#This is just the tip of the iceberg for these 2 ngl

[thedo0zyslider]

since you guys seem to be interested I'll give some of the general ideas I had. Nothing too spoilery tho

So like, no one knows about the arranged marrige other than fwhip, Jimmy, and their parents. Because it's a political thing, like maybe the codfolk and grimlands people will stop hating each other if their future emperor's are married and in love (this. Somewhat works? Not fully but it does something.) All their friends and family are in the dark so they can't even hate each other around them. Jimmy and Fwhip have to act in love almost the entire day, until it's just the two of them alone

So imagine being Jimmy. Hes going to be married off to this asshole in maybe 3 years, maybe less, and his beloved older sister tells him she has a crush on someone. On his best friend Joel, and Jimmy is so happy for her but also he is so jealous. And then they start dating, and attend Jimmy’s arranged wedding as a couple. And Lizzie and Joel are literally having more fun at the wedding than the people getting married.

And then a few years later they get engaged, and Jimmy can't even be happy for them. He really wants to, but all he can think about is what was taken from him. And remember his shitty wedding and how he has a stupid ring on his finger and how much he hates it. He wants to be happy at his sister and best friends wedding but can't even bring himself too. Fwhip is also jealous as fuck, but it's less personal for him than it is Jimmy

(Jimmy ans Fwhip also are not....exclusive in their marrige either, btw. They both get with other people and don't really care (until they do.) You guys can guess who those other ppl are if u want too :])

Even if its not ready to be posted, would anyone like to hear about my fwhimmy arranged marriage fic?? :3

[tohconfessions]

I'ma just go ahead and say it

LUNTER IS INHERENTLY THE WORSE SHIP IN TOH

and I could go on a whole 90 minute yt video essay cause I'm very passionate about hating this ship but I'd probably get harassed so here are my reasons!!

1. It's so obvious that Luz is supposed to parallel Belos and not Evelyn

As much a people wanna say "Luz introduced Hunter to magic!!" NO THE FUCK SHE DIDN'T?? Hunter preexisting knew about magic she just introduced the concept of glyphs you dummy

A personal theory of mines is that no one in the show is supposed to express Evelyn, no Luz, not Willow, no one, and it's so damn annoying when lunter stans use it as a point to justify their nonsensical ship,

"L-Luz introduced Hunter to magic and Evelyn did the same to Caleb and Caleb and Evelyn fell in love so erm actually now they're dating!1!!"

SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPPP

2. The ship is borderline homophobic

Just to clear the way Hunter and Luz both being bisexual has nothing to do with the ship being homophobic so I'll just set that straight

The reason why IT IS HOWEVER is because Dana not only made the show for obvious reasons cause it was a passion project, BUT TO NORMALIZE FUCKING GAY RELATIONSHIPS ON KIDS TV, I don't mean to sound like a "they're getting in the way of the gay ship" BUT LUMITY IS LITERALLY THE MAIN SHIP OF THE FUCKING SHOW

Lumity was already canon in s3, end of s2, became canon in the middle of s2, and preexisted before as a concept before the show probably even FUCKING AIRED

And like yeah that's kinda like the tip of the iceberg on how lunter is like the worst ships over besides Amity x Hunter which is literally lesbianphobia and Hunter x Gus which is lowkey proship but like yeah I'm really passionate on this opinion ngl

Idk man, I’m kind of tired of Lunter confessions, everyone reblog this post with your favourite Huntceda fanart (I swear y’all don’t show this amount of hatred too actual problematic ships)

[princessrarijacklestia]

Intro post for my account

Hey, I just remembered I never actually formally introduced myself here! I figured I would do this then head to bed or something.

Sooo, my name is Finn or Finney (either or is fine, but I like it when people use them interchangeably). I use any pronouns, I'm genderfluid, and bisexual.

I'm an age regressor, pet regressor, and caregiver. My little ages are around 0-5 (1-2 is where I usually land when I regress) and when my species are cat (I haven't really figured out which breeds yet), dog (Irish Wolfhound/Cardigan Welsh Corgi/Yorkshire Terrier), and lion. I've been interested in the communities for 5 years now but only recently have I been really dipping my toes into them. I regress because of stress and mental illness (ADHD + anxiety + depression is like eating a peanut butter and pickle sandwich but the bread is a tortilla, it isn't a fun combination at all.)

Some of my triggers are:

When I'm under stress

Dissociating? (I'm not sure if it is dissociation, I just can't really describe it any other way.)

Reading/writing agere/petre fanfics

When I'm in my caregiver/pet/little headspace (the ol' switcharoo)

Listening to ASMR

Stimboards (I'm not autistic, but these changed my life ngl)

Watching cartoons

Bathing/being messy

Fear/anxiety (I am terrified of the ocean/dark water, mirrors, the dark, ghosts, and home intruders which contribute to this)

My favorite regression foods:

Chicken noodle soup

Applesauce

Mac and cheese with shells

Cottage Cheese

Blackberries

Chamomile tea and milk

Chicken

Swedish fish

Watermelon

My favorite regression shows and movies:

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (I couldn't tell)

Blues Clues

Scooby Doo

The Lady and the Tramp

The Lion King

My favorite regression music:

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic soundtrack

Music box songs

The Beatles/solo projects

High School Musical movies soundtrack

Disney movies soundtrack

Other things I like when regressed:

Art

Napping

Writing

Gardening

Crafting

Reading

Watching movies/shows

Listening to music

Going outside

Things I don't like:

Certain smells (things like garbage, sewage, maple syrup)

Being dirty for too long

Certain textures (looking at you velvet and cotton)

Getting upset/frustrated

Certain sounds (I swear, ASMR is like my bestie but sometimes the triggers make me want to throw my phone at the wall)/yelling

These are just the stuff I like when in little/petspace, I would add what I like in cg mode but it's about the same. Like I said earlier, I've just started getting into and feeling around this side of myself, so this is just the tip of the iceberg. I'm gonna go catch some fat Z's, now. Good-bye!

