#THANKYOU AGAIN ANON I SUPPORT YOU

[pixiesfz]

I was the anon that requested the Charli fic I loved it would love a Katrina gorry fic also if you write for her

Ask and you shall receive (I’m not kidding guys when you send a request I will most likely do it, I only won’t if I don’t physically find them attractive or don’t know the player well enough to write it fluidly)

okay but here is my beautiful mini.

plot: y/n had only joined the Matilda’s about a year before mini left to have her baby and she was her biggest supporter through it all, well until you get transferred to Chelsea

warnings: pregnancy, idiots, and I’m not sure what else, timeline doesn’t add up but deal with it

“Thankyou Tong for this opportunity I won’t let you or the team down I promise” you smiled into the face time which Tony nodded at “Well you’ve been an important necessity for this team for a couple of years now so I don’t imagine you wouldn’t” he laughed and you joined him.

“I’ll let you get to it now, I have some many more calls to make” he said as you nodded, thinking to the younger players in the team “I’ll let you get to it” you smiled and ended the face time.

“Was that Tony?” Katrina asked from behind you and you nodded “wants me to play for the next camp, which you in a few months time should be able to play” you cheered as she held her very pregnant stomach.

“It would have been another year if I didn’t have you” she smiled and you playfully rolled your eyes “please I just say here and looked pretty most of the time”.

“Yeah you did” she confirmed and you blushed, you weren’t sure when you started to have feelings for the midfielder, you were actually quite scared of her when you had your first call up for the Matilda’s and then she left to have Harper and you put your hand out to help, you loved the closest after all.

“I do have a question for you actually” Katrina said as she sat next to you on the couch “shoot” you smiled “how come it took you so long to join the Matilda’s, I know for a fact you have been called up many times before you finally joined”

You shrugged your shoulders “I had terrible anxiety in my early 20’s” you admitted “as you know my family weren’t the best at encouraging me after I came out” you said and Katrina nodded.

She knew about your family problems after a night where you maybe had a few too many at your stay at home New Year’s Eve.

“So I never thought I could do our country well enough” you said and Katrina moved her hands from her bump and onto your hands “You were and still are now, Jesus do you remember how the media blew up after your debut” she asked and you shook your head with a smile

“It was a bit funny” you shrunk your fingers “A hatric against Canada” Katrina almost yelled as she squeezed your hands.

“Yeah which you assisted two out of the three times” you said “I know I am pretty good” she said with a smirk and you rolled your eyes “okay now” you laughed and tried to walk away but Katrina pulled you back down again.

You looked down at her with a smile and she was looking up at you with eyes you’ve never seen before “you are amazing y/n” she said and her eyes darted down to your lips as you did to hers.

You couldn’t control yourself, not when she looked so beautiful.

You leaned in slowly before Katrina took the initiative and put her lips on yours.

It wasn’t rushed and it wasn’t crazy, it was nice and lustful but then you remembered and pulled away.

“What?” Katrina asked softly and you dropped your head “I haven’t been honest to you, I was planning to tell you soon but I just haven’t had the chance and-“

“Y/n what is it?” Katrina asked again as she lifted your head up with her fingers “Chelsea has offered me a spot on their team” you admitted and Katrina nodded her head “then take it” she said

“What?” You asked “Chelsea is amazing” Katrina said as she got up “But Chelsea is in London, you’re here”

Katrina looked away “but it’s better for you, I’ll have Harper with me, I’ll be fine” she said as she tried to hide the tears welling up in her eyes, you didn’t hide them well as they started to roll down your cheeks slowly.

“You- you want me to leave?” You asked

“I want you to do what is best for your career and chelsea is that, Melbourne city isn’t doing anything for you, Chelsea will make you a known name, just like Sam” she said and you rolled your eyes “what if I don’t want to go”

Katrina scoffed “then your stupid”

“Am I stupid for wanting to stay here and look after you and Harper?” You asked bitterly “yes” Katrina said, still refusing to look at you “Harper is mine” she stated “always has been you were just near and you decided to help me”

“Okay” you said as you stood up “I’ll go tell Emma” your croak in your voice evident to Katrina that you had been crying “you do that” she said as she wiped her eyes, you stayed still for a moment hoping that Katrina would ask you to stay but she didn’t, she stood still.

“Fine” you whispered before going to your ‘guest room’ that you actually hadn’t slept in for weeks as you slept in Katrina’s bed.

When you left Katrina finally turned around, tears running down her eyes as she kept her hands on her bump.

You packed as Katrina turned on the TV, watching a show that she didn’t care about, she just wanted to look like she wasn’t affected by you leaving.

When you finished, you went into the room “I’m leaving” you stated and she kept her eyes on the TV, scoffing you grabbed the remote and turned it off.

“I was watching that” Katrina complained “I’m staying with my parents, then I’m getting on a plane to London, I’ll stay with Sam and then I’ll get my own place I- I” you stopped “I don’t know why you’re so okay with this!” You yelled “because I care about you!” Katrina shot back

You sniffed as she rose “I care about you and that’s why you need to leave, go to Chelsea become a world known name, you can’t stay here and look after a child, it’s too much of a distraction”

“That is not your decision to make for me” you told her and she stepped forward “trust me y/n, you don’t want this”

Your eyes were watering again “just” you started “just let me kiss you one last time” you whispered and Katrina finally let her tears fall on her face as she stepped closer to you until her faces were inches apart.

She nodded before you grabbed the sides of her face and pushed her towards you, your lips melted together as you both tasted the salt from each others tears

“I love you” you admitted as you left your forehead on hers “you have to go” she said back and you sobbed and nodded “okay”.

When you once met again, it was about a year later against your national game against New Zealand, you were trying out your New players on the pitch and you still couldn’t believe that she had come back to play.

The first thing you noticed when she walked in was the young toddler that she held in her arms, “Harper” you breathed out as the little girl looked at you and pointed.

