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TNBaMYWF Notes

I love this fic.

You might not understand how wonderful that is to be able to say again, but I'm definitely back to loving my writing.

It's so nice to be writing just for myself again and not writing for the people who already dislike my work.

I talked to my therapist about it on Thursday when I'd already spent four days of April not writing, and she helped me work through the realization that I don't write because I want people to read it. I write because I enjoy it and I want to.

I post it because I want to give people a gift of a fun story or an emotional short story or a thoughtful or beautiful poem.

I share because I want people to have fun like I'm having fun, but sharing isn't why I write, and it should never be that way.

It's something I'm probably going to have to relearn again later, but I'm so thankful to have learned it now.

That's all to say that I'm still writing and I'm truly enjoying it now!

Look forward to the next chapter, because I'm loving it so far and I can't wait to gift it to you all! :D

[sendryl]

Sasuke runs into someone unpleasant, meets some new adults, and makes an unforgettable first impression.

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Just wanted to remind everyone that FANART of MY FIC exists and I'm so proud.

I love this.

Chapter 12 is already 5k words and not looking to wrap up anytime soon lol. At the rate the chapters keep expanding I'm gonna end up with 15k chapters soon istg.

Well this fic (by @sendryl) is breaking my heart so

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Itachi tightens and loosens his grip, Sasuke has the best birthday ever and meets Big Konoha, Fugaku acts like a pettable cat in public and makes some important progress, and Naruto’s disguise works better than he could’ve hoped.

A new chapter!!! Huzzah!!! Enjoy!

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There's Never Been a Moment You Were Forgotten WIP Note!

I'm almost done with chapter eleven!

That's it, that's the note.

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[sendryl]

Alright, so I'm finally working on my Naruto/Sasuke kid soulmates fic again!

I'm just working on Chapter 11 now, and I've got a big chunk of it outlined and first drafted already, so it's going pretty well.

The opening scene for Chapter 11 is extremely silly and childish and I love it. It's a kid fic. And I mentioned Shinobi Street way back in Chapter 1!

Did you really think I wouldn't come back to it???

Sasuke doesn’t have nearly as much time to watch Shinobi Street now that he’s out searching for his soulmate, but he still tries to catch at least one episode a week.

Kaasan and Niisan say it’s good for his development, and he wants to be a well-developed person, so he pays close attention to everything the characters say. Big Konoha is his favorite. He just loves his nice smiley face, and who wouldn’t love Konoha’s Leaf given life?

So Sasuke is watching the end of the program on the morning of his fifth birthday, eating at the kotatsu because everything is a little different on his birthday. Rules get bent if not outright broken at home, and Niisan has promised to take him out for fresh tomatoes.

Niisan’s been very busy lately, so Sasuke is looking forward to spending time with him.

It's going to be a good day.

He’s slept well, and he already sent his soulmate a good morning hug, and breakfast has been delicious.

It’s already been a very good day, in fact.

And it’s only going to get better, he’s sure of it.

Shinobi Street is just ending, the children waving goodbye, and Big Konoha walks closer.

He looks so happy, with his smiling face and his bright green coloring.

And then Tousan walks up next to him.

Sasuke drops his chopsticks.

WIP Wednesday

Got tagged by @emmalostinwonderland <3 We in the dinluke server are trying to stay motivated by working in group to show off WIPs so here is one for you guys.

Context: This is a dinluke Western Fantasy. Meaning this is all set in the Old West times (not really but mostly the aesthetic) mixed with fantasy.

WARNING: slightly descriptive violence at the end.

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Carefully, Luke pushed himself up and peeked over the edge again.  This time, the Trodoshans now stood stiffly facing the cave. They continued to hiss, sharp-taloned hands flexing and teeth bared. One had a hand on the pistol on their hip.  Luke peered at the cave yet there wasn’t anything he could see. He was about to use his magic to attempt to know what they were aware of when he heard a faint sound coming from the cave. Holding his breath, Luke stared with a refusal to blink. It wasn’t long before two others emerged frantically from the cave: a human male and a half-turned werewolf.  Both of them were cursing up a storm. The human tossed his gun away and turned back to the cave, pulling out a sprig of pine and started muttering under his breath. The magic he created pulled into the ground where the earth at the entrance of the cave started to break and break to move up.  “What happened?” One of the Trodoshans asked. “Where are the otherssss?” “Screw the others!” the werewolf snapped, not having calmed an inch. “They are dead! We fucked up!”  “What-?” A glint of something caught Luke’s eyes in the sun just as a sound pierced the air. Luke didn’t dare blink as a spear rained down from above and found the head of one of the Trodoshans. Their skull jerked as the spear went straight through and embedded in the ground without a single sound. There wasn’t a time to observe the horror however as a shadow came out of nowhere above the other Tradoshan.

