#THIS IS MORE THAN A FRIENDSHIP NOW I MADE IT AWKWARD 💔💔💔

[ashsostrange]

my 2020-2021 discord era was crazy🧍‍♀️i was messier than a mf, a keyboard warrior if you will. like i literally loved arguing. logged onto that jawn every morning to fight racists and homophobes 🔥 (or anyone that pissed me off) i thought i was a grade a activist fr. why would i ever waste my time like that? 😭

[miyaren]

What I Like | Osamu Miya

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✪ Osamu smut 18+ minors PLEASE dni

CW: manipulation a teensy bit , thigh riding (ゝз╹), one friendly clit slap (we're so back), unspoken pining , its kind of tender ok

When your fwb cancels on you, your best friend Osamu kindly offers to help you out with your problem. And in a crazy turn events, you agree.

an: I promised this fic a year ago 💔. That's not to say it took a year to write but that it's just been collecting dust in my docs. I love this one, it's my favorite flavor of friends to lovers and I might have to do a part 2! If you enjoy it, I would love to hear what you think xoxo

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“I’ll do it.” Osamu offered to you nonchalantly. 

You nearly spit out your drink. This was Osamu, your best friend since you both started college, the one who had introduced you to his brother in the first place.

 Atsumu was the guy you hooked up with semi regularly, who ruffled your hair and called you pipsqueak and acted like he hadn’t just rearranged your guts only minutes before. It was unserious in every sense of the word. 

Your friendship with Osamu? Serious. And important to you. Maybe you had stroked out. Maybe he had.

“What are you saying ‘Samu?”

He shrugged like the two of you were discussing the weather, “You seem upset Atsumu flaked and I'm offering to help you take care of it.” 

“Stop saying it like we’re talking about my dog. You’re talking about fucking me!”

Osamu’s calm expression broke into a cheshire grin, “It's a generous offer, you know. You should be grateful.”

“How are you so blase about this?”

“Y/n, you have been telling me how horny you are for the last twenty minutes, you can’t tell me this is phasing you.”

“But still-”

His laugh cut through your strangled words, “Such a big baby.”

Your ears heated up as he said it. He always called you that starting back to your freshman year when he found out you were an only child. He had mumbled that it made a lot of sense, and you had promptly swatted his arm. Just like then, it riled you up now. He knew it would. 

You pushed out of your seat to stand, “Alright. We’re going to my room.”

Osamu’s expression flashed with surprise, but it was gone as soon as it came. Wordlessly, he followed you into your room and closed the door.

The two of you stared at each other for a good minute. 

He tsked, “Y/n, don’t make this awkward.”

“I’m not. Just take off your clothes.” You directed as you pulled your shirt over your head. He moved to do the same.

“You’re making this clinical.” As he pulled his shirt off you saw the wry smile playing at his lips. 

You started unbuttoning your pants, “I’m not. Order is good, rules are good.”

“Any more rules before we start?” His hands were making quick work of his belt. 

Did you really need rules with Osamu? Obviously he’d never do anything to hurt you. But still. There was another potential issue. “No kissing. It's too intimate.”

He looked like he wanted to argue the point but he held his tongue. That lasted for only a second though. “I’m literally going to be inside you.”

“Potatoe potato.”

“The big baby that you are.”

You couldn’t waver on this, “Them’s the rules.”

He nodded with understanding and moved to take his boxers off. At the same time, you stepped out of your panties and unclasped your bra, letting it fall to the floor. 

When you looked up, of course Osamu was staring at you. And of course you couldn’t take your eyes off of him. He was perfectly sculpted all the way down to his V line. And he was big. It was a little weird to compare him to Atsumu, a little weird that you were going to have had sex with both twins in general. But he seemed bigger than what you were used to.

“You’re gorgeous.” Osamu’s eyes were unabashedly trailing up and down your body. You wanted to brush him off, and tell him he was being stupid. But your cheeks were flushed and you found yourself at a loss for words. 

He has said to not make this awkward. But how could you not? He was your best friend, so attractive that you had to pretend he wasn’t to function normally. And he was looking at you like that. 

Your mouth was open and you willed words to come out. He beat you to it.

“You have condoms? And lube?” Of course you did.

He took a seat on the edge of your bed as you dug through your drawers and fished the bottle of lube out. A condom following shortly after. 

“Here.” You handed him both. You wanted to finally touch him. Your palm landed on his chest and trailed down to hold him there. 

Osamu caught your wrist and mumbled, “Not yet. C’mere.” He beckoned you to climb into his lap and ushered you on top of him-hovering above his thighs-, the heat of his hands searing on your hips. Opening up the bottle, he poured a little out onto his thigh.

Your brows pinched, “What are you-”

“Ride my thigh.” His eyes bored right into yours.

“‘Samu, please I just want you to-”

One of his hands ran up the inside of your thigh before carding his fingers through your folds. You almost jolted at the feel of his cold fingertips. With featherlight pressure, he teased your clit, “Can you please just let me take care of you?”

He started to draw circles and you nodded dumbly as you sank down further, pussy bare against his thigh. Sliding his palms down to your ass, he guided you forward and then back and then forward again. When his mouth found your neck, an uncontrolled sound left your lips. 

You could hear him laugh but you didn’t seem to care as you rutted against him. The slick of the lube had you gliding along his thigh, the friction just right against your clit. 

