#THERES LIKE. THREE BIG STORIES WITH THESE FUCKS. -shakes them- CAN WE CALM DOWN NOT EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U NEEDS A PERSONAL TALE
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spotsupstuff ¡ 1 year ago
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Aughaug Sparrows is very pretty.
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Euros VERY much agrees. tho he's really not doing her any favors by yanking her head towards him outta nowhere While she's eating too. let a woman eat her instant noodles, man, she fuckin loves 'em
here have some bonus doodles i ran off to sketch out while workin on ur ask
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alreadyblondenow ¡ 4 years ago
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This is how you broke Jeno’s heart
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Lee Jeno x reader //ANGST, smut, fluff?
Themes: college! au, strangers to friends???, popular Jeno, normal student reader, sad ending
Word count: 5k
Summary: He was your lover, and now he’s your professor. Lee Jeno is Valentines day, 2017. Lee Jeno is afternoon golden hour drive, windows open as you let the wind gush into your face. Lee Jeno is burgers during movies on theaters. Lee Jeno is the holy grail and you broke his heart. 
Warnings: mentions of other idols, pairing of other idols, swearing, car sex, protected sex,  rough sex, slight cheating, sad ending
A/N: I did this in one sitting so I understand if this is not loved. but anyway, this is inspired from true events. And fuck, I was actually getting teary eyed while writing this because I recently found out he’s going to be married so yeah. Enjoy reading another sad story about my love life! Oh I picked Jeno because he looked like Jeno :( 
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SENIOR YEAR
Three terms before graduating college, finally. Today is the first day of senior year and you’re late for your 7:30am class because of your best friend who doesn’t care about punctuality plus the elevator is taking too long and you’re worried because it’s a class you don’t want to miss because it’s hard to pass. Or so you’ve heard.
“Gosh, first day and were late?” you whine as your best friend hands you a medium sized coffee as a sorry for being late and as thank you for waiting for her.
“Since when did we ever went to class on time? And look at us now, graduating in a few months with good ass portfolio’s” she took a sip from her coffee as you both walk towards the classroom, “I wonder who the professor is” she added but the moment you guys arrived the classroom there were no professor, just waiting students freezing under the high temperature air conditioning of the school.
You removed your jacket and prepared your things on the desk, checking through twitter while you wait for the professor to come and boom.  
“Good morning class, sorry I was late but no worries. If you come in late next time, I won’t care just to be fair. Please sign this attendance sheet, pass it around as I prepare for class”
You don’t know if he saw you but you’re sure he’s someone you know and you’re hands are shaking not because of the coffee, but because of the man right in front of the whole class.  Your best friend nudge you shoulder, clearly you’re thinking about the same thing. “Are you seeing this?” she whispered beside you, pretending to fix her jacket behind her chair.
“Fuck. I thought It’s just someone who has the same features as him”
Lee Jeno.
Lee Jeno is Valentines day, 2017. Lee Jeno is afternoon golden hour drive, windows open as you let the wind gush into your face. Lee Jeno is burgers during movies on theaters. Lee Jeno is the holy grail and you broke his heart.
Flashbacks kept on coming the whole class hour and it was so hard to concentrate and listen to him while he teaches. His eyes looked at you but you don’t know if he recognise the girl who broke his heart. Maybe the school offered him a job? Or this is a part time job? Dropping the subject was your last chance and only idea to avoid him but doing that can make you not graduate on time. Fuck, you whispered to yourself.
After the class, you hurry on putting your things to your bag but not quick enough to avoid Jeno’s presence. Your best friend left you on purpose because she knew Jeno will not let this opportunity pass and as someone who knew about your history, you two need to talk. Standing beside you with his hands inside his pocket, looking at you as you hurry out the room. “No ‘hi’ or ‘hello’” his face is as handsome as ever. There’s not a day goes by that you don’t regret hurting this amazing guy.
“See you on Thursday, Sir Lee” you smiled like an innocent student and left him on the empty classroom.
FRESHMAN YEAR
Your first year in college is about adapting, adjusting with the surroundings, finding yourself or finding a certain classroom for hours and hours because the school campus is still not familiar to you. College is so different to high school especially when it comes to lunch breaks. Your lunch break is two hour long before a 5 hour brain challenging class. Good thing you have your best friend who knows how to kill time in a fun way.
“I bet your life will change in two minutes, when Lee Jeno finally enter through that door”
“Lee who?” obviously you’ve never heard about that handsome senior your best friend is talking about.
“Jeno” unlike you, your best friend knew every popular student from the higher batch. “There he is. He’s fucking handsome, I can’t believe him”
At first you didn’t want to look back, you just want your best friend to enjoy her eye candy of a crush. The way her eyes turned to heart eyes is amusing alone and you’re satisfied with that. But you are curious. So you figured, why the hell not?
Jeno was sitting with his friends the moment you turned your head towards him. He was smiling and laughing at his friends while he sits so handsome holding his phone. You didn’t notice that you were looking hard and that your best friend is the one making fun of you this time. It’s true what she just said, Lee Jeno will change your life.
“So how popular are we talking about?” you turned your head towards your best friend with a big smile.
“Popular. Girls write love letters to him and put it inside his locker and guess what, those girls knew the combination of his lock. That means girls are crazy for him, literally. Not to mention he’s smart and friends with the other cuties in the campus. Oh! He has a car, and the greatest mystery of all time…” she leaned closer to you, “Jeno and his ex, are not in good terms. And after they broke up before their freshman year ended, he never went out with someone again, he stayed single until now”
“Wasting his good looks and handsome body, and for what? For the right one? Tsk. He’s handsome but stupid” but that doesn’t changed the fact that you actually like him.
Your first year in college turned around, up side down because of Lee Jeno. You fell for him. Hard. But even though you have great feelings for the man, you kept it to yourself. Theres no way you will leave love letters in his locker before he graduates, you’re satisfied that you get to see him during your long hour lunch break and watch him smile everyday.
And as life goes on and Freshman year is almost over, that means Jeno will soon graduate and it’s time to let go of your silly crush and find another one in school. You’re not stupid to cry over a guy you’ve never even had a conversation with, but you’re sad enough that you got teary eyed when you found Jeno’s usual seat in the cafeteria being taken by some random student.
It was the start of Sophomore year and you have different schedules with your best friend. That leaves you alone during your two hour long lunch break. No Jeno. No best friend. Just you and the school’s yummy pasta, alone in table in the middle of the cafeteria full of young bloods.
“Is this seat taken? Sorry everywhere else is full”
Your mouth was full of pasta and you can’t talk or lift your head to see who it is so to avoid humiliating yourself, you signalled, ‘it’s okay. Sure take the seat.’ When you finally chewed and swallowed your food, you almost choke yourself with your own spit because it’s Lee Jeno. Eating the same pasta as yours, in front of you.
