#THE ENERGY IN THIS CONCERT HALL OMG

[sztansescheadache]

PURE FUCKING JOY I LOVE THEM SM

[purityvalentine]

Going to VeXpo was so fun!

I took my mum, obviously, and we cosplayed for the first half of the day and then changed into regular clothes for the second half because it was WARM in that con hall.

The first thing we did was go to the maid cafe, they didn't recognise me but I think that was good actually! The cake was really tasty (although there was too much cream for me to be able to eat so I made mum take most of that) and we got chekkis and just it was really nice

Then we wandered about the shops a bit, queued for ages to buy a penlight (they did run out of stock later so i think waiting was worth it)

Said hi to a vtuber I know

Wandered around shops more

Attended Nina and Lumi's agency vs indie panel, honestly was mostly stuff I was already aware of but it was very meta and interesting to hear the way they both approach vtubing, goals and progress and the amount of time they spend working on stream stuff

Definitely made me feel like I wanted to work harder

Then a viewer of mine dmed me to say that he had found some coco merch (doujinshi) (sfw) and he had asked them to put it aside for me so i could go and ask for it since they only had 1 copy of each SO i bought those

they were a little expensive but there was nothing else coco in the entire con

honestly merchwise it was mostly genshin and honkai, some enstars and vocaloid, vtubers it was mostly hololive myth, a decent amount of promise and then vshojo and some of the really big indie talents

i was a little disappointed and didn't end up buying much but honestly it's for the best, my wallet wasn't really in the position to be spending

changed into normal clothes because i was dying

met up with a vtuber i know who was working there to talk for a bit before they had to get back to work, introduced myself to an a******** talent (who is friends with that person) by my real name by accident and wanted to curl up on the ground

went back to the maid cafe now i wasn't in cosplay (just to the guy on the merch counter, not IN the maid cafe they were very very busy i didn't want to attention whore) and said hi and they asked who my favourite was while i was picking up the keychain i wanted to buy and i ended up being like oh well um. i'm purity so. it has to be macaron.

AND THEY WERE LIKE omg [real name] you're here how are you doing! and it made me so happy they remembered me (they didn't recognise me because i had a pretty dramatic appearance change since years ago)

i really hope one day maybe i can get it together and be active and functional and then i can audition next time they open and never let them down again

uhhhh

what else

oh then i met the viewer who helped me get the coco merch so i could sign the passport for them! i'm nervous about that because i worry a lot about not looking completely like my avatar but they were very kind

i also ran into ami amami (on an ipad) and i got to talk to her about how i followed her back when she was in shirayuri pro and i lost track of her when she became a frog but i was happy i found her again and she inspires me a lot to be a kaigai idol

and she told me that if i ever wanted to dm her for advice or anything like that i could and like

we spoke for a while actually and it was pretty emotional but i'm really happy and now i really want to do my best so i can be an idol and make the people that inspire me proud to be my inspirations

and maybe share a virtual stage with them one day...

then i hunted down another vtuber who was there to say hi and then two more vtubers i'd been trying to find found us so we chatted for a little bit but then i started reaching the end of my energy so i had to leave and collapse for a little bit

i managed to get JUST enough energy that i when i got a message from one of those vtubers that they were shutting the hall to prepare for the concert i was able to get up and queue for it

but i nearly gave up honestly, standing in that queue, completely drained of energy

we got in there and i sat by the door because i thought i was just completely burnt out and would have to leave part way through the concert

a ground of mint fantome wota with the proper jackets sat near us though and were doing all the wotagei to all of the songs so i also got my penlights and honestly it was so fun like

cheering for all the singers like that, knowing my little light was visible and they could see another person cheering for them

if i ever can't be a vtuber anymore, i'm becoming a full time idol supporter. it's a joyous experience.

that's not even to mention the fact that the singers were. amazing. the screen kept on glitching but other than one time where the video cut out (i think during one of idol's talents songs?) the audio was perfect and god

eien's talents were all just. mindblowingly amazing even if they rickrolled us, the songs were just... they sung them perfectly

idol only got one song each and a lot of them were really good! one of them swore a lot and me and mum were like :0 wao

bonnie did 4 city pop songs and also was very cute, good dog/good dog

algorhythm project was. well first off the guy introduced himself as 'that concert guy' because of the time that that was a whole meme with the hair toggle and honestly very cool that he takes that whole event in stride. good singer. there were some girls in the row in front of me that literally screamed hysterically when he appeared like damn they were in love

and then the woman from algorhythm was enchanting. original thai song, just beautifully sung and then the final song she sung was ghost rule (deco*27) and it was just a perfect way to end the concert and her voice was so POWERFUL and vivid and full and just

anyway it was really inspiring and now i need to work extra hard so i can perform like that one day and stop getting cold feet about my own little silly karaoke streams!!!

and then me and mum went home :>

no con seggs sorry

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[orangesaek]

The Grape scenario was so cute 🥺🥺🥺 Could I request one where you are Rino's sister-in-law (like your older brother married her younger sister) and went to visit Korea where she invited you to the dreamies concert rehearsal and you met the boys. But one particular boy seems smitten with you, I don't mind whichever member 😅

Ps: Rino is their tour/concert planner but I'm sure you know her from the Dream Sketch episodes

^^ https://youtu.be/skHn-gpH0bg

omg omg of course, rino 😭 she's one of the professional dancers i look up to along with koharu (tmi) anyway, thank you so much for sending this request! i have no idea who your dream bias is, but i hope you don't mind jaemin 🤍 he wrecked my bias list so hard 🥲 i hope you see this & let me know if you liked it ♡ a/n: slightly proofread. lowercase intended.

wow. that was the only word you could utter ever since you landed in korea yesterday. everything was just so pretty in your eyes — the buildings, the road, the food, the people. just, everything.

and wow was also the first word you uttered as soon as you arrived in jamsil olympic stadium. 'big' would be an understatement. it was massive, or any other word that's definitely a lot bigger than 'big'.

"bestie, let's go." rino said, ushering you to get inside the back door with her. you snapped out from your daze and ran to catch up with her.

your relationship with rino didn't make that much sense to many people, as the majority expected you to be closer with your brother's wife and not your sister-in-law's older sister. you were close with your sister-in-law, of course, but rino just matched better with your younger energy. not to mention, you were both huge fans of kpop.

she was promoted as one of the concert directors for sm entertainment not too long ago, and as it was her first time to handle nct dream's concert (which was going to become one of sm ent's historic concerts ever, and in korea's largest stadium at that), she called you up to visit her in korea to support her & to watch the concert as well.

every kpop fan knew about nct, and you were no exception. despite knowing all of their units, casually listening to their title tracks, and knowing around half of the members' names (only because of reading articles about them that piqued your interest), you still refused to stan them because of their 'crazy, unlimited' concept. you swore to yourself that you will never ever become a part of their fandom.

rino knew about you avoiding to get to know nct better, and she wanted to change that. sponsoring your trip to korea and getting you to watch at least one of its units' concert to make you realize what the group is really made of was a part of her plan.

after greeting a couple of staff members, rino brought you backstage to personally meet nct dream. although you weren't a fan (yet), you were excited with the thought of meeting them. millions of fans would fight to be in your place right now. who are you to complain, right?

rino held onto your hand as she led you through the slightly dim areas backstage before finally arriving at a well-lit hall with some doors. based on the number of behind-the-scenes videos of kpop groups that you have watched, you safely assumed that nct dream is inside one of the rooms, probably lounging or doing whatever while waiting for their rehearsal to start.

before you knew it, rino began knocking on a door. your heart started beating really fast and your hands have gone cold as soon as a staff member opened the door.

"grandma's here!" haechan shouted in excitement as he ran towards rino. his voice was something you could easily recognize anywhere, even as a non-nctzen.

rino let go of your hand to greet haechan with a tight hug.

"oh? who's this lady, grandma?" haechan asked after seeing you standing behind rino. that was the time the members noticed your presence, too.

your were looking down on the floor that suddenly became interesting to you at that moment, when in reality, you just didn't know what to do after it dawned to you that you were now literally breathing the same air in one small room with nct dream.

rino let go of the hug and gently pulled you to stand beside her.

"boys, this is my brother-in-law's younger sister," she introduced. "and my bestie."

you heard the oohs and ahhs of the members and quickly looked at them to say hi. the members then introduced themselves (with haechan proudly introducing himself as rino's grandson), and asked you to sit down comfortably with them as rino left the room to take care of some things.

"oh my god!" chenle exclaimed as he covered his mouth dramatically. "i think i just found myself a new bestie."

although it had only been a few minutes since you sat down with them, the nervousness you felt when you stepped inside the room was all gone thanks to the boys who made an effort to make you feel comfortable in such a short amount of time.

you honestly didn't want to start assuming things, but you definitely caught jaemin frequently stealing glances your way. he kept on smiling at you as well, and just generally had the best reaction to whatever you said (right next to mark, who laughed at literally whatever you said).

"kids, let's go." one of their manager hyungs suddenly called, and the boys quickly stood up to go. you were quite unsure if you should go with the dreamies or just wait for rino to text you where to go.

you were sitting a bit anxiously on the couch, watching the boys get ready to leave the room when you saw a hand in front of you.

you looked up to see jaemin, flashing his billion-dollar smile at you.

"come on," he said, waiting for you to take his hand.

you looked up at him, then on his hand, feeling a bit flustered and confused at the same time.

you could see the other members and staff leaving the room one by one, but you were still sitting on the couch.

"jaemin-ah, hurry!" renjun shouted as he left the room.

"yeah, yeah, i know!" jaemin shouted back before looking at you again. "my arm's gonna fall off soon," he said, shaking his hand lightly in front of you.

seeing that your butt was glued on the couch for some reason, jaemin took your hand instead and gently pulled you up.

"let's go before renjun kicks my ass," he said, holding your hand tighter as the two of you left the room.

you were now sitting on one of the chairs close to the stage. though not the actual concert yet, it felt surreal that you were now watching nct dream perform in front of you.

it made you realize you were missing out on such an amazing group, that you made it your personal assignment to do some research on nct dream and listen to all of their songs once you get home.

during the entirety of the rehearsal, you could see jaemin looking at you. and this time, you were sure because each time he sang his parts or would dance near where you were seated, he would lock eyes with you. unashamedly.

(un)fortunately, you weren't the only one to notice that.

rino, as well as the other dreamies, couldn't contain the playful smile on her faces. they just found it so cute how you would blush and shyly look away from jaemin.

"amazing job today, kiddos!" rino said when the rehearsal came to an end. she quickly thanked the staff around her before running to where you were.

"how was it?"

"it was awesome! i'm looking forward to their concert." you answered, feeling so hyped up.

"hmm, that's great. and what about the members?" she asked, brows raised teasingly.

rino's question caught you off guard and all you could do was chuckle nervously. she gave you a knowing smile before hooking her arm with yours to go home, letting you off the hook just once.

you honestly felt a bit sad that you were unable to properly say good bye to the boys — to jaemin, your new-found crush, to be specific. you didn't get the chance to meet them again when they rushed backstage right after the last song.

after eating dinner, you went to the bathroom to brush your teeth. just then, your phone chimed, signaling a new text message.

you opened the text and choked on the foam of your toothpaste, "i don't want to sound like a creep, but your hand was really soft", it said.

another text from the same unknown number arrived.

"oh, it's nana. jaemin. teeheehee"

you were now coughing so much that rino rushed to the bathroom in panic.

"what's going on?! are you okay?!"

you waved your hands to tell her that you're alright. well, except for the fact that you have just received a text message from nct dream's na jaemin.

"j-jae...min..." you tried to say between coughs. rino looked at your now-red face, seeming to understand what just happened.

"oh, i see." she said with a knowing smile on her face for what seemed like the hundredth time that day. you looked up at her with a puzzled look on your face after you have slightly recovered.

"what do you mean by that?" you asked. rino chuckled.

"haechan asked for your phone number so he could give it to jaemin," she finally said. your body froze as rino laughed at your frozen state.

"i wasn't the only one who noticed the way jaemin looked at you during the rehearsal this afternoon,"

you still stood frozen.

"so the dreamies asked jaemin what he thinks about you, and he said he would like to get to know you better."

"oh..." that was the only thing you could say at the moment. everything just felt too much for you to digest, and rino understood, so she left you in the bathroom, giggling to herself.

you rubbed your eyes a few times before looking at your phone again, making sure that you weren't just imagining things. however, the texts from the unknown number were still there, waiting for a reply.

quickly gathering your courage, you finally sent a reply.

"hi, jaemin. uhm, it was nice meeting you."

not even a minute later, you received a reply from jaemin.

"i really thought you forgot about me already TT_TT anyway, sorry i had to get your number this way. you must have been surprised"

you smiled to yourself, thinking how cute he was. you made your way to the bedroom and lay on your bed as you saved jaemin's phone number as 'nana jaemin'

"no, not at all. it's all good :) don't worry"

"so uhm see you at the concert tomorrow?"

"of course, i will be there :)"

"and at the company dinner after?"

"uhm, i'm not sure if i can go since i'm not part of the staff, but i guess we'll see??? i'll ask rino"

"well then, regardless if that's the case or not, what do you think about going out for dinner with me this weekend? :)"

"sure, i'd love that :)"

- end.

requests are OPEN ♡

UPDATE: anon just requested a continuation 🤍 you may read it here.

[ichliebeanimalcrackers]

Secret Love Affair

Yes, I’ve watched another Kdrama and this one is definitely getting added to the “My Favorites” list. I’d describe it like this: if the Palme d’Or could be awarded to a television show, then this one would definitely be in the running (and it would most likely win it). There are 16 episodes but it feels more like a movie and that’s one of the things that makes this drama stand out. I’m not sure where to begin, so I’d like to apologize in advance if this particular opinion piece is all over the place and has no respect for proper punctuation. I had a lot of feelings after watching this drama, and one simply needs to let all of that energy out. With that said, I’m just going to do bullet points because that seems to make sense in this situation lol

Since music is always an essential part of any show/ movie (especially in this case), I have to start with the soundtrack because it’s magnificent. It really is. It fits well with the theme and constantly adds an extra layer of emotion to what’s already happening on the screen. Whenever you hear the end credits waltz, you know something is about to happen and it makes you feel a bit uneasy. “Four Hands” is full of longing and “Affair” is cautious but steady. More often than not, this show uses music to convey emotion in place of a dialogue. One needs to simply listen and look at the characters expressions to understand what’s happening. One of the great things about music is that on some awesome, cosmic level it’s alive and has the power to make us feel and understand things without any words. 

