#THIS HAD ME FALLING INTO THE FUCKING /ABYSS/ LMFAO

[romaritimeharbor]

guys i have no idea when this happened but i have like, multiple new genshin ocs bouncing around in my head

[cdyssey]

Yellowjackets 2.04 Reactions:

Past!Taivan being divided over how they feel about Lottie. :(

Adult Tai experiencing whatever Shadow Tai is doing like an out-of-body, dissociative experience. So, so harrowing. The quick VHR static edits really help to emphasize the jarring nature of it too.

ALSO, Jessica Roberts, my beloved!!!! I miss her.

I SAW SOMEWHERE THAT ALANIS MORISSETTE COVERED THE NEW INTRO. ICONIC. SMASHING. STELLAR!! Lauren Ambrose and Simone in the intro now!! Yes!!!

Shauna not being able to look Jeff in the eye while she’s lying to him is so funny, lmao. And then Jeff lying to her about overhearing cops at the gym. Fail marriage. <3 They’re falling to their old habits of not communicating with each other.

“You’re right. I should have just run around in a ski mask—also in public. Blackmailing people.” Melanie Lynskey, I love you.

NATALIE LEANING IN THE DOOR JUMPSCARE, HELP. MA’AM. WHY ARE YOU STANDING LIKE THAT. Lmfao, Nat has been in that outfit for, like, three days now. Those leather pants cannot be comfortable. My god.

That lingering shot of Lottie and Nat’s hands as Lottie gave her the keys. 😵‍💫 I’m actually quite delusional about them now. I think they should tenderly kiss and/or hatefuck.

“If Taissa and Shauna have both been kidnapped, I’m going to be very, very annoyed.” ANDNNSSNSJWJSIDS.

“I’m honored that I seem to be your favorite Yellowjacket.” QKOQWKJDKWWJ.

YES AT MISTY BEING A SWEENEY TODD ENJOYER. That is so right.

I don’t think Walter is making it out of this season alive, lmfao, but what he and Misty have going on is so good. OH, GOD, Misty and Crystal singing the same song. 😭 For the record, I don’t think she’s making it out of the woods either.

NOT MARI ACCUSING COACH BEN. GIRL, YOU’RE NEVER BEATING THE PIT GIRL ALLEGATIONS.

Ben just straight up asking if the girls would have ate him.

Oooogh, more tensions in the cabin over the supernatural vs. rationality split. It’s important to note that Lottie is very uncomfortable at being thrust into the fore by Mari. This is also the first time that Shauna verbally stakes her claim in the skeptics side. God, poor Lottie—she doesn’t want this.

Nat being really gentle with Lisa and trying to help her see through some of the compound’s bullshit. Ugh, it reminds me of that moment last season when she coached Kevyn’s kid during his game. I love her.

Lottie at the therapist/psychiatrist’s(?) office. The way she so nervously plays with her fingers. The slight crack in her voice. The tears in her eyes. God, I’m so fucking unwell.

“Lottie doesn’t need a gun.” Mari, shut up. 😭

Both adult Lottie and teen Lottie being utterly unmoored the way they are in this episode is horribly sad. As of right now, some of the girls are looking to teen Lottie for guidance, while adult Lottie is desperately wanting something to ground her.

LMFAO, the cut from Shauna realizing that Callie’s been lying to her about going to Iliana’s to immediately snooping through her daughter’s closet. So dirty. So unhinged. Ooh, at her finding the burnt Adam ID.

Ugh, that fucking detective is still flirting with her, EVEN THOUGH HE KNOWS SHE’S UNDERAGED. I hope Shauna roasts him on a spit. He’s probably going to be the reason why Shauna/Jeff get away bc of how stupid he’s being.

Mommy-daughter bonding time!!! This is all I’ve ever wanted!!!!!!!!!

Misty being so disgusted by Walter’s condiment habits. So, so funny.

“Excuse me. Do you know about the cult with the purple people?” AKQKQKSJSNSJWIEDJSJ.

“Yes, they’re awful tippers.” KQOQOQOQIEDUDJDID.

Oh, God. Tai is just straight up walking the roads now. I fear for her. She is SO unwell. And I think about her progression from S1, Ep. 1 to now. She used to be the most outwardly put together of the core four. Had the family. Had the money. Had the lucrative career. And now look at her—you can see it in her lined eyes and the unfocused way that she walks. She has gone past the point of spiraling. She is in the abyss.

Mari continuing to hear things that the others don’t... love her and Akilah’s friendship. 🥺

A little mouse!!! Now Akilah has an animal emblem! Rabbits for Shauna. The moose for Nat. Wolves and Tai. Deers and Lottie. Birds and Misty?

Lottie making a blood sacrifice to the hollow. Hhhgh. That musical sting while she was doing so was brutal.

The Fourteenth Gilly!!! ANAJJDJDNSND, NATALIE CUPPING HER FACE ON THE COUCH.

Shauna taking her daughter out to the middle of nowhere with no cellphone reception. <33 Just mother-daughter things.

