#THE HURT. THE INSANITY. IM CRYING
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ahahaha scarabia enthusiasts howre we feeling this perfectly fine and normal day
#blacked out and my hand moved by itself#[—✦-#-✧ my art#twst art#twst#twisted wonderland#jamil viper#twst jp#twst jp spoilers#-✦—]#in all seriousness that book 7 update TOOK. ME. OUT.#THE HURT. THE INSANITY. IM CRYING#i have been wanting more of their development since book 5#i'm so happy that things are finally *clicking* for both kalim and jamil#this is one step forward#i feel like they still have a LONG way to go#hsdfkdjs anyways#im yapping 😭#im okay im so okay (im not)
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#sonicmovie3hype#sonicmovie3#stobotnik#agent stone#movie robotnik#dr robotnik#Im insane abt them#Just give me an Agent Stone and Robotnik Valentines special.#EGGSTONEEEEEEEE 🥚🪨☕️♥️#I like how everyone in the Sonic fandom has simultaneously agreed that Agent Stone should just be apart of the main cast#Sage would appreciate having two dads after all#are they finally gonna have a daughter in the third movie? 👀#“Life you're making me think Eggman is pregnant and not in fact fat- 💀😭#don’t worry#She’s an ai daughter lol#even sonic himself pointed this out in the Sonic Twitter & TikTok Takeover LMFAOOO#Awesome Titanic reference lol#what was it like shaving his head?#And Robotnik will never let go of Stone#Agent Stone is never gonna give you up.#Never gonna let you down.#Never gonna run around and hurt you.#Never gonna make you cry.#Never gonna say goodbye.#Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you.#🏳️🌈❓#Agent Stone can do it all!#he’s a man of many talents 🙌#Heard someone say Agent Stone is like the Harley Quinn of the Sonic Franchise#and yeah that seems accurate 🤣
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"Him? Oh, you know, he's kind of a loser." - probably everyone except for his younger brother.
Germaine is based on the layer of hell (Dante's Inferno) for material wealth before self, others, and god. So basically very materialistic and possessive of his belongings. Unfortunately, his younger brother qualifies as a belonging in his mind. So he does his absolute best to keep his brother safe and sound and scratch free - which is a bit tough in a post apocalyptic setting but he mostly manages.
Also a fact I just like to mention: he is incapable of lying.
#my characters#germaine wellington#welp guess who watched an anime recently (its not complete) and the dad of the mc made em think of a loserman big brother oc#its me! correct! the dad just reminded me a bit of germaine and i blame appearances mostly but also the dad was kind of a loser (i love him#and germaine does practically raise tremaine which further messes up their absolutely awful codependency#like yeah both brothers would kill for many reasons (survival and resources mainly) but !#if tremaine lost germaine hed probably cry and become incapable of moving on and eventually just dying w no reason to live#but if germaine lost tremaine hed go insane cause no no no thats HIS brother and hed start blaming everyone#and lose all rationale and logic while hes actually one of the most logic based in the group#hes a loser but dont let him lose things or he loses it more#but when hes really mad at tremaine for whatever reason his best friend is like uh huh what are you gonna do about it#and germaine is like........... we both know i will sigh and accept it and probably pat him on the head next i see him#which is incredibly honest and exactly what he does because yeah hes mad but even mad he cannot say#im gonna slap some sense into him because thats a lie he wouldn't hurt his brother#everyone in their group knows he cant lie so when he gets hesitant after being asked something they just know#hes trying to plot the best way to skirt the answer bc its apparently Not Good#he looks angry and annoyed often but its just resting bitch face#he lights up when he sees tremaine and he lightens up a little with his best friend#like lil smiles for his bestie and brother but when talking ABOUT his brother? he lights up and beams because hes so proud#of the coolest and smartest thing in his life (his brother)
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this one broke me today like. i've seen this parallel / these screencaps a hundred times but. *head in my hands* it really is aaravos' heart. it's his heart. IT'S HIS HEART—
#key to his heart theory#from feb 2023 to here. Insane#for some reason the 'white AS' didn't stand out to me#like it was there but#that shit Hurted tonight#good god#tdp#the dragon prince#im fucking crying and i need to focus on freelance
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anyone ever think about how kit is literally ty's best friend? like kit was the only one who ever showed that he truly cared about ty as a friend, that he accepted him exactly as he is. he's the only one who laughed with him, not at him and the one who understood that ty works differently than others and didn't view him as weird or strange because of it, but rather loved him for all of those things?