[vampkaashis-wife]

journaling with june

how to get started for @luvbub and all other folks who want to start on journaling and don’t know how. for my specific style of journaling, the most i ever use is my fave pen + a highlighter/1 colored pen + sticky notes. that is all.

Problem #1: consistency is hard

true facts; counterintuitively, the less expectation you put on yourself, the easier consistency is. i literally wrote on the first page “you can abandon this journal and come back to it at any time.”

once you figure out what you like to put in it, the easier it is to keep it up. i actually am not consistent at all; i’ll use it a lot some weeks and then disregard it the next. it all kind of depends on what’s going on, but i’ll get ideas for spreads randomly and i’ll do them

Problem #2: caught up in aesthetics over anything else

personally, i’ve found the really wordy entries to be the least interesting. lately, i’ve been incorporating a lot of pictures (i print off pinterest and i know that’s not ideal in some cases, but i’m not marketing any of it, so it should be fine? sometimes i draw but only when i have the effort to) i typically go for whichever haikyuu character is on the mind and then a quote from them OR a song lyric that’s been on my mind and a haikyuu character that comes to mind for it. i’ll leave some images and simple ways to spice up aesthetics below. tbh the more simplistic and vague your concepts are, the better they turn out imo

also, you’re going to hate this, but you have to make ugly pages before you make nice ones. it’s just like writing fics. all the oldest ones make you want to cringe but they’re necessary for learning the craft.

Life hack #1:  letters from fictional characters.

ngl it is a LOT easier to do self reflection if you pretend it’s coming from Not You. i like to set up letters or even smau style fake texts from fictional characters as a way to process the happenings in my life. i don’t do them often, but they can be quite comforting.

Life hack #2: sticky notes

a veryyy easy way to add splashes of color. goes well with little collage style stuff. again, i’ll add some photos for those

Life hack #3: brain dump

if you have no particular content in mind, just use it as a brain dump. any thoughts you have that are distracting you from your goal, write it down. it’s real good for clearing up your head when there’s too much stuff in it. i used to do full on RANTS in my journal that were like. stuff i had to get out of my system but didn’t want anyone else knowing ever. i think it kind of jumped from that to like. writing responses from my fictional boyfriends. (i have so many “letters from akaashi” istg)

Life hack #4: reaction journal

this one will be harder if you already have something to do with your hands while watching stuff, but I also do live reactions to shows. a lot of incoherent “NO HE DID NOT” and “omg they kissed FINALLY” and “I hate this guy fr” etc etc

and obvs this little post is just kind of “tip of the iceberg” type of thing, so it may or may not help you at all, but it’s worth a shot. i’ve found journaling very beneficial to my life, but i know it’s not for everyone despite it seeming like it should be for everyone. there’s a bunch of different ways to handle it, and you really just have to experiment to figure it out.

[nosferatyou]

I was tagged by @lazingonsunday and @shes-outta-sight to do one of the long tag, get to know them, type of things. Which I absolutely love by the way. I don’t talk about myself much.

What was the last thing you read?

Well I was editing the latest chapter of my fic of that counts? If not some random josh one shot a couple hours ago lol.

Favorite Movie?

Man it’s ever revolving. It was Django Unchained for a long ass time, but now I think it’s Baby Driver.

Favorite Book?

Misery by Stephen King. I read it years ago and I have a lot of good memories tied to it. Me and my friend became closer through his works and this was the first one I read. It’ll stay close in my heart.

Dream Date?

It’s one I’ve been on before but just Vinyl Shopping. It’s simple and easy but music in a relationship is important to me. I gotta make sure they have good picks. But there is something so soft about it all.

Do you have a crush?

Sadly no. But I’m fully in Joshes lane rn if that means anything?

What are your hobbies?

Oof okay. I mostly draw like all hours of the day. But I very actively keep up with guitar and bass. I write as well. I make videos for my friends. I collect old and beat up vinyls. Lot of art stuff

Favorite time of day?

Night time. Like from hours 10-3. That’s my true alone time and it’s something I cherish and look forward to everyday.

If you could look like anything, what would you like to look like?

I don’t wish to change anything about my body. I think I’d be silly to. But man I wish I could actually afford clothes I’d like to wear. Real bellbottoms you know? I want that vintage shit.

Are you romantic?

In a secure relationship yes. I show too much emotion too fast in the beginning. But boy oh boy when I get romantic. I get very touchy feely. Man date ideas. Lot of carefully curated playlists.

Favorite type of weather?

That time in like August/September when I can wear jeans and maybe a light jacket. But it’s still warm, you know?

What do you like talking about?

Music. I talk about it all day long. The foundation behind it. The artist. I could discuss guitars and instruments with people all damn day. I just. I love everything about it. But also GVF is my hyperfixation rn and my friend is ready to shoot my head off if I speak another word about Jakes guitar playing.

What are your turn ons?

Ngl I’m akin to a boy with long hair. It’s my vice. I’ve only dated long haired musicians. But I just want someone who radiates some kind of light you know? I’ve seen too much darkness. I want someone genuine and real. Is it too much to ask for a positive person?

What are your turn offs?

I’ve dealt with a lot in my past. Basically anything that’s negative. Ignorance mostly. I don’t want someone who refuses to learn. It’s stupid. I just want honesty and someone with an open mind. Anything else is a no go.

If you got a tattoo what would it be and where would you get it?

Okay so. I really want tattoos. I designed something about a year ago I want really badly but it’s so expensive. Thinking rationally. Right now I’d really like some line art of bust. Idk what tho.

Do you have any pets?

3! 2 dogs, Ruby and Nellie, both too six year old mutts. Nellie is the weirdest god damn dog I’ve ever had. And ruby is basically a fox dog. And then there is Friday my cat. He can be a bitch boy but he’s a sweet boy who’s just being a cat. (I also have ten plants but most people don’t consider them pets)

Dream Job?

