#Sweet Savior

[canisalbus]

Just wanted to tell you that your recent art of Machete looking after Vasco while he's sick reminded me of Nights at the Villa by Gogol. Only a small fragment of it survived, probably because it's straight up author's diary about falling in love for the first time with a man who is already dying. It's such a beautiful little piece and your art really reminded me of it's vibes. Anyway, I'm mentally ill about russian literature and I love your dogs <3

The longing and lamenting quite something, poor guy.

It's not very long so I'm just going to put the whole thing under the cut ->

They were sweet and tormenting, those sleepless nights. He sat, ill, in the armchair. I was with him. Sleep dared not touch my eyes. Silently and involuntarily, it seems, it respected the sanctity of my vigil. Its was so sweet to sit near him, to look at him. For two nights already we have been saying "thou" to each other. How much closer he has become to me since then! He sat there just as before, meek, quiet, and resigned. Good God! With what joy, with what happiness I would have taken his illness upon myself! And if my death could restore him to health, with what readiness I would have rushed toward it!

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I did not stay with him last night. I had finally decided to stay home and sleep. Oh, how base, how vile that night and my despicable sleep were! I slept poorly, even though I had been without sleep for almost a week. I was tormented by the thought of him. I kept imagining him, imploring and reproachful. I saw him with the eyes of my soul. I hastened to come early to him and felt like a criminal as I went. From his bed he saw me. He smiled with his usual angel's smile. He offered his hand. He pressed mine lovingly.

"Traitor." he said, "You betrayed me." "My angel," I said, "Forgive me. I myself suffered with your suffering. I was in torment all night. My rest brought me no repose. Forgive me!" My meek one! He pressed my hand. How fully rewarded I was for the suffering that the stupidly spent night had brought me!

"My head is weary," he said. I began to fan him with a laurel branch. "Ah, how fresh and good," he said. His words were then… what were they? What would I have not given, what earthly goods, those despicable, those vile, those disgusting goods… no, they are not worth mentioning. You into whose hands will fall -if they will fall- those incoherent, fleebe lines, pallid expressions of my emotions, you will understand me. Otherwise they will not fall into your hands. You will understand how repulsive the entire heap of treasures and honors is that attracts those wooden dolls which are called people. Oh, with what joy, with what anger I could have trampled underfoot and squashed everything that is bestowed by the mighty scepter of the Tsar of the North, if I only knew that this would buy a smile that indicated the slightest relief in his face.

"Why did you prepare such a bad month of May for me?" He said to me, awakening in his armchair and hearing the wind beyond the window-panes that wafted the aroma of the blossoming wild jasmine and white acacia, which mingled with the whirling rose petals.

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At ten o'clock I went down to see him. I had left him there hours before to get some rest, to prepare [something] to him, to afford him some variety, so my arrival would give him more pleasure. I went down to him at ten o'clock. He had been alone for more than one hour. His visitors had long since left. The dejection of boredom showed on his face. He saw me. Waved his hand slightly.

"My savior." He said to me. They still sound in my ears, those words. "My angel! Did you miss me?" "Oh, how I missed you." He replied. I kissed him on the shoulder. He offered his cheek. We kissed; he was still pressing my hand.

He did not like going to bed and hardly ever did. He preferred his armchair and the sitting position. That night the doctor ordered him to rest. He stood up reluctantly and, leaning on my shoulder, moved to his bed. My darling! He weary glance, his brightly colored jacket, his slow steps- I can see it all, it is all before my eyes. He whispered in my ear, leaning on my shoulder and glancing at the bed: "Now I'm a ruined man."

"We will remain in bed for only half an hour," I said to him, "and then we'll go back to your armchair".

I watched you, my precious, tender flower! All the time when you were sleeping or merely dozing in you bed or armchair, I followed your movements and your moments, bound to you by some incomprehensible force.

How strangely new my life was then and, at the same time, I discerned in it a repetition of something distant, something that once actually was. But it seems hard to give an idea of it: there returned to me a fresh, fleeting fragment of my youth, that time when a youthful soul seeks fraternal friendship with those of one's age, a decidedly juvenile friendship, full of sweet, almost infantile trifles and mutual show of tokens of tender attachment; the time when it is sweet to gaze into each other's eyes, when your entire being is ready to offer sacrifices, which are usually not even necessary. And all those feelings, sweet, youthful, fresh - alas! Inhabitants of a vanishing world - all these feelings returned to me. Good Lord! What for? I watched you, my precious, tender flower. Did this fresh breath of youth waft upon me only so that I might suddenly and irrevocably sink into even greater and more deadening coldness of feelings, so that I might become all at once older by a decade, so that I might see my vanishing life with even greater despair and hopelessness? Thus does a dying fire send its flames up into the air, so that it might illuminate with its flickering the somber walls and then disappear forever.

[brazilian-whalien52]

Nami and her harem is my everything and I love how all the relationship she delivers are so different between each other

[gralixe]

All objects of worship in one place

[lemon-wedges]

Actually I'll just post my baroryuu sketch because finishing anything rn is up in the air

[vevesyapsesh]

Thinking about arcane Isha rn. Thats it thats the post.

[yuripoll]

S3 ROUND 2

NOTES: Aoi Hana contains some nudity and sexual scenes, as well as depictions of cousin incest, adult/minor relationships, and homophobia. Savior contains violence, bloody imagery, self harm and toxic relationships, as well as touching on other sensitive subject matter such as religious bigotry, misogyny, child abuse, and kidnapping.

[linkvcr]

What are your thoughts on GrooseZeLink 👁️👁️

Ough my god I love them so bad I think they're rlly sweet all together. And also rlly funny tbh

[wiltedcorazonrp]

Some pinup Cora. I planned to upload them here once I have 3 outfits but I guess I could never finish any plan

Drew them because of @fruitybnuuy on Twitter, the horni energy is contagious indeed

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Savior’s Rise

book 2 in a queer high fantasy duology

after finding out the truth about the oracle stone and the gods, two mages go back to the village one was exiled from, and must find a way to save them from the gods ruling their village and face their pasts

mages, gods, curses, powerful magical objects

m/nb, aro

[anime-of-the-day]

Anime of the Day: Random New Summer 2023 Anime I Plan to Watch

My Happy Marriage

The Dreaming Boy is a Realist

My Tiny Senpai

The Masterful Cat Is Depressed Again Today

Sweet Reincarnation

Delicious in Dungeon

Maboroshi

The Boy and the Heron

Kaina of the Great Snow Sea: Star Sage

​���Zom 100: Bucket List of the Dead

Jidou Hanbaiki ni Umarekawatta Ore wa Meikyuu wo Samayou

The Most Heretical Last Boss Queen: From Villainess to Savior

[skrunksthatwunk]

misguided angel / angel mine for your kuwameshi consideration

[jay-arts-t]

HOZIER NEVER MISSES

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

I was really looking forward to the continuation of the Wille Sweater storyline, as well as the third installment of the Fish Trilogy. :(

[pebble-person]

Today's Good News: Hello Kitty Dream Village has finally added Kerropi.

[webtoon-brackets]

[ophelia-thinks]

received a great job offer from a friend of my old boss, who told me to my face when i quit that he was worried i would kill myself if i didn't have a job to focus on. me and the stable employment i pulled by being a complete fucking headcase.