#Talking about feelings

[captaintrips9]

Julieta: Mirabel drank five cups of coffee this morning. Now she's so wired that she's driving everyone crazy and nothing I do can make her sit down.

Bruno: I got this.

Bruno: MIRABEL! I, YOUR TIO BRUNO, AM SAD!

Julieta: I don't think that's going to-

Mirabel, bursting through the door like the Kool-Aid Man: TIO DO YOU WANT TO SIT DOWN TOGETHER AND TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS?????

Julieta: I stand corrected.

[nvr04mnd]

[abigailmoment]

"I'm worried about fucking things up between us. He's...words. Words," Tav muttered, making absent come-hither motions as if trying to summon the right ones. "Delicate's wrong. Maybe fragile? Fragile like a smokepowder bomb. But that's wrong too. Wounded. But that's not enough. It's like he's walking around with a bunch of scabbed over stab wounds. But he's had them forever and he's so used to them he can walk around, and backstab people, and laugh. But they're still there and they're fucking stab wounds and I can tell when they're being jostled."

"Do you know how he got them?" Halsin asked.

"Parts of it," Tav said. "I am making plans to commit murder when we get back to Baldur's Gate."

Her eyes flicked up to Halsin's face to make sure there was no judgement there. There wasn't.

"I have lists," she continued. "Of possible tactics. Notes. Diagrams. Some doodles." Full text below. Full text on Ao3.

Halsin walked into the woods until the sounds of the revel had faded behind the sounds of leaves. Then he settled comfortably, leaning back against a birch tree, and just looked out.

The colors of the forest were muted in darkness, but it was alive with shapes and sounds. The protecting spread of branches above, and the stars peeking down between them. Cricket chirping and owls with opinions. The world sounded green and alive, and that was very wonderful. Just being present here was like a blessing after so long in a dungeon.

It was hard to say how long he'd been sitting, almost slipping into reverie, when he noticed a pattern in the movement of the animals around him. There were a lot of them heading east. A fox passed him. A racoon. Another fox. A pair of hedgehogs complaining to each other about how two-leggers were always making such a fuss of noise about nothing.

The party he'd left was southward, so this would be something else bothering them. Investigating such disturbances was so much a habit for him that he barely thought before standing and walking quietly west.

He heard the hard crunch of boots crushing leaves--someone moving rapidly and with no thought to noise. He approached the sound and found Tav. No longer at the party, she was pacing back and forth between two trees, muttering to herself. Occasionally she stopped and said 'Fuck!' very quietly but very sincerely. Then she resumed pacing.

Halsin waited, but she didn’t notice him. He took another step and intentionally found a branch to break underfoot. Tav started and her eyes snapped towards him.

"Hi," she said, eyes wide. "I'm sorry. Was this...were you using these woods? I can move."

Halsin put up his hands. "There's green enough for everyone. I just happened by. Is something troubling you?"

"I. Uh." She raked her fingers through her hair once. Twice. "I'm in trouble."

"I see.” Halsin had a few guesses about the kind of trouble that drove one to pace and mutter in the night. ”Do you want to speak of it?"

"I. Maybe. That might be..."

She hesitated. She started pacing again. Got three steps and stopped. She was worrying the base of one horn with her nails. Finally she seemed to come to a decision and turned to actually look at Halsin.

"If you had to pick, out of all of my companions. With whom do you think it would be the worst idea to get..." She made a mixing tangling motion with her fingers, and eventually supplemented the gesture with the words: "...emotionally involved?"

"I feel I would need to know them better to answer confidently," Halsin said.

"That is a thoughtful, charitable sort of a thing to say," Tav allowed. "But I bet you don't actually need that. I'll give you a hint. It's NOT the woman who could set me on fire with a hug."

Halsin took a moment to consider, but based on superficial observation the answer did seem obvious.

"Astarion?" he guessed.

Tav clapped her hands together in a pantomime of celebration and then pointed her fingertips at him. "You're good at this game. Your retroactive prize is being saved from goblins."

Halsin smiled slightly. "I'm glad I guessed right."

"Yeah, me too." Tav sighed. She was rubbing her hands together and staring off to one side. "We were flirting. It was a game. About saying stupid, over the top things that we both knew we didn't mean. And he had all these great-awful pickup lines and we were getting more and more dramatic. And then. And then he looked at me and he said 'I love you.'"

Her hands were in her hair again, raking over her horns. "And he did NOT mean it. But my heart did that little thump-thump-leap thing LIKE he meant it."

She stared hard into the dark woods, hands tangled in her increasingly wild hair.

"And that is a PROBLEM," she whispered.

"Is it?" Halsin asked.

