#TOORU I LOVE U BUT PLS DONT BE STUPID LIKE THIS.........
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` mini headcanon o3. * the perfect family
invisible. <sarcasm> with a title like that, you definitely know that this post will be nothing but sunshine and rainbows. </sarcasm> okay, but seriously, this post will tackle some things regarding tooru and his narrativeā particularly how he consistently disillusions himself. this will be done in the lens of his backstory, however, as iāll delve a little bit into his family life and what he does in order to deal with them. Ā Ā Ā post contains mentions of parental neglect, so if thatās not your cup of tea, just scroll past this post like nothing happened.
Ā Ā Ā i think by now weāre all aware of tooru and his rather terrible parents. but what iāve yet to write about is how exactly he deals with them. now, my mini meta delves a bit into this, so iāll post the snippet about his family here, so you can get a sense of what his relationships with each family member is like.
Ā Ā Ā about parents takashi & misao:
Ā Ā Ā They love their children, but they love it them in such a monotonous way ā as if familial love were a formula as opposed to an emotion. The way they handle things is almost absurdly professional. [...] Theyāre cold, seemingly emotionless, and if it werenāt for the fact that they had blood in their veins and a heart that beats, you honestly wouldnāt be able to differentiate them from robots. The way they do things is so unnatural because itās so perfectly executed.Ā
Ā Ā Ā already, tooruās parents are painted as aloof and kind of unfeeling. they see no real emotional attachment nor value in even the most large of tasks, which makes them seem almost artificial. this detachment from their own family in preference of conducting things in a polite and businesslike order, almost to the point of obsession, is why tooruās family is so disjointed, and why his siblings are very independent. unlike tooru, aika and kaito were given proper attention and care at a younger age, and by the time that they knew how to fend for their own was the time that their parents chose to become less caring. it was as if they had a task to do, and once done, they moved onto the next one. granted, it isnāt the best method of parenting, but at least the older siblings had a chance with making it out on their own. even kaito, who is similar to tooru in disposition, turned out to be fine. but why is tooru so different ? why does he depend so much on people, and rely on the approval of others to feel validated ? well, itās because his parents were never there to begin with. when tooru was born, they pretty much left him to fend for himself with nothing but a name and high expectations set by his family. but even so, he never blamed his parents. he disillusioned himself into thinking that they were constantly absent because they were busy.Ā ā theyāre not home yet because they got caught up in traffic. āĀ ā theyāre late to my birthday party because their boss is super mean and made them stay in !Ā ā ā theyāre not here at my school show yet because theyāre preparing a big surprise for when i do my part. theyāll be so happy and proud of me, and thatās why iāll keep their seats reserved for them. āĀ ā theyāll arrive. āĀ ā theyāll arrive. ā they lied. in the midst of all these lies, tooru began to feel how crippling and empty loneliness felt. that emotion, like your heartstrings are the chords to a guitar, taut and strum to oneās leisure, a cacophony of noise, because his parents lied to him so many times, broke so many promises that were always empty to begin with, andā
Ā Ā Ā so he learnt to deal with it. he turned to watching TV and reading manga. what was he reading about ? stories about children with no parents. stories about children with only their siblings as family, because he related most to them. he could see himself as those children, was inspired by their adventures, felt as if he could become heroes like them, revered and adored by all. he put himself in the shoes of those characters, saw things as how they saw them, and developed his personality based on traits that he saw as admirable, and thus "stoleā from them ( though, this was actually one of the earliest emergences of a trait for his bpd ). but i also mentioned the fact that he read of sibling relationships, and that is also something that influenced his personality.
Ā Ā Ā from the start, he had no one to trust in except kaito, who was only a child at the time, as well. aika initially thought of tooru as a shame to the family name, and so she kept her distance from him ( though this mindset changed the more she realized just how wrong her parents were in thinking of him as inferior or not even part of the hoshiumi line ). already, he was cut off from so many people in his life. and thus, kaito was the only person that he could learn from. who you are as a person is just as much nurture as it is nature, and it is increasingly difficult to develop when the main figures in your life ( aka your parents or guardians ) are absent. it is even more so when the only person youāre able to look up to is your brother, who is only eight years older than you.