All the while Osamu was littering your neck with red purple marks, one hand abandoning your hip in favor of rolling your nipples between his thumb and index. He pinched and watched you suck in a breath. Really, he wanted to hear you. He pinched again. 

You whined as you rode him, “‘Samu, please.” 

Smirking he pulled your nipple into his mouth, sucking and circling with his tongue. Osamu’s mouth paired with the delicious friction between your legs had you soaking his thigh. 

“You’re so pretty like this.” He whispered at your ear.

Your hips stuttered at the praise. As good as you were feeling, you felt you could never get close enough to his thigh, even as you ground against it. Your hands found purchase on his shoulders and you moved faster, harder. Not enough. “Osamu, please. I need more.”

He nipped at your neck before pulling back to watch you, “What do you want, Y/n?”

“Touch me, please. Like before.”

With a nod, he brought his fingers against you, “How does this feel, baby?”

Like he commanded it, your heart thundered and your clit pulsed at what he said. You swallowed hard, “So good, ‘Samu.”

He gave your clit a pinch and impishly smiled when you yelped, before kissing your neck in apology and circling one finger gently to soothe the sting, “Do you like it like this? Or like this?”

Instead of gentle, now he deepened the pressure on your clit and sped up with precision. In his lap you jolted, the tension in your body stacking. 

“Tell me, baby.”

You took a breath, “The second one.” He continued and licked up the column of your neck and you knew you were a goner. “I’m gonna cum, I-”

All at once, his fingers were gone from your throbbing core. Oh this was sick.

“Osamu what the hell?”

Both of his hands slid up your stomach to grope your tits, his thumbs rolling your nipples simultaneously, making you shiver, “I’ll let you come but. . .”

“But what?” 

Skimming his hand back down your body, his eyes flickered to your puffy cunt before he moved and cupped it gently. His hand was unmoving, but you could feel yourself throbbing in his palm. 

When he looked up his eyes met yours and though he had called you a big baby your entire friendship, he’d never seen you this needy in your life. Osamu’s face leaned closer to yours, “You have to kiss me.”

100% he had expected you to hesitate, definitely you were going to argue the point. Nothing could have prepared him for the way your small hands grabbed his face and you pulled him closer still, the way you kissed him like you might die. 

He moved his fingers back to where you needed most and he touched you the exact way you liked. As he sped up, you moaned into his mouth and Osamu’s tongue brushed against your bottom lip before you greeted it with your own. 

The dam inside you was so close to spilling over. Osamu’s fingers were unrelenting on your clit, tight little circles that never stopped. Hungrily, his tongue stroked against yours and you felt your body seize up, stars bursting behind your eyes. You were lost to the high of your release and you had to break apart from your kiss to writhe against his shoulder. He didn’t stop, rubbing you all the way through your orgasm with consistent pressure, not stopping even as your pelvis jumped against hand.

All through your cries he continued, finally stopping when you bit down into the crook of his neck. 

You stayed silent in his arms, your body rising and falling against him like you had just run a marathon.

Subtly you lifted your chin to peer up at him and found him watching you. You rolled your eyes, “I think you broke a rule just then.”

He smiled before stealing a chaste kiss from you, “And I think you liked it.”

You couldn’t argue the point, your lips were still tingling. Really the whole thing would have your mind spinning for quite a while. If you thought about it-

“Aghh.” Your back arched when Osamu gave your cunt a light slap. He was grinning down at you.

“I said don’t make it awkward.”

“I’m not.” You frowned against your will.

Osamu huffed out a laugh as his hand trailed down the love bites he left on your neck, “Such a big baby.”

Against your will, you shivered against him, remembering the way he had spoke to you just minutes before. Of course he noticed, he noticed everything about you. He leaned down so his mouth was at the shell of your ear and his thumb was stroking back and forth as he cupped your cheek, almost like he was holding you there so you couldn’t escape. 

“You like it when I call you baby, huh?” He whispered to you.

Undoubtedly you did. More than you should. 

But you needed to keep things normal. The two of you were best friends and you had to stay that way.

Don’t make it awkward. 

You could do that. 

You smacked his hand away from your face, “You gonna fuck me or are you gonna keep talking?”

The corner of his mouth pulled up into a smirk, “There she is.”

Before you could blink, he was tackling you down to the bed.

[savannahsdeath]

hi i love your writing SO MUCH and idk if i requested this already but… do you think we can get a brothers best friend ellie?? readers brother DOES NOT want them together but they end up fucking when he’s asleep/not home. or reader goes to ellies house and eats her out while shes on call with reader’s brother?? either one is fine i would just love to see you write it

i think you requested that but i made it likee the brother didnt care so heres a second one🤭ill post the first one too tho!!

BBF!ELLIE WILLIAMS X READER

mdni please<3

warnings: 18+!! smut, almost getting caught

writers note: im sorry its so short whateva💔

You couldn't decide whether you like it or not.

Well, of course you did. Ellie never failed to make you feel good, her strap hitting all the right places while her hands caressed your thighs. She was rough, but not too rough. Degrading, but also praising. Basically, she was all you could ever ask for and more. What was there to hate?

But at some point, there was this little voice in your head telling you you're pathetic. Pathetic for liking this, agreeing to this and... just admiring her overall.

Because, jesus, 'she's my brother's friend. Best friend. What am I going to tell him?'

