#The time setting for everything in sp changes every fucking day so just imagine this is late 90s early 2000s kinda

[bullborn]

[simonxriley]

I love you and I’m sorry.

Pairing: Alexsandr “Tachanka” Seneviev x Skylar “Phoenix” Jackson (oc)

Summary: Tachanka fell in love, only to have it ripped away from him in a blink of an eye. 

Words: 1,945

Warnings: Implied/reference suicide and mention of blood. 

A/N: I woke up this morning and I needed to write this, don’t know why I just needed too. Because I apparently love ripping my whole heart out. 

Ao3 and FF  

Russian: Moya Sladost’ = My sweetness. Kotyonok = kitten

Everyone who was apart of the Outbreak never came back the same, everyone had some form of PTSD even if they hated to admit it. But Jager and Tachanka came out of it the worst.

Jager was injured and alone in the dark after having his helicopter taken down, waiting for whatever loomed in the darkness to attack. And how those seconds felt like years waiting for his rescue, hoping they could get to him first instead of those monsters.

Tachanka lost the love of his life there. Everyone made it out besides Skylar. His kotyonok!

He can still see her smiling face after rendezvousing with them after getting separated, how happy and relieved she was to see them. And how that smile quickly turned to fear when a rooter teleported right behind her, piecing her abdomen. Doc did all he could, unfortunately she succumbed to her wounds, leaving Tachanka angry and broken in the middle of the battlefield as he held and rocked her colding corpse.

It was only six months ago, to him it felt like a lifetime. The home he shared with her used to be filled with laughter and love, now it felt empty.

As he sat at the kitchen table, pouring himself another shot of vodka his eyes kept darting to the small purple journal Skylar always kept with her. He carried it everywhere with him because it made it feel like she was still with him. He never opened it though, feeling it would be a breach in privacy, even if she was gone. Deep down he knew she wouldn’t care, she never did before, she was always open with sharing her things with him.

He sighed through his nose, downing the shot of vodka and poured himself another one.

This kitchen housed so many good memories, him cooking her breakfast every morning and every time she would argue and say she could do it herself. And every time he would just laugh and go back to cooking. Them cooking dinner together every night while listening to one of her playlists, her singing and dancing around the kitchen making him laugh every single time.

The one thing he missed the most was watching her bake. Turning the kitchen into a mess with flour and different ingredients everywhere. He would always sit at the table, giving her space as she went to work with whatever she was baking that night. He can still picture her chestnut brown hair up in a bun, flour on her face as she read the recipe off her phone. Occasionally looking over at him with a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eye. And even sometimes he would walk over and steal a kiss or two, tasting what she was baking. Those were simpler times, the times he would sell his soul to get back. To get her back.

Now his days were filled with taking his frustration out on still targets and working on his LMG. His nights however were filled with drinking and crying himself to sleep, reaching out to the spot next to him, where she used to lay.

After another shot he slammed the shot glass down and grabbed the purple journal. He couldn’t take it anymore, he needed to read and see what was inside.

With shaky hands he opened it, having a picture fall out into his lap. When he went to pick it up, he noticed it was of them, snuggled up on the couch in the rec room on base. Glaz was the one that had taken it, then sent it to them that night. Skylar later had it printed out.

He flipped through her journal, seeing the sketches she did while bored and finding another few pictures in the middle of it. Most of them were of them, a few of him and either Fuze, Kapkan or Glaz and a few of Skylar and Ash.

Taking a deep breath he felt the tears well in his eyes, blinking them away for the most part. He set the pictures aside and continued looking. Most of the journal were of her sketches until towards the end, where she actually wrote a few things down.

“Well I didn’t fuck up this mission, THANK GOD. I don’t know why Six picked me to defend a hostage until evac arrives, that’s not my expertise to sit and wait and barricade. I’m a roamer, anyways I was just happy with the operators she chose for said mission. But the real person I need to thank is Tachanka, he saved my life by pulling me out of the line of fire. Definitely need to buy him a whole case of vodka, though I don’t think that’ll fully pay off that debt.”

He softly chuckled, knowing exactly what mission she was talking about. Everything went fine, they were killing each terrorist with ease until one breached a wall near where Skylar was, stunning her. If he didn’t grab her back the back of her uniform and yanked her across the bed she would’ve been killed and he couldn’t have that.

She did thank him a day later, and that night changed their relationship for good. The morning after, she was officially his.

He continued down to the bottom paragraph, a small smile spreading across his face.

“I have never met someone more loving and caring than Alex, he treats me like a queen. He’s completely different than how I imagined him as a boyfriend, and I couldn’t be happier. Truthfully I think I love him and I know he loves me, even if he hasn’t admitted it yet.”

He turned the page to see it blank, then a piece of paper pricked his hand. He grabbed the corner of the paper, slowly pulling it out of the journal. As soon as he saw what it was his heart sank even more and he quickly opened to the page where the photo was.

He held it tightly in his shaking hands, the tears welling back in his eyes, blurring his vision. “Why didn’t she tell me? Why didn’t she tell me she was pregnant?”

Wiping his eyes he went to look at the page, seeing a few things written down.

“I’m pregnant, PREGNANT! Doc confirmed it an hour ago and I’m at a loss for words. I can’t wait until Alex gets back from his mission so I can tell him he’s going to be a papa. He’s going to be so happy, as am I. I can’t believe I’m really going to be a mom.”

He continued reading….

“As soon a he comes back home, Six is calling both of us for a new mission. Apparently there’s an Outbreak in Truth Or Consequence, New Mexico. Ash asked specifically for both of us. I guess telling him will have to wait.”

He glanced back down at the ultrasound picture, tears sliding down his cheeks. He didn’t just lose his girlfriend that day, he lost his unborn child too. A child that would have been loved and spoiled by both parents. And she was right, he would’ve been very happy about this unplanned miracle. Now his heart broke even more than he thought was plausible.

He set the photo down on the table flipping through the rest of the pages, all were empty but one. There was a sketch of him sitting at Ash’s briefing with his feet up on the table and him on his phone and a folded up piece of paper. He softly smiled, grabbing the piece of paper, and letting the journal close on it’s own. 

Leaning back in his chair he unfolded the piece of paper, noticing it was a letter for him. Dated back during the outbreak.

He took a deep breath and started to read it.

“Alex, moya sladost’! This is the last thing I want to be writing, a goodbye note but after what I saw in that hell, I’m not so sure all of us will make it back and I wouldn’t forgive myself for not saying goodbye.

You have made me the happiest woman in the world, there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t feel grateful that you’re mine. I wake up and go to bed filled with so much love that I feel like I’m going to explode and it’s all because of you! Yeah we still have our bad days, like every other couple where it feels like this is the end. Only to have our love rekindle in full force. And we still always had our very good days, filled with lots of laughter...and kissing. The nights I would fall asleep in your arms and still wake up there in the morning.

I used to be so afraid of falling in love because every time I did I would get hurt. But with you, it came as easy as breathing, I don’t have to hide my true self from you because I know you’ll love me either way. As I love you!

I hope we both make it out of here and raise the child I’m now carrying. The child I want to tell you about so badly. But we need to keep our heads in this fucked up game and if I told you I know what you would do and right now I need a live boyfriend, not a dead hero. And our child needs a live father.

I can’t wait to see you as a papa, rocking our child to sleep while you hum an old Russian lullaby to him or her. Playing with our child, teaching them right from wrong and all the stories they’ll be told from your Red Army days. This child is going to be so grateful to call you their papa.

As I sit here writing this in our tent, you snoring softly beside me I can’t help but wonder what the universe has in store for me, for us. In a way I think that’s the beauty of being alive, we don’t know what our lives will bring. There is one thing I know for sure, is that I love you, more than anything in this world.

If I don’t make it back, I just want you to know that everyday I spent with you was the best day of my life! I love you Alex, don’t ever forget that! And I’ll be watching over you.”

