#THEY'RE SO SWEET IM NOT GONNA SHUT UP ABT THIS

[chaoticlandworlder]

max eurovision when

[kuromi-hoemie]

how do you personally view sex/sexual attraction? what differentiates it for you, and what was your journey like? also your hair looks so good im jealous 😩❤️

im p stoned n in the middle of ori so i don't wanna rant(too much, but also oops) abt it rn lol, but I don't have sexual attraction 0:

ppl just b looking real pretty and i am looking affectionately. sex itself is just part of a shared experience to me and its a lovely way to be affectionate (❁´◡`❁) ♡⁠

there's a level of passion that ppl only really show when they're having sex with someone and if i could just have that without the sex that'd also be really great. i can and have made out all day, i love being handsy, i love being close in each other's embrace, i love the sounds and faces people make when they're losing themselves, i love Everything about when ppl cum, i also get a kick out of making someone as horny as possible bc it's fun, i love BITING people ☝🏾😤💕 i love the feel of our skin pressed together

idk i think it's all very fun and passionate and sweet! but then on a more casual note i got a huge oral fixation and if i know you like that, eating pussy's as casual as a kiss on the cheek and is more like me just stroking your back 🤧 it's just There ykwim i salivate over it.

the root of why i do things isn't because I'm horny and I Want You like that but more so from a place of wanting to take care of you bc i know you enjoy it 🤝🏾 and seeing/making you like that is enjoyable to me bc i know ur feeling good physically and emotionally.

tldr i move with my heart not my dick 🫡 but that's not gonna stop me from making someone cum as many times as they can handle bc I'm having fun and it's hot. as far as most ppl are concerned u still get to hit so whatever. if i think you're cute I'm trying to put u in a series of situations..

the only hurtful recurring issue I'd have before was ppl assuming I'm trying to have sex w them just bc we're making out like.. I'm just having fun and spending time with u, it doesn't have to be more than this. but then i let ppl escalate it and happily follow along but would always be confused and hurt low-key when they'd stop being as affectionate one day bc we've been having too much sex and like. i didn't know why those things had to be bundled together 🙈 it wasn't a big deal but i didn't get it, and it's hard to know u are missing a whole ass kind of attraction when you've never experienced it before!!

there are a lot of other slight disconnects that'd come up here and there over the years internally as i tried reconciling how i (didn't) feel with what the norm seemed to be and what ppl wanted of me, i only Really truly found out what being ace was in the past year as i tried answering the seemingly simple question of “do i like sex??¿” to which the answer was basically i love everything about it as a shared experience but as just a kind of affection it's also very besides the point To Me. enjoying sensations and connecting with each other are very 🤌🏾✨💕

coming from a more emotional/affectionate place this also makes me very flexible w kinks bc idk why not i would do anything for you.. but there are definitely simple physical things that make my brain go fuzzy, and i like to shut off and enjoy myself 😵‍💫😵‍💫 anything with my mouth is a big one but i like to be touched and grabbed too and being the dom is nice. why not lose myself in sensation 💆🏾‍♀️ i have a very sensitive body and i enjoy it.

but also as far as losing ourselves in sensation goes, that extends to everything (❁´◡`❁) ♡⁠ i cook and bake with decadence, i love to give massages of all sorts, i love being cuddled up and warm, i love putting on something fun for us to watch or do, i want to go on beautiful hikes and picnics in the garden with you, i want to experience Everything w you and enjoy all of life's pleasures. being polyamorous this also extends to friends bc there's nothing I'd do for a lover i wouldn't for a dear friend of mine 💁🏾‍♀️

um. i could talk in all directions and probably go in circles about the topic for a lot longer/more in depth but u get the gist of it 🫡 it's very easy to participate in and enjoy sex as an experience without that layer of sexual Attraction being what guides you To Me. ur still very lovely and seeing you naked is even more beautiful and I'm going to take my time exploring all of u ♡⁠ no matter what we're doing exactly I'm just trying to share a good time w you.

figuring out I'm ace made every disconnect make sense and everything clicked and it make me more sexual bc i firmly know where I'm coming from and what i actually get out of sex in general now👍🏾 there's an indescribable layer of hesitation in how i move and interact w others that's not there anymore, but that starts to bleed into self confidence and polyamory and other off topic stuff so yeah. good stuff. sorry my high rant was a lil long (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) consider this some sleepover talk lol