"Yes." She snapped, eyes focusing back on Halsin. "Yes, that is a problem. Because the things I have to offer are effective group management techniques and limericks. And if I lose my head over the most mother-would-not-approve albino bad boy who is part of the team I have to handle I will stop being an effective group manager. Then all I have to offer is limericks. And they ARE magical limericks. But they still aren't going to save the realm from the Absolute. Which is apparently what we need to do."

Then she had to stop because she had not paused to breathe for that entire paragraph. Her hands were moving again, nails raking over her horns to the point where Halsin was concerned she might hurt herself.

So he reached out to take her by the hand and shoulder and suggested with gentle pressure that she might sit down. They ended up cross-legged in the grass. A much more stable and grounded position. Tav exhaled slowly, and looked up at him.

"Hi," she said. "Sorry."

"There is nothing to be sorry for," he told her. "It seems you are taking a great deal of responsibility on to yourself."

"I've read a lot of epic legends, Halsin." There was something haunted in her expression. "I'm really starting to think we're in one. I think the things we do here are going to have some far reaching consequences."

"I see," he said. And he supposed a bard would know. "Very well then. Grave as they may be, let's set aside your responsibilities for a moment."

She seemed very gesture-prone, so he decided to illuminate this advice with motion. He moved his hands, as if gathering his responsibilities up into a bundle. He carefully set them down to his left.

Tav seemed wary to the point of intimidated by the prospect of setting her responsibilities aside, even metaphorically. But after a moment she imitated him, and she did so with all the buy-in of someone whose arcane magic was partially based on improv. It took her quite some effort to get all her obligations wrapped up and when she shifted them to the side it was with a little huff of effort. Halsin couldn't help but smile.

"How do you feel?" he asked when she was done.

"Scared," she said. She was fretting her fingernails in the same way she'd been fretting her horns before.

Halsin rumbled in an understanding way, but didn't say anything.

"I like him," Tav continued after a moment. "A lot. He's fun. He's sharp and interesting. And talking to him is like playing. And he's mean, but that's fun too. And he's VERY pretty."

She dropped her head to the side, as if she needed a moment to recover from just how pretty he was. Then she rubbed at her eyebrow.

"And sometimes...he's sad. And then I wish I were a wizard so I could just incinerate everything that makes him sad."

Halsin nodded. "I believe there are scrolls for that."

Tav's eyebrows shot up and she looked at Halsin sharply. "Did you just...are you enabling me? To do an arson?"

"To protect people you care for?" Halsin asked. "Most certainly."

The surprise melted away and she smiled slantwise at him. "I suppose I should have expected that after seeing you maul half the goblin camp."

He nodded, and it was a pleasant moment of mutual understanding. He let it lapse into silence so that she would start to fill that silence again with her fretful thoughts. She did.

"I'm worried about fucking things up between us. He's...words. Words," Tav muttered, making absent come-hither motions as if trying to summon the right ones. "Delicate's wrong. Maybe fragile? Fragile like a smokepowder bomb. But that's wrong too. Wounded. But that's not enough. It's like he's walking around with a bunch of scabbed over stab wounds. But he's had them forever and he's so used to them he can walk around, and backstab people, and laugh. But they're still there and they're fucking stab wounds and I can tell when they're being jostled."

"Do you know how he got them?" Halsin asked.

"Parts of it," Tav said. "I am making plans to commit murder when we get back to Baldur's Gate."

Her eyes flicked up to Halsin's face to make sure there was no judgement there. There wasn't.

"I have lists," she continued. "Of possible tactics. Notes. Diagrams. Some doodles."

"Could your plans use a bear?" He asked mildly.

Tav laughed, and it was loud and startled and genuine. "Yes. Fantastic. Always. I'll incorporate you into my ideas and daydreams."

The laughter did her good. When it finished the thread of tension loosened and her shoulders had relaxed a notch.

"I probably don't need to worry about hurting him with this," she said a little ruefully. "He's not serious. This is a game for him? Or a ploy? I'm not sure. Whichever. I'm the only one throwing her heart around like an idiot."

Halsin, who had been at camp long enough to observe some of the dynamics between the companions, decided not to comment on some of the assumptions she was making. He just made a thoughtful noise.

"So I guess that just leaves me scared about, you know." She flicked her fingers over her sleeve, removing a bit of dirt with affected casualness. "Getting hurt myself."

"It can be a frightening thing. To be the more loving one," said Halsin. "But it doesn't need to be a bad thing."

Tav hummed in a prompting, curious way. Halsin considered what he was about to say, and decided this was a reasonable time of have an opinion.

"We give each other what we can in the time we have," he said. "You have a gift. You have love for another person. A man who, from what you've said, could very much do with being loved."

Tav hummed a little more softly.

"That's nice," she said. "That's a bit of poetry."

"Pardon me. I know it's not my profession."

"Naw." Tav shook her head. "Anyone can be a bard. Just don't be surprised if I steal your words for lyrics."