He set the letter down, tears streaming down his face. He grabbed the vodka bottle in a tight grip, chucking it at the cabinets. Glass and the clear liquid now covering a part of the kitchen floor. He couldn’t deal with the pain much longer, everyday was hell and he just wanted his kotyonok back.

So he stood up, picking up the journal and the photo’s and headed up to the room he and Skylar used to share.

Glaz found him a week later, after not hearing from him and he became worried. As he looked down at his lifeless corpse, blood splattered on the white covers and headboard, he noticed a letter in his hand. Carefully pulling it free from his grasp, Glaz opened it and read it, when he flipped it over there was one more sentence, reading.

“I love you and I’m sorry.”

With tear-filled eyes he looked back at his body, noticing the ultrasound photo close by. He turned away, grabbing his phone from his jacket pocket. When he got to the door he turned back to look at his friend one last time. “I hope you’re with your family now Alex. I hope you’re at peace.”

[imagine-riverdale]

Yes Part 2- Sweet Pea Imagine

Yes Series Master List is HERE

2/5

It had been around two days since Bethany seen her mother or sister, it now being Monday morning Bethany had showered and gotten dressed before waking Sweet Pea up and the two of them drove her truck to the school. The two met up with Fangs and Toni by their lockers, the four talking about a job FP was trying to set up before Toni noticed something odd.

“Hey Beth, isn’t that Addison?” She pointed down the hall to see her sister leaning against a locker by Chuck Clayton.

“Yeah it is. Excuse me.” Bethany moved away from her friends, Sweet Pea not far behind as she heard Chuck ask Addison out. “Sorry, she isn’t interested.” Bethany stepped next to her sister who was frowning. “Toni.” Bethany said as Toni appeared next to her. “Take Addison to class, I want to have a chat with Chuck here.” Toni pulled Addison away much to her protest. “You’ll do well to stay away from my baby sister Clayton, I find out you, or any of your bulldogs try anything with her and I’ll chop your dick off, are we clear?” She asked as Chuck rolled his eyes.

“She’s new meat and I don’t believe I saw a Serpent tattoo on her,”

“She doesn’t need one, she’s a Serpent by blood, you mess with her, you mess with all of us and let me tell you, I won’t hesitate to hurt you if you mess with my sister. So, stay clear.” Bethany moved away from him and found Addison pouting in the student lounge. “Stay away from Chuck Clayton and all the other bulldogs, they’re no good.” She stated to her sister who scoffed.

“You’re only saying that because you’re a Serpent.” Addison said annoyed. “You can’t tell me who I can see.”

“No but I know them better than you.”

“You can’t decide what is best for me.” Addison crossed her arms.

“You want to date one, fine but don’t come crying to me when something happens.” Bethany turned and left the lounge, Sweet Pea stayed behind and looked at Addison.

“She only wants what is best for you, that’s all she’s ever wanted, you know.” He stated. “Everything she has done, was for you.” He told her softly before walking away to find Bethany.

-

“Babe.” Sweet Pea grabbed Bethany’s arm to stop her from walking into her first class.

“What is it Sweets?” She asked crossing her arms.

“You can’t protect her forever, she’s going to do what she wants.” He stated as Bethany nodded.

“I know, I just, I’ve always been the one to protect her, how can I stand by and watch her get her heart broken?” She asked. “I became a Serpent to protect her, and if I just stand by and let her get hurt, what was the point in me joining the Serpents?” She asked, Sweet Pea was silent a moment. “I grew up being the one to take care of her.”

“I know, but you just have to step back.” He stated, Bethany nodded before the two headed into class.

-

“Hello Bethany.” Beth heard the voice Kevin Keller said sitting across from her in the lounge.

“Hey Kevin.” Bethany looked up from her phone an gave a soft smile. “What’s up?” She asked.

“Not much, wanted to know if you wanted to hang out or something after school.”

“I would love to, but can we maybe do like tomorrow? I’ve got Serpent stuff tonight.” She stated.

“Yeah, sure.” He nodded with a smile. The two of them sat in the lounge for about twenty minutes just talking before Sweet pea walked in and nodded at Kevin before looking to Bethany.

“You ready to go? I’ve got to work.” He stated as Bethany looked at the time and noticed it was already after school, having used up her whole free period.

“Yeah. I’ll see you tomorrow Kev.” She smiled at her new-found friend before Sweet Pea and she made her way outside.

“You want to stop at Pops with Toni, Fangs, and Jones before we head to do our runs?” He asked Bethany as she climbed into the passenger seat of the truck.

“Sure, I could use some cheese fries.” The two headed over to Pops where Toni and Fangs were arguing while Jughead just watched.

“Fangs, Toni, Jug.” Bethany smiled as she pulled Sweet Pea behind her and they sat on the same side of the booth while Fangs pulled up a chair. Sweet Pea immediately wrapped an arm over Bethany’s shoulder.

“We need you to solve something for us.” Fangs stated as Bethany caught sight of her sister sitting at a booth not far from them with a bunch of Bulldogs and River Vixens. Reggie Mantels arm around her.

“And what is that?”

“Fangs does not believe me that when we were like ten you pushed SP into Sweetwater River because he kissed you.”

“That never happened.” Fangs and Sweet Pea stated as Bethany turned her head to Sweet Pea with her mouth open.

“Bullshit!” She laughed. “You got dared by Gregory to kiss me and you did then you told me it was a dare, so I got angry and pushed you into the river.” Toni laughed as Sweet Pea rolled his eyes. “Then you tried pulling me in with you.”

“Now that I would pay to see.” Jughead laughed as Bethany smiled, the five of them caught attention from everyone as they were all Serpents laughing. Bethany’s eyes met Addison’s who smiled slightly at her, Bethany immediately looked away as Toni recalled the time when they were fourteen and Bethany’s breast had just started showing and Sweet Pea purposely soaked her with the hose, so he could see through her white shirt.

“He was an ass hole!” Bethany laughed as Sweet Pea shrugged.

“But yet you still agreed to date me.” He said with a smirk and an eye roll.

“Must have been your charm that wowed me.” Bethany teased as Sweet Pea kissed her head. “Or maybe because Toni turned me down.” She winked at Toni.

“I mean I’m available now so whenever you want to leave Sweets, I’m waiting my love.” Toni joked as Fangs choked on his drink.

“This is getting crazy.” He stated as Bethany smiled at him before looking to Sweets.

“Nah, I think I’ll stick with the one I got, he’s alright.” She shrugged with a smirked as Sweet Pea grabbed her face and kissed her.

“Like you have a choice.” Jughead stated. “If you weren’t around I’m sure Sweet Pea would have murdered all the Bulldogs by now.”

“Probably.” Sweet Pea shrugged pulling away from Bethany who leaned into him, her eyes catching her sisters as she watched her pull away from Reggie when he tried to kiss her, he went to pull her back when Bethany heard her say ‘No’ but Reggie kept trying before Bethany heard him say something to her.

“You think you’re better than us? You’re just Southside trash.” Bethany quickly moved out of Sweet Pea’s arms and moved towards her sister, Sweet Pea, Toni, Fangs, and Jughead not far behind. They watched as Bethany stopped in front of Reggie.

“Wanna say that again?” She asked, Reggie laughed with his friends.

“What you come to save some other Southsider? What are you gonna do about the way I talk to her?” He asked as Bethany threw her arm back and punched him in the face before motioning her sister out of the booth. Addison climbed over the back and moved towards Toni before Bethany leaned closer to Reggie who held his broken nose.

“Talk to or about my sister again and you’ll have a lot more than a broken nose, that goes for all of you.” She looked towards the rest before turning and wrapping an arm around her sister’s shoulder, she stopped by Pop on her way out and handed him a fifty. “For all our trouble. Thanks Pop.” She smiled at the man and led her sister to her truck. “You alright?”

