#THANK YOU SO MUCH ILY I LVOE THIS

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soft launch updated nd the chapter is lychee soju which is a sign bc you;kkk never guess what i'm drinking rn

u am so excited to read this newest chapter!!!i am drinking rn so i am soooo sorry if this is slooppy or unreadable byt i love your writing. it fills me with joy every time i see you have updated and i think your little stories have opene up a new part of my heart where they will sit. forever. so joyful and such a fond memory that i hope i never forget your nameee

oml soryr that mught be parasocial of me? i drank a little too much a little too fast and i swear i;kk drink water after this haha but wow. i love soft launch i love the reader i love miya osamu and i love the readers relationship with her roommates whos names i can spell right now. i love your writing and their relationships and the little notes between them all and how reader and osamus relaitonship is developing. iw ish them love and joy and i wish you lvoe and joy and thank you for creating it and putting this out into the world for me to read and love and enjoy and feel excitement over every update. you are ag ift on this earth for the pure fortune of me finiding your tmblr and having the ability to read this work

im so sos sorry if youre not chill with drunk pl in your inbox HAHA. wshing you the best and thank you so mucch for creating something that brings me this miuch joy

"so joyful and such a fond memory that i hope i never forget your name" anon what if i CRY

i can't tell you how happy it makes me to know that someone else is out there who loves Soft Launch as much as i do! thank you so much for telling me, really, i don't take this for granted. i took a screenshot of your message just so i can reread it over and over again whenever i need a little pick-me-up

and certainly i do not mind drunk messages bc this one was very sweet and honest! it felt like a drunk text from an old friend if anything haha. hope you got some water after this and won't wake up with a headache tomorrow anon!! wishing you just as much joy and love. thank you again for telling me all of this, you really made my whole week ily <33

[nosolaceofastraightanswer]

THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY MASS REWATCH EXTRAVAGANZA S3E10 ALGAMATION POST

the final one!!!! ogufhhghrgfhfhfhf. let’s get to it besties i have to write some psychology paragraphs after this still and let me tell you the night is not young 🤠

im totally gonna have an emotional note at the end omg i can’t believe it’s overrerrrr 🥺

i think overall there were so many good character interaction scenes and i wish that the development from those happened ages ago. the characters felt very cartoony and stagnant for a while tbh.

this episode did however remind me of how much i love viktor + allison’s relationship istg they need interaction s4 plssss they’re so fucked up but they lvoe each other so much bro

my wishlist for s4 only grows 😔

glad they brought back five Being Insane this ep. i feel like he didn’t bring this manic energy to the rest of the season but now that it’s here i’m just like yes get it king 👑

i have individual posts to make but i’ll say it here anyway: MURDER HOTEL IS SO FUCJING COOL!!!!

that yellow light was so creepy but OML the bugs?!!??!!?!?!?!? agahhgkgkgkgkgkg it gave me the heebies AND the jeebies.

sloane also deserves to go feral but like. srsly wish she was more developed. when i tell you villain arc sloane is in my heart okay.

dielila enjoyers stay winning ig???? im sorry they’re adorable.

miss stabnley tho :(((( baby

that sigil stuff was cool!!! wish we got more worldbuilding OUHGGHH

in all caps is my literal reaction when allison goes into her apartment (ft return of The Notes bc im just quirky like that)

AAAAAAA okay so analysis and individual posts r done

tysm to anyone who interacted this wild ride!!!! it’s been amazing and i lvoe you guys sm. im so glad the fandom community can come together to appreciate this thing we all lvoe like????? 🥺🥺 i gotta make a psot @ing my fave tuamre posters!!! <3333

to anyone who is an algamation post enjoyer: ily 💪💪 we stay winning

ALSO for the future now that the rewatch is over, i will be staying active in the tua fandom and posting still!! i have some art i made recently and MANY brain animatics that i hope will one day make it to paper/flipaclip. i’ve also got some analysis i’ve been holding off on cus it would be a LARGE undertaking, and i’ve been thinking of writing fanfic on my ao3 sometime!!! i love the tua fandom and i’m having a blast. ^_^

we can only pray for the s4 outcome whenever tf that’s coming out.

i have had so much fun reading everyone’s posts and hanging out. i met so many people through this as well!!!! hiiiiiiii