[ma1dita]

okok catching up on troubleverse WHEWW and i have the perffff song for them, paired with the lyrics verse-for-verse and me screaming shrilly LMAOOO.

but this song is sosososo perf, like everything abt it from the lyrics to the singer's erratically paced singing to the general unhinged vibes and. IT SHARES A NAME WITH THE ENTIRE SERIES TOO OMG-- 'partner in crime' by madilyn mei!! i haven't listened to my folk indie queen for a hot minute but i had to pull it out from the dusty archive of my skull for u 😗😗

When you're gone I feel alone again / The voices cannot hold my hand / They keep me company at very best / Distract me from my loneliness

insanity mention?? dionysus the god of mania?? HELLOOOO CAN THOU HEAR ME [rattling at the bars of containment]

Maybe I'm just an anomaly / Even my demons have their families / Truly something must be wrong with me / To need you as much as I do

smth must be wrong with trouble to need luke as much as she does and vice versa smth smth okay like. i think the whole thing abt him being trouble's ESA from buddy system is saying enough 😭😭

I was never meant to win / [... maniacal laughing] SHUT UP!

THE LAUGHING AND THE MUTED SHUT UP HERE JUST GETS ME. straight chills, ik it didnt happen but during love like a blister if trouble screamed at the other counselors out of rage and the campers heard it the way it sounded in the song UGH. I WAS NEVER MEANT TO WIN. THEY DON'T EVER WIN BC LUKE HAS BEEN DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE OMFG.

Here's the reigns / Take ahold of me / Please don't let me go / You do the talking / Sew up my mouth if I can't keep it closed

BUDDY SYSTEM CODED when they're on the road trip bc the image just comes to mind instantly, like if they see questioning adults luke has to do the sweet talking bc trouble is lowkey a pro yapper and can't keep her mouth shut at all. AND 'here's the reigns take ahold of me' NO WORDS no words at all just vibes bc wdym. i just think that luke being vulnerable to trouble and talking abt his mom as if he were giving her the reigns to his personal life ermm.

Run for it / I'll keep em occupied for you / Cause I love you, I love you so

SOMEBODYS ANGEL SAVE ME SOMEBODYS ANGEL SAVE ME. trouble stepping into the battle with ladon to save luke, 'run for it i'll keep [LADON] occupied cause i love you i love so' I AM SICK. SOMEONE MAKE ME SOME CONGEE UGHHH.

I'm 'bout to die / Yet the only thing I find i'm worried about is you / Something tells me you aren't coming / Guess that I'm truly doomed

i saw ur synopsis of asking for trouble like. he's dying and the only thing he can think abt. is trouble??? r u kidding me? and then trouble supposedly pleading his case with the olympians in the as above so below synopsis DONT TELL ME that trouble is gonna be too late for luke and so he dies thinking that she still hates him (based off what im assuming from the when the curtains close synopsis, 'all strings r cut' WDYM??)

I overhear your brain when it's close to mine / Oh, I know that we're not the same / My heart's on the line / I'm just a pawn in your game / Not your partner in crime

JO THEY R SUPPOSED TO BE PARTNERS IN CRIME HELLO. solipsism c'mere i just wanna talk bc drunk!trouble seeing luke from a different timeline and KNOWING HE'S REALLY THERE BUT IT ISNT HIM = 'i overhear your brain when it's close to mine / oh, i know that we're not the same' THEY ARE ON DIFFERENT WAVELENGTHS IN THE MOST LITERAL SENSE POSSIBLE WITH TIME in this essay i will--

You're slowly killing me / Taking your- (I was never meant to win)

luke to kronos, the titan is slowing killing him from the inside out the longer he's possessing luke. HE WAS NEVER MEANT TO WIN UGH. i need to put maddie and u in affectionate jail bc ASDFGHJKL goodbye i am finished. troubleverse is sososoo evil, like this is srsly what everyone else feels when they read jubi bc if it is i am so sorry for everything.

to conclude jo, ily but i also am gobsmacked with my mouth hanging wide open and catching flies bc this whole thing is unbe-fucking-lieveable. the way u built their whole ass relationship from the ground up and swung a baseball bat into it like ok i need to take a business month to process this for reasons known and unknown, my bags r packed up at the airport, who cares abt my chem grade, it is sabbatical time WHEWW

