#Totally wasnt in an angst mood

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seventeen fic recs

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LAST UPDATED: 09/12/2024

poly/multiple members

dating svt (hyung line) - ( @wqnwoos ) LOVE IT, joshua got me on a chokehold, and wonwoo PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE :( wherecanIgetoneofthose

dating svt (maknae line) - ( @wqnwoos ) mingyu as a back hugger is so :(((((((((, I can totally see dino writing love letters to his s/o :(((

you take your promise ring off during a fight - ( @wuahae ) performance unit, vocal unit , hip-hop unit, angsty af, made me cry a little

reaction to the camera panning to them when their idol!s/o is on stage - ( @leejungchans ) idol!au, idol!reader, dsfkjsdfjh the jeonghan is my fav idk

kitten ears - ( @hansols-yoda-boxers ) pwp, smut, hybrid!reader in heat, LEMME TELL YOU SOMETHING ABOUT THIS ONE RIGHT HERE, IT´S FILTH,,,,, and my fav one is hoshi´s LDJSLFJH read it whenever you feel like having a 2019 smut fest

until his tummy caves in - ( @hoshifighting ) reaction, smut, this was a whole mood

kiss attack - ( @blue-jisungs ) fluff, the wonwoo one was my fav

hip hop unit

seungcheol

caught in a trap - ( @cheolism ) smut, seunkwan´s sister!reader, older brother´s bff!cheol, face riding, he makes you beg for it, “you’ve got me in your little trap, baby. what are you gonna do with me?” SLDKJSHDFKSJ whY is he like tHAT??

as your boyfriend - ( @chanswifey ) he gets offended if you don´t let him pay???? now THAT´S my kind of man

whatever you say - ( @thepixelelf ) fluff, crack, text au, #simp, this is funny lmao

wonwoo

he angry fucks you bc he lost in a video game - ( @sluttyminghao ) blurb, smut, explicittt, the title??? I can see the vision. listen the way this just escalated INMEDIATLY I-, he is ANGRY FR FR in the hottest way, just read it ok pls

the peephole - ( @rubyreduji ) smut, perv!wonu, roomies au, he´s obsessed, "Speak up, slut. Or have I fucked you completely stupid already" HELLOOO?????

couple things - ( @wqnwoos ) slice of life, fluff, “is there… a reason you’re upside down, my love?” 

lingering looks - ( @smileycarat ) fluff, idol romance u, POWER COUPLEEEEEEE, I love it, this could be us but he playin

marriage - ( @yikesmary ) married life au, dad!wonu, his daughter (a child) wants to marry uncle gyu so he goes on cardiac arrest bc there´s no mf way bUT at least it wasnt soonyoung LMAOO the hoshi slander never stops

workplace crush - ( @icyminghao ) work au, co-worker!wonu, I CAN TOTALLY SEE HIM AS "THE IT DEPARTAMENT CRUSH"!!!!! I would have had to quit, it´s too much

lucky! - ( @97-liners ) fluff, reader is out of it bc of anesthesia and she cant believeee mingyu´s hot rommie is her mans, IT´S SO CUTEEE

bruised - ( @hannieehaee ) angst, fluffy ending, break up au, tough guy wonu but he´s actually a cutie pie, he´s careless about his safety, I LOVE ITTT, the angst is gewd

what you need - ( @cheolhub ) smut, shy!reader, soft dom!wonwoo, praise kink, JEON MF WONWOO I- LSFHSKDJFHLSJDFLH this made me blush yall, the ending too sdfksdfkh

mingyu

birthday boy - ( @odxrilove )fluff, f2l, the fLIRTING!!??, i honestly blushed, my eyes got watery and everythin, i HATE IT (not) bc why is he so dreamy every TIME??, also,,, the make out sesh?? MY GODDD, i swear I felt it. he. is. inloveeeeee

he´s big - ( @madeforgyu ) smut, size kink,"daddy's too big for you? s'okay, princess, you can do it. you can take it. you're my good girl." CALL THE MF POLICE RN!!!!1!!!!! iminlove

beach boobs babes - ( @rubyreduji ) smut, beach au, chubby reader, big boobs, he´s suffering sfjfjdhdjdh, HE´S COCKY,, literally, shit talker, titty fuckin, he likes thicc girlsssss

pup code - ( @beefboyandbabygirl ) fluff, smut, crack, size kink kinda, mingyu has a fat crushhhh, lowkey himbo vibes, he gets so nervous lmao, jeonghan is a lil shit, somebody help mingyu omg, wonwoo is a victim!!!!!, “I’ve never done the Zoolander face in my life!” jefjrejufriuj

sleepy talk - ( @wheeboo ) fluff, married au, “Do you think I’m pretty?” “Sweetheart, we’re married.”

hybe romance - ( @hannieehaee ) idol!gyu, idol!reader, fluff, love itttttttttttt, THOSE PICS OF MINGYU ON PART 2 LORDDDD, if I was an idol hanging out with the 97 squad i´d be a hOE, no questions asked, bunch of men i want to fucc sitting together would be the end of me

pussy drunk - ( @hannieehaee ) smut, pussy whipped, "i'm legit gonna kill myself if we dont fuck again", HE NEED SOME MILK

creep - ( @smileysuh ) smut, halloween au, serial killer!gyu, ghost!gyu, jeonghan is always starting some shit I swear, this is DIFFERENTTT and the smut is so good yall PLEASE read it

first morning together - ( @ssentimentals ) FLUFF, UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :((((((( ihateithereitsocute

thirsty - ( @cheolism ) smut, those pics of mingYU NAUUUUURRRRRR WOOF WOOF SDKHWEYWRAWRRAWRAWR lemme stop bc why tf would joshua do that for????? pls I love big men, the smut and the stamina are both crazy

mingyu´s cause of death - ( @welcometomyoasis ) FLUFF, bf!gyu, this made me really want to cry myself to sleep from the beggining bc there´S NO WAAAAAAAAYYYYY :´´) so cute #simp #whipped

cuffing season - ( @number1mingyustan ) smut, richbf!mingyu, he got a black card, good money, good job, loves spoiling you AND he´s wearing the wife beater - grey sweats combo??????? CUFF HIM UP NAAAOWWW, AND AND AND he also makes sure to fuck you without ruining your hair and nails that HE PAID FOR!!!!!! BUT since he gets a lil carried away and you chipped a nail he gives 300 dollar$$$ to get it fiixed right away LIKE????? god please when is it my turn to be happy

wet sound - ( @nsfwhao )smut, short one, THE DIRTY TALK!!!!!! I HATE HIMMMMMMMMMM bc wdym he makes her shut tf up so she can listen to her own wet coochie sOUNDS????? call 911 rn

vernon

vernon loves your face -( @nonranghaes ) fluff, short drabble, he´s so in love omg, sdsdkfj it´s so cute

coffee talk - ( @wqnwoos ) fluff, coworker!vernon, work romance au, jwhhxsjxsjd cutee

bias - ( @wooahaes ) fluff, slice of life, idol!au, you make the cats choose their svt bias, IT SO WHOLESOME :((((((((

vocal unit

woozi

joshua

mr. nice guy - ( @toruro ) smut, next door neighbors au, I HATE HIM skfffkjs this got me blushing and shit, he cosplays as a gentleman but he´s actually just a flirty nasty mf

confession - ( @nonranghaes ) fluff, slice of life, this is so cute sldfjshldjfkh

seokmin

You Know What They Say About Men With Big Feet - ( @hansols-yoda-boxers ) smut, big feet, big nose, big muscles and a big dicc YUPPPPPP, seokmin has it ALL

jeonghan

2am conversations - ( @wqnwoos ) slice of life, “what if crabs think that fish can fly?” “angel, it’s two in the morning,” sdkhfksb it´s cute :(((( so domesticc

the long way - ( @trblsvt ) model!jeonghan, staff!reader, UGGHHDSLHFLSKH i love this, he´s so confident and lowkey straight forward

tinted windows - ( @duhnova ) smut, ceo!hannie, panty ripper,, literally, car sex, “sir you have a meeting in twenty minutes.” “fuck that stupid meeting, i have more important things to be doing right now.” IT´S GOOD YALL

poker match - ( @hoshifighting ) smut, sub!hannie, dom!reader, famous poker player!jeonghan, famous poker player!reader. he finally meets his match in every way. I LOVEEEDDD this, it´s such a fresh concept

night time questions - ( @wqnwoos ) fluff, LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEE THIS IS SO CUTEEE :(((( had me giggling and crying at the same time

seungkwan

dance unit

hoshi

drunk and in love - ( @97-liners ) fluff, wasted!hoshi, him in his tiger patterned-shirt, asdkjasdh he´d deff be like this, he rants about how wonderfull you are to whoever got ears, so cute

junhui

minghao

lollipops and candy bars - ( @hansols-yoda-boxers ) smut, sub!hao, reader loves to tease, cute and innocent looking reader, hao needs help lmao, "Well, I finished off my lollipop a while ago, do you have anything else I could suck on?” SKLHDLFJHKLDJ wow

chan

[cookies-over-yonder]

12 13 14 and 23!!

12. Are there any tropes you used to dislike but have grown on you?

hmm.... i think just in general fluffy romancey stuff has grown on me. i'm a hardcore angst lover but i wrote a whole giant kiss fic hdifkebfjekf so like... oh i know. friends to lovers. its not that i disliked it. its more like i wasnt so obsessed with it but i realized recently that its TOTALLY one of my favourite things SHDKSLFKDLF

13. Are there any tropes you used to like but don’t anymore?

LOVE TRIANGLES 😍 DAJDKSNDHAJAKLDNKJL

14. Are there any tropes you would only read if written by a trusted friend or writer?

again for me this is kinda just. romance in general. i'm so picky when it comes to romance. i have to be in the right mood to read it and it has to be GOOD EAGEIWBEJWBE

23. What’s a trope, AU, or concept you’ve never written, but would like to?

...cass getting killed by scary's vampiric touch because it went past her arm. so taylor watches willy die and subsequently his mom die too. i'm a sucker for angst ok. but then cass comes back as a demon... aka demon!cass au. maybe one day i'll write it LMAO.

thank you!!!:))^_^♡☆~!!☆

[andvys]

hello and welcome to another read with honey/horny (depending on the mood) anon. this time we're reading I'll miss you forever which sounds like the most painful angst possible and I don't believe in any happy ending in this, I think they're both gonna die 😭

A field where you had once spent evenings and nights with Eddie was now a burned down battle ground. A place that used to fill you with so much happiness was now just a place filled with death and horror. 

great start. totally not heartbreaking at all 😁

Eddie had died a long time ago, you lost count of the months that have passed since the night he had died in your arms, the night you had begged for him to stay, to not close his eyes, to not leave you. 

oh 🥲

Why did he have to draw those bats away? It didn’t change anything.

YEAH THATS ACTUALLY TRUE 😭

You were dying, they knew it but they refused to believe that the person that always protected them, that was always there for them was losing her life. 

OH GIRL NOT YOU LITERALLY DYING I THOUGHT YOUD JUST BE DEPRESSED

“It’s okay, Lucas,” you whispered as Dustin pressed harder against the wound on your stomach, causing you to groan in pain. 

NOT IN FRONT OF THE KIDS!!!

They knew what it was, Max gave them letters when she thought that she would die. 

OH NOOOOO

“We made it! Guys! We won! Vecna is dead, the upside down is gone!”

cool! do you know who also will be gone in a sec? : )

He whispered your name fearfully, he shook your shoulders, “y/n! We made it!” 

NOOOO POOR DUSTIN THE KID IS LIKE 15 AND TRAUMATIZED FOR LIFE

“Come back!” Dustin yelled as he began to sob, “please come back!” 

NOOOO I WANNA HUG HIM

Steve

oh shit

The girl he called his best friend, the girl he hugged just hours ago, the girl he promised a victory was now gone. 

:(((( IM BIG SAD

For the first time in his life, Steve broke down in front of someone else, he laid his forehead against your shoulder and cried, no longer being able to stay strong in front of others, no longer being able to keep his tears in. 

OH MY GOD THIS IS HEARTBREAKING imagine being dead but still seeing alive people mourning you? that be the worst ever

“I’m so sorry, bug,” he whispered as he grabbed you and pulled you into his arms, holding you one last time. He knew how much you struggled without him. How hard you fought to avenge his death and to win this fight, you fought and fought and now you lost.

BUG??? 😭😭😭😭 THIS IS SOOOO SAD

When you opened your eyes again, you were standing in the middle of a field. 

NO STOP IM CRYING ALREADY

“What are you doing here, sweetheart?” He whispered sadly as he brought you closer to him, “it wasn’t your time yet.”

NOOOOOOO TEARS ARE FALLING FROM MY EYES

As long as you have him by your side, you will always be okay.

OHHHH:(

ANDY THAT WASNT A HAPPY ENDING AT ALL :(( IM SO SAD NOW IM TEARING UP LITERALLY :(( very beautiful but also heartbreaking 💔

to brighten up the mood i came up with a pun for my name to use when reading angst... melanHONEY anon (badum tss) ....... (crickets) (booing) (throwing tomatoes at me) (no one laughed)

the intro to this was perfect 😂 i was actually watching sad eddie edits earlier and then got this idea out of nowhere and started writing, i could’ve definitely made it longer and more detailed but i was too excited 😭

“do you know who else will be gone in a sec?” LMAO 😭

Dustin really is traumatized, we’re gonna see him suffering in the next season I already know it 😭

IM SO SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY BESTIE 🥹 but but…. they’re back together now 🥹 isn’t it a happy ending? 🥹🥹

melanhoney 😂

horny anon for smut, honey anon for fluff and melanhoney for angst perfect 😌

Bestie thank you for the feedback as always and i’m so sorry for the angst🥹🫶🏻

[bjornswoman]

One of his women

Requested by none.

Author's note: Hey guys! This is another one imagine with Hvitserk. I am thankful to you for your support, it means a lot to me. Thank you so much guys!

Pairing: Hvitserk x Reader.

Genre: Smut, angst, drama, romance.

Summary: You are one of Hvitserk's women, but not for long.

Warnings: Smut, unprotected sex, strong language, jealousy.

You were awake for a while but you didn't move, you didn't want to wake Hvitserk, who was supposed to sleeping next to you. You turned so slow, because you wanted to see his face. He was so peaceful when he was sleeping. You turned but you faced just empty furs. You felt disappointed, about that and wrapped your furs better around your body.

