#Verse : Ain't your Fairytale

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Part I]

[Intro]

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Euphoria

[Verse]

Them super powers gettin' neutralized, I can only watch in silence

The famous actor we once knew is lookin' paranoid and now spiralin'

You're movin' just like a degenerate, every antic is feelin' distasteful

I calculate you're not as calculated, I can even predict your angle

Fabricatin' stories on the family front 'cause you heard Mr. Morale

A pathetic master manipulator, I can smell the tales on you now

You'rе not a rap artist, you a scam artist with the hopes of being accеpted

Tommy Hilfiger stood out, but FUBU never had been your collection

I make music that electrify 'em, you make music that pacify 'em

I can double down on that line, but spare you this time, that's random acts of kindness

Know you a master manipulator and habitual liar too

But don't tell no lie about me and I won't tell truths 'bout you

[Part II]

[Intro]

Shoo, shoo, shoo

Shoo, shoo, shoo

Bee, bee, bee, bee, bee, bee

[Verse 1]

Yeah, I'm out the way, yeah, I'm low, okay

Yeah, the island right here's remote, okay

I ain't thinkin' about no reaper

Nigga, I'm reapin' what I sow, okay

Got a Benjamin and a Jackson all in my house like I'm Joe, okay

Hellcat, made his homeboys and them type sell they soul, okay

Everybody wanna be demon 'til they get chipped by your throwaway

And I might do a show a day, once a lame, always a lame

Oh, you thought the money, the power or fame would make you go away?

Have you ever played have-you-ever? Okay, nigga, let's play

Have you ever walked your enemy down like with a poker face?

Have you ever paid five-hundred thou' like to an open case?

Well, I have, and I failed at both, but I came out straight

I hate when I rap or talk about guns, then somebody die

They turn into nuns, then hop online, like "Pray for my city"

He fakin' for likes and digital hugs

His daddy a killer, he wanna be junior, they must've forgot the shit that they done

Dementia must run in his family, but let it get shaky

I'll park his son

The very first time I shot me a Drac', the homie had told me to aim it this way

I didn't point down enough, today, I'll show you I learned from those mistakes

Somebody had told me that you got a ring, on God, I'm ready to double the wage

I'd rather do that than let a Canadian nigga make Pac turn in his grave

Cutthroat business, you got shit twisted

What is it? The braids?

I hurt your feelings? You don't wanna work with me no more? Okay

It's three G.O.A.T.s left, and I seen two of them kissin' and huggin' on stage

I love 'em to death, and in eight bars, I'll explain that phrase, huh

It's nothin' nobody can tell me, huh

I don't wanna talk on no celly, huh

You know I got language barriers, huh

It's no accent you can sell me, huh

Yeah, Cole and Aubrey know I'm a selfish nigga

The crown is heavy, huh

I pray they my real friends, if not, I'm YNW Melly

I don't like you poppin' shit at Pharrell, for him, I inherit the beef

Yeah, fuck all that pushin' P, let me see you push a T

You better off spinnin' again on him, you think about pushin' me

He's Terrence Thornton, I'm Terence Crawford, yeah, I'm whoopin' feet

We ain't gotta get personal, this a friendly fade, you should keep it that way

I know some shit about niggas that make Gunna Wunna look like a saint

This ain't been about critics, not about gimmicks, not about who the greatest

It's always been about love and hate, now let me say I'm the biggest hater

I hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress

I hate the way that you sneak diss, if I catch flight, it's gon' be direct

We hate the bitches you fuck, 'cause they confuse themself with real women

And notice, I said "we," it's not just me, I'm what the culture feelin'

How many more fairytale stories 'bout your life 'til we had enough?

How many more Black features 'til you finally feel that you're Black enough?

I like Drake with the melodies, I don't like Drake when he act tough

You gon' make a nigga bring back Puff, let me see if Chubbs really crash somethin'

Yeah, my first one like my last one, it's a classic, you don't have one

Let your core audience stomach that, then tell 'em where you get your abs from

V12, it's a fast one, baow-baow-baow, last one

Headshot for the year, you better walk around like Daft Punk

[Verse 2]

Remember?

Ayy, Top Dawg, who the fuck they think they playin' with?