OUGUGHHFHFGHG u guys r the best :D

also thanks a million years forever to the bug enjoyers HERES THE GUY

look at him Wiggle. anyways have a good night everyone! i have to Go Do Work now. love u guys <33333

[moonchildstyles]

everyone stop what ur doing!!!! it's tell lindsee how wonderful she is o'clock!!!!!!!! ur literally my favorite author on here and ur stories bring me so much comfort :( tonight, I'm going to reread athens and prosecco as a treat to myself ily my little chickadee!!!!! i hope u always feel so loved and appreciated!!!! 🥰🩷

STOP IT I LVOE YOU SO MUCH STIDHFOSHFSOUFHSUOH this is s sweet YOU are so sweet like it always makes me so happy to see your messages in my inbox and I know its going to make me so :)))) whenever I read what youve said:(((( like I just :( thank you so much idek what else to say just thank you thank you thank you and ilysm:((((((((((

[thisdogpaystaxes]

i have terrible insecurities around my baking and my acts of service to where i want recognition and appraisal (crob not you ily perfect bestie girl im just self actualizing lately) because otherwise i feel humiliated and weird and unknown. specifically baking is special to me, it's such a happy hobby of mine and iv loved it since i was a kid i remember my uptick of lvoe for it in 4th grade, alongside club penguin so u know it's real as fuck, but i've always been weird about it and since then acts of service have always felt like shavings of my time and energy when they're not (especially as my arthritis worsens, i truly have had to decide to try to choose the kind of mindfulness where i use other realities to ignore my physical pain so i can can't inconvenience bc it's easiest for everyone and i cannot be burdenous) but they're special and tender. i don't bake if it's not with intent and love and that's just how it is. anyways, big breath brain!!!, yeah like i just feel like im not enough always constantly it's continuously on my mind and im good enough in some circumstances, like w courtney or my beloved new close friend (if u see this, yes it's you, ur not my coworker or boss tho ill obey u at work bc i respect u but u literally are top 5 funniest friends) and guys im a bit intoxicated and stressed! but don't use that to downplay my feelings!

! so i need to vent but im just kind of realizing that like that a lot of the ways i give love feel like acts of service because it takes so much time and effort and energy from me and i feel every single day, no exaggeration, that im one minute closer to a wheelchair.

life is hard and a lot and baking is a love language and i wish i was thanked more but i think i could be at apoitn wher i need to stop searching for thanks because it's not why i do things, i want to make the people i love happy and feel purposeful and loved, i just want the same for myself and its through explicit, expressed gratitude!!

boooom just self therapized

[brooksdavis]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST LOLO!!!!!!!! 🥳🎂🎉 I HOPE YOU HAVE THE MOST AMAZING BEAUTIFUL DAY EVER BECAUSE YOU DESERVE IT SO MUCH!! I'M THANKFUL AND ETERNALLY GRATEFUL EVERYDAY I MET YOU IN HERE AND WE BECAME MUTUALS BECAUSE YOU'RE WITHOUT A DOUBT ONE OF MY FAVORITE PEOPLE EVER IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!!! YOUR GIFSETS ARE ALWAYS GORGEOUS AND YOUR TALENT CONSTANTLY AMAZES ME!! YOU HAVE INCREDIBLE TASTE IN SHOWS AND SHIPS AND CHARACTERS AND YOU LIGHT UP MY DASH AND MY LIFE EVERYDAY!!! PLEASE DON'T EVER CHANGE BECAUSE YOUR INCREDIBLE AND I'M SO LUCKY AND HONORED TO KNOW YOU AND TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BB, I HOPE YOU GET EVERYTHING YOU WANT IN LIFE, ILY ILY ILYYYYY!!!!! 💞💗💕💖🥰💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘🎉🎂🥳

THANK YOU SO MUCH SARAH I LVOE THIS MESSAGE AND BEING YOUR MUTUAL IS AN HONORRR! ILY!

