ,  especially  considering  how  shameless  she  can  be  in  most  of  her  actions  .  she’s  ridiculously  blunt  ,  but  really  hates  when  people  are  bitchy  for  no  reason  ?  i  don’t  know  ,  a  paradox  considering  that  she  can  be  bitchy  for  no  reason  too  FKNDSFUDS  .  responds  heavily  to  the  energy  that  she’s  given  .  fully  believes  that  the  sun  and  moon  determines  her  mood  for  the  day  .

sUpErIoRiTy CoMpLeX  ?  gOd  CoMpLeX  ?  sounds  about  right  .  she  doesn’t  outright  brag  about  herself  all  the  time  ,  but  she’s  definitely  the  type  to  bring  it  up  when  it  applies  to  the  conversation  .  nina  is  the  mean  friend  that  everyone  needs  ,  and  has  a  weird  dislike  for  people  who  are  too  nice  .  

nina  isn’t  a  stone  cold  bitch  ,  though  .  she  likes  having  fun  ,  she  likes  to  laugh  ,  and  she  especially  likes  to  spend  time  with  her  friends  .  she’s  capable  of  empathy  and  compassion  ,  yes  .  will  she  show  that  all  the  time  ?  of  course  not  !  considering  that  she’s  an  only  child  ,  nina  is  used  to  having  all  eyes  on  her  ,  so  she  has  no  shame  in  her  fame  when  she  comes  back  to  farrow  house  wearing  last  night’s  dress  and  carrying  her  heels  .

iii  .  headcanons  .

she  already  knows  that  graduate  school  is  in  her  future  ,  but  she  hasn’t  decided  on  where  she  wants  to  go  yet  .

nina  resides  in  farrow  house  ,  and  she’s  probably  the  worst  kind  of  roommate  there  is  considering  how  type  a  she  can  be  at  times  .  her  room  (  or  side  of  the  room  i’m  not  sure  of  the  setup  )  is  relatively  organized  at  all  times  .  she’s  a  lover  of  white  ,  but  white  with  color  ,  so  she  keeps  the  tones  light  with  soft  shades  of  pink  scattered  throughout  !  she  likes  a  gold  accent  ,  and  everything  has  its  own  place  .

doesn’t  like  to  leave  her  bedroom  without  making  her  bed  or  picking  things  up  .  at  night  she  may  just  slip  out  of  her  clothes  and  go  to  bed  ,  but  she’s  definitely  going  to  pick  it  up  that  next  morning  ,  even  her  walk  of  shame  clothes  KNJFDISF  .  

despite  her  behavior  at  times  ,  nina  is  someone  who  studies  hard  because  she  doesn’t  like  anything  less  than  an  A  .  although  i  will  say  that  she  obsesses  over  her  grades  ,  but  she  knows  that  if  she  slacks  then  she’ll  get  slacker  grades  .

this  is  pointless  KFNDJSF  but  i  draw  a  lot  of  her  style  inspo  from  itsyuyan  on  instagram  ,  but  she  also  loves  to  dress  in  a  quality  th*t  dress  when  she  had  the  chance  to  NFJDBSFDS  .  i  love  jennie’s  long  hair  ,  so  nina’s  own  is  canon  to  that  ,  and  she  definitely  had  the  iconic  e-girl  streaks  .  

iv  .  wanted  connections  .

i  would  love  to  have  literally  anything  that  ya’ll  throw  at  me  !  some  basics  that  i’d  like  to  write  out  are  best  friends  ,  academic  rivals  ,  friends  with  benefits  ,  confidant(s)  ,  frenemies  ,  good  /  bad  influence  ,  one  night  stand(s)  ,  flirtationship  ,  enemies  with  benefits  ,  and  a  current  or  ex  fling  !

i  love  a  good  women  loving  women  scenario  ,  so  i’d  like  to  have  an  ex  girlfriend  for  her  !  i  see  them  as  being  on  good  terms  and  they  simply  drifted  apart  ,  but  they’re  really  close  !  sometimes  they  can  get  a  little  touchy  feely  with  one  another  so  hello  👀  .

i  would  die  for  literally  any  form  of  angst  that  you  could  possibly  think  of  ? angsty  friends  ,  angsty  exes  ,  angsty  anything  .  i  love  to  put  myself  through  misery  so  honestly  …  bury  me  six  feet  under  and  i  will  literally  thank  you  .