“Sorry” Katrina laughed before looking at you again “She’s seen some pictures of you before and now she’s finally seeing you in real life”

You had no reaction to the words as you stated at Harper “hey Harps” you smiled and walked closer to her “Katrina watched carefully as she took your emotions in, she saw your eyes and how they started to gloss over.

She was partially to blame of course, she practically kicked you out after you had helped her for 8 out of 9 months of her pregnancy.

“Do you want to hold her?” Katrina softly asked and you nodded “yes please” you said and Katrina smiled sadly “here” she passed her over and you held her perfectly.

Katrina had to stop her eyes from watering as you remembered the ways to hold a child as she remembered you searching it up when she was still pregnant.

Harper seemed to have clung on to you immediately before her snores filled the room.

“She’s gorgeous” you told her “just like her mumma” you smiled and Katrina blushed.

“It was silent again before she spoke up “I’m getting transferred” she piped up “that’s amazing” you smiled and she nodded “where?” You asked “west ham” she said and you tried to hide your happiness at her answer.

“So I’ll finally see you at the wsl” you smirked proudly “yeah I’m excited” she said and you merely nodded.

“I’m excited too”

[auraworkshop]

MY STORY OF SUCCESSFULY CONQUERING THE VOID STATE

Trigger warning: Sexual abuse, trauma etc.

I was raised in a loving and nurturing household. My childhood was hunky-dory and I remember myself as a bright and happy child, frolicking around in a carefree environment. I was pampered by a set of very loving and supportive parents. Alas, my protected bubble shattered, when at the age of 11, I went through sexual abuse and my life changed. The incident led to repressed anxiety, depression, and lingering PTSD for almost a decade.

I was sexually abused at the age of 11

Considering I was just 11-years-old when the heinous incident took place, I was too young to register the gravity or impact of such a crime. Revisiting the incident is still very painful. It happened about nine years ago, at an outstation wedding. I was sleeping alone in a hotel room, when the abuser entered my room and forced himself upon me. I remember distinctly how dark the room was. I was in a deep slumber and didn't realize that someone other than me was in the room as well. I wasn't able to respond or react, as I couldn't escape or stop the person. I was left in pain.

While I did inform my parents immediately, for some reason, the abuse and its record got shushed. My parents didn't want it to be made public or for it to harm my image in the society. Their response towards my trauma festered as a scar in the coming years.Living with depression, anxiety and PTSD As much as I tried to move on from that horrendous night, it kept coming back to me.

Unfortunately, I was too young to repair the damage. I began to feel lethargic and fatigued all the time. Something as small as brushing my teeth became a laborious task. I withdrew from merrymaking, public engagements, and activities that I had found joy in earlier. I failed to find any joy in life anymore.

I made many attempts. I think they started as a result of feeling unhappy with myself. All the failed attempts were a call for help and desperation. I felt helpless and alone and I couldn't dare to face the demon. I began to get triggered by even the mere mention of weddings. I think, my parents untimely and apathetic response to my suffering was the nail in the coffin-I lost trust in anybody whom I considered close. The replaying of the incident, over and over again, left my conscious and spirit bruised and broken. I became quiet and reclusive. This was when my life slowly started to change, as I found out about law of assumption and then the void state. After knowing that I can change my life completely through the void I tried every single night till yesterday to enter the void state at any cost. I was so desperate to get in. I slapped myself every night to enter otherwise my life would never change and I'll also be miserable. I did everything that can be done but still I saw no progress. I slowly started to get super jealous of other people's success stories. Everytime I saw a new void success story here on Tumblr, I would cry so hard and isolate myself. Yeah :) I was so Harsh on myself.

But, Then I found out about you and your subliminals and then about your paid custom subliminal and how magically they work, and yeah I was a bit hesitant to pay you for the subliminal as I got scammed by people so many times but all those success people got from using your subliminal boosted my motivation and trust in you! and see, my money was worth it!!

I listened to that sub on loop for 3 hours for 4 days continuously and the night of the 4th day I ended up in the void. It was instant and so effortless, it all happened so effortlessly. I never thought I would enter like this after beating, slapping, and isolating myself to enter.

Thankyou for helping me, thankyou for the hardwork you put in your subliminals, thankyou for your sweet and motivating words ♡

Bye to Tumblr, all my fav bloggers, anons and Aura.

Signing off...

Wow! You did a great job my girl, Your success story is truly a GEM.

Sorry for everything you went through, I LOVE YOU <3

And Thankyou so much for taking your time and writing this beautiful success story to all of us 🤍

[bedoballoons]

💕~Welcome~💕

~Things about me:

💕 I have autism!

💕 I'm trans! Pronouns: He/him

💕 I mostly write headcanons because full fanfics are difficult for me to concentrate on!

💕 I actually started writing because of someone really important to me. Thank you to you when you see this ♡

💕 My anons are awesome and I love them!! Thank you guys for being my friends and my inspiration to never stop writing! @aventurinio @ceneid @gracigalaxi @el1iee3 @lisya840 @princessshu @imperial-004

REQUESTS CLOSED!! I will write anything but:

❤️ Pedophilia

❤️ Proships

❤️ Incest

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✩Masterlist✩

✩Masterlist part 2✩

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(Current # of requests pending: 30)

Requests in order of oldest to newest:

✩~ Albedo X Reader: They have a child and work to much (Angst)

✩~ Multi starrail characters X Reader: Reader asks the characters to wear a maid outfit all day (Crack)

✩~ Anemo boys X Reader: Taking care of the character when they are sick (fluff)

✩~ Multi character X Reader: Reader climaxes really hard and gets shy about it (NSFW)

✩~ Multi character X Reader: Accidental face sitting (NSFW)

✩~ Multi character X M! Reader: Reader can feel the emotions in the cooking (fluff)

✩~ Wriothesley X Reader: Readers a dancer (fluff)