You, as the little sister, always let him insult you. Your opinion didn't matter, you gave up on trying to be important long time ago. You didn't hate him, he wasn't that bad. It was just sibling love language. He just couldn't be nice. If he knew about you and Ellie...

You were good at hiding it, though. When you first met her, you didn't believe she's really friends with your brother. Not to be mean, but you didn't thought he'll get along with someone who seems so... perfect.

'She probably has a shitty personality.'

That's how you explained their friendship. And you were terribly wrong.

After she visited your house once, she kept coming almost every day. At this point, you got used to that.

Oh, well, not exactly... There was some awkward situations, like when you exited the bathroom in only a towel wrapped around your bare skin and you saw her leaning against the handrail in the hallway. She only ruffled your hair and laughed at your embarrassment, seeing you blush and holding onto the fabric like your life depended on it. Maybe it did, actually?

It wasn't long after that before you began to wonder -'She can't be friends with my brother... can she?'- You started to notice more things - her kindness towards you, a tender touch here and there, and the way she looked at you made you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. So what if she was his best friend? Would he really mind?

But what if he did? What if he found out?

Suddenly that little voice in your head was screaming louder than ever, and that feeling of shame and guilt crept up on you again.

But no matter how much of the guilt you felt, and despite the small voice in your head telling you you're pathetic, it felt right. You felt accepted. Accepted by someone who was perfect in every way. The thought of telling your brother filled you with dread, but it seemed so far away. You could figure out that little problem later, right? Just for now, you could feel a rush of emotions - mostly guilt, but also a rush of lust that made you want more.

More and more.

And she gave you more.

A quiet -'fuck'- escaped her lips as she saw your cunt throbbing against her strap. Her hands continued firmly holding you down as you didn't even bother to stay quiet. You felt so good... and so ashamed... You wanted it to stop but at the same time, you knew you'd beg for more if she would even simply slow down.

It was really your own fault.

This was the first time in ages you were left home alone, so you immediately invited Ellie over. First time you won't have to bury your face in the pillows. First time she won't have to shush you. First time you could actually do everything.

You were fighting your own thoughts, not knowing which one are the bad ones. You had no idea if you're doing the right thing. And you most definitely weren't but you were too fucked up to realize that.

Ellie chuckled, hearing your not-muffled this time sounds. "Were you always this loud? Jesus, how did we manage to keep this a secret for so long?"

The truth is, she wasn't silent herself. Fine, she wasn't a whining mess, unlike you, but still - the little 'fuck's and praises escaping her mouth weren't too quiet.

You continued squirming and whimpering about how big she is and how much it hurts, hoping it'll magically change, though you didn't really wanted it to. Or maybe you did? You weren't sure. Your mind continued the fight wether it's good or pathetic, none of the sides prevailing.

She clicked her tongue in disappointment, but her smirk told you how proud she really is. "I know, I know, so stop moving so fucking much." She said.

Her raspy, tired voice was enough to make you squirm again. You weren't used to hear it in these circumstances before, since it's obviously the first time she could speak loudly and clearly, without worrying about your brother.

"I said something, doll." Her grip on your hips hardened, almost aggressively pinning you to bed.

You heard the ring hanging near the door, meaning someone opened them. Just by footsteps you could tell it was your brother.

"Should I stop?" She asked with mock-concern and interest. You realized your answer won't change anything - maybe just the intensity of her moves, so you didn't waste your energy answering. That was a sign of your obedience and helplessness Ellie waited for. "Good girl."

She rolled you on your stomach and tangled her fingers in your hair, pressing your head into the pillow. She shoved it down with every thrust - every hit of your climax - to stop you from moaning. And of course it didn't work completely, but they faded enough to be inaudible outside the room.

She was intentionally going faster and faster. She loved playing with you, feeling the thrill of it, even though you didn't find it so amusing. You digged your nails into the tattoo on her forearm, hoping to slow her down.

"Ya know what will happen if he hears?" She didn't seem to care that your fingers were literally drawing blood from her body. "You'll handle it. Unless you want him to find out?" She whispered.

You immediately shook your head, pursing your lips and squeezing your eyes shut.

Then, your moment of focus broke as you heard knocking, on the door to your room this time.

"I'm back!" Your brother announced.

You asked him to tell you whenever he goes out or cames back, mostly so you knew if Ellie's free, since he only goes out with her. Today was the first time he went outside on his own and the poor guy had no idea she found a reason to visit your house anyway, just like he had no idea she did so even when he was home, in his room, right above yours.

The lack of response surprised him, so he knocked once more before shouting confused -'You there?'

Ellie looked down at you, daring you to answer, mouthing silent 'go on' in the most taunting voice she could.

"Yes! That's good!" Your voice was shaky and you knew he will notice.

He wasn't really caring, just curious, so he had to know everything. His first sentence sounded cute, like he really cared, but you figured out he's making fun of you as soon as you heard the other questions. "Are you crying? What, you weren't invited to some lame party? Or a boy you know for a week broke up with you?"

And what were you supposed to say? -'No, your best friend is fucking me for... probably more than an hour now, and her dick is probably bigger than yours, so I can't control my tears'

"Yeah, something lik- Oh, fuck off!" You screamed back, succeeding to pretend you're really hurt because of one of the pathetic things he accused you for.

He laughed. "Mhm- Whatever!"