“I usually sit with my friends during lunch breaks, but they’re all gone now. Graduated already. Hi, I’m Jeno by the way” he offered his hand for you to shake and smiled handsomely.
“Uh, y/n” you gladly accepted the handshake, but you manage to keep your calm and don’t freak him out. The last thing you want to happen is Lee Jeno thinking that you’re weird. “Aren’t you a Senior? I mean, you’re kind of popular, so I know”
“Yeah. But not everyone knows I have failed a few subjects so, that’s our secret” he held a ‘shh’ gesture and continue eating.
Who would’ve thought that him failing his subjects will draw him straight to your life. It’s not right to be happy that he didn’t get to graduate on time, but you’re glad it happened.
During your time eating with each other face to face, you talked about how silly the school is for giving their students hours and hours of lunch breaks only to torture them with a five hour class afterwards. He asked about your stay here in this college and why did you pick fine arts, you did the same. It was a talk that you never imagined having with Jeno and you’re having a great time. Until those two hours are finally done and you both have to go to your respective classes.
If Cinderella had her time with her prince at the ball, you had your time with your prince in the middle of the cafeteria during lunch. Just like Cinderella, you don’t know if this kind of moment will happen again in your life. It’s not as if you can just leave your shoe and let him find you again, you just left with a smile, thanked him for his time and he thanked you for the seat.
You didn’t know, but Jeno was actually sad and having a hard time. He was having a bad day and he misses his friends, cursing this popularity that he never asked. Now everyone in school will judge him for being a late graduate. On top of that, he’s not used to eating alone and he was pretty worried until he saw you with a vacant seat. He didn’t expect to enjoy your company but boy is he glad he met you today. It’s like meeting you brightened up his mood, now he has something to look forward to during lunch breaks.
On the next day, you don’t want to keep waiting and expect the same thing that happened yesterday happen again today. So you distracted yourself with a movie. And while you’re in deep concentration with the movie while you’re eating your cookies, you saw a hand get a piece and you put on an angry face because who dared doing such a rude-
“Oh Jeno…” you were like a statue when he placed his bag on the chair and brought out some books to work on something, his homework maybe?
“Sorry for the cookie, I’ll buy you another pack after we finish this and after I do this stupid homework” he turned to his books while eating the cookie on his hand.
We. The word made you smile and nod at him, not wanting to disturb him while he studies. You figured maybe comparing yourself with Cinderella was wrong because your prince didn’t need a shoe for him to come find you.
After that second interaction with Jeno… A third happened, fourth, fifth, and so on and so forth. He depended on your great company to save him from his own sadness and heavy thoughts because being an irregular student makes him lonely and whenever he remembers not graduating with his friends makes him sad plenty.
You two spend lunch breaks together everyday and talk about everything and anything under the sun, talking about each other’s interests, laughing loudly at each other’s jokes like you’ve been friends for years and years already. In other words, you and your college crush became good friends. Maybe if you’re not destined to be lovers, you two are bound to be good college friends.
“Hey do you want to go for a drive?” the question made your heart beat fast because it’s a drive with Jeno were talking about here. You do have one last class for the day but, no one will die if you miss it just this once.
“Sure” you smiled wildly to his offer and you two made your way to the school’s parking lot.
The drive was something you will never forget because you’re with Jeno. Simple as that. The sun hits his face perfectly while his eyes are fixed on the road and you feel the wind slapping your face because he’s driving a little too fast to make it exciting and fun. He went to a drive thru and bought burgers for the two of you and eat it inside the car in the middle of an empty parking lot somewhere.
To Jeno, that drive was the proof that he’s falling for you hard. But it’s also a proof that he’s scared of loosing you once you knew about his hidden feelings. He shrugged it off and focused to the way you ate your hamburger that makes him smile but when you ask for his hamburger because you’re still hungry, it makes him happy.  
That drive sparked something between you two. It’s obvious that he likes you and you’re not stupid to not see it, he’s just not saying it yet because maybe he’s waiting for the perfect time or assurance. No one knows.
As for you feelings, let’s just say you don’t know what you want. You’re still convinced that Jeno is destined to be a great friend and not as someone who’m you can love. But since he’s been your crush, your heart still beats for him.
“Did you know that a lot of girls are crazy about you? And that they can open your locker?”
Jeno let out a loud laugh that echoes inside his car, “I know about the locker, but that locker is not just mine. It’s Haechan’s, Mark’s and Renjun’s and mine. So every time theres a letter we don’t know how to feel about it”
“Oh my, good thing I never sent you one” you laughed to yourself too.
“So you’re one of those girls? You crazy about me too?” heat creeps around your body and suddenly you avoid his eyes, “You are…” he pretends to be shocked.
“Calm down, I used to be like those girls. Okay, you can stop teasing me” you shook your head on disbelief because this is not how you imagined telling Jeno that you used to have a crush on him.
“I think you’re cute and I’m not embarrassed to tell you that so you shouldn’t be embarrassed on admitting that you used to have a crush on me” to Jeno, that’s only half true. Because he doesn’t only think that you’re cute, he thinks you’re also beautiful and he likes you. Very much.
Since the day you two became incredibly close, you realised that you’re not romantically meant to be together. But you can see him fall for you each day that passes and you hate the timing of your lives even more each day for doing this to you and Jeno. It’s like fate was playing with your feelings.
As days go by, you notice Jeno is acting a little weird towards you. Little did you know, after that drive he confirmed to himself that he likes you and not just as friend. And because of that, he’s taking baby steps on turning your friendship into something more romantic.
Come Valentines day, you didn’t expect something special to happen this day because you’re single and no one in school is interested in you. But you’re wrong. Lee Jeno has something up his sleeve and he caught off guard. For the first time in your life someone gave you a Valentine card, a box of expensive chocolates, and a red rose. All that Valentines shit couples give out during this day.
And it made you crazy happy that Jeno actually thought he has a chance with you.  
“Wow. From Lee Jeno”  you read his Valentine card and blush like crazy in front of him at the school cafeteria. It did made you happy, for some time. For a moment you forgot that Jeno is a god, who gave you Valentine goodies in front of a lot of students who knew him. And that’s how people in school knew about you and Jeno. Rumours spread like wild fire, you started getting hate message all over social media from those crazy girls. Everyone thought you’re just that Sophomore friend of Jeno and they didn’t expect that Jeno will like you.
‘Find someone prettier’
‘Her vs. your ex… definitely your ex’
‘You deserve someone better’
All those hurtful words got the best of you and it made you small. But even though you got hurt, you figured they’re just jealous of you and you won’t let them ruin your friendship with Jeno.  
