#The way that I will get done reading the HARDEST DARKEST fic and it’s so real

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Thanks @shieldofiron for the tag! Tagging @robthegoodfellow @spaceofentropy @adelacreations @ihni @stevehairringtn @oopsiedaisiesbaby and anyone else who’d like to play.

[livlepretre]

I know we’re way past it, but that miscarriage Elena had just messed me up.

Is Klaus going to ever find out? Tyler?

And will maybe Elena ever get pregnant when she with klaus because a girl need her HOPE lol

The miscarriage is the darkest point of this story-- it was also the hardest part to write, but something I also felt couldn't be shied away from just because it was hard-- one of the core missions of this fic is to write about hard things in a real way, despite the supernatural trappings-- and to try to give them the emotional weight they deserve, which is so often glossed over in media. (Like, depression and grief are not story arcs. They cannot be resolved in 4 or 5 episodes, and it's offensive how often those things are treated that way with a simple solution. The reality is there is no single solution. Time doesn't heal all wounds. We just hope and pray that we grow strong enough to hold those things, that we find room inside of ourselves to hold them.)

Anyway.

The miscarriage is not "over" as a story element. Elena is still grieving it, but she's grown able to bear the burden of it. That happened over the years and years alone at the manor when she had to find a way to do that or else give up and die. It could certainly come up again in the right circumstances.

I'm not entirely sure whether either Tyler or Klaus would ever find out. If Elena sees Tyler again, she might tell him-- or she might decide to spare him the grief of a child that died years ago, and keep that pain to herself. Especially if she thought he had a chance of being happy. I'm not saying I think that is the right thing to do, just that I could see her choosing to do that. And also... because I think she might be afraid to open that door inside of her heart again, to crack it wide open as far as she would need to to tell the father of her lost baby what happened. But who knows. Maybe sharing that with Tyler would bring her some catharsis, and maybe she would do it because she thinks he has a right to know, painful as the knowledge is.

As for Klaus. I also don't know. The thing about the miscarriage is that the entire grief of that episode-- the entire existence of this child she loves despite not even knowing she existed until after her death-- belongs to her. Solely to her. Right now, it's not something she would ever want to share with him. Perhaps she might in the future. She would have to both want to tell him and need to tell him, for her own reasons, emotionally. He's certainly not going to find out otherwise. I don't think Rebekah would tell Klaus casually-- even she understands what a confidence Elena was sharing with her, and besides-- she thinks it was a normal pregnancy with Matt or something.

What happens exactly with this thread is something that I'll only know for sure once I get there. It's going to depend on what is right.

(I also thought Elena would tell Klaus about her suicide attempt in New Orleans in chapter 41; that happened in the original draft, but I realized as I was working on it that she would keep that back from him-- it wasn't the right time emotionally for her to share that with him, if she ever does.)

As for whether she will ever get pregnant again in this fic-- it's certainly possible. She knows that hybrids are fertile, or at least, they are fertile when sleeping with her. (She might not realize they are generally able.) It might be something on her mind were she to sleep with Klaus again. (when, lol)

But whatever the case, as I have promised many times before, Elena herself is going to have some version of a happy ending when all is said and done. Whether that includes having children with Klaus is something I will leave as a "read and find out!" (But: can you imagine having children with FE!Klaus????? YIKES)

[bts-spnlvr12]

Rescue

Pairing: Sean x F!Reader

Prompt: I will rescue you; Rescue by Lauren Daigle (Comfort fic)

Summary: After Sean has had a rough day, you want to let him know that you’re always there for him, what other way than just cuddles and kisses and reassurance can help him feel better than singing to comfort him?

Warnings: Angst (fluffy-smutty ending!) Smut, language (not shocking), mentions of tears (I think that’s it)

You we’re chilling in the living, all alone, reading a book. Why were you alone you ask? Well, let’s figure that out...

Sean walked down to the living room, looking so stress out, maybe feeling a bit anxious about something, “Jackie? Are you okay?”

Sean seemed to be zoned out for a bit while fixing a cup of coffee, “Huh? What did you say?” He also looked extremely tired from your position, “I asked if you’re okay, you seem to be stressed?” You ask again as you walk over to him, rubbing his shoulder softly...

He nodded, despite you knowing he really wasn’t but just agreed with him anyway to not push the situation further, “Okay babe, just go relax, I love you...” You kiss his bearded chin and let him go upstairs and back into his recording room...

You cared for him a lot, it killed you knowing he mentally struggles sometimes, you can always tell just by what he’s doing currently, being a bit silent, zoning out for bits at a time, he stresses out about his YouTube career at times, which made you think of what you can do to help...

You always help him by talking with him about his struggles, along with cuddles, kisses, reassurance and everything else you could think off of the top of your head at the moment, when you come up with something you never done before with him...

You pull up Spotify and listen and pull up the lyrics to one of your favorite songs, Rescue by Lauren Daigle, singing silently to practice the song, whenever you get finished you head upstairs with your phone and stand in front of his recording room and start playing the song, then start to sing...

You are not hidden There's never been a moment You were forgotten You are not hopeless Though you have been broken Your innocence stolen

I hear you whisper underneath your breath I hear your SOS, your SOS

You hear the clicking of the mouse stop, you open the door slowly, seeing your boyfriend with his eyes close, listening to you sing...

I will send out an army to find you In the middle of the darkest night It's true, I will rescue you

There is no distance That cannot be covered Over and over You're not defenseless I'll be your shelter I'll be your armor

You move closer to him, grabbing his hands and pulling him to sit on the edge of his chair, he lays his ear over your heart, another thing that helps whenever he’s upset or struggling...

I hear you whisper underneath your breath I hear your SOS, your SOS

I will send out an army to find you In the middle of the darkest night It's true, I will rescue you I will never stop marching to reach you In the middle of the hardest fight It's true, I will rescue you

I hear the whisper underneath your breath I hear you whisper, you have nothing left

You lifted his head gently to see tears streaming down his cheeks, you wipe them away with your thumbs, then lay your forehead against his, singing to him softly, with tears starting to fall down your face in the middle of the chorus...

I will send out an army to find you In the middle of the darkest night It's true, I will rescue you I will never stop marching to reach you In the middle of the hardest fight It's true, I will rescue you

Oh, I will rescue you

He looks into your eyes, eyes red from the tears that fell, you also see the love and devotion he shows you everyday when you’re together, but you also see something that rarely appears in his eyes, a look that if he could get his hands on you, he would take you right now if he could...

You lean down and place a kiss on his lips, “I’m always here to rescue you Sean, like right now, you look exhausted babe, I can tell you’re struggling...”

“You’re not wrong Y/n, today was a bit rough, stressful, just...having one of those days again I guess...” More tears stream down his cheeks, you wipe them away as they fall, “I just need you Y/N/N, in a lot of ways...”

“Let’s go to the bedroom, I can just cuddle you all night, and if you wanna do anything else, we can do so. I want to make sure you’re okay babe..” You suggest to him, he nods and follows you to the bedroom...

You both collapse onto the bed, you lay his head across your chest, specifically over your heart, which after sometime his tears stop flowing, but you still hear him sniffling every so often...

After some time, he looks up and into your eyes, you smile softly at one another then lean in for a soft kiss, which turned into a full on make-out session, which went on for a good 5 minutes straight...

He moves up to where he’s a bit further up but still kissing you passionately, he slides his hand up under your shirt, running the tips of his fingers softly over your skin softly, causing you to moan softly and throw your head back against the pillows...

He signals for you to raise your arms, you do so so he can take your shirt off, he takes off his shirt once yours is off, going straight back in for your swollen lips from earlier, he then signals for you to raise your hips...

You lift yours hips long enough so he can pull your panties and shorts off in a flash, he then pulls his boxers and sweatpants off, then stops and admires what he sees in front of him, looking you from top to bottom...

He first starts with your face, your (E/C) hooded eyes, your cute nose, then red swollen lips from all the heavy kissing. He then looks at your torso, your collarbones; one of the many places he leaves marks on your body, he then looks at your breasts, he leaves marks there every so often to let you know you’re his. He looks at yours stomach and your sides, his favorite spots to lightly brush over and to tickle whenever you two get in a tickle fight...

Then his eyes move down, during this time you scanned over his body, biting your lower lip, god was he sexy, you slowly run your hand down his torso, he gently grabs your wrist and kisses your palm, then lean back over you, coming out of his trance...

He pinned both of your hands over your head, kissing you harshly as he lines himself up then stroking himself, “Ready love?” You nod, he then slides deep into you, causing you both to moan, you lift your legs and cross them over his hips, “Fuckkk...” You softly moan, causing him to smirk, then start thrusting into you...