I’m still searching for that. Recently my heads been floating towards playing live shows as a guitar or bass player. But I’m no where near the point of even considering. I’m pretty shitty. But how Cool would it be to play that violin bow with my guitar on stage?

Dream place to live?

Not considering any potential jobs. I just want to live in a big log cabin somewhere on the outskirts of a town. Out in the wilderness and free to just live.

Dream vacation?

I’ve never been to Europe. I’d love to just road trip around in a van honestly. But before that visit my great grandfather grave in Scotland. He was a kings hand and did a lot back in the day. I’d be cool to see. But then I’d fuck around in Europe.

Do you have any piercings?

I’ve got my nose and ears pierced. I’m pretty happy with that

If you had kids what would you name them?

Man I don’t even want to think about that.

What are your best traits?

I’m a great listener. I’m extremely compassionate. Will do anything to help friends. And I feel like my music taste isn’t half bad.

Worst traits?

The compassionate thing tends to bite me in the ass. I’ve got a lot of emotions. I also have 20 things I want to do all at once all the time. I loose sleep because of it. There is more but I’d go on too long.

Worst fear?

Weirdly enough any type of natural disaster. When I was way too young I watched “The Impossible” and then shortly after learned about techtonic plates and I never forgotten about it or where they are.

What do you want to eat right now?

Brownies. And a fucking burrito.

Best vacation you’ve been on?

I went on a road trip to Chicago recently and I just makes so many good memories. I saw ninja sex party’s 10th anniversary, which was fantastic. But I got to visit a friend all weekend. But my favorite part was the ride back. The whole time we just talked but also sang to old 50s songs and just had this moment of unity. I still think about it

Favorite City?

I haven’t been to too many places yet so I’m gonna go with my hometown, Nashville. If you look past all the tourists. It’s got a very rich musical history and in certain places you just feel it. I loved living there and it made me who I was.

Favorite social media platform?

Tumblr. It’s really the only one I ever check anymore. Plus I’ve made some great friends on here.

Favorite article of clothing?

My fucking bellbottoms. I wear them whenever I can. They give me so much confidence.

Do you play any sports?

Fuck no. I have no coordination whatsoever.

Favorite meal of the day?

Lunch. You have a lot more options. Plus I just like the vibe

What are you excited for?

Starting the tenth I have a lot of good things coming my way. In that week I get to finally end this semester, the new Harry styles album releases, I get a new bass, and I get to see fucking Greta Van Fleet. None of you know how excited I am for that. Pit tickets. Jesus it’ll be good.

Not excited for?

Finals. And an um.. upcoming funeral.

When was the last time you cried?

I honestly can’t remeber and that really scares me.

Dream house?

I basically answered this earlier but gimme that big ass log cabin.

Something you hate about this world?

Don’t get my started. I hate that everyone hates themselves all the time when they have no reason to. I hate that 8 people have most of the worlds money and are doing nothing to help global warming. I hate the man that’s in power and what he’s helped cause. I hate everyone who refuses to accept literally any fact. I hate that my future is bleak because of some old ass white men.

Something you love about this world?

I love the light that radiates off of certain people. I love that our generation has hope and that some people are actually trying to make change. I love the raw creativity I see in others and I love that we are bringing back the resurgence of peace and love.

What scents do you like?

Old records and books. Its the simple pleasures.

What kind of sleeper are you?

Typically heavy but sometimes I Sleep so little it feels like I got nothing at all.

Cat or dog person?

Don’t make me pick! I grew up with both, and very partial to both.

How long would you survive in a zombie Apocolypse?

I wish I could tell you. I’d like to think I’d live awhile but I would probably be the ones who look like they have hope and then accidentally get taken out.

Are you trusting?

I used to be. I realized recently how thick my walls really are.

What fictional character do you identify with?

Sorry to be boring but nothing is coming to mind. But then again I never felt akin to anyone really?

What labels do you commonly get?

In high school I was called “the quiet one” if that tells you anything.

What song would be your life anthem?

Sunshine on my shoulders by John Denver is the only one coming to mind. I think I just want the feeling it gives me to be what I feel all the time.

What issues are you dealing with right now?

Two friends in the last month Um. Took their own lives. One being an old friend. I’ve never dealt with death. My brain doesn’t know how to handle it. I also think I might have ADD. But. That’s the tip of the iceberg rn

How can someone win you over?

Typically I’m drawn to people who are the loudest in the room. I like that their confident and can speak their minds but what wins me over about them is when they really open up. When I learn about the real then rather than the face that they put on. Most of the time it goes that way.

What’s something people don’t know about you?

I’m making a short film with some friends who go to Columbia. Should be out soonish.

I tag

@pvre-mourning @peacelovekiszka @fretavangleet @aint-no-denying @sosozoso

[natsutodoroki]

ngl but …. natsuo makes me sad everyday & with every fact that gets released about him . . . 

natsuo is, narratively & mentally - an outsider to the Todoroki family. his role wasn’t introduced until 190 chapters, even after we have seen family scenes about 2 times prior. there probably isn’t many family pictures that include him, nor does he resound much in shoutos previous memories - because when it came to endeavour, natsuo was no one. unlike fuyumi, who had to take on that carer based role, unlike touya who was the oldest brother with the fire quirk. natsuo never probably registered on his fathers mind that much, nor was he able to see shouto / be referenced to shouto as anything but: another kid. 

