#WASTING TIME IS SOLUTION?
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one off mind miyayuu cover embraces me sweetly and snaps my neck just as i get comfortable
#ONE SIDED GAME IS SOLUTION?#WASTING TIME IS SOLUTION?#THIS IS MY SOLUTION.#me trying not to say the weirdest creepiest things about people im a fan of . Im sory/#not actively suicidal tshirt#song ab suicide motives me to suicide#God i want to shove this song up my !*^#its not ab anyone else but me... SO FUCKING TRUE KILL YOURSELF#kys nanashi hachiya kys miyashita yuu#lets all kill ourselfs together#(most sane miyayuu fan)#THIS SONG IS SO FICKOING GOOD#IM JUMPING OFF A CLIFF BYE#sighs.#talks#ask to tag#☆ apollo singing
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anyways. my happiness, thats all i wanna know
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(wip? possibly?)
this is a part of the painting that made me cry yesterday bc nothing worked, its not like i had it in mind, but maybe not all is lost yet
(OCs, at the bottom there, Zaphira she/her, and big lad, Shargon he/they)
#ganondoodles#art#painting#wip#artists on tumblr#digital art#ocs#original art#the solution was crying#and then basically redoing both zaphira and the entire arch they are walking through from scratch#calling it 'solution' but it has barely solved anything#not crying anymore#jsut want to cry for all the wasted time though#and it looks nothing like i had in mind#i knew it wouldnt be like that anyway but still .......... i wish i could draw how i saw it#it was so much cooler#but i have to get there somehow#.......... shargon is way to tall here but it looks cooler this way#already made him smaller like three times#normally in this form hed be like over 2 meters but not like this#hes trying very hard to be scary
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white guy from a country where everyone and their mom has names like John Baker and Jake Smith and Sarah Johnson and Chris Williams and Josh Brown:
its just reeeeaallyyy suspicious that your name is ahmed or mohammed :/ ummmm bot alert! scammer! yes my country is actively supplying weapons to kill palestinian people and i've donated $500 to ao3 in the past 6 months but what about my moneeeyyyy?????? anyways anyone i disagree with is part of a belgian scam ring. this is a logical step rather than viewing brown people as human beings for once in my life
#like jesus fucking christ i think suicide is the only solution for you#you are a plague you are a waste of space and you should be fucking ashamed of yourself#sitting in a pool of privilege and luxury acting like you're the victim for sending a mob after those enduring a genocide#those putting SO MUCH fucking effort and time into being more palatable and accessible to users on a website they're not familiar with#like you are genuinely evil and i hope you kill yourself there is nothing else to do
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every day im reminded that though my parents may have wanted a dog they clearly did not want to take care of a dog
#and i KNEW this which was why i insisted on not getting dogs though they keep trying to gaslight me#into thinking that i agreed on the dogs. i didnt and i wish id railed against it harder#because ill be honest i knew i didnt want to take care of a dog i wasnt in the headspace#but i also knew that if they got the dog that the actual caring duties would be foisted off to me#and the things that They would have to do ie go to the vet nd pay the bills etc theyd complain about and avoid#and thats one thjng. but oh my fucking god. my dad specifically#its like hes trying to get these dogs to die. we have several plants in the backyard#bad for dogs. i point them out. i have pointed them out Several times.#theyre his plants the gardens his thats none of my things. he just goes oh they wont get into them#THEYRE DOGS. but he doesnt want to move his fucking plants#one of the dogs is on medicine but has a habit of not eating his food in the morning#which means if u leave his medicine in hjs bowl the other dog might eat it#one solution is to give him the tablet straight. because hes good about eating it#he doesnt want to because 'thats gross'. Are you five fucking years old#the dog doesnt like the texture of dry food so another solution is to wet it#dad wont do that either because 'hes too spoiled' and 'it takes time' ONE MINUTE?????????#like i have to assume this is some kind of ploy to make me do it instead when i dont wake up that early#because if its not then hes truly just incompetent or doesnt care about the dogs#which brings me back to WHY DID YOU GET THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE.#im sick of having to worry about them when he just does shit like this its wasting my time and its wasting money#but ohhhh we dont want to give the dogs away theyre part of the family 🥺#CLEARLY. because apparently u wanted kids but didnt want to take care of them either!!#im pissed off!!! im tired!!!!!!!!#i need to know im not going batshit here for being pissed off!!!!!#the dogs are getting back to back problems and at least some of it would have been mitigated by oh.#i dont know. the bare minimum?????#at least if the plants had been taken care of i wouldnt have to wonder if theyd just gotten into them#or if its an actual problem like a mass or bite. but no now i dont know#and at this rate were going to waste money going to the vet every fucking week