He wasn’t going hard and rough, he was making passionate and gentle love to you, you could tell he wanted to be more rough with you, but he wanted to make you feel good, which was always his priority during these times, thinking this; you lifted his head gently, “Be rough, I know you want to, it’s okay..”

“You sure? I don’t want to...you know..” He’s worried that you might think he taking all of his stress and emotions out on you...

You knew what he was thinking, you leaned in towards him, and kiss him deeply, “I know, and I won’t think that way, I know you want this, fuck me...hard and don’t stop...” He nods then started pounding into you...

You moan loudly at the sudden change of pace, raking your nails down his back, he kisses you and he whispers and groans ‘I love yous’ between the two of you, this goes on for a while, until his movements start to stutter...

“You close Sean?” You look into his bright blue eyes, “Y-yeah, you?” You nodded, and sat up and wrapped your arm around his neck, placing your forehead against his, “Come on baby...”

He speeds up on his last couple of thrusts and cums deep inside, you buck your hips, you spilling all over him, he pulls out then goes to grab a warm wash cloth and clean you both up...

He climbs back into bed, and pulls you close, you kiss him all over his collarbones, neck, and face, causing him to giggle a bit, “I love you Y/n, I really do, I hope you never forget that.”

“I love you too Sean, I do too, I hope you never forget either, cause if you do I’ll slap you silly.” You say the last part jokingly, causing you both to giggle, you kiss one more time then doze off in each others arms into dreamland...

~The Ends...~

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angel falling // joaquin torres x gn!reader

Here is the other hurt/comfort Joaquin fic I told y’all I’d write.... ENJOY 💛

tw: healing from trauma

Your eyes fluttered open at the sight of Joaquin being covered in this golden light, the morning sun blessing you with the clear image of him laying in bed next to you. It took you by surprise finding his presence in bed but then everything that occurred the night before came back to you.

Your body was exhausted, as was your mind. You no longer had the strength to put one foot in front of another, let alone make it all the way to your apartment. Then you felt his hand hovering over the low of your back, his warmth melting into yours, his presence just giving you a peace of mind you never expected.

Giving him almost all your strength, you let him help you enter your apartment and when you turned to your bedroom you grabbed his hand and brought him with you. The only light provided to you was the moon and stars that shone down on you just enough so that you could see his eyes and he could see yours.

He stood just in front of your doorway. His eyes asking all the questions, his mouth wasn’t willing to speak, and with another open hand to him, he opened the one question you had for him, stay?

“What do you need from me?” His soft whisper keeping you from drowning in your thoughts.

Your eyes revealed everything to him, even the furthest, most darkest corners of your being that you tried your hardest to avoid. Your hands running their way over his chest and shoulders and down his arms before your hands intertwined with his and you let yourself drink in his scent. He grounded you. Reminded you that you weren’t some eternal being, even if you were superpowered. You were human just like him.

You let yourself sink into his being before taking a step back and turning him around. Showing him the wings you were famous for, but also the scars that came with it, “I have a cream on the dresser, would you mind putting it on please?”

At first, his footsteps made you think he was leaving. You’d bared too much to him and now he was going to leave you hear with your darkening thoughts. Then you felt his fingertips trail over the scars that detailed your body, and when his fingertips were done with one his lips took the same route.

It was just him and you. The moon and stars being your only audience as he treated your body with a worship you were sure you would never be able to reach. His lips kissed every part of your back, especially where your wings lay. And when he was done showing your body his love, he drew out all the darkness you carried. His hands massaged in the cream you’d requested, and when you brought your head forward with a sigh from how relaxed he’d made you, you felt his lips press into your neck.

“What else do you need?” His hands remained at your back, and his lips on your neck as he waited. He would take only what you gave him, nothing more.

You looked down to your clothes, “Could you help me with this?”

“Of course,” his soft voice wrapping around you like a hug, one that you feel into.

His finger hooked itself under your chin and brought your face up just to see those eyes still so full of love and adoration. Even as he helped you change, his lips worshipping ever mark they came across, his eyes continued to hold that same look. Even as you helped him change in return, just to be able to feel his heart under your hand, a reminder that this was all real, his eyes continued their look of love.

Before you tugged him into bed, you brought his forehead to rest against yours and just savored all the contact your body has with his. You closed your eyes, afraid of what his reaction would be to your next words, “Promise me this is real, and that you’ll be here when I wake up tomorrow.”

His hands covered yours as he brought his lips to meet yours, and with that his answer. He was real, you were real, and the two of you together in your bed was very much real.

He let you pull him into bed next to you, and surprising even yourself, your wings wrapped around him, keeping him close as you let the contact you had with him lull you to sleep.

You felt yourself coming back to the present moment. Joaquin’s eyes now open and watching you with warm eyes. His fingers slowly made their way up your arm before they reached your face, tracing your features softly. Your eyes closed at the gentleness with which Joaquin touched you and when his touch disappeared you couldn’t help but whimper, only to feel him roll over so that you were above him.

You knew that your wings were wide open, almost as if they were stretching from their lack of use throughout the night. Joaquin’s hands rested on your hips, his eyes finally getting a look at the various bruises that proved the realness of what happened the day before. And as you watched his fingers slowly trace around them, the anger from what happened to you clear in his eyes, and yet his touch only brought you comfort.

His eyes went up to your face before settling on your lips, “Can I kiss you?”

You nodded and as you went to bring your body down, Joaquin stopped you, sitting up so that he would meet you instead. Your noses rubbed together as your lips hovered over one another, feeling each breath coming from the other’s lips. His hands cupped your face as yours gripped his hair, the two of you waiting. Then his lips touched yours and it suddenly felt like your body was on fire.

While last night his touch reminded you that you were human, now his lips made you feel like you were anything but. You’d traversed through the various layers of heaven and hell and now it felt like you were above all of that. Just floating.

He was slow and tender and gentle, even when your body burned for more.

Your voice was hoarse when you spoke, your yearning as plain as day, “Don’t stop kissing me.”

But when Joaquin spoke it was clear he was just as consumed by his own want, “No paro hasta que tú me paras.”

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translations:

no paro hasta que tú me paras: I won’t stop until you stop me

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Joaquin Torres: @pascalpanic @cleversturmhond @booksmusicteaandanimals @cooluncleboba @autumnleaves1991-reads @marvelouss-marvel @mischiefmanaged71 @the-and-sign-anon @barzal-burakovsky @young-romanoff

[binch-i-might-be]

Your fics have gotten me through some of my hardest times.

I’m not going to explicitly say who I am, but I’m not going to try and hide that fact either.

The thing is, you’ve always made tumblr feel more welcoming, you were one of the first people I followed on my new account, and I’d been following you on my old one for a while. The way you write your washingdad stories just makes me melt, whether they be with Alex, John or Martha’s children. It almost feels safe, no matter the context. I could just get lost in the world you write without any repercussions, watching Alexander and his dumbassery, John and his gay-foolishness, Jacky and his lowkey chaotic vibes, it’s just all so inviting.

Your chaotic posts never fail to make me smile, even if I’m having the darkest of days, you put up with my nonsensical ramblings about insignificant amrev figures, not anyone in particular ;), without even knowing it you’ve made tumblr a nicer place for me to be. You made me feel welcome and wanted.

Thank you Ray, I really appreciate you and everything you’ve done for me, whether you know it or not.

Love you! /p

Hi 🥺

Can I just say how amazing it is for me, both as a writer and person, to hear that?

Like- this is what I always wanted, what little six year old me always dreamt of, and why I decided I wanted to be a writer in the first place.

I've always used reading as an escape, and I wanted to provide that comfort to other people, so it really means a lot that you feel safe in the world my silly little words form! :)

This is legit so sweet, I-

"Not anyone in particular" - of course not ;)

Well, just know you'll always be very welcome and wanted on this blog! Yes, this is a threat!

Thank you for telling me all this, it made my heart do a lot of funny stuff 🥺

Love you :)

[loversandantiheroes]

Which of Your Fics

Got tagged for this quite awhile by the lovely and talented @astroboots, (ty sug 💗) and it kinda got buried in my drafts. So in the spirit of trying to clean it out, here it is. I *think* this is all the questions that came with it, but it’s so far back I can’t find it. This will probably be exceedingly boring for everybody given how few fics I’ve actually contributed to the Pedro Pit so far.  Apologies in advance.

Which fic did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

None, really.  I’m not trying to be humble, I’ve just got exceedingly low expectations. XD

Which fic got a better reaction than you expected?

Everything I’ve written in the last two years.  I mean that sincerely.  Partly just based on prior experience in writing fanfic (combination of still being pretty new to writing fanfic and writing some very niche stuff nobody was interested in), but also just...Case History got an insane reaction, and I sure as shit didn’t expect to walk into the Pedro Pit, toss out a Whiskey fic and get the response I did.