[smashstiel]

HIII HELLO . its going to be long btw because you wanted everything ksjsd. okay. no but i literally opened notes app so i can write my thoughts there sjf

and the endd!!!!! I LVOE THIS PLAYLIST. SOO SOO MUCH. YOU ARE SOOOO CORRECT WITH EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!. i hate janto so much <3 sooooo much <333 anyway. i will listen to destiel one tomorrow cause im tooo tired rn. ily

first its so funny but i actually have pętla on my destiel playlist. IDKKK THEY ARE SO DESTIEL CODED TO MEEE. i wtedy powiem ci jak bardzo cie chcę….. i love happysad so muuuch. also i see your vision with the city thinggg. ukradli mi plecak - WOAH actually wchodzi. i need to know your opinions on the 456 situation btw. the world has its shine. omgg. i gave up hope but you came along…. no but its LITERALLY them. i can never turn my back on you - jack not believing that ianto could kill that person in adam. tonight you are mine. i like this songg!!!!!!!!! i have NO IDEA if there is a scene like that but. there should be. <333 ruby dress skinny dog. NOO I DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT WAS DAWID PODSIADLO??? its so cool. jack hashtag sad KAHAHA. yeah i see it. starman david bowie <333333 noo but I GET U THO. with the edit thing. theres so many songs i cant listen in the normal way because of edits. take it out on me. YASSSS ITS A BANGER WOAH. very wchodzable. idk kinda jack to ianto after the lisa situation.  down when im not. i lvoe ittt (destiel…)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the last of the real ones. super banger i lvo eit.  ITS THEM. just tell me im the only one even if its not true :(((( nooooo because . ughghghg. lady of sorrows. mcr!!!!!! and DAMN banger of a song btw. also top 10 jack harkness lyrics….

emptiness is a closet full of your old cclothes. i lovee this songggggggg its so goooddd!!!!! glad u had it in those times<33 and yesss. the coat scene!!!!!! its insaneeeee. (again. super destiel. i love my coatguys. jackcas hits different…). blow my brains outt!!!!! jack/john hart……. yeahh. kiss me you animal. horny songss<3333 and. dying on your lips is how i wanna go. and ianto kinda did- nanoże. nigdy nie myślałem że z miłości się wykrwawię…… give me love. HI THE USED HIII. i love the used!!!!!!!!!!! now im looking in the mirror i see this monster that is me.. scared as hell. HELP?? NO LYRICS ANYWHERE???? how. its SO GOODODDDD. ill be late for my funeral. listened to ittt on yt!!!! LOVE ITTTT!!!! of all the gin joints in all the world. AAAAA. I LVOE IT. nooo cause youre right. ianto was like 'i love you' and jack. thought. damn he only loves the idea of me. nooo :((

heart heavy!!! i like ittt!!!!!! and yesss thats definitely what happened <33 captain spacey. love ittt. space themed songs <333 and YASSSS JACK ANGST. ANGST IN GENERAL. I LOVE ANGST. never scared!! i love jack erased memories moment. its so him. "are you scared?" "never" - me when i lie. also idk this is so castiel song to me too. cause yknow the whole naomi thing etc. bubblegum bitch edit. OH MYG ODDDDDDDD THIS IS SO GOOD WHAT. I LOVE IT. i lov eyoutube edits/amv. hits differenttt. GETTING OVER YOU THE USED. HELLO THE USED. GODDD ILOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH. no getting over you… jack after iantos death :(((. i caught fire. hii the used again <3 sound effects and overdramatics. never heard any audiodrama unfortunately djsfsjkd but DAMNNN. thank you romanticfistfightzs boyfriend. DAMN. red is the new black. LOVE THIS. dont remember it from the showwwww guess i have to rewatch it finally hihi. miss missing you. i love this songggg. and yes you are so real. pepper tea. PLSSS . pain and suffering scenarios my beloved<3 dont say we're so much better alone. idk kinda jack and doctor moment.