Whenever I watch a show, I like to read the comment section because there are always interesting opinions out there. I was surprised to see that some people thought that the pace of the show was too slow. I certainly respect other people’s opinions, but I personally think that it wouldn’t have made sense if the story kept on jumping from one thing to the next. There was plenty of intrigue throughout the entire series, and I was already feeling nervous 10 minutes into the first episode. It’s a difficult situation to be in, but Sun Jae/ Hye Won met their soulmate. They have finally met their match. They both see each other for who they are and that’s more than enough to fall in love. What’s even more awesome is that something was already there even before they officially met. He briefly saw her at the concert hall and she saw a video of him playing piano (just his hands). Talent recognized talent and the rest is history.

Honestly, I was surprised with her friends. Pleasantly surprised. They already seemed like pretty cool people from the beginning and it was made even more evident as the show progressed. I expected them to scold and alienate her, but they didn’t. They were there for her and even comforted Lee Sun Jae when he had no one else to turn to. I bet they were shocked to learn about the relationship between the two (and the other stuff), but they tried to understand the situation from her point of view and didn’t leave her side when things really went downhill. We can only guess what happened after the events in episode 16, but I really hope that Professor Jo got appointed as the next Dean instead of Oh Hye Won’s husband (Professor Kang)...The man is obviously more qualified, has a good personality, the students respect him and he’s simply a chill guy. 

Speaking of Oh Hye Won’s husband...I feel bad for saying this but that man is just pathetic. Don’t get me wrong, they all have their own flaws but in this case there was nothing that set him apart other than him being totally indifferent unless it had to do with his position in the school hierarchy. He, along with the others, was ready to throw her under the bus for the “greater good” if the situation called for it. At some point in the show, I believe they do mention that they didn’t marry for love and that it was more of a comradeship. This means that they’ve been married for at least 10 or more years and you would think that during that time people would become each other’s support system. Nope, not in this case because the man never cared to begin with and it seems that she’s the one who has always carried the relationship. She definitely works more, she’s a better musician and she’s kind of a legend in this school/ foundation and perhaps that’s why (subconsciously) her husband always felt inferior. Yes, it must hurt to find out that your spouse is having an affair, BUT I don’t think that’s what bothered him so much. I think he was more scared of losing his chance of becoming the next Dean and not being able to mentor Sun Jae (who would definitely further solidify his credibility as a professor). I might be wrong, however, that’s how it seemed to me. There were a couple of other instances when he should’ve taken her side. For example, that scene when she comes back home with a bandaid on her forehead because the psycho lady threw game pieces at her and it cut her skin. A normal person would've been concerned that someone would do that, but he simply brushed it off as if it’s OK that they treated her like that. Ugh, just thinking about it annoys me. 

The cinematography was great. It’s a different style and it stands out from the ones that one would normally see in other dramas. It fits well with the mood of the show. The camera shots from different perspectives, the color and how some of the angles repeat but at different pivotal moments throughout the show added an extra oomph to the overall viewing experience. 

If anything, this show should give people an appreciation for classical music or at least they’ll be able to recognize it whenever they hear it again. I was listening to songs on YouTube Music the other day and a song popped up in the “recommended” category and it was the Rachmaninoff: Rhapsody On A Theme of Paganini, and I immediately thought “Omg! That’s the piece that he plays during the recital!” If it wasn't for this show, I would’ve never known the title of this piece.

The way Sun Jae treats Oh Hye Won. We really do need to take a minute to talk about this because certain details were too precious. Everything was always done with sincerity and without trying to show off in front of the person that he loves. First of all, the way he started mopping the floor when she came to his apartment for the first time. He didn’t let her step onto the floor until it was clean (it already looked pretty clean) and he gave her a towel to clean her hands after she touched the staircase railing that leads to his apartment. How he makes sure that her head doesn’t hit the pipe when they are walking through a construction site/ abandoned building. How he went on a full cleaning/ home improvement mode when she sent him her confession because he wanted this to be a safe place. He changed the lightbulb outside, so it wouldn’t be as dark in the stairwell and he power-washed the concrete stairs. He treats her like she’s the most treasured being he’s ever encountered in his entire life. These actions might not be heroic or grand, but there’s a lot of warmth/ love within them. Oh, I almost forgot to mention the shoes. They way he constantly places and rearranges her shoes. Bonus: the fact that Oh Hye Won listed him in her phone as “Home” and when he sees that...Ahhh! My heart is so full! 

All of the actors were great. The age difference between the two main lead actors is similar to the one of their characters and it made this story more authentic/ believable. I don’t think it would’ve been the same if the actors in real life were the same age but one of them tried to play someone younger/ older. Their chemistry was on point too and they simply look great together.

The fact that they both knew the severity of the situation and the repercussions that might come with it will surely send chills down your spine. It is an extremely risky situation and perhaps more for her than for him but it’s still dangerous. I’ve read a comment where someone mentioned that up until 2015 adultery was punishable by law in SK. After reading that, it certainly put things in perspective. I think they both felt the spark from the very beginning, but Sun Jae was bold enough to be the first one to say that he has feelings for Oh Hye Won. And how difficult it must have been for her to take a chance on something that she wasn’t expecting. The characters know and we as the audience know that there’s no turning back once they take this leap of faith. I mean *shivers* it’s impossible not to feel nervous for these two! Bonus: their first night together. Great choice by the director to only let us hear their conversation while showing spaces in the apartment. It’s their moment and theirs alone.

Something else that I like about this show is that Sun Jae never let others influence his opinion/ stance on the matter at hand. For the most part, he based his opinions on what he was experiencing and what he was able to observe. Of course there were things that he didn’t understand due to his age and perhaps in certain aspects it’s good that he didn’t fully understand, but he certainly wasn’t oblivious. Also, I like that Oh Hye Won  didn’t treat him like a child. She’s older, that’s true, but she wasn’t constantly reminding him of it. Even with the age difference, they are equals and understand each other in a way that’s unique to them. When they had moments of frustration, it wasn’t because one of them felt inferior. It was because they saw the other person hurting and felt helpless for not being able to make it better.

The horrible people that she had to work for. Oh Hye Won is a smart individual, and I’m sure she knew exactly who she was dealing with and the things that they were capable of. Nevertheless, she carried on while keeping her head high without letting things get to her. The thing that frustrates me the most is that this diligent, intelligent, talented person took most of the beating for something that the other party was equally guilty of but most of them were able to walk away unharmed. At the end of the day, they regarded her as a disposable tool and didn’t think anything of it. It’s just unfair. I was glad that at least some of the others who were involved got what they deserved. One must have nerves of steel in order to endure what her character had to go through and not lose one’s dignity in the process. You can’t help but have respect for someone like that. 

As much as I wanted a more Hollywood type ending, I think the writers gave us the most realistic and logical ending. Even though she had to go through all these hardships, she’s finally free from the grasp of those who have never truly valued her. There are still challenges to conquer, but at least she will be in control of her life and all future decisions will be hers. I suppose that in the end she was indeed the true winner.

Sun Jae’s soliloquy at the end *sigh* If that’s not one of the most romantic and heartfelt speeches of all time, then I don’t even know anymore. They’ve always had their own way of communicating, especially through music/ music references, and this one is perfect. I can’t figure out if it’s the same piece that he wrote about in his journal as a kid or if it’s the one that Professor Jo recommends to him or could it be the one that’s listed by Oh Hye Won’s name in the program? In any case, it’s extremely fitting that he would compare her to a classical piece of music. She’s the physical embodiment of that music. He will play it every day regardless of the weather or his mood. They have to be apart for the time being, but this will be his way of keeping her close. Once again, I think this goes to show that their connection goes beyond the ordinary. It’s on a cosmic level and just like music it has no boundaries.  

The show has an open ending and I truly like to believe that everything turned out OK. I’d like to believe that he did win the competition. I’d like to believe that she was released sooner than expected. I’d like to believe that they lived a long and happy life together. That’s what I believe and I’m going to stick with it.  

Moral of this long post: this is a great show and it’s worth it. 

[popliar]

Ateez in Seoul, 8 and 9 February 2020

Olympic Hall at Olympic Park

No one will believe this but I actually had my holiday with @flywithturtles planned before I knew the dates coincided with Ateez's Seoul concert dates. But it's true! I have the WhatsApp conversations to prove it!! Anyway I secured the tickets and all was well.

This is the first concert I've been to where they were handing out masks, making sure everyone had hand sanitizer and checking temperatures as you entered. Haha. Well they also checked our temperature going into the Line Friends store that day so, that's corona virus life. I was actually really worried the concerts would be cancelled, given so many other events have been, so it was a relief that it went ahead.

Structurally this is the same as the show I saw in August last year, after Wave/Illusion: starting hard with pirates, a lighter middle section, and a mythology-heavy last third. And then the encore which went for ages.

What's great to see is that the gaps and pacing downsides of the previous year have been corrected and improved. The pacing has been tightened up, the banter and ments flow much more smoothly and the show just feels very professional and well run.

Here's my post about last year's show: https://popliar.tumblr.com/post/187095347758/ateez-in-sydney-11-aug-2019

It's a shock to realise they've only been around one year four months but they were able to fill out a full 2.5 hour set, every song solid. And KQ spent proper money on this, the production was good - it's not like LAVISH but there were good stages and fancy screens and new VCRs and plenty of back up dancers, and it all worked well. There were maybe too many fireworks on the first night (I hate it when it obstructs the choreo) but they'd adjusted well on the second night.

Surprising but welcome - they had English subs for some of the ments. I don't think they were "live" subs because sometimes they'd get ahead of what the members were saying. But it was helpful. Even without them, body language and tone says a lot. Though I'm regretful that I don't understand Seonghwa's acrostic poems or all of their stupid jokes lol.

The show is called Fellowship and they leaned into it hard, asking Atiny to be part of their shared journey and to stick with them forever. It's a familiar refrain from other shows, but each time I find it both surprising and effective - this very overt, explicitly stated entreaty to be a fan, to enter into this imagined relationship, the appeal to reciprocity. "We've made you happy, make us happy too, be with us and we'll be with you."

But you can know a thing and it can still be effective. I did love the shows. I want them to be happy too!

A list of observations and random things:

Spoilers follow, I'd put it behind a cut but I can't figure out how on mobile haha

OK REALLY SPOILERS NOW

-first VCR to open the show expanded on the Treasure theme.

-Desire opens with blindfold choreo. Was this a gift for me? THANK U.

-for Lights, they had cute moments where they held up little speech bubbles over each others heads. They paired up with Hongjoong and Mingi, San and Wooyoung, Seonghwa and Yunho, and Yeosang and Jongho. Both nights, Woosan held hands. On the second night Yunho held Seonghwa's hand and Seonghwa was like a shy maiden. Mingi and Hongjoong had very strong flirty energy. Yeosang and Jongho are cute.

-the VCR in between part 1 pirates and part 2 fun boys showed what felt like a series of different dimensions? An ocean, a mountain, fields of flowers, cosmic surrealism, etc. As though each of them was alone somewhere in time and space.

-During If without you, they threw out balls to the crowd as gifts (mini riots ensued). Mingi put the empty basket on his head both nights, what a beautiful fool.

-Night 1 was the first time with the light stick! Hongjoong announced its official name: Lightiny (light of destiny) but also Tinybong lololol. The light stick is super pretty. I was tempted but didn't have time the first night. The second night it was sold out when I arrived!!!

-The VCR in between parts 2 and 3 is the really intriguing one. It paired them up into the Lights pairs again. Yeosang and Jongho searched for each other in a hall of billowing drapes. Mingi and Hongjoong were rockstars (with great lipstick). San and Wooyoung were mirrorverse versions of each other. Yunho and Seonghwa put together the pieces of a puzzle in a set that reminded me of both Treasure and Wonderland.

-In the intro to Say My Name on the first night, Hongjoong went halfway down the stairs then turned around, went back and grabbed his mic, then went down again lol. The second night he very firmly took his mic before descending the stairs lol.

-The final VCR before the encore showed them uncovering items on pedestals as though in a museum: a camera, a gramophone, a painting, a book of poetry by Yeats... Then they all created a painting together. When viewed through a red screen (like the puzzles in their albums) the pattern revealed a compass. They then all showed their wrists to reveal each had a compass tattoo.... WHAT IS THIS OT8 SOULMARK FIC!!!!!

-They said they had planned for every audience member to have this compass stamp (the Fellowship again) but it was cancelled due to health concerns. But we could see it with our true eyes, right???? On the second night, the 99s swarmed Seonghwa at this point to try to look down his shirt. I see. I see. (Later on Hongjoong also tried to peek into Mingi's shirt also fine just fine.)

-Early in the show Hongjoong said there would be clues through the show about the next steps in their concept/narrative. The hourglass and compass were very recurrent but these are not new. Hmm. I wonder.

-In one ment on night 1, Jongho spoke to all his hyungs informally and it was HILARIOUS. He did something similar on the second night, patting Yunho on the head and pinching Wooyoung's chin etc.

-During Star 1117 on the first night, Hongjoong and San started crying. Then in the following ment, they and Yunho and Wooyoung were crying, and Seonghwa and Jongho were teary. Yunho cried so hard (missing his grandfather!) that during Hongjoong's ment, Mingi quietly went over and gave him a towel. There were like five members in between that he passed to give him the towel, it was so sweet I'll cry. Night 2 felt more joyful and upbeat.

-Some ppl really left way too early like before the encore. The encore is half an hour long omg! You missed out on so many songs!!!!!

-On night 1 between main set and encore the crowd didn't quite know what to do. Huge kudos to the fans who led some cheers otherwise it would have been so quiet. Second night was better and also they kept the light sticks on while we were waiting which added to the atmosphere.