Halsin opened a hand and offered his palm. "They are freely given."

"Boring," Tav complained with a smile. "I wanted to steal them."

"Well then." Halsin closed his hand. "I take back my permission."

"Good. Thank you." The smile had wedged itself firmly in the side of her face and remained even as she sighed. "I guess I'm already fucked. It's not like you can fall out of love. Not while we're spending every day together."

She covered her face with her hands and said much more quietly: "And I do not have the willpower to say no to the sex."

Halsin nodded and made a noise of deep understanding. Eventually, Tav peeked up from her hands.

"You're really good at listening," she told him.

"It is an important part of being an archdruid."

"Thank you."

"Please let me know if you ever need to be listened to again."

[dessertbird]

Daily Destiel 💙💚

For the first time I feel. 🥺🥹❤️ It gets worse.

[lilacwriter07]

I am not so good with found family fanfics (with writing I mean) but the cold and perhaps bc I am bit lonely, I tend to find myself giving Adam the found family he perhaps needs .

Reason why I love fanfiction, instead of stressing about making a character up with a personality, name, whatever it needs (believe me making a character for a book isn't easy for most of us, I changed mine 5 times)

I see this character who I feel close to or actually like, and I can put my feeling in it, am I happy, am I sad, am I lonely, am I sick, no matter what I can write it down, and feel bit better about myself .

There maybe some people who don't get it, but that's okay, the writing is for you and for others who feel the same way .

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

Why IS Abel (From Hazbin Hotel) So Adorkable And Precious?! HE MUST BE PROTECTED! (also I Like Adam More Than Eve and Lilith) Part 1

[Note: Please do NOT Reblog this without my permission.]

first want to say that, I wish that I had posted something for Christmas and maybe even for New Years...but sadly I didn't...

also if it were possible, like if one could trade our universe's Abel for a sweet and precious adorkable one like Abel from Hazbin Hotel...

I would want that in a heartbeat, he is just too adorkable.

the ones who work on Hazbin Hotel and even Vivziepop, probably made him too adorkable and sweet on purpose, knowing he would even charm the mix descendants of both Mada Cain and Papa Seth.

and yeah, Cain is still my ancestor, but so is Seth...

and there is a reason why I'm using the gender neutral/nonbinary parent title on Cain...because once again, even if I do point out the REAL and Original Cain was BIOLOGICALLY a WOMAN, and we have been lied to for freaking centuries, and the Grandpa Male-Cain might as well be a Tulpa at this point, you know like with the whole Slenderman being technically a Tulpa...

but I know I can't force everyone to agree with me on it, even though I did pray for certain signs that has to do with "Yes" about The True Cain being either being born biologically female...

so yeah, chances will be that if Cain does show up in Hazbin Hotel, it would be the Male version, and not the True Female version.

and how do we know there wasn't a third sibling who was also a brother, that played a part in that whole Cain and Abel story, but the story between those two, was still re-told by having it rewritten with it being like a half-truth and half-lie in there.

like they end up merging Cain and Abel's OTHER brother with the new Male-Cain that would be retold in the stories about Cain and Abel, just to hide the fact that Mada Cain was NEVER A MAN.

I'm a weird Earth Angel, and I know I'm Defective, and I don't really work 100% right and to a certain perfect level as Other Earth Angels.

my ruling planet is Mercury, and you know what is weird, finding out that Mercury is like "The Evening Star"....I had learned about the planet Mercury being a Evening Star, and it was around December 2024 when I found out, and it is kind of freaky but also interesting, because for a while now I have been giving myself the nickname "The Eveningstar Princess" and yeah I'm weird for giving myself that nickname.

December 26th of 2024 kinda sucked for me, and maybe I will talk about it in another post...but not in this one, other than saying that it kind of sucked for me.

if your a Gemini, like myself, then you might of been born under the planet Mercury as well, and well the info about the day and month I was born on, of course says that my ruling planet is Mercury, Zodiac Sign Gemini, Element is Air and Birthstone is Emerald.

and my lucky colors seem to be Yellow and Green, and my flower is Lily Of The Valley...but for all we know I and others who were born on May, could have two flowers, which the other being Hawthorn.

and yeah my blood type is O RH D Negative, which by the way if you are RH Negative blood type and well I don't know if this could happen with RH Positive blood type people as well...but if you do get a pendulum and hold it for the first time, chances will be that it will start to move like crazy and freak you out...like how it did me for the first time when I held a pendulum by it's chain thing for the first time.

and well, you better be prepared for it to unlock something, which I think it was what happen with me when I started to use the pendulum a bit too much...but I don't use it as much as I did before and that might be a good thing, I can still use it maybe once in a while though.

also I am gonna just say it, and it is implied in the title of this post.

that I like Adam more than Charlie's Mom Lilith and Abel's Mom Eve...