nope? just me? okay then
#and ty never thought that kit would leave bc their friendship just felt so different from all the others#like i bet when kit leaves ty remembers all the times people who claimed to be his friends turned away from him#and i know that kit leaving hit so much harder bc of it#like it actually broke ty in a completely different way#bc he was convinced that this time it was different and so special and-#oh no im making myself cry goodbye#side note: ofc ik livvy is ty's best friend <3 but she is also his sister so it's different from other friendships#i hope i made this clear! like ofc SHE gets ty in a completely different emotional way (they make me so freaking sad </3)#but others who have claimed to be his friends have hurt him so badly until ✨kit✨ came along :(#thats what i call friends-to-lovers <3#god pls dont let them be parted for much longer#i am going insane#kit herondale#ty blackthorn#kit x ty#kitty#the dark artifices#the wicked powers#tda#twp#tsc
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Brb, listening to “never love an anchor” and thinking about it from the “Worst Wolverine”’s POV (I am inconsolable)
#‘I am selfish I am broken I am cruel’#‘I am all the things they might have said to you’#‘and you will never see the reasons I had for keeping my claws away when they were close enough to hurt you’#HELLO????#IM SOBBING???#that’s literally Logan#not to mention the play on ‘anchor’ bc he was the anchor being#I’m going insane#save me#the third time I watched this movie all I did was cry bc I payed attention to Logan’s backstory#someone take me out back and put me out of my misery#deadpool and wolverine#worst wolverine#poolverine#deadclaws#Spotify
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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For the last chapter of Land of the Lustrous:
#houseki no kuni#land of the lustrous#hnk#im going insane#housekinokuni#crying#land of the lustrous spoilers#haruko ichikawa#lotl#lotl spoilers#hnk spoilers#hnk chapter 108#For once i get to see a manga end#how beautiful#oddly enough#i cried a lot#so much that my head hurt
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god it’s like. they spent almost two whole seasons establishing that jack is far more human than anyone expected. that he holds way more value to being human and being like his mother than he ever did to being a cosmic deity or Lucifer’s son. He was done being special!!! He wanted to actually live his life and not hold the burden of great responsibility that came with his great power!!!! Lucifer literally offers him the universe in his hand and all Jack can think is how his friends will miss him. All of his subconscious insecurities are about being genuinely loved and accepted and wanting to go home and have everything be the way it was and he was genuinely so desperate to be their kid again and just Belong with them again that he used THE DARKEST FUCKING MAGIC POSSIBLE. HE KILLED TO GET THEM BACK. Dumah gave him the throne of the literal fucking GOD and the instant jack picks up on Sam’s prayer and the slightest chance that he can go back home he is gone from there like it never mattered to him. Because it doesn’t!!!!!!!! Being an all powerful big special person never once ever mattered to Jack and he literally didn’t even see a point in it if he couldn’t use that power to help the people he loved!!!!! Why the fuck would you take a character like that and MAKE THEM GOD!?????!?!??!?!?!??&!?!?!,!;!?!? WHY WOULD YPU PUT THEIR HUMANITY AND FAMILIAL ATTACHMENT ALMOST AT THE CORE OF THEIR CHARACTER AND THEN GIVE THEM AN ENDING WHERE THEY WILLINGLY GIVE UP BOTH AT ONCE !!!!!
