#WHICH I HAVE NO MEMORY OF BUT AEOEUUGHGHS. and uh. anyway yeah. the night before we left | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

airbenderedacted · 3 years ago

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😭 man if our luggage hadn't gotten to orlando without us last night maybe we wouldve made the first flight to Peru this morning..... p sure we passed the gate for it on our way to this one aaa aahhh :')

#ah well #i get a really strong sense that like.. it just wasnt meant to be.. like maybe smthn bad woulda happened over there if we had made the trip #ik we were little at the time but literally every single time we've been 2 Peru before we got violently sick in some way & had to rush home #WHICH I HAVE NO MEMORY OF BUT AEOEUUGHGHS. and uh. anyway yeah. the night before we left #my meds were fucking with my stomach 100x worse than they ever have before (bc of the anxiety ig) and uh. idk ig that was um. bad sign #for what i dunno but it just felt like a bad sign for the trip 😖 ahh #...we ARE in a pandemic still and my mom and i are carriers if we get covid and my aunts get it REALLY BAD and my brother #got it mildly a few months ago but the long covid symptoms REALLY fucked with his mental health so badly so.#basically maybe yeah we didnt make this trip for a reason. maybe something would've happened...#or maybe it's all just circumstances being so so so bad and you know we can try again another time and do things right #and uh. just save up a LOT to have to not fly on standby next time um. yeah idk idk im in a really weird place rn #a lot to... try and figure out with my life. year already feels like it's going so fast and the though of going on a trip at um #Any other point in the future feels so.. ??? ???? ? ???? for me specifically so yeah idk but! yeah that's all #ahah thank you for listening to all my unimportant rambling 😅 idk why you'd want to do that im just low on sleep and medicated and #saying nothijg important im realizing LMAO i just got pure rambly here but aayshajjdhkskds #OH. FUCK WE'RE TAKING OFF NOW IVE BEEN TYPJGNF TOO LONG AND I BNEVER BUCKLED IN OKAY BYE AKSFB BNN N BYE #LMAO SHIT

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