Extortion my middle name as soon as you jump off of that plane, bitch

I'm allergic to the lame shit, only you like bein' famous

Yachty can't give you no swag neither, I don't give a fuck 'bout who you hang with

I hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress

Surprised you wanted that feature request

You know that we got some shit to address

I even hate when you say the word "nigga," but that's just me, I guess

Some shit just cringeworthy, it ain't even gotta be deep, I guess

Still love when you see success, everything with me is blessed

Keep makin' me dance, wavin' my hand, and it won't be no threat

I'm knowin' they call you The Boy, but where is a man? 'Cause I ain't seen him yet

Matter fact, I ain't even bleed him yet, can I bleed him? Bet

When I see you stand by Sexyy Red, I believe you see two bad bitches

I believe you don't like women, it's real competition, you might pop ass with 'em

Let's speak on percentage, show me your splits, I'll make sure I double back with you

You were signed to a nigga that's signed to a nigga that said he was signed to that nigga

Try cease and desist on the "Like That" record?

Ho, what? You ain't like that record?

"Back To Back," I like that record

I'ma get back to that, for the record

Why would I call around tryna get dirt on niggas? Y'all think all my life is rap?

That's ho shit, I got a son to raise, but I can see you don't know nothin' 'bout that

Wakin' him up, know nothin' 'bout that

And tell him to pray, know nothin' 'bout that

And givin' him tools to walk through life like day-by-day, know nothin' 'bout that

Teachin' him morals, integrity, discipline, listen, man, you don't know nothin' 'bout that

Speakin' the truth and consider what God's considerin', you don't know nothin' 'bout that

Ain't twenty-v-one, it's one-v-twenty if I gotta smack niggas that write with you

Yeah, bring 'em out too, I'll clear 'em out too

Tell BEAM that he better stay right with you

Am I battlin' ghost or AI? Nigga feelin' like Joel Osteen

Funny, he was in a film called "AI"

And my sixth sense tellin' me to off him

I'ma blick niggas all in they coffin

Yeah, OV-ho niggas is dick riders

Tell 'em run to America, they imitate heritage, they can't imitate this violence

What I learned is niggas don't like the West Coast

And I'm fine with it, I'll push the line with it

Pick a nigga off one at a time with it

We can be on a three-hour time difference

Don't speak on the family, crodie

It can get deep in the family, crodie

Talk about me and my family, crodie?

Someone gon' bleed in your family, crodie

I be at New Ho King eatin' fried rice with a dip sauce and blammy, crodie

Tell me you're cheesin', fam

We can do this right now on the camera, crodie

Ayy, fuck y'all niggas, I don't trust y'all niggas

I wave one finger and thump y'all niggas like mmm

Field goal, punt y'all niggas, they punk y'all niggas, nobody never took my food

Whoever that's fuckin' with him, fuck you niggas, and fuck the industry too

If you take it there, I'm takin' it further

Psst, that's somethin' you don't wanna do

[Outro]

Ooh

We don't wanna hear you say "nigga" no more

We don't wanna hear you say "nigga" no more

Stop

[itzjuztadizz]

One, two, three, four (One, two, three, four) Five, six, seven, eight (Five, six, seven, eight) Let 'em know we on the way (Yeah) Countin' zeroes every day (Yeah) You know that we never play, ayy (Ayy) One, two, three, four��(One, two, three, four) Five, six, seven, eight (Five, six, seven, eight) Let 'em know we on the way (Yeah) Countin' zeroes every day (Ah) You know that we never play, ayy (Ayy)

Time out, never been one to play with Money talk and it's my first language Me and RM gang and we gangin' Boss level, you ain't even in the rankin' They wanna smell what the hottie be cookin' They on rock when they see me at a bookin' Just know when it's time for me to get my lick back All y'all finna be finished (Hadouken) Ayy, blue hair like Bulma, big chi-chis Blue one, blue hundred, big VVs 'Round the world, everybody come see me No tats, but my passport inky (Ayy) I'm the big fish jumpin' out the TX So dope, tryna make me take a pee test

Check the credits, you know who wrote it With a flow this hard, this heavy, Kotex (Mm) I can't help that I'm that girl, they be talkin', I don't care Beefin' with yourself because you do not exist in my world Three things I don't play about, myself, my money, or my man

Mention one of them and best believe I'm gon' be at your head

One, two, three, four (One, two, three, four) Five, six, seven, eight (Five, six, seven, eight) Let 'em know we on the way (Yeah) Countin' zeroes every day (Yeah) You know that we never play, ayy (Ayy) One, two, three, four (One, two, three, four) Five, six, seven, eight (Five, six, seven, eight) Let 'em know we on the way (Yeah)

Countin' zeroes every day (Ah, what's up, Stallion?) You know that we never play, ayy (Ayy)

[Verse 2: RM] You know that we never play Yeah, we gon' forever slay (Yeah) Me and Megan on the way For Asia, man, we paved the way Smooth like criminal, off to digital Ya damn look so pitiful (So pity) Fuck a deposit, turn off your faucet Mm, synthesize your mind, yeah Fantasize, off-site, yeah Killin' folks with a line, yeah How many sold-out stadiums?