natsuo was brought up as that middle kid: the one who was just there. even while touya was there, he didn’t have a definitive role like ‘ the oldest ‘, ‘ has dads quirk ‘. or simply ‘ the carer ‘, he wasn’t able to be there for shouto - & times where he most likely helped out fuyumi to heal them - he wasn’t ever as good as her. most likely, he ended up being the go getter for items she needed, to sneak past father - which was easy, endeavour never even looked him in the eyes for crying out loud - because when he helped, all he had to watch was fuyumi fix it, do it better ( because this was their brothers safety on the line - & natsuo would never hate her for it, he gets it . ) when their mother left - things were probably so different for natsuo, when touya left, he most likely felt more alone - in a house where your father hates you, your brother is not allowed near you & your sister has to look after everyone so therefore has not much freetime to spare - it’s no surprise natsuo was the one to focus on touya, what happened to him - to spend his whole life plagued by that. 

even still, being an outsider has never stopped him - natsuo has never wanted to leave his family in the disarray it is canonly. medical welfare was something natsuo found a passion in, even when he wasn’t recognised in it from his brother, his father, or his mother - natsuo wanted to be the person who could stop this happening to another wife, another son, another family - he was willing to give it up for the sake of his family, to help his sister, the brother who was never able to get to know him, to stop the wrath of a father who wouldn’t even act like he was his son until natsuo sprouted out some magical quirk power. but fuyumi, dear fuyumi, with her trust & hope & love in all of her siblings - insists he leaves the nest too. ( because you have a life too natsuo ), promises him everything will be okay - natsuo goes off to pursue something that can make things better for other people, in the future - for the natsuos & the touyas & the reis & the fuyumis & the shoutos out there. to have good karma to bring him back home. 

medical welfare doesn’t turn out to be easy, but maybe he expects it. listening to countless ‘cold cases’, knowing your brothers name is on that list, learning the criteria & meeting them to get placed in facilities, knowing his mother wasn’t any of them. fast forward to chapter 92, fast forward to natsuo sitting at a family dinner & realising still how angry & how much of an outsider he is in the situation. imagine sitting down & finding out your brothers favourite food when work experience has taught you to discover patients food preferences as one of the first things, hearing silly little memories shared between your sister and your brother. inside jokes you become the outsider of. your brother copying you in some sort of defensive way when your father comes in ( knowing you've never been able to save him before / what if this is his last defence? ) - having it repeated to you:family meal, family meal - why was this all on your fathers terms? why did it happen today? the shouting was only the tip of the iceberg on just what you wanted to say.

[inexchangeforyoursoul]

I’ve had a chat with ~someone~ and guessed it was The Time to publish this rant... SO. Speaking for both Jasper and Hendrik: what the FUCK was that (also beware of post game spoilers I guess)

I may not have continued to watch streams and LPs after the first Mordegon fight, but from what I’ve gathered from various posts and sources, Act 3 gives everyone a more-or-less happy ending, and then there’s that. Not to mention this ‘everyone’ almost definitely includes not only totally innocent people like Michelle, but also the mother who sacrificed fucking people to her ex-son, and Mia, who was literally in the exact same fucking boat as Jasper. (Speaking of which: out of everyone monsterified in any way or form, only Jade seems to remember what has happened to her to a degree- and she’s the only one who was not under the direct influence of Mordegon, SO... similarly to Mia and Carnelian, Jasper also must have little to no recollection from the past 15 to 25 years, but that’s a rant for another day. Someone really hates Heliodor’s top knights... one is fucked in every way, and the other cannot live a single decade without encountering something gravely traumatizing smh.) Time travel shit is hard to write, but DAMN, is this a fucking mess, especially considering everything else.

Like, okay, let’s start with the basic problem regarding these two dumbasses: Jasper has always been a little shit. We know that. But while mischievous, he’s also perfectly fine giving love and attention to people he likes, even if he's rather roundabout in expressing it. Seeing how diligent and eager he was to better himself while clutching that pendant, I’d say he’s one of those people who care a little too much about the people who count--- and feeling un- or underappreciated is the thing that can twist him into an attention hungry beast. tl;dr: he does expect the important people in his life to return the attention and care in due time, otherwise he becomes a ticking bomb and things will spiral out of control eventually. Now, what makes this complicated is that he’s too subtle in expressing himself in the first place, and will never be the one to walk up to someone with a “we need to talk”; thus, his needs or disdain go unnoticed by people like... well, Hendrik. I love that man as much as anyone else, and he’s super, if not comically heroic, but damn is he an absolute idiot when it comes to personal relations, not to mention his almost robotic hulk-smash tunnel vision when it comes to Carnelian. Chivalrous to a fault, indeed. (I actually like that this is treated as a problem, because it damn straight is. Hell, prioritizing work over everything else is a fairly important catalyst in things ending up the way they are. It is the reason he blindly trusts the king even after finally realizing something’s really wrong with Jasper, and why latter had drifted away until the distance became an unsurmountable chasm. (I kind of see the husband&wife sidequest for the coral to be a good parallel to this situation ngl))

Let’s not even complicate things by raking the king into the equation as a likely father figure to both of them who had apparent favoritism going on, and what effects Mordegon taking over him had on Jasper, shall we? (I personally prefer the option of him approaching Jasper soon after the fall of Dundrasil. With Jasper being one of the smartest people in the game, (if not THE smartest motherflunker around,) maybe he even noticed something was off. Which, may I add, makes him the only one who could notice once Jade was gone. Get those two out of the picture, and you’re SET, man.)

To summarize, one’s too roundabout, the other’s too dumb, and this is why these two will keep talking past each other fiveever. Not even a mermaid’s whole, entire lifetime would be enough for these two to sort things out on their own, which is why they’d need an outsider to nudge them in the right direction. The only two who are in the active position to do so are the Hero and Mordegon. We’ve seen how latter plays out- the Lord of Shadows is much more invested in manipulating people’s weaknesses into killing their friends and family (see also: Mia). So it would be on us to kick them in the shin, right? Except we get no fucking options to do so.

