#TSAMS Mole AU

[deafeningfanlight23]

Sun and Moon Designs for TSAMS AU + Rant! :] (I LIKE PSYCHOLOGY OKAY :'D)

I'M BACK Y'ALL I PULLED A WILLIAM AFTON! ✨💃 And because I have nothing to do, I will waste my time that I have on the Earth to talk about things THAT SHOULD BE TALKED ABOUT BY EVERYONE: THE SUN AND MOON SHOW! >:D

SUN'S SECTION

(Sun uses he/she pronouns in my story so don't be confused if I address her with she! :D)

I have ALWAYS imagined her with this over-the-top outfit, y'know, where you get an eye-strain - A bunch of colors slapped on the fabric with a radiating, never-ending positivity and sunshine coming from it all! :]

BUT, because he is one of my favorite characters and my top kin, OF COURSE HE GONNA HAVE TRAUMA that's my love language 😍✋ (I show affection this way don't mind me 💅😋)

This outfit is like the POLAR OPPOSITE of how he is feeling on the inside, and that's how I intended it to be (SUBTLE STORYTELLING OHHH Shakespear is in DA HOUSE >:D) - Because this is a part of this facade that he has been keeping up, one of positivity and joy, optimism and something else but I ran out of adjectives ;D

With this happy-go-lucky persona, she tries (and often fails) to cover up and hide this shadowy, nagging void and this untreated and messy pile of self-hatred, self-doubts and endless trauma that becomes increasingly intertwined! :D FUN AIN'T IT >:D

Sundrop also has a RELENTLESS inferiority complex that nearly paralyses and stunts him - That he is of less worth, that he is a burden and failure to his family and everyone around him, and that no matter how much he tries (and his lack of tries thereof), he will always be beneath everyone. And to be honest, he eventually accepted this role because he thought that's just how things are supposed to be, and that's the only place where he CAN'T do nothing wrong and can't disappoint anybody, because everyone else does the work while he stays in the sidelines and is stuck as the passive observer. He can't mess ANYTHING up through this, and that's good. Although it makes him feel so, SO feel useless, so much so that it feels like it chokes him around the throat like a noose whenever he sees his siblings (especially Moon) work so hard on keeping this piece of shit, HIM, safe, despite him doing NOTHING in return to even deserve this.

I have SO MUCH to tell about Sundrop and her psychology, it's just so fascinating and interesting! There are so many tiny, moving parts and pieces that make her the anxious, traumatized mess she is who can BARELY hold herself together and is about to snap! (and it helped me to kinda cope cuz I projected like 1000% issues of mine onto her :3 SO I GUESS THIS WAS JUST ME TRAUMA-DUMPING AND VENTING BUT SNEAKY, I evil genius 🤭)

ANYWAY, HERE IS SUNNYBOY! :D

This is my favorite so far because I also just slapped my own style onto him >:D AND YEAH I HAVE GOOD TASTE, I KNOW 💅✨ /j :D

Sun has a more "feminine" style and also an eyelash on the left eye because, in my story, he is a demigirl and uses he/she pronouns as mentioned :D I also gave him MANY earrings and details to emphasize kind of the randomness of his outfit and also the subtle randomness, or a more fitting term, "unpredictability" of him - You never know quite certainly what will piss him off and make him shout in unfiltered, pent-up rage, or make him suddenly turn quiet, stunted, and afterwards break down and sob. She is like a dice :]

The facade is EASILY to be cracked after all.

However, the amount of details and earrings are for me at least kind of overwhelming and everywhere, as if so many things are demanding for my attention - And that's because Sun is a mess, a person whose pieces of himself are scattered from one spot to one another more far away.

I COULD TALK ABOUT HER FOR HOURS YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I GOTTA SHUT UP MY MOUTH 😭🙏

ANYWAY SUN'S DIFFICULTY TO DRAW WAS... 4/10 because he's an unstable cutie patootie :D But it was a bit difficult to talk about him because IT OMNIOUSLY IS SIMILAR TO ME HM I WONDER WHY- 😀

BUT NOW, THE EMO BLUEBERRY IS NEXT! >:D

MOON'S SECTION

I have NO IDEA how to begin with Moon, he is just really um Moon-y 😭

BUT what I can say about him is that in my story, he behaves more and is like the first version of Moon before he had sacrafised himself for KC - And we all know that he didn't treat Sun THAT well. Of course, he loved his brother dearly and cared about him, however, this love didn't really come across in his ways of trying to keep Sun safe and unburdened. He LITERALLY was so much "good intentions, bad methods."