There's love everywhere To y'all, it's a fairytale (Oh God) In the end, shit's very fair We gotta bear all the nightmares (Okay) Shit is a toxic, hit you in moshpit, you and your people be fussin' (Fuss) Yeah, we just buss it, pour all the sauces on the face of they be bossin' (Boss) Call me a narcissist, make a typhoon, be an artist on the artists (Right) Take out your wallet, sabotage your two ears I swear 'fore you pause it

One, two, three, four (One, two, three, four) Five, six, seven, eight (Five, six, seven, eight) Let 'em know we on the way (Yeah) Countin' zeroes every day (Yeah; mhm) You know that we never play, ayy (Ayy) One, two, three, four (One, two, three, four) Five, six, seven, eight (Five, six, seven, eight) Let 'em know we on the way (Yeah) Countin' zeroes every day (Ah) You know that we never play, ayy (Ayy)

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It's bad takes music anon back at it again with probably my worst take yet... Jay would 1000% listen to White Horse by Taylor Swift and cry himself to sleep about Alex... Back in college Jay? Current Jay? Your pick, I see both.

-🚫🎵

Dude, if your takes are bad takes I have no idea how freaking amazing the good takes must be because oh my god??? Yes??? This song is perfect????? (it got kinda long and messy again so, weird very rubbish song analysis hidden away)

This song is definitely one Jay first found in uni/college (after Alex started dating Amy and just up and dumped him, except technically he didn't dump him because they were never technically together, so Alex going off and talking to Amy with the intention of dating her was also technically not cheating) and it fucking destroyed him, like, full on breakdown every time he heard it, it was actually a problem. ALSO. I think Alex got him into Taylor Swift (yes I'm making Alex a swiftie in sorry it's locked, shut up I can do what I want lmaooooooooo) and so by extension Alex introduced him to this song, which just makes it even more painful :D

After uni he got a little better about the song, it still made him sob like a baby, but he had a bit more control over it and didn't just break down instantly. It's that song you put on when you need a really good cry, for him.

Then after seeing Alex again in Sorry It's Locked it comes all the way back full circle to how it was when he first found the song. He's completely fucked up by it all over again and there's nothing he can do about it but cry until he can't breathe. Like, dude is not okay. He needs copious amounts of therapy. ALTHOUGH!!!! I do think that it'd also be the song that (if Jay were to live long enough) would help him finally finally get over Alex a bit (with Tim's help). Because damn if I don't have songs and bands that a 'ex' got me into that ended up helping me get the fuck over them lmfao.

"'Cause I honestly believed in you"

"Stupid girl, I should've known, I should've known"

Ouch, yeah, Jay's thoughts back in Uni 1000000% He sat in his car and cried to this shit on the radio so bad lmao (I'm ignoring the fact that technically this song wasn't out when he was in uni/college cos it came out in like 2009 or something and I'm pretty sure Jay finished uni in like 2006? ANYWAY It was out when he was in Uni in this universe)

"This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town"

I mean, Hollywood isn't exactly known for its queer rep, but Jay 100% imagined himself and Alex as the love interests in shitty movies (especially in the shitty movies Alex made him watch and talked over the entire time with complaints and shit, because this is Alex Kralie and of course he would). He totally understood why Alex didn't want anyone to know they were fucking, but damn if it didn't hurt when he realised that that was never going to change and that they wouldn't ever graduate to dating in secret. And that Alex would go and get himself a girlfriend out of nowhere to try and pretend like he was straight so that no one knew. (Alex is bi in this, and Amy is Panromantic asexual because I say so, and she absolutely laid into him when he eventually told her all about his and Jay's thing)

"Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes

And never really had a chance

My mistake, I didn't know to be in love

You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams about you and me

Happy endings, now I know"

This whole verse. Just. Yup. Poor Jay. This just explains every damn thing for him, like, idk how to explain it this was just his and Alex's relationship back in uni. This was it lmao.