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a lot of the time and I mean like once per week I somewhat wish that I wrote ship fics like a normal person instead of x reader. the problem is. I am not normal
#definitely feel like x reader fics are nowhere near as respected or appreciated as other fics#and this is not a new development at all#I don't really read ship fics because#I don't really ship anything......... lol#but on the rare occasions where I do#it seems like people always appreciate the writing in those fics way more#not just where popularity is concerned#but it's much more likely to see comments of people praising what they liked about the writing#even on smut fics#but for x reader it's very rare#I think a lot of people are shy to comment and I get that#because before I became a writer I was too#literally almost everything I have ever written and probably ever will write I write for me#because I enjoy it and writing about me and my silly characters is what makes me happy#but uuuggggggh#it feels so so good to have someone say what they liked about your writing#it makes me feel like oh. all of this isn't just a time waste#and even though writing is the most freeing feeling in the world#there is a clear pain and disappointment sometimes#when you make something where it feels like no one understands but you#the only solution!!!! is to write what you want and not care!!!!!!!!!
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venting like an idiot
the main reason i dont wanna go back to uni is that i feel like i've completely embarrassed myself last year. idk, i feel horrified at the thought of returning and looking these people in the eye. i didn't do anything, i was lazy and barely finished my projects and the only way to redeem myself somehow would be to come back with some new energy and work hard. i didn't even really get a job this summer because i really wanted to rest, cause i thought i would drop out. and i just feel worse, i feel even more tired
#ughhhh#im not going to drop out just yet#itd be a shame i think#theres many opportunities at my uni that i just dont take cause i cant commit to them or im too tired or im too scared#idk if doing any of this is worth it if i don't truly commit tho#i dont think ive learned anything these past 2 years tbh i feel like ive been wasting time and money#and i know my mental state is just my fault cause i cant get myself to do anything and i feel shame and spiral but goddd#idk i just feel like shit#the academic year starts so soon and i just dread everything thats to come#idk i dont even feel like im going to come out of this school with a portfolio. im literally nothing and ive done nothing#i have no idea how i could write a dissertation because ive literally learned nothing i have no desire to learn i just want to fucking chil#i cant get myself to care much for anything except silly shit thats just a distraction from uni work ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh#sucks sucks everything sucks#sorry for this stupid fucking essay im just having lots of thoughts and no one to tell them so.. um#vent#i know this is all my fault but also like. what am i supposed to do about it every solution sounds like literal hell to me -_-#i guess ive been feeling less suicidal recently which i guess is good but i feel like its bad cause like ykiyk ig#idk its all a huge contradiction
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I have started listening to Unapologetic: The Third Narrative. It's a podcast from two Palestine Israeli citizens and it's brilliant. I don't agree with everything the presenters say (but then again, I don't agree with a lot of things a lot of people say so what's new) but they have some of the most open and balanced and nuanced discussions I've heard about the Israel-Hamas war. It's also really good for people who are looking for diverse opinions and trying to understand different perspectives as the presenters are from very different communities and regularly disagree on things.