-They didn't sell a couple of sections in the hall at all, they were curtained off. It's interesting to think BTS had their first Muster here at around the same point in their careers. Like BTS, Ateez too are more popular globally than at home. They were beaten quite handily in voting on music shows by SF9 this comeback, who are more popular at home than internationally.

-It is great being in a huge fandom like BTS but also you know this is actually a great time to stan a group like Ateez. They're big enough to be exciting and have good shows, they are interesting and still developing, they're still playing intimate venues... They're good!!!!!

-A few of them had fake neck tattoos. San helpfully labeled himself "San" on the second night lol.

-Hongjoong briefly went off stage during sunrise On night 2. Hopefully just a technical issue.

-Treasure and Precious choreo start and end in the same place, echoing their musical connection.

-They had different encore outfits for Answer each night, before changing into hoodies. On night 2, Yeosang saw some of the others had scarves/banners tucked into their back pockets and was like "where's mine????" Instead of a banner, Yunho had a baseball cap. Seonghwa took his off and Hongjoong tied it around Seonghwa's wrist.

-For Star 1117, everyone held up their mobile phone lights. On night 2, San repeated the request in English too. Very pretty to see all the lights.

-On second night, Seonghwa and San got their mics and necklace tangled up during a ment lol.

Setlist:

(Intro)

Win

Horizon

Pirate King

(Introduction ment)

Medley: Twilight, Stay, My Way

Light

Mist

Desire

(VCR)

Illusion

Crescent

Wave

Sunrise

(Ment, lightstick announcement)

If without you

Aurora

Utopia

(VCR)

Say My Name

Dazzling Light

Hala Hala

Treasure

Precious

Wonderland

--

Encore:

(VCR)

Answer

(Ment)

Thank u

Star 1117

(Ment)

Promise

Dancing like butterfly wings

Setlist from: https://twitter.com/updateez/status/1226112679728812032?s=19

[brokuro]

I HADN’T NOTICED THE CONDUCTOR WAS A STUFFED TOY UNTIL YOU POINTED IT OUT OMG!! That’s actually so cute the concert looks like it must have been a lot of fun for everyone involved!

i knoww!!! it was so lively and full of energy!  i can’t wait til the day we can go to concert halls again ahah

[myheroaizawashota]

Heyyyyyy~~ I have a request! Aizawa with an American wife with like a cute little southern accent? And class 1-A experiencing complete and utter shock upon finding out? Please, sorry I'm awkward

[omg i actually squealed when i read this!!! I’m making this woman the sweetest most apple pie, southern loving woman that this world has ever seen! I really appreciate the ask! You’re amazing friend!]

Sometimes your husband could be so damn scattered brained. While you commended him on his abilities to be a loving husband, devoted teacher, and pro hero all at once, you could tell playing all three roles wore a toll on his memory somedays. Sighing at the full bento box and thermos of coffee left behind on the counter in his morning rush, you began to toe your shoes on. The busy teacher of twenty often ran most of his days without sleeping, and if you didn’t remind him of it, eating as well. You knew he ran out of here without breakfast in the mornings and by the time he returned home from nightly patrols he was far to exhausted to concern himself with eating. While some days you just assumed your husband slept through his lunch, part of you new during some point in his afternoon he’d be looking for this food. Gathering the meal in your arms, you made your way out of the house in pursuit of U.A.

The journey there wasn’t terrible, you two lived fairly close to campus so the walk there was fairly manageable. However, the walk across campus once you’d gotten yourself through security gates, was were the nightmare began. Once making your way through the schools highly secure system, you quickly hurried to complete your mission. It took you a bit of time but you were finally able to navigate your way to room 1-A, thanks to some help from a few students. Peering through the window on the door, you checked to make sure that you were in the right place. You didn’t see your husband, however the class room seemed to be full of young aspiring hero’s. Identifying a few students based on Shouta’s descriptions, you were able to come to the conclusion this was the right class. Gently giving a knock you slide the door open, effortlessly balancing the bento box and thermos in one hand. “Pardon me, but this would’n happen to be class 1-A by any chance, would it?”

Earning a few estranged looks from the students of the class, you couldn’t help but feel your cheeks heat under the gaze of their many eyes. “Ahm just lookin’ for Mr.Aizawa. That mans as forgetful as a squirrel in the winter lookin for their nuts.” you chuckled, watching as a few hands began to shoot up across the room, some of them with a great deal of excitement.

Taken aback slightly by the sudden energy boost of the class, you couldn’t help but give a nervous laugh, stepping into the room and placing your betrotheds food ontop of his desk. “I’m sorry, I don’t know any of your names, yall’ just have to bare with me for a hot second here...uh you, right there in the back with the cute green hair and your lil tongue stickin’ out, sugar, what’s your name?”

Letting her hand fall, Asui pressed the pad of her index finger against her lips she giving a soft hum “My name is Asui, but I prefer Sue. I hope it’s not rude to ask -ribbit- but why are you looking for Mr.Aizawa?...”

“YEAH ARE YOU HIS GIRLFRIEND OR SOMETHING” an eager shrill voice called out, your head turning to see a student with pale pink skin all but leaning on her desk in anticipation, the whites of her irises sparkling as she hung waiting for your response.

You gave a laugh, knowing if your husband were around to hear the way his class erupted in energy, he’d all but have himself a whole barn yard, forget just a cow. Smiling you let your fingers scratch softly at the side of your neck “well, i wouldn’t say girlfriend...I’m his wife.” Your laughter continued watching as the girl all but fell out of her chair. “See, his silly hide forgot his lunch and what not back home, and I’d rather like knowing he has it here with him than knowing he didn’t eat today. Plus it’s his favorite” You divulged smiling “southern style chicken and waffles, an ol’ family recipe. Y’all have some good food here and all, but nothing beats a good southern cook out sometimes.”

Quickly the composure of the class began to dissipate, one by one students shouting out at you before you even had a chance to call on them.

“You must be American! I thought you talked a little different” the sweetest girl with the worlds most adorable chubby cheeks you ever did see smiled, tapping the boys shoulder in front of her “I wonder where in America she’s from!”

“MR AIZAWA IS MARRIED?! AND SHES ACTUALLY HOT?! AW MAN HOW IS THAT EVEN FAIR” A boy clearly now earning the looks and disapproval of the girls around him shouted out, his fingers clawing down his face as he sat in disbelief.

“KAMINARI!” a trio of voices shouted.

You began to back up slowly, chest moving quickly as you watched the class unravel. Slowly then all at once more and more people beginning to shout and scream. It seemed like half the class was concerned about asking you more questions, while the other half was debating the answers. You’d turned this room crazier than a set of teenage girls at a boy band concert. Just when their volume had began to peek, the classroom door slammed opened, a very fimiliar but very agitated voice following “Anyone who’s mouth is still moving, after I count to three can pack up their things and leave. If I can’t trust you to be quite for five minutes when i turn my back, then you don’t belong in this program. One-“

Hardly raising his voice, the students of the class quickly began to quite, their voices all immediately stopping well before your husband even made out the word two. It was impressive yet terrifying to witness, though you couldn’t blame them. You wouldn’t wanna cross the man’s bad side either, and he was your husband. Sighing a bit in relief, you let your eyes fall softly to his, lips winding up in the corners “sorry about that Darlin’ I didn’t think i was gonna set your class that crazy.”

While his eyes and face tried to maintain their typical stoic stance, you could see the small hint of a smile being shoved down as it tried its best to pry the corner of his lip up. “What are you doing here?”

You gently nudged the bento meal across his desk, giving a chuckle “you ran out so fast this morning I didn’t have time to flag you down about your lunch. I figured you’d want it...not to go braggin’ but I did pack your favorite today.”

He gave a soft hum and looked down at the food, the gratitude in his eyes showing when he flicked them back your way. “I appreciate you bring it down, hopefully I didn’t put you out of your way to much today.”

“Yeah yeah yeah, don’t go frettin’ over a glass of spilt milk. It wasn’t too much of a pain. I’ll forgive ya this one time if you give me some sugar before I head off” you smiled, body taking a step closer to his. A devilish smile painted on your lips as you stood practically in front of him, your hands meshing together behind your back. “Just one lil peck, then I’ll be out of your hair.”

Knowing this was a double edged sword for him, Aizawa gave a reluctant sigh. While he knew this was only going to spike his students rowdy behavior once more, he knew you did deserve the sign of gratitude. You did so much for him, much more than just bringing his lunch down today, he’d be cruel to say no. Quickly he leaned in to press a small kiss to your forehead, a soft pink haze beginning to spread across his cheeks as he turned away from you. Clearing his throat his hands moved to shove into his pockets, he sitting himself down at his desk. As anticipated the room began to roar, student hands fluttering into the sky as they frantically shouted for their teacher’s attention.

“MR AIZAWA, WHERE DID YOU MEET YOUR WIFE”

“MR AIZAWA SMILED A LITTLE DID YOU GUYS SEE IT? I DIDNT THINK HIS FACE EVER MOVED”

“MR AIZAWA DO YOU GUYS HAVE KIDS!”

“MR AIZAWA!”

Feeling his the pressure in his head grow, he rubbed his fingers into his temples “I hope you’re happy, now I’ll never get them to stop.” He defeatedly exhaled, forehead moving to rest against the cool wood of his desk.

With a small laugh, you sent a pair of apologetic eyes your husbands way, you moving to slip back out of the room the way you entered. “I’m sorry Sweetheart. Lord help ya..”

Before your husband could lose his cool, you closed the door behind you, hurrying down the hall with a grin on your face. While you felt bad for disrupting his class, you couldn’t wait to hear the rest of his day went tonight when he got home.

[emoboijk]

ksj | my love (time apart)

You can’t appreciate what you have until it’s gone.—angst, idol!au

breakup :: time apart :: makeup

1,572 words

g.cred to owner

SEOUL, SOUTH KOREA:

You don’t know why you’re here. Your heart is racing. You’re the one that made the big speech about “If it’s over, let it be over” and “You did this to us.”

You look up at the tall building, holding the box, questioning all of your life choices.

“This is a bad idea,” you say it out loud, hoping it will convince you to walk away. But your feet stay planted.

So consumed are you in your murmuring and panic, that when someone says your name you physically jump in surprise. When you look over, you discover that Min Yoongi is standing right next to you. How did you not see him coming?

“Yoongi-ssi,” you bow, flinching slightly at your own formality. He’s frowning when you look back up at him. It’s been nearly three years since you last called him that, nearly three years since you’d discarded the strict honorifics. Another sign of what’s changed.

Truthfully, all of the boys had attempted to reach out to you—all with condolence like text messages. As much as you had appreciated them, you hadn’t responded. They were Seokjin’s family, you weren’t sure how to exist in that world now.

“Jin-hyung’s not here,” he says. This time he’s frowning with sympathy.

“I know.” There was a reason you’d waited nearly three weeks to drop by.

“Then why are you here?”

You hesitate and glance down at the box. You shouldn’t give Seokjin the watch. You broke up. The engraving is meaningless now. Well...no, it isn’t. You still mean the words on the back of the watch, but it doesn’t feel right for him to have them anymore. But then, maybe because you still mean them, you mumble, “I was going to leave this for him.”

Yoongi raises an eyebrow and sighs. He’s smart and you’ve always been easy to read; you know he’s already figured you out. And it’s pure kindness and affection for you that makes him say: “I’m flying to Japan to meet up with everyone tonight. You want me to give it to him?”

You watch his face for a second, but you can’t tell if he thinks it’s a bad idea. But at this point, it doesn’t really matter. You nod and hand it to him, stuttering as you say, “I was going to give it to him...that day.”

Yoongi sighs again and looks at you sadly, “I’m sorry...he really loves you. I think he’s just trying to do right by you.”

You nod, and say the thoughts that have been circling your mind in grief the past three weeks, “I know he had good intentions. I know what he thought he was doing. But protecting me didn’t have to mean leaving me. He was the one that made that choice.”

Part of you hoped that your little speech to Yoongi would change something. You wanted to think you were stronger afterward. Or that something clicked in your mind. You’ve heard people say that they don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want them, as if that somehow just turns off your emotions. You wish it was that simple.

It did get easier, though, the pretending. Going through the motions of your day as if the sun wasn’t gone. As if all of the flowers hadn’t wilted. As if you weren’t suffocating.

You’d never imagined it would be this hard. You’d always thought of yourself as so much stronger than this; the kind of heroine in a story who doesn’t need a man, who only deigns to keep one company. In the worst-case-scenarios you’d imagined, you would mourn a break up for a week at most and then realize you were better off.

Of course, that was before Kim Seokjin. Before you found the person that makes you better—prouder, happier, healthier. The person that brought out the best in you, that you were most comfortable around, that you would cross the Earth for.

You wished that your image of him had changed. That his breaking your heart would ruin who he was in your head. But despite your hurt and his betrayal, he’s still the perfect, goofy, handsome man you fell in love with. You’re not sure there was anything that would change that.

OSAKA, JAPAN:

It’s busy. There are at least ten staff members hovering around the members with various hair products, reminders, issues. Jeongguk and Tae are both in chairs with stylists attending to their hair. Jimin’s on the couch with his phone in his hands, absentmindedly ignoring the woman painting his lips with shimmery lip gloss. Namjoon is by the door, speaking with one of the managers about a scheduling conflict or something. Hoseok is sitting on the counter by Jeongguk’s chair, laughing about something one of them had said.

Jin is almost laying completely flat on the couch, nearly ruining the perfectly sprayed hairstyle he’d been given ten minutes ago. He pulls out his phone and feels disappointment run like ice through his veins.

He broke up with you. He should be long past expecting text messages from you. And yet…

It’s only 6:32. They still have an hour and a half before the show starts. But they still have to make sure the clothes are ready, and the mics work, the staff will have a list of reminders, they’ll have to double check the things they want to say in Japanese with the translators, then Namjoon will probably want to say something…

It’s a lot to do. And Jin has never felt less motivated.