The footsteps climbed up stairs and got silent. Ellie bit her bottom lip, holding back a chuckle.

"Does he really think of you so low?" Her hips slowed down again, but became more precise. "You did good, don't worry. It'll be over soon."

[pupyuj]

7th member and g!p wonyoung where rumors run around a lot that you and wonyoung don't get along well because you really can't look each in the eye and doesn't interact that much but in reality, you can't look at her in the eye because you're too shy after she fucked your brains out last night and you won't interact that much on cam because wony know that she'll just end up getting a boner and might just consider bending you over right there and then 🥰🥰🥰

sndbdjcncdk i love getting g!p wony asks it's my favorite thing 😩😩😩 it's so obvious that i got way too into this i'm sorry i'm an ive girl through and through .

ya'll know i love giving these things a little backstory and some build-up so... it was just supposed to be a cute little hook-up between you and your favorite dorm mate 😳 the two of you have just come home from a party, giggling and whispering flirty things to each other while you stumbled inside your shared dorm... hands touching and groping anywhere and passing it off as a joke but the next thing you knew you were making out on the couch with wony on top 😵‍💫 she was grinding and humping, needing relief for her cock bcs she has stared at you all night and wanted nothing more but to fuck you, not at all giving a damn about the consequences 🫣 needless to say, you absolutely did get fucked very good, too good maybe, on that couch (and in her bed right after)! you fell asleep in peace thinking that everything will be fine the next morning.. but oh, no they weren't 😬

suddenly you couldn't talk to each other like normal friends 😭 only a few words were shared between the two of you since that night, and you only looked at each other when it was absolutely necessary 😭😭 ofc the fans would notice it very quickly bcs all of your habits around each other have changed :( you used to sit very close to each other all the time, but now you're on opposite sides when the group is doing a live or smth 💔 on top of all that, you stopped talking about each other on fancafes, bubble, etc... it was a bit heartbreaking actually, it was like witnessing a friendship breakup in real time 😭😭 no selfies tgt, no random moments of each other on your individual instas, no reports of a 2 am convenience store run... oh, the (y/n) x wonyoung shippers were in the trenches during this time 😩 (annyeongz shooters can relate—)

and then it gets to a point where it was blown out of proportion online 😬 articles being made, think pieces being written about the current state of your friendship... there was a viral clip of you seemingly side-eyeing wonyoung and acting like a bitch behind her back... which your fans fought everybody to hell for bcs they knew you loved her more than anything 🥹🥹

it was yujin who took notice of this.. thing between you guys ofc and cornered the two of you one day, telling you to get your act together and sort your problems out bcs it was affecting the group dynamic too 💔 apparently jiwon was feeling guilty bcs it was now her that you took to those midnight strolls, and rei always felt like she was 'homewrecking' whenever wonyoung was affectionate with her and not you 😭😭😭 coming home after getting scolded by your leader, the two of you sitting on that very same couch where you fucked, awkward and silent...

"i miss you." it was her that broke the silence. that was really all it took for you to jump in her arms and hug her tightly :(( wony was your best friend, the one who knows all your secrets, the one who remembers every single funny moment in your childhood and reminds you of it to cheer you up, the one who always wiped your tears away when you cried — it hurt to not get along with her 💔💔 "we don't have to make that whole thing be such a bad thing... we can just laugh about it, and... and—" wonyoung looks at you, at your soft smile while you cupped her cheeks in your hands, at your lips (she remembers hoe you kissed her that night), at your body and the way you looked like you belong right on her lap... "and we can just do it again.. and again... over and over..." she says boldly. well that certainly caught you off guard, but who were you to say no?

the two of you were really just supposed to talk, but now wony has you bent over the couch, her hips slapping against your ass while her dick slammed deeper and deeper by the second inside you... your cunt fit perfectly around her cock, it was an almost hypnotizing feeling fucking you 😵‍💫 wony thrusting faster, getting bursts of energy every time you moaned her name... then she's right up in your ear, "w-we... we won't need to leave the dorm when we're bored anymore... we can just fuck.. all the time... does that sound appealing enough, baby?" she was asking.

you nodded, "yes, y-yes, wonyoung... ahh.. mhmm..! i'll always be ready for you... just say the word.. or better yet, just f-fucking... shitshit... just grab me and fuck me... i love your cock.. i love it..." you were convinced that there wasn't a better feeling in the world that getting fucked by your gorgeous best friend, and there really wasn't!

shdbfjfksf wony turning you around so she could look at your face while she pounded into you :((( you were so pretty to her, she will never regret fucking you that night 🤤🤤 deliberately clenching around her cock, smiling at the way it only made her pound you faster — you can't get enough of each other 😵‍💫 kissing as you both came, feeling absolutely at bliss while her cum filled up your cunt... she definitely breeded you all night, she had to make up for lost time! 😉 filled you up on her bed, the showers, on her bed again after showering, even when you slept she was fucking into you... just dumping all of her seed in you bcs she missed you so muchhh :((( and yeah you get your revenge bcs when wony woke up the next morning and she looked down, you winked at her with her cock deep down your throat... and then you rode her until she was a drooling, babbling mess...

sorry did i mention that you guys are just fucking insane? right after that, you were cockwarming her while the two of you had breakfast, then wony was feeling you up impatiently while you washed the dishes, then you were fucking on the couch again while the morning news was on... and you ended up getting ten missed calls from yujin that entire morning bcs wony got very, very busy spilling every drop of her cum inside your pussy AND YET....... it was never enough 🥵🥵🥵

did you ever get off her cock that whole day? probably not... but hey, it did wonders for your friendship!

fans now see that the two of you were closer than ever! back to being jokey around each other, wony now always had an arm wrapped around your waist and you were always combing her hair with your fingers bcs you knew it eased her, and ofc you grew more affectionate towards each other! maybe a bit too much.. but it was wayyy better than when you pretended like the other didn't exist 🤭🤭

see, what they all don't know is after that very fun and loud live at the practice room, wony fucked you to hell in one of those secluded rooms in the company building, making you see the stars while you came all over her cock 😵‍💫 yeah that hook-up was a blessing alright...