Given the fact that he’s being confident with showing his feelings for you, and to be fair and to be completely nice, you just let him do his thing without hurting his feelings. If he wants to text you good morning messages and send you subtle but sweet phrases, you let him. If he wants to sit beside you during lunch breaks and not on his usual seat across you, so be it. If he insist on waiting for you after class and drive you home, you accept it. These are the things that you imagine him doing to you during freshman year but now that it’s actually happening, you feel weird about it.
Finally he asked you out on a date. Which you turned down because you have school stuff to finish and he completely understands it. And then he asked you out again, and you had to turn him down again. Because you really don’t want to go on a date with him.
“I think I’m doing something wrong?” he drinks his fourth bottle of beer while his friends listens to everything he says. Seeing the Lee Jeno so broken and frustrated like this is new to them. Turns out, you’re the only girl he’s interested with after being single for almost four years.
“Give her time that’s my say, maybe you’re intimidating her at some point and she’s not into popular guys” Mark pats Jeno’s shoulder and clinks his bottle of beer with Jeno’s.
“Any word from her best friend?” Jeno asks, and Mark shook his head none. Your best friend and Mark Lee have been dating for some time now and that officially put both of your names into the hall of fame. And a possible target of the crazy girls who are head over heels for Jeno and Mark.
Jeno didn’t understand why. It’s not that he’s so full of himself that he’s so confident that he can win you with his charms, but theres something different about you that even though it’s obvious that you only love him as a friend, he kept on pushing and pushing. And he wanted to do it until he can finally call you his.
Now that Jeno is busy being an intern outside school, you no longer see each other everyday and talk to each other like how you usually do. That’s how you met Hendery. Unlike you and Jeno who started off being friends, you and Hendery started off being sweethearts. And maybe that’s what went wrong between you and Jeno because you completely remember that you still have feelings for him the moment he ate one of your cookie, then your feelings slowly fade away each day you two meet.
You told Jeno all about Hendery through one of your calls before going to sleep simply because you don’t want him to find out from other people. “He’s a great guy, we went on a date yesterday after school”
“Two weeks with this guy and he can get you on a date? Wow” Jeno is broken, “I’m with you for over six months already and I asked you to go on a date with me twice…. you never said yes” the hurt from his voice is obvious and your heart is breaking because you didn’t mean to hurt him, you just wanted to be honest.
After that call, you and Jeno did not talked to each other. You wanted so bad to talk to him but you’re scared that he’ll get the wrong memo and that he will think that he still stand a chance. So yet let him be and you let him come to you and you focus on Hendery.
A few weeks after, you saw a picture of Yeeun and Jeno on one of his social media accounts having a romantic date somewhere. Complete with wine and candles. You’re jealous and theres no way you can cover it up.
“Is this some kind of joke?” you exclaimed over the phone to your best friend, mad and angry about what you just saw.
“He’s moving on give him a break. Besides I thought you don’t have feelings for him?”
“I don’t I’m just… offended because he’s completely doing this on purpose because of Hendery which is so childish! Oh my g- I can’t… ugh!” you continue to shout and scream over the phone but your best friend is in the middle of having sex with Mark so you can’t talk to her well.
Being jealous is a proof that you have feelings for him still. And you can’t give in to that because going back to Jeno will hurt Hendery, so you have to be smart and weigh things over. If Jeno ask you out on a date for the last time before being official with Hendery, you will give him a chance. But if not, that will be the end of it.
As days go by, Hendery has been going full out on showing how much he likes you and you come to the realization that you actually love Hendery already. Jeno on the other hand, haven’t talked to you since then, no hi or hello. And the thought of Jeno is the only thing that’s stopping you from making it official with Hendery. Of course you feel bad, it feels like you’re cheating on him. And to be completely honest, you’re growing tired of this push and pull with Jeno.
You were eating your favorite pasta alone while you catch up with some readings for your last class for the day when a fine young man sat in front of you. “Did you just saved me a seat?” one glance of his perfect smile made your anger vanished out of thin air.
“Yeah I kept it empty until you come back” you were happy to see him, it feels like those days when everything was still okay between you and him. No drama just you and Jeno and your own little world.
“Want to go for a drive?” he raised his eyebrows twice, luring you to miss another class for a drive with him. And because you miss him so bad, the next thing you know you’re watching a scary movie with burgers on your hands sitting closely with each other. His warmth is enough to make you feel safe and not scared with the movie and when the burgers are all finished, your hands are intertwined unconsciously.
You were both quiet when you got back to his car because of the movie you just watched. Both too scared and weirded out with how the story ended. “At least they died together”
“Yeah” you agreed immediately but you two stayed quiet.
“Did you know that you were holding my hand?”
You snap your head and looked at him, shy to answer what he asked you but theres no escape and you can’t make an excuse. “Yeah, sorry about tha-“
He’s quick to to grab your hand and hold it firmly you feel like your bones are starting to crush. It hurts but there’s no words coming out from your mouth. He made you face him with his free hand and leaned towards your face to kiss you. Just a peck as if he’s testing waters.
Then you kissed him back. And the kiss became heated that he pulled you close to him and invited you to sit on his lap, legs on the driver’s seat, his arms around your waist and yours is looking for something you can grasp because his kisses are intense.
“Why can’t you love me? Huh?” you see the hurt in his eyes when you peek in between kisses and you felt guilty. Tears run down to his face but you don’t know if it’s tears of joy or out of sadness.
“Jeno, please stop crying” you beg, breathing hard and gasping. But he never stopped.
“Say you love me” his hug against your waist tightens more as if he never wanted you leave his car, “say you love me, please” he sobs.
His begging made you do it, “I love you. Please stop crying, you don’t deserve this”
Hearing those words made him relax and loosen up his crushing embrace. His hand creeps to the hem of your shirt, playing with your tummy tickling it because he knows you’re ticklish. That changed the mood, he undid your pants and made some space so you can remove it easily. He did the same thing with his pants and boxer briefs and reached for the console to get a condom which he quickly rolled to his cock before you get back on top of him.
He motions you back close to him and put a little spit on his fingers before playing with your slit, checking if you’re ready to be fucked. “You’re not a virgin right? I don’t have to be careful anymore” he asked with ragged breath, obviously excited for what’s going to happen.
“Be gentle, still. It’s been so long since my last” you positioned your legs in between him, letting his cock tease your cunt and spread your juices more.
“Wheres the fun on being gentle? But don’t worry, I love you too much I wont let you get hurt”
You slowly sink down on him feeling his thick and veiny cock and rolled your hips slightly to help you adjust more and so you can have rough sex,  just how wants. “Ah- Jen if I roll my hips longer I will cum” he chuckled and took over, thrusting hard upwards your cunt. One hard thrust at a time, you feel your head bump on top of the car roof your hands push on the windows for support. Then his thrusts became faster putting you two on edge in no time.  You were moaning and letting out sharp breaths in between curses so he pulled your face closer to him and kissed you while he fucks you to your orgasm and while he catches his own.
