#Unless tfw is watching

[michaelmilligan]

Adam and Claire singing along to pop girlies from the 2000's. That's it, that's the post.

[templeofshame]

Tfw you realize you recommended a piece of media (that they probably won't consume) to someone who could feasibly read into in an unintended way, but then you remember that people don't actually read into things

[soullessjack]

I’ve been on TikTok a lot because my FYP has been infiltrated by SPN and most people on there think he has the mental mind of a 3 y/o or a baby. How is this possible to think with his storylines? It doesn’t make sense to me. I wasn’t in the fandom, just an avid show watcher, and I saw him similar to Amara and how she’s an adult that grew up fast except he was just born grown but naive because the world is complex. So how do people get to him having a baby mind? It feels ableist to me but I can’t figure out how to articulate why (like when someone has developmental disabilities and someone says, “They have the mind of a _y/o,” when that person’s needs/skills/etc are more complex) and I was wondering if you could shine some light on why you think this happens. I don’t think people understand why other people have uncomfortable feelings surrounding baby/toddler/kid!Jack but I can’t remove it from accidental ableism. I’ve tried talking to people about it on TikTok but they either double down or say that it’s my opinion. However, I don’t feel like canon supports theirs. Thank you. I love you your posts about Jack and your insight. Good work.

hi, thanks :3

genuinely I don’t know, and I ask myself that every single time I go through spn tiktok lmao. the best I can figure is, for one, TikTok is the app where media literacy and nuance go to die like dogs. there’s no arguing with anybody there unless you get lucky (source: I’ve argued).

two, I think genuinely it comes from the over-saturation of baby!jack content in the fandom, both in and out of tumblr, and the extremely minimal amount of content where he’s actually treated with nuance and complexity. like, it exists, but only in very small circles that the majority of the fandom clearly ignores. from what I’ve seen most of spn-tok is focused on TFW or Dean or Destiel and don’t generally care about Jack that much, so it kinda makes sense that they’d just run with the most prevalent idea of jack and not really think about it in the long run, or when they watch the show.

a lot of the arguments I’ve seen literally boil down to “he wears Velcro sneakers” and “he doesn’t know [insert thing]” or just his general social awkwardness/unawareness (which Cas displayed all the time in the early seasons but never got outright infantilized for). like look at this:

and there’s millions more comments like this, unfortunately. I don’t mean to speak for everyone, but at least for me, the body language and specific mannerisms Alex put into his portrayal of Jack is what resonated the most as an autistic thing, naïveté and poor social skills aside of course. Like, he fidgets/stims constantly—

and none of this is scripted for him to do, either! Alex just decided it worked, and he was right!!

—and to see these very blatant autistic traits be reduced down to “portrayal of a child/toddler” is downright sickening, especially when plenty of other autistic fans have pointed it out and expressed to Alex that they relate to Jack and even asked if he had done it on purpose because it was so well done.

what I’m personally confused on is how many people will double down on jack being a child like it’s driftwood in the ocean. like, going back to my argument, I gave the other person multiple points in the show that make it obvious jack is intended to be an adult. Harper, the beer, any of the trauma he’s endured; the works. and all they had to say to that was “you do you I guess.” and it’s like what do you mean, ‘you do you’? I’m giving you actual examples that happen in the show, and I’m asking you to think ‘hey, maybe if jack flirted with a girl and talked nonstop about what it’s like to fall in love and have sex for an entire episode and had his dad offer to go to a dive bar for bucket-list hookups in the episode after, maybe he isn’t a child.’

but again, this is TikTok, so asking for any kind of self examination is asking for too much.

it just strikes me as odd. it’s odd and confusing and horribly frustrating that people are dying on this hill like it’s some kind of civic duty. like, why does it matter to you so much to see Jack as a child? why is it so important for you to think of him that way, that you just ignore canon evidence and autistic voices to make yourself feel right? what was even weirder was they were autistic themselves, and said they wouldn’t dream of infantilizing him, but here we are. their reasoning was “he’s literally 3 by the end of the show,” and that was it. And of course they weren’t wrong, but if you look at every time Jack or anyone else acknowledges his age:

D: “how old do you think you are?”

J: “3 days, 17 hours and 42 minutes”

Dean shrugs and lets him drink beer.

M: “You should be six months old.”

J: “I am…sort of.”

Mary shrugs and treats Jack like a teenager from there on out

M: “Do you ever hang out? I mean, with kids your own age?”

J: “Well, I’m two…enty. I’m twenty…two. I’m twenty-two.”

While the show acknowledges Jack’s actual age, it’s arguably on the same level of acknowledgment of Cas being literally older than time, because what people strangely fail to remember is that Jack is not completely human and doesn’t have the natural aging or developmental process that humans do. He’s three in the same way Vision is three, and Vision is already married with children. Beyond that, there are plenty of times when Jack is referred to as a teenager or treated like one, like Dean’s “he’s a millennial” joke in Last Holiday (wrongly termed but the intent is still there). Hell, even in the scripts they’ll directly say things like:

“Jack is spiraling out, a teenage powder keg,” (13x06 Tombstone, deleted writer’s draft)

“Kelly can’t help but smile, so impressed by the man he’s become, but not about to let him out of her sight,” (14x08 Byzantium, prod. draft)

that make it pretty clear Jack is functionally an adult despite his unnatural age, just like Cas or Amara or even Emma (also the added bonus that Jack explicitly hates being called a child or treated like one, but people literally reacted to that like “oh silly baby wants to be in charge like a grownup” so, like, I don’t even know what to do with that) (and banking off of that, every other time Jack is explicitly put into an adult situation, like flirting with Harper and literally asking Dean how to have sex, sooo many notes on that gif set were the same parroted “nooo baby boy don’t corrupt your innocent mind!! dean is such a bad influence 😂😂😂😂”, so the obtuseness is very intentional). I try not to be accusatory when I talk about the way Jack is treated in the fandom, as a general for online discussion and because I know it’s largely unintentional, but I really do think Destiel (and Sastiel) have some hand in it.