Shauna being truthful about killing Adam. God. HER TEMPORARILY FORGETTING THAT HE WASN’T THE BLACKMAILER. It’s kind of funny and kind of harrowing, the way that these events are blurred to her. It speaks so much to the way she processes trauma.

“Shoot, yes. Kind of.” AKQKWOOQOQOWJDJDJENS. Melanie Lynskey, we’re getting you that Emmy.

“They did… we did things out there that… we’re really ashamed of. And sorry, I know—maybe one day I can talk to you about it, but for now, um, can that just be enough?” Oh, God. This line. The way that Shauna distances herself from the Yellowjackets at first because compartmentalizing is historically how she copes, but then she revisits the statement. She includes herself, but it’s too hard to talk about. You can see the utter pain in her face as she looks away. And you can also see in Callie’s microgestures that this is genuinely one of the first—if not the very first—time her mother has every willingly broached what happened in those woods. And she’s so hurt for her mom. She’s one of the few people who has identified that Shauna is hurting. I’m sick.

God, poor Callie Sadecki. Her mom’s a killer and her father is a blackmailer. No one is allowed to hate this very normal teenaged girl with fucked up parents.

The symbol-marked trees aligning to actually form the symbol. Oh, God.

Ben and Paul. 😭 Oh, Paul is Ben’s first boyfriend. I’m so tender. LET COACH LIVE.

Lisa at her mom: “I love you even when you try to control me.” Jesus fucking Christ.

NAT FUCKING PUTTING THAT GOLDFISH IN HER FUCKING MOUTH. I LOVE AN UNHINGED QUEEN.

“Is this where the purple people are?” WKWKWOWOOWIEJDWJ.

“Tell her I didn’t want us to fucking starve!” GO, MISTY!!!

Leonard. 😭😭

The direction in this episode is so stunning. Lottie going through that arch of white light and then it become elevator doors closing. So good.

THE MUTED THEME SONG IN THE MALL. ALL THE GIRLS EATING TOGETHER. I’M SO UPSET,

LAURA LEE. THAT’S HER GIRLFRIEND.

“Lottie, if you don’t get out of here, you’re gonna die.” 😭 Laura Lee still trying to protect her beyond the grave. I actually have tears in my eyes.

GODDAMMIT, THE MOOSE. NATALIE CRYING. I’M SO FUCKED UP. SO FUCKED UP.

Natalie pushing away the shot. 😭 She’s invested in Lisa. Oh, I’m so, so tender.

MISTY AND WALTER SPLIT SCREEN PARALLELS. SO GOOD. I JUST KNOW THIS MAN ISN’T LIVING. GOD.

“We only have one kid, and as parents, it’s part of our job, we have to protect her, we have to shield her from making the same shitty mistakes we made, Shauna. To throw our fucking bodies in front of her if that’s what we have to do, and what, you’re telling me that you’ve… you’ve made her an accomplice?” THIS MAN DOES NOT KNOW ABOUT THE BABY IN THE WOODS. OTHERWISE, HE WOULDN’T BE FUCKING SAYING THAT, RIGHT? IF HE DOES KNOW, DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“We are lying to everyone, okay, everyone we know. I don’t want to do that to our own daughter.” The vulnerability in Shauna’s voice. So many fascinating layers here. Objectively, Jeff is right—making Callie an accomplice is harrowing. But what’s happening in the subtext is that Callie wants to desperately to connect with her parents, her mom especially, and vice fucking versa!! So it’s fucked up that it’s happening this way, and it’s fucked up that Shauna sounded more like a teenager in that conversation by the car, and it’s fucked up that Callie is so accepting, but that is the literal point here. This family was founded upon deep and unspeakable trauma, and they have to continually grapple with that.

Anyway, Sadecki family bonding moments. <33 I love a family who does crime together and they’re all messed up beyond comprehension.

Shauna tenderly filling Nat’s tub with water. 😭

Oh, my fucking God. The Lottie and Nat tub scene. Sobbing. They’re just kids.

Lottie having a reaction to a Queen card with the eyes scratched out. The girls 100% drew cards to see who the fuck was gonna be hunted.

LOTTIE, LOVE, WHERE ARE YOU TAKING THAT BIG ASS KNIFE?

OH, GOD, SHE’S OFFERING BLOOD SACRIFICES AGAIN. The tears in her eyes.

“Can this just be enough? Please?”

FUCKING JAVI?!

Van exposing Taissa’s preternatural ability. Hhhhgh. Things aren’t looking good for Vantai in the woods.

WHILE YOU WERE STREAMING. AaqkqkkwkqowsksniwiwJQJEJD.

Tai adjusting her hair, even though she clearly hasn’t seen a bed in a week. Go, girl failure. Get ur woman.

ADULT VAN. SOBBING. CRYING SCREAMING. SHE LOOKS SO GOOD.

