#Sweethearts is really long mb 😭

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[malachitemischief101]

Hi um, I’m seeing mu celeb sp soon and he’s very very famlus and many people want him (he’s in a big group) and no matter how much I affirm and cancel my doubts and negative thoughts I cannot feel like he’s already mine, I feel very anxious and that I’m gonna fuck everything up,

What do you think?

(I saw your post about celeb sps and thought I would ask you❤️)

Hey darling, first off, congrats on going to see him! It sounds super exciting 💕 let's see.

Starting off, as I said previously, being famous is part of his job, nothing wrong with it, proud of him! Using my example: If I like this girl, let's say 'Ana' (Im not good w coming up w names mb 😭) and she's a doctor. Would I ask 'Can I manifest Ana? she's a doctor.' NO I WOULND'T. Because whichever impressive things she's done as a doctor (earning a big paycheck, having a PhD, Saving lives, fucking create a new medicine) IT'S JUST PART OF HER JOB, all it means, is that she's doing a good job at it.

"famlus and many people want him (he’s in a big group)" That's okay! remember, this is YOUR reality, not theirs, you control what happens, not them. You're the operant power, the one who chooses.

Actually an excercise (cr: hyler, I think?) Deep breaths

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Inhale

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Exhale

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You're the operant power of your reality, you control what happens, okay?<3

And remember, it's okay to feel anxious, but let me tell you something, intrusive thoughts, or doubts don't manifest!

Because they're not your DOMINANT thoughts. They're thoughts that come and pass, remember to do your best not to dwell on them though!! You don't neccesarily have to believe 'he's already mine¿, but rather affirm it.

-> Your mind tells you he's not yours? affirm that he is. -> A newspaper says gossip about him being interested in somone? yea thats you

-> you think he's not yours? yes he is! even if you don't believe it, say you do. And of course when something's going to happen soon I use affirmations as a safety net, so like, maybe you could do an affirming challenge of 1 week, or 3 days (depending on when you're going to see him.) Or maybe even the 10k challenge! (Also if you'd like to read my reminder about methods, read my other post: https://www.tumblr.com/malachitemischief101/754828769555087360/a-more-organized-less-angry-version-of-this-i) But remember:

-time does not determine when your desires arrive, you do.

-You're the operant power of your reality / god(ess) of your reality

-You're affirming to remind yourself!!

Sending much love! and try and do something to cope if you feel like you're really really anxious becaue remmeber, loa is supposed to be comfortable.!!!<3 apologies if this is too long sweetheart!! Success stories to motivate you (none mine!!!):

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read a few chapters of devil that i know and the stark contrast between pre- and post-death of taehyung is sooo heartbreaking to me. their lives were so fairytale-like and picture perfect at first, all of them were getting along very well (i’m even very fond of jungkook because he’s so kind for a demon!) but then jungkook starts to act on his obsession towards the mc and everything went to shit. their friend died because he has to get the ingredients for jungkook’s little ceremony (i forgot what it’s called mb) and unfortunately caught the deadly virus. then, jungkook deceives the mc over and over again, nevermind that he takes care of her (and more than that) but it just seems like all of it stems from his selfishness to keep her, not because he genuinely loves her?

also, i want to say that taehyung’s death made me cry and SOB. like i full on sobbed which is a huge deal because i’m numb as fuck lol. (spoiler alert: also cried bc lil meow meow died. poor cat didnt do anything wrong im so madd!! >:(() it hurt so bad when they found taehyung’s little notebook (?) where he wrote where they plan to travel and when and how to go there. aaaaaa it breaks my heart. it’s like i’m mourning for what could have been as well. but still, jungkook is such a sweetheart to mc but it breaks my heart that his constant deception of her will inevitably be detrimental to their relationship (i’m guessing) bc im kinda rooting for them even tho he’s a lil (a lot) crazy lol anyways this is long lol i’m thankful im found the fic as i was really immersed and reading it is an experience. thank u for writing it !! :3 <<333

(dtik spoilers below!)

i’m gonna cry 😭 i always get so happy when people read devil that i know because it’s literally my most favorite thing to write and where my whole blog started and when people say they’ve liked it so far i wanna sob because thank you for liking it as much as i do 😭

i think tae’s death is where everything starts to go downhill, especially because jungkook could have saved him but still chose not to because he was scared that he was going to take the m/c away from him when taehyung had given literally no indication of doing anything like that

i think it was sad, even writing it because it was like oh they’ve found their family, maybe not blood family but they have one another and now one of them is just gone, and again it could have been prevented

if you could see my chapter notes literally every time i plan jungkook’s magic shit i just write out jk demon time or something like that because i’ll be real i forget half the small details i add in that series and i always have to go back and check every time i start a new chapter

i think his selfishness is fueled by obsessive love. i don’t think the ‘love’ he feels for the m/c was anything he experienced with taehyung, hence not caring if he died even though they were good friends. i think jungkook loves the feeling of being in love so much that it’s moulded into more of his obsession surrounding the feeling and how good it makes him feel and that’s why he’s so sweet to her albeit a little (maybe a lot) bit of a morally grey character who doesn’t understand that what he’s feeling isn’t exactly a healthy amount of love of her and she’s too oblivious to notice sometimes though she’s slowly starting to catch on

her character is also a little morally grey and will continue to be in the future as she figures out jungkook’s character more, constantly turning a blind eye to all the stuff he does for her, and maybe that makes her as bad as he is, because she just wants to be loved too and if it’s from a demon who she slowly starts to realise can’t get enough of her, maybe she’s a little selfish too

EVERYONE MAKES ME FEEL GUILTY ABOUT KILLING HIM OFF but i refuse to regret it because it’s a big part of the plot line and it’s fine (spoiler) this a reincarnation fic so i’ll leave you with that much 😋

(spoiler for the last 2-3 chapters i think) lil meow meow is a king now so we don’t need to mourn, he’s actually living a better life than the m/c so king yoongi supremacy!

i think secretly i cant let go of taehyung’s character because the notebook scene was maybe a little bit of a spontaneous decision that i ran with and is now like a really big part of the plot line and will be very helpful to the m/c in the future

i was gonna be mean and write like scenes out of what it would have been like if he hadn’t died and they all got to travel together but uhh yeah i think killing him off was enough for that chapter 😭

jungkook and the m/c’s relationship is and will forever be my favorite to write, i literally have the end scenes planned out already, i knew how this series was going to end before i even started it and jungkook’s deception plays a smallish part in the bigger picture of their relationship and where they eventually end up, i hope that’s cryptic enough 😭 and i think it’s still impossible to guess the ending but that’s all i’m spoiling for that because we’re still quite a bit away from the end of the series and i have a lot planned before then

ahh thank you so much for reading! and im so happy you stumbled across the series, hopefully i’ll get an update out soon as well!!