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One of my old notes for the upcoming chapter of TNBaMYWF is "Danzo is a slimy bitch baby" XD XD XD XD XD

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Chapter 9 is up!

Naruto gets some clothes and makes some new friends, and gets a whole bunch of handkerchiefs.

His new friends stress out the ANBU.

Sasuke makes some friends of his own, but all he really wants is to be able to go search for his soulmate.

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This is actually something I'm attempting to cover in my fic There's Never Been a Moment You Were Forgotten, where the Uchiha start trying to reconnect with the village early on instead of attempting the coup

I started with the premise of SNS soulmates who (briefly) share each other's injuries + Naruto's early child abuse

And then I thought a little bit too hard about how Mikoto and Itachi and Fugaku would deal with their precious Sasuke getting massive bruises before he turns two...

So yeah, getting the other clans on their side is definitely happening. Side arcs keep popping up in my fic and I've only posted chapter 4 but the original idea I had for chapter 4 has now been extended to chapter 6 if I'm lucky lol

I bet the Nara put two and two together and shut their goddamn mouth bc if the village was willing to wipe out a founding clan who was the backbone of the police force, what are they gonna do about a clan who stuck their nose into village matters?

YES.

Like, realistically, the Uchiha Massacre must have been goddamn terrifying for the other Clans.

Because if a Founding Clan can be so easily destroyed then are any of them actually safe? Who’s next? Will someone think the Nara are too smart? That the Yamanaka see too much?  Will the Hyuga’s be seen as reaching above their station next too?

The amount of civil unrest and fear that should have popped up post Massacre (as well as a massive uptick in inter-village crime) would have had repercussions on a Kyubi like scale.

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TNBaMYWF Thoughts

So Mikoto is tearing through my outline like a whirling dervish and I love it.

Uchiha Mikoto sees one (1) orphaned son of her friend and rips through the author's outline to get to him faster. XD

...I'm listening to The Smith's Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want and uh... It's very topical. But uh. Sorry Mikoto, I ain't gonna let you get what you want.

Not exactly, anyway. Not yet. ;)

Mikoto:

Hokage and Sen:

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For the fic writer meme 9 and 10!

9. The hardest fic to write overall and right now is There's Never Been a Moment You've Been Forgotten. I love this fic, I have it outlined and I have plenty of future scenes written, but! People keep asking me to update. And that stabs right into the part of my brain that is adhd (hates doing assigned tasks) and is also defiant af (hates doing literally anything it is told to do). So like. Yeah that one is so difficult to write right now because my motivation is shot to pieces. Which sucks, because I'd really like to update it too! But it's not healthy for me to write it atm because my brain starts spiraling like crazy and then the Bad Thoughts come. :/

Lol sorry Malakia! None of this ire is aimed at you, friend. You were probably not exactly asking in order to invite therapy hour... Whoops. XD Yeah, I just got a message like a day ago, from a reader, asking me to please either update or tell people the fic is abandoned so I'm uh. A little salty about it rn. XD They weren't awful about it or anything, but yeah. My defiant brain is kinda frothing at the mouth angry rn.

ANYWAY MOVING ON!

An Undertale (my current fandom of choice) difficult fic to write is probably Puzzle Runner. I'm honestly really worried I won't be able to write Papyrus well enough as a romantic lead! Like, he's so enthusiastic and charming and such a breath of fresh air, and that's not what my soul is like at all?? So I'm worried I'll portray him wrong and then be disappointed in myself.