[gravitycoil]

Dream of 1/8/23

Started out in a giant fallout shelter everyone except me and my supposed bf we're stickmen there was a zombie apocalypse going on and we had found a safe spot where they couldn't easily get to us but we would have to watch the entrance sometimes cause they did get through eventually. Before we knew each other we were complete strangers and just so happened to run into each other and survive together he asked what my name was and I remember saying Gohh his name ... was Jeff or something lmfao. We had a lot in common and did the same things before the breakout happened. I told him I would fix the world and he was really inspired by that. I remember there was a new room we found and for some reason going inside made everyone normal again. Like no more zombies. We look at each other and I hug him I think.

Dream shift

There was a big storm happening and we had just moved into a new house. The house was inside a giant crater of dirt, buried where you would have to find the hatch door and climb down stairs. It was huge and had 3 levels/stories to it. We were moving our belongings inside and I was trying to hurry because the storm was making me nervous. My friend or something was like I ain't coming in yet until the cake I order comes and like hxgxgxffxfz She ordered some sort of carrot cake and it came and I gave it to her and she was like UGH .... UNACCEPTABLE the cake was like plain with no frosting/icing on it and looked like someone stepped on it and she was like nope I'm not coming in until I get the cake I want. So I just leave her outside I find a red GameCube and I'm like DUUUDE I gotta plug this in. Apparently viva Pinata is on the GameCube and I was playing it. it also had a touch screen. I just remember digging the dirt off of the door and frantically trying to go inside.

dream shift

Was in a dream I didn't want to be in. A guy next to me realized this and made a deal with me, he wanted me to try and out run him through multiple stages of walls if I won he would let me transfer to another dream, if I lost he would make the dream worse. I end up losing a few times and a lot of shitty stuff is happening I realize I can't win and I cheat a little before he officially started the race I told him to like. Go check on something away from where he can see me and I just bolt through the walls and eventually make it to the ending wall and fall out of the dreams abyss (blue hell) I get transported to another dream where, I don't really want to stay in it's basically just my house I run across my yard and road into the forest and there's a bed of sunflowers that when I jump into them I get sent somewhere else. But this time I think I went in and woke up.

Bonus: I don't remember when I had this dream but I just remembered it while writing this out. I was best friends/family with this random guy. I don't remember a thing about him other than he was really cool he would make things appear out of thin air and was like, let's go on adventures together and everything was awesome until he started making bad things appear like, at first he just wanted to scare me a little and was like Hey follow me I gotta show you something awesome and I go with him and there's just a giant tripod (wotw) and it sounds it's alert horn and I fucking buckle up I'm like make it go away NOW and he's just laughing and saying I'm fine or whatever and I was like... ok whatever he won't do it again. He starts driving me around and everything is ok again then he's like oh I need you to get something for me and he directs me to another tripod and I fucking like.. I'm just mad at this point I start yelling at him saying stuff like dude I thought you were cool you need to stop this I hate it and it affects me badly I'm not joking around and he still sees it as not that big of a deal and brushes it of laughing a bit and there's like angry tears in my eyes and I yell so loud that he took me out of the dream

[thefallons]

ER AU meme, Scarlie: “Do you want to dance it out?”

“No, Charlie, I don’t want to dance it out! Just because Jordan’s dad wore the same bike jacket as me at the daycare’s Valentine’s Day party and it suited him better because I accidentally ordered mine a size too big, doesn’t mean I need to dance things out. Okay?”

Scotia takes a huff of a breath, casting an offended glance at the jacket in question draped over his couch. He’s paused for a moment before he looks back to Charlie with another huff. “Okay. Maybe. I want to dance it out.”

He takes two strides to close the space between himself and the man of his dreams, pressing their chests together and dropping his arms around Charlie’s hips. Stealing a peck from Charlie, Scotia asks with a pout in his voice, “You still think I’m the hottest dad in school, right?”

[percybeloved]

steve harrington x jonathan byers

contains: fluff, smut, hickeys, slutty jonathan, body worship, dacryphilia, face sitting, riding, back scratching, possessiveness, possessive steve harrington, handjobs, thighfucking, rimming, rly just me slutting jonathan out and projecting through one of my fav ships, and also steve being rly lovey dovey with the way he views jonathan

i did post this on ao3 under the name percybeloved btw lmfao

tight. everything on jonathan was so tight. the old wifebeater that he's had since he was around 14 or 15 fit tight around his body. the boxers that steve bought in a set for him for his birthday hugged his hips and made them way more prominent then they usually were.

jonathan also had long, pretty legs. they were smooth and had a slight muscle to them. his thighs had a comforting softness to them. they were one of steve's favorite parts of his body. on the days that they would sit in each other's silence, steve would lay on them while reading.

there were other things that steve loved about jonathan. he loved his long eyelashes and how they rested on his cheeks. sometimes, he would stare into the abyss as he daydreamed about things. steve never knew what was going through that pretty little head of his, but he knew that it was something amazing.

steve also loved jonathan's fingers. they were slender and long and made him melt everytime he held his hand. jonathan always kept his nails relatively long simply because he thought it was pretty. but there were times in which his anxiety was horrible and he would just rip them off.

