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fluffydice · 2 years ago

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Aren feels guilt over clinging to his abuse, because he’s looked up to his Pops for so long as a role model, as someone who he should aspire to be.

But then he interacts with a toddler, or a little kid, or even people his own age. He can’t help but think about how fragile they are, how easy their skin would give way to bruises and blood, and he wonders how you could have something so precious and vulnerable, one that looks up to you with adoration and unadulterated trust, and tear it to shreds.

And he knows it was wrong, but he still tries to convince his friends otherwise. Because if they agree, that means it’s something he has to let go. He doesn’t have to look it in the eyes and ask questions that he won’t ever get an answer to.

#abuse is easy to look at objectively from far away because they’re not a person to you #because the person experiencing it clings to the good memories and pretends it makes up for the bad ones #or worse when it’s a parent who you know has gone through the same #and sometimes you have to look at it and realize change isn’t possible for someone who can’t quite leave survival mode #WOC are taught to keep silent and play clean-up afterwards #and they ask their kids to be happy because they’ve been granted better circumstances #but we forget that no matter how many tools you have you’ll never know how to use them if you’re not taught #asking happiness from a child who has never seen it from a parent will never result in progress #we teach our children to learn from our mistakes instead of from our examples #because change is fucking hard for yourself but all you can do is cling to the hope that maybe it’ll be different for them #sorry got rant-y there lol #I used to write a lot of poetry maybe I should try again and see if I can answer some things for myself #tw child abuse #kuboyasu aren #Saiki k

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