"'Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm gonna find someone someday

Who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rear-view mirror disappearing now

And it's too late for you and your white horse

Now it's too late for you and your white horse

To catch me now"

Jam :]

Jay in uni 100% didn't think he'd ever get over Alex (aaaaaand he doesn't entirely, but he does a little bit so) but after meeting Tim again he definitely starts thinking like this, like maybe if Alex came back he wouldn't just immediately go back to him, like he'd hesitate and maybe even refuse and instead choose to stay with Tim.

[shieldrevive]

USER :// @magnetish​ INQUIRY :// “ you don’t know when to give up, do you? “ public string { uncharted } ;  accepting

          “ nope.  never been a thing. “  he couldn’t.  there’d never been any room in steve’s life for something like giving up.  what would his childhood have looked like if he weren't so god damn stubborn?  wouldn’t be having this conversation for one.  depending on who you spoke to that could be a pretty good thing.  now that he was thinking about it the captain was conflicted.  maybe bucky would still be floating around if he’d never interfered.  maybe the commandos would’ve stormed hydra all those years ago and maybe his best friend would’ve gone back home to heal rather than forcing himself to follow this dumb little punk around.  “ i can do this all day. “

          his father tried to keep him down.  the kids on the street tried.  everyone bigger had always tried.  someone who could mentally flick his shield around wasn’t going to make him think twice.  where there was a will there was a way.  then again, maybe this was just some giant misunderstanding.  steve went into punch mode before asking too many questions.

          “ any chance we can take a time out?  talk this out over some coffee? “

[wraith-of-christmas-future]

                  His head tilted her way; canted amid an angle that spun curiosity kindled to childlike qualities. She did indeed hitch his attention abroad such tone prescribed of him and the predicament that pulled him under. Surveying her expression with frantic eyes that were hindered away from one focal point to the next. His breathing heavily accompanied gnashing into the garment provided to subdue his cries. Pardoned to substitute the kicking with chewing relentlessly, at this rate Victoria may not have a belt left.

His whole body drew for her course stringently while registering the exotic address mulling over his name - his forename delicately cast across her tongue. Perceived invitingly along the enunciation his ears tuned for instantaneously. Focus for me.  He hung onto that suggestive in particular. Repetitively depositing it, with it, it was likely liable how slack his strain against Margaret became. Yet fibers within those limbs remained tense alongside the rest of his frame during, though stationary. It almost harbored an inferred expectation of being hit while that recessive state captivated him ; anticipating a blow while lulling him with false conciliation. His mother used the same trade countless of times, one often mimicked too , with his first marriage. Cassie in her later years diverged to secrets he trusted her with. Remodeling them into tools of misery.

The slightest move would manifest into another quail from him. Becoming drastically visible in his attempt to recoil. Condemning his eyes shut and veering his would be gaze to avoid any blow he had thought she may have disciplined upon him. When there had been none, eyes shot for her, invoking wild bewilderment. Static began to carry an amp louder, distortion crackling in between breaks of clarity. Figments of it’s bleached and ink disarray speckled his sclera sporadically.

                        “ My knife.. “ half mumbled with exertion , he broke in when his own jaw reduced against the bit he had been masticating into. Her interjection gradually set fade to the abnormality within hue. Margaret had tore him from folding in on himself, from failing the present reality. Allowing him to cling onto his pain and anger , registering it temporarily as the anchor which kept him. He partially swiveled a glimpse her way. “ She would never betray my safety willingly “a plunged reply which craned with his irritability.  “  It was always those closest to me - people, who betrayed my safety.  “ He instructed of her in an odd opaque slur along the leather he navigated around.

@victoriafreakingmcqueen​ , @aurora-stantler-our-historian​

10-48 Fairbanks

It had been a crazy plan. One no one but Vic could have cooked up with how many bats her bridge was missing by this point. Even her father and Maggie had wondered if they could pull it off. 

The plan? Kidnap Charlie Manx. 

They’d caught him unawares leaving a gas station and knocked him out. Maggie’s tiles had given them the location. Only after trying to get Wayne out to no avail had they gone through with the plan. It was what Vic expected though, that’s why they needed Manx. He was the only one who the Wraith would listen to. 