he absolutely adored his moles. they decorated jonathan's skin like stars, and it was calming to kiss each and every one of them on the nights that he had nightmares. steve would even trace them slowly while waiting for the other boy to sleep simply because it made him forget about the rest of the world.

steve loved jonathan and everything about jonathan. but steve loved how erotic jonathan could be when he wanted to. he would know that the wifebeater was thin and tight enough to show off his nipples. he knew that the boxers emphasis the slender waist that steve loved to hold during their more intimate moments.

steve loved to hold and twist jonathan's long legs in any way he pleased as he pounded him over any surface. he would even take advantage of his flexibility and fold him in half at times.

sometimes, when jonathan was too tired but was begging to be pleased, steve would fuck his thighs untill a mixture of their cum painted his stomach.

steve loved how those pretty eyelashes that would rest on his face as he say thought was drenched in tears as jonathan desperately rode his face during a night at the drive in theatre. tears would fall as he tried to chase his high with nothing but steve's tounge as the newest ghostbusters played in the background.

on the days that steve felt possessive, he would place hickeys around or over the moles scattered aeound jonathan's body. jonathan was his, and not even something as small as a fucking mole would ever take that away from him. he wanted everyone to see that they only belonged to each other.

but out of all of those things, steve loved jonathan's hands the most. he loved how they wrapped around his cock during their "study" dates. he loved how they held his face as he made out with him for the third time in one morning. and steve really loved how those long nails would leave bright red marks on his back, especially in the summer.

in all honesty though, steve harrington thinks every part of his jonathan byers is perfect.

[0gasstationcoffee]

LWA rewatch episode 14

·      Here we go with season 2!!!

·      First shot is of Ursula, I’m already hooked

·      I’m always stuck on how Woodward says “Remember together the seven words”

·      She makes it seem like all of it had to happen so that Chariot and Akko could figure it out together. After all, if Chariot hadn’t become Shiny Chariot, she would have never inspired Akko

·      “It’s finally time to tell Akko everything.” GIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRL

·      NEW OPENING

·      God all the credit scenes of this show go so hard

·      They just slap you in the face with the Akko/Chariot and Diana/Croix parallels

·      And then of course the scene where they hold hands! Like what

·      I’m trying to find Professor Pisces in the end shot where it’s all the characters together and I can’t find them

·      Lotte: “We’re going to have a new professor!” Akko: “You can’t be new if you’re ANCIENT.” Already roasting Croix before she even appears lmao

·      Akko polishing the Shiny Rod lol

·      The Rod won’t do magic when Akko wants it to but only when she needs it to. I’m glad Akko figured that out

·      Diana just watching this whole conversation between the red and green teams like a creeper lmao

·      “The rod used to belong to Chariot right?” I like that Amanda knows this. She probably heard Akko talk about it enough

·      So you can’t even enter the Forbidden Forest of Arcturus because of the barrier. Was this barrier put up by Luna Nova to protect the students or is it a natural barrier from the forest? Or something else

·      Oh we’re now getting deeper into the mystery between Chariot’s disappearance and what the connection is between the forest and the rod

·      Akko: When I finally meet the long lost Chariot, she’ll tell me everything. Jump cut to Akko crashing into Ursula’s place: HI PROFESSOR URSULA WHAT UP

·      Oh I was wondering why Ursula looked so nervous when Akko entered, considering she was fully disguised but then realized she had called Akko there to tell her the truth

·      OMG I SCREAMED

·      Ursula starts off so serious “I’m going to tell you something important so please listen to me

·      Then she gets a fucking FACETIME FROM BADCOCK AND FREAKS OUT AND HIDES BEHIND AKKO WHAT THE FUCK SHE’S A DISASTER AND I ADORE HER

·      Badcock: Professor Ursula we need you here!

·      Well finally Ursula is invited to a teacher thing!!!

·      Akko goes with her cuz of course

·      Okay this one shot of the two of them staring at the on strike workers, side by side with the same eyes and looking alike is just so hella mother/daughter

·      They formed a labor union. Love it

·      So they want to get a greater share of the sorcerer stone’s power. Understandable. But yet again I have to scream into the abyss WHY WAS THE GRAND TRISKELION LOCKED AWAY TO BEGIN WITH

·      THESE OLD BITCHES SAYING THEY’RE TOO OLD TO GO TRAVELING AROUND TO THE DIFFERENT MAGIC FARMS SO URSULA HAS TO DO IT

·      How rude but also how funny

·      “Of course it had to be the youngest one. This is the worst!” She said this so petulantly lmao. Ursula really is like 26/27 right? I know I joke that she’s a mama bear and is Akko’s mom and I still always will but she is damn young.

·      Akko talking about how Ursula had to leave and then looks at the food and says “If I were her I wouldn’t come back at all” LMFAO

·      Also yeah I remember now, this is why she wasn’t here when Croix appeared

·      Oof the drama

·      Ahh the fairies are making sure no one can use the magic by blocking it with magic blocking mirrors

·      OF COURSE one of the mirrors has to fall and OF COURSE it has to head straight for Akko

·      This poor kid

·      SAVED BY A ROOMBA

·      Croix does have a cool aesthetic, I gotta give her that

·      Akko “She looks too young to be a professor!” Akko your mom is literally younger than Croix lmao

·      She probably just expected the new teacher to be older tho since all of the other ones besides Ursula are much older

·      Modern Magic professor Croix Meridies (sp?)