#I am losing it so hard I am crying in the club right now#cal.txt#spn#supernatural#jack kline#spn rewatch#spn 14x07#I will never EVER accept that jack is just making fucking excel spreadsheets in heaven with cas now#ricky when i catch you ricky#tfw2.0#DO I EVEN HAVE TO MENTION THAT HE SPECIFICALLY THINKS OF HIMSELF AS A MONSTER FOR HURTING THEM!!!!!#BECAUSE HE LOVES THEM AND HE NEVER WANTED TO DO THAT AND HE WAS ALSAYS AFRAID OF IT !!!!!!!!#IM GOING INSANE#I need to take a fuckinf HIT on baby#devout anti-godjack sorry girlypoops#THATS NOT FAIR THATS NOT FUCKINF FAIIRRR#throws up and dies
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heeeeello party people!~ super bacteria uncle nina here using my silly tumblr to cope again ( my culture came back and it was...suuuuper fucking bad! like i knew it would be, lol! awesome! <3 thanks, god! )
but we're not thinking about, what were gonna think about is the time that ravenstan got a little Too tipsy topsy turvy on jerseyky boxwine,
( it's the cab sav one, fyi. i can't drink on all these Fucknut Antibiotics - they prescribed me the wrong one and i took it, if you can believe it; i luv doctors - can y'all believe i did this shit Sober? unREAL, brohs! )
and was on tiktok live, the dawn spawns of the world convinced him to do the 'White Boy Of The Month' filter bc he's too impressionable and what can i say;
The Man LOVES White Boys. ;) xxx
( helpsksdj )
so, he started doing it and was like 'nooooo, is /KYLE/ on this one?!?! You're Joking.' ( everyone said 'JK <3' because they all think they're jimmy valmer stand-up sit-down comedians, smh...but no, naught joking, Actually JK bc in my ncau-niverse, cd and the blondies gang are celebrities, so naturally they’re on A Lot of social filters )
so he was GOING to save The No.1 slot...for the no.1 slut ( if you will, ) my ginger gringo king, ceo of dark academic debauchery and bottom feeding ;), new jay's finest - literally - kyley b matthew broflovski; <33 ( buuuut! he's a reformed manhoe; so watchya mowtH! )
buuuuut x2 ( and i'd say it's a big butt, but it's not, it's ravenstan, so it's flatter than the sidewalk; luh you flat stanley ) Gaydhd Won Again and tipsy ravenstan got distracted by all the FINE ASS WHITE MEN and started getting philosophical about it ( that man put a lil too much #thot into those placings; he was born for it, soz )
had about two spots left ( the top and bottom spots; i am laughing ) figured that there was almost 'No Chance!' he would get jersey...
PUT /MATTHEW! GRAY! GUBLER!/ AT ONE ( Immaculate Taste, btw! he also put jacob elordi at number two because he is a fucking genius and that...really tells you Everything you need to know about my stan. like tall, could probably be a runway model, intellectual, kind of a jackass, stays fitted, accent or eccentric manner of speaking...yeah )
-- BUT HE WANTED TO BE CLEAR, HE HAD TO SPECIFY THAT HE WAS SPECIFICALLY REFERRING TO /DR. SPENCER REID/ OF CRIMINAL MINDS. WHEN I TELL YOU HE HAS NO IDEA WHO MGG IS BUT HE HAS SEEN EVERY EPISODE OF CRIMINAL MINDS SEVERAL TIMES. IT’S LIKE...HIS /FAVORITE/ FKN SHOW. AND HE DOES HAVE A FAT CRUSH ON REID. YES, I DOES TRACK; I KNOW. )
and RIGHT when he was rolling for the very last spot ranking on the filter ( that's the BOTTOM, i repeat, THE B/O/T/T/O/M of the tierlist )
...hE GOT KYLE
FUCKING
BROFLOVSKI
and had to place him at /TEN/.
-- riiiiiiight as Kyle /FUCKING/ Broflovski came out of the kitchen in the dorky ass star of david apron that sheila got him for hannukah, with his hair up and everything, holding a fork so stan could taste...
...T-THE PASTA HE JUST MADE HIM FOR DINNER BECAUSE HE'S A SWEET BEAUTIFUL /ANGEL/....and i'm talking The Very First Bite Of EXTREMELY DELICIOUS KYLE Pasta that he put ZUCCHINI IN JUST FOR STAN BECAUSE HE IS ( what? ) AN ANGEL!! FROM hEAVEN!!!!! AND THE WHITE BOY OF THE /YEAR/: TAKE YA JERSEY SLANDER SOMEWHERE ELSE: HE'S MY WHITE BUOY UVF FOREVA!
...proceeded to Blow On It ;-;, s-so stan wouldn't burn his mouth... ( bc rav always gets too excited and burns his mouth; nooo :c </3 ) and asked him why his phone was blowing up w/ people tagging him in thirst traps of 'That Supa Nerdy Guy From That One Crime Show' and asking him if stan tweeted something about him cooking bc people keep telling him that he's 'Cooked'. SHKDLDHLKS HEEELP.
And....
