#Unfather

[panaeolus-fimicola]

so curious why so many people have decided to tell me that it's not really my dad's fault that he's abusive, because of his disability. like. that doesn't make me feel better. trying to remove the blame from him as a grown adult man because he has a disability makes it feel worse, actually.

was also kind of funny.

i dont like my dad. 'why?' because he hit me all the time when i was little. 'really??' and scream abusive things at me. 'well you know its not really his fault because of his disability' ........ then dont have a fucking kid if you cant help but traumatize them, hello?

[dragonsandphoenix]

Recent binge of Lezhin

Dark Heaven: Amazing art, wonderful romance, the ending got a bit soap opera-y for me and I hate the “psychotic woman getting in the way of the gay” trope in BL... so that’s unfortunate. It’s not perfect but one of the best webcomics I have read in a while. Helps that it’s completed.

All About Lust: Great art, cute healthy relationships that practice communication and healthy sex. Like the 2nd couple more than the first. Has a pretty cool female character too which is a great bonus

Moritat: Ummm I honestly don’t know. Definitely the weakest of the completed manhwas I’ve read on this list. The romance(?) can be a bit interesting but the payoff wasn’t that great. Art was also kinda generic.

A Guy Like You: The beginning seemed promising but then it devolved into a typical BL soap opera so sighhhh

Killing Stalking: Uhhhh I’m still following this yes. I’m too far gone with this might as well finish it. Sangwoo is such an irredeemable shitstain that if he doesn’t die by the end of this series I’ll cut someone.

Unfather: Guilty pleasure of mine I know. At least I know I don’t enjoy Killing Stalking in the kink sense but this one... damn. I blame the main character, he is exactly my type. 

How sweet is a sugar daddy: The specific words I used to google this was “BL manhwa sugar daddy”... Yeah. I have no regrets. This one turned out to be surprisingly good? The character writing is solid and no stupid soap opera bullshit. Art style took a while to get used to but it reminds me of Nakamura Asumiko’s style which is pretty in its own way.

[mywifekarensmems]

[evermoredeluxe]

all the pop girlies trying to unravel the rap lore so they can enjoy the drama

[hellsblood]

nyx to cardan @cruelprincae : i’m done with men running after crowns sage, overhearing the conversation: *5 seconds later* sage to the people: *takes off his crown* i am retiring from kinghood the people: but your highness— sage: the woman i wanted as queen says she does not want kings and so you may address me as sir the people: but sir— sage: *puts crown on a peasant* you may rule yourselves now. i’m moving to portland and becoming a personal stylist peasant: 👁👄👁 the people: 👁👄👁 sage: do not worry, my darlings, i will send you wedding photos

[forgetmepleaze]

my mom think i criticize elon musk because im bitter of his "success in spite of autism" and that's why I'm not happy with what's he's done with twitter/spacex.

no! he's just literally fucking stupid!

he completely rewrote the code for one of the most successful social media platform bc his stupid jokes weren't getting enough likes!

he blew up a billion dollar rocket over a migratory bird preserve bc he HAD to launch it funny weed day!

If I inherited a fortune from my father's emerald mine I too might be a wet dream for autism moms world worldwide!

[profound-mystery]

Somewhat Shakespearian version of the Leitner rant

I was bored, I was studying Macbeth, have at it.

Jurgen Leitner? 

Knotty pated fool, hellish dog Jurgen Leitner, Damned fool, foul keeper of pages that dost grow grey and dark with collecting dust, the books though slower than he, aged rodent made of fruit unfathered, vassal wretch. Lascivious slave, twas said before: “the harder knife ill used doth lose his edge.” A motley dost thou makest of thyself, driven with humourless pity, foul thief Jurgen Leitner.

Shame not my flame when I do speak of Jurgen Leitner, to him, I have but disdain. What purpose does he serve to eagerly misuse cursed scrolls, would he have but meddled less in affairs which to him ought to be hidden, yet with his newfound vulgar scandal he but sets them free into the world! Is he standing still past his own death-knell? Hath he been unfathered? The man's bastard shame doth vex me, and shame, to which mine eyes have out of their spheres been fitted to which anger defines him to me. Never have I had the misfortune to upon his face set my eyes, and yet not are mine ears with his tongue’s tune delighted.

Were I to ascend past my knell, and see heaven's eyes in mine own with knowledge of his presence bestowed, I would, while God was smiling in my face, defile him at the door for the sole purpose of removing myself when heaven now ranks of worse essays.