Out gunning the Wraith once she realized her driver was missing had been a white knuckling experience, but they’d reached the warehouse and gotten in unscathed, barely. The side of the building had some of the Wraith’s paint on it where Chris had been a second beforehand. 

It was surreal now to see an unconscious Charlie Manx, bound to a chair in the middle of a leaky roofed warehouse while the Wraith revved and squealed her tires outside like an angry guard dog. 

“You really think this is gonna work, Brat?” Chris McQueen asked his daughter wearily, arms crossed as he looked at the man who’d taken his grandson and nearly killed his daughter in the process. 

Vic dragged a chair at least six feet from Manx’s chair and turned it around to sit and wait for the maniac to wake up. “We have him. Now we find out what buttons to push to get Wayne back.”

@wraith-of-christmas-future @aurora-stantler-our-historian

[sunless-garden]

Hi! Hope you have a great day/night!

Just wanted to say, I'm obsessed with BTP. Your fic is so well written and amazing. I love your Elena and the way you've written Bonnie and Elijah. I'm freaked out by Klaus and I'm glad because I hate it when some writers write him as a victim who has a kind heart blah blah blah. I guess that's why I love Klena, because in KE fics Klaus always has a terrifying personality and I love it.

I have a question though, what made you ship them, and do you have any idea if you'll continue writing for them after this series is over?

Thank you so much!!! I'm so flattered that you're enjoying Beneath The Pine - you've really made my day!

I'm so glad you like my Elena! She is my favorite character on TVD, and I think she is a fascinating character - particularly because she is absolutely ruthless when it comes to protecting those that she loves. I also find it really interesting that, although she is a supernatural being, she doesn't have any supernatural abilities that she herself can exercise. It means that Elena has to be clever to survive and to protect her loved ones, and she also has a strong need for alliances (e.g., Elijah in season 2).

I find Klaus tricky to write, because I agree he should be terrifying, but I also think he's more than that. I absolutely do not think he has a naturally kind heart, but he is capable of kindness towards certain people, if he feels like he's in control and he's in the proper mood. Also, it is true that Klaus was a victim of abuse: Mikael abused him both physically and emotionally, and Esther didn't protect him from that abuse - and in fact, made it worse by intentionally weakening him and then later binding his werewolf aspect. But although that trauma influences his character, it doesn't excuse all the ways that Klaus has victimized others. Ultimately, I think Klaus's love is a very dangerous thing - look at how he treats his siblings, and Rebekah in particular.

All that said, what made me ship Elena and Klaus?

Well, I will ship Elena with just about anyone. But I find the complexity of Klena just striking. Both Elena and Klaus can love too much, which of course influences how they treat their loved ones. Compare Elena having Jeremy compelled and sending him away for his own safety, to Klaus daggering Rebekah to prevent her from leaving him. Also, I think that Elena can be her most ruthless, dark self with Klaus, and he won't turn away from her. In return, Elena has a seemingly limitless capacity for forgiveness, which Klaus unfortunately needs, given his tendency to get in his own way.

Although the fandom for Klena is small, there are some real gems: I highly recommend fics such as certain dark things by twocankeepasecret, (The Stars Were Brightly Shining) and Fairytale Ending by adlyb (@livlepretre), and Queen of the Highway by sevensistersofsussex (@sevensistersofsussex). There are tons of other great Klena fics, but those in particular really drew me in.

Regarding your second question, will I continuing writing for Klena after my The Trees Are Bare series is complete?

I think so - but we still have quite a while before my TTAB series will be complete. BTP is outlined in detail and will probably take at least another 50k words to finish. I then have the start of an outline for a sequel to BTP, which will probably end up similar in length to TTAB. I also have some ideas for a few one shots in the TTAB verse, including side stories from POVs other than Elena's. All of that will probably take me through the end of the year to complete.

Also, as I noted above, I will ship Elena will just about anyone, and I'd also like to explore some other pairings.

I might make I Ain't Letting Up Until The Day I Die into an Elejah series - one that deals with the implications and consequences of Elena's sire bond with Damon.

I would also like to transform my series of Kolena ficlets in A Million Might Have Beens into one coherent multi-chaptered fic. (Currently I think of this as my Kolena Flower Language verse.)

I also have some other fic ideas brewing, but the above are my most immediate priorities.

Thanks again for this ask!

[jadeylovesmarvelxo]

This ain't no Fairytale

Part 2

Authors note;

Hi, gosh it's been a while but I've been writing again and it's been lovely. ❤️

This is part two of This ain't no Fairytale. I was listening to The Scientist by Coldplay while writing this and these two verses stood out to me.

* Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry, you don't know how lovely you are. I had to find you tell you I need you, tell you that I set you apart.

Running in circles, coming up tails, Heads on a science apart. Nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part, nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard". *

I feel like it fits the tone of this story really well, anyway I hope you all enjoy this it's been coming for a long time and I've finally got round to writing it . 🌻💕

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It should be a typical Friday night for Bucky, as usual when he's single he is at a bar with Sam and Steve except unusually tonight he just feels lost.

He doesn't want to be here, at this bar. Sam is gently encouraging sensing that he needs support rather than their usual banter and it is nice but it isn't helping his strange mood.

Steve keeps watching him intently, it unnerves him. It's like he senses the turmoil that Bucky is feeling, the empty pit in his stomach since y/n left.

Fantastic.

"Hey, I'm Lexi". A blonde sidles up to him fluttering her eyelashes while he's lost in his thoughts. Anxiety bubbles in his stomach as for one very brief moment he just wants to forget this ache that he's feeling.

Somewhere deep inside though he knows it wouldn't help and he steps away. He just doesn't want to be in another relationship situation that's all.

If he's being honest the thought of being with anyone turns his stomach cold, fuck, what the hell is wrong with him?

Shrugging away from the woman he hurries away needing some fresh air and to think.

It's one thing to feel this fucking ache all the time but now this happens.

Wasn't it just last year that Peggy - Steve's wife who told him things very bluntly and to the point) that one day his relationship style would come back and bite him on the ass and she was right.

Steve follows him out and clasps his shoulders gently.

"What's happening to me, Stevie?". Deep down he knows but he's scared, he's scared of accepting how he truly feels about y/n, of opening up and being vulnerable.

"Buck". He runs his hand through his hair while pacing back and forth.

"I miss her Steve". This isn't as big a surprise to Steve as it to him as Steve barely reacts. Fuck, he knows him too well.

"I know you do, you've been a wreck Buck, Sam and I are worried about you. We need to talk about you and y/n".

He sighs and sits beside Steve on the benches outside the bar and he swallows ready to slowly open up to his best pal.

"How do you feel about her?". Steve asks softly waiting patiently for an answer as Bucky mulls this question over.

"I love her and it terrifies me, I'm scared of getting hurt, heartbroken if I fully give myself to her. I've never been in love Steve and it scares me". Steve softens and takes a moment before replying.

"Buck we all get scared, we are all worried about getting hurt but at the end of the day, love is worth the risk. What if there is no heartbreak? What if she's the one?. You have a chance at love, real love Buck and you'll regret it for the rest of your life if you let her slip away from you".

Steve's words sink in and he buries his face in his hands, he feels a little lighter at getting his worries off his chest but still anxious if he has lost y/n for good.

"Did you know that I was falling for her Steve"? He asks his eyes widening as he realises that Steve and probably even Peggy and Sam knew. Was it that obvious to his friends but not to himself?

"Yup, honestly Buck, She made you so happy. You adored her, we could all see it, you gotta take a chance man, take a chance on love. Don't lose her over this".

Ice freezes in his chest.

"I broke her heart, I've lost her". She'd never forgive him he thinks stomach clenching in pain.

"How do you know that? if you won't even try to make amends?". Make amends?. Could he do this, win her back?

Where does he even begin?

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"Oh, you've got to be shitting me". Natasha growls and y/n turns to her confused noticing Wanda's anxious expression as she peers out of the window.

"What is it?". Wanda turns to her as Natasha glares down at whatever has pissed her off.

"It's Bucky. He's here honey". What is he doing here? She can't see him like this, she feels wrecked inside so how will she be able to keep together?

Natasha wraps her arm around her, she loved that Nat was so fiercely protective but deep down she knew that facing Bucky was something she would do by herself, perhaps it would be cathartic seeing him one last time?

Or it would just break her already fragile heart all over again.

When Bucky arrives at the door she schools her expression to appear confident and ready to face anything he throws at her, strong.

That's what she tells herself and she sticks to it...just.

"Hey". He's nervous she can tell and it makes her want to rush over and comfort him but for now, she stays put and cuts straight to the chase.

"Hi, look Bucky I don't get why you're here".

Whatever she was expecting him to say she wasn't prepared for his features to crumple and his tough demeanour to shatter.

