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reality-imagined · 7 years ago

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Schematics

Part I

SWU Poe x Female!Reader

Warnings: Angst, Fluff, I think that’s it

Word Count: 3026

Hi guys! So, there are few things we got to talk about before we get into the story. First, the timeline of this is kind of up in the air. I’m not sure how much time has lapsed between TFA and TLJ, but a majority of this plot takes place during the TLJ drama.

Plot: This may be an AU? idk I’m bad at all the fanfic slang lol anyway, the basis of the relationship between Poe and Reader forms during the happenings of Episode VIII. My goal was to try and tell the story from a lovestruck Captain watching Poe being a badass from the control room. Because let’s be real, who wouldn’t fall in love with him while he was being so courageous? Also, while I am a Star Wars fan - I have the humility in me to say I don’t know everything about the SWU so, correct me if I am wrong. With that being said:

Masterlist

“BB-8, I am honored that you find me interesting enough to spend the day with but… I really need to get to work and you rolling about my feet has me a bit distracted.” You kept your voice soft as you stayed bent down in front of the droid. You really meant no harm but with walking about the command room and the base, as your job required, was a bit difficult when you were constantly bumping your shins and pinky toes against the spherical droid. “I’ll find you after dinner, yeah? I’ll show you my building plans for a new charging unit.” The droid whirred in enthusiasm before spinning around and rolling off at a quick speed.

“If only you were as close to the owner as you are with the droid.”

Sighing, you straighten up and fix your jacket before looking down at your datapad to finish the message you were writing for General Organa. “Yes, well, understanding people is harder than understanding a droid.” You bit back rather harshly, but you were sick of your friend’s, Suna, innuendos about you and the pilot. You had never had a conversation with him, besides the quick introduction when you became “aware” of his ownership of the BB unit. The conversation was short, awkward and something you never wanted to return to:

“I was certain the droid was alone, I’m glad to know he has an owner that cares for him.” You smiled, holding on to your datapad with a death grip as you glanced between the droid and the base’s most famous and trusted pilot. Of course you knew that Poe owned the BB unit, you just didn’t want to subtly hint at your adolescent crush on the pilot.

“Well I was certain that most knew he was my buddy.” You weren’t entirely sure if his response was one of offense so you kept your mouth shut and continued to examine your boots. “It’s nice to put a face to a name, BB-8 talks about you fondly and I was surprised we had never ran into each other before.” You cleared your throat, trying to hide your own offense this time, you and the pilot had attended many of the same meetings and while you felt your observations of his chiseled jawline were obvious, it’s apparent that you had gone unnoticed the entire time.

“Ah well I don’t trouble myself with uhm gossip. It was nice to meet you….” You feigned forgetfulness,

“Poe.” He quirked an eyebrow.

“Right! Well, I should get back to work.”

The frown was evident on his lips as you glanced briefly before turning and walking away, “Yeah. Yeah, you too.” Poe muttered, he spoke to the BB-8 unit quietly but you were too far away to distinguish words.

You flinched as the memory left, quickly hitting send on the message, you placed your datapad into your messenger bag. “I’m sorry, I have a lot of things to get done but I’ll see you at dinner, okay?” Suna rolled their eyes before agreeing and continued pushing their cleaning cart down the hallway.

You barely had the opportunity to regain your work-composure before your bag beeped with a message. You shook your shoulders and prepped yourself for the rest of the work day.

You didn’t have time to return to your quarters to drop off your work supplies, so stumbling into dinner with your machinery sketches, pens, and other various design tools kept your usual quiet and unnoticed entry, clanky and awkward. Finally spotting your friends, you rushed over and shoved the books and your bag under the table. “Quite an entrance there, (Y/N).” Raene smiled, helping situate your belongings under the table.

“We all wish we had your level of grace.” Suna added, smirking before taking a sip from her cup, “Have you spoken with the droid since earlier? I think you broke the poor things heart.”

“No, Suna, I have not. Why are you so interested in the droid any how? Are you jealous?” You couldn’t help the smirk the itched the corner of your lips and as she opened her mouth, to give back what would probably have been a brilliant comeback, you were out of your seat and headed to the line.

You enjoyed the company of Raena and Suna, but you were all aware that the friendship was one of convenience. Well, at least for them it was. They had their true friends back home, and their time on the base was, as they describe it, “ensuring their alliance with the Resistance.” Since the war began between the First Order and with the Resistance doing their best to keep the galaxies freedom - families, planets, and others of the sorts were pressed to help and the Resistance needed all the support they could get. Raena and Suna were both from wealthy families, if not royalty, who put their trust in the Resistance. Them being on the base only ensured their family’s standing. While their families were dedicated to the cause, they had lives elsewhere and you were determined to not make any solid connections - it hurt too much being left behind. So you knew that they would return home eventually, and wouldn’t really be leaving you behind - just moving forwards. At least that’s what you told yourself.

Returning to your table you notice a friend of Raena’s, Tiro, had joined. She would blush when asked about their personal relationship, often replying with a quiet remark of social tiers and her planet’s courting customs. But it was evident that she felt for the mechanic and so you and Suna kept your jokes to a minimum and let them go about their life.

“Tiro just said he seen the pilot shirtless today.” Suna wiggled her eyebrows.

Raena snorted, “That’s all you got from that conversation?”

Suna shrugged and finished her last bite, “I mean, what person isn’t attracted to him? He pretty much saved all our asses singlehandedly and let’s be real, my father would forget all social implications if I came home with the ‘best pilot in the Resistance!’” She emphasized Poe’s handle with gusto and you couldn’t help but chuckle.

“Just go (Y/N)’s route, make his droid fall in love with you first.”

A piece of bread coincidently lodged itself in your throat, “You people are ridiculous.” You stammer after dislodging the piece with a dramatic coughing fit. “Besides, Poe didn’t save us singlehandedly. Do not down play the success of others Suna, it’s rude.”

“You’re more uptight than my mother.” She deadpanned.

You laughed, “Yeah well, considering your social status, it is you who should have all the manners, not me.”

Suna and Raena both laughed, “I swear all those propriety classes were a waste on me and should’ve gone to you. Maker knows you would’ve enjoyed them.”

You smiled and shook your head. Your polite tendencies were often the butt of Suna’s jokes and while at first it was offensive, you eventually began to understand Suna’s humor and found her jokes refreshing. You knew you were a bit too high strung, but you worked directly under the General and were often at the head of many meetings. You couldn’t help but let your business manners spill into your personal time.

“As much as I like to witness you picking at (Y/N)’s manners, I have to help your dreamy pilot fix his X-wing.” Tiro quickly chimed in, cutting off Suna’s next joke. “I’ll see you tonight Raena?” He cleared his throat, trying to make it seem casual.

We all knew it was a date.

“Yes, I’ll uh, I’ll see you then.” Raena blushed. Tiro smiled widely and gave me a quick pat on the shoulder before jogging out of the mess hall.

“I need a Tiro.” Suna huffed and propped her chin dramatically on her hand. Raena let out a wolfish laugh when you agreed enthusiastically. “Looks like your Tiro has arrived.” Suna laughed out.

You sat in confusion before you heard an excited set of beeps to your side. You sent her a glare before turning towards the droid who rolled back and forth, excitement evident that he had found you. “Hello, BB-8, how has your evening been?” You smiled at the droid, facing him completely and letting your elbows rest on your knees. He gave you an in-detail description of his events from when he left you earlier to just now. “Sounds like a successful evening.” The droid asked of the plans for a charging unit before adding on his own ideas in a whir of excited beeps. You gave the droid a sympathetic smile, you felt guilty having forgot about your promise to the droid, food had been your priority once the General had released you from your duties. “I didn’t have time to grab them before I came here, but if you would like to stop by later I’ll be happy to show them to you.” BB-8 noted something about a promise to be with Poe later but that he would see what the night held. You often wish your friends were as sophisticated and endearing as the droid was.

You could hear Suna joke about you bringing the droid to your room as if it were a man and before you could spin around and snap, BB-8 mentioned that you should find politer friends before wheeling away. You couldn’t help but cackle as you watched him leave the hall. “What? What did that droid say about me?”

“You’re a ray of sunshine.” You smiled before gathering your trash and belongings.

“I’ll show that droid a ray of sunshine!” Suna shouted her empty threat as you left, Raena shushing her probably in fear of the droid’s owner finding out.

BB-8 did stop by as promised, however you had changed out of your work-appropriate clothes and into sleep clothes. You had finished a last minute work entry when your heard an odd thud at the door. You opened the door and smiled dearly at the droid before noticing the pair of boots set behind the BB unit. You quickly looked up as a blush began to spread from your cheeks down to your chest.

Poe cleared his throat awkwardly, “I was a bit concerned when BB-8 said he was rushing off to see you,” he cleared his throat again, “I figured it was an inappropriate time and that he would be uh disturbing you, but he insisted.”

You laughed nervously, maybe Suna was right. Was it inappropriate to invite the droid to your quarters? Surely not? “I uh I invited him. I promised to show him some schematics of a new charging station at dinner, and well uh forgot them. I’m sorry, I should’ve considered your input.”

Poe looked a bit baffled and BB-8 kept spinning his head sphere to look from Poe to you. Before Poe could say anything you quickly added, “I’ll show them to you first thing in the morning okay?” You bent down to speak to the droid on his level as you usually did. Trying to ignore Poe’s laser sharp stare that held curiosity and something that you wasn’t quite sure of. “Meet me in the control room once you’ve cleared things with Poe.” The BB unit only looked to it’s owner and you took this as a time to shut the door, but where jolted as Poe stopped the door with his hand.

“I uhm, uh I mean we’re already here. Right BB-8? Would be a waste if we just left.”

You looked at Poe dumbly while BB-8 whirred with excitement. “Yes, sure, yeah come in.” You quickly said, your mind still full of confusion as you opened the door for the droid and its owner to come inside.

You were granted your own personal quarters when the General promoted you to team lead, and since a lot of your work often happened outside of the command center. Your walls were taped up with blue and white schematics with the occasional personal sketch of your home planet’s monuments, while your desk was nothing but a cluster of papers and different types of cups with various pens and pencils. The rest of your room was otherwise clean, per base regulations. Only your work space showed the evidence of your chaotically organized mind and idea process.

“Let me just, let me find them.” You sat down on your seat quickly and had to awkwardly stop yourself from flying across the room with the force you placed in your seating. Your chaotic mess was organized to a degree and any other time you would’ve immediately found the plans but your mind was going 90 to nothing and you could practically feel Poe’s eyes observing you. “Found them!” You announced after rummaging what felt like forever. “Sorry, you can sit?” You lamely pointed at your bed and Poe followed your advice, resting his hands on his knees.

You scooted your chair awkwardly towards the droid and smoothed the diagram out unto the floor. You tried to explain the plans to the droid in your normal meeting style, but suddenly your pajama shorts felt entirely too short and your sweatshirt not big and frumpy enough. The droid beeped with a question, which you could tell was to try to get you back on track. You cleared your throat and regained your composure before finishing your explanation. BB-8 whirred with excitement once you had successfully explained your intended alterations, noting that he was sure the other droids were going to be excited as well. The BB unit also hinted that it had been a while since any of them were issued updates.

“I’ll see what I can do. But no promises.” You patted the BB unit gently before tucking your plans back into the mess. “Anything else I can do for you lads?” You had managed to grab a hold of your nerves and were finally able to look Poe in the eyes. While your exterior appeared calm and collected, your inner thoughts were nothing short of full blown panic.