*rawr xd home mid/hschooled ravenstan vc*
Scene. <3
#nina speaks#sorry that ravenheadstannon makes me cry laughing everytime and i needed a distraction; he needs to go to jail#like he needs tall white boy behavioral therapy for his BAD BEHAVIOR he is down astronomically bad...i'm...SMHHHH#I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW FUNNY PUTTING SCARY SWOLE AF TOPDOM STREET FIGHTER JERSEY KYLE ON BOTTOM IS#LIKE THAT IS SACRIFUKINGLIGIOUS THAT IS WRONG#all to put mgg on top SORRY SPENCER REID HE REALLY DID SPECIFY IT TOO EVEN WHEN JK ASKED IM CRYINGGG nOO#HE WAS LIKE ACTUALLY HIS NAME IS dR. SpENcER rEid!!!#like are u kidding...are you JOKING SUPER BEST FRIEND???#SAY!!! SIIIIKE!!!! and jk thought this was cute bc aw u know his name thats so dorky awh--oH IMMM SORRY!!!! *sarcasm vc*#i dIDNT KNOW HE WAS A DOOOOOOCTA MY BAAAD DOES DOOOOCTAH SPENCA REAAAAAD WANT SOME PASTA?!?!#SHOULD I LEEEEEEEAVE YOU TWOOOOOO TO GO ON YOUR DAAAATE?!?! YOU AN yAAAAAA bOOOOYFRIEND?!?!?#IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIM SOOOOORRY FOR THIRDWHEELiN! ITS NAUGHT LIKE THIS IS MY HOUSE OR MY SB BOYFRIEND OR ANYtHIN!! >>>:/#help oh my god ATE THE FIRST BITE OF PASTA IN FRONT OF HIM EVERYONE WAS LIKE OH MY GOD MY PARENTS#ARE BREAKING UP NOOO RAVESEY NATION WE ARE SO DOWN OH MY GOD THE OTHER HALF WAS SHIPPING#REIDVEN#ravenstan tried to explain....He COULD NOT dkhflshfl so bad so funny RIP he was like wow i came home from a long day#of my internship i made you diNNAh and you put me aT tEN???!! ohhh it was so over oh my god rs was like mI AMOR BESITO BESITO BESITOoOOoOo#YOU ARE SO HANDSOME I LOVE YOU YOU ARE SO TALENTED AND SMART AND FUNNY I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THAT IS ( has a shrine )#WOWZA THATS SO CRAZY BABY PLEASE DONT BE MAD IT WAS AN ACCIDENT TE AMOOO PLEASE HAVE I TOLD U HOW HANDSOME U ARE ;-;;;;#insane...he still got his pasta too...jail for life...he did redo the filter and did it until he got jk first put him at one and closed it#i cannot believe it also i love cute domestic apartment husband jk he is the best he really is ravenstan Count Your Days#people joking about them breaking up and foreshadowing it...BRUTAAAAAAL! please note mgg sided w rs in the divorce#and made a video saying i love u to him <3 as a joke <3 bUT I KNOOOOOOW JK WAS PUNCHIN DRYWALL AND SCREAMIN#I KNOW THAT PISSED HIM AWHFF SOOOOO BAD OH MY GOD HE MADE SEVERAL MGG HATE ACCOUNTS#AND TURNED HIS STOMACH WATCHING CM EVEN THO HE HATES THAT SHIT JUST TO COMMENT#ON TIMES SPENCER REID WAS FACTUALLY INACCURATE#my chest hurts but i cant tell if its bc of the bacteria or bc i'm laughing too hard so i won help i love my criminal mind <3
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calibrator and their one sided beef with dan heng is so funny clutching their chest in agony and hate at the thought of him and jy rubbing elbows meanwhile dh’s in the corner just vibing😭someone (preferably jy) help them
anon you have no idea. calibrator is SEETHING at the concept of dh and jing yuan just being the same vicinity. the one-sided beef only gets WORSE when they find out dh can be a witness for jy and they can't... god forbid the moment when calibrator and dh really do meet and dh is complete stone-faced and unaware of Any Beef and calibrator is ready to throw a brick at him!!