He wasn't sleeping with you anymore. Even when he actually came to lay with you, it was like he did it out of duty. It was like he didn't want to be there. It wasn't like you were his wife, you were just one of his lovers, but since that slave girl, that Margrethe, showed up, he had totally forgotten about you and his mind was with her. He wanted to be with her all the time. That broke your heart, but if he was happy with that woman, you would be happy too, but this, whatever it was, it was bad for you and you had to tell him.

The people of Kattegat weren't kind ones. They had already spoken about you and how stupid you were. You had refused some nice men just to be with Hvitserk and he repaid you that way. You didn't care much about their sayings. You cared about Hvitserk, but for your own good you had to move away from him. Apparently, he wanted Margrethe and whatever he was doing with you was just because he had to because you had refused all those men for him and he thought it as his duty to laying with you.

You were a jealous woman that was true. You didn't want your man be near other women, but Hvitserk wasn't yours, so you had no right to be jealous. He was clear to you. He had told you that he laid with any other woman he wanted. If you didn't agree with that, you would lose him. At first you didn't care so much because you didn't feel that you love him. You just wanted to lay with him, but that didn't last long, because you fell hard for him.

You were a fierce and proud woman, you had managed even to be an important part of the shieldwall and that was something that Hvitserk liked. You had even managed to be one of his regular women. Actually, you were the one that he laid with regularly. You were the first on his list. Until Margrethe managed to steal everything. She had the exclusiveness. He hardly ever had time for the others and sometimes he came to you.

You hated her from the first moment you saw her. She thought she could have all the younger sons of Ragnar. Well, she could. She had Ubbe, Hvitserk and Sigurd. Only Ivar wasn't hers, but undoubtedly she would attract him too. It was normal for slaves like her to want to be with their masters. Slaves seeked power and wanted to be free and these thing a prince had them let alone three soon-to-be four of the sons of the most famous king. You should have congratulated her, it was a great achievement to seduce three princes, three sons of Ragnar.

But still, maybe they were too much of idiots to share the same woman. What kind of a man would have agreed to something like that?

Maybe she was too staid to do such a thing.

You left your warm furs and stood up from the bed, you put on some clothes and braided your hair tightly. You had to get out of this house, to take some fresh air and meet people. You were walking through market, greeting people when someone stopped you. It was Arvid, your most persistent suitor. He had already asked you to marry him three times and you had refused it all of them, but he didn't stop. He continued to bother you.

"Arvid." You greeted him, by calling his name and he smiled. He wasn't bad. He was a skilled warrior and he was also a good man. He was just a little bit arrogant.

"(Y/N). How are you?" He asked you and started walking next to you. Every time he saw you, he did the same thing. That was something that not only you hated, but Hvitserk did as well. You were one of his women, the women he laid with, his and this man couldn't be so close to you for his own good. Maybe he was attracted to Margrethe along eith his brother, but he was ro you as well. You were the woman he admired.

His sharp gaze followed your every move. His playful green eyes was dark, something that wasnt unnoticed by his brothers. It wasn't the first time he saw that man bothering you. The last time Ubbe was the one who prevented him from punching him and Ubbe was there this time too to do the same think.

"I think that she will accept him this time." Sigurd spoke and looked over at your place, where you were trying to be polite to Arvid and don't tell him to leave all alone. You didn't want another man, you just wanted Hvitserk.

When Hvitserk heard Sigurd's words he looked over at his place angry. Sigurd was more annoying than any other day, or he was that way every day but Hvitserk hadn't notice. He was too busy eating, drinking and taking care his women to notice Sigurd's mood.

"There it comes another bullshit of Sigurd." Ivar stated playfully and took asip from his ale. Sigurd was about to answer but Ivar was faster. "Firstly, nobody really cares about what your thinking Sigurd and secondly just look at the woman's body language. She wants to avoid him." Ivar spoke and rolled his eyes. He was right, that was exactly what you were doing at that moment but you tried not to be mean to him. Sigurd frowned out of anger. He had always been angry at Ivar with no reason.

"She just needs dick." Sigurd continued and this time Hvitserk was the one to react. If his eyes could kill, his brother would be dead by know. Ubbe could sense the tension and would stood to stop them. Ivar sensed it as well, but that was going to be to exciting to stop it.

"You don't know (Y/N). She needs no dick. She doesn't need anything. She is an independent woman and the next time you will dare to talk about one of my women you will clean your mouth first." He spoke harshly and drank all the ale that was inside his cup. All this scene was exciting for Ivar but not for Ubbe. He could see Hvitserk's look. He was angry and was about to do something. When Hvitserk was angry he did crazy things. He did things without think about the consequences. Actually, be had never really thought about the consequences.

None of the brothers talked, not even Sigurd. Margrethe came to the brothers. They all smiled when they saw her, even Ivar. That didn't go unnoticed from you. The look on your face sharpened qhen you saw her, Arvid noticed and looked at their place.

"I see. Just don't get bothered (Y/N). Do you think that Hvitserk Lothbrok had only you? No way (Y/N). That man fucks whatever has legs." He spoke and came closer to you. You stepped back angry, angrier than before. His words enraged you more than Margrethe's appearance. You didn't like people talking that way about you, let alone Hvitserk. You knew too well who was Hvitserk and what you were getting yourself into.

"I know very well who Hvitserk is, I don't need a man like you to tell me, Arvid. Oh and to be clear even if they asked me to choose between death or not having Hvitserk, even the way I have him, I would choose death over losing Hvitserk. Even if Odin didn't welcome me to Valhalla, I would be happy to know that I have this man, so piss off before I lose my patience and you know what can I do when I lose it." Your voice were harsh along with your eyes. He frowned and turned to leave you alone, just the way you wanted. You wanted to be kind to him, but he was the one that spoke that way about Hvitserk.

"It's better this way. You deserve someone like Hvitserk who can't love you, who will hurt you!" He said. He wamted to enrage you more and he succeeded.

"Piss off!" You yelled and all market looked at your way. People started whispering about you. They had always been doing that. Hvitserk was one of all of them that was looking. He saw everything. You looked over at the crowd and them took the way thag led to the woods. Basically, you wanted to go to a particular spot. There was a tree, an old one. You went to that tree when you needed to relax and that moment you needed to relax.

Hvitserk's eyes followed your every move. He knew where you were heading to. He knew about that special place. He was the only one who knew about this place. He was about to comw to you but Margrethe stopped him by placing her hand on his chest. She looked at him seductively. She didn't want him to come to you.

"Hvitserk, come with me." She whispered to him and run her hand down his chest. He wasn't affected by that. The only thing he could think that moment was you. He didn't know what Arvid told you and in what condition you would be after that. He pushed her softly. She was shocked, Hvitserk had never refused her before. She didn't take her hand, in fact she got closer.

"If you don't come, forget me." She spoke and he frowned. She was attractive, yes, but she couldn't speak that way to him, she was a slave and he was his master, after all. His hand placed on her throat, Ubbe and Sigurd stood up to take him away from her. Ivar was the one who laughed at all these.

"Listen to me carefully. You are just a slave, nothing else and I am your master! I can do whatever! If you ever talk to me again like that, you will face my wrath. (Y/N) probably doesn't need me right now but I need her. Her! Maybe I was too blind to see that, but now I know. So stop your little tricks, that doesn't work with me, not anymore." He spoke and she nodded scared. When Hvitserk talked that way, he was scary. He seemed like another man when his anger took over. His hand left her throat and he looked at his brothers before he take the same path you took some minutes before.

You were there, to that old tree, laying on the mud and staring at the blue sky. He approached silently not wanting to scare you but he did. You stood up quickly and took your dagger on your hand.

"Easy woman its me." He spoke and you placed your dagger back and laid down to the ground again. He did the same thing as you. He laid down next to you. His scent invaded into your nostrils. It was the best thing you had ever smelled. You closed your eyes to enjoy this moments. That smell was on your furs after the nights you two spent together.

Suddenly, you open your eyes and stood up, he frowned but followed you.

"Why are you here? You should be with your brothers drinking, talking and Odin knows what else or....." You stopped. You couldn't say what was on your mind. You wanted to say or he would be with Margrethe and everyone knows what they would do, but he wasn't doing something of that. He was there with you and that was strange.

"What kind of question is that? I want to be with my woman is that wrong (Y/N)?" He asked you and you could spot something playful in his tone. You frowned. He was strange. He spent time with you only on early in the evening or the late hours of the night. It was late in the morning and you weren't use to him being arohnd you this time. Every time he came to you, you laid on your bed, had sex, you slept and he left you alone to go to Great Hall and have Margrethe after Ubbe or Sigurd. He spent the mornings on the Great Halls or somewhere else eating or pleasuring some of the other women he pleased, but most of the mornings he was on the Great Hall eating and talking with his brothers. You, on the other hand, spent your mornings training or wondering around Kattegat or the woods. You lived on your own and you had nobody to take care of. You had only Hvitserk and him for only some hours.

"It's not but I'm for your nights. I mean you came to me only the nights and—" You were saying but he stopped you by pushing you on the old tree. He was angry that day, you could understand that from the look on his face and his body language. You hissed when your body collided violently with the tree.

"Is that what you are thinking about me? Do you think that you are just some nights for me? If you think that, then you don't really know me (Y/N). You don't know me at all." He spoke harshly and pressed his body to yours. You could feel that his body was sharing it's warmth with your cold one. You turned your eyes for some seconds at his chest, you took a deep breath and then you looked back to his dark green eyes.

"What I am supposed to think, Hvitserk? Since you found that Margrethe you forgot about me, but I am okey with that! I have never told you nothing! Not because I am not jealous, I am so much jealous, but because you are not mine Hvitserk! And I am okey with that! I am okey! If this is the only way to have you for some time, I accept it! I have already accepted it!" You yelled to him. You fought hard with the tears that was forming on your eyes and were about to be dropped. You didn't want to cry in front of him. You didn't want him to see you at such condition or see you so weak.

The smirk that had formed earlier on his face faded and he looked at you confused. He had never thought that you felt like that. Well, he knew that you had feelings, you had refused all that men for him, but he didn't think that you believed that. He was thinking your words. They were replaying in his head non-stop. He exhaled a breath that he didn't know he was keeping and looked at you eyes. You were waiting desperately for his answer. He knew that he should tell about the feelings ge felt about you as well. He tried to avoid them, but that was impossible. They only grew stronger each time. Margrethe was just a way to forget about you, but he couldn't and now he was about to let you know. You had enough of this shit. You deserved something great and he wanted to give it to you. He would try to do his best to be the man you deserved.

"That's not what you deserve (Y/N). You deserve to have someone who loves you deeply, someone who is honorable and will take care of you. I don't know if I am that man, I only know that I have some really strange feelings for you. I have never felt like that ever again. I was a coward and I avoided them, that's why I was spending so much time with Margrethe. The truth is that I love you, woman and if you accept me I want to try to be the man you need. I want to try for you." He said truthfully. He was looking at your eyes all the time he was talking. You were shocked. You wanted him. You wanted him more than anything.

You wanted him when you didn't know about his feelings, when you shared him with any other woman. From now on he would be yours. You would be an idiot if you sent him away, just because you were stubborn. You couldn't lie that you didn't want him. You couldn't tell him to leave, you would hate yourself if you did such a thing. You were head over heels for him and he was for you as well. Now you knew that too.

He was waiting for your answer, but you didn't have any reaply for him. His words caught you off guard. You had to do something. You grabbed him by his clothes and kissed him roughly. His reaction was kind of late but you didn't mind. When he understood what you were doing he kissed you back and he was in charge now. His tongue entered roughly your mouth and played with yours. You kissed for a long time, you only pulled away when you needed to breathe, but he didn't let you. Your body was stil trapped between the old tree and his strong body.

His dark green eyes were on your own eyes. He looked at you carefully, he didn't lose any move that you did. Nobody of you two talked or moved. You were just watching each other and it was getting uncomfortable for you. He liked that, he liked watching you. You dropped your eyes to the ground but his fingers on your chin forced you to look back at him.

"Hvitserk." You just muttered his name and he smiled widely. He liked how his name sound when it came out from your mouth. He leaned to kiss you again but you pushed his chest slightly and stopped him. He looked at you frowned, he thought you wanted him. You did want him, but you were confused about what was going to happen between you two. "Before anything else I need to ask you what is happening now. So what is happening?" You tried to say without lose your words and he smiled again, he leaned closer to you and pulled your braided hair out of the way.

"Now you are my only woman and I am your man. Only your man. Your Hvitserk." He spoke and kissed your neck. All your body shivered when you listened his words and he understood it. He liked the fact that you were vulnerable before him. After all, he was the one who drive you that way. You were madly in love with him. "I just want you saying my name again. Say it again, (Y/N)." He spoke. He was still kissing your neck when he was talking. You moaned softly, the way he liked the most.

"Hvitserk." You said his name again and he groaned. You smiled when you listened him. "Sweet Hvitserk." You said again and he stopped kissing you this time. He was just looking you hungrily. You knew too welly that insatiable look on his face. He wanted to have you, all of you, here and now. Nothing and none could stop Hvitserk when he needed you, when he wanted you. He lefted the skirts of your dress quickly and placed his hand too close your entrance, you tried not to moan when he touched you, but it seemed impossible. "You want it here?" You asked him and he nodded. After that, he entered two of his fingers inside you and you almost yelled. He grinned and started to move his fingers fast and in wild pace inside you. He knew well what he was doing. He knew exactly where to touch you. He had done it a thousand times before. He had learned all your weak spots.

You moaned insanely, until he stopped. Before you ask why, he dropped on his knees and his hands lifted your dress up to your belly. He kissed your thigh and motioned you to open your legs. You gasped, knowing what he was going to do. He was going to eat you up. This was his favorite thing. You opened your legs. He looked one last time, before place his head between your thighs. His tongue licked your entrance and you tried not to scream. His skilled tongue entered you and he screamed because of the pleasure. He did what he was doing with his fingers before, but the feeling was different. His tongue could drive you crazy.

Your moans was loud and he loved listening to them. You felt that thing on your belly, meaning that you were about to cum. He understood that too, because your walls clenched around him.

"Hvitserk!" You screamed when you released yourself on his mouth. He licked all of your juices and then he stood up and kissed you hard. You tried to catch your breath, but his hand on your butt didn't help you at all. He was squeezing it. His lips let yours and they moved to your neck. His mouth were leaving marks all over your neck. Your nails raked his shoulders trying not to moan or something like that, you were on the woods, after all, anyone could see. "Hvitserk, let's go somewhere else! Somewhere.............. private." You were trying to say between your moans, but he didn't want to stop. He wanted you there. He wanted to claim you on that tree.