Must I be exposed to the passion of his scanted knowledge, I shall have no choice but to spite the memory of him, and start anew, purely to run past when his name is mentioned to me.

I know not why, by him, my hairs doth unfix themselves, and stand ready at the thought. He merely keeps scrolls, I am raged with the trespass of his presence!

His errors, one on another's neck, must be explained, perhaps by the ghost of the past, for if he is without reason for his sins then I shall be enraged.

His errors must be born of pages, driven to blaspheme for if not his work then I.

paypal.com/JurgenLeitnerIbeshrew

Not even the focus is he, merely alluded to scrolls in his keeping and I was driven with madness.

He escapes me now, and if his corpse is not yet buried, I shall pray for his demise.

Crusty batch of nature…

I should merely blow air in his direction, and his frail body would implode at the very strength, and he would disintegrate before me to ashes until nothing beside remains save for a single scroll he kept on his person for dire emergencies, titled simply “Now, thou hast made a mistake” in ancient yiddish.

How now, I barely breathe through my wrath.

I hope on his deathbed I am privy to the time, so I shall be able to set upon my calendar a reminder.

Through every winter, I shall be granted a day to rejoice and contemplate respect for all but the man who kept such cursed scrolls.

[hellsblood]

❛ I thought you’d never asked ! ❜ with a snap of his fingers, he makes adoption papers appear out of thin air. ❛ what is your full name already ? ❜

❛ Is it too late to become adopted ? ❜

[finnsterwartooth]

KLOKTOBER DAY 13: CREATE-A-SKWIGELF

ronnie skwigelf, skwisgaars unfathered mall goth/emo son

[panaeolus-fimicola]

oh. vague threats. thats nice and definitely going to make me like you.

[dangermousie]

The dinner from hell is even more !!! on rewatch. I mean, it's not even his birthday, it's the birthday of the real Baek Hee Sung, the serial killer who tried to bury him alive in his family garden. That's a hell of a thing.

And you totally get this time why the unparents are sitting like aliens - their actual son is in a coma in the back room of their house and they have to celebrate the birthday of the imposter they acquired so as to keep their veneer of respectability - this story is so very much about seeming versus being - that is why Ji Won is both the audience stand in and the driver; she's the one character who sees through that because she believes only what she sees and not opinions, words, shibboleths. She observes and draws conclusions. Like the unparents are so wedded to their idea of being respected and properly regarded by the word they went on this insane plan because otherwise it would be to admit their precious son was a deranged serial killer who killed god knows how many people and for the time being ended his career by braining a random man and trying to bury him alive in the backyard. That is objectively an insane risk-reward calculation and could have gone very differently for them if Do Hyun Soo was the psychopath everyone accused him of being. BUT!!! Appearing Respectable is their God.

The narrative is all about how that sort of thing covers all sorts of horrifying behavior and motives. The one person in this narrative who unflinchingly admits to himself and believes he's a monster is, ironically, Do Hyun Soo, who except being a traumatized psychopath magnet, hasn't done anything truly wrong in his entire life. I mean I will never be over the fact that we find early on that his and his sister's guardian subjected him to horrifying regular public exorcisms and got the whole town to believe he was possessed by evil and it was bad enough he literally started seeing/hearing his dead father and near the end of the drama we find out it wasn't because the old man was prejudiced/superstitious/whatever but it was all about money.

(Or think about the shrink who diagnosed a kid with serious PTSD with antisocial personality disorder - because he didn't have the right background and she clearly just rubber stamped whatever came to her head in light of her prejudice over his parentage and peaced out. That helped wreck his whole life but she is gonna go through her whole existence not thinking about it. When FL actually screams at her later on, it's one of the most satisfying drama moments mmmm.)

Gotta say, I do feel bad for the unmother on rewatch. She actually did brain her own son when she witnessed him in the process of murder and saved the ML. I get why she's not warm and fuzzy towards him. Unfather persuaded her into this masquerade but at least there is something human in her.

Eun Ha is so adorable! I remember during the airing there was a wiiiild theory floating around that she's the true psychopath manipulating everything (which never made sense since she's 5, not even the biggest psycho could do that at that age) but nah, she's just a sweet, loved, well adjusted little girl. It honestly is the best testament to DHS not being any of the awful things he's accused of being - he's the primary parent and he's the one raising her (there is a very flipped 1950s marriage dynamic with the two with JW with her crazy schedule and all that being a loving parent but not one who really does much childcare at all) and look what an utter delight she's turned out to be. He's given her a childhood utterly unlike his own with basically no guidance of his own experience for it.