The car smelled like sex and you were both too weak to move after cumming. It started raining hard and you feel awfully comfortable sitting on Jeno’s lap. “Just so you know, I didn’t planned for this to happen”
“I know” with all your strength you made yourself presentable again and went back to your seat and waited for Jeno to drive you home.
The rain was making you feel more sad and guilty, swimming with your thoughts while thinking about Hendery. That’s why you didn’t hear Jeno ask you is you if you were cold he needed to reach for your hand while he was driving under the strong rain and flinch because of his cold hands.
“Sorry, what” you crossed your arms so he can’t reach for your hand again. Your mind is full of Hendery and you and can’t tell him that.
Jeno on the other hand knew something is wrong that you feel guilty or mad because of the sex. But he wants to be selfish just this once to prove to you that he loves you and this is the only way. “Nothing, I asked if you were cold”
Sex never felt so wrong.
When you came home you took a shower and cried for hours, avoiding Jeno’s calls and messages because you feel bad about what happened. You don’t know what to do but you can’t tell Hendery what happened, so you did something to ease the guilt that you’re feeling. You finally made it official with Hendery, your heart broke even more when you heard him so happy through the phone because that only means he loves you too much.
Then there’s you. Having sex with a friend who’m you used to have a big crush with.
You avoided Jeno with all your power until he gets the message that you feel bad about what happened between the two of you. Until the day the that you’re ready to face him again, you will not talk to him.  
And that’s how you broke Lee Jeno’s heart.
SENIOR YEAR
What happened between you and Jeno flashbacks like a movie in your head during lunch break and you can’t believe that you can feel his presence around the campus even though you can’t see him.  
It’s been seven ugly months when you and Hendery broke up and you have to admit that it still hurt like hell. Cheating motherfucker didn’t deserve you. The regret of choosing Hendery over Jeno haunted you everyday but you didn’t expect that Jeno will literally comeback barging into your life again.
Maybe this time life will give you a shot at the love you deserve. And Jeno is the answer to that. But it’s been years since the last time you talked and that was the night you two had sex in his car. What you did to him was unforgivable and you feel bad, you feel like you used him but you didn’t mean it if that makes sense.
“Mark is here, you sure you don’t need a ride?” your best friend brought you back to reality while you were swimming in thoughts. You didn’t even notice it was raining hard already.
“I’ll be fine. I can just call an Uber, tell Mark to drive safe okay?” she hugged you and went towards Mark’s waiting car outside the school lobby. You were just about to book an Uber when someone tapped you on your shoulder.
“Come on I’ll drive you home. Just like old times”
“You do know that a student-teacher relationship is jail time right? This is not old times Jeno. You’re a teacher, a professor rather. And I’m still obviously a student” you turned your back on him and continued fidgeting on your phone.
“And I’m being a responsible adult, who’s offering help to a student that’s obviously in need because your phone just died on you” he smirked.  
“Fine wheres your car” you said, accepting defeat.
“Right this way please” he ushered you to the elevator to go to the basement parking.
While walking to his car, you didn’t expect him to still have the car. The car where you two had sex. And that is the main reason why you didn’t want him to drive you home.
The rain caused a heavy traffic and it made you feel more suffocated inside Jeno’s car. You cross your arms because you were freezing, clinging to your thin sweater for more heat.
“Don’t worry, I won’t touch you. Please relax, you’re breaking my heart”
Your head swing towards him and you gave him a look. A look that’s telling him you’re angry and how dare him to mention your past. It was so hard not to talk back because it can end up as a fight so you kept what you’re feeling to yourself.
“You make me feel like I’m a bad person when all I ever cared about is you and loving you” he added.
“Please Jeno, don’t do this now” you beg, closing your eyes and turning your back against him looking at the cars outside.
“After that night you made me feel like I’m a rapist or something. I’m sorry that it’s not what you want to do that time, I’m sorry that I begged, Im so-“
“I forgive you. And you don’t have to say sorry because I was the one who hurt you Jeno. Not the other way around, so please understand how hard it it for me to sit with you in this car. To make you feel better I regret not choosing you. There! I said it. Now please shut up”
The ride became quiet, awkward and cold so you decided to sleep if off. When you woke up from your nap, you and Jeno are in front of your house already and he’s waiting for you to wake up. His jacket is on your lap cover your freezing legs and he even turned off the air conditioning so you won’t shiver. It was a kind gesture you admit, and he’s still Lee Jeno who cared for you. Your friend. Even though you hurt him so many times and that makes you a heartless person still, you care for him. “Thank you. And I’m sorry about earlier”
“I’m getting married” he finally blurted out.
You didn’t know. You didn’t even know that he was seeing someone “And… I’m happy for you…” what he said got you speechless and you felt your heart broke even more.
“But I recently found out through Mark that you and Hendery are over… And I started to have seconds thoughts Y/n”
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Is it wrong to admit that everything inside this fic happened to me in real life? hahahaha Except to the part where he’s having second thoughts. 
So yeah the story goes like that I picked someone new over my crush who’m I became good friends with and that is that. hahahaha I recently found out that he’s getting married to girl, after me. And I couldn’t help but think that WHAT IF I chose him, it could have been my wedding. :((((((((((((( oh and yeah. he looked like Jeno. 
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cryingbilldenbrough ¡ 7 years ago
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hi i want to request some ryers from you. idc what it is, i just want to read something about that beautiful ship written by you. literally. you can write about anything you want. please and thank you. (i deserve this for the number of times you’ve made me cry thanks)
ok so just remember that u asked for this
i feel like a lot of ryers stuff has the idea that richie moves to hawkins so let’s switch that
will byers moves across the country to derry, maine and the fresh start isn’t quite what he thought it would be
johnathan isn’t with them, having graduated high school and gone off to college 
joyce rents a two bedroom house and there’s no Johnathan’s Room anymore, no place for will to go and lay on the floor and turn on the boombox and let The Shins drown out the biting wind in his ears
it’s two stories, with stairs that creak under his feet and the basement isn’t like theirs was back home, solely for storm shelter. there’s shelves all along the walls for canning and storage and will spends a whole day down there exploring
anyway he rolls up to derry high school on the first day of sophomore year, his mom sitting in their idling car near the buses, and shoulders his backpack
he keeps his head up
because this is the first time he’s been able to restart and no one in derry knows, man. he’s got the chance to reinvent himself which is every teenagers dream!! 