He overprotected Sun so much by trying to unburden him by doing everything himself and not letting him help in a way, and although it should benifit Sun, it only caused their already stain relationship to actually fall apart more and Moon to crash out, causing him to ultimately lash out at Sun. It was very tragic to witness ^^' While the intentions of this are transparent, it actually just feeded into Sun's perception of his role as the useless brother and gave him another reason to hate himself even more, but especially made his fear of messing up even stronger and bigger because there was NO opportunity to challanege this belief by having a moment of success, accomplishment and glory that he desperately needed to get pulled out of this spiral - Which ultimately resulted into trying to kill Eclipse to silence these thoughts and feelings. It kept him depended on Moon though, because after a while of Moon doing everything himself, it was so normalized that he expected Moon to always figure everything out himself. It was a clashing piece of parts that shouldn't co-exist with each other. But he continued drowned in those feelings uselessness, in his inferiority complex and fear.

WAIT I WAS COMPLETELY DRIFTING OFF TOPIC I STARTED TO TALK ABOUT SUN- 😭 ("editing" Squishy: That's why I marked it yellow so you can skip it, and the following ones, too ;D)

Okay, to get the point across swiftly, Moon was abusive towards Sun. He exhibited absolutely abusive behavior and was sometimes EXTREMELY immature, and his ways of abusing Sun reflected that, too - Guilt-tripping, blame-shifting and much more. (But Sun is VERY MUCH so himself, too, we can't forget that.)

My interpretation is that Moondrop, while he and Sun still shared a body, had an emotional development that was constantly disrupted. He never really had the "privilege" to, for example, learn how to interact with the world around him and to learn how to regulate and control his emotions because of social isolation and the takeovers of Sun. Of course, that affected Sundrop too, but Sundrop had way more interactions with the outside world and had opportunitites to learn about social interactions (and Karens maybe taught him how to somehow restrain his emotions) unlike Moon.

Moondrop also was VERY depended on Sun, just like Sun was depended on Moon - He literally couldn't LIVE without him, even less than Sun could, because Sun was his only source of emotional stability, his sort of crutch that always helped him through things!

WITH THAT OUTTA THE WAY, TOO, Moon is also a VERY short-tempered person, just like Sun in a way. Although he is very smart, he also is VERY impulsive - He isn't very cold, cunning and calculating, but he CAN be. Just like Eclipse, the one he doesn't want to get compared to because he is the walking embodiment of EVERYTHING he doesn't want to be but sadly, still kind of is. Anyway, as we saw ourselves, he often threatened to beat Sun or punch him at least during gaming episodes, and although it was often seen as a joke by both of them that is not taken to be seriously (or so it looked like, though Sun very much got nervous), I think that it planted at least some seeds of fear in Sun's mind, judging how much HE TRIES to avoid to anger Moon and immediately gets quiet and fidgety when Moon is sadly angered. And the infamous whacking stick, we can't forget that :'D

And just like Sun, Moon also has an IMMENSE self-hatred and low self-esteem - His past haunted him and tormented him, his desire to protect Sun overrode sometimes the smart, science part of him, and there were many things he wanted to correct but never could and ultimately failed to do so.

OKAY WAIT WHY IS HE KINDA INTERESTING TO TALK ABOUT TOO- 😨

BUT ANYWAY HIS DESIGN! :D

THERE HE IS :3

I like his design a lot tbh! :D AND I JUST DISCOVERED THAT MOONFLOWERS EXIST AND LIKE OF COURSE I GOTTA SLAP IT ONTO HIS PANTS CUZ IT MATCHES SUN'S SUNFLOWERS >:D

Difficulty to draw was 6/10 cuz like meh :/ He introduced me to TSAMS though AND I REMEMBER RELATING TO HIM SO MUCH CUZ IT WAS THIS EPISODE I THINK "Sun learns MOON'S DARK SECRET" and where he basically DID NOT SPAT FACTS BUT TRAUMA 😭 So I will give him a sticker for trying :3