“Why don’t I see you often?” Poe spoke suddenly, “I mean, it seems BB-8 gets to spend time with you and knows you fairly well. But I never see you around base. Why is that?”

Because I’m avoiding you. “I seldom stay in one place.” You smile and shrug.

“I don’t mean to sound rude but, what is your job exactly?” You noticed his slight flinch at how harsh his question was, no matter the apology beforehand.

You chuckle while pulling at the end of your sweatshirt sleeves, you had never been able to describe your job precisely. “I don’t really have just one job. I do a lot of personal work and errands for the General to ensure she stays organized, I guess you could say a personal assistant. But I also work on keeping the Bases main system running, which I am team lead for. I also design schematics for new machines and systems when they’re needed. That’s the original reason I was recruited.” You decided to cut your story short, figuring the pilot could care less as to why you were on the base. He looked at you for a moment before realizing it was his turn to talk.

“Could you design new plans for X-wings?” He seemed interested in your work, which surprised you.

“I haven’t really studied up on their designs or functional requirements, but I’m sure if I spent some time with it, I could design you something?” Your blush had returned and you were almost positive that you were the color of a tomato. “Or at least give it a good try.” You added, anxiety knocking on your brain, reminding you that you were no way good enough to design the best pilot in the Resistance a new X-Wing.

Poe perked up, talking about his job obviously gave him much pride, “The other pilots and I have been playing with the idea of updates.” You nodded, your mind starting to mentally place reading X-Wing manuals into your schedule. You’d do just about anything to get the pilot to smile at you like that again. “With the war and First Order getting back on their feet we need to start thinking about advancements.” And suddenly with talk of the war that was constantly over everyone’s head, the mood shifted to solemn in the room. Speaking about the topic raised anxiety in everyone, there’s an inevitable level of uncertainty when it came to war and it terrified everyone on the base to their bones.

“Yes. I understand. I’ll start working on it right away Commander Dameron.” You spoke quietly, suddenly loosing your confidence upon realizing just how insignificant you were in this war. This man fought the front line, while you set back at the base running errands, sending messages, and doodling.

“Woah, no need to get all formal.” Poe chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck. “Just call me Poe.” There was that smile again, “And don’t feel obligated, I’m sure the General wouldn’t be too fond of her right hand spending time with a pilot talking about starfighters and s-foils.”

“Right. Well I definitely need to read up a bit. Or a lot.” You laugh lightly, Poe following with realization that you had no idea what he was speaking about.

Suddenly, BB-8 gave a whir, reminding the both of you of the late nature of the hour and how all of you had duties to attend to in the morning. If only you were as articulate as the droid, you thought. Poe straightened as did you, neither of you had remembered or even acknowledge the fact that BB-8 as was there. While short, you both had become lost in the conversation.

“I’ll see you later then, (Y/N).” Poe gave the most dashing smile before walking out your door, BB-8 ahead of him. All you could muster was an awkward hand wave and unintelligible reply. That pilot had you wrapped around his finger and rendered your utterly useless, which made him dangerous on so many levels. But worst of all, he left you wanting more.

A/N: So that’s the beginning. I have about 8,000+ words written, but before I post or even finish - I just wanted to see what you guys think. So, let me know! :)

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tinytaehyun · 8 years ago

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an introduction to ikon (pt 1) for my bitch anna aka hyungnu

- --8) here we fuckin go @hyungnu

- used to be Team B but lost to Team A which is now known as Winner (#WINKON)

- they’ve been in two survival shows bc YG is an asshole (WIN: Who is Next and then Mix & Match)

- Team B consisted of: Hanbin / B.I, Bobby, Junhoe / Junhwe / June (i know wtf), Jinhwan, Donghyuk and Yunhyeong

- since they lost WIN, they were either going to 1) split up or 2) be rearranged(?)

- three trainees were added during Mix & Match (NO.MERCY FLASHBACKS ANYONE??? M&M WAS FIRST THO) the three trainees were Jinhyeong (we have no idea where he is now he is debuting soon!), Hongseok (now in Pentagon) and Chanwoo (he played child Gu Jun Pyo in Boys Over Flowers + was in a few other dramas, now a member of iKon)

- debuted as 7 obviously, Chanwoo being the evil maknae

- K in iKon stands for Korea

- iJon is a running joke in the fandom bc these fuckers were in japan forever

- they say they have no friends because they’re boring (they’re also very shy w new people but iKonsta X is now a thing hehehehehhe)

- fandom is called iKonics bc we are one w ikon (so cute i love them sm)

- kings of fanservice

- they’re really weird and loud and don’t give a fuck about who thinks they’re strange (think like, minhyuk x 7)

- kim hanbin aka b.i

- 96 line

- has been single his whole life “even if i love someone, no one loves me” (harhar i told u that yesterday)

- leader, rapper, lyricist, composer, choreographer aka an actual genius

- joined YG when he was 15 (basically his dad met a composer dude and then he rapped for him over facetime etc etc)

- dumbin, tigerbin, geniusbin

- don’t let the gif fool u bc one time ikon were asked “whats scarier? b.i in a recording studio or a ghost in a deserted house?” and they all chose b.i in a recording studio help them

- he is known to be v strict during practice which is where tigerbin came from, this lil shit doesn’t fuck around

- sleeps during the day and stays up all night writing and recording, lives in the studio (eats and sleeps there 90% of the time) the members say during comeback time they almost don’t see him at all, works v hard

- but on the other hand, he’s a giant idiot. e.g “aren’t mice reptiles?” “whale isn’t a mammal, it’s a fish” “i don’t know the goats iq cos i don’t even know my own” he wrote a song w/ Psy called Auto Reverse and sent him a text asking what auto reverse meant so psy replied with the meaning of it (the cassette thing where it automatically flips it around so u can listen to the other side)

- was in SMTM3, when he auditioned he forgot his lyrics but then freestyled his way through it like a motherfuckin boss

- didn’t win but this song is iconic (u mean ikonic HA)

- is fucking obsessed with Mickey Mouse (he got jealous bc one time Bobby got a mickey mouse pen as a present, ALTHOUGH literally a few weeks ago he told a fan a “secret” and the “secret” was that he actually doesnt like mickey mouse OK LIAR)

- has a little sister called Hanbyul who he protects with his life, i don’t think she will ever get a bf when she grows up bc he’ll be like NO, I AM YOUR ONLY LOVE (june x hanbyul = angry hanbin)

- loves animals, the members ask him why can’t he treat them like he treats animals (wow he’s my soulmate sry anna)

- Double B is the best ship on the planet (Bobby X B.I) when bobby isn’t around he gets touchy with the other members cos he misses him

- an actual 2 year old

- can’t take a selca to save his life

- wrote Empty for Winner as a present for debut

- scared of bugs and is bad at foot volleyball (what even is that)

- kim jiwon aka bobby

- 95 line

- hanbins boyfriend

- writes his own raps a DUHHH

- kimbap, bunny

- thinks hes ugly but BITCH HE AINT

- has a Pooh plush that he has had since he was a little kid and it looks like it has been through some shit

- v sharp jawline ouch my finger

- takes care of his members very well, he’s like an idiot big brother

- was in SMTM3 with hanbin, and he won that shit. iKing

- him and June are the most awkward couple on the planet it makes me wanna kms but it’s so funny e.g during M&M June: if Jinhyeong gets into our team, I can get close to him in a day if I open up my heart Bobby: what about me? i’ve been with you for two years! open up your heart to me

- derp of the group

- has sexy ass abs /slips on drool

- can speak english v well bc he moved to Virginia (but he says he can’t speak english im so confused)

- he’s super friendly and really fucking weird

- this video explains him perfectly im crying mx in the bg LMAO (THE DANCE MOVE AT THE VERY END IS HIS SIGNATURE MOVE)

- he was actually my first bias in ikon but Hanbin ruined my fuckin life

- he styles his own hair....he has had really questionable hair styles, right now he looks like cruella de ville (?) (HE CHANGED IT)

- bitch he has so much fucking energy i honestly don’t understand it

- kim jinhwan / 13cm fairy

- jinani, “more famous than tangerines in Jeju”, Jay

- 94 line, oldest in the group but he looks 5, plus his tiny-ness doesn’t help

- is an actual wine mum (like seriously. he likes to drink wine now)

- :23 seconds is still a mystery to everyone in the fandom, where the fuck did he come from

- june is soft for him (and june is a giant bitch so)

- he has a heart shaped beauty mark on his face

- he makes a really pretty girl 1:11 is him

- is good friends with Kihyun 8)))) tiny x tiny

- always gives advice to the members

- a sweet emotional soul that needs to be protected at all times

- is the reason Yunhyeong became a singer, my hearT

- first person to catch my eye bc he’s so fuckin cute

- Suhyun from AKMU really likes his voice (and probably him too)

- cries a lot

- his parents have an air BNB kind of thing dedicated to him in Jeju, called Stay At Home for Jinhwan

- his smile makes me want to die

- he sweats a lot and doesn’t really like to work out

- like’s playing games (like games on variety shows and stuff, not computer ones)

- the best at japanese !!! and chinese, king of languages honestly

- all clothes look good on him like hOW

- goo junhoe / goo junhwe / gu junhoe / ku junhoe / koo junhwe WHY ARE THERE SO MANY VARIATIONS

- let’s just go with June since that’s what he goes by

- 97 line

- "shut up you handsome bastard” - Bobby

- always checking himself out

- not soft for anyone except for Jinhwan

- will he ever love bobby back???

- is handsome, but equally fucking awkward

- best singer in ikon / kpop / the world

- says he would love to hang out with friends except he doesn’t have any

- instead of a gf, he wants a car

- originally joined YG to be a dancer (mini Michael Jackson)

- selca king (needs to teach hanbin)

- u know how i said he was only soft for jinhwan? i take it back, he’s also soft for konics (when he isn’t being a sassy bitch)

- never shuts up (remember when i linked u to noise pollution???)

- writes his own songs (in his diary tho)

- one time he dropped his phone in the toilet and washed it with soap

- another time he wanted to take a picture in the water so he took the waterproof case off because it was a hassle until the members were like ??? thats..the case...and he’s like...oh...i thought it was the phone that was waterproof

- attention whore

- kim donghyuk

- 97 line

- dongdong, candy-chan, DK

- a sweet, sweet soul

- main dancer !!! he’s sO GOOD (choreo’d Airplane)

- taeyang said his voice perfectly suits Eyes, Nose, Lips

- he was on a ridiculous diet and we’re all v worried about him T_T he used to stress eat so he was insecure about it but HE IS PERFECT

- english name is Ezra...idk

- has the best lauGH EVER

- underrated and i don’t know why

- he did a whole “day in the life” on V Live where it was LEGIT SHOWING U EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. IT WAS LIKE 6 VIDEOS OF HIS DAY

- he just really loves konics

- gasses up Bobby every chance he gets (sigh hes so sweet)

- he can play the piano and drums

- and guitar woops

- he prays before shows and before he eats

- HAS A BEAUTIFUL SMILE I DIE, IT LITERALLY LIGHTS UP THE MOTHERFUCKIN ROOM

- idk man he’s like the sun

- he shines so bright i cry

- best AT AEGYO

- song yunhyeong

- 95 line

- song chef, yoyo, prince, song

- originally wanted to be an actor but thank the lord he changed his mind (YG told him to be a singer)

- used to be hopeless at dancing and singing but look at him now bitch

- back in M&M days, he revealed how much he loves Nivea Cherry lip balm so for the christmas game, hanbin bought him like 100284347398 and he nearly cried

- next minute: he is the nivea ambassador, LEGENDS ONLY

- has his own cooking show on V App

- him and Chanwoo are twins (he hates being called Chanwoo tho watch out)

- eVIL TWINS

- tells dad jokes (wow is he Anna)

- a positive ray of sunshine

- you can probs take him home to mama cos he’s so perfect (like hello he’s sweet, moisturises his lips AND he cooks?)