“I’m good, thanks.” Addy said softly. “You have a killer right hook.”

“Of course she does.” Sweets wrapped his arm around her as the six of them surrounded Bethany’s truck.

“Oh, shut up, you didn’t teach me to punch, I learned that on my own.” Bethany pushed Sweet Pea away from her with a smile. “Pretty sure the first punch I ever threw was at you babe.” Bethany stated before looking back at her sister. “You sure you’re good?”

“I’m good Beth. Thanks, I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.” She stated rubbing her wrist nervously.

“Don’t worry about it, come on we’ll give you a lift home.” She looked to Jughead, Toni, and Fangs. “See you guys at the Quarry tonight?” She had asked, the three nodded before Sweet Pea drove back to Sunnyside Trailer pack and stopped in front of Bethany’s mothers house. “If you need anything, just call, or come by, I’m in between the Fords and the Henderson’s. If we aren’t there, keys under the ceramic duck by the folding chairs.” She told her sister hugging her tightly. “I’ll see you later kiddo.” Addison climbed out and headed inside before Sweet Pea and Bethany went home to change before heading out separately to do their jobs.

-

Bethany arrived at the Quarry not long after the fire was started, surrounding it was a bunch of Serpents who Bethany stopped and had talked to before moving on to where Toni was.

“Hey.” Toni smiled at her best friend before handing her a beer. “I miss nights like these.”

“Me too Toni.” Bethany said taking a drink of her beer and looking around. “I got a question for you.” Bethany said moving closer to Toni so no one heard her ask. “You got any clue what type of job Sweets is doing with FP? He won’t tell me anything.”

“I know he was running jobs for Penny, but you know how that turned out.” Toni stated as Bethany looked at her wide eyed.

“He was what?” She asked. “I asked him about that and he told me he wasn’t running jobs for her, is that what all those nights were when FP got out?” Toni’s eyes widened at the revelation.

“Oh, you didn’t know…” She trailed off. “Well I don’t know what jobs he’s doing now, probably some weed runs.” Toni shrugged. “Why? What jobs does he have you doing?”

“I’ve been running to and from Greendale every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to pick up shipments of fucking bottles for packaging from a warehouse.” She mumbled. “Sweet Pea complained when FP wanted me to work at the Wyrm so this is the shit jobs I’m stuck with, but it pays the bills.” Bethany shrugged before noticing her boyfriend coming through the crowed towards her with Fangs while the two laughed and pushed each other.

“Hey Toni, babe.” He went to kiss Bethany, but she stepped back.

“Hey Bethy, Toni.” Fangs smiled taking a beer from Toni’s cooler.

“You good?” Sweets asked Bethany who chugged the rest of her beer.

“Were you ever planning on telling me that FP made you Peabody’s bitch or were you planning to hide that shit from me?” She asked as Sweet Pea immediately glared at Toni.

“It was nothing, really…” Bethany went to say something but stopped upon seeing Addison stumbling through the young Serpents, a black eye and cuts littering her face and bruises on her arms, ripped clothing, her shirt barely covering her. Bethany pushed past Sweet Pea who went to say something else but stopped at seeing Bethany rushing to her sister.

“Addy, what happened?” Bethany’s arms went around her fifteen-year-old sister and she fell into her.

“Mom.” She choked out a sob gripping onto her sister before breaking out in full on sobbing.

“Sweets, give me your jacket.” She demanded, Sweet Pea immediately shrugged off his jacket and wrapped it around Addison. “Come on, we’re going home, she tossed her keys to Toni. “I brought my bike; can I use your jeep?” Toni nodded and switched keys with her. “Meet you guys there?” She asked particularly looking at Sweet Pea who nodded slightly following the two home on his bike.

This is part two of a five part series. Part three will be posted on July 26th, 2019.

REQUESTS ARE OPEN FOR RIVERDALE CHARACTERS.

[marvel-queens-world]

Liar

Imagine Request for Anonymous

Word Count: 2462

Being the girlfriend of Sweet Pea was the best feeling in the world. The two of you had been dating for the past 2 years and it was the most amazing 2 years of your life. Sweet Pea made you feel safe no matter what the situation was, he was caring, funny, amazing, sweet and most of all he was a loyal boyfriend, or so you thought.

“Princess I’m going to head to the Whyte Wyrm. Are you sure that you don’t want to come?”

It was the night of FPs’ retirement party and you were curled up on the couch in Sweet Pea’s trailer. You practically lived with Sweet Pea seeing as your parents weren’t over the moon about you dating a Serpent and then becoming one yourself so to save all the drama you stayed over at Peas unless you had to return home to gather some things. You had been feeling under the weather the past few days and were finally starting to get better but not wanting to over do it you decided to stay behind tonight to get the rest of your energy back.

“No I think I’m going to sit this one out Pea but if I do feel better I might pop over for an hour.” You say to him.

“Okay then Princess.”

“You’re leaving a bit early aren’t you?”

“I told Tall Boy I would help set up and I’m running a bit late.” He says.

“Are you hiding something from me Pea?” You smirk.

“No of course not. I just don’t want to piss off Tall Boy.”

“Okay I’ll see you later.”

He gives you a quick kiss before leaving the trailer. There was something at the back of your mind that was bugging you. Normally Sweet Pea wouldn’t care about pissing off Tall Boy he had stood up to him on more than one occasion, the thought of him cheating on you crossed your mind but you quickly shook that thought from away as you knew deep down in your heart that he wouldn't do that to you. An hour later there is a knock on the door, you make your way over and open it.

“Hey Y/N. Are you not coming to the party?” Betty asks.

“I was going to go maybe later if I felt better.” You tell her.

“Oh please come now I don’t fancy going on my own.”

“What about Jug?”

“He’s setting everything up. Please Y/N.”

“Okay fine. Come on in whilst I get ready.” You tell her.

Half an hour later you are finally ready. You grab your Serpent jacket from off the back of the chair and make your way to the Whyte Wyrm.

“How are you and Sweet Pea?”

“Yeah we are fine.” You say.

Even though you said this, there was still that feeling inside of you that something was off with Sweet Pea but not wanting to ruin the party mood you kept your feelings to yourself and entered the Whyte Wyrm. The majority of the Serpents were already here, you scanned the room for Sweet Pea but you couldn’t see him anywhere. Making your way over to the bar, you spot Toni. You smile at your friend and sit opposite it her.

“Can I get you girls a drink?”

You order your usual and Betty has the same. After a few more minutes of chatting to the girls, Jughead comes over to the three of you. He gives Betty a quick kiss before he notices you.

“Y/N. What are you doing here?”

“I’m a Serpent Jug I don’t need a reason to be here.” You say.

“No that’s not what I meant. SP said that you still weren’t feeling well so you weren’t coming at all tonight.”

“I said that I might come for an hour if I felt better but Betty came round and practically begged me to come now. Why? What’s going on Jug?

Before Jughead can reply you notice Betty looking around the room, when all of a sudden her eyes widen in shock. You look to where she is looking and that’s when you see it. Sweet Pea is leaning up against the pool table with a girl all over him. You see him lean closer to her and kiss her on the lips before kissing her jawline and neck. Betty looks at you and you have tears in your eyes, you couldn’t believe it after every promise he had made you it was all lies he didn’t care about you or love you not when he was putting his hands on some other girl. You get up off your seat and make your way over to the both of them closely followed by Jughead and Betty.

“So I take it this was the real reason you had to come here early.”

Sweet Pea looks over the girls shoulder and sees you standing there, he quickly pushes the girl away from him.

“Y/N this is not what it looks like.”

“Oh really? Then please tell what it is the Sweet Pea.”

Sweet Pea stays silent, he knows that he has screwed up big time and he hated himself for it, he hated seeing how broken you looked standing in front of him and most of all he hated that he was the one to have caused it.