he slides into his first period homeroom class and there’s a kid in the back who looks as apprehensive as will feels and the boy introduces himself as ben hanscom after class, offering to show will around
“ive been the new kid before” he says, warm and with a smile and will gets a big lump in his throat because he misses dustin SO BAD
ben hanscom invites him to sit with his friends at lunch and will stands through the lunchline for what feels like forever, anxiety swimming in his stomach
but the Party (not a party, will, they’re not the same try not to think of that) is so welcoming and kind? 
eddie kaspbrak is a small boy who pauses mid-rant about the disgusting boys bathroom on the third floor to offer his hand out for will to shake
beverly marsh has max’s firey hair and el’s powerful nature and she winks at will and says something about his haircut and will blushes and ducks his head because while he’s not really interested in women, beverly marsh is everyone’s weak spot/exception
stan uris is quiet and will almost glosses right over him until stan says something wry out of the corner out of his mouth, stopping the entire group in their laughing and joking and they’re deathly still until stan’s facade cracks and he grins at them, all dimples
will notices the air of tension during the pause wasn’t apprehension, more like the group was simply Waiting for stan to give in and accept that he’s told a joke
mike hanlon is quiet with an air of serious consideration, like he’s cataloging everything they do and say to save for later
he looks a little haunted, a little fucked up, and will thinks he recognizes the dead look in the boy’s eyes
mike reminds will of sheriff hopper, kind and haunted and sad
bill denbrough is will’s favorite right away. his eyes are alight and he smiles out of the side of his mouth, guarded, and he makes will feel kind of like the only person in the world when he talks to him
he compliments will’s notebook which is covered in little doodles and will has a weird moment when he’s like Wow i would do anything for bill denbrough? whom i have just met?
basically bill denbrough has +20 charisma and will saves that thought in his back pocket to revisit later
and finally
there’s richie
richie laughs while eating and sprays milk all over the table and has coke bottle glasses and a dumb goofy grin 
he ruffles will’s hair when bev compliments it, sticking his hand across the table and rubbing down just a little too hard
will slaps his hand away, so used to johnathan doing it, and richie laughs and laughs
stan explains richie to him while the other boy is turning his attention to eddie kaspbrak who swears at him, saying “whenever richie needs to shut up, we just say beep beep richie and that does the trick”
will doesn’t get the chance to try out the trick until lunch is almost over, warning bell ringing and everyone scrambling to wrap up the rest of their lunches for later or to throw away
and as will stands up, a book falls out of his backpack
it’s a Dungeons and Dragons guide, the one mike used to map out their campaign  
(”take this with you,” mike says, thrusting the book into will’s hands. they’re standing in the bare byers living room, hands stuffed in pockets and surrounded by cardboard boxes. 
“no, you need it,” will argues “you gotta finish the campaign” and man this hurts really fucking bad
“i bought a new one,” mike says quickly, making will take the book and wrap his fingers around it “besides, we all signed this one”
will opens the front cover and there’s writing all along the inside, little notes and drawings from the Party to him
will holds it to his chest and then brings mike into a hug, the last one before he leaves hawkins for probably forever)
“what’s this?” richie says, holding it out and will tries to snatch it back but richie’s fast “this is some next level nerd shit” he says 
and will knows he’s kidding but years of being called freak dont do well for self esteem and will is blinking back tears before he can stop himself 
“beep beep richie” he says in a choked voice and nobody else but them is paying attention which will is thankful for because crying in front of his new friends is NOT COOL
and as soon as he says it, richie’s fingers go lax. he gives the book back without a second more of fight and will blinks and tries to calm down and richie’s just looking at him
“it’s from my friends” will explains and richie nods, little and thoughtful. there’s a beat, a moment of peace and silence, and then richie’s throwing his arm over will’s shoulders
“welcome to the losers club,” he says, warm and understanding
and will byers has a new party, a club full of laughter and love and a power he doesn’t yet understand
for the first time in a long time, will belongs again
but this is derry and in derry the dead don’t stay dead and that includes dead pasts
will opens his locker one day and a balloon floats out
it’s red, almost transparent from how overblown it is, and it drifts at exactly his height out into the hallway
will reaches a hand out, to touch and figure out who the fuck put that in his locker and what the fuck it is
and the balloon spins
ZOMBIE BOY it says in happy white letters
and will blinks and he’s in the Upside Down
it’s not real it cant be real but the cold is biting and the wind is chilling him to the bone and derry is covered in vines but it’s different this time? theres a smell of decay in the air that hawkins didnt have, the scent of actual real death and it smells like brick and concrete and a sewer and the bodies of hundreds of dead kids
will’s hyperventilating, crying and stuck frozen and the balloon is still there and it drifts towards him and it’s getting closer and the demogorgon isnt there but there’s something else, a presence of evil he can FEEL and it sounds like dripping water and fingernails on steel and breaking bones and wheezing breath
there’s lights in the distance, three of them swirling together in a drifting dance
just when will thinks it’s real, just when he’s giving into the swirling lights and blowing wind and the shiny red balloon
the balloon pops
the sound is a gunshot, shocking him out of the trance and will blinks and he’s back
he’s in the hallway and the balloon is gone and the Upside Down is gone and richie tozier is there
he’s got his hand outstretched towards will and he’s saying something that will cant hear over the rushing wind in his ears
“are you okay?” he thinks he sees richie mouth and he forces himself to nod
later, after he’s explained it all, richie tells will he found him staring at the wall, catatonic and crying
will wants to be embarrassed but he’s only grateful for richie for bringing him back
“it was a balloon?” richie says, voice hushed. they’re in the boys bathroom, crowded together in the furthest stall while they skip class
richie had stuck his sneakered foot on the toilet and hoisted himself up to open the window
he pulls a pack of cigarettes out of his back pocket and offers one to will, which he declines, before lighting up and taking a drag
“yeah” will responds
“fuck” he breathes out, smoke leaving his lungs and it smells strong enough that it erases the scent of this new Upside Down from will’s nostrils, replacing it with menthol and richie
“did you see…. a clown….” richie says and will wants to laugh but he looks serious
not just serious
richie looks downright scared
he’s shaking a little, the cherry of his smoke bobbing in the air and will knows that kind of fear, the primal urge to fight or flight and richie looks kind of tired and weary too
“no” will says and richie sighs, relieved
he doesnt want to tell richie he saw the past and the future at the same time, an alternate and adjacent universe far beyond anything either of them could comprehend
richie takes another drag off his cigarette and sets his jaw and will thinks he’s making a decision
“meet us at the clubhouse after school” he throws the cig out the open window and leaves will, the bell ringing in the distance
when will shows up in the barrens, backpack over his shoulders, they’re waiting for him
the clubhouse is hidden and will has been to it a few times and still sometimes has trouble picking it out, camoflauged with brush and leaves
he drops down into the ground and the whole Club is there 
he draws his knees up to his chest as richie tells them all of how he found will, explaining the dead look in his eyes 
(”they almost looked…. grey” he says and all the blood drains out of bill’s face in the light of a few candles)
richie hands it over to will to explain what he saw and will struggles through his explanation, trying not to let onto the fact that he’s some freak with Now Memories and a haunted fucked up past
but the Club doesn’t look… surprised? scared?