If you look at the majority of Baby!Jack content, it all centers around how domestic either ship is with baby!jack, how good Dean is with kids (baby jack) and how much of a sweet older sister Claire would be, etc. It’s all for the sake of domesticity. It’s the white picket fence family dream that canon TFW2.0 doesn’t really quite have. It’s to make Dean and Cas and Sam and Cas and Claire and Rowena and whoever else, a softer version of themselves. It’s never actually about Jack. He’s just the cannon fodder; the prop; the dress setting; the accessory. He’s there to make everyone else look better and to fuel them forward. No matter how much people want to argue that it’s “giving Jack the childhood he should’ve had,” we both know it’s not actually about him, because canon coming in with the steel chair again: Jack literally chose to be an adult. He hates being considered a child and has never expressed anything more than wanting to be a regular teenager. And like I said, people on spn-tok are naturally Destiel centered, so it’s honestly not very surprising that they just can’t let go of this content cow because it’s just too cute and wholesome and precious of course, despite it being rampant ableism and just generally annoying to people who actually do care about Jack in a deeper sense. Gag me. So maybe that explains the doubling down, but then what gets even more confusing to me is, like, you can have a domestic family AU that doesn’t rely on erasing a character to fit a specific image. You can have a domestic family AU without being ableist about it. You don’t have to do any of the things you keep consistently doing. You even fucking already it in the show! Canon TFW2.0 is dysfunctional on various levels, but so was TFW, and so were just Sam and Dean. It’s simply their dynamic, and it’s what adds to their family bond being what it is to begin with. Nothing you’re doing is something you need to.

I wanna stop before this gets longer than it has to be, but for one final thought I think the general lack of care for autistic people in any space is part of it, too. It’s why half of our representation is painfully inaccurate or egregiously offensive; it’s why fandoms of media with autistic/autistic-coded characters almost always rampantly infantilize them (cough cough SheRa). And like with Alex’s mannerism choices, it’s the distinct yet subconscious connection between autistic behaviors and childlike behaviors, because autistic people are so largely treated as incapable innocent children and cannon fodder for their autism warrior parents; both of which reflect like direct sunlight in Baby!Jack tropes. And it’s why people just don’t care enough to do anything about it, to heed any criticisms about the harm they’re doing, because to them it’s not harmful. It’s not a problem that’s doing any perceivably “real” damage because they haven’t been personally hurt by it (except when it comes to unfair Dean criticism or Sam or Cas criticism, because that’s clearly more important than ableist rhetoric and representation erasure), and probably because they already hold those views to autistic people in the real world.

The world at large does not care for autistic people, or disabled people in general. Nothing that hurts us is considered anything serious. Nothing that matters to us is considered valuable or worth respecting. And because of that, we already struggle in the real world day by day, so we turn to online spaces for connection and sharing our interests safely. We turn here for community, only to be met with the same indifference and rejection as the real world, because the same people we’re trying to avoid are here too, and then we have nowhere else.

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**im probably going to make this a separate post but I also want to talk about the weird cognitive dissonance that the fandom has with babyjack and how it’s pretty much considered “acceptable infantilization,” and how so many people in the fandom have said they want more complex jack but still engage with content that actively erases Jack’s complexity and relies on that erasure to make him what he is).

***edit: tags 4 reach, absolutely feel free to ask for removal! ik it’s out of the blue but you guys have had some of the better takes on jack lol @angelsdean @hauntedpearl @uh-ohspaghettio @queermania

[earlgreytea68]

the moment i want a fic of, so much: here at 7min.

https://youtu .be/vHvIngHAAN8 ?feature=shared&t=421

you know, tfw you're just absently watching your buddy's hands and thinking what are you gonna say next and then he's just up and shoves the damn mic up his - um, skirt, right before your freaking eyes and you totally black out on the spot (SO immensely relatable) and start babbling something very fast and your voice goes all wrong and he totally notices and grins, that little shit. but then he also saves you by taking his hoodie off and immediately pulling all the attention from you so no one notices anything, so you guess the two of you are okay again lol (for now)

kind of reminds me of ybc commentary when both pete and patrick got a little lost watching joe taking hell communion lol (33:02)

https://youtu .be/7G1bJcKmW7A ?feature=shared&t=1982

oh my god hahahaha I watched that interview at the time and I was ALSO so distracted by Pete suddenly deciding to strip that I was like ....... like, Pete NEVER seems to be hot, unless he's in Florida summer humidity, he's always bundled up in protective layers, and then all of a sudden he just strips a layer off right there, I was like, ??????? but hahahaha MAYBE IT WAS RESCUING PATRICK from whatever babble Patrick suddenly started to get into there lol.

At first I was like, .....why would he put the microphone there? but then I realized it was to free up his hands to take the sweatshirt off, so it does seem like that was always his plan even before Patrick starts babbling but that babble is just hilarious at that point lol

[duhragonball]

Super Dragon Ball Heroes 21-24

tfw probably something is bad happening right now.

This is the “Universe Creation” arc of SDBH, which features more of the Time Patrol than what we’ve seen in the first 19 episodes.  I’m guessing that’s why the Episode 20 special was made, so viewers would recognize characters like Chronoa and Xeno Pan when they showed up here.  Anyway, the story begins with the Divine Tokitoki Bird going missing.  Chronoa’s main duty as the Supreme Kai of Time is to look after the bird, so she mobilizes the Time Patrol to find him.  Unfortunately, the Time Patrol in this show is just six people. 

Turns out, the bird is on Earth, and he shows up right where Goku and the boys are training or whatever.  Moments like these feel like something out of a teenager’s fanfic.  Like, here’s all the characters I wanted in my story, and I just plopped them all in Bulma’s backyard and they’re sparring because why not.  Then the plot device shows up right in front of them, two seconds after it went missing.  Like, don’t even try to make this feel natural, we’ve got to get this thing moving.