“Yeah that’s what I thought. How could you Sweet Pea?” You shout.

“I’m sorry Y/N I didn’t mean for this to happen.”

“No what I think you mean is you didn’t mean to get caught. No wonder you didn’t beg me to come to this party because you already had some to keep you company.”

You go to walk away from him when he grabs you by the wrist, turning you back around.

"Please Princess. Lets go somewhere else so that we can talk in private

"I don't want to talk to you and don't you ever call me Princess again you lost that privilege when you started putting your lips on that sluts face.

You slap him across the face. He lets go of you and you walk off closely followed by Betty.

“How could you do that to her SP.” Jughead shouts.

“I don’t know I’m a fuck up alright Jones.”

“Yeah you’ve got that right.”

With that Jughead throws a punch and hits Sweet Pea in the eye.

“Don’t you ever go near her again or I will kill you.”

Jughead makes his way out of the Whyte Wyrm where he finds you slumped on the floor in tears with Betty’s arms wrapped around you trying to calm you down.

“What did I do for him to cheat on me?” You sobbed.

“Nothing. You did nothing wrong Y/N. Sweet Pea is a jerk for what he has done to you.” Betty says.

“I can’t face him ever again I’ve got no where to go.”

“Don’t be stupid. You can stay with me, my parents won’t mind and Jughead can get your things from Sweet Peas.”

You nod your head and thank Betty. After a few more minutes on the floor you finally pull yourself together and stand up, Betty and Jughead help you to Betty’s. Thankfully her parents weren’t home so you didn’t have to deal with their questions about why you were stopping. Betty gave you a pair of her pyjamas, you had a shower, got changed before getting into bed where you fell into a dreamless sleep.

Time Skip

2 months that’s how long it had been since you saw or spoke to Sweet Pea, he had tried to get in contact with you but every time he called or text you would just ignore it. You obviously avoided the Whyte Wyrm because you knew he spent most of his time there but he never lost hope that you would just turn up one day, maybe just to say hello to Toni and Fangs but that never happened but in the end he finally got what he wanted. Southside High School was being shut down which meant all students would be going to Riverdale High, the school you happened to go to. He knew he had a lot of begging to do but he was determined to win you back, he had been a mess without you though he would put on an act in front of his friends pretending that he didn’t care that you had ended the relationship but they could see right through him.

“Can you believe that they are sending Southside students here.” Veronica says.

You zoned out, not wanting to listen to Veronica go on about the Southside students coming here. It was you worst nightmare knowing that Sweet Pea was going to be coming to the same school as you, you had managed to avoid him for the past 2 months and slowly you were getting over him but now this was going to ruin everything.

"Y/N. Are you okay?" Betty whispers.

"No not really but there's nothing I can do about it."

"I'll be by your side throughout this."

"Thanks B you are seriously the best." You smile.

Monday came by quicker than you wanted it to, you got dressed for school and walked there with Betty and Archie. You didn't talk much unless they spoke to you directly. As the school approached you started to feel nervous and you wanted to turn back and go home but you knew that Betty would drag you into school if you even attempted to do that so you just carried on walking and that is when you spotted him. He's tall frame leaning up against his motorbike talking to Toni and Fangs. He was laughing at something Fangs had said and you felt your heart swell, you had missed that laugh and the way that his eyes would crinkle. You snapped out of your thoughts when you heard a familiar voice shout your name. Your gaze leaves Sweet Pea and focuses on the girl running towards you.

"Hey Toni." You smile.

She engulfs you in a hug which you gladly returning realising how much you had missed this girl part of you felt awful for not going to see her but she understood why you didn't come over to the Southside.

"Girl I have missed you so much."

"I've missed you too."

"How have you been?" She asks.

"I'm much better than a couple months a go." You admit.

"I know its not really my place to say but since the two of you aren't talking anymore I might as well tell you that he has been a complete mess without you."

"Well he seems fine now." You snap.

"Oh come on Y/N. Out of everyone you should be the one to tell that he is putting that on and he has been ever since that night. Why don't you talk to him?"

"I can't Toni not after what he did. I'm finally starting to get over him and I know that barrier I've built up will come crashing down if I utter two words to him."

Before Toni can beg you anymore you walk away from her, eyes focused straight ahead. Even though you weren't looking at him you could feel his eyes on you not wanting to cave in you walk quickly into the building to find Betty. A week goes by with the Serpents at the school. You hang out with Toni whenever possible and she made sure not to mention Sweet Pea to you. Whenever you saw him you would head in another direction to avoid him you just wanted him out of your life but that wasn't going to happen with him being everywhere you went. One day you were walking to your locker when you felt a pair of hands grab you and pull you into an empty classroom. You turn round to come face to face with him.

"What the hell do you think you are doing?" You shout.

"Shh keep your voice down Princess."

"I told you the last time we spoke never to call me that again."

"I'm sorry but please can we talk."

"I have nothing to say to you. Let me go so I can carry on with my life without you in it."

"Y/N I'm not letting you go until you let me talk to you about that night."

"You have five minutes to say what you have got to say and then that is it we never talk again and you never try and call me."

"I fucked up big time that night but there was a reason I was all over that girl. She's the snake charmers daughter and Penny told me if I didn't break up with you she would hurt you I knew you would come to the party but even if you didn't Jughead would have told you what I did. Penny doesn't like how you are from the Northside but you've become one of us she thinks that you are going to get us all in trouble but I know you wouldn't do that. Y/N I'm so sorry that I hurt you that night but I thought it would be better than what Penny would do to you." "Why didn't you just tell me all this from the start Pea?"

"I'm an idiot and I didn't think that about it at the time but now that you have said it, it makes so much more sense."

"Yeah it does and we wouldn't have gone through all this pain for the past two months." You smile.

"I can understand if you still want to stay single I mean you can do a lot better than me anyways."

You punch him on the shoulder.

"Hey, what was that for?" He says while rubbing his shoulder.

"Oh come on that didn't even hurt but you deserved it. I hate it when you talk down about yourself. You were the best thing to ever happen to me and you know that I was my happiest when I was with you. I forgive you Pea."

"What? Really?"

"Yes but you need to promise me if something like this ever happens again you tell me don't you ever hurt me again." You say,

"I promise I would rather die than do that I was just trying to protect you but I made it worse."

"You didn't make it worse it was just a stupid idea."

"I love you Princess."

"I love you too."

[southsidesgems]

How Could She?

Sweet Pea stood back against the wall watching as his “sisters” danced on the floor. His eyes flickered over each of them and he wore a small smile at the sight of them. Though his brow furrowed a second later when he didn’t see his favorite gemstone.

He turned his head to the side when he felt someone come stand beside him, and there she was. Sapphire. She looked up at him with a bright smile. Her eyes sparkled like the diamond resting around her neck.

“Come dance with me, SP,” she pleaded. The pout she wore only served to make her look younger than she was. He flicked his gaze over her face and could see the love she held for him in her expression. He felt a flicker of guilt for the pain and hurt that was sure to appear before it went away because she knew how he felt for her. Just like he knew how she felt about him.

“I can’t do that, Princess. You know I’m waiting on Jazz.”

And there it was. The flicker of hurt and pain. The way her smile tightened before she smoothed her features out in the way only she could do. To where it wasn’t Saph no longer standing in front of him, but the untouchable Sapphire Stone, heir to Stone Industries.

“Right. Well, hope you have a good time.”

He watched her turn away from him and watched as she moved back towards the dance floor. Watched as she let her jacket fall in the lap of one of her den members grasp. Watched as she let her hair down. And he watched as she tried to force herself to forget him even if it were only for a few moments.

He made himself turn around before the guilt he felt tore him apart. Sure, he didn’t feel the same way, but she was still like a sister to him. He couldn’t imagine life without her by his side. He saw Jazz heading back towards him, but he pushed himself off the wall and headed towards her. He casually slipped his arm around her waist and pulled her into one of the back rooms.