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[ma3mae]

Hi, can I request? I'm actually doing an exam and yeah it almost finished but I didn't finished 100%. Can you do a scenario where the reader is overthinking about the exam that she submitted. When I didn't finished I was like overthinking that I'm useless, failed, worthless, etc. ( i did that because I thought I can upgrade this semester but turns out I'm failed.) Thankyou so much of you can write this thing for me! (Also can I get a cuddle from Chuuya 🥺🥺🥺)

"Exams are a hassle"

Summary: Exams have been stressing you out for weeks now so how does your boyfriend comfort you? (Chuuya x Reader)

Genre: plenty of fluff but also a bit depressing ^ anon request tells u why

Warnings: a bit of self loathing and sleep deprivation bc exams are the best booster for self confidence I FEEL U ANON

A/N: thank you for your request!! I hope this will somehow be able to lift you up 😩✋ you can do it, anon!! Soon you'll be done and then u can relax and enter bsd brainrot again. Also didnt proofread this bc im writing this in a car so the nausea is lowkey kicking in 😩😩 hope this doesnt seem rushed omggg

Part 2 : In sickness and health

Nakahara Chuuya

our cheeto boy finally coming home after a normal day work

Like comepletely annihilating a mini terrorist organisation LMAO 🤡

he comes home to find yourself on the same spot and legit same position on the couch he has last seen you like FKING 12 HOURS AGO???

is instantly baffled and worried because??

"Are you seriously STILL preparing for your exam?? Don't you need a break??"

he immediately shuts himself up tho as he just sees the dark bags under your eyes and the red eyes and oh no :((

a sniffle follows as you bury ur face into your hands and this BOY IS JUMPING across the room to get to you

Jk but hes instantly by your side and cradling you in his arms

h-his light? the love of his life??? HATING HERSELF???? BC OF AN EXAM?????

u know what that means 🚓🚓🚓🚓🚓🚓

Jk no jail

Hes gonna come at you WITH FACTS THO 😤✋

********

Exhaustion was weighting onto you like nothing else. Your eyes were hurting at this point from having to look at the same screen for weeks now, only taking breaks to go to the toilet or either drown yourself in energy drink or coffee.

Your boyfriend would often be absent because of his work and he'd support you as always. You saw the worry in his eyes and he would ask if you'd like his help or if there's anything he could do for you.

But you kept refusing him since he had already enough on his shoulders in your eyes. He was probably even more tired than you yet still managed to shine so brightly whenever he'd look at you with so much adoration in his eyes for you, no matter how horrible his day went.

Slowly but surely felt something bubbling up inside you.

"No... I can't deal with this right now." you tried to convince yourself as you swallowed the lump inside your throat.

You looked at the time on the screen of your PC, trying to see through the blur infront of your eyes.

3:47am

Fuck, you were tired. You just wanted to quit everything, cry yourself to sleep and finally be at peace but no. This shitty exam just had to be one of the most important events in your life and you really couldn't fuck this one up.

As you buried your face in your hands, you could faintly hear keys rustling outside the door.

No! I can't let him see me like this!

Yet your tears just wouldn't stop and soon enough you heard him enter.

"Hey, doll. What the hell, you're still awake? I told you to just go to sl-!"

You didn't want to answer him. No, you simply couldn't even if you wanted to.

Only mere seconds passed before you felt gloved hands grasp both of your hands.

"Sweetheart... Listen to me."

You merely shook your head as he watched your shoulders tremble.

Clicking his tounge, he lifted you up with ease, pulling a sudden yelp out of you.

"No, Chuuya. Please put me back, I have to g-"

"Y/N, just listen to me for one damn time."

How could you refuse him? When you could feel his warmth so close to you.

Yet your guilt was frankly consuming your whole being. You could hear it in his voice.

Was he angry? Annoyed?

Because of you?

You just wanted to get through this exam by yourself. How could you burden him when he had already enough on his own plate. He didn't need someome like you just adding more onto it.

"I'm sorry, Chuu..."

You felt him sit down onto the couch, the soft light of the screen illuminating the space.

"For what?" He whispered to you as he began to rub circles onto your back.

"It's just..."

A sigh escaped as you felt his hands grasp yours, finally letting him see you fully for the first time and yet the sight made your heart clench.

"No, none of that shit anymore, alright? If you want to rant about it then rant. If you want to cry about it then cry. But no way in hell can you expect me to sit back any longer. It already went on for long enough these past few weeks. You need a break, Y/N. "

There he was.

The love of your life, wearing his heart on his sleeve for you as he poured it out.

Always being honest with you and laying himself bare.

Its what made you fall in love with him but you couldn't deny that you envied that part of him too.

Yet he always managed to make it a part of you too with words alone.

"But I can't. I'm afraid, Chuuya. Afraid that I'll fail this. Because then what? I don't know what I'm supposed to do if the worst would happen. I just-!"

You couldn't see anything anymore. Eyes so blurry as you tried your best to look at him.

And he still managed to leave you breathless as he wiped your tears away, feeling as if you'd be looking at the sunrise itself.

Always giving the energy to let you see the next day.

"I just don't want to burden you. Anyone. Even myself. But what am I supposed to do? I feel so useless everytime I memorize something and I just keep forgetting it because I just don't want to fail. What should I just d-"

Soft lips met yours, a slight tinge of the cherry chapstick you had gifted him on your taste buds.

"You are not a burden, Y/N. Not to anyone, you or even me. I meant if for every time when I asked if I could help. Yet you would always tell me you'd want to do this yourself and if my girlfriend wants to do that then why shouldn't I let her? But everyone has their limit and you need to understand that. I know you've been crying yourself to sleep these past few weeks and I hated myself for letting something like this happen. "

He let his lips linger on your right cheek.

"It's okay to be afraid."

Linger on your left.

"It's okay to cry.

