#UGH RIO IM FERAL ABOUT THEM

[gravesung]

"a kiss on the forehead as the other sleeps." (pernaps.... kismet/anah bc i miss them)

kiss & tell. ACCEPTING

ANAH WAKES BEFORE SUNRISE. it's inevitable, with her the way she is: if there was ever a time in her life where she trusted people farther than she could throw them, not a soul knows about it. in fact, staying the night at all was a mistake.

somewhere along the line, when sex work blurred into a less transactional relationship she doesn't understand, anah slipped into the dangerous habit of comfort. sleeping atop falkner, listening to the augments in his chest as they thrum a quiet body song. lying with him on a rainy day, talking for hours, sneaking chocolate oranges into his pantry while he isn't looking.

somewhere along the line, she began to care.

and it's a mistake, she knows this. it's wrong. she exists to manipulate, to deceive, to seduce. she takes advantage of the weaknesses in men's hearts and binds them to her, and it keeps her safe, because if she controls everyone else then no one else can control her. she does not exist for soft and fragile things like this. ( deep down, she knows she doesn't deserve them. )

so, as always, she leaves. after slipping into the change of clothes she brought with her just in case, anah crawls back onto the bed and presses a kiss to falkner's forehead — not enough of a disturbance to wake him, but enough to give her some sort of closure on their night together.

the bedcovers still smell like her perfume when she steals away under the earliest threads of dawn.

[mingi-bubu]

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Episode 10 Part 2

- and we’re back, i have a small bowl of m&ms, i have a lychee kokozo, i have a fourth of a glass of water

- as the ever iconic mark lee says, lezgeddit

- we gonna find out who 60 is

- i hope its xiaowei

- ooh shit i forgot beebee hasn’t been chosen O.O’

- i’m torn between xiaowei and beebee

- i feel like it’ll be xw since tiana made a fanblog for her but who’s to say

- it’s xiaowei!!!

- but wow i feel bad for beebee

- why is frhanm crying?

- there’s so much going on

- xiaowei is crying and we are too

- what happens to the rest of the girls

- do those 47 girls get sent home what the fuck???

- y’all can’t just show me kun offering his hand and expect me to be okay

- oh shit they really are sending those girls home what the fuck

- this is very much not a fun thing to watch why are they making us see this the fuck

- this is reminding me of when i first moved into the dorms my freshman year

- rio wang wanting to write songs for the x girl group is T.T

- aurora is right like just bc they’re leaving now doesn’t mean they are leaving the opportunity for future success

- i hope i hear about all of these girls again in the future as they pursue their dreams

- NAHO AND MEDDHI THE DREAM TEAM

- meddhi helping naho is so cute i love them so much im not even paying attention to th egame fuckaldfjad;skl

- oooh are they going agains lisa??

- um...this is definitely a “you have to had grown up in china/have more experience with chinese culture” situation

- is rainbow like the chinese equivalent of the gorillaz?

- i love watching sped up choreo it’s so fun

- ngl i still hate the themesong

- the poor mic packs

- i hope no severdamage happens to it

- dance group won

- that was interesting to watch

- UGH WITH THE WHITE SUIT PLEASE SIR

- oou they lose their points

- thirty sixth to sixtieth have to leave if they’re still there at the next ranking???  bitch wow

- hes listing out the things to remember for being in a girlgroup

- two groups sing the same song ooooohhhh and theres 12 of them this oolong is piping

- OH MYG OD THEY’RE COVERING EXO’S MAMA I AM GOING FERAL

- i’m frhanm

- oh i hate this song

- and this one too but i think it’ll deffo be a sort of cute concept song

- oooh this one seems rather cool

- the last song isn’t bad but it’s not my favorite but also mainly bc i’m biased for exo

- kun is really doing the most bc he doesn’t like esther isn’t he lak;dsjfal;ksdfjd

- ugh i hate those desks rip to everyone

- love it when the subtitles disappear

- esther please just write something

- i love you sweetie but pelases

- oh wow the first six trainees got to choose their top choice

- who’s mama? omg shaking yessss

- they get to choose their competitors how dope is that

- shaking and babymonster are enjoying this concept too much

- OH FUCK WOW SO MANY PEOPLE

- esther’s face is so relatable

- hhhhh esther vs frhanm oh no i won’t be able to choose

- kun looks so cute when he’s trying not to laugh *insert heart eyes emoji*

- ook kiki vs sharon i love it

- xtz’s turn alkdfja;akdfj

- zhao chose someone i suppose but we don’t get ot know

- aww lisa is so cute!!!

- ella is serving mom looks i love it!

- ok i guess we can start voting or something?  idk i wasn’t really paying attention

- i was talking to my parents ladskfjasd;

- what is going on???  they’re jsut playing different songs and showing different trainees?

- i don’t know man but it’s fine i don’t need to know things

- song assessment was the only thing that i caught there

- oh ok back to the choosing of trainees for something except everything is ~secret~

- oh they’re choosing for like charm or something

- all im getting is flashbacks to justin choosing himself and kun and ziyi choosing each other during these things

- and now we’re going to a totally different thing

- it’s the same auction melodrama fromthe previous ep that they’re promoting

- and now we end

- i’ll see you guys next week for episode 11!!!!!