"I miss you, baby. I'm an idiot for letting you go".

She swallows down the emotions that threaten to bubble over and explode, she's a mess of confusion and anger. Anger because why couldn't he have figured that out before he broke her heart.

The other side of her, the side that is missing him so much knows how hard it is for him right now to be so vulnerable in front of her so she calms a little.

"I told you how I felt and you don't feel the same, I miss you so much Bucky but I can't be with someone who doesn't feel the same way as I do, that's not fair. Like it wouldn't be fair for you to be pressured into returning those feelings".

He shakes his head and takes a tentative step towards her wary of Natasha who is much calmer but still glowering at him.

"I know how I feel, his voice turns softer and he moves closer taking his hand in hers. The way I feel about you is exhilarating and terrifying all at the same time".

He takes a breath and speaks again reaching up to cup her cheek.

"I love you, I fell in love with you from the moment that we met and I promise if you give me a chance I will spend every single day making sure you know just how much I love you".

She melts into him and kisses him her heart soaring with happiness that he loves her, he's here and loves her and that's all that matters

✨🖤

God I've missed writing about this man 😭 hoping to get back into it.

Also I've recently started writing for the Stranger Things fandom, mostly it's just Eddie Munson x Reader for now but I'm a big fan of Steve too just FYI. 💕

[pheeby-deeby]

Taylor Swift Lyrics That Make Me Feral

This is based on lyrics ONLY. Not song moments; that is a separate list.

“And you come away with a great little story. Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.”

“So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time. As far as I’m concerned you’re just another picture to burn!”

“BURN BURN BURN BABY BURN”

"Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realized some bigger dreams of mine."

"I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale, I'm gonna find someone someday whO MIGHT ACTUALLY TREAT ME WELL"

“LET ME REMIND YOU FOR A MINUTE WHY WE’RE NOT FINE!!” (Yes I know this is from ‘Let’s Go (Battle)’ and it’s technically unreleased but I had to include it. I really hope we get it in a speak now vault track).

Just. All of ATW 10 minute version. Every single line. I cannot and will not pick just part of it for this list.

"For the first time, what's past is..past."

"I know the bravest thing I ever did was..RUNNN"

"How can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22?"

"How did I go from growing up to breaking down?"

"She'll know the way and then she'll say she got the map from me. I'll say I'm happy for her then I'll cry myself to sleep"

(Okay maybe all of ‘Nothing New’)

Literally ALL of "I Bet You Think About Me." I fucking LOVE that song so so so much

"Now I'm Miss gonna be alright someday."

"GOODBYE Mr. PERFECTLY FINEEE! HOW'S YOUR HEART AFTER BREAKIN MINE!"

"I'VE BEEN MISS MISERY FOR THE LAST TIME, AND YOU'RE MR. PERFECTLY FINE!"

"Cause darling I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream"

"The rest of the world was black and white, but we were in screaming color"

All of "New Romantics," but especially "BABY I COULD BUILD A CASTE OUT OF ALL THE BRICKS THEY THREW AT ME" and also "HEARTBREAK IS THE NATIONAL ANTHEM WE SING IT PROUDLY" and "The rumors are terrible and cruel but honey most of them are true."

"So I PUNCHED A HOLE IN THE ROOF" and literally all of Clean

"And I bury hatchets but I keep maps of where I put 'em" (LITERALLY DON'T @ ME THE ENDGAME RAP IS GUN)

"IF A MAN TALKS SHIT THEN I OWE HIM NOTHIN"

"We can't make any promises now can we babe? But you can make me a drink." (Cue: ‘1, 2, 3, LETS GO BITCH!’)

All of Getaway Car

"I want your midnights but I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year's day."

ALL of Dear John

"But you held your pride like you should've held me"

All of Last Kiss; but esp “NOW I WATCH YOUR LIFE IN PICTURES LIKE I USED TO WATCH YOU SLEEP”

“It isn’t love it isn’t hate it’s just indifference.”

All of ‘The Archer’

DBATC bridge

"in my defense i have none, for never leaving well enough alone"

“When you are young they assume you know nothing”

“Cause you weren’t mine to lose”

“And then it was bought by me…who knows if I never showed up what could’ve been?”

“You never gave a warning sign/I gave so many signs”

You cannot make me choose parts of ‘my tears ricochet’

“I’m still a believer but I don’t know why, I’ve never been a natural all I do is try try try.”