Linger on your forehead.

"But the last thing I'd let you do..."

And lastly return back to your lips.

"Is you feeling like a burden. Feeling useless and everything that comes with it because you are none of that."

You gently took his face into your hands, letting your shaken eyes gaze into his firm ones.

"But what if I fail?"

"You won't. I know you can do it. I've seen how you are, Y/N. Hell you're one of the strongest people I know. You'll stand up for what's right. Every time I come battered, bruised and everything else, you'd always be there to comfort me, tend to my wounds, even feed me when you have to. Your presence alone would make the weight vanish on my shoulders, yet you always carry it without any complaints. So let me do the same to you and help you. "

You tightly wrapped your arms around him, burying your face into his shoulder.

"But it's just an ex-"

"You better not fucking tell me that its JUST an exam. I'm not listening to any of that for tonight."

You felt his lips stretch into a smile as he buried his face into the crook of neck.

"Let's just go to bed and I'll help you rehearse everything, okay?"

"Are you sure about that? Is your patience gonna hold out long enough?"

You let out an "acK!" as he suddenly tightened his arms around you.

"Don't underestimate me, doll. You've seen what I can do so rehearsing for a puny exam won't be a challenge at all. So let's-!"

He lifted the both of you up with his ability, floating towards your bedroom.

"-just sleep already because we both deserve it after tonight, alright?"

You couldn't help but chuckle at his sudden silliness.

"Oi, what are you laughing at"

"No, nothing. Just appreciating my boyfriend, his handy power and the love he'd always give me."

"D-Don't be so sappy. Rest and save that energy for tomorrow."

"Hmm, oh well. But I still wanna say that I love you though."

"Out of nowhere... but I love you too. Always will."

*****

Anyway yall rehearse that shit together and ur boy being the one to take breaks bc bro wtf have u been learning???? This some science level shit?? But he gives u snacks, cuddles, support and everything you need

bro's gonna pamper you as soon as you finally had ur exam and you gotta restrain him from showering you with gifts bc of how happy he is

HIS future wife deserves the best after all 😤😤😤✋✋✋✋

if u tell him that he doesnt need to buy you so much and that you'd be happy with him just being there then oh...

dont expect him to hold back after being so cute 🤡 especially after yall havent done anything for weeks probably so time to catch up 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

[strawberrymochin]

Hi! I think the “get help” anon is always the same person who harassed other authors who write specifically aged up JJK characters and spamming their inbox when these demands aren’t met, sometimes with multiple personal attacks. Keep on writing and don’t get discouraged, personally I love your style and ideas — both for aged up characters and already mature ones 💗 have a lovely day!

Aww thankyou for your support and kind words. It really uplifted my mood. And about that thingy.... don't worry. Empty words can't stop me from doing what makes me happy. I'm glad I'm able to write and connect with all of you. Thanks again for being there. Lots and lots of love.

[eggtartz]

Hello! I hope you're okay! Can I request Mikey, Draken, Chifuyu, Haitani brothers and Hanma to s/o doing belly dance? like, s/o never told them out of shyness but one day they see s/o dancing? (with the proper clothes and everything). Thank you and please stay hydrated (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

a/n : im doing well anon i hope you're doing good too! thankyou for requesting this and enjoy 🫶🏻

masterlist

: i added a video for preference just in case 👍🏻

mikey

- mikey always caught you dancing, you being flustered by it but never he thought he'll found you one day in your room doing a tiktok dance especially a belly dance

- you were wearing an accessory around your hips, the accessory jiggling as you moved your hips to the music from your ohone

- you were wearing a crop top that showed a part of your tummy and he saw through the door how your tummy did swirls that he was left amazed

- he didn't barged in though, just simply took a video. he'll show it to you later.

draken

- nah you're so shy with him you always wore long sleeves, long pants around him

- it wasn't because you're insecure, it's just you're extremely shy with draken despite being in the relationship for almost a year now

- you two finally had the money to moved in together and that's where your shyness started to fade away

- it started with you wearing short sleeves around him, then short pants

- draken didn't minded anything that you wear, as long as you're comfortable with it

- one day when he got home, he heard faint music coming from your room as well as sounds of coins so he went into your room to discover you were doing a belly dance while wearing a coin belt

- you stopped your dance when you saw draken, extremely embarrassed and covered your body with a comforter

- "what's wrong honey? i love how your hips do that, can you do that again?"

chifuyu

- your shyness + chifuyu's shyness = extremely high shyness

- yeah when chifuyu found you rolling your hips and belly in sync with the music from your phone, he was red as hell

- "oh, oh! y/n im so sorry! i- uh i can come back"

- sure the state you're in especially how you rolled your hips made him a flustered mess, he kept giving his cheeks small slaps for thinking.. too much..

- meanwhile you were frozen in state and slowly removed the belt from you hip to face your awkward boyfriend

ran

- first of all there's no such thing as being shy with ran, he wore boxers when you were still a week dating with him for god sake

- so you have prone to be a bit confident so you said you'll do a belly dance to ran

- mf was excited to see it

- when you wore the belt around your hips, ran was sitting in a chair next to your phone and when you rolled your hips to the beat he couldn't stop smiling at how gorgeous you were

- and how sexy you were

- maybe some spicy time because ran doesn't know how to keep his hands to himself so advices? don't do a belly dance in front of the man if you don't accept any action after ghat

rindou

- another flustered mess

- but his fluster isn't too bad, almost subtle if you didn't saw how the tip of his ears were burning red

- "y-yeah. i think you move really g-good. keep up y/n!"