#calibrator is screaming crying and throwing up and so insanely jealous of dh and also like... mildly hurt on jy's half#jy's number one defense squad is calibrator and yanqing fr fr#(and dh but don't let calibrator hear that... give them TIME)#i have been toying with the calibrator sequel and it would in Detail contain the dynamic between reader and dh and also jy and dh too#im waiting on the next patch so i don't jump the gun and go super canon divergent lol#lore answers
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hey, for purely angst purposes, listen to the song "in the wind" by lord huron, imagine it as a song from zuko to (dead) sokka, and fucking suffer. obviously older zukka here but i love the suffering.
hey anon? yeah, FUCK you
I literally will never ever recover from this
“You are the purest soul I’ve ever known in my life.” Shut up shut up SHUT UP
“You know where you can find me again. I’ll be waiting here ‘til the stars fall out of the sky.” SCREAMING CRYING??? Imagining Sokka in the spirit world and Zuko knowing that he’s there but he can’t do anything about it because the connection to the spirit world was severed hundreds of thousands of years ago and he feels helpless because Sokka is RIGHT THERE-
“When you left I was far too young.” BC HE DIED YOUNG.
“To know you were worth more than the moon and the sun.” Do I even need to explain this one 😭😭
“You are still alive when I look to the sky in the night.” BC SOKKA SHOWED HIM THE SOUTHERN LIGHTS FUCK OFF
“I would wait for a thousand years, I would wait right here by the lake my dear.” Imagining Zuko sitting by the turtleduck pond, just staring at all the spots that Sokka and him used to sit. Sometimes he just stares at the water for hours, head empty but filled with grief. AGHHhH
“Years have gone but the pain is the same.” Don’t even want to imagine lok Zuko mourning him rn
“I have passed my days with the sound of your name.” Him rereading old letters, trying desperately to remember Sokka’s voice, always saying his name to himself so he’d never forget, even if he knows he won’t.
“Well they say that you’re gone and I should move on, I wonder: how do they know, baby?” All of his palace staff and friends and family knowing that even if Zuko acts like he’s moved on he hasn’t and they can’t do anything but stare at him with pity and he hates that they know
“Death is a wall but it can’t be the end.” HES IN THE SPIRIT WORLD WAITING FOR YOU 😭
“You are my protector and my best friend.” …..I need a 45 minute nap to recover from this line
Yeah so uh, this is the dead Sokka from Zuko song
Anon I demand a 200 word, fully formatted apology x
#atla#zukka#zuko x sokka#asks#my asks#AHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM FUCKING#CRYING????#NO I CANT I CANT DO RHIS RN#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEEEEE#ITS SO THEM BUT IM#I CANT#YES I NEEDED TO DO A WHOLE ANALYSIS BC IM INSANE LIKE THAT#(anyway anon in all seriousness#thank u for hurting me and exposing me to this#bc I didn’t know I needed it until I needed it#like I’ll think about this forever#I’ll literally have to stop during my science exam tmr and think abt this#changed my brain chemistry changed the trajectory of my life#thank u)
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Sorry I have so many emotions-
AND THE THING IS, ITS SO EASY TO LOVE HIM. HE IS THE PIGEON AND HE IS A STRAY CAT YOU CAN CALL HIM FERAL AND A PLAGUE BUT HE'S AS LOVELY AND DEVOTED AS THE FIRST TIME YOU OFFERED HIM A SCRAP OF FOOD AND ALL HE ASKS IS THE LEFTOVERS AND A DRY PLACE TO SLEEP.
IT IS SO EASY TO LOVE HIM!!!!!!! SURE HE'S ANGRY AND SICK NOW, MOST FERAL ANIMALS ARE, BUT HE ONLY REQUIRES A BIT OF GENTLE CARE AND NO JOKE YOU COULD FIX HIM!!! YOU MUST!! YOU DOMESTICATED HIM AND ITS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO CARE FOR HIM!!!! OPEN THE DOOR HE'S AT THE EDGES OF THE YARD BECAUSE YOU KICKED HIM OUT BUT HE CANT RETURN TO THE FOREST YOU DUG INTO HIS BLOOD AND FORBADE HIM!! YOU HAVE A DUTY TO HIM WHO SERVED YOU SO WELL!!!!!