Which fic is your funniest? 

Not sure on that one.  Humor tends not to be a big focus, just a kind of a byproduct.  I don’t think I can point to one.

Is your darkest/angstiest? 

There’s a few contenders on that front.  A lot of my earlier OUAT fics were horror-tinged or straight up angst-fests.  My only TSW fic features my poor bee’s first death.  At least two of my canon-ish compliant DW fics are angsty as all hell, and that’s not even counting Like Blood Running Warm, the vampire au, which...well I mean it’s a vampire au, ffs, there’s gonna be a body count by the time that wraps up.  There’s also Structural Damage, which is my DA:I Cullen x F!Inquisitor fic that deals with Cullen going off of lyrium and that’s definitely not the lightest topic (though there’s a lot of that fic I’d like to go back and fix).  And I mean Hotel Hobbies is starting to unearth the buried angst as well.

Is your absolute favorite? 

God that’s hard.  Part of me wants to say Jigsaw just because I put so much work into trying to make the sci-fi bullshit make sense for the sake of a fix-it fic and I’m just proud that I managed to finish it.  Like it exists, it’s complete, it’s done, the nerds have been put back together and all is right with the universe.  There’s also some damn good writing in there, too.  But Case History is such a strangely special series to me, and Hotel Hobbies has morphed from a one-off “Whiskey deserves to get tied up and tormented and I bet he’d love it” fic to something a lot deeper and more emotionally grounded.  So I don’t know.  Three way tie?

Is your least favorite?

Oof.  Restless.  More DA:I fic.  It’s not exactly bad, but it did not come out the way that I’d hoped.

Which was the easiest to write? 

My memory is wonky, so that’s a tough one to pick.  I’m gonna say probably Risk & Reward.  That just sort of came out in a rush during a bout of anxiety, most of the difficulty involved was just trying to make sure everything was in the correct order (damn you, non-linear thinking).

The hardest? 

I mean at this stage the next segment of Case History and Ch3 of Hotel Hobbies could duke it out for the reigning champion.  I have too many fics that I’ve started and found myself stuck in.  But I think the one that caused me the most like actual stress and agony was Structural Damage.  I was trying very very very very hard to strike a balance with the portrayal of Cullen’s lyrium addiction, not wanting to handwave it as something easily fixed and not turning it into a “I will cure you by the miracle power of love and boning.”  That and trying to handle PTSD in a respectful way and just...yeah.  That one took a lot out of me.  Somehow at least that prepared me for writing Side Effects, so the stress on that one was considerably less.

Which fic has your favourite line/paragraph? 

Oh god I have a few.  Jigsaw alone has so many bits I’m proud of.  Here’s one:

He studies her, intent, almost desperate, as if she were a map of some place he thought he had traveled long ago, perhaps in a dream.  His eyes search out familiarity, looking for a landmark in the darkness of her eyes or the upturn of her nose or the sweep of cupid’s bow above her lips.  But then his eyes blur, losing focus, and his face falls.  There is no recognition here; her face is still beyond the edges of his map. Here there be monsters.  

I am also, of all things, very attached to this bit from Referral (Case History #7)

“I’ve been busy,” Alex insists, shoulders straightening.  “Y’know. School stuff.”  

An awkward moment of silence passes while Abigail shuffles for another pumpkin.  It’s a lie. You know it, and clearly Abigail knows it, too. It might just be Pelican Town’s worst kept secret, right next to the Mayor’s pointlessly illicit “affair” with a single woman.  Alex hadn’t been able to secure a sports scholarship after graduation, and without a proper college fund he’d been left with no real options. The kid was watching a dream die in real time, and was doing his damnedest to pretend it was still breathing.

Harvey would’ve understood.

Which fic have you re-read the most? 

At this stage it’s somewhere between Hotel Hobbies and The House Call.  The latter was very much written as a bit of comfort during a very very bad month, and re-reading it is very much a fictional hug.

[hopeamarsu]

Which of your fics

Oh gosh, thank you darlings @clydesducktape and @safarigirlsp for tagging me! Self-promotion is not my strongest suit and I tend to downplay a lot of things, so I apologize if the answers seem lackluster. But I do want to give this a go (under the tag as it got surprisingly long):

Which fic got a better reaction than you expected? I think this goes out to my Kylo HC My treasure . Honestly writing Kylo felt like a huge mountain to climb, he’s so well loved and so wonderfully written that I was a little scared at writing for him. But I am happy about the way it turned out and I am so glad others enjoyed it too!

Which fic is your funniest? I want to say Hit The Slopes, because I was laughing while writing it. Looking at my own masterlist I realized that I tend to stay away from funny fics, ouch. 

Which fic is your darkest/angstiest? Can I link my entire masterlist here? Lol. I do tend to write angstier fics or emotionally heavy at leat. But I’m going to lift three fics that are dark and angsty: The Dam , River Lea and Night light

Is your absolute favorite? This feels like choosing ones favorite child. I love all my babies so hard, it feels bad to pick one. AAA, so hard. I do love my series with Rick, Senses, and my Clyde angst series, Walk With Me . As I’m writing this, I feel like I want really want to lift them all up here, because honestly I leave a little piece of my heart behind as I let the story fly. 

Is your least favorite? Ah, don’t make me do this. If I have to pick, I’m going to say Calla Lilies, but only because it’s one of my earlier fics and I think I would’ve gone into another direction with it if I were to do it again now. 

Which was the easiest to write? I feel with Night Moves, we just had so much fun with Thia that the words just flowed out and I hope it also shows in the work. The other is my Dildo/Pleasure series because when I go into that zone it just comes out so easily. Fun fact, I actually have two more fics to add to that collection, so hopefully I can get those out soon too! 

The hardest? Definitely Bring on the Men. I wanted to do justice to the musical, to the song and keep the boys true to themselves. Also trying to keep track of whose hands are going where and who is getting what done is hard when it’s two boys :D 

Which fic has your favourite line/paragraph? This is from Healing Hands and it still speaks to me in so many levels:

“Don’t you think that Clyde Logan.” You voice was gentle but firm, not leaving him the possibility to contradict you. “I know what goes on in that mind of yours and I want to tell you that that is not true. You have nothing to feel ashamed about. You are you and that is more than enough.” 

Clyde felt his ears heat up at your words, he knew you’d see right through him. It was a conversation the two of you had gone over and over again, but you were more than willing to go through it once more, if he needed to hear you say the words again. You loved him, just as he was. Nothing more, nothing less.

Which fic have you re-read the most? So I rarely re-read my own work, but that is mostly because I go over them so many times during my writing (I suck at grammar and I have a tendency to skip over words so multiple proofreads are made). But I do go back and read When You Know , because there is so much of my insecurities in there that I want to remind myself that even if that voice inside my says otherwise, it’s not true. 

Which one would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time? I’m honestly the worst at recommending my own stuff, I barely can do a reblog of my own work to save my life. But I think Senses is a wonderful place to begin. 

The one you’re most proud of? Mixing Sessions! I love that series so much, from the way the inspiration hit to the final product. It was the first I actually planned as a series and the way it turned out makes me still feel a little giddy. 

No pressure tags as always @paper-n-ashes @roanniom @millenialcatlady @sacklerscumrag @in-silks-and-flesh-and-leather @finn-ray-nal-beads @mind-p0llution @barbers-glimmerin-darlin @jynzandtonic @mariesackler and ANYONE that sees this, please join in!

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which of your fics - tag game

Thank you @yoditorian for the tag! This was fun and I enjoyed thinking about my answers

Which fic did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

I would say Only for You because it’s my least read fic and it’s my only G rated one. I had been hearing a lot about how there’s so much smut out there and so I wrote a little romantic story that I think is pretty cute and fluffy, but has zero sexiness. I have to say the people who did read it have left the sweetest comments on it and so I know it was enjoyed, which in the end is all that matters.

Which fic got a better reaction than you expected?

My Caretaker Series (I’ve linked to Chpt. 1 here) which I was excited to start writing, but I was worried people would be over the caregiver premise and no one would read it. But here we are eight chapters in, and I’m working on Chpt. 9 now, and the love for the story just keeps coming. It makes me so happy because I really wanted to challenge myself to write a whole series and I’m very pleased with how it’s turned out. Plus just knowing how many people are have enjoyed the earlier chapters and are looking forward to the next one is just fun.

Which fic is your funniest?

I’d have to say my first fic Sending a Message is probably the funniest but I have humor in all my fics so it’s kind of a toss up. I still think the idea of that story though is one of my funniest because reader makes Mando feel her up in public to deter other men from hitting on her and just the silly sexiness of it all makes me laugh.