And now, the twins side-by-side:

They have similarities cuz they are twins, duh ✨💅

They have the same flower theme on the pants, they have those weird left eyebrows AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING: They have those necklace thingies! :D And they work like this: Sun's has the actual Sun side in black to focus on the Moon, because Moon is his counterpart and he can't live without him, and Moon's has the actual Moon side in black to focus on the Sun because of the same reason! :D

AND THIS TOOK 1 HOUR AGAIN TO WRITE YAY 😍 Sooo thank you for hearing me yap, hope you enjoyed! :D (Though you can tell me of course if it doesn't interest you and you just want to see the character designs, I have the feeling that not many are interested in the stuff that I say! ^^' AND THAT'S OKAY BTW YOU SLAY REGARDLESS >:D)

NOW I GO SLEEP cuz it's 10 pm where I live and I have school tomorrow and I am sleep-deprived cuz NIGHTMARES :'D Nightmares should go and eat out of the garbage can I tell u 😃

TUNG! :D

[deafeningfanlight23]

Lunar and Earth Designs for TSAMS AU + Rant :D

(Ignore the colors btw it just helps me focus more idk why IT'S JUST SO FUN ✨ AND YEAH YOU GONNA WITNESS ME LOSING MY SANITY, dEaL wItH iT 🙄✋/j :D)

LUNAR'S SECTION

(Btw, in my story, he uses he/they pronouns so don't be confused if I use "they" to address Lunar :D)

OKAY, FIRST OF ALL, I HATE LUNAR, I WILL GET OUTTA THE CLOSET WITH THIS ONE AND NOT IN THE FRUITY WAY 😭

AND NO I DO NOT INTEND TO MURDER ANY LUNAR FANS OR DISRESPECT THE VAS/STORYWRITING/IDK THE NEIGHBOUR'S DOG THEY ALL (including the neighbour's dog of course :D) DID A GREAT JOB, I JUST DON'T LIKE HIS CHARACTER :'D

However, he IS very important in the story that I'm writing because I REALLY want to make him more flawed and exhibit more, uh, Eclipse-y traits (Duolingo would be disappointed in my English right now fr 😔🙏, LET MY FAMILY LIVE PLS 😨). They should be bitter, selfish, impulsive, have a very cheeky tongue that gets them into trouble and could accidentally hit some SENSITIVE spots and triggers that should be left to heal! However, this will be displayed while also being his silly, sometimes """""ADORABLE""""" self, I try to keep their core traits faithful to the original piece :D BUT, in my story, he will have this child-like mindset and really high-pitched voice because of reasons that could be traced way back to Eclipse, and also be traced back to his current family!

THOUGH I TWEAKED HIS PERSONALITY THE TINIEST BIT FOR THE STORY BECAUSE I COULD *NOT* WRITE HIM FOR 10 SECONDS OTHERWISE 😭

AND OMG I COULD MAKE LUNAR EXPLODE AGAIN BECAUSE THEY WERE SO HARDDD TO COME UP WITH A DESIGN 😭

Okay ENOUGH OF MY RANT HERE ARE THE VERSIONS OF LUNAR AND MY THOUGHT-PROCESS BEHIND THEM! :D

The First Version Of Him:

IT SUCKS 😭 I tried to go with the hood thingy but for me it's just boring :/

I saw that many people put a hood and cape over him and those gave me some Little Red Riding Hood (aka Rotkäppchen :3) vibes that I wanted to incorporate into my own design - The Little Riding Hood, lost in the woods all alone and a small child amidst towering trees, meeting the wolf who could trick her into believing he was the Grandma, her whole world and this soothing motherly role that she wishes he could fulfill but ultimately, she was trapped in a cage.