all  aboard  the  heartbreak  train  ! this  ties  back  into  my  love  for  angst  ,  but  some  form  of  an  ex  or  maybe  even  someone  who  she  go  close  to  but  it  didn’t  really  work  out  ?  

maybe  even  a  will  they  won’t  they ? but  essentially  ,  clearly  these  two  have  feelings  but  for  some  reason  things  didn’t  work  out  for  them  and  now  they’re  probably  in  a  limbo  or  trying  to  determine  where  they’re  headed  but  they  absolutely  refuse  to  talk  about  it ! all  of  their  friends  notice  but  they  blow  them  off  and  ok  let  me  relax  and  actually  allow  us  to  plot  ,  but  just  some  potential  ideas  !

i  will  have  a  desired  relations  tag  that  i’ll  be  updating  as  frequently  as  i  can  ,  but  if  none  of  these  work  for  you  or  if  you  have  something  you  see  araminta  filling  ,  then  please  let  me  know  ! we  can  totally  brainstorm  or  if  you  want  ,  then  we  can  work  on  chemistry !

[blacknovelist]

sup ok here’s the promised details on uhhhhhh All for One in @guardianlioness​‘s and I’s Ageswap Mess, formed by collaborative headcanon jamming on discord and then roughly paraphrased via a run thru the unfortunate Quadruple Lengthening Filter that’s built into my brain bc I’m incapable of being brief.

(something of an expansion on this post and this ask. Nooooot spoiler free, actually pretty spoilers, idk, will pop it under a readmore bc who knows how long I’m gonna go on also)

ALSO!! I can’t at u but @randommly-passing-mia u asked forever ago about Toshinori and AfO’s relationship in this AU and i answered what I could then but I’m pleased to announce this goes more into that bc I knew Very Little back then. :)

So, All for One! Now, I feel it appropriate to note that the previous post I made regarding the history of OfA in Ageswap, as well as just about everything I’ve posted abt AfO and OfA for Ageswap (except for the linked ask above, obv) was made before the arc with the League of Villains and Shigaraki’s backstory all came out. Now that we’ve got some of those contexts, we can go a little further in fleshing everything else out, which we did, a little, today.

Pls keep in mind that Ageswap’s goal is not and never has been to make a direct 1:1 translation of adults to kids and vice versa -- good lord we’d have a lot of empty spaces if we were doing that. So, uh. Anyway. it’s time for “we make a mess of the characters and also the timeline and the plot because it’s Our City Now”

Student AfO is a different creature to small Toshinori of our au. For the purposes of this post we’ll call him AfO, because while I’d love to just jump into referring to him as Shigaraki there’s a lot of confusions that lie down that road. Also, again, we’re calling mr heckhands mcmike Tomura, because Shigaraki is a name with Weight.

Because canon parallels, Ageswap AfO has a little brother who we’re making Kyudai Garaki/the Good Doctor and also quirkless for our purposes (whether he’s AfO’s biological brother is up in the air, we haven’t settled yet). Garaki has something of an intense obsession with quirks, constantly studying and doing research, not unlike Izuku, and the age gap between him and AfO is... about six years. Now, because AfO had already manifested a quirk of his own and that quirk had fearsome potential, One for All was originally going to be passed on to his brother, because before Ageswap Izuku, OfA had strictly been handed down to trained members of the family.

Tomura was a member of the group that had, through the generations, been working to fight against the users of One for All. To hit them where it hurt, he attacked Izuku’s mentor’s (we’ll call them the Mentor) home with a group of League fighters. When he found out there was a quirkless boy, and a second one who was all but quirkless for all that he’d been told to avoid using his own powers, he quickly took them in under the League’s wing -- both in an act of cruelty against OfA and out of some misguided sympathy for the boys.

The fearsome thing is the toxicity of the relationships Tomura formed with the League, and eventually with the boys. He meant well, when he took them in, but whatever this version of him went through... well, just about all his relationships are some level of manipulative and unhealthy by default. See: his tendency for physical closeness and being tactile, as mentioned in the ask.