Is your darkest/angstiest?

I really don’t do a lot of angst and I definitely haven’t been able to write Din as dark - I just love him as a soft sweetheart too much to make him dark. I guess my angstiest is my Chapter 8: Desperately Seeking Mandos but even that has a lot of fluff and romance before we get to the angst.

Is your absolute favorite?

I love them all, but Chapter 6: Where No Mando Has Gone Before is my favorite thing that I’ve written. It’s one of the main ideas that sparked the caregiver series and it was one of those chapters that just has so much in it, humor, romance, cute Grogu moments, objectification of men, and Star Trek references. Plus it has my favorite smut scene that I’ve ever written.

Is your least favorite?

I’d have to say Dress Code Part 3 only because I felt I had Din be a little too soft and mushy and then the sex scene never really came together (ha ha) exactly how I wanted it. Although it still has so many lovely comments on it and after I posted it on AO3 someone told me it was their favorite Din series so I’m still pretty proud of it (sorry not trying to brag).

The hardest?

This current chapter, Chapter 9: Not Without my Cyar’ika (which by the way I love the hilarious title for a chapter that has very little humor) is kicking my butt because I am working on tying together so many parts and I want to make sure it all makes sense. Also I don’t want it to be a total rip-off of Episode 16 of the Mandalorian and it was sort of veering into that territory before I re-outlined it. I’m still working on it so hopefully it will end up good.

Which fic has your favourite line/paragraph?

Beskar and Lace has some of my favorite lines and paragraphs, plus it’s my favorite title that I’ve written.

Here are two of my favorite lines from that fic:

Everything about you seems to turn him on, the curve of your lips when you say his nickname, the scent of your hair when it’s still damp from the shower, the sway of your hips when you rock the baby to sleep, the few times you’ve touched his bicep between his armor, all of it.

And also:

“Oh, Mando, you are incredible; an absolutely gorgeous tank of a man,” you tell him, letting your eyes rake over his broad, muscular form.

I just knew that in one of my fics, I really wanted reader to call him a tank and it worked out so well in that one.

Which fic have you re-read the most?

Probably either Dress Code, Part 2 or Beskar and Lace. With Dress Code, Part 2, I just loved having jealous Din and the party scene so I really like that one, and with Beskar and Lace, I love the shopping, the debates with evil you, and then the smut turned out pretty good, so I’ve had fun re-reading it.

Which one would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time?

Honestly, I’m not sure, maybe Dress Code, Part 1 because it’s shorter and then you can decide if you really like my writing before committing to a whole series. Even if you don’t end up reading Parts 2 and 3, I think that one stands up pretty well on its own too.

The one you’re most proud of?

The Caretaker Series (I linked to my Masterlist here so you can find the other chapters easily if you like) is the one I’m most proud of because it’s been the one I’ve put the most time in to writing and I feel like it’s helped me grow as an author. Although, I have to say I’m still really proud of Sending a Message since it was my first fic and I had no idea if anyone would even read it, let alone like it, but they did and it kept me writing. 

No pressure tags (I’m not sure who’s already done this): @onabouteverything @syndxlla @toomanystoriessolittletime​

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Which of your fics...

I was tagged by the lovely @indyluckycharlie Thank you!

…did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

The Reunion collab with @thematsaidwelcome79 because Richonne fandom said they were screaming out for reunion fics after the whole mess with both Rick and Michonne’s departure. I get it, I guess. Everyone’s fed up with the show. But still, I thought we’d get a lot more traffic and readership on this one.

The Morning After - I loved writing this. Thought that it was much better than a lot of stuff I’ve written, but didn’t get the response I had hoped for. 

Artifice - Everyone seemed keen to read it, and then it flopped lol 

…got a better reaction than you expected?

This headcanon where 40s Bucky flirts with Sam

…is your funniest?

Oh gosh. I don’t know. Maybe You Found a Guy? because Rick’s dumbassery is funny to me lol 

Also this prompt fill because Carol has fake vampire teeth and corny one-liners

…is your darkest or angstiest?

Sous Couverture - Richonne AU

The Tribute - Richonne AU

Deception - SamBucky AU

Artifice -  Dark Steve Rogers

My Captain America - Dark Sam Wilson

…is your absolute favourite?

Red Dirt Road - I really loved writing this story and it meant a lot to so many readers that we connected over it. I am immensely proud of this fic. It holds a very special place in my heart.

…was easiest to write?

Writing is hard! But, the easiest for me was any number of 100 word drabble prompts. Everything else needed time, energy, and research.

…was hardest to write?

Everything I have abandoned. Too many to mention here and I want to delete them all, so yeah. 

…has your favourite lines/exchange/paragraph? (Share it!)

That’s so hard to narrow it down! Ummm, let me see, I have always liked this exchange from Sous Couverture:

"Did you have any idea that I would betray you?" I ask. He squints his eyes as if he is contemplating the question seriously.

"No," he replies. "But lookin' back, I guess there were a few red flags."

"Such as?"

"You showin' up so like you did," he answers. "It was almost too convenient. Wheeldon was on his way out. Then you moved here. I should have known."

"Why didn't you?" I question. "You're a good judge of character yet you didn't see me for who and what I am."

"Maybe I saw you for exactly what you are," he says. His eyes are steely. I don't look away.

"What do you mean?" I ask, afraid of his answer.

"That darkness," he says softly. "I recognized it. It's all around you. I knew it was there. I could smell it on you."

His words cause me to shudder. The hair on my arms stand up. He keeps staring into my eyes. He frightens me sometimes.

"And that was enough to keep me around?" I query.

"We're alike. I could see something in you that felt familiar. It's that darkness. It's that sense of duty you have, but mainly the darkness. We've all done the worst kind of things; I guess I just want to know you. I want to know what things you've done."

I nod and then swallow hard.

"Thank you," I say. That's all I say. I don't have any other words for him. I don't like letting people close; I don't like genuine relationships with others. I don't like being vulnerable and naked to others; I dislike feeling that way with others. Yet, I feel vulnerable with Rick Grimes. Not because I am afraid that he will hurt me, but because I am afraid that he sees me. I watch as he turns to leave. I recognize there's something similar between us; I too can smell it.

…have you re-read the most?

Not too sure. I’m thinking SC for continuity purposes. Had to re-read it over and over. 

…would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time?

Together

…are you most proud of?

Red Dirt Road

Sous Couverture

Deception

Because I finished all of these multi-chapter fics and that’s a big deal for me.

And The Boys of Summer (which is current) because the themes and issues are important to me.

Tagging: @avintagekiss24 @elsac2 @richonnelvr218 @thematsaidwelcome79 @rubducked @glittercake @soufcakmistress @xnovamore @ships-bynoa @honestlyfrance and anyone else who wants to do this

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i was tagged by @chudleycanons and @whizbangs-78 - thank you!!!!

which of your fics...

...did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

Oo um i thought Party Revelations would have done better but it did actually climb, it was just slower than usual. However, i was low-key disappointed with the reaction to Equal Amounts but at the same time i understand that people don’t read angst :)

...got a better reaction than you expected?

every harry potter (character) one i’ve ever written

Just Like Them and Skin and Interruptions

i didn’t expected any of them to do as well as they did. Skin i thought at the time was written poorly but after reading it again, it wasn’t as bad as i originally thought. I didn’t expect Just Like Them to do as well as it did because it was Harry but i’m beyond chuffed that he does so well because i love writing him. Interruptions because i didn’t think i wrote it very well.

...is your funniest?

Teasing

Without a doubt it’s Teasing because Clarissa challenged me to use the phrase ‘gluteus maximus’ six times in that fic and i rose to the god damn challenge.

...is your darkest/angstiest?

The Fall or Equal Amounts

Both are just full on angst but especially The Fall, i didn’t hold back with that one at all lmao. Tbf, I Wish was full angst as well but it flopped lmao

...is your absolute favourite?

Wow, um i really don’t know. I really enjoyed writing A Beautiful Dream and i had fun making up the man on the moon myth and writing the pick up lines but Sad Smiles and False Truths is something i’m quite proud of as well simply because i think i dived quite deep into the emotions side of it.

...is your least favorite?

anything old of mine lmao. I HATE my remus series with such a passion, i really want to rewrite it. I also am not too keen on Notice either.

...was the easiest to write?

I’m pretty sure i bashed out Christmas Confessions pretty quickly because i was so wrapped up in it and i just wanted fluff in my life that day and i was happy to self indulge

...was the hardest to write?

Contest for the Best was so hard because i was sat thinking for days what the reader’s prank could be and i wanted it to be perfect. I also found Smile really hard because it was my first ever Regulus and i wasn’t sure how to write him.