- usually coupled with Donghyuk

- is also kind of underrated and im mad about it

- mum thinks he is handsome (he is, i just needed to throw that in there)

- his smile is beautiful

- beautiful tan skin!!!

- good @ english

- stylists dress him the best idk why but he always looks good

- imagine a kihyun x yunhyeong cooking show wow sign me tf up

- A+ at comic dancing (bobby gets embarrassed about it)

- jung chanwoo

- 98 line

- chanu, chocoball, evil maknae, #MAKNAEONTOP, chan

- 1/2 of the evil twins w yunhyeong, he loves it tho

- hanbin calls him the nicest boy in the world

- tests his hyungs patience on a daily basis

- sassy little bitch

- one time he cried cos bobby scolded him (bobby said sorry later)

- was a child actor (gu jun pyo anyone ??)

- he’s a little slow sometimes but the members forgive him cos hes cute LMAO

- members did a hidden camera on him once and he passed with flying colours Hanbin: why did you do everything I asked you to anyway? Chanwoo: because if i didnt, you’d kick my ass

- v tall, stop growing

- good at chinese

- sometimes i feel like he doesn’t know he’s famous

- looks lost 90% of the time

- he’s cute but he’s a sassy brat so watch out

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lyricanalysis · 8 years ago

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the ryden song (FAKE)

okay, so we were realizing that for some of our analysis of v&v, we need to set the scene. so here we go. time to get a loot of hate. i’m also going to mention a couple other songs. also bear with me. my thoughts on this are a little wild and this is going to be a long analysis. it’s also a long song so..

anyway, i’m just gonna start off with the fact that this song, lyrically, had a lot of confusing parts and this was a pain in the ass to try and translate into something that made sense. (also, why is this the ryden song ??? this, to me and my opinions, is soooo not romantic) ALSO DISCLAIMER. this blog is something I’m doing for fun, i have 0 confirmed facts besides the things that i am taking within my own context. this doesn’t mean i have solved the puzzle and you are more than welcome to disagree.

and we’re getting right into this shit show. i guess i also need to point out, if it’s not obvious from my analysis on always, i’m not a fan of ryden. i just never saw the chemistry and i’m also really far up dallon weekes’s ass that i can’t function, so, just roll with me, please.

ALSO SIDE NOTE, i’ll mention it when i talk about the lyrics but certain lines are going to have the “..” in it. ALSO AGAIN, i believe this song is written solely by ryan so, just, ya know, mindsets and shit.

If all our life is but a dream

Fantastic posing greed

Then we should feed our jewelry to the sea

For diamonds do appear to be

Just like broken glass to me

so this first line i’m not really going too in depth on. it seems kinda blunt, honestly. though i am exchanging ‘life’ for ‘relationship’. basically, if all of our relationship (ryden) is just a dream (for the future, please keep the wizard of oz in mind). then it goes into fantastic posing greed. this is going to seem like a bit of a long shot cause i haven’t dived into the rest of the song. but anyway, again, as i’ve said a million times, i think ryden was one sided on brendon’s part. i think to ryan, it was just sex. he didn’t want a romantic relationship but boy did brendon. i think ryan led him on for a lot of the time that ryan was in panic. so this is coming to me as kind of a break up song in a sense. a warning break up song? he’s kind of saying that when brendon gets greedy (when he asks for ryan to love him) it’s over. now, sue me, it seems a little fucked up to say that, don’t you think? brendon has been led on, he thinks that they have something that’s just, for the time being, unofficial. brendon isn’t wrong to ask for love if this relationship has been happening for awhile which i think it has. so ryan could be calling it fake greed. ryan is saying that brendon is being greedy but i think even ryan knows that its not really greedy to ask for such a thing, it’s really just normal. i mean, you can’t force somebody to love you but at that point you should leave, right? it’s kinda like brendon is asking do you or don’t you. the posing could also be ryan trying to make it more obvious it’s him. he’s faking it. if he was very blunt that he wasn’t in love, i think that it wouldn’t have ended so dramatically, ya know? if ryan wasn’t lying and.. wait for it.. posing, things wouldn’t have hurt brendon so much.

now on that note, i’m gonna bring in a different song. ryan’s new band is called the young veins and they have a song titled ‘cape town’ and we’re all wondering what happened in cape town. in case you don’t already know, that was the last show ever played before ryan and jon left the band. so the lyric:

Woke me in the morning

Asked me if I meant it, I didn't

now, screw off, i’m not analyzing that whole song so fuck the rest of the lyrics. but this is kinda how i envisioned things ending. it also goes back to the greed. fantastic posing greed was kind of a warning for the future. ryan was saying, when you start getting greedy, when you finally ask me to love you, this is 100% over and that could be what happened in cape town. they’re laying in bed together after a wonderful night of sex (cause, remember, i’m theorizing that this relationship was sexsexsesexeesx). brendon woke him to beautiful rays of sunshine and he smiled, he asked ryan if he loved brendon and guess the answer? no. ryan admitted that he didn’t love brendon and it broke brendon because he’d been trying to believe for a long time that they were in love.

anyways, back to panic. he says that they should feed their jewelry to the sea. now, i can’t give you a 100% estimate or anything but this isn’t something that happy couples do. my sister mentioned that in divorces (not like it’s a practice but some people, also breakups, people who are extra), they throw their wedding rings into the ocean, sea, lake, river, body of water. i also remember in decoy bride (fave movie) the main character (and this is gonna sound wild but it’s soooo worth the watch and like,,, spoilers i guess sorry) went through a fake wedding with the other main character. she wore the ring and then all the old ladies thought she was really married. anyway, shit happens and he leaves her. she still has the ring and this rock these old ladies painted to look like a bride. (also this takes place on an island) so she’s sad that he went off and married his real love and left her cause she fell blah blah blah. she’s leaving the island on a boat and throws the ring (or the rock i can’t remember) into the ocean. so,,, personal experience. ANYWAY, END OF RELATIONSHIPS, YA KNOW? it’s not something that she did when she was happy, nor will it be happy for ryden.

then the thing about diamonds and broken glass. broken glass is useless. you drop a glass on the floor and you sweep it up and throw it away. he’s comparing that to a diamond which is commonly used on engagement rings and wedding rings. so essentially, he’s saying that marriage is pointless between him and brendon. there’s no point to him because he’s not in love with brendon and he never will be.

GOD, that one fucking verse was wild, i tell you.

And then [s]he said [s]he can't believe

Genius only comes along

In storms of fabled foreign tongues

Tripping eyes, and flooded lungs

Northern downpour sends its love’

okay, this is another one that stumped us for a long fucking time. so i put brackets around the ’s’ in she because i don’t think that ryan is actually talking about a she. since this is the (anti) ryden song, it only makes sense to bring it down to he. he said he can’t believe. so i think that brendon was blinded by love (i’m gonna bring this up again in just a sec). brendon is essentially putting ryan on this pedestal because he’s so in love. you know that feeling where you’re like ‘they can do no wrong, they are perfect in every sense’ and then you break up and look back like ‘wtf was i doing they’re fucked up?’ that’s what brendon is doing. brendon is calling ryan a genius and ryan is saying, no, he isn’t because he’s not being a good person to brendon. a good person would have ended things when he realized brendon was in love (cause it was probably painfully obvious). a good person wouldn’t use somebody for sex the way ryan is. ryan is saying he isn’t a genius and lowkey saying he’s a bad person. brendon doesn’t believe him though. brendon can’t believe that a genius only exists in fairytales.

so just, breaking down that lyric so it’s easier to understand. fables are fairytales. i usually hear fables being used when it’s not like a common american one if that makes sense. like i have a story book on norwegian fables, you see? also makes sense why it’s foreign tongues because fables would originally be spoken in a different language. so again, brendon is saying that he can’t believe that genius (ryan) only exist in fairytales.

so now, this is fun. i say that every time don’t i? so i know i keep pushing answering questions and things back but like, just roll with it. i already said brendon was blinded by love but i want to amend that real quick. he was high on love. so i’m gonna have like 20 paragraphs on weed at the end of this so it’ll make sense later on but i’m going to be talking about a very specific strain of weed (yes, there are a lot of different kinds and types of weed) (*side eye emoji*). anyway, i wanna save the name of this for later cause spoilers but, this specific strain when you first smoke it, users say that you first feel it behind your eyes and also temporal lobe. so, fun fact. also, high on love. when you’re high (personal experience?? i’ll never say), you don’t see things right. you really, really don’t. especially if it’s a hallucinogenic. weed is not a hallucinogenic but hasn’t panic already admitted that they wrote one song while on shrooms (WHICH IS A HALLUCINOGENIC)? so with that, we’re going with the fact that ryan is saying he’s not seeing things properly, it’s affecting his mind (COUGH COUGH drugs). because of this, he doesn’t see the downpour.

now, there was a post on tumblr that was saying this song was about seattle washington (and did you know i’m a Pacific Northwest (PNW) native???) which is kinda cool for me cause the PNW is *mainly* oregon and washington but i think it might be a lil of idaho (maybe? idk. washington and oregon for sure though). so anyway, rain and downpour are basically what the PNW is known for. and we can’t count my opinion here cause i actually love the rain. i think it’s beautiful. but then again, i’m a native and it’s super common for me. but people who aren’t from around here often categorize rain and clouds as depressing. you wouldn’t believe how many times i have been asked if i get depressed cause it’s always so gray here and rainy. i’m very quick to defend the PNW because i love the greenness of the trees but that’s irrelevant. so, i know just cause it says north doesn’t mean that it’s seattle or PNW related but i’ll explain that also later (GOD admin why can’t you hurry?).

SO ANYWAY, a lot of the rain that we get here comes from the…… north. northern downpour. hmmm. also, finishing that lyric, what could northern downpour sending it’s love mean? if we’re going with the common thought that rain is depressing, northern downpour would be like mass depression, right? now, i know you’re asking why i skipped flooded lungs so, here we go.

a lot of people have categorized that being depressed feels like you’re drowning. i’ve felt that way. you can’t breathe and it’s a lot terrifying. so the downpour of depression, ryan is saying is going to kill brendon. when brendon finds out, the depression is going to kill him. (not saying suicidal but,,,). i’m also just going to bring this up real quick. people say that when you’re drowning, right before you die, you get a moment of bliss. now, if ryan is saying that downpour is coming when brendon finds out it’s fake (remember, this song is a warning so it hasn’t happened yet. that’s cape town AFTER pretty odd has been released) then the moment of bliss is happening right now. brendon is drowning but he just doesn’t know it. maybe the drowning is anxiety (which i will touch on, you guessed it, later). HMM HMM HMM.