- he awkwardly leaves the room, hitting himself for not supporting you enough but he couldn't be in the same room as you

- not when you're only in your bra and those belt around your hips

hanma

- another one who doesn't know shame

- literally comes from behind you to sway your hips along with his, the belly dance becoming intense when he caressed your belly poach

- he hums in your ears making you forget momentarily about the recording that you were doing

- yep, spicy time is happening and there's nothing you could do to avoid it

- not when it was you who wanted it at the first place 🤷

[hlficlibrary]

umm hello, i need your help... i havent read a fanfic in a few months and it's starting to feel weird coz i'm literally always reading but now whenever i open a new fanfic i end up skim-reading it and it feels like a dishonest thing to do

so could you please recommend me some angsty fanfic under 20k which are very gripping....

THANKYOU

Hello, anon! You're very welcome! This was an interesting challenge because I wanted to get you closer to 20k than super short ones. And for some reason the angsty ones I could think of are either short or over 20k. That being said, I knew I'd be able to find you some. (ALSO, I promise you that just skim-reading something is a perfectly fine thing to do and there's nothing dishonest or bad about it. Sometimes, we just find ourselves in a place where it's harder than other times to get into a story. That's no one's fault! I do understand the feeling of wanting to really get into a story though, so I hope these fics will do that for you!) I'll put the word count with these so you know how long these are and also I fudged the first one because I think it's JUST what you're looking for and it's just a little over 20k.

what's left of my halo's black by LiveLaughLoveLarry / @loveislarryislove (E, 22k)

As Harry sucks lovebites into Louis’ neck, Louis hopes that one day those marks will cover the way he can still feel Alex’s handprints burned into his flesh.

As Harry’s nails drag scratches along Louis’ back, Louis hopes that one day the scabs on his heart will heal and drop away just like the scabs on his skin.

As Harry fucks him down into the mattress, the bed shaking with every thrust, Louis hopes that one day his mouth will forget the shape of Alex’s name, won’t trace it over and over as the heat builds inside him, won’t want to scream it when he comes. Maybe one day he’ll open his eyes, as he slowly floats down from his post-orgasm haze, and won’t expect to see Alex’s face smiling back at him.

But today is not that day.

A year after a devastating breakup, Louis is still trying to put himself back together - but getting over a breakup is hard when you work as a wedding planner. Thankfully, his coworker Harry is the most supportive friend Louis could ask for. But Harry has some secrets of his own, and they send Louis' world spinning off its axis all over again.

bonded by @juliusschmidt (M, 20k)

Louis cannot remember his life before Harry. He had one- Harry is, after all, two years younger than he is- but he cannot pull up even one memory that is not somehow intertwined with Harry.

the one where they are bonded, but it's not like that and they have to pretend like it is

No Easy Love (Could Make Me Feel This Way) by @allwaswell16 (E, 17k)

There’s never been anyone for Harry but Louis. He had always thought their love would last forever, despite society’s pressures on an alpha/alpha relationship. When Louis breaks up with him and moves to Chicago, he’s suddenly left behind to pick up the pieces of the life they once shared. Instead of moving on, he finds reasons to keep Louis in his life and in the process begins to piece together what went wrong.

Or an Alpha Louis/Alpha Harry au where they get a second chance to make things right with the love of their life.

You're A Universe by Jiksa / @jiksax (E, 15k)

Harry doesn’t ever mean to hurt him; Louis doesn’t know how to tell him that it’s the only thing he ever does anymore.

Or, Louis’s a stay-at-home dad in London and Harry’s a business expat in Qatar. Louis doesn’t know how much longer their marriage can survive the distance.

give me things to stay awake by embodied (E, 10k)

It’s shitty and it’s counterproductive and it’s self-indulgent, but he lets it become a thing. On Saturday nights Harry goes out and gets so pissed he can’t stand, and when the bartender cuts him off he rings Louis and is in his car within an hour. It’s not a cycle he’s proud of, but it’s also something he can’t resist, and he keeps doing it as long as Louis keeps showing up.   AU. It's been a year since Louis broke up with Harry.

[rereisstuff]

hi could i get idol!reader x idol!kun where the reader is younger and kun have always been taking care of reader, but then when kun hurt his ankle like now it's the reader turn to take care of him. thankyou! i love your writing so much it's rather hard to find idol au <3

CAUSE IT’S YOU !

summary: stop whinnying you damn baby

pairing: idol!reader x idol!kun

warning?: OH GOD MY FIRST REQUEST I HOPE YOU LIKE IT ANON🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 thank YOU for reading🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

you smiled as you saw Kun approaching with a tea in his hands.

“to my baby” he smiled and kissed your forehead as you took the tea in your hands and then he placed himself besides you.

you’ve been a little sick, you had flu but Kun insisted for you to come over.

it’s the first time in weeks you’ve seen him, the phantom comeback was near and even tho they had plenty of time to do a relay, as soon as Ten came back he had them training day and night.

talking about Ten…he arrived along with Yangyang and Hendery, three of them waving a friendly hello.

“how’s you ankle old man?” Yangyang teased Kun as you raised an eyebrow in his direction, Hendery laughed remembering the fall of their leader.

“you had to be there, the ankle was to the other side where it should be and then he literally kissed the floor” Ten said with a smile as he walked to the kitchen with the other two.

“so…an almost broken ankle?” you inquired as you let the tea aside and quickly took his leg to place it in your’s.

you revealed his ankle, it had a supportive band, the one you took of quickly hearing him sigh.

“it’s not that serious…”

the ankle was swollen and a part of it was changing color to purple as it was untreated.

“how you can say it’s not that serious babe, it’s purple!” you attempted to touch it but Kun hissed in pain.

“it’s going to heal soon, i can’t just leave everything behind: the comeback, the members, you” Kun started to put the bandage back.

“you carried me from the door and then brought me a tea with that happening in your ankle?!” you pointed in disbelief at Kun’s feet while he smiled softly while he caressed your hair.

when you arrived you body was aching for the flu, so you asked Kun if he could carry you inside so he did.

“anything for my baby” he winked but you placed his feet in the couch in order to get up “where are you going?”