I'm still gonna consider the The First Eve, that wasn't named that came first before Eve The "Second Eve", as my true Ancestress Mother...cause at least she didn't let her and Adam's children, even if it were just only half of them, be given a game over by those Three Angels, who I'm still not gonna fully trust some Toxic Masculine Eon-Boomers like those three...who hurt my Grunkles and Graunties.

and I know that I'm a descendant of both the Eve and Lilith from this universe, but I'm still gonna consider the 'Eve' that is more like the one that might of existed and wasn't named because Adam was awake during the whole creation of her...and didn't name her because he was both disgusted and scared of her...

I'm going to view her as my True Ancestress Mother.

cause once again, at least she wasn't a selfish C-word-Head who ended up not going back for her and Adam's children from being harmed by those three Toxic Masculine Eon-Boomer Angels, who the only good thing about them is that they are technically making up for it by protecting lives instead of taking them...

if the Abel from Hazbin Hotel was real, I would want to protect him from those three Angels...if they so much as try to lay a hand upon him, I would probably want to punch them really REALLY hard on their arms...

once again, Abel is adorkable and precious, and he must be protected...and yeah the Male-Cain would be probably mad that one of his descendant nonbinary granddaughters is being charmed by his half-brother...but news flash, I'm also Seth's descendant nonbinary granddaughter too...

and picture if it went something like this...if it were in like a Fanon Timeline and AU of Hazbin Hotel...

Male-Cain (Hazbin Hotel version) : Stop Seducing MY Descendant Granddaughters! *to Abel*

Abel (Hazbin Hotel version):...say what now...?*extremely confused*

Seth (Hazbin Hotel version):...their my Granddaughters, too...or have you forgotten that some percent of my descendant sons ended up getting one of your descendant daughters as wives...?

like it being maybe a little like that, but yeah...no matter what version of that Male-Cain...he would probably still be upset that his brother is charming his descendants, even if those of today are also descendants of Seth as well, and some of them are Earth Angels who are also descendants of those Fallen Watcher Angels...

and like I pointed out over at Quotev on a Author's Note...

I'm gonna view the Fallen Watcher Angels, as part of the Daddy Issues.

also no one has to agree with my whole believing in both Heavenly-Father/God and Earthly-Mother/Goddess, but please do NOT cross the line and misuse use the words "may god have mercy on you" or "may the lord have mercy on you" like someone did to me a few years ago, and I guess no matter if they found out my blood type or my whole being a descendant of King David and his son King Solomon, that jerk would of probably still made me feel really bad to the point of crying, just because I believe in our Divine Mother now, and it is my choice to believe in both Divine Parents, and want both the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine to be more in balance.

but you can't force it, because people need to willingly see it and willingly believe it of their own free will and accord.

I think it was that Toxic-Religious jerk, that really made me dislike Toxic-Religious actions that cross a line...cause no matter how much I tried to point out that their words were hurting me and making me cry, they just kept doing it...and I had no other choice but to block them at the very place where it happen.

like you know how something can hurt you so badly, it might as well become part of some emotional trauma at this point, even if you could turn out to have past life trauma from other Toxic-Religious people, and some of them could be from either Toxic-Satanists or Toxic-Christian, and yeah there can be those too...

even if a religion could still have some good people in it, there will be some that will be well, either a little toxic or a whole lot of toxic to the point they end up trying to enforce their belief onto others and end up making them really unhappy.

anyway I'm going to make a part 2 of this, and hopefully I can make a part 2 of other ones that I had posted last year on 2024...

the next post that will be part 2 of this one, might end up being slightly different...and I will talk more on how much I just LOVE Abel from Hazbin Hotel, and how he must be protected because he just seems too precious and he is just too good for this world, and seriously why is he so freaking cute and of course he must be protect at all costs....if you seen the tags for this, you will probably get what I mean.

also I will also talk about in the part 2 of this, the reasons why I like Adam from Hazbin Hotel MORE than Lilith and Eve from Hazbin Hotel...so yeah, gonna talk more about why I like both Adam and Abel from Hazbin Hotel, in the next post that will come next maybe in a hour or so...so have to wait maybe in a hour for part 2 of this.

but seriously, Abel from Hazbin Hotel is just too good for this world and he is a precious cinnamon roll that must be protected...

NO HARM MUST COME TO THE GIFT FROM THE Earthly-Mother GODDESS, is well the feelings and thoughts that come to mind...

I'm weird and of course I'm gonna be weird when expressing how I feel about the Ficto-Counterpart of the Abel we are stuck with in our universe...

seriously if it were possible, we should find adorkable Abel like the one from Hazbin Hotel, and trade Abels...cause I rather have adorkable cinnamon roll Abel,

because once more, Abel of Hazbin Hotel, must be protected at all costs, The Cinnamon Roll Abel MUST BE PROTECTED!