It struck me on the rewatch that whether he genuinely loves it or not, he'd always say that as part of his "must be perfect husband" thing. I mean, plenty of totally emotionally healthy people will love something just because it came from a loved one because of what it signifies when otherwise they wouldn't, but it's always a balancing act fot DHS as to whether it's that (healthy) or his not really allowing himself anything but perfection in front of her because he genuinely cannot function without her so he'd do anything to make her pleased. I think after the end of the narrative, one of the good things is he gets to discover fully and at his own pace and in a loving environment what it is he actually likes for himself in every respect.

Knowing it's not his name, this second is something else.

This drama is gonna get me writing reams this time around too.

[mywifekarensmems]

[real-fire-emblem-takes]

i wish i knew how to make a fire emblem bc... game ideasce. waugh.

brief summary: emotionally detached lesbian leader of a mercenary group saves a sweet peppy manakete woman (who does look like shes 20 and not 11) and ends up getting hauled into her adopted unadopted father's capitalistic quest to conquer all the (lycian alliance like) other nations on his continent. manakete woman is like hey um this is fucked up why are you lostening to this guy and the leader is like well i have mysterious reasons. they do a few war crimes before they realize Why : evil cult of guys who wanna revive a fell dragon are working in the distant Hugeass Empire to do just that and need manaketes to do this... but they scared them all off by existing so theyre trying to bribe people to do it. the warring alliance are too busy at war to do that, the nation of knockoff laguz are too busy giving a shit about other shapeshifters, and the other less defined nations dont have the manpower to capture a fuckimg dragon. the merc leader realizes this and as she has become a little gay but mostly besties w her manakete friend, she begins working against her father unfather to stop this shit from happening. she unconquers the other nations in the alliance but given she and her band defeated and killed the leaders of the nations they have no leader and given her band is now the strongest... people just start following the merc leader anyway. it helps that most of the leaders of the allied nations were assholes making the commonfolk do battle for their personal gain, and the merc leader does her own battling. merc leader lesbian is crowned the first queen of this new united kingdom (against her will) and is bullied into marrying Someone bc thats how royalty works and she chooses someone from her merc band Of Course.

20 year timeskip.

the new nation has become a safe haven for manaketes and all sorts of outcasts as Her Gay Highness has worked tirelessly to make sure the people who made her queen dont regret it because she has thinly veiled anxiety issues about her worth as a person. thanks guy (the lord who made her conquer in the first place) who adopted this war orphan from the streets and then unadopted her when his wife finally bore him a child. oh speaking of children given its been 20 years, characters who youve paired can have kids. but you gotta pair em before the timeskip, and only two characters always have a kid and thats the merc leader and the manakete girl best friend (gay). hey remember that huge fuckoff empire to the east? Yeah theyve launched a fullscale war against the laguz nation to just force them to hand over any manaketes after the evil cult installed a 14 year old puppet emperor. the laguz nation goes Ah Fuck Ah Shit Ah Fuck and asks their good buddies the combined kingdom to help them which they Do. but by the time they get there, the losses are extreme and the king of the laguz nation is dying. the ex merc leader helps his successor into her role and the two women go "oh yeah we're going to fucking destroy the evil empire" and then they do. The war is hard and sucks but eventually they fight their way to the evil cult. a few things happen : 1 the manakete who the ex merc leader has been besties with for 20 years is the DAUGHTER of the fell dragon the cult is trying to resurrect. the merc leader freaks out, and because of her trauma about people she loved abandoning her, kicks the manakete woman out of the band and Also Take Your Damn Kid. and your spouse unless the spouse is the merc leader in which case a truly heartwrenching cutscene plays. 2 : the cult members immediately find snd capture the manakete woman and are preparing to kill her kid and use the blood of the fell dragon to revive it. the merc leader hears about this and decides the final battle has to start Now to save them because holy shit that was a mistake obviously theyre not working together. 3 : yknow who WAS working w the cult? all the nobles who hate the merc leaders unnoble blood. so the cult know theyre there. whoops. they fight the cult but just barely lose, and fhe manakete woman's kid is Slain. the fell dragon rises, not bc of the blood, but bc the fell dragons only daughter got So Pissed. turns out the fell dragon isnt actually that cruel, not in life anyway, but given how he was revived by anger snd not by true love he comes back Wrong and the cult descend on him and tear him apart and eat his flesh & use his bones as weapons. oh they dont worship him they want to use him to kill all shapeshifters and anyone who works against them forever. they can, however, use this pissed off manakete by casting a spell on her and having her fight her former friends. Huge fuckoff battle. It ends w the lesbian merc leader slaying the leader of the cult and, agonizingly, the friend she saved forever ago. the manakete returns to normal once the mortal blow is dealt, and thanks the mercenary leader for saving her once again, and begs her to remain a peaceful and kind leader for the rest of her life. she dies. the merc leader is Only Anguish. the world is saved at what cost?