they look frightened and tired and weary and sympathetic
stan uris has his knees drawn to his chest and is running his fingers over the sides of his face, over faint scars will never noticed before
“sounds like…” eddie trails off
“i k-know what it s-s-sounds like,” bill says 
“sounds like what?” will asks and hes kind of pissed off because they all look shifty
they’re hiding something, some secret related to balloons and death and fucking clowns and will byers is so FUCKING SICK of being out of the loop
of being left out of the plans because he’s weak and people are afraid of him getting hurt
“sounds like what?” he repeats and the group collectively flinches
“look, we don’t know exactly” ben starts
“it’s hard to pinpoint exact memories,” bev finishes for him and they share a look “we can’t keep track of all of it,” 
“they c-c-come and go” bill says and eddie nods and richie looks sick and angry
“what happened here?” will asks, voice low
the group look at each other, the lucky seven sharing their cosmic energy and deciding to pull another into their chess game with death
they make a decision, an election, to tell the story, the history of their haunted town and the fog that covers it, the story of a manifestation of Evil and their ever-tiring fight against It
will feels richie’s hand slip into his, sweaty and shaking but grounding
he turns to look at richie and the boy is smiling at him, soft and guarded and will thinks he’s very lucky to have met this group, haunted pasts be damned
“derry,” mike hanlon starts, licking his lips, “is not like other towns”
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psychostrilondes ¡ 7 years ago
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HI IM GONNA WRITE MORE davekat because im disgustin
i made this little babie post that said like, dave hides in cramped little spaces like closets and laundry rooms sometimes and needs to be coaxed out, and ye!! its mostly when hes close to his version of panic over a delusion, oh no, oh no im not safe, where is, i cant find it, i need, i cant, everyones looking to kill me, im horrible, ive failed and im still failing, things like that? all hidden behind his flat mouth expression and No Words, and when it gets really bad the expression doesnt change at all but maybe he starts crying with how pent-up afraid he is and has to dip three fingers behind his shades to wipe the tears onto the sleeve of his god pjs , and, something has to Happen, and if theres no way to fight whats happening, and no one is around right now like its the middle of the night, the only option is to hide??
so imagine at like 4 am on the meteor or even in his lil house on earth c or just wherever, dave stalking down the hallways with his 1/2swordkind in his hands, clutched so freakin tight, and hes Cool and doesnt have much adrenaline even though hes scared bc he knows he needs to stay calm to fight if something jumps out at him, and there are so many perceived threats even though hes maybe actually totally safe, and hes on guard while he walks to ,,,, somewhere? anywhere thats more unfamiliar and cramped than his room, because whatevers stalking him would obviously know to check his bedroom for the man himself, so maybe he goes to the little walk-in food pantry they’ve got and shuffles aside some big bags of whatever of makeshift storage to hide behind them, or like, hides way back behind the laundry machines and, wherever, he curls up really tight with his knees to his chest and his specibus tucked away and ready to be drawn in a split second should he need it, and he’s so used to hunkering down in weird spots from his childhood, ugh, its just too natural and too bringing-back-memories, ugh, dangit
so he just kind of sits back there, totally hidden, and lets his adrenaline build up and he starts trembling and just kinds of , waits, for the feeling to pass, might , take a while , ah
and karkat and him have had this routine that he’s foregone today in favor of heavy dissociation, karkat hangs out in the main room with a book he’s reading and waits for dave to wake up even though dave wakes up like two or three hours after he does, its cool, he can use the reading time? its no big deal? its a big book anyways, but then, it’s four hours that hes been hanging out in the common room, and then five, and um, hes getting bored of reading, like u cant just read forever hehe
after five and a half hours he decides to go over to daves block and just wake him the heck up, itd be kinda cute to see him all sleepy and he totally has this image of messy-haired shadeless dave in his head, and hes kind of in a good mood, and he knocks, and theres obviously no answer so he punches in dave’s doors password like its nothing, nbd, and daves literally just
not in there
wtf ,,,, there goes his good mood hehe dave just Doesnt skip their whole eating breakfast together in the morning thing, either theyre about to argue or somethings kinda wrong?? is dave hurt or something?? did he get kidnapped by somebody on his way to the bathroom?? he laughs a little, and over the next hour he asks around for dave and gets a thorough “nuh uh” answer from just about everybody, and then, um, where the heck is dave. where’d he go.
after asking literally everybody he asks rose and kanaya last and kanaya sort of looks really worried?? oh no,, rose explains to him with equal worrie that maybe dave isnt feeling well, and we’ll keep an eye out, but she’s being freaking cryptic in the way karkat hates about her and he just leaves without unendingly pressing her about it bc he knows its useless by now lol
so for the next hour and a half hes just. looking where dave usually likes to go
dave isnt at any of his favorite spots, and if its earth c he even asks daves favorite cafe’s baristas if theyve seen him yet, and they say no, and its literally the afternoon?? um?? ugh
he’s gone freaking everywhere and karkat just ends up back at home or back where he started and he just ,,,,,, doesnt know what to do
its been hours and hours, its almost been like, all day, and karkat misses him, damniiiiiit, hes so sad :( in his Misery he wanders down the hall to make something to eat since he literally hasnt eaten , he ................... sees daves red outfit in the dark from where hes hiding under the shelving.........
wow , he just has this little second, like “um,” and he has this second to look and see his knees to his chest and his hands still clutching his hair, sort of frozen like that, and karkat crouches and says “dave..?” and dave startles and his hands re-clutch into white hair and oh no, oh god its happening, its happening im gonna die, oh no, this is just and im gonna be gone oh no fuck fuck and he cant stop some more tears from just Pouring omfg and he kicks out his cover, a big tub of whatever miscellaneous, and his 1/2swordkind is back in his hands and shielding his body from karkat, and karkat says “hey, whoa” and holds up his empty hands, “its just me dave, karkat, its karkat” and dave doesnt move, and his mouth is in a grimace, he totally just, caught that hes holding up his sword at his boyfriend?? karkat?? karkat’s here, this is karkat he’s looking at, and karkat just watches him, and settles a little when dave does, and his sword lowers a little as he falters, um, and he realizes he made a mistake, wtf omg
hahaha umm, but hes still so sure karkat is here to kill him maybe?? that might actually happen ,,, so dave does lower his sword and set it aside VERY slowly and cautiously without turning his eyes away from karkat, but he doesnt move from where he is , um,
and karkat settles out of his crouch and sits down on the floor there, and like, “have u been hiding here the whole time?” and dave stares at him like hes surprised karkats here?!?!?!?!? when did karkat get here wtf
an hes dissociating out of his darn mind, like it feels like hes been hiding behind this big box for years,,,,, and most of him feels like hes vulnerable with the box pushed out and away and he has to cover himself back up in case Someone Else comes in, and part of him is so happy his boyfriends here, karkat can make it safe, when he was upset earlier karkat was asleep and he couldn’t verbalize his emotions to wake him up or anything, omg, and dave just stares at him a whole bunch without even blinking, just taking in that his boyfriends here >w< dangit that would personally make me so happy too arg 
karkat asks if he ate anything today, and asks when dave started hiding in here, and dave cant even process what hes saying to him but its okay!! karkat says, if you come out we can grab some food, i bet youre hungry right? and dave totally realizes that the cramps in his middle are actually from not having eaten and not from internal stomach insects and it must be really late in the day? and dave nods a little, and thats really good, really good that hes responding, honestly its been more than 12 hours and his back hurts really bad and his butts Beyond Numb and he could really use a blanket and a bowl of cereal .......