The most recent episode has a guest who's family were kidnapped (5 have been released, one is still in Gaza) and they asked her about how she has stopped herself wallowing in hate and her answer was she literally doesn't have space for hate. Hate is so overwhelming, and there's so much work to do to actually push for a sustainable peace an end to this that there is not time to waste on petty spiteful hatred. With the amount of time I spend thinking about the hostages and their families, the people starving in Gaza, and trying to work out if there is anything I can do from the UK to try and actually help, I simply do not have time to hate. Maybe if more people put the energy they are spending screaming at those who disagree with and forcing randomers to choose sides, someone might actually manage to come up with meaningful ways to end this without the death toll increasing dramatically on either side.
It's also a super harrowing listen for me personally as all I could think is that I could have been her if my cousin hadn't been on holiday in Crete that weekend. People who lived near him were killed, one had to play dead with a bullet in his leg while his wife and daughter lay slaughtered beside him. I am so grateful that he was not home and so I have not had to experience people I know being killed an kidnapped, frankly I'm lucky in that respect - a lot of my friends were not as lucky as I was in that regard.
#jumblr#antisemitism#i/p#cw violence#cw death#sorry i can't be your token evil zionist for thinking israelis are humans | I'm too busy actually trying to make a positive difference#they also interbiew a gazan who talks about people on both sides he calls “irredeemables” as they refuse to acknowledge humanity of others#but he makes it clear that they are still going to be there in the better world that could be built#you may not spend time arguing with them as its pointless but you need to accept they are still human#and if they have no skin in the game and are just online screamers then its not worth wasting time as they are not part of the solution
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Unfortunately for everyone involved, Brent doesn't understand the concept of being bought a joke, like, why would someone SPEND MONEY on a joke? Since Karen's his friend and bought him a shirt, he's like. Legally obligated to wear it at least once... ? Probably?
So while he suffers over the idea of wearing it and not wanting to wear it at work he eventually would wear it and Karen would suffer the fact she needs to actually not try to joke too much in a teasing way if it's gonna be Treated Seriously. Right suffering from being gay because oh, Brent looks nice in color. (Chris would find out about it at work that he missed Brent in color and just stares at Karen because she is an absolute menace how did she manage that.)
#oops i fell in love#it all started when i said i imagined brent getting his hair messed up by one of his cousins and right seeing it#and atticus is like DOESNT HE LOOK SO MUCH SEXIER LIKE THIS and brent agonizing bc he doesnt want to hear that from his cousin#and then right is like well im too gay for this conversation because yeah kind of on the cousins side#and atticus beaming and then the person i was telling said shed like to see him less formal#with like a short sleeved button up or just a jacket rather than a suit coat#and im like brent would turn to dust if you put him in short sleeves haha but a jacket would be nice! and doable! probably for him!#and then i realized WAIT KAREN WOULD ABSOLUTELY BUY A HAWAIIN SHIRT AS A JOKE FOR HIM#and he would not realize it was a joke and he has to please his friends or else they will be disappointed so he HAS to wear it#like he legally has to wear this shirt at some point but he would wear a suit coat over it but#it was a gift from karen :c he has to wear it :c :c she would be heartbroken for the gift to go to waste#and then everyone (karen and right in this situation) would be like oh no he looks miserable but also v good#for what it is worth there are many times where right points out to brent that the only reason paul talks to him sometimes is#because hes just really gay and paul is suffering a dude crush so clearly in the dumbass's brain the gay guy is the only solution#then points out I DONT EVEN TOUCH PEOPLE EVER WHY IS HE FUCKING LIKE THIS#and brent is like truly a mystery im sure it has nothing to do with his trust in you#but anyway#one day im gonna draw brent in that shirt and it will be miserable for him but hell do it for karen
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i am so sorry about this, but for iconic and comedic purposes, and because i think it is my only chance...i think because put jk in all the clean, sleek, minimalistic dark academia fits ( and made him the fkn scariest top dom motherfucker alive >.> ) and put rm!stan as raven in all the thotty gothy hot topic rockstar boy looks ( ilu tiny pants ) ...
i think it's only fair that...
my bitchy, ginger, picky snobby ricky bobby ken doll son, AKA, red hot tire siren, toxic orange pit viper and mean green newjay devil -- who wears more comme de garcons/moshino than prada, imo -- espn celebpretty sh(it) boy, twitter's favorite #cred#head, /my/ precious daytona 500 winning pookie ( dirtbag ) and the #supreme tmz trashed-and-slated nastyboy of nascar racing, the one, the only...