[jukipptx]

my youth is actually a song that jeno wrote about you ????? this broke my heart, i don’t know why I wrote it ????? and so many words????? i’m so sorry ???? This is a story about jeno’s first and only kiss 💔💔💔

jeno and you have been friends for as long as you can remember. You met him when you were both thirteen years old, and this is how it went…

you didn’t want to do it at first, but your mother insisted on you joining this entertainment company. you’ve been doing commercials since you were a baby, so she thought it might be a good career path and wanted you to at least try. turns out you could actually sing!!! you couldn’t dance, but for that there were people to teach you, and there was 💗jeno💗

you met jeno exactly on the day you were going to give up. it had only been 4 months since you’ve joined the company, but it had been enough to get you on your nerves (it had been more than enough!!! you were exhausted!!!). on that day, you were sitting on the practice room floor, the mirrors were foggy, you’ve been practicing for hours since the dance teacher scolded you for not memorizing the choreo, and still you couldn’t do it. you layed down facing the ceiling (so dramatic) and you cried and cried and cried (in silence). you were wearing headphones so you didn’t hear when he entered the room; you only noticed when he was standing next to you, his little head peeking in your vision. he was so cute 😭😭😭 his little emo black hair almost covering his eyes, his baggy sweatshirt and pants 😭😭😭

“i was wondering if you wanted this ice cream.” he said holding his ice cream closer to you. you couldn’t hear him because of your headphones, you barely understood korean anyways, but you understood what he was saying when he motioned with the ice cream.

you sat up, cleaned your face as fast as you could, you were now so embarrassed about crying, and you took the ice cream. it was a popsicle and it already had one single bite. “was it yours?” you asked, you didn’t care and gave it another bite.

he blushed and ignored your question. “i’m jeno.” he held his hand out for you to take and you took it. “i can help with the choreo. it made me cry, too.” you took his hand and stood up with its help.

and that’s basically how your friendship began. as rookies, you had to deliver a performance every friday, so you took jeno’s word and accepted his help every single week. you practiced together, you ate together, you laughed together, you practically lived together 😭😭😭 jeno fell in love with you exactly 7 hours after he met you that day in the practice room, when you were crying and when you thought you looked so ugly, he thought the complete opposite. he thought of you as the prettiest person he’s ever seen. oh the pretty brown eyes, he felt guilty for saying this, but you looked so pretty when you cried; eyes so puffy and crystal-like, cheeks and nose so red. the beautiful messy black hair, always tied up in two perfectly slicked back ponytails. he couldn’t get enough of your face and it was ooooh so obvious, he could cry just thinking about you ����😭😭 but he was so shy???? he could never get too close before getting all red. you occasionally gave him a push or pulled him in for a friendly hug, but he would NEVER make the first move, only on your birthdays.

as soulmates go, your birthday was April 22, and his the 23. for the company it was basically the same day, so year after year, they opted to celebrate your birthdays on the night of the 22nd until the clock marked the 23rd. it was the only chance that jeno got to hug you without it being awkward. and he did. every year he held you for at least 30 seconds. everyone around you would always get so awkward, but jeno didn’t mind because “it was your birthday” 😭😭😭😭😭

one day you decided it had been enough. you couldn’t keep on waiting until the company magically gave you the opportunity you’d been training so hard for during 3 years straight. you were strong, but you were so impatient, not even jeno could stop you from leaving, and even today, he wishes he had tried harder, he wishes he had held on to you for longer💔💔💔

you were going to leave on the 23rd, but you couldn’t do that to him, so you left the day after. he even wanted you to stay for his debut, but you couldn’t resist any longer. you celebrated your birthdays like every year before, but this one was so different. it was so sad and so important to everyone. they all wanted it to be perfect because it was the last time you would celebrate together, but they didn’t know it was already perfect for you just by the fact that HE was there and that all of your dreamies were there as well 😭😭😭

it was the night of the 22nd, two minutes till midnight for the 23rd, when he kissed you for the first time. it was so innocent, it broke your heart and fixed it at the same time. it was all you needed to leave happily, but it was all you needed to make you not want to leave anymore. you were both sitting on the rooftop of the company, everyone left from the party already and it was only you and him, drinking soda with the tears falling from your eyes. music was still playing in the back, but all you could hear was him. you looked at him because you wanted to look at him all the time, but he was facing elsewhere. he didn’t want you to see him crying as well.

“you don’t have to leave, please keep on trying. i know they have something planned for you.” he said with such sadness and insistence on his voice. this wasn’t the first time he said it, and apparently he didn’t grow tired of saying it.

you couldn’t talk anymore because if you did, you would start crying like a crazy person (again).