The door opens and Yoongi is standing there, two staff members behind him, his hair stuffed into a hat. He bows and apologizes for being late. He missed rehearsal. They sort of suspected he would. Jin’s not too worried about it. They’ve only done about a million of these concerts.

Jin frowns. His bitter cynicism has gone up a notch since he ended things with you. He tries not to think about the effect it’s had on everyone.

Yoongi is bustled into a makeup chair as everyone greets him. Taehyung leans over and shows him a video. Hoseok asks how Seoul was when he left.

Jin sits up, looks at them, in his attempt at participating in the conversation. He makes eye contact with Yoongi as he says, “It was fine.” Yoongi pauses, they know there’s something else, but he doesn’t elaborate.

The show was good. It always is. The members find it hard to ignore the black hole where their hyung used to be. But they do; they’ve all gotten very good at pretending. Seokjin is so good in fact, that at some points during the show they wholeheartedly believe the goofy, lovable, energetic performance he’s putting on. But he frowns as soon as they’re backstage.

They’re exhausted when they get back to the hotel, stumbling to their rooms with lighthearted smiles and jokes and the kind of pure energy that comes from performing in a stadium. Yoongi follows Jin to his door, taps him on the shoulder, “Hyung.”

Jin turns and raises his eyebrow, tries to make himself seem less depressed and fails. “What’s up?”

“In Seoul,” Yoongi hesitates. They have another show in a couple of days, they have work to do tomorrow. But Yoongi doesn’t like secrets, especially from his brothers. He digs into his bag and pulls out the little black velvet box. “She stopped by.”

Jin is dumbstruck. He knows, of course, who Yoongi is talking about. He’s felt so dead for weeks, that it’s surprising the jumpstart any mention of you gives him. He takes the box carefully, runs his fingers over the velvet softly, his chest constricting painfully.

Yoongi sighs, “I guess she was going to give it to you that day you…” he trails off. He’s watching Jin’s face, feeling his pain so intensely. All six of them watched you and Jin’s relationship evolve, they had grown to love you like dongsaengs. They all saw the effect you had on him. “I’m sorry, hyung,” he says, reaching up to squeeze his shoulder before walking down the hall.

Jin is frozen outside his door for a few moments, staring at the velvet box like an alien object. He’s finding it hard to breathe.

“Hyung?” Jimin says, pausing at his own door with Jeongguk and Hobi, his brow is furrowed with concern, “Are you okay?”

“Fine,” Seokjin whispers, fumbling with his keycard and stumbling into the room. He drops his bags on the ground by the door, steps out of his shoes out of habit, and sits on the bed like a lead weight, never looking away from the black velvet box.

It hadn’t been an anniversary or a birthday. There was no special occasion. He’d triple checked. You had bought him a gift...for no reason. The idea was heavy in his heart. He took a deep, shaky breath and opened the box.

It was a watch. Not anything super expensive (although pricey considering your paycheck). A leather band, a black face, gold detailing. Seokjin sighed. It was perfect. He let his fingers trace over the watch face as if that could bring you here to him, or turn back time. He turned it over to inspect it and inhaled sharply, as though he’d been punched in the gut.

My Love

Two simple words. Barely any meaning. Almost completely unassociated with your relationship specifically. And yet…

author’s note—(totally unrelated but) omg bangtan won top group at the bbmas; we stan 7 kings 

03: makeup ↝

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[whydoifeelsoold]

Seeing iKON live for the first time: a reflection

So last Thursday and Saturday I saw iKON live for the first time, in Sydney and Melbourne respectively. Here are my thoughts. 

Random thoughts:

- Before the Sydney show I was nervous af. Honestly, I couldn’t eat, couldn’t concentrate on shit, I was trembling, I was alternating between rambling like a madwoman and sitting in silence staring into space. My poor sister thought I was losing it. Think Hanbin in On Hiatus when Bobby texts him he’s outside his house and wants to speak to him in chapter 4. I was THAT. 

- I was so nervous because I felt like there was SO much at stake. I’ve written sooo much about these boys (over 337,000 words?!), I’ve spent so much time (enjoyable time lol) wondering about them, hypothesising how they’d respond to different situations, basically doing full on character studies. I was so scared that I’d go to the concert and what if....I’d gotten them wrong, I’d totally misunderstood them...what if they weren’t quite like what I imagined. What would happen then?? Would I be disappointed in myself?? Disappointed by them?? That wouldn’t be fair to them at all because they are PEOPLE not CHARACTERS!! And I would be disappointed in myself about that too!! So anyway, long story short, I was terrified some kind of disappointment would be inevitable. 

- So of course I was nervous (bats aggressively swooping in my stomach) right up till when they finally appeared. However, I was amazed that instead of feeling awe, or surprise, or disbelief, when I saw them lined up about to begin Bling Bling, I just felt insanely happy. Like childishly, innocently, joyously happy.

- I was so thrilled by how good the vocal line sounded live. Their voices sound SO clear, strong and full of colour. It was amazing to FEEL their voices echo and project in the room. The sound was better in Sydney however, for some reason their voices were more muffled in Melbourne, not sure why. May have been to do with my location in Festival Hall. 

- I wish Sydney iKONICS were a bit more friendly to one another. I felt like a village idiot when I smiled at some people and they just looked at me with confused, dead eyes. Like come one guys, can’t we all bond over this incredible experience?! Can’t we kill time in the massive-ass queue by getting excited together (But Sydney is a catty city, so that didn’t surprise me too much tbh) ?!?!

- They were all SO so So sweet and very endearing. They were just...adorable. I felt so affectionate and proud of them. 

Now, about the Boys themselves:

- They were all INCREDIBLY handsome in real life. Even more handsome than on tv or in photoshoots. Like, I dunno what it is about seeing them in real life, but they were just really stunning. 

- In Sydney especially they were tired (but did a very noble job of pushing through). In particular Hanbin, and I felt a wave of concern for him when he was bent over puffed at one stage. Bobby and Donghyuk were up there hyping up the crowd with “WHO WANTS ANOTHER SONG” and poor Bin was just shaking his head laughing, trying to catch his breath. You could really tell he was ready for a good 15 hours of sleep. 

- In Melbourne they all seemed to be more rested, except maybe Bobby. He did his very best not to let on he was tired, (and don’t get me wrong, he still had plenty of energy) but he was a bit more reserved in Melbourne than in Sydney and struggled to get his words out more when speaking english. Every now and again he seemed a bit distracted in Melbourne, like maybe his concentration was off. 

- The one thing that DID blow my mind, was that ALL of them - but especially double b - were exactly as I had imagined and written them to be. As a writer, I’ve tried my best to interpret them as accurately as possible from the sources given to us: tv shows, performance recordings, the music, the survival shows, the interviews, the radio appearances, etc. etc. How this whole time I’ve also been acutely aware, that no matter how hard I try, how can I truly get a “vibe” from someone when I haven’t seen them in person. Seeing them live made everything make sense. 

- Bobby had this gorgeous, outward energy, just the way I imagined him to be. He was so sweet towards the boys, but also devilishly cheeky and when he got the chance. As for his interaction with the audience, you could really tell he wanted to give us a good performance, it was like he really wanted to give us a gift and for us to love it. You could really feel how lucky he felt to have us there screaming and singing along, how appreciative he was (like dude, no, thank YOU!! NOT US!!). In Melbourne a small smile he shared with Hanbin suggested that special connection which made my heart soar. They clearly have a very deep connection, whatever that may be. Overall I would describe him in real life as Generous and uplifting. 

- Han Fucking Bin, my ultimate bias. Oh god. I was blown away by how similar he is in real life to how I have imagined. He had this incredibly complex, fascinating energy riddled with paradoxes. He was eccentric yet very in tune with the crowd, dorky yet intimidating, reserved/shy but very sweet, rather dreamy and in his own world, yet always very in control, unassuming yet also proud and a bit aloof. Maybe aloof isn’t the right word...maybe detached? But I guess what I’m trying to say is that I think he has a very good poker face, it’s his professional/leader face. He takes his responsibility to deliver a good concert very seriously and so he doesn’t always look like he can “let himself go.” But at the same time, I really got a sense that underneath the poker face he was feeling a lot, thinking a lot. He was doing a lot of work, but keeping that to himself.. Finally, he struck me as someone who has made the brave commitment to be himself unapologetically, but he’s still learning who exactly he is. I’m really excited to how he turns out, but if my gut feeling is right, he will only continue developing as a person, he won’t just find himself and stop there. He is like a pokemon, there are going to be many evolutions for him and that’s EXACTLY why I love him so much. I would sum him up in real life as Sensitive and Inquiring. 

- Jinhwan was just as feisty, cheeky and cute coy as I imagined. He was in high spirits, and I think he’d impressed himself with his english skills so he was very confident on stage, he really knew how to work the crowd. I really got a sense of his love of attention. He was so charming, cute and willing to indulge the crowd. I didn’t see his mum-side but I’m glad about that because I feel like he doesn’t need to be in that mode when all the boys are having fun on stage, he can just focus on being his naughty, sexy self. I would summarise him as Playful and Engaging. 

- Donghyuk was a total darling and omg he looks soooo handsome in real life. I really got a sense of his attentiveness towards the fans, he really did his best to engage with us, asking questions, complimenting the city he was in, joking around, singing other songs whenever he got the chance. Diligent and Caring, that’s DK in a nutshell. 

- June!!! So June was like Chanwoo and Yun, they kinda let the other boys take the floor and lead the show. Totally fair enough. I can’t begin to imagine how vulnerable one must feel when you have no idea wtf the being said and you’re up there on stage with everyone watching. Two things with June. One, I could NOT believe how dramatically handsome he was in real life. Like, his raven-black “comma-styled” hair, the way it contrasted so boldly with his pale skin, his muscular tallness, the way his white t-shirt hung off his frame so casually yet perfectly, his striking brows, strong profile and chiseled jawline...like, he was GODLY.  Out of this world. From another universe. He was stunning. In terms of the vibe he gave me in real life: Cool and eccentric. 

- Yun!!! Bless him!!! I really just wanted to hear more from him...although i totally get why he didn’t have the means to express himself more. But what he couldn’t communicate through words he really poured into his singing and interaction with the fans. I was really impressed by his voice live, he has such a nice warm tone. And he really put heart into his lines and high notes. His showmanship was very impressive. I would summarise him as heartfelt and emotive. 

- Chanwoo was SO SO gorgeous in real life. Even from where I stood at the back his eyes stood out so well. He was reserved but not lacking in confidence, he was shy but also very sincere and sweet. His vocals were brief but his husky tone is awesome. I would summarise him as observant and alert. 

- Overall Seeing them was really amazing, it was such a positive experience. All I feel now is the bittersweetness of it all. Before I didn’t know what it was like to miss them, that wasn’t something I had to deal with being a distant aussie fan. But now I’ve seen them twice in three days, I now know what that is like to be in their presence. And honestly, I miss them so much already. my heart feels bruised. Laaaaaaaame. 

p.s. @mvssmallow I hope you have regained hearing in your left ear. I’m sorry I yelled so loud and so consistently throughout the ENTIRE show. You’re a legend for putting up with my drunken nerves. 

@notsolonelyinthisworld @drinkyourjuicejinhwan @jennicullen @gurrchoo @runsoftbin

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ok panic concert highlights

(plus some personal adventures)

this was the portland show on the 12th k

so it was a fuckin hour and a half drive bc where i fuckin live now is far away from everything i hate it anyway that sucked & i ran my phone down to 80 percent during said drive which proved problematic

we get there (me & my lil sis) & our dad drops us off & we run up & im bitching about how weird the fucking venue is (it’s normal, it’s just not what i’m used to - in vegas the venues were typically in the casino/resorts so you lined up inside the halls & sat against the walls & tourist-watched, in this venue u stood outside in a line???? ughhh)

so we approach the line & something happens, i’m gonna make a separate post about it because holy shit

befriended two excitable gay kids, maybe 8th or 9th grade?? & i was like woah i was u once. now im old & jaded. eugh. then they bailed on me so.

we got into the arena & were on the wrong fucking side so we had to JOG all the way AROUND THE WHOLE FUCKINGN PLACE UGH

THEN WE GOT IN & SAT IN THE WRONG SEATS so the guy next to me (dad w a thick accent, maybe ukranian?? it wasn’t russian but it was close) politely informed me & i was like fuck well until they get here we’ll stay, but i had anxiety so during an arizona song i pretended to go to the bathroom & came back to look for our actual seat, someone took it so i pussied out & went back, had hella anxiety about it, then before hayley the ppl showed up so we had to move & i had to kick some preps out of their seat & they called my lil sister a bitch ;-;

OK SO ONTO THE PERFORMERS

arizona was cute, gotta check them out... singer kept getting emotional & wiping his eyes, it was sweet, and he was hella feeling himself dancing & stuff lmaoo. idk em but im proud of them.