·      She would make her own tablets for the students to use lmao

·      “Not having heat really sucks” Lmao Sucy!

·      Lmao everything else Akko could live with but Badcock assigning them spells to memorize was the last straw before she took it up with the fairies

·      AHHH WE DON’T EVEN SEE WHAT HAPPENED, JUST THAT AKKO IS NOW SIDING WITH THEM I LOVE IT

·      Lotte just standing to the side of the professors like “whoops sorry about this”

·      Diana trying to talk them down with logic, I still think being a lawyer is a good fit for her

·      “AKKO??” She’s so surprised seeing Akko there lmao

·      Akko just calling her tf out lmao

·      No one can get under Diana’s skin like Akko can. She’s showing the most amount of emotion here than I think we’ve seen from her the whole show

·      Akko my little angel, just understanding with her whole heart why the fairies are doing what they’re doing. It’s not out of spite, they genuinely need the magic more than the witches do and only get 10% of it

·      Akko wants to be like Chariot so bad BUT she doesn’t want to be inconvenience others just to accomplish it SHE’S GROWING UP SO MUCH

·      “It wouldn’t feel right if someone else had to bear a burden for my happiness.” HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT TO BET THAT CHARIOT FELT THE SAME WAY, THAT SHE JUST WANTED TO PERFORM AND NOT HURT ANYONE AND THEN

·      AND THEN

·      AND THEN THE THING HAPPENED AND CHARIOT WAS PROBABLY DISGUSTED WITH HERSELF FOR DOING SOMETHING SHE HAD NO IDEA ABOUT

·      Lotte’s so proud of her!

·      And the fairies made food for them for staying out in the rain for the strike :’)

·      HOLBROOK LMAO

·      She’s not even mad Akko is on their side, she just congratulated Akko for climbing the ranks by becoming the fairies’ chief secretary lmao what is this show I love it

·      Oh right, Croix walking in at the exact opportune time explains the weird cube fairy Lotte saw, Croix engineered this whole thing

·      Sorcery Solution System lol

·      Okay finally some explanations: the sorcerer stone absorbs power from the ley line then releases it so that throughout the day it keeps producing energy

·      So the SSS would absorb the power that the stone just releases back?

·      Croix is brilliant, gotta give her that

·      BUT AKKO DON’T TRUST HER DON’T DO IT BABY SHE MAY SEEM COOL BUT ATM SHE’S NOT

·      H&B bribing the fire fairy with a log so they can take a hot shower lol

·      Also using the same shower which I get but still lmao

·      Awww poor little fire baby is just sucking on the log like it’s a bottle of milk

·      DID THEY HURT THE FIRE BABY

·      I WILL KILL ANYONE WHO HURTS FIRE BABY

·      Akko doing a second spit take on Sucy who just uses a giant mushroom to deflect it lmao

·      There’s a fucking riot out there

·      IT’S ALWAYS AKKO WHO FALLS TO HER ALMOST DEATH OH LORD

·      SAVED BY A ROOMBA AGAIN

·      So Croix has created a way to control emotions

·      BUT FIRE BABY IS OKAY SO YAY

·      Croix to Akko: Good to hear you aren’t hurt. YOU LIAR CROIX YA DAMN LIAR LMAO

·      Just to put it out there: I do eventually like Croix when they’re remorseful and do ship ChariotxCroix but during these episodes she does some fucked up things. The entire time she’s trying to hurt Chariot and Akko. And yeah there’s definitely a lot of gay angsty feelings for Chariot fueling her but STILL

·      I know Finneran being suspicious of Croix is good but she’s only suspicious because Croix’s methods go against tradition which is bullshit

·      Poor Ursula is gonna come back just to find out it was futile

·      Okay so a research lab for Croix was built in the New Moon Tower with the grant they got

·      Another shooting star sighting! This time in Japan

·      Digital equipment now allowed on campus

·      OMG LITERALLY POOR URSULA SHE DID ALL OF THAT FOR NOTHING

·      She just wants to tell Akko the truth

·      URSULA SEEING CROIX SHE LOOKS SO SCARED OH GOD MY HEART

·      WHAT IS GOING THROUGH HER MIND

·      THIS IS SO INTENSE

·      OH WOW THESE END CREDITS ARE SO PRETTY

·      AND LORD I REMEMBER THE EPISODE AFTER THIS IS SO GOOD AND I’M SO EXCITED TO WATCH IT BUT IT HAS TO BE TOMORROW WHICH MAKES ME SAD

·      BUT FOR REAL IT’S THE EPISODE WHERE WE GET TO SEE CHARIOT AND I AM SCREAMING

[bisexualhobi]

The only post-Dynamite SoundCloud releases I actually liked were Abyss, Bicycle, and Blueside. Christmas Love and Snow Flower were disappointing lmao. And I say this as someone who makes a 2-4 hour Christmas playlist as soon as November hits. (I would personally like HYBE to get their heads out of their asses and let Vmin release the Christmas duet but anyways-)

Don’t was a feature. If you have to point out a FEATURE when talking about their Korean releases from a certain period of time, something’s off.