“i can talk with manager noona.” he insisted. he moved a little bit closer to you.

“come on, we’ll talk with her now.” he held your hand and started to stand up, but you started crying. you wanted him to stop insisting because he only made you feel worse. he made you feel as if you hadn’t tried hard enough to stay, but you did, you reaaaally did; not only for you, but for him.

“please, stop.” you didn’t move, making him sit down next to you again, but this time a little closer. he didn’t let go of your hand this time, and he wouldn’t for a long time.

“i’m sorry.” he faced the ground, again trying his hardest not to cry. “i just don’t know what I’m going to do.” he laughed a nervous laugh, and he was serious, he really didn’t know how to live without you.

“nothing. you don’t have to do anything, jeno. just keep doing what you do and being you.” you looked at the clock on your phone screen, only five minutes left until your day ended and his started.

“i can’t keep doing what i always do because everything i do is with you. for starters, i can’t be happy on my birthday anymore.” he almost whispered, he was about to cry so if he talked normally, he would.

“jaemin would be so mad to hear that.” you tried to joke in hopes of raising the mood, you even pushed him slightly, but nothing helped at this point. “it’s almost your birthday. you should make your wish already.”

“i wish for you to stay.” he finally looked at your eyes, and you wished he didn’t. his eyes were red and shiny. he didn’t hold the tears any longer, he finally let go 😭😭😭 you’d never seen jeno cry, only once when he fell on his face back in 2013, but not like this, not with such sadness, with such impotence and desperation.

“i promise we’ll keep in touch, we’ll see each other every time you’re available. i’m not leaving the country, just the company.” you held your hand out to him, willing to pinky promise, and jeno took your hand, but instead on pinky promising, he pulled you in his arms.

he hugged you so so so sooooo hard. he thought that maybe if he held you hard enough you could choose to stay. he knew you weren’t leaving the country, but he knew that leaving the company would make everything so different and so hard. you would not be able to be close to him, the company would not allow it anymore, but he didn’t want to tell you that.

he hugged you for so long and you didn’t dare to move, you didn’t want to. you could feel the need and the desperation once again, you were scared to move, you were scared to break him and yourself 😭😭😭😭

“please, don’t do this to me, please, don’t leave me.” he said with the most painful voice you had ever heard before. and coming from him??? it was all too much, it was unbelievable and it all seemed like a nightmare to you. it all may sound a bit dramatic, but you were both so young 😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 minutes away from being sixteen.

now you started crying like an actual crazy person in his arms. shoulders started shaking and face was as wet as it could be. his hoodie was getting wet from your tears, but neither of you moved. he let you cry out loud and whimper and all. you were almost sure that the people downstairs could hear you, but you didn’t care anymore. this was probably the last time you were going to be able to be this close to him, so you didn’t let go 😢😢😢 deep down, but really deep down, you were not only crying for him, you were crying because leaving marked the end of this era, the end of pursuing this big dream of yours, so you could finally let it all out right there in that rooftop.

jen was the first to break the hug. He did only to look at those pretty eyes of yours, so pretty when you cry as he always thought. your eyes were shining like bubbles and your nose oh so pink as always, he wanted to bite it just to see if it actually tasted like marshmallows as he always thought.

he looked straight into your eyes, and without even thinking for once in all the time he’s known you, he held you by the chin and brought you to what was your first and only kiss ever, the same goes for jeno. he swore that yours would be the only lips he would kiss because he didn’t think he could find anything close to the taste of yours. they tasted like cherry lip balm and like the cotton candy that you were eating before you started crying.

it was just a short and soft kiss, but it was full of love and of hope and of tears, it was full of him and his shyness. and when he let go, you could do nothing but wonder if it was possible to love him more and more and more.

and that was all there was. you didn’t keep in touch like you promised because, like he said, they didn’t allow it. and after finding out that he wasn’t allowed, you wish you had stayed, not for yourself, but at least for him and for all the love there was. you wish, you wished, you wished for months, you wished with tears in your eyes. you wished on all the songs he wrote about you. on all the clues he left for you everywhere he goes. you wish on his pretty moon eyes and on all the stars in them. you wish and only hope that he remembers and misses you just like you do (he does💔💔💔💔💔💔)

[komilys]

💔📵🥀🫂🏳🔙 feel free to choose about who you want to talk about!!

i love making things more complicated than they should be and i love answering things funny !

post-zugzwang but still in mid-s8. if ur wondering who’s maeve?! it’s spencer’s dead kind-of-girlfriend. penelope, her sunshine self is ‘asking’ me stuff <3

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💔: what caused the break up? Was it lack of love or something else?

“maybe he didn’t outright say they were dating, but penny, you saw what he was like, you could see it.”

spencer and maeve had a weird relationship, toeing the line between a friendship and lovers, perhaps the words were never uttered, never a ‘let’s date!’ or an ‘i love you’ but there was a connection, a deep one, for sure. why else would he have hidden it for so long?

📵: in what terms are you now? Friendly, unfriendly, no contact...?

professional, strictly.

“i’ll find my own place eventually, pen, i’m sorry for crashing on you.” penelope smiled and handed me a cup of hot chocolate.

“no trouble, my sweet boy!” she paused. “are you really…”

“i stayed as long as i could before leaving, i couldn’t leave him grieving like that, all alone, but i couldn’t stay forever. it’s not like he wanted me there, anyways.”

being friendly feels wrong. it’s not what i want at all.