HAYLEYYYYYYYYYYY her dancing & drumming & outfit??? also all the lesbians/wlw getting crunk in the crowd was so damn good haha

ALSO shout out to hayley’s band, they were so cute??? the guitarist & her kept having moments & he seemed like a cool dude, & the girl on synths was so pretty omg??? & smiley i loved her. & the drummer, they were goin so hard i couldnt get a good look, but they had kewl hair

“if you don’t know anything about me, there’s one thing you should know: I LOVE GIRLS” there was so much gay energy at that show i was teary the whole damn time

k confession, i love everything about hayley but i find her voice a little grating on the ears, something about it, but it was super angelic live & didn’t bug me once, & wanna be missed fucked me up cuz it’s my fucking f a v

SHE DID THE DRUMMY IT WAS HOT 

her oufit was so damn iconic rlly tho, the pants & shoes totes fit her but wouldn't look good on anyone else, but that shirt, the hot dad look w the open v & all the jewelry, holy fuck that’s how im tryna be

during girls like girls, everyone had their lights out & there was a bunch of pride flags out, and i got this gorgeous shot of a gay pride flag illuminated by lights (i posted it)

most of the songs they played between the breaks were gay themed too which was powerful dude i was so damn emotional

then during the countdown to panic, they played the next episode by dre (the “smoke weed every day” song) & then africa by toto jsfndjfndjskfnjdk

THEN PANIC CAME OUT 

WHOLE ASS STRING & BRASS SECTION BDEN RLLY WENT THERE WOAH

KENNY & NICOLE WERE SO CUTE THE WHOLE TIME THEY KEPT GOOFING AROUND ESPECIALLY KENNY IT WAS ADORABLE

THEN BREB POPPED OUT THE DAMN FLOOR

ok several things about breb

one, i never was heavy into panic, but considering how obsessive i was into bandom a few years back, i still know a lot about early panic, livejournal shit, ryden bullshit, etc, so it was really weird being there with normies who were just like “he’s hot & sings good” when i was like “yall lucky fucks never heard of myrtle beach ” dsjfnjsdnfds

two, four years into panic & i never was attracted to brendon, but dude, EVERYONE fell in love with him at this show, myself included, & i was starin at this bitch ass motherfucker in a trance before i was like “wait ur a bastard STOP U ENDEARING DICKWAD” he was so fucking endearing it was ANNOYING cuz i’ve seen some of the shit he’s pulled damnit. srsly tho, so absolutely charming, wow.

three, and what stuck with me most; brendon loves what he does. a little bit of exhibitionism, i think; he likes ppl looking at & admiring him, he’s that type of person, a showman, but also, i think he just loves making music, people singing along to the music, etc. ive been to eight concerts now, and i don’t think i’ve seen someone who clearly loved being on stage so much. a lot of ppl act like it’s a chore to tour, but brendon clearly loves it, and it made me happy, especially as an aspiring musician. 

four, the straighties drooling over him and the gays drooling over him was truly straight/gay solidarity

ok what else happened... brendon would throw in random ass high notes towards the ends of songs... my sister looked at me super alarmed when he first did it during dtmwagt lmfao... ppl would cheer & it was impressive, but kinda piercing & i was like “show off” lol

HE DID THE ‘I MAKE THESE HIGH HEELS WORK’ thing, i thought he retired tht?? so i was pleased lmfao

i dont rmr anything that stands out about ready to go or la devotee but the lights & backgrounds during them were very pretty & i got some good pics of brebbois face (i finally got semi decent quality pics im rlly happy abt tht, concerts r so hard to photograph)

hallelujah was cool cuz there were, like, those catholic(?) church windows projected on the top part of the stage, it was pretty af, they rlly outdid themselves with the visuals

and mona lisa had like pipes & industrial stuff?? idk it looked dope, and it contrasted rlly cool it was super pretty

nine in the afternoon,,,, the only pretty odd song... i dont even like pretty odd but it was like,,, damn. & he had the piano, total live in denver vibes ;-; but he wasnt dripping sweat this time lmao

golden days, brebweenie knows hes hot, kept winking & doing mic flips & shit & i was like u fucken weenie ive seen that pic of u w a bowl cut in a bra, die

k he’s a fuckin bastard but hhe’s pretty & talented fuckin big ego bitch ... can yall tell i hav a lovehate relationship w him bc i do

I GOT THIS ONE PART ON VIDEO DURING GOLDEN DAYS WHERE KENNY & NICOLE R FUCKING AROUND & MAKING FACES & GOOFING IT’S SO CUTE

during casual affair in the chorus, the mic would echo each word (just lay (lay) in the atmosphere (sphere) & the ‘lay’ was rlly good on my ears idk sometimes certain vocal notes sound GOOD & that was one i keep replaying it

SO VEGAS LIGHTS as yall kno i was born & raised in vegas & a vegasfucker69 it’s my fucking home i moved last november (not my choice) & miss it violently & i was CRYING during vegas lights hard & it was so beautiful im gonna watch the video i got over & over & over that song means so much to me IM SO FUCKING HOMESICK

speaking of which, im pretty bitter i didnt see panic in vegas, this was my first panic show & that kinda bothers me, like i should’ve seen them in vegas a few yrs ago but it never worked out.... still, im grateful i saw them at all & im glad i saw the song live. i had my fob snapback on too, it says ‘las vegas’ on it cuz i got it there haha, wore that on purpose

he did the fucking running man thing towards the end & everyone cheered & i was like dONT ENABLE HIM

sat down during dancing’s not a crime cuz im a bitch who doesn’t like half the new record & also my knees hurt cuz im old apparently, anyway this chick glared at me then sang every word wat a fuckin prep lmao

o yah i forgot, in golden days he got in the crowd & let a girl sing the last chorus it was amazing i bet that made her life

AND DURING DOAB HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD that was SO FUCKING ENDEARING i was like “wow what a guy” then i was like “HE’S A BITCH U KNOW HIM” & i was like “hmm??? what a guy” but omg he made so many people happy it was really beautiful & sweet & i was like... half in love & then i came to my senses jksjfhjsdhfkjsdn

RLLY THO HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD & HIGH FIVED PPL & SHIT & GAVE HUGS & TOOK ART/LETTERS IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD HE WAS SO SWEET & LEGIT EVERYONE WAS FALLING FOR HIM & I WAS LIKE SUFFERING

legit guys, like it’s weird i used to watch his parascopes in 2015 or w/e & he’d say some Bad shit on there sometimes, like ik he does some messy shit BUT HE ACTED SO FUCKING LOVELY BLEH

also he’s very short, like he’s 2 inches taller than me but he looked so little in the crowd i was like... aw

the piano thing ;-; it was rlly pretty but my paranoia & anxiety was off the charts i was like that things gonna fucking fall & crush the crowd it’s gonna fucking fALL but it didnt ofc but i was stressed bleghh

but ok on a positive note, that was soo fucken lovely, bden stopped to try to make eye contact with as many ppl in as many places of possible, like he made the effort to get to everyone & make them have a special moment & it was ... magical ok thts fucken cliche as shit but it rlly was

ok i did smth lowkey embarrassing, i doubt he saw, but when he faced towards us i was just overwhelmed w like.. gratitude?? ive had a bad 2 years in every way, so being somewhere filled with love & fun & kindness & joy & all around good vibes, i was so grateful? i just wanted to thank him for creating that kinda atmosphere. so i like,,, blew kisses but not in a weird way, like later i was like oh that was kinda weird whyd i do that, but at that moment i didnt use my head & it was jus my instinctual way of saying thank u idk it’s lame but it happened so there ya go idfk

fun fact, my vid of it is out of focus cuz i was so enamored watching him & watching the crowd react it was pretty fucking magical it rlly was

once he got down from that piano he went “wow i feel so fucking inspired now” & i was like “bitch me too tf” 

legit it was absolutely indescribable, even watching my vid now.... wow. and u can hear me lightly crying in the back of my video too lmao, and i was shaking p hard, it was so fucking magical. like im getting emotional rn cuz it was exactly what i needed to remind myself that there is good stuff in the world thats worth staying for. 

i never was super big on panic or breb like i said but if i ever meet him im gonna thank him bc that. wow. transformative.

also that transition from the piano cover he did to dying in la was smooth af. it was all around gorgeous.

OK GIRLS GIRLS BOYS, I WAS SO CONCERNED W FILMING I COULDNT PUT MY LIGHT ON (i had a red heart) BUT OMG

he got a bi flag first, then a rainbow one, then another rainbow one... one was those hayley ones lol, and one ended up on the stage out of his eyesight & he never saw it & i felt so bad fjdnfds

G-D ALL THE GAYS SINGING WAS SO EMOTIONAL & THE RAINBOW BEHIND THEM ON STAGE (AND PAN FLAG COLORS AT TIMES?!??!?!)) IT WAS FUCKING MAGICAL & BRENDON LET A FLAG DRIFT IN THE WIND FOR A SEC BEFORE HE PUT IT ON IT WAS GORGEOUS

AND ALL THE RAINBOW LIGHTS IN THE CROWD FUCK DUDE

breb might be a turd but he’s the only one of these emo dudes who parades around draped in flags & so aggressively empowers gay fans through it, and for that, i respect him. ik the song has more perverse origins but now it’s a bi anthem that rlly connects w lgbt fans & it’s rlly beautiful, AND i got another gorgeous shot of a pride flag surrounded by lights & im just. wow.

after, breb said “that is gorgeous btw” about the rainbow lights, and “thank u for participating in love” & giggled, i got this shot of the lights in the dark lookin incredible ;-;

also said “this a record number of flags tonight, very cool” so portland is rlly gay apparently, kewl

nicole doin the nicotine bass line slayed me dead wowie u can hear me go “WOO” on the vid lmfao (im a bassist so i lov her double)

ive seen miss jackson live twice now cuz at my monumentour show, new politics brought lolo out to cover it so that’s dope lmfao

anyway bden did the fuckin valley girl voice for “the scenery is so loud” which was delightful

he had us do the ‘ayyyy’ bit woo

NICOLES BASS,,, SPARKLY

drum thingy ;-; speaking of monumentour, andy & patrick famously did a drum off & i MISSED IT cuz the stage at my venue wasnt large enough to fit both sets ;-; so they didnt do it ;-; but bden doin his own drum solo kinda made up for it a little bit

fuckin show off tho he played like 3 instruments & i was like u bitch stop

there was some kinda audio sample that went “i got a fever & the only prescription is more caffeine(?)” & bden mouthed the words along, and some girl behind me went “SAME” 

UPDATE: googled it, i knew i recognized chris walken’s voice, he says cowbell not caffeine & it’s a skit from snl that i’ve SEEN im a disgrace anyway that was fun also woo cowbell

the big screen kept cutting from bden drumming to a shot of the crowd & someone holding a pride flag & i was like yah drumming is gay now

lmao i only filmed like a minute of a song unless i rlly liked it so i could spend the rest of the song gettin funky right?? & i like king of the clouds but not a ton, but i filmed the whole thing cuz the visuals were so pretty lmfaooo i jus was staring at them like wowwww prettyyyyy

during the ‘i dont feel anything at all’ he looked rlly sad & i couldnt tell if it was genuine or if he was goin for like a pouty look djfdsjfndjks then right after he winked so ig pouty thx breb

at some point he introduced nicole&kenny plus the strings & brass ppl as “his friends” it was sweet & he was like “these lovely ladies” about the strings & “these handsome men” about the brass & i was like WOO GAY RIGHTS

FIRE DURIN CRAZY EQUALS GENIUS. BOZ FLASHBACKS. FIRE ON MY FACE HUNDREDS OF FEET AWAY. FEAR. DONT LIKE FIRE. SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION. KENNY WAS TOO CLOSE. FEAR.

a whole arena singing bohemian rhapsody 25+ years after freddie mercury’s death was Incredible, i dont believe in afterlives but if there is one i hope he was watching & enjoying & knowing his legacy was staying alive bc wow that was powerful

THE END WAS CRUNK AF HOLY SHIT BDEN GOT DOWN

i cant believe i remember the day emperors came out like,,,, jeez. so lit live tho

I HAVENT MENTIONED HIS SPARKLY SUIT YET. KING OF SPARKLY SUITS

BRENDON DOIN HIS HIGH NOTE BIT & THE STAGE LIGHTING UP FULLY ON FIRE FUCK DUDE

bitchden took his shirt off when he came out for the encore..... bitch

SINS,,, FUCK DUDE,,,, MY CHILDHOOD WAS CRYING HHYSTERICALLYYY, 

in the background of my vid u can hear me do the ‘ily’ ‘ily’ from the mv emo ass

my lil sis got fucken turnt to sins lmfaooo??? danced her ass off???

us: W H O R E bden: ily

VIOLINISTS GETTIN WILD TOO

they played footage of the music vid & breb & his fuckin iconic outfit & i was a lil emo kid again omg i cant believe i saw it live

he did funny voice durin calls for a toast nerd ... least he’s not entirely bitter abt songs ryan wrote anymore tho lmao... or maybe he is considering theres only two on the 30 song setlist ;-;

i gotta listen to afycso again damn it’s so iconic

oh yah at some bit he said “ive been doing this for 14 years, im 31 now” & it reminded me like.. most of these emo bands, they started so young. & got successful at such a young age. it’s so crazy. idk. wow. 

he got growly during the chorus, that’s pstump’s thing beeb dont steal it lmao

CONFETTI fitting ending, & i got him walking off which is cool, other bands it goes dark & they just kinda disappear & it’s unsatisfying ;-;

so yah i finally saw breadman live, i got 400 pics and 30 videos so that all got spam posted over the last few days lmao