Ā Ā Ā a snippet from kaitoās portion of the meta shows you just how important he was in shaping who tooru is now, however:
Ā Ā Ā Itās from Kaito that Tooru got most of his morals and aspirations from. He is kind because Kaito showed him kindness. He āadoptsā those with horrible parents because Kaito āadoptedā him and protected him from their neglectful parents. A lot of who Tooru is comes from Kaito because Kaito was the only person who was there for him during his youth. He taught him right from wrong, taught him how to take care of himself, and most importantly, taught him things that even the most brilliant of teachers could not instruct upon ā because Tooru has always been an intelligent child, but emotions are not learnt by reading a textbook or answering questions on a test. They are experienced and felt. And Kaito taught Tooru the most important sentiment of all ā one that Tooru embodies in his entirety: love. Because Misao and Takashi showed none in their neglect. Because Aika showed none in her own. And yet the constant in Tooruās life is the reason why heās so altruistic, why he gives so much, why his affection blooms in his heart, yet never wilts in the face of decay. Because Kaito taught him love.Ā
Ā Ā Ā and thatās the thingā iāve called tooru the embodiment of love in so many replies and threads and headcanons because, honestly, thatās what he is. tooru is the love that blooms in face of bleakness, that thrives in drought; not because he has / needs to, but because he wants to. he wants to remain kind and gentle, wants to remain serene and loving, even though he has reason to abandon all prospects of being a good person and instead become callous and cruel.
Ā Ā Ā when kaito left, tooru was devastated. though he always visited, always checked in on tooru, aika even beginning to make more trips from tokyo to sendai as best she could, tooru felt aloneā as if he had been abandoned on an island, the rest of his family waving goodbye from the cruise liner eastbound for home. so he turned to media again. but instead, he read and watched material about happy families. families that were complete. families that were always together, and loved each other no matter what. he could imagine his own family in their stead, filled his imagination with scenarios of him coming home from school, running in to hug his mother, who would smile and pet his head, of his father taking him out on father-daughter ( and once tooru came out as trans, father-son ) excursions, of his siblings going shopping together with him, of christmases spent watching american movies and wondering if westerners really celebrated the 25th of december like this, of birthdays filled with cake and presents and balloons, and most importantly of allā a table seated with grinning faces, wishing tooru a happy birthday. he consumed media like this, pictures of smiling families, anecdotes of silly families, so that he could use his own to fill in those slots, and imagine what his life would be like if he was part of that, too. as he gets older, he realizes that these are nothing more than fantasies. but even so, when sleep is threatening to lull his thoughts, tooru wishes he could wake up to loving parents and siblings. but he never does.
Ā Ā Ā because he knows that what he imagines is something that he can never have. itās something that will be forever kept in the confines of his mind. something locked deep within his heartās desires.
#tooru : my parents give me lots of presents bc they love me ! // sb : do u mean ur real parents or the ones u imagine to be ur real parents#tooru : // tooru: // tooru: my parents !#ASDFGHI M SO U P SET SOMEONE SAVE THIS CHILD ASDFGH#tooru: purposely disillusions himself into believing that his parents are good people#tooru: :) my parents r great ppl i love them Ā Ā a Ā lo t#ā§ ā ÉŖŅ brokenness ÉŖs į“ Ņį“Źį“ į“Ņ į“Źį“; ÉŖ į“į“sį“ Źį“ į“ į“į“sį“į“Ź į“ŹÉŖŹį“
prodigy. ā ( headcanons. )#ASDFGTHFH TOORU I LOVE U BUT PL S I ALSO HATE U#TOORU I LOVE U BUT PLS DONT BE STUPID LIKE THIS.........#ā ā į“
į“É“į“ÉŖÉ“É¢ Ē«į“į“į“É“. ā¼ ( ooc post. )
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ā when you take all the blame:
ā³ with kenma, iwaizumi, akaashi and yamaguchi
pls someone stop me from these pls send in requests i beg of you.