🥀: do you think there's still some chance you might get back together?

a quiet looms over us, i’m terrified to break it. “…is it terrible if i say yes?” i whisper, and continue. “if he wanted to, i would forget about maeve in a heartbeat.”

penelope is quiet, trying to find a good answer. “it’s not crazy,” she speaks softly, in that same sweet tone of hers. “you’ve loved him for… for forever, sweet boy, of course you’d want to, but… is that fair to you?”

maybe in his grief, he’d come back. i would let him.

🫂: how did the people around you react to the breakup? Were they supportive?

“you guys… the team, god, you really don’t have to walk on eggshells around me, though. i’m fine.” penelope scoffs— (‘fine?! f-fine? oh, oh, i.. hah! fine!’). “okay, not fine, i want to die, but spencer’s dealing with a literal death, so compared to him—!”

she stops me. “and you’re dealing with the death of a nearly six year relationship,” she shakes my shoulders gently. “let– us– help– youuuu! it doesn’t matter what he’s going through, he’s a jerk!”

my jaw drops. “penelope.”

🏳: have you tried to save the relationship? What made it impossible to do so?

“not like i could do anything. he’s hardly been responsive since that night.” i take a sip. “i think… the wound is just too new, it’s… he’s grieving, i guess.”

🔙: would you like to go back and restart the relationship anew with no memories of the one you already had? Either yes or no, why?

“what? so he could lose interest all over again? as if it wasn’t a miracle he liked me in the first place.”

she’s soo over the self-pitying, i just know it, but she’s kind about it— choosing to try to uplift me instead of chastising me for my harsh words. “oh, please, do you remember how awkward and all nervous reid always was because if you?! please… if anything he was lucky.”

maybe i was mad at spencer. maybe i was really fucking upset, but i don’t think i would restart. we had our time, and i thought we were happy, and if that’s all we were meant to have, maybe that’s just it.

thank you for the ask !!! <3

[larryfanfiction]

Heyy, hope you’re doing great,

Could you please recommend some exes to lovers fanfics?

Thanks xx

Hi anon! We've had some asks about this in the past, which you can find here and we also have a "breakup" tag which is here.

I'll rec some of the more recent ones for you here:

💔 All I Ever Wanted by Larrys_Girl (208k)

The year is 2018, two years after One Direction went on hiatus, and also two years after Louis and Harry went their separate ways. Truth be told, they went their separate ways already a few months before that. They just pretended they were still on good terms so their fans wouldn't get suspicious. What happened between the two is something neither of them wants to talk about, and they haven't spoken a word to each other since the day the band went on hiatus.

Now, two years later, Louis has just accepted the offer of being a judge in The X Factor. What he doesn't expect, though, is that he isn't the only one out of the members of One Direction who has accepted the offer. Harry has too. What will happen when the two have to spend time together after two years of not talking to each other? And what if one of the other judges is someone Louis has always been jealous of considering his close friendship with Harry?

💔 The Money Mark by @brightgolden (52k)

Where Louis is Harry’s first sugar daddy who dumped him over text and their paths cross, seven years later.

💔 Falling Without Caution by @poetsreprieve (50k)

Louis Tomlinson, a wanted criminal, was captured by the FBI after years of chasing. Instead of being locked up in a high-security prison, he was offered a deal. What was supposed to be the end of a decade long chase turned into a morally grey circumstance for Agent Styles.

💔 Love Is a Winning Game by @all-these-larrythings (47k)

Before their broken engagement, Harry had his head stuck so far in the clouds that he doesn’t even remember entering him and Louis for something as crazy as a couple's gameshow until a series of bad, post-breakup decisions puts Harry in the awkward position of needing the help of his ex-fiancé to try and fix the mess he has made.

💔 Cabin Fever by @germericangirl (46k)

One cabin, one bed, two ex-boyfriends. What could possibly go wrong?

💔 Dance Like Waves Along the Wind by @maroonmoonlouis (17k)

A Greek Mythology AU where Louis is Adonis and Harry is Poseidon. Louis would really like to move on with his everyday life without everyone on Mt. Olympus talking about his ex, who just happens to be the God of the Sea.

💔 Nothing's Scarier Than Losing You by @alltheselights (15k)

When Louis and Harry run into each other at a Halloween party two months after their breakup, they’re reminded of how rude, infuriating, and utterly perfect for each other they are.

💔 I Can Build Your Heart A Home by @loveislarryislove (10k)

Harry and Louis kind of secretly sort of dated in high school. Now it's two years later and they're both back in town for Christmas and it's awkward. Until it isn't.