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So I’m gonna tell you how it all happened!!!!! @coldplay I remember hearing them first I guess I was about eight or nine and I heard clocks at a party. I didn’t know who they were or the band themselves but I really really loved the piano hook I don’t know it seems really special. In 2012 thanks to the iHeartRadio music Festival I got to know them a little more, and that was how I started loving them in an ever-growing manner. I knew I would do everything on my hands to see them live one day, because I truly wanted to go to their beautiful concerts. I got the idea of playing clocks with them on the piano when I learned the song this January, but I knew it was absolutely crazy and just a fantasy, a fiction dream. But when this guy from Germany Ferdinand play everglow on the piano at concert I thought if he can why can’t I!! And ClockZ was my absolute masterpiece idea. Because I had been playing it constantly for six months. For my birthday June 15 my parents surprised me with tickets to the a head full of dreams world tour in San Diego California. I was hyper happy and I couldn’t believe I would see them finally. So that was when my project started to bloom in my mind. I started sending emails and emails to newspapers, organizations and in the end people, employees of the band who went on tour with them. I Got a no from an employee saying she always got those requests and that couldn’t happen at every show. and that evening was very sad for me because I had been making efforts for example posting a video petition on Instagram detailing my case, telling them how I can’t see and I’ve been playing the piano for 10 years and it was my highest dream with them. I got pretty sad but I kept knocking on doors until I got a yes. On Saturday, September 30th, I was in a farm, it was the least expected place where I would get good news. This woman whose name I had never heard of emailed me saying she was from Warner and she had heard about my request, she wanted to know if it was legit. She wanted to verify if I was real because they got millions of requests. So I gave her my social media my Instagram, Twitter and Facebook. Eventually I gave her my phone number, because she asked me if we could jump on a call on Sunday. I was in a farm with poor mobile signal but the lucky call got through!!! :-) And I was scared but yes she turned out to be real!!! She told me that she wanted to invite me and my family to the concert rehearsal where I would get to play clocks with the band, and I was like oh my God I was kind of screaming!!! :-) The week went on with me giving her all the info she needed, our names and ages because I went with my mom and a couple cousins, and the lovely person asked me if I needed a specific piano to play or if I would be fine with any instrument, I couldn't hold it back to say any piano is fine but if I could play with Chris's it would be absolutely epic😂😂😂😆 so I deleted everything in my storage memory to record the show and Sunday, October 8, the desired date came. She literally told me about eight times if I would be able to make it at 2:30 PM and I always said yes but she asked me a lot of times to make sure. We are arrived at 2 PM to the stadium where they receive does with bags of merchandise and VIP passes I cannot believe I'm saying this. We greeted people from management and producers OMG and they took us to the VIP hall where we stayed for a couple hours. Management told us they would be there in about 20 minutes but things were running late so we waited a little longer and then… The door got opened and the management person said are you ready guys? And I burst into joyful screams!!!!! We were taken to the center of the stadium and it was beautifully decorated with flowers and lots of colorful stuff. The bassist guy started playing and Donnie the guitarist followed along and I couldn't believe I was witnessing this much less in person because of rehearsals are so private and no one gets to see it. My fear and nervousness came to a blast when they told me they wanted me on stage already. They had said probably I would play in the end but this was just the beginning and I truly wasn't expecting that. I wished so so badly I could practice again but I had practiced lots of times before. So they gave me these fabulous in ear monitor headphones so that I could hear everything without echo and without knowing it I met the head of security, the comanager, the radio frequencies engineer and they introduce me to the bands production manager, they were so so so gentle and respectful, completely kind and cheerful. When Chris started playing the piano I couldn't hold back my screams I knew I didn't have to because it was a rehearsal but I truly could not!!! The rest of the guys joined in and it was a wonderful private performance of "for you" The shiver B side. So I truly could not believe it was in front of me when Chris got close to a personal level and said hi guys hi Michelle… At the same time he was saying it's Chris I s creamed then I couldn't even hear it because I already knew it was him for sure, his voice can't be confused with anything else!!!! It's so deep, beautiful, original and recognizable. We hugged it was surreal and he introduced me to the other members, Will, Joni and guy, and then he asked me so Michelle you are going to play clocks with us right? And I died in incredulousness. I could not believe he was saying this and then he goes… Come on, follow me. And he started guiding me with his arm to the stage in the most beautiful way possible, it seemed like he knew me for a lifetime, he was so considerate and he told me every time when there was a step ahead!!! Seriously this story seems like taken out of a fantasy movie or a fairytale. So he showed me the stool in the piano, OMG the piano. The most beautiful thing my hands have ever touched. Just buy touch I could know what a fine quality it was. When I started playing in the sound came through the speakers, these huge fantastic loudspeakers, the moment was pure magical!!!!! Purely incredible I can't describe to you guys how cool the piano was, decorated with flowers it was Chris's piano as I have dreamt of before!!! He tapped on my shoulder from time to time signaling when my time would come although I already knew but with his shoulder taps I realized how subtle and lightweight his hands are, they are beautiful I am speechless. He played with me and improvised also solo, they gave me my solo time and I felt how incredible amazing it was to shine with the brightest stars my skies ever seen😊😊😊😍😍😍 and when I finished he said absolutely perfect OK I'm going home you're doing it tonight😭😭😭 when we were done they rehearsed life is beautiful, this song for my country Mexico three times and we heard it exclusively the instrumental three times before anyone else before it was debuted at tonight's concert. They have the delicateness to go and say goodbye to me and my family when the rehearsal was over and they told me it was beautifully played, Chris said it was special😍😍😍 The show was completely unforgettable seriously the best one I have ever watched, ever. They throw confetti and fireworks and fire and I could see it all, I could SEE it all!!! Because I was almost in the nosebleeds at the very back end of the stadium and management upgrade at us to seats 20 m from the stage and my eyes could capture all that amazing information, it wouldn't have been possible had my previous seat location and they made it happen even they didn't know😍😍😍. In the middle of the show I didn't want to get spoilers so that everything would be a surprise, and they were playing the intro for clocks in electric guitar and I didn't know they would play that song, so right before the piano kicked in, to the rhythm of the intro, Chris said so lovingly and cutely"Michelle, Michelle!" And right there at the piano kicked in😍😍😍 I died again and probably I haven't woken up from that yet because it extinguished all the sanity left in me. I don't know what that man was attempting to do but maybe one day I sue him for trying to kill me😂😂😂 it was no doubt the best day of my existence guys and I am so proud to share with you all this amazing story. The sound and the site was something I will never forget, the fireworks were so colorful, the songs, the energy , the vibe there humbleness I have no words they've made my dreams come true in such beautiful reality and I will never be able to thank them enough💖💖💖 these are the greatest Christmas presents ever🎁🎁🎁

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I love musicals but I haven't watched many. What are your top three/five favourites lol???

It’s so hard to just PICK, ugh,

1) Rent- I lowkey have it memorized word for word? Starving artists in the 90′s trying to be edgy™ I love it. Also very emotional. Once when I saw it live a professional fighter started sobbing at the finale and my mom had to give him a hug lol. (There’s a filmed live on Broadway version of the show you can watch, and also a movie. The movie changed a lot of things, but it also features six of the eight original cast members, and it’s still like, a good movie, you know?) 

2) Hair-  A tribe of hippies protesting the Vietnam war and getting high and what not. Feels lighthearted and fun until you’re crying your eyes out. Literally revolutionized Broadway as a whole and everything about it is an amazing Mess™ I love it so much. Do not watch the movie, ever, if you value your own life and sanity. I highly suggest the 2009 revival cast, but I *think* the original 1968 cast recording is online. 

3) Hedwig and the Angry Inch- Everything about it is Iconic™. Aging and fading rock star from Germany is giving a concert in the parking lot of her ex-boyfriend who stole her song and dumped her after he found out she had a sex change operation to escape East Germany. Starts to go a little insane as the show wears on and realizes she’s been mistreating her wife/husband Yitzhak. APPARENTLY GETTING A SEQUEL SOON AND IM HYPE. Very glittery and sexy and fun and emotional. There is a movie, but the formatting had to be changed, bc the stage show is set up as a concert, and also I hate how they changed ‘Sugar Daddy’, but it’s still a good movie. There are like a million and one bootlegs of this show out there, so like…just find which actor you prefer lmao (I saw it love with John Cameron Mitchell (who wrote and originated it) and Lena Hall (who won the Tony and also did the role with NPH, Taye Diggs and Darren Criss) so like. It’s amazing okay.

4) Next To Normal- Mental Illness The Musical™. Strong singers and compelling and emotional storyline. The music is gorgeous, and the harmonies are to die for. Every character is well-written and lovable. The last time I saw it live, when we got to intermission I was complaining to my friend “Shit, this is one of my favorite shows, I cannot believe I forgot to bring my tissues, how could I be so dumb here-” and this little old lady sitting in front of my turned around and silently handed me a handful of tissues before walking off and I Never Recovered. Original cast is the way to go for this one but I’ve also never seen a bad version of it. Prepare for tears.

5) Mamma Mia- Okay listen I have like a million other ones to put in this spot but I feel like I need a Fun show on this list lmao. GREAT, high energy show. Jukebox musical, so if you’re familiar with ABBA then you already know the soundtrack. Very glittery and dance-y and super super fun omg. Daughter of an ex-pop star turned single mom is getting married and finds her mom’s old diary detailing three men who could be her father, so she just. Fucking invites all three to her wedding in hopes she’ll see them and just immediately know which one is  her dad lmao. Everything about the show is very stereotypically Broadway™, like the glitz and glam and all that. Impossible to not have fun while watching. The movie is actually GREAT, in my opinion, they changed a few things but I only had a complaint about the changes to ‘Our Last Summer’. I’m sure there’s bootlegs out there too. Very much a ‘to watch when sad’ type show. 

And also….I have a million more favorites, dammit. I have no means of escape from musical hell let me know if you need more lol

[straydays7-blog]

My Day6inNYC Experience!

EDIT: I typed this up in word and pasted it into Tumblr. Tumblr kinda make some things look a little weird so excuse that please.

This is super late coming but as soon as I left NYC I had to cram for a ton of exams and now that most of those are over I can take the time to talk about my experience seeing Day6 perform live and even hi-touching them;;;; This post might be a little bit all over the place, but I cant help but to feel SO MANY FEELINGS when I think about this okay. Its still so surreal I cant believe it actually happened it felt like a really good dream okay. Also, I wish my English were better to express myself here I have so many emotions I wish to express but honestly, I dont know how Id even describe these feelings in any other languages I know SO ILL TRY MY BEST WITH ENGLISH. Also, fair warning, thisll probably be really long so prepare yourself.

Okay, first things first. I arrived like 30 mins early to pick up my P2 wristband and apparently had I been a little earlier I could have seen day6 enter the Town Hall! Somehow, even though I was not the first that arrived at the venue to pick up my wristband, I did end up being first in the P2 line. And lord behold. Someone opened the backstage door. Then and there, I caught a glimpse of Sungjin, playing his guitar singing his part in the You Were Beautiful chorus. EVERYONE AROUND ME STARTED SCREAMING LOL. I was in such shock. Sungjin is so beautiful (in present tense) and has one of the best voices Ive ever heard okay. I dont think I really realized until then I was going to see Day6, like the band that inspires me to work hard every day and makes me so happy. Even though I had bought the ticket and everything that brought me to NYC, it felt surreal and then I knew it was R E A L. Theyre real and I was about to watch them perform live and even meet them afterwards like what the heck? After getting my wristband, I picked up a fanproject banner that would later be used to move day6 to tears:) These boys are so wholesome.

I went back to my hotel for a while after that because it was rainy and windy so walking around didnt sound so nice. Around 5:30 I left to get a bite to eat and then head back to the venue. Ended up getting a burger at Five Guys (and okay totally off topic from seeing Day6, but the Five Guys burger I had in NYC was so much better than any Ive had here in VA? Or maybe excitement makes stuff taste better.) I arrived at the venue at like 6:00 and the line was already pretty long! There were some My Days handing out photocards and I bought a Sungjin badge from one girl. (This experience is gonna make me sound so Sungjin biased but omg my bias is definitely Young K)

Once I was in the Town Hall I decided to buy a lightstick to cheer for the band! Id already ordered some of the other merch from the Subkulture Shop, because I was literally only traveling with one backpack and didnt want to buy more than I could fit in to take back home.

I had no idea on which side my seat would be, I only knew I would be 12 rows away from the stage. So, when I found my seat I was beyond happy to see I was on Young K and Wonpils side of the stage omg. With a really clear view of the both of them also! All the MyDays there were so sweet man, I had a great time talking with some while waiting for the concert to begin. Though I do honestly really wish that @mikulinneamew or @reading-river would have been there with me. Day6s instruments were already set on the stage and oh my goodness I fell in love with Sungjins Gibson Les Paul. Its white body with the black pickguard and golden hardware is SO BEAUTIFUL. Makes me want to go out and buy a Les Paul just like it, but going to this concert I used money I was originally saving for a new Fender P-Bass (That aint happening for a while now lol) but I am so not complaining. Sungjins Martin acoustic is also really beautiful, but I still prefer Taylors. Young Ks bass is also super pretty. Really, I was drooling over these instruments while waiting for the concert to begin.

Its two minutes before the concert was set to begin and everyone is already chanting “DAY6! DAY6! DAY6! DAY6!”. Shortly after the lights went dark and the screen behind the stage started to play a video introducing the members (And can I say I love how so many of their songs were mashed up perfectly in that video like wow Id love the audio of just that)! One by one then the members came on stage. First Dowoon, then Wonpil, followed by Young K, Jae and last but not least, leader Sungjin! While the video was finishing playing I could see Young K getting his bass tuned and ready to perform. I started tearing up here already because they were right in front of me? Unreal, but yet so real.

And then, the first song was: I WAIT! One of my favorite songs already ;; (what am I saying, all of their songs are my favorites) Such a high energy song for the first one. It was perfect to get the crowd hyped and pumped for what was to come! Then there was me crying of happiness and singing along though omg. DAY6 IS SO COOL PERFORMING. Sungjin and Jae rocking out on their guitars, Young K thumping on the Bass, Wonpil playing the Synth and Dowoon rocking the drums! I loved how connected the audience was with the band too like out of all the live performances from bands Ive seen, this one was definitely the one with the most chemistry with the audience and music! All of the “I WAIT!” chants were so nice to hear with the music aaaa. THE SONG ENDED SO FAST. All songs went by so quick really, but hey that just means youre having a great time.

The second song was: HUNT! I was NOT prepared for this song so early on in the show already. If I had to summarize this performance in two words: Younghyuns rap (I love it so much). I really love the guitar riffs in this song so I payed a lot of attention to Jae and Sungjin at first but man, as soon as it was rapping time my eyes were focused on Young K. His rapping timbre is soooOOO darn good. And hes such a good performer too when he does it. HE FEELS EVERY WORD HE SAYS. Hunt is such a good song. I loved it. So much.

After the first two songs, lights went back on for a moment and Jae hyped up the audience! Young K shook his head the first time everyone made noise at Jaes request, but the second time Jae asked us to make some noise BOY THAT WAS GOOD VOLUME MYDAYS HAVE GREAT LUNGS.

That was followed by: IM SERIOUS! This song is so fluffy and catchy Im pretty sure everyone was singing along in the “I cant stop loving you” part. I mean, how could anyone stop loving day6 theyre so wholesome and talented and KIND AND SWEET. Wow. Its SO FUN to watch Sungjin play his acoustic guitar he was smiling the whole time. Everyone was smiling during that performance EVEN DOWOON HE WAS SO CUTE. Its such a sweet song how can you not smile playing it or listening to it. During the acapella part Young K was shooting finger hearts and did an AMAZING adlib. I was m e l t i n g. Turning me into a puddle.