THEOOOOO IM SCREAMING UNTIL MY HEAD EXPLODES THE SONG REC IS SO GOOD??? how tf did i miss that

i am so happy that you made the troubleverse part of your day it is an honor to have you connect the dots from your perspective and see how everything is playing out!! you in my brain ill make you congee BAHAH you've been the only one to put some of the dots together for the final arc (or at least voice it, thank you for being brave) and i will neither confirm nor deny but your analysis is pretty spot on for someone who binge read it today thank you so much!!

study for chem no rest for the weak >:( love youu

[lesbicosmos]

bbc merlin liveblog - s1 ep4: the poisoned chalice

apologies for the inevitable length of this post, this ep is one of my favs

why does like everyone in this show have blue eyes?? merlin, arthur, morgana (ish, katie has heterochromia), nimueh, literally almost everyone has blue eyes

merlin is me whenever and i see a pretty woman, just almost cease functioning

arthur making merlin wear that outfit and that fucking hat is probably one of the funniest parts of the show

"she's pretty isn't she?" gwen see a woman and not immediately call her pretty challenge (she failed)

MORGANA WITH THE PURPLE DRESS AND THE BLUE SLEEVES ABDBRBSHDBS

damn merlin rly seems intent on sacrificing himself for arthur, and this early on aswell

merlin claims the drinks poisoned and arthurs all "oh merlin shut up ur so dumb" but then merlin drinks it and is poisoned and now it's all "ill go get this incredibly rare flower even if it's a suicide mission im not letting merlin die" what do u have to say abt that arthur 🤨

s1 morgana was so sweet i miss her

"you're not leaving this castle tonight." and he took that as a challenge

"sometimes you've got to do what you think is right and damn the consequences" one of my favourite quotes she's so iconic

honestly if morgana told me to do anything id just do it immediately no matter what-

OH MY GOD ITS MAGIC AGAIN WHO WOULDVE GUESSED /S

morgana going against uther from the very beginning i love her

the fact there are multiple instances throughout the show of merlin and arthur saying each others names in their sleep...actual soulmates im telling you

why is there a dinosaur in the forest i know mythical creatures exist in this but that is a whole dinosaur

there was no need for that awesome sword twirl but arthur did it anyway bc he's a dramatic bitch (and we love him for it)

"everyone in this show is so dumb they'll literally do anything if a pretty woman told them to" i say as if i wouldn't do exactly the same thing

arthurs actually deaf how did he not hear nimueh doing magic til she was literally yelling the incantations

that shot of arthur just hanging onto the rocks in the dark shouldn't be as funny as it is

m a g i c o r b o f l i g h t

can arthur hear merlin talking to him through the orb orrrr

attack of the shitty cgi spiders

god this is so gay it's literally a knight in shining armour/damsel in distress plotline

THE SHEER PAIN AND HEARTBREAK ON ARTHUR'S FACE WHEN UTHER CRUSHES THE FLOWER IM GONNA CRY

four episodes in and literally everyone is willing to risk their lives for merlin...so true

yknow we call him dumb so often but arthurs actually so smart when he needs to be

"i need some fresh water" is just gaius speak for "i need you to fuck off so i can do some illegal shit rn"

god gaius's facial expressions are gold 😭😭

"his heart has stopped" as if anyone's gonna believe that this is episode four and he's the titular character 😭

the first thing merlin does after waking up from lethal poison being sassing gaius is so true

the way arthur looks at merlin throughout that last scene, that's such an "im in love with you and im so relieved you're okay" look

the prolonged eye contact i cannot they're so gay

[hellonpluto]

Spider-Man 3 (2007) during-the-movie notes. They're not actually notes but i'm calling them that bc idk man

Spider-Man 3 (2007) notes!!

-intro pt 3. Loving how since there's like an evil version of him or smth the intro's more dark n brooding. Less reds n more black

-the backgrounds in the intro are more green whenever harry is being shown in the flashbacks!!! What the freak!!!

-spidey swinging thru the cracked glass memories is such a good idea and they did it so well

-OH SHIT THEN IT SHOWS VENOM SNEAKING INTO THE DNA N WEBS

-"ur friendly neighbor-hood.. yknow." YEAH I KNOWWWW

-GWEN STACY???? she's so prettyyyyyyy...