The worst part of it is how easily they could have gone with more insteresting shit. I’ve seen some PC mods already regarding costumes, and you know what? Dubbing problems be damned, I’d give my lunch money tenfold for a mod that gets you a mentally unstable monster tamer Jasper for Act 3 into the team instead of Hendrik who’s forcibly mordegonized instead, even though I don’t have the game, and likely never will. Just this one change is a good enough setup to easily throw a decent storyline together, no??? I bet it wouldn’t be hard to keep the ultimate uberboss for after this shit as a nice bonus, either.

Let’s not even get started on the party dynamics. He’d be suspicious of the Luminary and expect to be used and thrown away as soon as he’s outlived his usefulness, bacause apparently that’s all he’s good for... but that’s just the tip of the iceberg. Cat fights with the other Black Mage material Veronica? Yes. Chatting with Sylvia about Hendrik being as thick as a brick wall both physically and mentally?? Hell Yes. Hitting it hilariously well off with Serena and bonding over shit like being lowkey savage and cakes??? HELL FUCKING YES. Him and Erik not even remembering who this other motherfucker is so they can start on decent terms? They are basically the dog and cat type of the same person so it would be a fucking treat to watch that mess unfold. (in case it wasn’t clear thus far: I’d rather take an altered Act 2 with an Act 3 on top; still post-apocalyptic and somber, but with better outlooks, and healing time for wounds. Just... striking a better balance of hope and despair, you feel? Not everything has to be 90% perfect or 90% depressing.) And JADE, guys, JADE. She could just be the missing link to break Jaspers LVL 99 Mistrust Barrier and make all those other things possible. Apart from maybe Rab, she’s the only one around who knows him to an extent; it would give her some of that much needed active character development, AND be a display of her diplomatic skills as a soon-to-be-ruler. Two birds with one fucking stone, I tell ya. Just thinking about this makes me feel robbed.

Also, party members mean pep powers. Some sly shit with Erik. An ultimate Charm Nuke feat. Jade&Sylv. A Double Re-Vamp where he beats up shit with former while everyone watches in horror. One last power exclusive for the last boss where Hendrik joins the two of them that’s referencing Heliodor’s two headed eagle.

Ah, and there’s the obligatory face-off with Hendrik... and Carnelian, I suppose. Might keep the old dude around to make sure mr knightiest knight no-brains orders... anyway. That shit. That shit would be 100% psychological warfare directed at Jade and Jasper. And actually Evil™ Greg (aka Hendrik, sorry, I love that nickname from a JP playthrough) could totally bring out the receipts on both of them. It wouldn’t even be OOC because A: he spent time with baby Jade, and B: Mordegon knows like 99% of Jasper’s emotional baggage anyway. That  shittalk would work like a charm, and dig under the lad’s skin, I tell ye. And past the humiliation and hurt, Jasper would also get fucking pissed and just tackle Hendrik to the ground before punching the fuck outta him, because feeling betrayed or not, even he knows that Hendrik would never, ever say something like that to his, save Jade’s face. It would be to no avail as our Wall of Meat could kill p much anyone by just flexing on their neck... But that’s also a perfect moment to pull an “if only there was someone who loved you” that would rattle everyone’s jimmies in- and outside of the game.

Man.

(I seriously don’t expect anyone to program this shit on the spot, but I may or may not be halfway done with some more-or-less episodic fic chapters that I also may or may not finish sometime, and y’all are free to contribute yourselves, too)

[rililith]

Ok *rings dinner bell*

Very disorganized and flow-of-consciousness Amy thoughts below the cut >_>

•Reading Ward sometimes feels like walking into my childhood best friend's house and seeing that everybody's head has been cut off, but they don't mind because they were always headless. remember? And my brother's like yeah remember how they love bleeding and dribbling out cerebrospinal fluid? and I'm like ahaha yeah totally oh those weirdos... them.. haha... yeah. but i dont. i dont. And, Amy's a good reason for it feeling this way.

•I think her costume was neat in New Wave

•Everyone's incest jokes probably aint as funny as they think it is

•For the record I'm not an Amy apologist. A lot of worm fans like to make that clear for themselves, so I will too. I am someone who:

(1) finds her interesting,

(2) thinks her experiencing terror is funny

(3) thinks the whole incestual sexual assault plot is homophobically written (and the tip of the iceberg on that imho) and (3.5) I really don't think I want to engage in discussion about any of it 90% of the time, because -to me- the whole thing's roots are rotten. I think it's important to treat Worm/Ward like a work written by a human with opinions and biases sometimes, not a holy script that we shouldn't peak under or scrutinize. Yes, what happened was horrible, but I don't really like playing in that space of the narrative because it is ridiculously uncomfortable to me if we ignore what makes it feel ___ [left blank. fill in with distasteful/poorly-thought-out/offensive/etc as you see fit]

Clarifying(?) because I'm incapable of being concise ever: It's got little to do with the actual events of the story and more about the author's choices, yeah? The premise that follows her existence in Ward feels foul and hollow-heartedly written, so even though I care deeply for Victoria's trauma and recovery on all levels... I can't "get behind" the story because of my personal distaste.

• I dislike that it seems like Wildbow seems to have had the incest/obsession aspect as a part of her character from the Guts & Glory days, so he had a lot of time to think about this plot. It just feels like bullshit that, to him, this is the only interesting and satisfying direction to be found for these two characters.

•Okay for real why does no one talk about how boring* it is that the good sister is like conventionally attractive and blonde and femininely dressed and the evil sister is like, you know, like the adopted spawn of a villain and has curly brown hair to contrast her lovely sister and all these freckles and imperfections and - [talks for four hours]

* :/

•If I had her power I'd sell potions I made with my power ngl (details to be figured out at a later date.) I'd call myself Snakeoil or something.

•Whenever I have a Worm fic idea she's involved like 90% of the time.

thoughts on Amy?

man..........

[regrettablewritings]

Dios Meme-o! (Rafael Barba Mini-Series, Pt. 4)

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8

Pro: The Internet allowed for information to travel fast. Con: The Internet can cause unwanted information to travel fast. Too fast.