He’s firmly of an opinion along the lines of “if you’ve got the power, and you know you have the power, and you’re not using it to do whatever you can or want, then why do you even have it?” and, for all of AfO’s childhood, Tomura tried his hardest to share this with AfO and sway the kid to his side. With the Mentor having dropped off the grid and abandoned the Shigaraki name in grief, AfO and his brother had nowhere else to go, but AfO was a smart and cautious kid: he couldn’t just listen without a fight, or a reason.

(AfO didn’t know Tomura meant to kill them, that he attacked their home on purpose. When he eventually finds out, he firmly believes Tomura meant to save them)

But Tomura’s persistent, and he doesn’t stop, and eventually he points out: if All for One is a quirk that allows him to take and give quirks, does that not mean he can seek out the perfect quirk for his little brother? All the reasons he’s suffered, AfO has the power to fix that.

That’s the thing that sways AfO to their side, that convinces him to stay with the League and learn under Tomura. Because if it’s for family, isn’t it worth it?

(AfO sees Tomura as a teacher, as a friend, as someone beloved and important. Shigaraki was AfO’s name, but it can be Tomura’s too, if Tomura wants. Then everyone knows they’re family. And Tomura accepts it -- another spit in the face of an enemy, a welcomed token from a beloved student. Shigaraki is a good name for the rest of the world to use, but Tomura, Tomura is a name for the League and the League alone.)

AfO tries, at first, to find other quirks for his brother while he trains, while his brother studies (while Tomura tries to sway Garaki to their side also, because look at what you know, what you could do with that knowledge, combined with your brother’s quirk, you’re so young and so so smart-). OfA is gone beyond the League’s sight, in the hands of the Symbol of Peace, so there’s no point on dwelling on it, really, surely another quirk would work better?

But then One for All comes back around, in the hands of this blond... nobody. His brother’s quirk, running around in a stranger. AfO continues to hunt potential quirks down for his brother and his brother’s studies, but he has a new goal: to try and claim OfA back and give it to who it really belongs to.

the problem of course being that he can’t take it by force like every other quirk, and killing Toshinori would merely render it lost forever.

Essentially, AfO’s primary grudge against Toshinori is the fact that he’s the current bearer of a quirk that, in AfO’s eyes, should belong to Garaki. And Toshinori’s quirklessness, or past quirklessness... is easy to know when you know the secret of One for All.

Some good stuff gets said abt AfO vs Toshinori in this answer here I think, and I’m drawing on it: Toshinori’s more instinct and heart to AfO’s logic and strategy. That’s not to say, obv, that neither of them draw on the other quality, but it’s what stands out most to me about the two of them and just, kind of their general dynamic (or at least, that’s how it seems).

USJ was a subtle message laid beneath a louder declaration. Two-for-one, if you will. “Wouldn't it be so nice to have a quirk that fit better in your hands? that didn't fritz or go funky whenever you so much as turned your head? A quirk you might not even have to coax and strain and train and change your body for?”

But AfO does not confront Toshinori until much later, until after the sports festival. See, the mall incident in this AU is a scene on bargaining.

He confronts Toshinori at the mall -- his face is not known, and it’s a simple matter to pull him off to the side. But there won’t be fighting here today. No, he only came to talk.

Questions, first. About Toshinori, his experience with One for All, what he thinks of other people’s quirks. About what it was like for him, growing up quirkless, left abandoned by so many people for it. Eventually, his conversation circles back around. I have a little brother. He’s quirkless, just like you. You know what he went through, what he suffered.

All for One even did his research, is even willing to play by rules closer to Toshinori’s own: tucked under his arm is a folder, with lists upon lists of people. Villains with sentences for life, villains under the death sentence, people who would have no life of returning to the world ever again. People who don’t have a reason to use their quirks any longer. People for whom it wouldn’t matter if he took their quirks anyway. “Take your pick,” he offers Toshinori. “I’ll give you whatever quirk you’ve ever wanted. I’ll even take it from a villain so none of your precious civilians have to suffer the loss — but that one belongs to my little brother.”

And, well. We all know he says no.