The next song was: MAN IN A MOVIE! I REALLY LOVE THIS SONG A LOT. Another really soft and fluffy song, but soOOO musically interesting. Day6 is one of the few groups that not only produces earcandy, but earcandy that is also thinking candy for people who enjoy music theory (a n d I d o) This is the only day6 song Ive actually written out a fingerstyle ukulele arrangement for (totally weird instrument choice, but Im working on rewriting it for guitar LOL). Im EXTREMELY fond of everyones vocals on this song. Especially Sungjins and Young Ks :)

After this song it was game and Q&A time! I cant remember if the preference game or Q&A was first so Im just going to talk about the preference game first.

Firstly though, all the members introduced themselves. They all looked so happy that it made me even happier LOL. For the preference game, all of the audience had to stand up and participate in a game with day6! It was so fun! First up the audience had to guess which one Jae like more, by either raising their left or right arm: The statue of liberty or Brooklyn bridge. The right answer was Brooklyn bridge and the majority of the audience (including me) had guessed it right! The MyDays who guessed wrong, had to take their seat again. Second was Bob (Sungjin). I guessed his wrong already! >3< The question was if he preferred playing Overwatch or Fifa. The correct answer was Fifa. Sadly, most people had guessed this one wrong. Next was Dowoon. We had to guess if he prefers skirts or jeans on girls LOL. His answer was jeans but it got too loud that I couldnt quite hear his reasoning. Then was Young K. Does he prefer sneakers or high heels? His answer was sneakers, because high heels are very uncomfortable (he said hes even tried them on before what a cutie). Wonpil had the most far fetched question in my opinion it was kinda funny! The audience had to guess if he likes Ariel or Snow White more. His answer was Snow White because he feels more sorry for her. Lastly was a question that would decide the faith of a lot of Jae stans hair LOL. Does he like long hair or short hair better on girls? His answer was short hair, because it makes them seem more confident. After all of those guesses only four lucky MyDays out of about 1500 were left standing! They got invited onto the stage and got a bag full of (signed!) tour merch gifted to them by Day6! It was so sweet and kind that the winners even received such a gift from Day6 themselves!

MOVING ON TO THE Q&A! Before they picked their questions to answer, Sungjin said “This! Is! Paradise!” and Dowoon sang the “Oh you are My Daaay” part of their song MY DAY to the NYC MyDays. Wonpil went first to pick his question. While each member would choose their question, the audience would sing the jeopardy theme song. It was hilarious. He chose the question: “Where did your interest in music come from?” Right when he was about to answer the question someone in the audience screamed “I LOVE YOU YOUNG K” but Young K shut her down so fast saying “Its Wonpil time!” Wonpil was flustered for a sec but then resumed to answer his question and said that he listened to a lot of hip hop when he was young and that got him interested. Next up was Young K! He chose the question: “What was the funniest moment in your life?”. He began to say that since Chuseok hes been eating more. And his most funny moment was before he came onto the stage. Apparently his pants didnt fit him anymore and he had to expand them a bit! The way he told this story was utterly hilarious and cute I can highly recommend finding a fancam of this moment omg. After him was Dowoon. His question was: “If you could have a superpower what would it be?” He said he wishes he could talk to animals. When he was in college he had a pet cat which he neglected and now he feels bad for that. He said if he could only communicate with one kind of animal though it would be bear LOL. Sungjin started imitating a bear after that and it was so hilarious omg he puffed himself up and was clawing at him. Next was Sungjin! He was lowkey dancing along to the jeopardy theme omg. His question was: “What is the hardest thing you have ever done?”. He said working towards Day6s debut was the hardest time in his life ;; He shouted out collapsedone who helped them a lot towards their debut and he was actually at the concert right there ;; Jae was the last one to get a question. He chose: “What inspired you to pursue music?”. He said he was getting into a bunch of Youtube musicians and thought he should try it out too. He met Wong Fu Productions Phil who also further inspired him to pursue music. And so Yellowpostitman was born. That concluded the Q&A! Day6 left the stage for a quick moment while the NYC Vlog-like video they made for the tour started playing. This time it was Wonpils cut! It showed the boys having fun at times square (someone in the audience screamed I SEE MYSELF and everyone laughed it was so funny) and Wonpil loosing his phone while dancing on the street LOL. I really love this vlog concept they had to play during intermission its so sweet of them.

Once the vlog was over they came back on stage and started to perform You Were Beautiful. THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL. Its one of the first songs of theirs I heard that got me into them ;; I was tearing up during this whole performance its such a heartfelt song and you could truly feel the emotions of the song being conveyed in their performance. They all sing it so softly yet powerfully. I really love Young Ks vocal parts in this song and his voice was so stable too (everyones was really) aaa ;;

The next song they performed was their debut song CONGRATULATIONS! Everyone in the audience had received a red sticker to cover their phone flashlight with during this song to create a red ocean. I wasnt in a good seat so see if it was a success or not but the lighting definitely seemed more red :) Everyone was singing along to EVERY BIT of this song it was fantastic. I love this song so much aaa. Young Ks rap makes me feel so many FEELINGS. This song was over way too quick I wish itd last forever.

After Congratulations Jae was saying that the last two songs are coming now and everyone was getting a LIL SAD that the night was coming to an end soon. (Jae didnt count the encore though ;D) Jae also took a moment to tell everyone that they should follow their dreams and not let anyone tell them that they cant make it. Even when it seems impossible to make it to your dreams he believes that we can make the jump and achieve them ;; Hearing those words from him made me a sobbing mess. For a few reasons I think. Even just seeing them perform live was a dream come true. Being in NYC (if even just for two days) was a dream come true. Its a city Id been dreaming of seeing someday since I was a little kid. Probably because music as a career has almost always been my dream. And NYC is one of the worlds music capitals. I used to want to become a concert pianist. Then I wanted to become a music teacher. Right now Im leaning more towards songwriting, production and playing guitar LOL. But as someone whos in the position where I need to decide what I want to do with my future relatively soon, Jaes words helped me so much.

Their next song was LETTING GO! And oh my goodness. I was not prepared for those buttery sweet harmonies in the beginning. I was thinking so much about what Jae had said before during this performance so Im a little blank on what special happened during this performance but I totally remember it being mesmerizing;;

Their last song before encore was I SMILE! The fanchants on this one were so strong! Everyone held their banner up which read “My Day6 which I thought I only met in my dreams is right in front of me”. I could see Young K tear up when he read it. It was so sweet :) I do wish that Wonpils synth had been a tiny bit louder because he has that cool solo part in it, but I could hardly hear it. But the whole performance was so overwhelmingly beautiful that I was crying.

After performing I SMILE they left the stage and everyone started chanting “DAY6! DAY6!” again. Shortly after they came back on stage and THEY PERFORMED DANCE DANCE. This song is so upbeat and happy and makes you forget all the stress so much I love it to bits. I absolutely love Jaes guitar part in this song too so I tried to focus on him until Brians rap distracted me AGAIN (rapper K is my weakness okay). The entire performance was so high energy it was perfect buildup to the next song they performed which was also their last performance for the night. FREE하게! This is my go-to song for escaping from the stress of life and simply basking in how powerful music truly is. So, hearing it live, as the encore really touched me (and I cried more). I felt so many emotions go through me during this performance. It felt like a reminder of why I love music so much, which sometimes is well needed. Its so energetic and uplifting. My highlight of this performance: …Young Ks rap (wow surprise surprise). Also Sungjins high note! And Jae jumping into the crowd and hyping us up even more! (If Jae tells you to jump, you have to jump.) This performance was a perfect end for the concert. I really didnt want it to end though.

After this performance Day6 bowed and thanked the audience. I dont know where to begin describing how I felt after that. I still had the high touch left but the main event was over. I felt (still feel and always will) so extremely blessed to have been able to experience that. Theyre such a wholesome, hardworking and admirable band. I felt such extreme happiness.

The night was nearly over, but the hi-touch was still left for those who had purchased a P2 ticket! Id never done a hi-touch before, so I didnt know what to expect. I only knew itd go by super quick. What I did NOT expect however, is to walk around a corner and BAM there standing is Young K, Mr. Brian Kang, THE KANG YOUNGHYUN, BASSIST RAPPER GODLY VOCALS FULL TIME COLLEGE STUDENT BUT ALSO FULL TIME BANDMEMBER HE WORKS SO HARD OK. It is a lot to take in when you see your ultimate bias being the first in line for the hi-touch. My first thought was how pretty his NOSE is. Like dang, boys got the finest nose Ive ever seen. My second thought was how intimidating he seemed though omg. But as soon as it was my turn for a brief second with him it seemed like he was glowing and flowers were blooming around him? Hes got the sweetest smile and eyes. Instead of high fiving him I held onto his hand for a second and all I could say was “I love you so much” I WAS IN SUCH AWE. He gave my hand a bit of a squeeze and said he loves me back. SUCH A NICE MAN IM CRYING.   Then it was already time to move on though and next was Dowoon! My mind was completely blank from Young K being first (I was hoping hed be last for this reason LOL) I also grabbed onto Dowoons hand for a moment and I mustve not said anything at first, because he was like “Thank you!” first (his Korean accent is adorable) so I said thank you back to him and he then gave a teeny bow like how polite omg. Thats all I had with Dowoon though (Wish I could have said more I wanted to tell him how cool he is!) But next was Jae. First impression: Hes so TALL. Second impression: Hes so NICE. I think Jae made it a thing to keep eye contact with his fans for as much as he could. I told him “Thank you so much Jae” because man especially his speech about following dreams hit me hard as I had mentioned before. Hes honestly the member I was most thankful for that night (Im thankful for them all though please dont misunderstand!) I would have hugged him if I could. His face is so pretty up close too, how can someone manage to look handsome but like a personification of Chicken Little at the same time? Jae can. Next was Wonpil! And I must say I was taken a back a little like “Who is this man?” HE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT IN REAL LIFE. In a good way of course! I held onto his hand for a moment and said “Thanks Wonpil” he nodded and had such a smug look on his face like omg. SUNGJIN WAS NEXT AND BOY THIS WAS MY FAVORITE ENCOUNTER. He was already like pulling his arm back to give a really hard high five so I was BRACING myself, because it looked like it might be painful omg. Hes the only member I actually high fived whoops. BUT his high five was so happy and so energetic! Yet it was aggressively soft? It was definitely a hard high five but it didnt hurt at all LOL. He was like “Ah yeah!” after that and I thanked him for the great show. Then the hi-touch was over for me. Even though I wish I could have had a little more time with them, I was so thankful to have had the experience in the first place.

IN CONCLUSION: This was the best night of my life so far. This definitely is not going to be the last time I see them live. If they come back to NA while Im still here you can count on me doing my best to get that P1 or P2 ticket. They better come to Europe someday too! For their next tour if it works out I might even try to go to more than one of their concerts. I was trying to go to the Toronto concert for this tour too, but my exam schedule wouldnt allow that. But I am so blessed that NYC happened. I will also definitely plan any trip to Asia around their concert schedule!

Tl;dr: I love day6 so much. See them live someday plz. Tell Brian I love him plz.

[fangirlsdailylife-blog]

#DiamondEdgeinJakarta , Placed Me on the Edge of Joyful Tears

- Saturday, September 23rd 2017 -

That day is definitely going to be one of the most memorable days in 2017. I finally accomplished one of my life goals, to see Seventeen live.

Truth be told, there was a backstory behind this. Flashback to 2016, during their Asia Pacific Fanmeeting Tour. Well, my country was on the list. But the date was just not so compatible with my schedule because during that time I had to undergo a series of freshmen orientation program. August 20th 2016 was the first day of the orientation program so it was a logical reason to not attend their fanmeeting. Disappointed? Yes. Mad? Most definitely. But I made a promise to myself.

‘If the next year they will hold a world tour, I’m definitely going.’

I could say that I am pretty determined, and lucky, that I could actually prove my words.

And with that, here is the story of my amazing Saturday Night with the boys, and my family, the Rose Quartz and Serenity.

It’s happening! It’s finally happening! My long wait has come to an end. The crowd cheers as the opening VCR is played on the screen. The VCR is so bright and colorful it satisfies my eyes. Shortly after VCR ended...

‘JAKARTA! MAKE SOME NOISE!’

I know that voice. I know it too well. It was no other than Seventeen’s very own Happy Virus, Dokyeom. As he said so, the members are starting to appear one by one. I was in the edge of crying because THEY.ARE.SO.HANDSOME.IN.REAL.LIFE. For real!

And with that, the concert is opened with one of their hit songs... Pretty U.

Pretty U is one of my favorite songs. It’s just so sweet and light. Along with the cute and romantic meaning of the song, that’s my type of bubbly music. Not forgetting about the boys as well. They look so cute in those colorful suits. Cuteness just went up to a whole new level.

Once the first song was finished, Beautiful is up next.

Okay. Let me be honest. This is even bubblier(?) than Pretty U. And I swear, I saw Dino and The8 doing the backpack dance when Dokyeom was singing his first line. Everyone was just so sweet. Throwing hearts here and there. Waving to us with a smile painted on their faces. It’s so refreshing to see them do their thing like that. There’s also a snippet of JeongHao moment during the performance. Basically, this performance is fluffy explosion everywhere.

Once Beautiful is over, they move on to the last song of the session, Adore U

Adore U was a good ol’ classic. It just brings out their natural stage appeal. Along with the fun bickers by the members during the performance, it’s another type of stage that lifts up the audience’s mood. The highlight part is definitely Dokyeom’s ‘Baby you are my angel~’. For a moment, the whole audience and Seventeen became one when that line was sung. Overall, the opening sequence is amazing! What a way to start a day, or a concert in this case.

Next...  They introduced themselves in Bahasa Indonesia. Indonesia 101, in terms of K-Pop Concerts, the most common way to greet the audience is by saying ‘Apa kabar? Nama saya ...’ which translates as ‘How are you? My name is ...’ . Seventeen did a really good job at that. I would like to point out that Jeonghan, has the cutest voice when he was greeting the audiences in Bahas Indonesia.