epilogue : the merc leader rules until she dies, ensuring that the still-combined nations of the west, the newly managed empire of the east, and the reconstructed laguz kingdom to the south are all on good terms and recovering well from the war. manaketes establish their own nation after being given land from each nation where they meet to own for themselves. the leader of it is revealed to be the manakete bestie's other child she had borne RIGHT before the war began who she had only implied existed in her supports w her eldest child and a few others. merc leader leaves behind a vast and tumultuous legacy, but her child rises to keep her ideals alive and make sure nobody can accuse her of having no worth. she chose peace and love and thats what is important at the end of the day.

various paired endings. if the merc leader and manakete bestie got married (the canon route but w/e), the merc leader never remarried and vowed to see her wife in anime chess heaven. its very gay. end credits.

oh i forgot to mention. there is an avatar character who can marry anyone who likes that gender as every character now has a canon sexuality. the avatar character is the m/cs childhood friend who does nothing in the story but is Kind Of Cool. goodnight

👀 love the concept

[haebeomsleftbuttcheek]

hi :) I noticed you like Manhwa's so what one's are you reading? have you completed any?

Hi anon 😊 yep I’m reading quite a few, but have only completed 4 of them!

Pearl boy - completed - literally my favourite one as of right now, I love it 😭 Dooshik and Jooha are my babies and they better get a happy ending! Some say the ending was sad because they basically drowned in the icy lake, and others say the ending was a opening ending so take it however you want…I’m taking it as a open ending so then I can pretend they had a happy ending!

Painter of the night - ongoing - I’m enjoying it, even though it’s depressing the hell out of me right now 😅 because Nakyum poor baby is so hurt!

Low tide in twilight - ongoing - I’m reading it purely for the brothers, especially the baby brother 😭 cutie patootie! Taejoo is handsome but he’s an asshole, and I have mixed feelings about him!

Unfather - completed - distasteful and the ending was even more distasteful!

Love me not - dropped - I really didn’t like the main lead he pissed me off, and I wasn’t enjoying the story so I dropped it. I might pick it up again at some point, but probably won’t!

Sadistic beauty (side story) - completed - I hated it, I really hated it and I don’t know why I finished it 🤷‍♀️ maybe because I was being delusional in hoping it would end well….not how it ended! Which was bad by the way….tragic!

Obey me - completed - it was weird, very weird that’s all I can say about that one it weirded me out 😂!

Jinx - ongoing - I’m going to try and stick it out but the main lead while handsome is a fucking arshole, and I don’t really like Dan either (I can’t believe I said I don’t like Dan when I first wrote this 😭 the lies….I adore him so this hurts) 😅 I’m not actually sure what I feel for the characters yet so I’m holding out, but it might end up dropped! Update: I’m not dropping it 😜 Dan is my beloved next to Jooha & Nakyum(but Nakyum wins top spot), Oh Daehyun…more like oh Damn 😮‍💨🤤 I’m seriously attracted, he has the muscles and the kindness(unlike a certain someone 😑), Heesung over criminalised 🫤 he literally isn’t a bad person like he has his flaws but hardly awful(unlike a certain someone), Potato is precious 🥺 and Jaekyung can eat a brick!

Man slave - completed - it was alright a bit boring and I found the ending rather boring too!

(Crazy thing about me complaining about Jinx’s Jaekyung and Low tide in twilight’s Taejoo being arseholes is the fact that with the Twin, Daehwi and Daekwang from Pearl boy I’m just like “my husband’s 🥴”)

[hellsblood]

sage says it’s unfair that sinday has to happen on a day the kiddos aren’t at school

[avelaris]

yeah yeah yeah but can you imagine the kind of pain wren is carrying after being taken from her adoptive family that she calls them unfamily, unmother, unfather, and unsister in her head because she loves them but she’s taught that she’s a monster and unlovable and doesn’t deserve to belong anywhere