“i’m bringing you an ice pack and then i’m calling a doctor”

“but you’re sick love” he held your arm to prevent you leaving, almost standing again so you pushed him back.

“not worse than you, stay there and be babied for today” you pecked his lips, both of you smiling after the quick kiss “see you in a bit bro”.

“don’t forget i’m older than you, respect me!”

you laughed in the kitchen.

“we don’t forget you’re old!” Yangyang got into the talk from his room.

“yes we don’t forget that!”

“we’re the same age Ten!”

[my-castles-crumbling]

incredible anon here!

firstly nope we have no accomodations in the school for one, and most important my end or year exams are Cambridge ones so im not sure if they give a shit or not.

im 16 btw. (my mother refuses to give me the doctors number) and for the first time i was diagnosed my dad was present, at the time it was very tame like my feet would swell up if walked for too long etc etc.

but then it started to get too much so on the nezt my mother was there. the doctor said that the only way to combat the diseases is thry medicine but he says im too young for that rn cz the medicines also contain vitamins and if i start them now, my body will stop making those vitamins.

hes told me to stop doing strenuous activities and put a hit or cold pack on them.

my mother belittles me everytime i go to get one so ive just decided to not🚹

BUTTTT i do plan on talking to them over summer break and if they dont agree ill just pay my friends cousin to make me the rings and wear them (i wear alot of rings so its not really gonna be suspicious)

THANKYOU THO!!

also this has made me realise just how unsupported of people with physical ailments my country is. like i had a knee surgery two years ago (wild ik) and that was eye opening genuinely. now i can walk-ish but everytime my joints ache i think of people for whom it's worse and they literally have no accomodations in my country.

it makes me sad :(

-incredible anon

(they/them)

Hi again!

I'm genuinely so sad to hear that there's such little support for you right now. I hope you know that you deserve better and I'm here for you <3 If you ever need to just vent, let me know!

[lajikookbolala]

I hate to say it but I feel a lot of disappointment with Jk, so much so that I’ve mentally checked out of his release and want to hear nothing of it anymore. It’s just disappointing to see him sellout like this, his interviews aren’t making things better bc how can he say he just wants to be more famous/be a giant pop star, what happened to just loving to make music ? Feel like idek know him like I thought I do. I’m also stuck between if I should be mad at him or not bc at some level he did know this was going to happen, knew they were going to push him more than the other members(we literally see him planning to be big in suwitcha ep).

He seems so arrogant and full of himself nowadays. Not an ounce of gratitude??? No thankyou, nothing. Straight up asking for more, as he knows scooter is preparing him an English album. Don't know how long he's gonna go well with this bitchy attitude. Idk how he can change like this or maybe the older humble JK was all a facade. Didn't he also said that ? Anyway, it's just a matter of time till Jimin gets done with his bs and drops him. Idk how long Jimin can pretend to be happy and supportive of him even while being arrogant af.

Hi Anon, I'm sorry you feel that way. I honestly haven't been keeping up with these promotions, but I haven't seen anything about him being arrogant or bitchy?

Actually, I suggest you watch the Seven recording film that just came out. Here it is: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3BvykUDOS4

Long story short, the producers said he was very open-minded and humble about the whole thing, and that over all he was just great to work with. He also actually seemed very nervous the entire time he was recording, and not arrogant at all.

Secondly, who are we to judge him if he wants to be a famous pop star? That's so many people's dreams. In fact, that's probably one of the reasons he joined BTS in the first place. Now he's just doing it individually.

As for you feeling like his love of music is fading, I actually don't think that's true at all. He actually loves modern American pop music, as he's talked about many times, and as you can see from his spotify playlist. Most of all, I think he's just trying to make himself stand out as his own person and not just another member of BTS. And as long as he's not hurting anyone or being forced to make music he doesn't want to, it's really not our place to judge.

And finally, I really don't think this is going to cause any long-term problems, if any, with Jikook's relationship. We know Jimin has forgiven JK for much more. Take the rainy day incident, for example. And yes, I know Jungkook was young then, but I think we all know that he's grown a lot, and so has Jimin. Their relationship is strong enough to outlast a few months or so of Jungkook acting this way, which, again, I don't think he is.

Listen, Anon, if you don't want to support Jungkook as a solo artist, fine. You do you. Just do us all a favor and stop infiltrating spaces where people are actually trying to love and support him.

Have a good day.

[marshmallowprotection]

I hope this doesn't come across as rude, offensive or upsetting since I saw a lot of people coming to your askbox. People need to know that Cheritz can't cater to all their needs and wants. I've seen too many people demanding, complaining and just... being ungrateful in general? And here I am feeling relieved that they still want to release these CGs despite no new in-game content since 2020. Even the comment about MC's body is quite upsetting if I'm being honest. I get why people would feel insecure over it but if they're being careless with their words, it could be potentially harmful for people with that type of body and going through a difficult time. We don't know what people are going through and struggles come with all body sizes and types. I don't even look like MC and it doesn't stop me from enjoying the new art in general. Maybe if people really want an art that's catered to their specific looks, they could consider commissioning someone or draw it themselves. I know plenty of artists that would be honored to do their requests. Ballet shoes come in one same design and it's really up to the dancers on how they want to mold, adjust and change their shoes according to their comfort and priorities! Cheritz just give us the material and it's up to us on what to do with it. It just rub me the wrong way on how people react so strongly and quick to complain when there's plenty of solutions right in front of us. Thankyou for reading this far Kait and I hope you have a nice weekend ahead 🩷

I don't think that Anon intended for their message to come across as harmful. It can be difficult to have no representation of yourself in the media. I just wanted to point out that it's important to be mindful of our words sometimes, especially when we're expressing our personal hurt we've experienced, because sometimes our words can hurt the people around us even if we don't intend them to. It's important to be thoughtful!