That man was insatiable when it came to sex. He could go a whole night without stop a bit, without cum. He pushed you over the edge. He drove you crazy. Your body was hurting everywhere after just a night with him.

He growled as an answer, as he did most of the times when you were having sex. He didn't stop, because he didn't mind people watching. Actually, he liked it. He liked people watching you knowing that you are only his woman.

He stopped leaving his marks on your body. You thought that you were goinvlg to leave, so when you tried to leave from that tree, he pushed you back there and when your back collided with the tree again, you moaned out of pain. He untied his pants impatiently and released his erection. When you saw it you gasped. He lifted your dress up and wrapped his hands around your waist. He lifted you and you wrapped your legs around his waist.

He thrusted hard and deep inside you and you bit his shoulder not to scream. It was too difficult not to do it. He did thrusted you again deeper and harder than before. This time you didn't make it to reach his shoulder and you screamed his name. His smirked when he listened you and he pounded again rougher than the previous times.

"Hvitserk!" You screamed again. Your eyes were closed and tears were streaming down your cheeks along with sweat. You were a mess and he enjoyed this. Hvitserk was examining your mess of a face and was smirking.

After a little you couldn't control your release, you needed to free yourself around him. You tightened around him and your hands squeezed both of his shoulders.

"Hvitserk!!" You screamed louder than every other time and you let your body free. His hands tightened around your waist, so you wouldn't fall after this. He pulled himself out of you, without release and tied his pants. You stayed stuck on that tree, your juices run down your thighs. He let your dress fall down and hide your exposed body. Your eyes were following all his moves but you didn't move a bit.

When he saw you standing there, his hands trapped your inside it.

"Come, my love. We haven't finished yet." He whispered and pulled you close to him. It was going to be a long day.

[dykejet]

favorite jetko fics right now? asking for recommendations that don't make the pair too angsty

here’s sum !!! maybe im just too picky but its truly criminal how little jetko fics there are that arent total angst fests</3 im not too good w links so all are under the Keep Reading !

Jetko Drabbles/ Short Stories by LaoTzu 

it’s as the title describes ! the first chapter is particularly sweet :)

Less Talk. More Fight. by Barb_Wires

Summary:  Zuko always knew that being FIrelord would land him an assassination attempt or two. He didn't expect his first one would be during his coronation, and he especially didn't expect that it would be by his boyfriend Jet, who was under the impression that Zuko was a lowly tea server named Lee, and is also dead. 

this one is so lovely <3 its got quite a bit of crack elements lol and theres vague allusions to nsfw eep but otherwise its >>

Jetko Week 2020 by marvelousrats

this is a series of fics, so they’re of varying moods and summaries. my fave is ‘See You Space Cowboy’ :)

I wanna raise your spirits, I want to see you smile by voices_in_my_head

Summary: "“This is a terrible idea,” Jet says, not for the first time. “You already said that,” Zuko replies, also not for the first time. “Which should really tell you how bad of an idea it is!” Jet’s sitting on their bed, back straight, watching as Zuko goes through their closet, deciding what to wear for dinner. Dinner with Zuko’s friends, who hate Jet."

this one is so mfin sweet it makes my heart Hurt

You don’t have to hide, I’ll be by your side by voices_in_my_head

Summary: "Jet isn’t good at love, he doesn’t think. Which makes him and Zuko kind of perfect for each other, especially when they first meet, because Zuko isn’t all that good at love either.His uncle looks at him like he’d fight an army for him and Zuko is rude to him, even though it’s obvious he’d do the same for him, he just doesn’t know how to say it."

man... o man. this is Tender!!! its kinda angsty but mostly its sweet and also jetko proposal<3

Jetko Renaissance Week by vl_kyrie

again, a series of fics w differing plots but very sweet <3

And when that sun goes down, hope you raise your cup by voices_in_my_head

Summary: "“Hey,” Jet says, putting his arms around his waist, then leaning forward so that his forehead is against Zuko’s back, rubbing it on the sweater he has on, which hangs loose on him. “I like it when you wear my clothes.”Zuko smiles around his hot chocolate, “I know you do.”Jet continues to rub his face against his back, like a cat. Zuko keeps smiling and changes his grip on the mug, so he’s holding it with just one hand, lowering the other to Jet’s, putting his fingers between his."

this person’s jetko fics r just so good hdfdjdh....

Flora Lingua by mercu

Summary: written for a prompt: jetko + puppy love. zuko refuses to acknowledge his feelings. his friends try to help. 

this was the fic that first got me a lil bit interested in jetko !! its free serotonin

still, i think i’m doing fine by zeitgeistofnow

Summary: jet stands in the middle of the airport, letting the other travelers with their suitcases and duffel bags and trains of wailing children move around him like water around a rock. the airport feels like an otherworld, like a pause from his usual life. people don’t usually recognize him in airports- mullet hidden under a beanie, wearing a sweatshirt for a band he’d loved in college, one whose record sales the freedom fighters outpaced years ago. he’s just another nobody in a building beyond time. zuko would call it a liminal space. zuko likes words like that, fancy education-signaling things that make him sound smart. sometimes jet likes listening to him explain things. sometimes he doesn’t. he usually lets zuko know if he’s in the kind of mood when it pisses him off and zuko sometimes stops explaining. he’ll stop more often these days, really, and it bothers jet less often too.

this fic... It. It Changed Me. i wasnt too into jetko just yet, i just considered it a nice ol minor ship of mine. This Is the Fic that got me wholeheartedly into em. emotionally mature, healthy and happy jetko man!!! that is Everything 2 me. Sum angsty undertones ?? but its just too good to not read

-   And not to self-advertise hahah but i’d consider my own jetko fics p neat too ^__^

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yeah, i think quarentine has given people some opportunity to actually just sit with the person they are, rather than be rushing around for the person they want to become. its good you got smth good out of isolation! ah thats great! hope you had fun and ur partner in crime speeds back home so you can get out more hehe.

ah yeah ty, good suggestions.

hmm good point, i was sort of putting it separate to the whole not-sexualising thing, but yeah. mmm yeah i totally agree, some of the enhypen fics/imagines *shudder* and even reading innie stuff is just a bit *icky* cos everyone still thinks of him as our agi ppang. yeah def would be good but sadly this just seems to be the world we live in. :(

ah yes the holy masterlist (not sarc) i have actually read in the rain and gladius maximus before, but ill go look for in class! oooh thats good! character development lol. hmmmm yes champagne problems was the angst to end all angst, that shit hurt. it was actually one of the first of your fics i read and i recall almost crying over the whole thing, it was so heartbreaking, i can see how it almost made you want to drop angst. good that youve allowed yourself some lee-way tho :)

hehe thats so cool. okay here we go, ill try not to be mortally offended (/hj)

cheese - yes same, i liked it but that was all there was, it wasnt a super standout track. it was rlly underwhelming for me but some of the hook is super catchy so there is Redemption (tm) in store for cheese maybe

thunderous - mmm, yeah at first i totally agreed, i think they suffer from too much good music syndrome, that all their other tracks are such fucking bops its hard to stay at that level of perfection. the choreo was beautiful tho and tbh, the track has grown on me since ive been watching all the vids abt it. its my brothers favourite track

domino - YES GODAMMIT IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE TITLE TRACK. the raps, the vocals, the vibes, the fucking domino sound in the back? i would have streamed that shit on repeat. but tbh, as good as it is, it doesnt have that sort of grandness/oomph that skz seems to like in their title tracks so i can see why they chose thunderous (tho domino would have been so good) *sigh*

ssick - yeah same, not my fave track by a long mile, the crowd cheering was a ?strange? choice and the chorus was a bit bare/empty, plus like i mentioned earlier, it was kinda funny to me for some reason but ill still play it if im playing thru the whole album

the view - ahh one of those not like other girls (/j) i honestly think its just a good party song, just a bop to play in the background when nobodys rlly paying much attention. its pretty generic pop music but catchy

sorry, i love you - hehe yeah i thought it was going to be sadder as well, but i rlly loved the fact that they all just got to sing, which almost never happens, i dont think ive heard felix sing for a long time, so i enjoyed it. wasnt rlly a standout track but i just casually like it. looking forward to the fic haha

silent cry - this song i swear, some bits are rlly good and then others are just? why?? it does sound like a dance song tho idk. definitely not one of my faves either

secret secret - YES its so good! its such a chill song and i love their vocals in it. the combination of lo-fi/fake strings backup stuff and their heavenly vocals just makes it *chefs kiss* im listening to it rn and just... its so beautiful. it gives me pumped up another day vibes ya know? like my pace is edgy get cool, this one is energetic another day i feel like. overall i love it

STAR LOST - ah thats so cool! i didnt know that! on first listen this song had a similar vibe to secret secret but then the beat came in and ahh its such a good song. i can totally imagine them putting this song to a concert footage vid, this song is so sweet.

red lights - LMAO YES ITS SO AWKWARD WHY DOES IT GO ON FOR SO LONG ah thats good! yeah good point, its quite intense hehe. but that is my fave trope and this is lowkey my favourite track on the album so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just the combination of hyunjins and chans voices, the backing music, the lyrics ahh red lights my beloved

surfin’ - yes lmao its always a shock, i feel like they should have put gone away in between them, but its such a fun cute song, i cant get rlly mad. yeah, as an aussie i think im contractually obligated to like beaches lol. sand im not such a fan of, but my familys rlly into fishing and my brother loves bodyboarding so we stay at a beach house at least twice a year and we live like 5 mins from 3 different beaches (hehe all aussie cities are on the coast lol) so thats cool. do you like beaches?

gone away - ah gone away my beloved, i love this song sm, its just so pure and showcases their vocals and lyrics so well. yes the pitch change is very out of the blue, i feel liek they went directly from seungmins soft vocals to hans powerful ones which was an interesting choice, but hey, im not complaining

wolfgang - YES IKR ah im so happy he got to be included in that era and song. yeah its such a full on song i cant rlly listen to it if im in a quiet mood but its very motivating :)

hehe mood, i hope they do! ahhh no rest, but at least you wont have to pull a blink and wait a year for any word from the group lol. im not rlly into nct but im excited for them! ah hopefully youll be able to sneak some rest into that chaotic schedule, with enhypen (idk if u stan but yeah) squeezed into it haha

<3 w.a. 🐺

i wheezed at partner in crime, it reminded me of smth. i have a lee know fic in the drafts that i wrote 'in honor' of him (and his departure-ish). i'll tag you when i finish it, if you want. it's a rather hilarious one.

oh my god. based on my experience on the collabs i've joined before, writing explicit shit for '01 & '02 is not accepted (nct's maknaes) but with enha's hyung line '01 & '02 somehow it's okay? i do a double take every time i see fics like those i mean, technically, it's legal but still what the fuck. maybe it's just not for me at the moment. not at us venting our frustration about this. it's just something that's so accepted here that i am (in all honesty) slightly uncomfortable about. but oh well. that's kpop writerblr for you.

man i could've linked all the fics in the ask instead so you wouldn't have to go looking for them! i think i saw you like in class the other day (the fic i renamed into sharp-tongued, god it took me a while to remember the new title). describing champagne problems as an angst to end all angst is one way to put what i was feeling back in december. it just hurt to write and admit?? if that ever happened to me i would prolly cry :d

okay back to the album talk! i love how you answered with more thoughts. i love exchanges like these! i am a victim of the cheese hook and it's now one of my favorite tracks in the album. PLS, TOO MUCH GOOD MUSIC SYNDROME. that's on our self-producing kings 😌💅 also, your brother has taste! as i am typing this, domino's currently playing in my head and i realized that too, that it doesn't have that 'vibe' of a skz title track. honestly, this could be a title track of another group. ssick is starting to grown on me because i found the beats cool kdjsk not the not like other girls 😭 the view is the generic pop that i don't like but i get why a lot of people enjoy it. sorry i love you scratches a certain itch that i find myself singing the first few lines every time i remember it. i too would want to hear felix sing more!

> a mini junction on the album talk bc i got side tracked. on that topic, i want skz to switch positions at some point like i know those allrounders are capable of doing so. specifically, i want to hear seungmin rap!!!! (yk in the recent weekly idol he talked faster than changbin in a challenge and changbin is like the fastest rapper in kpop that's active atm if im not mistaken. my dandy boy has some potential and i want it UNLEASHED.)

back to album talk. silent cry is basically sad music to twerk to. secret secret is definitely one of my favorite tracks :( i loved how you compared the tracks HAJSAH i burst out laughing bc yk what, you're right! i want to make a star lost edit of skz but i simply do not have the time i want to cry. i love the song so much. ok, my dreaded track, red lights. idt i have played the track since we last talked. my friend sent me the lyrics tho and i'm itching to write a twisted au out of it. idk if you're comfortable with yandere but somewhere along those themes. the obsessive type of love that's sweet at first but turns rotten. IMAGINE IF THEY PUT GONE AWAY BETWEEN ASHJA it's like going from 50 shades to the notebook.

i was about to ask if you lived near the coast and you literally mentions it here god im so stupid. yes i LOOOOOOOOOVE beaches so much. living in an archipelago is fun :( i live in a part of the country that's more island than city so every time i want some vitamin sea it's accessible. i heard the waves in australia are great :( anYWHOOO gone away :(( every time it plays im compelled to skip it because it makes me sAD AND NOWADAYS I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO BE SAD. contrary to you, i dislike my quiet moods because i tend to overthink a lot.

i have this little analogy about how there are stays that enjoy songs the generic pop + mellow songs and then there are other stays that enjoy the noisy tracks. in my mind, it's like a perfect balance that makes me feel like all the tracks are loved in the end. just by different people.

PULL A BLINK. bro i fucking hate yg entertainment. they have the biggest kpop girl group LOCKED in their basement when they could be (and i mean this in the most business-like way not morally) milking money of the quad. they're yg's biggest hope at not being bankrupt atm so it's a damn fucking mystery to me as to how they aren't doing anything. (jk i just realized lisa solo album soon, but i still need a ot4 cb hELLO)

i stopped looking forward to the teasers. rest > kpop boys. i don't want to sound like a cult member but have you tried checking out nct? are they just not your thing? (i get it tho, that's one hard group to get into). and yes i do stan enhypen!

wow i love how long these asks are! they're like online penpals. but i also want to ask about you! how have you been lately? are you feeling okay both mentally and physically? how's the weather there? do you have anything that you want to talk about? maybe an interesting book you read? feel free to bring up anything you want to share! i'm getting conscious about talking about myself HAJHSJ

and yet another long answer B) i am sooo sorry T___T should these ask exchanges feel draining to you, feel free to stop sending them in AAAA

[thewolfisapartofmysoul]

Hey lovelies.