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HI SOF💜 help not you saying im one of your faves on tumblr OTL askdjsks iM GONNA CRY 🥺 eep no worries i totally get what you mean about uni stress fsjsdkgsd i also take forever to reply to people cuz i usually have no more brain cells left when i come on tumblr HAHAHA eeepp sounds like its been pretty tough 😣 but im v happy to hear you have a break coming soon!!

omg ok hospital playlist askdkjs wHY DID IT END SO SAD ASKFJKS like omg okay first of all i love how their friendships were written soso much??? all their banter and inside jokes, mAKING A BAND TOGETHER, how they care so much and how theyre all there for each other when times get tough askdjsk its peak friendship OTL 😭 them with their juniors too aksjdjd hosplay really was a slice of life masterpiece 😩 i loved how they wrote all the romantic relationships too; i do think some were abit rushed towards the end of s2 but im still really glad that all of them did get their happy endings 😭

DR CHU MINHA FINALLY GETTING HER CHANCE WITH SEOK HYEONG AFTER PINING FOR TWO WHOLE SEASONS ASKFJKSJ oMg their dynamic is sooo funny cuz most people feel a little awkward around seokhyeong but she's absolutely shameless in what she says to him and he finds it so endearing and my heart just went !!!!! i think i used to see her crush as a little shallow but i was cheering so hard for her when they finally became official

jeong won and gyeo ul are also soso perfect for each other askfjks i loved how ik jun kept trying to play matchmaker and jeongwon is honestly the sweetest man ive ever seen and theyre sO cute together

eep junwan and iksun askjdjs peak "brother's-best-friend" trope HELP OMG aaa their angst hit the hardest i think but they made up really sweetly (and ikjun playing matchmaker once again aksjsj)

aNDANDAND IKJUN AND SONGHWA FKSKDK THE BEST FRIENDS TO LOVERS !!!! hELP they were sooo freaking adorable all the subtle moments they had together, CAMPING TOGETHER WITH UJU hElp i was screaming it felt sooo domestic and sweet i was smiling so wide watching them😭

eeepp the last ep!! it was going soo well, all of them getting together, but then they gathered for that band practice and ikjun said "but why do i get the feeling that this will be our last jam session?" MY HEART LITERALLY BROKE OKAY I WAS ON THE VERGE OF TEARS THAT WAS SO UNNECESSARY 😭💔 idk wHy but that line made me soso sadd and it made that ep feel really melancholic aaaa 😔 awh but them watching that sunset together healed my heart at least 🥺

hELP this turned out aLOT longer than i expected askdksks IM SO SORRY ill put the rest in another ask 🤣

ann! omg i relate so much with the brain cells thing. i barely have any energy to read fics with higher thinking skills HAHAHA. that's why i reserve it during moments when i do actually have the time + energy bc aaaaa the fics here deserve love and the writers deserve love!

AND YES HOSPITAL PLAYLIST TIME!

THE ENDING—okay i'm not a crier, but i sobbed. especially the sunset scene like WHERE AM I GOING TO FIND ANOTHER REASON TO GO THROUGH EACH WEEK NOW?! and the whole ep was just them tying loose ends and when ikjun said, "why does this feel like our last jam session?" IT'S BECAUSE IT'S THE LAST TIME WE'RE GOING TO SEE YOU PERFORM SO DON'T STOP PLEASE GO ON FOR ANOTHER SEASON PLEASE

yes! the friendships! and i agree! i love the slice of life genre so much! cause it actually reflects what happens in real life. like, no one's all lovey dovey and affectionate all the time. human relationships thrive through subtle ways of taking care of each other. and the drama portrayed that so well. (EVERY DRAMA OF SHIN WONHO PD DOES AAAA REPLY 1988 PLEASE?)

and the juniors! i loved them! minha, gyeoul, daehak, seokmin, sunbin, yunbok, hongdo! AAAAAA i could go on and on!

and yes! the romance! i loved how at the beginning of s1, they were all just establishing the story, the friendship and the patient-doctor, and doctor-doctor relationships. but gradually, they infused hints of romance. like how gyeoul had a crush on jeongwon and how ikjun went to songhwa's appointment. the little things that shows how much they liked them was so cute and endearing to watch!

abt the rushed thing, HAHAHA is this about junwan x iksun? HAHAHAHA i think that's the most rushed among all. i feel like the others paced themselves well. i mean, i would've loved seeing more of minha x seokhyeong, and the dynamic of songhwa x ikjun x uju (AND OMG UJU! YOU SHOULD'VE BEEN IN THE FINALE!) also, i would've loved to see gyeoul's reaction to jeongwon's proposal huhuhuhu.

AND YES! I WAS MOST EXCITED FOR MINHA X SEOKHYEONG IN S2! bc seokhyeong went through a lot of things and he managed to survive through all of them. and he's so kind and he deserves to smile all the time and be happy. and i'm glad he let minha in to be that light that he needs.

and yes! jeongwon x gyeoul! they were the couple i was rooting for in s1 the most! THEY WERE SO SO CUTE AND I LOVED ALL THE TIMES THEY TRIED TO HIDE THEIR RELATIONSHIP IN S2 HAHAHAHA.

and ikjun the matchmaker was so cute!!!!

and yeah... iksun x junwan was cute but rawr i wished iksun would've just told the truth in the beginning. they both just suffered more and rawr. junwan in one ep was so pitiful huuhuhu i wanted to give him a hug. but anyway, they made up so all is good. she better treat him better next time! hmp

AND OMG SONGHWA X IKJUN!!! THEY WERE AHQLEIHQLIHFQ they've finally come full circle. i started really REALLY rooting for them in s1 when uju got sick! that was such a touching moment how songhwa took care of his son as if he was her own. and she took them camping too! huhuhuhu they were so cute! and the food scenes! what would i pay to have someone ask me to eat with him? AAAAAAA

HAHAHHAHAHAHA DON'T WORRY ANN I HAVE A LOT TO SAY TOO! ON TO THE NEXT ASK—