Oh man. I should not answer these at 4 am, all of this is becoming Therapy Hour. Ahhh whoops??? 😅😅😅

10. The easiest fic to write is probably any of my soulmate fics? I just. There's something about that trope that is so comforting and freeing for me. Oooh or any song fics. I love music, so including music in the fic or basing the fic on the story and flow of a song is so fun to do! I just gotta remember that I'm writing the fic for me and not for the people who hate song fics. XD

A specific Naruto fic would be Sex and Coffee, which is not a soulmate fic but is the fic that fills me with the most pride. I woke up at 2 am, rolled over and wrote it on my phone in one continuous stream over the course of two hours. I read back over it to edit for maybe ten minutes and then posted it immediately and went back to sleep right after. Seriously, if I didn't know better I'd think I'd gotten possessed. Easiest fic I've ever written, hands down. XD I love that fic to pieces. So I guess this one is the real answer. But I'm not gonna edit the earlier bit, lol.

A specific Undertale fic would actually be Neighborhood Blues. I also wrote that first chapter in a bit of a blur. XD I guess the easiest fics to write are the ones that spring fully-formed from my mind like Pegasus from Medusa.

Anyway, I just had a thought about Neighborhood Blues XD XD XD XD XD

Gotta go write it down before it escapes.

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TNBaMYWF Chapter Updates!

Chapter 6: The Orphans of Forgetting

Chapter 7: Oh, What Have We Here, He Must Be Three or Four

And I've already got Chapter 8 ready to go, just trying to keep to a two week schedule for once. I'm currently editing Chapter 9 and editing/writing Chapter 10, and right this minute I'm editing one of my favorite scenes in the whole fic!!! NaNoWriMo is helping me complete this fic I've been working on for over three years now! Yay!!!

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I WROTE CHAPTER 6!!!!!!! IT'S UP!!!!

THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Something odd is happening in Konoha.

There's a new clan in Konoha that Naruto's never seen before, a fancy one, and yet they treat their civilians alike they're actually family.

They don't bother him but they also don't ignore him, and Naruto doesn't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing.

He's not going to get close enough to find out, either.

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Long Author's Note

Tldr, rude commenter took an axe to my mental health for a few months there. Whoops.

A few things you should know about me:

I have pretty terrible depression and anxiety, along with rejection sensitive dysphoria and imposter syndrome, like many of us on ao3 do. I am a very broken person right now, and that's okay. I'm trying to work on it. It's hard, but I'm trying.

So TNBaMYWF went on pause for four months because basically, somebody left a really long anon comment on chapter four telling me how disappointed they were in me and my writing, and the direction I was taking the fic.

And that hurt. A lot. It honestly still does, and that was literally over four months ago.

My mental health is very poor, and with everything that's going on in the world rn, it's only gotten poorer over the last four months. 

This fic became a huge source of anxiety for me, instead of something I loved and enjoyed writing.

On the other, much happier hand:

I also received fanart the same day I got that comment, so that was absolutely amazing. I got the fanart, then got the comment, and then spite wrote 3.5k inspired by the fanart, which will be coming up in a future chapter.

And there was an anon who responded to the initial anon with basically "Hey, fuck you and fuck off." I think about you pretty much every time I think of this fic, Blessed Fuck Off Anon, whoever you are. Thank you for making me feel like I wasn't overreacting by being upset by them. I love you a whole lot, and I hope you're doing well.

Anyway, tldr is: Please only leave kind comments on fic. Leaving comments that are rude or demanding or criticizing literally killed my ability to create. That's the opposite of what you should want.

To that rude anon in particular: If my fic isn't what you want, the back button is right there. You also have the ability to write your own fic, and I'd encourage you to do so, if only so you understand just how much effort and heart goes into fic. There's absolutely no reason to be cruel or rude or tell a writer that you're disappointed in them. You didn't buy this fic. I'm not forcing you to read it. You have no obligation to read my works, none at all, but you absolutely do have an obligation to be kind when you comment.

I will never ask for concrit on my fics, because trust me, I've already concritted myself about a million times before posting. I did ask for any typos spotted before, but I've realized it doesn't matter. If there's a typo or an error, so what? If my fic goes in a direction you don't like, you can leave and go find something else to read.

I'm sharing my writing because I enjoy reading fic, and I want there to be more fic for other people to enjoy.

So take my writing as it is, or leave me alone please!

But to those of you who leave nice comments and say the sweetest things or DRAW FANART (I’m still blown away by that) or  just flail and hope my fics end happily (they will, I promise), I love you guys. You're the reason I post fic, and you're the reason I've fought my way through the last four months to continue this fic in particular.

I love you so much.