Again, Dokyeom is the one with the most energy in here. Oh, scratch that. Hoshi is probably the one with the most energy during their introduction. Hoshi used his iconic 10:10 introduction. In which the the audience replied as expected! The rest? As an Indonesia, I’m pretty impressed with their introductions. Pronunciation wise, they are pretty good for beginners. If they ever planned for another concert here, I hope they could improve their skill more.

Introduction took quite some time, perhaps 10 minutes or so. Once they finished, the stage continues with ‘Still Lonely’ and Performance Team’s ‘Swimming Fool’. Again, the last song to close the second song session is the hit song, ‘Very Nice’. With that, the first part of the concert was over.

Second part starts with the screen displaying a few photos of Seventeen during their childhood. I gotta say, Joshua, Jun, Vernon, and Mingyu has the best childhood photos. Jeonghan looks really plain back then. Well, now, he’s slaying, at the very least. So I guess that’s quite an upgrade for him. After the VCR ended, we were greeted with Seventeen in uniforms of black and white. Probably a High School Uniform and they are performing Mansae.

I would like to state that I love how they wrote ‘Jakarta Mansae’ on the blackboard. And Jeonghan sounded so clear when they were performing this song.

Mansae ends. Boom Boom starts.

You may notice by now that my fancams usually starts with Jeonghan singing. It’s just because I love him so much. :3 Also, Hoshi in sleeveless tops are the death of me.

After Boom Boom ended, the members returned to their respective places to prepare for the next stage. Well, everyone but two, S.Coups and Wonwoo.

They are holding the ‘Going Seventeen’ camera and doing little talk sessions with us. S.Coups is quite known with his sweet talks. Basically S.Coups is just babying us Carats to the point where Wonwoo said ‘If you guys could scream loudly, S.Coups hyung will do aegyo’. Oh yeah we screamed alright. Who doesn’t want to see the leader’s aegyo anyways. Once they finished their talk, it marks as the end for the first quarter as well.

After the talks, S.Coups and Wonwoo introduced the next stage. I was expecting a unit performance. And guess what? Yep. We’re going to watch the units in action. First up for the session, Vocal Team.

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They performed two songs. We Gonna Make It Shine, the new version, and Don’t Listen Secretly.

I have a question. Do Vocal Team sound like angels or angels sounded like Vocal Team? That’s a conspiracy circle that I will always wonder at.

No, for real. They sounded so clear and so good! I took special attention to my biases since I know that they didn’t have much lines compared to the other three. When I was listening... Wow, my ears has never been this blessed. You know the difference in quality between a live broadcast on a music show and actually hearing them live. Like they’re singing in front of you. Their voices are crystal clear. Dokyeom, this guy, never fails to amaze me with his vocals. Seungkwan, can’t say any other thing about his vocal range as well. Woozi, his sweet soft voice is enough for me to squeal on him. Jeonghan, his part snatched my life. Literally. IT WAS THAT GOOD AND IT SUITED HIS VOICE WELL. Joshua, his voice is soft, but not the Woozi kind of soft. It’s soothing enough to sing you a lullaby. I swear I could got diabetes from watching this unit just because how sweet and tender their voices are.

I would like to talk about their performance of Don’t Listen Secretly. It was the second song, right after We Gonna Make It Shine. The stage went dark for a few moments and then when it lights up again, there’s a small setting in the lower back stage that sort of resembles an old Victorian-styled office room. Dokyeom, Joshua, and Seungkwan were sitting in an old-fashioned chair while the remaining two stayed standing. And when the music plays, it got me off guard. The song was remixed in some sort of angsty horror manner and it clicked me. They were doing the Don’t Listen Secretly stage with a vampire concept. These lonely vampires just want some love. XDD

Vocal Team brought the crowd into one with their vocals. Now it’s time for the next unit to lift up the mood again. The visual, I mean, Hip-Hop Team is up next!

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They performed two songs. 언행일치 and Check In. To be honest, I haven’t laid my ear on the first song. So I got a little confused with the it. I was expecting for either 기대 or Fronting. But oh well, I enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed the other songs. The once mellow atmosphere that the Vocal Team set was turned into something hot like Show Me The Money.

What can I say about them? They’re called visuals for a reason. Wonwoo, Jeon Wonwoo, especially him. To me, he was the member that looks BEST when I see the live. Like, he has this stage presence that could captivate the whole audience hearts. He’s what I call, the bias wrecker.

Second song, Check In. See, I was actually glad that this song was performed. Because of that one line, that one specific line, that goes ‘Yeah I check in Jakarta City~’. And yes, that part was the most lit one in my case, or rather, in the audiences case. Because they’re singing that line in the very same place. The crowd goes wild when they got to that part. It was lit. I could feel the tension and the burning atmosphere. Feels like I’m watching Unpretty Rap Star or something.

Last unit is up! And the air just got even hotter.

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Performance Team, the multi-talented unit. Rap? Check. Vocals? Check. Dance? They are called for that. They got on stage in full whites and started performing their signature song, OMG, as their first song. What’s interesting is this performance of OMG had a mix of rock music in it. Who knew that EDM would sound so majestic when you add a pinch of Rock into it? Now I’m wishing I had the clean version of this remix...

Following the next song, which is by far my favorite song from the unit, Highlight.

GODDAMN WHY ARE THEY SO HOT? They were literally covered with burning aura, no kidding. Like, Even when I’m not that close to the stage, and their aura just spreads everywhere like wildfire. It was hot in the concert hall thanks to this unit. And boy, they even added a dance break to this performance. The whole hall just felt like an oven. Hip-Hop Team was lit, but Performance Team is on fire at this rate.

Second quarter of the concert passed. Time for the real deal. Because everything hyped always happens at the third quarter. (Wth, this ain’t basketball)

The atmosphere was still hot as ever. Perhaps Performance Team set the temperature a bit too high. Hall was dark, until I saw the screen turning all red and displaying a visualization of flames. Wow shit, it’s gonna get ugly, in a good way. Click Here And as I expected, it’s gonna be lit for the rest of the quarter. The first song is ‘Crazy in Love’, my favorite song from the latest album. With all the red themed visualizations, and Seventeen wearing red, I’m practically a boiling water at this rate. Also, during Mingyu’s ‘Can’t stop it, neukkim, woo!’, I had the urge to dab. Just because I saw Wonwoo doing so during their dance practice. And yea, I dabbed. Click Here Click Here As if the torture wasn’t enough, they continued with another series of unit performances. This time it goes by the order : Vocal, Performance, and Hip-Hop Team. THEY ARE ALL FLAWLESS! And I figured, this quarter is the time where the fully perform their songs from their latest album. Minus Swimming Fool. Performance Team sent Jun and The8 to perform their duet song.  Boy, there’s a bit of hot moment during their performance that made the crowd go crazy. (I don’t have the footage of Jun and The8′s performance. Sorry.) Finished with the unit performances. It’s Talk Time again! They did a lot of commentaries about the stage they just did, Indonesian Carats, and they did a little bit of dance battle! Click Here Joshua is just the cutest fluffball. And the leaders tho. Not forgetting to mention the amazing Diva Boo. His dances is literally the most lit one in my opinion. And last but not least, Wonwoo demonstrated Hip-Hop Team’s dance for their ‘If I’ stage. The moment he did that, I saw heaven. :’)) Click Here After they finished the dance battle, the performance continues to again, my personal favorites. Rock and Chuck. Now that the concert has finally come to an end, well, you know what I mean. They expressed their gratitude and the last song soon follows. The song we’ve been waiting for.

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I would like to point out a few stuffs that I didn’t get to record. Before the actual song was starting, there was a dance part performed by Dokyeom, and maybe, Jeonghan? I couldn’t see clearly because he was facing the opposite side. BUT HEY. THAT WAS THE MOST MAJESTIC THING I’VE EVER WITNESS. Jeonghan is a blessing. ;’))

The song finished. The screen went black. And the crowd?

‘ENCORE! ENCORE! ENCORE!’

Before the encore stage played, there was a VCR showing each of Seventeen’s members thoughts about Carats. To them, Carats are their energy, friend, air, something they could never live without. To sum up, Carats are their everything. What a sweet bunch of boys.

And the VCR ends... When another voice continues.

‘Slip into the Diamond Life...’

WOW. Just wow. Everyone showed up with their Diamond Edge tee. You know, the pink and blue one. Basically everything is so hyped and there was a lot of fanservice going on.

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That was so lit! It really brings back a lot of memories to me knowing that I’ve liked Seventeen back when they were still on Seventeen TV. I kinda teared up a bit despite the song being an upbeat one. Memories will be forever...

And the next song, the very last song, really makes the crowd heals. Yep, it’s Healing. :)

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There was a fan project going on. And everything went really smoothly. I hope we got the be in the next episode of Going Seventeen. Teehee~

As the song ends, it is finally the time to say goodbye. They bid their messages to us. And I’m surprised that they actually brought up a lot of memories during their tour last year. Mingyu, Jeonghan, Seungkwan, S.Coups, Hoshi, Dokyeom, and Vernon talked about their first ever visit to Indonesia last year. I’m ... Impressed actually. I assume that maybe, Indonesia left a good impression to them.  So they were actually pretty glad to visit here again. And I’m glad that they are glad to feel that way.

It’s finally the time to say goodbye. For real. But I clearly remembered Mingyu’s words.

‘If you live your life happily while you’re waiting for us, I’m sure that the next time we meet will come faster.’

I’m taking that as a promise that one day, they will return. And the day of their return, I’ll be there to watch them again.

Looking back to that moment, I’ve never been so blessed in my entire life that I could finally meet them in such a close distance.

As I reflect on Mingyu’s words, I made a new promise to myself...

I will meet them again one day, in a closer distance. Where I can fully immerse myself in their stage presence.

And that closes the story of my amazing night with my boys, Seventeen. And my family, the Rose Quartz and Serenity.

[ganbaramen]

Aqours 2nd Live at Nagoya! Photo Dump and Song Comments

I’m back from attending both days of Aqours’ 2nd Live concerts at Nagoya! (I’m also tired and probably should be asleep right now.) Here are some thoughts and some pictures. (No pictures from inside the concert area, since no photography or filming was allowed.) Long post ahead.

Pre-Live Adventure

I got to Nagoya the night before the first day of the live! Nagoya station is big and it can be pretty confusing, so it took me a while (with my slow wifi) to figure out how to get to my Airbnb.

On the first day, I got onto the first train to the venue to line up for merchandise sales, or 物販 (buppan). People often take the first train to start queuing so that whatever they want doesn’t sell out by the time they get out of the queue for buying goods. Aqours’ 2nd Live also has exclusive IC card stickers for the first people to buy goods, so that’s another incentive for me to have gotten up early.

A decent picture of the venue, Nippon Gaishi Hall. The station closest to (and connected to) the hall is pretty small and trains aren’t necessarily that frequent, so the queue to even get onto a train after the first day’s concert was fairly long.

After getting my goods, I went over to Tokyu Hands Nagoya, which had a section for Love Live! Sunshine!! merchandise, including early release of some cute HAPPY PARTY TRAIN charms and clear files. Perhaps RIko is best girl for someone working here…

Furirin mentioned that she likes uirou in her 2nd Live Q&A, so I decided to try some before the concert. (Ruby too!) They’re a little thick for my taste, but not bad at all.

Heading back to the venue, the convenience shop in the station was selling noppo pan (which Hanamaru is fond of) and Aqours-branded water. Out of the noppo pan flavors I’ve tried (caramel, cream, peach), cream has been my favorite!

Before and during the queuing to get into the venue.

The last of the photos in this post: a few of the flower stands for the seiyuu and characters! They’re really cute, and you can tell that they’re made with a lot of love.

The Live

Onto the actual concerts. You can find the set lists from Love Live! Wikia tweets: Day 1 and Day 2. As expected, they did great, they’re amazing, I love them, please take my money, etc. Songs I have particular comments on (though I was happy with all of them!):

Shoujo Ijou no Koi ga Shitai: This song isn’t one of my top tunes, but the dance was really cute. Sora mo Kokoro mo Hareru Kara: This was so pretty. The second years’ outfits were simple but effective, and the screen + visual effects reflected the tone of the song well. Waku-Waku Week: MY FIRST YEAR KIDDOS THIS WAS SO HYPE AT LEAST FOR ME HADKLAJDKLHA:DWAHULI. I’m a bit disappointed that the crowd didn’t do the giran/giran/zura/maru/pigi/pigya calls at the last chorus, but I’ll always do them anyway! G Senjou no Cinderella: The third years were gorgeous in their dresses… everyone else looked good too, but they were in simpler black dresses. This song is a lot of fun. Daydream Warrior: Yoshiko colors all around for this. The bass was really loud, so it was hard to hear the singing sometimes. Lighting and visual effects helped make for some cool choreo. Thrilling One Way: IHAUDGKDAJHBAK EVERYONE WENT HARD ON THIS SONG AND FOR GOOD REASON 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Kaigandoori de Matteru yo: This is my favorite of the most recent CYaRon! songs, so I’m glad it got performed both days. The hand motions during the chorus (which they taught us) are fun, and I was very happy to hear Furirin’s “zutto matteru” in person. I LOVE CYARON! Guilty Eyes Fever: PEOPLE (INCLUDING YOURS TRULY) WENT NUTS FOR THIS OMG THEY WERE SO GOOD AAAAAAAAAAAA SHUTDOWN SHUTDOWN GUILTY FEVER

Most of the songs hadn’t been performed live before, so the night was full of surprises. I enjoyed the experience immensely (and I better have, since it was expensive to get these tickets…): not only getting to see them sing and dance (already awesome), but also being the atmosphere of being in a stadium and cheering along with 10k other people who love Aqours as well.

In terms of actually viewing the performance, it was hard to see if you were in the back portion of the arena (especially if you’re not that tall), so while I was in the arena area my first day, I mostly had to stick to watching the screens instead of the seiyuu. Live Viewings are actually pretty good alternatives if you want to get a good view.  (…I wish it were easier for foreigners to get tickets to these things too.)

Now I’m really tired, after putting in so much energy into these concerts, so it’s time to check out for the night, but hopefully this is enough!