-mj slaying??? Yeah

-peter's so smitten its so cute :]

-thats right it took till the third movie to get a :] outta me

-i would love this scene even more if we didnt see stacy beforehand. Like its so sweet but also. Why

-"your knees were fine 😊"

-they're so cuteeeeeee . What the fuck is gonna happen to them

-VENOMMMMM

-at least i think its him

-why is this man breaking into a home. Do not touch her

-ohh its his daughter

-but still ew

-aunt may is so sweet for giving peter her wedding ring to give to mj. Thats so lovely

-but sadly boy gets yoinked on his way home

-is this one abt harry fumbling instead of peter

-IS HARRY DEAD????

-dna scene aw hell yeah

-wait no is he dusting away

-sand man???

-is he. Ok

-he mustve been a bitch to animate

"YOU TELL MY WIFE--*hits button*--thank you."

-what is going ON with newspaper man

-"Can i just say i really like that shirt?--here, its the crane accident."

-"he likes my shirt 👁👁"

-"does anybody care about what i want?" "I do!!" "Shut up. Get out."

-STAN LEE CAMEO(he speaks)

-NO. NO. NO PETEY NO DO NOT KISS HER

-FUCKING GOD. PETER. WHAT.

-EW

-gwen stacy get out

-peter ur so stupid

-VENOM!!!!!!!!

-new suit moment

-SYMBIOTE!!!!!!!

-"see ya chump."

-subway fight sick af

-bro's mudding it up

-edgy????

-*covers one eye with hair* because tonoight will be the noight that i will fall for youi ...

-NUH UH. SPIDEY DOESNT KILL

-Harry paints!!! Thats so silly!!

-landlord friendship unlocked??

-ok so now mj cheats

-NORMAN YOU EVIL SKANK

-peonies 😔

-STRAWBERRIES????

-oh shit what

-peter evil arc

-hrm

-i hate his collar :)

-HE HAS BANGS NOW WHAT

-newspaper man is confused and worried

-hes so real for that

-THE DANCING MEME

-ewwww peter ewwww

-he can play piano?? What???

-two girls ar once????

-uhm

-holy shit

-he's getting his boogey on

-woahhh woah byddy. Woaht. What. Nooio

-PICK A STRUGGLE PETER. PICK ONE.

-bar fight?

-he's trapped :[

-OOOOO VENOMMMM

-awooooooga

-eddie brock omg

-i love the voice changing and the animation. Im swooning over the craftmanship omg

-EDD???

-OH MY SHIT I WAS RIGHT ABT 'SANDMAN'

-"ooh.. my spider-sense is tingling 😏" eddie are u trying to get it on with mr parker

-bro he even tied him UP

-HARRY OSBORN UR AMAZING

-hand-holding from first movie resumed!!!

-oh my fick i was joking then i gor to the "give me your hand!" Bit. Harry ur not slick

-newspaper man gets scammed by kid(its me im the kid)

-"HANG ON!!" "TO WHAT??"

-parksborn, your honor.

-why did peter moan

-anyways.

-eddie's teeth are now fucked up in civilian form. Nvm

-HARRY NOOOOOO

-harry :[

-ok yeah no i dont like eddie no mo

-i think i just like the venom animation. Yeah

-bro gets fucked up via noise

-eddie just. Killed himself

-what the flip

-marko :[

-MARKOOOOOO

-HARRY :[[[[[[[

-why yyyyyy

-couldnt peter have just. Webbed him up a bit? Why?????

-the throuple is now just a couple 😔

-seeing mj. I think i need to watch the ironman movies to see pepper pots(potts?) and tony stark not constantly cheat on eachother. I mean at least i hope they dont

-good movie, i feel like venom couldve been used a bit better. Very sad abt harry. 7/10 honestly. I think thats just bc im sad, but i liked 2 the best out of the og three movies.