death for my birthday omgggggggg. yessss. i want death for my birthday… wszystko jedno. I LOVE WSZYSTKO JEDNO SO MUCH. yass its so janto. also endversedestiel.…. surrender the used. HELLO THE USED <333 broken you found me. sdfnaskdjfnlsakfnskdf. yeah. yeah. (my angel… my shoulder… damn..) heven iowa. no no i gettt it. great song btww!! next one - i just do. GODDD. YOULL GO TO BED AT 23, AND WAKE UP 65. TIME GOES SO FASTTT IF YOURE IMMORTAL.. UGHH. the saddest song. AAA ITS SO GREAT I LOVE IT. wchodzi w uj. jdfnskjdf. its not a fasion statement its a deathwiths. MCRR!!!!! just know that i will remember u AAA. 4/16. NOOO AND IANTO DIDNT KNOW WHEN HED COME BACCCKKK. death ii. NOOOO. OUCH. i love angst. but. sdbfjsdbfajsf. i really meant to tell youuuu :(((

my janto playlist + song explanations because im normal . i feel like a lot of the songs are for my headcanons abt them but whatever

pętla - happysad

well its here it started the whole thing because i was obsessed with happysad at that point and most of these songs are gonna be bc of one lyric or sth i feel like but. the idea . im stoned so a lot of rambling sorry the idea abt hating the city was in my brain like jack bc i feel like at one point while waiting there for the doctor he started hating being there. dont ask me why

2. ukradli mi plecak - yann

generally because of these lyrics Especially the "bo mi ukradli wspomnienia" bc of his memories taken by the time agency and then like. bc hes done a lot and also about the kids he gave to the 456 (which i have opinions abt but whatever) and ianto would worry or something i dont know man

3. the world has its shine (but i would drop in on a dime) - cobra starship

might be just me but. deadline audiostory "ive never been much of a talker" ianto 🤝 this connect in my brain

uh. ianto getting a job at torchwood. :)

just think it fits. so

4. tonight you are mine - the technicolors

idk if it really happened or did i think about it so much in my brain its real but wasnt there a moment where ianto asks jack like. why would you choose earth or do you miss your time or sth like that and i feel like thats a thing he could also ask there. :) and i like the song

5. ruby dress skinny dog - curly heads

honestly this is the only lyrics here because i thought of the weevils and i was obsessed with this song i hate you dawid podsiadlo this is the only song of yours i will listen to

also this after iantos death and jack being hashtag sad

6. starman - david bowie

listen i just fucking saw a great 10th doctor/jack edit on tiktok and listened to starman one night and started genuinely crying real tears rolling down my face so its not exactly janto but jack but its still hear because i say so

7. take it out on me - thousand foot krutch

BANGER of a song i love it so much. the thing with this playlist is that i remember finding songs that had lyrics that fit but the whole thing was to make a character playlist i cant listen to without more than like two skips so its all songs i found/still find amazing. anyways i was going somewhere with connecting it to janto but i think it mightve been for my short and quickly killed idea abt them havign a sad argument over Something. its a banger just appreciate it

8. down when im not - greg puciato

the first two are like. cuz ianto was lying abt lisa jack was lying abt the children or like . omitting i guess but im sure they lied to each other at one point and they could stop

9. the last of the real ones - fall out boy

just. fucking. the entire song come on

THESE LAST TWO ESPECIALLY!!!!!!!!! idk i love the idea of ianto having at least one time issue with jack living so much and being like. you wont remember me you mustve had so many people and you never talk abt them etc

10. our lady of sorrows - my chemical romance

one bc i HAD to have mcr song up in this bitch two because come ON one of The mcr lyrics and it fits i had to

11. emptiness is a closet full of your old clothes - wishing

GOD okay the thing here is. if you ask me whats my song like the song thats Mine it would be this one ive been listening to this shit since october 2019 and had it on repeat in my worse time of life ever and according to last fm i listened to it 3963 times. so. anyways its a very important song and it fits because come ON the thing where ianto hugs jacks coat. come on.

12. blow my brains out - jerranis

this one was also put here with a specific scenario i made up and dont remember put mostly becasue this.

but now that i think about it this is 100% a jack/john hart so. sorrey i guess

13. kiss me you animal - burn the ballroom

uhm.

i know its a sex thing in the song i think but it fits so i dont care its generally a horny song

14. nanoże - waluśkraksakryzys

walus i love youuuuu anywayyy mainly this but also

because i really liked the idea of ianto being annoyed at them giving him the coffee boy job at first or sth . there was an idea over there

15. give me love - the used

the used hiiiiii haii the used hiii

jack turning full torchwood mode or something and stuff. generally waving my arms around.