Earth Angel Knights of The Cinnamon Roll Abel, Assemble! XD lol

PS: yes, I'm weird and at least it is better when I'm being silly weird, and not having my days when I feel...well not so great...

but yeah Abel from Hazbin Hotel, is just too precious for this world...no, he is too precious for the universe. XD

[lilybug-02]

1 am type things...

Man i'm always second guessing my Deltarune comic. I love it to death, but sometimes I think about how its gonna end... and then I swish it in my brain like water and it slightly changes. And then there's the prospect of Chapter 3 and whatever definitely coming out before I finish... and then I think about if i actually like Deltarune at all for some reason??? and then i think about how odd my art has changed over the course of it. and then i think what I'm gonna do after i finish... because I've been doing this stupid comic way OVER a year.

....But i'm not giving up on it. That I know...

Okay im gonna go pass out now

[polarisbibliotheque]

You are currently one of my favorite DMC writers! I love re-reading your stuff because it always puts me in a good, comfy mood! I just adore how you portray casual intimacy, too. It just seems so gentle and natural. I also love your portrayal of the boys. They always feel like they have a depth and soul to them, which is amazing!

Thank you so much for sharing your gift and your creativity! While I'll always eagerly look forward to your next piece, know that your older works are still regarded fondly 💖

And here I am today, 2 a.m, Carnaval going hard in Brazil, sitting here and smiling stupidly while re-reading your message.

Thank you very very much, anon. From the bottom of my heart.

I've read your wonderful message the day you sent it, I think it was earlier this week - maybe Tuesday...? I couldn't answer it before, but it came right in a day when all hell broke loose in my home and this made me smile so much. It really felt like a safe port.

I'm not gonna get into too much detail because it's very personal - but, you know, family fights. Between all my mom's siblings, involving lawsuits and home evictions threats. I was just fucking fuming the whole week, and I almost put on my full Axl Rose attire and side of my personality to literally drop-kick and suplex some 6ft tall man built like a brick house because someone has to put some sense in his head.

I'm starting to sound like Nero

To top it all, this gave the opportunity for someone in my family who abused the hell out of me for more than 10 years to come back like a freakin' death omen.

I did end up going to therapy dressed up as Axl Rose for Carnaval, but it's so close to my usual style no one noticed it. I count as a life-win.

I still don't know what I'm feeling, (I talked to my therapist, don't worry) but that fucking threw me off everything. I don't know what to do about this, about this person, I'm scared and angry at the same time - and I got so SO overwhelmed, I had to get away from everything.

Social media, exercising, drawing, writing, reading, just living like a normal human being. The only thing I've been able to do is listening to music, because music has always been my safespace.

The only way I could explain how I'm feeling to my therapist, is a scene from a Julia Roberts movie, where she forged her own death to get away from her abusive husband, only to be found in the end by him and have him go like 'you're never going to get rid of me' and the fucking horror in her reaction - that's it. That's the feeling.

I have this dreadful feeling that I'm never gonna be rid of that, of all that abuse I want to leave in the past, until this person dies or I die.

Amidst all that, along came your message in my inbox. It felt like a ray of light in a dark stormy skies. A glimpse of hope that things can be better and that people are good. That I can have that experience as well.

Whenever I write about some more sensitive subjects, I hope it can be seen as a safespace for people - right now, for instance, my survival instincts that have always been alert have gone berserk, and the gods know how much I needed to feel safe enough to hug someone and ask for protection.

Vergil is ominously standing in the distance, staring back with the resolve of Achilles in the field of battle to get Hector's ass

I don't have that, but I can have it through fanfiction with characters, I think, would understand it. And I hope I can give the very same thing to other people who also don't have that sort of support and need to find it somewhere else.

I'm happy to know my writing has the good, comfy vibes I always try to convey! Despite the death, blood and dismemberment

And I wrote all of this so you can understand how thankful I am - and how much your kindness and nice words are so much needed in this world.

So, once again, thank you. Very very much.

[leilohsstupidgaystuff]

I'm that friend, that knows every fucked up thing about the other, but the deepest shit they know about me is something like "sometimes I'm not that happy".

[tss-grimmverse]

Chapter 8: Gladiolus

Roman learns some disturbing things about his father, and he and Virgil finally talk.

Want to start at the beginning? Here’s the AO3 link and the Wattpad link.

An excerpt from Chapter 8:

They’d nearly reached the top of the staircase. “Was he awful, Red?” Roman asked quietly. “Just tell me; I can take it. I already know he abandoned my bio mom and Smile, and nothing I’ve heard so far has improved that image.” “Johnny was…difficult,” Red allowed after a moment. “How do you mean?” Red sighed. “I won’t sugarcoat it. We all had our inner demons to fight, but his were more vicious than most. His faery master fed on pain. I still believe the bastard used Johnny’s powers to control their other changelings, which broke him on a fundamental level. He was fickle, moody, prone to violent outbursts, hated any kind of commitment, and he enjoyed…” Roman swallowed hard. “Enjoyed what?” Red grimaced at his expression. “The thing you need to understand about Johnny’s history with this house is how deeply he hated faeries.”