...has your favourite line/exchange/paragraph?

The Fall - “You’d never be the person you were before him and you’d never be the person you were with him. You’d be someone new, even if you didn’t want to be. It was an involuntary reinvention of yourself.”

Sad Smiles and False Truths - “Why do people love others who don’t deserve their love? Is it a matter of self-esteem? Is it a matter of seeing something broken and wanting to fix it? Is it masochism? We decide that the highs that come with loving someone who doesn’t deserve you are with the low points. One blush can remedy one hundred tears, one smile can remedy a thousand tears, one laugh can remedy the heart they broke. Do we think there’s no one better for us, that this is all we’ll ever be good enough for? That this love is worth it because it’s love? It’s not love, it’s pain and destruction masked over with pretty words, acquired validation and turning the other cheek. If you feel as if no one will ever love you, or pay you a compliment or smile at you, then wouldn’t anyone accept superficial love, fake smiles and empty promises?”

...have you re-read the most?

oo i don’t know? I think i’ve re-read uhhhhh you know i really don’t know? It would probably have to be I Feel You because i constantly think i’ve made a mistake in it lmao

...would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time?

A Beautiful Dream or Just Like Them

I really enjoyed writing both of those fics and I feel like it captures my two different styles of writing perfectly. I can write in 2 different ways and those are it - unless i’m writing heartbreaking angst and then i can write 3 different ways.

...are you most proud of?

I’m probably most proud of Just Like Them or Love Has No Bounds (so far) :)

tagging: @kalimagik @dogweedanddeathcaps @teheharrypotter @birdie-writes @coffee--writes and @approved-by-dentists <3

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What’s up y’all! I’ve been seeing quite a few people doing weekly read lists or general rec lists lately, and thought it looked like fun! Here’s some of my favorite fics, old and new, from all different fandoms!

The Darkest of Times by IAM_Kneazle/writing_as_tracey - Riverdale, Bughead, M, 193k, 24/24 chapters

I’ve not been active in the Riverdale fandom for a bit, and honestly I could stand for a good reread of this one, so I may gush about it again later, but it is such a standout to me! This is basically the first season of Riverdale set in the Harry Potter universe. HP AUs are a weakness of mine, especially when they’re as well-written as this! Alice was honestly one of my favorite parts of this fic; she’s so well done, so Slytherin! 

family feud by @rappaccini - The Umbrella Academy, Fiveya/Alluther/Benkliego, T+, 11k, 1/1 chapter

Of the few TUA fics I’ve read, this one cracked me up the most, hands down. I can’t sum this up any better than rapp’s tags: yes incest, five hargreeves breaks the internet, the power of teenage hormones shuts down the academy. It is a glorious account of a very easily imagined interview with the Hargreeves siblings, in which a defiant Five and an oblivious Klaus start the snowball that becomes the avalanche of Harcest horrors coming to light. The dialogue is golden. The siblings are chaotic. The internet reactions are meta. You might need to lay down after this, but it’s very worth it.

The Newborn by fizzfics - Twilight, EdBella/canon Twilight couples, T, 218k, 62/? chapters

This is an AU where James turned Bella into a vampire while she lived in Phoenix, which prompts her to move to Forks with her father. Not only is the idea of this AU genius, it is also so in-depth in regards to the characters. Bella’s lack of experience as a vampire and the way she stumbles through discovering what she is until she meets the Cullens is amazing, and I can’t get over the adorable bonding scenes between Bella and Esme, or the amazing way the author writes Rosalie and her complicated story.

The Suit by @imlikat - Bleach, ChadIshi, E, 28k, 10/10 chapters

First of all, shout out to Kat for snaring me into this ship to begin with. Second, shout out to Kat for coming back into the fandom and bringing me new content that I didn’t have to write myself. All my love.

The Beating of Our Hearts (Is the Only Sound) by whiteduck6 - Bleach, IkkaYumi, M, 5k, 1/1 chapter

A sweet, slightly sad modern AU oneshot with Yumichika planning his and Ikkaku’s wedding. I’m a sucker for figure skater!Yumi, which is also included, and sewing master!Uryuu. The amount of thought put into this Yumichika is wonderful. He’s complex and his emotions about the wedding and Japan’s laws/views on homosexuality are beautifully written.

Rose Fangs and Wolf Thorns by @ouatlovr - ASOIAF/Game of Thrones, Sansaery, E, 1.4mil (yeah I’m fuckin’ serious), 514/514 chapters (sequel ongoing!)

On my AO3 bookmarks I’ve tagged this ambitious lesbians, and that’s pretty much it. The author takes Sansa, Margaery, and every other ASOIAF they write and explores every aspect of their characters, breaks them down and makes them expose their barest bones and hardest truths. Lots of crying came with reading this fic and it is one of my all time favorites. Heed the archive warnings!

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fanfic writers tag game!

I was tagged by the marvelous @musette22 for this lovely fanfiction tag game that was devised by the clearly very brilliant @thewaythatwerust, to discuss some of the fics I’ve written over time! Thanks so much! 💖

Let’s see, I shall tag... @thebestpersonherelovesbucky @turtletotem @gerec @whtaft and @ninemoons42 <3

Which of your fics…

* Did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got:

Ah, a tricky one! I feel like I never really have expectations - I just write words because I can’t not! But maybe lines of light, which was my Steve/Bucky Fake Character Death Trope fic - it’s sort of a weird little fic, but I wanted more of that trope, but maybe that’s just me!

* Got a better reaction than you expected:

Oh, goodness - just about all of them! I remember being so shy and so nervous to share any of my writing, years ago, and now I write things that people seem to like...I think probably never mind the why and wherefore surprised me most, though! That’s my TJ Hammond/Johnny Storm fic, and when I started writing it mine was literally the third fic on AO3 for that pairing, and for that small a fandom, I’ve just been amazed.

Also, of course: I’m constantly amazed by how much people love Like Sugar! It was the biggest thing I’d ever tried to write, and it made me a better writer along the way, and I suspect it’s the Evanstan fic/series people might remember most, from my fics? (Also also, if original-fic-inspired-by-an-Evanstan-drabble counts: the love for Character Bleed has been overwhelming!)

* Is your funniest:

...am I funny? I don’t know! *waves hands about* I feel like I never set out to “write something funny,” but then again I like terrible puns and wordplay, so there’re probably funny lines in most fics? I hope?

Honestly maybe every inch of north and south, which has the Chris-turned-into-a-puppy plot, or Now That I’ve Found You, Stay, because giant patriotic dildos, or some of the banter in just a couple lovebirds, because I love Chris and Seb in that one. Or some of Bucky’s pulp fiction stories in tales to astonish. Or all the TERRIBLE autumn-related puns in the current Evanstan fic, A Place Not Far Away!

Or we could go REAL old-school and pull out the McFassy semi-crack fic in which James gets magically cursed to turn into a kitten. There’s that.

* Is your darkest/angstiest:

Ahahahaha. Um. *stares in Characters Having Emotions*

Okay, okay, um... Aside from certain specific chapters of Like Sugar and Amateur Cartography, it’s either The Tones That Tremble Down Your Spine (Bucky needs all the softness, after this! of course so does Steve...) (sometimes I think about adding a chapter, because it ends a little abruptly, but I also wanted it to - not everything’s 100% resolved, but it’s clearly on a healing trajectory!) ...

...or, over in Cherik-land, I hope we rise to the occasion, which does have a hopeful ending but is painful, or the balancing act stories (also Cherik) which were...personal in many ways (also originally written over on Livejournal, because I’m old).

* Is your absolute favourite:

Impossible! *laughs* It’s always the current story I’m (actively) writing. Which at the moment is the Evanstan autumn fluff-with-porn A Place Not Far Away. I don’t know if it’s my favorite-favorite, but it’s nice to get back to Evanstan and I love fall.

* Is your least favourite:

Also impossible! There’re things I love about all my stories. If I have to...maybe It’s Time To Bring This Ship Into The Shore, mostly because Michael’s such a dick to James for a lot of it. Which is also true in Loving Days (why was that a plot point in a few of my McFassy fics?) but I think I did a better job with his redemption in that one, and showing how much he changed and tried harder. And with Ship & Shore I wasn’t super-knowledgeable about the soul-bond trope (it was a request-fic) so I never felt quite sure I’d done it well enough!

* Was the easiest to write:

Amusingly, considering how epic and glorious and long the whole series became, I’d say Like O, Like H - the first Like Sugar Evanstan story. It just flowed. It knew what it wanted to be, and I tried to keep up. (Lovebirds was also one of those, as was the TJ/Johnny fic, never mind the why and wherefore.)