BE I have mixed feelings on(rant incoming). I like every song on it, except for Fly To My Room. I do think the album is cohesive. But IMO, everything about Be is too messy for me to even consider it a solid era or even a full album.

They had a good idea. Comfort, late-autumn album that’s supposed to be filled with personal songs by the members. It was a good idea, honestly. But they did not execute it well. 8 tracks, one of them being a SKIT, is too short. I’m not going to go into specifics about the songs themselves, but the structure of the album is just off. If this is supposed to be a “personal” album, why was Fly To My Room on there? Because based off of the credits, the main writer of the song was someone not even in Bts. Why was Dynamite on there? Because none of the members wrote that song. OH RIGHT, they put it on to boost album sales (but made it some BS about wanting to cheer up Army. Just own up to it ffs). Then you have a skit, which is fine, I like the skits. But let’s see here. This album was supposed to be BTS’s most personal work. But it’s 7 songs, only 6 of which were written by members in some capacity. Jungkook said in an interview that Stay had to be made into an electropop track, for whatever reason. Idk BigHit, maybe let your artist choose how he wants the song to be? And the fact is, BE is just too short. A lot of people talk about the “journey” through the album, where it starts off sadder and ends off on a happy note. But it’s too fucking short for me to even feel anything about that journey. It’s too quick of a transition from sobbing over Blue&Grey to hearing Jungkook sing about how much he loves his members. Apparently even JIMIN, who was supposed to have some control over what songs went in the album, wanted it to be longer but they shut him down. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? Fans spend so much time begging BH to have BTS release more of their own tracks. And then BE makes it seem like we’re gonna get that, but we don’t. It was irritating. It had the potential, but it falls flat when you can tell some of the tracks barely had a member influence, when one of the songs isn’t even WRITTEN by a member, and when it is 7 songs. 7. Be should’ve been longer and they should’ve actually used more of the members’ input rather than used a song that felt like a reject(FTMR), and a Grammy-grab song. It didn’t feel a lot like their passion project and it didn’t live up to the comfort album potential.

I know they probably had it planned way before July, but as a listener, BE felt like it was trying to be Folklore. But unlike folklore, it felt messy and incomplete. I do like the album, but it’s honestly not my top 5 for BTS albums. They executed it badly. On a happy note though, I REALLY like Namjinkook as a subunit. Sorry this was long lmao I had a lot of thoughts about Be.

yeah BE was my first comeback so at first I tried to look at the bright side etc and since I didn't know any better I took it at face value. looking back on it I'm so disappointed that that was my first comeback. lmfao

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okay let’s get this late liveblog post started

marisha and travis wearing those glasses while sitting right next to each other is honestly killing me right now please im so weak

what is this ad oh my god 

SAD SANDPAPER

how the hell do they have time to do this im

LAURA BURSTING OUT LAUGHING AND MATT’S PERPLEXED FACE IS ME EVERY WEEK

HAPPY PRIDE HELL YEAH HELL YEAH

JESTER DISGUISING HERSELF AS A LEAF I LOVE HER SO GD MUCH

LEAF COSTUME IM LOSING MY MIND

rotting meat fjord, i don’t know how much that will help but okay

“can i like swim back to the tree” MARISHA THAT’S WHAT YOU SAID LAST CAMPAIGN TOO AND IT DIDN’T WORK

JESTER COULD HAVE GONE INVISIBLE IM FUCKNSKFL CRYING

Beau: “Everyone is fucking bailing on me, and I ain’t got shit” 

Jester: “I’m a leaf! I’m a leaf but I’m still with you”

THE WAY IM FUCKING HOLLERING RIGHT NOW OH MY GODDD I LOVE. THEM!

MARISHA MIMING BEAU REACHING OUT TO JESTER IM AJLKDJALSJFSADF

beaujester held hands i am perFecTLY FINE this is FINE IM FINE this is okay im good im good imajfdklasjdfasjkfk HANDS

Fjord is a bottom Confirmed

DIMENSION DOOR IS BEAUJESTER SHIPPERS FRIEND

UGH THAT POLYMORPH COULDVE BEEN SO GOOD

FJORD RIDING THE ROC LIKE VM DID I THINK

YES JESTER POLYMORPH BUT ALSO OH NO FJORD

the image of 6ft caduceus holding onto an eagle is fuckn amazing

i have to say the sound of matt shaking the dice as fjord falls sounds ominous as fuck