Trunks and Pan arrive next and find Tokitoki, which would seem to make this a really dull story.  The only tension is that most of the characters are confused about Trunks being different from the version we’ve seen in the first 19 episodes.  Vegeta explains that it’s an alternate Trunks from a “different dimension”, like the Xeno Goku and Xeno Vegeta they encountered on the Prison Planet.  Vegeta also says that they’ve met this version of Trunks before, but he never elaborates.  So why is Xeno Trunks confused, then? Also, why doesn’t anyone ask about Xeno Pan?  You’d think she’d raise some interesting questions.

Then all twelve Gods of Destruction show up.  Overkill much?  They’re here to destroy Tokitoki.

Beerus fires a hakai blast, but Tokitoki just blows it away with his wings.  “You came here to kill me, catboy?  You better make it count.  Better finish me in one shot.  What’s wrong?  I’m right here.  Come and get this work.”

Beerus explains that he had a premonition of a mysterious bird appearing in Universe 7 to destroy the entire multiverse.  And Tokitoki’s a bird, and this is Universe 7, so it sure seems like Tokitoki’s been caught red-handed of the imaginary crime that Beerus saw in a dream.  Yessir. 

I’m not even sure why Beerus is explaining himself.  Look, he came here to destroy Tokitoki.  So let him do it.  No, Trunks, don’t bother defending the bird.  He can fight his own battles.  Go kill him, Beerus.  He’s not going anywhere.  You and your eleven pals, go destroy him.  All at once.  Unless you’re all a bunch of punk-ass bitches.  No, that couldn’t be it. 

They don’t do a damn thing, and then Tokitoki just nopes out and leaves.  Then they all find their missing spines, and when they realize they can’t follow Tokitoki because they can’t sense his energy, they decide to destroy the Earth for aiding and abetting Tokitoki.  What a clownshow these guys are.  Maybe Hearts couldn’t have killed Grand Zeno, but he probably would have made short work out of these idiots. 

But Beerus tells them to hold off, since this is his universe.  He’ll handle things, and so Goku and the others conclude that their only chance is to fight Beerus.

Meanwhile, Fu watches on, joined by his new pal, Dogidogi.  He’s like a fake evil version of Tokitoki, I guess.

So the gang on Earth fights Beerus for a bit, and then Xeno Goku and Xeno Vegeta show up and warn them about something more important happening right now. 

These creepy roots are spreading across the skies of Earth, and they’re draining the planet’s energy.  The Gods of Destruction turn their senses to their own universes and find that the same thing is happening to every planet everywhere.  So they withdraw to look after their home territories.

Then Fu and Dogidogi show up, and Beerus realizes that Dogidogi is the “bird of catastrophe” from his premonition. Fu explains that the Universe Seed Hearts used in the last arc has now germinated into a cosmic tree, and it’s drawing energy from the twelve universes. 

Vegeta correctly deduces that Hearts was an unwitting catspaw in Fu’s plan.  Hearts sought to use the Universe Seed as a weapon, but Fu wanted to see the seed grow.

Fu’s objective is to create a new universe.  I’m not sure if the tree will become a universe, or maybe the tree will produce a new universe like some kind of fruit.  All that really matters is that his plan depends on the tree draining all the other universes, which the good guys can’t allow.

Fu leaves, and some of the gang begin to grow weak from the tree’s effects, so Beerus uses his own power to blunt the effects.  However, he can’t keep this up for long, so he’s counting on the others to resolve this crisis.

Meanwhile, Fu has a conference with his own team of guys.  One of them is his mom, Towa, although she doesn’t say or do anything here, so I’m not sure what to make of this. 

So this is your standard group of movie villains and GT castoffs.  We have Super 17, Bojack, uh... some guy in a labcoat...

... Turles, who literally takes a bite of his Tree of Might Fruit in every scene he’s in...

And fuckin’ Cooler’s back.  I guess he’s sticking with being on Fu’s team, not that he’s ever going to explain any of this.  Seriously, he’s been all over this show and yet he’s barely done anything.

Bojack picks a fight with Turles, because I guess he’s still sore with the Saiyans for his defeat in Movie 9, but Turles is no pushover.  Anyway, Fu convinces them to stand down, explaining that he plucked each of them from the moments right before Goku and the others defeated them, all so they could join Fu’s team and get a second chance at life in the new universe Fu is creating.  The prospect seems to be enough to convince Bojack and Turles to get along. 

I kind of want to go off on a tangent about this particular selection of Movie villains, but I should probably hold off, since there’s still a few more that will show up before this is over. 

So the good guys basically split up into two groups.  Xeno Trunks and Xeno Pan go with Goku and Vegeta, while Xeno Goku and Xeno Vegeta go off on their own.  Trunks’ group ends up in... some place, where they get ambushed by Bojack and Turles.  Yeah, there’s a pretty sharp decline in animation quality here.  I feel bad for Bojack fans. 

Meanwhile, Xeno Goku and Xeno Vegeta go to hell, where they meet a mysterious contact who summoned them here.  It turns out to be this scientist guy from Fu’s team, and all he wants to do is fight them.

Okay, so this dude refers to himself as “Dr. W,” and all he really does is swing that big metal thing on his right hand, which shoots energy blasts that move in unpredictable paths.  All he really wants to do is to analyze and record the boys’ fighting styles with his cybernetic eyepiece. 

I’m pretty sure this guy is supposed to be Dr. Wheelo from DBZ Movie 2, but for some reason Toei or Bandai wanted to swap out the brain-in-a-robot-body design with this version.  Did Fu supply him with a new body?  Or is this not the Wheelo we knew from Movie 2?   I’m pretty sure these questions never get answered.  It really doesn’t matter, because this fight sucks, and either this guy is Wheelo, or he’s not.  If he is Dr. Wheelo, then he sucks for being Dr. Wheelo, because I hate Movie 2.  If he’s not Dr. Wheelo, then he’s just some rando they stuck in this show for no reason, which is pretty dumb. 

Anyway, Xeno Goku and Xeno Vegeta fight the guy at Super Saiyan 3 and get nowhere.

So they turn Super Saiyan 4 and shoot their big energy beams at him, but they have no effect. 

In the other place, Dogidogi uses his powers to paralyze the good guys, which allows Fu to capture Tokitoki and escape.