The ink is running toward the page

It's chasin' off the days

Look back at both feet

And that winding knee

“I missed your skin when you were east”

You clicked your heels and wished for me

back in the old days when people used ink to write and ya had to dip it, imagine spilling that. like you dip your quill or whatever in the bottle and bump the ridge of the top as your pulling your hand towards the page to write. the ink is going to fall towards your notebook, not away. now, that shit probably splatters and ruins the page quickly. just for this, we’re going to imagine all of that in slow motion since when this song was written, their relationship (read relationship as fuck buddies and brendon hoping that ryan loves him) doesn’t end until cape town which is after they’ve toured for this album. so the ink is running towards the page. the page is their relationship. ryan is saying that when brendon starts asking too much, when he realizes, is when the ink ruins the page. their relationship ends because you can’t fix something like that, really. it’s chasing off the days is just saying what i already did.

now this was a challenge. i say that about everything but just fuck it all. when you’re standing you don’t like, turn your head and look at your feet, it doesn’t work that way. my sister was the one who first kind of inspired the final thought. she was saying, so imagine like, ryan is leaning forward. now the way it is in my head isn’t plausible but just, imagine. like 45* angle at his ankles. the past is where their relationship is, where his feet are, his head is in the present. ryan’s head isn’t in this relationship. there’s no love, no affection (you can also read head as heart). but his dick, which is farther back than his head and heart, is farther back. so anyway, that was what inspired my thought.

what if they’re in bed. since i’m saying that their relationship was purely sexual. now i’m going to try really hard to avoid sex positions in this because the whole argument over who tops is a thing (maybe?? idk ryden stuff). so anyway, i don’t know about you but like, if i was laying on my stomach in bed (which is commonly where you have sex), i don’t crawl out of bed ass first. if i do, i would love (BAAAACK) to where i’m going. he’s looking back at his feet. backwards is also a metaphor for the past. now this is a little confusing i think and you might say I’m contradicting but just, hopefully i can write this out. when you enter a friends with benefits situation it’s usually like, agreed that no feelings will happen. i don’t think that’s how they started though. i think that when this first started ryan might have had like a crush on brendon or thought that hey, MAYBE i could love him. i think that’s how things started but then quickly changed into, hey he’s good at sex but fuck no, i could never love him. i just think that ryan knew that if he told brendon that there weren’t any feelings anymore then the sex would stop. lot’s of artists have said that relationships are hard on the rode because of the lack of intimacy. ryan wants the intimacy of sex but if he tells brendon that he can’t love him, the sex will stop.

so again, he’s looking back at the past when he thought that there maybe would be something. but now, all that’s left is a winding knee. WITHOUT NAMING TOP AND BOTTOM, one person is on their back and they wrap (wind) their legs around the other person’s hips. it’s missionary position, the most intimate (romantic) of them all. i think brendon probably liked this one. so anyway, the current relationship is just the winding knee because the love that ryan might have felt is long since in the past.

now, you might have noticed that ‘i missed your skin when you were east’ is the first lyric to get the “..” that i mentioned. the reason why it got that is i think this is ryan mocking brendon. i don’t think this is ryan saying that he misses brendon when brendon is gone. i think that it’s ryan pretending to be brendon (since he knows that brendon is in love with him) and saying that when ryan leaves, when they’re on break from tour, brendon misses him. this ties into the next line.

when ryan is gone, brendon wishes for him.

i mentioned earlier (about the dream) to remember wizard of oz. this is why. ‘you clicked your heels and wished for me’. in the movie, dorothy clicks her heels and makes a wish. correct me if i’m wrong since it’s been awhile but when dorothy makes her wish, she wakes up from her dream. like ryan comparing their relationship to a dream. when brendon starts wishing for more (time, more something) with ryan is when the dream is over, their relationship is over. It can also be taken as Ryan telling Brendon that he is everything Brendon has dreamed of. As far as we know, Brendon never had a real relationship with anyone before Ryan, but he wanted someone. He wished for Ryan and Ryan knew.

i’m also just going to mention a couple other things from the movie. first off, the plot is them going to the emerald city which is going to be of more importance (or maybe just a coincidence and i’m crazy) a little later. but seattle is called the emerald city. just another chin scratching moment.

Through playful lips made of yarn

That fragile Capricorn

Unraveled words like moths upon old scarves

I know the world's a broken bone

But melt your headaches, call it home

okay, this first line leads into the third so it’ll come up again but anyway. playful means sex. and yarn means words. basically, this means, words said during sex. now, subconsciously, maybe a little consciously, brendon can tell that it’s one sided but he thinks that if he keeps having sex, if he pleases ryan sexually, then ryan will love him. capricorn, yes, is a zodiac but i looked it up and nobody is. capricorn, though, does symbolize hard work. so we’re going with brendon having this mindset that sex=love. his fragile hardwork is all of these words and attempts that he’s making to try and essentially convince ryan to love him. ryan calls it a fragile attempt because he knows it’s not going to work. he’s tearing down each attempt in his mind because he doesn’t want to love brendon. he just wants good sex. now going into the next line. unraveled words (also actions) is ryan tearing down these advances. remember how i said that the yarn was words? words form sentences, paragraphs, books, yadda yadda. yarn forms scarves. also, moths eat holes through old clothes and things in attics that sit there for years. so he’s saying that ryan tearing down these advances is ryan being a moth. he’s eating through brendon’s attempt to make a romantic relationship.

so here’s where people really start hating me. ryan told brendon to pay special attention to this line. he told them that this meant a lot. tons of people take this in a loving way but i don’t think so at all. now, going back to the beginning. remember how i said that brendon couldn’t believe that ryan wasn’t a genius? that kind of thinking leads me to believe that it was almost like brendon worshipped ryan to an extent. that ryan was his world. so i think this is ryan being straight up and blunt. also, broken bones can’t really be fixed. once the bone is broken, it will never go back to being perfect. it heals, yes, but they’re essentially deformed. there’s a build up where the break was. something that is no longer be looked at as perfect can be taken as being shitty. that’s the easiest way for me to make this make sense. here’s my translation:

“i know that i (ryan) and a shitty person”

and the next line honestly bothers. me.

so without assuming things about people, just knowledge, chronic headaches and migraines are kind of unavoidable. you can take pain medicine but you can’t prevent them 100%. i know people who have these sort of headaches and they can be literally debilitating. my sister knows someone who, during school, is on the verge of tears because the pain is so intense and things like that can’t just be willed away. there are headaches that your brain is like ‘hey, take care of yourself’ but those are lesser in pain, just a ‘pay attention to me right quick’ sort of thing. so the way he says this is kind of.. odd. melt your headaches? as if you can just get rid of chronic headaches, just will them away. fun fact guys, you can’t. the way this comes out to me is just ‘get over it. deal with it’. if we put the two lines together it comes out as this.

“i am a shitty person so get over it.”

kinda rude, don’t you think?

also, pointing out things. “i know the worlds a broken bone, but melt your headaches, call it home” is where brendon broke down on stage. maybe realizing what it actually meant? the only other song that he’s broken down while singing is casual affair and, well, didn’t i mention that this was a casual affair to ryan? oop.

so pre chorus time.

“Hey moon, please forget to fall down

Hey moon, don't you go down”

again, in the “…” cause this is ryan mocking brendon. so first, i’m going to bring in two songs.

“when the day met the night” by panic at the disco off of pretty odd. THIS SONG seems more like a ryden song than northern downpour:

When the moon fell in love with the sun

so this song to me, is written by brendon for ryan. this is brendon’s i love you to ryan. now before we go on, ryan is the moon and brendon is the sun. i could go on about personality traits and why specifically but i’m just not gonna right now.

“stall me” by panic at the disco off vices & virtues (i think it was like a bonus or pre order extra).

Why would you bring me in if you knew what you'd become?

So curse everyone and everything, even the sun

so i know that it doesn’t say moon but i’m pretty sure this is about ryan. now mind you, this came after pretty odd. this is after cape town, after his heart has been broken. this is basically brendon asking why ryan would lead him on if he knew that he would never love brendon. then brendon says fuck everyone and everything (common when you’re upset and pissed off to hate everything). what kills me is he says ‘even the sun’. brendon is the sun. he says fuck himself for falling and trying to believe.

anyways, those are two more examples of the reoccurrence of the sun and moon theme. unnecessary i guess.

so if we’re back to the hey moon part, i said that it was ryan mocking brendon. so mythology and stuff, not going too in depth (if you want me to then like, send an ask and i can do like a hardcore analysis on context of sun and moon vs relationships). the sun and the moon can’t be in love. day and night cannot be in love. one dies while the other survives and they are never together. as the sun is setting the moon is rising, ya know? what brendon is asking of ryan (the moon) is for him to not go away when the sun rises in the morning. he asks for ryan to forget to fall down, don’t go down. ryan is mocking brendon’s attempts to ask for ryan to love him (through sex). ryan knows that they can’t be in love so he’s mocking brendon because brendon still has hope.

i would also like to point out that in the live at chicago version (free on spotify for your listening fun), ryan acknowledges that he is the moon. duh, since he wrote it. but it just proves that if i am wrong about literally all of this, i got at least who the sun and moon is right. when they’re singing ‘hey moon don’t you go down,’ ryan ad libs “never will”. and i get that it can be taken as ryan saying ‘i’ll never go down, i’ll wait for you’ but this song doesn’t lead me to believe that’s what he meant. i think that ‘never will’ is more towards when “brendon” is asking him to forget to fall down. so basically, the way i see it, ryan is saying he’s not going to forget to go down, he will go down because he is the night and he has to. ALSO, in that live version, the never will isn’t like, super pumped and happy or even passionate. it’s kinda bland. doesn’t sound very in love to me.

Sugarcane in the easy mornin'

Weathervanes my one and lonely

OKAY THIS WAS MY FAVORITE. so there was a lot of research about this first fucking lyric and i’m sorry that i’m going to pull so many facts out but, this shit had me on the edge of my seat.

so at first, my sister was saying that sugarcane was weed. this whole album was written while high, i bet my life on it. brendon’s also said that he smoked while in high school and openly fucking admits to smoking weed currently so this isn’t a stretch in my opinion. now, my sister saw sugarcane and went ‘plant’ and was like wow, must mean weed. i wasn’t so convinced. i told her to look up strains of weed that had to do with candy. turns out there is a strain of weed called kandy kush. a little more digging by the 14 year old wonder and we found something even better. you can probably guess it’s name. sugar kush. now these next paragraphs are just gonna kinda seal my theory, alright? feel free to skip if you’re that bored of my rambles but, this shit was wild. connections up the wazoo.

now, fun fact. sugar kush is actually a cross between kandy kush and hash plant. which honestly had me laughing at the whole fucking everything, i dunno. a lot of the affects of sugar kush are relaxation. brendon has said that he’s ADHD which, i’m sure you know but still, means hyperactive. the boy can’t be still for more than a second. so sugar kush is commonly said by users to be ‘couch-locking’ which, from my understanding, is kinda like ‘i’m so fucking high that i can’t get off this couch’ or ‘i’m so fucking relaxed..’. now, since brendon is a hyperactive person, i don’t think that the couch-lock, will happen to him. i think that since he’s on a higher level than someone like me, it would bring him down to feeling like someone without ADD/ADHD rather than the couch-lock. it’s also common that sugar kush makes people happy and euphoric. now, just saying, sex doesn’t usually happen if you’re depressed. it’s hard to get your dick hard when you’re crying, alright? happy makes the dick hard. bluntest (BLUNT LOL) way of saying this.

now, there were a couple different webpages so i’m not gonna say this brief section is like a done deal. this was ‘most popular in:’ and one of the places listed is albany, oregon. which, heyo, is in the PNW.