The whole chapter can be found over on AO3 or Wattpad. The boys aren't completely hopeless at talking! And Roman has only learned the tip of the iceberg...

[skarsgards-bill]

Andrew Garfield talks to Elmo about grief and the passing of his mother

[shrubsparrow]

It's in the eye of the beholder

[stimmingandstruggling]

more good news from tiktok: they’ve started blocking celebrities.

they’re calling it block party 2024. just blocking and ignoring countless celebrities who havent said shit about palestine. influencers, actors, anyone who went to the met gala, whatever, they’re getting blocked. and people keep talking about how cathartic it is, how good it feels, how they never realized they could DO that. there was some kind of subconscious law against blocking famous people, but it’s broken, and people are LOVING it. and it’s WORKING. a social media/digital advertising coordinator was talking about how ad companies are PANICKING, because they can’t accurately target anymore. so many big influencers, including fucking LIZZO started talking about palestine the MOMENT their follower counts started going down. and the best part? no one is forgiving them. lizzo posted a tiktok asking people to donate to palestinian families, and all the comments just said you’re a multimillionaire. put your money where your mouth is. blocked.

i feel like i’m witnessing the downfall of celebrity culture, right here right now. people are waking up.

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

My Thoughts Of The 7 Deadly Sins From Hazbin Hotel & Helluva Boss And How They Remind Me A Little Bit Of Myself...

[Note: This Is For Mature Audience Readers Only, and also those who are fans of Helluva Boss, Don't Read This Until You Watched Helluva Boss Season 2 Episode 11 First, because some Spoilers will be mentioned. also reading this post is Optional so you don't have to read it if you don't want to.]

yeah my thoughts are this...

Charlie's Dad Lucifer, reminds me of the two depressions I had, and the second one was even worse feeling, and it took time for me to get a bit more better from that and it lasted away longer than the one I had in 2015...and yeah at times when listening to to both him and Charlie sing "More Than Anything", it moves me to tears.

so he is a goofball who made mistakes in his past, and is like a Adorkable Apple Cinnamon Roll.

and even if he isn't perfect, he does love his daughter, enough to try to really be there for her even when he ends up in a dark emotional place at times...that is more than anything that my own Human Dad gave me, I mean sure I met him once, but he could of came and seen me much early in my life but didn't, and he wasn't even there when I was being born, so yeah might have a bit of Daddy Issue I guess.

Beezlebub aka Bee from Helluva Boss, reminds me of what I had figured out about myself...that I might actually be a type of Empath and some energies I was picking up even throughout my childhood, were harmful to me, and some of them from both people and a place with really bad or overwhelming energies, would cause the seizures I would get, but I haven't had them since moving to the town we currently live at and I'm glad for that...

and yeah, figuring out I have to use gems to protect myself from those energies even if I'm far away from the very VERY bad energies that ended up causing my seizures, and my first one was when I was a baby...and well it be nice if I figured out the energies that I was picking up that were causing some problems for me much sooner...

even the whole being scared awake by a Incubus and having me start to wear gem bracelets in the first place.

and it doesn't help that someone in my family, was giving off really bad Toxic-Lust energy and caused me some bad dreams that of course the first one wasn't too bad and the dream did change when I became self-aware to understand what was going on, and I had to sleep with dream-catchers again and well, and when I did take it down before and I ended up being okay for a while, but then the bad thing happen again, but it was way scarier and I had to run and in the dream I was being protected by some old man and some woman with long white hair and pale skin, I can't remember the face of the old man and I didn't see the woman's face at all...

but because of that, I had to put the dream-catcher back up.

but then I got the idea to have it on the outside of my bedroom door and have another one for inside, but the next one didn't work out too well, and I have it far away from me and in a bag that has salt in it as well, because it ended up opening the barrier that I had to pray for be placed around my room, to keep His bad Toxic-Lust energy out and not give me anymore nightmares, and the reason why the dream-catcher that is in a bag with some salt in with it is far away from me and not in my room, is because of another close call bad dream caused by that Toxic-Lust energy.

and the only time besides the barrier opening because of a bad dream-catcher, is if the residue of that energy even if the person has moved out but can still visit and they don't know they had been causing me those bad dreams...

is if the residue from the room it was coming from, had got on to someone's person and got through when they had came into my room to tell me something.

and well I found ways to fix that as well, and I made sure to pray to both the Heavenly-Father and Earthly-Mother the one who gave off that really bad energy, doesn't move back in, cause I do NOT want to go through that again, even if it was just a dream copy version of them and was made from their own Toxic-Lust energy...

and well, it doesn't help my Semi-Androphobia I can tell you that much...

my thoughts of Asmodeus aka Ozzie, well he first came off as someone along with Fizz, who was all about the Lust, and seem to not like the affection that Moxxie and Millie were showing at Ozzie's.

but it does seem that Ozzie does know what is a Healthy and Not Healthy Lust is, and interesting enough he uses Gems, like those Asmodean Crystals.

plus him and Fizz are just really REALLY adorkable together.

plus he doesn't seem as bad as he seem and seems to have a good heart inside.