genre: small oneshots/drabbles per character, very hurt/comfort
pairings: timeskip!kenma kozume x gn!reader, timeskip!iwaizumi hajime x gn!reader, timeskip!akaashi keiji x gn!reader & timeskip!yamaguchi x gn!reader (separate!!)
warnings: fights, PANIC ATTACKS DESCRIBED!! pls be careful, manga timeskip spoilers as this is timeskip, not wanting to be alive in yams reader discretion is advised!!
wc: 1067
a/n: uhm feelings kinda in the dumps lately bc of my friend group falling apart š„µ so heres some more 2 am self indulgent oneshot things, also yams is rly ooc n is like not rly fitting the prompt but i also dont rly care-
-> kenma
it was unusual for you to stay in your shared room with your boyfriend kenma without him and especially not after an argument. today you wanted to be in his stream, to have the world know you were āthe kodzukenāsā significant other. as it turns out it was more than unusual, as you sat in your bathroom tiled floor pulling your hair whimpering. why did you have to be so needy. this was all your fault. you thought, sobbing, no recognition of the man youād been talking about walking in to check on you. him hearing your whimpers and sobs made him send out a quick āno stream tonightā tweet as he crouches down and clears his throat to not scare you when he talks. āhey bub, iām right here ok? can i touch you?ā he asks, gathering you up in his arms as you nod giving him consent. ānothing is your fault. i was being selfish ok? i donāt want the world to see my amazing s/o. if youād really like to be known iād be more than happy to show you off,ā he tells you, knowing youāll hear the underlying message of i love you in his undertones. ļæ¼
-> iwaizumi
god this is stupid, iwaizumi thought. between your barely concealed sobs and his hoarse throat it was obvious what had gone down. as they werenāt in highschool anymore youād have thought hanging out with your best friend tooru oikawa would be ok. and normally it would be, he was hajimes best friend too after all but iwa didnāt know oikawa had just come back from Argentina. and that you werenāt cheating on him. and well he knew that his jealousy and hot temper got the best of him. he trusted you. everyone else? not so much. ābaby please open the door. iām sorry, you werenāt cheating on me i know that,ā he pleads his back against the door separating you two, your back against his on the other side as a parallel. āplease y/n,ā he begs not knowing what was transpiring on the other side of the door. why couldnāt you just communicate. why couldnāt you just tell hajime why oiks left so this mess wouldnāt be here. if youād just done that, iwa would trust oikawa more. it was all your fault. you thought, your mind getting muddy and your sight unclear. you opened the door croaking a weak āiām sorry, its all my faultā as hajime jolts up out of surprise. he quickly carries you bridal style to the bed, wrapping you deep into his chest and tight in his arms mumbling a āwhat was that? no. its not your fault i overreacted, and i didnāt tell oikawa my number changed. please forgive me, i cant go on without you.ā as you sob an āim sorryā iwa knew all was well. āi love youā he whispered into your hair as you both slowly fell asleep.