so anyway, there was a description of the sugar kush. what type it is, who made it, things like that. then, i shit you not, (also, feel free to ask for links if you want, i’m not gonna do it here but i can answer that in an ask), “Sugar Kush nuts are emerald green” and did i not fucking say the shit about wizard of oz and seattle and the emerald city. like, shit, this is a big coincidence. moving on with the description, it’s recommended for more experienced users because of a high THC content (THC is the feel good high stuff). we all know that brendon is an extremely experienced user. i’m also going out on a limb that during pretty odd, the whole band was experiencing a lot of weed.

type of high was a little interesting. enough so that i’ll quote it. “Sugar Kush marijuana strain induces uplifting cerebral euphoria, energizes the mind, uplifts mood, relieves stress…” it also mentions that it relieves eye pressure which i found a little curious since tripping eyes… hmmMMM.

anyway. this next part is very, i don’t know, subjective? this isn’t like a 100% correct thing but it’s just another things that just fit SO WELL. users that typically like this strain are, a lot of times, male. they’re also between the ages of 20-40. not to say that people under or over can’t enjoy it but, guys, when they wrote this album they would have been right around 20. also, it mentions which zodiacs like this kush which is an odd thing to put in but, hey, cool i guess. the zodiacs were scorpio, but more so than that, virgo. unfortunately for me, brendon is not either of those. brendon is an aries. but do you know who issss a virgo? ryan fucking ross. also i believe jon walker but he’s irrelevant to this song. fun facts with admin. the similarities to this band just kinda make me laugh.

anyway, back to places. the ones that stood out to me as places of importance. portland, oregon, seattle, washington, tacoma, washington, and las vegas, nevada. las vegas is only here because that’s where the whole band is from.

for those of you who aren’t super familiar with OR/WA geography, portland, seattle, and tacoma are all super close. also gonna mention albany again. seattle and tacoma are neighboring cities. literally the worst traffic i’ve been in back to back. it sucks if you’re trying to get to B.C. canada. anyway, those both are about like 2-3 (depending on traffic and such) away from portland. in the scheme of things, that’s not really far apart. i’ve done that drive a lot. also, albany was said to be into sugar kush a lot. albany is about like an hour away from portland. so they’re all really close honestly. the farthest apart being albany to seattle and even then that’s like 5-ish hours? that’s 100% doable in a day.

just again pointing out that seattle found a way to be relevant to this song.

then we get to a section with ‘makes you feel:’ and ‘helps with:’

so in the makes you feel section it says it makes you feel attentive, and for real, did you mean brendon urie? it also mentions sociable but that’s kinda in and out on being relevant. then helps with. it says arthritis and muscle spasms and those don’t quite fit but what does fit into things i’ve mentioned, HEADACHES. guys, like, i wish i could make up these amazing coincidences. STILL NOT SAYING ANYTHING ABOUT BRENDON, but the fact that headaches is coming back up and not only that, it was listed under migraines. like i said before, migraines are the type that are unavoidable, you can’t just drink more water and cure them. those can be extremely debilitating. so the fact that this specific strain helps with that is just.. mind blowing.

this part is a users testimony to it. this isn’t the same for every single person but it was interesting. “very sugary” is the very first thing he says (with a typo, damn stoners). remember, this is all has been in relation to the one fucking line ‘sugarcane in the easy morning’.’ then he says that when you first smoke this, the first taste you get of it tastes like cane sugar. which, sugarcane, cane sugar, do you get my point? he also says that it has, after the sugar, a lil fruity taste which is just slight. what he does say is that the sugar taste is really in your face. don’t take this as a dig at brendon, but he can be seen as a little in your face at times. i don’t think it’s bad but it’s just curious to point out. also, he says that the sugar flavor lasts a few seconds even after the smoke is gone.

so, with all that in mind, sugarcane in the easy mornin’ is literally just wake and bake. sugarcane is the first thing they taste when they wake up aka sugar kush. easy aka relaxing. thank you. give me a judges gavel so i can slam it on a desk.

the next line is weathervanes, my one and lonely. going back to seattle (though this could be literally anywhere that gets stormy so..) if you don’t know, a weathervane is an instrument, really. you see it on tops of houses, USUALLY a rooster but can be anything. it tells you which direction the wind is coming from (north, east, south, west. now, during a storm, the rain and wind go the same way. we’ve already concluded that the rain and the downpour are depression coming for brendon so this line is just ryan making fun of him.

my one and lonely is a play on the romantic phrase, my one and only. it’s cute, okay? so ryan has known for probably a long time that brendon is in love with him but up until cape town, brendon never asks if it’s returned, he’s just been hoping privately. who wants to put money on the fact that brendon has referred to ryan as his one and only? it’s been said that he slept around in high school which leads me to believe that ryan could be brendon’s first love. we all know our first love seems like the only love we’ll ever have. so this is kind of ryan making fun of him. ryan is going back to the northern downpour with the weather vane which is pointing in the direction of where the depression is going (at brendon). then he says my one and lonely because brendon is going to be lonely. brendon’s one and only isn’t ryan, it’s depression when ryan finally admits he didn’t love brendon and goes. so this line is kind of just him laughing. fuck you. i have no idea how this can even be turned romantically like ???

so the chorus is repeated a lot with the pre chorus and this whole song is kind of beautiful. it sounds like a love song but it really really isn’t. it’s done with soft instruments and soft voices and it makes you feel happy. ryan brings up the hey moon again. refreshing your mind after all that weed, is “brendon” asking for ryan to fall in love.

so then, the chorus changes a little at the very end.

“Hey moon, please forget to fall down

Hey moon, don't you go down”

You are at the top of my lungs

Drawn to the ones who never yawn

this is the very last thing we hear. the first two lines don’t change. it’s still mocking. the last two though, man. ‘you are at the top of my lungs’ really reminds me of moaning somebody’s name. like, when you’re about to orgasm and the first thing out of your mouth is their name. then, it’s saying that that moan is drawn to the ones who never yawn (replace that with sleep). this is all just ryan being really fucking blunt in his secretive subtle way. did anyone else notice that those two lines are very sexual? like.. their relationship?

the first two lines are brendon, asking for ryan to fall in love. the last two lines are ryan’s response. he says no, i don’t love you. i am here for sex.

again, ryan wrote this as a warning, all of this was ryan saying that it won’t last, that he’s not in love. i’d just like to mention tripping eyes again and the fact that brendon didn’t understand the meaning of this song. he took it as ryan’s way of admitting love. he was blinded yet again by his own naivety.

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founders-imagines · 8 years ago

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//Ohhhh my duuuuudes I didn’t realize how many replies I had to do and I’m so sorry lol. I didn’t want to interrupt character week with replies, so today’s the day. All expect the top reply is under the cut! The first one is also a PSA and I wanted everyone to see it. Thank you to everyone to wanted to chat or say something <3

I made this first so because it’s pretty much a PSA: yes, as of today (3/19) the ask box is CLOSED. I had a ton of build up from character week, namely I have nearly 50 asks mixed for the trio, Madara and Izuna. I would really like to clear the inbox before I reopen it, so that no one feels like they were skipped over. The plan is to reopen next weekend though! Ty for asking<3

….I have actually not? Although I wouldn’t say that Shrek Forever After is really not my watch list lol

SO SWEET MY DUDE aaahhhh!!!! It was so incredibly nice of you to send this in my dude, seriously made my night. I’m glad to be here for the founders’ part of the fandom, I just love them so much. Thank you so so much for your kindness, hope you have a good day too <3

If you didn’t see your request, no worries! I can almost guarantee it’s in my inbox, but I was pretty overwhelmed with asks for both Madara and Izuna during character week. I plan on getting through them all over this week, so if you don’t see it by the time I reopen the askbox next weekend feel free to send it in again!

AH IT WAS YOU my angsty anon, I love youuuuuu!! So glad that character week turned out so well, minus some mistakes on my part but I’ll be better prepared for the next one now. I low-key want to make an AO3 account and write mini-fics on some of these asks, especially doc x Mads! Future project for sure <3

AHAHAHAHA that’s that, those are what we gotta call the trio now. Oh! Izuna has to be…Wind Daddy?? lol. Like avatar but founders. Tysm for sending this it really made me laugh <3

I’m SO GLAD YOU LIKE THEM! I struggle writing Tobirama, I think I have the hardest time with him and because of that I tend to spend extra time on him. Stoked to hear it’s working out well aha <3

When I read this I had to recover from laugh my ass off for a solid five minutes. The fifty shades soundtrack is so spot on for Madara’s modern au sex life tbh, especially that particular ask. So perfect lol (aw thanks I’m happy you dig my writing<3)

I hope this is readable, idk why my screenshot extension saved it like this???? Thanks my dude! Glad you found me on a great day ;) Madara day is every day in my heart tbh

Yeah, I would, plugging in a name is just my personal preference. I use a random name generator and pick the best choice out of ten names, but if the asker requests that I just use “reader” or “s/o” I’d be willing to do that too. I’m glad you like my writing! <3

My sweet Uchiha fluff boy deserves so much love I swear…..Kagami is a ray of sunshine. You’re so welcome, I’m so glad that someone asked about writing him, otherwise I probably wouldn’t have thought about it. After writing some things for him now though, he’s my baby son and I love him <3

Where a girl can see how a future relationship will end by touching someone’s hand, and in short it’s a scenario (now a mini fic……….pls forgive me……..D:) about her meeting Hashirama who shares the same ability and so forth. I’m still writing it, so I don’t want to give too much away. It’ll be shared here, and on the AO3 account I’m making (which I’ll post a link to later today)

I AM SO SO HAPPY YOU LIKED IT!!!! It was so much fun to write, Tobirama + his ragtag team is slowly becoming a favorite of mine

Again I’m sorry for the quality of this screenshot! But, that’s what I’m here for! Just to spread the founders’ love <3 they all need it (plus their own series but nooooooo)

Okay okay listen, I will write whatever gender the asker wants, but if they don’t include a specific gender I write gender-neutral, they/them and s/o. If you feel like I don’t do that well enough then…okay? Like, me the writer of this blog is gender fluid and I shouldn’t have to disclose that but come on dude, I’m not hetero either???? If the asker wants me to write something for them in a certain way with pronouns, like requesting girlfriend/wife, I’m going to write like that.

Izuna is such an amazing character with potential just wasted by Kishi. I actually used to rp Izuna, so I had a pretty good hold on his character before making this blog. I’m so glad you think I write them all well though! Tobirama is someone I struggle writing as at times, especially for headcanons that are fluffy or romantic. I put in a lot of effort into these characters because I love them all and I don’t think I’ll ever be over them tbh. Glad to see I’m def not the only one lol

#replies #sef speaks

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survivorreelsmagicwithin · 5 years ago

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RITES OF PASSAGE (JURY)

AUTUMN

@ Jurors: y’all play too much and it’s a miracle that I don’t have an ulcer lmao. Idk how this is all gonna turn out but I pray my placement justifies the trillion emotions I’ve had in the past 35 days

AUTUMN

One day, one day we will get it right hahaha. I don’t know why our relationship makes no sense to this day and I need you to go ham the next time we play together again. Vote wise, I just knew you could get swooped up by Hufflepuff once merge came so that led to everyone agreeing and being like we need all hands on deck to take out Hufflepuff. But yeah I hope you’re well and that you’ve gotten lots of tea and entertainment as the second juror- this was definitely the game to watch

CHIPS

Did not get to see you!! But dude I was thrilled at the idea of seeing you in this game! You are so much fun and was hoping you’d spend more time playing the game even though I know you’re busy hosting Big Brother seasons!