HA JOKE I JUST TRICKED YOU INTO A LUNAR AND ECLIPSE METAPHOR! >:D But that's how I really imagine their past dynamic when they were a team, and I will reflect my perception of said dynamic in my story! :D

Though this design DID NOT WORK out sadly, A MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR THE HOOD AND CAPE 😔

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OKAY ENOUGH SILENCE WE AIN'T HERE TO CRY, WE ARE HERE TO BE GAYLY OBSESSING OVER TSAMS >:D

SECOND VERSION:

Another one where I only tried out the hood and then some poncho I think??? 😭 BUT IT SUCKS TOO OF COURSE 😍✋ Y'all I swear Lunar is bad luck for my pencil 😔

LAST VERSION (which is officially how he is designed! :D):

I settled on this because for me, this gives them much more personality! :D And I inspired myself HEAVILY on this model of Lunar after he was blown up and I sprinkled some REALLYYYY old Lunar in there, too! :D

I tried to make him look VERY child-like because as I mentioned, he has a child-like mindset in my story! :D In addition (I SOUND LIKE A COLLEGE STUDENT 😭), he is the only one who still wear jester-pants and jester-shoes - Because he is the "sentimental" type of person, clinging close onto the past that he shared with Eclipse and the resentment he feels towards him. How else do you think could he be this bitter?

Anywayyy Lunar's overall difficulty to draw was 100/10 cuz I hate him 🤗 FUN-SIZED BIATCH I WANNA SET HIM ON FIRE 🤭 (See little scribble above him :3)

NEXT, NAMELY THE QUEEN HERSELF! >:D

EARTH'S SECTION

I intended to make Earth AS GIRLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE, like she should be a glitter, sparkle and My Little Pony BOMB because she is VERY feminine in the show, too! :D Wait... bomb... MONTY PLEA- (SRY I HAVE A BEEF WITH LUNAR OKAY 😭)

So I tried to make her appearance very feminine, too, and also kind of motherly??? 🤔 Because you know, Mother Nature (SHE IS LITERALLY INSPIRED OFF THE EARTH LIKE NO DENYING- 😭), the Creator once said that she should be like a mother to the children, and at the beginning, she had a very soft-speaking voice and naturally comforting and compassionate vibes! :D She is (or was) also first a very morally good character, refusing violence and instead USING THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP, PEACE AND COMPASSION 🤭 Because violence wasn't the friends we made along the way: iT wAs peAcE ✨😌

THOUGH IN MY STORY OF COURSE SHE'S GONNA BE A BIT OF AN A$$HOLE, the family issues don't create themselves 🙄 She will have a moral compass that she RIGIDLY follows, like NO EXCEPTIONS are allowed to be made or off with their heads, and by focusing so much on following this strict set of morals, she overlooks actually the well-being of those closest to her and the REASONS why sometimes, morals have to be bent in order for people to not get hurt both emotionally or/and physically!

she will be the first one to not want to kill Eclipse

And because I have already had a clear vision for her, I didn't have many attempts of drawing of her and thus, less versions! :D I always imagined her with a big rock-like thing that reacher her ankles, a cardigan and underneath a fluffy, long-sleeved shirt because that combo gives me the most vibes of a compassionate, soft-speaking person! :D

HERE SHE IS! :D

I'm happy how it turned out! :D

Overall, HER DIFFICULTY TO DRAW WAS..................... 2/10 cuz it was easy of course >:D (Joke I had an emotional breakdown drawing her hair- 😭)

SOOO THIS TOOK ME ALMOST ONE HOUR TO WRITE, TUNG! :D Hope you enjoyed hearing me yap about fictional characters! :3

AND NOW GO TOUCH GRASS 👹

[deafeningfanlight23]

THE RESULTS ARE HERE AND TERRIFY ME 😨😔 *NOT CLICKBAIT*

Y'ALL DEMOCRACY HAS DECIDED, I will do it! :D

So while I do that idk you can ask ANY question (NOTHING TOO SUGGESTIVE THO I WARN YA OR ELSE- 😃✋) you want about the AU! :D OR SOMETHING I DUNNO I SEE MANY PEOPLE DO THAT 😭 Yes I am A SHEEP, I follow the trends 😔

ANYGAYS STAY GAY AND SLAY, TUNG! :D And remember to never give up, never let yourself down, I will never go around and desert you! >:D

AND BTW THE TAG FOR THE AU IS CALLED "TSAMS THE MOLE" AND "THE MOLE AU", FOR SHORT "TM AU" AND NO NOT THAT FOR COPYRIGHTED WORDS 😭 I will also do some link for the tag and stuff on my pinned post if it's necessary (and a link for my wattpad account when the first chapter's out) :D Okay enough advertisement I ain't a Youtuber TUNG! >:D