-> akaashi
āangel, please talk to me,ā akaashi prods, seeing your phone light up and your body shake with sobs wracking your body from each notification as you lie in bed ātryingā to sleep. āno baby just go back to sleep,ā you reassure him, trying (and failing) to keep your tone even. āwhatever u say.ā as keiji sleeps away, you decide its safe to rant finally. āwhy did i have to drag osamu and atsumu to talk again? they donāt get along but theyāre both my friends, is it so bad i wanted them to be friends or tolerate each other again? i didnāt mean for them to betray each other. why am i feeling their pain, why am i the way i am?ā you whisper into the night sobbing and crying over how āshit of a human beingā you are. āangel iām so sorry i didnāt know it was like this,ā you hear behind your back on your shared bed. ākeiji what are you doing awa-ā you start, as you turn around to face the former setter ending up cut off by a warm embrace from your boyfriend. āi shouldāve realized it was those two. none of it is your fault ok sweetheart? they chose to trust and later on betray each other. you did none of that. you are an amazing and such a good person with such a pure soul. never ever doubt that. i love you, now lets get some sleep shall we?ā āuh sure. thank you keiji.ā āthereās nothing to thank angel.ā
-> yamaguchi
anxiety. panic attacks. yamaguchi knew them almost too well. the upside to this is knowing and recognizing it in others. the others being you, the signs of you pushing your limits as you hunch over your computer, your sports classes earlier in the evening wearing you and your time out making you do your essay at 11:34 PM. as your neck snaps up, your head looking around wildly only to find it was just your boyfriend here to give you some water you both knee something was up. ātadashi iām ok. drop it alright? this is due tomorrow and i have my classes then. its worth 20% of my grade donāt worry iām fine,ā you tell him hastily, beating him to whatever he was about to say to persuade you otherwise. ālove, there are 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 5. there are 5 empty coffee cups around you. its time to take a break,ā your boyfriend convinces turning your chair away from your computer and putting your weight on him. āiām so sorry love itās all my fault i shouldnāt have thought i could do such amazing things and now youāre being my crutch. how pathetic is this. its all my doing. i should have never even been alive,ā you guiltily admit. āhey, look at me,ā yamaguchi says, using his forefinger to tilt your head up to look him in the eyes. āif anything, iām the weak one. i was so weak for such a long time and then you came and were my wheelchair, not my crutch, and got me back onto my feet. you helped me in ways you donāt understand y/n. never doubt that, or how much i love you. and with that is that i will always do anything for you.ā āi love you too tadashi,ā you say your face heating up as you hobble to your bedroom passing out as soon as you hit the mattress.
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[ BROKEN RECORDS ; asks ]Ā
š ā love letter from @kyriaanā
from track 007.Ā
Okay okay im still kinda meh'ish' but i really wanted to answer you so š ill try to compile both my answer to your answer on my love letter and my hyped review on track 7 <3 so yeah another long ass rant from me š©šSuki... Suki pls I totally forgot Tsumu had a crush on us Suki... And then poor Tsumu ir there sulking cause he still likes u- JFBFBDVDVSJCHDHSIA omfg i wanted so much to hug him my baby I like him so much š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ and he was trying so hard to behave while just sitting there sad fhfhfvbbshsjfhbdjaofhffhsoshd TSUMU YOU'RE STILL IN MY TOP 3 BABY š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗšššššššĀ
And then you throw the whole dancing scene with suna and I dont know whos on my top 3 anymore ššššššššššššš SUKIIIIIIII THAT SCENE ALONE GJGJBFBSJCNFNKSOSNF OMFG IM FALLING SO HARD FOR SUNA I THINK? I think my top 3 had 4 dudes in it cause 3rd place has Suna and Atsumu tied?? Hfhfbfbfhdhsja I CANT PICK?? BUT BUT I WAS FEELING STUPIDLY DOWN WHEN READING THAT AND THAT SCENE ALONE MADE ME FEEL SO SOFT IT WAS SO CUTE AND OMG IF SUNA DID THAT TO ME I WOULD DROP ON MY KNEES AND ASK HIM TO MARRY ME CAUSE OMFGGGFFFF DUDE EVEN WENT AHEAD AND SAID THAT WHOLE 'HES GOING TO BE ONE LUCKY GUY'
Oh shit im crying again that scene lets me emotional šššš someone get me a sunrin irl pls
Anyways the way that suna knows y/n is just.... FUCKING END UP TOGETHER ALREADY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST JBVSHSJBEHSISJ