JULS

hi baby.. HSBSNS i’m literally so sad we were never together on a team.. but i just know the universe wasn’t ready for something so powerful. i just wanted to let you know you are so lovely and i adore you!!! my best friend yes it true.. ugh mwah i can’t wait to be in the reunion chat with so i can hug ur cute lil self

RUTHIE

A legend! I’m sorry that we never got the chance to play together in this game and hope that you are doing well!! Congrats on making jury and I hope you are doing well!

Autumn

Everyone still talks about how hilarious you are and every round I’m like damn I really still haven’t met Max. Highkey everything happens for a reason though because we probably would’ve been on opposite sides. Plus this game was too cracked and the whole being grounded thing would’ve been your Achilles heel at merge. Anyway I’m still excited to meet you and just vibe

CHIPS

Man! Your social game! Or game in general is ON POINT! I am not even joking - for a whole tribe to go to bat for you and be willing to eliminate themselves is KING ENERGY! Especially with the number saying they felt foolish after the rock elimination. I loved getting to know you throughout the game and it was so COOL getting to see your Animal Crossing island. You were so much fun and I think that had we not been swapped onto a tribe of four that you would have ran deep in this game.

JULS

oh max.. literally i saw his icon and already told him i love him within the first hour of the cast reveal HSVSBSN i was obsessed! him landen and i quickly grouped up due to our mutual interests and i literally would die for that group chat still. max is not only so understanding and kind, but so funny and made the best out of any situation. i felt awful voting him twice in this game, but he ultimately understood which i am still grateful for.

RUTHIE

A KING! There was NEVER a dull moment with you around! I was glad that my tribe won but sad that your tribe lost in the round that you went home because I remembered you mentioning that you were grounded shortly before the swap happened. I hope that you are no longer grounded and thanks so much for all the fun times and the laughs! Sorry in advance for complaining about you in the confessionals during the first challenge, LOL. I adore you and had so much fun meeting you and playing with you!!

AUTUMN

I knew you would do this hahahaha. knew you would do some wild shit that pisses me off but reminds me why I love you. You’ll always be one of the greatest players to me so this face-off in particular means more to me a) because I prevailed lmao and b) a lot has changed since our Athena days. You’ll see in the confessionals lmao but the whole game I was like Owen can’t die because who are we without the other. We’re like the Batman and the Joker at this point hahaha. We are icons alone but legends anytime we’re put in the same room. So if we do the math, this was our second square up and that makes this The Dark Knight so maybe we’ll get to complete the trilogy and play together one more time

CHIPS

Dude! I can’t believe I pulled a rock for you! It shocked me so much.I know that our relationship in games is pretty tumultuous leaning into the fact that we just never connect, but I’m proud of that moment. It was a moment that we talked game and worked together and even got into an alliance. However, speaking to that, you did disappoint me RIGHT AT MERGE by trying to flip the vote on me. I don’t even understand. Anyway - want to play Animal Crossing?

JULS

every time i’ve played with owen, he’s been nothing less than an absolute gem. he has such a kind soul, and is one of the most kick ass players i have ever met. we worked together briefly, and even when i voted him out he was incredibly understanding of my decision and reassured me that he loves me. and i love him! every moment with him is a blessing, and i can’t wait to reunite with him at the end of this all.

RUTHIE

OH GOD, we had quite the ride! From making a final two deal on the first night (RELAX EVERYONE, this was before everyone was told they couldn’t) to me getting salty and writing your name down that led to rocks to you leaving making me feel the most emotional I have EVER felt in a game… we had a ride!! I absolutely love you and I love that we could talk game and then bounce around to other stuff like life and boys! You leaving when you did completely gutted me and had a big impact on my game and how I decided to play going forward. I cried A LOT but then got myself together and whether I make it to the final three or get fourth place I feel like I played a really good game and without you I KNOW I would not have made it this far! You are a complete ray of sunshine and I’m so glad that we got to play something together again!!

AUTUMN

Speaking of trilogies, I don’t even know what to say here lmao because I think this is the second or third time we’ve played together? And now we have Akhmim lmaaaoo. Not gonna lie had you listened to me and lived, you probably would’ve won in the end because like I said you’re the best of the best. So thank you for saving Ruthie and clearing the path hahaha. I cannot wait for you to see the confessionals lmao. I’m sure jury has told you by now that I voted you but you need to watch the video because I had no clue you were going home and I felt so bad that I threw my vote hahaha. But yes now we have something else to laugh about lmao

CHIPS

It’s seriously always a pleasure being cast in games with you! I love that you always give your all in everything. I appreciate completely that you are ALWAYS willing to talk with and try to work with me in these things. I appreciate that, even when my conversations are boring cardboard you feign interest. You are a fantastic individual who needs to be told that! I am sorry that this game affected you in such a way that you felt down and done with the community and the rigamarole. I hope you are at a happier place in your personal life now and saw that you were cast in a Tumblr Survivor season! I wish you the absolute BEST in that and hope it doesn’t create more strain on you.

JULS

we didn’t talk much, and literally right when merge happened he stole my vote so i was kinda pissed HDBDNN but i empathized with him on a personal level and what was going on with him. he was overall a very nice and chill guy, and i overall really liked him.

RUTHIE

Plot twist… up until the Owen vote I thought you were out to GET ME!! And that you and Joanna were a duo! I am SO happy that we got to play this game together. Between Owen leaving the round before and then you giving me your immunity idol to hang onto, I had so many ugly tears and it meant SO much to me. The night that you left when I gave you the idol back I really thought that I was a goner and I genuinely wanted you to use the idol on yourself. I came to terms that I was leaving and you are REALLY good at challenges and I knew you would do great if you stuck around. The fact that you SAVED ME! ME!!! Someone that didn’t think that you really wanted to work with me until the round before just completely blew my mind and I just wish we would have both made it so we could have taken over the game together! It means so much to me that you saved me and that I made it to this point because without you and you saving me with that idol I DEFINITELY would not have made it to where I am right now. I hope that everything is going well with you and your fiance and that everything is going well at work! I love you and I’m so glad we got a chance to play together, you are such a great person and I have had so much fun, thanks so much again! <3

AUTUMN

Girl. What the hell hahahaha. Ok I do really love you even though my confessionals will suggest otherwise but yeah we have tea to discuss because I loved you at the beginning but I saw the way you came after so many people that once I found out what really happened between you and Owen, that was like the last straw. It is definitely all in my confessionals haha but I did care about our alliance so for y’all to flip the vote at Final 11 last minute and not even tell the truth about what happened made me feel like yall thought my social game was for you and I was just like nah I gotta cut my losses. And then once Kevin blew up the vote at Final 10, that was the nail in the coffin. Looking back, it’s wild to see all that came out of that alliance dying/ I think that was the actual line in the sand moreso that tribe lines, which most people don’t know. But yeah we can’t get into aaaaaaaallll this right here haha so see you on the other side

CHIPS

You are an icon. That’s literally the truth. Point blank and the period. I loved getting to meet you SO MUCH! I don’t even know where to start with this. You are probably the first person in an ORG that is to the point. Someone who doesn’t beat around the bush and someone who knows how they are going to win and how they are going to get there. I am SORRY for making the round you left so so messy. I did not realize at that point how close you were to Juls so I’m sure that the back and forth was a mess. In my defence I did tell you the TRUTH in that you were getting voted and me lying about Landen was a mess. Please continue to be fantastic! And if you ever want to speak to me either here or on Discord I would welcome it gladly because I love you as a person.

JULS

GOD. my love for jules is actually infinite. it’s no secretly we’re basically the best of friends, alongside with kevin. but this was my first game that i’ve been able to play with them. they’re such a loyal and dedicated player, and i’m literally just obsessed. i constantly remind them of how much i love and adore them, but i will constantly remind them of such. they’re beautiful both inside and out, so fucking funny, and are literally just so angelic. they light up any room they walk into and if i’m joining them in jury, or seeing them at FTC i’m gonna cry because of how much i’ve missed them game wise. i literally sobbed whenever they got voted out so seeing them again will mean the world to me.

RUTHIE

UGH, a queen! I LOVED our conversations and how we would write each other novels and did not even talk game until this round when you went home! We didn’t always work together or anything but the fact that you came to me after Dan saved me and told me you didn’t vote for me meant SO MUCH. You were one of three people that talked to me after the vote and I went from feeling like I was on the bottom to having a little bit of hope. You going was a weird vote and I still don’t know the entire story and why I wasn’t clued in on it until after the fact but I am so glad I got to play with you! I hope you are doing well and as soon as we get to all talk to each other again expect a reply to the last book you left me that I never got a chance to reply to!! <3

AUTUMN

Oh my son. it’s weird because your robbery meant that I didn’t have to do it but I still feel like they did you dirty. Also I can’t believe we only had 5 rounds together it feels like we knew each other the whole time. Maybe it’s because we had the best of times and the worst of times which feels like a whole arc haha. But anyway- thank you for being you, for being funny and perceptive and cracked and hyperactive and caring and loyal and understanding. Meeting you was such a pleasant surprise and I didn’t realize how much I enjoyed our friendship until you were gone. I have no clue which video it’s in but at one point in a confessional I said “Landen’s like a damn Jack Russell Terrier” lmaaaoo. And it’s true! You will always get feisty and get into trouble but you’re a lot of fun and bring heart to everything you do and I love it

CHIPS

Dude! You were amped up SO HIGH in this game. I don’t even know where to start. You were bouncing off the walls with a million ideas and a million scenarios. And… WOW! I loved that you always remained open to working with me throughout the game and LOVED the round that we both lied and made the vote split. You are super wild and I am glad that I earned your trust in that round even if you went on to get voted out the following one. I heard that you were worried I was going to vote for you anyway and were propositioning Autumn to turn on me. Glad you didn’t!

JULS

my husband.. the loml.. and the most cracked player i have EVER played with. HDBND the first time i played with landen, our time was cut short. so i literally JUMPED whenever i saw i got to play with him again. we’ve always instantly clicked because of our similar interests, but that just brought us closer in this game. even though he pissed me off a bunch in this game, there’s not a thing i don’t adore about mr disasterprince. i’m gonna give him a big ol’ kiss when i see him :flushed: no but seriously i truly do consider him one of my best friends and i really hope to talk to him a bunch after this.

RUTHIE

This was honestly another really hard vote and I’m sorry. It was completely strategic and NEEDED to be done. This week was a very important one to me because it was the FIRST TIME that I voted with the majority and actually kinda sorta knew what was happening, haha. YOU are a complete ray of sunshine and I LOVED playing with you and watching you play. If you would have stayed there is no way anyone would have beat you in my opinion (no offense to anyone but SERIOUSLY) and when you get old enough I need you to send an audition in to be on Survivor because THAT would make for great TV!! I will never eat a marshmallow again without thinking about team hufflepuff! I love you and I hope you are doing well. I DEFINITELY could not have made it this far without you. Thank you for everything and once this thing is over I think that you, Lily, Kevin and I should revive our hufflepuff alliance chat (and maybe even add Max too, haha!)