Why would Toshinori hang onto a quirk that isn’t even his? All the people out there, bearing the quirks that his brother and even his greatest enemy were robbed of at birth, and AfO has the power to grant both Toshinori and Garaki the power that they’d dreamed of, that belongs to them. He knows what it means to suffer without a quirk. Why won’t Toshinori let him fix that?

and idk specifically what Toshi would say, but I think it’s something along the lines of “no one asks for what they're born with or given, but we make the most of it anyway. That's how we're supposed to live.“

Anyway Toshinori and All for One hate each other SO fucking much but. Unfortunately, also just kind of Get Each Other on some level. Like, they despise one another but also, if there’s one thing they can believe in, it’s that the other will always Be The Way They Are. Friendly Enemyship, if you will.

There’s some level of pity that AfO also holds on the percieved coldness of Toshinori’s relationship to his mentor, Izuku. Izuku is... really awkward, in his relationship with Toshi, and while Izuku loves his student very much he has a hard time showing it -- and Toshinori thinks so poorly of himself, it’s hard to grasp how close they are from the outside sometimes. AfO totally tries to recruit Toshinori to their side, even after he figures they’re Tight and also even though he knows Toshinori won’t ever say yes. Like, he hates the guy, but that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t be a kickass ally.

Tomura would like Toshinori and AfO says as much to his face. “You’re more like him than I am, anyway. You can act without overthinking. And he wouldn’t care if you were quirkless. He doesn’t with my brother.”

(Toshinori hates that. He isn’t, he isn’t he isn’t like him at all.)

Tomura has also more or less promised AfO that, at the end of his lifespan, his student should take on Decay. AfO, of course, doesn’t want that and is on the hunt for a good longevity quirk to give to his mentor

In the end, the way All for One is kind of being played in this AU is something not so far off from Anakin Skywalker.

In Lioness’ words:

Noble in his desire to keep his family alive

But horribly misdirected

[superjennysunshine]

Day 14: Maybe the real mental illness was the friends we made along the way.

Hey so making literally one post on this godforsaken ass garbage app makes me Kermit Suicune so unfortunately due to some technical difficulties this post doesn’t have a read more bar. If you dong wanna read it, then just swipe up like a bunch and you’ll fly right past it. Ok chill.

So today was supposed to be the final day of the break. Then I thought why not just extend it to Monday since I don’t have to be in discord until Monday. So even though it isn’t the final day anymore I’m not treating this Thursday till Monday as a full break but more or less a reintegration into social life, a sorta dipping my toe in the pool type of thing. I’ve decided to look back at what I’ve learned and where I’m at now in comparison to where I was at before.

So I’m still tired. As tired as I was when I started the break but I’m realizing now that It doesn’t have to do with my social battery as much as my depression just giving me the internal desire to push myself away from people. Granted I am still a raging introvert and I do need small breaks every now and then still and I plan on taking them.

I also learned that I am mentally ill. I kinda knew this before but I know it more now than ever before. I used to think that because I’ve never been diagnosed with anything clinical to explain my issues that they were simply hyperbolic extensions of normal human feelings which in turn made them fake and invalid. (a dumb conclusion to come to simply because one doesn’t need to have clinical issues to be mentally ill. Just because I don’t have BPD or ADD or anything else doesn’t mean I don’t suffer. Also I can’t say I don’t have clinical issues because I’ve never gone to doctor to be potentially diagnosed. However I want to stress I am not self diagnosing. I just know I have issues, be they clinical or otherwise, I wont put a name on them until a medical professional does.) However thinking about it, that’s literally the issue. These feelings have become exaggerated. The slightest hint of conflict no matter how small arises and I get so anxious my heart starts pumping in my chest till i can feel it in my stomach. I have loud bursts of emotion followed by days of horrible emptiness. I TAKE RAZOR BLADES TO MY FUCKING SKIN. OF COURSE MY EMOTIONS HAVE BECOME EXAGGERATED THAT’S THE MENTAL FUCKING ILLNESS. It’s not going to stop anytime soon either. I know that this is simply a moment of clarity before shit gets real again as it tends to but hopefully one day I can make the leap towards betterment. Ultimately we’ll see I guess.