Because, hey, I am upset that there's not a lot of representation for plus size characters, too. It's gotten a little better recently compared to what it was like when I was a kid, but we've still got a long way to go to make a change so little kids don't learn to hate their bodies like many people already have. It takes forever to unlearn that kind of self hatred, and even longer to learn how to love yourself again.

I just wanted to point out to the anon that we should be mindful of how we express our distress at fatphobia by not tearing other people down in the process, either knowingly or unknowingly. Because, at the end of the day, fatphobia is rooted in racism and a bunch of total bullshit that hurts everyone.

I do support commissioning artists, though. If you want to see art of yourself or your character that fulfills the idea you have, support your favorite artist to get it! I do that all the time and it fills me with joy to see art that fits my niche if I couldn't draw it myself.

[kitttenteeth]

I know what you mean having a lot of animals and them being a big responsibility. The animals I grew up with, my mother just happen to take in because they were strays and she’s always had a soft spot for animals but having had so many for years I think she realizes how expensive they can be and they quite literally keep you poor with all the vet bills and food costs and forget it when they get attacked by other animals it’s devastating financially and emotionally. You have such a good kind heart to put up with that all and I bet you don’t even mind because you love your animals so much. I know you also cannot just part with them either because that is also very difficult. I wish you a lot of luck! The best thing you can do for your babies is hustle hard at a job and get that bread to support them! Truly wish you the best kitty! 🐈‍⬛ I hope the beautiful spark I see within you shines bright again as well…

i cried just a liiitle bit Gah. thankyou so much anon t-t My boyfriend is rly the only person who reassures me that the things i do for the animals r special / important and that everything I do to get them 2 a quality of life they deserve isn’t dramatic so . it is just rly nice to hear words like that Thank u.. and my dad is much the same. I know he rly adores animals but has always just done what i feel is the barest minimum &if u can’t keep them happy + healthy + well - fed Then idk.don’t fuckin buy any more animals ! my mom also loves animals but I would describe her as sort of prissy Doesn’t wna get her hands dirty with things like that (except for any feline She would shower jn blood 4 them) and she sees me as a drama queen . Anyways When it gets hard It rly srsly does leave u devastated & helpless and . so much money LOL I am rly fortunate i’ve been able to afford what I can so far , idk if ppl generally understand how expensive just the food alone is for certain animals? Especially PEACOCKS n DUCKS ;-; god lol. i rlyly wish it didn’t have to come down 2 money . Thank U truly so much for ur words & the good luck i feel like i rly need it Lol. *sadSad meow* I will work hard! my dream Is still most def becoming a tattoo artist & owning my own shop But thru all of this i realized taking care of animals rly has always been the one only thing that makes me most fulfilled , i would rly love2 work towards a future where I can do more things like that. But money lol So we will see. nyways Thank u thank you 🐾 ! 🐈‍⬛

[lady-phasma]

Wow thankyou so much much for replying back and for also for @gemini-mamaadding their opinion. It meant a lot to me. And also I don’t feel alone as I haven’t been able to talk to anyone else about this. 💕💕It has really helped me a lot and I did have a cry over it. It’s been really hard this week as for some reason. I have realised I’m more invested in a character/actor and their life than my own life. And so scared to be vulnerable to date etc. Your advice was so kind and compassionate. I am also going to read the article you linked me to too.

I’ve also thought a lot about my life and I’m determined to get back out there. These connections can be lovely (in your head) but they are stifling because that person is doing things in their lives and it looks so damn amazing and I’m in the office having to tick off tasks for the day! I have a brilliant trip aboard scheduled for the summer and have been working out etc but today I did have a McDonald’s because I felt so low. 

I’m re- reading your advice and will be taking it onboard.

I think I also need to take a step back from fandom for the next couple of weeks because I see things that I don’t really like but people on tumblr go crazy for. And I feel bad for having opinions that are not positive or supportive. An example would be EM at the last comic con event where he was pushing his chest out to show off his mesh top. I thought that was very Liam Gallagher and Oasis of him and slightly arrogant, whereas Steve T seemed so refined, gentlemanly and was taking it all in his stride. Maybe as an older actor he didn’t feel the need to peacock? I am also older than EM (never fancied anyone younger in my life! 🫣🫣) and have liked Matt Smiths energy more than EM’s recently. But even with that there has to be a line drawn. I do not know MS at all and have no connection with him!

I think I am alittle scared of dating and putting myself out there but I have also been confused about the type of person I would like to be with. This experience has taught I wouldn’t want to be with anyone younger than me because it just feels like the reality would be very different to the fantasy.  I don’t want any regrets and I really can’t allow this to get in my way.

I think I’m also envious alittle of the confidence that EM has. Or is perceived to have. I know he has probably worked really hard but it does all seem to happening so young for him and the other younger cast mates. I had an ugly duckling complex when I was younger and even though people say I’m good looking I have an insecurity especially about my nose so I found it fascinating when EM came out with a prominent chin. I love his chin and it fits his face but I’m envious of his confidence and the fact he hasn’t let it get in the way. Sorry for saying that but that is how I feel - please be kind to me. I wiuld love to hear your views. 💕💕

thank you again for being kind to me. 🥰🥰

Hi anon! I'm sorry I couldn't get back to this right away. My job got really stressful this week and then more HotD press and chaos.

I am so glad that you saw @gemini-mama's reblog! It was a lovely addition. 💕

I will always be kind to you nonnie! I just wish I could respond to every point you made. Please don't ever let that stop you from coming to my inbox though.

A few thoughts after the cut.

Dating is difficult for nearly everyone. For plenty of people "age is just a number" and they go by personality. I find that difficult irl (with intimate relationships). There are so many factors that I'm not going to go into, but I'm flexible. I can't say "I won't ever" because I might meet someone five years younger or 10 years older than myself and be smitten!