so karkat inches into dave’s hiding spot with him, sort of over the course of their conversation, and then by the time dave’s nodding or shaking his head to his questions karkat is back there in the dark with him, and he comments on how cramped it is back here what the heck?? how are u not atrophied?? and literally within One Minute dave is hugging him, he even initiates it because dave is a total cuddle monster, and they just sort of hug for a little while , and 
theyre so cute :(
karkat instructs dave to shuffle out of there with him, and he helps dave up and supports his weight for a minute because his joints Freaking Hurt, and he holds him up until dave stops trembling and then they hold hands together really tightly and go and make something easy to eat like cereal or hot pockets or what ever
and then they eat the hot pockets
and its good
and dave still isnt talking but thats cool, hes still a little fragile, but its ok, dave is nodding and tapping his fingertips silently on his thigh and maybe he’s not feeling it yet but hes warming up, karkat can make up for the other half of silence , its really nice to get food in him, and within the next hour he says “what the hell, karkat” and then “you’d think they’d know how to make those” and its clear dave is gettin back in the swing of things :p 
and that is the story of dave spending 16 hours hiding in a food pantry ... thnk u im garbage
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leenasleena-blog ¡ 8 years ago
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Dude She Likes You...
Author’s Note: So here’s a little Cas drabble to help you get through the rest of your Monday. ;) Sorry it’s a little late more like Tuesday lol…
Summary: They haven't been on a hunt in a few days, things are pretty quiet around the bunker. Everyones just trying to get some R and R, and just enjoying there time together. When Dean very bluntly tells Cas that (y/n) likes him..
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Here it was Friday night, it’s been a long time since any of us have had a weekend away from hunting. It was nice to spend time with each other at home. We’ve basically been sitting around drinking a few beers telling stories and watching movies all day. It’s pretty nice out and we’re in a somewhat secluded part of town here by the bunker so i had an idea. We were all sitting around on the 2 couches by the tv. Cas was sitting by Sam on the one while i was on the other one with Dean.
 “Hey guy’s i just had an idea..” i said looking around to see if they were paying attention. Cas and Sam looked over to me Dean turned to face me beer in hand. “And what idea would that be sweetheart?” Dean said. They all looked kinda curious so it’s worth a shot. “I was thinking it seems pretty nice out, would you guys be interested in having a bon fire?” Sam tilted his head slightly as if thinking about it, Dean made on of his weird faces like he was ok with the idea, and Cas lol he looked a bit confused. “What’s a bon fire?” he asked. 
I giggled poor Castiel still had so much to learn. “It’s basically a fire we just sit around hanging out.” I said. “And that is fun?” He asked. “Usually yeah” i said feeling my face get all warm from Cas’s stare. “Sounds fun” Sam said. “Yeah but not without some more beer and pie. Cas why don't you come with me while they go get it started.” Dean said looking over to me with a smirk and a wink. I felt my face get even warmer it felt like it was on fire now,straight face, my eyes went wide. Before i could say anything in protest to him he and Cas had already got up and walked away.
 Sam looked over to me knowing what Dean was up to. I waited till i heard them leave before i spoke up. “I swear to fucking god if he says anything and i mean ANYTHING to Cas i’ll kill him. I’ll freaking die Sam does he want me to die? Does he want me to kill him?” I started rambling. I could feel my hands start to shake my heart was going 100 mph, my mind was rushing around in 500 different directions. Sam laughed shaking his head smile plastered on his face standing up walking over to take my hand pulling me up off my ass. “(y/n), listen it’s Dean. I’m pretty sure he’s going to spill the beans so you can either freak out and pretend you don't know what he’s talking about when they get back, or you can take a risk and see what happens…besides i think things will work out just fine.” 
“Easy for you to say you don't have a humungous crush on a freaking ANGEL” i shrieked. Walking out back with him. He laughed again “Yeah Cas isn't my type (y/n). Don’t worry i’m sure Dean will do it in a non embarrassing way.” He said while we started grabbing sticks. We threw them in a pile i grabbed some gasoline and a lighter i had in my pocket. Looking at Sam i said “Let’s light it up.” I said smiling i loved playing with fire when at a bon fire. 
Just watching it being able to think, or tell stories or jokes, having someone to cuddle even. It was just so calming and peaceful. We sat up a couple chairs and moved the big log over a little closer to the fire for seating. I grabbed a big stick to poke at the fire sitting down on the log, Sam sitting across from me in on of the chairs. We were both lost in thought staring into the beautiful yellow orange flames dancing across the sticks we had collected. 
“We got beer” Dean said walking over passing them around. He still had a huge smirk on his face and kept making eye contact with me. There goes my face again, fuck you Dean Winchester you better of not said anything or i’ll kill you, I thought. “And Deans got pie” Cas added. Dean sat down by Sam whispering something to him causing Sam to laugh. They both were looking over to me, smiling as Cas had no choice but to sit next to me. God my face burned it was so hot. I could tell my facial expression was pretty blank. i looked away from the boys and back to the fire. Getting lost in the flames. I twisted off the cap on my beer sipping on it. 
The boys were talking with Cas, i had kinda zoned out into my own little bubble. Cas seemed normal i don't think he told him he’s just teasing me and it drove me nuts knowing those two held my huge crush over me. It wasn't my fault Cas was gorgeous and adorable. His mesmerizing blue eyes, husky voice, tousled dark brown hair, the slight stubble that just did thing to me. Or his signature trench coat only he could pull off all the time, the fact that theres so much about us humans that he still didn't know or understand, how he protects us like he’s responsible for keeping us alive. 