[cronchywaters]

Bicc their personality trait isn’t contradictory. They just aren’t one dimensional like yo bitchass

WUFJAKIXJAKW

[soupncrackwrs]

Okay so I had an idea for an AFTG fic but again I’m horrible at anything that isn’t hc’s so here we are (feel free to make this into a fic if you want just credit me) *Also all pairing in this are platonic besides andreil and mattdan soo, don’t like get out*

This spawned from that fact that one of my 3 PTP’s (platonic trust pairing) in AFTG is Kev and Neil

This is probably my PTP that has the most popularity in the fandom I’d say (my other 2 are Renee/Andrew/Neil and Neil/Dan which are both *really* hard to find ((at least on ao3)) so that sucks) but you’d be surprised how little it gets like actually focused on

Most times, platonic wise, Neil gets shown bonding with The MonstersTM, Allison, or Matt

wHICH IS FINE IM TOTALLY OKAY W/ THAT

I just happen to enjoy neil/dan, kev/neil,and renee/andrew/neil more

So I wanted a fic that really showcased kev and neils relationship

BUT IM ALSO IN LOVE WITH OUSIDER POV SO THIS HAPPENED

Now onto the actual headcanon

So neil and kevin are like best friends

They've been like that for a while

but they also like fucking despise each other

like they love and care deeply for each other and would probably die for the other if the situation called for it

but will that stop them from almost killing each other 24/7?

HELL NO

so they go to college together

along with all the upperclassmen (so matt+dan+allison+renee+seth) but not the monsters

andrew and neil have been together for a bit

they met around the same time kev and neil did so they've been together for a while (also while we're talking abt relationships, i don't ship renison ((am i the only one who believes that renee is a strong aro gal who don't need no man/lady/person)) but if you wanna make this renison, go ahead)

andrew goes to a different college tho ( for some reason i dunno)

and neil doesn't really like sharing stuff abt his personal life

we all know this

but a lot of the stuff he's done in his life involves andrew

so drew is brought up a fair amount

but when the upperclassmen ask who he is neil kinda just smiles and then moves on so they ask kevin and he's like

oh andrew is like one of my bffls he's a ride or die

(obviously not phrased like that)

and the upperclassmen r like 'ok he can be trusted he's a friend'

(little do they know hehhehhe-)

sO ONE DAY

kev is tryna forget all his issues

so he decides to get hella pissed

wasted like he's never been b4

probably cause thea broke up w/ him last week but we don't talk abt that okay shhhhhhh

so he goes to the next party alli throws and

let's say it together kids

gets wasted like he's never been b4

to the point where the upperclassmen don't really know wht to do with him????

so they call up neil like yo pick up kev he's drunk off his ass like always but we think he's doing it cause he's sad this time'

so neil, being the good and sweet angel (not) that he is

goes to pick up kevin

and like he finds him on a coach almost catatonic just rambling to himself

so neil picks him up and drags him away to his car

and ofc all the upperclassmen r trying to help

so while neil is putting kevin into his car kev randomly just stops talking

(which is weird cause he's kept rambling this entire time)

and he looks neil in the eyes and goes

'i love you neil'

and neil just like takes a second

pAuSeS

because he's not used to people showing him love even tho so many ppl rlly do love him (this boy is2g-)

and then quietly says

'love you too kev'

and finishes buckling him up

all the upperclassmen have been watching this going on the entire time and they read into in the exact wrong way

(they're trying their best, my baby dumbasses, but they're just wrong)

and think this is a romantic love confession between frenimies *instead* of the declaration of mutual respect and affection between 2 bro's that it is

matt is the first one to voice this after kev and neil leave and he is

PUMPED

he is super excited that his bro has found someone to love just like he found dan and is super excited to like talk abt love and go on double dates n stuff

and every one else agrees

which is why they're all super disappointed that by the time a week goes by, nothing has changed between them

so dan matt and allison decide to do something about it (renee+seth ducking out because'it's rude to meddle' and 'why tf would i care abt jostens love bullshit')

they try to set up kevin and neil a bunch of different time s

once with the offer of a study session that they all say they can't make it to, leaving neil and kevin alone

another time with the offer of kevin and neil going to the movies w/ matt and dan

(neil ends up busy w/ a skype date with andrew that he can't pass up cause they're always so busy and he has to see his boyf so kevin just ends up 3rd wheeling matt and dan)

and once with allison straight up just telling neil that he and kevin should get coffee some time

which neil respond to with

'we already get coffee together?'