I’ve learned my household relationships are fundamentally broken. I don’t really talk to my mom anymore. Even when we do I never really feel like I’m there. I don’t feel like her child anymore I feel like this passenger in her house that she takes care of. I feel bad as well because I’m an adult and it shouldn’t be on her to take care of me. Hopefully one day sooner rather than later I can begin the steps to be self sufficient (again, we’ll see). But that doesn’t change the fact that I just don’t feel like I belong here anymore. I love her, I do. She’s been there for me my entire life through a lot of stuff, and I don’t know where it went wrong, what or who caused it to. But I just don’t feel comfortable being her child anymore. That’s a huge issue. One that will take a lot more mental prowess than I have to fix, but we’ll see what I can do.

despite my first statement, I’m probably still going to be hanging back from social gatherings more. Most of my gatherings I’ve had with friends in 2020 have felt taxing on my mind. I find myself dreading each dnd session or movie watch. When I’m in it and I’m doing it I always have fun but I can tell that I’m stretching myself a bit too thin. I think it’s something that can be worked on because I know a lot of it is rooted in depression. But to work on it I need to take steps backwards and say no sometimes. I’m prepping messages to send to let everybody know how I’m feeling coming out of the break and hopefully they’ll understand.

Ultimately I’m left... A little disappointed, but happy at the same time. I learned a lot about myself but none of it has been good. I’ve had fun and I do desire to hang out with my friends again but this internal exhaustion is still in me and I know it’s not gonna go away for potentially a very long time. It’s sobering, I suppose.

You remember back on like, idk, day 2? When I said I wish my life was a cartoon. As the sort of viewer of this little journey I’ve been off it’s fair to say that you would expect a payoff, a sort of “and then she got better, and married her high school sweetheart and got rich and died old” type of ending. But nothing has changed. I’ve developed my mind, my perspective, but ultimately nothing has changed. That’s life I guess. The real life. The one where no one controls our destiny. Where there is no writer planning out our happy ending, and no viewer waiting with anticipation to see it. It’s hard for me to come to terms with that as fucking childish and dumb as it sounds. But it is.

It’s not all bad though. I’ve had fun, and I do have some desire, little as it may be, to return to duties as normal. I’m glad everyone got a break from me. I bought a cool lamp and a clear phone case. I’m about to beat a JRPG that’s like 60+ hours long in maybe a weekish. I’ve done some good I’ll give myself that.

So that’s that. I don’t really have a stamp end conclusion or anything.

NO WAIT I FIGURED IT OUT AND ITS MELODRAMATIC AND EVERYTHING.

I’m not ok. But I guess I’m ok with that. I guess.

(I’m really not but like whatever I’ll figure some shit out lol)

[missmeltycat]

Quick Statement From Stanza Part 2 - COVID19 Lockdown Stuff

I will make this in English rather than any other language, as the majority of my fans and followers speak it as their first language and it will be easier. To those of you already on lockdown, like myself (I am on day 12, a little ahead of most in this country due to coming in contact with someone who potentially has it), there are many things to help you work out your boredom. It is early days for some and some of you have been isolating for quite a while, either way don’t be discouraged! Thank you for following advice and doing your part! (Heck knows so many aren’t and are being selfish.) It can get lonely, or boring, so this is where I will try and help out with some ideas! Many of you are probably isolated from your loved ones and are finding it both sad and lonely. Some of you may have girlfriends/boyfriends, mothers and fathers, or just very good friends who you have no been able to see. I sypmathise entirely. I have not been able to see my mother, who is like a best friend to me, for weeks now and it is tough. However! We use messenger video chat twice a day to talk to each other. This is one way that we are beating the feeling of isolation. Why not try setting up a regular video call with your friends or family? If you don’t use messenger, why not try Skype or even Discord? Discord is easy to use and allows for video calls as well! If video is not an option for you, try to keep in touch using regular calls. Use messenger, or Discord as a way to just call people up. It’s free and you won’t rack up a huge phone bill as a result. As for activities, there are many options available depending on your capabilities. Take this time you have to try some of the following:

Learn a new skill - There are many resources out there to help you learn something new. Books available online PDFs, Youtube tutorials, you name it. The sky is the limit!

Draw things every day - Take this time to draw something ecah day. Even if you consider yourself unskilled, it doesn’t matter! Try using it as a creative outlet, maybe try drawing something each day you are indoors that documents how you feel and how you overcame it, or even just things that make you extremely happy.

Write! - This one is something I think people need to do more of and Tumblr is actually the perfect place to do it. Like the above suggestion, why not document how you feel, or write things you have always wanted to. Got a great idea for a story? Do it!