* Was the hardest to write:

the sound of rain on tin. It’s been the fic I’ve had the hardest time with ever. It’s my own fault for trying to do too much in terms of plot - sort of AU, an Evanstan-Stucky crossover, Lovecraftian elements - and then starting to post before I had it all properly sorted. I do know how it ends in general terms, I promise! but resolving plot/action has never been one of my strengths, and we’ve hit the point where I actually have to figure out How To Fix The Magic Portal-Thing, and I don’t feel like I’ve got it worked out well enough.

I mean if you all just want me to write the emotional Sebastian talking to Steve Rogers (and maybe a little curious kissing) and Chris talking to Bucky, and then *poof* suddenly Seb and Bucky are back in their respective universes and we get Emotional Reconciliation Scenes and Love Confessions, that part’s easy. I’ve had stray bits of those scenes done for years.

* Have you re-read the most:

Like Sugar, in part for continuity as I worked on later stories and in part because I’m really kind of proud of it.

* Would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time:

Depends on what genres they like! I’m probably best known for - if anything - Like Sugar, and I think it’s pretty representative of my writing in terms of loving tender kink-with-emotions! But the person would have to not mind Evanstan RPF and soft Dom/sub kink and arranged (sort of) marriage tropes.

Other than that, for Evanstan, maybe Sweet Disposition (the third version of the clothes-sharing fic!); or (baby won’t you please), which is the Chris And Seb Go To A Sex Club For Research For a Role fic, or tempt me, tease me, which is...Sebastian leaves an unsatisfactory date with someone else (brief and random) to go pick Chris up from a bar, and then there’re lots of revelations about Feelings, and also porn-with-emotions. Those last two ‘feel’ similar in my head for some reason - mood, maybe, or story arcs about revelation and discovery.

...for Stucky, maybe when and where our eyes meet (Bucky falling asleep! soft blankets!)...or tales to astonish, because it’s such fun!

...if you want to go a bit older, I have weird affection for my first-ever Cherik fic, Know That It’s True, which is a Cerebro hurt/comfort fic, and then I love the slow development of the McFassy in No Wonder, No Wonder, which I occasionally still think about trying to revise as original, but it’s so character-driven that it’d be hard, but I love the feel of it, the hints of magic and the setting...

* Are you most proud of:

Like Sugar! At the time it was the biggest story I’d ever tried to write, both in terms of length and in terms of world-building and planning and characters growing closer together. Character Bleed got more complicated in terms of needing multiple outlines and plot, eventually, but I couldn’t’ve done that if I hadn’t done Like Sugar first.

* Has your favourite line/exchange/paragraph (share it):

Too hard to pick! There are so many! 

I sometimes say it’s this one, from tempt me, tease me, though not always:

“If you’d like,” Sebastian offers, “we can even tell them I borrowed your key and lost it, if you don’t mind asserting small untruths to hotel personnel.” Big blue half-plastered Captain America eyes stare at him some more. “…Chris?” “You…” One hand waves, a partial gesture, pulled back at the last second. As if Chris has meant to reach out, and thought better of that. “You really would? You wouldn’t, y’know, mind?” Sebastian half-smiles. Thinks of cars with broken-glass windows in Romanian capital-city streets, thinks of students waving flags and cheering with feral glee, thinks of saucer-eyed childhood memories and songs of revolutionary fervor and desperate upheavals of optimism like birthing-pains. Chris Evans is beautiful and genuine and real, and Sebastian would do far worse things, would splinter his body and perjure his soul, to give Chris one more day in which to eat pizza and laugh and clap friends on the shoulder with a broad happy hand. “No,” he says, “I wouldn’t mind.”

Or, from the WIP - the next chapter of A Place Not Far Away - because my favorite is often what I’m currently working on, there’s this! Enjoy? <3

They both watch Sebastian for a second; he’s nodding, jotting down a quote, hair bouncing with the motion. His fingers are quick and tanned, gathering notes; his jacket’s casually open, and dirt’s left a scuff on his right boot.

 He’s a New York City reporter in a black leather jacket and a stylish sweater, but he’s also a reporter who doesn’t mind getting dirty and will run through a corn maze and helped set out signs the first day Chris ever met him.

 Carly pats Chris’s shoulder, says, “Enjoy yourself,” and heads off to supervise some historical blacksmith demonstrations. The sky shimmers in clouds and satin and magic and unfallen rain.

 Sebastian bounces back over. “That’ll be fantastic, she was so excited, she’s already thinking about next year, which is so perfect for a pull quote, and it’ll get people thinking ahead about coming here then!”

 Would you come back, Chris doesn’t say. Would you come back next year, next month, next week, even if your story’s done? Would you stay and not leave?

 He can’t ask that. This is Sebastian’s job.

 He says, “That’s awesome. You want lunch?”

 “Absolutely. I haven’t eaten my way through your menu yet. Recommendations?”

 “Classic Oktoberfest? The whole German sausage, potato, onion thing? That one’s popular. And, um, baked apples. In maple cream sauce.” Food. He can talk about food. Promoting their menu. Not getting down on both knees and promising to bring home every pumpkin Sebastian likes, if that’ll make those happy eyes stay at his side.

 “Sounds good.” Sebastian’s eyebrows go up, beckoning Chris into the joke. “And I do like sausage.”

 “I like your sausage,” Chris tells him, and Sebastian’s laugh is a splash of sunshine through clouds and cold and tree-branches that stretch to the sky.

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Which of your fics

About a million years ago I was tagged in this by the wonderful @keeper0fthestars Thank you my love 💕

Which fic did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got? None of them! I am always surprised whenever I get a nice comment or a reblog. Seriously - I literally gasp and get butterflies when anyone says something nice about my writing. 

Which fic got a better reaction than you expected?  He Is Home. I was feeling very fragile when I wrote it and I didn’t edit myself the way I normally would have. But I guess we all want to take a bath with Ezra, even if there are too many commas swimming around in the tub.. :)

Which fic is your funniest?  Don’t Look And It Won’t Hurt I feel like I scared some people away from this fic by putting an angst tag on it, but I think there are funny moments in each chapter. I really enjoyed writing the humour and I am always ridiculously happy when readers comment on the humour in that fic 🥰 

Is your darkest/angstiest?  He Is Home - but it also contains the only fluff I have written, so 🤷‍♀️

Is your absolute favourite? Don’t Look And It Won’t Hurt. 

Is your least favourite? Less The Horror Than The Grace - it’s not that I don’t like it, but I guess this is the only fic where I’m not projecting my own emotional issues onto the characters so I feel less attached to it because of that.

Which was the easiest to write? I generally find writing to be a very slow and painful process, but The Crossroads I’m Standing At poured out of me in a couple of hours. It was the first fic I posted and I think I was less self-conscious/critical about my writing than I am these days. 

Also that fic is based very closely on a real life thing that I experienced, so all the main beats of the story were already there in my head. And I have since realised that pining and unresolved sexual tension generally seem to be the things I find easiest to write. They do say you should write what you know. I guess They are right 😔

The hardest?  A Walk In The Woods. Man, smut is HARD. I worked on that fic all day every day for a week and it was agony. Two things kept me going: My beta reader @alwaysbethewest who was endlessly patient and tactful and taught me a hell of a lot; and @yespolkadotkitty who had requested the fic - there was no way I was going to let her down by abandoning it.

Which fic has your favourite line/paragraph? This changes all the time. I’m very fond of the last paragraph in A Walk In The Woods but that would be too spoilery to post here. So I’m just going to choose a couple of random passages that I like from another fic. 

This is from Chapter 3 of Don’t Look when Javi visits the ranch in Laredo:

He wakes up early every day and takes his coffee outside to watch the sun rise. The sky here seems somehow bigger and he likes the way it feels to stand beneath it in the quiet potential of the dawn. To stand still. He’ll inherit this ranch one day. Up until now he’s assumed he’ll sell it when that day comes. But maybe he won’t. Maybe he’ll quit the DEA. Move out here and husband the land and the animals, and a woman, too, perhaps.

When the sun’s fully up he rides out on his favourite horse, a beautiful palomino quarter horse mare. She’s a good girl, attentive to him even on a loose rein and he takes her along the river, cuing her softly with his body and gentling her with his voice.

And this is from Chapter 1 of Don’t Look. Javi is helping a shy diner waitress get home after she had a run in with an aggressive customer. She’s had a shot of brandy for medicinal purposes and it’s gone to her head a bit, as has he:

It takes a while for her to get ready to leave because she can’t find her locker key. Eventually Javi gets tired of watching her fumble through her pockets and he jimmies the padlock.

“They teach you that in DEA school too?” she asks, pulling her jacket out of her locker.