so dan matt and alli are stumped

they don't know what to do with these 'lovesick' idiots

they're problem gets solved tho don't you worry

so the next weekend, andrew is gonna come over to psu and stay for like a week

neil is oVER THE MOON

HE IS SOO HAPPYYYYY

And kevin is really happy too

so the upperclassmen take this to mean that these boys have finally gotten the hint and asked each other out

so imagine they're suprise when the next time the group goes to get lunch (which they do with each other every wednesday )

a super short blond emo joins them

and no one really acknowledges it?!?!?!?!?!?

until renee is just like 'hello andrew, how are you?' knowing smile on her face

and the upperclassmen are just like 'oh it's the famous andrew, that makes sense' but then they're like 'wait how does renee know andrew?!?!'

they ask and renee is just like 'neil gave me his discord. he thought we'd get along well'

-and then they're just like okayyy renee totally has a crush but well let it slideee

uNTIL

at the end of lunch neil is just like 'oh wait i never properly introduced him-' -cause you're a mess, junkie' -fuck off andrew' then just turns to the upperclassmen and says

'guys this is my boyfriend andrew'

and the foxes just silently freak out

because neil is in love with kevin? it's so clear? why did neil go and get a boyf when he has his love right in front of him??????

so after lunch, matt dan and alli ask to talk to neil privately

(andrew, kev,and renee all talk together while seth like, looks at his phone)

and they're like 'neil why'd you get a boyf??'

and neils like 'wdym?'

and alli says 'why'd you get a boyf if your so obviously in love w/ kevin?!'

and neil just LAUGHS at them

straight up cackles

and then the upperclassmen are like whaaaaattttt????

we saw your declaration of love at the party??

and you're both really close and seem to genuinely like and be interested in each other??

what gives????

and neils like

'me n kev are besties

that was a platonic declaration of love

also

i'm demi and me and drew have been together for like 3 years now'

and the upperclassmen are just like 'ooooooooooooooooohhhhhh sorryyyyyyyyy'

it's the first time alli has ever lost a bet (it was w/ seth abt neils feelings for kevin)

neil tells andrew abt it and the shortie just snorts and is like 'kevin would fuck a racket quicker than he'd fuck you'

neil is like 'i'm basically exy personified tho, soooooo'

drew tells him to shut up

(he does when andrew asks yes or no, just nods his head and smiles)

renee knew all along and is happy for her friends

kevin just wants to play exy he's been deprived the entire post

So yeah that's the entire headcanon. If you want some music to listen to while you write or just in general i recommend "I lost a Friend" by FINNEAS and "Corduroy Dreams" by Rex Orange County. they don't really have anything to do with the story, they're just real good :) Thanks for reading. see y'all later



[ethospathoslogan]

AH! I'm so happy to find someone that thinks the same way I do! Most people I've talked to about mysmes were focused on the fact that Jaehee was a closet lesbian, Zen acts differently to those he loves, Yoosung is an innocent child that was manipulated, 707 has such deep emotional trauma and has the most character development. And they're all more or less true, but I hate that Jumin is denied because he's cold and logical. Or rude to Zen and the whole bad end thing. It just irks me sometimes.

OKAY NOAH FENCE BUT ZEN IS SO MUCH MEANER TO JUMIN THAN JUMIN EVER IS TO HIM

like zen, A GUY WHO RAN AWAY FROM HOME BC OF HIS FAMILY ISSUES, makes fun of jumin for,,,, wait for it,,,,,,, HIS FAMILY ISSUES

also not to mention, zen is always very into his looks, which is fine bc confidence, but the minute jumin is like, “hey, i’m attractive, too,” zen is like, “shut the fuck up you’re such a narcissist” like b o y look in a mirror b4 u point fingers

and yeah yeah i get it, zen was wary of jumin bc jumin reminded him a lot of his brother who was an asshole but like,,,, zen’s whole thing is that he’s worried that people will only like him for what they see, but then he goes and judges jumin.............. for his outermost layer as a person.......................................

like smh im not saying that jumin has to be your fave, but if you’re gonna accept characters like yoosung who have a yandere bad end and seven who calls you stupid and an idiot in his route, at least accept jumin’s flaws and accept that he grows from them

but u know, he’s not super sweet all the time and isn’t making constant jokes to hide his anguish, so, naturally, people don’t like him

sorry i get really heated abt jumin