Rafael knew better than to be surprised that the rest of the SVU crew had learned about his newfound notoriety online. With chatterbox Carisi and none-too-shy Fin, it was only a matter of time, with or without the Internet. But it was still a deep-seated hope that they would at least be more discreet about it. At the very least, Rollins and Carisi would be over it by now, Fin would crack maybe one or two jokes before dropping it, and Liv would just be passive about it after maybe a single attempt at a joke. And that would be that, hopefully.

Unfortunately for Rafael, his hope was a little too deep-seated for the squad to fully fulfill it. Especially so soon after the “rise of the Raphiles”, as Rollins had taken to calling it. The day after it had all begun, Rafael entered the precinct with every intention of doing exactly as he had before: Listen in on the interrogation, draw up some conclusions, hear what everyone else had to say (if anything), and leave. Nothing more, nothing less.

“So, Barba,” Liv began. The ADA slowed his departure to turn around. The moment he registered the inkling of a smirk on the woman’s face, Rafael knew that he had made a grave mistake. “I take it that you’ve gained a new title, right?”

He could feel his cheeks beginning to subtly burn. He was preparing to open his mouth with an objection to Liv’s claim, but it was too late: “Counselor Cutiepie, right? You think Carisi will remember to call you that from now on?”

From his desk, the man in question all too eagerly waltzed up beside his lieutenant.

“Might be a challenge,” Carisi grinned, hands cockily poised in his pockets. “I mean, I’ve been hearing that it’s ‘Pretty-Boy Barba’ now.” Inside his own head, Rafael was thinking about how Carisi’s extra three inches on him meant squat, and that he could most definitely manage to find a way to discreetly elbow him in the gut and get away with it. Outside of his head, his expression maintained exactly those feelings. Nevertheless, the chiding didn’t even so much as reduce in the slightest.

“At least he’s got a name,” Fin spoke from his own desk, pretending to still be preoccupied with his computer screen. “Last I checked, he was just ‘that one hot attorney.’ At least, according to Twitter.”

At the mention of that site, Rafael’s burning face nearly paled. He may not have had much knowledge of Tumblr, but Twitter? He knew far too much about that site.

“I’m . . . on Twitter?” he sputtered. He had to remind himself not to clutch at his heart, lest he worsen the already embarrassing situation. Fin nodded, forcing the obvious smile he’d been nursing down into as much of a neutral expression as he possibly could.

“Mmhm,” Fin nodded. He then clicked over to an already-open tab, something that told Rafael that the seasoned detective had just been waiting in the wings to pull this one out. “Whole lotta lusty men and women after you, Counselor.”

The curiosity was far too compelling. Rafael had to at least catch a glimpse of what was being said:

The image of Rafael being addressed by the press, decked out in his usual attire, plus a theme of indigo in his tie and the lines streaking along his shirt: “Ngl ADA Barba can get it,” @Boysenberryivy admitted.

A different picture, but of his retreating form, caught in between footsteps so that his backside had a certain curve to it: “Move to strike dat ass 👀👋💥🍑” @GhostiewiththeToasty proclaimed.

A photo from a while ago, wherein Rafael stood to the side as the DA spoke at his own press conference. He personally thought he looked rather unassuming, wearing a rather unextraordinary suit with a typical blue tie and pocket square. But apparently some people on the world wide web thought otherwise: “uh objection: not in my bed!!!” @PJJigggler69 exclaimed, as though using a legal term would have made them seem any better.

@bellybean included a gif not of Rafael, but of a close-up on a perplexed-looking blonde woman: “This man ain’t got no business looking this fine and being a cotdamn lawyer dafuq.”

“Suits got me shook,” @MochaChinna said, referring to a photoset that documented at least five screengrabs of Rafael in various suits from the press conferences and court cases of the past.

And those were just the tip of the iceberg. His shock didn’t allow for him to notice Rollins’ appearance at his side.

“Oh, hey, look at this one,” she said nonchalantly. She extended a finger to point both Fin and Rafael in the right direction.

“ ‘Prosecutor Papi!! In-dick-t me!!! I’ve been a bad girl 😣”

Rafael’s open mouth began to open and close like a goldfish. To be fair, he was feeling just as lost as one. He wanted to scream.

“. . . That . . . That isn’t . . . That’s not how ‘papi’ should be used,” was all that managed to be processed in that time.

Fin crooked a finger over his lips in a poor attempt to hide his amusement. “Well, maybe you can start another press conference, Counselor,” he offered. “I’m sure they’ll hang on to your every word.” Rafael shot him a reproachful look.

Before he could even muster up the energy to compose a response – how pointless it would have been to do that, the stupidity of even humoring such an idea at all – Rollins cut in once again.

“Yeah. Or they’ll hang onto your suspenders.” She eyeballed yet another godawful tweet. Rafael barely had the time or patience to read it for himself (though he did manage to make out that it had something to do with, yet again, plucking his suspenders or making him out to be a stripper – one or the other).

He offered a glare (that was far too pouty due to his rampant blushing), huffily gathered his things, and shot the SVU squad one last glower as he began to depart. “If we’re done here, can we please act like adults and do our goddamn jobs?” It was only after that sentence’s delivery that he realized how much of this he was allowing to effect himself. In an effort to at least pathetically roll the dial back, he forced a sense of calm: “Thank you.” There was a hint of quiver in it. Probably from tension born of holding back his irritation.

His walk to the elevator was notedly stiffer than usual. The doors hadn’t even closed completely when the sound of Sonny’s laughter cut through the air, making the quiet, boring ride down uncharacteristically frustrating in more ways than what Rafael was used to.

[theincorrigiblemagpie]

Rishton Ka Chakravyuh (Episodes 65, 66) - Can we calm down with the Bollywood music?

October 23 & 24, 2017

Listen, all I want to do is keep up with my daily dose of Anami and Satarupa. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR.

