#Tw mental instability

[dietcoks]

I’m not that dramatic 🙄

also me:

[dreamsclock]

hey uhmmmmmuhhhhhm anyone else thinking about how cdream can probably never genuinely think about burning himself in lava because of how illogical it was. he planned the prison he knew it wouldn’t help him escape. it wouldn’t even kill him. he was doing it to cope and because he was so unstable and his logic-driven mind 100% would not be able to cope with that when he escaped i don’t think. like he can justify everything to himself EXCEPT that behavior because… really, he knows, there was no thought behind it except pain and exhaustion and dread.

[domina-honoribila]

I need your prayers, please. My husband has been hospitalized for a bipolar episode. This is probably the worst he's ever had.

[beanghostprincess]

Sabo still struggles with memory loss. He had his childhood back, of course, he remembers Ace and Luffy and everything they did together. But he doesn't remember some stuff. Some anecdotes Luffy tells oh so excitedly? He can't recall that those happened. And if he does, it's all blurry and never at all like Luffy says. But he never says anything because that would break his brother's heart, to know his older brother isn't fully back with him, so he nods and smiles and pretends he knows what Luffy is talking about every time.

His room is filled with Post-it notes. Stupid, really. Dumb stuff. But he has all the meetings he needs to remember and the missions he has to do, along with everything he wants to write down at some point properly. The walls are covered in pictures of the people he loves (Luffy, Ace, Koala, Robin... All the others that have ever meant something to him because he refuses to forget somebody again).

He keeps writing dumb stuff down. Anything. He refuses to forget. He denies the possibility of doing it again.

But he forgets. Sabo keeps forgetting important dates. Important parts of his life, like his past with his brothers (he forgets a random adventure they had that he swore he had talked about the day prior) and crucial things he has to do. He has a hard time picturing his memories. Putting them in his brain. Turning them into images. Saying it's frustrating is a huge understatement.

Koala helps him out, of course. She's hard on him so he finishes his paperwork, but she knows it's difficult sometimes. She's his personal calendar and diary. She informs him of what he has to do during the week and always tries to talk and talk about anecdotes that she knows he still remembers but knows he loves to hear again.

His mental health isn't the best either, but he refuses to acknowledge it. There's a revolution at hand, he can't stop working. And fighting. And doing more and more and more. But sometimes it's just too much. Sometimes he goes into depressive episodes he can't control, and the medication is either addicting or the worst thing that has ever happened to him. Sometimes he's a bit too intense. Koala says he needs to calm down, that he has a problem with his fixation on the revolution and his past. Sabo keeps saying that it's fine. But he sometimes forgets or has blurry images of the fights and the people he has killed, filled with energy and excitement and like he has the power of a God. He doesn't like those. Enjoys the moment. Hates to forget it. Hates to know what he did during it too, even if it was for a good cause. Despises the look Koala gives him, also. Makes her promise not to tell Luffy about all of this.

But it's fine, he keeps saying. Sabo will keep trying to never forget anything ever again.

[candieduranium]

[calf-cover]

Do you love the king Ambassador 7u7?

I'm sorry that it took so long, this was a rather big answer. Read the warnings and have fun!

[imbecominggayer]

Writing Advice On Mentally Ill Characters

Piece Of Advice: GO HARD!!!!!

When I see a mentally ill character who is prim and proper and only has "desirable" and not "inconvenient" traits I throw up inside my mouth and I want to spit it back at you!

Write mentally ill characters who are the biggest piece of shits alive!

Write mentally ill characters whose depression is demonstrated through self-destructive habits that hurt their loved ones emotionally and physically!

Write characters who have anger attacks so brutal they have to consciously convince themselves not to pull an Edgar Allen Poe "Black Cat" stunt on their pets!

Write mentally ill characters who are abusive and aren't justified or excused due to their past!

Write mentally ill characters who don't do the "sympathetic" or "good" things like taking their medicine or believe in "safe" things!

Write mentally ill characters who are burdens on their loved ones!

Write mentally ill characters who don't have perfect loved ones to turn to and don't blame their loved ones!

Because this is reality! Depression, anxiety, insecurity, anger issues, and general mental unwellness are not hurricanes that convenientally avoid wrecking the most important parts of a character's life!

Real life people deserve to see their dangerousness, suffering, and messiness reflected in characters!

Write hopeful stories about non-sympathetic and not-so perfect victims learning to grow! Sometimes the most hopeful thing alive is to learn that your worst fears of being a burden on your loved ones, of being a horrible person, of losing people you care about, are absolutely true and then have the courage to continue.

As a mentally ill person myself, I have been a mental load on my family! My mother can't understand me and has misappropiated the "cause" of my problems! My dad is a general piece of shit who is dealing with his own demons! My sisters don't live in the house and barely bother with contacting me.

And I am still alive. I am a horrible, incomphrensible burden with no friends and I am as happy as I can be! I feel whole. I feel complete.

Why can't stories ever seek to include people and stories like me?

[tuhbanbuv]

In the past 48 hours, I've learned that Twomad passed potentially by overdose after supposedly playing Overwatch nonstop for a 5-day period secluded in his home.