16. scared as all hell - modern day escape

one of THE songs ever to me. apparently no lyrics to this song exist online anywhere??? im the first person to think of adding lyrics????? but yeah i love this song and it fits but i cannot tell you why right now

17. ill be late for my funeral - the requiem (unavailable on spotify)

its on youtube btw if u wanna listen to it but . yeah again jack losing memories

and there was some jack angst here in my brain but i cant remember what exactly. probably jack being depressed about being immortal

18. of all the gin joints in all the world - fall out boy

jack being like that cuz ianto looks up to him but he doesnt know everything about him and thinking how itd be to just be a normal not immortal guy

jack "wasting time" on being alive and aging and normal because i love that for him and then it was about ianto.

19. heart heavy - secondhand sound

ianto after lisa i think would prefer to be left alone and figure it all out and in my perfect made up world this is what itd be like <3

20. captain spacey - sonic sea turtles

genereally the whole song cuz its space themed and stuff but mostly this lyrics because i was crazy about jack feeling like he doesnt belong on earth cuz hes immortal and not like he should be . if that makes sense i love angst my best friend pain and suffering

[jkslug]

Hi so it's been kinda long since last time I left a message like that in your ask box : here's a little delivery for you, I think it's box full of love 💗💙💚❤️💜💗💘💙💕💕💖💕, just sign here plz

i was thinking of taking a picture of my signature to be cute but then i didn’t want any of you little shits copying my masterpiece of swiggle so 🥴

[f1nalboys]

A, C, H, K, M, U for our boy Ian from FD3!!! Missed you so fucking much B, so glad to see you getting back into it! MWAH.

AHHH BEX ILY THANK YOU HEHE im so glad ive been getting back in the mood to write!!!1 and obviously i lvoe talking about ian <3 so thank you for the excuse hehe >:)

nsfw headcanon prompt

A - Alone time (how do they get off when they’re all by themselves? do they watch porn, is it all in their imagination, do they jerk off, do they use toys?) 

ian has twitter porn bookmarked send tweet!!!! he has some favorites that are his go to's and when hes watching them he tends to get off waaaaaay faster than normal. he likes to take his time actually, like at least 30 mins before he cums and thats ignorign the possibility of multiple orgasms!!!! he normally just uses his hand but if he wants to pamper himself he'll use a fleshlight or something hehe (on occassion he's used a vibrator but he cums way too quick for him to do it all the time)

C - Crying (is it a turn on? a turn off? do they cry during sex? have they cried during sex? what was the reason?) 

TURN ON TURN ON TURN ON. ESPECIALLY if you're the one crying!!!!! he's def cried during sex (probably two times) all because of overstimulation hehe. that's his fave thing to have happen to you as well, seeing you sob from overstimulation or pleasure or frustration just >>>>> it gets him fucking GOING. he will consider it a failed sex session if one of you didnt at least tear up lolz

H - Humiliation (does degradation and insults get them hot? do they get off on humiliating someone else? what kind of humiliation is good for them?) 

AWOOGA it sure does!!!! i think ian is more into humiliating than he is being humiliated but this man can take what he dishes u feel me? big fan of making you call yourself humiliating names and stuff during sex and also likes recording you saying them >:) he's into spitting slapping and cumming on your face ALSO he would wear a collar if asked hehe

K - Kissing (what parts of their body do they like having kissed? what parts of their partner do they enjoy kissing? do they like leaving marks / having marks left on them?) 

oh he is such a big kisser it makes me ill!!!!! he likes cheek kisses, its very domestic to him and it always makes him blush hehe. Big fan of shoulder kisses too, especially while hes fucking you <3. he will kiss anywhere he can get his lips too on you tbh but he looooves kissing your neck and inner thighs, the reactions he gets is so fucking hot god (ps if you kiss his collarbone you'll get him to whimper)

M - Masochism (do they like pain? scratching? biting? being bossed around? spoken down to? choked?) 

yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes! YES! ian is a big time masochist and loves being on both the receiving and giving end of that pain. he loves getting choked, spanked, scratched, and bit!!!! like just imagine ian under you, covered in hickies and finger-shaped bruises and bite marks looking completely fucked out but he has the biggest grin on his face,,,,,im okay guys im okay

U - Underwear (what kind of underwear do they put on in the morning, if any at all... do they own any sexy underwear or lingerie?) 

