#The messyness gives it character

[ghostyclay]

Etho and Zedaph boating away from the failing drip stone. -Chandelier

There you go! It's a lil messy bc my hands r shaking p bad from my new meds, but i hope you like it :D

[dystopia-incognito]

Hemel Dungarees

Drew my partners' ( @blurryhazey ) OC together. Meet Hemel Dungarees, a sleazy dung-beetle cockney from Victorian White Chapel, London.

Don't trust this man, lol.

[tobeornottotc]

#I feel so disappointed with this show okay now I'm curious tho cause I feel like I have some unpopular opinions about this show too lmao

Oh no not you about to expose me after I legit did a podcast praising the first two episodes 😂😂 but yeh it’s just not for me, it’s my fault I guess I expected something more, something messier I feel like yeh the characters are flawed but the main characters are not interesting and I feel like my opinion they keep getting overshadowed by everyone else like Alan has a more interesting energy to me than Jim has had in the past 4 episodes before episode 6 where he developed and maybe had a movement with his plot. I get older men get sidelined in BL so I’ve been quiet and happy we get a character like Jim but like he doesn’t forward the plot in any way (and for people who enjoy plots like this that are slow and really I dunno realistic then sure I get why this is groundbreaking) but I actually feel like he’s not interesting to me at all until we got a glimpse of his past he’s been just having the plot happen to him rather than being a protagonist that does something with it. It’s been hard I probably am not explaining my self well. Not to mention they’ve chosen the most predictable plot they could do for a righteous guy as him to give him flaws and that’s of course internalise homophobia which could have been a thing don’t get me wrong but seeing the way his own queer story was going, seeing his battle with Li Ming mum telling her he’ll prove to her about it and then seeing him treat Li Ming the way he does I get it he’s defeatist I get it life has done him so dirty but there were other ways you could flesh out his character. I’m one of the people who’s so baffled at the way Aof has even made Wen, like it just seems repetitive and I know why he seems interesting to others (again realism) but I find him annoying and I don’t get his deal with Jim, I just don’t I don’t even believe in their romance the way they’ve built up the romance for Li Ming and Heart who unfortunately actually had a plot that was actually always developing each episode and was interesting and genuinely both characters don’t seem stagnant despite their own entrapment they actually do something each time they’re on the screen, their moments are filled with intimacy and they make me feel excited to watch their story. This isn’t fair to this show and I get it, I get why people adore it, can write about it, can ponder it but it’s not for me, especially when as something that Jojo wrote this doesn’t feel like him at all the messyness one night stand conflicting feelings and the drama of that but I guess I am one of those that the show is not for and I’m disappointed because I just wanted something else

Honestly I think I won’t make sense because this show just isn’t for me and what might be good for others seems stale for me I just wanted something more and for a show where the pilot was promoting so much intimacy for the main characters and lot felt really different it felt really different and for this

[mags-duranb]

My JeRza thoughs

Okay, time to tackle this one, it has been a week already! Time flies!

But first, a big thank you and a shot out to @thefairystales for her work at translating the interview with Mashima and because we got a nice convo a couple of days ago and it was a delight to discuss with her about the ending and jerza.

This is something I have been thinking and discussing with several friends in the course of this week after the end of FT and how at first I feel very dissappointed and later on mostly bummed and then after digesting all of this and talking it out my perspective changed more. The interview translated by @thefairystales finished to settle things for me.

I was right in a couple of things and It's nice to know.

Mashima mentions in his interview that what he wanted was to leave room to his audience to imagine the rest (same as what happened with the Jerza kiss) And Lucy is an unreliable narrator.

Before anyone starts the attacks, this is not an attend to diss Lucy, far from it. Unreliable Narrator is a narrative resource (forgive the redundance) used in literature to give the audience the opportunity to make their own interpretations of a story through a character inside it, because unlike the omniscient narrator, in which the author is privy to all thoughs and knows everything, the unreliable narrator aka the character, doesn't.

Keep this in mind please.

Lucy for all purposes and here I quote Mashima, is someone who

 "shares the same point of view as the reader.... is by the reader’s side. She doesn’t understand the things that the readers don’t understand, and she says it out"

Thus why the vagueness over Jellal and Erza's relationship status from her POV. Even Lucy says it herself in regards to Erza, she still can't get her, in the way she misinterprets her words and gets surprised along us when she says "it's complicated" and then next panel we along her learn that she is not talking abour her and Jellal but about the book in her hands.

The "it's complicated" was misleading and was played for laughts over Erza's apparent inhability to read a barely difficult book or write a letter.

At this point Lucy can't tell us anything about Jellal and Erza's current relationship because she does not know more than what she has told us: Jellal is free and Erza has started to act more openly as a typical woman in love who wants to impress her beloved.