All the while he ignored the heavy gaze of a breaking heart staring after him.

--

Sapphire working the bar at the Whyte Worm when it started. An intense burning feeling grew in her lungs and she stumbled back from the force of it. She vaguely noticed Toni turning towards her, but Sapphire was mostly distracted by the sensation in her chest. She pounded on her chest to get whatever what stuck out yet when it did, the only thing she wanted more than anything was for it to disappear.

Especially since it was obvious exactly what it was… a sweet pea flower.

“Holy shit.”

--

Sapphire had always known that she was in love with Sweet Pea. How could she not be? It was like every time she looked at him she felt breathless. When she realized that she had started to take the walls up around her heart back down. When she realizes that she would let him do anything or do anything for him even if it hurt her. When no matter how what state he was in, she could only see a person that makes her feel like nothing else in the world matters.

He was her safe haven, and she’s not afraid to admit that she relies heavily on him. If Toni was her best female friend, then Sweet Pea was her best guy friend. And she could admit to herself that she wanted more. That she wanted to be the girl wrapped in his arms and smiling up at him.

She thought she had a good hold on her emotions especially since it seemed like he didn’t like in her that way. When it seemed that he only saw her as a sister figure instead of a love interest. She can admit that it hurts. She knows he’s done some shitty things. Getting her to ask other girls out for him or that time he took her bike to Tiana’s house to go fuck. But she still couldn’t see herself with anyone but him.

He really had her looking in the mirror staring at her reflection thinking she was flawed because why didn’t he feel the same? But Sapphire was a big girl, so she pushed down her feelings and ignored them no matter how much it killed her to.

And now it was really killing her.

--

Days went by and Sapphire could feel the roots and branches making a home of her lungs and heart. Each day a new flower petal erupted from her lungs, and she did nothing to stop them. She didn’t want to.

Toni and Joaquin begged her to get the surgery. Begged her to have the branches removed. But she couldn’t. She didn’t want to. How she could not love him?

Everything around her was a mess. She was coughing up so many petals nowadays that she had to miss school. Honestly, she only saw four people on a day to day basis. FP, Toni, her brother, and her cousin Sonja. They crowded around her holding her as petal after petal escaped her.

But she still couldn’t get that surgery. Sweet Pea made her heart sing and obviously he made flowers boom inside of her heart. Even as she laid awake at night delirious through the pain, she only paid attention to the memories she had with him. Whatever the road is, she wanted to cross it with him. Even now as she was slowly dying, she would choose him repeatedly. The warm embrace of his skin, the soft glow in his eyes, the soothing rumble of his voice and his contagious smile. She would choose it over any heaven. Any paradise. She’d choose death repeatedly if she could never forget how these emotions felt.

And even though she knew he’d never love her the same, she also knew that love was a wonderful feeling and so is the pain that comes with it.

--

Sweet Pea had been playing pool when he found out. Sapphire had hanahaki disease and it didn’t take a second guess to figure out just who the reason behind her suffering was even if the flower in her hand wasn’t a clue. He had turned around to look at the bar when he heard Toni scream out Sapphire’s name. He had pushed his way through the crowd to get nearer when he saw her on the crowd. She looked beautiful even if she did look seconds away from death and in another world, he might have loved her the way she needed him to. The way the flower that emerged from her esophagus demand him to.

But he couldn’t. To him, she was just like Toni. Just like Emerald. Just like Emilia. Just like Camille. Just like Jade. She was his little sister in all but blood, and he couldn’t see her any other way.

“Holy shit,” she stated.

Yeah, holy shit indeed.

--

It didn’t take long for people to come yell at him. To convince her to get the surgery. To demand that he fix it. As if he could just conjure feelings up. As if anything did he would do wouldn’t hurt her further. He was too scared to go see her for that exact reason.

He stared at his reflection everyday wondering what about him made her fall in love with him. What was so special about him that she wouldn’t get the surgery that would save her life? He could admit that he was good looking guy and he had a good heart. But he had flaws just like the next person. Flaws that Sapphire had seen firsthand. So how could she love him when he wasn’t right for her?

He heard from Emilia who heard from Toni that Sapphire’s humor had took a morbid turn. At least to everyone else. She had the flowers she coughed up cleaned and plucked beautifully and filled her room with flower crowns or floral bracelets.

“This is all your fault, you pendejo! De todas las personas, ella tenía que irse y enamorarse de ti. Eres bueno para nada hijo de puta,” was all he heard before fists began attacking him. It took him a minute to catch the fists hitting him not before a handful had already bruised his chest. Sapphire’s cousin, Sonja, was still crying and desperately punching at his chest and cursing him in spanish.

“What do you want me to do, Sonja? Huh! I can’t love her that way. I don’t see her that way. Would you rather me lie to her only for her to find out the truth and the branches grow with a vengeance? Do you think I want her to feel this way? Huh? I would rather her hate me with down to the very last atom in her body than to be lying quite literally on her death bed!”

“BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS ALL ABOUT YOU ISN'T IT!! DID YOU THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL SWEET PEA? I'M ABOUT TO LOSE THE LAST MEMBER OF MY BIOLOGICAL FAMILY BECAUSE OF SOME ASSHOLE WITH AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM!”

She snatched away from him and stormed off and he watched her go. He watched as she walked Sapphire’s locker where people had placed even more flowers in front of. He found it heartbreaking that someone had actually put sweet pea flowers in front of them. As if she wasn’t coughing up enough to fill a flower shop. As if he wasn’t feeling guilty as it was.

He watched as Sonja stopped in front of the lockers where someone had tapped a picture of Sapphire. He watched as she broke down right in front of the lockers and he watched as her adopted brother, Joaquin, embraced her as tears streamed down his face also.

Sweet Pea turned and left the school. He headed right for the Whyte Worm where he hoped to let some of his aggression out in a game of pool or to drown his sorrows out in some bottles.

He was shooting some practice shots when he felt someone come up behind him. Sweet Pea took a shot and the ball missed. Just like the feelings he couldn’t conjure up for her.

“Coming to scream at me too,” Sweet Pea mumbled bitterly. He heard a scoff and them moving around before another pool stick appeared in his vision.

“No, I’m coming to check on you because I know this has to be hard on you too,” Fangs replied as Sweet Pea moved to set the game up.

“I just don’t understand why she won’t get the surgery,” he growled frustration coloring his tone. “I’m not worth her dying over.”

Fangs hummed, “Obviously to her, you are. Saph has always loved you, dude. Getting some flowers removed won’t change that.”

“Yeah, but with the flowers gone, so will the feelings?”

“And can you handle that,” Fangs suddenly asked looking Sweet Pea in the eye. “You know the surgery can always back fire and take away all of her feelings towards you. Would you be able to handle the emotionless expression she’d wear around you? How before she’d laugh at your jokes or how her smile lit up the room whenever you were near? You say you see her as a sister, but how would you feel if she saw you as nothing? Everything would be gone. The adoration. The love. The hate. The pain. Would you be able to live with that?”

Fangs didn’t say anything else as he placed the pool stick on the table and walked away leaving Sweet Pea with his thoughts.

And well he decided it was time to man up and go see Sapphire. He needed her to have this surgery just like he needed her in his life.

--

She was beautiful even as she was dying. She wore a flower crown on top of her head as she looked at him with wide eyes. There were dark bags under her eyes that hinted at the sleepless nights she was having. There were flowers across the room. Some with specks of blood on them and some without. Flowers crowns and bracelets littered the floor. It was as if someone played an endless game of “he/she loves-he/she loves not”… except it kind of was and Sapphire was suffering in the worse the loss in the worst way possible.

He watched with a guilty heart as a smile lit up her face, and he couldn’t understand how she could be smiling when she wasn’t far from having branches piercing her heart.