he is for sure a boxer kind of guy but he absolutely would wear some cute panties, lace thongs, some thigh highs. ian wears boxers daily bc theyre comfy and easy to wear but if you expressed an interest in seeing him in a cute little lace lingerie set he'd be sprinting to the mall (oh yeah hes also a fan of u wearing lingerie too)

THIS IS THE SET HE'D WEAR OH IM RIPPING MY HAIR OUT

[caruliaa]

hi babe !! i wanted to give u this 💕💕❤️❤️💕❤️ <<< as some love to carry during your exam!! i know exams can be stressful and stuff so just know im proud of you and love you always!!! im always here for you and i care about you so so much and im so lucky to know you since i know that you also care for me and everything so so very much and im just so graetful!! youre also just an amazing and fun and kind and funny and sweet friend and youre always also just an amazingly good lovely person jules!!! you are so so wonderful and i love you so so muhc and i uhmmm (hugs!!! if thats okay!! hugs you!! m) ok bye ily💕:]

OUGOGH TYSMM MY LOVEE !!! 🥺🥺🥺 thts so sweet of uuu ilusmm !! nd ya my exam was stressfull nd stuff but i think i did ok like. i fucked up the last question but other than tht FDHGDGDF bd ougoguh thank u so so much 4 beung here 4 me it rly means a lot 2 me :'> u j make me feel so so lovedn d cared 4 nd im j so so greatful to have you here 4 me whenever i need u !!! nd ofc i hopw u know tht im always always here 4 u to whenever u need me too my love !!! nd ough im soso glad tht u think im such a lovely friend my dearest bc i rly rly wanna be such a good friend to you my love i rly trully do !!! :] nd bc of ur sucha god friend to me too ur so so sweet and kind nd i love spending time w u nd talking to u nd im j so os glad nd happy bc ur in my lifee my lvoe so so happy :'> i love you so so much i love youu *hugs u back sm if u wish !!!* 💞💞💞💞

[psycho-mocha]

bestie i can't help but notice that you seem to be constantly stressed

hope this helps

HELWPAKSKSNFNAJCJANFJWJCJWJFJAJJFJENSJJFJE OMG PIKACHU MY BELVOED PIKACHU IS SO FLOOMF SO BABIE I LVOE FJWJDNSJFENS

also the live action was so good like I wasn't expecting it to be that good also FLUFFY PIKACHUUYYUUU ily thank you so much <3

I AM constantly stressed bestie it's a personality trait now <3 ily

[tinkonka]

hi um!! if it means anything I really love what you have to offer for the fandoms you’re in! I love your voice acting, your art, your writing; and I’m not saying that just bc you’re my friend! I genuinely get really happy when I see your original posts and I’m very lucky to have you! Ik it can be difficult to not compare yourselves to others but I honestly think you’re so talented and have an amazing personality. Ily <3 /p

BASILLLLL H*GYJhzbhu

oh my gosh thank you ahwhatn g<3 i lvoe u so much omg

[magicalcrwn]

update!

also hi, i’m alive! i have something to say so let me get this out, okay? maybe this’ll address my inactivity.

first off, i gotta put down this warnings so here we go

tw // mental health issues, depression, mentions of suicide

as you may know, i started this blog around this time and i believe this blog’s 2 year anniversary is coming up soon. i was super into kpop, specifically bangtan, but now i’m just… eh. i still listen to it, i’m not into it as much lately.

since posting “lost, then found” last year, my health just went COMPLETELY down. i was a junior when i posted that and my god, i wasn’t used to being online full time at school and THAT absolutely obliterated any will to live or keep going in me for like the majority of the school year. heck, the pandemic even made me do worse at school. i failed half of my classes and now i’m doing credit recovery classes this year as a senior so i can graduate :/

luckily, i was able to see a therapist around january-february which helped a lot. i believe hybrid learning started around february or march at that time too which also sort of helped even though it was, yknow, hybrid. i was able to somewhat get back onto my feet even though i lacked lots of motivation. HOWEVER i still didnt have the will to write or do anything i love throughout the year.

as i’m writing this, i’m currently in my last year of high school and as mentioned before, i’m trying my best to get my credits in on time to graduate. i had to stop seeing my therapist last month when school started due to scheduling BUT i’ve been doing well compared to last year. i’m back on campus full-time (with mask mandate, thank GOD) and i’m finally able to pull myself back to where i was or better than where i was before the pandemic.

