#Spotatalk

[spotaus]

Hi. I love those ideas for fics where Nightmare somehow gets reverted to his original shape (be that Becoming Child him, Goop Shenanigans, or Shapeshifting) and the rest of his men have to figure out how to deal with that.

Like, your big scary boss man is 4 ft tall and very much could be squashed? He's trying to be mean and scary but he's just too Baby to really listen to? Is he gonna be pissed when he gets to normal? Will he get back to normal? Does someone play along or does everyone go rogue? Like... dang :)

[spotlightstudios]

Shout-out to the Kane Chronicles for having such a funny intro.

*The book is transcribed from Audio Recordings, and it establishes that shuffling, hitting, and cursing in the background have not been transcribed. These kids are having the Cain instinct mid-recording 🫶

[spotaus]

I wasn't tagged but I'm hopping in anyways because

FISH QUIZZZZ!!! FISH QUIZZZ!!!! TAKE IT!!!

quiz made: june 2024

[spotaus]

I am begging on my knees that Tumblr posts this. It has no audio but I cannot send it from my computer to phone and I want it archived lmao-

[spotaus]

Sometimes I think I'm not in that deep, and then I remember this is a set of jewelry I have worn regularly for *years*. (The bracelet does say 'stay determined' btw-)

[spotaus]

Me frfr ^

I've been reading a fic today as a treat for finally being on vacation, and when I say I've just been entranced I mean it. (Also. The fic in question is @ancientschampionau 's well, Ancients & Champions fic lol! It's captivated me >:])

[spotaus]

Not directly utmv related, but I'll rb here!

Tagging anyone who sees this! :D

tag game! you and your child self!

picsart link is here!

my hair style and color isn’t really on here but it’s fine. wanted to try out something lol. no pressure yall!

@watatsumiis @ruanmeism @reii-naa @tired-of-life-86 @theblades @the-white-void @uplatterme @irene-darling @pastelclovds @ainslairo @house-of-daena @h0ney-mochi @junerixi @kazuuhhaaaa @kokonoihell @livelaughlovesubs @lumiconic @vrncaes

[spotaus]

Alright guys. I'm locking in. This banner needs to get done TODAY.

[spotaus]

Heyo!!! So, I officially passed 200 followers a bit ago, and idk how many of you are artists so I wanted to put out a poll to see what I should do to celebrate! (If anything at all-)

Idk if I actually will do anything, kinda relies on feedback lmao? Worst case Y'all just get a silly doodle and I move on w/ life 😅

[spotaus]

I am going to take a quick break and then draw some more Requests that have been sitting in my inbox for a while 🫡

[spotaus]

I need to work on the composition but this has potential to fuck severely.

[spotaus]

I have. An idea.

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I will never forgive Underverse Fresh for adding "p" to my vocabulary. (Ex. "I'm p sure I did do that project") because it has yet to leave me after 5-ish years 🙏

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I keep telling people I'm a digital artist but I just realize 90% of the people I know have never seen my art because all my hobby stuff is Fandom. And that Fandom continues to be utmv 😔

[spotaus]

I think that I need to write a proper dadmare drabble. Just. Idk when. Sometime.

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.