“Um (y/n), you seem in deep thought but i do believe your trying to drink out of a empty bottle.” Cas says pointing to my now all drunken beer. The other two were enjoying this whole situation way to much. They knew how to get under my skin when they wanted to. I blushed “Oh haha silly me. Yeah, thanks Cas.” He gave me a small smile in response i sat my bottle on the ground. “Yeah thanks Cas” Dean mocked laughing, so did Sam. Cas looked a little confused. “Uh your welcome Dean?” I shot Dean and Sam a death glare only making them laugh more. 
“Say Cas i gotta tell you a secret.” “Dean don’t you fucking dare i’ll kill you.” Smirk on his face it’s like we were now having a staring contest and i wasn't about to lose. We’d been outside for about an hour and a half now. Cas looked between me and Dean as if he was trying to figure out what was going on. “It was nothing Cas he’s just being dumb” “Oh ok if you say so (y/n).” We were now looking at each other only a foot away from each other. It started getting a little chilly out and a shiver went up my spine causing me to shake a bit. “Are you cold (y/n)?” Cas asked with concern. “Just a little.” i admitted rubbing my hands across my arms. 
He stood up shrugging off his trench coat wrapping me up in it with his arm wrapped around my shoulder pulling me to him. He looked down at me my face was on fire. His beautiful blue orbs looking into my eyes our faces only mere inches away from each other. I was engulfed with his scent around me i breathed it in never letting my eyes leave his. “Is-is this better?” he asked. “Much.” i smiled. laying my head on his shoulder, looking back to the flames. I could hear his heart beat it seemed to be beating a bit faster then normal or so i assumed. He radiated warmth off his body. The feeling was quite nice, i wouldn't mind staying here like this forever with him…
A few minutes later i heard Sam clear his throat stretching and fake yawning. He’s such a weirdo sometimes, what was he up to? “Well i’m getting kinda tired i think I'm gonna go lay down. I’ll see you later. Goodnight guys…OH and (y/n) have fun.” He smiled a smug smile, that little up to no good child ugh i swear these boys sometimes are ridiculous. He got up and walked back inside leaving just me Dean and Cas. Great thanks so much Sam. “And then; there were three.” 
Dean said smiling real big looking at me and Cas. We both looked over at Dean as he spoke again. “So Cas like i was saying earlier i gotta get this off my chest man, this secrets just TOO good NOT to share..” My head immediately lift up off of Cas’s shoulder sitting straight up. Ready to run and hide as soon as he said it. That seemed to startle Cas with my sudden movement his arm still around my shoulder, holding me just a little tighter now. As if he thought i was scared or something, which he’d be right i was i was scared to freaking death. 
I looked straight at Dean and his overly smug smirk he had plastered across his face while Cas looked down at me then to Dean. “What is it Dean? You appear to be scaring (y/n)…What is this secret you talk of?” Deans tongue darted out of his mouth wetting his lips as he glanced to me then to Cas. “Dude she likes you…” He finally said bluntly pointing right to me. I sat there looking at the fire sitting extremely still as if scared to move or breath or blink or anything. I held my breath feeling my hands start to shake under his trench coat he had wrapped around me still. “What do you mean Dean? I know she likes me that-that is part of being friends if I'm correct. Isn't it?” “No Cas, i mean it is and you guys are friends but..she likes likes you like she's into you, attracted to you.” 
There was a moment of silence before Cas spoke up again. “Oh, i see so (y/n) is attracted to me? Is that what your saying Dean?” “Yes Cas that’s what i said.” “Guys i’m literally right here i can hear you.” I finally said. Cas looked down at me waiting for me to look at him but i refused to, continuing to look into the flames. “Well now that i got that off my chest i’m going to head to bed you two have fun.” he said cheerfully as he got up walking away all happy like he just did something amazing. Hah right no, no you didn't Dean i can't believe you did that ahhhh. i thought to myself. 
“(y/n)? Are you alright? Is Dean right, are you attracted to me?” I could feel him staring at me waiting patiently for my response, waiting for me to look at him. I was scared..he’s an angel of the lord, he's gorgeous he deserves so much better then someone average like me. Then after a few seconds of silence he pulled me close to him again using his free hand to tilt my chin making me look at him. Which i just closed my eyes then not wanting to look into his. My breath came out in slight gasp, his hand caressing my cheek, his fingers gliding over my lips. I could tell his face had gotten closer because i could now feel his hot breath fanning across my face.
 Eyes still closed i spoke up after what seemed like forever. “Cas..” “Cas i-i yes ok i like you. Yes Dean was right i’m attracted to you, i don't expect you to like me back the same way  i mean your an angel for christ sake. i just hope me liking you won't weird you out and ruin our friendship…” I rambled on waiting for his response now. I felt his face pull away hand still on my cheek arm still wrapped around me, still very close to him he spoke up. “(y/n) although i an an angel of the lord that doesn't mean i cannot like you. Your beautiful, funny, kind, caring, compassionate, and theres so much more to you then anyone could ever see. I have had these feelings for you for quite some time now but it is all new to me. And i did not know how to express them or if i should even of tried to at all…” 
I opened my eyes our faces only a few inches away “You, you like me Cas? Are you sure it’s the same way as you think?” “Yes (y/n) i like you very much, and yes it is the same way that you like me i can promise you that.” he said looking into my eyes. He mesmerized me i didn't want to look away not ever. Then his eyes drifted back and forth between my eyes and my lips as if asking for permission. I leaned in closing the space eyes closed again as our lips touched it sent a shock wave through my whole body. Moaning quietly as he slipped both his hands down to my hips pulling me closer, i wrapped my arms around his neck fingers running through his hair. The kiss was deep and passionate but yet magical and making us both yearn for more as we pulled away.
Catching our breath i smiled at him then laid my head to rest back on his shoulder. his arms wrapped around me holding me close to him. His head rested on mine as we watched the fire. I must have fallen asleep because the next thing i knew i was being tucked into my bed. Castiel was just about to leave the room when i said “Wait, Cas will you stay with me? I need cuddles…” i felt kinda ridiculous for saying it but it was true and i didn't want him to leave right now. He turned around closing the door behind him walking over to my bed taking off his trench coat laying it on the floor, i sat up as he slipped his shoes off standing right next to the bed now i got closer to him untying his tie. 
Then i undid the buttons on his shirt my hands running across the plains of his chest sliding down to undo his belt letting his pants fall to the floor as he took off his shirt. I moved over allowing him to climb into bed covering him up in the soft warm blankets. He laid down next to me arms going around me to pull me close i rolled over kissing him passionately but slowly. Breathing in his musky scent i laid my head on his chest. “You are the most beautiful women I've ever known both inside and out (y/n), sweet dreams .” he said as i fell asleep listening to the sound of his heart beating. I never felt as safe and secure as i did being in Castiel’s arms. 
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