Got you a Dewey x reader fic.

Reader coming out as ace (asexual) while Dewey is playing the guitar and the reader lounging on his lap. Fluff and angst ahead. All aboard! Fair warning... its quite long...

Hope you enjoy. 💜

..................................................................................

Safe

You and Dewey had been friends since kindergarten. You were as thick as thieves. Being able too see your best friend everyday since you two were roommates only made things better.

Dewey was a incredibly bouncy, happy person. That much you guys had in common. You both were as enthausiastic as you were chaotic sometimes. And when you were having one of 'these' days... the ones when you just woke up grumpy, you could find comfort in the small things in each other. He would give you one single look and knew what kind of day it was. It was on these days that Dewey proved himself being the man, the myth and the legend you believed he was. He would make sure your favorite tea was ready in the morning, with just the right amount of honey in it. And he would do anything to crack your mood up during the day. Including some 'sick' dance moves on random moments, and playing requests you had on his guitar always calmed your mind. In return you knew that playing guitar hero cleared his clouded mind, and spontaneous dance parties always made him smile.

Long story short, you'd be there for each other.

.......

The thing was that lately you came to realise that some things were different for you then they were for him.

You always pictured yourself with a partner as loving and caring as Dewey was. You just KNEW he was your favorite person in the world. It was just... difficult. The whole situation had been difficult. There had to be a person in this universe who wanted to know what made you tick. Besides Dewey. Right?

That was a question your head had been occupied with the last couple of months.

Of course you noticed Dewey going out. On dates. With actual girls.

He wasnt the most popular guy you knew, but damn... he had some charm in that authentic and warm personality he had. He also was kinda cute, you had to admit. But you were 101% cool with him dating. Even helping him pick out outfits and scolding him for forgetting garlic on date-night is a no-go. And when he wouldnt come home at night you would smile to yourself, because you was happy for the dude.

So why werent you out there? Dating? Again? You tried. Hell... you tried so SO hard to actually like people.

Liking wasnt the right word. Cause liking people wasnt that difficult. You could love the personalities of people in a heartbeat. Loved the way they laughed, or the freckles on their face, or the way they sat. You'd loved the way they talked about what drove them, what they were passionate about. You loved so many people. Yet you loved no-one.

You came to realise lately that you were kind of different. For instance: Dewey could swoon over a girl he saw for one second. One moment he was chilling with u at your local bar, the next moment you saw that sparkle in his eyes... And with a wink, a pat on your shoulder and a VERY bad attempt to moonwalk away from you, you knew you didnt had to wait up for him.

That was fine. Never bothered you actually. It was a signal you guys had created. Dewey also knew that when u werent in the mood or okay with leaving alone, you would put on a pouty face. That would be his que to get the random-chick's number, promising to call her, before excusing himself to her and drop back on the barstool beside you.

You liked it that way. He was free to go. As were you. He was your buddy. Your parnter in crime. That was the way it was.

You were just frustrated with yourself the last couple of months.

You could look at a man or a woman and be like: jeez, you are pretty. Look at that adorable face!

You would walk up there, talk to them. Now... that wasnt the hard part. The hard part came after that.

When you talked to someone, wether it be a beautifull quirky women or a handsome kind lad... there always came that moment that they would give a 'certain' comment. Or a glance up and down. Or let their hands wander little bit... and the magic would be gone for you.

Totally gone. Your mind would just go: 'nope'. You would find their smile attractive. But when everyone else's knees would give up at their bedroom eyes they gave you, and them saying something like: "you look like i could eat ya, wanna get out of here?" you would just feel nothing. Besides of getting noxious at the idea of them looking at you that way...

.......

Dewey noticed you getting more silent as you internly struggled with this a while. After 'just' men, you started some online research and tried something new. There was a period u had labeled youself as bisexual. But the label just didn't fit right. You tried the word: 'lesbian' for a month or 3.

Dewey had again proven to be an actual legend, after you told him you might not be straight. He was so pumped for you, buzzing with excitement and acceptance when you told him. He bounced up and down on the couch and offered to go to gay-bars together. You even had to keep him from hanging the actual rainbow-flag out of the window, to support you. Dewey suspected you had just been a late bloomer, so he was more then excited when you seemed to make some steps into the date-world, and wanted to make sure he helped you out were he could.

But that wasnt it either. Being bisexual or lesbian was not what made you you as well.

You had been desperately looking for a label to fit you but you couldn't quite put your finger on it.

........

Dewey would notice your online research by accident. He got up from his jamming session at the couch and ruffled a hand tiredly throw his brown locks. You was on a date. With... amy? Agnes? He couldnt quite remember. He chuckled, while opening your computer, hoping you'd been having fun.

He was looking on an article about ACDC he came across a while ago, when the google question popped up in the browser history. He frowed, but clicked anyway. "I dont feel sexual attraction towards people. What's wrong with me?"

A pang of guilt creeped through his chest. Did he totally miss all that? Y/n had fun with people in bars right? She was on a date right this moment... with... Anne, or whats her name again?

Dewey poundered, he would always see you laughing and having fun while chatting to strangers. 'God... you was so likeable it was super-easy for you to make new friends.' But after he put some more thought to it, he couldnt quite remember the last time y/n talked about having a crush. Or kissing someone. She didnt even talked about her date today enough for him to be able to remember her name. He felt a bit sad about it but Dewey had to find out what you were feeling, so he clicked through the rest of the history page.

.......

You actually tried to kiss Alma today, you'd been seeing her for a while... You two had a lot in common and you liked the way she practically buzzed with excitement when she talked about mountainbiking, smiling as she did so.

'it only seemed like the right thing to do' you forced yourself to think that... 'Alma deserved that much, right? She'd been so kind to me...'

After your date Alma reached out to softly grab you by your hip, pulling you towards her. 'Well... here goes nothing...' you thought as she brought her mouth closer to you.

But right when your lips were about to meet, it felt wrong. A panic rose in your chest and before you knew what happened you turned your head slightly and kissed her cheeck. You was infuriated with yourself. 'How could you! After date #3. Were you mad? What was wrong with you?!'

The girl in question seemed just as baffled as you. She smiled a sad smile to you, before giving you a side-hug and catching her train to go home.

You sighed, dropped your shoulders as you slumped home. 'Side-hugs are not good. They're not 'relationship-material', you fool." You wanted so bad to be 'normal...'

.......

By the time you was done walking home you reached a new low-piont in your self-esteem. Thats when you noticed u had a missed call. Dewey. You sighed. He had been SO happy for you to be dating. Enthausiastically helping you with your outfit and even what kind of perfume you should wear. You were not only a dissapiontment for yourself... but for Dewey as well.

You quickly wiped away a tear. Damn this. Damn this shit. Damn this day. You just didnt felt it. Again.

All you wanted to do was to jump into a hot shower, eat some pizza on the couch and lounge on the couch, revel in the safe comfort of Dewey.

You were not dissapionted by the smell of your favorite pizza already stalking towards you on the way to your front door. You smiled a bit at that.

Dewey had seen you crying through the window of your apartment and already planned to do something special for you, since you had such a hard time lately and he had been too oblivious too see it. So he decided to make you your favorite pizza, and just be there for you when your date didnt worked out.

You opened the door and was greeted by a dancing Dewey in his boxershorts and old band t-shirt. He was smiling at you while hopping of the cough while The Pretender of the Foo Fighters blasted through your appartement. He headbanged towards the speakers and you managed to get out a small snort. Your neighbours had to hate you guys.

Wiping your nose you tried to smile at him. But failed miserably. You stood in the middle of the living room feeling small and stupid. Your lip was quivering and you wanted to wipe the tear away that was spilling down your cheeck.

All in that moment Dewey was by your side, wiping away the tear that you inteded to brush away yourself.

You smiled sadly at him, through your tears and sobs. And you heard him mumble your name while pulling you into his arms. "Its okay love. You're okay. Im so proud of you." He started petting your head softly with his calloused fingers and holding you close. He knew this was a big step for you, and didnt asked any questions about your breakdown. Or date. He wanted you to tell him when you were ready. Untill then there were no words needed.

You got out of his loving embrace when you heard something beeping in the distance. "Dew! The pizza!" You smacked his arm and while muttering a "fuck" under his breath, he took a dive towards the oven.

He smiled a lopsided smile to you while striking a ridiculous pose, using the towel in his hands as a cape. He sing song: "i am the pizza heroooooo and i present you your favorite pizza, mylady...." You couldnt help but cackle at that. "Your a weirdo Dew... but thanx pizza-king."

.......

You two ate on the couch after you took a shower and dressed in your favorite sweats.

After Dewey had put away the dishes he dropped on the couch with you and grabbed his guitar. You went to lie with your head on his lap while he was tuning the strings. You listened to him fumbling with some wires and relaxed at the familiar sound and the rise of his chest above you. He played some chords untill there was a rythem in them and you felt your clouded mind become clearer.

You were relaxing against him when you heard him mumble your name... "hey y/n, wanna hear anything particular?" You shaked your head no.

He hummed in response, playing the tune of your favorite song anyway.

Dewey softly started singing:

"And i don't want the world to see me.

Cause i don't think that they'll understand.

When everything is made to be broken.

I just want you to know who i am...."

You felt the tears behind your eyes prickling. With a soft poke in his chest you whispered with all the courage you had left: "...Dew... Dewey..."

"Hmmm...sweetheart, whats up?" He replied softly.

You sighed, rubbing your hand against your forehead, gathering some more courage. You muttered: "I ehm.... I think I need to tell you something Dew..."

He went to put his guitar away. Shifting slightly so you was lying with your head on his lap, and he could look you right in the eye from how he was sitting. He grabbed your hand ,that out of stress had been clutching your own sweater, and placed his hand around yours. Squeezing lightly in encouragement. He smiled at you. It was an understanding smile, full of love and patience. You could cry at that alone. But swallowed your tears away, there had been anough crying today you decided.

Dewey saw you swallow hard and brought your clutched hands to his mouth and kissed them. "You can tell me anyting babe. You know that right?" You hummed in response.

Knowing you could trust him but also feeling incredibly scared and anxious... you stuttered: "Dew... i think... there is a reason i dont... i think i might be..." he squeezed your hand one more time.

You took that as an encouragement and mumbled the words that were nagging you for the past few months, your nerves barely made your voice louder then a whisper: "I think... ehm... I might be asexual Dewey..."

You felt like you could throw up. Or cry. Or both. You actually were about to bolt and do just that, untill you heard a familiar voice bringing u back to the present moment.

"... y/n... love... youknow..."

You coulndnt even hear full scentences of what Dewey was saying. His voice fading away, your nerves making it hard to fucus. He noticed your absence and your shallowing breathing, your breaths becoming faster and shorter with each one you took in. You couldnt even look at him while saying that. You were a pathetic coward... and now he would finally see you for the freak and the outcast you were. He would be disgusted and think you were a robot and leave you... You took another shaking breath...

A feeling brought you out of your shallow breathing. You noticed familliar calloused fingers glide through your hair. Combing through it and massaging your scalp softly. A smile appeared on your face, his movement was slowly getting the darkness outof your head. Finally you dared to look up towards Dewey. He was softly humming to you. His voice always calmed you, definetly right in this moment. His humming grounded you, while he was softly playing with your hair. You felt his other thumb circle softly on your hand he was still holding.

He smiled a soft smile at you, whisperening: "Hey... your back with me princess?" You nodded slowly. Tears spilling on your cheeks once again. "y/n, sweetheart, i love you the way you are. Always did, and always will. You are you. And if that is being asexual, then that's totally okay and i will be here for you. Every step of the way. Im so proud of you..."

He wiped away your tears, and while you choked out a "thank you Dewey", he kissed you on your forehead.

"Im so proud of you coming to terms with yourself. You dont have to do anything you dont want, okay? Dont ever feel obligated to date anyone just to feel 'normal'. You are you, y/n. And you are enough."

You smiled at that and yawned. The emotions of today suddenly making you very tired. "Dew..." you mumbled sleepy.

"Yeah...?"

"You may do the head-massage more often... it feels nice"

He chuckled at that, pinching your nose playfully. "Thats a deal... now off to bed with you, miss platonic."

You chuckled sleepily. Admire-ing his bad jokes even at this time and moment.

"Thanx Dewey..."

"Anytime babe..." he awnsered.

You stood up, your head and body suddenly heavy with sleep. Your mind drifted for a moment, but came back to the presence of Dewey sofly poking your side. You giggled, he knew you were ticklish there, and you swatted his hand away when he tried to do it a second time. He chuckled at that, glad he made you laugh again.

You looked at the floor. Anxiety bubbling in your chest at the nagging question in your head. Could you ask him this? After all that just happened? Would he still take you serious if you did? It wasn't sexual but still as intimate as you could be, and you didn't want to seem like you weren't serious. Since... well... people... sometimes mistook cuddles for sex. You still felt anxcious and conflicted, but didn't want to sleep alone. You took a big breath, looking a bit tired and sleepy up at him. Heart thumping nervously in your chest as your hands started to sweat. You glanced at his face and when you saw a half smile creeping up his face you knew you could ask him anything.

"Dew.... would you..." you had to stop because a yawn was bugging you. You continued after wiping your face sleepily, still anxious: "would you mind sleeping with me tonight? I... just... really dont wanna be alone right now. I need some cuddles." You confessed, biting your lip as you waited for his response. Anxiety slowly spreading in your chest as you waited at his awnser.

Instead of awnsering with words Dewey got up from the couch and pulled you into a big hug, once again petting your hair while holding you tight. You sighed and felt the tension leaving your body as he held you. "Of course..." he mumbled sofly in the crook of your neck. You took a big breath through your nose, nerves calming as you were surrounded by the familiar smell of Dewey. A familiar smell of tea-tree-oil, a bit of sweat and a hint of pizza from your dinner. His body was warm and his stubble tickled your neck as he held you close. You felt safe in his arms, and less troubled. Your mind cleared with every breath you felt him take in as the two stood there together. His hands seemed to wipe every anxious, stressed thought you had away. His calloused fingers still combing trough your hair affectionately. You sighed back at him, relaxed by his caring touch: "Thanx Dew...."