AUTUMN

And my daughter. I WANTED YOU TO LIVE!!! And it’s in the confessionals too! But I felt like you weren’t really with me after the Landen vote and I felt like I’d be better off letting go of anyone who wouldn’t vote Kevin and then attempt to reunite Gryffindor in the process. Obviously it worked lmao but I really grew to understand you and care about you so I was relieved that you weren’t at tribal that night. Our relationship was literally the most surprising thing to me and I’m lowkey nervous to see what I wrote at the beginning cause I remember thinking you and I would never get along lmao. But anyway, you are my favorite Ravenclaw member NO CONTEST and I’m really glad we got to play together. You’re very no-nonsense and unbothered and it always made me laugh as well as wish that I wasn’t an overthinker. I always just say “it’s just not that deep” irl and I feel like that’s you as a person. You care and you don’t take anyone’s shit but you also don’t let things get to you and it was so refreshing to be around you each round while everyone’s losing their shit and you’re just like I’m not gonna be at tribal anyway so like I really don’t fucking care hahahahaha. You are the best and thank you for everything

CHIPS

I am so sorry that your senior year of school got ruined by a virus. That is honestly the worst! It displaces your mind and everything so much. I hope the best for you and really wish for a positive road forward not only for you but for everyone! I hope that you know what a great person you were and the times that we were able to connect in this game were positive experiences. I look very much forward to using Airplane Mode to play games and avoid ads.

JULS

QUEEN. SHIT. god, so at first she and i did Not talk at all, and after seeing we both mutually agreed i was probably the goat of the season i said legend.. HSBSNN and that’s when our bond began because of our interests in books. and i’m defiantly taking her suggestions into account so i have a reason to message that queen again.. also a strategic mastermind.. i love everything abt her yes it’s true.

RUTHIE

I’m sure you leaving was a very ‘What the hell???’ moment for a lot of people. This is a move that I’m still kind of unsure about, I’m not sure it was the best move but it was something I felt like I needed to do for the strategic reason of gaining Lily’s trust going forward. I’m sorry, I’m still at the point where I’m not sure that the risk was worth it but you are such a lovely person and I’m glad that we got to play together! I love that you are a LEGIT Harry Potter fan and I am happy to say that I ORDERED THE FIRST HARRY POTTER BEAUTIFULLY ILLUSTRATED BOOK THAT WE TALKED ABOUT!! :)

AUTUMN

Lil boy…. I don’t know where to begin with you lmaaaaooo. Because I adore you as a person but you really tried it in this game! And I never saw that coming. I knew this game would be intense because of all the heavyweights- Lily, Ruthie, Owen, Dan- that I’ve played with before but you are now 100% in that category. Your mist will get you far, I hope you know that. Like you are incredibly charming and personable so it’s no surprise that people flock to you and I at one point felt like you were my closest ally. I wish things had been better between us at the end? Cause like I missed the good ol days when we could both talk life and talk game. But once I found out the truth about the Final 11 vote and how you stirred the pot only for you to turn around and blow up the Lily vote at Final 10, that fall from grace was STEEP. Which is on me? Cause like maybe I could’ve forgiven you like Juls did but then maybe I wouldn’t be here because you would’ve just kept trying to dupe me round after round. SO I don’t regret anything persay but I still love you and you are the real deal

CHIPS

Honestly! Talking to you was a highlight of the game. I’m just very sad that we didn’t really speak game ever. I get that we were clearly on separate sides of the fence and that no matter what was said it probably would have been lies anyway. Also, I get that we likely would have been relaying the information to the “other side” no matter what but it was disappointing. I loved talking movies with you and am more than willing to continue speaking about them and weird ones after the season if you want.

JULS

my duo <3 HSVSBSBN honestly.. kinda glad we got pinned together even though we were 1000% already aligned. it was just so fun to play dumb. this was also my first experience Actually playing with you so having the alliance with you and jules filled me with so much joy. you guys literally MADE this game for me, and i can’t thank you guys enough for wanting to work with me. i also cried when you got voted out!!! a bunch.. i understand why people did it but it still made me so upset.. i wanted to make it to the end with you and jules so bad, so if i make it to ftc just know it’s for YALL and YALL only. i love you so much and hope you realize that, because being able to get to know you has been some of the best moments of my life!

RUTHIE

You leaving was hard. I knew it was going to happen and part of me DOES wish that I told you so that you, Juls and I could have tied up the votes and kept you around. Lily and I discussed the vote that day and were torn between the plan or you because you are a HUGE threat! We decided to do the vote split but Lily got quiet and I just kind of figured something was up so I talked to her before hand and she decided she was going to vote with Autumn and Chips and I decided that the best move for me was to (FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE) keep my mouth quiet. You are a ray of sunshine and I loved working with you during the game. I definitely couldn’t have made it this far without you and time will tell if it was a smart move or not. It was so much fun playing with you and working with you! I have no idea if you are going to take a break after this game or not but I hope we run into each other again in something in the future!! THIS HAS BEEN WILD AND FUN!

AUTUMN

Why does the hardest one have to be last oooof. I just wanna say that I meant what I said and I really enjoyed playing with you. Idk how to explain it but after you bamboozled me in Kilimanjaro, I was very ready to handle business and take out Hufflepuff by any means necessary. However I didn’t anticipate that all the rounds of us being on the same side and talking about life and game would really change me. Like I knew it was a matter of time before we took a proper shot at each other? But it was really bittersweet because I knew that you were hurting and trying to save your game and that both of our fates would be decided by one vote. My biggest thing was just knowing you would pull a lot of votes between all of Hufflepuff being on jury and me and Chips, if we walk(ed?) in. We’ll never know technically but once I started doing the math, I was like if I would vote Lily plus all the people from her actual tribe it’s a wrap. If we were different kinds of players, I think we would actually sit beside each other hahaha but that’s easier said than done since you get me and I get you. I always remembered how brilliant and strategic you were and how dumb I was for underestimating you in Kili but I never saw how compassionate and wholesome you are until this game. Basically it was a lot easier to play with you when we weren’t actually merged/ playing together lol because then I was just a strategist as supposed to now, a strategist that made (and then betrayed) a really good friend. I love you and I miss you and it was an honor to really play with you

CHIPS

I think that you should know how much I adore you. Ever since I first met you however long ago you have been one of my favorite people in this community. I know that you are good at these games and that you always play to win! I know that you always want to make genuine connections and friendships. I am NOT kidding when I say that we need to stay in communication better when we are not in a game. You are a light that I want to continue to see! Honestly hearing about Kevin or your dog or the Kindergarteners or anything else is SO pleasant and fun. You are fabulous! And you are absolutely correct in what you said in your closing statement - YOU WOULD HAVE WON!

JULS

genuinely such a kind person. i’m not used to people talking in such a proper way too, but it made lily so cute. we defiantly didn’t see eye to eye in a lot of competition, but i had so much fun with her. especially during the music video competition and the endless amount of kindness she showed me. i love her!!

RUTHIE

While as of lately, even when I vote in the minority I HAVE known who would be going home but you leaving definitely came as a shock to me tonight. We have had a CRAZY game together and definitely not been on the same page the entire time but I have loved playing with you and getting to know you! I honestly feel lost without you right now. Who am I going to talk about Disney movies with? Who am I going to talk about Disney World, mouse ears, cute date ideas, weddings, school stuff and SO MUCH MORE with? I didn’t cry, only because I worked really hard to desensitize myself to that after ‘week Owen’ because writing this out I REALLY want to cry. In the beginning you were DEFINITELY my closest ally in the game. I loved idol hunting with you and I felt like I could tell you ANYTHING and trust that you not tell anyone. I know that we kind of played against each other AND got saved by idols on the same night (which was iconic). I’ve been battling with myself over wanting you out or wanting to sit in the finals with you because if I was sitting next to you I don’t think I would have a strong chance of winning but it would be next to YOU!! I would rather lose next to you than anyone else and I honestly think you deserve to be here. Fun fact that I never told you- around 8 I asked if I could give my immunity to someone because I wanted to give it to you to insure you make it even if it meant that I leave and I was shown in the rules where it had to be done 4 hours prior to tribal. It would have been a stupid move on my part because I do want to win but if I can’t win I would have wanted it to be you. You are such a sweet soul and I KNOW we will stay friends after all this. This has been a wild and crazy ride but I got to meet and reconnect with a lot of great people and you are definitely one of them! And now I’m crying. This was hard and I don’t know HOW I’m going to make final three without you but I’m going to try.

RUTHIE

I’m not sure if this is even allowed but I just wanted to say that I have had a BLAST! This is honestly my favorite game I have ever played. The hosting has been great and this was such a good cast. I have no idea what is going to happen, if I’m going to get fourth.. (like usual), win or even get second or third place but I am very proud of myself and proud of everyone that is in the final four! Everyone here has played such different games and I can’t wait to see what happens! Thank you so much Sammy, Caeleb and Eve for hosting this, I will come back to play ANY TIME, even if it means having to play on discord! Thanks so much and thank you to everyone in the final three! If I become the last juror I have NO idea who I would vote for because everyone left is a deserving winner and has played a great game! Good luck guys! <3

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ios-olympusmons · 7 years ago

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This is the second of two posts. Enclosed are messages for Connor, Matthias, Chris, Leah, Dom, Jill, Cole and Emily.

Elsa - Havana ohh nana Half of my heart… Sorry, I felt obligated to start my message to you with those iconic lyrics. Your elimination was also premature… surprise BB weeks in Survivor ORGs, and vice-versa, are always a nightmare. It’s just such a shame that you had to be the main victim of that week. I hope listening to Camila’s steady stream of new music has been a source of comfort. xxx

JC - CONNOR AKDJDHD queen u weren’t even supposed to leave sorry for robbing u but I was just tryna save myself gtg be euthanized

Nicholas - UwU you were robbed!!! I can’t believe we are dead ass never going to get to play a survivor game together where we both make it decently far. U know how I feel about you so no need to say it here ^__^

Ruthie - I was SO NERVOUS when I saw that you, Pippa and Chris were playing in this season. I felt like you all hated me from season one and that y’all were going to like form something together with the sole purpose of getting me out. I have NO IDEA if you voted for Jordan during that one tribal that he went or not like you told me you did but either way, thank you for doing so. I wish we would have talked more, you left WAY too soon!

Elsa - Siiiiigh… yet another ally I lost in this game. Unlike with Rafael though, I knew people were voting for you Matthias, and I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I didn’t want to worry you!! And I thought there would have been enough votes to keep you… but well, people lie, and the outcome was tragic. Tbh, if people were voting for me, I’d want to know, so I should have just told you. I hope you were told by someone else and it wasn’t a complete blindside. But if it was, I really really am sorry ♥ ♥

JC - Fatthias :(( the first game that I didn’t vote you out/plot ur demise..we were actually gonna work together in this one!! Sad

Nicholas - You’re crackedt!!!!!! I came into this game thinking of you as like a pre-made in a way but when we finally got to be on a tribe together you started throwing my name around and it got super messy. At merge I think we finally reconnected and were willing to take a risk and do some real damage to Cole/Dom/Leah. Tbh I’m glad that you were one of the few people who had the balls to initially go against them and I think in a way u set the tone for us targeting them in ur absence!! I hope mcdonalds/subway/jenny craig is treating u well!!!

Ruthie - We didn’t talk all game which SUCKED because we always used to talk. It was still fun to see you around this season, you were definitely an All Star and always will be. <3

Elsa - We kind of stopped talking after merge, which was… well, not anyone’s fault really. It’s really hard maintaining conversations with multiple people in a game. Hngh, despite hearing that you wanted me out at one point (completely expected btw cuz we weren’t allies anyway), I’m still sorry you had to go out the way you did.