Not sure what it says about Fu that he can subdue Tokitoki when Beerus seemed to be powerless against him.   Oh well.

In Hell, Dr. W escapes Goku and Vegeta and heads for a broken down machine in a cell.  He announces that he has collected all the data he needs on Goku and Vegeta, and will now input it into the person he’s speaking to...

... Janemba.  So I guess that machine there is the spirit cleanser machine that broke down in Movie 12.  How would Dr. W be able to share his data files with Janemba?  How would he even know how to do this?  Did Fu already recruit Janemba, or did he send Dr. W down here with instructions for reactivating him?  I don’t get it. 

Okay, so let’s talk about the movie villains.  Assuming Dr. W is Wheelo, we’re missing the following classic Z movie bad guys:

Garlic Junior

Lord Slug

Android 13

Z-Broly

Bio-Broly

Hirudegarn

Does that mean anything?  I feel like Lord Slug gets to be involved in these things more often.  He was in the Hatchiyack OVA, for example.  They usually pass over Garlic and Wheelo, and I always assumed this was because they weren’t popular enough to be worth the effort.  Z-Broly’s kind of too big for this sort of thing, and Bio-Broly flat out sucks, so no mystery there.  Hirudegarn is kind of difficult because he’s a rampaging beast, so he doesn’t fit with the whole henchman thing.  As for Android 13, well, maybe Toei decided they liked Super 17 better, and they didn’t want two androids on the team. 

Anyway, this whole story makes no friggin’ sense.  You can just grow universes from seeds now and Fu is making a new universe off the corpses of the old universes, and not even the Gods of Destruction can stop it.  Even accepting all of this, wouldn’t this be a job for the Grand Zenos?  I mean, it’s clearly too big for anyone else to handle, and if Fu gets his way, the entire multiverse dies.  You’d think that would warrant some attention.

[toasterdrake]

For the ship questions, 2 in Pre Relationship, 8 in general, 3 in love, and 1 in Domestic Life :D

sorry for taking so long to answer, my cat decided right then was the perfect time to show up w a pheasant chick so i had to deal w that 😭

2. What was their first impression of each other?

robin was blessed with an inborn Cool factor. she first shows up on main street, s2ep1, and fends off rexy (tfw animals behave like animals). sammy found this very impressive, especially as someone who knows how difficult it is to handle large animals, domestic or otherwise. yaz is a little swayed but ultimately thinks it was foolish to put herself in front of a t-rex like that and just hope.

robin, on the other hand, is too flooded with relief that she's not abandoned alone on isla nublar to take much stock of everyone individually, though at first she thinks of sammy as naïve and weak for being impressed with an action she hadn't really processed. this changes quickly. yaz stands out for her athleticism - robin engages with sports in her own way as a motorcyclist, so that's the first stand-out thing she clocks.

8. Who takes the lead in social situations? How are they around each other's friends?

robin will take the lead if she knows the situation she's dealing with, but mostly sammy takes charge of things as the resident extrovert. she's always happy for a chance to talk to someone new and finds some way of befriending them over a commonality. robin has a lot of friends in the motocross world. usually she attends events alone but if yaz/sammy go along:

sammy will get talking to them right away; she's a little overly bosterious because she feels challenged by robin having other support systems, but we all know she's friendly at heart so they get along great.

yaz largely is only open around people she knows well already, so she doesn't talk much around them, but she enjoys seeing how well robin feeds off their energy and will listen to/watch them from the sidelines.

outside of the camp fam both sammy and yaz have friends in their own circles. robin gets along fine with them but she has no interest in getting particularly close unless they share an interest of hers.

3. Who uses the cheesy pick-up lines, or does corny gestures?

robin has a MONOPOLY on pick-up lines. she's a chronic flirter and will drop lines on anyone whether she wants to or not. it just leaves her mouth and she has to face the consequences.

corny gestures are more sammy's forte. she's a hopeless romantic at heart, and is very lucky to have parents who work to keep their romance alive as role models. she spent her childhood watching romance movies and assisting her siblings in wooing romantic prospects, and puts that training to good use on her own partners.

1. When they move in together, who gets the most say in decorations? What do they each have to have in the house?

the only stable place available (chances are yaz would get kicked out of uni accomodation even on the island once graduating and would have to at least change the contract. i hc she lived w sammy before moving to wyoming anyway) is sammy's ranch. robin doesn't have anywhere to call her own - if she's not on the road she might visit her babbo or a friend, camp fam or otherwise, but mostly she just camps wherever. so, as the owner and the person who has spent her entire life there, sammy has the most say on decorating.

because she travels so much, robin only has the essentials and a few trinkets, and she's not in the business of clutter, so her presence in the house isn't massively notable. once she gets custody of a shed that is her bike domain first and foremost, though. she kits it out with everything she could ever dream of needing for them.

yaz leaves her athletic trophies and what-have-you at her mother's house. she likes taking the others on ikea trips and has an interest in restoring antique furniture/decorations. she has a somewhat more obscure, thrift-esque style but it manages not to stick out sorely in an old ranch house.

sammy is all about live, laugh, love and its various branches, as we know ♡ she also loves having memories of beloved animals around - from pictures to bones. she keeps a lot of heirlooms and will go to great lengths to maintain old blankets etc in good condtion.

ship questions redux

[rottencaniness]

- Castiel - running through the daylight au!

fem tfw - dean & sam || main moodboard

her hair is always pulled into a messy bun unless Sam sits her down to fix it, she just can’t be bothered on her own. There’s more important things to, like learning all she can about art and spending time outdoors running in the tall grass. She loves nature and if Dean didn’t drag her inside every night she’d probably curl up under a tree to sleep. Not that she’s against going with Dean, the days spent learning about cars in the garage or watching Dean play video games are some of her favorites. She also enjoys going to the store with Sam, she never sticks to the list or knows what every product is but Sam is always there to help

[walkingstackofbooks]

DS9 3x04 Equilibrium thoughts (I'm re-watching, so there may be future spoilers)

Odo is stirring so intently, it's sweet how genuinely he finds this interesting <3

Julian looks so scared of beets... and to be fair, the idea of having to eat beetroot just to not offend someone else is awful, I understand completely. *shudder* Tfw someone makes you try something just because you "haven't had it properly" before.