......

When you lay in your bed, later that night you fell asleep quite quickly. You knew you wouldnt be alone. Dewey snored a little in his sleep, and you couldnt help but smile. Feeling safe in his strong arms as he hugged you in his sleep, you felt his calm breath on your neck. The last thing you thought before drifting off was: 'Its gonna be fine. Im gonna be okay. Dewey is with me. Whatever i happen to like or not like, feel or not feel...

Dewey is here. Right by my side.'

Tagging: @paxenera @heknowshisherbs @hoodoo12 @large-unit @little-miss-shy-goth @thats-specific @vicunaburger @ironmansuucks @bugdrinkss @go-commander-kim @stranger-strings

[flower-of-the-desert]

Thoughts on 2gether ep12

I knew last episode was a false sense of security and now there’s

(I love this gif so much, it works for all kinds of things that cause pain)

but seriously though, I am here for the drama like I loved how soft and fluffy it was so far but now gimme a little bit of angst for the climax please and thank you; but dont forget that happy ending ok? OK?????

I said last week and I’ll say it again, I really do love that Tine and Wat’s problems are coming from their own character flaws and issues and like yes, there’s Pam but she’s not... really the core of it you know? Like obviously the real problems here are Tine’s insecurities and overhinking and Sarawat’s not being very forthcoming with things he thinks will embarrass him in front of Tine which is kind of fascinating to me cause we saw the same thing last ep when Wat didnt want to admit the clip was for Tine at first because he was embarrassed/shy and now with the song I’m guessing it’s the same thing and/or it’s not ready yet and Wat doesnt want to tell Tine until he’s got it perfected

but it’s the combination of those two flaws of their that’s driving the drama right now - Pam being just the catalyst - and it’s all going to backfire spectacularly on Wat next episode

.... and I am here for it, this is character drama I can get behind

speaking of Pam, I wonder if that’s not another misunderstanding there when she said I love you? as in I love you romantically or I love you as a dear friend? And she also says she wants to go back to how things were before but before she wasnt dating Wat, they were just closer as friends than they are now

I hope that’s what they’re going for like she misses having Wat as a friend and wants to get their friendship back and not that she’s in love with him

I think it would work better thematically with Tine being insecure and seeing things through that lense rather than what they are in reality

but omg, my man Mil really pull through! I’m so happy he’s finally moving on from his feelings for Tine and by giving back the bracelet he’s basically telling Wat to not waste the chance he has to be with Tine now by not being careful

I read a comment after last episode that I really really liked saying that Mil doesnt really seem interested in Tine anymore but what he was doing in ep11 was mostly just to get on Wat’s nerves and trying to be friends with Tine at the very least (trying to explain himself about the attack because he didnt want Tine to be scared of him/to think he was that kind of a person) and I think this scene absolutely proves that and I love it

also the fact that he remembered that today was Phukong’s exam and sent him an encouraging message 💖💖💖

I love how Tine and Wat are walking with their hands around each other

and now we’re taking a shower together O_o

I’m not complaining

you know, I’m not getting any deeper into the kissing/sex debate because like I said last week, yes I agree that it makes sense for them to be touching more as in the show has set it up that they want to do it but this episode absolutely semented for me that the implications are there that they do do it off screen but we’re not gonna see that and usually I would be upset about it because 1) I am horny bird with a dirty dirty brain, 2) I loooooooove touchy-feely couples in general and 3) it makes sense for your couple to be physically intimate from a pure writing POV unless you’ve set up some reason for them not to be which is clearly not the case here

but... I dont know, with these two it just doesnt bother me as much as it normally would; I dont know why, maybe it’s that I adore how well developed their emotional intimacy is (and like you cant find THAT in most couples in TV either so that’s already a big plus) and that they’re clearly comfortable touching/being near each other/getting in each other’s space like a couple WOULD do, it’s the heavier stuff that is left off screen and that’s a writing choice they apparently decided to go with and well, it is what it is

the only complaint I have is that they really should have had a few more kisses, like not on FTTT’s level of making out like your life depends on it but at least little pecks here and there, I think that would have been perfect

ANYWAY, so those are my finale thoughts on that matter, MOVING ON phew

Tine’s so gone he’s smiling at a picture of Wat while being in the same room as him which is frankly #mood

Tine’s just like I do not vibe with this so I’m removing myself from the situation the moment Pam opened her mouth and he just TURNED THE FUCK AROUND AND WALKED AWAY

I thought Sarawat was the one to look out for when it comes to jealousy but Mr I’m gonna punish you all night long here is actually the real deal

Type and Man are EXACTLY that cat/dog meme and I’m living for it, this entire scene is just so funny and Type’s little “open it” at the end is just 🤣

I like how they’re building up Tine’s insecurities over Pam little by little by having Tine find similarities between them and then with the talk about first loves and letting us see how he comes to the conclusions he does so it makes sense how it all happens

holy shit I did not expect Man/Type to break my heart too but HERE WE ARE

that dinner scene was so hard to get through especially because what Man is going through realising he’s got nothing much to offer Type at the moment, financially speaking and that he’s still a first year and he’s got  a lot of things left to do for his own future and life and just... that hits hard

unpopular opinion but I actually like that Type left with the asshole boss because 1) that’s gonna make him realise that he does miss Man when he stops coming to him next ep and 2) like from Type’s POV it makes sense? he barely knows this kid that’s been chasing him non-spot and annoying him and yeah, sure he’s helpful and seems genuine in his feelings and Type clearly is starting to melt a little but but he also wants to not lose his job and offend his boss (he might be a total jackass but he’s still Type’s boss) so he’s got no choice but to prevent the situation from escalating

also I like to think that maybe part of why he decided to leave  was cause he was trying to protect Man by not letting him get in a fight with the guy

also did I say how much I am here for the drama next week when Man really does stop looking for him and Type realises oh shit I did NOT want that and yells at Man for disappearing on him after making him feel these things

which is basically like how Tine decided to go about confessing his feelings  not like a normal Braincell-filled person but accusing Wat of not taking responsibility for making Tine fantasize about kissing him and OMG these two really are brothers, arent they?

I really was hoping Wat would say Tine was his first love but THEN he proceeded to snatch my wig with saying that what he felt for Pam was nothing like what he felt for Tine that day at the concert and being so ridiculously OFFENDED when Tine said he and Pam were alike he was like wHAt?? you are like her??? PLEASE YOU ARE THE WEIRDEST PERSON I’VE EVER MET AND I LOVE YOU PLS NEVER LEAVE ME

AND THEN TINE BREAKS DOWN COMPLETELY AT THE END THINKING HE’S LOST WAT LIKE FULL ON SOBBING AND HITTING THE WALL AND SHAKING HIS HEAD IN DENIAL AND I AM NOT OK

WHO LET ME WATCH THAT

I NEED A HUG

TINE NEEDS A HUG

anyway, I am fine

next episode looks like it’s gonna be choked full of some of my favourite tropes and honestly I canNOT wait

but dont forget that happy ending though OK??????

[kawaiimysticarmy]

ShinsouBowl Day 1 - “Promise”

Word count: 2,738

Genre: Fluff, Romance, angst, BL

Ship: Shindeku

Ao3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21470425

ShinsouBowl week for @shinsoubowl ! 💜

Hope you all enjoy! Shindeku needs all the love >w< 💜

Shinsou Hitoshi was heading back towards the dorms of UA while he had a black umbrella over himself when it started to rain. Wearing a hoodie and some jeans since he finished class earlier today and had changed. A day or so, someone had told him that new dorms have been built, which allowed all the students of UA to finally live in a dorm. Shinsou had decided to tour around campus, because he really never gotten a chance to ever since today. The rain began to pour harder while he was taking his nice tour, he then saw a familiar green haired boy, sitting on a bench while he looked like that he was pretty much drenched in rain water by now. He questioned to himself of why the other was sitting alone today, since he usually saw the male with at least one person. He took a clearer glance at the boy and realized that he looked... Kinda down at the moment? He decided whether or not he should go over to Izuku and ask what was up, after all it wasn’t any of his business... But at the same time it was bothering him. He decided to watch from a distance for now to see what the other would do next.

{looks like there’s something up with him... What could it be though..?}

Izuku Midoriya sat on a bench outside the training grounds. His expression poker-faced. School was a bore, everything he liked was a bore. It was probably past curfew at this point but thats not what he was thinking of. He stared into the distance, not wanting to go back either. It felt as if everything had sunk in even though it was days past the incident. Taking a deep breath, he suddenly snapped out of it and realized it was pouring rain around him. His whole body was beginning to dampen now, but he had an inkling the source of the warm and salty stream om his cheek was from something else.

The melancholy male sitting in the distance had suddenly stood up, wanting to scream. Before he could, he stopped himself. Thoughts of self consciousness and worry flooded him- he didn't want to annoy the others on campus. But again he just wanted to cry out in pain- for once just let it out. He felt it was a selfish thought, so he pushed it to the back of his mind. Even when he was with _____, he didn't want to show him his bad side and burden him. Picking himself up, he brushed himself off. Moping wasnt going to do any good. He gathered his things and trudged to the entrance, when he saw a purple headed boy turn away from him. What was he doing here?

Shinsou was about to walk away when he saw Izuku heading back, but before then, he saw the other catching a brief glance at him.

{Shoot, he saw me staring at him didn’t he?}

The male had thought to himself as he had hoped that Midoriya wouldn’t be suspicious of him and headed back towards the dorms, closing his umbrella once he got into the building. It had been a long day, so he decided to head back to his room to finish up some homework that the teacher had assigned him earlier this morning. The thought of if the freckled male was okay had still lingered in his mind though... He honestly haven’t really had a real conversation with that boy ever since the sports festival. Which was about months ago.

Deku felt self pity welling up inside him and worry at the boy who had been watching him. What if even Shinsou thought he was weird now? He sighed walking back up to his dorm, when his eyes locked with the very person he wasn't expecting, his jacket and hair slightly damp. Just when Shinsou was less than halfway down the halls when he had locked eyes with the green haired male. Deku walked past, alone in his own thoughts. But out of the corner of his eyes he saw a flash of purple. Locking eyes with the other, Shinsou’s lilac eyes looked dull and unmotivated, but at the same time, he was secretly concerned for the boy. Shinsou had paused a bit before saying a word to the boy, getting lost in the other’s eyes a bit.

“Mi-“ Before he got to say anything, he then got cut off by Izuku’s shriek of surprise.

"Sh-shinsou?!" He jumped slightly, eyes widening a bit while blushing and scratching the back of his head. "Aa-h-h-hello do you do?" He internally kicked himself for stuttering his words, making his reply super awkward in his eyes— a scarlet blush filled his cheeks. Had shinsou been watching him mope this whole time?

The purple haired male couldn’t help but to chuckle a bit on the inside after seeing Midoriya jumping slightly from his surprise reveal. At first he wanted to confront what was going on with the other, but then he decided to act like he didn’t know what just happened earlier. Instead he acted like he had acted that he just saw the green haired male walk into the dorms. “I thought you be back in your dorm room by now.” He stated like it was easy to talk to the young boy. “Did you have to do training overtime again?” He causally asked the question like it was nothing while he was folding his umbrella.

"N-no," why was he stuttering? He internally slapped himself. "Well not really, I was just... enjoying the rain! Yeah!” He tried to sound convincing but it totally backfired. He just felt so conflicted and hurt.

“You sure gave yourself a soak in the bath, if you know what I mean.” Shinsou responded jokingly, trying to lighten up the mood and acting like he hadn’t seen all the commotion earlier.

“Uh yeah, I sure did!” Izuku tried to let out a laugh. Then randomly, it was like Shinsou's words were all it took for the dam to break free, pushing Izuku over the edge. He broke down in uncontrollable bursts of tears, pulling his knees into his face so no one could see how embarrassing he was- this was probably why _____ left him after all...

“H-hey...” When he saw Midoriya suddenly burst into tears, he didn’t know what to do at first and started to panic on the inside. He never had experienced this kind of situation before... But then he had a thought — he then bent down to the boy’s level, seeing the other sobbing into his soaked uniform made him pity the other. He then placed a hand onto the male’s shoulder gently.

Izuku has sobbed profusely by now. “Why.. Why does it have to happen like this? It’s... Just not fair...!” He almost screamed out loud, sobbing in his already wet uniform pants. He tried his best to control his voice as if he didn’t want to concern the others that were in the dorms on the other floors. 

“Do you... Maybe want to talk about this at your dorm?” Shinsou had asked him as if he thought it was appropriate to talk about what the other is going though   couldn’t bare to see the boy like this — he never seen the green haired figure so broken like this... Izuku was always so cheerful whenever the other was around him.

Izuku then nodded his head, hiccuping on accident, allowing Shinsou to lead the way as Shinsou still had his hand on Izuku’s shoulder. The purple haired boy never really talked much, but actions were worth more than words and he could feel his gentleness coming through in his body language. He didn't really want to talk about it but anywhere was better than the hallway.

                                                      *~*~*

Once they had entered Izuku’s dorm, Shinsou had let the teary-eyed male in first, closing the door behind him afterwards. He observed the room, of course it was filled with figures of his favorite hero, also known as the one and only All Might. The other’s room was filled with posters of him as well to the fact that you almost couldn’t even see the walls. Some clothes were on the ground and Izuku’s backpack that he took with him to school every day was sitting on the floor by his desk, with a couple of books spilling out from his opened bag.

“Sorry if my dorm is a bit of a mess...” Izuku tried to speak confidently, as he was kind of embarrassed by letting Shinsou see how much he appreciated his favorite hero- it’s not like the others had already seen how much he admired the influential figure and that the sleep deprived male hasn’t already know about his passion about the hero- but in the end he still had that embarrassing feeling but tried to laugh it off. Trying to get himself together by putting on a positive tone of voice after what had happened in the hallway Izuku then added, “I um, didn’t expect guess to come, but here we are..!” He tried to let out a brief chuckle. “You can have a seat if you’d like! He then proceeded to sit on the side of his bed, making room for Shinsou to sit next to him. Izuku put his head down briefly and sniffled a bit, wiping his tears away that were outlining his eyes onto his soaked uniform.

Shinsou had placed his umbrella on a hook that was near the doorway to let it dry, then proceeded towards Midoriya who was kind of soaking part of the bed with his wet clothing.

“Shouldn’t you change into something dry first? You wouldn’t want to get sick do you?”