Also how powerful are we?? HOW FUCKING POWERFUL ARE WE TO SCORE SUNA KITA AND TSUMU?? ARE YOU GONNA TELL. ME IF OIKAWA MOFO TOORU APPEARED HE WOULD ALSO BE ON HIS KNEES FOR US?? (okay no wait... No nooo i would legit drop anyones ass for tooru hes that powerful for me like sorry suna was fun but TOORU)
Yo nah but the whole Kita sex scene- let me breath bestie LET ME BREATH CAUSE I WAS HOT BUT AT SAME TIME I WAS FEELING GUILTY šššš ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS FEELING DISAPPOINTED NEXT DAY LIKE KITA PLS BABY WHAT WERE YOU EXPECTING?? š¬š¬š¬š¬ But at same time his 'ill fuck the thought of him out of you tonight' I ALMOST MOANED YASSSSS TELL ME DADDY HOLY SHITTTTT
šššš Still not a kita simp āļøāļøš¤āļø
Okay Kita deserves the best tho I mean okay he went there as a y/n mom's plan but he did ended up helping alot... Especially cause he knows no matter what y/n heart will always be suna's and pls give Kita the best ending possible cause he deserves someone who will trully love him and show him the world cause mah boy deserves it
*breaths in breaths out* i hated this scene- not in a bad way but shit i hate rejections... To the point im kinda afraid of confessing now cause i despise the feeling of being rejected... The best i can descrive it it like this coldness in your chest that descends your whole body and then you feel frozen in place.. Thats how it feels for me I hate it I absolutely despise it- its also the feeling i have when in a really bad situation and ugh...
The suna part made. Me feel this no matter how many times i reread it the feeling doesnt lessen it keeps being there cause (okay you probably are tired already of me saying this but) Suki I feel like I cant put it in words how much of a fucking good of a writer you are. Ill go ahead and say you are by far my favorite writer the fact i always feel so engaged and the fact i always feel like im there its just- it blows my mind.
I felt like suna was personally rejecting me and i hated it- i swear the moment he said prove it I almost screamed HOW? My brain had to take a moment to just slap me and say: 'kya you reading this is not happening chill-' cause i was already sobbing uncontrollably... I even whimpered the dont leave me š¬ my sadass went to bed feeling so sad thanks to suna... Man i wanted so much to hug him and i swear i would give him as much love as he gave y/n cause well i kin suna alot in this series cause im like that im a giver i treat others the way i would like to be treated (reason why ive been down lately āļø) and i cant blame suna for finally setting boundaries- his call tho 'do i not stand a chance with you anymore y/n? Are you really not capable of falling in love with me?".... Oh suna... We are in love with you.. We always were we're just fucking stupid š©
Also mari pls go jump off a cliff <3 youre in need dear cause sleeping with other man just to separate suna and y/n <3 i want so much to punch her šš
Now for the love letter part (im so sorry for this being so long āļø)
You said that if we asked suna he woukd say that he genuinely loved mari okay... Ill go ahead and say yes he liked mari he even learned how to love her and he genuinely cared for her BUT and heres where my personal view comes in so maybe ill be biased here still for me that was just a he loves her as in he cares you also love your friends and care for them but he didnt love her- and by this I mean- he could never be fully committed for her. Yes he loved her and he felt happy with her but like track 7 proved everything he would do in the back of his mind was y/n he deeply wished Mari was her and for that he just loved Mari cause he learned how to care about her- but he never forgot who he trully was in love it. Also the happiness he experienced with Mari was pretty much the one I experienced the bliss of having someone there and that bliss also made suna turn a blind eye to all the red flags from Mari cause to him all the jealousy meant she cared and thats toxic but suna was so desperate for some sort of 'she cares' that even all the possessiveness was bliss for him... And that makes my heart clench for suna...
'suna had to put an effort for the relationship' and saddly i feel like mari didnt... Mari didnt care mari was there because she was a fangirl of suna and got lucky, the way she just discarded him so effortlessly that proved-screamed how much she loved him- she didnt. She was just possessive over him she liked the whole 'hes mine' dynamic and suna was the perfect boyfriend cause he was giving her the world... What he wanted someone to do for him.