I love Kira's civilan clothes <3

"You look so cute." I had the same thought, Kira!

Ah! This episode!

"None of Dax's hosts, even Jadzia, had any musical ability." It is noticeable that sometimes she's more Dax than Jadzia.

Huh, it's more believable that Sisko made an illegal move than that you weren't paying attention?

Oh no, it's something deeper than that...

Kira's astonishment. She knows something is definitely wrong.

Creepy mask person

CREEPY MASK PERSON

Yeah this is disturbing

Jadzia's back <3

"the only major trauma the Dax symbiont ever suffered..." Seven lifetimes and only one major trauma?! I wonder what is defined as major... And then Jadzia comes along and lives her life 😅

Weird to start talking to Sisko and say "I suggest we get her back" - I'm guessing this is Starfleet Getting Permission From The Commander Speak, but also she's right in front of you, Julian, don't talk about her like she's not there?

I do love Jadzia and Julian's friendship <3

"When I was younger I was terrified of [doctors]." I do not remember this line, and that's so fascinating! Again, fits in so well with the GE stuff.

"I used to think that if I didn't behave, they'd make sure I got sick." This is actually heartbreaking to think of little Jules terrified on Adigeon Prime.

"I decided that I wanted to know what they knew, be as smart as they were... And you know what I learned [at medical school? That all I really wanted to do was help people." He's such a goodie and I love him to bits

"Now if that little story didn't put you to sleep, I don't know what will." Aw, I think he's been more vulnerable and revealing than he meant to. Awkward, self-aware Julian <3

I was very tense from when he offered her a bed that some sort of cringeworthy joke or comment would be made.... but no! A whole conversation without any awkward creepiness added in for no reason! Progress!

I read a fanfic the other day which described the uniform as having a violet undershirt and I had genuinely never noticed it before, I'd always thought it was grey, and now I cannot stop noticing it.

"Oh. Oh, that is not good. Not good at all. Tell me, how bad are the dreams?" So the guardian saying this straight out is terrifying, but also pretty validating

We always see symbionts having to be transferred host to host straight away, do they ever return to the pools or is this just where they begin their lives?

Julian's anger - "How do you know that unless you try!" and Sisko's calming hand, although I imagine he's just as frustrated. #siskoshir

Love it when Sisko delivers a threat, he's always so cool and composed.

"It's her life and her decision." Yesss, Sisko

Wait, were they going to just operate on her and take the symbiont out without letting her know?! That's awful! But it looks like they wouldn't have woken her up without Sisko's intervention even though it's evidently possible! What!!!

Saying "Julian" as soon as she wakes up - she may be scared of doctors, but she trusts her friend :3

"If you want to know who you are, it's important to know who you've been." For you more than most....

Solid episode, I can't believe the food scene was at the beginning, that seems so long ago!

[scoobydoodean]

Shy Anon here. I got HARDCORE Dean Stan in the quiz. It's funny cuz well. I used to hate Sam a lot up until recently (i was 13 when i started watching, I'm now 25). But now i just. Tolerate him? Because Dean loves him, and so I try.

Like i don't care about Sam or Cas, i have plenty of other characters I love. Like Ree. Ree my dearly beloved. I actually think that nickname will identify me in the fandom because I'm the only one that uses it but 🤷🏻🤷🏻🤷🏻🤷🏻

And yes. Plenty of things happened to me in this fandom over the years. I grew up in it. I got bullied. I had anon hate thrown at me, and this especially because I do not ship Destiel but i have plenty of Rare Dean Ships. I changed blogs a few times because of it. Whatever. I've learned to just stay in the Dean-side or neutral-Side of the fandom

I think a lot of people find themselves trying to tolerate one character or another, because we all analyze the chars usually starting out from just one char's perspective (or they might do things that dig into very specific hangups for us). As you know, I consider myself to be TFW positive, but if you were worried about it, I don't stop people from following me who don't like one char or another—even Dean. I doubt anyone with extensive issues with Dean follows me on this blog (unless it's a hate follow lmao) but Dean crits and Dean antis follow me on my other blog, and I don't care as long as they aren't constantly being annoying in my notes (because I actually mod the posts on that blog to keep the mood light-hearted for followers—anything overly nasty about a char gets removed so if someone is being annoying a lot, it gets to be a lot of work to mod and they might get blocked, but it's very rare that that happens).

I know I've told you over DM's Shy, but I'm really sorry to hear about the way people have treated you over some harmless rarepairs. I think it's a damn shame that some people in this fandom have such thin skins that they develop animosity toward people just for shipping something besides destiel (or other things), and I don't know why some people feel an entitlement to be so cruel about, what is, at the end of the day, all of us enjoying a TV show. I have seen some absolutely vile bullying happen in our fandom at times that will simply never ever make sense to me—who is doing that or how utterly pathetic and depraved and miserable they have to be to do what they do.

The destiel side of fandom can be really fun to engage with (because some of them will be happy to engage with you and others won't and the ones who will engage are generally nice), but interacting with the destiel fandom is also kind of like playing with fire—even for people firmly entrenched in that community. From an outside perspective though, you have a post that makes it too far into that community and someone who isn't as nice and kind stumbles across it and reblogs it to their toxic little circle and suddenly shit hits the fan. Some people are just unbelievable assholes, and I think destiel, being the biggest of the spheres we all drift through in this fandom, is naturally going to contain more people like that because the share of toxicity is (usually) proportional to size. But then if someone gets mad at you... it is, again—proportional to size, so instead of having like... 2 toxic non-shippers screaming at you from a total draw of less than 50 who make posts, you have... way more people to deal with than that. I understand wanting to stay away from that for safety—especially with a previous bad experience. Please know if you ever have issues with bullies, you can always come to me. I can't always promise much besides emotional support, but there have been a couple of small situations where I've been able to do a little more than that. Regardless, this blog is a safe place for you and you are always welcome here. <3