“I knew you would come,” she stated. Her voice was raspy from the air that she could breathe in. From the damage done to her throat from all of the excessive coughing that she was doing. “I knew that peace wouldn’t come to me without seeing you again.”

Sweet Pea stared at her with tears in his eyes. He couldn’t love her as she needed, but he did love her as a sister. She was family, and he didn’t want to see her die. He couldn’t see her die and know that he was the reason.

“Princess, please get the surgery. If you love me like you say you do, then you would get the surgery. Please.”

She only looked at him with a soft smile on her face. The love in her eyes overpowered the pain she was feeling radiating through her chest. Here he was pleading for her to get a surgery because he didn’t want to see her die? How could she get the surgery when he did things like this? Besides, she could feel the branches growing rapidly. She knew that it was far too late to get the surgery now. She had already been tipping on the edge of being unable to. She also knew his presence was fueling it faster. But she didn’t care. What was a little pain to true love? She was adamant that their love was eternal. Like Sasuke and Sakura. Like Leo and Piper. Like Elena and Damon. Like Naruto and Hinata. Like Bella and Edward. They had only needed more time and he would’ve understood, but time was a fickle thing.

She knew she would wait for him. She could patient. That’s why she continued to smile adoringly at even as the branches grew faster in her lungs and pierced her heart. It was the perfect way for her to welcome eternity. Knowing that the last thing she saw was the who held her heart so tightly in his grasp that it was unavoidable that it was squeeze until her love flowed freely.

--

The sun shined brightly as if welcoming her home after so many years alone. They lowered her into the plot between her parents. Wrapped in their eternal embrace. A smile was on her face and she held a bouquet of flowers in her hands.

A bouquet of sweet peas.

[blahblahemblem]

heroes barracks tour: infantry part 1 (colourless)

As infantry units are by far the most common, it only makes sense to split them up into several posts. I’m starting with colourless as that covers two different physical weapons and all of my army of healers.

But first, as usual, updates!

Armour update

Build improvements

Refined w!Tharja’s Candelabra for +def.

New units

+def –atk

I just pulled her this morning :D

The bane is really unfortunate; if my sources are correct it’s a superbane (-4 instead of -3) which frankly kind of sucks. That said, I intend on building her with Blarblade+ which would make up for the loss in damage.

Otherwise there’s nothing but great news here. I’ve completed the mage armours trifecta, got another unit with Armour March, and a 40% bonus for the upcoming Tempest Trials. The only reason I haven’t levelled her yet is that I refuse to do it in the Training Tower and today’s training maps (all fliers) are really not suited for –atk magic users with 1 movement. 

Plans

Blarblade+, Moonbow, Draw Back for Lyn. I should have enough feathers for that fairly soon.

Flier update

Build improvements

1. Caeda now has access to a personal weapon, the Wing Sword, although I don’t have enough SP for it yet. 2. Gave s!Camilla Gronnblade+, Draw Back, and Darting Blow 3. 3. Inherited LaD3, Glimmer, and Reposition to Shanna (my free summon on Love Abounds was a 4* Sothe) 4. Gave Renewal 3 to Nowi 5. Beruka is now +4 and has Bonfire

New units

+hp –def

I got her from Love Abounds actually and not Sacred Memories, and also yesterday, which is why she’s still unlevelled. It’s kind of ironic; I tried summoning for her on SM and got pitybroken at 4%, then I summoned on a different banner and she pitybroke me at 4%.

-def is hindering to her as Great Flame’s effect relies on it, but oh well. It does make me consider giving her Lightning Breath+ instead. It would give me access to another DC flier at a relatively low cost, and I could refine it for more def. I still have that one Hector lying around, which is an option, but I don’t want to use him on yet another green.

Whatever I do with her, it’s awesome that I have her, as she fits two separate teams. On the one side, she provides Hone Dragons (although to be honest that’s not anything gamebreaking for me as all of my dragon builds rely on QR making the +6 speed boost rather pointless). On the other side, she is another source of magic damage for my fliers.

Plans

Nothing new short-term besides figuring out a B slot for Myrrh

Cavalry update

GUESS WHO’S BACK

yaaaaay i only waited like 9 months

Yes I got him this morning like everybody else and immediately levelled him I WAITED NINE MONTHS, I saved that PA Olivia and that 2* Subaki for ages, fucking FINALLY

I gave him one of my Wind blessings, largely because I just wanted the SP boost, but it doesn’t hurt that if I ever pull Gunnthra she’s likely going to be on the same team as him and he could really use the extra Res. Distant Defence helps, of course, but only so much.

I’m going to merge him later, obviously.

Back to infantry

Bows

+atk –def

I got her randomly from Rite of Shadows (Celica and co’s first banner).

This build is an absolute mess. I just threw together a bunch of scraps for her when she was a bonus unit in the second ever Tempest Trials. It functioned okay there but there’s not a whole lot she can do now. She’s just really not suited for her own default build, Firesweep weapons are for fast glass cannons while Faye is slow and bulky.

Usage: She has 3k HM. The bulk of it was from the aforementioned TT, and the rest I grinded out afterwards on autobattle just for feathers. Now with the rise of shit like Zelgius, Firesweep + Poison Strike can be useful in AA provided there’s a dancer (not a problem considering I have 7) and only one foe left.

Future improvements: I’m interested in a Guard Bow build. In fact that was going to be the next thing on my to-do list (chosen randomly), but V!Lyn’s arrival overthrew Faye there, sorry girl

+spd –def

Baby boy. Baby.

I got him on the first day I’ve had this account, with the 10 Nintendo Network gift orbs from a full colourless circle, and I love him very much. He was my summoner support for a while. Then he became overshadowed by a different unit I built who did the exact same thing as him but better and also I loved him more because you know who he is, but I’ve missed using him so I didn’t hesitate at all in feeding off the dupe Faye I got from Legendary Ike’s banner. Now he has a niche again.

Usage: Oh boy. I used him for the first four Tempest Trials, and those were a lot more difficult than the ones now and I didn’t autobattle, so you can imagine. He was one of the first units to max HM... twice... and he has 3500 HM again now and going to be a bonus unit in the new TT so lol. I’ve also used him to clear high-end content like GHBs many times.

Improvements: LaD3 as soon as I get another Sothe. I’m also going to start merging him. I got a ton of Kleins while trying to pull for NY!Takumi, and I have 3 in my barracks. I’ve decided that every second one I pull goes towards merges, so that’s one merge for now.

+hp –spd

From Fjorm’s banner.

Unbelievably shitty IVs, of course, but it doesn’t matter. I wanted her primarily because her art is amazing. I wasn’t going to build her with BB+ or Firesweep over Klein and my baby, so in a way I was kind of relieved she wasn’t +spd or +atk, that way I had a justification for prioritising them that wasn’t just personal bias :D

Usage: As you can see she doesn’t even have her default C slot learned yet. I’m planning on using her as a TT healer at some point (through BoL6).

I’ve said before how I feel about Corrin as a character, but Maiponpon draws him so cute I can’t stay mad at him. Look at his wittle face

Anyway, this is a very simple build, pretty much just his default set with Bonfire + Bowbreaker, to capitalise on his own bulk and the defensive buffs he provides to other units. Also, this screenshot was taken before I refined his Hama Ya (for +def).

Usage: He does stuff in AA sometimes, his primary function is to be a bow Lyn counter

+spd –res

The apple of my eye, my child whom I raised all these years etc etc. From Hero Fest 1 :D

All I ever wanted when Heroes was announced was to have a Takumi. Well, here he is with perfect IVs to boot. I love him so much. It’s impossible to tell from menu screenshots like this (unless you know the stats by heart I guess), but he’s my current summoner support.

Quad builds are very powerful; I know not everybody likes them but I do. Oh I do.