i’m slowly getting back into writing, just step by step. right now, i’ve been starting off with roleplaying on discord and twitter and that’s been helping me get back on my feet. and i also opened an anime/video game blog called @crystillyzed ! rn there’s only one post and its a tears of themis hc post, i’m trying to finish my drafts in there like two of them are 80% done. OH SPEAKING OF ANIME/VIDEO GAMES

during the past year, i’ve started getting back into anime and playing more video games. i used to be super into them before being introduced to kpop. my brother introduced me to jujutsu kaisen a month or two after s1 ended and that got me back into anime. in fact! my current twitter rp account is a jjk oc!! i might bring my oc onto tumblr but i havent checked the community here. as of video games, i’ve been playing final fantasy xiv a lot with both of my brothers. and my bf, THATS RIGHT BF IM DATING A HIMBO AND I LVOE HE, introduced me to genshin impact!! i started playing genshin around the start of last month and i’m already in inazuma at ar 36. i’ll prob start writing for genshin on the other blog.

while i’m no longer into kpop as much anymore, i still love bts and txt even though at this point i’m just someone streaming their releases. yeah, i’m super behind on btxt content. i still wanna continue writing on this blog, but i may rebrand and just write whatever or whenever i feel like writing. this is still a hobby and one i enjoy a lot.

this is a super hefty update post but if you read all the way to the end, thank you for sticking around AND ALSO! I HIT 200 FOLLOWERS??? WHAT. THANK YOU OMG I WANTED TO DO A FOLLOWER EVENT BUT MAN CONSIDERING HOW DEAD I’VE BEEN ON HERE, I’LL HAVE TO SAVE IT FOR LATER.

ANYWAY this has been lucy!! ily all!!!! 💖💖

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omg haii!!!! ily!!! and your Logan looks great!! how are you doing today???

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Mmnmhgg,g,,, I lvoe you so so mucchh,,,ghg,,

I,,, I wasnt doing too good yesterday but am doing better toodayy!!! :DD!!! How are u doin :D? Anything cool happen?

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*attackas yoh so mhch* YOURE ONE OF MH BEST FRIENDSZZZZ!!!!! I lvoe hou so much i lova you you make me so happie.. you make me feel so safe and warm and that is very good :-) i love how creative you are and how much you know about things esp your interests . youre really funny too LSLWKkakdjchsOSMFMF i lovw joking around with you... i cant believe how close we've grown in the span of like. not even a year .. im soo thankful i met you even if it was over the gay stickmen show </3 /J /J WJAKAJWJSJ ILY!!!

[shamemp3]

POSITIVE 20 QUESTIONS TAG GAME

@demondeals thank you for tagging me this was SO MUCH FUN!! ily!!

1. Name 4 fictional characters who showcase your personality the best, with explanations if you want.

aah this is hard okay so first and foremost peter parker. he’s one of those characters that have always been relatable in almost every aspect of life since i was a kid, especially when it comes to how he deals with his feelings and like his emotions and humor and his problems in general?? and then also jake peralta also because of feelings and how he tries to avoid them and be all!! fun fck yea!! and humor and idk?? also i love amy santiago so... third i think is percy jackson bc no thoughts head empty and he is impulsive and also brave and i would like to think that i am brave?? and yeh im trying to make this as short as possible and only vaguely explain but. it’s not working ksdfjbv okay fourth character is stiles stilinski ig?? like sarcasm and humor again, and idk this is all repeating but it all comes back to how he deals w his feelings and guilt and problems and idk the reasons are mostly the same with all these characters and yea there’s more but i feel like i am talking too much so i will stop skjdbvjk

2. Aesthetic

milkshakes and fries, neon lights, blasting the car radio, doing literally anything as long as it’s with friends, city lights, train rides at night, playing video games till sunrise, campfire smell, denim and flannels, drive-in movies

3. Favorite musical/play? (If you’ve never seen a musical or play, one you’d be interested in seeing?)

uhh i’ve only listened to hamilton which had some really cool beats! ive also listened to a few songs from dear evan hansen, wicked, mean girls, and oh now that i think about it i’ve seen the shrek musical on netflix and 10/10 phenomenal in every way that’s my favorite one