[misiwrites]

4KINGDOMS RE-READ ADVENTURE part 6

it's been a while. i got back in hopes of finding motivation to keep editing the next chapter to post

Chapter 23: rei being dramatic about max part 154349605 (is there any other content in this entire fic, well yes when it's takao and kai instead)

rei just sounds like he's massively in love with max. already. the story has barely started

wheezed at giancarlo attempting to explain to rei what an answering machine is and rei is just I DONT CARE

this part where giancarlo finds max collapsed and all wet sounds familiar. tfw it's supposed to be rare or "impossible" for max to soak himself and he's already done it twice in this story. i want to think i wrote this in as a prelude to the latter because

He had multiple types of magic to become untouchable by water, too. Unless he really was being threatened by something, there was no way he’d become incapable of using any all of a sudden.

yes indeed! isn't it so!

Chapter 24: heterosexuality takes max to his bed

this one just casually starts off with max describing himself as "a lump of raw meat on a butcher's bench" i-- yes that's your life in my fics. nice that you noticed

so this is where max sees rei with mao and realises oh shit that hurts. oh shit i think i like him. and then he's like "Please, Goddess, if it’s like this, I don’t want it" HAHA brutal. i like it. this chapter had several okay-sounding lines? looks like the curse of the previous batch that i read has been lifted because these aren't as bad. i did some minor editing for more dramatic effect tho lol

Chapter 25: takao finds out that kai, who doesn't know what friends are, has made a friend

i keep repeating takao talking about "cotton candy clouds" and i think it's not intentional but it makes it sound like he's constantly thinking about candy. let's say it's the kind of deal where if you repeat something enough (by accident) it becomes a motif

so takao has a dream about seiryuu that feels like it's trying to tell him something… hmm now what could that be. seiryuu is just a big ass snek floating on the sky in the dream.

gramps casually announces that takao and kai will do a fencing match together next week. it's pretty funny really how ryuunosuke in this story is somehow a mentor figure to both rei and kai. in very different ways but still

i feel like this sums up takao and kai's relationship:

I wanted to imagine that we’d spent a fairly good first week together, even if I hadn't exactly had a single decent conversation with Kai yet.

there's a bit about ralf finding out that takao's been talking to souichirou and takao is like yeah sorry! i won't lie to you again. [proceeds to constantly lie to him throughout the story] so clearly that didn't work out

Chapter 26: max lies in bed. that's it that's the chapter

it's the gay reimax stuff. again. i'll just say i like this passage:

I closed my eyes and lowered my head to place a cheek against my arm, listening to him talk without actually listening to a single word. His voice was like a brook, a delicate spring that I could have listened softly trickle down to my ear for hours on end. And then I thought of all the words said in his voice that would never be meant for me.

the max introspection really ramps up. his thoughts flow really well here, he's so aware of being a jealous little shit when really he's supposed to be happy that rei's got mao.

then judy comes over to his bed like i know you're sick and all but get a grip son. you're cringe

Chapter 27: did i already mention this fic is heavier on the reimax than i maybe realised?

i can't believe the chapter numbers are briefly almost even here. then max chapters just POOF! stop being a thing and he falls behind

anyway so rei is to olivier like. man i'm so fucking bored here that i may kill myself if you don't let me watch movies or whatever. and olivier says: no

actually. this just made me laugh out loud:

Olivier’s response was a nonchalant “no” and that I should either hone my calligraphy skills or learn to paint if I was so bored[…]

"hmm, no! but have you considered: art✨"

AS DID THIS:

I now felt so sick from worry that the green tea I’d had earlier was making its way back up my throat. I could only place my hopes on Giancarlo to stop Max from doing anything stupid.

Giancarlo did not stop Max from doing something stupid.

sooo max is a stupid gay idiot and comes to rei's place sick just to give him a DVD player. cute little detail also that rei charges all the devices with his magic (without realising it)

ah my favourite. when max realises that brushes in the west are human-sized

mao mentions the idea that she'd want to host a ball! ball mentioned! the BALL HAS BEEN DROPPED

max is embarrassed about feeling disgusted by having seen rei and mao together. rei is embarrassed about feeling disgusted by mao hinting at their wedding. they are a delightful disaster! there was exactly one takao chapter in here i'm sorry. for any readers out there. because someone evidently has read this? why

[ergativeabsolutive]

tfw you are low on funds and constantly experiencing chronic pain and brainfog and you just lost a family member and you keep thinking about [A] and [B] and a little about [X] and [Y] and your living environment is so chaotic and everyone you love is stressed about a million things and your dreams casually invoke mortal peril and horrific trauma and the world is only going to get more hostile for you in the next few years but its some how unusual that you sleep a lot or maybe not enough and are irritable unless youre (drinking || stoned) && listening to heavy music at full volume which you are very frequently and opening up a box of girl scout cookies and hyperfixating on a show you already watched years ago

[convxction]

ooc. falafel--i mean fell exalt quotes+lines rant down below lol~

tfw you almost forgot your name lmao. grima stop ad lib for krumb please.

the thing that makes me go UMMM? is how coherent he still is despite being dead. you know, dead means ...dead? brain no???? i wish that would have been portrayed in that way, at least it would make sense for me if he had like...broken syntax you know??????

ngl this line is ??? what do you mean??? is this the broken syntax that i was asking for???? but yeah the fire emblem is supposed to grant wishes and whatever so ...welp. that couldn't help stop that shit show now, can it?

nOOOOHOHOHOHOO1!! CHROM LOSIG HOPE IS DANGER ALERT!!!! sobs ...noooo ;a; god to make him sink this low to give up hope is just...hand in face ..cries....

bruh. i dont know what to say ... the level of interpretations can be different but yall ...thats so in love line and i hate it. man wants to hear his bestie's voice again ... all he hears is grima's ugly voice yucky. give bestie's voice again (winks at hosoya/miyuki san voices wehayahahaheheh)

sits in a corner ... commence crying. the thought that he might have killed some or idk drove some to be killed (or take their own lives) is just...depresso ....