YAY FJORD IS STILL ALIVE

caduceus talking to fjord on the ground reminds me of the skyrim scene for some reason

can beau saying “i follow jester” be a thing

jester saying sorry to fjord 😭

KEEP THE BAT AWAY DON’T TOUCH IT JUST PUT IT IN THE BAG OF HOLDING

beau and caleb going to the nest to get loot together hell yeah

AWW BABY ROC

BEAU TRYING TO SCRITCH THE BABY ROC LMFAOO

THE BALL BEARINGS RETURN LMFAO

oh damn that’s a lot of gold in a nest

beau getting the silk clothes for jester

“c’mon man get back in the cloak”

beau arguing with caleb as an eagle fucking sends

LMFAO LAURA HIT THE MIC

OH SHIT POLYMORPH DROPPED

omg bless that one spell slot

damn jester really loves using command

this tense atmosphere with the roc omfg

HUT COMPLETED

 im not saying beau is married to jester now because of the rings but she definitely is

LMAO THE BOX IS TRAPPED THE ONE TIME NOTT DOESN’T CHECK FOR TRAPS

FIREBALL TRAP NOTT WHAT THE FUCK

nott is drunk i can tell

omg jester trying to snatch the flask and putting it into the haversack

beau proposed to yasha with that ring omg rights for beauyasha shippers

IM SORRY BUT MARISHA ACCIDENTALLY FUCKING WITH LIAM’S INJURED SHOULDER AS BEAU SENDS

LMFAO JESTER TRYING TO WINGMAN

omg beau and yasha are married ugh wlw rights

AH FUCK ORCS

HELL YEAH FIREBALL

i wonder how fjord feels about the orcs they’re fighting

FUCKING HELLO BEES GOD I LOVE JESTER

marisha really works those sunglasses ugh someone draw beau in them

their true rivals are toya and the roc

awww poor jester is exhausted

LET’S GO BAZOZZAN

i don’t trust that tower at all

o fuck it’s a xhorhasian hupperdook but without the fun civilians

persuasion checks scare the crap out of me ngl

“be quiet, do your work, and leave” honestly applies to a lot of places

beau, to jester: “you were pretty awesome actually”

me: fucking dead on the ground because of these two blue gfs

omg pls the leaf costume

things escape from the tower? a prison?

oh fuck temples to betrayer gods

DOORWAYS TO THE ABYSS??

this is some grey warden darkspawn shit omg

THE FUCKING DANCE MOVES

JESTER SMART TIEF LOVE HER

oh fuck THE ABYSS?? DEMONS

OH HELL OH HOW FUN

marion read jester a book about demons as a child lmfao

oh god what’s jester gonna do to that sign

bless on beau and fjord and jester ugh i love my og trio crumbs

ARE YOU STILL IN YOUR LEAF COSTUME

the traveler’s voice being described as disembodied honestly creeps me out

oban wan kenobi

omfg what is up with that incense lmao

oh the joys of haggling i cant do that lol

HOW MUCH MONEY DOES CAD HAVE

SHARE BEDS PLEASE

FLASK IS GONE AND NOTT IS FREAKING

omg not at nott thinking yasha did it

ok but nott and her alcoholism is gonna be the new spice

nott possibly fusing with frumpkin sends

i love cats ah

FJORD OPENING UP LET’S GO LET’S GO

let fjord and caduceus be goddess buddies

praying to the wildmother is literally a way to deal with anxiety attacks

fjord’s fixation on the fact that the dream with the wildmother felt good says a lot

SHUT UP HE’S ANXIOUS TO FEEL THAT GOOD AGAIN IM GONNA FUCKING SOB

mountain with no snow in front of a salt flat? oh my

god i fuckn love fjord and caduceus talking

it’s the fuckn ocean im gonna fucking cry im 

HE GOES TO SLEEP VERY WELL THAT NIGHT IM LITERALLY GONNA SOB

omg let’s go three wlws bc bi/closeted lesbian jester is Real and no one can take that away from me

jester trying to wingman so hard lmfao

LMFAO YASHA STANDING OVER THEM

WAKEY

THE SCRY FAILED UGH

jester saying “that’s what i’m here for” rings a bell in my mind but i don’t know what exactly - something about her view of her worth in the group which would be interesting to explore

omg nott about to confront yasha

and fjord now oh and caduceus

TRAVIS JUST ENDED SAM’S CAREER HOLY FUCK

oh boy cold turkey is not gonna be fun

ANGRY YASHA OMFG

omg m9 please don’t enable the alcoholism

45 GOLD FOR FIRE WHISKEY OMG

maybe use that bottle to wean her off 

everyone calls jester jessie now ugh thank you nott for starting it and beau for always using it