Usage: he has 9999 SP take a wild guess

Improvements: Threaten Spd isn’t really the best C slot, but I haven’t really figured out what it can possibly be replaced with

+atk –something, +9

I just realised looking at this that he has the same def/res as Takumi :D

He’s actually +10 now, I just didn’t bother taking the screenshot. Virion, similarly to Est, is a product of spite more than anything, but I do actually kind of like him as a character, so there’s that.

I don’t really have a lot to say about him, he’s just there. I’m going to merge 4* Virions I get instead of sending them home, so that maybe one day I can upgrade him from here to a 4*+10.

Daggers

+hp –res

Got her on the first day of Performance Arts.

Honestly there’s not much to say, she’s a dancer and does dancer things with her dancer build. And her chibi sprite is unbelievably adorable.

Usage: dancer tier

+atk –hp

Apparently I pulled her at 4* on the first day, so when I switched mains and looked at what I had it was a pleasant surprise. I’d had great experiences using a +atk Kagero on my other accounts by then, so it wasn’t a difficult decision to promote her.

Usage: I actually don’t use her all that much outside of AA because she doesn’t do very well against non-infantry teams. Still, I’d say she’s worth the investment even in the current meta.

neutral

mochi baby

The other day I was reading my old comments on the FEH subreddit and found this gem in a thread that was about which characters you wanted to be added drawn by which artist:

Naturally I had to do everything in my fucking power to get him and at 4,50% (...after another 4% broken by Airzura) he came home <3

I don’t know what this build is supposed to be. Antimage, I guess? The double BoLs are because I used him as a combat medic in the two TT minis. He also has Iceberg learned but for TTs a big nuke with Glacies is better, considering Kagami Mochi has a killer effect anyway.

Usage: See above, combat medic for TTs. I’ll probably continue to use him to fill an extra slot and cover healing until he maxes HM (although for the next TT the main team slots are all taken, sorry boo)

Improvements: Desperation is kind of silly now that he no longer has boosted stats from being a bonus unit and I should replace it with something but I haven’t decided what. I might also throw him a Sothe at some point for a neat 51/41 offensive spread.

+1 iirc, +spd –something

This is a consideration more than anything. I don’t really like Gaius’ art but I do love Gaius, and daggers are in a marginally better place than before or at least more interesting, so if I get more 4* copies of him I might build something out of that, probably with a Smoke Dagger.

Staves

+spd –hp

Free summon from Maria and Minerva’s BHB banner, and my only 5* healer, lol.

I have the exact same IVs on a 4* copy, which is now merged to +4. My plan with all healers (that aren’t 5* exclusive, not that I have any of those) is to make them 4*+10s with 5* unlocked staves, so I guess once I get 3 or 4 more Marias I will merge this one into the 4* copy as well. I like the golden sparkles and everything but stats are more important, and I’m just not willing to work on 5* merges for healers on my main.

Since healers don’t really differ that much from one another, at least not when they’re 4*, here’s the rest of the ones I have. I’m not going to look up their IVs because who cares. Most of them will have theirs changed before I’m done with them.

(both +4)

(+2)

(+1 iirc?)

That’s pretty much all. I’m going to promote a copy of Azama/Serra/Wrys/Lissa/Clarine (who’s a horse but I didn’t talk about her or Prissy last time) once I get them to a high merge level to unlock their staves. As for Sakura/Lucius/Lachesis/Priscilla I’m probably just going to wait until they inevitably pitybreak me so I don’t waste my feathers.

Part 2 will cover tomes and also probably V!Eliwood!

[buckybarnesstar]

Not So Shy

Hey love :) I hope I can give you an idea for an imagine cause my life has been really shitty for the past days.. You and Buck are a couple and all the other Avengers ship you a lot. Then one time at another one of Tony’s party the guys tease Bucky a bit that he barely has sexual experience and he gets all flustered. Then you take him back to your shared apartment to get him in safety. You cuddle on the couch but then things start to get heated and Bucky isn’t that shy boy anymore? <3

You and Bucky have been dating for 6 months now and you couldn’t be happier; in every aspect of the relationship. You were content with moving slow, not wanting to jeopardize such a great connection with an amazing man.

Everyone in the tower had tried to set you and Bucky up together so many times, you started hoping you’d end up together anyways. You fell for Bucky after the teams 8th attempt.

They paired you two up on an overnight mission but you and Bucky had finished early. Deciding you wanted a tiny break from the teams antics and set ups, you and Bucky relaxed and talked to each other until you passed out on his shoulder at the crack of dawn.

Since then, it’s been smooth sailing. With the exception of the men on the team teasing Bucky about not moving fast enough in the sex life. To be honest, you were okay with not doing anything like that just yet.

When the opportunity presents itself, it’ll happen. You weren’t in any rush and you guessed Bucky wasn’t either.

Tony had decided to throw another party. The team was excited but Bucky knew he was in for another roasting session about how he hasn’t had sex with you yet.

You told Bucky countless times that it was okay and if he wasn’t ready, you can wait. You could tell he was a little reluctant to tell you the entire reason why, but you knew in the end that he was just shy.

You were sitting at a table with the girls, not really up for drinking. You decided to get lemon water and you listened to Wanda and Nat talk about Thor’s muscles.

You sighed, something about the party seeming too exhausting. You turned in your seat, looking around for Bucky. You spotted him near the food table, talking to Sam, Clint, and Tony. Steve walked up and you saw his face turn as red as Bucky’s.

The other men laughed and Bucky looked ashamed and a bit flustered. Your furrowed your eyebrows and made your way over to the men, your heels clicking as you went.

You slid your arm around Bucky’s waist and smiled. “Hey guys.” You said, looking up at Bucky. He smiled tightly at you. “What’s the joke? You guys are laughing pretty hard.” You questioned, hoping it wasn’t something aimed at your precious Bucky.

“Oh, nothing.” Sam said, taking a sip of his drink. Tony and Clint snorted. You sighed. “Bucky, what’d they say to you?” You asked, raising an eyebrow.

The men laughed harder and Steve started to look uncomfortable. “They were just poking fun, Doll. It’s nothing.” Bucky said, sporting a fake smile. “Steve?” You asked, knowing Steve wouldn’t be able to hold it in.

Bucky wasn’t for telling the story the first try. You always had to wiggle it out of him. Steve was a different story. “Uh, they uh, they said Bucky didn’t have any sexual experience and Sam offered to show you a good time.” Steve said lowly.

You gasped and looked at the men, your eyes landing on Sam last. “Our sex life is none of your damn business!” You said, anger boiling up in your stomach.

They all quit laughing and cleared their throats. “After everything Bucky has been through, I do not expect him to be anything more or less than how he is doing in our relationship right now.” You said, breathing heavily.

“Y/N, it’s alright.” Bucky said quietly. He’d never admit it to you, but he felt hurt. You could always tell. His flesh hand was gripping onto your waist with a tight hold. It’s only skin bruising tight when he’s feeling bad and needs you more than anything.

You turned back to the men after giving Bucky a slight glance. “If I hear anything else about our sex life or hear of you guys pestering him, we’ll see if you don’t have your own phallus to use.” You sneered, pulling Bucky away.

Steve snorted and covered his mouth, the others feeling guilty and scared.

You were too riled up to enjoy the party anymore, so you and Bucky walked to the elevator. You sighed, leaning into Bucky. “I’m sorry, Bucky.” You whispered. “It’s fine.” He murmured.

“That’s the thing, it isn’t. I mean, I have no problem with our sex life or lack thereof. I know you’re still new to everything; to life. I want you to feel safe with me.” You said, looking up at him with watery eyes.

Bucky looked down at you and brushed his flesh hand against your cheek. “I do feel safe with you. I just, I didn’t think you were ready for that yet. I wouldn’t mind, I just-I don’t know much.” Bucky said in a mumble.

You saw Bucky start blushing again and you smiled. “I can show you if you’d like when you’re ready for that next step.” You said, blush creeping into your own cheeks.