Kyle 'Break Check!' Broflovski <3
should get to wear all the dramatic af, xxxtreme sportyspice, ubergay nightmarish perish hilton, twinky talladega nights, white #trashion, vodka&redheadbull, apple bottom jeans boots w the fur club fits <3
( also just for shits and gigs, pls note: toolshed stan is a super casual, fashionably challenged but unbothered old carhartt beanie, oversized flannel n beat up work boot wearin king...so i'm laaugghingsdk )
like...i am sorry, but this is the right answer:
#nina speak#everyone staring at me with bewildered eyes#TWINK KYLE????#listen!!!! i wanted some of the action okay#also u cannot tell me this is EXTREMELY CORRECT#i also don't know if he is that tall but its a force of habit#he just has ENERGY#like i can feel this in my BONES i know its just the most extra avant garde white boy wasted thot fit of all time#i am not sure if he does it bc he likes it or bc he wants attention yet but all i know is that he is slaying#and the people of south park are going to point and laugh#not mechanic stan tho bc he is nice ( a little under his breath badly disguised as a cough ) before raceky says something foul#like smh toolstan u should have been mean baby!!! don't let him call ur vintage safety goggles dorky king!!! stand ur ground#StAN FOR SOMETHING skhdlksad haha#but no it is giving the simple life#also i love toolshed stan he is just a backcountry rural colorado weed farm boy who is really good at fixing stuff#celebshitty kyle talking so fast it is...hurting his brain like he is fascinated by it...but is also like...are u perhaps having a stroke#ill do him next but like pls tell me someone understands the vision like its so specific and i destroyed the canon again#but i wanted to write a bitchy fingerbang kyle and this is my solution by writing obnoxious spoiled rotten racecar driver ky
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Kaiju oc ... functionally immortal Thing that cannot be killed but once mortally wounded is reduced to a tiny, neotenic form like a phoenix, eventually recuperating its mass each time
+ additional "suit" diagrams bc i love thinking about practical effects lol
#kaiju#Colors are a big wip im still considering#Its a cobra/monitor/mongoose type thing#In tinybaby mode its scp level bullshit unkillable#And the main way it regenerates mass is by feeding off of radioactive waste and byproducts#The government was like hmm this is probably a better way of getting rid of reactor rods instead of throwing them in the desert#So they keep it in containment as long as possible until it reaches a 'critical mass' so to speak#Most of the time its only 'suburban neighborhood destroyer' sized rather than 'city destroyer' sized#So the govt just kills the hell out of it whenever it manages to break out#Bandaid solutions to generational problems ftw!
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one of the things i got from watching imovers is that it's the effort that matters more rather than the results
#i mean. they'll get the results they want. but sometimes all it takes it a simple solution.#does that mean all the trouble they went thru was a waste of time? nope. without those trial and errors they wouldn't have#found the solution that works in the first place.#what am i saying ?#moversposting
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when I properly learn to code & program im going to create a free site for finding homework answers that allows other users to contribute as well. im sick of this paywalled bullshit
#this is a promise#I am not spending $25 a month for homework answers that may not even be right#quizlet already had its limits before they started doing the “premium” bullshit#im not doing it#im starting a collection of all the homework solutions I've amassed and im just going to publish them in full#yeah it'd be nice to make some money off of them but if/when I do this im just going to allow donations#I already waste plenty of time doing shit for free#might as well do something worthwhile
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I still can't believe he did this, it didn't even amount to anything either because bakugo shot him down easily. I guess after a century of repressing his emotions all that hate coming from tomura just completely screwed his brain up.