CHROM'S OBSESSION WITH POWER SOBS....LET HIM GOOOO!! LET THE MAN REST GDDDIII!!!! SINCE DAY ONE HE DIDNT GET A REST DAY SOBS...HIS DAD DOING BADIES....HIS SISTER SUFFERING ALL ALONE...SHE DIES ....COUNTRY ALL UNDER HIS PROTECTION....THE SHEPHERDS...RISENS AND GRIMA....STUPID WALHART....WAAAA VALIDAR SATAAAAHHHP SOBS.....FUCK YOU GANGREL WAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOBS.................

mm...deep conversation for a dead guy. still hurts when he lost hope and ofc now believes bonds mean nothing sobs... BONDS MAN, BONDS!!!!! god...i hate love this.

falafel chrom: destruction to askr soon

alfonse, probably: wont let it happen

lif: mhm.

inhales...exhales.. THATS SO LOW!!! DONT USE THAT LINE!!!! WHY DID YOU USE THAT LINE????????/ THATS SO SO SO DEPRESSING!!!!!!!! KRUMB'S LINE.......!!!!!!!

oh yes add the depressing effect. so far in Japanese chrom had been....uhh.. syntactically wrong?? if i can say so, because he said in the last line 'Ane-san' and for my information you dont say ane-san, it is just Ane /big sister if you are referring to her so ??? idk if this was meant to show how damaged his mind is and he is just using whatever words his brain can retain after his death meanwhile in english is think he is ... better than me ahahaha;;; prease localization team ...for once make me restore my faith in your krumb writing sobs....

oh oh i see i see some in english now ... unless you see it as him saying it now ??? instead of " I couldn't protect a thing" meaning in the past . . . ? ? ? ? ? umm ...whatever~

now to the forging bonds thingie event...

lISSA DONT WORRY!!!!! HE WILL BE YOUR BROTHER!!! JUST BECAUSE HE IS DOING THE HEART EYES AT THIS FELLA HE FOUND ON THE PLAINS DOES NOT MEAN HE WILL FORGET ABOUT YOU...something something

sniffles. ninja cutting onion is back..

ah yes sweet sad and angst ... someone is taking notes of the past future dlc.

THATS TE LINE I WANT PEOPLE TO RECOGNIZE MORE!!!!!!!!!!! MAN LIKES COMPANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he likes his peace and quiet BUT HE LIKES HIS FRIENDS AND COMARDES!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY HIS SIGNIFICANT OTHER'S COMPANY SOBS ....FAMILLLYYYYY

watched the main story event and sigh... man just needs to be free to harvest souls. just let him go whack around XD i love that byleth just i will talk for these dumdums, chrom growling, maria repeating her siblings names, and anakos being anakos lmao. teacher mode still activates. anyway. sad dead krumb is sad sobs

[lpfreakification]

Woke up from a 6-hour nap + hungry

Today, I stayed home (+ painted) while the rest of the fam visited the sister to watch the World Cup Final. I dont care too much for sports unless it affects how busy it'll be at work. The only reason I wanted Argentina to win was bcuz my friend's Argentinian 👍 When my brother told me Argentina won:

"Yes!"

The back of my mind:

"I hope he's happy today X)"

Then I saw wtf Twitter was doing >B( What a mood killer.

B4 I was falling asleep, I had Super Mario Sunshine gameplay in the bg while I did some swatching with watercolors. Man, tfw your body starts to shut down :(

The main part of my dreaming I remembered the most was how my one of my aunts is just as obsessed with holograms glitter like my sister. It definitely felt like hours being in the Dollar Store.

As I was waking up, I thought of pizza to eat. Unfortunately I woke up at 10:25 PM from the nap DX Rats! That meant my job was closed for the night.

I opened Twitter.

"Ooo! Cats! :D ... ok, I want a cat now."

"LOOK AT THIS PRECIOUS KID!"

"Glad to know I'm not the only one X)"

*stomach rumbles*

"Uh oh."

"Oh!"

*replies + writes this post*

*sees response + responds back*

"Will do!"

[soullessjack]

yeah! like whether he’s aware of it or not, jack thrives way more in frenzied chaotic situations than he does in normal/mundane situations—the only question is if that speaks to his true innate nature as a Nephil being the “dominant” heritage over the nurture of Kelly and TFW.

and ofc that’s not to say he doesn’t have natural qualities from Kelly or their human heritage, or even that all their outward kindness and positivity is a total farce. They really are a sweetheart, and even a bleeding heart sometimes, just one whose bleeding heart can twist up horribly with anger or grief. like, take this whole scene where they look Like That—

at jack’s core all they really want is to be loved and wanted and accepted, and the fact that this is a direct reaction from Sam and Dean rejecting him, that this utter monstrosity is only lashing out in a pain of being rejected and betrayed. the way something so innocent and simple as wanting to be loved can be twisted into something like this, really is one of the key elements of his character I think.

and I also think that that balance between those parts of himself is always what he’s struggled to find and maintain, because as soon as he thinks he’s either mediated or found a side to settle on, something happens that rips him out of place and says “No, you don’t belong there actually.”

and going back on the “primitive fear response,” thing, I’ve always considered jack to have a very defensive nature overall; throughout 13x01, he never outright attacks or shows hostility to anyone unless it’s a direct reaction to them acting first—Dean shooting at him, Sam tasering him in the back, etc. I’m not sure if you’ve ever seen the iron giant, but if you haven’t, watch it. it’s a literal masterpiece of both animation and storytelling and is rife with sooo many parallels to jack that it almost sickens me.

but anyways, without saying too much, one of the details of the iron giant is that he’s a 50 foot tall childlike amnesiac robot with a defense mechanism that completely weaponizes him and is triggered by the sight of other weaponry—particularly guns, for the narrative’s sake. the film was directed by Brad Bird and morbidly inspired by the death of his sister via gunshot, as in his grief he wondered “What if a gun was alive and didn’t want to be a gun?” and thus we got the iron giant! Even without seeing the movie I’m sure you can see the Jack parallels in that sentence alone anyways lol. but basically, the Giant reacts purely out of defense and is otherwise not an active threat when shown kindness, like jack.