Bucky was always reluctant to get too heated. You two had make out sessions, but anytime he’d start to get one up, he’d stop and get really flustered. You thought it was cute but you also wanted to help.

He’d say it was fine but when you heard his faint grunts in the restroom not too long after, you knew he wanted to rip your clothes off more than he lead on. Bucky was just too shy.

“Are you sure you want to?” Bucky asked just as the elevator stopped on his floor. You simply laced your hand with Bucky’s and pulled him along to his bedroom.

You were hovering over Bucky, his shirt and your dress and heels lying on the floor. You were kissing along Bucky’s neck, every inch of skin covered in affection. You made sure Bucky wanted this plenty of times and told him he could back out whenever he felt overwhelmed.

Bucky’s pulse quickened when your hand began to travel to his dress pants. “Are you okay?” You asked softly, hearing his breathing speed up. “Y-yes.” Bucky breathed out.

You smirked and unbuckled his pants, looking up at him. Bucky’s eyes were already on your face and he shyly looked away. “We can stop anytime.” You offered, your fingers pulling down the zipper.

Bucky shook his head. “I want to. I want to so bad. I’m just nervous.” Bucky said, looking down at your hand. You could see and feel his hard cock through his pants.

“Just relax, I’ll stop when you want me to.” You said, slipping down his pants. “Don’t stop.” Bucky gently pleaded. You bit your lip and reached your hand to Bucky’s cock, gently rubbing along his long and thick shaft.

Bucky inhaled deeply, his hips rising up in a jolt, causing the pressure from your hand to increase. “You like that?” You whispered, pulling his boxers down. Bucky’s cock sprang free and he growled low in his chest.

“Doll, you don’t have to, uh,” Bucky started and trailed off. You smiled and looked up at him. “Do you want to get straight into fucking my brains out?” You asked, sitting up on your knees. “Mhm.” Bucky said, taking his bottom lip in between his teeth.

You quickly slipped off your panties and hovered above Bucky again, wetting your lips with your tongue. Getting Bucky horny caused your own arousal and you were more than ready for him.

Bucky’s hands rested on your hips and you bent down to capture his lips with yours. You moaned into the kiss and Bucky’s grip tightened. You gently sank your hips down onto Bucky’s, hearing his breathing pick up.

You started to lightly rub your pussy along Bucky’s shaft, letting your wetness coat his thick cock. “O-oh, Y/N, that feels good.” Bucky rasped. “Does it, Sergeant?” You asked, looking into Bucky’s eyes. You thought you had offended him at first, but his eyes looked you up and down. A smirk took place on his lips.

A growl fell from Bucky’s mouth and you gasped as he flipped the two of you over. Bucky was breathing heavily as he stared down at you. “Call me that again.” Bucky rasped, his voice laced with so much lust, it sent a shiver down your spine.

Something in Bucky suddenly changed. Bucky gripped your wrists in his hands and held them above your head on the pillow. “Sergeant.” You moaned out, feeling Bucky’s hard cock rest against your inner thigh.

Bucky growled again and gripped his large cock in his flesh hand, looking down at your soaked pussy. “Is this all for me, kitten?” Bucky asked, a smirk on his face. “Yes, Sergeant”, you whimpered, raising your hips to meet Bucky’s, only to have him hold you down.

“Ah ah ah, you obey me now. Don’t move.” Bucky ordered, leaning down to kiss along your neck. You felt Bucky’s cock start to slide into you, dangerously slow. You controlled your breathing, trying not to raise your hips from anticipation.

Bucky licked down to your breasts, capturing one in his mouth. You moaned as Bucky finally filled you up. “You like that?” Bucky asked as he leaned up to look into your eyes. You whined and nodded your head. “Please, move.” You begged, your pussy throbbing from his cock sitting inside; thick and hard.

Bucky gently pulled his hips back and you closed your eyes, gasping for air. “You look so good, Doll.” Bucky moaned lowly, gaining a little more speed in his thrusts. “Faster, Sergeant.” You pleaded, opening your eyes to watch Bucky’s cock slide in and out of you.

You couldn’t help but let your eyes roll into the back of your head as Bucky slid all the way out just to slam his cock back inside of you. “I want you to be loud, kitten.” Bucky said, letting go of your wrists to hold onto your legs.

Bucky sat up on his knees, pulling your hips along with him. You moaned loudly, feeling his cock twitch inside of you at the new angle. Bucky didn’t hold back now. He was thrusting into you hard and fast, gripping your legs tightly around his waist. “You feel amazing, holy fuck.” Bucky growled, his hips stuttering just a tad.

The sound of skin slapping skin, the feel of Bucky’s thick cock slamming into you at an unbelievable pace, and the sounds coming from Bucky’s mouth had your head spinning. “Sergeant your cock is so big.” You squealed, feeling Bucky hit that spot that raised goosebumps across your body.

Bucky dropped your legs and gripped the back of your head, grabbing a fist full of your hair. You moaned at the slight sting and sudden dominance. He pulled you onto his lap and you swear you could feel him in your stomach. You lazily draped your arms around Bucky’s neck.

You thought Bucky planned to let you ride him, but he had another idea. He carefully brought you both off the bed and slammed you into the wall. He grunted as you moaned, tightening your arms around him. He continued to thrust into you now, digging his fingers into your thighs as he fucked you.

Bucky slowed just a tad as you moaned out, bringing his hand down to your lower abdomen. He thrust in again, gasping when he felt the tip of is cock slide along inside of your pussy. “Do you feel that, Y/N? Mm, I’m so deep.” Bucky rasped, adding a little bit of pressure with his hand.

Your eyes momentarily rolled into the back of your head as Bucky sped up, keeping his hand there to reach his thumb out. Bucky circled your clit fast, bringing you closer to your orgasm. You screamed out, tugging on Bucky’s hair. He groaned and pushed you further into the wall, putting more force into his thrusts.

Bucky sped up and bit down on your neck, sucking on it. “Cum for me, kitten. Cum.” Bucky whispered, his ears filled with your sweet moans. All you needed was one more strong thrust and you were coming undone in Bucky’s hold. Your hips jerked and your moans got higher and more desperate.

You felt Bucky cum inside of you, hot strings of his cum quickly filling you up. Bucky was breathing heavily in your ear, his sweat covered chest rising and falling against yours. “That was so good.” You said with a giggle as you both calmed. “What happened to shy Bucky?” You asked, letting Bucky carry you back to the bed.

Bucky chuckled and looked down at you. “You turned me on and I wanted the whole tower to hear you.” Bucky said with a shrug. You smirked and watched him leave the get a cloth to clean you both up with.

A few minutes passed and you heard commotion outside of your door. Bucky slipped on his boxers and stood by the door, listening closely. You slipped on Bucky’s shirt, walking over to join him. Your pussy throbbed and your thighs shook, reminding you just how good Bucky fucked you.

“Are they done?” “Do you hear them, you dumbass?” “Guys, shut up or so help me God, I wi-” Bucky pulled open the door. Sam, Clint, and Tony all fell onto the floor by his feet. “Get off of me, Big Bird!” Clint yelled. Sam grumbled under his breath. “Enjoy that, fellas?” Bucky asked, a small smirk on his face.

The men all looked up with terrified looks on their faces. Tony was the first to run away, leaving Clint and Sam to explain why they were listening to Bucky fuck you senseless. “Uh, he, we, uh. IT WAS CLINT’S IDEA!” Sam yelled before taking off in a sprint.

Bucky sneered at Clint. Clint’s eyes widened and he bolted down the hallway. Bucky shut the door and you shook your head, a little embarrassed that they all heard you. “Idiots.” You muttered with a giggle.

Bucky smile down at you. “Ready for round 2?” Bucky questioned, gently gripping your neck in his hand. You gasped, feeling him add pressure.

“Yes, Sergeant.”

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