Switching to appearances, I love love love Ewan's jaw. Just like I love Matt's chin and ears and lack of eyebrows. What makes us unique, makes us beautiful! I'm self-conscious about some of my physical features but the insecurities started to go away in my 30s. Do I still think my lips are too thin? Yup, do I care any more? Nope. They've been the same for 41 years, they aren't getting any bigger!

There's nothing anyone can ever say to us to change how we think about our appearance. Maybe your envy of Ewan isn't a bad thing, maybe it can help you see that other people can inhabit their body without openly conveying how they feel about it. I hope he loves how he looks, but most humans don't.

I hope your break is good for you and that you come back refreshed. I would love to hear what you have to say about episode one after it airs (all the episodes if you want to stop by and chat about them)!

One last thing, Ewan's style: I have the unpopular opinion that he and Matt need to fire their stylists and borrow Olivia's. But I don't think Ewan was pushing his chest out to show off. My take (and I made a few slow motion gifs of that outfit) is that he was probably in his head, trying to get past nerves, and not fuck up and spoil anything. Like I said in my other ask, he's young, he's figuring it out.

Again, sorry for the delay. I'm always here if you need me, even if it takes me a moment to answer. 💜

[januaryembrs]

Hello hun, hope you’re well ,

So listen, I am the anon that had posted before about how your writing is something else. I haven’t been here in a while but among other things, you kinda resurrected my Reblog and Fic phase lol. I have so many things to say and it felt dishonest to do so anonymously. You have a knack man. You write like you were born with a pen in between your fingers.

You know, Jane Austen had a knack for romance. She wrote it like no one else ever has. She wrote with words that would suck you in and brand your heart with a hot iron. Made sure no one who read any of her books would ever forget her. Shirley Jackson was almost unparalleled when writing mystery and horror. So many of her stories, no matter how many times I’ve read them or reread them, still get my skin to crawl and the hairs at the back of my neck to rise. And I could go on and on about so many other authors but I really just want to talk about you.

Usually, I come to fanfiction for sweet romance. Unattainable love to satiate a yearning. Blah blah I love love lol. But I found you. Gosh, Em. (I’m assuming I can call you that, it’s the only name I saw, Sorry) Angst is such a hard thing to write. And a lot of people disagree because everyone has felt pain so everyone can describe it. But you don’t just write angst, no. You rip my heart out from my chest and make me watch as you fiddle with each of my nerves. You don’t just write angst, you feel it with words. You somehow are able to hook with each sentence and make me feel your words. It’s almost like a sirens song. You lure me in with promise of a story and leave me bruised and battered. But content.

I really wish my words convey what I’m trying to say. Honey, people fuck up angst so easily. Sometimes they make it too rushed or too harsh, too unbelievable or too exaggerated. But you? You write it like the heavens themselves created suffering after your work. And some people might think that it’s just another fanfic, but gods no. This is something else entirely. I hope you take this as the birth of your own genre, because you’re unique. Millions of books by millions of authors that will write sweet suffering yet none of them reach the soles of the ginormous boots you have on.

And don’t get me started on your imagery. On your descriptors. On your tone, your pace, your everything. I could talk about you and your work, (and already have) for literal days. You are something else hun.

Now, confidently with my name attached lol, I do want to know whenever you post your book. Whether a short story or a multi book that rivals game of thrones lol. I will pay an unimaginable amount of money for that. That being said, I’m exited for the next chapter to drop later today!!!! I’m preparing by shamelessly re-reading the story yet again. Also I apologize for the long note, I could not stop my ramble.

Hun please take care of yourself, much love!!

Hey pookie!! First of all this read like POETRY I hope you take interest in writing yourself because you write so beautifully in my inbox and make my face blush every damn time. Thankyou so much for your constant love and support, you make me feel like I really have a shot in the dark when it comes to publishing a book of my own (and yes it’s going to be a dark fantasy trilogy!) which is something I have genuinely always thought was far too big a reach for a dumb little english girl like me. You are far too sweet than I deserve in my opinion however it is so nice to log on and see these messages because it makes all the hours worth it 💗💗💗 thankyou so so so much for being so kind you don’t know how much it means considering they’re just words on a screen, I CHERISH every one of them 💗💗

(Also yes!! You can call me Em or Pookie or literally whatever you like 💗)

[sqtorux]

Hello! I’m the anon who requested the cousin allegations :))! Thank you for making it! As always, it’s good and had me laughing my ass off 💗💗😭

I love the Yuta convo! It’s actually similar to what my boyfriend said after I told him about the girl. He suggested I post a pic of us kissing in my story. And I did exactly that!! :p I matched it with a caption “not cousins.”

So, it turns out that girl actually goes to the same university as my boyfriend. He also mentioned that she’s known for making up stories to support her delusional narratives 💀💀

That’s why I didn’t reply to her DM, I left her on delivered lol. I didn’t want my boyfriend to be involved in unnecessary drama. Even though my fingers were itching to go off on her…(I’m petty like that) Nothing happened after that. She saw my story and I’m sure she got the message well<3

Anyway, thank you again for making it! I love it, it’s really funny! I hope you have a good day! 💗

omg hiiii im so glad you liked it heheeheh 💕

pls the "no cousin" caption is everything you and your boyfriend are everything im rooting for you both this is so precious im literally squealing !!!!!!! the amount of patience you have too ugh. as for the girl, i truly hope she finds a way to stop being the concerning type of delusional bc man ... :/

thankyou for the update! i love living through other people's experiences ahah i hope you have the bestest day ever <33

[elysianightsss]

Hey squish I'm glad to see you in good health, I've missed you and your updates I hope you can understand this appreciation from your reader, I was worried when you had stopped uploading and very glad to see you are doing well -anon

Hi my lovely, Thankyou very much. I’ve missed being back here. Oh no don’t be worried! I’m okay just dealing with life like I’m sure everyone else is. But I’m ready to start writing again, just looking for inspiration. Thankyou so much for your support! Hope you’re doing well too💜