Anyway, we’re doing 2 episodes together, cos whattodo about my asli dunya.

Right off the bat, fucken Harry, nincompoop cousin of the nincompoop Avdhoot, shows his kameenapan by grabbing Poonam with 2 of Avdhoot’s lame friends and trying to rape her in a billiards room.

Hereon, if there was ANY doubt about how they’re subverting (admittedly hamhandedly but I’ll take it) the traditional hero-heroine roles in a desi soap, may they be forever laid to rest.

Anami A) finds Poonam’s bracelet that she’d given her on the floor outside the billiard room.

B) bursts into the room in silent, shaking rage and a teary Poonam runs to her and hugs her for comfort.

C) after the two chelas run away, knowing what’s good for them, thrashes Harry within an inch of his life.

D) grabs a reluctant Poonam’s hand and drags them in front of everyone and makes Harry apologise to Poonam.

(LMAO that girl in blue at the back is the same Mean Girl who’d picked on Anami on her first day of college and later claimed to have befriended her. Good to see we invite friends and not complete randos.)

Ofc Kamini plays the typical upper caste/class bitchy slut-shaming aunty and humiliates Poonam and tries to blame it on her. Anami tries to talk sense into her but Kamini threatens to blow it out of proportion. And THEN.

Everyone’s Godmother Satarupa steps in. She gives Kamini false hope by saying, yes, it was Poonam’s fault.

And then finishes the sentence with “it was her fault ki Poonam didn’t give him a tight slap the very first time Harry tried to molest her and that she didn’t do what Anami did.” (Which is a very problematic thing to say, but very dramatically effective.)

Man, she put the fear of GOD in Harry by stalking toward him. Matlab, I could momentarily SEE a genetic resemblance between Narayani Shastri and Mahima Makwana, I tell you. What powerhouses.

She finished the whole scene by telling Kamini that she should thank her lucky stars Anami found Harry and not Satarupa herself because...

She literally leaves off there and we must infer that Kamini knows about Satarupa’s tendency to quietly get people who sneeze wrong bumped off.

Ofc Pujan tries to smooth things over while Kamini leaves with Harry. Ngl Kamini is a real babe and deserves better than to be married to this useless scheming Pujan and have a useless grown ass son and nephew. She shoulda gotten herself a sugar daddy instead.

Pujan promises deep vengeance (ofc because the Durga idol falling and breaking will be the ultimate apshakun and hence, revenge). Rolled my eyes so hard, they almost fell out of their sockets.

So, we have full band baaja and they’re bringing the idol in with shots that have come out of a white person’s wet dream of colourful, exotic Incredible India.

And OMG IT HAS A HALF OF A SECOND EXPRESSION ON ITS FACE. I mean the very pointless Baldev ofc.

Anami, our local Spiderman, notices a thorn stuck in one of the palanquin bearers feet amid all the chaos and bends to pick it out. Giving herself the perfect vantage point to also hear the loosened screw drop out and immediately dive under the palanquin to save the idol.

After a moment of panic, everyone is reassured as she emulates the Flavour of the Season, Baahubali.

No, seriously.

Like, people don’t even TRY to help this skinny SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD girl who has been FASTING all day to carry this massive idol that probably weighs more than her for the first 5 minutes. For show.

Then, we get Baldev grabbing one end and Satarupa grabbing the other end and Dadaji Vikram clearing the dropped embers in her path with his stick.

Not before he’s had time to process the whole thing and question his entire life and worldview, though.

How Hum Saath Saath Hai. If it was made by Ram Gopal Verma.

This is the face of a man who has messed up very badly all his life and only the tip of the iceberg has become visible to him and he suspects the presence of the Titanic wrecking monster below the surface.

Gayatri makes obvious statements about Anami being deviroop and being sent to protect Lal Mahal etc etc. Lady, I don’t think it’s quite going to pan out like that.

Anami places the idol in its spot and when the pandit wants her to start the pooja, Vikram is all “no, Avdhoot must do the puja.”

Once a chauvinist piece of trash, always a chauvinist piece of trash.

He does look shifty while saying it, though so Gayatri swoops in and tells him that this puja wouldn’t even be happening if not for Anami so he can stop being  a jackass. And also tells Pujan to shut it when he tries to intervene. With the happy result that Anami gets to do the puja. Which we’re made to suffer through with dramatic intercuts of Sudha wild-dancing with dhunuchi at her asylum all set to Jai Maa Kali from Karan Arjun.

I wish I was making this bit up.

Just going to leave these screencaps here because truly what cinematography but what jaatra-level writing, shyah.

(Note that Baldev has reverted to his usual stony glum-face. Like, why do they even pay an actor for his role.)

Dheeru makes a lone entry and skulks around. He joins the family conclave that forms after the puja where the adults talk about the future of Lal Mahal. Gayatri, Satarupa and Dheeru are all heavily and vocally pro-Anami and want Vikram to change his mind about Avdhoot. They use major puja metaphors to make their point. Pujan is stuck because he doesn’t want to be seen rooting for his son for selfish reasons while no one cares about what Baldev has to say (nothing), as usual. The man is an irritating cardboard cutout.

But THEN, I am reminded of why I fucken love this show and am still surprised by it when they tone it all the fuck down and VIKRAM makes the most logical point of all.

He points out that he’s willing to back down from all his prejudices and accept Anami as heir. But that will not change that Anami will not accept this family as her own. Royal Steel and Lal Mahal need stability which she will not provide because she has been uprooted from the only place she considers home (Benaras) and she will leave the moment she is legally able to. They need to accept that.

Yeah, Gayatri, even I hate it when chauvinist men make sorta vaguely legitimate points.

But then, Dheeru points out that he hasn’t given Anami that chance even. He’s sentenced her without allowing her the slightest room to prove herself.