god i love brjeaus so much

SECRET TUNNELLLLL SECRET TUNNELLLLLL THROUGH THE MOUNTAINSSSSSS

lmfao fjord tryna be buff

oh god what is this sending gonna sound like

WHAT IF I JUST GO DDU DU DDU DU DDU DDU DDU

IM FUKVMKSNF LLOSING IT NO SHE DID IT IMF FJA

how is she supposed to look for the hidden entrance if it’s hidden

oh god they’re gonna go down the tunnel aren’t they

the way travis and marisha burst into song fuckn nerds

no plans we die like adventurers

YASHA HONEY YOU ARE NOT A FREAK

i can be a freak i can i can be a freak every day of every week

o fuck yea goggles are cool

SHE’S UNDERAGE LMFAOO

holy fuck 25 gold BUT HE DOES IT ANYWAY

fjord just one black coffee-ed nott lmfao

huh nothing for locate creature but locate object worked

FUCK YEAH CELESTIAL BUDS

uh “until the world ends”?? that does not sound good 

FJORD JUST GOES IN DUDE

oban is floating i know

JESTER HOLDING YASHA’S HANDS

SHFSFIA THE FUKD FK AF JESTER TELLING YASHA THE M9 IS BEHIND HER AND WILL SUPPORT HER

WE CAN BE YOUR NEW ONE

WE CAN BE YOUR NEW ONE

WE CAN BE YOUR NEW ONE

hol on i  need several moments

WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH YASHA NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS

FUCKJFKSJFDAKJDF MY FUCKNS TEARS

oh? an idea?

ROCK HARP LMFAO

the way yasha prays to the stormlord is kind of endearing in a way to me

ashley is so nervous omg like travis was

TWO MILES???? THAT’S SO MUCH WALKING

this tunnel mad creepy i don’t like this

okay but i wonder if that tunnel collapsed because of someone 

beau and jester keeping track of the wall ugh my crumb

MM I DON’T TRUST OBELISKS

OOOH SYMBOLS ON PAPER

omfg fjord you can’t just eldritch blast in a tunnel that’s had a cave in before just shake him

oh it’s abyssal? defaced by celestial creatures?

UH UH THAT SOUNDS FOREBODING

god they’re such musical nerds

oh boy they’re sending nott in i hope she doesn’t get hurt

angel sculptures?

UM WEEPING ANGELS NO THANKS

THEY’RE CRYING BLOOD? NOPE GET OUT GET OUT

NOTT NO OMFG

ugh cats should have darkvisio

oh my god this is so creepy it’s like 4am matthew please

BROKEN SWORD??

THEY’RE GOING IN FUCK

LMFAO NOTT SEARCHING YASHA’S POCKETS

this place is so gd creepy matt please end it oh my god

the music is not helping at all

TWO DAYS OLD?? UH NOPE NOPE NOPE

THIS SOME SACRIFICIAL SHIT

NUH UH THIS IS REMINDING ME OF THE WHITESTONE ARC AND ZIGGURATS FUCK THIS OMFG

DON’T FUCKING PULL THE SKELETON FJORD JFC

oh god the fact that the statues were sitting is even creepier

i really don’t like this omg it’s so creepy

DOES NO ONE HAVE DETECT GOOD AND EVIL

AH FUCK THE STATUES ARE MAGICAL TOO

oh god she touched it

oh god they both touched it

oh i really do not like this omfg

what if someone dragged a body in oh god this is terrifying

IT’S MUSIC

WAIT DOESN’T CELESTIAL SOUND LIKE SINGING

METAL HARP LMFAO

break one open lol

UH SHE’S STANDING IN FRONT OF THE DOOR H

oh geez they really are gonna go in

earthy rotten sulfuric smell does not sound good at all

“you guys know what to do” oh boy

oh three yashas are a dream

WELL HELL LMFAO

closing it off with yasha as annie amazing

UGH CAN’T WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK

[coffeemaahtay-blog]

anything 4 views once said that leafy will soon fall in the abyss of youtube irrelevance and its kinda happening tbh, but i wonder what hes gonna do if his youtube career completely fades like,,, he hasnt gone to college, what is he able to do to support himself im getting kinda worried rn

yep, he was right. calvin got an amazing opportunity with his channel taking off so rapidly and then he got “exposed” so like, he lost a lot but like,, he could remake himself, he could fight back from dying off IF he actually cared. i always seem to compare keem and him, because they were in similar situations, the typical youtuber cycle: channel gets really big, gets to the point where they’re really influential, and people never say anything bad because of the fear of backlash, but then it starts getting too much/abuse of power (keem- stories he fucked up which ruined other people etc, leafy- getting away with overly harsh bullying videos), their peers become braver with calling them out, then it evolves into some huge “expose” bandwagon, and then everyone hates them. but the reason why they turned out different is because keem fought back to get his reputation back, he made his podcast to defend himself, he stepped up his content a shitton, and people started to gain respect for him again. and even though he was shady as fuck with the ending of baited, he’s still managing a decent rep & a growing channel. leafy has been the exact opposite. he just keeps doing the SAME shit over and over again. nothing is going to change for him, only get worse. he’s not fighting to be better, and that pushes away any chance he had of redeeming himself. 

and money wise, don’t worry lmao. he’s set for life. and as long as he keeps posting (which he will) he’ll still get his guaranteed 200k-300k views no matter how abysmal the video is or how irrelevant he is, which gets him a very good income. he’ll be more than fine. irrelevant yes, but fine.

also i need to stop writing essays but it’s just upsetting me i guess lmfao