#The new FBNF

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[genvieve-of-the-wood]

The Math of Undisclosed Violence According to Research Discovered During Puberty*

Thoughts of you

were legion,

I did not have room

in the college ruled

notebook

to keep tally

of how many times

I thought of your

smile,

your blue eyes,

your smell,

your voice-

it was only calculated

in exact terms

to a precise answer

by taking the two minutes

you subtracted

from my dignity,

my well-being,

my safety,

my self esteem,

my innocent infatuation.

Yes,

two minutes

applied to a girl

times inexperience,

misinformation about physical

love

and a co factor

embedded

in this formula

we will call RS

or Religious Shame.

This equaled

thirty years that form

a geometric configuration-

a triangle

of self loathing-sine

of mistrust of others- cosine

and suppressed rage- tangent.

I failed trigonometry

in high school.

However,

recently I have come across

a new method of

restoring what was originally

an astronomical negative

number

to a positive conversion.

Take time, (T)

and multiply it

to (SF) Self Forgiveness,

which represents a factor of

1 trillion for each year

this is worked on,

(FbNF) Forgiving

but Not Forgetting

is added

and RxPA (Rage Times Positivite Action)

is then given a power of 100

every time I

helped someone get

help,

get a voice.

I know this sounds

complex,

and long,

and it is.

But it not only

helped me to

find my way back

to many

immeasurably good moments-

I see younger mathematicians

who are changing

the factors,

and finding

better outcomes.

*TW: Poem makes a vague reference to assault

@genvieve-of-the-wood April 15, 2019