“Oh, um yeah!” Izuku responded as he looked at how wet his uniform was when Shinsou had mentioned it. “I-I’ll be right back..!” He then gave a forced smile and went to grab a pair of sweatpants and his causal shirt. While Shinsou was waiting for Izuku to change, he saw a small picture frame on the side of the other’s study desk. It was a picture of the smiley male and _____. Even though it was days since the breakup, he still managed to keep the photo of them two together.

A few minutes later, Izuku changed into his pair of clothes and sat on his bedside, gesturing Shinsou to come over as well and sit beside him. “

“So, I’ve heard from a few friends that you’ve been going though some things?” He lied a bit.

Izuku then hung his head down slightly as his expression saddened again. “It’s- it’s about ____... They told me that we should end it all... After all these years... And I don’t know what I did.. I-I know how we had a couple of fights that weren’t even a big deal, but I admitted it that it was my fault in the first place- I admitted it and (s)he seemed like everything was okay with us for a while... But then...” Izuku rambles on and on and couldn’t really stop as usual. He sighed in the middle of his thoughts as tears stated to outline his eyes again as he continued to ramble.

“Midoriya?”

“Thinking about it- in the end it was all my fault, I shouldn’t have-“ Izuku’s eyes suddenly shifted towards Shinsou, feeling his mind slowly going blank all of a sudden.

“Calm down.” Shinsou has said in a calm tone, activating his quirk to make Izuku relax a bit. This wasn’t the first time that he had heard Izuku ramble so fast about things, but this time he needed the other to take things slowly.

By the time Izuku had calmed down, Hitoshi had deactivated his quirk as tears were still falling down from Izuku’s eyes; the other not knowing what just happened for a brief second, but then realized that Shinsou had used his quirk on him to give him a breather.

“You were rambling again.. Take it easy, alright?” Shinsou had smiled slightly, wanting to listen to the boy for once, because maybe there was something that he could help with. It honestly hurt him a bit to see the other in this state...

“Ah, I-I’m sorry...” Izuku had bent his head down and sobbed quietly into his hands. “It’s just that... it all happened so quickly...” Izuku sniffled. “And... I just don’t know what to do...” He then placed his feet onto his comforter, bent his knees and started sobbing even more.

Hitoshi felt pity for Izuku. He was pretty sure he felt the same kind of similar feeling in his past. At first, he really know what to say besides and “I’m sorry”, but then a thought had came to him.

“Look... I don’t mean to be harsh or anything, but if I were you I would just probably move on from all of this since you can’t really do anything about it. It was their choice after all.” Hitoshi had straightforwardly said to the curly haired male.

“But I-I just can’t get it though my head.. I just... loved them so much...” Izuku sobbed as Hitoshi had decided to wrapped his arms around the other all of a sudden. He for some reason felt that there was a part of Izuku that reminded him of himself... Shinsou was not the one to show much affection towards others, but only for this time he felt like he had to do something, so all he could think of was this.

Izuku just hugged the other male tighter, burring his head into Shinsou’s shoulder as his tears had accidentally soaked into the male’s shirt a bit.

The indigo haired male had tensed up a bit as if the male wasn’t used to the giving back of affection— or the giving of affection in general, but then he eventually relaxed a few seconds later.

{My heart is beating faster than normal— is it because of how close we are right now..?}

A moment of silence has swept over the two, Izuku took a slight deep breath, inhaling the other’s sent that was an aroma of cinnamon and a bit of vanilla.

“...”

“Shinsou...”

“Hm?”

“You... Smell good...” Izuku had spoken in a soft tone as he rested his chin onto Shinsou’s shoulder. A light pink blush had colored his face after realizing what he just said to the lilac haired male. “I-I mean, is that cinnamon and vanilla I s-smell...?”

Shinsou couldn’t help but to smile slightly and had continued stroking Izuku’s curls, pulling the other closer to his chest. He felt a warm sensation going through his body. It’s like the feeling of happiness had swept through him for a moment... He honestly never had received a compliment like that from anyone other than Izuku. He was surprised from all of this happening, but at the same time he knew that Izuku was the only one to fully trust him out of all the students. Ever since their first interaction Izuku didn’t seem scared to talk to him, which made him feel a bit of a relief on the inside for once...

“I may have used a special softener while I was doing my laundry..” The sleepy male responded, trying not to sound embarrassed about the whole thing as if he thought it wasn’t a masculine thing to do; but it’s not like he cared about what people thought about him anyways.

{I really hope he can’t hear how fast my heart is beating right now, because that would be embarrassing-}

“Shinsou...”

“What is it?”

“What if I end up being alone? With no one by my side... It’s honestly scary thinking about it...” Izuku spoke in a soft tone. It was his first breakup and he didn’t know if he could find another person like ____.

{This cute idiot.} 

Hitoshi had chuckled to himself as he rolled his eyes and rested his chin onto the Izuku’s head gently. Pausing a moment as he kept playing with the curls on Izuku’s hair.

{His hair is so soft...}

“You’re an idiot for thinking about those things. I promise you’ll never be alone...” Shinsou responded as he placed his lips onto Izuku’s forehead, closing his eyes for a moment.

Izuku blushed a dark pink and nuzzled his head into Shinsou’s chest a bit more. “You promise...?”

“I promise.”

[multiphandomunnies]

twice reacts: hurting their s/o and regretting it

requested:  okY imma take a moment and say two things :: one. YOUR BLOG AND WRITING AND UR AESTHETIC IS EVERYTHING UGH WHY R U SO UNDERRRATED two. this is just a suggestion but how about a blackpink and twice reaction to them hurting you really bad and regretting it ? i’m in the mood for angst so- again,just a suggestion,u seem to get a lot of requests so if you have any free time,,you could try :) no pressure tho –🌻anon warnings: angst   authors note: so after I wrote this I realized that “hurting them,” didnt necessarily mean during a fight and im sorry cause i made all of these in the sense that they said hurtful things during a fight admin: mirae

J e o n g y e o n

Jeongyeon wasnt the type of person to just yell out suddenly, she was typically calm. “I didnt mean that and you know it,” Jeongyeon quickly said after she called you a lazy bum . “Are you sure you didnt mean it? you seemed so sure just a few seconds ago,” you yelled while stomping off. Jeongyeon smacked herself and went after you

N a y e o n

Nayeon immediately started to cry after she yelled at you, she was just so overwhelmed with multiple emotions she couldn't hold back. “I love you Y/n, please dont go,” she cried out when she saw you leaving. “No, you dont love me clearly,” you huffed out in pain. 

M o m o

“Youre one to talk about eating since you dont seem to know how to stop!” Momo screamed at you after you told her you weren't happy with the dangerous diet she was doing. Staring at her in disbelief you slowly backed away form her, never once had Momo said something so hurtful to you. Momo was shot with a pang of regret at the look of your face “Y/n,” she started to say but you cut her off “Fine! Then just leave me for all those skinner and far more attractive idols that flaunt over you every single day”

S a n a

Sana guest stared on a variety show and during the filming some of the cast members hit on her. Instead of turning them down it seemed as if she played along which hurt you. When you confronted her she yelled “It feels nice to be appreciated and fawned over since you barely acknowledged me!” Now Sana might not have been the best at catching onto things but in that moment she realized that she said horrible. “I mean,,,I just wish we did more things together,” she tried to defend. “Sana id love to spend more time with you but youre always so busy with other people to even send me a good morning text” 

J i h y o

Jihyo was stressed from JYP making her diet and lose weight again. “Maybe if you actually tried at something then you'd know what hard work looks like,” she said with a scoff. “Jihyo whats wrong, this sint like you,” you werent upset at her yet until she replied “Then you dont know me.” You thought you knew her pretty well, yeah there were things you didnt know but you knew all the important things. “Then I guess you dont me either,” you said while leaving the room. “Wait Y/n I didnt-” you cut her off with a door slam

M i n a 

Mina was usually shy and sweet, you hadnt even seen her get mad at you yet. “You're so clingy! Id like some space so I can breath,” she pushed you away from her. You whimpered in pain from where her hand had previously been. Mina pulled you into a tight hug “I really didn't mean to do that,,please please please,,forgive me.” Mina was just stressed from work that she acted without thinking 

D a h y u n

Dahyun was only joking when she told you “Your smile is so weird looking, why is it like that,” and she thought you knew she was joking. However, your eyes brimmed with tears as you tried to hide from her. In that moment she realized she took the joke to far. “But its really cute because of how unique it is!” she started to cover up, kisses your forehead.

C h a e y o u n g

Chaeyoung had been having a hard day and when she came home to dirty dishes in the sink she lost her mind. “You're just so lazy and useless, you never do anything around here. Its like im the only person that lives here,” she said while stomping into the living room. You had been busitng your ass all week and wanted a break so you didnt do the dishes. “The only person living here? All because I didnt do the dishes one day even though ive done them literally everyday,” you bit back at her. Chaeyoung started to cool down when she realized you were right. “Im sorry for that,,It was totally uncalled for” 

T z u y u

You knew that Tzuyu was way better looking than you, it didnt take a genius to point it out. But when Tzuyu bluntly said that she was way better looking and that you were a 0 outta 10 you felt your heart break. “Im sorry that im not some goddess like you that has people at her feet begging to be with you,,im sorry im a troll,” you said through tears. You were upset by her words that you just ran out of the room. Tzuyu realized how bad her words were and just how rude she had been. She would chase after you, hoping to apologize. 

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11, 20, 22, 24, and 25 (honestly bless u, u write so well and im love u and ur stories)

I'm love you too, boo and thank you so much 😭😍 you're all too nice to me and idk what I'd do without your love 💝💖💞❤️11. Do you listen to music when writing? Yes, honestly I can't write without music because it helps me focus, I always listen to something that suits the mood though because I always end up writing to the tone of music so if I go on shuffle it ends up all over the place with angst and fluff and sin, u kno? 20. Favorite character to write? Oh jeez, I have so many characters that I love to write tbh, but if we're talking Riverdale then it's gotta be Cheryl or Jughead. Cheryl bc she's a bitch but also hella sensitive and I Relate™ and Jug because he's got lots of emotions and problems and hes super complex but also a Sweetie® (bit dumb tho no offence, boy just tell ur friends ur living at school and u wont have to live at school, safe and legal place to live trumps pride srry) 22. Favourite story youve ever written? Okay but, before Riverdale I used to write for a bunch of different stuff I never posted because???? I was anxious and didnt think anyone would like it??? And I wrote like 30 pages of this thing set in Middle Earth (lord of the rings (dont judge me (pls))) and I loved it so much because I just got so in depth with it and there were so many layerS Again though, if we're talking Riverdale then probably Letterman because Fred is a savage 24. Favorite scene you've ever written? I don't think I have one, I dont actually like 99% of the things I write, sometimes I can look at the whole story and go "Yeah, thats okay." But if I start trying to pick out bits I'll probably end up screaming. 25. Favorite line you've ever written?AIGHT OKAY SO A have a friend in America (Im Australian) and she wasnt having a great time so I hand wrote her this 10 page letter that was hella lame, about how she was important and beautiful with the theme of her being totally infinite blah blah blah and I ended up saying "If anything in this world had to be infinite, I'm glad it's you.Now, knowing that you're infinite, I also want you to know I will love you until you stop existing."And she said it made her cry and she posted it everywhere and it's my favourite line I've ever written because it made her feel as important as she is. YO SO THAT WAS SO MUCH INFORMATION U DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR BUT HERE U GO love you ❤

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Responses to Part 21: Final Chapter - Who Are You? Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^ 

Anonymous said: AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA> TAETAE ANON

*screams with you* I hope you enjoyed it TaeTae anon!

Anonymous said: Im not ready to read it, i dont want it to end

I was sad and kinda feeling empty to end it but at the same time I’m happy that it’s over because I worked so hard on it and it’s nice to see it finished! :3

Anonymous said: SARA IM SO SHOOK ABOUT THE PLOT TWIST YOU DID IN WHO ARE YOU HOLY SHIT

I hope you liked the plot twist dear! Thank you so much for reading :)

Anonymous said: I LOVE THE LAST CHAPTER OF WHO ARE YOU!!!! I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH!!!!

Thank you so much darling ^^ It makes me really happy to hear that ^^ Thank you for being so kind :)

@loverofskinnyjeans said: Oh my gosh Who Are You was so good! I’m so sad it’s over! Also… a dream?! Are you serious?! 😂 I’m so shell shocked by that, I didn’t even think about it ending that way but it was so cool 😁I don’t really know how to organise my thoughts but that was soooo good and I loved the whole story and just yay! I’m sorry this message is such a mess 😅 your writing is really great and I can’t wait to see what else is going to come from your amazing mind! ❤️❤️❤️

It was the ending I had planned since the start, so I’m so happy you enjoyed it my love :) Thank you so much for taking the time each week to read it and always messaging me with such wonderful words and giving me your thoughts. You’re amazing, love!

Anonymous said: WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL SARA?!? IT WAS ALL A DREAM?!? That is one detailed dream lol. I gotta say, although I’m kinda bummed that she didn’t end up with Jackson, that was a really interesting ending :) I’ve never read a story like that before~ I’m glad I discovered your blog a few months ago ^_^   And can I just say, I’m pretty damn excited for I Won’t Stop You~ Go Tuesday’s!   P.S. The new aesthetic of your blog is BEAUTIFUL ;)

*giggle* Yup! It was inspired by an extremely vivid dream I once had that really shook me~ I’m really happy you discovered my blog too! Thank you for reading and enjoying Who Are You? and I hope that you will love the future chapters of I Won’t Stop You too! - and , yay!! Thank you so much for loving the new layout ^^ The words on the header are lyrics from a song I wrote 2 days ago~ heh :) 

Anonymous said: SARA I’M CRYING.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I LOVE THE ENDING. I LOVEEVERYTHING. BLESS YOUR SOUL

Thank you so much for loving the ending *hugs* That means a lot to me! Thank you a million times ^^ I love you more!!

Anonymous said: Omfg im a dumb sht i don’t get the last part of the last chapter. is it like jackson was just at his room?

The last part of the chapter is Jaebum with the reader in her room - watching her as he sleeps and thinking about how much he loves her. And we can also see Jackson in his OWN bed back at the DORMS (I have written this in the chapter ^^) and he is looking at the readers picture and wondering about his own feelings. It’s a mirrored image between the two boys that is a direct parallel of the love triangle experienced when we put their two dreams together.

