#THE FACT THAT JULIAN HAS BEEN HOLDING ONTO THE GUILT OF SHOOTING GARAK THIS ENTIRE TIME

[youngpettyqueen]

“You’re an amazing man, Garak.” “And my gratitude to you can never be adequately expressed. But I shall try,” I promised.”

“Yes. But specifically about relationships, and how they set the course of our lives. You not only ‘saved’ my life, you also made it possible for me to live it.”

“The time I wounded you in that holosuite program. . . .” “Yes,” I prompted expectantly. “I never apologized for my action.” “And you must never apologize!” I urged. “Please, Garak. This is not the time to give me a lesson on how to behave like a hardened spy. . . .” “No, no, no. On the contrary, when you shot me, my dear friend, that was the next step in my process of remembering. I was going to sacrifice the others, the people you considered your friends, because that was the only way I could be sure to save myself. You opposed me. Indeed, you would have killed me if necessary.” “I’m sure it would never have gotten to that point,” the Doctor muttered.”

I need to put these all here. excuse me while I- (screams)