What is truly going with jerza, just Erza and Jellal know.

Coming back to canon, are they canon?

First, What does mean "canon" in the romantic sense?

A ring and a wedding?, Grandiose declarations of eternal love?, An "and they lived happily ever after"? Children? Appearing side by side with knowing smiles? Mutual feelings of love? Confessions?

I think canon can be found in any of this and even more scenarios I am letting out. Jerza is mutual. Their love for each other is something that has been hinted throughout all Fairy Tail's story. It survived pain, hatred, deception, death itself and they both keep loving each other. And I don't need to mention the Beach scene and the infamous "kiss" because if you remember panel by panel, Erza initiated the action but Jellal followed suit, both consenting it and both closing distance on their own volition, making it clear that their feelings were mutual, no discussions there. That was as good as canon can be.

Soooo, are they canon?

Hell yes!

For that I think the important question is not about canon but about the status of their relationship:

Are they dating/getting to know each other? Are they taking their time? Are they going one step at a time? Are they seeing each other from time to time?

It can be lots of things, maybe they are somewhat dating and thus why Lucy has noticed the change in Erza's behavior regarding her appearance. Or just getting to know each other better without being in life or death situations. Maybe they are not doing more than take things slowly because Fiore just got trashed and there were more urgent matters this past year.

There are many things that can be going on, and If Jellal and Erza have something in common is to keep things just to themselves, specially a relationship between them.

As you see I have enough room to speculate this and not be refuted cause Mashima gave me enough to reach my own conclusions.

I think they are in contact, there are lacrima phones and if Erza keep in contact with Jellal during the year of Fairy Tail's disbanment, she can easily do that now that Jellal and his group are not fugitives anymore.

So I am not pulling at straws here. And I believe that the 100 years quest is not gonna be a big impediment to them when Jellal has been roaming all of Fiore, so crossing paths time to time is in the realm of possibility. Even better, knowing Team Natsu are nothing more than limit testers I am sure they can finish the quest in less than 10 years at most (being pessimistic. Come on! they flattened a so called powerful kingdom in mere days, so I can say they can tackle a 100 years mission in 10 years or less).

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Now I know I am avoiding a question in regards of Jellal who is at times considered an obstacle to jerza, ironic, uh?

But, what if there are things Jellal needs to do to finally settle with Erza? A friend and I (God bless her) talked about it and we reached this not very popular conclusion: His journey to freedom is still ongoing.

Hisui asked him along CS to live for the future and Jellal just uttered a word and keep pensive. And before that, Erza also in a gentler tone asked him this time to value his life. Nothing about sins, but about living. So my conclusion is that this time he is thinking long and hard about it, not about sins, but about true freedom and living on. A freedom he could not taste while he was a fugitive and less when Zeref was alive. So now that Zeref is no more and he has been freed, he needs to keep moving to get acquainted with this world, to know who he is and what he wants in order to get his fresh start.

And I think this is the way to become free of his burdens.

Yes, there was regression and some messyness for the sake of drama over his character but I believe Mashima gave him the best ending he could give at that point in such short space in the last chapter.

For me it works, for me it means Jellal is searching for himself, I can imagine him traveling as a free man to tie loose ends (searching for Wally and Sho, going to Mermaid Heel to have a long chat with Kagura and apologize properly, visiting the ruins of the Tower of Heaven, etc), to see the world and learn how to live in it before returning to Erza, That's for me a good end for him.

And you know what? Erza gets it. And it's OK because Erza is also living her life, she is moving, she is doing stuff and being hopeful, she knows (by caring for her hair) that he will come back to her soon but that does not mean she is going to just wait for him doing nothing, because Erza is not like that, she is a person with her own life to live. 

I repeat, there are lacrima phones, Jellal knows where she is going, what she is doing and is okay with it because he wouldn't like to see Erza wasting away her life just waiting for him, he is not a selfish jerk.

Sooner or later, they will be together.

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Of course, I am not telling anyone to not feel sad or dissappointed, it's natural, we all wanted more than what we got and I know some parts of the fandom have been quite nasty, I got my share of rudeness here on my tumblr for shipping jerza. That ppl is not worth our time, let them go, block them, we can do better with our time that let them get to us.

But if there is a thing we can't to is to be a jerk to others or force our reasoning on ppl. Take it or leave it, but don't be a jerk about it. And don't be a jerk to Mashima, insulting him is not gonna fix shit, the man did what he deemed the best, at the end of the day is his own story to tell. 

Rant in your page, feel dissappointed and robbed but don't go to the page of a man who busted himself to bring us chapter after chapter week by week without fail for 11 years. That deserves our respect.