Anonymous said: That ending caused me to unfollow you

Bye bye darling!

Anonymous said: Oh I feel so stupid right now.. I totally overreacted last weak. You’re ending is painfully perfect! I’m still so sorry about what I said last week. This ending is genius! Wish you a happy new year and lot’s of love btw! <3

Don’t feel stupid! And don’t be sorry at all~ It’s your opinion and you were 100% entitled to it :D Thank you for reading my love ^^ I hope you have a happy new year too *hugs*

Anonymous said: What the actual fuck

*cries*

Anonymous said: You need Jesus in ur life

I already have Jesus in my life. He goes by the name of Im Jaebum *wiggles eyebrows*

Anonymous said: That was absolutely amazing. A worthy ending for such a fantastic series. I am so, so proud of you. ❤ X  -P.S. : Happy New Year!!! 🎆🎉

Thank you so much! Ahhhh I’m smiling so much while reading your message c: c: c: Happy new year to you too my love!

Anonymous said: Girl I and everybody reading Who Are You needs an epilogue of Jackson meeting the girl of his dreams and having cute babies cause he did not deserve that ending 😢😢😭😭😭😭 but the series was soooo good congrats on finishing another great series 💙 (cont.) I also think you should seriously write a book like if you had a pro read the series and tie a few loose ends then your story could be a legit book and I’d buy that ish so quickly 😫 again good job 👍💙

Ahhh I seem to have broken a lot of Jackson stan heart’s :c I apologise for this! hehe, but thank you so much for saying all those wonderful things ^^ I think it might be expensive to create a book! TT And I write for free~ I would feel really bad about putting a price on my writing when I just wanna have fun lol >< But thank you so much for telling me that anyway! *hugs*

@armysyehet said: Thank you so so so much for ‘Who are you?“ Because of timezones, I was always excited on Mondays just because of you and this story. I cried, I laughed, I truly enjoyed this. Thank you, Sara

I’m glad I could make you cry and laugh throughout my series! You’re welcome, and thank you so much for being amazing *hugs*. I truly appreciate it!

Anonymous said: I AM SHOOKT WTF

Good shookt or bad shookt?!

@moonlighthollow said: OMGGGGGGGG IT’S OVER BUT OMG WHO ARE YOU? IS SO FUCKING GOOD I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU! It was all a dream! That’s such an amazing plot twist❣❣❣❣ you’re amaziing ahhhhhh 😍😍💕💕💕 (sry for fangirling like a fucking Weirdo😅)  oh and happy new year😅💕🎇

Yes it’s finally over aaaaaahhh! I love you more dear :D And yes! Well, it was all just 2 dreams~ Jaebums dream about himself cheating and Jacksons dream about marrying the reader in the future lol ^^ You’re not a weirdo! I love you very much c: haha~ Thank you for reading the series and for always being so wonderful! I hope you have a happy new year too my dear ^^

Anonymous said: HOLY CRAP I WASNT PREPARED FOR THAT OMG OMG OMG OMG

 i hope you enjoyed it even though you weren’t prepared for it!

Anonymous said: O K A Y FIRTS OF ALL thank you so much you made my sundays so much better, i love this serie and yeah i really wanted her to end with Jackson BUT now that it was all a bad dream and jaebum wasnt an asshole i loved the end💜💜 keep the good work sara

I’m so happy that I could make your Sundays better! And yes >< I realise that a lot of people would have wanted her to end up with Jackson~ But at the same time, Jaebum only had a dream about himself cheating and Jackson was the one who dreamt about marrying the reader! heh ^^ Thank you so much my love :) I’ll keep working hard!

Anonymous said: sara, tbh I’m so fucking confused about the ending. would you mind explaining it to me??? bTW THE WHOLE SERIES WAS LIT ♡

I’m not sure which part about the ending you’re confused about! But i’ll try my best to condense it for you ^^ Jaebum had a dream about himself cheating on the reader. His dream ended when the reader decided to give him a second chance when they were both sitting in her living room. He had this dream for two reasons. 1) he took strong painkillers for his back and went to sleep, but the painkillers caused him to have crazy, vivid dreams. 2) He is terrified of hurting/losing the reader - so his mind automatically went there in the realm of his nightmare. When it comes to Jackson back at the dorm (Jaebum was in the readers apartment) - Jackson simply had a strange dream about marrying the reader and having kids with her in the future. In the last chapter, Jackson thinks to himself that it’s weird bc when you put the two dreams together, it feels like a story. And so the last part of the chapter is Jaebum with the reader in her room - watching her as she sleeps and thinking about how much he loves her. And we can also see Jackson in his OWN bed back at the DORMS (I have written this in the chapter ^^) and he is looking at the readers picture and wondering about his own feelings. It’s a mirrored image between the two boys that is a direct parallel of the love triangle experienced when we put their two dreams together. Thank you so much for reading it and enjoying it! I hope I could help explain it for you :)

@hi-chew97 said: Sara, I can’t believe it’s finished. It was such a great story and I like the little angst kind of ending. I love the "who am i?” In italics. I kind of guessed Jaebum would be dreaming this entire time but Jackson having the same dream? That hit me hard when Jackson started questioning things about his feelings. With the angst ending, I thought Jackson might do something in the future because his dream felt so real filled with love. I hope (more like wish) Jackson gets the ending he deserves! (cont.) Other than that, I’m glad Jaebum highkey reflected his love with Y/N and going to keep it strong even if it was a nightmare. It’s true though at times, when you’re in a relationship, nightmares like that do happen and honestly I had something like that and I just cried tremendously… it was the worst feeling but waking up to my “significant other” comforting me was the best. These kind of stories I live for!!! —-wait there’s more to say LMAO (cont.) FINALLY/- anyways, I really hope you make another one like this. It lifts my mood every Sunday ❤☺💕 Thank you for the hard work you’ve done for yourself and readers. Take a rest Sundays now for a bit ❤✨ (cont.) And happy new year my love~~~~

Thank you so much for this long and detailed message! I really appreciate your thoughts and analysis of everything that went on. You understood it perfectly~ And I know what you mean! Those kinds of scary, vivid dreams are quite common when you’re in love with someone because it’s what you fear a lot within a relationship. I will definitely be writing another GOT7 series in the future! But I’m going to focus on my Jungkook Vampire series and my requests for while now~ And yes, I will take nice rests on Sundays too heh ^^ Thank you so much my love, and I hope you have a happy new year too ^^

@memento-moree said: you deserve it ! I’ve just finished reading and I totally understand the ending. I am in no way upset with the way you wanted to end this. I feel sad for Jackson but then again, it’s nothing but fiction, and the story belongs to you <3  ! Do you plan on writing more got7 stories ? Btw, I crave for way too many bodies in got7, please judge me and put sense into my head lol I guess we’re not that far from each other, since i’m from France hehe Good job again author-nim <3

Thank you so much my love, thank you for understanding the ending and respecting that it’s my choice to end the story whatever way I wished haha ^^ And of course I plan to! Now that this series is over, I have more time to focus on my scenario request queue~ Which is where I write how other people want me to write! haha ^^ Ahhh from France c: I’m in the UK! Thank you so much my dear~ (ps I really love your account name~)

@trdemistakes said: i love !!! the last chapter of who are you? it’s so good! i definitely didn’t expect this ending but it’s probably my favorite chapter, it’s so well written!! good job girly! love you and all of your works :)

Thank you my love! I’m really happy you enjoyed the series :) I love you more and i hope you have a wonderful day!

@barefaced-k-idols said: Omg Sara the ending was great!!! I’m glad that y/n didn’t end up with a cheating scumbag but with a man who realized how important she is in his life (cont.) And Happy New Year!!! 🎊

It makes me really happy that you enjoyed the ending ^^ And yep! Sometimes, dreams can teach us valuable lessons that we can incorporate into our own lives ^^ Happy New Year and thank you so much!

@wonderful39530 said: 😭😤 I can’t believe it’s over!!!!😤😭 Who am I now that “Who Are You, Im Jaebum” is now over??😤😭 HAPPY NEW YEAR Sara!!!🎉🎊😭😤At least I still have Tuesday’s!! Will you be putting a new story in place of Who Are You,Im Jaebum?😤

Happy New Year to you too my love! Thank you so much for always reading and liking what I post ^^ I will continue writing my scenario requests queue for now and updating my Jungkook Vampire AU! But I won’t be starting another series for a few months :D

Anonymous said: I’m crying I feel so bad for Jackson 😭😭 This has been the most emotional and most detailed series I have read so far its amazing. Bravo Sara! i really look forward to any upcoming series’ and the story of 'I Wont Stop you’

Aww i’m sorry that it made you cry! But it makes me happy to hear you say that it was emotional and detailed :) I tried very very hard! Thank you so much and I’m glad you’re enjoying I Won’t Stop You, too! ^^

@deangetoutofmyspleen said: I CANT IM SCREAMING AND CRYING AND SCREAMING IT WAS ALL A *spoiler* IM AFKRKSKDLFLKRKWKSKXKCKGMFJAKSKDKFF I LOVE THIS STORY AND YOU SO MUCH

Ahhhh thank you so much babe! I love you so much too (’: I’m really happy you loved the story! Thank you so much for reading it :D

Anonymous said: As a JB biased girl I have absolutely enjoyed Who Are You sooo much! That ending 😍 amazing! You gave me something to look forward to on Sundays and now that it’s over I don’t know what I’ll do with myself😆 it’s been a privilege to read your writing and look forward to your future stories! Thank you and I can’t see what you write next!💕

I’m glad it made you happy since you are JB biased ^^ It was always going to be a Jaebum x Reader story, and I had planned it to be that way ever since I began writing the series :D Thank you for reading it and enjoying it! I’m currently writing a Jungkook Vampire AU series so I will continue to focus on that and my scenario requests queue for a while! Thank you for all your wonderful words ^^

Anonymous said: I actually didn’t suspect the story to end that way. I thoroughly enjoyed it all and applaud for doing what you wanted to do 👏 I’m looking forward to what you have in store for us in the future

I know there will be some people who will think i’m awful for ending it the way I did - but just as you said, I did what I wanted to do. I will never play things safe just to please people. Because you can’t please everyone in life ^^ Thank you for reading my story, I really appreciate it!

Anonymous said: Can I just say that I absolutely lOVED THE ENDING TO WHO ARE YOU!!  I JUST READ IT RIGHT NOW AND I FEEL HAPPY AND SAD BC y/n IS HAPPY AND JB DIDNT REALLY CHEAT BUT JACKSON AT THE END BROKE MY HEART . You are an amazing writer and I love your fics!! Please don’t stop writing!!

Thank you so much for living the ending :) I’m glad I could make you feel all those feels! heh~ I will keep writing, so long as it is fun for me :D Heh~ Once again, thank you so much - you’re really awesome! Have a wonderful day my  love ^^

Anonymous said: “i cannot please everyone” I love this sentence. And yes, i don’t like the way a story can have 2 endings you know!!!

Exactly~ There is no single way to please everyone. So, I will just do what makes me happy! ^^ Thank you so much!

Anonymous said: Sara, Happy new year!! I’m one of the biggest fan of your scenarios :) The first thing I wanna tell you is thank you for updating the last part of 'Who are you?’!! And I really like the way it ended as being Jaebum stan ;)))) Since JJJ(Jaebum, Jackson, Jinyoung) is my favorite trio, I enjoyed the whole stories so much!! Can’t wait for your next scenarios, I will support you forever XD Hope you have happy winter holidays!

I’m so so happy that you enjoy what I write ^^ I really appreciate that lovely. Ahh so this JJJ part of the story was great for you! I’m glad it was about your favourite trio heh :) Thank you so much, and I hope your winter holidays were wonderful! ^^

Anonymous said: Today i read the chapter 20 because i couldn’t the last sunday BUT if you would have ended the story in that chapter i wouldn’t have liked it… So yes, i loved the chapter 21, i loved the story and i love how you think about second opportunities

Thank you for reading and liking the story my dear ^^ And yes, this ending leaved us with the impression that there could be some tension for them in their world in the future ^^ heh~ Thank you again, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

@fano2001 said: Omg it was a dream!!..I’m so happy that nothing actually happened phew! Thank you sooo much for sharing your beautiful writing in this blog,you are really good i felt that i’m in the story like you said some details it was soo good I loved it.. Keep your good work and i hope that i’ll see some good series for yugyeom too haha.. Have a nice day/night and thank you again

Well, it was 2 dreams! Jaebums dream about him cheating and Jacksons dream about him marrying the reader heh~ I hope to write series about all members in the future! So I hope you’ll enjoy them too c: Thank you so much for reading what I write my love ^^ I really appreciate it. I hope you have a good day/night too! ^^

Anonymous said: You get a lot of anons, so it probably won’t be easy to recall. Last week I said that if this all turned out to he a dream, I was screaming and deleting. You really did me in (positively). I was like, “…i cant be mad at Jaebum anymore? What the hell? B-but Jackson” 😂 even at the end I was like, “b-but Jackson…”. Needless to say, I’m so glad you chose to end it the way YOU wanted. Haha, hope Jackson gets some love soon b/c this and 'A Heavy Heart’ (my request) were just brutal for him (½) and i see you have more Jackson angst coming up 😢. He ain’t even my bias, but I love him so. Why are we so mean to fiction Jackson? But I digress, I cannot thank you enough for all the work you put into this series. You are such a wonderful writer and beautiful person. I look forward to everything else you plan on contributing to this fandom and hope 2017 treats you well. Happy New Year! 2/2

I remember you! Don’t worry c: I remember a lot of what people say to me. I see everything that everyone says about/to/concerning me. I can even see what people say about me on twitter for very few people know who I am *shifty eyes* heh~ Thank you for respecting my choice to end it the way I wanted to. That makes me incredibly happy ^^ And ikr! a lot of people always request angsty Jackson fics and it breaks my heart >< But I chose to do Jackson very dirty in this fic, so I am not innocent either hehe~ Thank you so much my love and I hope 2017 treats you well too! Happy New Year :)

@aurora-vii said: Yeah you rock my world sara! 😙 finally #teamjaebum.. you make me squeal in front of people like some crazy woman… omg 😱😍😘💑

I made you squeal ahhhh I’m sorry! It’s okay, I know you’re not some crazy woman lol ^^ Thank you so much for reading the series, and I’m so so so happy that you enjoyed it ^^

Anonymous said: HOLY CRAP SARA!!! THE LAST CHAPTER OF WHO ARE YOU IM SCREAMING I WAS IN A FIT OF ANXIETY THE ENTIRE TIME I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL ?????