Cooking and baking - This is a great opportunity to learn how to cook/bake, or to create new recipes based on what you have in your cupboard. Sometimes coming up with new meals on a limited budget or limited cupboard stock can be tough, so lets get creative! I have been creating a lot of things from basic cupboard staples lately myself and it’s been super fun! If people want any advice on reducing waste and recipes, feel free to ask!

Exercise - Of course I’m going to talk about this. It would be weird for me not to, right? ;) Exercise is a very important thing during isolation. While we are allowed some exercise when in lockdown, it is not enough for your daily needs. This is why staying active indoors is a must. It not only helps your immune system, it also helps your mental wellbeing! There are many ways you can do this as well and you don’t need fancy gym equipment. Tinned goods can actually be used as light weights for you to hold, bags of sugar too. You can even create your own dance routines as you clean and cook! Maybe even set yourself a goal to do a set number of squats, or push ups per day!

Schedule - I know, I know. Some of you probably cringed at the word. I’m not a fan of schedules myself. (Shock horror!) But, this can actually be a big help. With a structured day you will find that, not only will you be more productive, but your days will be fulfilling and less boring. Start with your breakfast. (This is important! Don’t skip it! Even if it’s just a banana, or something small like a yogurt, don’t skip! COFFEE DOESN’T COUNT!) Schedule something light to begin with so you don’t feel overwhelmed. Maybe something like watering your plants, or taking out trash from the night before. That way you can build up your motivation. Then move on to something like the laundry or dishes, then as the day goes on make the chorse a little bigger. Have your meals at set times each day and train your body so that it expects them. Try not to miss any if you can. After each meal, scedule a lighter task and build up again. But, one important thing... Make sure to always schedule yourself your own free time to enjoy yourself! This is VERY important! Your mental health also relies on you to have fun and do what you love.

Some other misc ideas:

Make a list of things you want to do after this calms down. Now, we don’t know how long this is going to take, but I know plenty of people are doing this. This can be simple things like riding your bike in the park, to things like visiting that museum you always wanted to, or travelling to another country. Even something as simple as making more time for your friends and family. Make your lists (Keep it realistic, of course) and give yourself things to look forward to!

Join a Dungeons and Dragons session, or start one

Join an online craft club

Join an online book club

Grow some plants or even vegetables and fruit (I have potatoes that I will be planting soon myself!)

Read that book you’ve been putting off reading

Contact nursing homes to see if you can set up a video call with some elderly folks to help them while they are also isolated from loved ones

Play that game you’ve been wanting to but keep putting off

Paint something

Refurbish an old piece of furniture with a lick of paint or two

Get fit (See tips above)

Learn a new dance move each day

Learn a language

Learn a new word each day and try and use it (This works well with drawing and writing! You can base the art/writing around that word!)

Sew those darn clothes you’ve been meaning to repair for ages (Alternatively, learn to sew! It’s an important skill and helps make clothing waste less extreme when you don’t end up tossing that shirt that has a hole in the underarm.)

Photography! Photograph things in your environment. Document your isolation. Let the world see things in your life in new and interesting ways. (Obviously, stay safe and don’t identify anything too personal such as your address and street, etc.)

Make music! Learn to play an instrument, or make music if you already know how to play. You can even download programs to create music digitally! (I highly recommend Fruity Loops Studio if you can afford it! I’ve used it for years!) You can even collaborate with friends by recording your part, they record their parts and you can mix together to create something amazing!

Call your neighbors if you know their numbers. I’m sure they’d love the chat!

MOVIE MARATHON!

Quit something. Now is a great time to quit that bad habit. Whether it be just a bad habit you have like being lazy, or even something like smoking, alcohol, or even drugs. Why not make it your goal to come out of this clean and healthy and free of the things that hold you back?

OK I need to add some elf propaganda in here somewhere, so here we go. Try and make it your goal to include fruit and veg in your diet every day. See what creative ways you can include it, say hiding it in other foods, making brilliant new recipes or even smoothies!

Whatever you end up doing, stay safe, stay healthy and stay occupied. And if you feel down and lonely, remember that we are in this together. Just send a message! I’m always around!

I also have a Discord for anyone should they feel low and need the interaction. It’s full of decent people and even has an emotional support channel:

https://discord.gg/FyDMxq7