Belphegor aka Bel, she reminds me of my times when I always felt sleepy half of the time when I was little, and the times when I had to stay overnight at the hospital whenever my seizures would happen.

Sloth Ring have Hospitals remind me of that, and that version of Bel might have a good heart inside her as well, if she wants to make a safe place of healing for those who need it.

not sure what to say about Leviathan from Helluva Boss, though...

but she does seem cool, and I'm just surprised that Levy is a girl.

my thoughts on Mammon from Helluva Boss...

is probably the same as my thoughts of the one from our universe...

wanting to call dibs on his Apple Sugar Spice self, so I can slap him...

and I had those thoughts even before finding out he was Ace, too.

and I'm still trying to drop hints to my family about being Gray-Aroace, but it is a bit...slow at the moment, and I don't want to say in a more open with my words way just yet, and rather just give hints for now...

I have had crushes before, and even some now ex-boyfriends I had met online before, but I have no interest in trying to get a boyfriend right now and well, for all I know I might of not really been in the whole "in love" with them, but it was a bit almost close to it I guess, which I'm going to view as being in the "in like-like" which could of turned into the full on "in love" thing if things turned out a bit better.

and I'm fine with just having small crushes for now, like on characters from video games or shows or movies, which is why I'm also Fictoromantic as well, I do not need to make full sense as why I'm both Gray-Aroace and Fictoromantic.

and anyway my thoughts on the Satan from Helluva Boss, who I'm gonna call by the nickname "Stan"...

I kind of want to punch him like REALLY hard on the arm, it might not really do much of anything...like at all.

but I kind of want to go all Feral Feminine Earth Angel Wrath on him.

I mean if that version of Stan was real, and he got me REALLY and I mean SUPER mad, then I might try to lunge at him and try to slap him, and someone will have to hold me back from going all Feminine Wrath on him.

I never been in a you know a Real Life fight, but one time one my cousins was being picked on and seem to be being bullies by someone once, and I almost ran over all mad and going into protective mode and one of my other family had to hold me back.

I guess it could be rare for me to get to the really REALLY mad feelings where I ended up feeling a bit too hot to the point that I need to stay close to some cool air just to cool down...

plus just because I wish I could slap the stupid out of someone, doesn't mean I could truly bring myself to do it, I mean you know what I mean right...

but if I was able to, I would slap Stan over the head and or punch him really REALLY with all I got, on his arm for the bull sugar honey ice tea he pulled in Episode 11 of Season 2.

and for those who lied about the Real Cain's gender for all these centuries and I had to pray for signs for this November, for well Cain being either Male or Female...and it turns out, Cain the REAL and Original one, wasn't a Male, but I can still view the other version as Grandpa, while the Real and Original one as Grandma.

but I know not everyone will accept that whole Cain was a GIRL, and ya can't force people into that truth, they will have to want to by their own free will and I'm not gonna force everyone to accept as the truth.

and yeah besides the whole wishing I could punch Stan the King Wrath in the arm really hard for what he said and did in the new episode, which was still a good episode and gives us hope for one of the OTP ships...

I kind of want to flip off that King of Wrath from Helluva Boss if it were possible, possibly by either with just one hand or both...like if I'm playing a handheld video game, but don't look right up at his Dragon self, I could be sassy and just look at the screen while flipping him off and say "Freak-Buck You, Eon-Boomer..."

Bee, Ozzie, Lucifer from the Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, aren't too bad and even if they aren't really flawless themselves, they have people they care for. for Bee it could be Vortex, for Ozzie it's Fizz, and for Lucifer it is his daughter Charlie, who is his Family, and Bee and Ozzie being the only ones who still have their lovers in their life.

anyway I think this is it for tonight, I think I will wait until maybe either tomorrow or next month to post some more stuff and check more stuff out on here...well, maybe I can check on a few more things on here first, and then I'll log off and well make myself a sandwich because I need to eat something soon.

so yeah, those are this Defective Earth Angel who goes by the nickname "Eveningstar Princess" (and the reason why I gave myself that nickname besides my blood type being O RH D Negative, is because my Mom only got Evening Sickness when she was going to have me, she NEVER got the Morning Sickness...she only got sick during the Evening, that is why it is both weird and kind of interesting...I don't know how many other mothers that went through Evening Sickness instead though, but maybe only a few had ended up with Evening Sickness instead of the Morning Sickness.) own thoughts and feelings about those characters from Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, even if Lucifer is the only one so far of those seven, who appears in Hazbin Hotel.