Also yeah suna and y/n might have been spurred from them being fuck buddies but well love doesnt really have an agenda- they just clicked, understood each other and had chemistry yeah they had tons and tons of sex but feelings started not because of sex but thanks to their deep connection... Also that dsncing scene in track 7 that alone spoke for their whole relationship- that alone is enough to defend their feelings for each other- yes it might jave started just as fuck buddies but ended up in them loving each other deeply and that is enough love after all doesnt need a perfect start. It can start out of the most stupid ways.
You said life with excitement and fun wouldn't be permanent or real.. Honestly i think it could be.. Cause i mean when you love someone that deeply your life always feels exciting even with the littlest things and that the purest kind of love. Even just going for a walk at the beach would be fun for them or even staying up watching movies i believe suna and y/n would always find a way to make their lofe exciting without much effort.
Also it kinda makes me. Sad when i see some anon saying that y/n and suna relationship are toxic? It makes me. Confused maybe because I was in such extremely toxic one (girl i sweat if you search for toxic relationship my ex's face will be there as an example š) that Mari to me screams toxic! Possessive, manipulative, jealous and a few more if I think closely about it while with y/n and suna they are just two idiots that are hurting each other cause they're just that: idiots one that is afraid to get hurt and the other that keeps hoping- dont get me wrong what they're doing is not healthy but i dont find it toxic honestly
Sorry for the extreme long rant 8D I tried to keep it short but you always make me so hyped to talk about your works š©
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[ from saeren ]
NAHHH CUZ I LOVE TSUMU SO MUCH HERE HE WAS SO PRECIOUS. I didnāt write too much about them in college but Atsumu was so cute when he crushed on YN. he was always sending her memes and cute texts like āhave you eatenā āgood morningā and sheād feel so awkward because she doesnāt know how to let him down easy without hurting him. either way tsumu would feel hurt. AND YES PLS HE WAS SO SAD I MEAN, HIS CRUSH AND HIS BEST FRIEND NEARLY HAD SEX RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM SO THATāS GOING TO HURT
SUNA AND ATSUMU TIED?? tbh I loved that dancing scene bcos suna is one of my faves and I really wanna do that with him hehehhehe. NAHHH PLEASE SAME IF SUNA DANCED WITH ME AND MADE A WEDDING PLAYLIST IāD BE LIKE boy whatāre u waiting for letās get married now !! n yes he said whoever YN will choose in the future will be one lucky guy IM SOBBING RN
naur cuz. thereās something about dating your best friend. Iām not saying a boyfriend wouldnāt know you as well but thereās something different when youāre best friends first. they could literally share eye contact and have a long ass conversation just from that. their connection is different.
HAJKALA AS FOR THE POWER, BR! YN IS A VERY CHARISMATIC AND FRIENDLY PERSON !! sheās like one of those people you meet that not only are they attractive as hell, but theyāre also super approachable and down to earth. thatās why sheās so popular + sheās flirty and can make a stranger feel welcome or comfortable in the first meeting. SGSHJAK I WAS ACTUALLY PLANNING TO ADD OIKAWA HERE BUT I WANNA MAKE IT MORE INARIZAKI CENTRED
the seggs scene with kita SOBSSSS heās such a soft dom IDC he knows where the clit is, he knows how to hit it. heās a āyour pleasure first before mineā type of guy. kita is perfect, PERIODT. HE GIVES DADDY VIBES HUH AHSKAA HEāS SO SWEET YET SEXY IM IN LOVE WITH HIM ISTG IF SUNA WASNāT OUR BEST FRIEND THEN IāD RUN FOR KITA ALL THE TIME. and I agree, kita deserves the best !! and donāt worry, I actually plan on giving kita the best ending, I promise you heāll be fine (slight spoiler there)
Ā YESSSSS OMG IāVE BEEN REJECTED BEFORE AND THATāS EXACTLY HOW I FELT, MY BODY WAS SO COLD AND I WAS SO CONFUSED LIKE IT MAKES YOU THINK. am I not good enough, did I do something wrong, do you not wanna give me a chance or try it out but ofc Iād never say that out loud. AND KYAAA AAAH IM YOUR FAVORITE WRITER??? NO CUZ YOUāRE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY. I remember ur asks way back reckless era and you used to tell me that my writing made you picture the scenes easily and you felt you were there in that moment and Iām just so grateful thank you so much <33