JC - I’m sorry I know you were trying to make a big move the week you left and it’s kind of my fault that that move failed to happen I’m sorry I hope you can understand why I did what I did though

Nicholas - I feel like we had a whole series of ups and downs in this game. During the Pippa vote I felt like we really connected right before I flipped on y’all and I always felt after that like we were on bad terms even though you were super forgiving and great about it and I think that speaks a lot to your nature as a player and as a person too. Moving onto merge, honestly I’m still angry that the vote went so poorly when you left. For literally the entirety of the time we were together on a tribe or at merge I wanted to work together but I felt like we always had a different perspective on what was going on. I guess I kind of always saw you and emily as cole and dom and leah’s “side hoes” for lack of a better term and that prevented me from really having any substantial conversations about the game with you. It wasn’t until the failed Cole vote that we finally saw eye to eye and I’m glad that me/you/ruthie/emily were able to connect, if only for like ten minutes, and compare notes and make sure that we knew what was going on. Had you stayed in the game I feel like we would have totally dominated as a group, but just know that the 5-5 vote, even though it took your “life” in the game set the tone for the next couple of rounds to come!

Ruthie - I WAS SO SAD to see you go. I know that our alliance was a new thing but it was just SO CUTE! I wasn’t expecting you to go and it just made my head SPIN! It was fun getting to play with you again after the craziness that was season one! You are such a fun person to talk to, thanks for everything!

Elsa - Leah lol, AHHHHHHHHHHH. I’m not entirely sure if I’m supposed to include you in this, but if I am.... AAHHHHHHHHH. Gosh, the night you were removed in the game was extremely painful, but looking back on it, it was just plain amusing. We (the alliance at the time) went from being on top, to being screwed real quick. I hope whatever irl things you have going on are going well, and it would be fun to play with you again!! x

JC - LEAH BINCH WHY DID U HAVE TO BE MEDEVACD AKDJDJD..MESSY. Queen of rocks though.

Nicholas - rip an inactive queen. We did talk once and it was nice and I’ll always have an appreciation for others who have been rocked out of this series !!!

Ruthie - GIRL. This is All Stars, where were you all game? It was fun playing with you, I don’t think we ever talked either but we played my first game ever together and you are one of my favorite people in the community, you’re such a fun person and I never get tired of seeing what you post on Instagram when you post things!

Elsa - Still crying tbh… yeah, that night was a real mess. Our time working together in the game was too short!!! ): Idk why we didn’t start working together from earlier on tbh, but oh well. Our alliance was brutally cut short and it sucked big time. You are a great and wonderful person, and I’m glad to have met you through BBGlee and IOS!!! ♥

JC - Dom omg you were so robbed you had such an amazing social game though and could’ve probably won if things went slightly differently

Nicholas - I really don’t know how we ended up on complete opposite sides of this game as one another. It felt like before merge we worked together really well and honestly when we were on Curiosity you were one of the people who I told literally everything about the game. And even into merge when there were like 40 of us and the votes were so unpredictable I felt like we were really close allies still. And then I’m not really sure what happens but pretty soon after that we ended up on opposite sides of the game and it actually really sucked having to write down your name at the Live night because I did feel like there was always a potential for us to smooth things over and maybe low-key work together. you were definitely taken out in a really ugly way and it was honestly kind of sad because I didn’t really think it would come to that in this game. I do know that everyone in the game really did like you and respect you as a player! Hope all is going well ~

Ruthie - This was 100% the hardest vote in the game. I’m really sorry, Dom. I know that you and I somehow end up on opposite sides and I promise I don’t go into games thinking ‘OH LOOK, THERE’S DOM, LET ME DO HIM DIRTY’ even though I know it might seem like I do. You are a social king, strategic king, there is no competition that you can’t excel in. You are just SO EASY to talk to- too easy. I definitely fought with myself over voting you out this season. First of all I really liked the alliance that you, Cole and I had but I heard that you guys were in several and that made me think that you and Cole were closer than I was with you or than I was with Cole. Seeing how close y’all were just made it that more evident that in order to weaken Cole that we would have to get rid of you. On a personal level I love you so much, you are such a nice and caring person and I hope that you never change and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You don’t even want to know how many albums I’ve downloaded JUST BECAUSE you posted a great bop and I had to listen to more. I love you, I’m sorry for doing you so dirty and I’m glad that you didn’t take any of the game moves personally and that we are still good. <3

Elsa - Lol Jill, I love how we’d go from not talking to each other for days at a time, to asking each other wtf was gonna happen at tribal that week. Truly a bizarre partnership, dunno if that’s the right word. I’m sorry you got rocked out when you did, but like with Kaitlyn, much props for taking the risk of going to rocks at that point in the game. I’m also sorry if I annoyed with my whole spiel before tribal; had to do what I could to try and save my allies!! ^^;

JC - JILL!!! Queen of cats! Queen of rocks! Queen of never being voted out of IoS! You were so nice, a fav

Nicholas - okay so honestly i never get sad when people get removed from the game but I was sad after you got removed because I miss talking to you!!!!! You were probably one of the only people on this cast who I didn’t really know or had never heard of before this game and I’m so glad that I not only got to play with you but also be in an alliance and just chat in general. thx for letting me be a freak and do ur stat hw!!! no matter what happens in the rest of this game i hope that we can be friends plz

Ruthie - GIRL. You are such a freaking ray of sunshine. You and I didn’t talk much at all until like… pretty close to when you left. I remember being at Walmart and having to drive and convinced that Emily was secretly aligned with Dom and Cole then messaging you to steal my necklace and the rest was HISTORY! I’m so glad that I got to know you at least a little bit better, you are such a fun person and the alliance that we were in will probably forever be one of my favorite alliances of all time. I love you, I can’t wait to get to talk to you again… although I hope I won’t see you in jury!!

Elsa - Coleee )))))): Honestly, idk how you managed to… idk, I guess just survive for as long as you did. You had such a huge target on your back for so long, and it really is commendable that you managed to team up with people that were willing to go to extreme lengths to save you, myself included. I’m still thankful that you didn’t go through with voting me out after Chris suggested I be the vote that week… I mean, we weren’t really working together at that point, but you still saved me and that meant a lot. I’m really glad I got to know you through this ORG; you are one of the nicest people I have ever met, and the images you sent to the tribe chat, as well as your drags were the highlights of this entire game for me. If I could have saved you with an extra vote, you know I would have. Love you lots xxxxxxxxxxx ♥ ♥

JC - Coleeee :( we went from being complete enemies to loyal allies, it was really tough voting u out and ur super cool and I hope we can remain friends

Nicholas - I don’t really know what to say because I feel like we quickly went from being allies to rivals in this game. I think no matter what anyone says you definitely were able to stretch out your time in this game by at least 8 days by pulling some really smart tricks and stunts that typically flop if anyone tries it. Your tactics of trying to break some cracks in our alliance really did almost work and it was admirable how after dom and leah were gone you fought for 2 rounds and literally pulled almost every single trick in the book to stay. I know that if you managed to slide your way to the end of the game you definitely would have racked up some votes for constantly dodging votes. Either way, well played and you definitely have a lot to be proud of. Trying to get you out of this game was incredibly difficult and that was mostly because of your social savy and ability to get people to do what you wanted and be extremely loyal to you. So good job on a game well played!

Ruthie - I feel like you hate me now, and I hope you don’t. I really liked being aligned with you and Dom but I just felt like I was like y’alls pet goat that y’all were getting ready to take to the end. I hope you know that me turning on you was 100% strictly game, I had to do what was best for me because whether you believe me or not I think you would have DESTROYED me at final tribal council. I love you, and I do have to say that things are much quieter without you. I totally forgot to work on these until like two hours before they were due, I was fully planning to find a frog and face my fears to hold it to take a picture to add in this to you. ONE DAY!

Elsa - EMILY HNGGGH. This is the hardest message to write cuz idk. I have a lot to say, but I don’t really know what to say either. Ahh, I’ll do my best. Emily, you are a very likeable person and really sweet, and you are also really cunning too lol. I’ve said this before, but thank you for going to rocks for me earlier on in the game. Like… I didn’t fully expect you to (or Ruthie for that matter), but y’all are crazy and I’m still grateful. I really wanted us to continue working together for the rest of the game, but I guess… idk, I guess that wasn’t meant to be. I’m sad that you thought I wasn’t trustworthy enough after Matthias got out, because I had never lied to you and didn’t have plans on snaking you in any way. BUT OH WELL. The time you got idoled was insane. I’m glad we got to talk at least once more before you got voted out this week. I’m still really glad I met you and that we got to work together at least for a little while during the game. And I’m still lowkey rooting for you in… the other ORG you’re in. Or maybe you won, idk, I left the VL hehe. Much love ♥

JC - emily omg ROBBED ANGEL!! U deserved more but I obviously had to vote you bc you were such a big contender to win

Nicholas - Honestly I owe you an entire book as to why I did why I did last round, but I’m just going to start by apologizing on a personal level because I am so glad that we finally got to play a game together closely and on the same side of things for once. LMSO was honestly such a great alliance but you know that! I definitely owe you an explanation as to why I flipped last night and it’s because you are honestly such a sweet and genuine person and so well spoken that in any FTC setting you would have swept the floor with all of the rest of us. I know this because you just have an aura about you that is so positive and not in a fake way that makes everyone want to see you succeed and do well and I think that would have translated very well for you in this game. I know that it’s probably a shitty way to go with just an hour heads up and no chance to really talk about it, but I felt really guilty all day though I knew that this what was best for my personal game. You are and have always been a force to be reckoned with and I made the mistake of aligning with 3 people who are literally 4000% more likable than me so this was me trying to correct for that. I hope and honestly know that we will be friends after this is all over and I AM GENUINELY SO SORRY!!!! voting you out felt like kicking a child in the face with cleats and I feel so guilty though I know that if I didn’t you would have hands down won this game! I was going to say that I miss talking in our alliance chat about not game related things but honestly I’m the reason why we cant so lkdmskldsmcklmlkdmsds i guess i don’t have the right to say that ! but seriously i hope ur having a good week & i cant wait to catch up on the flip side!

Ruthie - EMILY, I didn’t think that any of these messages were going to be as long as the one I have for Dom but I think yours might be the length winner! I knew from the moment I saw you were playing that I wanted to work closely with you and I’m SO GLAD that we did! I loved getting all the supportive messages from our Azores family whenever we got through a tribal together. You were my number one ally through MOST OF THE GAME, but I do want to take this time to go into detail about something. I REALLY REALLY thought that I had royally screwed up by aligning with you, it was when Chris left? I was POSITIVE that you were aligned with Cole and Dom and I felt like I couldn’t tell you anything! I even like unloaded all my feelings about it on ELSA who I think maybe thinks I was faking, I have no idea. I want to apologize in advance for all the mean confessionals I wrote about you because I thought you flipped when obviously you didn’t! But okay, once I got over that I was 100% an Emily fan again and wanted us, Nicholas and Jill to make it ALL THE WAY to the end. This final 4 should have been us! THEN, last round when Nicholas flipped, it broke my heart and it STILL breaks my heart. I really wish that the three of us were still all in this together. I told him that I thought that it was a good move (because you would destroy us at FTC) but I just REALLY wish it didn’t happen and that you were still here. You are a RAY OF SUNSHINE and you put your all into this game and I’ve noticed that you put your all into everything you do and I LOVE LOVE LOVE that about you! I miss talking to you SO MUCH, cross your fingers that I’m not the next to join you. Also, you better win fan favorite! <3

Your final immunity challenge will now be posted. Good luck.

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