I think maybe later I will listen to "I Burn" from the RWBY series, and well I might watch a movie first, I think I will watch one of the Bayverse Transformers Movies I have and just relax and watch it and maybe after that, I will watch the Steven Universe Movie.

if Stan is working with gems too, to calm his Toxic-Masculine Butt, then maybe he should watch Steven Universe Movie, that be kind of interesting if that happen in the Fanon, even have him watch the whole series, even to the Steven Universe Future, and even if some aren't big fans of Steven Universe Future, I like it, because it's something I and a few others can relate to, because Steven wasn't the only one who fell into a dark place, but how bad it got for him did seem way worse than those two depressions I had before.

also even if some might not agree with me on this, and some Earth Angels might not agree with me...

but despite me being descendant from a Royal Blood, but some of my Royal Ancestors married outside the royal bloodline, and that in my view, makes me more of a Purple Blood, and not a Full Blue Blood.

I would be possibly viewed the same way that some of the Imps, Hellhounds and possibly the Cherubs are viewed in Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss's shared universe even if they have different stories going on that are separate at the moment.

Earth Angels aren't as important so if we lived in the same universe as the characters from Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, we would likely be treated the same way as the Imps and Hellhounds are treated, like dirt and lesser, even if some Earth Angels are also with some Royal Blood, that wouldn't matter, because we would still be treated like garbage. and some Earth Angels are way more emotionally broken than others, those who had it worse in their past life, and ended up going to freaking Heck, because of the stupid and selfish actions of not only some Humans, but also some Angels who could of did something to help them but chose not to.

I don't know how many Earth Angels got hurt in their past lives, but it's probably only a few but still a high enough number.

anyway the episode of Season 2 Episode 11 of Helluva Boss was still awesome, even though it still makes me want to punch that Stan who is the King of Wrath in the arm really REALLY hard on the arm, for what he said and did in that episode...anyway maybe I should go and make a sandwich right now, and wait until maybe tomorrow to check more stuff on here, I don't want to wait too long to grab something to eat after all, and I think I done that enough already today...well tonight now really, so yeah thanks for reading this and hope some understand my feelings and thoughts and why some of those versions of the seven deadly sins from Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel, remind me of a bit of my childhood and some other stuff I had figure out about myself, and how I got nightmares from someone's Toxic-Lust Energy and had to have Dream-Catchers to sleep with again to just keep me safe and stop that bad energy from getting through...I do NOT want to go through that again.

if you just figured out your are a type of Empath even if you might not be as strong as others, like you can be a Earth Angel or not...

and I'm not sure this will work for everyone, but maybe get some kind of charms to protect yourself, look up the right type of gems for the extra help to protect your energy from really bad energy.

I'm not 100% sure if it will work for everyone, it might not but then again it could work, hopefully. just remember to be very VERY careful around people in real life that give off too much bad energies even the overwhelming energies that could cause you to get a seizures if you haven't moved to a much safer place where it isn't as bad.

once again, I'm not sure it will work for everyone, but you can at least try to see if using some charms can help just a little and it might help to make sure if you get to a safe place, like maybe to your room, to keep you safe from some other peoples energies, just until things become a bit more calmer energy outside your room...

I'm once again NOT really sure this works for everyone, or that many have this same kind of problem...but hopefully the whole gems being used as charms can work for others as well.

anyway I'm going to log off and go make a sandwich now...

and also watch Transformers, and then Steven Universe Movie.

and maybe even Hotel Transylvania as well.

so see ya later, and hope some understand why I want to punch Stan in the arm really hard and or flip him off...at least the episode that he appears on in Helluva Boss, was still awesome episode and gave those who ship Blitz x Stolas some hope for them...I'm not going to say too much about it, I don't want to say too much about what goes on in that episode.

still gonna call the King of Wrath from Helluva Boss, by the nickname Stan...because he looks like he would fit the nickname.

Earth Angels are gonna be Sassy, even if it might just be a few of them that end up being in a Sassy mood when not having well the other moods, like feeling one of those down days or wanting to find ways to escape through dreams just to take a vacation from the messed up stuff that is going in the world at the moment...

well like I said, I'm going to go make a sandwich now, and then watch a movie, maybe Transformers first and then Steven Universe Movie and then after that, Hotel Transylvania.

[donnieisaprettyboy]

can we stop pretending like it’s so super easy for trans men to pass. “oh just put on a baggy shirt and cut your hair-“ it literally doesn’t work like that and I refuse to believe you actually think it’s that easy