#need to whack him on the head with a newspaper for this#YOU COULD'VE HAD MORE TIME WITH REWIND IF YOU HADN'T WASTED ENERGY ON THIS POINTLESS CRAP#all you accomplished with this was looking gross and stressing out the people who have to animate this in the future#or an even better solution is that you should've just left the old blonde guy alone instead of stopping to fight him!#you would've had a better chance of surviving if you hadn't but noooooo you couldn't just let it go#now you're dead and we have to hope your vestige appears again#makes sense narratively that he would do something like this after everything that happened but doesn't stop it from being frustrating
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I'm giving up
#an is venting#I don't know#I really feel doomed lately#I don't want to keep going with uni and I know it's not a good solution#but I might leave some of my classes because I can't deal with the stress#and I need to study for finals so I need time#time I'm wasting in feeling bad because of course I'm not doing anything actually#ugh
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Can we just fucking cut it with the anti-therapy shit here? Its not only deeply ignorant, but it's dangerous. Discouraging people from trying things to improve their mental health is a great way to prevent their mental health from improving. If you've been considering trying therapy I would greatly encourage you to give it a chance. Whether it's online, in person, or even over text which I've heard is an option now which is great for people who struggle with face to face communication of any kind.
The response to people claiming everybody needs therapy and therapy will cure all of your problems isn't a hard pivot in the other direction. Therapy works for certain people, because everyone is different. Truth is problems like depression are a vague set of commonly associated behaviors, what's actually going on in different people's brains isn't nearly as easy to map. I personally know people who consider their therapist to have saved their life, and I myself tried therapy multiple times and it's had no effect. I don't blame my therapist, I didn't work for me because it just wasn't for me and that isn't anyone's fault.
And fucking especially don't be actively antagonistic toward your therapist. I hate stories like "my therapist told me to draw what I feel and I decided to just start eating the notebook to see how he'd react and he didn't know what to do lol." If you aren't cooperating then therapy won't fucking work. They aren't wizards who cast magical mental health engoodening spells, they're specialists who's job is to help you figure out what's going on in your head and figure out ways to improve your mental state. They aren't psychics. They can't read your mind. You need to be transparent.
If you can't figure out what to draw, or how to put your feelings into words, or whatever they're asking, just fucking tell them that. The entire point of therapy is having someone to communicate with, many people become licensed therapists because they themselves went through these problems and want to help others find a way through them. I'm sick and tired of Tumblr insisting all therapists are bad because they had a bad experience with therapy 10 years ago and think all therapists act like the paid actors in better help commercials.
Also, just to end, did you go to a mental health professional who specializes in the conditions you're suffering from, or did you type therapy into Google and call the first number you saw? I promise you finding the right therapist may actually make a difference. It might not. As I said, therapy just didn't work for me after I went to multiple different therapists, but I didn't write off the practice. Just like I don't write off anti-depressants, or mediation, or aroma therapy, ECT, the human brain is a complicated puzzle and we all must find a solution that works for us.
The last thing we need to be doing is telling someone not to look where they may find a missing piece.
#therapy#therapist#psychiatrist#psychiatry#mental health#professional help#tumblr#hellsite#dont write off something universally due to your individual experience#you arent the universe#not all therapist are the ones youve encountered#better help isn't the industry#the problem with better help is how many therpists it emplpyed weren't even licensed and had no experience#idunno what it's like today but after that debale i dont consider them credible enough to recommend#therpist have a very hard job#what do you accomplish by intentionally making it harder?#what are you trying to prove?#antagonizing your therapist does nothing but waste time for both of you#when people encourage you to try therapy they mean actually try#not sit in a room with a therapist and be a little jackass for an hour#im sorry there isnt 1 magical solution for all of your problems#but there isnt going to be#mental health is infinitely complex and there isnt any 1 thing that'll imrove yours#why be a jerk to the people trying to help?#discouraging people from seeking help just mgiht end up fucking killing them#mental health is far to serious for you to let your personal grudges get in someone elses way#its a subject matter thats often life or death#if you've ever laughed at stories of therpists crying youre laughing at a human being experiencing empathy#thats a good quality for a therapist to have#im sorry that you lack it
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