#the dog barks#fuck im almost crying#you guys get it right?#you get it#yousvjsmwkkskwmnwjskkskskskmsms#hes a pigeon hes a pigeon and he's still so loyal to his friends even now even after everything no matter how much he pretends to be wild#shout out to c!punz and c!techno who understands that you have a duty to the beings you domesticate#i am feeling... so intensely rn#dreamwastaken#c!dream#c!drunz#i guess#dream smp#dreblr#my tummy hurts#hey can you guys also tell that I feel very strongly about pigeons?#yeaaah#pigeon insanity
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Less than 5 minutes into the next arc and Naruto's daydreaming about protecting a damsel in distress Sasuke.........okay
#sakura's all: they've been weird since we got back from the land of the waves#oh you mean where sauske died in Naruto's arms while his all his moments with naruto flashed before his eyes???#where naruto held his dead body and went absolutely sicko mode and transformed into the monstrous beast that's trapped inside him????#where they both said “i thought i hated you” ??????#they've been weird since then Sakura??? they have???????#and don't think i forgot that when sauske woke up#with sakura crying over his DEAD BODY#he said “ow you're hurting me. where's Naruto.”#WHERE'S NARUTO#im insane#sakura: “oh my god you're alive!”#sauske: “where's naruto”#im#i#!!!!!!!!#what am i supposed to do with this?#huh?#im old man yelling at cloud#but no right its#naruto doesn't like being upstaged by sauske#uh huh#that's what it is#sure kid#what are you? 12?#right ok cool#good for you#meanwhile sauske is just staring at him like 👁️.#👁️.👁️#i have never needed a side characters internal monologue more#Naruto (2002)
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not sleeping bc im feral andtheres a feeling inside me that feels like if dispair felt good and bad and wonderful and everthing.
jittery
i think thats the word.
im jittry like a bug.
my insides feel like how scrambled eggs look
all squelgy and skwimmy and swwwimpery
im desolying itto somthing that is yuck and vomit inducing
maybe i should sleep
but i dont wanna get up to brush my teeth
pain in the ass
i feel like a keyboard smash
i feel like unbrideled giidyness
i feel a;df jas;g;rgfsdiuqoerrpgq'0]e9nr989cpquinewhkfjdjjqea;rgiaufguiadfughalkregidiurgia;raggigygigpuy
i need somthing
i need somthing what
what is it
please i nned somthing bigger than waht i am
alex or ben or jax or echo or alanna or my mommy or jessika or kayla or sophia and lydia or somone
i love i love i love i love i love i love i love i love and i never stop i never stop im alwasy the same love struck fool ive always been. i love even when i "hate" i love i love i love i love i love i need
i need
somone close somone i can bite, somone i love somone i nees somone i have to have have to consume have to be somone not me somone i can hug i nned a hug or maybe i need to be needed
propley that
plese ineed to be wanted
i need to be sought out i need to be grabbed i need to be chased.
im tierd of chasing.
chase me want me love me need me i think ill go crxy if im alone much longer with theise feelings of scumbled eggs in my diaphram and heart and guts
somthhing somthing somthing somthing somthing somnthing somthing somhting somtis d;f
give me somthing so i dont shatter into somthing that isnt myself
i need somthign i need smthing i need ineed ineed i deedn i deedjsfl
iufvuyrgwwerfqw rkjdsfkh ui nbweeds ielaf
-awef uipgrefg 'ua
prf
#im going insane#hlo#help#i need sleep#i hurt#i love#i cry#i laughed#poetry#original poem#original poety#poem#poetsandwriters#depressing poem#poemsaboutlove
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dude my dad is my biggest opp
#just got hit w the worst news right on whatsapp#can my dad get his shit tgt#this is why no matter how much my mom tries to pr him i can never forgive him#LIKE???????????#NO SHAME??????#fucking hell. and i can’t even tell anyone abt it#oh it could be from 2 yrs ago…#girl idgaf FUCK HIMMMMMMMM hes why i don’t believe in marriage or love irl#im so mad im actlly shaking at my volunteer rn in the mental hospital#he genuinely makes me want to admit myself sometimes goddddddd#i’ll never forget what he did 2 yrs ago and now this just rubs salt in the wound#genuinely… im so glad i never made up w him bc this wld have hurt even more i know i might have just started crying#not a loss of dad if i never accepted him back thumbs up!!!!!!#coping rlly hard#mid rin fic too. PLS.#RIN SAVE ME SAVE ME SAVE ME…..#need a rin irl stg that wld save me rn im so srs#i just might write another coping insane rin fic again.#need to get lobotomise that might just save me ngl#my sister and i when we have to play detective conan again. catch him in his stupid lil acts no one likes u
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