I’m sorry for making you scream in anxiety! That wasn’t my intention hehe~ I know you don’t know how to feel, but thank you so much for reading nonetheless c:

Anonymous said: SARA WTF WTF DID I JUST READ??? I NEVER READ CHAPTER 20 AND AND AND I WENT TO 21 THEN I I I SCROLLED DOWN TO SEE THE LAST COUPLE OF WORDS AND I SAW TOO MUCH AND AND AND *faints*

OH NO DAMN YOU PLAYED YOURSELF >< Ahhhh I’m sorry that happened to you :c

@is-this-username-available said: I am speechless!! The plot twists, what happened overall, the ending!!! all incredible❤️! I’m a little sad to see it end… The story literally had me in tears! It made me sad, it made me happy, and it always left me wanting more😅 you truly are an amazing writer 💜💜

Thank you so much for enjoying everything from beginning to end, it really makes me so happy and I am truly appreciative of this ^^ I’m glad I could evoke all these emotions from you in some way ^^ Thank you again, and I’m very thankful that you read it and liked it, too :D

@yumygeom said: Bro this one got me crying

*dries your tears* it’s okay now, shhhh~

Anonymous said: OMFG VDIABDSKJS “WHO ARE YOU” WAS SO FREAKING AMAZING!!!! Seriously, I had no idea how u would write te final chapter, and u just surpassed my expectations I LOVE IT and also all those 'who am i’ and 'who are you’ references JUST AAAAAAAA SO GOOD

I’m so happy that I could surpass your expectations ^^ I’m glad you picked up on all the Who Are You references. Actually, throughout the entire series, there were small references to the whole thing being a dream. But people only started picking up on them once I deliberately made them bigger and easier to spot ;) Thank you so much my darling!

@coppertopging said: How dare you play with my emotions this way?! I’m a hot mess!! Damn you and your talented writing!!! I can’t handle this… 

I apologise for playing and toying with your emotions my love >< But, thank you so much for reading it! *hugs*

Anonymous said: SARA! HOW DARE YOU PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS LIKE THIS! WHY END IT WITH A DREAM! WHYYYYYYYYY!

Why end it with a dream? Why not? ^^ It’s just a story! lol :) Thank you for reading!

Anonymous said: So all was a dream 😂😂 lol yass jaebum WIN

It was all 2 dreams~ Jaebums dream about him cheating andJacksons dream about him marrying the reader heh ^^

Anonymous said: I- I just read your entire JB scenario… you’re lucky I was so hooked that I didn’t even think about saying my reactions as I went along- just… dang… that was intense. In my heart I want to bug you into making a sequel series, with Jackson as the love interest, building up from the end of this one and how random crap happens and she ends up with Jackson (IT WAS A JB FANFIC WHY AM I SHIPPING HER W/ JACKSON?!?!) but I don’t think my heart can handle it… PLEASE DO BUT PLEASE DON’T I CANT bro

Awww I’m sorry she didn’t end with Jackson :( But!!! I have nice Jackson scenarios planned for the future, so hopefully they can mend your broken heart a little ^^ Thank you for reading it regardless my dear!

@callmessam said: I love the ending Sara! What a twist that JB and Jackson were the ones dreaming! But ofc, I love that she ended up with JB 💓 I really am going to miss this, but I’m also glad that JB is no longer feeling miserable. Thank you for this amazing series!

Thank you so much for loving the ending! That really makes me happy that you enjoyed it :D And yes, JB is no longer feeling miserable but Jackson is thrown into a world of doubtful emotions ;c Thank you for reading it my love! *hugs*

Anonymous said: Happy New Year sara ❤ I’m the exam girl HAHA anyways I thought I should introduce myself because I never did wtf but I’m dee and let’s get straight to the point! 'Who Are You’ finally ended T-T that was so amazing?? really amazing??? I’m really happy about the ending btw hehe but I’m just curious on what alternate endings you were going to make tbh! the whole series caught me off guard, I’m so glad I came across this and hopped on the train ride :’) thank you so much for everything, I love you ❤

Hello Dee! It’s nice to finally put a name to your anon ;) Thank you for loving the series my dear! The alternate endings would have been 1) where she ends up forgiving Jaebum and stays with him and 2) Where she ends up not forgiving Jaebum and gets with Jackson. But I just decided to do my own ending in the end ^^ I was only making those other endings to please everyone else - and that’s not the reason I write. I DO write scenario requests that are tailored to what people want. But this - this ended how I wanted it to end ^^ Thank you so much my dear, I love you too!

Anonymous said: Sara~~! Wow, who are you is finished omg. I really really love the ending! Thank you for your hard work even on sundays and holidays. ^^ also: damn, our birthday is coming up! XD happy 2017! -unnianon

Hello unnianon! And yes, it’s really finished now! Thank you for loving the ending and for reading. And yes! Our birthday is soon ahhhh and so is Jaebum’s! I’m being pathetic and baking him a cake he will never see lol *cries* Happy 2017 to you too my love c:

Anonymous said: You are such a talented writer. I’m so sad you turned such a wonderful story into something so terrible with the ending! But of course it is your story so it’s your choice and your talented either way! I will just focus on the good parts before the ending. I feel like a good story needs closure for all parties in the end and maybe an explanation as to why the dreams were so vivid. Also you did Jackson dirty!! Please don’t take this as hate but constructive criticism. Just something to work on

Thank you for saying that I am a talented writer. I really appreciate that. But I can’t help but feel sad when you say ‘something so terrible’ lol it just turns your compliment into a backhanded one. But, alas - you are entitled to your own opinion, as am I. But I am confused at you saying there was no explanation as to why they had vivid dreams. Jaebum had this dream for two reasons. 1) he took strong painkillers for his back and went to sleep, but the painkillers caused him to have crazy, vivid dreams. 2) He is terrified of hurting/losing the reader - so his mind automatically went there in the realm of his nightmare (as I explained in the story, it’s possible that you missed it because you hated it so much! TT) And Jacksons dream, well, don’t you ever have strange and vivid dreams that you can’t understand? I once had a dream about me killing tiny puppies and rubbing their blood all over my walls. Why did I have that dream? Your guess is as good as mine, my love. I understand that you’re not hating, but it is MY ending, and I can’t please everyone and I won’t apologise for something like that ^^ Thank you for reading it even though you disliked the ending, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

@mintiie-ice said: So it was all a dream 😶 and not one she was having but rather Jaebum and Jackson? That’s a pretty good twist 🤔 I’m somewhat glad I began reading Who Are You before it was finished because when I come across completed series I have a habit of skimming the last chapter to see if it’s one with a happy ending. But anyways so Jaebum’s dream gives him an insight as she said  it’s 'something he’s afraid of’ and now he’s certain it won’t ever happen but at the same time it raises a question like (1) Jacksons dream where it a question of 'does he have those sort of feelings for her?’ I interpret the end the end to be the same like their dream… it’s a question with an open end that’s left to our imaginations. Was the dreams they had brushed off, mostly in Jackson case because Jaebum with be monitoring Jackson with her, or was the conclusion the same as the dream because his last line he stutters(?) as if he’s uncertain that, that is really all he is to her… but the main point is… (2) Jaebumie really didn’t cheat! 😭 it was just his own nightmare and fear, although it is kind of weird to dream of yourself cheating on the person you love and can’t live without 🤔 but dream are mysterious and weird that way so… 😶 I wrote an essay just now >.< wow…

It was all two dreams ^^ Jaebum had the cheating one and his ended with the reader agreeing to try and give him a second chance. And Jackson had the dream about him marrying the reader in the future and it ending with the reader dying on the plane ^^ Your end deductions are something I always enjoy reading! And i’ll certainly miss them now that the series is over ^^ And also, have you never had a dream when you see something from someone else point of view? I have those dreams a lot actually! It inspired me to do it this way c: And remember, he took super strong painkillers so that’s probably why his dream was so awful. Again - since I take a lot of strong painkillers, I experience this too ^^ There are a million and one different ways to interpret dreams, but I believe that always trying to find an answer to your dreams can drive you to the brink of insanity lol (again, I have experience in this too haha!) Thank you so much for your message and thank you for reading each chapter too. I hope that you enjoyed it, for I really enjoyed writing it and posting it for everyone to read :)

@nathjaebum said: I’m very emotional rn sara. You and your story Who Are You are masterpieces. I’m not disappointed with the ending you made cos it’s really the BEST. Honestly, I was surprised with the plot twist, PLOT TWIST INDEED!  you are so talented and so nice.

I’m really happy to know that you enjoyed the plot twist! I’ve never done a story where it was all ‘just a dream’ (or in my case, two dreams lol) so I’m happy that i got to do that in this way! Thank you for your kind words about my and my series :) And thank you so much for reading as well ^^ Have a wonderful day!

Anonymous said: THE ENDING OMG I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING I NEED TO GO SIT DOWN AND COUNT TO 10 BC WTF

*counts down with you* shhhh, it’s okay my love - deep breaths now, okay? That’s it~ heh^^

Anonymous said: Can i say that ur Who r u series is the best story I’ve ever read! And I hope u continue doing what u love bc u r an amazing writer! Fighting! Can’t wait for many more! ^^

Thank you so much! I’m really happy that you enjoyed it ^^ Have a great day/night my dear! ^^

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-- liberatedRaptor [LR] began messaging tapeFace [TF] --

-- liberatedRaptor [LR] began messaging tapeFace [TF] at 22:21 --

LR: HEY WHY IS YOUR LITTLE MOOD FACE THING SET TO SAD?????

TF: Because, my friend

TF: I am a sad boy (◡︿◡,✿)

TF: I'm so bored of my job, and I have no ambitions

LR: so quit your job and do something *~WORTHWHILE~*

TF: That's just it. (´＿｀。) I'm not sure what I want to do. I've got no direction.

LR: damn that sucks

LR: i get that tho

LR: i wanted to not be a hitman for the rest of my life and i was like "wtf should i do"

LR: and then my mate was all like "*~bakery~*"

TF: ∑(゜Д゜;) YOU WERE A HITMAN?

LR: uhhhhhhhhhhhhh yes

TF: (⊙△⊙) Holy cow. I never would have guessed that.

LR: yeah i seem so DOCILE

LR: i used to be really different than i am now

TF: Oh man, that's wild. (◕﹏◕✿) Is that why you were on the run or something way back when we first started talking?

LR: yep!

LR: the agency i was with was very "once youre here, youre here forever" so i couldnt just like... quit

LR: had to fake my own death and change my identity

TF: ∑(●︿●✿) Yikes. That sounds scary as hell.

TF: At least now you're free to do what you really enjoy. ( ﾟ∀ﾟ)b Congrats on getting out

LR: thanks bruh

LR: lot of shit has changed in the past sweep

LR: most of it for the better i mean

TF: That's great (´◠ω◠`)

TF: Oh man, I didn't mean to completely change the conversation. (◕﹏◕✿)

TF: You were being all encouraging and I just went "(ﾉ⊙ヮ⊙)ﾉ TALK ABOUT THIS OTHER THING"

LR: no its fine lol

LR: whatever you wanna talk about it fine, i dont really care

TF: I'm just over here angsting it up because I have literally (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*Nothing going for me*~✧』

TF: I've got no idea what I want to do with myself. (－nლ)

LR: well whatever you do, dont be a hitman

LR: i mean unless you like killin and hurtin folks

TF: Not even a little (⊙︿⊙✿) I'm not about that life

TF: No offense

LR: none taken

LR: its not like i wanted to hurt people or anything

LR: its just that i needed to survive and thats all i knew

TF: That's rough

TF: If you don't mind me asking, did you always know baking is something you wanted to do? Or did you just give it a shot because your mate suggested it and you loved it?

LR: well its something ive done for a long time because of uhhhh

LR: some bullshit

LR: super good at it

LR: its harder to do now because i cant handle the heat of the ovens

LR: i wasnt always a walking snowman

LR: did i kill the convo

TF: Nah, I got distracted. My lusus managed to open the window and a couple of wasps got in. (╬ Ò﹏Ó)

LR: holy shit

LR: i wouldve died

LR: wasps are basically winged spiders

TF: That is the scariest way anyone has ever described a wasp ever /)(◉Д◉)(\

TF: I won the war, though. (≖︿≖) No wasp can beat my Ultimate Weapon

TF: A flyswatter

LR: a flyswatter

LR: or in this case a waspswatter

TF: They never saw it coming (≖︿≖)ノ--■

TF: Except when they totally did and tried to divebomb me

LR: did you die

TF: Yeah man, I totally died

TF: I'm a ghost right now

TF: My lusus is typing for me cuz I'm all intangible and stuff

TF: Joke's on them, though, cuz they're SUPER DEAD ヾ(￣◇￣)ノ〃

LR: holy shit

LR: OH

TF: Not tonight wasps. ᕙ( •̀ ︿•́ )ᕗ Even in death I win

TF: You know, I think I'll quit my job. (´◡ω◡`) Just take some time to really get to know Cacoph Octahv and think about my future.

LR: yeah! hell yeah!

LR: i mean like you can survive without the job money right??

TF: Yeah, probably. (◕ω◕✿)

TF: (″･ิ_･ิ) Maybe I'll just switch from full time to part time.

TF: Just to be safe

LR: you could consider just working a bunch and saving up a bunch so you know you can handle all your expenses

LR: or i could slip you some fundage

LR: im a real big advocate of people "finding" themselves

LR: and, uh. i still have a shitload of money from being a hitman

LR: its, uh. good money

(((OOC: Angel had to leave suddenly, so the pesterlog ends here.)))

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reasons why nico/leo would have made a great pairing if someone had dared to have two gay characters in their book

no way would leo be angsting over being gay. like maybe subconsciously, and maybe initially, but he’s definitely an out and proud type - and being around him would totally have a positive effect on nico

also just in general leo’s personality would boost nico’s mood, if he let it. like nico’s only so... moody because he distances himself from everyone else. if he actually let himself hang out with and befriend the others on the party ship, leo’s humor could totally cheer him up

(as long as leo wasnt being accidentally insulting, but yknow what thats another bullet point because nico would finally be the one to call him out on that. someone needs to tell leo when he’s being rude and nico wouldn’t let that slide)

conversely nico would totally mellow leo out. he doesnt bond by joking or messing around which would force leo to try to take things seriously more often. just imagine them having serious deep conversations at the helm between rote midair monster battles