4. What is the best compliment you’ve ever received?

i know i’ve gotten compliments but for some reason i cant remember any?? like the second i read this question my brain went whoosh. idk probably whenever people tell me im funny or notice that im keeping my cool in a situation that is very NOT cool?? idk i really cant think of any rn jdfsbksdjb but there have definitely been compliments that i have thought about for weeks bc i was like....omg? me? kinda sad that i dont remember them i really hope i do soon bc i wouldnt wanna forget smth like that sjkdbdvhsb

5. How many times have you been in love?

i don’t think i’ve ever been in love (at least romantically)? im not certain but im 90% sure i haven’t. but when it comes to friends and family, sososos many times i lvoe them all

6. Embarrassing story or fact about yourself that makes you laugh now?

uhhh i got pantsed in like grade 7 bc i was being dragged across the floor and then this 9th grader came up to me in the middle of the hallway and yelled “HEY I SAW YOUR ASS” i wanted to perish

7. Favorite Disney/Pixar movie?

ooh probably zootopia or wall-e!!

8. Favorite flower or plant?

this is hard! i love ferns and sunflowers and hydrangeas and ooh also vines 

9. What’s your favorite holiday?

i love new year’s eve! it’s just fun because we all just stay up and celebrate and there’s always this feeling of “oh i got through another year!” also 4th of july but not bc of the actual holiday just bc my old town used to have these 4th of july carnivals that were crazy fun and i used to go like almost every day when the carnival was in town

10. Name three things that made you laugh or smile this past week.

first one is my school posted a picture of me graduating on their facebook and my mom sent them the link to look at it and when they pressed on it they started replying to my mom thinking it was on whatsapp but they left like 7 comments on the school’s post in arabic so that was funny as fukckjdbf, second is atla bc i love that show and everyone is so precious, and number 3 is literally any conversation with any of my friends

11. What song would you play to introduce yourself to someone?

axel f by crazy frog. next question

12. Name something that truly makes you feel peaceful even at your most stressed moments.

probably watching one of my favorite movies (mr. popper’s penguins or itsv tbh) or like just going on any of my friend’s gcs and sending memes and stuff

13. What do you, did you, or would you study at college?

i plan on going into chemistry!! i might also minor in computer or environmental science, but i’m still undecided! crazy because up till a few months ago i had zero idea what i wanted to do and my plans kept changing like every week

14. This is kind of a weird one, but which outfit of yours makes you feel most like yourself?

probably my denim jacket or my really big red sweatshirt? idk tbh i really only buy clothes that i know i would feel myself in and that i would be comfortable, but i think those two are probably my favorites?

15. What is a quote you live by?

power of people is stronger than the people in power because i want to take down the evil government. this is the first one i thought of so it’s staying skjvbjksdb

16. Name the funniest playlist name you have.

i have ‘AAAAHHHHHHH’ and i have ‘mitten ski’ which is a playlist composed entirely of mitski songs

17. Make a reference to an inside joke you have with someone you love with zero context.

wanna touch knees?

18. What is a message you would give your younger self if given the chance?

please stand up for urself and talk ab ur feelings for the love of god it’s ok to admit to being not ok ?? also everything in the world is not ur fault, chill btich

19. Who is your favorite family member? (If you have no good blood family members, feel free to mention someone in your found family)

i can’t really do this bc i really do love all of them in a different way. i’m definitely closest to my mom because i’ve lived with her all my life, but i still can’t pick favorites

20. What’s a secret dream of yours?

to be an astronaut pls this isn’t a secret i just really want to be an astronaut or a superhero pls someone give me a radioactive eel bite or send me to space or something. also to be able to be more open w people and to visit aleppo again 

i’m tagging: @natasharxmanov @anthonydarling @parkersedith @jessjones @anxieteandbiscuits if you guys want to!!! ily all very much

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hi i just spammed u yes i did no i didn’t ❤️ but your art is so cute i love your style so much and ur coloring is just. CHEFS kiss ur svt x sanrio is SO GOODDDDDDD ily thank u for taking the time to draw it!

ANDKFSKAKA THANK YOU !!!! dont be afraid to spam omg i lvoe you pls !!!! thank you soso much again for loving my stuff this much 🥺🥺💖💖