“No, I learned that in high school. I had some close acquaintances over at the Catholic girls’ school and the Sisters locked up the dorm block at eight sharp.”

“Javi!”

“What? The girls needed me to tutor them on their Spanish conjugations. They were counting on me.”

“You are unbelievable.”

“That’s what they tell me,” he says, helping her with her jacket. It’s a frumpy thing that her Aunt Di gave her when she was clearing out her closet and somewhere at the back of her mind she knows she should feel embarrassed about it, but she doesn’t. She feels fantastic. She’s tipsy and unselfconscious. She hasn’t had this much fun in years. A handsome man is going to drive her home.

which fic have you re-read the most? Oh god I can’t do this because I can’t resist the temptation to edit. 

Which one would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time? If you like m/m slash fic then Crossroads. If not, Don’t Look. 

the one you’re most proud of? At the risk of sounding like a broken record - Don’t Look. I am most pleased with the prose and dialogue in that fic. I’ve enjoyed the world-building in it - creating locations from scratch - the diner, pool hall and movie theatre. And creating the original characters that live in these places has been a lot of fun. 

A few readers have told me it is a comforting world/fic for them and that absolutely makes me glow with joy 🥰🥰🥰

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I feel like lots of people have probably done this already but some no pressure tags @thirstworldproblemss @yespolkadotkitty @heatherbel @frannyzooey @songsformonkeys @filthybookworm 

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Fanfic Writers Tag Game

I was tagged by @hbalbat and @ixalit in this lovely fanfiction tag game that was devised by the clearly very brilliant @thewaythatwerust, to discuss some of the fics I’ve written over time! Thanks so much, guys! 💖 

I have no idea who has already done this, but I’ll go ahead and tag @paper-storm, @luninosity, @wintersoldier1989​, @bluesimplicity73, @howdoyousleep3, @wayward-lives, @trekchik​ and please feel totally free to ignore! <3

Which of your fics…

* Did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got:

Hmm, maybe Body Politics? Generally speaking I think RPF AUs attract more readers than non-AU, and since everyone adores Political Daddy Chris, I figured this one could’ve done a little but better? Especially since I really like it myself (but then of course, that’s often how it goes isn’t it 😅)

* Got a better reaction than you expected:

Basically all of them! I never in a million years imagined that people would actually enjoy my writing, so every time I get a kudo on a fic I’m like “what, for real??” 🥰 But if I have to pic one, I guess From Brooklyn, With Love, since I wrote that one in one morning while at work and it did pretty well lol. Oh, and also my CAPBB fic from last year, Rare Is This Love (Keep It Covered), because I still can’t believe it did so well alongside the amazing fics from all the amazing authors who also participated in that bang.

* Is your funniest:

You Make My Heart Skip A Beet, I think. I’ve definitely gotten the most comments of people saying it cracked them up on that one! Or alternatively You lift my fucking spirits, bro, although that one is just a drabble. Still thinking of turning it into a proper fic at some point...

* Is your darkest/angstiest:

LOL none of them are particularly angsty. I’m not great with writing angst 😅 But for Stucky, it would probably be Rare Is This Love again, and for Evanstan maybe Closer? Yeah, I think so.

* Is your absolute favourite:

Ugh okay, if I *have* to answer this one, I’ll say it’s There is a Tavern in the Town, because that one allowed me to combine my love for Evanstan and Stucky and it’s not perfect, but it’s very close to my heart. Oh, and also I Really Can't Stay (Baby, It's Cold Outside) because I LOVE co-authoring with my gorgeous wife @paper-storm and I still feel all warm and fuzzy inside whenever I think about this fic 🥰

Honourable mention for Reckless Serenade, since it’s the filthiest thing I’ve ever written and I love it. 

* Is your least favourite:

That’s hard, too lol. I guess maybe Café Rouge, not because I dislike the fic but because it’s Peggy/Angie and I wrote it for a femslash challenge, but I don’t really ship it? Or, I mean, I ship it, but not in the same way I ship Stucky and Evanstan, you know?

* Was the easiest to write:

I guess maybe Strawberries & Cream or Diving In The Deep End, both of which I wrote really quickly because I just had to get those little scenes I had stuck in my head down onto paper!

* Was the hardest to write:

Probably also Café Rouge, because I wasn’t as driven by my passion for the ship as I normally am! That, or Rare Is This Love (again) because I really struggled to make the deadline on that one and that was not fun 😂 

* Have you re-read the most:

That would be my fist ever fic, I've done some things that I shouldn't have done (but I haven't stopped loving you once), because I was terrified it was rubbish and I kept re-reading it to see if I could improve it hahaha. Also (If Paradise Is) Half as Nice, because I think it’s hawt.

* Would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time:

I did actually recommend There is a Tavern in the Town to one of my uni friends when she found out I wrote fanfiction and wanted to read some of it. In hindsight, maybe I’d recommend Maybe Baby (I'll Have You) now, because that one is non-RPF, more or less PG and kind of cute haha.

* Are you most proud of:

I think I Spy With My Little Eye, just because SO many people have told me how much they love it, and that’s kind of what you write for, isn’t it? And I don’t mean validation necessarily (although that is GREAT lol), but to give other people something they enjoy! 💗

* Has your favourite line/exchange/paragraph (share it):

Finding a favourite bit was literally impossible because all it did was remind me that I’m not all that good at writing 😂 However, I really like this scene from Closer, because I love how happy Sebastian is, and how fond Chris is, and how effortlessly these boys can laugh together, even during the most serious, heartfelt of moments. Since it’s a bit long-ish, I’ll put it under the cut!

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Sebastian blinks at Chris a few times, then suddenly sits up straight, grabbing Chris’s hand and prying open his fingers.

There they are. Two rings. That really happened.

His eyes snap back up to Chris’s face, wide and stunned. “You- had these made?”

Chris smiles at him indulgently. “Yes.”

“For us?”

“Yes.”

When the meaning of the gesture finally sinks in, a wave of pure, unadulterated happiness rises up in Sebastian’s chest so fast and fierce and unstoppable that it makes him feel lightheaded again – thought this time for an entirely different reason. He claps a hand over his mouth in a failed attempt to stifle the burst of laughter that escapes past his lips.

“Are you… laughing at me?” Chris asks, narrowing his eyes in suspicion, but he mostly seems amused.

Sebastian’s eyes grow even wider. “No,” he says firmly. “Fuck, Chris, I’m sorry.” He barks out another joyful laugh, unable to stop now that he’s started. “Sorry, sorry, I’m not laughing at you, I swear,” he hiccups, shaking his head from side to side and smiling like a lunatic. “I’m just so fuckin’ happy.”

“Oh, thank god,” Chris exclaims dramatically, slapping a hand over his heart. “So in that case, d’you think there’s any chance I could maybe get an answer at some point?” He pulls a face. “I mean, it may have escaped your notice, but I actually just made a heartfelt speech, declaring my undying love for you and asking you to be mine forever. But, you know, I can see how you could’ve missed that bit, it’s not like I poured my heart and soul into–”

Sebastian surges forward and cuts off Chris’s rambling by catching his still moving lips in a searing kiss.

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Which Fic

I was tagged by @stusbunker and @there-must-be-a-lock!

I’ll do a mix of CM and SPN fics.

Which of your fics…

…did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

For SPN, I think Never Saw Blue Like That Before. It’s Destiel, which is obviously a big SPN ship and I was really happy with how it came out.

For Criminal Minds, basically any series I’ve done that isn’t smut. But the three I’m happiest with are Upheaval, a season 13 ender fix it fic.

After a rollercoaster year filled with departing friends, jail time, and one of the most notorious killers the team has ever faced, the last thing anyone needs is this. A truck barrels toward a group of them, leaving their future uncertain, while others stand by unable to help in any way. What crosses their minds when their lives flash before their eyes? Even if the physical injuries don’t kill them, will they be able to recover?

Coercion - Started from a one line challenge.

You are just about to start your new job at the BAU after years of working to get there, when a man you don’t know approaches you with an evil plan and knowledge of every sordid detail of your past. What will you do? Will you give into the man’s demands? Or will you be able to find another way out?

And Caged

Years after Spencer’s wife is kidnapped, there’s a break in her case and she comes home. Or does she? Is she the same woman she was before her ordeal?

…got a better reaction than you expected?

For SPN, it’s probably The Perfect Storm, an Alpha!Sam x Omega!Reader. It has about 260 notes but it was my first ABO fic and I was so fucking nervous about posting it, so I was surprised at the success it had.

For CM, honestly there are a bunch of smuts that I’m like...okay I wrote that and they BLEW UP. Most recently was Phone Calls Be Damned. I wrote it in like 20 minutes...it has nearly 900 notes. I work for ages on some pieces that BARELY get a tenth of that.