NO BCOS WHEN SUNA SAID āprove itā I was like. this is it. thatās his hot boy shit moment. manās has had enough of being thrown from one toxic relationship to another and he also deserves his good moments yknow. and you kin suna here?? BESTIE IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT, SUNAāS BEEN THROUGH A LOT HERE AHSJAKA. thatās true about suna tho !! heās definitely affectionate + a giver. heās happy being the one who gives most of the time but heās a human as well, ofc heād want to receive the same amount of love back. ALSO HIS PHONE CALLLLLL ugh tbh that part was the one that made me the saddest bcos heās just. he wants to know if thereās really no more chance. all this time he never gave up. but heās also tired so if yn says āno moreā then heāll give up. its his way of respecting himself too ahsjaka
YOOOOO I AGREE WITH THAT. he cares for mari as a person but not 100% as a lover. but ofc heās still thankful for how happy she made him because she was there at his worst. and thatās true, deep down suna still wishes that it was YN whoās right beside him. he will always ALWAYS want her back. he learned how to love mari in a way that was more out of mutual care but not in the way he loves YN. no thatās reserved only for YN ā she will remain no 1 in his heart. AND YESSSSS the reason why suna overlooked the red flags was bcos to him, its something that was supposed to be ānormalā like no perfect partner existed. he thought mariās attitude of pushing YN away was normal, and its normal to want your partnerās best friend keep some distance but not to the point of mariās place where she literally wants the two of them to cut each other out of their lives.
and aww Iām so happy that you realized how I wanted to portray suna and ynās relationship. theyāreā¦.like the definition of youth in its freest form. they were fucking around and doing stupid things, but they had a connection. they had something deeper than just sexual intimacy. even if they never dated or even if YN never proposed the idea of it, they wouldāve actually been still great friends. and oooh I actually donāt remember saying life with excitement and fun wouldnāt be real HAHAHAHA so I canāt comment further on that. but I think when I āsaidā those I probably meant that itās not always going to be all rainbows and unicorns in a relationship. thereās no such thing as a relationship thatās always happy and sweet 24/7, but ofc it can be sweet and it can be pure even with the little things <33 they just need to work on it.
hmmm tbhhhhā¦ suna and yn are toxic in a way that they refuse to let each other go when they clearly canāt meet halfway. toxic doesnāt have to be limited in just being mari-like in which they are possessive or manipulative, because then if weād drive deeper into ynās personality, then sheād be stringing suna all along and thatās unfair of her. she knows suna wants more and yet she remained being friends with him, which totally isnāt a bad thing, but itās because she keeps flirting with him and is so romantically comfortable with him that she doesnāt realize itās hurting suna because heāll give double meanings to that. their relationship is ātoxicā because theyāre not entirely good for each other, theyāre not that ready to be with one another yet and neither is the world letting them be in peace, so forcing their relationship to a point theyāre hurting another is the toxic part.
[ from @kyriaan ]
Ah also not me feeling all proud and mushy cause my analysis made you mind blown fjfbdnsjdkpa š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ I guess its also because i see this story as a really big mirror of my own toxic relationship sonits extremely easy for me to get it... And oh boy the way i kin suna here
But dhdhfjdospdhfbsoa š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ i feel happy now *huggles*
[ from saeren ]Ā
and aah yes ofc, Iām really happy whenever someone can see the underlying details I scatter throughout the story !! yeah omg same hahahaha broken records is also half inspired by the toxic people Iāve met. I kin kita here tho and Iām so glad youāre happier now !!
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