AND THEN, Vikram finally relents because “Dheeru has never made a wrong decision for Royal Steel.” Whoa I think he’s referring even to the unexplained fall Dheeru took and went to jail for.

He says ki since Avdhoot has been given a chance to prove himself (LOL WHAT WHEN DID HE PROVE HIMSELF HE’S LITERALLY DONE THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF PROVING HIMSELF ALL THROUGH GODDAMN SAVARNA PATRIARCHS), Anami should also.

Vikram will personally test the two of them and judge based on their capability (sure) and not their gender and take it from there. I can’t explain how much all this talk of (fake) meritocracy and inheritance gives me intense michmichi.

But it does lead to this hilarious scene which explains exactly how the two main interested parents feel about this situation.

Satarupa is like “I’ve already fucking won this just give Anami the crown and don’t go through this farce.” And Pujan is like “GOD FUCK ME SIDEWAYS.”

Oh btw, while this intense conversation is happening, Adhiraj and Tanya have arrived and all the kids start dancing to Nagada Sang Dhol (INCLUDING ADHIRAJ which is EXACTLY as awkward as you imagine it is). Can’t even screencap, I’m telling you. Avdhoot is genuinely at least in lust with Tanya? (YUCK) Harry is giving him advice upar se! Matlab MEN ARE TRASH. He was beaten up not 4 hours ago for being an almost-rapist. I hope Adhiraj beats both Avdhoot and Harry up solid (I won’t even consider it police brutality). Where is Ila, man? Why is she missing the awkward fun?

Also, I was mistaken. Everyone is aware of everyone’s identities, it seems. There is no surprise at Adhiraj’s appearance and Avdhoot clearly knows Tanya is his sister so they know he’s Dheeru’s son? Dheeru also had figured out that the girl he met on the road is Anami of Lal Mahal. I dunno, I may have missed stuff when I tried to catch up on 40 episodes together. But then why were Pujan and Baldev treating Adhiraj as just a CBI officer when he brought Anami home after the chemistry lab accident? Surely they should’ve brought up his connection to Dheeru to taunt him better?

Possible continuity errors, methinks. ANyWay, tomorrow we have nutty Sudha’s desperate bid to force Anami’s hand and come to Lal Mahal by trying to commit fake suicide. Fun. Not. Honestly, Sudha and Baldev deserve each other and Satarupa needs an intense, powerful, interesting man who has some conflict of interest with her but is also drawn to her. And while we deserve decent women friendships, I also am teetering on shipping Anami and Poonam because that was some relationship-y symbolism in the beginning. 

Whatevs man, just give me Satarupa and Anami (and Gayatri) dealing sick burns to the men and I don’t care about anything else.

[ethicallysourcedhumanmeat]

ok but like most of the stuff like this messes me up still but this moment is just like...

I am currently dealing with his bullshit and a lot of shit replays for me inlike a horrible ptsd slide show but this moment makes me laugh so hard. He bought this condo all full of good Dad vibes, it was 30 minutes from us but near a good school and a bunch of amenities.

His girlfriend at the time has family near by and one of them helped him find this place for a frankly stupidly bad price ngl (and lost money on it when they moved in 2018 lmao).

This girlfriend, was told that he an I had been seperated but living together for over a year, she required some kind of proof which lead to him actually breaking up with me. This girlfriend was also significantly younger and didn't want her own kids, was on the fence about having kids in her life.

He moves here buys this condo, she's coming to visit. this back before I'd really accepted he was abusive, I'd just gotten my ptsd diagnosis with the implication that my symptoms reflected a long term relationship with a narcissist. Basically we were still friends. He tells the kids that she's going to meet them, he face times her and she asks Ace what kind of cake she wants bc she's going to bake for her.

the week she's supposed to he there arrives, 3 days into the trip he calls to tell me they broke up and maybe he wont take the kid's bc he's feeling down. He does in the end take them for 2 nights instead of 5. They tell me he didn't 'feel well' so they didn't do anything at all.

2 weeks later he calls, I am, at this point processing the iceberg tip of abuse, I have also contacted a lawyer after a few friends suggested if he was not a bad man as i claim then he would not have a problem paying the appropriate amount of child support (he was paying 1/3 what the province suggested as minimum).

so he calls and he talks to the kids for a minute as then asks for me, ehich is weird, we'd talked already, I think maybe he's heard from my lawyer.

No.

He says, what i said in the above post, we should move in with him, its closer to schools for me, the district is better for the kids (barely), he misses us. you know, it would be a favor.

so i ask him, immediately, you only have 2 bedrooms where do I sleep.

well, he says, Ace's bed is a queen you could share, also, he adds, my couch is really comfortable.

i laugh nervously? embarassed for him? i dont.know

well, he says, also, I'm still away a lot, so we could just

i laugh again, every thing in my head is cackling, I am not sucking this man's dick again. I apologize for laughing, i tell him he caught ne off guard.

being single is so lonely, he says to me

he says this like I will sympathize, like I will agree. He cheated on me, dumped me and just totally froze me out and he says he's lonely after 2 single weeks. I've been single at this point for over almost a year, I love being single, I have never been alone ever in my life.

I think its nice to be single, i tell him bc its true and bc under no circumstances do i want to be his live in sex maid and baby sitter ever again.

Well you have the kids, he counters

Do you want them for another weekend, I ask.

it's August, the kids do not see him again until xmas, he's given away their toys and their beds, one sleeps on a cot in 'the computer room' the other sleeps on the ver confortable couch.

he tells them the gifts i maxxed out my crefit card to buy them were from both of us and that's why he didn't have anything for them at his house

I will never get over the fact that my abusive ex bought a 2 bedroom condo and when his girlfriend (whonst he cheated on me with and also lied to so she didn't know he was cheating) dumped him he told me it was 'in case you want to move in' and then was so OFFENDED that i laughed he turned the 2nd bedroom into an office with a single bed instead of keeping the bunk beds for our kids that he REFUSED to give me