Second verse of ‘this is me trying’

The ‘illicit affairs’ bridge

All of ‘peace’

“Your faithless love’s the only hoax I believe in”

The champagne problems bridge

“and then it fades into the gray of my day-old tea cause it’ll never be”

ALL of ‘tis the damn season’

“Break free and leave us in ruins! Take this dagger in me and removed it! Gained the weight of you then lose it! Believe me I could do it!”

“No I didn’t mean that, sorry I can’t see facts through all of my fury. You haven’t met the new me yet.”

“I can’t make it go away by making you a villain”

“I pulled your body into mine every goddamn night now I get fake niceties. No one yea he’s you what to do when a good man hurts you, and you know you hurt him too.”

Okay just literally all of ‘happiness’ I can’t pick a few lines anymore I TRIED

ALL of ‘ivy’

Same with ‘cowboy like me’

“And he’s passing by rare as the glimmer of a comet in the sky. And he feels like home, if the shoe fits walk in it everywhere you go.”

All of ‘right where you left me’

All of ‘it’s time to go’ but especially the 2nd verse.

[aquagustd]

i know the deal is already sealed 💀 but i still have some song recs for you, coz i am a r&b enthusiast...

Gangsta - Kehlani (recently discovered my love lol )

Call out my name - the weeknd

play with me - Rendezvous by two

fahrenheit - Azee (ngl fahrenheit be raising temperature lmao)

babygirl - Maeta

Love Talk - wayv

slow motion - AMARIA BB

get you - Daniel Caesar

naked - doja cat

come over - jorja smith

bussdown - jorja smith

hrs and hrs - muni long

Alone with you - Ashlee

Alone with you - Alina bazar

ain't shit - doja 💀

red - Santino Le saint

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↷ now that we are done with those, here are my all time favs:

Dreams,fairytales,Fantasties - Asap ferg (this song is basically po*n in a song)

Win Pon you - doja cat

Back to Sleep remix - zayn, usher, chris brown

[ if these don't match the vibe of your playlist then just consider them as "casual song recs" lolll ]

all the songs here 🤌🏻🤌🏻 your taste is immaculate. but two songs caught my attention !! gangsta by kehlani 😩 omg i rediscover how good that song is every other year & all i get is flashbacks of the joker + harley quinn from suicide squad lmao. such a good song 👁

AND OMG the fact that you put the back to sleep remix with ZAYN on it �� ?????? ily. 15 y/o me had no business belting out his verse 🫠 but honestly it was so hot and 100% lisp.

also love talk by wayv 🫣 it’s actually on another one of my fic playlists but it’s so good imma add it here too 😌 tysm for the recs ! <333

[sacresoliel]

snow tags !

[archersandsunsets]

My favorite verse from my favorite TS song Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well This is a big world, that was a small town There in my rear view mirror disappearing now And its too late for you and your white horse Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

gOD this chorus reprise is everything

cause damn not everything is a fairytale and sometimes you gotta walk away from the guy you thought was a prince—and ugh she does so well with the metaphor here at just 18...

[septembersghost]

i think of it as very specifically having double meaning, as she likes to do - she's frustrated and tired of her issues being cliche (as zoë described here), but i also think it's an intentional reference to beauty and the beast (tale as old as time, tune as old as song, bittersweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong captures a lot of themes on this album), and the fact that, as she says in the next verse, she feels like a monster on the hill (which is dysmorphia and fame rolled together). she's used a lot of fairytale imagery in the past, and this is like the furthest point of, "i'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale," where she's casting herself as the literal problem, as if she's cursed and everything about herself has become too much and overbearing (too big to hang out, lurching towards your favorite city), and she feels like everyone around her is young and beautiful and palatable and easy to embrace by comparison. it then ties directly into labyrinth - mythologically associated itself to a monster - and the fact that she was lost in the midst of it and felt like she was crashing until someone who truly loved her turned her course around. he willingly steps in and takes her hand.

remember when i mentioned the significance of the rose? the one growing out of ice frozen ground, that's the love that made her feel alive and human, because it turns out the enchantment is about being seen and held and real.

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero. i've been scheming like a criminal ever since, to make them love me and make it seem effortless. who could ever learn to love a beast?

there's something sweet, and almost kind. all you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing.

i have a particular interpretation of the "tale as old as time" lyric in anti-hero but it might expose a particular level of derangement from my mind