I had somewhere to go with this but I just lost it. Oh well!

todays tally on the “things about jack that have been almost erased by the baby au” is just how truly genuinely insane (and funny) they are. they pretended to be a coke addict to sneak into rehab and get kaia. their attempt at making friends was teaching the Lebanon kids knife combat because he hasn’t had any other socialization outside of constant war and violence. he loves hunting and he loved the war torn apocalypse refugee camp despite their constant risks of death and loss and suffering.

he straight up fucking decapitated a Gorgon with a fucking sword and just stepped over the headless corpse like an ugly carpet. they disobeyed Death Herself just to save someone they vaguely remember caring about and having responsibility over, then blackmailed the fucking reaper that was sent to watch him into keeping quiet or else Billie would kill her for failing to keep him in line. he attempted to strangle someone in a fit of rage that was so bad it took three gunshots fired into his back to snap him out of it.

some of his personality trait in the fucking wiki are literally how his “protective instincts are in fact, so strong that he will retaliate or turn against anyone if they have hurt someone he cares about” and how “because of Jack’s desire to protect his loved ones, he can show a ruthless side to himself at times.” he used necromancy, magic so evil and dark and potent that the self proclaimed evil skank Rowena Macleod wouldn’t dare to use it, just to bring Mary back.

they were smiling the whole time they fought Michael and especially when they exorcised/killed him. they were smiling and enjoyed torturing Nick and it was literally canonically in-script described as a cathartic kill. when the last Grigori had him bound and held at knifepoint in the church he smiled and said “You can’t kill me” and was still smiling while talking about the other Grigori he’d killed and eaten the literal fucking hearts of.

jack is canonically wanted by the fbi since dean opened a file at some point after Mary’s death + jacks disappearance, and alongside having multiple charges pending on said file, they’re considered armed and dangerous, too. They’re also literally personally hated and personally murdered by God Himself.

But we stay silly :3

[0256]

I don't remember the last time I smiled genuinely before March 5

[6okuto]

Since its asra I see👀👀 fluff hc?? Mayhaps fun lil sleepover or travel?? Gens fine too

— travelling with asra (+ sleepover hcs)

note from nia: tfw i read the name asra and my heart goes bADUM BADUM WEE OO WEE OO [squeaky noises while i wipe my glasses] [boi-oi-oi-oing] [train honking] [dogs barking] [wolves howling] [hearts shoot out of my eyes]

asra is like,, the best travel partner you can have

the amount of places he's been, the experience and knowledge, his general personality that makes travelling together fun

he manages to get discounts at a bunch of the places you visit whether it be because he's so charming or he helped the shop owner the last time he was there

learns simple phrases in the local language and teaches you

checks in with you to see if you're tired or you need water/food

has been building a list of places he'd love to take you for years and every time he gets to cross one off he gets excited

likes to leave little trinkets or notes at places to show you were there together

sometimes he'll just walk around places with no goal or map to see what happens . holds your hand so you don't get separated

generally doesn't have a schedule unless he has specific things he wants to do with you. and also because he doesn't know what kind of trouble or scheme you may end up in (again)

that ranges from daring him to walk in a fountain to another heist

will walk off the path or take you through some alley to find a hidden spot that he knows about from word of mouth or his own exploring. they'll always be really cool and/or pretty

always keeps you in mind while picking places to go so he can surprise you and watch you smile :[

he knows all of the little local shops around so you can be together with some peace and quiet

if you fall asleep during the trip he'll stay quiet and glance over at you while smiling, making sure nothing disturbs you

he tries out any local cuisines and goes to any events/festivals happening while you're there

asks the workers about a dish you like so he can try making it himself when you get back

not only while travelling but he's the type of person to see street performers and pull you to dance. i am so sad

he offers a massage when you get back to where you're staying

always manages to find the best rooms with your budget??

gets a room with one bed and acts shocked when he walks in and sees there's only one bed. oh mc there's only one bed i guess we have to share it :// !!! would you prefer the left or right side

loves buying things to remember your trip! ranges from odd trinkets from the local markets, matching accessories, etc

a little modern au!!

his luggage is so bright. probably has a bunch of stickers and a little id attached

has one really long playlist that he'll shuffle so you never know what you'll get but he'll always be humming/singing along

prefers road trips because you can bring faust

also i just can't imagine him on a plane. let him Free

is willing to let you drive but never complains about being the designated driver for you

falls asleep in the passenger seat while still holding your hand

get him a polaroid camera and he'll fill your wall

y'know those things with the cut-out faces you can stand behind. yeah he has a bunch of photos with you doing them

gets one of those caricature portraits done of you guys and faust

buys matching tourist t-shirts to wear with you. i don't care if you don't want to wear it you're Wearing it!!

sorry i. also had ideas for the sleepover . i have no control

if you didn't live with him he'd definitely have a section somewhere in his dresser with clothes for you during a sleepover

won't let you sleep on the floor. at least not alone. so he's either bringing you into bed with him or placing blankets and pillows on the ground next to you

has your favourite snacks and drinks on hand

will watch something new with you but also has all of your favourites collected to rewatch together. does little ratings

stays up as long as you do. will probably start trying to drag you to bed when you're both getting that #latenightloopy vibe or when he sees you getting sleepy

the world is your oyster! playing games, singing karaoke, cooking, building a pillow fort, doing skincare,, anything and everything is possible. whatever makes you happiest

faust is very obviously also taking part in all of this. moves your game pieces around, hanging from asra's neck as you sing, pushing ingredients your way,, she's just a gal!

doing skincare with asra and telling him to stop moving because you're trying to apply a face mask but he can't help but look and smile at you :'/

laying in bed going to sleep and he kisses you goodnight before pulling you closer :'(

makes sure you have breakfast before you need to leave the next day (unless you want to stay . he's also totally okay with that. jsyk. btw.)