I understand that the dude was probably an awful person, but the dude snapped close to the end. It was obvious the dude was having a manic episode of sorts around his controversy and leading to his death, to the point where some people are comparing it to Etika's passing even if it's kinda not really the same.

It does bring up the issue of mental illness. Mental health support is more than difficult to obtain especially in the black community. People are taught to bottle up their emotions, told their faking for attention, etc, and no one really gives a shit until a "rest in peace" article shows up.

Millions of deaths and breakdowns, psychotic breaks and despair can be prevented if we understood and improved the mental health system. You can hate Twomad, yes, but do not hate his mourning family. Understand what happened, what led to it, and work to prevent it in yourself and others.

Do not repeat the cycle.

[rrcenic]

if i had a nickel for every time i spent the night in a hospital for mental health reasons and woke up and immediately drew lotf fanart i’d have two nickels which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that i’m that much of a nerd, right?

anyway here’s some doodles

[flightlessphantomboi]

[ @i-used-to-hear-a-symphony ]

Hiiii it's me! ⭐

I'm okay- I uh managed to escape sort off, it'll still take time for me to go home - but im safe I think!:D

(TW, breakdown, repeating words/sentences, obsessive behaviour, threats)

🌌Private Messages 🌌

[Flightlessphantomboi has sent an audio message]

Wh-Oh my god, Sienna?! Holy fucking hgjibdfgbfdskjv-

*muffled screeches and whines*

Fl-Fledgling I need to see you please I've been so worried I missed you ImissedyouImissedyouImissedyou-

Where are you are you hurt oh god you'll be hurt my brain's going fucking nuts where are you where is the fledgling-

*another screech morphing into an animalistic growl*

My fledgling he hurt my FUCKING fledgling didn't he I'll kill him I'll fucking kill him- Sienna please tell me where you are I need to see you please-

[End of audio message]

[ijustbesayinstuff]

Just imagine getting kidnapped by a dude that lowkey cares about you and you don’t have to worry about ANYTHING. Just have to sit there and look pretty for him. No bills no school you have no more responsibilities just nothing. Bonus points if he gets you stuff. You’d be kinda like a stay at home wife except illegal. That would be the life it really would

[sweetbonbon]

I was thinking “wow I hate the person I have become” but then I realized I hated the person I was too. So I just really hate myself in general and all the stages of my life and in all the ���phases” I have had. I really just hate myself.

[shioricain]

1800s AU with Attic Wife Will who became more mentally unstable over the years due to trauma and mental health issues til the point he could no longer interact with others and live life normally, becoming shunned by others due to the stigma surrounding mental health, and Mike who married him because he has always been, is and will always be in love with Will no matter what, and couldn't bear the possibility that he could be sent to an asylum. Mike has kept him isolated ever since because 'he loves him' and 'is doing what's best for him'. Sometimes Will screams at him and digs in his nails into Mike's skin and pulls, leaving long red scratches decorating his skin, only to break down and profusely apologize to Mike for hurting him to completely becoming like a hollow she'll of himself, unresponsive. And yet Mike's adoration and reverence never falters

[bioniclemanga]

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At some point, I'll figure out how to accurately draw that shattering effect... but for now, you get this haha

Anyway. Poor, poor Lewa...

[slaughterlocked]

[ deck ] your muse decking mine in the face. ( from henry for Reasons You Can Probably Guess lmao / @ladyseidr )

WILLIAM HAS TO LAUGH OR HE THINKS HE’LL GO MAD. HENRY LOOKS GOOD FROM THE FLOOR, TOWERING OVER HIM — wrong thoughts to have when Henry is so blatantly, ridiculously unable to understand his intentions, but William admires his old best friend ( is that what they’d been? ) as he wipes his bloody nose. Violent with anger, oh, what a team they could have made: if only Henry hadn’t been quite so moral, quite so cowardly. How can someone so brilliant be so afraid of progress? William doesn’t think he’ll ever understand.

Not that he has the time to, either: he props himself up on his elbows, scrambling back from the furious figure of Henry. “Easy now, easy,” he says, like trying to soothe a wild animal, half - scornful, derisive, and half - appealing. Hoping, deep down, that Henry will come to his senses, realizes the great work William is doing. In the name of science, in the name of eternity. Doesn’t Henry love him enough to want that? A forever with him? “Listen to me, Henry, just a moment—”

Heaving himself to his feet, head reeling from his sudden blow to the face, William gingerly smiles, touching across his cheek and jaw to ensure no breakage. It hurts like hell, sure to leave a bruise or two, but it doesn’t feel broken. He takes this as a positive: Henry cares enough not to damage him properly. His smile grows, appealing, earnest. Manic. “I understand that my experiments come as a, erm, as a shock to you. But if you hear me out, I can fix it. Fix everything. Henry—” And here William laughs once more, almost childishly enthused about his next sentence. “I can bring our families back again. Don’t you see how incredible my studies are?”

[candieduranium]

THEYRE TAKING ME OFF BIRTH CONTROL BECAUSE IM TOO MENTALLY UNSTABLE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO

MAYBE I’LL GROW A FEW BRAIN CELLLLLLS