…is your funniest?

For CM, a lot of my general CM fics involving the whole team tend to be on the funnier side. I love Prank War, Secrets of the Bullpen, Pics Or It Didn’t Happen and In The Middle of the Night.

For SPN, I don’t have a ton of funny. But I think You Win or You Die is pretty funny.

…is your darkest or angstiest?

For CM, I’d have to go with Candyfloss and Novocaine, which was a collab with the lovely @cherrybombs-and-rabbitholes. 

For SPN, I’m working on what I think will be my angstiest to date, but the current one is Salvation, a Sam x Reader. I don’t really do angst super well. IMO, it’s my worst genre.

…is your absolute favorite?

For CM, it is impossible to pick. After 6 years writing CM, I have 1,000+ fics to choose from. Anything I’ve written as a request to “help” someone or make them feel better about themselves is important to me though.

For CM, it’s a Cas x Reader fic called Beauty In Stillness.

…is your least favorite?

Again, it’s hard to choose with Criminal Minds because I have so many, But I have a couple crossovers that I wrote early on in my writing that I don’t think are that good.

For SPN, it’s probably Searching for Oblivion. It was a Dean smut and one of my first forays into SPN writing. I don’t think it’s awful, but I can do better.

…was the easiest to write?

For Criminal Minds, the easiest to write was probably Passive Aggressive Partnership. I remember that one flowing pretty quickly.

For Supernatural, it has to be Cherry Red.

…was hardest to write?

For Criminal Minds, the hardest thing to write was Article of Faith.

For SPN, the hardest was Teetering on the Edge, another ABO, but I’m SO FUCKING HAPPY with how it came out.

…has your favorite lines/exchange/paragraph? (share it!)

For Criminal Minds, I am proud of a lot, but out of all the stuff I’ve written, a section from chapter 5 of Coercion stands out.

With the floodgates open, you couldn’t stop yourself from screaming. You stood up and got right up into Spencer’s face just as he’d done to you. Hotch had gotten up from his seat, thinking you were going to attempt to hurt Spencer, but you couldn’t Of course they couldn’t believe that under the circumstances. “I’ve been beaten! I’ve had my bones broken by the men that paid for me. I’ve been raped. I’ve had knives used against my skin because the rush of torturing and raping a 15-year-old girl got my clients off. I’ve been left on the side of the road with my thighs and vagina in too much pain to walk! I’ve been used as a drug mule! My only friend on the streets was murdered in front of me because I asked for a break and she had offered to take my client to let me rest. After all that, I tried to kill myself!” Your throat was raw, but you couldn’t stop. “But I had nothing. I had no money. So the only way I could think of doing it was to swallow the half a bottle of sleeping pills I had found in the trash. The next morning, I woke up in a pool of my own vomit. I took it was a sign that I was meant to do something with my life, so I pushed myself up. I walked away from the town I grew up in. Hid in sewers and pipes and abandoned buildings to make sure my pimp wouldn’t find me and kill me, or worse, rape me too, because he liked to do that if I haven’t mentioned it already, and send me back to my old life. I clawed my way up. I begged and cried and bled to get where I am now, and then that bastard came up to me and threatened to take it all away or he’d expose my past and kill you.

For SPN, there’s a section of Teetering on the Edge that JUST...I did it, man.

“Don’t you fucking dare pull that neanderthal bullshit with me, Alpha!” You yelled your throat hoarse. Sam dipped out of the area and back toward his bedroom. It didn’t matter. Whether he was here or not, you’d be seething. “You don’t get to decide my life for me! Have you ever thought that maybe I’d rather be in danger with you than safe without you?” He readied himself to respond but you pushed against his shoulder with a force that startled even you. “Did you ever stop to think that I’ve waited my entire life to find the person I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with? And that now that I found him, I’ll be damned if I let him go?”

You were on a roll. Dean wanted to speak, but you wouldn’t let him. “No! You didn’t fucking think about what I want! Because your number one priority is to make sure you don’t have anymore blood on your hands. Well, guess what. You don’t get to do that. Not with me! When you care, you get blood on your hands. That’s just the way it is. I get to make my own damn decisions!” It all just exploded out of you. You kept screaming and crying and drinking to the point where you weren’t even sure what you were saying anymore. As you kept going, your arguments shifted from his demeanor to your own health. “You claimed me,” you said, pulling your sleeve aside to shove the mark in his face. “You know what’ll happen to me without you? I could fucking die!”

Dean waited for you to stop ranting, steadily finishing his beer. Once you were all yelled out, he chose his words wisely. “There’s medication. You’ll be fine. You’re not going to change my mind,” he said flatly, trying to keep any sense of emotion out of his voice, even though you could tell he was right on the edge of acknowledging every amazing and shit feeling he was feeling in this moment. “I need you to get out of the bunker as soon as possible. For your own good.”

Without thinking, you reeled back and slapped him, open palm to cheek, relishing in the sound of the crack that reverberated throughout the bunker. “Fuck you, Alpha! Fuck. You.”

…have you reread the most?

For CM, I tend to only re-read things rarely when other people reblog. I’ll read something that they liked from a while ago and go, hell fucking yea. I wrote that.

For SPN, I re-read a lot of my Cas stuff because he’s my fucking angel :D

…would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time?

For Criminal Minds, read all the general fic. I think it gives a taste of how I write the entire team. Though given how much I write Spencer I think I have his characterization down most.

For SPN, I think I’d go with Beauty In Stillness for fluff, Salvation for angst and Satisfaction Comes From Sharing With Others for smutttt.

…are you most proud of?

For CM, overall, I think I’d go with Upheaval.

For SPN, it’s definitely, Beauty in Stillness, Salvation and Teetering on the Edge.

Okay, this was BALLS hard, but I enjoyed :D

I’m tagging @heycasbutt @impala-dreamer @because-imma-lady-assface @covered-byroses and @illegalcerebral 

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thank you for tagging me my lovelies!! @whizbangs-78 @wand3ringr0s3 @ickle-ronniekins @starlightweasley ❤️❤️

Which of your fics...

...did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

not necessarily that i thought it would get a bigger reaction bc i know it’s based around a sad topic but i was feeling angsty when i wrote in the darkness and am super proud of it even if it’s not done as well as my other fics!

...got a better reaction that you expected?

basically most of my fics tbh it always baffles me when they do well hahahah but i’d probably say breathless (i didn’t expect to do quite as well as it has?? like smuts tend to do well but this one shocked me) and crush!

...is your funniest?

ughhh idk most of my funny lines go to sirius being a lil shit hahaha maybe his and james’ teasing in crush or sirius in never just a friend. or maybe truth or dare which is possibly the worst thing i’ve ever written in recent times hahahaha oh dear

...is your darkest/angstiest?

i barely ever write pure angst so these are my angstiest i guess? decisions, decisions, or maybe so close? or in the darkness. n i suppose draco’s boggart and numb

...is your absolute favourite?

either distracted as it’s a fic that i managed to write nearly exactly how i imagined it in my head, or intoxicated bc i was just super proud of it idk. or how to steal a book (and a heart)

...is your least favourite?

wowowow like all of them tbh. nearly everything i’ve written before this year, and then truth or dare bc i have never regretted writing and posting something so much

...was the easiest to write?

bloody lovely - it was by far one of the easiest fics i’ve ever written. also how to steal a book (and a heart).

...was the hardest to write?

ironically, considering i absolutely adore george’s hands, in safe hands. just bc i wrote it in different sections and then pieced it together over like two weeks? i usually write fics in one sitting but that one took me a while to finish! and i had no idea how i wanted to end it either so that took time to work out

...has your favourite lines/exchange/paragraph? (share it)

this is a difficult one. maybe a couple a different ones:

i wish it was me

She was gorgeous, smart, funny, effortlessly cool. Everything you wished you were but afraid you’d never be. Everything you tried to be.

how to steal a book (and a heart)

“How touching,” you grumbled, running a hand through your hair and pulling your cloak further around yourself.

“I’ll touch you-“

“FRED!”

never just a friend

“Y/n?”

“James?”

"And I'm Sirius!" A proud voice said from the other side of the door, followed by the audible click of the lock.

...have you re-read the most?

i never re-read my own work, i don’t even proof read bc i’m too lazy and i just find my writing way too cringe hahaha but i’m glad yall like it!

...would you recommend to someone reading your work for the first time?

ughhh depends who you read for! despite apparently only writing for fred recently, i actually do write for lots of characters so umm... i guess:

i wish it was me // distracted // intoxicated // persistence is key // bloody lovely // always you // someday

tagging: @loony-loopy-lupinn @shadowsinger11 @acciotwinz and anyone else who would like to do this!!